#love the american healthcare system soooooo much

[disastergay]

sometimes I forget that my family will be forced to pay like, $55,467 out of pocket in order to fix a problem with my jaw that, if left unchecked, will permanently ruin my teeth

and this is because our insurance company decided said surgery is not essential to my survival

[annethecaptain]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

tagged by @fondlybuck (thank you no one ever tags me!)

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yes and No.  It’s complicated because they’re separated, but I got sick and had to move back in with my dad, and them my mom showed up after being mostly gone for 14 years to “help out” and it’s just, not great.  I’m greatful for the help but OMG I need to get independent ASAP for my own mental health.


02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? My cat.


03: Do you regret anything? Soooooo much.  I wish I could be one of those “no regrets” people but having an anxiety disorder and a toxic family and a long term illness/disability means I can’t be one of those people.


04: Are you insecure? About some things yes, about others no, and then there are the things that depend on the day.


05: What is your relationship status? SINGLE.  I’m asexual and aromantic so that’s my preferred situation.


06: How do you want to die? Assisted suicide.  Whether I’m 35 or 85 I want to go out on my own terms, unless I just go painlessly and unaware in my sleep.


07: What did you last eat? Banh Mi and Milk Tea


08: Played any sports? hahahaha no


09: Do you bite your nails? not any more thanks to my high school best friend (thanks Amy!).  I had her whack me every time I went to bite them and stopped pretty quick because of that lol


10: When was your last physical fight? I was maybe 16?  But some stuff happened when my sister was an active substance abuser later so I guess I defended myself up until like 20-21?


11: Do you like someone? nope


12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? yep


13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? yesssssss


14: Do you miss someone? too many people and so much


15: Have any pets? two cats who are my saviors


16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? complex, worried, driven, anxious, pessimistic, hopeful, sad


17: Ever made out in the bathroom? nope


18: Are you scared of spiders? depends on the spider but yes mostly


19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? yes


20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? I tried making out with a dude once when I was 17 (it was boring and I am deffo ace) and it was at a cafe in SF afterhours since he closed up for the night.  pretty sure some tourists saw us haha


21: What are your plans for this weekend? chill


22: Do you want to have kids? How many? no way


23: Do you have piercings? How many? nope


24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? history and anthropology, which I ended up double majoring in for undergrad


25: Do you miss anyone from your past? so many people


26: What are you craving right now? health and financial stability and independence and purpose


27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? I don’t think so?


28: Have you ever been cheated on? nope because I’ve never dated


29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? nope as I’ve never had one


30: What’s irritating you right now? my body and the american healthcare system and capitalism


31: Does somebody love you? I don’t think so?


32: What is your favourite color? GREEN


33: Do you have trust issues? yes


34: Who/what was your last dream about? my dad ate all the cream cheese chive and green onion schmear my mom and I had just made (two whole tubs!) and I got really mad and yelled at him.  We laughed about it this morning


35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? my dad and accidentally my mom because she came home when I was crying, and she made me stop immediately


36: Do you give out second chances too easily? no


37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? neither


38: Is this year the best year of your life? no


39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 17


40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? I’m sure as a kid but not as an adult


51: Favourite food? don’t have one


52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? no


53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? put topical pain stuff on my neck and shoulders as per usual


54: Is cheating ever okay? depends what you define as cheating.  usually no but for example my parents have been separated for decades but are still legally married and both have had relationships since


55: Are you mean? apparently no but I think I need to be more assertive dealing with the health stuff and my mom


56: How many people have you fist fought? two


57: Do you believe in true love? no


58: Favourite weather? stormy


59: Do you like the snow? love it


60: Do you wanna get married? no


61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? no one calls me baby so IDK


62: What makes you happy? health, my cat, stability, knowledge


63: Would you change your name? I hate it so yes


64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? I don’t know where he is or what he’s up to as it’s been over a decade but I wouldn’t really care


65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? tell them I’m flattered but ace/aro


66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? I don’t have any friends at the moment


67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my dad and before that the guy I got Banh Mi from.  I don’t talk to a lot of people right now regardless of gender


68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my therapist?


69: Do you believe in soulmates? no


70: Is there anyone you would die for? not a human, no

Tagging anyone who wants to do whichever questions they want.

OP was @livixdunne but it’s a dead link and I couldn’t copy-paste in the ask reply so giving credit here.