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I am proud of JK for what he said on instagram in support of his juniors and artists in general. It also goes to show that he doesnât cower. This is not a person who lets anyone force him into anything. But I also want to address all of the people who are blabbering about the fact that he hasnât stood up for Yoongi but can do that.
I have no doubt that there has been much support for Yoongi in private from all of the members. I also have no doubt that they would be honest with him about how they perceive the situation whether that includes concern over his behavior, advice or whatever. With the closeness they have that would be expected. However, there is nothing that any of the other six of them couldâve said publicly that would not have been picked apart or misinterpreted as excusing his behavior or inappropriate in some other way by some of this crazy fandom and by the media .
I mean, letâs face it even if they just said âWe love you Yoongiâ people would be coming out of the woodwork to say⌠âHe is supposed to set a good example as an idol and all they can say is that they love him instead of letting him know that he should do better.â They would be called privileged.. They would be attacked for not chastising him or apologizing for him.
There is no way that he would want or expect any of them to say anything publicly about his situation. For his sake and their own. With everything else that is going on, enough is being said all over the place without inadvertently feeding the BTS hatred frenzy.
I think people need to get a grip and understand that we donât see 90% of the actual relationships they have with each other. But what I do know and Iâm not really sure why others donât at this point, is that they have gotten this far by knowing exactly how to support each other. They have gotten this far by choosing each other over and over again. They have gotten this far by growing and learning from mistakes with each other. They have also gotten this far by being intelligent, and the intelligent choice in this matter would be to stay silent publicly.
So how about we quit looking for a reason to attack them at all?
JK is standing up for people who need to be stood up for and he knows what heâs doing and he knows why. He was very young when he started. This has to be very important to him and carefully considered for him to go out of his way at this time to say something publicly. And I can tell you for free that this is something his friend Yoongi understands him doing.
I guess maybe I just am always looking at the reasons they amaze me as humans. They let us see their mistakes and their flaws and struggles alongside their incredible talent..Itâs a lovely thing. I donât really understand why people want to tear them down so badly. How can you call yourself ARMY and do that?
If you are so unhappy in this fandom and it no longer brings you joy perhaps itâs time to move on. I personally am staying right with them.. As they are. đđ
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New ARMY and completely obsessed
The loss of sleep so I can just read one more thing is only outweighed by my regret that I didn't pay attention to BTS sooner. Thank you social media algorithms for introducing me! I love them so much and I am way too old to say that without feeling a little awkward. I am grateful that my hyperfixation has settled enough for me to return to a normal sleeping pattern. I am continuing to spend all my free time exploring the incredible amount of content out there and am grateful for all the information I have found here on Tumblr. (yes, I joined Tumbler to feed my BTS obsession) So thank you to everyone I have liked and reblogged!
I am OT7 ARMY first. I love them all (even if I am a little extra obsessed with Jimin and Jungkook) and think they are a really special group of people. It's obvious to me that they are very close and truly care about each other like family. That being said, I definitely think Jimin and Jungkook are together and consider myself a supporter. You're welcome to call me delulu and that is okay. Obviously I can't know anything for sure and I'm okay if I am wrong about them, but I'm convinced they have a special bond and there are too many things that I couldn't reason away, even though I tried. But since I am convinced now that they are together, I'm okay with having my likely delulu moments where I enjoy reading into cute, possibly innocent interactions between those two. Maybe I'll share some with you. :)
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"BTS was, is, and will be SEVEN."
#bts#bts suga#bts jin#bts jungkook#bts jhope#bts jimin#bts rm#bts v#bts army#bts is seven#love bts#love you Suga
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Bangtan Bombs...
As we enter into Festa 2023, how about re-visiting some old Bangtan Bombs? I was not ARMY 10 years ago, and knew nothing of K-Pop, so I didnât see any of their early content.
Iâm only 3 years in, and just love to see some of the old Bangtan Bombs. The guys look so young, and they were just so wide open in front of the cameras. Â
Little did they know what they would become. đđđ
Here are a few, beginning with the very first one posted on YouTube...
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Happy Festa! đđđ
#bts#festa 2023#bangtan bombs#oldies but goodies#they were so cute#look at them now#love bts#bangtan and army forever#miss them as 7
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Remember every ARMY out there; Jimin has written so many letters for us round the years, so donât ever think that youâre not loved or wanted.
I want you, Jimin wants us, BTS wants us.
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In case youâre feeling down;
Now you wonât. đđâşď¸
We love youâ¤ď¸â¤ď¸đđ
#love BTS#jimin#bts#bts army#purple#i purple you đ#armyforever#bts forever#never alone#loveyourself#đ#jk#bts v#agust d#hope#jhope#bts rm#bts jin#not alone after all#smile#SoundCloud
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as a child there's nothing cooler than a kid who gets subjected to evil experiments and gains special abilities. it's even cooler if these abilities also cause unfathomable suffering to use/against others. children love stories like this.
#I'm talking about max ride flatmate is watching spy x family#reminiscing on my multiple stories and ocs about this like truly#I think this might not be as universal as i think but if you liked max ride it probably was. my main oc as a tiny child was#a girl who grew up to be an unethical scientist who loved experimenting on humans and children. she could turn into a flying purple wolf bt#maximum ride
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Omg, Iâm reminded that this was the first BTS video I ever watched! I had ZERO idea who they were, and knew ZERO about KPop. Ziltch. Â
If you look at Hobiâs shoes, THAT is what brought me to the video. For real. It was those xVessels that he had on. LOL... What the heck does a pair of shoes have to do with BTS, you might ask? đ¤Ł
In 2019 I was watching a LOT of C-Dramas. Historical and fantasy, because I loved the costumes, and it was just cool to me. I had stepped away from almosts all American TV(donât own one) and movies, because I was tired of the manipulation of the psyche that accompanies said stuff... thereâs a reason why itâs called âprogramsâ. ((oops, I digress!))
In my exploration of C-Dramas I started looking up the actors as I knew literally nothing about the people or that industry, and I am a curious creature. I like to learn about cultures that I know nothing about. Â
Sooooo.... I look up Vanness Wu, and start following him on IG. Heâs a Chinese-American actor with a shoe company called.... xVessel. lol... AND, one day he posted a photo of our beloved Hobi wearing his yellow Lows. Then, he posted a clip from the same video above, as Hobi was wearing his yellow Lows again.
So I watch the clip and I am totally confused by what I am watching. I had never seen anything like BTS, like ever. (Iâve been on the planet a long time.) I couldnât understand the hoopla, so I took the next step and headed over to YouTube.....Â
Before you know it, I had taken the deep dive head-first. Down the BTS rabbit hole I went, and I never pulled myself out, and never looked back. 3.5 years (?) later, here we are. Â
There is so much that I could share about everything I have learned since that day. Iâve navigated through judgement, couldnât understand the whole rapper line/vocal line, why so many guys, and just a general ignorance of the culture and K-Pop industry. Because I am a self-aware Soul, I know to push back when my monkey mind wants to take something and spin it in a way that isnât really good. I know to call myself out and know how to push myself beyond my beliefs to consider looking with clear vision and an open mind. Â
So, here I am on a platform that I didnât know existed, 3.5 years ago, in a community of Peeps who love BTS like I do. I have my virtual BTS fam, and continue to learn and grow as a Human through this experience, both as an individual and as a part of Community. Â
Thank you to whoever shared the clips from the video. Iâve been reminded just how far I have come, in this Journey as Army. Iâm forever grateful to have had BTS placed in my Lifeâs Path. Â
this fit!!!
#bantgan forever#hobis xvessels#bts army forever#its the yellow lows#its actually vanness wus fault#bts during lockdown#love bts#bts rabbit hole is endless#no looking back#loved kookies blue hair#really it is kooks fault#then came jiminie#jiminie is and old soul#too many hashtags again#lololol#grateful for bts as they teach me every day#do they know about their guardian angel in nc
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herbert west playing yugioh if you even care đ
#you have no idea how long this took me#it was supposed to be a silly little edit and then i was like#but what if i tried to make it look as real as possible#anyway i'm mentally ill uwu#i just love the bts pic of him playing solitaire so much#plus i needed a new twitter header so what better image to use#my edit#reanimator#re-animator#re animator#herbert west#jeffrey combs#hp lovecraft#yugioh
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D-DAY THE FINAL ⌠INTRO : Never Mind
#btsgif#btsedit#dailybts#yoongiedit#min yoongi#suga#bts#gif#i love you hope youre doing well im cheering for you
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Wait for your love | jjk
â Â pairing: firefighter!jungkook x female readerÂ
â Â genre: kind of exes to lovers, parents au, angst, fluff, and smutÂ
â rating: 18+Â
â Â summary: sixteen years ago, your life was turned upside down when you surrendered to the temptation â none other than jungkook, the star basketball player on your schoolâs team. today, after all that time, you reunite under tragic circumstances; a car crash where he saves your life.
â Â words: 17,383
â Â warnings: strong language, car accident, blood, mention of pregnancy, mention of cheating, mention of divorce, mention of sex, sever injuries, mention of death, crying, mention of heartbreak, mention of breakup, oc suffers quite a lot, mention of unprotected sex, mention of fire, mention of fighting, kissing, pain struggle, tattooed!jungkook, dom!jungkook, big cock!jungkook, praising, oc and jungkook are needy, choking, a bit of fingering, a bit of handjob, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, morning sex, slow sex (is it even a thing?), and creampie
â authorâs note: so here you finally have this fic đ¤ iâve been working on it for a little while already & iâve adored writing it! To be honest, this is my fav jk that iâve ever written đŤŁI truly hope youâll enjoy this fic as much as iâve enjoyed writing it ⨠donât hesitate to let me know what you think of it â¤ď¸
â playlist: supernatural | forget about us | standing next to you | bed chem | juno
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The sound of the sirens echoes in your ears.
Your eyes are completely shut, your entire body hurts, and you put your hand on your head as if youâre trying to stop the pain youâre feeling. Slowly you try to open your eyes, and you see the completely broken windshield of your car. You take a look around to notice how damaged the inside of your car is.
Itâs pretty bad.
Your eyes flutter shut once more, the effort to keep them open too much to bear. Gradually, you feel yourself falling asleep. As you slip into slumber, your mind is drawn back to a painful memory â the day you gave your son up for adoption. Â
Being a teen mother wasnât on your plans. Even though you really wanted to become a mother, it simply wasnât possible then. Having a kid at sixteen wouldnât be easy and for sure, you wouldnât be able to offer a proper life to that kid. It wouldnât be fair to him to keep him only because you wished to become a mother. He deserved to have a good life, to have loving parents, and to accomplish all his dreams.
On top of that, the baby was living proof that you cheated on your then-boyfriend. Definitely, you werenât proud of yourself. The father of your baby was a bit of a jerk, but, when he found out about your pregnancy, he showed nothing but support. It was surprising, but it felt great to have him by your side.
Giving your son up for adoption was devastatingly hard. But it was the best for him. After that, you spent the last sixteen years wondering what he had become. Every boy you met thatâd match his age; youâd wonder if it was him. And sometimes, youâd regret abandoning him. In those moments, crying was the only solution.
As hard as possible, you resist the urge to fall asleep, but the headache is making this battle hard to fight.
âMa'am,â you hear a distant voice.
Those words echo in your mind, and strangely, it feels like this voice is a familiar one. The pain must be causing some hallucination, you think. But as hard as you can, you try to find out who could be the owner of that voice.
While you think, your eyes open a bit before closing again. Your hand remains on your head, and suddenly, you remember who it is. It is the father of your firstborn.
As you realize who it might be, you shake your head. Itâs impossible to be him. After the birth of your baby, you went separate ways and never heard of him anymore. Sometimes, you hope to meet him again to check what he has become.
That man was handsome as hell so youâre absolutely sure that he found someone, got married, and had children. From time to time, you think about him and wonder if he also thinks about your baby as much as you do. Maybe he doesnât since youâre convinced he has new children to think of.
But thatâs silly of you to think that because after your firstborn, you had three other adorable children: two girls, Jia and Jiwoo, and a little boy, Jeong. Being their mother and caring about them never made you forget about your first.
On top of being a mother, you also got married to Minkyu. You met him three years after giving birth, and you were convinced he was the love of your life. However, you ended up divorcing after eight years of marriage. It wasnât easy, you felt like a total failure. Now, youâre living on your own, sharing custody of your three babies with your ex-husband. Luckily, you remained on good terms, youâd even say youâre friends now.
For the past two years, youâve been focusing on yourself which means no relationships. But that doesnât exclude one-night stands. Youâre very careful as you donât want your children to one day stumble upon one of the guys youâve been fucking with. And you also want to avoid getting pregnant again.
When you planned on stopping the pill to have a child with Minkyu, your gynecologist told you that you seemed to be the fertile type. She was quite right since you got pregnant right after stopping the pill. In three years, you had three kids. So, it explains it all. And it also explains how you easily got pregnant at sixteen, the only time you didnât use protection.
Now, youâre wondering if this is how your life ends. Youâve last seen your kids four days ago, youâre probably never going to fall in love again, and youâre never going to see your firstborn. This is a tragic way to die. Your mind only thinks about your babies.
Although your mind feels disconnected from your body, you sense a pair of strong arms lifting you up. Â Your body is completely sore, and even being held in someoneâs arms is painful. The person is talking to you, or at least talking to someone but your brain doesnât process the words at all. Â Â
Then, the pain knocks you up.
Jungkook and his team got called for a car accident involving several cars, and when they arrived, the scene was horrific.
There are probably five cars pressed and smashed one against the other. There are people injured and bleeding walking around the scene. Paramedics are already taking care of them, but Jungkook is walking to the cars to retrieve the people stuck inside. His captain screams orders and tells him which car he should go to.
His eyes look around, his heart breaking when he sees everyone involved and still stuck in their cars. Visions like this are quite common for him, it doesnât happen all the time but itâs still recurrent. At the end of the day, his job is to save people in this type of situation.
When he reaches the car, he was assigned to, he takes a look at how many people there are inside. Thereâs just one person, a woman behind the steering wheel. She has her hand on her head, clearly showing that she might have a headache. She doesnât really move. Instantly, Jungkook tries to open the door, but itâs showing a bit of resistance.
It feels impossible to open the door, but Jungkook sees the womanâs head falling. Heâs getting worrier; sheâs slumping into sleep which isnât a good sign as she was holding her head barely seconds ago. He then proceeds to break the window so he can try to open it from inside. There are other possible ways, but it would be harder and more dangerous to get her out of the vehicle.
âMaâam,â he says with urge.
Eventually, he manages to open the damn door from the inside. A good part of the carâs front is crashing into her. Before even thinking of taking her out, he places a cervical collar to protect her neck and spine.
âMaâam,â he repeats. âCan you hear me?â
She doesnât answer at all. Jungkook gets closer, his fingers brushing the hair from her face, but when he finally gets to properly see the womanâs face, his heart skips a beat. This woman is none other than you. His mind canât start to get lost in the past right now. He needs to focus on taking you out of the car. Â Â
Youâre in pretty bad shape.
Thereâs blood on your forehead, you most probably have a��wound on top of your head. Thereâs also blood at the level of your stomach, turning your green shirt into a very dark color. He can distinguish a big fragment of glass shoved into your belly. It doesnât look good. Your legs are also completely smashed by the front, causing the steering wheel to be very close to your body.  Hopefully, your legs arenât too injured. He doesnât even want to start thinking about all the bruises on your body.
Slowly, he places one hand behind your back while his other hand slowly pushes your legs. Heâs trying to be as careful as possible to avoid causing any other injury. Â His strong arms hold you once he manages to fully remove you from the car. His eyes look down at your face with evident pain. He notices how youâre trying to open your eyes which makes him think that youâre trying to fight the urge to fall asleep.
âYn,â he says while walking to an ambulance. âPlease, stay with me,â he whispers with despair. âIâve finally found you, and I canât lose you right away.â
A tear streams down his face as Jungkook begins to run. âFuck, fuck,â he mumbles when he realizes that youâve now fallen asleep. Â âHelp me here,â he shouts to some paramedics.
Two people run in his direction with a stretcher, and he carefully places you there. His eyes never leave you until youâre placed inside an ambulance.
Never did he think heâd find you like this. For the past sixteen years, he imagined the many ways heâd stumble upon you. He thought of meeting you randomly one day in the streets, in a shop, or even in a restaurant. Meeting you after a car crash wasnât on his mind at all.
Jungkook then proceeds to take care of the other people stuck in their cars. His job isnât over yet, other people are waiting for his help. Thankfully enough, after so many years of experience, heâs able to focus on what he has to do.
Slowly, you open your eyes. Instinctively, you place your hand on your head since you last remember having a headache, but it doesnât hurtâat least not anymore. For a brief moment, you close your eyes again while trying to understand what happened. Â
Once you open your eyes once more, you look around to realize that youâre lying on a hospital bed. Youâre in a room, an individual one. Although youâre alone in a room, can hear many people talking outside.
In the midst of all the noise, you distinguish your sisterâs voice. You canât really understand what sheâs saying but she seems worried. Somebody is talking to her, but you donât recognize the voice. After a little while, your sister opens the door to join you.
A smile appears on her face when she sees you awake. âYn,â she says before hugging you. You wrap your arms around her, sheâs holding you tight. Thereâs no need for her to speak for you to understand she was dead worried. It also leaves you wondering if youâre really in a bad situation. Â When she finally takes a step back, you can see how worried she is.
âI was death worried,â she says. âI thought you died.â
Those words crunch your heart. The simple thought of picturing your sister thinking that is heartbreaking. However, youâre still here. Maybe not in your best shape but youâre still alive.
âDeath was too afraid of me,â you jokingly say.
âItâs not funny,â sheâs definitely annoyed that youâre joking. âItâs very bad, yn.â
Her eyes donât betray her, it doesnât look great. For sure, itâs bad since you remember seeing your car completely destroyed. Memories of the car crash come back. It happened quite fast. The car in front of you didnât notice the car on the left. Two vehicles in front of you suddenly collided with each other. Due to the small distance and minimal reaction time, you were unable to stop in time, which led to you colliding into the cars. The same happened to the cars behind colliding into you.
âTwo people died in the crash, yn, and the doctors didnât give me many details when they called me,â she explains.
âHow long have I been here?â you ask.
It leaves you wondering how long it has been since the car crash happened.
âAlmost two days,â she informs.
âOh,â you simply say.
Your sister then proceeds to explain to you that you went through a couple of surgeries.
When you arrived, you had a glass shoved into your stomach and it caused some damage. You were bleeding internally so you first had surgery to remove the glass and stitch any part of your intestines that needed to be repaired.
On top of that, your knees were destroyed and a part of your hips was broken. So after the stomach surgery, you went through a long surgery to repair your knees, and later on, another one to repair your hips.
Your sister doesnât know the specificities of the surgeries, but those surgeries are already a lot. She also tells you that you evidently have bruises and scratches all over your body. It definitely sounds bad, but youâre under the influence of painkillers so you donât really feel anything so far.
âWhere are Jia, Jiwoo, and Jeong?â you ask looking around.
âMinkyu took them back home a couple of hours ago,â she tells you.
If your sister was dead worried, you canât even start to imagine how your kids were feeling. You have such a strong bond with them, and they are still so young; your little Jiwoo is only four years old. You donât even doubt that they started imagining the worst.
âHow are they?â you ask.
âAs you can imagine, itâs been harder for them than for anyone else,â your heart aches. âTheyâve been crying a lot.â
You close your eyes, holding back the tears. It breaks your heart to have put your babies through this. Even though itâs far from being your fault, you never want to hurt your babies like that. Your role as a mother is to protect them.
âWeâve all been there for them,â she adds.
A tear runs down your face.
âDonât worry, big sis,â she says before hugging you once more. âTheyâll be so happy to see you fully awake.â
You hold her tight in your embrace to comfort you in some kind of way. For a little while, you both stay like this.
âThereâs been a firefighter coming to visit you every day,â she whispers in your ear. âA handsome one, actually.â
A little giggle escapes your lips.
âStop saying nonsense,â you give her a little tap.
She takes a step back with the brightest smile on her face.
âIâm very serious, yn,â she says. âThe firefighter that saved you has been coming to check up on you.â
Well, it sounds like heâs kind of adorable. Itâs definitely very sweet of him to take the time to check up on you after saving your life.
âHeâs extremely hot too,â she adds.
âStop it,â you say. âYouâre exaggerating!â
âI am not!â she instantly replies. âYouâll see when he comes.â
You roll your eyes. Sheâs definitely unbelievable as always, but sheâs your sister. You love her beyond comprehension because she was your very first baby. You have a ten-year gap and youâve been taking care of her since the very first minute she was born. Your parents had her very late; they were almost 40 years old but the happiest.
When you were around two, they started trying to have a second child. However, it didnât go as planned. Your mother suffered two miscarriages and after that, it became even harder to have a child. Eventually, when you were around eight, they gave up. They were happy to have you and settled with the idea that youâd be an only child.
But against all odds, a year later, she got pregnant. The pregnancy went to full term, and thatâs how you became a big sister.
The gap between you was harder around your teenage years. All you were thinking about was boys, and all she wanted was to play. She also wanted to have a younger sibling, but your parents were already too old for that. Your mum said that she couldnât handle another big age gap between her kids.
Your sister was the happiest when you announced your pregnancy at sixteen. She was only six back then, and that baby would have been like the little sibling she always desired to have. She was devastated when you explained to her that you wouldnât keep the baby. Your parents were too but they understood and supported your decision.
Outside your parents, nobody ever knew that Jungkook was the father of your first son. At first, your ex-boyfriend thought that he was the father, that maybe a condom broke and thatâs how you got pregnant. But you always knew that he wasnât the father. It simply wasnât possible. It all got confirmed when you birthed a baby that looked a lot like Jungkook.
You still remember how heartbroken your ex was, and you couldnât blame him. The breakup was too hard to handle back then so you never told anyone who the father was, except for Jungkook. He deserved to know the truth. You werenât expecting much from him as he was the basketball star of your school team. And above anything else, he was a complete jerk.
Nevertheless, he proved you wrong when he supported you. He was by your side for the entirety of the pregnancy. He came to all the ultrasounds and gynecologist's appointments. He was there, and he completely stopped being a jerk to your eyes. Eventually, you became closer, but you refused to be more than friends even though you had strong feelings for him.
Why?
Because itâd be too hard to stay with him after giving up your son for adoption. Jungkook was also supposed to leave for one of the best colleges after that. It was in another city, and you knew heâd stay if you dated. You refused to let him give up his dreams for you. You broke his heart; you could see it in his eyes, but it was for the best. If you were meant to be, youâd find your way back. But it never happened. After that, you completely lose contact. Â
Thereâs a knock on the door. Your sister proceeds to open it, letting the person come in. âSpeaking of the devil,â she turns her head to look at you with the brightest smile on her face.
When the famous live-savior firefighter enters, the entire world completely freezes. The firefighter is none other than Jungkook. Your heart skips a beat when your eyes meet. After all these years, you finally see him again.
A smile spreads on his face when he sees you awake. You can tell that heâs relieved. For an instant, you take a proper look at him. Heâs still wearing his firefighter uniform, indicating that he most probably came from a mission â if thatâs the correct word to use. His hair is very short and a tiny bit messy. Above anything else, he absolutely looks tired, the dark circles under his eyes betraying him.
âHi,â he simply says as he takes a step inside.
âHi, Jungkook,â you reply.
Your sister is at first taken aback by the fact that you know his name, but as she takes a proper look at your facial expressions, she can tell that you know him.
âIâll leave you two,â she says before disappearing.
âHow are you feeling?â he asks while getting closer.
âI guess fine for now, but not sure, how Iâll feel when the painkillers will no longer have any effects.â Â Â
His eyes scan your face while yours do the same. His beauty is still breathtaking; youâd even say that he aged like fine wine.
âThanks for rescuing me from the car crash,â you add.
âNo need to thank me,â he instantly replies. âItâs part of my job.â
âI still need to. Without you, I wouldnât be here today.â
Even though itâs part of his job, he saved you, and he deserves to be thanked for that. You would have said it to any other firefighter.
âItâs good to see you awake,â he says.
There is so much you want to say to him, but at the same time, now that you have him in front of you, you donât even know what to say.
âI just quickly passed by to check up on you,â he informs you. âI need to get back to work.â
âNo problems,â you reply. âThanks for coming.â
âWould you mind if I come back later?â he nervously asks.
Your heart is now racing in your chest. Of course, you want him to come back so you get to catch up and find out how he went from basketball player to firefighter.
âNo, I wouldnât mind,â a little smile appears on your face.
âThanks,â he says before waving goodbye and leaving your room.
Seconds later, your sister storms inside your room. She has that expression on her face that says: âwho the hell is this guy?â.
âWho is he?â she asks while taking a seat.
Sheâs definitely expecting to hear something like: âheâs a guy I slept with after my breakupâ, or âI met him at a barâ, or anything of that sort because it was obvious there was something going on between you. The look you both had wasnât saying we were simply friends. It was a look screaming âsomething hot and sexy happened between usâ.
âThe guy that knocked me up sixteen years ago.â
âMama,â your oldest daughter, Jia says. âWhen are you leaving the hospital?â
An hour ago, the doctor in charge of you came to explain the extent of the situation to you. Since you now have metal wires in your knees, youâll have to go through a long recovery, and youâll have to follow physiotherapy to learn how to walk again.
On top of that, your intestines were stitched, and it will definitely be hard for a moment to eat and drink. So, for at least ten days, youâll remain in observation at the hospital. There is for sure a very long recovery ahead of you, but what matters is that youâre still alive.
For what is coming, you know you can count on your familyâs support, and without any doubts, seeing your babies will help you navigate the hard times. Obviously, youâre also very self-aware that sometimes, it might be too hard, and during those times, even your support system wonât be enough.
âIâll stay for a little while, boo,â you answer.
She seems a bit sad by your answer which is totally understandable. Briefly, you take a look at Jiwoo and Jeong to see if they also look sad, and they have the exact same facial expression as their older sister.
Your ex-husband, Minkyu is also present. Itâs logical since itâs his week with them, and also because you were literally in a coma. When your eyes meet, you give him a little smile. By the way heâs looking at you, he definitely seems worried.
âBut youâll see, time will go by super-fast,â you try to reassure them. âAnd very soon, Iâll be home with you.â
You canât wait to go home and be with them even though for a little while, due to the recovery time, it wonât be easy at all. But youâll be with your babies which honestly is the only thing that matters.
Your babies jump on the bed and hug you. Feeling all this love coming from the little human beings you create warms your heart beyond comprehension. Although the pain is starting to kick in, you pretend like you donât feel anything because you want to savor this moment with them.
Jeong, your son, shows you what he drew at school for you. He takes the time to explain what it represents. Itâs definitely adorable. Then, Jiwoo tells you how her day went by. She played a lot with her friends, she learned to count until 20, and her teacher told her she was an amazing learner. Her face was shining, and you couldnât be prouder.
Your oldest daughter doesnât speak much, letting her younger siblings talk. You then try to make her talk about her day, but she bursts into tears, hiding her face in your chest. Your heart definitely breaks while you hold her in your arms.
âWhat happened, boo?â you caress her back, trying to comfort her as much as you can.
Sheâs heavily crying, your shirt getting wet with her tears.
âMy little boo-boo,â you whisper. âWhatâs going on?â you add. âTell me.â
She hugs you even more which squeezes your heart. You donât like seeing your babies like that.
âI thought you were dead, mommy,â she sniffs.
âOooh, my boo-boo,â you really want to cry at her words. Imagining her thinking that is one thing but hearing her saying it out loud is something completely different. âIâm so sorry.â Thatâs all you can say.
Jiwoo and Jeong join the hug, trying in their own way to comfort their big sister. This is a heartwarming hug, and it comforts you beyond comprehension. Itâs hard to see them like that, but itâll get better with time. Minkyu joins you for what is like a family hug now. This right here is the only thing that you need.
After this uplifting moment, your ex-husband and babies leave you alone in this cold hospital room. They need to go back home; the kids need to wash, do their homework, and get ready for bed. You wish they could have stayed longer because you donât want to stay alone. Â
The pain is now unbearable, and it honestly scares you for the long recovery awaiting you. Luckily, right after your family left, a nurse came in to give you dinner together with strong painkillers.
The food is âas imaginedâ disgusting. Thereâs nothing you can do about it, but tomorrow, youâll try to convince your sister to bring you a pizza or sushi or some fast food. Thereâs no way youâll survive ten days with this horrible food.
A little later, someone knocks at the door. As promised earlier, Jungkook appears inside your room with a bright smile on his face. You return the smile as it honestly makes you happy that heâs here.
âHi,â you say.
For a brief moment, your eyes linger on his figure. Heâs no longer in his firefighter uniform; Â heâs dressed in an all-black outfit that, in all honesty, suits him well. A pair of jeans, a tight shirt, and a leather jacket give him an entirely different vibe from earlier. His hair, now perfectly arranged, makes him look strikingly similar to how he did sixteen years ago. Â
âHi,â he walks closer to you.
His eyes notice the serving tray with the empty plate.
âWas it good?â he points to the empty plate.
âIt definitely wasnât,â a little laugh escapes your lips while you shake your head. âThe good thing is that the dessert was a chocolate mousse.â
Jungkookâs smile grows bigger on his face.
âYour favorite dessert,â he whispers.
Now, youâre the one smiling more. When pregnant, you could eat a chocolate mousse without growing tired of it. Due to that, you gained quite some weight during your first pregnancy. Anyway, it was the least of your concerns since you knew you were about to give your son up for adoption.
âYou still rememberâŚâ
âHow couldnât I?â he instantly says. âYou were eating it night and day.â
You giggle as you remember it.
âYou werenât helping too,â you accuse him. âWhenever Iâd ask for one, youâd make it, and youâre a good cooker.â
Jungkook was your personal chef. Whatever dish youâd ask for, heâd prepare it. His mousses were so delicious that you found yourself always craving them. The ones from the supermarket simply couldnât compare to Jungkookâs.
âWell, for my defense, I couldnât let a pregnant woman starve,â he puts his hands up.
It doesnât feel like sixteen years happened since you last spoke. Itâs great you found each other again. It wasnât under great circumstances, but heâs here now.
âThat was nice of you,â you gently say.
âDo you mind if I take a seat?â he points to the chair near your bed.
âNo, no,â you shake your head.
Jungkook sits down before turning to you. Heâs incredibly close now, allowing you to get a better look at him. Heâs definitely gotten older, the wrinkles on his face canât lie. The beginning of a beard is also easily noticeable.
âHow bad does it hurt?â he seriously asks.
âIs it that obvious?â you say.
Jungkook nods. Honestly, this time around the painkillers arenât helping much. Your entire body aches, you canât even say which part hurts more.
âItâs pretty bad,â you answer. âEven with the painkillers now, it hurts like hell.â
âIf you want, I can call a nurse,â he suggests.
âNo, itâs fine,â you answer. âIâll probably need to wait a bit more before it really takes effect.â
Jungkook doesnât really listen to you since he leaves the room. You roll your eyes but with a big smile on your face. Itâs incredible how he didnât change after all these years. He used to never believe you when you were in pain.
A few seconds later, he comes back with a nurse. They are talking, and heâs explaining that Iâm in extreme pain. Heâs exaggerating a bit the reality. However, the nurse administers you a stronger painkiller and she also tells you that you shouldnât hesitate to call her if youâre suffering. Then, she leaves. Slowly, youâre finally feeling the pain going away.
âYou didnât need to do that,â you tell him once the nurse leaves the room.
âYes, I needed,â he instantly says. âThereâs no way I was leaving you suffering unnecessarily.â
Jungkook seems definitely concerned.
âYou donât have to play the strong girl after this terrible car crash.â
Heâs not wrong, but this is one of your flaws. Youâll only take a painkiller unless you donât have much of a choice. Most of the time, you donât take anything as youâre convinced you can handle anything.
You simply nod while Jungkook sits again on the chair. This time, you start talking about what has been going on in your lives for the past sixteen years.
Jungkook barely managed to finish his college years because he honestly had his mind somewhere else. After all, he had become a father, given his son up for adoption, and had his heart broken by the girl he always had a crush on. He didnât mention the last part. He had tremendous regrets about how everything went down.
Right after college, he became a firefighter; a passion he randomly discovered the summer before. Saving lives, and helping others in need is what truly fulfills him. He considers his job as his own therapy even though itâs not always easy to deal with the horrific visions he might encounter.
Eight years ago, he met a French girl who had recently moved here. They fell in love and had a little boy, Noah. Heâs four years old today; the same age as your youngest daughter. His eyes were filled with love when he started speaking about him. He said his boy is a mini version of his mother so he barely looks Korean. He even has blue eyes.
However, heâs no longer with her. They broke up three years ago and they arenât really on good terms today. She already threatened to move back to France with Noah. They went through a tough legal battle for their sonâs custody. Itâs a shared one, and Jungkookâs parents are the intermediates between them. They pick up Noah at her place to bring him to Jungkookâs, and vice versa. Â
It honestly broke your heart to hear about all that. It doesnât seem to be an easy situation, and hearing his story makes you feel even more grateful for the good relationship you maintain with Minkyu. Â
Then, you proceed to tell him about what your life has looked like for the past sixteen years.
âLately, Iâve been thinking a lot about our son,â you honestly say.
Four months ago, on the 2nd of June to be precise, your son turned sixteen. Heâs the age you were when you gave birth to him. Since that day, youâve definitely been wondering what he has become. Is he also about to become a father? You hope not.
âWell, I always think about him, but lately, itâs been more than usual,â you explain. âAnd I also imagine him with my other kids, and I wonder what bond theyâd have.â
Jungkook only nods. âI get that,â those are his only words.
You refrain from continuing to talk about your son as it seems to affect him in some way. Maybe itâs simply too hard for him to think about that son you didnât keep. You understand that so you prefer to stop talking. But his next words definitely catch you by surprise.
âIâve found our son.â
Seventeen years ago
As you step inside the pretty big basketball court, your eyes immediately look for a place to sit. There arenât many people watching the teamâs training. You place yourself in the very last row, almost as if youâre trying to hide yourself âor to hide your little secret.
Instinctively, your eyes look for Jungkook, the best basketball player. Heâs the reason for your presence. Quickly, you take a look at your watch. The training should be over soon.
Your heart is beating crazily in your chest. What you have to tell him isnât easy, especially since you donât really know what to do. Youâre actually even convinced that heâll tell you to fuck off. Jungkook is known to be a jerk after all.
The man notices you while running in the court. His eyebrows frown, as youâre the last person he was expecting to see here. The past month has been hectic because things have been hot and cold with you. For a while already, he has been having a massive crush on you, but heâs never said anything because youâre in a relationship with Minho.
Even though heâs known to be an asshole, he never wanted to be the reason for your separation. However, last month, you had sex, and youâve been feeling guilty since then. He can only understand you so heâs stayed away to give you the space you need. Nevertheless, you would sometimes interact and to his surprise, youâd be nice.
âJungkook,â someone screams.
He grabs the ball that is thrown at him, and heâs focused again on the game. The end comes rapidly. Jungkook walks directly in your direction and you give him a little smile. As he gets closer, he instantly notices the sadness in your eyes. He sits down next to you with heavy breathing. His face is red, his hair is wet, and heâs all sweaty.
âHi,â he says with a smile.
âHi,â you reply.
Deep down, heâs kind of hoping youâre here to tell him that youâve broken up with Minho. Thatâs all heâs ever wanted, especially since he slept with you.
âHow are you?â he asks with evident concern.
âNot good,â you bite your lower lip, tears already forming in your eyes.
Jungkook directly pushes you into his arms to comfort you. Tears stream down your face while you hold him tight in your embrace. You hold him as if your world depends on it. Quickly, you start sobbing which breaks Jungkookâs heart. Heâs definitely worried now, especially since he would have never imagined you coming to cry into his arms. He gently rubs your back in silence, letting you cry in peace.
This scene seems unreal to him.
After a little while, you take a step back to clean your face, dabbing at the tears that seem to not stop. Youâre sure you look like a complete mess right now with your red eyes, face ravaged with tears, and trembling hands. Jungkook is staring at you, his gaze filled with heavy unspoken words.
âSorry,â you mumble.
âDonât worry,â he replies.
Jungkook tugs a strand of hair behind your ear.
âItâs not easy what I have to say,â you admit.
âItâs okay,â he gently says. âTake your time.â Â
Jungkook has never been a jerk with you. Heâs definitely a tease, and heâs been teasing you for months now. But he has never been mean or rude. Even though itâs been quite obvious to you that he was flirting with you all this time, heâs been nothing but respectful and never crossed the line.
But that was until you couldnât resist him anymore.
Obviously, heâs a very handsome guy and it flattered you a lot that he was interested in you. However, youâre in a relationship with Minho. Heâs been your boyfriend for a couple of months, and you adore him. But Jungkook has shaken everything up. It was obvious that one day you would surrender to temptation.
Jungkook is very good in bed, thereâs no doubt about it. Your one-night stand was a memorable one, but youâve felt nothing but guilt since then. And you also hate yourself. How could you have done that to Minho? Heâs been nothing but an angel to you. You clearly donât deserve him.
âIâm pregnant,â you admit.
Jungkookâs body freezes completely. Of all the things he was expecting to hear, this definitely wasnât one of them. This is quite a bombshell! This will forever change your life, and he can only sympathize with you. Now, it leaves him wondering if heâs the father.
âIs it Minhoâs?â he asks after a couple of seconds. âOr mine?â
âItâs yours,â you inform him.
Although this is a piece of very destabilizing news, he kind of feels proud to be the father of your child. Itâs a weird feeling but the chances of him being the father are quite low since youâre in a relationship.
âYouâre sure?â he asks.
âOf course, I am,â you almost sound offended. âI always use protection with Minho,â you whisper. âAnd if you remember correctly, we didnât.â
âRight,â he nods.
You were so in the heat that a condom was the last thing you both thought of, but you used the pullout method. Looks like it wasnât the brightest idea. It would have been best if you had been more careful. Now itâs too late to go back in time. Now, thereâs a baby on the way. Â
âIâm so scared to tell him,â you admit.
Tears start running down your face again.
âWhat will I become now?â you add. âMy life is ruined.â
Jungkook cleans your face because he doesnât like to see you in this state.
âYour life isnât ruined, yn,â his thumb caresses your cheek.
âHow canât it be ruined?â you desperately say. âIâm pregnant; I'll give birth in less than nine months. My life will all be about that baby, Iâll have to drop school, and Iâll have to be a parent when Iâm still a kid.â
The man in front of you can only understand your despair. His life will also drastically change from now on. Most probably, heâll also need to give up on his dream college to work and provide for this baby.
âIâm here, and we will find a solution,â he whispers. âYouâre not alone.â
You shake your head. Thereâs no way youâll find a solution. It is simple: thereâs a baby on the way, and outside that, thereâs the whole situation where you cheated on your boyfriend.
âAnd Minho will be completely heartbroken,â you start crying even more. âOut of all people, heâs the one that doesnât deserve that!â
Jungkook doesnât know what to say. For sure, it isnât great to cheat on your partner, but he knows heâs very much capable of doing it without having any remorse. Heâs perfectly aware that he isnât the greatest guy on earth when it comes to love. Even though he has a crush on you, he isnât convinced heâd be the right one for you.
âMy life is destroyed,â you repeat once more.
The basketball player pulls you once again in his embrace. His strong arms are comforting, and you realize now that you did great by coming to talk to him.
âWeâll find a solution,â he whispers in your ear.
Little did you know at that moment that he was right. A week later, you both agreed to give your son up for adoption. It wasnât an easy decision, but it was the best one. You could feel it inside your bones.
From your roomâs window, you admire the landscape that stretches before your eyes. The view isnât the prettiest but at least, itâs something different than the tv. For the past three days, you could only be lying and sitting on your bed. Itâs been horrible.
Jungkook has been coming every day to check up on you, and youâve been talking a lot. Itâs honestly so great to reunite again and to finally discover what he has become for the past years.
Your sister has been very curious about your reunion with the father of your firstborn. She also asked if Minkyu ever knew about him. You never hid from your ex-husband the existence of your first child, but you never told him who the father was. There was no need to do so. Â
Your sister informed your parents who saved you, and they already saw him again. They really liked him when you were pregnant, so they were very happy to meet him again.
Jungkook didnât tell them that he found your firstborn, and youâre grateful he didnât because you donât even know what to do. You asked him to give you some time to process the information. Heâs been nothing but respectful.
This morning, you started walking for the first time since the surgery. It was beyond painful to even move one leg, but you bear with the pain of walking a little bit. Since the first day, youâve been having physiotherapy sessions to help with the recovery. At first, the sessions only consisted of moving your legs while remaining in bed. Now, you get to walk a bit.
The physiotherapist handed you a cane today. Itâs incredibly glamorous!
The good side is that you can now move from the bed to the chair more easily. You obviously still need a lot of help, but it gives you a bit more freedom.
Slowly, you try to stand up as you need to go to the bathroom. Right there, someone knocks at the door before entering. You expect to see the nurse since you call for her, but youâre surprised to see Jungkook. As he notices you struggling to get up, he rushes to help you out.
âShouldnât you be asking for the nurse to help you?â he asks.
âThe nurse should be coming,â you reply.
âIs it okay if I place my hands on your waist?â you shake your head.
His hands instantly reach your waist, holding you firmly while you stand up with shaky legs. Feeling his presence around you reassures you, especially with his strong arms holding you. Your eyes quickly glance at him when youâre proudly standing up, and he looks incredibly hot with his red cheeks and messy hair.
At this precise moment, you feel like your teenage self, who was deeply attracted to him. The version of yourself who had deeply fallen in love with him when you were pregnant. That nostalgic feeling kind of warms your heart.
âIâm happy to see you finally out of that bed,â a smile spreads on his face when your eyes meet.
His stare is softer now, and itâs evident that he truly means what he just said.
âMe too,â you admit. âCouldnât stand being on that bed anymore,â you laugh a little. âItâs been driving me crazy.â Â
The nurse finally arrives, but she instantly leaves as you inform her that Jungkook is helping you.
At a very slow pace, you start walking in the bathroomâs direction. Jungkook stands next to you, his hands very close to you, ready to catch you any minute.
âIâve been thinking,â you start saying as you put your right foot in front of the other. Â
âAbout?â he asks.
Itâs extremely frustrating to be walking as fast as a turtle, but thereâs not much you can do right now. Â You have brand-new knees, so you need to learn to walk with them, which will take some time. Plus, you also need to adjust to the pain these new knees cause.
âAbout our baby,â you answer.
Jungkook is taken a bit aback; he wasnât expecting you to bring the topic up this early.
âAbout Sunny,â you add.
Sunny is the nickname you gave to your son. Neither you nor Jungkook wanted to give him a name, as you knew itâd be too heartbreaking to let him go. The nickname came naturally, and it gave your son a human dimension. When you were pregnant, it almost didnât feel real that there was a human inside you since you couldnât see him.
A little smile appears on his face as he remembers how you used to call your firstborn.
âIâd like to hear the story of how you found him.â
For the past sixteen years, youâve dreamed of meeting your son one day, but it was just a dream. You never thought that itâd actually happen. Obviously, you could have done everything in your power to find him, but that wouldnât be fair to him. However, youâre now curious to hear how Jungkook found him.
âWell, maybe you should go first to the bathroom because thereâs a lot to be said,â you simply nod.
Jungkook is wearing his firefighter uniform, and it suits him incredibly well. It definitely shows off his toned chest which could satisfy any hungry eyes, like yours, for example. Any lady would like to be saved by him.
Once you arrive at the bathroom, he waits outside for you. It takes you a bit of time to pee, wash your hands, and leave the room. Itâs painful too, and all you hope for is to go through this terrible phase as fast as possible.
The firefighter helps you to sit on the chair, and his kindness warms your heart. No doubt that he makes a great life savior.
âSo, tell me about Sunny,â you say the second youâre comfortably sitting.
Jungkook takes another chair to face you, and he rests his arms on the little table placed in between you.
âI found him to same way I found you,â he looks down at his hands with a little smile on his face. âI was called for a fire in a building complex almost two years ago,â he starts explaining. âIt was early in the morning, something like 6 am, and it was a pretty big fire. There was a fourteen-year-old lying on the floor, coughing like crazy so I naturally took him out of the building.â
Jungkook takes a little break, his eyes going from his hands to your eyes. His stare is intense; it unsettles you at first.
âOnce outside, I almost felt like I was looking at you and myself at the same time,â his voice is soft. âAnd one of my colleagues even said that the kid oddly resembled me.â Â
You canât imagine how it must have felt for him.
âI instantly knew it was Sunny, but I kind of didnât want to believe it,â his eyes clearly show how sad he feels. âIf it wasnât him, it would have broken me. I was already going through shit with my ex, so it wasnât an easy time for me at that time.â
Itâs visibly not easy for him to be talking about the situation with his ex-girlfriend.
âA couple of days later, he appeared at the station with his mother to thank me for saving him. In the daylight, it was more than obvious we shared DNA. Even a blind person could see the striking resemblance, but nobody said a word as if we were all scared to say the truth.â
âThat must have been an unbelievable moment,â you whisper.
âIt definitely was,â he chuckles. âBut looking back now, itâs almost funny. I still remember how shocked his mother was when she first saw me. Sunny looked confused, but his motherâs reaction was extremely funny.â
It eases your heart to know that he looks back at that moment with delight.
âThe day after, she came back but alone this time because she wanted to talk to me.â
His right hand grabs one of your fingers to play with it, causing your heart to hammer crazily in your chest. Jungkook is incredibly nervous to be talking about those moments, and he needs to look at something else than you. Â Â
âAs you can imagine, she asked me if I was his biological father, and all I could tell her was that I wasnât sure. I then proceeded to tell her that I had a son at seventeen and that we gave him up for adoption. She naturally asked me when he was born, and then, there werenât any doubts anymore. He was undoubtedly Sunny,â a smile full of pride appears on his face. âIâve been in contact with him since then, but I donât force anything. Iâm just happy to see him.â
For a moment, you look at him with wonder. This man is evidently happy to have found his firstborn and to be able to be part of his life. Jungkook didnât really want to give his son up for adoption, and you knew it. For a long time, you considered changing your mind because it was obvious that he wanted to be a father. Even though you were in love with him, adoption wasnât about you or him. It was about Sunny.
That baby boy deserved to have a good life. Not a chaotic one where you regretted having him because he was the impersonation of your sin, or because he destroyed your life as you became a teen mom. You werenât able to give him what he needed, and it was the best decision to have a family giving him what you couldnât.
âWhatâs his name?â you ask.
Right now, you donât know if you ever want to meet your son. It already brings you so much joy to know he found his biological father. But youâre also wondering what his name is. He has always been âSunnyâ to you.
âTaemoo,â he answers.
Thatâs a pretty name. His parents found the perfect name for that little boy.
âItâs beautiful,â you say.
âNot as pretty as Sunny,â he jokingly says.
Your fingers wrap around his right hand. This is a vulnerable moment for both of you. It brings you back to a past where you were confronted with a harsh reality. Nothing was easy back then. You were ripped between your hearts and minds. The heart wanted to keep Sunny, but the mind was being realistic.
The tears shed from the day you had to give him up still haunt you to this day. The heartbreak painted all over Jungkookâs face never leaves your mind. That day was the hardest day of your entire life; it ripped your heart open.
âDo you think there was a possibility we could have kept him?â you ask with a shaky voice.
His eyes look up at you.
âMaybe,â he frankly answers. âIf we werenât that young and stupid, we could have been the parents he needed.â
âI definitely was stupid,â you shake your head.
âYou werenât,â he says without any hesitation. âYou made a mistake, but that doesnât make you stupid.â
âSay that to Minho,â you retort.
Jungkook giggles.
âI would never approach him, even now,â that makes you smile. âMy face still hurts from his punch.â
After the pregnancy announcement to your ex-boyfriend, it was pure chaos. Minho went completely out of control due to his heartbreak. Obviously, he insisted on knowing who the father was, but you never flinched. Nonetheless, he instantly understood that it was Jungkook. He had noticed how he was constantly teasing you. Â Â
So, the first thing he did was punch Jungkook in the face. The basketball player didnât even fight back as he believed he deserved it. After all, he slept with a taken woman with absolutely no regrets.
Minho got even angrier because he wanted the player to respond. He was devastated by what happened, and you could only understand him. The day after, he went to another high school, and you never heard from him anymore.
âTo be honest, yn,â he starts saying. âBack then, there wasnât a possibility to keep him. My soul wanted to keep him, but it was for selfish reasons. I wanted to be a father but couldnât be one back then. There isnât a day where I donât feel grateful for the tough decision you took and stand for. It would have been a complete disaster.â
His hand squeezes yours, and just right there, with his words and touch, you just burst into tears. Those tears just came by total surprise, but deep down, those are the tears youâve been holding back for sixteen years. Hearing about your son and remembering the harsh moments you faced when he was inside you caused reality to hit you right in the face.
Jungkook instantly pushes the table aside to hold you in his embrace. You place your face on the crook of his neck while your arms wrap around him. It feels like youâre brought back to seventeen years ago when you announced your pregnancy.
âIâm so sorry,â you whisper.
âDonât be sorry,â he responds. âYouâre going through a lot now.â
There are some words Jungkook is dying to tell you, but itâs definitely not the appropriate moment. This is already shaking you up, so no need to add an extra layer.
Taemoo would like to meet you; itâs been actually one of his dreams. Jungkook has already told him a million things about you, and your son has been beyond happy to hear all those things about you. He also got to see a picture of you when you were sixteen.
So Jungkook definitely wants to tell you that Taemoo would like to meet you, but he doesnât know if this is the right time, especially since he doesnât know how youâll react.
âSometimes I regret so much that I gave him up,â you honestly say. âSometimes itâs just unbearable to remember the day I handed him over to the adoption center.â
His strong hands caress your back in an attempt to comfort you.
âItâs normal,â he whispers. âI do too,â he admits. âThere isnât a day that goes by where I donât think about his birth and when we said our last goodbyes to him.â
You hold him tightly, his strong arms comforting you in an unbelievable way. You donât want to let go of him. All you want is to cry in his arms until there arenât any tears left.
âWe did well, yn,â he tells you. âSunny has been having a wonderful life. A life that we could have never given him,â he tries to reassure you. âHis parents love him so much, allowed him to follow his dreams, and gave him everything he ever needed.â
As he got to meet Taemoo and his adoptive parents, he can reassure you now.
âThey are adorable people,â he adds. âAnd theyâve been taking good care of our Sunny.â
Jungkook spent most of his life wondering if good people adopted his son, and he would have hated himself if it wasnât the case. But when he got to meet Taemooâs parents, he saw how great they were. And above anything, he saw how great they raised him. Taemoo is a wonderful kid with a wonderful soul.
Hearing those words definitely reassures you. It comforts you that Sunny has been doing well and landed in a loving family. At the end of the day, thatâs all you ever wanted for your baby.
âThanks,â you whisper.
The firefighter smiles while holding you a bit tighter. For a little while, you stay like this without saying a word. Reuniting with Jungkook is the best thing that happens in the midst of all the chaos your life has become. It also allows you to think about something else other than the excruciating pain you constantly feel. Â
A nurse enters your room while youâre reading one of the many books youâve had left to read for the past years.
âThere is a young man who says heâs your son. Should I let him in?â
You frown in confusion, momentarily wondering if your son has been mistaken for someone else. Nevertheless, you nod.
âYes, please,â you say, placing your book aside and grabbing your cane to keep it close, just in case.
A soft knock sounds at the door before it opens, revealing a tall, nervous teenager. Your heart stops as you take in his face. It isnât Jeongâbut your oldest son.
As Jungkook described him a week ago, Taemoo definitely looks like the two of you. Nevertheless, his resemblance with his biological father is surprising. There is absolutely no doubt that he is Jungkookâs son. You understand now his motherâs reaction when she saw the firefighter.
âHello,â he says, his voice tentative, holding a bouquet of bright sunflowers.
His hands tremble slightly as he steps inside. As you look a bit more at him, you canât help but notice that heâs dressed thoughtfully, a gesture that tugs at your heart. Â
This moment feels absolutely unreal. Merely days ago you found out about his name, and today heâs standing in front of you.
âI am Taemoo,â he continues.
As you look at this not-so-little man, you wonder what you could say to him, but you have no clue.
âHello Taemoo,â you manage, your voice soft and unsteady. âCome in,â you add.
Taemooâor Sunny as youâve been affectingly calling him for the past sixteen yearsâcomes closer with some hesitation. Heâs clutching the flowers like a shield. Despite the nerves, thereâs a quiet strength about him.
âI donât have much to offer, but I have water, cookies, biscuits, and hot chocolate. Would you want something?â you propose.
âNo, thanks,â he gives you a little smile.
âPlease take a seat,â you offer while showing the chair next to yours.
For a little moment, he hesitates before sitting next to you. Your heart is hammering in your chest, ready to burst any second. The little man you gave birth to sixteen years ago is now standing before you. The same boy you gave up for adoption merely three days after his birth.
âSorry, I didnât properly introduce myself,â he mumbles.
As much as you want to tell him that he doesnât need to, you need to hear him say it out loud.
âI am Taemoo, your son,â he says.
âHello, Taemoo,â you gently say. âItâs a pleasure to meet you again.â
Tears start running down your face as you look at him. Sixteen years ago, you were holding him in your arms while your heart was completely ripped out. You were looking down at him knowing youâd have to say goodbye.
âI⌠I brought you these,â he shows the bouquet in his hands.
Your chest tightens as you take the flowers. âThank you,â you say, your voice thick with emotion. âTheyâre beautifulâsunflowers are my favorite.â
âI know,â he murmurs, glancing at the floor. âMr. Jeon told me.â
Your heart melts; this boy definitely seems to have a big heart. More silent tears run down your face while you look down again at the flowers.
âI have to ask,â you say after a little while. âHow did you find me?â
You try to clean your face to compose yourself.
âI was in the hospital for a checkup, and I noticed Mr. Jeon at the front desk asking about you,â he explains. âI also know your name because he gave it to me when we met,â he adds.
You nod slowly, absorbing his words. It kind of warms your heart that Jungkook talked about you to Taemoo, but it aches your heart that this is how he got to meet you. You would have largely preferred you had organized this reunion.
âIâm glad you came.â
Your firstborn shifts nervously in his chair. âI wasnât sure if I should,â he admits. âI didnât know if you ever wanted to see me.â
It breaks your heart to hear those words as you picture him worried to come. Thereâs no doubt that itâs brave of him to come here. He could have stumbled upon a mother who didnât want to see him; he was for sure aware of it.
âTaemoo,â you start saying. âYou have every right to be here,â your voice slightly trembles. âIâve spent the last sixteen years wondering how itâd be to see you again.â
But you also wondered if it was a good idea to even look for him. You never wanted to shake his world up, especially after giving him up for adoption.
âI donât want to bother you,â he says. âI justâŚâ heâs quite hesitating to continue his sentence, and you nod, silently encouraging him to proceed with what he has in mind. âI just needed to see you.â
âYouâre not bothering me at all,â you reassure him instantly.
For a moment, silence falls between you, heavy with unspoken emotions. You donât add anything else as you let him take the lead. Heâs the one who was brave enough to come so you want him to say everything his heart desires.
âI have questions,â he finally speaks. âAbout why. Why gave me up for adoption.â
You swallow hard, the lump in your throat growing.
âJungkook never told you why?â you question.
âYes, he did but he never spoke on your behalf. He only gave his reasons.â
This is the Jungkook that you know, and it is very fond of him.
âI couldnât be a mother,â your voice trembles. âI desired nothing more than to be a mother for you, but I couldnât give you what you needed. I wanted you to have a life I couldnât give you at the time.â
Itâs hard to tell him why you abandoned him. Youâre not even sure he can understand your reasons.
âI was just a girl when I had you; I was your age. I was so scared, but I thought only about your future. You deserved to have a good life, to have parents who would give you everything you needed. In my mind, the best thing for you was to give you up for adoption.â
Thereâs also the part where you cheated on your boyfriend, but thatâs something he doesnât need to know.
His expression is unreadable, but you notice his hands unclenching. This might be a good sign.
âDid you regret it?â his voice is barely above a whisper.
âEvery single day,â you confess. Youâre unable to stop the tears now. âThe day I handed you over was the hardest day of my life. Iâve spent the last sixteen years wondering what youâve become, but I was too afraid to find you,â you feel extremely vulnerable in front of your son. âI thought youâd hate me.â
Taemoo looks away, staring at the floor while he processes your words. It isnât easy for him to be here and to know the truth. Jungkook said the same time. He was too young to be a father; he was a total idiot back then, and he tried to give his son the best life he could.
âI donât hate you,â he softly says, and relief washes over you. âI never hated you because I had a good life, but Iâve spent my whole life wondering if I would have had as well a good life with my biological parents.â
Youâre convinced it wouldnât have been the case.
âThanks for answering my questions,â he gently says.
Another silence settles between you, but less tense this time.
âMr. JeonâŚâ he hesitantly says. âHe told me you like books,â he says, changing the subject.
At this stage, youâre wondering what Jungkook hasnât said about you. First, there are the flowers; now, itâs the books.
âWhat are you reading?â
Youâre grateful he swifts the topic of conversation. It was heavy to be talking to him about your painful past. Smiling, you reach for the book on the bed, and show it to Taemoo. Â
âItâs one of the books I bought years ago but never read,â he takes the book to look at it.
âI like books too,â he admits while looking at the book. âMostly history, and fantasy too.â
Your heart warms as he gives you a small glimpse into his life.
âIâd love to know what youâre reading,â you say. âMaybe you could recommend me something?â youâre hesitant.
âSure,â he straightaway answers. âMaybe next time.â
âNext time,â you murmur while holding onto those words like a lifeline.
Taemoo gives you a small smile. Slowly, you reach for his hand, and for a brief moment, he freezes, then lets you hold it.
âThanks, Taemoo,â your voice is filled with emotions.
He nods with still that small smile on his face. âIf you donât mind, we could exchange numbers?â he asks with hesitation.
âYes, of course,â you smile at him, giving his hand a small squeeze.
Your phone is on the other side of the bed, so you slowly try to get up with your glamorous cane. Taemoo stands up without any second thoughts to help you out. Heâs already as tall as Jungkook; you donât doubt heâll be taller than him. You walk very slowly, and your son doesnât leave your side in case you need him.
Once youâve reached your phone, you unlock it to give it to him. âYou can type your number and save it,â you say.
Taemoo freezes when he notices your background. There are three kids, and he realizes how much they resemble him. Even though he looks a lot like Jungkook, he also takes a lot after you.
âAre those my siblings?â he asks when he glances at you.
âYes,â you answer. âI had three other kids years after you.â
âThey look adorable,â he tells you before proceeding to save his number on your phone.
He calls himself, so he can also have your number. After that, he helps you to sit again on the chair before leaving the room. The room suddenly feels empty as Taemoo leaves you alone with the flowers and the overwhelming realization that your sonâthe boy you thought youâd lost foreverâis finally back in your life.
Today, Jungkook took a day off because heâs going out with you.
Itâs not really a date âat least, that's what youâre both trying to convince yourselves. Itâs been like a week that youâre out of the hospital, and he promised heâd take you on a car ride. Even though you walk better than you did some days ago, youâre still very slow. However, it doesnât change the fact that you want to go out a bit.
For the past few days, youâve both spent a lot of time together. Itâs been great to be around you again. Things are very different now because youâre both grown-ups with kids, and thereâs a lifetime that happened since you last saw each other. But he still feels the same around you. He still has that massive crush on you.
Honestly, he thought that with time, itâd fade away, but he was wrong. He understood it the second he pulled you out of that car. Being around you brings him peace. He feels like he doesnât have to play a role; he simply can be himself.
âWhere are we going?â you ask.
âSomewhere,â he quickly eyes you before focusing on the road again.
Sixteen years ago, he knew he could never have you because of the circumstances. It was obvious to him that you loved him back, but it simply wasnât possible. However, today, things are different. He still has a crush on you, and he will do everything in his power to not let you go.
âYouâll like it,â he smiles at you.
You look at him with suspicion.
âLetâs see,â you mumble.
Since youâve been discharged from the hospital, Jungkook has been kind of scared to put you back in a car. So, for this day out, he asked you a million times if youâd be okay. You reassured him because it didnât really frighten you.
Your baby daddy has been thoughtfully thinking about the place he could take you to. There are for sure hundreds of places, but he wants something special. However, above anything else, he wants to distract you.
He has noticed how you sometimes contort with pain. Definitely, you try to hide it but he can see it through your eyes. Most of the time, he feels sorry to see you in that state. It doesnât look great at all. Nonetheless, heâs been trying to help.
Taemoo has also passed by once or twice at your parentsâ place. Jungkook has never been present because he wants you two to get to know each other without him being in the middle. He definitely wishes the three of you to be reunited, but letâs take this step by step. Itâs difficult for everyone.
âHow has it been going to come back home?â he asks.
âNot easyâŚâ you admit. âThe kids struggle to not be staying at my place, even myself.â
Unfortunately, you canât stay alone since anything can happen and you need help. So youâre staying at your parentâs place. Youâre sleeping in your old bedroom that has since been transformed into a kidâs room for your babies. Your old bed is still there, but it doesnât feel like your actual bed.
âThey cry when they have to leave with their father. They really want to stay at my parentsâ place with me, but itâs already very crowded.â
Your sister still lives with your parents, sheâs only 22; sheâs still very young. Well, she refuses to let you call her young because, at 22, you were getting married to Minkyu.
âThey understand the situation, but it doesnât change the fact that itâs hard for them.â
Jungkook nods as he can only imagine how this situation feels for everybody. Hopefully, things will slowly get better, and youâll be able to recover quickly.
âI donât like to complain, but itâs already physically hard, so seeing them like that makes it harder,â you admit.
It leaves you wondering if it will be like that until the end of your recovery.
âThen, itâs a good thing I take you out for a little bit today,â he smiles, trying to change the conversation.
âIt is,â you smile at him.
Itâs warming your heart that he has been very present for almost a month. There hasnât been a day where he didnât visit you, even if it was for five minutes. You feel lucky to have him during this tough time; heâs been quite a comforting and reassuring presence.
After maybe half an hour, you reach a parking lot from a park located on a high hill. Itâs a park you and Jungkook terribly loved. Youâd come here towards the end of the pregnancy when you couldnât sleep.
âSo, what do you think?â
âI like this place,â a bright smile grows on your face.
âI know,â he says.
This is definitely very thoughtful of him.
Jungkook leaves the car to help you get out of it. As you think you are going to walk for a bit, the man just holds you in his arms, one of his arms under your back, and the other under your legs. You instantly wrap your hands around his neck. Your faces are pretty close, and all thoughts are shut down by the irresistible desire to kiss him.
âSince thereâs a lot to walk before reaching our spot, itâs better if I bring you there,â he confesses.
âAlways trying to play the superhero,â you mumble.
âEeh, Iâm not,â he straight away answers. âIâm just trying to make your life easier.â
You roll your eyes while giggling.
âI can let you walk if you prefer but donât blame it on me afterward,â he says while slowly pretending to put you down.
âOkay, okay,â you retreat in defeat. âTake me there.â
A smile grows on his face before he starts walking in the direction of your spot. Itâs a bench where you have the perfect view of the city. At night, itâs wonderful as the buildings are lightening up. You spent many nights here sixteen years ago with your head on his shoulder, and your hand on your belly. Sunny would kick quite a lot during those moments, and Jungkookâs hand would rest on your bump to feel his son.
You were young and stupid, but definitely in love at that moment. A month before your sonâs birth, you shared a passionate kiss on that bench. It was a highly desired one. You shared other kisses afterward but they never felt like that first one.
Surprisingly, when you reach the famous bench, nobody is sitting there. Usually, back in the day, that bench was always occupied during the day, only being empty at night.
âIt almost feels like you booked the bench,â you chuckle.
âI could of,â he answers. âBut I donât have the means.â
Jungkook sits you down on the bench before taking a seat next to you. Gently, he grabs your legs to place them on top of his. Heâs aware of how painful it can be for you to have your knees bent. At least like that, they are almost flat.
âThanks for bringing me here,â your eyes look at the handsome firefighter instead of the pretty view.
The man only offers you a gentle smile, and the two of you now look at the city stretching before your eyes. It is very different than it was sixteen years ago. The city has grown bigger, some buildings were replaced by others or some even were destroyed. Everything is different while still being the same. Like how it feels to be around Jungkook. Â
âCan I ask you a question?â Jungkook breaks the silence between you.
Your eyes look back at him, and his expression is unreadable.
âSure,â you nod.
âWould you have given us a shot if you hadnât gotten pregnant?â he asks with some sort of hesitation.
The questions catches you by surprise as it is the last thing you thought heâd ever ask.
âTo be honest, I donât know,â you say. âI was feeling so guilty about what I did to Minho, I felt stupid, and I was avoiding you.â
Well, he felt that.
âI avoided you because I really adored what happened with you,â you say. âYou were really good in bed,â he smiles at your words. âBut I looked at you differently because I got pregnant.â
Sixteen years ago, you never had a conversation about your feelings for him. But it definitely looks like youâre having it now.
âYou were by my side every second. Youâd cook whatever I was craving, youâd be at every appointment, youâd hold me when I cried, youâd do anything when I was in pain, and youâd bring me here when I couldnât sleep.â
Your heart is beating fast as youâre about to pronounce the next words.
âI fell in love with that Jungkook,â the firefighterâs heart is also hammering in his chest. âNot with the jerk whoâd flirt with me.â
His cheeks are getting red with shyness. After all these years, and even though he knew his feelings were reciprocated, he feels like a teenager falling in love for the first time.
âWe were two when we conceived Sunny, so I naturally had to get my shit together and be by your side and help you as much as I could,â he says. âI was for sure a jerk back then, but Iâd always assume the consequences of my actions.â
His heart is hammering faster as he takes his courage to speak out loud about how he has been feeling about you.Â
âI also had a crush on you so I also saw that as a way to spend more time with you,â now youâre the one blushing.
Anyone observing this scene from outside would instantly get how smitten you are. The person would even bet that youâre together.
âDo you still have a crush on me?â you question.
Youâre way too curious, but you definitely want to know because damn, youâd kiss that man right now.
Jungkook gets closer to your face, his hands moving to your thighs to caress them. Not in a sensual way.
âWhat would happen if I say yes?â he whispers when his face is extremely close to yours.
âYouâll have to find out,â you teasingly say.
His eyes move from your eyes to your lips as he desires nothing but the same as you. To kiss you.  Â
âYes,â he says without any hesitation. âI still have a crush on you.â
You bite your lower lip before breaking the small space between you to fervently kiss him. Having his lips finally against yours feels like a relief, almost as if youâve been waiting sixteen years to feel them again.
The kiss is shy at first as if youâre both scared but it slowly turns into a desperate and fervent one. One of his hands goes to the back of your neck while the other remains on your thigh. Your hands cup his face while you intensely kiss each other.Â
This feels like heaven for you two. You open your mouth, giving him free access to it. His tongue doesnât hesitate one second to find yours. Gently, your tongues meet and it feels wonderful. Inside of your lower belly, thousands of butterflies are freed. Never have you thought that this would happen again although youâve thought about it since reuniting with him.
When youâre both out of breath, you break the kiss and rest your forehead against his. For a moment, you simply look at each other while you catch your breath. Jungkookâs fingers softly caress your face, and you close your eyes to savor this moment.Â
âIâve dreamed of this since I found you again,â he admits.
Jungkook presses once more his mouth against yours. A soft moan leaves his mouth when your lips meet. He wants to keep doing this forever. He teasingly bites your lower lip which causes a moan to escape your mouth. A devious smirk appears on his face but he gets back to kissing you fervently.
Before the kiss takes a very dirty turn, you break it. âIt isnât the appropriate place for that,â you whisper.
He giggles as he realizes he was ready to take it to the next level in a public place. The firefighter presses a gentle kiss on your lips before you resume to admire the view.
After a couple of hours, he takes you back to your parentsâ house. Your mind is filled with euphoria from the kisses you shared earlier, and you canât help but smile every time you think about it. Kissing Jungkook still feels the same. It still tastes like heaven. Â
When youâre home, you notice nobodyâs here which is a bit weird, especially since you warned your parents youâll take a shower today. Maybe they went for a walk since you were with Jungkook.
âWould you mind staying a bit?â you ask. âI need to take a shower, and I wouldnât feel comfortable alone.â
âYeah, no problem,â he says.
Jungkook assists you until you reach the bathroom and grabs underwear, a bra, pants, and a shirt from your bedroom.
âYouâre sure youâll be able to be by yourself?â he asks with concern.
âI have a stool and everything I need has been placed at the stool level,â you explain. âSo donât worry.â
Jungkook canât help but feel worried. Even if itâd be weird to be in the bathroom with you, heâd feel reassured.
âIf I need anything, Iâll call you,â you add.
Thereâs not much he can do, except to leave you alone.
âOkay,â he presses a gentle kiss on your lips before leaving.
You sit on the stool to get undressed. To remove your shirt and bra, itâs quite easy, but to take off your pants and panties, itâs a whole other story. Your mother has been helping you a lot with the shower part, and youâve been feeling like a five-year-old who canât do much by herself.
The last two showers, youâve been able to do everything by yourself, and youâve been very proud of yourself. However, right now, youâre struggling a lot. Itâs frustrating you beyond comprehension, but you remind yourself that you need to calm down otherwise, itâll only be worse.
After a little while, you simply resign and call for Jungkook. He arrives in a rush, and his heart breaks a little when he sees your defeated face.
âStruggling?â he asks when he notices your pants stuck at your knees level.
âI canât push them further than that,â you pout.
He walks in your direction, kneeling before you. âLet me help you.â
His hands carefully push your pants down and throw them onto the floor. Then, before even touching your panties, his eyes look up at you, asking for your consent. Even though you called him for help, he wouldnât want to cross any line. Consent is important, after all.
You simply nod, you donât have much of a choice here. His fingers brush against the skin of your hips, causing goosebumps all over your body. Last time he touched you there was the day you conceived Taemoo, sixteen years ago. Your eyes are frozen on him.
Jungkook grabs the hem of your panties to push them down your legs, his fingers brushing against your hot skin. Youâre now fully naked in front of him, and it feels incredibly weird although he already saw you like this. But at the same time, it feels reassuring to have him here with you.
âDo you want me to help you wash? Or would you be fine now?â he asks while standing up.
âHelp me please,â you almost beg. âNot sure Iâll be able to wash if I canât even remove my clothes,â you laugh a bit.
You try not to cry at this whole situation. Itâs better to laugh at it than cry.
âOkay,â he turns the water on. âYouâre going to wash your hair?â
âNo, no,â you answer. âJust my body.â
The man in front of you nods and hands you the showerhead.
âLet me know when it is too hot,â he tells you.
Youâre holding the showerhead with one hand while the other is below to check the water temperature. In the meantime, Jungkook removes his socks in order for him to get inside the shower.
Once done, his eyes look at you with admiration. For almost a month, youâve been going through hell with everything that has been going on. Youâve been handling things like a champion even though itâs sometimes very clear youâre suffering terribly. He has nothing but admiration for you.
His heart swells with happiness because, in the midst of all that, you chose to let him be by your side. He even got to kiss you.
âItâs good now,â you tell him with a smile. Â
Jungkook grabs the showerhead to run it over your body. He carefully executes the task while being extremely focused on not forgetting any body parts of yours.
âWith my mum, we always do the intimate parts at the end,â you inform him.
âNo problem,â he answers.
Once your body has been fully covered in water, he seizes the shower gel.
âDo you want to do it?â he asks with the gel in his hands.
Usually, with your mum, you do it, but with Jungkook, youâll gladly let him do it. You really want to feel his fingers touch your body.Â
âCould you please do it?â he nods.
Jungkook understands that you simply want to feel his touch, and he wonât complain as he desires nothing but to touch your soft skin.
There is nothing sexual about this moment. The two of you would even say that itâs a very intimate moment, even more intimate than sex.
The man covers your entire body with soap before holding back the showerhead to clean you. Once done, you stand up so you can clean your last body parts, which are your vagina and ass. This time around, you want to do it yourself as you feel like it could take a naughty turn if he touches you down there.
Jungkook leaves the shower. âWhere are the towels?â
âIn the storage cabinet below the sink,â you inform him.
Seconds later, when you cut the water, he wraps you in the towel before you sit back again on the stool.
âThanks for your help,â you say.
As you slowly wake up, you feel a warm presence behind you which is something not normal. Since youâve been back from the hospital, youâve been sleeping alone in your old bed.
Then, you start remembering what happened yesterday. After the shower, your parents arrived and were very delighted to see Jungkook. A bit later, your sister came from work. Your parents naturally invited him to stay for dinner.
Once dinner was over, you practically begged him to stay the night. You then went to your room, and watched âEnola Holmes 2â, but you instantly fell asleep with your body pressed against his, your head against his chest. Â His heartbeat was the little melody that rocked you to sleep.
Your eyes adjust to the light in which the room is immersed. You turn around to see Jungkook sleeping like a baby, and he looks absolutely adorable.
In this quite big bed, it seems like heâs so far away from you as he isnât close to you. Thereâs a distance between the two of you that makes you smile; you know he purposely put that distance. He respects you way too much, and he wouldnât do anything to make you feel uncomfortable.Â
You turn again before closing your eyes to remember what happened yesterday. It was an intense day, but intense in a good way. As you remember the kisses you shared, you run your fingers over your lips. He still kisses like a god. Â
Yesterday, you felt so much alive. You didnât feel that way for already a couple of years. Hopefully, this is a feeling thatâll stay longer. You donât want it to fade away so soon. Â
Suddenly, the bed moves behind you. A big hand carefully wraps around your waist while a mouth presses a gentle kiss on your shoulder, and a body snuggles up against yours. Instantly, your eyes close to savor this precise moment.Â
Both of you snuggle together for a little while, just enjoying the closeness of your bodies together. Waking up with someone and with his arms wrapped around you is something you havenât experienced in a while. The last time it happened was when you were still married to Minkyu.
âGood morning, sunshine,â he whispers with his hoarse morning voice before pressing a sweet kiss on your neck.Â
Goosebumps rise all over your skin because this is a beautiful way to wake up. Damn, you wouldnât mind waking up every day to this.
Jungkook feels your shivers beneath his hand, a smirk growing on his face. It feels like a victory to have already made you feel this good so early in the morning. Â
âMorning, Jungkook,â you whisper.Â
Naturally, your back arches, pushing your ass back to meet his crotch which makes him groan against your skin. Your cheeks instantly turn red and you push your ass away from his intimate parts.
âSorry,â you say.
Jungkook also feels a bit embarrassed that his little friend down there is already all turned on. But what can he say, he spent the night with the girl of his dreams.
âIâm the one whoâs sorry,â he whispers. âIâm already all turned on.â
Since youâre still flustered, you donât dare to turn to look at him. Heâs also grateful for that; he would hide his face in the pillow if you ever look at him.
âItâs not a bad thing,â you say. âI mean, itâs normal.â
âI know, but itâs awkward for both of us,â he answers.
For a moment, you donât say anything as you try to find your words.
âIâm actually flattered,â you break the silence. âWasnât expecting to turn someone on this early in the morning.â
Jungkook gets closer to you once more, his hard member pressing against your ass through his underwear. That feeling alone causes your walls to clench around emptiness. You also bite your lower lip to repress any moan that might escape your mouth. Youâre at your parentsâ house, anyone could hear you.
His arms wrap around your waist once more before he presses another kiss on your neck. A very soft moan manages to escape, causing Jungkook to feel some kind of pride. His fingers slip beneath your shirt to caress every part of your body with his cold fingers.
Your back arches at the sensation while one of your hands goes to his head, your fingers running through his hair. Your other hand goes to your mouth to muffle the sounds of your moans. You donât know exactly what time it is, so youâre not sure if thereâs somebody at the house. To be safe, itâs better not to moan like a mess.
Then, his fingers move down on your body, pushing your pajamasâ pants and underwear together. The cold air that brushes against your core makes you grow wetter. Thank god you have your hand in your mouth because thereâs no doubt this would have made you moan.
His fingers slowly get closer and closer to your bundle of nerves. By the time his fingers reach your clit, youâre already completely soaked.Â
âSomeone else is already all turned on,â he whispers in your ear before licking and nibbling it. âTell me what you want, sunshine.âÂ
The simple fact that he asks what you want is a big turn-on. Men tend to forget that during an intimate moment, it isnât all about themselves and their pleasure. Itâs about two people trying to give and have pleasure.
Your back arches a bit more, rubbing your ass more against his semi-hard cock. A deep growl echoes against your ear. Your mind is going completely crazy. Thereâs one thing you desperately crave right now: him inside you.
âYou,â is actually the first word that crosses your mind. âYou inside me with your hand on my throat,â you clarify.Â
Well, the only time you had sex with Jungkook, it was pretty wild. You both discovered how much you adored having his fingers tightly around your neck. It gave a totally other dimension to the sex. It was even more intense, and you loved it.
âYouâre sure?â he still asks to be sure.
He doesnât want to cause any more pain.Â
âAbsolutely,â you reassure him.
Your eyes close when his free hand finds its way to your neck, his wonderful and delicate tattooed fingers wrapping around your throat. This feels wonderful, and it gets you wetter.
As you feel a moan ready to leave your mouth, you sink your teeth into your lower lip. Thereâs no way youâre going to muffle all your moans. This is already too wild for you, and you know itâs going to get even wilder.
âIâd give anything to see the way you look with my hand around that pretty neck of yours, sunshineâ he whispers in the shell of your ear, his deep voice emphasizing the word âsunshineâ.Â
With your eyes closed, you can perfectly picture the way his hand fits on you. Jungkook can imagine it too, causing chills to run through his skin.Â
While his hand caresses your neck, the other one does wonders to your clit. The torture is exquisite, nothing feels as good as having his hands on you. His hand works harder on your core to make you wetter. The man is already desperate to give you what you want. Him inside you.Â
Once he feels youâre wet enough, his fingers leave your pussy alone to pull your leg up a bit, this way will be easier for him to push his cock inside you. Quite rapidly, he takes off his underwear.
âAt any time, let me know if I hurt you, okay?â he whispers with evident concern.
âDonât worry, Kook,â you say. Â
His lips pepper the back of your neck with kisses. Your hand goes behind to stroke his cock a bit before rubbing it for a little while against your soaked core.Â
âShit, yn,â he groans against your skin.Â
You bite your lower lip because, damn, itâs fucking hot to wake up to this.
As you feel him growing harder in your hand, you decide to push his length into your heated core. Your pussy sucks him all in, his head stretching you open as he goes further inside you.
âYou always feel amazing,â he hisses once he bottoms up.
Small and barely audible moans and whimpers leave the two of you as you both enjoy feeling your bodies connected. Jungkook doesnât move for a few seconds, giving your body time to adjust to him.
Itâs been a while since you last had sex together, and Jungkookâs cock tends to be quite big. That was for sure something youâd never forget. How could you? If you compare to all the dicks you experience, heâd be the biggest.
But it isnât the kind of big that makes it painful. Itâs actually the opposite. Youâd say that his dick is simply perfect.
âMove, Kook,â you give him a small slap on his ass to urge him.Â
You need him, in ways you canât even express.Â
The man doesnât need to be told twice before he starts thrusting into you very slowly and deeply with his hand still around your throat. The slick sound of your pussy soaking his cock as well as the creaky bed quickly fills the room.Â
Jungkook takes all his time, he isnât rushing anything because damn, he wants you both to enjoy this moment. His lips stay on your shoulder, pressing soft kisses to avoid moaning. His other hand holds your leg up while he rolls his hips in a way that you absolutely adore.Â
The hand on your neck and his dick deep inside you are the perfect combos to make you come in a snap. None of you speak, only enjoying this torrid moment.
The man behind you feels that heâs slowly losing you, that youâre losing yourself further in the pleasure that only he can give you. So, he lightly tightens his hand around your throat to help you reach your orgasm faster.Â
âFuck,â you swear as his fingers wrap tighter around your neck.Â
This is more than bliss for you, you could just come right now because of his hand but you donât want to let go of your orgasm. You want to let it grow immensely until it becomes too overwhelming for you. You want this orgasm to be like an explosion of fireworks inside you.Â
âYou take me so well,â he whispers before bringing your face closer to his to press his lips against yours. Your walls clench around him causing his cock to twitch inside you. A guttural groan leaves his pretty lips, a groan that you happily swallow. Â
Wanting to bring him closer to the edge, you start moving your hips in circles while he keeps thrusting into you at a very slow and torturous pace. His lips leave yours, his eyes close shut, and barely audible moans keep flooding out of his mouth.   Â
âKeep doing that, yn,â he pants.  Â
His cock goes deeper inside you, filling you up fully and hitting all the right spots which causes the pleasure to grow stronger within you. Your moans are harder to suppress, it feels good to be railed by Jungkook this early in the morning. Morning sex is honestly one of the best types of sex.
He groans deeply against your ear, your orgasm building stronger and stronger. You know that in a matter of seconds, youâll be coming undone, and Jungkook senses it too. Your hips never stop moving in tandem with his but as you get closer to your high, your walls squeeze him harder.Â
As he gets lost in the euphoria of the moment, he starts thrusting more harshly. Both of you are chasing your own orgasm while bringing the other closer to the edge. It doesnât take you too much time to be fiercely hit by that overwhelming wave of pleasure, making you come undone around his massive cock.Â
âJungkook, fuck!â you cry with ecstasy, your hips stopping completely to move but the man behind you never stops moving.Â
âCan I come inside?â you simply nod, barely able to make a proper sentence in the middle of this euphoric state.  Â
Both his hands move to your hips, gripping them tightly as he releases his thick load inside you. A lewd moan escapes your mouth when he pumps his hot cum inside you, pushing it as deep as possible inside you.Â
For a little while, both of you stay in this position, his hands still holding you tight against him while his cock remains inside you. None of you wants to break this moment but you have to since youâll need to leave the bed. Â
Very slowly, you remove yourself from his cock to stand up from the bed. âCan I ask you to help me put on my underwear and pants?â you ask.
Without hesitation, Jungkook stands up while grabbing your clothes. As yesterday, he kneels before you to dress you. A smile spreads across your face as you look down at him. This man is, without any doubt, the kind of man you want to have in your life. Heâs been nothing but a sweetheart with you.
âThanks a lot, Jk,â you say once fully dressed.
The man carefully spreads your legs to situate himself between them.
âNo problem, sunshine,â he presses a gentle kiss on your lips.
âAlso, Iâd like to mention that I take the pill,â you mention with a silly smile on your face. âSo we wonât have any other surprise kid.â
Jungkook smiles and kisses you once more.
âIâm glad to know that,â he whispers against your lips.
Still fully naked, he stands up to assist you to do the same. Once youâre straightened up, you take the glamorous cane. At the same time, Jungkook puts his clothes back on because thereâs no way heâs going to leave this bedroom naked. Itâd be way too embarrassing.
This impressive man helps you go to the bathroom and, then, to the kitchen. At first, it seems like thereâs only the two of you since you donât hear any noise. However, to your surprise, when you reach the kitchen, you find your sister sitting at the table and eating breakfast.
âGood morning,â you say with evident joy.
âOnly good morning to you,â she snaps back.
You frown with confusion. Your sister looks you dead in the eyes, totally ignoring Jungkookâs presence in the same room.
âI really didnât need to know how you two conceived your first kid,â she explains.
Both you and Jungkook open your eyes wide; you werenât expecting that at all. But there were chances that someone would have heard you. Itâs definitely weird your sister was the one. You wouldnât want to hear her having sex with someone.
âHopefully, this time around, there wonât be any other kid,â Jungkook manages to say. Â
Your sister laughs a bit. âI like this one,â she takes a sip of coffee. âHe seems better than the other ones, and heâs also a lot hotter than them.â
Jungkook starts laughing as he helps you to take a seat.
âSheâs funny,â he whispers to your ear.
âDonât be silly,â you tell your sister. âAnd please, go find a guy so you donât drool over mine.â
Although you havenât defined your relationship for now, heâs flattered you consider him as âyour guyâ.
âHow can I compete with a firefighter?â she teases. âAnyone will feel boring next to Jungkook,â she adds.
âIf you want, I can introduce you to my colleagues,â he suggests.
âDonât encourage her in her nonsense,â you tell him.
âYes, please,â she says with enthusiasm.
You roll your eyes. Sheâs unbelievable and definitely very crazy, but thatâs maybe why you love her so damn much. Â
After that, together with Jungkook, you prepare breakfast while speaking with your sister. She leaves a couple of minutes later because she needs to meet with her best friend downtown. And right after her, Jungkook leaves you alone in your parentsâ house which breaks your heart. However, you donât stay very long by yourself as your kids come to visit you with their father.
Three weeks later
You and Jungkook are sitting at a table in a fancy restaurant. Your heart is beating fast with nervousness.
âEverything is going to be fine,â he tries to reassure you while resting his hand on top of yours.
âDonât know,â you mumble.
Today, youâve organized a dinner with Jungkook and Taemoo; your first time as a family. Itâs weird to even think about it, but Taemoo really wanted to spend some time with you, together. Since he proposed this, youâve been feeling very nervous. Youâre a bit scared of how things will go when youâre finally the three of you together.
âThereâs no reason for this to not go well,â he answers.
Before you can even answer, Taemoo joins you with a bright smile on his face. Like the first time you met him, heâs very well dressed.
âHello,â he says. âI brought you these,â he hands you a tiny bouquet composed of three sunflowers. âItâs one sunflower for each of us.â
Your heart has completely melted now. This kid is so damn thoughtful, just like his biological father. His parents definitely raised him well, and it only reassures you that the decision you made sixteen years ago was the right one.
âHello, Taemoo,â you say while standing up to hold your son in your arms. âThanks a lot.â
Your firstborn wraps his arms around yours. This is a heartfelt moment; being able to hug him fills your heart with so much love. It feels like holding Jiwoo even though you didnât raise Taemoo. Unfortunately, you canât hold him for a long moment due to your wonderful knees. So he then greets Jungkook before taking a seat in the empty chair.
âThanks for accepting this,â those are his first words.
Although he seems very happy and relaxed, you notice heâs a bit stressed.
âAfter seeing you separately, I really wanted to spend a bit of time with the two of you,â he starts saying. âNot sure how this will evolve in the future, but Iâd like to sometimes organize this kind of diner.â
For the past few weeks, your life has drastically changed, and honestly, sometimes, you feel like itâs too much. However, having Jungkook and Sunny back in your life is what you consider to be a blessing. In all this chaos, you found two deeply important people that you left sixteen years ago.
The sixteen-year-old version of you was devasted to part ways from them two, thinking that youâll never see them again. If she could see this today, the heartbreak would have been less painful. But that version of you is beyond happy today to see the three of you sitting at the same table.
This car accident destroyed your knees and stomach, but it has brought you Jungkook and Sunny. All of this would not be happening without this accident.
You also canât wait to see your three other little munchkins with the man you love and their older sibling. Undoubtedly, that day will be the most wonderful day of your life. Now, you feel like you can finally truly be happy. You now have all the people you need to be happy. Â Â Â
#bts#bts fanfic#bts imagine#jeon jungkook#jungkook fanfic#jungkook imagine#bts fluff#jungkook fluff#bts angst#jungkook angst#bts smut#jungkook smut#bts x reader#jungkook x reader#wait for your love#spideyjimin
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the art in this was so fucken good. the back cover hell hounds were collage, i think? i don't know, they ruled. i'm probably gonna thin out all my RP books some day to make space in my tiny home, but this one stays.
Man, Palladium RPGs exhaust me. In a good way, but still, exhausting. This is the first edition of Beyond the Supernatural (1987). Players take various sorts of psychics who then investigate supernatural mysteries that can fall anywhere on the horror spectrum, from farcical to gruesome.
As with most Palladium games, there are at least two truckloads of rules too many. The main innovation here is Potential Psychic Energy (PPE) which is how Psychic Character Classes (PCCs â it wouldnât be Palladium without lots of abbreviations) do their thing. Itâs basically a point system for any sort of mental powers or magic and replaces the D&D-derived spells-per-day style systems that were in TMNT, Palladium Fantasy and other games up to this point. PPE and the underlying psychic/magic systems would become an important component of Rifts. A fun section of source material tackles Ley lines and sites of power that will also be important for that later game (and is, along with the bestiary, which includes a lot of unusual monsters from non-European traditions, is the most fun section of the book). I tend to think Palladium games are too complicated for me, and I definitely think this one is too much for horror (and too combat oriented). YMMV of course.
So much amazing artwork, though. A cover by Richard Corben? Hell yea! Kevin Long was still pumping out illustrations for Palladium at this point, but this is one of the rare times I think heâs out-shined â Steve Bissette contributes a ton of work to this book, and it is all grimy and shadowy and full of toothy danger. Itâs hard to compete with a master.
#love bts#even tho the system is bad#i like the system too#probably still wouldn't use it#but it's fun to ponder
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#words#sad thoughts#childhood#inner child#ruined childhood#trauma#life qotes#life lessons#life#literature#young love#self love#eldest daughter#middle child#dark academia#depressing shit#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#lana del rey#ariana grande#bts#bts army#dark aesthetic#poetry#love quotes#bangtan#relationship#love#happiness#i hate this
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CRAZY | JJK (Part 1)
summary you know it sounds twisted. that most people would see hyungwon as the perfect boyfriend. healthy, balanced, all the things that relationships should be. thatâs when you realized... you weren't like most people. but that's okay. because neither is jungkook.
pairing ceo!jk x employee!(f)reader
rating 18+ minors dni; smut, fluff, angst
genre coworkers to lovers au, established relationship
word count 15.5k
content jk 29 | yn 26, very jealous controlling and possessive jk, same for oc, spirited & bratty oc, jk is rich and spoils his girl, pet names, toxic relo, jk is a red flag, oc is a red flag, theyâre obsessed w each other, bonnie n clyde ride or die type shit, soft yandere, drama, mc arguments, cursing, they get angry quick and over it quicker, bar fighting, jk punches a guy.. or two, blood, oc is roughly grabbed on arm by a male w/o consent, canon couple
warnings dom jk, sub oc, pre established traffic light sw system, daddy kink, consensual degradation, fingering (f rec), oral (f rec), dirty talk, breeding kink, condomless p in v sex, oc has a birth control implant, multiple orgasms, creampie, kinda rough(?) sex but i think it ends quite softly, theyre dirty and in love!
a/n pls read all the warnings first & only proceed if ur comfortable!! these two are superr obsessively codependent and possessive so tread lightly baby đââď¸!! im kinda self conscious abt the smut but i like the fic part and i hope u do too <<3 lemme know if i missed any tags đ¤ mwah
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There was something dangerous about him. Something you couldnât help but be drawn to, no matter how much you knew you shouldnât. It was like playing with fireâintoxicating, thrilling⌠stupid.
You knew it complicated things, maybe even made life harder, but you never had been one to back down from a challenge. And when someone like Jeon Jungkookâthe kind of man who looked like pure trouble but made you feel more alive than you ever hadâwalked into your life, resisting him was never even an option.
It hadnât always been like this. You used to date Park Hyungwon, after all.
Hyungwon was perfectly fine. Kind, sweet, thoughtful in all the ways that made him a good guy. The type who held open doors and asked if you wanted to split dessert. Youâd met him through his cousin, Jiminâyour colleague and an absolute angel on Earth. In fact, you ended up closer to Jimin than you ever were with Hyungwon.
Because Hyungwon? He was just⌠ordinary.
There was nothing wrong with ordinary. Some people needed that. They craved stability, predictability. But you? You realized a long time ago that you needed more. You craved intensity. You needed to feel like someoneâs whole world. And when your boyfriend didnât care who you were with, what you were doing, when he didnât even notice if you went days without texting⌠well, you started to feel invisible.
You knew it sounded twisted. That most people would see Hyungwon as the perfect boyfriend. Healthy, balanced, all the things that relationships should be. But thatâs when you realized... you werenât like most people.
And then he entered the picture.
Jeon Jungkook, CEO of Jeon Corp, son of the late Jeon Jun-seo.
Youâd been at Jeon Corp for three years now, starting as a temp and moving into a more permanent role. Everyone knew himâthe young, ruthless leader who took over seamlessly and ran things with an iron grip after his father's passing. People admired him, respected him. Feared him.
It had been two years since you made it official with the man you knew was the epic love of your life. Before that, you were friends with benefits forâwhat, a week? Maybe less. You both knew right from the start that there was no going back to being just colleagues or fuck-buddies. He consumed you, and you reveled in every second of it.
In the early days of your relationship, you couldnât help but worry. Maybe your promotion had less to do with your work ethic and more to do with Jungkook lusting for you. It was hard not to question it, especially when he was your boss, and you knew exactly how intense his desire for you was. But Jungkook shut that shit down fast.
He had hundreds of employees under him, most of whom he hadnât even had a proper conversation with. Heâd approached you solely because of your performanceâyour results catching his attention long before he even knew what you looked like. Jimin had confirmed it.
Still, you loved teasing him about itâhow heâd basically been eye-fucking you the entire time during your first real meeting. Jungkook never denied it. He would just give you that cheeky, devilish grin of his, reminding you just how that meeting had concludedâwith you, bent right over his desk.
Now, sitting at Lumiâs bar with the soft murmur of conversations and the clink of glasses fading into background noise, your phone buzzed with a new message. A smile tugged at the corners of your lips, heat spreading through your veins as you read his words.
My Love 10:43 PM Why is your location off? Sent with Siri
10:43 PM Turn it on. Now. Sent with Siri
You bit your lip, already imagining the storm brewing inside him. He was driving, and now probably wasnât the best time to mess with him. But you were still pissed. And the brat in you couldnât resist poking him just a little more.
You 10:47 PM i'm out, my love.
His reply was immediate, almost before you even hit send.
My Love 10:47 PM Not in the mood baby. Turn it on
You rolled your eyes, stifling a laugh as you took another sip of your drink. You could picture him now, pulling the car over, typing furiously with that adorable, frustrated frown. Oh, he was pissedâbut that only made it more fun. You let him stew for a few minutes longer.
You 10:52 PM bad day at work? :(
His next texts came in a flurry, and you could almost feel the heat in them.
My Love 10:52 PM Why the fuck are you taking so long to respond? Who are you with?
10:53 PM You didnt tell me you were going out tonight and I just went all the way to your fucking house to find out youâre not even there? And your carâs gone? You drove to go out??? Are you fucking crazy?
His jealousy stoked a fire inside you. You knew better than to test his patience... but you just couldnât help yourself.
You pulled up your camera and hit record. It started with your legsâcrossed elegantly on the stool, the hem of your little black dress riding up just enough to tease. You let your foot swing, the glossy polish on your toes catching the dim light. The clip was short, but you knew Jungkook would recognize the bar in an instant.
Then, you flipped the camera. Your face came into view, framed by a pout and the neckline of your dressâthe replacement for the one heâd ripped clean off you the last time some idiot tried to touch you. Jungkook had beaten the guy to a pulp, of course, which was why you were both banned from JaeJae's nightclub downtown. But you hadnât cared then, and you certainly didnât now.
Just before you stopped recording, you made sure the camera caught a glimpse of the arm next to youâthe arm belonging to the guy who had been sulking since you brushed off his lame advances. You had been ignoring him ever since you walked in, but apparently, he was as clueless as he was underwhelming.
You hadnât expected to be at this bar alone. In fact, you were supposed to be home with Jungkook tonight. Heâd promised an early finishâfour oâclock, to be exactâand youâd planned a cute pamper night for the two of you. Face masks, cheesy rom-coms. You even baked cookies.
But then, three oâclock rolled around, and your phone rang. His voice on the other end was apologetic, practically rehearsed at this point. He had to stay late. Again. Not even just a little lateâten-fucking-thirty late. Two hours past his usual finishing time.
You were livid. He promised you tonight.
You hadnât even let him finish his sentence before hanging up, ignoring the rapid flood of missed calls and texts as you angrily dumped the chocolate chip cookies in the trash.
You were so pissed you mightâve even made his assistant, Hoseok, cry when Jungkook sent him over to check on you. Poor guy. Youâd apologize later. Maybe.
By the time 10:32 hit and your phone was still silent, that pit of anger in your stomach twisted into something much sharper. You pulled up the security cameras at his officeâand, of course, the room was empty. His briefcase, his keys⌠all gone.
He had left work without even telling you.
He always texted you when he was leaving the office. You knew there wasnât a chance in hell it was infidelity; that wasnât even a possibility. Cheating wasnât something either of you entertained. But the silence? The lack of communication? That cut.
Sure, youâd been ignoring his calls ever since he canceled on you⌠but you were allowed to be pissed right now. He? Was not.
When your doorbell camera alert went off at 10:42, right before you were about to check his location, you felt a mix of relief and annoyance rise in your chest. You pulled up the feed to see him standing thereâfrustrated, fist clenched around his phone, clearly ready for a confrontation.
But you werenât home.
You were here, at this grimy, sticky bar. Waiting.
The guy next to you shifted in his seat again, breaking you out of your thoughts. He was still there, lingering, despite your obvious disinterest. But honestly, you were kind of glad he hadnât left.
Because the response you got from Jungkook when you hit send on that video?
Absolutely fucking perfect.
My Love 10:55 PM I'll be there in five minutes.
10:56 PM And if there is anyone sitting next to you who doesn't have a cunt or the name Park Jimin, theyre fucking dead Y/N
10:56 PM And youâre fucking walking home
You suppressed a laugh as you wiped the sugary remnants of your drink from your lips, knowing better than anyone just how serious he was.
As much as you hated to admit it, you loved the way Jungkook loved you. His possessiveness didnât bother you. In fact, it drove you wild. That definitely made you as much of a red flag as him. But did you care?
A few minutes passed as you took some selfies and uploaded them to your Instagram story, twirling the straw in your glass absentmindedly. Then you remembered the idiot next to you.
"Oh," you said, clearing your throat. He perked up immediately, pulling his beer away from his lips as he turned toward you, eyes lighting up in anticipation. Gross. "You might want to leave."
His smile faltered, confusion knitting his brow. "What?"
You blinked, tilting your head slightly as if he hadnât just heard you. Leaning in closer, you repeated yourself. "I said, you might want to leave."
He chuckled, leaning in way too close, his breath hot and stale. âWhy would I do that? Sitting next to a pretty thing like you? You look a little bored, baby⌠I can keep you entertained.â
You suppressed a gag. "Hard pass." You shuddered, pulling back. âBut really, my boyfriendâs on his way, and heâs pissed. You might want to move down a seat or two.â
He just laughed, lifting his beer again and taking a long gulp, his eyes creepily never leaving yours. "I can handle myself just fine, sweetheart. Itâs hot that youâre worried about me, though."
God. Youâd never been drier in your entire life.
"Your funeral," you muttered, rolling your eyes as you turned back to your phone.
A few more minutes passed in silence, and just when you thought the idiot mightâve finally left you alone, you felt him shift again, turning toward you like he was about to start up another conversation. You sighed, not actually wanting to watch another guy get the shit beaten out of him. So, you grabbed your purse and your half-empty glass, ready to leave.
But just as you slid off the stool, his hand wrapped around your arm.
"Where are you going, baby?â His voice dripped with sleaze. âThis playing hard-to-get thing was sexy at first, but now itâs getting kinda boring.â
Your stomach turned, and you yanked your arm from his grip, disgust curling your lip. "Eugh, could you be any more of a stereotypical douche? Get a fucking life."
You took a step to leave, but his hand clamped down on your arm again, harder this time.
âYouâve got a mouth on you, huh?â His voice dropped, and a sickening grin spread across his face as his fingers dug deeper into your skin. âThatâs okay. I like âem that way.â
Rage flared in your chest, hot and immediate. Without thinking, your hand swung forward, and the rest of your drink splashed across his smug face. His eyes widened in shock, the liquid dripping off his chin, but you werenât finished.
Your free hand darted into the outer pocket of your purse, fingers wrapping around the pink pepper spray canister Jungkook bought for you. You whipped it out, aiming the nozzle directly at his face and pressed down hard.
âFuck!â he screamed, stumbling back, hands flying to his eyes. But you didnât let up. The adrenaline thrummed in your veins as you kept spraying, ignoring the yelps and curses spilling from his lips as he clawed at his burning face.
âYou crazy fucking bitch! Stop!â
âGod, you piece of shit!â you yelled, uncaring of the stares now fixed on you. âDonât ever touch anyone when they donât want you to! Fucking pig!â
The can felt significantly lighter by the time you finally stopped, and the guy was practically on his knees, whimpering. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw the bartender waving security in your direction and your eyes rolled to the back of your head. Typical. Heâd been close enough to hear everything, but now he wanted to intervene?
âCunt,â you muttered under your breath, slamming your empty glass on the bar before turning to leave.
âIâm going, Iâm going,â you scoffed as the guard approached, adjusting your purse on your shoulder and smoothing down the hem of your dress. As you turned to walk away, you pulled out your phone, thumb hovering over Jungkookâs contact.
But before you could make it far, a heavy hand pressed into your back, shoving you toward the exit.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â you snapped, stumbling as the security guard forced you forward. âI said Iâm leaving. Iâm just calling my boyfriend. Let go of me, freakââ
âMaâam, donât speak to me like that,â the guard growled, his voice deep and commanding. âGet outside, now.â
âI'm going, you big loof. Can you at least let me wait in the bathroom? If my boyfriend sees me standing outside alone, heâs gonnaââ
"I donât care what heâs gonna do to you, maâam. Keep moving."
You almost laughed. "Do to me?" You were about to tell him how wrong he had itâthat he should be the one worriedâwhen suddenly, the hand on your back vanished. You stopped, brushing yourself off, ready to turn and gloat.
But it wasnât your words that made him let go. It was Jungkook.
Your very angry boyfriend had shoved the guardâwho was easily twice his sizeâbackwards so hard the guy stumbled, nearly falling over.
Jungkookâs eyes were wild, flicking between you and the security guard, a dangerous mix of concern and pure rage.
"Oh, hi, babyâ"
âGet in the car,â he growled, his voice low and deadly as he handed you his keys. âAnd lock the fucking doors. Now.â
His tone sent a shiver down your spine, and you bit back the urge to argue. Instead, you took the keys and turned toward the door, but the security guard wasnât backing down.
"You and your bitch need to leave now," the guard snapped. "Youâre banned from this bar."
Another one? You almost pouted, but he kept going.
"We have you on CCTV. If the victim presses charges, youâll be contacted."
âWhat victim?â You laughed, taking a step toward the guy. âYouâre gonna let that pig press charges?â
Jungkookâs head snapped toward you, jaw clenched, staying firmly between you and the goon. âWhat is he talking about? Whoâs pressing charges?â
You rolled your eyes, crossing your arms as you gestured toward the guy still rubbing his eyes with a bar towel, water dripping down his face. âThat idiot. But itâs fine, baby. I finally got to use the pepper spray you gave me,â you added, poking Jungkookâs stomach with a giddy smile.
His lips twitched, but his expression stayed serious. âWhyâd you have to use it?â
You shrugged, tilting your head, giving him that innocent look you knew drove him crazy. "He kept trying to touch me, but donât worry, I handled it. Letâs go now, please."
But Jungkookâs gaze was already darkening, his eyes now fixed on the pathetic excuse of a man across the room. You could see the anger rising, feel the tension radiating off him, and you knew he was seconds away from losing his shit.
âLetâs just go, love,â you urged, voice rushing as you eyed the situation. âItâs over now.â
The security guard had disappeared to fetch backup, and you couldnât help but smirk at the thought. The fact that he needed help dealing with Jungkook was almost laughable. Your man might not have been the biggest guy in the room, but you knew that shove must have rattled him, seeing as though the sidekick he'd now acquired was even bigger than he was.
And they were both stomping toward you.
You turned to warn Jungkook, âBabyââ but as your eyes shifted back to him, he was no longer at your side.
Your gaze snapped to the bar. There he wasâstorming up to the sleazebag still nursing his wet eyes with a towel, completely unaware that your furious boyfriend was closing in behind him. Ugh, he was like an angry, sexy bunny.
"Fuck," you muttered under your breath, pushing past a couple of people and hurrying over as quick as you could in your three-thousand-dollar stilettos.
As turned on as you were by the sight of him right now, you really didnât need him missing work tomorrow because he'd been locked up for the night.
And then you, of course, also missing work because you had to sleep in the uncomfortable plastic chair next to his cell, since the officers wouldnât accept bail again until he had completed his twelve-hour minimum hold.
You were almost there when you saw itâJungkookâs hand gripping the back of the guyâs collar, yanking him back with so much force that the idiotâs eyes flew open in shock, panic flooding his face as he realized what was happening.
You bit your lip, trying to shove away the image that popped into your head of Jungkookâs hand tangled in your hair, pulling you up in that exact same way when he had you beneath him, forcing your eyes on his as he drove into you from behind.
God, not now, Y/N.
âKoo, baby, waitââ you called, but it was too late. He was gone.
Before the guy could even think about pushing Jungkook off, your boyfriend slammed his head down onto the bar with a sickening crack that echoed through the room. You winced, feeling the pain in your own skull just by watching it.
âFuckkkk,â you hissed, finally reaching him and grabbing his arm. His muscles were rigid, vibrating with barely controlled rage. âBaby, come on. Security is comingâletâs goââ
But your words didnât register. Jungkook was in another world, eyes burning with an almost feral intensity as he jerked the guy back up.
Without hesitation, he reeled back and delivered a brutal punch to the guyâs face, the thud of knuckles against bone filled the space as the manâs head snapped to the side, his knees buckling as he collapsed to the floor in a heap.
You sucked your teeth in frustration. You couldnât care less if the guy sat there on the ground and bled out, truly. What you did care about was the thought of Jimin covering your shift tomorrow because you had to spend the night bailing Jungkook out of jail again.
âOkay, my love, thatâs good. Now letâs goââ
âBaby, go andââ Jungkook growled, his voice dangerous and low, as he lifted the guy again. His fist swung forward, colliding with the manâs nose, and you winced at the sharp crunch that followed. The guy collapsed again, shaky hands cradling his face as blood spurted from his mouth.
Jungkookâs head whipped around, his dark gaze locking onto you with a ferocity that sent a chill down your spine. âGo and get in the fucking car,â he snapped.
âNo, you fucking idiot, come with meââ
Before you could finish your sentence, your feet were suddenly off the ground, the world spinning as you were slung over a massive shoulder. It took you a second to process what the fuck was happening.
"What the fuck!" you screamed, pounding your fists against the back of the goliath security guard who was carrying you like a sack of potatoes. Your purse fell to the ground as the guy just kept walking toward the exit like you were nothing. "Put me down, you fucking freak!"
Through your distorted, lopsided vision, you caught sight of the other, even bigger, guard heading for Jungkook while you were being dragged away.
The second your boyfriend saw what was happening to you, the loser he had been beating on was forgotten. His eyes locked on the guard manhandling you, and fury ignited in his expression.
The guard approaching barely had time to take a step before Jungkook threw him to the ground like he weighed nothing. His unbuttoned dress shirt sleeves exposed the veins in his arms, rippling as he stormed toward you with a look that promised murder. Yummy.
You were still smacking the back of the giant guard carrying you, panic creeping in as the door got closer and closer. "Baby, my purse!" you whined, halting your attack for a second and pointing to the ground. Jungkook was already stalking past it. "Pick it up!"
He grunted in frustration, turning on his heel to grab the fallen Prada before charging back after you.Â
The guard reached the door just as Jungkook caught up, and you braced yourself for the moment youâd be tossed out like trash. But in one quick motion, Jungkook grabbed your outstretched hand and used his other hand to grab you by the bum, pulling you off the guardâs shoulder.
You beamed as he set you back on your feet, happily taking your purse from him while he just rolled his eyes. Then, he turned and sent his fist straight to the giantâs jaw. The guard actually stumbled backward, clearly feeling the weight of the hit, and for a brief moment, you thought it was over.
But then the bastard straightened up, cracked his neck like a fucking terminator, and stepped forward again, completely unfazed.
"What. The. Fuck," you seethed, your eyes widening in disbelief. You grabbed Jungkookâs hand, tugging him back, but he was already mirroring the guardâs steps, ready to go again.
"Nope," you muttered, wrapping your arms around his bicep and using every ounce of strength to drag him toward the door.
You knew he could easily overpower you, and you could feel the tension in his muscles as he debated it. But after a beat, he scoffed, shooting a final glare at the guard, who had stopped in place, phone in hand as he watched you haul Jungkook outside.
Probably calling the cops, taking down your registrationâwhatever the fuck. You could already imagine the panic on Jeon Co.âs PR teamâs faces when they caught wind of this fuck fest of a night.
You finally let go of Jungkookâs arm when you got outside, your hand diving into your purse for his car keys. He followed close behind, silent but simmering with rage, as you both made your way to his car. It was parked right next to the entranceâdefinitely not in an actual spotâbut he clearly didnât care. Heâd probably left it there to get to you faster.
As soon as the cold air hit your face and you and Jungkook were away from everyone, itâs like all your anger from earlier flooded right back.
You marched straight toward the driverâs seat, just wanting to get the hell out of there, but before you could reach for the door handle, Jungkookâs bruised hand snaked around your waist and pulled you back against him. He plucked the keys from your hand with ease, scoffing under his breath as he ushered you toward the passenger side.
"Give me the fucking keys, Jungkookâ"
He let out a dark, humorless laugh. "First of all, youâve been drinking. Donât be fucking stupid. Second of all, why do you sound like youâre mad at me? Iâm mad at you!"
"I had a fucking lemonade, I didnât drink, you psycho!" you snapped, spinning on your heel to face him. "And, Iâm sorry, mad at me?" You shoved his hand off your stomach and made a grab for the keys, but he slipped them into his pocket, resting his hand right over them like he was daring you to try.
"Youâre the one who just went ape-shit and beat half the bar to a fucking pulp!"
"Donât be dramatic," he rolled his eyes, leaning casually against the car like he hadnât just trashed multiple people inside.
"You just fuckingâ"
He narrowed his eyes dangerously. "And why am I here in the first place, Y/N?"
"Oh, I donât know," you snapped back, voice dripping with sarcasm. "Maybe because youâre aâ"
You cut yourself off this time, catching the slight arch of his browsâjust a fraction.
His head tilted, that infuriating smirk tugging at his lips.
"Iâm a what, baby?" His voice was low, amused, taunting.
You squinted at him, but he just waited, utterly patient, like he had all the time in the world.
"Iâm a what?"
Your eyes rolled to the sky in frustration, and you turned your back on him, yanking on the door handle in frustration. But of course, it was locked. You didnât even bother looking back at him.
"Open the door, Jungkook."
"Sure," he jingled the keys in his pocket with infuriating calmness, "When you finish your sentence. Iâm a what?"
You glared over your shoulder at him, biting back a snarl as your eyes raked down his stupidly gorgeous frame. Tousled hair, the top two buttons of his dress shirt sluttily popped open, bruised and bloody hands casually tucked into the pockets of his designer slacks. So fucking annoying.
"You," you started, eyes narrowing as you stepped back. "Are sleeping alone tonight." You punctuated it with a sarcastic smile before pushing off the car and storming down the street toward your own.
The second you started walking, you heard his footsteps trailing after you like a shadow. You just shook your head, your tone clipped as you bit out, "Go home, Jungkook. Your home. Iâm sleeping at my own place tonight."
"Mm, and how do you plan on getting there?" His voice followed, calmâtoo calm.
"Hmm, take a wild fucking guess, genius," you snapped, diving back into your purse to grab your keys. But your hand came up empty.
"Mother fucker," you hissed, spinning around to find yourself face-to-face with his broad chest. You took a breath, glaring up at him. "Give me my keys."
"When you finish what you were saying," he replied lowly.
You scoffed, incredulous. "Youâll give me my keys and let me drive home if I finish my sentence?" You almost laughed in his face, knowing damn well he was full of shit.
"No," he shrugged, his honesty almost infuriating, "but I still want you to say it."
You groaned, exasperated. "Why is it so important to youâ"
"Everything you say is important to me." His tone was unflinchingly direct. "And I want to know what you think of me."
For a split second, your heart tugged at his words, even as the anger bubbling in your chest fought to take over.
You werenât mad at him for going in there and smashing that dirty sleazeâs head into the counter. You werenât mad that he had taken on the Goliath twins like a reckless maniac with no concern for his own well-being.
You were mad because he lied to you.
"A liar." The words slipped from your lips, quiet but cutting, your eyes locking with his.
The flicker of pain that flashed across his gaze was immediate. He hadnât been expecting that. He had braced himself for you to call him a possessive jerk, a jealous asshole, even a fucking loser. But not that.
"Baby," Jungkook swallowed, his beaten hands slowly gliding down to caress the sides of the dress he both loved and hated seeing you in. "Iâm so sorry."
"Yeah," you nodded, rolling your eyes as you turned your head away just as he tried to lean down for a kiss. "Always are, huh?"
"Please, donât," he sighed softly, his breath warm against your neck as his nose nuzzled into your skin. It was hard to believe this was the same man who had buried his fist into a guyâs jaw just five minutes ago. âI would never leave your side if I didnât have to. You know that. You have to know that.â
"And you just had to stay back tonight of all nights?" Your words were sharp, cutting. "Couldnât get one of your two fucking assistants to carry some of the workload? Or maybe that slut from level 7 whoâs always begging to take some stress off her âbig, hunky, hardworking boss?â"
Jungkook let out a low chuckle, nipping at your neck in amusement when you imitated Heejinâs voice. She hadnât ever said anything quite that boldâobviously. You wouldâve had him fire her on the spot if she had. But her lingering glances, the way she was always offering herself up for extra tasks, the way she hovered around⌠yeah, her actions spoke louder than words, and it made your blood fucking boil.
"Our board meeting ran way overtime, and they sprung last-minute critical amendments on us for the Cypher Project, baby," he mumbled into your skin, his lips brushing along the curve of your neck. "You know no one else couldâve handled it, or I wouldâve been out of there."
"Okay." You nodded, lips pressing together as you let him kiss your neck for a while, but your mind was still racing.
"Okay?" he echoed in a hum, his mouth moving lower, pressing another soft kiss just above your collarbone. He sounded almost suspicious at how easily you seemed to be dropping the argument.
"Okay," you repeated, still letting him kiss you, your body slightly relaxing under his touch.
He hummed again, but then something clicked. No. This was too easy. You were never this quick to drop an argument. There wasnât nearly enough groveling.
"Babyâ"
Before he could finish, your hand shot into his left pocket, snatching the keys and shoving him you off with your other hand. He stumbled back, eyes wide with surprise as he barely caught his balance. You didnât wait around to see him recover; you just turned and headed straight for your car.
Of course, he followed.
"Baby, come onâ"
You didnât stop, your pace quickening as you adjusted your handbag on your shoulder. "Nope. Donât care."
"Baby, I'm fucking sorry."
"Uh-huh," you muttered, clicking the button to unlock your car before yanking the door open. He was right behind you, still trying.
âYouâre not seriously leaving me right now, are you?â
You shot him a cold glance, leaning on the car door. âYep. Maybe you should call Heejinâsee if sheâs free tonight. She can keep my side of the bed warm,â you spat, sliding into the driverâs seat.
His jaw ticked, tongue poking at the side of his cheek as he leaned back, letting you slam the door in his face. The engine roared to life, filling the thick silence between you two, but he didnât even flinch. Instead, he nodded, something dark flashing in his eyes as his teeth toyed with his lip ring.
âYou know Iâm just gonna follow you, right?â His low voice carried through the glass, calm as ever.
You rolled your eyes, throwing the car into gear and pulling out of the lot.
But you werenât the least bit surprised when, just a few moments later, you caught sight of his car pulling out right behind you.
He was home before you.
Not that you were surprised. You had gotten the doorbell alert two streets over, and it only made you scoff, your foot easing off the gas as you slowed down even more, wanting to make him wait. You had briefly considered going to Jiminâs for the night, but you knew better. Even though Jungkook had a soft spot for his assistant, there was no way in hell heâd let you sleep over at another guyâs house, and you weren't about to drag Jimin into that.
Sliding out of your car, you said nothing, grabbing your coat and purse from the passenger seat before locking it. Jungkook was already perched on your front doorstep, his head snapping up the second your tires crunched against the driveway.
âBaby, I need you to turn your location back on. I get it. You made your pointââ
âDonât start, Jungkook.â You sighed, your heels clicking against the stone steps as you brushed past him to unlock the front door.
You didnât even bother closing the door behind you as you walked in, knowing he was right behind, the sound of it clicking shut as he locked it for you. Your purse and coat landed carelessly on the hallway table, and your fingers instinctively massaged the soreness creeping up the side of your neck. Without a word, Jungkook crouched down and slipped off your heels, lining them up neatly next to his shoes.
It was late, and the exhaustion that had been chasing you all night was finally sinking in. Your body ached, your mind was running on fumes, and all you really wanted was to crawl into bed and sleep. But something in the air told you that wasnât happening any time soon. Whether it would be another argument, angry makeup sex, or another night of kicking Jungkook to the couchâonly to lie sleepless for an hour before dragging his ass back to your bedâyou werenât sure yet.
Your steps were slow as you made your way to the bathroom, flicking the light on before leaning heavily against the sink. You cracked your neck, your eyes closing for a brief moment as the exhaustion took over.
You didnât even flinch when Jungkookâs chest pressed against your back, his strong arms slipping around you as he reached for the faucet to wash his hands. The water ran pinkish, swirling down the drain as it cleared the blood and dirt from his knuckles, but you werenât concerned. He knew how to throw a punch safelyâyears of boxing and training made sure of that. This was very mild compared to the damage heâd done in the early days of your relationship. Back then, youâd spent more time getting him unbanned from clubs than actually enjoying them.
He dried his hands slowly, taking his time before reaching for one of your hair ties on the counter. His fingers worked through your hair, gathering it into a loose ponytail.
You were far too drained to even consider pushing him awayânot that you wouldâve, even if you werenât. Upset? Sure. But truly mad? Not really.
You knew exactly what you were getting into when you fell for a wildly successful, young CEO. Long nights, last-minute cancellations, missed plansâit was the nature of his world. Normally, you accepted it. But tonight had been different. Tonight was supposed to be one of the rare, precious evenings you finally had time to spend together after months of clashing schedules. Youâd planned for it, gotten excited about it, and then⌠it was ruined. So, yeah, you were pissed.
But at the same time, you understood. The Cypher Project was monumental for Jeon Corp. Jungkook had poured nearly a year of blood, sweat, and no sleep into it. It was his baby, and only a handful of people were allowed anywhere near itâhis assistants, his CCO, and you. This project mattered. But god, you missed him.
This, though? This was just typical Jeon Jungkook groveling. Heâd pamper you, apologize at least a thousand times, buy you another bag or three, and then fuck you until you couldnât remember why you were mad in the first place. The order of events varied; the bags sometimes took a day or two to arrive.
Once your hair was up, he gently spun you around and lifted you onto the bathroom counter. Your eyes remained shut as he moved between your legs, his long arms reaching for your skincare products. You didnât have to tell him anythingâhe knew your routine better than you did at this point.
Before he got started, you cracked one eye open, just for a moment, grabbing his right hand and holding it softly in your lap. Your thumb traced over his knuckles, following the tiny splits. One was still bleeding slightly, while the other looked like it would be bruising by morning.
âGetting better, baby. Barely any blood this time,â you hummed, lifting his hand to your lips and pressing a gentle kiss to his knuckles before closing your eyes again, waiting.
He smiled at that, though you couldnât see it. The weight of the towel settled on your lap, and his hand left yours, resting lightly on your chest as he leaned you down, cupping warm water from the sink to wet your face. You stayed still, letting him move through the motions, only shifting when he needed you to. His touch was precise but gentle as he massaged the cleanser into your skin.
Your toes wiggled absentmindedly on either side of his thighs, tapping softly against him while he moved through your products, handling each one with practiced ease.
Jungkook was quiet for a moment before he finally spoke.
"I want to move in with you."
You didnât open your eyesâmostly because your face was covered in tonerâbut the way your feet stopped swinging and your eyebrows shot up said everything.
âWell, thatâs one way to grovel,â you muttered under your breath, leaning down blindly to rinse your face. Jungkook cupped his hand, helping you wash off the spots you missed before gently wiping your face dry with the towel. He pressed a quick kiss to your lips through the fabric.
Cute, you thought.
âGross,â you mumbled, the faintest smile tugging at your lips.
He didnât respond, just slipped his hands down your bare legs, wrapping them securely around his waist. You tugged the towel down and blinked up at his pretty face. He just stood there, quiet, watching you. Waiting.
"Are you waiting for something?" you asked, raising an eyebrow.
He bit his lip, barely concealing a smile. âHmm. Is that how youâre going to be?â
âI donât know what you meanâŚâ
âSo your answer is no, then.â He hummed.
âMy answer is nothing because you didnât ask me a question,â you retorted, brattily swatting his bum with your foot, the light tap making him smirk.
âItâs going to happen eventually,â he said, his tone certain, almost mocking, as he leaned down to brush his lips against yours. His hand caught your ankle, stopping your wandering toe from getting too close to the no-go zone. Well, except that one tiâ
âMay as well get it out of the way, baby.â
âOh,â you laughed, amusement coloring your voice as you unwrapped your legs from his waist, resting them on the counter. âGlad you consider the next step in our relationship something we should just get out of the way.â
His eyes sparkled with amusement as he pulled your legs back down, positioning himself firmly between them again, his hands settling possessively on your thighs. âYou know what I mean,â he murmured, his voice dipping into a low growl.
âYou already know Iâd do anything with you, baby,â you sighed, rolling your eyes as your feet lifted back up to drum lightly against his bum. âBut Iâm annoyed that you asked me this right after an argument. Youâre just doing what you think will make me happyââ
The cold, metallic sensation on your thigh interrupted your sentence. Frowning, you glanced down to see his tattooed hand resting on your skin, something small and cool pressed beneath his palm.
Your brows furrowed. âMove your hand, Kookie.â
He didnât move, his gaze locking with yours. His eyes were seriousâmore serious than youâd seen in a long while. And that was saying something. Jungkook was always confident, always certain about your relationship, but this⌠this was different.
âY/N,â he said softly, his tongue flicking at his lip ring.
âYes?â you asked, your voice softening as your finger reached up to gently swat his tongue away before you adjusted his lip ring back into place.
âYou know how much I love you, right? Like, really know how in love with you I am?â His voice was so genuine, his eyes searching yours intently.
Your head tilted slightly as you swallowed the urge to tease him. The feeling of that little cool object under his palm had your mind racing. You already knew exactly what it was, and if youâd been wearing underwear right now, theyâd be fucking soaked.
âI do,â you nodded just as seriously, your hands resting on the counter on either side of your thighs as you leaned forward, waiting for his pouty lips to meet yours. He didnât make you wait long, leaning down immediately, humming as you gently suckled on his tongue and over his lip ring before pulling back.
âI know, baby. I feel it every day." You spoke against his lips, giving them a soft peck before pulling back a little, "Iâm so lucky to have you all to myself. I love you just as much, my darling. I hope you know that.â
âI do, baby.â He nodded, leaning down to brush his pretty nose against yours. âYouâre it for me, angel. Thereâs no one after you. That, I know.â
âMmh,â you grunted in delight, your nose scrunching as your hand snaked around the back of his neck, pulling him down to your lips, hard.
Jungkook melted into you instantly, his hands finding their way up your body as he kissed you with the kind of need that made your entire body hum. His fingers curled into the back of your hair, pulling you deeper into the kiss, and you moaned softly against his mouth, just as his hands moved lower.
âOh my god,â you mumbled, breaking the kiss suddenly as your eyes dropped to the now-uncovered little piece of metal resting on your thigh.
Tears welled up in your eyes the moment you saw it. Your hand darted down, snatching up the now-warm key like it was made of glass, your fingers trembling as you inspected it. This wasnât a key to his penthouseâyou already had one of those.
This was new. Bigger. And turning you the fuck on.
Jungkook's bunny teeth grazed his lip ring, a rare flicker of hesitation crossing his face as he watched you silently. Jeon Jungkook didnât get nervous. He was rich, successful, gorgeous, and had the hottest girl he had ever seen in his life all to himself. But even he couldnât deny that his heart was beating a little fast, or whatever.
âBaby, fuck," you choked out, your brows furrowing as the tears threatened to spill over. You looked up at him, still clutching the key. "You fucking... ugh!"
Your hand gripped the collar of his shirt, yanking him back down to you. You kissed him again, deep and needy, your lips crashing against his with a desperation you couldnât quite name.
"Love me that much, hm?" you mumbled between kisses, your voice husky, body arching into him as his tattooed hands slid down your sides, long fingers squeezing around the soft flesh. "Bought me a fucking house, huh, baby?"
Jungkookâs smirk brushed against your lips, so cocky, so him. âWell, Iâm not fucking renting it.â
A loud laugh bubbled out of you, muffled by his mouth still pressed against yours. It was cut short when his tongue slipped past your parted lips, hot and familiar, moving with practiced ease.
His tongue... fuck, with the number of times and places youâd had it in your body, you were sure you could pick it out from a lineup blindfolded. Skilled, wet, with that lingering touch of cigarette. Fucking perfect.
You grunted against his mouth, your hand blindly reaching to set the key on the counter without pulling away. âTold you to stop smoking.â
âTold you to get fucked,â he hummed back, his words vibrating on your tongue as his hands slid from your hips to your ass, gripping hard enough to make you gasp before pulling you flush against his growing bulge.
âCunt,â you giggled, your fingers tangling around the back of his neck, pulling him in deeper, your tongue chasing that smoky flavor as heat pulsed between your legs. The softest whine escaped your lips as you swallowed his taste.
âBitch,â he mumbled lowly, tattooed fingers giving a dirty squeeze to your ass, brows furrowing in delight as his hips ground into yours, the thick, hard length of him pressing between your thighs. Even through the layers of fabric, the friction sent a needy throb straight to your clit.
Your nails scratched lightly against the nape of his neck, and just as you were about to bite down on his tongue, he suddenly pulled back, leaving your lips parted in a confused pout.
âWhat?â you whined, trying to tug him back down to your mouth, but he wasnât budging. His eyes were locked in place.
On your crotch.
Oh.
âY/N.â His voice dropped, deeper, more dangerous.
âYes, my love?â you blinked innocently, tugging at the collar of his shirt. He didnât move.
âAre you not wearing fucking panties?â
âUm,â you pursed your lips, pretending to think. âWould you believe me if I said I was?â
Your boyfriend scoffed sorely, giving a bitter nod before peeling himself from you completely and walking out of the bathroom.
You sat there for a second, blinking, frowning at the sight of him walking away, watching how the thick muscles in his back rippled beneath his shirt. God, you just wanted to run your tongue over every inch of that perfect, sinful skin, remembering all the times you had gotten off just by riding that big fucking backâ
Shit.
âBaby!â you called after him with a pout, hopping off the counter and ignoring the sticky feeling between your thighs as your feet hit the floor. You wobbled slightly, legs stiff from sitting too long. With a quick kiss to the key resting beside the sink, you dropped it into your jewelry case and scurried after your angry boyfriend.
âKookie, hold onâŚâ The sound of your footsteps echoed down the hallway, needy and impatient.
This wasnât how it was supposed to go. You were really pissed when he canceled, okay, and so you did the one thing you knew would get under his skin... going commando in public when he wasnât around.
You fully expected him to find out at the bar or during some angry foreplay at home. Then, heâd get all sexy, possessive, and youâd end up screaming his name so loud your neighbors would complain again.
But not like this. Not after heâd been so gentle, taking your makeup off with soft, careful touches. Not after heâd just given you the key to the fucking house he bought for the two of you! He was probably feeling all soft and vulnerable, having just taken such a big step in your relationship...
You know, people didnât really get itâbut deep down, your boyfriend was just a big, cuddly teddy bear. Sure, a teddy bear with like three assault charges, but thatâs besides the point.
God. Fuck, fuck, fuck!
Jungkook didnât stop. He rounded the corner into your bedroom, shoulders stiff, jaw clenched.
You followed him in, flicking on the light just in time to see him unbuttoning his shirt, quietly tugging it free from where it had been tucked into his slacks. His back was to you, standing near your vanity, jaw tight with restraint, anger radiating off him in waves.
The muscles in his broad shoulders flexed as you stepped closer, your palms sliding up the expanse of his back.
"Baby, I'mâ"
"Don't." His voice was low, firmâa quiet command cutting off any apology on the tip of your tongue. He pulled his shirt off, tossing it over the chair beside him before his hand moved to his belt, the metallic clink sounding sharper in the silence of the room.
You sighed softly, pressing a kiss to his warm, bare shoulder, the skin still taut with tension. Your forehead rested against his back as your arms wrapped around his waist, holding him close. âAre you mad at me?â
"Mhm." He scoffed, pulling his belt through the loops and throwing it onto the growing pile of clothes.
Without a word, he shrugged off your hold, his back stiff as he walked over to your dresser. Opening the middle drawer, he pulled out one of his shirts, and without even looking back at you, he held it out.
You didnât hesitate, taking it from his hand. He didnât need to say anythingâJungkook never wore shirts to bed. Your fingers slipped behind your back, tugging down the zipper of your dress before you let the fabric fall in a pool at your feet.
His eyes caught your movement in the mirror, and he scoffed softly, watching as you unclasped your bra. The bra slipped down, the absence of panties now glaringly obvious. His expression tightened as you slid his shirt over your head, the oversized fabric falling to mid-thigh.
Jungkook unbuttoned his slacks in silence, shoving them off until he stood in just his briefs. He bent down, gathering both of your discarded clothes before disappearing into the bathroom to toss them into the hamper.
You heard the water running as you pulled the band from your hair and padded toward the bathroom, wanting to brush your teeth too. But before you could enter, he stepped out, his tall frame blocking the doorway.
"Get in bed," he said sternly, leaving no room for argument.
You pouted but turned around, dragging your feet toward the bed. From the way he flicked off the light behind you, it was clear you werenât getting dicked down tonight. Jungkook always kept the lights on when he was fucking youâhe liked to see everything properly. You frowned as you crawled under the covers.
"My love," you started softly, watching his back as he climbed into bed, turning to face the window. He didnât respond. "Baby, pleaseâ"
"Iâm so fucking angry," he finally spoke, his voice low, thick with frustration. Your hand raked over the tattoos covering his tense arm as you scooted closer, your fingertips tracing the ink in the way you always did to calm him down.
"Turn around and go to sleep," he grumbled, laced with warning.
"Canât sleep when youâre mad at me. You know that," you whined softly, shuffling closer until you were pressed against his back, your leg draping over his waist, pulling yourself into his space.
He tensed under your touch but didnât push you away.
You nuzzled into him, your cheek resting on his shoulder, hand tracing gentle patterns along his side. "Talk to me, baby," you whispered, your voice soft, pleading. "Please."
"You knew it would piss me off. I donât know why youâre surprisedâ"
"Yeah, but I thought it would be like sexy, possessive, fuck me into the mattress madâŚ" Your words were muffled as your lips brushed against the warmth of his back, speaking directly into his skin. âI didnât expect you to ask me to move in with you, babyââ
"So, if I didnât," he interrupted, tugging the blanket over his shoulder, brushing you off in the process. "You wouldnât be sorry at all?"
You frowned, pulling the blanket back down and reclaiming your spot, pressing yourself against him again.
âNot really,â you admitted, lips finding the little heart tattoo on his shoulder blade that heâd let you needle into him. You pressed a gentle kiss to it, your voice softening into a playful coo. âWas really mad at you. But then you were all stupidly cute and you bought us a fucking houseee, baby.â
Your fingers curled around his bare side, your kisses turning into quick, playful pecks across the tattoo. "And now I am very..." You pressed another kiss to his skin, âsorry.â Kiss. âMy love.â Kiss.
He shifted slightly, his body tense but responsive to your touch. You knew you were getting to him, your lips soft against his inked skin, your tone low and slow. His jaw tightened, but he didnât stop you, not entirely immune to the way your kisses trailed over his back, or the way your fingers skimmed down his side.
âYou think you can just kiss me and make it better?â His voice was still low, but there was something softer creeping into it, the edges of his anger starting to blur under your touch.
You gazed affectionately at your softie's back, a smile playing on your lips as you rubbed your nose over the tattoo. âMaybe,â you hummed. âBut I can do a little more than kiss you, if that's not enoughâŚâ you whispered, your hand trailing lower, brushing just above the waistband of his briefs.
He let out a small, frustrated sigh, but his body betrayed himâmuscles relaxing slightly under your touch.
âBrat,â he muttered under his breath, shifting his position to lie on his back, allowing the blanket to slide down his body and reveal his broad, toned chest.
A soft, approving grunt left your lips as you shamelessly drank in the view, your eyes lingering on your favorite tattoo, scribbled prettily across his chest.
Youâve always been vocal about your love for Jungkookâs tattoosâtheyâre one of your favorite things about him. Some hold more meaning than others, but they're all breathtakingly beautiful. Honestly, with the number of times your nails have raked down his skin while he takes you like an untamed force, youâd think the ink wouldâve rubbed off by now.
But your favorite? The tattoo nestled right below his left, perfectly pink nipple.
Your name.
Youâve never been one for tattoos on yourself, and you know people have all sorts of opinions about getting your partnerâs name etched into your skinâa curse, they say. But when Jungkook told you, not asked, told you that he was going to get your name tattooed on him, you'd never dropped to your knees so fast in your life.
You were both lounging lazily on his couch, enjoying one of those rare days off, when he told you the news. The next twelve hours were spent on his lap, with the couch left in a state that required professional cleaning. Jungkook was very upset when you had it cleaned while he was at work, but you made it up to him.
By telling him you wanted one too.
You could already picture your sweet Christian mother rolling in her grave at the thought of you getting a tattoo, let alone your boyfriendâs nameâthe same boyfriend whoâs done things to you no amount of repentance could ever erase. But itâs okay. You planned to get it in a place she wouldnât see, wherever sheâs watching from.
When you told Jungkook about your plan to get matching ink, it led to the second most tender and passionate sex youâd ever hadâthe first being the day you both said âI love youâ for the first time. He's a sap like that.
You were supposed to get "Jungkook" etched onto your inner thigh, but the moment the needle touched your skin, you knew there was no way in hell you were sitting through all eight letters. So, you settled for "JK." Still adorable, and you loved it. So did he.
Heâs obsessed with it, sometimes spending hours suckling on the ink. Heâll fall asleep with his head in your lap, the tattooed skin nestled in his mouth like a pacifier. His hand gravitates there when you're out to dinner with friends, resting directly on the spot if you're wearing a skirt, over your jeans if you're not.
Jungkook, of course, got your entire first name and let you pick where it would go. He only had one condition: it had to be on the front of his bodyâsomewhere on his chest or maybe his thigh. When you asked why, he simply said he wasnât getting any other tattoos there. That space was only for you.
You immediately picked the spot under your favorite nipple of his, and rode him into the sunset right after.
Angel isnât a word most peopleâwell, any peopleâwould use to describe Jeon Jungkook. But for you, itâs that simple.
Heâs your angel. Your short-tempered, jealous, possessive, fiery-fisted angel. For forever and then some.
Despite your boyfriend's irritated expression, you could sense the familiar heat building up in him, causing his eyes to darken and his teeth to tug on his lip rings unconsciously. You felt yourself clench around nothing at the sight.
God, you were down so bad.
A sly grin tugged at your lips as you shifted, sliding your leg over his waist to straddle him, your bare heat pressing flush against the hard bulge straining beneath his briefs. A soft, satisfied hum escaped your throat as you leaned down, letting your lips graze along the sharp line of his jaw.
âThought you liked your bitches bratty,â you murmured, the words brushing against his lip rings. You kissed your way slowly, deliberately down his neck. âHeard Heejin can get real mouthy.â
âHm, sheâs not usually that bad around me,â he said, his tone casual, almost playful. His tattooed fingers slipped beneath the hem of your shirt, tracing lazily along your sides. âThen again, her mouth is usually otherwise occupied.â
Your lips froze mid-kiss against his neck, the heat in the room shifting as a bubbling wave of jealousy swirled low in your stomach. You knew he was only matching your teasing with his own, but it didnât stop the image from formingâHeejin, beneath you, as you straddled her in this exact position. Only this time, you werenât smirking. This time, your hands gripped a pillow, pressing it down firmly until her frantic kicks finally stilled.
You recovered quickly, trailing your kisses lower down his chest. âYeah?â you bit, voice tight as you continued kissing along his skin. âShe suck your cock just the way you like it, baby?â
Jungkook swallowed a shiver as you slid down his body, your mouth hovering over his chest. The tension between you thickened as your teeth grazed his nipple, your tongue darting out just enough to tease.
âYeah,â he answered, voice strained as he felt your hot breath fan over him. âSheâs real sloppy with it. Bit surprising, considering she acts like a fucking church girl in the officeââ
You waited until his nipple hardened from the sensation of your breath before biting down, hard, sinking your teeth into the sensitive skin.
His reaction was instantâa sharp hiss slipping through his clenched teeth as his fingers dug into your sides on instinct, gripping you hard enough to leave marks.
His hips jerked up against you, the friction sending a spark through your core as he tried to suppress the groan building in his throat at your obvious stake to claim. His restraint was fading, and you couldn't fucking wait.
You followed up with a soft lick, soothing the now-red nub before lowering your mouth to press a wet, possessive kiss over your tattoo on his chest.
âSorry,â you mumbled insincerely, pulling back just enough to lock eyes with him.
Jungkookâs gaze was fiery, narrowed as he looked up at you, but you could see the way his breath quickened, his stomach contracting deliciously beneath your bare heat that he was affected.
The grip on your hips tightened, pulling you down harder as he let out a low warning. "Careful, baby."
You smiled small, dragging your nails lightly over his abdomen as you trailed back up his body. âSorry, baby. Hyungwon used to love it when I did thatâ"
You didnât get to finish your sentence before Jungkook was flipping you onto your back, his hands gripping your wrists and pinning them above your head. The look in his eyes was dark, jaw clenched tight as he loomed over you.
If there was one thing that drove Jungkook over the edge, it was when you mentioned your ex.
"Think you're so funny, hm?" His voice dropped low, a dangerous edge creeping in as his grip on your wrists tightened slightly, his gaze darkening as it scanned your face. You could feel the shiftâhe was serious now.
You pouted up at him, a small smile still playing on your lips. âJust being honest, love. Hyungwonâs left nipple was really sensitiveââ
A deep scoff reverberated from Jungkookâs chest, his fingers tightening their hold just enough to send a shiver down your spine. He leaned down, his nose brushing yours as his jaw clenched.
"If you ever compâ" he stopped abruptly, his breath unsteady, voice shaking with barely-contained rage at being compared to the guy heâd nearly put into a coma the last time he laid eyes on him. His jaw clenched, tongue sliding over the inside of his cheek as he glared down at you. "Say his name again, Y/N. I fucking dare you."
You don't know why you did it.
Maybe you lacked survival instincts. Or maybe it was because you were wetter than the fucking Atlantic.
Oh well. Too late now.
"Hyungwâ"
You barely got through the first syllable before you were flipped onto your stomach, your cheek pressed into the mattress, the sudden force of the movement knocking the air from your lungs.
A grunt escaped your lips, your head tilting just enough to catch your breath. You could barely contain the smile threatening to spread across your face, your bottom lip caught between your teeth as a thrill of excitement raced through your veins.
Fucking finally.
Jungkookâs weight vanished from the bed, and though every nerve in your body screamed at you to move, you knew better. You had been here before, too many times to count. Sitting up to look at him would earn you more than just punishmentâit would leave you edged and begging for release until you were a writhing, pathetic mess. Normally, youâd relish every second of that torture, but right now you were too fucking soaked and too fucking needy to drag this out any longer. You haven't had his cock inside you since before he left your place for work this morning.
And that was like⌠seventeen fucking hours ago!
Your body thrummed with anticipation, the ache between your thighs pulsing as you stayed perfectly still, hands flat at your sides. You nuzzled deeper into the pillow with a pleased hum, toes wiggling in eager impatience.
Then came the sound you were waiting for.
He was back behind you, the loud click of the belt buckle confirming it. "'M getting too soft on you, baby." His voice was low, dark.
The mattress dipped beneath his weight, and you felt the cold brush of the belt against your bare thighs, the sensation jolting straight to your core.
You bit down harder on your lip, resisting the urge to respond. You knew that would only make it worse. And better.
"Let you ignore my texts," he hummed, the belt dragging slowly up the curve of your legs, making you squirm involuntarily under his touch.
"Let you walk around with no fucking panties," he growled, his hands pulling up the hem of his shirt so your body was fully exposed to him. You immediately gripped the fabric, holding it tight so it stayed in place, eager to feel the weight of his eyes on your bare skin.
"Bought you a fucking house."
He rested the belt on your waist, a promise of what was to come, then his fingers trailed lower, sliding exactly where you wanted them. He gripped your ass, spreading your cheeks just enough to let you feel the warm brush of his fingers against your slick heat.
"This what you wanted, baby?" His voice was a low, mocking drawl, dripping with condescension. "You want me to fuck you like the needy little slut you are?"
A helpless whimper escaped your lips, your thighs parting instinctively at his words, betraying the desperation that throbbed through every inch of your body.
It was fucked, reallyâhow easily he could lead you into this hazy, trance-like state with just a few words. In everyday life, you were lippy, hot-headed, the kind of person who would never let anyone walk all over you without a fight.
But with Jungkook? When he controlled you, when he degraded you, it never left you feeling small, not like other inferior men from your past who only managed to make you feel amused or bored.
With Jungkook, it was different. The way he commanded you, as twisted as it was, it made you feel seen. Wanted. Like you were exactly where you needed to beâin his hands, under his control. All you desired was to surrender completely, to let him take and take until there was nothing left.
Maybe you were biased, considering you loved the man currently smirking wickedly above you with every fiber of your being, but who cared? He owned you, and god, did you love every second of it.
Jungkook hummed, his fingers sliding through your wetness, gathering it slowly. You could hear the smirk in his voice. "So wet just from running that fucking mouth of yours, huh?"
Your breath hitched, every nerve firing as he lifted a hand to press lightly on the buckle resting on your back, the pressure sending a delicious ache radiating through you. You could already imagine the sting it would leave, the thought alone making you drip.
Then, his hand trailed back down your side, leaving the belt untouched and useless on your back. You bit back a disappointed grunt.
"All leaky and achy just from imagining Heejin-ah with my cock in her mouth, baby?" His taunt was biting, and you couldnât stop the irritated noise that bubbled from your throat. He deliberately added the friendly honorific to get a rise out of you. And it worked.
"Oh?" Jungkook's laughter was filled with malice as he lightly traced his thumb over your folds for the briefest of seconds, not enough to satisfy, not even close.
"You donât like it when I talk about other girls having me like you have me, huh? Not so fun is it, baby?"
His thumb brushed against your clit, fleeting, fast, gone before you could even register the sensation. Your hips bucked, chasing after the contact you craved, but he was already pulling away.
"Funny that," he mused before his tone turned menacingly low. "Because you sure as hell like talking about that boring fucking cuck a bit too much for my liking."
With the last remnants of your composure, you opened your mouth, ready to fire back one last bratty comment. Maybe the lord was on your side, though, because before you could get a word out, Jungkook cut you off.
"Color."
The retort died on your tongue, and before you even processed it, the response was out.
"Bright fucking green."
Jungkookâs mouth came down hot and harsh, his evil tongue licking a fat stripe right down your soaking slit. He took one of your ass cheeks in each hand, parting them effortlessly. You felt more than heard the deep inhale and exhale over your cunt as he dipped his nose into it like a dog would do to their water bowl on a hot fucking day.
Your breathing turned erratic, and your hands curled into fists to stop yourself from grabbing his head and forcing him deeper into your pussy. The way his tongue moved so deliberately, so lazily, only heightened the tension coiling tight in your core. When he had his fill of dragging his nose up and down your slit, his mouth latched onto your clit, slurping it up like it was his last fucking meal.
Your back arched, a strangled moan ripping from your lips as your fingers clawed at your sheets, trying to clutch onto any last thread of sanity. The grip on your ass tightened, keeping you wide open as he went at you with a brutal pace. Your thighs trembled around his head, your hole fluttering at the pleasure he was delivering to your clit. He was relentless, taking out all his anger and frustration on your poor little pussy.
Your cunt couldnât keep up with him. It was dripping, soaking your boyfriend's face faster than he could lap it up, coating his chin and dripping down to the sheets beneath you. He groaned into your pussy, a low, dirty sound that vibrated right through your core.
"Ah! Fuck baby," you sobbed, burying your face further into the mattress. "Ngh-fuckkk!"
He didn't stop, tongue noisily sucking and flicking at your clit. Then his hand lifted and came down hard on your right ass cheek, the sharp slap sending a jolt straight through you. It ripped a moan from your throat and you forced yourself not to ask for another one.
"Not my name right now," he pulled back enough to scoff.
Before you could respond, Jungkookâs hands were already on you, shifting your body until you were holding yourself up on your hands and knees, your weight settled into doggy position.
He let out a low hum in approval before wasting no time and burying his mouth back into your heat, tongue sliding up and down viciously through your sopping folds.
âAh-uhhh! Yes, daddy, oh my godddd,â you cried out, your eyes rolling back, hips bucking as his nose pressed deeper into your pussy.
He moaned into you, the vibration rippling through you as his tongue trailed slowly toward the entrance of your weepy hole.
Your evil fucking boyfriend hovered there for a moment, pretending to tease the tight muscle before his lips gave a big, harsh suck. The sound echoed in your ears as he slurped up as much of your slick as he could, coating his tongue before shoving it right into your clenching hole.
âAh!â Your scream tore raw from your throat, your nails digging sorely into the mattress. His free hand slid up your body, four fingers pressing into the top of your ass cheeks, gripping you with possessive strength, while his thumb found your swollen clit, rubbing it in big, messy circles.
"Daddy -ah! Oh my fuckkk yes, eat your fucking pussy daddy, goddd."
Jungkook groaned lowly into you, eyes fluttering closed as he relished in the taste of the sweetest pussy he's ever had and will ever have in his life. He was manic as he drank from it, slurped at it, rubbed it all over his dirty fucking face. The wet sounds of his tongue pistoning into your hole, his finger sliding over your soppy clit, your fucked-out whimpers while you screamed for your Daddy.
Music to his fucking ears.
Your legs shook, elbows digging into the mattress as you forced yourself to keep form. If it weren't for your boyfriend's firm hand pressed against your stomach, holding you up, you both know you'd be face down on the mattress again.
Jungkook felt the tension in your belly beneath his palm and he knew you were getting close. He let you writhe for a few more seconds before slowing his movements, slipping his tongue from your hole and pressing a kiss to the pretty, puffed outer lips. He gave a wet suckle to your pebbled clit on his way out and finally pulled back with a loud smacking sound.
As much as the whiny cry you let out when he pulled away made his already aching cock throb harder in his briefs, he needed both hands for what he was about to do to you. And you knew it.
His bunny teeth poked out to graze against your inner left thigh, pussy-coated lips puckering to press a soft kiss over the ink that bore his name. Then, his hand pulled back and landed a quick smack on your right thigh, the light sting spreading instantly across your skin.
You understood immediately, a strained groan slipping from your lips as you rolled onto your back, head sinking into the pillow.
The belt buckle had been digging into your skin, so you quickly pulled it from beneath you, tossing it beside you on the bed. Your feet pressed into the mattress, knees bending as your legs spread open once more, leaving your glistening pussy on full displayâjust the way he taught you.
"Mm," Jungkook hummed approvingly, his eyes raking over your body with that look of dark satisfaction. His hand drifted to his cock, now uncomfortably hard, and gave it a rough palm through the fabric.
When his gaze paused at your chest, where his shirt had slipped back down to cover your breasts, you knew what to do.Â
But you didn't want to take it off⌠it was your favorite.
Instead, you tugged the fabric higher, pulling it up over your tits, shuddering as the material grazed over your sensitive nipples. Your tongue darted out to wet your lips before you bit down lightly on the hem, holding it in place between your teeth.
Jungkook let out a low, dirty groan, his fingers trailing up your thighs, giving the soft flesh a possessive squeeze. "Good girl, baby."
"Thank you, daddy," you keened at the praise, though your response came out muffled with the shirt wedged between your teeth.
You gave a little impatient wiggle of your hips, feeling the mixture of slick and saliva begin to drip out of your pussy the longer it was left unattended.
Jungkook's eyes hooded at the sight, watching as a glob of his spit dripped down from your pussy and disappeared right between your crack. He swallowed hard, hands itching to spread the fat cheeks and watch the liquid pool around your tight, puckered hole. He'd grab your phone and make you bring up Park Hyungwon's contact, force you to Facetime the pathetic fuck, and make him watch as he let more of his spit trail from his mouth right over your greedy ass. Then he'd use his big tongue to shove it deeper and deeper into your winking little hole .
Of course, the Hyungwon part was purely theoretical because you no longer had his number or any contact with that cunt anymore. Jungkook saw to that three days into your relationship. But the other partsâ
"Daddy?"
His gaze slowly drifted up to your pretty face when your muffled voice broke him from his thoughts. "Yes, my baby?"
"Wha's da bel' for?" you mumbled, your speech slurred by the fabric of his shirt still caught between your teeth.
Jungkookâs tongue swiped over his bottom lip, eyes darkening at the sight of you struggling to speak, and he wasnât surprised when his cock twitched in response, pressing harder against his stomach.
He glanced at the belt lying next to you. âWas gonna punish you, angel,â he admitted softly.
His hand trailed down, freeing his throbbing shaft from its restraints and kicking the briefs aside. The (non-sexual related) clean freak in him made a mental note to tidy up later.
Climbing onto the bed, he settled between your legs, his weight pressing down on you as his chest melded into your soft, warm skin. A quiet, content sigh slipped from his lips as he let himself sink into you.
âBut 'm still very sorry about earlier,â he murmured, his words a gentle apology as his hand brushed along your side, his nose nuzzling against your boob. âAnd I wanna be a little gentler with you tonight. Is that okay?â
A warmth swirled in your stomach, sending soft flutters through your body. Your hand lifted to thread through his silky, messy hair, your nails grazing his scalp just the way he loved.
âOf cour-kkhm,â His eyes flicked up to meet yours from where his head rested on your chest, and with a bunny smile, his fingers carefully tugged his shirt from your mouth, freeing your lips so you could speak more clearly.
Leaning down, you pressed a gentle kiss to his tattooed fingers, feeling his warmth seep into your skin. âYou can have me any way you want, baby,â you whispered softly, your words full of affection. âYou know that.â
âNever getting rid of me, you know that, right?â he murmured against the soft skin of your sideboob, his lips puckering to suck a delicate mark into the flesh.
âWould never try,â you sighed, your hand trailing down to rest on his warm, solid back as he licked tenderly over the mark heâd left. âWould fucking castrate you if you even tried to leave me.â
A low, deep laugh rumbled through his chest, vibrating against your body as he shifted up, his naked form pressing closer until his mouth found its place in the crook of your neck. He mumbled softly, a smirk tugging at his lips, âWould let you.â
You giggled, your head tilting to meet your other half. âSlut,â you mumbled sweetly before connecting your mouth with his. Your lips moved together in perfect sync, tongues lazily lapping against each other, unrushed and full of love.
The taste of you in his mouth had you clenching around nothing as the memory of his filthy tongue buried between your thighs minutes ago resurfaced. Your hips rocked up lightly, exhaling through your nose when the tip of his cock just barely brushed against your sticky clit, the sound loud in contrast to the soft click of your tongues.
Jungkook was no less affected, groaning into your mouth as his fingers tightened around the sides of your waist. His hips shifted down so the full length of his shaft could slip between your slick folds, and he reveled in the loud, squishy noise of your heat enveloping him as he slid back and forth.
âMmmmhh,â you broke away from his mouth with a sigh of relief, your head lolling back as your body ignited at the feeling of his cock finally returning home. He didnât make a move to push inside just yet, continuing his deep thrusts, coating his length and balls in your slick as he rutted back and forth. "Shit, baby."
Jungkookâs groan was strained as his hand trailed from your side, slipping between the two of you without moving his head. He reluctantly pulled his cock from your slick folds before two of his fingers were there to replace it, sinking into your heat without hesitation.
"F-fuck," you choked, your chest heaving at the sudden stretch, your body reacting instantly to the familiar intrusion. It was the first time something stiff had been inside you all night, and the relief was overwhelming.
Jungkook groaned low in your ear, letting you adjust for a second before his hunger took over. He pushed his fingers in deeper into your hole, sinking them in fully until his palm slapped loudly against your clit. Then he pulled them out and drove them back in, harder.
"Oh god, b-baby, shitttt." Your nails dug into the skin of his shoulders, jaw slacking when his long fingers easily reached that spongey part deep inside of you.
He nuzzled into your neck, his lips brushing the hot skin there as his fingers continued their relentless pace, a soft groan escaping his throat. The way your walls squeezed tightly around his fingers like you didn't want him to pull out, the loud sqsch-sqsch-sqsch of your pussy echoing in his ears as he thrusted his hand in and out of your dirty little hole.
God, he was going to cum untouched like a fucking teenager.
âNeed to put it in, please, baby,â he begged softly, voice strained with need, his breath hot against your neck. âNeed you."
Your hand cupped his face, fingers brushing lightly over his jawline as your eyes fluttered shut. âTake it,â you mewled, breath catching as his fingers slowed. His hips shifted back over you, his heavy balls pressed snugly against your clit. âTake it all, baby. Itâs yours.â
Jungkook didnât need to be told twice. He withdrew his fingers, his wet hand wrapping around his throbbing cock. He exhaled into your neck before slipping back into your folds and you choked out a loud sigh of relief as he finally began to fill you up.
âShittttt,â he slurred against your neck, his forehead pressing into your jaw as he sank all the way in until his hips were flush with yours. âGod, baby... so fucking good.â
His body stayed pressed against yours, his chest melting into your own, every inch of his skin needing to feel yours. His lips ghosted over your collarbone, up your neck, and to your jawline, pressing gentle kisses as he moved inside you with deep, unhurried thrusts.
âFuck, baby,â you whimpered, your hands sliding up his back, pulling him impossibly closer. You buried your face into his neck, the scent of Bvlgari and tobacco making your head spin. It was so good. So fucking him.
The warmth of his heavy body on top of you made you feel so safe, so completely his. It fueled the burning ache in your stomach, the pressure in your core building with each deep stroke.
Your brows furrowed, overwhelmed, and your eyes pooled with tears, both from pleasure and emotion. "God, I love you so much, Jungkook. You make me feel so safe a-and loved," you choked out, voice trembling.
Jungkookâs hips stilled slightly, but you felt the way his cock twitched inside you at your words. He pulled his head back, looking down at your tear-streaked face, eyes softening.
"My baby," he mumbled softly, his clean(er) hand lifting to brush away your tears before leaning down to press soft kisses over your flushed skin.
"As long as Iâm alive, nothing and nobody will ever hurt a hair on your pretty little head, Y/N." He kissed over the fresh tears, licking the salty liquid off his lips before placing a soft kiss onto your pouty lips. "Besides me, of course, when you ask me to."
A watery chuckle escaped your lips as he added, "I love you more than I love myself, baby. You're my world. I would kill for you," another kiss to the corner of your mouth before he cheekily added, "almost have."
You giggled, shaking your head and leaning up to press a grateful kiss against his lips. You followed it with another, longer one, brushing softly over the cool metal of his lip rings. "Can't wait to live with you, baby."
"Mmm," he groaned in satisfaction, his hips instinctively picking up their slow, deep rhythm at your words. "Yeah? Canât wait to be trapped in my house, nowhere to run when youâre being a little brat?"
You laughed, breathy from the way he was rolling his hips into you. "Like I get far as it is? You just follow me like a dirty stalker."
His smile turned dark and playful as his thrusts became a little sharper. "Uh-huh, and you think that would stop when we sign some stupid joint tenancy papers?"
You couldn't help the way you clenched around him at that, big eyes blinking up at him in shock. "You're letting me sign the papers with you?"
Jungkook's brows furrowed as if confused. "Baby, it's our house; why wouldnât you?"
A grunt rumbled from your throat as you pulled him down, teeth sinking into his bottom lip. Jungkook groaned into your mouth, his hands sliding down to grip your hips tightly, his thrusts growing rougher in response to the bite.
The sounds that echoed around your bedroom were wet, needy, the slick squelching with every push and pull as he kept his pace, deep and steady. Your breaths mingled, his lips hovering over yours as he rocked into you.
Jungkook groaned lowly, his hips pressing harder, more urgent. âYou feel so fucking good, baby,â he rasped, his lips pressing soft kisses along your jaw, up to your ear. âGive it to me every day, and it's still so wet and tight for me, fucking hellll.â
You keened at his praise, biting your lip harshly as his pace quickened. Your legs wrapped tighter around his waist, thighs squeezing as you pulled him deeper inside you until you were so close you were getting shoved into the headboard with each thrust.
âAh, bab-uh! Right theree,â you whined, back arching as he hit that spot with precision, his thick head shoving against your g-spot like it was second nature. He knew your body inside out, and still, every time felt like a new fucking discovery.
Jungkook grunted lowly, his lips hovering by your ear as he thrust deeper, harder. âRight there, baby? Thatâs my spot, isnât it? Feels so good when I fuck into it like that, huh?â
Your nails dug into his back as you whimpered, completely at his mercy. The slamming of the headboard against the wall was so loud but you couldn't care less. âYes, yes, fuck, baby, that's yooourr fucking spot, uuh! Fucking take it, baby, godd!"
Jungkook groaned, his hips snapping faster, rougher, each thrust more desperate as he pounded into you. âI will,â he promised, possessiveness dripping from every word. âAnd youâre gonna give it to me, right, baby? Gonna beg me for it?â
âPlease, baby, take it,â you cried out, your legs tightening around his waist. âTake it all, itâs yours. Just fucking take it.â
His hand gripped your hip hard, anchoring you in place as he slammed into you over and over again. He shifted you down a little so your head wasn't slamming into the headboard and his free hand slid down to rub over your slippery clit.
"Whose is it, huh? Who does this dirty fucking pussy belong to? Tell me.â
âYou,â you sobbed, your body trembling beneath him, the pressure building in your core so quickly you could barely think. âItâs yours, baby. All y-yours.â
âSay my fucking name when you come,â he demanded, âand youâre gonna take everything I give you, right, baby? Greedy little pussyâs gonna suck up every drop of my fucking load. And youâre gonna hold it in there until Iâm ready to turn you into a mama.â
You came so fucking hard.
It hit you all at onceâyour release crashing through you, your body shaking violently as a broken scream ripped from your throat, nails digging so deep into his skin you knew youâd leave marks.
âJungââ your breath hitched in a sob âJungkooookkkk!â
Your body arched into him, every wave of pleasure crashing through you, leaving you limp and trembling beneath him as he kept pounding into you, chasing his own release. The sound of his balls slapping against your ass echoed in your ears, barely drowning out the breathless thank yous tumbling from your lips.
âGood fucking girl,â he praised, his voice strained as his hips stuttered, his cock pulsing as he used you as a fleshlight.
âGonna be the best daddy,â you cried, legs shaking as you let him abuse your whimpering cunt. âCanât wait to have your fucking babies. Give you, uh, g-give you as many as you want daddy.â
âFuck, Y/N,â he groaned, head thrown back in bliss. âYeah? Gonna keep popping out babies for daddy until he says youâre done? Gonna let me fuck you so full until it sticks... 'til your bellyâs so big you can barely fucking walk, baby?â
You could hear the slick, wet sloshing noise every time he pulled out and slammed back into your pussy, and you swore it was the prettiest sound youâd ever heard.
âYesss, daddyyy,â you cried out, voice high and desperate. âPlease make me a mommy. P-please.â
âNghhh, fuck!â
With one final deep thrust, he spilled into you, hot and thick, his body trembling as he filled you completely. Your name fell from his lips again as your greedy walls fluttered and clenched around him, eager to milk every last drop of cum from his cock.
But he didnât stop.
Jungkookâs hips kept rolling into yours, adjusting for a moment at the sensitivity before he sped up, dragging his softening cock against that perfect spot inside you. His thumb was cruel, chasing your swollen clit even as it tried to hide from him.
It was too much, too intense, but you couldnât stop the way your body reactedâback arching, nails back digging back into his big shoulders, a broken wail spilling from your lips.
âFuck, baby,â you whimpered, head falling back as the overstimulation consumed you. âI c-can'ttttââ
âAnother one," Jungkook growled, his lips brushing over your jaw, kissing you through every ragged breath. âC'mon, my love, you can do it. One more. One more, then you're done, baby.â
And just like that, it hit youâyour second orgasm crashing through your body, leaving your toes curling and vision blurring. You cried out his name, your entire body shaking beneath him as he kept grinding, coaxing you through every wave of pleasure until you were trembling, thighs quivering around his waist.
âGod, fuck!â you sobbed, clinging to him as the last of your release pulsed through you, squeezing his soft cock tight as he groaned into your neck. You were limp, shaking, but he stayed right there.
You both knew the chance of actually getting pregnant was very slim, thanks to the implant your arm, and you werenât ready for that. You think.
But the breeding talk always turned you both the fuck on, and that 1% chance set something dangerous ablaze inside you. The risk, however small, just made it so much hotter.
You let out a content sigh as you crashed back to earth, shaky arms looping around his neck, pulling him down, craving the weight of his body on yours. Jungkook collapsed on top of you, his breath hot against your neck as he pressed soft kisses to your skin, still buried inside you
âDid so good, my baby. Always so good for me,â he cooed, his voice low and soft, as his nose nuzzled gently against your skin, brushing over your collarbone.
A breathy giggle escaped your lips as your fingers threaded through his slightly damp hair. âThought you said you wanted to be gentle tonight.â
Jungkook hummed lazily against your neck, his lips trailing over your skin with a soft chuckle. âThat was gentle,â he murmured, sinking deeper into your warm skin.
You snorted softly, shaking your head. âYouâre not wrong,â you replied, your chest still heaving slightly as your hand slid soothingly up and down his back. You felt him smile against your neck, his arms tightening around you, his cock still nestled deep, clearly in no rush to pull out anytime soon.
For a moment, it was peacefulâthe sound of your mingled breaths the only noise in the room. Then, Jungkook lifted his head slightly, glancing at the soft glow of your Mac screen. His eyes caught the time, and he let out an annoyed groan, burying his face deeper into your skin.
âHm? Whatâs wrong?â you asked, your fingers still threading through his hair as you glanced toward the screen yourself. Your heart dropped when you saw the time.
âYouâve got to be up in, like, three hours,â you mumbled, running your hand down his back, your feet sliding up and down the back of his thighs in an attempt to soothe him.
Jungkookâs body tensed slightly at the reminder, his lips still pressed to your neck. You could feel the irritation in his silence, and your heart sank at the thought of him leaving before you even woke up.
âIâll make your lunch before I come into work at eight, baby,â you offered softly, your voice gentle as you tried to ease his frustration. âI can bring it up to yââ
âIâm not going,â he interrupted, his voice firm but soft against your skin.
Your heart stilled at his words, and you pulled back slightly, trying to see his face. âWhat do you mean, youâre not going?â
âIâm not going in tomorrow,â he repeated, lifting his head to meet your gaze. âAnd youâre not either. Weâre staying right here until we both get some real sleep.â
You blinked in surprise. âButââ
âAnd then,â he cut you off again, his lips brushing yours as he spoke, âweâre gonna wake up, pack your shit, and move into our house.â
Your heart fluttered in your chest. âYeah?â you whispered, your voice barely audible as you looked into his eyes, searching for any hint of hesitation.
Jungkook nodded, his lips curving into a soft smile as he leaned down to kiss you pouty lips, his hands brushing back your hair. âTold you, you canât run from me anymore, baby.â
You grinned against his lips, wrapping your arms around his neck as you kissed him deeply, your heart swelling with love.
âI love you so much, my dirty stalker,â you cooed against his mouth, your fingers drifting to trace over your name inked across his chest.
Jungkookâs eyes crinkled as his lips pressed softly against yours again, his body relaxing as he breathed you in. âI love you more, my crazy girl."
WOW what a ride!! let me know what you think?? love you đ¤
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HYBEâs thirst for money
The stark reality is that HYBE and Bang PD are completely driven by money at this point. Â It was bound to happen, considering where Bang PD began with BTS. Â Humble beginnings to put it mildly. Â
Bang PD has been bitten by the âbugâ, and his thirst for more and more is reflected in the choices he is making as a music mogul. Â Itâs reflected in the way heâs playing the âgameâ with the big boys and the way he is cowtowing to the almighty powers-that-be, behind closed doors. Â
They know exactly what they are doing. Â They know that ARMYs all around the world will spend every last penny(or coin) of their hard-earned income to âsupportâ BTS. Â People will buy and buy, and buy more. Â People will go to all the labels out there that appoint Namjoon, Yoongi, Jin, Hobi, Jimin, Tae, and Jungkook as âBrand Ambassadorsâ, and SPEND THEIR MONEY. Â All because of the naive belief that it benefits the guys. Â
{Sorry not sorry here.....} They KNOW how to milk the money cow, and they will continue to do so. Â They will milk it and milk it, and never look back. Â They will never take into consideration that there are ARMYs out there who cannnot afford that concert ticket, or that tee-shirt, or that newly released album, BUT THAT ARMY WILL SPEND THEIR MONEY ANYWAY because they think it benefits BTS.
Yes I have spent my money on some items on Weverse. Â Iâve done it because Iâll never have the opportunity to see them in person. Â Iâve done it to somehow feel a part of the community. Â Iâve done it when I couldnât afford it because it somehow made me feel a tad closer to the guys. Â
When they announced the âDirect Messagingâ service that was coming and that it would be a paid service, I knew what it was. Â I knew that they are doing it not because it actually gives ARMYs a chance to âmessageâ the guys, but because it was another way to MAKE MONEY. Â Think about how many people will actually pay for that! Â It is insanity. Â Pure greed on the part of HYBE.
With all this being said I will add one more thing. Â I DO NOT believe that BTS in any way is a part of this and I donât believe that they are driven by greed. Â They have enough money to live the rest of their lives without working. Â I just want to be clear here so no one misunderstands my words. Â
We as a buying power/ARMY have choices. Â We can choose to continue to give our hard-earned (I work to support myself completely) money to the machine(HYBE), OR we can use our power to make a statement. Â
For this ARMY, the buck stops here.Â
#bts#bangtan and army#bts army#save your money#it doesnt benefit bts like you think#bang pd greed#sorry not sorry#stark reality#squeezing more money out of army#love bts#i support bts#the buck stops here
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