#love letters from : chuudollzai

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can you really blame doll for thinking her feelings were unrequited though have you seen chuuya and dazai

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𝐃𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐙𝐀𝐈 / 𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐔𝐃𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐙𝐀𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓

DOLL LORE/ABILITY + A&D EXPLANATION

PM + A&D BETRAYAL ARC EXPLANATION

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actually ykw i am making a shojo au for chuudollzai

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🫶: Who ended up falling first? Which of them actually realized that they’d fallen in love first?

🦀: How did they handle realizing they were in love? Embarrassed? Nervous? Mad?

🫣: Who stumbled the most with their feelings around the other? How much did the other person notice?

CHUUDOLLZAI

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🫶: Who ended up falling first? Which of them actually realized that they’d fallen in love first?

DAZAI ended up falling first (we’ve all seen the 15 arc) , but DOLL was the first one to realize she actually fell in love while CHUUYA was second. 

🦀: How did they handle realizing they were in love? Embarrassed? Nervous? Mad?

DOLL did not handle it with grace at all, she completely freaked out, laying down with eyes wide staring at the ceiling kind of moment. They were all still teenagers when they figured out they liked each other so yk, not really great at processing emotions. He was completely in denial, trying to come up with any other possible explanation about what her feelings were. She was embarrassed, nervous, AND mad. Completely convinced it was unrequited so she tried her very very hardest to distance herself from the two, but they were like magnets so it didn’t work 😭

CHUUYA was probably the only person out of three who handled his feelings more rationally, but still we’re talking about when Chuuya was a teenager so. He was definitely mad and annoyed, very nervous too. He was quick to get irritated at Dazai and Doll more often, and tried to distance himself from Doll because she isn’t in the PM, meaning it must be more easy to avoid him right? WRONG. He just gave up on distancing himself the second he realized Doll was trying to as well. He couldn’t stay mad at them for long

DAZAI being the last of them to realize his feelings doesn’t mean that he hasn’t had those feelings before he realized what they were. The way he handled coping with that feeling was just initially just to piss both Chuuya and Doll off, poke at them, bully them and cling onto them. When he ACTUALLY realized he was in love? Yeah amp those actions up to a 10 please, emphasis on the clingy. He was ALL up in their personal space always, but he was embarrassed and nervous internally. Upset and annoyed at his feelings, he was definitely in denial.

🫣: Who stumbled the most with their feelings around the other? How much did the other person notice?

DOLL. is what I would’ve said if DAZAI wasn’t an idiot 😋 A lot of people seem to think Dazai would have a lot of control when it comes to his feelings and relationships, but really he becomes a loserboy when it comes to genuine relationships. Dazai definitely stumbled with his feelings the most around Chuuya and Doll, which they both noticed that he was acting weird but they just figured he was in a weird mood whenever it happened. DOLL though is definitely close second, she tried her hardest to make her stumbling not obvious but it was clear to anyone who watched the three of them. 

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dazai who proudly proclaims him and doll are dating to chuuya to rub it in his face but doll doesn’t even know dazai likes him and chuuya isn’t convinced so chuuya spends more time with doll to see if dazai is being for real but dazai doesn’t like being left out so he crashes every hangout ever

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What would their lives be like if they had never met?

What was their "flirting stage" like?

Who gets jealous easier?

Do they hide anything from each other, big or small?

Who hogs the blankets or takes up more than their fair share of the bed? Who puts their cold feet on the other? Who are the big and little spoons?

Who would drive, and who would give directions?

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What would their lives be like if they had never met?

oh my god this is hard to imagine. especially for chuuya and dazai. I think DAZAI’s personality wouldn’t be the same, I think he’d be a lot more serious and a lot more PM like if he hadn’t met Chuuya and Doll. CHUUYA would still have a similar personality but he would definitely stick with the Sheep. DOLL would still be the next Father of the organization, but I’d imagine she’d be a lot more closed off

What was their "flirting stage" like?

jesus. can you just like picture three teenagers bullying each other but they can’t stop hanging out with each other and clinging onto the other. yeah that’s them. DAZAI’s flirting stage never stopped though, he’s just less. intense than he was when he was in the PM 😭 and by less intense i mean he stopped like. borderline stalking CHUUYA and DOLL and getting all pouty when they didn’t give him attention 😰 

Who gets jealous easier?

It’s DAZAI. Dazai gets jealous easier but he doesn’t like to admit it or show it, he just gets more pouty and clingy 😭 you can’t tell me he wasn’t especially freaky toxic during PM times

Do they hide anything from each other, big or small?

Not really, it’s more so they can’t. They’re all on the same level with each other and they all have a good understanding of each other. But even if someone, (most likely DAZAI), were to hide something, they wouldn’t press on the other person to tell. They know they’ll tell when they’re ready to

Who hogs the blankets or takes up more than their fair share of the bed? Who puts their cold feet on the other? Who are the big and little spoons?

DAZAI and his tall ass hogs the bed AND blanket 😒 he also has cold feet along with DOLL since they both run cold so CHUUYA complains whenever they all cuddle 😋 Dazai is usually little spoon while Chuuya and Doll are like. on both sides of him to cuddle 

Who would drive, and who would give directions?

CHUUYA would drive, DOLL would give directions, DAZAI is in charge of the aux but it’s chaos because doll isn’t great with navigating and dazai’s music is 😰

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VAMPIRE AU + Royalty AU

WITH CHUUDOLLZAI

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VAMPIRE AU for CHUUDOLLZAI like I’ve said before is most likely BEAST CHUUDOLLZAI but. Vampires. But methinks we can have a different vampire AU too 😋 In this specific AU I think DOLL would be the vampire while DAZAI and CHUUYA are like paranormal investigators for funsies… Like Dazai just messes around with paranormal stuff and Chuuya tags along begrudgingly till they cross Doll who almost lunges at them because he’s been hunting for food. Meet cute of the century ikr 🥰 Dazai likes trying to get bitten on purpose because he’s a freak and Doll gets weirded out by it

ROYALTY AU for CHUUDOLLZAI 🤩 I have so many thoughts as to how this would go and like who would be what role… I think DOLL definitely would be the heir to some royal family (mostly likely the previous Father) and next to the throne while CHUUYA and DAZAI are from an allied nation. Maybe Chuuya would be considered a knight while Dazai is the prince. Doll probably witnessed Chuuya fighting or competing in a game that nations host where they send their best knights/fighters in while Dazai was sitting beside her and got intrigued 

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i think chuudollzai in BEAST AU is like. peak toxic doomed yaoi.

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i think it’s really funny whenever i think about if my s/i was canon in bsd specifically for dollzai/chuudollzai i know there would be ppl who wld be like "THAT’S A HORRIBLE SHIP THEY ARE LITERALLY SO TOXIC FOR EACH OTHER !1!!1!!1!!"

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🤫 – did you ever keep your relationship secret from anyone?

😵‍💫 – something you do that drives them crazy (in a good way)

😍 – something they do that drives you crazy (in a good way)

🐠 – aquarium dates or museum dates?

CHUUDOLLZAI ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

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🤫 – did you ever keep your relationship secret from anyone? 

“Ooh, a secret relationship? Now that’s something out of a drama.” DAZAI chuckles, shooting the other unamused two a silly look. “But you’re wrong, I would die if I dated Chuuya.”

“What? But you already wanna die?” DOLL turns to Dazai, her arms already crossed over her chest as she leaned back on the couch. CHUUYA lets out a scoff and delivers a sharp glare.

“He’d die because I’d be the one killing him. Not that I don’t already plan on doing that anyways. I’d wanna die if I dated you too you bastard.” He snaps back, leaving Doll with her eyes rolled. 

“Okay so what I’m hearing is that you guys are already dating.” She laughs, only receiving a offended reaction from the two but they all knew better. “Yeah you’re grossed out right now but you guys always eye each other during fights, you’re not slick.”

“Dolly dear are you jealous? You know I always have eyes on you whenever you’re around.” Dazai pouts, leaning closer to her.

“As if, don’t get me involved in your shit. The both of you. Keep me out of it, I don’t want any part in that. That’s your lover’s quarrel, not mine.” She dismissed, but the brunette is already clinging onto her with his arm wrapped around her bicep. 

“Do not insult my taste like that.” Chuuya retorts, shaking his head. 

“Yeah I’d rather date her over you any day.” Dazai sighs.

“As if she’d wanna date you!” 

“Can you two stop yelling in my ear, I’m right here.”

😵‍💫 – something you do that drives them crazy (in a good way) 

“I like it when he acts all tough and serious because the second I show up, she gets embarrassed. Sure she wears a mask most of the time but I know him.” DAZAI snickers, poking at DOLL’s cheek. Doll lets out a loud ‘hey!’ before turning his head away from him, her cheeks quick to turn red. 

“Who wouldn’t be fucking embarrassed when you’re around? God, you greet me like you’re some sort of middle schooler seeing his crush.” Doll muttered, but didn’t push Dazai away.

“I agree with the first part. I like it when you’re confident and stand your ground.” CHUUYA says more casually, like it was the easiest thing to answer. Doll purses her lips in silence, unsure of how to respond.

“He’s embarrassed right now.” Dazai whispers, looking at Chuuya.

“Oh my god, shut up this is embarrassing.”

😍 – something they do that drives you crazy (in a good way)

DOLL blinks at the question, seeming at a loss for words. There were a lot of things that drove her crazy. A lot.

“Oh wow, that many things huh? You have to think about it.” DAZAI teases lightly, batting his eyelashes at her.

“I have to think for you because there’s not really many.” Doll retorts.

“Oh but there’s a lot for me?” CHUUYA asks, he gives her a small grin.

Doll snorts, “Talk like that and they’ll disappear from my head.” But she continues to think, what could she say that wouldn’t be weird or make things awkward. “I guess Dazai when gets all deep into thought. It shows he’s actually using his brain.”

“Most are attracted to my intelligence, I can’t blame you.” The brunette winks at her, which goes ignored.

“I think it’s nice seeing you fight.” Doll turns to Chuuya, answering like it’s a given. “You zone into it and that’s something I admire.”

Chuuya gives her a look of slight surprise, “Yeah?”

Dazai lets out a grunt of overdramatic disgust, “Stop giving eyes to each other, it’s gross.” 

“You are literally all over him all the time, you’re gross.” Chuuya says, jabbing a finger at his forehead.

“Says the two guys who eye each other all the time.”

🐠 – aquarium dates or museum dates?

“Aquarium date.” DOLL answers with a grin, his feet start to swing and forth. The other two let out a small laugh at how fast her response was. 

“I don’t have a preference.” DAZAI shrugs. “But probably aquarium, it’s the opposite of what Chuuya says.”

“How the hell did you know I was going to say museum?” CHUUYA raises a brow, squinting at Dazai. 

“You’re so predictable, of course you’d be into that stuff.” 

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t4t4t chuudollzai can i get a round of applause

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🧼 "Do you prefer to take a shower during the morning or evening? Do you like taking baths? What's your favorite scent of shower gel?"

❌ "Would you do something that someone told you not to do? Why? Is there someone you'd actually listen to more than everyone else?"

🏳️ "What will make you give up?"

📖 "What kinds of books do you read? Do you have a lot of time to read?"

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🧼 "Do you prefer to take a shower during the morning or evening? Do you like taking baths? What's your favorite scent of shower gel?"

DOLLZAI : "I’m a morning shower person, but I hate it. I don’t have time for night showers. But baths are okay, I don’t usually take a bath unless I feel like I need the down time. Baths would usually be a night thing. I like the smell of a strawberry scent, but subtle."

CHUUDOLL : "I like night showers a lot more, so I shower at night a lot. Baths are one of my favorite things ever.. I like smelling sweet so probably strawberry or some kind of berry?"

❌ "Would you do something that someone told you not to do? Why? Is there someone you'd actually listen to more than everyone else?"

DOLLZAI : "Yeah. Used to do it a lot. I like doing things my own way, it’s nothing personal against the guy who suggested the idea. I think I’d listen to Dazai I guess, more than anyone else. Dazai or my second in command."

CHUUDOLL : "Mm I guess it depends how I feel? I usually do what I’m told most of the time. I’d listen to Chuuya more than anyone though.."

🏳️ "What will make you give up?"

DOLLZAI : "Age old question, I don’t even know myself."

CHUUDOLL : "Um I think I already have at this point.." (She means it as a joke but does she really)

📖 "What kinds of books do you read? Do you have a lot of time to read?"

DOLLZAI : "I like reading the classics, but I barely have time to read books."

CHUUDOLL : "I like fantasy a lot… I do have some time to read when I’m finally by myself, I’m a pretty quick reader though. I think Father might be running out of books to give me…"

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All of them for bsd!doll (chuudollzai for one’s talking about f/os)

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rose ✦ is your s/i more like yourself, or are they more of an oc you project on?

tbhsies kind of both, DOLL has a lot of my habits and embodies a lot of myself but just like. differently

sunflower ✦ what is your s/i's name? did you have any reasoning for chosing that particular name?

IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT CHANGING DOLL’S NAME, she has the same name as me because. shes my s/i 😋 but idk what other name i wld change fit her

hydrangea ✦ what species is your s/i?

shes human 😋 or is she? no one really knows

lavender ✦ what does your s/i look like? (images or written description work!)

DOLL stands 5ft with a lean but toned build, though the boots she wears gives her some extra height. She wears a mask that covers her face and is rarely seen without it, only few people know what her face looks like. There is a design of angel wings covering where her eyes would be on the mask, two pairs of closed eyes beneath it. Her hair is white and black with a streak of red, usually kept up in a elaborate style. Adorning her hands are gloves with white lace, the rest of her outfit is a combination of white and a muted brown with accents of gold and black. She usually wears a black coat on her shoulders kept with a thin gold chain

tulip ✦ how does your s/i dress? do they have a specific aesthetic when it comes to their outfits? (feel free to show examples!)

DOLL dresses very formal, like something straight out of fancy ball formal 😋  but she does dress casually like with baggy clothes whenever hes at home

peony ✦ does your s/i have any powers or special abilities?

DOLL already has her ability, but i could expand more on what demonic powers necessarily means ?? It allows Doll to regenerate quick, morph and distort her body with black tendrils, super strength and speed, and probably more but im so eeby rn

daisy ✦ can your s/i fight? do they know how to use any weapons, or know any martial arts?

absolutely, DOLL is notably the strongest member in her organization. she’s skilled with multiple weapons as it was a part of training, fighting was just another thing she was raised to do

orchid ✦ what is your s/i's personality? is it the same as your own?

shes definitely somewhat more put together and very strong minded, its like if you took my personality and amplified some parts of it

lily ✦ do you try to fit your s/i into canon, or do you just do whatever you'd like with them?

KIND OF ??? i try to fit him into canon but i dont stress too much about it

poppy ✦ do you have lore surrounding your s/i, or is your s/i more or less just there to project on with your f/o(s)?

YES i have a lot of lore for him 😋😋😋

azalea ✦ does your s/i's identity (gender, sexuality, etc.) differ from yours in any way?

nope not really 😋

daffodil ✦ does your s/i have any sort of animal companion(s)? why those animals specifically, if there are any?

rabbits 😋 a lot of rabbits seem to come to him

iris ✦ do you associate any animals with your s/i? which one(s), and why?

RABBITS BC IM A RABBIT AND IT FOLLOWS ALL OF MY S/Is

hyacinth ✦ how did your s/i meet your f/o(s)?

dazai and DOLL used to be childhood besties but they both didnt know it, they met when ANGEL & DEVIL became allies with the PM and then chuuya became a part of the PM

chrysanthemum ✦ free question! tell us anything you'd like to say about your s/i!

DOLL rarely uses her ability anymore unless it’s really necessary. Her ability doesn’t have a time limit, whenever it turns off is unpredictable and depends on if Doll can get a grip on herself properly

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doll walking into the room with her lipstick smudged with chuuya trailing behind her covered in lipstick kiss marks, saying “you should see the other guy” and its dazai giggling while he also has lipstick marks all over his face

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🎵 List three songs that remind you of your selfship.

🧾 What’s your favorite headcanon someone else has made about your F/O?

🎡 What’s your dream date to go on with your F/O?

for chuudollzai 😋

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🎵 List three songs that remind you of your selfship.

LORD THIS ONE HAD ME STUMPED

Dreamer — Laufey

Tongues & Teeth — The Crane Wives

Lovesick — Laufey

🧾 What’s your favorite headcanon someone else has made about your F/O?

I REALLY REALLY LOVE THE HEADCANON WHERE DAZAI HAS MOLES AND CHUUYA HAS FRECKLES 😋 I think it’s so so cute

🎡 What’s your dream date to go on with your F/O?

Dream date for DOLL to go on with CHUUYA and DAZAI would probably have to be a sleepover in a stargazing room. She likes the comfort of seeing the stars with her favorite people but also not have to deal with being outside in the cold

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When in canon does your s/i come in? Do you have a scene in mind for their entrance?

Would your s/i be considered a main character, side character, villain, or something else?

How does your s/i play a role in the plot of the story? Do they help directly defeat the villain, support the heroes, etc?

Who are your s/i's closest friends?

Would any other characters (besides your f/o) have a crush on your s/i?

for bsd!doll / chuudollzai

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When in canon does your s/i come in? Do you have a scene in mind for their entrance?

Technically, he would appear during the 15 arc but idk if that counts cause the 15 arc was put into the story later? If we’re talking like when DOLL gets involved when Atsushi joins, him and A&D make a very VAGUE appearance during the PM + ADA conflict arc at the beginning of the season. 

Her appearance wouldn’t really have much of him in it, maybe a close up of her mask while he’s sitting in her office as one of her assistants tells him there’s a call coming from the ADA asking for information. She would make more of an appearance during the fight against the Guild with Fitzgerald waltzing into her office demanding information with money. 

That would mainly result in him getting kicked out because she just did not like his attitude 😋 Then he drags A&D into the whole mess too which is when she would get involved like fully into the current story

Would your s/i be considered a main character, side character, villain, or something else?

DOLL would be considered a side character I think, she wouldn’t be a part of the main cast aka the ADA because A&D tend to stay mysterious most of the time. You would hear his name pop up a lot but similar to Chuuya, only ever pop up occasionally 

How does your s/i play a role in the plot of the story? Do they help directly defeat the villain, support the heroes, etc?

The thing with BSD is that it isn’t super black and white when it comes to like villains and heroes. A&D are like the middle ground when it comes to PM and ADA conflict, but generally when it comes to outside organizations messing with the city, they all tend to group together so I think DOLL would be supporting the protagonists for the most part? It’s like ‘we as organizations in the city are free to beef with each other because we know we have a common goal in the end, but if common goal gets a threat, we gang up on said threat’ yk

Who are your s/i's closest friends?

DOLL’s closest friends would be her work partner, Chuuya, and Dazai. Also probably the executives who survived the betrayal arc. They’ve been through too much together to become strangers now 😰 

Would any other characters (besides your f/o) have a crush on your s/i?

UMMM. I really had to think about this. I don’t think anyone would have a crush on DOLL really. Interested in his character and organization? Definitely, the DOA had been trying to ally with A&D. But crush? Erm no 👎 Maybe like. He has people who admire her a lot