#lotff

[sm-writes-chaos]

@anulithots

I hadn’t drawn Kamari and Ankh until this

Practice sketches

But here’s the comic like thingie whatever you wanna call it

I liked your original panel layout but I can’t do that and I like things to be symmetrical-ish so that’s what I did.

Full page.

I wanted Kamari’s speech bubbles to have little plants growing on them, and I wanted the lines around them to gradually get darker. And I wanted Kamari’s antennae’s to look less like a heart shape in the last drawing becuz angst ig.

But anyways, love these two. Ankh is so fun to draw

[celestialsun123]

@waitingforthesunrise @sm-writes-chaos @holdmyteaplease @full-on-sam

@osbob-the-existent @awleeofficial

@clearcloudlesssky @gummybugg @sleepy-vix @starryeyeddarlings

@sea-dwelling-wizard @snowpoet123 @leytaylorjohnson

Alright y'all, sad topic here, but important

@anulithots will be off tumblr for anywhere between a few months to indefinitely. This is not their choice, and they are not happy about it, but they may be able to post updates on their yt

if I've missed anyone, please tag them if you can.

also if there are any other changes or developments, Noorie will hopefully let me know and I can update y'all too.

[anulithots]

this but with LotFF writing. Most things are intentional

[anulithots]

AT LONG LAST WE HAVE THE.....

SHITTY WIP (but it was too long so it's just Anuli) COMIC SANS INTRO

gently tagging:

@waitingforthesunrise @sm-writes-chaos @holdmyteaplease @full-on-sam @osbob-the-existent @awleeofficial @clearcloudlesssky @gummybugg @sleepy-vix @starryeyeddarlings + @snowpoet123 and @aritany <-- who's tumblr post inspired me do this whole thing in a frenzy /pos

lmk if you'd like to be added or removed from the tag list <3 🌿

[lavenderrosiefan]

Traintober Day 27: Record Breaker

Excerpt from future LOTFF chapter, probably The Legend Continues...

Michiru puffed into Vicarstown Station. She had to admit, pulling coaches was a welcome change after pulling freight cars for so long.

Suddenly, she saw an A4 puff on the other side of the platform. This, however, wasn't just any A4-it was Mallard, one of Spencer's sisters. Michiru shuddered at the thought of Spencer. Rude, crass, arrogant-no wonder he was easily disliked among the engines of Sodor. She didn't have the best memories of him, either-he was always chasing her around.

"I hope she isn't as rude as Spencer," she thought. She had heard from Gordon that A4's were notorious for being proud and ruthless, and Mallard was one of the ruder ones. She did look quite beautiful, though-her blue paint with brass fittings shone in the sun.

Shyly, Michiru cleared her throat. "Um, hello there! Welcome to Sodor!"

Mallard looked at her. "A Saint Class?" she sneered with surprise. "I wasn't aware that some were preserved."

"Of course! Some of my brothers and sisters were scrapped, but others, like me, were preserved."

Mallard sniffed in response. "Despite your pristine origins, you smell like you've pulled freight cars for most of your life. You'd never catch an A4-especially me-do that sort of work."

"Um...have you ever tried it?" Michiru asked curiously.

Mallard blinked, caught off guard. "W-What did you say?" she demanded, trying to hide her shock.

"Have you ever tried pulling freight trains? They're quite different from passenger trains, you know. No passengers complaining about their destinations, just you, the cars, and the pretty countryside."

Mallard was at a loss for words. "N-No, I have not." she said finally. She looked closely at Michiru. Her silver paint with dark purple lining glimmered like a polished diamond, her glasses placed cutely on her freckled face.

"In many ways, she reminds me of Silver Link," Mallard thought. Her older sister, despite being the first of the A4's built, was always the one who wanted the A4's to step out of their comfort zone. She would always go around pulling freight trains in addition to her passenger runs, and despite being criticized by the others, she would not complain about her duties.

"What is your name?" she asked.

Michiru smiled shyly. "My name is Michiru."

"What a pretty name," replied Mallard. "Well then, I'd better be off. See you later!"

"Bye, Mallard!" replied Michiru. As she watched the A4 go, she thought to herself, "There's something sad about Mallard..."

[talesfromtheunknowable]

I think you're the kindest sweetest most imaginative soul I know! I love your little universe and the fact that you've been with it for so long is so wholesome!! I love the different blogs you have and I would love to understand Anuli more! Fae are absolutely adorable and I relate to faer philosophy so like please I will absolutely fan around your finished WIP :D

ALSO the fae pronouns are so creative and it adds on to the magical finding yourself undertones of The Land of the Fallen Fairies! I love them a lot

- Anonymous ;D

THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THANK YOU SO MUCH <3

(I don't know how to communicate how I stop and smile at each and every ask. How it makes my nights of worrying and frantic rewrites, hoping to the stars that this turns out nice. How it casts my internal world, the majority of myself that honestly is my sanctuary in such a wonderous way that I loose any words to express that feeling.

But I can say thank you.

So thank you. It's absolutely wonderous,)

And as for Anuli:

Anuli character sheet <- Basic info and little fun facts

'How did Anuli come to be?' <-- Original character sheets and general LotFF iterations

Lot's of info on Human AU's, Anuli and Kamari, and a philosophical infodump <--- has some more 'philosophical' Anuli info

General tag

ANNNDDD: @imjusthereforeternity

Anuli in general was supposed to be a character that is (a) easy for me to write - so not a ton of actions and as many thought processes as I can get - and (b) represents that need to chase happiness, to fix yourself so you deserve that happy ending.

And part of that is because of stories themselves.

Little me trying to navigate a world they didn't understand found that stories were... not a perfect framework, but by stars did they help. How to be funny. How people think. And most importantly, WHY. Why any of it works the way it does.

And yet, both stories, and the entire universe, told me that 'good things happen to good people'. That those who have a certain attitude, that those who believe certain things or have a certain lifestyle or go through a certain arc will have that whimsical happy ending I wanted so bad, it hurt.

Anuli was my companion, in every time I cycled over to the beginning, throughout all of it. It got to the point where I would accidently call myself 'Anuli' in my head because at times, when I needed a coping mechanism, life was simply story fodder.

... That was a slightly unrelated rant.

Anywho! Anuli's philosophy and internal dynamics.

Anuli does not remember faer tree, or being tethered. Just that fae has been tethered, for as long as fae could remember.

(This is definitely not because I didn't want to write these parts because it was boring in previous iterations... totally not. /j)

But at least fae had stories. Stories, and Kamari. The Place of Tethers may be a villain out to get faer. It may have bright captured stars that scream throughout the night in static, but Anuli has stories. Fae has Kamari. Anuli would have a happy ending someday, because of Kamari. Kamari promised. Fae promised.

And Anuli had glimpses of the happy ending already. Fae knew what it would be like, for fae had already felt that sort of elation. All fae needed was for faer tether to be broken, for the Place of Tethers to be vanquished forevermore.

And Kamari promised. Anuli had Kamari, so it would be okay. The Place of Tethers was bearable because Kamari was there.

...

So anywho, Kamari disappeared for a day.

(I'm probably going to fix bits and pieces of this draft, since it's the first thing I've written for this iteration, and it was difficult for perfectionistic me. Kamari probably told Anuli that fae may be gone for longer and Anuli would get distracted in preparing a story to tell Kamari that fae forgot that Kamari wouldn't be there.)

And Anuli ended up breaking faer tether.

Great!

Fae defeated the antagonist. The Place of Tethers was gone. They had a happy ending now! Kamari would be ecstatic.

Kamari was not, ecstatic.

All this is to say that Anuli had a happy ending before, and fae didn't truly enjoy it because fae thought it might get better.

Then fae ruined it.

And fae's been chasing that happy ending, what fae had before, what fae could've had if fae had just waited, if fae wasn't a fallen fairy, ever since.

This is that sort of 'I CAN FIX ME' that Anuli runs by.

Villains don't get happy endings unless they have redemption arcs. If Anuli had a redemption arc, if fae could only get rid of all the bad parts of faerself....

ALSO ALSO!

I want to try to make the bulk of the Land of the Fallen Fairies fairly episodic, so I can explore a different aspect of this concept each 'episode' and leave myself open to writing as I please.

So I want to try out different episodes. Specifically, 'metal adventure ones', like those where you split yourself into all the different aspects of your personality?

That, but Anuli tries to 'rid' of all the 'evil ones'

And the 'fix your past' episodes? Not time travel, but 'change your memories so they don't bother you anymore.'

The opposing aspect of Anuli is the 'I waste love' part.

And I always have the hardest time describing this in a way that feels how it is in my head. It's not 'hurting others'... more so 'not being able to repay them', they have sacrificed their lives, their time, all their love, for your betterment, for your happy ending, and all you give them is regrets.

And they will feel betrayed by that.

They should hate you for that.

But no, they still want you to get better, they still love you.

And that hurts more than anything else.

So Anuli's character becomes this contradiction of 'wants to change self for a happy ending' and 'me being around others... forget about happy... would ruin everything.'

WHICH BRINGS ANULI TO STORY CYCLES.

It gets worse and better then worse again. An aha moment that unlocks a so-close-to-the-happy-ending one day, then a dark night of the soul the next.

Because stories are by no means linear. There is regression at times... as painful as that can be to admit, and that 'trying to tame your garden' is absolutely exhausting. At that point, is happiness - this abstract unknowable feeling - worth it anymore? Especially when it feels so strained, so empty, on the rare occasions fae does feel it.

All I can offer to this is that... it's a garden, it's a story. It will cycle, all of nature does that. Stories end right after the happy ending, and you have to find another story. And that... well their cycles are not as painful as life itself, because by no means are you a character, you're just reading.

Life could be like that too.

---

As of the current arc of @imjusthereforeternity, Anuli thinks that its faer nature for faer stories - and faer life - to spiral into darker, more morbid storylines. THANKFULLY.

OUTLINES.

(I went on the planning obsession and sold my soul to the underworld trying to follow it to a T, so this will be fun.)

And Anuli keeps making disclaimers, these are new beings, they can be saved. If they are warned, they can be saved from trying to want anything from Anuli, from rooting for the antagonist.

Hopefully.

The archives excite Anuli quite a bit, fae's fixing faerself, this will work! Fae will never have to be an antagonist because Kamari's having faer happy ending and Anuli is completely rewriting faerself to follow these outlines.

I mean, sure, fae's having trouble getting faerself to do some of the things, and is getting distracted by other ventures, but the outlines will stop anything from getting too plot-ruining.

It has to.

---

Thank you again for the ask! I'm so so glad you like the Land of the Fallen Faires.

[anulithots]

OHMIGOSH THIS IS LOTFF THIS IS LOTFF IN A NUTSHELL

You guys seem to like my last extremely specific writer meme so here's another one:

[sm-writes-chaos]

It’s sitting pretty at the top of my monstrous notebook pile :D @anulithots but dw I’ll be taking great care of it

Of course I had to draw Anuli as my first mark in my new notebook. And started writing an idea I got a few days ago.

Love it so much ^^

[celestialsun123]

Y'all. Y'all look at what I got.

@anulithots

NOTEBOOK /pos

[anulithots]

🎶 Hey Kamari! What's your favorite season/type of weather?

"Well... I definitely don't like winter. The cold makes myself unusable as precious time slips through my fingers. Then it's gone forever, and I WASTED IT ALL being half asleep. Honestly, how do I ever expect to free myself of being the High Protector when so much time fades away just through half-sleeping, getting myself lucid again, and dreading the winter?

If I could get rid of that and make myself an evergreen I would.

Fall too is the slow dread of the cold seeping into my head... no matter how much I try to be productive and use every moment. It's aggravating. Imagine how much better spent it could be...

Summer is nice. Creatures weave songs together no matter the time of day or night... it'll be nice when I'm done being the High Protector. I'll spend my days collecting stone and making windchimes and singing with the rest of the creatures. It'll be wonderous.

And weather! I'm quite fond of the rain.. although more so the period of time just after it rains. The birds peek through the gentle silence with chirps and, slowly, everyone resumes their music."

SONGS (chose two because I couldn't decide):

They have been on repeat for the past week nonstop.

[anulithots]

Sometimes I feel like I've overcomplicated this story and it isn't the 'chasing happiness' narrative I want it to be.

But! Learning experience, I'll make sure not to have so much backstory in one sitting for the next story, I work better with little flashes.

(It'll be fine.)

ALso also! Anuli's spiralling due to faer own predispositions and tendencies for fear get bored and stressed. Not anyone's fault here! In fact, this will be very helpful to faer, later on.

I broke the rest of the materials.

Every piece of wonder I collected. Every promise to be something greater...

and I tore it apart.

[thissliceofnonsense]

The Land of the Fallen Fairies

(ooh fancy font, whenever I talk LotFF I'll use this font)

Alrighty so my favorite thing in the world is when authors talk about their creative process behind their works. Especially all the hiccups and such and the absolute crazy insanity that goes into being a creative. Like Dead Sound on youtube doing "making of" videos, I love those so much they warm my very soul.

And I really wish more authors did that. I would be obsessed with anyone that wants to make something amazing and talks about their process. Even more so than the story itself, the process reveals a lot about how someone's brain ticks. There is something about that that gives me dopamine so I want more people do to it.

So first off - if you want to tell a story, please please please, talk about your creative process. I want to hear about it and obsess over it.

Second of all - I kind of want to do that too. Hopefully that doesn't sound like I'm being self-reverential, as I'm not the most amazing writer by any means, but I like infodumping about anything story related, and my family has learned to treat my voice as background noise and the thing I crave most is someone that understand my internal processing system and will talk to me about storytelling so why not the internet.

SOAP! Land of the Fallen Fairies. A story I made when I was ten and have never been satisfied with until now. My family thought it would be either an epic fantasy adventure or Tinkerbell.

What it is - a stream of consciousness story about a dryad who thinks so much and has trouble with staying present. I liked the idea of having a fantasy setting but not doing the whole "and they save the universe" thing. Because you can be very mundane in a fantasy world, right?

Anywho, Anuli (Main character) would be better off a side character because fae is so much in faer head that the plot happens on the side. Fae is aware of this and wants to fix it.

That was not a very good description, but blurbs are hard so we'll leave it at that for now.

[sm-writes-chaos]

Too many notebooks?

Yet not enough??

Then here’s the perfect opportunity to add to your collection!

Bonus for fans of The Land Of the Fallen Fairies by @anulithots

Includes cute little doodles and thoughts in the margins

In just TWO DAYS

Even grumpy pants Norah approves, so what’re you waiting for? Support an amazing writer today!!

—

(Examples of pages:)

[celestialsun123]

So this is what I do with my Lotff notebook

I dishonor Anuli 🥲

That drawing could've been so much better.... Oh well, it's been done!

@anulithots

[anulithots]

i love you hijacking my posts but that means i get to hijack your asks >:D

bordered gothic moth go 💥

ooohhh. Hijacked asks. (I love asks)

okay I could desgin a fairy off of that... I have desgined fairies off of bugs. (hence why the antenae come from the muzzle instead of the forehead)

KDfjdalkfjaskd the wingss are sooo pretyyyy

(Fun fact! ankh's antenae comes from a cockoach because they have loooong antenae.) And Anuli's based off of a firefly and Kamari is some random alignment of the stars IDK

OH ANd at some point I had a veryyy previous iteration of Anuli (called amaris at the time) based off of a moth.

Becuase there was this moth in my room that would sit on my paper tablet as I wrote at 2am

so yea. love moths. they are the besttt.

hmmm And now for a random character (WIll draw later)

... ummm the mother of the Unseen (most tree societies have a mother/hub tree. This has nothing to do with gender) will be based off of a moth. Faer whole thing is that fae remembers the past and wishes never to repeat it. Since fae has indirectly caused all of Anuli's suffering (made the fallen fairies system) then fae would be a foil for ANuli. Perhaps fae had some sort of relationship with pixies and now wishes to never repeat that again.

... so like anywhoooo fungi can get trees addicted to thier nutrients isn't that nice. /sarcasm

Thank you so much for the ask! <3

[thissliceofnonsense]

A very old milanote that I have to edit where I work on this thing