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nicks has a girl best friend and they are super affectionate with each other (hugs, "cuddling" on the couch, etc.) and later on her and chris start dating and thats how chris knows she loves affection and is super lovey dovey. nick comments about chris stealing his girl and funny things like that. something super fluffy and cute. please and thanks <3
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to my bff: @leah-loves-lilies
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y/n snuggled into nick, pushing her head into his side and wrapping her legs around one of his, she wrapped her arms around his torso. nick chuckles as he wraps his arms around the girl currently cuddling into him.
he slides down the couch some to get a better hold on her and to get a bit more comfy from his previous sitting position.
y/n hummed in content and mumbled the the lyrics of an audio playing on nicks phone as she watched.
chris looked at them, from the kitchen he stared at how y/n cuddled into nick like a sloth, looking awfully comfortable just hugging his brother and mumbling words.
* ⢠â˘
y/n hugged nick, maneuvering her arms under his and situating herself so she was somewhat standing between his legs but also infront of him as she hugged him.
pressing her cheek into him he put his hand on her back and rubbed, before going back to buttering his toast as they stood in the kitchen, simply hugging and enjoying one anothers presence, even if they werenât talking as long as one was touching the other, even if in a small way like hand holding, leg brushing even the smallest touch made them happy.
nick rested his chin ontop of y/ns head, humming lyrics to himself, before patting y/ns back and mumbling âI have to move, y/n.â
y/n groaned but unlatched herself from him and moved to the counter behind them, leaning into it slightly, watching her bestfriend prepare a meal for himself.
chris was sat in a chair by the dinner table, watching the whole interaction go down.
his bottom lip fed inbetween his teeth, thinking about how y/n was so touchy with nick all the time and how she was almost never seen not touching nick.
it was very clear physical touch was her love language, but what would it take for her to touch him as much as she did nick.
hell, for all he knew she mightâve just liked touching nick and no one else, shes never held or cuddled into chris as often as she did with her bestfriend, nick, I mean, they were all bestfriends just y/n tended to touch nick more than the other two boys.
surely she hugged and occasionally cuddled matt or chris, but as chris let his thoughts wonder, he couldnt help but think about how much he fucking adored her, the way her eyes lit up when she smiled, how gentle she was, the way her hands gently grazed alongst someones (nicks) skin when they werent cuddling of some sort. she just always had to be touching someone, more nick than anyone else.
sometimes he likes to think its because nick accepts the affection every single time, and so shes learned that she can always go to him. and since that shes never tested the waters with chris â chris loved, loved physical touch. he liked touching people in ways to remind them he loved them, in a sense when he touched people it was some sort of comfort overtaking his senses knowing that they knew he loved them.
as chrisâ thoughts wondered on and on, he couldnt help but ask âhey y/n, you always touch nick and tell him you love him so very often, but you almost never touch matt and i, why is that?â
y/n turned to look at chris, her lips twitching as she thought of what to say. âdunno, just like touching him. I guess ive never thought about touching- ew, I hate saying it like that. makes it sound weird, all like âim gonna touch youââ she giggled, before collecting herself from her soon to be rant. âive just never thought about cuddling you and matt, ya know? never crossed my mind.â
chris hummed in response, letting his mind wander with what she had just said.
maybe he should start initiating affection aswell?
* ⢠â˘
it was no doubt that chris had a crush on y/n, and y/n always noticed the stolen glances, the looks on her lips being far too long for friendly, the way his cheeks heated up when he saw or came into the same room as her.
y/n also liked him, she just hadnt noticed how much she made it obvious, but neither did chris so maybe they had it in common?
* ⢠â˘
over the course of the few days chris and y/n became increasingly closer and closer, but their friendship ended one night, and something else bloomed.
chris mumbled something into the side of y/ns head, his words too muffled for y/n to understand.
she moved her head off his shoulder, loosening her arms from around his body.
âwhat?â she asked quietly, trying not to disturb the calm and quiet atmosphere they were currently in.
the soft sounds from the tv playing in the background, the lights off but red leds lighting the room.
âI said,â he took in a breath before continuing, âcan I be your boyfriend please?â his voice suddenly got quiet, his eyes darting over y/ns face, looking for signs if she was confused, disgusted, concerned or any of the sort, but none present, only a growing grin on her face.
she fully removed herself off his body as joy was slowly but surely overtaking her emotions.
âyes! yes! yes!â she spoke, her hands coming to the sides of his face to pepper kisses all over it, not just his lips but everywhere else aswell.
chrisâ stomach swelled with butterflies as he felt her soft kisses all over his face, the feeling of her soft lips on his skin and the words of approval making him grin aswell.
she pressed one last kiss on the tip of his nose before mumbling sweet nothings while moving back to his arms.
⢠⢠â˘
y/n stared at the two boys, nick and chris, currently sitting on the couch on their phones.
she debated on who she should sit and cuddle with, I already cuddled nick this morning. she thought to herself before finally taking in a breath and moving to crawl onto chris.
chris was laying on his back, leaving little space between him and the couch cushions, y/n absolutely loved sitting/laying in the small spots of the couches, because she knew she had better access to the person she was currently sitting with.
she crawled into the little space, moving onto her side and wrapping one arm under and around chris while her legs tangled in his and her head laid on his chest.
she moved slightly so now her belly was slightly ontop of chrisâ hip. finding this position comfier she sighed and closed her eyes.
nick sat up, his phone at his side as he stared at the two. his mouth dropping and eyes widening.
âdamn bro, you really stole my girl.â nick scoffed, looking at chris, watching as his arm came around to y/ns back, rubbing it, giving y/n all the more comfort.
âshut up, you had her all morningggâ chris groaned, dragging out the âgâ for dramatics.
âyeah, well, shes been my girl for months, shes only been yours for a week now.â nick crossed his arms, adding onto the fake/play arguing.
âshhh, im trying to sleep.â y/n mumbled, hushing them, before nuzzling her face further into chris side.
chris looked at nick and gave him a teasing look.
chris was so, so grateful nick was always so accepting of y/ns touches and her words consisting of endless compliments, âI love youââs, and overall unintentionally showing chris just how much y/n loved showing her love to others.
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Would you be comfortable sharing any personal info (age, profession, relationship status, etc...)? Completely understand if you're not but it's always really interesting learning about the lives of ppl I admire. Again, if that's not something you wanna do it's totally understandable! I love your art!!
Ah thank you so much 𫶠and sure I dont mind sharing some stuff but to be very honest Im not an interesting person, so I'm sorry in advance for disappointing you.
So I'm a woman (or something like that) even though I use a male pen name for art, Im 22 years old, 151cm (4'11"), the eldest daughter who has two teenage siblings who are both taller than me and make fun of me for being short. I do not have a profession and I do not go to school due to a disability I will not disclose. Im a lesbian engaged to a butch, we've been together for almost 4 years (our anniversary is in August)
My favorite season is winter because all the bugs are dead and I despise summer because the bugs are alive. Im also really scared of butterflies for some reason. Im scared of winged bugs in general. Ive never seen a cockroach in my life but I'd probably kill myself if I saw one. I really hate bugs. The winters are harsh here but I like walking outside when theres light snow falling at night. Im also a bit obsessed with Christmas lights but I dont celebrate Christmas, I dont follow any religion in general but my family is Muslim so Ive been raised with that. If I could just put Christmas lights in my room all year then I would do that. They look really pretty.
About my ethnicity I think everyone knows Im Algerian already, well Ive only been to Algeria once when I was like 8 years old so I dont really remember anything. All I know is that my uncle would keep telling my dad that I convinced him to stop smoking and that he's eternally grateful for that but I literally cannot remember what I did or said back then so I just pretended I knew what he was talking about. Anyway. Id like to go there again one day. I most likely will go soon in the future so it makes me happy to think about it.
My first language is French and Im somewhat fluent in English but it needs more work. Whenever I speak English I have to think harder about the words that come out of my mouth and I start saying things that dont make sense. But my pronunciation is good so other people just assume Im fluent. Also I understand Derja (Algerian Arabic) when people talk to me out loud but I cant form sentences and respond back so I just answer people in French. I know how to read Arabic script and I understand basic words but again I cant form sentences. As for Japanese I can only read Hiragana and Katakana and a bit of Kanji, and my understanding of the language is worse than Arabic, so I practice by translating Japanese song lyrics, reading news articles and talking with Japanese users online
Honestly I dunno what else to say, I dont really have any special skills or anything like that. Unless you count memorizing all the metro stations in Montreal but thats only because I had to use public transport all the time when I was a kid because my parents never felt like driving me to my appointments. At that point I probably visited every single station because I had to go to many random places. I dont have a drivers license but I prefer walking to places in general even though there are no stores near my neighborhood, but I think it's better for me because I get to walk more. I think I really like the idea of travelling in general but I dont have friends for that, my parents also wouldnt allow me to hang out with friends so it's a bit unfortunate
Oh and lately Ive been enjoying making eggs for some reason, I think Im good at doing that. But I only cook whenever Im hungry and I rarely feel hungry so I dont cook many eggs. I also dont like cleaning dishes so I avoid making huge meals in general. I dont really eat much in the first place but I still like food. I really like going to restaurants too. I just like going outside in general. I like listening to music and talking with people, normal stuff like that. Im running out of things to say so I'll probably just stop there.
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Limbo
2chopsticks2eyes - Masterlist
Pairing: Lee Minho/Lee Know x Han Jisung/Han
Themes: Smut, Pining, Fluff
Word Count: ~9k | AO3
Warnings: Smut, Explicit Sexual Content, Cussing, Oral Sex, Hand Jobs, Blow Jobs, Anal Sex, Creampie, Unprotected Sex (but, for real, wrap that shit up)
Summary: Minho has been longing for Jisung since the first time he met him and (with help from Bang Chan and Changbin) Jisung starts to catch on from the new song his best friend wrote.
Author's Note: I am delulu for Minsung. Just for fun guys (and for my own personal guilty pleasure). I have linked platforms with AO3 and Twitter too. Hope you enjoy!
(Lyric translation by GENIUS)
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âOur story was beautiful
You left me with a memory
Please don't forget that it means more than this
Wander through a long day
The night begins again
There are many things that I can't say, yeah
I don't get sick in my dreams
I want to call you quietly
The moment I wish I couldn't forget
Will it go back the way we used to be?
I know it'll change with just one word
The words I couldn't tell you
Lock me in this dream, please don't let me goâ
-Limbo by Lee Know (Lee Minho)
- - - - -Â NOWÂ - - - - -
Chan was attentive. Changbin was absorbed. And Jisung was absolutely gobsmacked. 3RACHA was more than eager once the other memberâs songs came to them to listen to and they quickly went down the list, starting with - you guessed it - Lee Minho.
Not a single one of them had expected such a unique rock-ballad to be chosen by the lead dancer, moreso expecting a hip-hop vibe that would have some sick choreo potential.
To say the three of them were surprised would be an understatement. Of course they were mildly both confused and amused by the ending of the song, but it switched to endearment as Chan pointed out that âthat is definitely Lee Knowâs styleâ. They listened once again to the encapsulating melody and Chan and Changbin gave each other a knowing look when they focused on the lyrics.
Minho was in a hopeless battle of his probable unrequited love for Jisung and only Chan and Changbin had the eyes to notice it. They also noticed that a certain quokka was still speechless from the captivating track they were dissecting.
âYou okay there Sung?â Changbin tried to hold back his amusement as he tried to bring the youngest producer back to earth.
âHuh, what? Yeah. I agree. TotallyâŚâ Jisung said as he shook himself to consciousness and scratched the back of his neck. Chan and Changbin couldnât hide their choked back laughter as Jisung was still in la la land.
âSo, Han-ah.â Chan blurted to grab the boyâs attention. âHow do you feel about the lyrics? What do you think he was referring to? Hm?â Chanâs dimples betrayed his hidden smirk.
Jisung inexplicably widened his eyes as he looked at his smiling hyungs. âOh⌠umâŚâ He huffed out a half laugh, half scoff and ran his fingers through his hair as he stood up. âI dunno, man. No one can figure out whatâs in that guyâs head. Right?â He nervously chuckled.
âOh I donât know about that. I think he can be very transparent sometimes. Donât you think, Channie-hyung?â Changbin wasnât even attempting to hide his giddy smile as he turned back to his leader.
âI agree! I think you should go ask Minho about it if you canât interpret it yourself.â His smile grew wicked. âBesidesâŚâ He patted Changbinâs shoulder. âWhat kind of producers would we be if we couldnât even understand our own songs?â
Jisung looked like a deer in the headlights, but quickly regained his forced confident composure. âFor sure! Yeah⌠Iâll, uh. Iâll go do that⌠now? I guess I'll catch up with you guys on the rest tomorrowâŚâ
âOh absolutely! Let us know what he says!â Changbin jovially shouted at Jisungâs quickly retreating form before the door closed. âI think we are finally done dragging the chain hyung.â Changbin said with a coy look and a high five with Chan.
âAnd itâs about damned time too! You would think that Jisung would have pulled his head out of his ass four years ago!â Chan guffawed.
âYou know him. Jisung prefers to stay blissfully ignorant.â
- - - - -Â THENÂ - - - - -
Minho denied it at first. He convinced himself that sure, he knew Jisung was closer to him than the others, but thatâs because they were best friends. He knew that he would die for him in a heartbeat and have no regrets about it.Â
When Jisung was happy, he was happy. When Jisung was sad, he was sad. And when the younger one looked at him with a smile, Minho didnât care about anything else in the whole world.
He slowly started to notice that his feelings were probably somewhat deeper. Like when people started calling them âsoulmatesâ he would get an indescribable jolt of glee run up his spine. He wanted to be special to Han because Han had always been special to him.
Sometimes, when Jisung was having a particularly bad day or he was feeling overwhelmed, he would crawl into bed with Minho at night so he could cry into his hyungâs warm embrace as he drifted off to sleep. Minho would never not be there for him. The thought of his Hannie being anything but happy made him want to hold him even tighter and never let go.
Minho knew for sure that he loved Jisung only a year after their debut. The realization came to him at the most random time, too. All he was doing was hanging out with the group backstage before a concert. He was on his phone on the sofa and he heard the beautiful sound of his Hannie's laugh. Jovial and contagious.
He looked up at him and he was suddenly frozen in place. There was nothing particularly different from normal circumstances. The younger man was still in his regular clothes, sitting next to Hyunjin as he laughed at the tall dancerâs dramatics. He didnât even have his hair or makeup done yet.
But that is what stunned Minho. He was just so perfectly⌠Jisung.
The way his legs always turned in like an anime character when he sat down. How his waist was so small that it rivaled only one of Minhoâs thighs. How he could look like the most precious and adorable being one moment, and then the sexiest motherfucker on the planet the next. And most of all, the way his smile, laugh, or face in general lit up the whole room when he walked in.
He was beautiful.
He was so beautiful. And Minho loved him. Minho loved his band member, best friend, and soulmate⌠and that scared the shit out of him.
No matter how hard he tried to distance himself after his revelation, Jisung always dragged him back into his orbit by not letting the elder hide for too long. And, if he was honest with himself, it pained him to be away from his soulmate for any length of time. Both mentally and physically. The amount of times that the elder had to âchoke the chickenâ to the thought of Han was almost embarrassing to him.
On a night just like any other, the young quokka unexpectedly crawled into bed with Minho again. However, Jisung didnât say a word. He just pulled back the covers once Minho made room for him and snuggled himself in, stuffing his head into Minhoâs chest and under his chin while they wrapped their arms around each other.
âHannie?â Minho quietly whispered after a while, trying not to disturb his roommates.
âHm?â He could hear that the boy was already being pulled into dreamland.
âAre you alright, jagi?â Minho ran his hand up and down the boyâs back as the younger squeezed him tighter.
âMhmâŚâ Jisung yawned. âI just wanted to snuggle tonight.â Minhoâs heart ached and the boy looked up at him. âIs that okay, hyung?â
Minho was hypnotized by the round doe eyes that peered back at him and he had to remind himself that he needed to answer. His face softened and a warm smile grew on his face. He caressed the back of Hanâs head and daringly pressed a small kiss on his forehead. As much as it pained him to say it, he relented. âOf course Hannie. Any time.â
The boy hummed with content as he buried himself back into his hyungâs chest and quickly drifted off to sleep when the elder pulled him closer.
Minhoâs voice was barely a whisper as he buried his cheek in the boyâs soft, brown hair. âI love you so much, HannieâŚâ A single tear rolled off the side of his face and onto the pillow beneath him, quickly seeping into the fabric to minutely hide the evidence.
- - - - - - - - - -
Minho felt like his whole world came crashing down when he discovered that they were about to live separately. YEARS of pining, longing, and torturing himself by gluing himself to Jisung was about to end, and Minho HATED it.
Endless amounts of pent up frustration exploded like a match to oil and the members were taking the blow. They had to deal with Minhoâs wrath from even the tiniest of triggers.
âJisung, go fucking talk to him.â
âWhat?! Why do I have to go?!â The young rapper responded to his leader, exasperated.
âBecause this is all because of you!â Changbin threw his hands in the air, pissed about just having been the most recent victim of one of Minhoâs tantrums.
âWhat?! How?!âÂ
âJi, think about it. You are his best friend. His literal soulmate. You canât tell us that you arenât equally as pissed about the news.â
He just crossed his arms and looked down to avoid the scrutiny of his hyungs.
âPlease talk to him. Youâre the only one he will listen to.â Chan put a consoling hand on Jisungâs shoulder and the younger one pitifully nodded.
Jisung knew the only way to make his hyung happy, and that was through his stomach.
He peeked his head behind the curtain to Minhoâs bunk with a convincing grin and Minho just looked up from his phone to glare daggers back at him, still frustrated from his squabble with the boyâs fellow RACHA member.
âHey hyuuuung.â Jisung took it upon himself to swoop in and jump on top of Minho, making the elder grunt from the weight on his chest.
âJisung, what the fuck?â The man choked out.
âLino-hyung come eat with me!â The boy looked up at him from where he had plopped down on his stomach with a cheeky grin.
âNo.â Minho blatantly said as he returned his attention to his phone.
Jisung pouted his lip and propped his chin up on the device between them. âOh câmon, hyung. Donât be like that!â
âIâm not being like anything. I just donât want to get out.â Lies.
Jisung huffed and scooted up further on Minhoâs chest, promptly squishing the phone between their bodies as the younger wrapped his arms around the otherâs neck. Minho was sure his face must have been impossibly red from their proximity and it took everything in his power not to pop a boner as Jisung laid down the length of his body.
âFine.â Jisung huffed, hugging the man tighter. âThen can I just lay here and cuddle with you? You havenât let me in ages!â Jisung pouted and Minho felt the sharp pain of guilt in his chest.
He stayed quiet as he turned his head away. The silence dragged on between them until Jisung laid his head down on Minhoâs chest, startling the elder.
âYou know I didnât want this either, right?â His voice was slightly muffled from where it was buried in Minhoâs chest. âI really donât want to live without you hyung. Y-youâre my best friend. I caâ I canâtâŚâ
Thatâs when Minho felt the hot liquid of tears seep through his clothing onto his skin and he instantly panicked. âH-HannieâŚâ He tried to pull the boyâs head up to look at him, but Han kept his face glued to the soaked shirt.
âP-please h-hyung⌠d-donât hate me!â He sobbed the last few words and Minho felt like his heart had broken into a million pieces.
âNo! No! Hannie. Please look at me, jagiâŚâ Minho cupped the boyâs cheeks as he looked up at him with red eyes and a quivering lip. âListen to me. I could never, NEVER, hate you. You hear me? There is nothing you could do to make me love you any less.â
It seemed like both of the boyâs ears perked up at the same time at the unexpected word, but neither one decided to address it. Instead, Jisung wiggled up even further to properly hug Minho with his face buried in the crook of his neck.
âPromise youâll come visit?â
âPromiseâŚâ
- - - - - - - - - -
âDo you still think Iâm your soulmate?â Minho didnât even think that topic was even in question. It had always been established, why was Han questioning it now? YEARS had gone by, but Minhoâs desires for the boy never wavered. His love burned just as bright.
Minho felt a dark cloud over him that day as he realized that he might be drifting apart from the love of his life. He felt like the world was crashing down on him because while Han was everything to Minho, Minho was steadily becoming nothing to HanâŚ
Han had said he wanted to hear Lee Know sing a ballad in that same 2 Kids Room shoot. Fine. Minho would tell him everything he wanted to say⌠just not directlyâŚ
- - - - -Â NOWÂ - - - - -
Jisung took a deep breath as he stared at the door to Minhoâs room. He had given himself a mental pep talk when the last inhabitant of the dorm, Seungmin, hastily left with a wide smile when he saw Jisung enter, leaving Jisung alone in the dorm with MinhoâŚ
Minho had been especially distant lately and Jisung had been more and more depressed that his hyung no longer adored him as much as he adored his hyung. Minho had always been the warmth that Jisung needed in his life. And although he was terrified to confront him, scared to know that he was moving on, Han was resolute in his quest to talk to his best friend, his soulmate, about his deep and complex lyrics.
Three knocks. âFuck off, Seungmin. I told you Iâm not going to talk to him.â Jisungâs heart ached because he knew exactly who his elder was referring to.
He slightly cleared his throat. âU-um. Itâs Jisung⌠Can I come in?â SilenceâŚ
A bit of shuffling was heard followed by a bit more silenceâŚ
The door swung open and there was Minho, in all of his bed-headed glory, staring down at the quokka as if he had been caught with his pants down. âH-hey Jisungie! I-I wasnât expecting youâŚâ Minho was clad in nothing but a pair of sweatpants and blood rushed to Jisungâs face.
He could tell that Minho had definitely been working on his fitness.
Jisung couldnât look him in the eye, but the only other place his eyes would involuntarily drift to was the elderâs impressive pecs. He started to shoot his eyes every which way as he panicked. âU-um y-yeah⌠I uhâŚâ His eyes flickered to Minhoâs equally flushed face. âI wanted to chill with you, can Iâ uhm⌠can I come in?â
What the fuck? Why was he being so weird? He usually just waltzed on in and made himself at home, even ignoring his hyungâs protests if there ever were any. âWhat? Oh. Yeah, sure!â Minho looked like he had just pulled his mind out of the void when he responded and stepped to the side.
Jisung didnât plop down on the bed like he always did. He didnât go grab Minhoâs laptop to pull up a movie for them to watch. In fact, once he was standing in the middle of the room, he didnât even move a muscle.Â
When Jisung heard the door shut behind them, he couldnât even find the courage to look at his beloved Lino. âHannie?...â Minhoâs melodic voice rang from behind him, but he still couldnât move a muscle, his head dipped down and his eyes stayed glued to the floor.Â
Why was he being like this? This was his best friend in the whole world, but why was his heart hurting so much? This awkward tension, the distancing, the fact that he hadnât gone out with Minho anywhere where it was just the two of them like they always do. Well⌠like they used to doâŚ
Jisung always wanted to address it with him, but when they were together, Minho would always find something to distract himself. All Jisung was able to do was sit there and stare at his beautiful hyung, the most handsome person in the worldâŚ
Why did he feel this way?
âHey⌠Sungie?â While Jisung had zoned out, Minho had apparently walked around him to face him. The boy only snapped his head up when the elder gently placed his hands on Jisungâs shoulders, sending an exhilarating jolt through his nerves. âAre you okay, jagi? Do you need us to lay down?â
Thatâs right⌠they used to cuddle when something bothered Jisung. How could he have forgotten such an important detail? The idea of Minho even thinking of that in this moment had Jisung slumping in pain from the pressure on his chest. Minho didnât even realize how kind he was. How much Jisung needed him. How much Jisung loved him.
Yes, of course Jisung loved him. He knew for sure that no one could ever be more important in his life than Minho was. That was surely love. And he hated how much it hurt that it wasnât returned. His hyung was just looking out for his best friend. Nothing more.
Jisung felt like he was knocked over the head with a cinderblock at this revelation and the only thing he could do was stare back at the two black pools of Minhoâs irises.
That was when Jisung felt the first salty drop of a tear fall down his face, completely unbidden. Minhoâs face morphed into panic. He instantly wrapped the now sobbing quokka in his arms and quickly picked him up and carried him over to the bed. He pulled down the covers, guided Jisung to lay down, and went to grab the warmest blankets they had.
Once he had the boy fully covered and cozy, he slipped in beside him and pulled him tightly against his chest. Jisung was sobbing uncontrollably now as memories of the old days flooded his brain. How did he not see that he always loved his hyung?
The boy dug his face deep into the elders chest. Minho didnât say anything. He never did when this happened and Jisung was thankful for it. All he needed was to know that he had Minho in his arms until he could think coherently again.
One of Minhoâs hands was wrapped around him tightly to slowly rub his back, the other was gliding his fingers through the boyâs hair. They stayed like that for a while, letting Jisung release all of his sorrows into Minhoâs naked chest.
âP-please h-hyung! Why are you being like this?!â Jisung lamented as he clenched his fists against the tan skin. âW-why wonât you t-talk to me anymore?! Why do you hate m-me?! I canât live without you hyung. I caâ I canâtââ Jisung instantly was thrown back to when he said those exact words in this exact type of situation when they were forced to live separately. All Minho responded with was soothing shushes and soft reassurances to calm him down. He knew it was a bad idea to converse when Jisung was in that mindstate.
Slowly, oh so slowly, Jisungâs sobs finally subsided and Minho waited. He always let Jisung break the silence first. It felt like hours of silence and small sniffles from Jisung before he said anything. âH-hyung⌠what did I do?â While still holding his hyung impossibly tight, Jisung looked up at him with glossy eyes and a quivering lip.
âOh, my HannieâŚâ Minho pulled his hand back to wipe away one of Hanâs stray tears. âYou did absolutely nothing. Iâm the one to blame. Iâve been the cowardâŚâ Jisung was completely lost. What did he mean by âcowardâ?Â
Jisung sniffled. âCoward?â
Minho bit his lip and fixed his gaze away from Hanâs probing eyes. âI, uh⌠Iâve just beenâŚâ He looked back to lock eyes with Jisung, seemingly debating on saying something. What it was, Jisung had no clue. He eventually looked down with a sigh. âI dunno Hannie, this isnât about me. Iâm just here for you okay? Iâm sorry I caused all this.â
But why? Jisung thought. Minho caressed Jisungâs face again and the boy closed his eyes and leaned into it.Â
More silence.
Jisung thought âto hell with itâ. âHyung?â He asked with his eyes still closed. All he got in response was a small hum from the elder while he used his thumb to repeatedly glide over the smooth skin of Jisungâs cheek. âWhat was your song about?â
Minho instantly froze. His hand went rigid and it seemed like he stopped breathing. After a moment, Han opened his eyes to see a red faced and abashed Minho.
âLino?â Jisungâs eyebrows drew together almost pleadingly as his balled up fists relaxed and pressed themselves against the dancerâs pecs. Jisung always knew Minho would let him drop honorifics in situations like these.
Minho cleared his throat. âUmâŚuh, why?â His voice shakily cracked. âI-itâs just a song SungieâŚâ
Jisung felt like he could cry all over again, but he was mostly frustrated at this point. âThatâs bullshit and you know it.â Minho slightly pulled back, aghast at the youngerâs outburst, but Jisung wouldnât let him get far. The younger tangled his legs with the otherâs and wrapped his arms around the elderâs neck. âPlease, Min. I need to knowâŚâ
Jisung was desperate and Minho was at a loss for words.
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What did he mean he âneeds to knowâ? Had he caught on? Minho didnât know whether he should be terrified or relieved at the thought of Jisung finding out. Of course he wrote the song about him. For him. Anyone with eyes (especially the other RACHA members) would be able to see that. Anyone but Jisung.
Or so he thought.
But why did Jisung pull him closer? Even closer than before? Their faces were merely inches apart and Minho could see every beautiful, microscopic blemish on the boyâs face. He was dazzled by the proximity and at that very moment, he wanted to tell him.
Minho wanted to tell him and everyone else that he was indubitably head over heels in love with Han Jisung, he always was and always will be. He wasnât afraid to admit it anymore. Fuck the subtlety of the song. If Jisung wanted to know, then he would tell him. Damn the consequences.
âYou.â
Thatâs all he needed to say. The song was about Han Jisung and now that it had left his mouth, it was out in the open for the boy to take as he pleased.
Minho felt like he could breathe for the first time in his life, tens of tons of weight lifted from his chest with just one word. Jisung looked like he had been hit with a realization of a lifetime with the astonished look on his face and Minho wanted to fill the silence for once.
âI dream of you almost every fucking night, Jisungie. I dream of how we used to be. How we could be. And I never want it to end. All I have ever wanted was you and it drives me absolutely fucking batshit crazy how I canât have that one fucking wish.â He almost sounded pissed with the amount of agony that was behind the words.
Once Minho had got it off his chest, he couldnât shut his mouth and Jisung just layed there next to him looking like he was shitting bricks.
âI wish I could stay asleep for the rest of my life if that meant I could live that life with you and never have to worry about forgetting it all when I wake. Iâve been acting like a piece of shit because, everytime I see you, Iâm reminded that you could never love me as much as I love yoââ
Minhoâs ranting was brought to a halt when a pair of soft, pouty lips abruptly collided with his. Minhoâs whole body shook like he had just been electrocuted and he was stunned into the stillness of a literal statue.Â
Jisungâs lips. HAN JISUNGâS LIPS were on his! There was no way this was right. It had to be just some hyper realistic dream, right?
He soon realized that he hadnât kissed back once he felt the warmth leave his lips. He almost whined at the loss.
âI⌠I love you too LinoâŚâ Minhoâs wide eyes stared down at Jisungâs brown irises. His rosy quokka cheeks. His plump, red lips. Then his face altogether, which looked almost as terrified as he felt only moments before.
âHannieâŚâ It was barely a whisper, but it didnât really matter because Minho quickly closed the distance again as he cupped the boyâs cheek with one hand. Now they both were both moving in tandem, their lips sliding against each other gracefully as they tried to pull each other suffocatingly closer.
Years of pent up frustration and longing for the boy had finally been set free and Minho could almost cry from the relief. Thereâs no way this was real. He pulled away from the kiss and Jisung whimpered, making Minho feel something stir in his core.
âGod, please tell me this is realâŚâ Minhoâs eyes buzzed around every detail of the boyâs face to ensure that wasnât the case as his fingers grazed across the skin of the boyâs round cheeks.
What was once a pout on the boyâs face quickly turned into an amused one as he giggled. Without any words, the boy nodded in amusement and then pulled his hyung back in to lock lips once more.
Minho couldnât hold back anymore. He gently ran his tongue along the boyâs lips between kisses and Jisung gasped when their tongues collided soon thereafter. With his hand still caressing Jisungâs cheek, Minho maneuvered them to an easier position as he laid Han on his back so he could halfway lean over him.
Jisungâs hands slid down from his shoulders and coincidentally brushed over Minhoâs nipples on their way to wrap around his back. Minho wanted the earth to swallow him whole when an embarrassing moan escaped his mouth. Goddamn, the sexual frustration he has had to endure must have vamped his sensitivity. He just knew his face was beet red when Jisung pulled back to stare at him in amazement.
However, he didnât have to suffer much longer because the quokka then decided to pull him back down for a bruising kiss with LOTS of tongue, subtly wandering his hands back to the manâs naked chest again. Of all the times to have him been caught without a shirt onâŚ
He had to hold back his next pathetic moan when he felt another tentative brush of the boyâs thumb against his sensitive bud. He was growing hard embarrassingly quickly and he would die on sight if Jisung caught him with a boner. But the question was whether to stop or keep goingâŚ
Jisung apparently decided for the both of them when he pushed his hyung on his back, detaching their lips and moving to straddle him. âWait! Jisung donâtâ!â Shit⌠it was too late. Minho grunted when Jisung sat right on top of his fully erect cock and both of them wore shocked expressions. âI⌠IâŚâ Minho was at a loss for words because there was no way in hell to talk himself out of this one.
That was until a glint flashed across Jisungâs eyes and he daringly rolled his hips down. âNgh!â Minho sounded like he had gotten punched in the gut and his hands flew to Jisungâs tiny waist with a bruising grip. He glared up at the quokka who was sporting a cocky grin. He tried to do it again, but Minhoâs hands stilled him. âHan fucking JisungâŚâ
His breath was shaky and when Jisung leaned closer to hover over him, he could feel that the boy was also sporting a raging boner, and that did NOT help Minhoâs predicament. They looked into each otherâs eyes as Jisung rolled his hips once more, fighting against the grip on his waist.
Minhoâs hips involuntarily bucked up and he saw a sliver of a smile form on the boyâs face before he knelt down to messily lock their lips again. Jisungâs tiny whimpers were painfully adorable and Minho couldnât help but to want to coax more out of him.
They soon matched in rhythm, with both their mouths and their hips. Their tongues explored each other while rolling their hips frantically. Jisung pulled back to desperately rid himself of his shirt, only to reattach his lips immediately after. He seemed to have no self control and, although he wasnât in much of a better mindset, Minho needed to do something about it.
âH-Hannie⌠*ngh* Hannieââ He tried to say between kisses and stifled grunts.
Jisung refused to relent. âHyung⌠*ahh* moreâŚâ He whined into the kiss.
Minho had to push past the fog of feeling the boyâs bare chest against his own, but he managed to grab Jisung by the shoulders to force him off with a whimper. âJisungie⌠we need to stop⌠y-you donât know what youâre askingâŚâ He had to close his eyes while saying this because he knew he would be fucked if he looked at those round, pleading eyes. It wasnât helping that Jisung was still running his hands all along the elderâs chest.
âLino, p-please⌠please donât stopâŚâ Jisung tried to overpower Minhoâs grasp on his arms, but the elder was resolute in his decision.
Minho clenched his eyes tighter. âWe canât do this, Sungie⌠youâve been crying⌠youâre not in the right state of mind to make these kinds of decisioââ
âI know what I want, Minho.â Jisungâs voice was firm and it made Minho snap his eyes open. Jisungâs eyebrows were drawn together worriedly and he looked desperate. âI want you, Lino⌠do you not want me⌠in that wayâŚ?â
Minho quickly sat up to press himself flush with the boy on his lap. âAre you fucking kidding me? Do you know how many times Iâve fucked my fist to the thought of you over these years?â Jisung ducked his head with impossibly flushed cheeks and Minho smirked. âSo, yeah, I think I can confidently say I want nothing more than to pound you or be pounded by you right into this very goddamned mattress.â
Jisungâs eyes flew open in bewilderment as he covered his agape mouth with one hand and smacked the elderâs arm with the other. âMinho!â
Minho just guffawed at his reaction and that, in turn, made Jisung start laughing too. âWhat?! You asked!â Jisung covered his face in embarrassment and Minho just cooed at him as he wrapped his arms around the tiny little waist of his. âAww câmon, Hannie. Donât hide from me jagi!â
When the boy removed his hands, he was glaring back at the elder. Without further ado, he overpowered the elder and pinned him to the mattress by his arms. âYou canât say that kind of shit and expect me to give up. You want me, Lee Minho? You can have me in any which way you want.â Jisungâs eyes were black with desire as he looked down at Minho. âI will doââ The boy kissed his lips â...whateverââ A kiss to his neck â...youââ A messy kiss to one of his nipples â...wantââ He ended with a long, lingering kiss right above the hem of Minhoâs sweatpants and the man shivered with every single touch.
âF-fuck HannieâŚâ Minho looked down at Jisung who was looking back up at him from where he had slid down the bed to kneel in between Minhoâs legs.
Jisung always liked to act overly confident in situations where he was feeling insecure and only Minho could see when that was. There were the tell-tale signs that Jisung always gave away and he had no clue that his best friend was noticing them.
Minho could see that Jisungâs hands were slightly shaky as he ran them up and down his hyungâs thighs. He noticed that, although his eyes were full of desire, his lips were being gnawed raw. He couldnât allow himself to let that slide.
Minho gently stilled the slim hands that were on his thighs and sat up, bringing a confused expression to Jisungâs face. âJagiâŚâ Minho solemnly looked into Jisungâs eyes. âYouâre not ready, baby boyâŚâ He felt a jolt of euphoria run through his body from the words that left his own lips, but he had to stay focused.Â
âI am ready Minnie!â The younger looked down and blushed from the words. When he looked back up, he was pleading. âI-I know that I may not be experienced in ways that you are, butâŚâ
He knew the boy was referring to a conversation he and Minho had a long time ago about how he was still a virgin and how Minho had his fair share of sleeping around as a backup dancer. Minho sure as hell didnât want Han thinking anything less of himself because of it.
âHannie, you donât seriously think that I care about that right? I love you no matter what. I just donât want you to jump the gun when you arenât even sure that you⌠you know⌠are into guysââ
âYouâre right.â Jisung immediately replied, freeing his hands and wrapping his arms around Minhoâs neck once again. âI donât know if Iâm gay, you know Iâve always liked girls and that is still trueâŚâ Minho felt his heart split. âBut I know now that I donât want anyone anymore unless they are you⌠Youâre not just some dude in my eyes, jagi⌠youâre my best friend. My soulmate. It doesnât matter to me what sex you are, because youâre⌠you.â
Minhoâs eyes were wide as they stared back into Jisungâs glistening ones. The boy was slightly shaking and Minho hugged him tighter.
âIf you think Iâm nervous, Iâm not. The anxiety I have right now is only the eagerness from anticipationâŚâ Jisung leaned in and pressed a long, heartfelt kiss against Minhoâs lips, making the elder slightly dizzy. Minho tried to chase his lips when he pulled back, but Jisung just pressed his forehead against the elderâs to whisper against his lips. âPlease donât make me begâŚâ
Minho gently grabbed the boyâs face so he could pull back and look him in the eyes. He scanned them for any fragment of doubt and all he saw was the same desperation that he was feeling himself. His Hannie wanted to make love to him . HAN JISUNG. The boy that he had dreamt about doing this with for years was finally here in his arms asking, no, pleading for it. And who was Minho to disappoint him?
âOkay Hannie.â He could see Jisungâs entire face light up in an instant.
âOkay?â He said with disbelief.
âYes, baby boy. But you have to behave and listen to me. Okay?â
âYes!â Jisung nodded frantically as he leapt on Minho again. Minho chuckled as his back hit the mattress and Jisung kissed him all over his face and neck. âIâll do anything you want, MinnieâŚâ Jisung moaned against Minhoâs neck as he tested the waters by rolling down his hips again.
âNgh, S-SungieâŚâ Minho grabbed his hips again and flipped them. He stared down at him menacingly and clicked his tongue. âNow, now, jagi. I thought you said youâd behave.â
âI just want you so badâŚâ The boy whined as he refused to control his hips and clawing grasp to pull Minho back down.
âAnd youâll have me, baby.â Minho smiled fondly as he leaned down and kissed his plump lips. âBut we have some things to do firstâŚâ Jisung cried out in pleasure when Minho tentatively pressed his palm against the erection straining against Jisungâs jeans. âI donât usually do this, butâŚâ Minho continued to palm the boy and his breathing started getting heavy. â...since youâre a little ass virginâŚâ Minho cocked a teasing smile at the younger and all he could respond with was a whine. âI wonât make you bottom for your first time.â
Minho maintained eye contact as he popped the button open on Jisungâs jeans and slowly started to remove them, Han nodding permission the whole time. Once they were removed, Minho shuffled around and Jisung almost started hyperventilating when Minho knelt in between his legs and lowered his mouth down to the tent in his boxers.
âBreathe, jagi.â Minho rubbed soothing circles on the boy's thighs and only continued once the boyâs breathing had stabilized.
Minho closed his eyes in bliss when he finally got to wrap his lips around his soulmateâs clothed erection. They both groaned at the feeling and when Minho opened his eyes back up to check on the boy, Jisung was looking back at him like he had put all the stars in the sky. Minho was still in disbelief that this was all real.
After a moment of absolutely soaking Jisungâs boxers, Minho moved to press his lips against the inner thighs of the boy while his fingers played with his waistband. âH-hyung⌠please.â Jisung was already unbelievably whiny and Minho chuckled against his smooth skin.
âWhat was that, baby? I didnât quite hear you.â Minho smirked as he sat up, still thumbing at the boyâs underwear.
Jisung huffed out a whimper and was having a hard time holding himself back from just taking his boxers off himself. âP-please Minnie⌠I want you.â
Minho smiled endearingly and then regained his cocky demeanor. âMy baby is so polite.â Minho laid a chaste kiss against the boyâs stomach and then slowly, oh so slowly, started lowering the boyâs boxers.
Jisungâs breathing picked up again when Minho started leaving sloppy kisses down his abdomen at the same rate that his boxers were being lowered. Once his cock was finally freed, Minho pulled back to pull his boxers the rest of the way off.
Fuck.
Jisung was leaking all over himself and Minho could only stare in wonder. He was just about the same size as Minho, maybe a tad bit smaller, but even that intimidated Minho, who was usually a top, into nervousness about how he was going to be able to take him.
Jisung whined and moved his hands to cover himself. âHyuuuung! Stop staring!â Jisung was red hot and couldnât look Minho in the eye.
Minho chuckled and harshly grabbed Jisungâs wrists to pin them above his head. âNo covering yourself, baby. Youâre just so goddamned beautiful. I canât help but wonder how Iâm going to take all of youâŚâ Jisung shot his eyes to meet Minhoâs and he blushed furiously.
âM-Min, if you usually⌠you know⌠âtopâ, I can bottom for you⌠I want you to feel good tooâŚâ Jisung looked away as he said this, being adorably shy as usual.
Minho moved one hand to make the boy look back at him and then returned it to keep pinning down Jisungâs wrist. âYou are such a sweet boyâŚâ Minho softly kissed Hanâs swollen lips. âBut thatâs something we can think about in the future⌠being bottomâs not necessarily⌠easy. And I donât want you in pain for the first time, jagi. Donât worry, baby. I know you will make me feel amazing.â Another chaste peck and Minho pulled back.
Jisung looked up at Minho in adoration and Minho licked his lips as he slid his hands down Jisungâs arms to his chest. âNow donât move those pretty little arms of yourâs, okay jagi?â
Jisung nodded enthusiastically as Minho lowered himself once more.
Minho got his mouth painfully close to Jisungâs tip, making the boy stiffen, but then abruptly redirected course to sensually kiss the boyâs pubic bone. The rapper whined and twitched as Minho kissed all around where Jisung most wanted him and it seemed as if he was about to combust.
Jisung almost sounded like he was sobbing when he opened his mouth. âLino please touch me! I canât take it anymoââ It was then that Minho swallowed half of Hanâs dick and the boy choked on his words, instead inhaling a stuttering gasp. âFuuuuââ
That was all Han could say as Minho slobbered all over his dick, bobbing his head and swirling his tongue around the majority, and stroking what he couldnât reach with his mouth in his hand.
Minho swore that he would never forget the image on Jisungâs face as his mouth went slack and his lashes fluttered over his blown out eyes.
He was so beautiful.
Minho needed him and he needed him now. Once he felt like he was thoroughly stimulated, if the shaking in the rapperâs skinny legs was any indication, he pulled off the rock hard cock with a loud pop. Jisung just whined again against his rapid breathing.
âI gotta get myself prepped, okay love?â Jisung hazily nodded as Minho hopped out of bed to go grab some lube and a condom from his desk. That was when he froze as he looked in the drawer.
Jisung must have sensed his distress because soon Minho could hear a tiny voice from across the room. âJ-jagi?â He was still heavily breathing and when Minho turned around with lube in-hand, he saw that the boy was palming himself.
âB-baby⌠I⌠I donât have a condomâŚâ Minho was sweating from the anxiety of having to end things here.
âDo we really need one?â Minhoâs ears perked up at the rapperâs words. âI mean, I know we are both clean and healthy, so whatâs stopping us?â
âWell⌠yeah, but⌠do you really want to?â Minho was unconvinced that Jisung would just be A-OK with fucking his ass raw.
âHyung, Iâve literally been begging. Please donât make me wait any longer.â Jisung was apathetic with his words with how impatient he was getting.
Minho just cackled and bounded over to the boy to pounce on him, littering him with kisses and making Jisung shriek with giggles. âGod, youâre too good to be true, SungieâŚâ Minhoâs kisses got slower and sloppier as he felt slender fingers pull at his sweats. Impatient as always, Minho kicked off the fabric separating them and let Jisung stare as he straddled him, starting to feel cocky with the awestruck look on his face.
âHyu-hyungâŚâ Jisungâs eyes drifted back up to Minhoâs and then the boy went savage. He grabbed Minhoâs face and pulled him down on top of him, locking lips and then moving his arms to wrap around his waist and pull their naked bodies flush against each other.
They both moaned when their bare cocks pressed against each other and Jisung couldnât control the bucking of his hips.
Minho was getting more and more impatient by the second as he popped open the cap to the lube and subtly coated his fingers.
He made sure to keep his lips on Jisungâs as he reached back to circle his own hole, but once he inserted a finger, he had to drop his head onto the boyâs shoulder to concentrate.Â
He felt his heart swell when Jisung started rubbing soothing circles into his sides and began licking and suckling along his neck.
It had been a LONG time since Minho had bottomed, so getting himself prepped was a long and arduous task. He could only pray that Jisung couldnât hear the subtle wincing in the back of Minhoâs throat from the stretch as he added more fingers.
However, he must have noticed because soon, Minho felt warm, shaky fingers wrap around his length and started tugging. Minho emitted a long groan and the added stimulation definitely made the stretch more worth it.
Minhoâs body involuntarily jolted forward when his own fingers unexpectedly brushed against his prostate. He had gasped and Jisung quickly pulled his hand back. âD-did I do something wrong?â He sounded frightened and Minho pulled his fingers out of his ass as he lifted his head up to look at the boy.
With his clean hand, Minho brushed some of Hanâs sweaty hair out of his face. âNo, no, baby. Youâre doing so good for me, jagi.â Minho pecked the boyâs nose. âNow Iâm going to sit down on you and you let me know if you ever want to stop.â Minho said as he added some lube to the boyâs achingly hard dick.
âN-Never!â Jisung looked like he was going to buzz off the bed with the amount of anticipation running through his shaky bones and Minho chuckled at him.
âAw, are you eager baby? Maybe I should wait a bit longerâŚâ Minho jokingly looked up as if he was pondering the question and he felt a bruising grasp appear on his hips.
âYou better fucking not.â Jisungâs voice was firm and Minho guffawed at the pure offense written on the boyâs face.
âAre you sure you want to be talking to me like that?â Minho scooched forward and grabbed the boyâs cock to start circling his entrance teasingly.
âF-fuuâŚâ Jisung stared wide eyed at the sight and licked his lips.
âNow what do we say, Jisungie?â He continued to move his tip back and forth to catch on his hole and Jisung kept jolting from the sensation.
âPLEASE! Oh god, please, hyung! Iâve waited so long. Please!â Jisung was clawing at the sheets and Minho was in awe of seeing this side of Jisung.
âOkay, my good boyâŚâ Thatâs when Minho slowly started to sink down and both of the boyâs heads snapped back in pleasure. The veins in Minhoâs neck were protruding as he struggled to adjust to the feeling. He had to stop halfway for a breather and wait for the burn to subside.
He slightly slumped his head back down and placed his hands on Jisungâs chest to stabilize himself. Thatâs when he felt gentle hands run up and down his shaky thighs. âYou okay, Minnie?â Jisung had a worried expression on his face and Minhoâs heart swelled once again.
âIâm okay, baby boy. Just⌠just give me a secondâŚâ Jisung gave a tiny nod and Minho took a deep breath before he sat the rest of the way down. The both of them groaned and Minho dropped down to press his forehead against the otherâs.
It wasnât too long after some heavy breathing and long, lingering kisses that Minho started to roll his hips, gaining a gasp from the boy beneath him.
The stinging feeling that Minho had was slowly drifting into pleasure. The way Jisung was grasping onto his thighs for dear life and how his eyes were glued to where his cock disappeared inside Minho was really helping Minho enjoy it even more.
âH-holy fuck, Min. Youâre so damned tight⌠Iâm⌠I-Iâm not gonna last longâŚâ
âYes you are baby. You cum when I say you can, yeah?â Jisung only whined a reply and Minho maneuvered his hips experimentally. He leaned back and put his hands on Jisungâs thighs behind him and slowly rocked down on him.
Jisung looked at Minhoâs face in awe as the elder yelped when he found his mark. The repressed moans he was emitting was driving Jisung insane. The thought that his cock was doing that to the ever stoic man above him had him basking in confidence.
That bout of courage caused Jisungâs hands to drift up to Minhoâs hips and slam him down on his dick. The euphoric cry of pleasure from Minho was worth the bone-chilling glare he gave after the fact. Jisung cocked a grin at him and repeated the action, thrusting up his hips to meet him halfway.
Minho wanted to take back control, but Jisung felt so fucking good that he couldnât bring himself to give two fucks. The light grazing of Jisungâs cock against his prostate made him dizzy with every thrust and Jisungâs smile was the most beautiful thing Minho had ever seen.
No more fake confidence. His Jisungie was proud of himself and Minho was happy to give that to him.
The look on Jisungâs face was filled with love and wonder and it was like a magnet to Minho. The elder crashed down on top of the boy and ran his fingers through his soft locks. âF-fuck H-HannieâŚâ Minho didnât sound like himself as he was whiny while bouncing on his dick. âY-you f-feel s-so g-goodâŚâ Minho was speaking against Jisungâs mouth and, with his hands still controlling Minhoâs hips, Jisung captured Minhoâs lips in a searing kiss.
It was becoming sloppy as their saliva dripped down each other's lips and their tongues continuously licked into the otherâs mouths. They were getting more and more sweaty and Jisungâs arms started faltering in their efforts.
Without a word, Jisung flipped them. Pushing Minho off his dick and onto the mattress next to him, the elder whined from the loss of stimulation. However, that was quickly replaced with ecstasy when the rapper threw himself on him and slowly entered him again.
Jisung started moving at a brutal pace as his lips latched onto one of Minhoâs nipples and the dancerâs mind couldnât focus on anything but Jisung, Jisung, Jisung.
âJ-Jisung-ahâŚâ Minho muttered breathlessly. Jisung lifted himself off of Minhoâs pec and was panting as he looked at the man under him in question. âI love y-you so f-fucking muchâŚâ It almost sounded like a sob from the amount of emotion behind Minhoâs words.
Jisungâs eyes went wide and glossy and he looked at the man with heart eyes as he replied. âI love you to M-Minho.â Jisung was still pounding into him as they talked, but Jisung returned his lips to his soulmate. âSo.â A kiss. âSo.â Another kiss. âMuch.â He ended with a long, soft kiss as his hips minutely slowed.
Minho felt every molecule of love in that kiss. He felt it in the way Jisung gently and tenderly rocked into him. He felt it in the way that instead of hunger and sloppiness in the kiss, it felt like he was savoring every touch and connection of their tongues and lips. Minho could almost cry from yet another realization that this was true.
On one particular thrust, Jisung lightly grazed over Minhoâs prostate again and Minhoâs jaw went slack against Jisungâs mouth as he emitted a choked moan. He couldnât bring himself to words, but when Jisung started missing the spot again, he almost cried out.
Jisung sat up to stare at Minho in awe and then he looked down at where they were connected, mesmerized by the squelching sounds of his movements. He wanted more of those beautiful sounds from his hyungâs mouth.Â
Jisung was determined as he lifted Minhoâs hips and hooked his arms under his legs to spread them further and lift them higher. Once he readjusted, he slammed his cock into the dancer and thank god no one was home because the part-whine, part-moan, part-shout that left Minhoâs lips was deafening.
âFuckfuckfuck Hannie, right there!â Jisungâs heart swelled with pride as he continued to abuse his prostate and the sounds that Minho was trying to hold back was music to Hanâs ears.
âGod *huff* youâre so fucking *ngh* gorgeous, hyung.â Jisung was lost in Minhoâs enraptured gaze and slack jaw that emitted choked moans and whines, but his erection that was bouncing against his stomach caught his attention. The head was red and leaking profusely all over his stomach and Jisung had a sudden urge to lick it clean.
But since he was buried inside Minho and he needed to concentrate on not cumming, he settled for wrapping his hand around his hyungâs length to stroke him in tandem with his thrusts.
âF-fuck Sungie *ngh* Iâm gonna cum, jagi⌠*hiss* Cum inside me, babyâŚâ Minho basically growled the words and Jisung sped up his efforts, enticed by the idea of filling the elder up.
After only a few more thrusts, Minho threw his head back with a cry and Jisung watched as he painted his hand and the otherâs own chest with white. The sight pushed the younger over the edge as well and he loudly whined at the ceiling after throwing his head back.
Jisung pumped inside him a few more times to milk it all out of him and Minho jolted from oversensitivity. The dancer winced as Jisung pulled out of him and the boy wore a concerned expression. He didnât even need to say anything before the elder spoke up. âIâm okay, Hannie. Itâs just a little uncomfortable.â
Jisung just nodded and looked down to see his cum spilling out of the manâs ass. He didnât get to look long, though, as Minho grabbed him and pulled him down on top of him to lock lips with him. Minho bit, sucked, and licked into Jisungâs mouth and they both were breathing heavily once they parted.
âGod, youâre unrealâŚâ The elder pressed his forehead against the otherâs and they laid there in a comfortable silence for a minute or two, Jisung repositioning to snuggle his face in the crook of Minhoâs neck.
âHyung?â
âHm?â
âWeâre covered in jizzâŚâ Minho absolutely guffawed and Jisung giggled along with him. They both pulled back and looked at the smooshed and sticky strings that connected them as Jisung lifted his chest.
âYeeeah, and I think I need to change the sheets.â They looked at each other and cackled. âLetâs go get cleaned up, yeah?â Minho showed his finality by smacking Jisungâs ass cheeks with both hands.
Jisung nodded his head enthusiastically, but before he made a move to get up, he looked back into Minhoâs eyes. âBy the wayâŚâ Jisung seemed shy as his cheeks turned red again and Minho was intrigued. âAt some point, I want to show you the songs Iâve written about youâŚâ And with that, Jisung leaped off the bed and scurried his naked ass down the hallway to the bathroom after making sure the coast was clear.
Minho was flabbergasted. âWait, what?!â Minho shouted across the dorm and all he heard was a maniacal giggle from down the hallway. Without even knowing it, Minho had the brightest (and slightly flustered) smile that stretched across his face as he ran down the hall to wrap his arms around his soulmate, best friend, and now lover once more.
Minho no longer wished to be locked in his dreams. He was already living them.
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#lee know smut#han jisung smut#minsung smut#minsung#stray kids smut#Lee Know is whipped#stray kids fanfic#lee know x han#stray kids scenarios#stray kids imagines#shameless smut#i am weak#lee know fanfic#han jisung fanfic#kpop fanfic
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At long last I've listened to the entirety of GLOOM DIVISION (about time, and just in time, seeing as I'm gonna see him live soon) and I wanted to share my thoughts on the tracklist.
DOWNSIDE - Amazing!! The hook is always stuck in my head and I find myself wandering around singing it to myself. Very very good and very catchy! I love it!
GLOOMTOWN BRATS - My favorite on the album. It was my favorite when it was released as a single, and that did not change. It's so so so so so good. It's so catchy and groovy. I can't resist it. I listen to it all the time. Amazing amazing AMAZING!
INFATUATION - Very good! Upon my first listen I wasn't too into it, but as I listened to it a couple more times I fell in love with it! Another one that's stuck in my head and I find myself singing a lot. So groovy! I love to listen to it while getting ready in the morning.
WHAT LOVE? - Amazing! I can't not dance to it when it plays. The vocals in this are absolutely amazing, they have me utterly bewitched. Dallon's vocal range exhibited in it is insane and I love it.
SPKOTHDVL - Instant love. This may be my second favorite on the album. As soon as I started listening I was into it and I LOVE it. I'm also a huge sucker for swing rhythms and this just scratched that swing itch for me.
SIXFT - Very good! Not my favorite but I can see why it's the favorite of so many people. Great lyrics (gotta love that monumental f bomb), and very groovy! Excellent song. I also really like how the word he chooses to use so much to refer to his love is "darling" (that counts for other songs too, such as DOWNSIDE). Such a good word.
FIND ME - Excellent!!! I loved this one. Such a nice, dramatic groove, and I really like the words (especially, "The stains are black, just like your soul"). Maybe my third favorite if I had to pick. While listening I just quite liked it, but looking back on it I LOVE it. Very very good.
KISS & TELL - Very good! I liked the lyrics a lot, and it had a good groove. The rhymes in particular were very cool. I thought the particular key signature was an interesting choice and I quite liked how it went with the song. I liked this song quite a bit.
A LETTER - I liked the music, but the choice of what was done with the vocals wasn't really my thing. When it first started, I was like, "That doesn't sound like Dallon," but that's because it wasn't Dallon, to be fair. I think I know why the song was chosen to have been delivered that way, seeing as what it's about, it just wasn't quite my thing.
SATANIC PANIC - Very good. Even more catchy. It's still stuck in my head as I'm writing this. Great lyrics, too. I liked this one a lot.
SUNNYSIDE - I liked the music, but wasn't really fond of the way the chorus was done. That part kinda sounded like how a lot of alternative music sounds these days, which is surprising for IDKHOW. Maybe that's the part the person featured on this did, I dunno. Definitely not a bad song, it just didn't really call out to me.
iDIOTS OF Oz - Awesome! I really liked this one. It was so groovy and its flow was so good! Definitely one I would recommend others listen to. Unsure if I would pick this as the closer to the album, but then again, I don't know the full picture Dallon was trying to paint. My immersion also potentially could've been spoiled because 1) I was interrupted while listening to this and 2) I didn't really get to process it ending, because Razzmatazz immediately started playing as soon as it ended. But yeah very good. I liked it a lot.
All in all an AMAZING album. I definitely recommend listening to it. Even better than RAZZMATAZZ, which is saying something, because I LOVE that album.
I'm very excited to see him live and hear several of these live~
#i don't know how but they found me#idkhow#gloom division#axel's stuff#i don't talk about my music taste very much so enjoy this
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đşď¸As My Memory Rests But Never Forgets What I Lost
Pairing: Hanzo Hasashi/Kuai Liang Length:Â 1665 Words Rating: Mature Warnings: College AU, College Club, Musicians, Guitars, Arguments, Hobby Drama, Petty Fights, Past Character Death, Grief/Mourning AU-Gust 2024 Day 16: Hobby Drama
AU-Gust 2024 Masterlist
Notes: Honestly, I canât believe Iâm on day 16 already wtf where has august gone?? Title is from Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day, and the fic itself uses a couple of lyrics from it. (Originally the song I was gonna use was Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, but the more I thoughts about it, the more I thought Wake Me Up When September Ends works more thematically with Kuaiâs backstory in this.)
âWeâve been saying weâre going to be playing Wake Me Up When September Ends for months! You need to choose a different song!â
âNo, you do. Weâve been intending to play it since the end of May.â
âWeâve been saying it since March, fuckface!â
Kuai Liang did not look up to watch the argument, he stared at his guitar as he gently strummed it. He didnât really want to be in the middle of this, even if he was in one of the bands involved. Music club had sounded like such a cool thing when he was looking to join college clubs. But then Bi-Han had wanted to join too, because god forbid Kuai do things on his own. And Bi-Han did not get along with many of the people in the club, least of all Hanzo Hasashi.
That saidâŚÂ Technically Bi-Han was right in this situation.
The Lin Kuei had decided that for the end-of-year concert the club put on, they would play Green Dayâs classic, Wake Me Up When September Ends. They had been vocal about this, and said it from pretty much the start. The fact Hanzo and his band now had decided to play it was clearly just trying to provoke Bi-Han. Which was wild because usually it was Bi-Han doing the provoking but Kuai guessed Hanzo just decided to be a petty bitch in turn.
âMan, itâs like being back in high school,â Johnny groaned, leaning back in his seat next to Kuai. âI thought weâd be over this by now.â
âWith my brother, not likely,â Kuai sighed, strumming a little tune on the guitar.
âEh, I dunno, Iâm actually kinda with him on this one,â Johnny said with a shrug.
âI mean. I am too, but donât tell him that because weâll never hear the end of it,â Kuai warned, knowing exactly what his brother was like. You gave him an inch and heâd run a mile.
âTrue.â Johnny made a loud groaning sound and slipped lower in his seat. They sat in relative silence, as just listened as the argument raged on, both Bi-Han and Hanzo throwing cutting insults at each other. âI feel like someone should probably step in and stop this though.â
âNot it,â Kuai quickly replied. Again, he really did not want to be in the middle of this. If he completely agreed with Bi-Han, heâd be expected to do the same every single argument. If he took a more neutral stance, Bi-Han would take it as an attack and Kuai would never live it down. It was genuinely a no win situation for him.
âGuess itâs up to me then,â Johnny muttered, pushing himself to sit up. âHey. Hey!â He yelled, getting the two arguing menâs attention. âHow about this, whoever can play it better will be the one to perform it in the concert.â
Bi-Han and Hanzo glared at each other, before at the same time they both hissed âfine.â
Then Hanzo smirked and added âbut my band will definitely be better.â
Kuai felt himself scowling. He didnât care about the argument, but something about that statement made him mad. The song was one of his favourites, it was the first song he ever learnt to play. It was special to him, which is part of why Bi-Han chose it. Hanzoâs cockiness made him want to put him in his place.
He began to strum the first few chords of the song, noticing how everyoneâs head snapped around to him. He knew now he was the one being petty, but in the moment it felt good.
âSummer has come and passed, the innocent can never last,â he started singing, closing his eyes and shutting out the world. âWake me up when September ends.â He felt his fingers glide along the neck, the music so familiar, just like an old friend. âLike my father's come to pass, seven years has gone so fast, wake me up when September ends.â
Deciding he had probably made his point, and not wanting to go into the full song, he stopped there. Finally opening his eyes to see his surroundings. Absolutely everyone was looking at him, jaws agape and eyes wide. Kuai didnât understand why it was so shocking, to be honest. Everyone knew he loved that song, everyone knew he could play guitar.
Then, somehow, the answer suddenly hit him.
Heâd actually sung. Bi-Han was the lead singer of The Lin Kuei, and Kuai never even so much as did backing vocals. Heâd always been shy when it came to singing, so this was the first time anyone outside of the band had heard him.
And he genuinely couldnât tell if the reactions were good or notâŚ
At least⌠Until Johnny chimed up.
âHoly fuckinâ shit dude,â Johnny breathed out, looking at Kuai like he was in love. âWhy the fuck have you kept that voice to yourself? You sound like a fuckinâ angel!â He looked over to Hanzo. âIâm gonna be real with you, man, but you are gonna have to pull off a miracle to beat that.â
Hanzo stared at Johnny, before his eyes flicked over to Kuai Liang. There was a strange air of regret to his posture, but more important was that he looked defeated.
âYou guys can play the song,â he muttered, before stepping back and turning away. He walked over to the other side of the room, where his band looked like they were trying to cheer him up.
To Kuaiâs surprise, Bi-Han didnât say or do anything either.
The club continued on about as normally as it could after that. The air was still thick with tension but it was being somewhat broken by people asking Kuai why he wasnât the lead singer, or just a singer in general. He could tell the questions were annoying Bi-Han from the frown on his face. He tried his best to explain he simply wasnât confident in his singing, didnât know how to care for his voice properly and just in general didnât like the attention being a lead singer seemed to gain.
As the club drew to a close and he was packing his guitar into its case, he saw a shadow come up from behind him. Expecting it to be Bi-Han about to have a go at him about the singing thing, he decided to remain with his back to them.
âThat song means a lot to you, doesnât it?â
Kuai blinked, realising that it was Hanzoâs voice. He turned around, and indeed, there was Hanzo, looking at him with an expression that Kuai could not for the life of him read.
âWhat?â He questioned a little dumbfounded, because while yes the song was special to him, it was a bit of a weird way to start a conversation. âWhat makes you say that?â
âThe way you played it. The way you sang it. It was like that song was a part of you,â Hanzo explained, and Kuai felt himself swallow and his heart rate increase.
âIt was the first song I learnt to play, my Father taught me before heâŚâ He paused as his breath hitched. Even now, it was so hard to talk about his fatherâs death. He brought Kuai his first guitar for his 10th birthday. Then one day, when heâd turned 11, his father was gone. Even now, it felt like this gaping chasm in his chest. âBefore he passed away.â
âI am so sorry,â Hanzo said in a horrified tone. âYour brotherâs been pissing me off, I just wanted to annoy him. If Iâd known what that song meant to you, Iâd have done it a different way.â
Kuai actually kind of smiled at that. It wasnât that Hanzo wouldnât have pissed Bi-Han off on purpose. Heâd have just found another method to do it instead. That was beautiful, in a strange way.
âNo, I get it, my brother can be a bit of an asshole sometimes,â Kuai agreed, really hoping Bi-Han didnât hear him. âAlthough donât let him know I said that.â
Hanzo grimaced before agreeing âmy lips are sealed.â He let out a breath, before saying âbut you know. You really do have an amazing voice. Itâd be nice to hear it more in the club.â
Kuai gave a bit of a shy smile, âmaybe.â He wasnât sure how to take any of this, to be honest. He liked singing, and knew he could hold a tune okay. But heâd never thought of himself as being that good. At least not good enough to earn the reception heâd seemed to. âI mean I might have to, Iâm starting to think the other club members wonât let me withhold it for much longer.â
âYeah, you do seem to have amassed a lot of fans today,â Hanzo stated, glancing around the room. When Kuai did the same, he was relieved that Bi-Han seemed distracted by Tomas and Sektor.
âYou included?â Kuai joked, expecting his cheeky question to earn an exacerbated tut or something. Instead Hanzo just looked at him with a smile as if to say yes. Kuai felt his mouth go dry. âOh.â
âIâd better get going,â Hanzo awkwardly said as Kuai felt his entire face begin to go hot. âIâll see you at the next meeting.â
âYou too, Hanzo.â
He hadnât realised heâd stopped breathing until Hanzo left, and he suddenly gasped for air. This whole afternoon there had been people fangirling over him. Why was Hanzoâs attention so much different?
He brushed his hair behind his ear, leaning down to pick up his guitar, throwing it over his shoulder. He needed to calm down before he spoke to Bi-Han. He had a bad feeling that knowing he��d had a friendly interaction with Hanzo would drive big brother mad.
Still, his eyes flicked over to where Hanzo was leaving the room, and his mind echoed back to Hanzoâs request to hear his voice more.
Maybe I should sing more often.
Maybe he should indeed.
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I can't send asks with my dsmp blog??? ToT Oh well, welcome to my presentation on 99(/exag) reasons why Techno should be in Senbonzakura yes yes (English lyrics by Lizz Robinett, I dunno how accurate of a translation this is hehe)
âż Both are related to war (I know in a way, everyone is ahhaha, but like when I hear the word war and dsmp character, the first to come up is Techno)
âż The name of the song is thousands of cherry trees, which are pink. You know what else is pink?? Techno's hair yippeee
âż [ Riding on a penny farthing It's the flag of our sun rising ] Techno can ride a horse!! Carl our beloved â
And and the antarctic empire flag has a sun????? I guess???? It kinda looks like it ahhahaha(but Laurs,,, the antarctic empire is part of earth smp not dsm-- shhhhhhhhhhhh believe)
âż [On the train tracks, running along the line]
(Laurs, stop making earth smp references---shhhhhhhhhhhhhh let me cook)
âż [Boys and girls becoming like samurai Just like those from our previous life] In almost every universe(smp and even fan fiction lol), he's a soldier yes yes
âż [Though I can't hear your voice, keep what I say in mind] THE VOICES MENTTIOOONNNN đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸đŁď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸đĽđĽđĽđĽ
âż [Looking down at us from that big guillotine]
I COULD NOT FIND A BETTER PHOTO BUT PLEASSEEE THIS LITERALLY HAPPENED IN CANON WOOOOOO
âż [Darkness has just engulfed the universe we know] He summoned withers that are dark and surrounded lmanberg yes yes
âż [The lament that you sing can't reach ears anymore] Smth smth Techno trying to get Tommy to stay with him smth smth Tommy leaving him anyways (can also go with that one popular headcanon that Tommy is like partially deaf from the explosions he kept witnessing and Techno trying to idk talk to him I lost my point while typing ToT)
âż [Go ahead, keep shooting with that ray gun, fight!] Violence is never the answer. Violence is the question, and the answer is âyesâ -Techno
âż [Veterans who've trained through struggles are now officers in battle] smth smth Techno is a soldier pt. 2
âż [This one, that one, doesn't matter Every single person gathers] The syndicateee!!!
âż [Passing through the gates on the mountain peaks] Him going to pogtopia(right? Pogtopia is in a mountain?? I actually don't remember noooo ŕźź;´ŕźŕşś Ű ŕźŕşśŕź˝)
Erm and the rest of the lyrics is him being soldier core maybe idk idk. Why am I writing this like as if you're making a full fledged animatic of this song? No idea :3. But yes, thank you for listening to my Ted talk ahahahaha â
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Chat I love the effort that you put into this, but I already did like completely 100% agreed with it like itâs down on my notes. Itâs gonna happen when I animate this.
#c!techno#c!technoblade#vocaloid#senbonzakura#Thereâs no way youâre not neurodivergent because no way a neurotypical person would put this much effort into a vocaloid Dream SMP crossove#Love the effort
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#16.
What is your Starbucks order? or any coffee shop order? I change it up - mocha java chip frappe, caramel frappe, cookies & cream frappe etc. I also love trying the limited time drinks, I try every single one of them lol.
What is your dream vacation? OMG, so many options.
Would you ever go on a game show? Which one? I'd go on Mastermind and have a wrestling thing as my subject, maybe about The Shield xD
What TV show character do you relate to most? Dunno.
If you had to choose to be an animal, what would you be and why? Cat.
When was the last time you wore a dress/suit? The other day I wore a cute summer dress.
Have you ever been to Tennessee, USA? No.
Do you prefer more mellow music or loud? Both.
Do you get along well with your family? I don't see them much outside of my immediate family.
When was the last time you played in the snow, if ever? Never.
Are you clumsy? Not really.
Does anyone you know have a birthday coming up soon? Not super soon, but my boyfriend is next.
Do you ever go bowling? Not regularly, but on occasion.
Have you ever worn a wig? Probably.
Do you enjoy musicals? Depends.
What shoes did you wear today? None, I haven't gone out. I'll probably go for a walk later to my boyfriend's place (he lives down the street from me lol) and wear flip flops.
Do you enjoy 60âs music? Sure.
Do you know anyone who is a great drummer? No.
Would you rather watch or play sports? Neither unless it's wrestling lol.
Does your name have a meaning behind it? It's a variation of my Mum's name, but that's not why they picked it oddly. It also means pearl.
Do you have a certain brand you are very loyal to? Converse. I don't wear any other sneakers but them lol, my collection is growing <3
Are you too short for the sun visor in the car to work properly for you? Yes haha.
Do you have a favorite planet? Dunno xD
How often do you spend time on Bzoink? It shut down, but I was on there a lot.
What did you last have to drink? Water.
What type of movies are you most amused by? Comedy :P
What is your sense of humor like? Sarcastic, but also random shit makes me laugh too.
Are you materialistic? I can be.
Do you listen more with your heart, mind, or stomach? Haha mind.
What are some things that fascinate you? Scams, glitches in video games, geography, useless facts about my fandoms like wrestling and PokĂŠmon etc.
Do you suffer from any diseases? No.
Have you ever broken a bed? No.
Have you ever worked in retail? No.
Whatâs the strangest food combination youâve seen someone eat? Dunno.
Do you pick up on others feelings easily? Sure.
What is your current mood? Hungry.
Do you prefer shopping online or in store? Both - I love ordering stuff online that I can't get in NZ, but I also like going to the store and seeing it in person, plus no delivery fees lol.
What did you last remember dreaming about? Dunno.
Whatâs your favorite condiment? Ketchup/tomato sauce.
What is the last thing you borrowed? Hmm, not sure.
When was the last time you took a group picture? Does my pic with Five count? There's a group of us xD
Name the first person who pops in your head whose name starts with T. Dunno.
Is there a song or songs you can rap all the lyrics to? Yes.
Have you hugged anyone today? No.
What did you last watch on TV? Shortland St.
If your last words were the last message you received, what would they be? "Love you!" Aww, from my boyriend.
Are you good at keeping secrets? Sure.
What last disappointed you? Not sure.
If you could see a concert of any celebrity who has passed away.. who would you like to see? Girls Aloud with Sarah there, cos she passed from cancer :(
How many blankets do you own? A few.
What was your favorite food as a child? Mac & cheese, like it is now.
Do you like denim shorts? Yes, love them!
What was the last picture you looked at? A photo of Jon Moxley above my desk.
Whatâs the main thing you use the internet for? Loads of things.
How many questions do you prefer in a survey? Depends.
Have you ever made someone cry unintentionally? Probably.
Is it easy to offend you? Not really.
When did you last wear a hat? Hmm, a bit back at an outdoor event.
Do you work well under pressure? Depends.
What is something that is or was hard to let go of? Hmm.
What colors do you normally use to decorate with? Purple, green, black, white, grey etc.
Have you ever bruised one of your ribs? Yes.
Have you ever burned yourself on a candle? No.
What is one of your toxic traits? I procrastinate a lot.
Have you ever found a skeleton while outside? No.
What time is it currently? 12:28pm.
How many mirrors do you have in your bedroom? 1.
What is something you cannot get enough of? Chips.
When is your birthday? July 13.
What do you usually do to celebrate? Go to lunch with my Mum, do something with my BFF and with my boyfriend.
Do you enjoy surprises? Sure.
Have you ever had a surprise party? No.
Whatâs the best gift youâve ever received? A kitten. And it wasn't even from my parents, it was from my aunt and uncle!
Do you ever get sad on your birthday? Not really, but I'm not a big fan of getting older.
Do you like ice cream cake? Yes.
How about sprinkles? Yes.
What cake is your favorite? Any!
Do you tend to go all out for others birthdays? Not all out, but I always do stuff.
Have you ever thrown your own party? Yes, all the time. If I didn't, I'd never have one xD
Do you just prefer a more low key celebration? Sure.
Have you ever forgotten your birthday or anyone elseâs? Most likely.
Do you share a birthday with any celebrities? A Google search tells me Harrison Ford, Patrick Stewart and Ken Jeong just for three. Pretty cool.
What season does your birthday fall in? Are you happy with that? Winter, and no, I hate it lol.
Do you know anyone born on a holiday? Yes, one of my cousins is born on New Year's Day, and a friend of mine was born on Christmas Eve.
Can you say happy birthday in another language? No.
Isnât being sang to so awkward? Yes haha.
Have you ever baked your own cake? No.
Baked anyone else a cake? No.
Do you dress up? Oh yeah.
Have you ever worn a tiara or sash saying it was your birthday? No.
What year has been your favorite? 2016 was great.
Are you happy with your life so far? Mostly.
What age were you when you stopped believing in Santa? I have no idea actually.
What was the last thing you had to drink? Water.
What was the last movie or video that made you cry? Oddly, it was part of a Simpsons episode lol.
Which would you sing at karaoke: âDonât Stop Believinâ or âI Will Always Love You?â Don't Stop Believin'.
Do you binge watch TV shows or watch one episode at a time? Depends on if the show is available all at once or not.
Which do you prefer: getting the perfect gift or giving the perfect gift? I love both!
Did you ever have a first impression of a coworker that was totally wrong? Yeah, one of my coworkers I thought looked like a bitch, but she's actually very kind.
Do you send memes to friends/family/coworkers? Sometimes, mostly to my boyfriend.
Do you prefer salty snacks or sweet snacks? Salty!!!
Have you ever gotten a really bad haircut? No.
Would you tell a friend if their outfit was hideous? If they asked me about it and told me to be honest.
Do you know where your car keys are right now? -
Have you ever met your doppelganger? No. The idea of that freaks me out lol.
Could you draw a horse? A super bad one, lol.
When was the last time you stayed up past 2AM? The other night, I got distracted watching a YouTube video and it was like 2:15am when I finally went to sleep lol.
Beer, wine, cocktails, or alcoholic beverages? Cocktails and the rest, cos beer is gross and I can't drink wine.
Have you ever ordered from the secret menu of a fast food restaurant? No idea.
Do you wear jewelry? Yes.
Do you wear makeup? No.
What is your favorite way to work out? Treadmill and cycle.
Do you send handwritten letters to anyone? No.
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i was tagged by @artemiss-moonchild and @heartcravings in two different spotify-centric tag games - so i'll just morph them~ i am also high on finishing a book right now, so yeah, it's gonna be long and full of words i have to vomit out now because my brain is buzzing xDD
shuffle your âon repeatâ playlist and post the first 10 tracks,
Brand New City by Mitski ~ probably my favourite song of hers, i feel all of her music and lyrics very very much but this song...just hits different i dunno, i guess it is the closest thing i have to describe this restlessness i get sometimes
blue by keshi ~ every single word in this songs gets me and i am kinda giddy bc i bought tickets to his concert as a christmas present for my sister and me, hehe, i'm looking forward to that already ^^
Where We by Ryu Ji Hyun & Kim Kyung Hee ~ part of the OST of the drama Rain Or Shine / Just Between Lovers, it's on netflix, lee gangdu is my poor little meow-meow, i cried buckets and got wayyy more invested in this drama than i anticipated xD
I Don't Even Mind by Chen ~ it's my favourite track of his 3rd album, i like how his voice blends with the instrumental, i love how his voice is so clear, how it kinda floats over the tumbles of the guitar, it's like fog over a little creek
I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace ~ i stumbled over that one by chance not even a month ago, i knew the band existed and what their sound was like but never listened to their songs, so that one is the only one i know and what can i say...a girl feels conflicting feelings sometimes xD
Nothin' by EXO-SC / Chanyeol ~ i am really fascinated by this song because it has so many layers of sound, there is just so much going on on that track, like it sounds calm and spherical and like you are floating through a dark night, but you are driven by an invisible force, by thoughts and voices and echos. this song makes me fearless, it lifts me up when i am on the ground, it grounds me when my head tries desperately to fly away from my body, it was my no. 1 song in my spotify wrapped xD
Charmer by Stray Kids ~ ok this one is less deep xD it's just a cool, very vibey song, it really got me back into Stray Kids this year and wow it seems very unreal rn that Oddinary was a 2022 release o_o
Lithium by Nirvana ~ a classic, some would say. i can play it on the electric guitar so that's cool đâ¨ď¸ to me this song is probably even more "nirvana" as Smells Like Teen Spirit - i dunno it captured their sound really well and i might sound very pretentious now but it is such a Kurt song, i don't know how to descibe it differently xDD
Words as Weapons by Seether ~ and sometimes a girl feels a very stubborn anger against the world and some people who have deep cuts. listening to this song is cathartic.
Universe by EXO ~ doesn't your heart just open up when they sing "I'll search the universe..."?? because to me it always feels like that, like something bright is opening up my heart, ready to search along with them (it's the way the melody just keeps rising, flying across the nightsky on that long high note)
then list 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist.
New Thing by Zico feat. Homies ~ this song... is just really, really cool. so cool. ahh. i love listening to it, it's always over way too soon xD
saudade, saudade by Maro ~ my Eurovision favourite this year, haha, their whole stage presence was so whimsical, they remained my favorites from start to finish. i just listened to the song a lot afterwards. the soft desperation in it is just everything, really.
505 by Arctic Monkeys ~ screaming crying throwing up about everything in this song. the musical built up, the breakdown, the lyrics - just ahhh everything about this song makes me go feral, especially the breakdown. i think i rarely show as much of myself to other people as i do when 505 comes on and i'm screaming "but i crumble compeltely when you cry"
Slump by Stray Kids ~ sad bop in three languages, made by the one and only Han Jisung who gave the sinking feeling you get when you realize you are somehow falling behind depsite your best efforts a sound. musical genius (but also are u ok bro?). anyway, i can do all the rap parts (in english because i am a chicken when it comes to korean let alone japanese and i really don't want to mispronounce stuff) in this song and i don't think it sounds cringy when i do it so that's what i've been up to musically these days xDD
RED by Survive Said The Prophet ~ the lyrics in this one are so great! it has such a raw power once it breaks loose, it reminds me of thunderstorms and a stadium full of people not minding the rain because the live music is just so good and everything fits, lights flashing and bass guitar and drums messing with your gut. it's full of so many different feelings that you sometimes can't tell apart but they make you want to move and run and run until your body hurts more than your heart.
Star Walkin' by Lil Nas X ~ this song is also so full of energy but a totally different kind. it's stellar, it's bright, it's almost delirious, it's testing out how fast you can run before you fall over your own feet, it's chasing the feeling of your stomach dropping when you go a little too high on the swings. it sounds really weird, but my first instinct when this song comes on is not to blink, not one second, because i could miss something at this racing pace. the verses are just floating in space, looking around, taking it all in, whereas the chorus is pure acceleration until the point where there is no more "faster", feeling it might hit anytime now but it just doesn't xD
Forgive Me by BoA ~ it's her recent comeback and i've never really gave her music a listen but i saw the teaser pics being absolutely my vibe so i checked it out and really liked it! there is nothing more to it haha. it reminds me a little of what i also would have loved to see Seulgi do on her solo album but it's not that big - both harmonize perfectly with their respective tracks.
Hurdle by Suho ~ he made theeeeee summer bop with this song, really. gosh, the way i freaked when i first heard this song xDD i took little notes about the Grey Suit album in my notebook back then so i know for a fact i was immediately obsessed with the funky bass line and the voice distortion and how dancable this song is.
Serenity by Xiumin ~ i've said it before and i'll say it again: this song is an early spring sunrise, when you woke up oddly early snd you go outside to catch the first glimpses of sunlight and the dew still hanging on the grass wets the hem of your pants, tickles your skin, the cold wetness seeping through your shoes but then the first rays of light hit your skin and the air is fresh and clear and everything feels better and new, like you have healed a little, like you can keep going with a new burst of energy now. this is how this song sounds like to me, i get that mental image everytime, dark greens and bright blues and even brighter white and yellow hues.
Checkmate by TheBoyz ~ again nothing all to deep besides the fact that this song is a total banger and i just go insaneeee over the whispering and member who-ever-it-is saying "you're never satisfied". my sister likes TheBoyz and she played it once or twice and that's how i know this song xD
list the first 10 songs played from my spotify wrapped/apple replay when shuffled!
Francis Forever by Mitski ~ this one somehow very quietly became my chanyeol-enlistment-song. it's all about missing someone, needing someone/depending on someone's presence, not in a full on desperate way (a little desperate maybe-) but in a way that is just like what the first lines say "I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do with myself now that your not here" kinda like you still need time to figure out how to handle things in the absence of something that has been very present before. it really got to me while Chanyeol was away (yk sorta-away because you really cannot get that man off a stage xD but the feeling has always been different than before) - in the end i think it's a lot about adapting after a change in the way somebody is present in your life.
Daechwita by Agust D ~ i am not the biggest BTS fan on the plant (thank god) but i have a sort of soft spot for their rap line because they simply are really good at what they do, especially yoongi. and daechwita, what can i say, simply a total vibe. i remember how i had this song and Lay's Lit right after on repeat a lot that year, they somehow belong to the same universe xDD Daechwita is all about speed and power and hot rage, Lit is all albout precision and force and a very cold attitude of supremacy - both have this very untouchable and dangerous vibe. they are neighboring kingdoms maybe, very peaceful with each other btw. they just come to destroy them haters xD
Raining by Chanyeol ~ this song it just a biiig loong sigh. it's taking a deep breath and exhaling loudly. the dark heavy piano really is like black paint in an artwork, it really gives the song that heavy atmosphere. then the sax soli are almost complaining, it's whining, it's telling you its story of misery with the heaviest sighs. this also reflects in Chanyeol's vocals, he also has this hint of exhaustion there, this song is just so dramatically done with everything, it just yk wants to have a drink and end this unfortunate day xD on some days i think this might be the best song of the The Box OST because they caught this very moody atmosphere so so well and it's not often done like that in populat music, i suppose (look i probably sound like i know what i am talking about but i really do not- xD)
GOTTASADAE by BewhY ~ again, nothing deep. my bestie sent me the song and was like "!!!! here listen !!!" and i was like "omg!!!!!!!" and then it was on repeat xDD
This Is How I Disappear by My Chemical Romance ~ so here is the thing, i knew about them for a long time but i never had this kind of "emo phase" in my teenage years but when they had their revival tour or whatever this year a lot of people i follow online suddenly were obsessing over them again, and when i like people a lot and they get invested in something, then i want to check that out too. so i listened to their entire discography in one weekend (coincidentally, the exact weekend they played in germany xDD) and This Is How I Disappear was the winner of the little favourite MCR song race i had in my head xD so yeah, i dig their music, especially this song. once again, very cathartic to listen/dance/sing to.
Snow (Hey Oh) by Red Hot Chili Peppers ~ i really like that i got this one on random! because it's the first RHCP song i actively remember hearing, probably in the radio and i was just really obsessed with it (in a way a child can be obsessed with a song it doesn't understand xD) and that just kind of lingered around and i eventually looked up the chords so i could play it on the guitar when i was 13 i think, leading to my dad showing my Californiacation and Under The Bridge and that's when i got more and more into their music in general. another weird fun fact: because i practiced the lyrics very hard back then i can now recite them in absolute inhuman speed, everytime i do it it annoys people to no end but i think it's fun xD
Shutdown by Moonbyul feat. Seori ~ (un)official sapphic anthem, let's gooo. this song is so so sexy in a very soft and casual and relaxed way. i love how their voices harmonize, i love how the melody flows, how you're just drawn into the song from start to finish. this song it somebody touching you very softly, very gently at your most secret, sensitive places. this song is knowing how to have the exact same effect on the other. it's dancing together with the smallest most minimal moves, bodies pressing impossibly close together. i just get this warm, seductive, soft, comfy, sexy feeling from this song.
Free Fall by Ăzi ~ i am ascending every time i listen to this song, really. the chorus comes in like the ground beneath your feet rumbling and breaking apart, falling through the cracks. which might sound like a contradiction to what i said in the phrase before. but falling and flying are very easily confused when it's dark and you can't see the bottom. one of my favourite love letter songs <3
Tire Swing by Kimya Dawson ~ the simplicity of this song is so charming, really. it's nothing big, the melody sounds like a children's song but the lyrics tell the tale of the complicated matter that is really liking someone who is just so different from you that it's actually kinda impossible for things to work out well, at least not with anyone hurt. it's part of the soundtrack for the movie Juno (which i really like) and while the teenage romance is only a secondary part of the plot, i think this song was an amazing pick to explain the relationship between these two teenagers that lead very different lives and have to figure out how loving each other works. it's such an easy song and then again it is absolutely not.
Nothing Else Matters by Metallica ~ my dad once told me that metal musicians make the best love songs and then showed me Nothing Else Matteds as proof and, really, i could only believe him after that. i think, this song has had a huge huge influence on what i expect from a romantic relationship. it really shaped my understanding of romantic love to the point where i said (at 13 or 14) in my diary that if i ever got married it would be to this song, and i am still kind of in awe with this thought because that song remains to be very significant to me. how it's about always being together in a way, about sincerity of feelings, about trust, about getting to know the other better day by day and at some point getting to know yourself better through the other, how it's about sharing things openly, about living a life together, about having a companion like that who shows you the world you thought you knew in another light. it's about the enrichment you experience by having a romantic partner, that goes beyong anything sexual which is so often immediately associated with romantic love. and that just really left a lasting impression on me, so it's a fave ever since.
ok. this was long. and very uncalled for lol i am sorry for oversharing like that sometimes i'm just really in touch with how exactly music makes me feel and maybe i'm a little sloppy and a little too much in writing long paragraphs about it oops- ^^'
anywayyy i tag @kafkascupcake @byuns-coco @his-mochi-cheeks @cxsmicmyeon @nvwu @joon-rkive @simplypearing @xuoux @whisperingdoves if you guys wanna (feel free to pick the part you wanna do or simply ignore this tho, i am fully aware that this is a lot of time consuming text, so i won't mind at all xDD)
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đŤwhat's set as your lockscreen - directed by Sirius Blac wallpaper
đ cheese or chocolate - chocolate ofc
đ do you have any nicknames - yes a few
đľ last song you listened to - this i love by guns and roses
đď¸ have you ever written a fanfic - tried to but no
đ are u on discord - nope
đ do you have any piercings - if earings count then yes
𪡠what do you think says the most of a person - the books they read / hobbies
đŞ if you were a cookie which type you would be - lemon cookies
đť are you more of a cat person or dog person - dog person ( cant be a cat person even if i wanted to because im allergic)
𪝠headphones or earbuds - headphones
𤍠what's the last thing you said out loud - i ... laughed.
đŤ whats a weird fact you know about - cleopatra used to try her posions and drinks on her maids/slaves
âď¸ are you a morning bird or a night owl - night owl
đť fav place to nap - my bed
đŚ describe yourself in three words - dont know you chosee
đ jeans or sweatpants - sweatpants because comfy
â what will be your Starbucks order - hot cocoa
đ¤ a color you can't stand - neon pink
đ what's your most prized possession - my notebooks (by myself :D)
đľ coffee or tea - depends which type of coffee in the situation but tea i guess
đŚ favorite extinct animal - dinasours
𫶠how long have you been on tumblr - tbh i dunno but i'll look
đ¤ desert island item - my notebook
đ¸ describe your aesthetic - uhmm, simple and cozy?
đŽ your dream job - you know i don't know but i have my thoughts on bein' a lawyer
đď¸ relationship status - single
đ fav outfit - sweater and jeans (for winter)
đ¤ is there a song you bet you can remember all lyrics - guns and ships in hamilton and good old fashioned boy by queen
đ what color is your hair - brown/brunette
đ do you talk to yourself - *takes deep breath* YES
đ do you wear makeup - in some situations
đŞˇbest compliment you got - i don't remember
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đŤ Cheese or chocolate?
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đľ Last song you listened to?
âď¸ Have you ever written fanfiction?
đ Are you on discord?
 đ Do you have any piercings?
đ° What do you think says the most about a person?
đŞ If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?
đś Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?
đ§ Headphones or earbuds?
đź Whatâs the last thing you said out loud?
đ Whatâs a weird fact that you know?
đŚ Are you a morning person or a night owl?
𧸠Favorite place to nap?
đłď¸âđ Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?
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đ Jeans or sweatpants?
𼤠Whatâs your go-to Starbucks order?
𧥠A color you canât stand?
đ Whatâs your most prized possession?
â Coffee or tea?
đŚ Favorite extinct animal?
đ How long have you been on tumblr?
đ´ Desert island item?
đ¸ Describe your aesthetic.
đŽ Whatâs your dream job?
đ Relationship status?
đż Describe your favorite outfit.
đ¤ Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?
đ¤ What color is your hair?
đ Do you talk to yourself?
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After School - Virgin
Okay⌠Wow. Like, wow. I expected ⌠I dunno, kinda shitty synthpop, something along the lines of Twicetagram? But it turns out First Love isnât the exception to their sound: itâs actually a pretty good representation of what they can do. I really need to see the song average for my own sake, so letâs see:
Average score of 8.1 which is stupidly high compared to what I was expecting. But this album kind of shattered every expectation that I had for it. It was well-written, it was well-arranged, it kept me interested the whole way though. Raina impressed me, Nana and Lizzy did more of the Orange Caramel thing, the trainees blended in just fine. The MV was a bit weird but honestly kind of wholesome in the end.
And ultimately, this album really wanted me to look into more of their discography. Like, I keep coming back to the word âmature.â And when I say that, I donât mean sexy: I mean mature. And this was just 2011! They existed for several years before and after this, with subunits and japanese releases and all of that. So I guess now I have so much more to look into.
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Alright, Iâve just done some cursory Googling and already this album seems crazy. Itâs got re-recorded versions of various singles, as well as some solo- and unit-songs. So really, less than half of this album is actually new, full-group content. But even more interesting, it features Kyung-Min, a âpre-school girl,â which is kind of a weird way of saying âtraineeâ. So I looked into it, and it seems like she won some sort of contest to become the newest member of After School, but she never actually debuted with the group! The only references to her are short, like a single sentence, so thatâs kinda neat. Anyway, I heard Bang! one time like a year ago and I donât remember a thing about it except that it was marching band themed.
Letâs Step Up
Steps
Breath?
More steps
Oh okay itâs rhythmic
Lol this is really cool
Okay hereâs the synth
Yes Iâm ready
��Ah ah hi ah ah haâ
Yeah this is cool, I really like this
9/10, Iâm such a sucker for a good intro
Shampoo
Iâll watch the MV for this one, but not the others
Well she certainly is wearing a backpack
Photos
Oh okay weâre synthy now
Butts
Wow look at those waists
Yeah this is more or less what weâd expect
Dude what is this filter though
This song feels super AKB to me for some reason
Actually ⌠maybe that makes sense
Yeah that groove with this instrumentation
The MV is lowkey kinda wholesome tho
Oh no she felllll
Okay wait but
Huh
Yeah thatâs ⌠a bit awkward
That said I do appreciate a nice instrumental break in a song
Wait whatttt no way she looks like 12
I know I havenât talked much about the song but Iâm vibing
Iâm gonna Wikipedia this before I rate it
Wait there is no Wikipedia article!
Well my guess is that the new girl is E-Young, bc this probably wouldâve been her first thing with the group
Alternatively its a pre-school girl
If it is E-Young, then sheâs 18 in the video, so fair enough I guess
Okay wait these lyrics are kinda wild
Honestly I might regret this buuuuut
9/10
Virgin
Mkay weâre all buzzy now
It suddenly occurs to me that I donât actually know Madonnaâs Like A Virgin off the top of my head, and maybe thatâs an issue here
Pretty straightforward synthpop so far though, kinda want more from it
âDiva diva divaâ
Mkay that was a nice bridge, Iâll give it that
Also I really do enjoy the Vibe of this song
8/10
Bang !
Mkay yep we have some horns going on here
I dunno what to think of this tbh, I feel like I really ought to be seeing the MV here
Pretty vocal harmonies
Iâm not convinced that this is very similar to the Bang! that I heard a while ago
But also I donât know a thing about that Bang! so who knows
Okay I just clicked through the original and itâs pretty damn similar so I dunno
7/10
Play Ur Love
Mmmm this is nice
What a coincidence, I also wanna stay with them!
Woah her vocal tone is So neat here
Wait why the random synth?
This is unironically pretty though, like if you didnât tell me that this was After School then Iâd have guessed like, Apink maybe
9/10, I feel like I should stop giving these out so freely but Iâm honestly so impressed by this
Dream
Pre-school girl #1
Nice 6/8 groove
This is fun, I dunno if I buy it though
Okay well the bridge kinda just saved this song for me, I was getting bored but that tied it together really nicely
Haha the saxophone
8/10 I guess finneeee
Because of You
Mmm piano
Whispering and vocoded vocals
Oh okay we get a nice hard rap out of nowhere
I totally buy this
I think strong rapping over an otherwise airy song is one of my favorite tropes
Also kind of getting 2NE1 Go Away vibes from the chorus and the vocoding
8/10
Depend on Time
Mkay, groovy
Nice acoustic guitar and kind of a slow jam groove
But itâs not a slow jam itâs more folky
Mmmm okay now that the bass is here, maybe itâs a slow jam
Their vocals! Are impressing me!
Mkay I guess this definitely fills the slow jam role, but itâs not nearly as ⌠obnoxious as some others
Maybe I should revisit some of the old SM albums sometime
WHY ARE THE VOCALS SO PRETTY THOUGH
Ohhhh wait that was just Raina?? Thatâs actually fucking crazy holy shit
9/10, I just had to re-listen, I am so impressed by her like wow
Nothing to complain of
Piano moment
Honestly Iâm amazed by how mature this album is? Like yeah they do their sexy thing and all that, but itâs clearly well-written and arranged and like itâs just well done
Compare to Twicetagram
Okay, this is the slow jam haha
Iâm just never going to get over that Raina song though like wow
8/10
Funky Man
Right after I just got done calling them mature lmao
No for real though this is Great so far like wow
Nana, Lizzy, and a pre-schooler
Like, this feels way more Orange Caramel than Depend on Time
Although I think I do prefer Depend on Time more
Still, I appreciate this a lot, and it fits well in terms I album structure
Guitar moment
Yeah, this is nice
8/10
My Bell
I dunno who Jung-A is but apparently this is her solo
Well she certainly has a pretty voice
I would enjoy this song a lot more if IU did it, and Iâm not sure if thatâs because I prefer IUâs voice, or if itâs because IUâs name carries that much weight in my mind
Itâs not a bad song at all, but I donât really care for her voice in it, and also I donât really care for the OST-style ballads
6/10
When I Fall
Piano~
Oh okay nice, glad we get a good beat here
And that was a synth hit
Lovely harmonies
Honestly this feels SO f(x) so far
Like if this was just casually the last song on Red Light or whatever then it wouldnât feel at all out of place
(I love Paper Heart though donât get me wrong)
I do hope this has like, a Grand Climax or something though
Mkay, it didnât quite get to where I wanted it to, but still
8/10
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[STORY] Call Me Fang - C. 3-1 Getting the band back together
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I dunno why, but my writing style is 'ahead, and little bits at a time' its very strange.
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Iâve been standing outside the music room for a few minutes. Finding it took some time, so naturally, Iâm late. How did that even happen? I was literally in History/Civics class with Reed two minutes ago? I couldâve followed him? I guess the fear of small talk and exposure was just too much.
Hanging out near the door, and pushing my head against it, I can hear their conversation. Once more, I am reminded I have wings. These stupid things are nothing but a bother.Â
They are talking about âL&Lâ and bugs. Nerds. At least theyâre not gossiping about me getting my wings caught on the door in history class.
Come to think of it, I have no idea how much Fang has communicated this change in style. If there is a change. I should stick to my tactic so far. Charge through, apologize later. Better too much than too little, had too many times undercommunication killed it.
I canât delay forever, and playing the sneaky little spy only makes me look like shit.
To quote the wise Brooklynite: letâs a go.
I swing the door open with bravado and step in. Door shut with a bump of the butt, arms in my side, time to pull every ounce of confidence into a single 30 minute conversation. Home stretch. Thereâs hair in my face, as this silver waterfall is remarkably unruly. Still.
Giving it a look, the music room is a music room. Chairs for a whole band or choir, instruments in a massive closet, residual music stands, and of course⌠the posters. Treble clef anyone?Â
Trish and Reed sit on the very large windowsill. Reedâs tail is idly brushing the floor with its feathery tip, while Trish is excitedly explaining how bug slime nets work. Which Mr. Pink muses has use in his âL&Lâ game. They were both ready to play, as the drumset was the only instrument given space, and a bass guitar was right below Ms. Purpleâs seating area.Â
âEveryone here?â I demand to know. Standing tall over all of them.
Actually, I am the tallest in the group. Good. Trishâs eyes roll like marbles at my meaningless demands. âDude, weâre a band of three people.âÂ
âAlright. Letâs do this!â I take a lungful of air and then⌠âSo, what did you do to bribe LJ?â Reed takes some wind out of my sail by setting the conversation instead. It was a topic I intended butâŚ
âOkay, yea. The trailer I sent. Okay, let me just play it for you.â I look around and find the hookup to the sound mixer and speakers, as well as a nice guitar to go along with it. No reason to play that file directly off my phone speaker like a pleb.
I am not ready for this. But maybe, if I just go real hard and fast, they wonât be able to notice and I can twist and turn things to suit the narrative. Confidence first. Deep breath, straight face, piledriver.Â
Master of the mind.
Playing a song I played only a few times in fragments will be hard. My fingers hover over the strings. Akin to gravity, they twist into the proper posture to play the instrument, anticipating.Â
Thereâs that feeling again. That underlying bubbling feeling of spectral hands grasping mine and guiding them along. I close my eyes and feel myself getting sucked into a cold, wet, dark abyss, where ever lyrical line becomes glowing bubbles.
Itâs at once a struggle for survival, yet easier than breathing.Â
I found myself teetering on the edge of a cliff when it ended. The last few notes and words echo off the walls briefly, leaving me standing there. I canât think of what to say.
My face was burning and glowing. I didnât notice before, but it makes me smile. âAnd⌠uhmâŚÂ thatâs what she likes?â
I look them over, and they seem⌠engrossed? Trish even got the bass and had put a few notes to my score. My face feels like lava, as I realize I managed to entertain them so directly. Muscle memory is Fangâs, but the stage fright is alllll me. Iâm contributing.
âThat is a few towns over from our old stuff, ainât it?â Reed gestures as he breaks the enchantment. âItâs good, but⌠yea.â He seems to like it? Trishâs expression is less optimistic. Sheâs frowning, rubbing her chin, looking at the ground left to right. âYea, Iâd sooner believe sheâs setting us up. You know, a nice loser band to make Swamp Babies pop. Why else would she turn us away so many times only to just⌠turn at⌠I dunno. It doesnât make sense to me.âÂ
âThe returning champion wins again.â Reed appends with a sigh, shaking his head. âSo, weâre supposed to change our style in⌠a week. Six days or something? Like, how are we gonna do that?â âReedâs got a point. I like it, doesnât mean I can do it without time. Crushing this on a short schedule is a feat. Between babysitting and projects and stuff, timeâs a crunch.âÂ
The two are both looking down and away. Theyâre digging holes, time to fill em up. With confidence. Luckily, I bothered to think ahead. Itâs the only way to keep my head from going to bad places. Felt weird that Fang would send LJ trailers without⌠the rest of the band playing.Â
It takes a second to build up my resolve, and when I do, I give my answer with boisterous noise. âAnd thatâs where youâre wrong. Nothingâs impossible with a pinch of magic.â I canât resist gesturing with hands and body, to emphasize the point.
âCool, cast your spell, o mighty wizard.â Reed grins, as if he had the fullest confidence before even hearing it. His posture loosened, to receive the spell.
âNah, man, Fangâs a witch. No books on them!â Trish finger guns me. I canât help but smile again.Â
My plan isnât the best. It basically puts all the work on me. Given this band thing is Fangâs idea, thatâs fair enough. Sins of the body-father. Body-parent. I seem to have this new music down fine, and I have more time to practice. In fact, Iâm new to it, whether we play the old or the new stuff. Thus⌠âIâm talking about backing instruments. We can use the MIDI box, right?â I hold up the weird slab next to the sound board. The cute post-it is the only reason I can identify it as such. Fang had one, and it took little to sort out the what and how. âProbably. Thereâs usually some solo artists or like, half bands. So I doubt weâd get slammed for it.â The purple punk concedes. âSo. What if, say. We take what we know, and turn it into something else? Like, thereâs only so many guitar chords and notes on a scale. Just dress it up in vibes and moods, some spiffy lyrics, and badaboom badabing.â My growing confidence leaves a mark. Even the worm-hugger seems to get sucked into it.Â
They exchange glances.Â
Admittedly, this entire plan was me screwing around with the MIDI controller back at Fangâs place and figuring out some workable ideas.
To cover MY ass.Â
Making the best of it.
Twisting it to suit the rest of the bandâs asses is two birds, one stone.Â
Letting the idea simmer, Reed gives his feedback. âThatâs⌠actually pretty clever.â
Man, this is going pretty damn great.Â
What is that feeling? That odd breeze on my rear?
Oh.
The tail.
What are social terms on tail related movement? âMan, here I was, thinking weâd actually have to try. Turns out Worm Drama was nothing but style and talent from day one.â Leaning back further, the purple horned one crossed and plants her ankles on the back of the chair near her. Oozing suave. Pinkie slides into thought, before raising a finger to ask a poignant question. âUh, not to undercut your high, Fang, but do you think you can retool a song like that in a week?â
âNo worries, Reed. You guys just gotta send me a line you can work with.â I really should figure out what instruments they play. âOr, whatever you feel youâre best with. Then, I merge them together. Itâs easier to build with a foundation, after all. Iâll send you the finished version Sunday, so you can digest it.â âIs that enough time?â His skepticism is telling. Fair enough. I can, apparently, make a trailer work in a day. A whole new song? Iâm not sure if thatâs necessary, but I guess we canât play the old, nor have them learn the new thing I made⌠âIf you can send me the lines today or tomorrow, I have at least a few days to write alpha versions, let them sink in, digest, regurgitate. Itâll be tight, but look, I donât have extracurriculars, itâs fine.âÂ
âDef was nervous earlier. Yet all I see now is why youâre the boss.â Violet finger guns and a wink and smile.Â
Honestly, I was expecting someone to comment on my voice. Somehow, Iâve been close enough that nobody noticed or cares? As they say, nothing but net. âAre they? I thought Fang was more of a de facto leader.âÂ
âReed, dude, head vocalists are always the leader.â âOr the guitar.â Pink shrugs. âDouble leader, triple president. Fang, your family is made of layered leadership.â
âAh, I see Naser told you about it too?â I snicker. âJust walk past his âofficeâ and youâll hear him say it to everyone that comes in. Curious how his big opening speeches are gonna go, given that campaign of his.â âSay what you want, but Naser has charisma. Iâd definitely make out with him if Fang wouldnât kill me for it.â Reed sinks into the window, arms behind his back. Showing off his armpits since his shirt covers none of that.Â
âYouâll have to fight Stella for the honor though.â I didnât even hear Trish. Excuse me? âUh, Reed, what the hell?â
âIâm kidding. Come on.â
Iâm not really pissed. Iâm living up to my assigned role as Reed Assassin. âIf I catch you mackinâ with Naser youâre getting a one-way trip to the moon.â I canât muster the sincerity to make it sound like a real threat. Though, if anything, they love it.
âMacking?âÂ
âHey, heard the moonâs nice this time of year.â Reed winks. âPerfect for a triple president honeymoon.âÂ
The foundations of laughter, the bubbling of snickers, push up my throat. My face contorts, and strange, nasal guttural sounds pop from my nostrils. The crack of Reedâs wit whip works because it catches me off guard.Â
âGod fucking damnit Reed!â How have I met this guy, like, a few hours ago?
I hardly noticed our bassist getting up and deciding it was enough, even if all sheâd really done was idly play along with me. âOh, well, nice to catch up. I gotta hit up Rosa for some things, important top secret projects.â
âThanks for the moral support.â Wait. âWait, your basslines?â
âIâll send them tonight, donât worry.â Her head pokes through the doorway as she shoots me an extended tongue. Fair.Â
Things wind down quickly.Â
I sit on the windowsill.Â
Reed took it to himself to play me the drum beat he wanted to use. That he felt confident had âenough flexibility to fit anything, but enough style to impressâ or something. Reed has mastered the art of being capable, serious, and seeming like he doesnât give a shit at once. I half expect him to go âone more thingâ and blow my case wide open. Just pull off Fangâs face like a rubber mask like a meddling kid.Â
While he plays, I look myself over. I peer at my reflection in the window, and wonder. Itâs strange to see another personâs face like that. I make faces, and they mirror. Iâm getting too sucked into this. Tomorrow's another roll of the dice for this to just go away.Â
Then, I am taking a few weeks sabbatical to recover from straining every single social muscle. And maybe pick up that offer with Rex. Finally get him to shut up about that. Go to the pool and just float about. Get some hot tub hours. Yes.Â
Gonna treat myself for once.Â
A smooth landing for the returning traveler. Or perhaps Iâll just wake up in bed. Not a day missed. Ah. It can be that fortuitous!Â
As we wrap up, crack a few gags, he gets a bit more serious.
âMight have to skip on getting us the usual band ride. My van is totally trashed.â
âWhat happened?â
âHm. Lemme think. I mightâve been stoned off my ass taking a hairpin turn. And like an idiot, overcorrect and uh⌠well, Iâm alive. The van just needs a lot of dents pulled. So you either carry your own guitar, or you know, use whatever LJâs got lying around.â
âDonât freaking puff and drive!â
âIt was that, or be home after midnight on a Sunday. And neither of my moms would give me amnesty in that case.âÂ
âThatâs just bad planning.â
I get up, and stretch. I push every feeling of being a personal space invader to the back of my mind, and try to focus. Look forward. Itâs gonna be fine.Â
Reed seems to be busy thinking, so Iâll leave him to it. Unfortunately, that posture breaks before I can open the door. Itâs for me.Â
âYo, got a minute?â
âWhatâs wrong, Reed?â
âJust wanted to ask⌠you alright? Not too nervous about this audition thing, right? This might be that big break.â He looks dead at me, with a slight squint. Well, not really a squint, more an analytical frown. So heâs probably not projecting. Thatâs how it works, right? âIâm fine.â Shrug. âHey, if you need some R&R time, I host L&L gamesâ Thereâs the hook. I got a guess what heâs talking about. âTrish is in there. Sage too. Perfect time to take a load off and laugh. Naomiâs in, and Rosa. So everyone.â Everyone but me, huh? Although I have deftly avoided Stella and Sage so far. Wait, is he recruiting me under the guise of wellness? Sneaky. âL&L?â âLegends and Lore. Itâs a tabletop roleplaying game? Itâs likeâŚâ
Man, parallels are something around here. Canât wait to find the complete works of Henry Shakescale and the musical talents of Mozartodon. âOh, I know what those are.â Holy shit, he perks up instantly. His adorable, fluffy tail tip starts wagging side to side like a broom. âSure, maybe later. After the audition. This weekendâs short notice.â Stalling for time, baby. Iâd prefer to do some personal research first too.
âCool, cool.â
I take a minute. Just standing here with Reed on his drumming stool. Itâs nice. Heâs pretty cute. Laid back. Like a big ol pillow. Trish has more of that big friend-energy.Â
âWeird summer, huh?â
I look up, and shrug. âIâll be honest, weirdest one yet.â Sure has been.
Canât wait to get some more downtime to process any of it.Â
âNever took Trish for the camp type.â
âMhm.â Sure, thatâs the weird one, buddy. âI gotta go. I wanna be there on time. Naser needs his moral support.â
âIâll be on the roof, keep lookout for potential party crashers.âÂ
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Another day, another morning of randomly waking up with ALIEL pre-installed in my head.
Why. Why is it always this one. I mean there are a few other songs that land up in the start menu earworm slot, but of the entire Tsukipro repertoire it's always ALIEL in particular that snags in my head. I listened to it twice and got its melody and chords memorised because it's just. that. sticky. and I have no idea why.
Hh⌠I'm probably gonna end up downloading it, huh? Jury's still out on watching anythin', though historically persistent earworms were also how I got into CaligulaâŚ
#ari rambles#look i dunno a single word of the lyrics#but i can grab my guitar right now and play the thing from memory#...paradigm box got me into caligula anime which then got me into the game proper#is aliel gonna go a similar route? or is it happy just bein' an earworm?#what am i supposed to do with ya? huh?? whaddaya want with me??
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I dunno what you heard about me,
but you aint gettin a smirnoff for free.
You can sit yourself on my knee,
but keep your hands off my P.I.N.T. x2
Now sharon, shes in the pub shes pullin the pints..
n pullin the punters if she thinks the price is right..
shes into nuts and gin with slim line tonic..
she plucked out her eyebrow n drew a line on it!
I donât buy her a drink I jus get her some pork scratchins,
keep her off my pint cos I think her warts catchin..(urgh)
its pub quiz night n its bad for my health..
she asked me 21 questions and there all about herself..
she likes my hair she likes my car shes in the daily sportâŚ
I donât understand a single word because she comes from york..
im not that bloke thatâs only tryna get her into bed, (nope)âŚ
im that bloke thatâs only tryin cos im off my head..(yep)
we can leave now if your startin to get bored..
weâl take the bus home because my novaâs not insured..
look love its simple if your sittin with me..
sip your drink but donât touch my P.I.N.T
haha..
I dunno wat you heard about me,(yeah)
but you aint gettin a smirnoff for free.
You can sit yourself on my knee..
but keep your hands off my P.I.N.T.. x2
bur-bur-bur-bur-burn unittttt! (hahaha)
F-I-F-T-Y pence thatâs me,
I work in the burn unit infirmary
NHS pention til im sixty three
and you no that im representin kings Langley..
F-I-F-T-Y pence thats me,
im a nature loving geezer you can find me in the tree,
im accidently known and locally accepted..
get off my pint!!!
so now you no about me..
yea love got my reebok classics on, (wee)
im bout to show you why my pint hand is quite strong..
your not wrong if u think I got a lazy eye,
its cos I had a mishap with a steak n kidney pie .. (oops)
I down a pint the same way I down a glass of water.. (slurp)
I swear I didnât no this bird was the landlords daughterâŚ
BURN,U,..N-I-Tizzy,
I bumped my head and now im feelin dizzy..
I've got people in Watford that no how I get down ..
got a bird in Hemel,
a few mates in town,
iv got a job in macdonalds and im not messin around..
iv got a big mac, mcflurryâs and a quarter pound-errr..
(haha)
just put it on my tab..
pick up a doner at millennium kebab..for closin time..
and about the fighting..
iv got a beer proof vest to avoid the pinting..pinting
I duno wat you heard about me,
but you aint gettin a smirnoff for free.
you can sit urself on my knee,
but keep your hands off my P.I.N.T.. x2
⌠yeah..
now in Hollywood they say theres no business like show business,
well in the pub dave said.. theres no business like the dough business,
and heâs a bakerâŚ.
See if I talk really fast I sound like a prat
but if you listen real fast I donât gotta slow down..
haha..
yea..
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call me when you hear this song
âł you performed a song you wrote for chris on live tv and chris act on the lyrics.
an | this song is call me when you hear this song by new west!! this has been stuck in my drafts for about a whole year and I HATE IT. i don't like it and I wish it isn't so draggy and lengthy and so descriptive but I just wanted to get rid of it and yay #secondchanceromance <333
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"So you just released a new song right?" Jimmy starts off, glancing down to his card before he looks up at you while you nod in response to his question. "When you said 'call me when you hear this song', is there actually a little someone you were expecting a call from or is it words you just spewed out for the song?"
You chuckle in reply, shifting your body to turn to the kind host and took a quick second to think about your answer. "Godâ must I answer the question?" You joked while subtly fidgeting with your hands. You knew the question was gonna be asked when you took up the interview but it doesn't make it any less tough to answer. "But yeah! I wrote it with someone in mind and the whole song is about him."
Jimmy lets out a gasp, covering his mouth with his palm and laughs. "Alright, alright. Now I'm really curiousâ did you get any calls from anyone who thought you were singing about them or did the person you wrote this song for actually called you?"
You laughed at the question, thinking of the calls you did get about the song but none from the person that actually matters. "I did, actually. But not from the guy I was expecting a call from." You chuckled lightly, shrugging the question off. "But truth be told, I don't think he even heard the song yet."
"There's no way he hasn't heard your song yet, right?" He trails off and gestures at him and the audience. "Especially not when it's hitting all the charts and it's even trending on TikTok. I hear it all the time I get in the car too."
"Well," You drag slowly, with a shrug. "I dunno how to put this nicely, but he kinda sucks at technology and keeping up with trends. I mean, the only trend I remember him doing was the Ice Bucket Challenge which was probably all the way back in 2014. "
"I think we're gonna need a whole list of everyone who did the challenge just to figure out who it is, huh? Or maybe do another round of Show Me Your Phone." He suggests, keeping his face as innocent as possible with his usual cheery grin.
"Oh god." You wagged a finger at him, instantly recalling the last time when you came on the show for Show Me Your Phone and you had to show the latest video in your gallery. "Never again. I had to fight for my life on Twitter that day."
It had been a video of you on a couch, cuddled into someone's side and your head was resting on his chest. You had been lucky enough that the video didn't show his face and the only sound in the background were the lines from the movie Aladdin playing on the TV and a dog's barking.
"I really wanna know if this song guy and your video guy are the same person." He pokes teasingly.
You know Jimmy well enough that he won't pressure you into answering if you don't want to. If anything, he'll even help you cover things up. He's easily one of the best hosts out there. He's great at his job and somehow, he does it without prodding so much into people's private lives.
"They are." You sighed, rolling your eyes at the man. "Y'know, I was kinda scared to come here today just in case we had a repeat of that whole thing and I have to spend the rest of tonight fighting for my life on Twitter. Again."
The audience laughed and so did Jimmy at your explanation. He pushed his chair back and stood up. "Well, lucky for you, the only thing I'm making you do today is sing your new single." He clapped his hands together, a wide smile on his face as he addresses the audience. "We'll be right back after the break with more of Y/n Y/l/n on The Tonight Show!"
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Chris had been mindlessly flipping through all the channels until Jimmy's face came on the screen and he decided on that since he wasn't in the mood for a movie anyways. He almost choked on his coffee because he was not expecting to see your face on his TV screen as the camera shifts to show you walking out from the backstage as Jimmy presents you. Hell, even Dodger started barking at the sound of your voice.
"Jimmy!" Your voice rang through the room as you stepped closer to him and greet him with a hug and beautiful, wide grin you always have.
As you take a seat on the couch, you waved at the audience and the cameras and Chris just swoons.
"God I've missed this couch so much. I swear to god it is just as comfy as Sebastian Stan's couch."
Chris laughs at that revelation. You and Mackie just had a thing for Seb's couch. But Seb would never reveal where he got the couch from- no matter how much you and Mackie bullied him into spilling.
Good old days.
Chris sat up straighter on the couch, watching intently as Jimmy asked you questions your new song. It's not that he doesn't keep up with your music or don't support your career. He just tries to avoid you as much as possible, knowing that he'd get the urge to give you a call and rush back into your arms at the first bit of attention you give him.
The questions shifts to something about Show Me Your Phone, and you laughed in response while swearing off the game for good.
Knowing Jimmy and his games, the game you were talking about was probably played during one of your old interviews on the show.
He hastily grabbed his phone while the screen switches to a commercial break. He's curious about the game. He types in 'Y/n Y/l/n show me your phone' on Youtube and the first thing that came up was 'Show Me Your Phone w/ Y/n Y/l/n'. The video had been from probably two years ago. And judging by the date, you both were still together then.
There was a screen with a bunch of apps. And he watches as you start the game off and had to show your last received text which was a message from your mom asking when you'd bring home a man to meet her.
That itself left Jimmy and the audience cracking up in laughter, and Chris laughed too.
In your next turn, you had to show the latest video in your gallery. He was expecting a short vlog of yourself backstage or just a random timelapse of the sunset since those are the first things that came to his mind. Chris almost freezes in his seat when the video starts playing. He recognises it all too well. The background is so obviously the very couch he's sitting on right now in his living room.
And he's not a narcissist but Chris can definitely recognise his own chest. And that bark is clearly Dodger's. What kind of dog dad would he be if he can't even recognise his dog's bark?
Scott had been over that night, and he recorded itâ mentioning how he's tired of lovesick couples and using the video against you and Chris when he told the two of you to stop being so mushy. He airdropped the video to both your phones that night too.
Chris was shocked to say the least. How did it take him so long to find out about this? And he recalls the jab you aimed at him earlier in the live interview.
"I dunno how to put this nicely, but he kinda sucks at technology and keeping up with trends. I mean, the only trend I remember him doing was the Ice Bucket Challenge which was probably all the way back in 2014. "
Chris chuckles to himself and shakes his head. You were definitely not wrong about that.
He keeps watching the show as Jimmy teased you about the video and dug to find out whoever's chest it was. You sheepishly hid your face behind your palms as the blush rose up to your cheeks and you mumbled out vague replies to all his questions.
"I was so not prepared for this when I came here." You pointed sharply at Jimmy with and chuckled. "My publicist is gonna kill me after this."
Chris eyes the TV screen, realising that the show's back on and it's time for you to sing your new single. He sets his phone aside and made a note in his mind to get back to the video later and keep up with all your other interviews with Jimmy.
Call me when you hear this song I think you know who you are Can we start where we left off? Lord knows I'm never moving on
Every time you hear this tune Just know I still think of you Can we get together soon So you can say I love you too?
He realised you could've fessed up right then when the video of you on his chest was aired out to the public. It would've been so easy for you to just say his name and you could've avoid the fans and media pestering and digging into who you were with. It would've help build your career too. Again, Chris isn't a narcissistâ but he knows he has all his fans and the media follows him around. And he knows you were never using him and it will never be your intention. But the media is cruel and the two of you were well aware of that.
They can easily present you as using Chris for attention and publicity and they'll start digging into you and Chris' lives, and the two of you enjoy as much privacy as you can getâ even if it isn't part of the life you two signed up for.
So you kept it as private as possible for about a year until you both mutually decided on a break. For you to focus on your music, and for Chris to get back to filming. He'd be flying around for filming and press and you'd be in London for a few months to collaborate with a couple of different writers and artists there.
You didn't want to stress each other out with all the distance and separation so you took a break.
Please not again We've been through this before my friend Don't say that this is the last time No I ain't ready for goodbye
I tried my best And gave you everything I had Seems what I have is not enough You want another kind of love
"I'm always gonna wait for you, y'know."
Both of you were smiling through the painâ trying to find the good in goodbye. The tears were inevitable. Chris had tear streaks on his cheek and your heart breaks at how vulnerable he looks.
You wrapped you arms around his torso, cheek pressed against his chest as you let your own tears out.
"I'll always love you, Chris."
His own arms tighten around you. "I'll always love you too, sweetheart."
Call me when you hear this song I think you know who you are Can we start where we left off? Lord knows I'm never moving on
Every time you hear this tune Just know I still think of you Can we get together soon So you can say I love you too?
He hadn't expected to wait so long. But somehow, a week turned into months, and next thing he realisedâ it's been a whole year since he last saw you. He would've reached out, and Chris doesn't know why he held himself back from texting you all these while.
A part of him thought that maybe you truly moved on, what the two of you had was truly over, and he's the only one stuck in the past.
You're being pulled in another direction I want you to know that I understand Cause things get complicated when you say you still love me But how can I know how you feel I'm only human
I won't stand in your way You deserve to know yourself I know we'll meet again one day But till' then I just wanna say (I just wanna say)
Chris brushes his hand through Dodger's fur as the mutt sprawls himself out on Chris' lap. "What do you think, bud? Should I give her a call?"
Dodger nuzzles into his thigh, letting out a low purr in reply. Chris sighs at him. "You miss her too, don't you?"
Dodger looks up at him, slowly blinking as if he's actually agreeing with Chris.
Call me when you hear this song I think you know who you are Can we start where we left off? Lord knows I'm never moving on
Every time you hear this tune Just know I still think of you Can we get together soon So you can say I love you too?
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You're grinning widely as you sing the last line, waving at the audience as Jimmy comes over and pulls you into a hug.
"Ladies and gentlemen, Y/n Y/l/n!" He looks at the camera, arm slung over your shoulder as he holds up a square frame of your album cover. "Call Me When You Hear This Song is out now on all streaming platforms!"
It wasn't long till you went backstage, the show ending with your performance. Jimmy left with you as both of you made small talk about the show and your projects.
"Do I even know who this guy is?"
"You do actually." You laughed at the question, grinning as you pat him on the back. "He's been on the show a couple of times."
"Oh god, you mean the answer's right under my nose?"
You scoff at his response. "If it helps, he's a giant goofball." You nudge him with shoulder, smirking as you walk ahead of him. "Good job tonight, Jimmy!"
"Oh yeah, I see how it is! Thought we were friends!" He shouts back at you, playfully rolling his eyes and cracking up as you chuckle and head back to your dressing room.
You met up with your manager back in your dressing room and she arched a brow at you as soon as you came in.
"$20 says he'll call soon." Olive notes as she passes your phone over.
You simply shrug at her, your manager and your closest friend. "You're on girly." You laugh mischievously as you go through your phone for anything that you missed while going live on the show.
It had been tough to convince management and your publicist about keeping your then relationship under wrapsâ even from them. The only people who knew about it was wellâ you, Chris, Olive, and Scott. Scott wasn't even supposed to find out. He came to visit while you were over at Chris' and you didn't have enough time to make an escape. And Olive wellâ she's your bestfriend. What choice do you have?
You honestly don't know if Chris even listened to your music. So you weren't exactly expecting a phone call even if you technically did say something about calling you if he heard the song. The song has been out for two weeks now but you still didn't hear from him. Besides, Chris is more of a documentary and news guy rather than a chat shows and reality tv guy.
A little notification pops up on the top of your screen while you were scrolling through your emails.
Chris: Should I call now?
You gasped, accidentally letting go of your phone and it drops on the floor with a loud clad. You looked up at Olive, who eyed you weirdly.
"He texted."
She grins at you. "Pay up, girlie."
You chuckle, rolling your eyes at your friend before picking your phone up and you quickly typed out a reply. "He's asking if he should call."
"I'll give you some time. " Olive nods, standing up from her seat as she goes out to leave the room. "We're leaving in thirty."
His name pops up on the screen soon after she left and you inhaled deeply before you picked it up.
"Hey." He breathes, chuckling softly as soon as you picked up.
"Chris."
"You did great, Y/n. Dodger dozed off listening to you sing." He starts, his voice low and you realised that he watched the show- oh my god.
"You heard the song?"
"Watched the Show Me Your Phone video too."
"Oh my god." You laughed, taking a seat on the couch while your heart beats just a little bit faster.
"Y'know, I'm gonna be fuckin' embarrassed if it turns out that you weren't basically telling me to call you." His accent was thick as he speaks and it made you a little flustered.
"Nope." You popped the word. "It's definitely you."
You hear him breathe a sigh of relief as he talks to Dodger over the phone. "You were right, buddy."
You let out a breathy laugh at his words. "Did he convince you to call?"
"It's just those damn puppy dog eyes. I think he really misses you." Chris says before he clears his throat and you could almost feel his nerves through the phone. "Wanna come over?"
A giant grin forms on your lips. "Be there in an hour?"
Chris chuckles, "Okay. See ya soon, gorgeous."
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You changed into something more comfortable and you got Olive to drop you off somewhere in Chris' neighbourhoodâ making some lame excuse about how you had to visit a friend. She obviously didn't believe you but she let you go anyways, telling you to stay safe, to not get caught by any paps, and sends you off with a "Don't do anything crazy, Y/n."
You ended up on Chris doorstep 10 minutes later, knocking on his door with your poor attempt of a disguise with just a hoodie, sweats and a cap. He was quick to open the door, instant pulling you into a hug as he kicks the door shut.
"Hi." He starts off, grinning almost shyly when he pulls away.
"Hey," You giggle in reply, letting your arms stay around his torso.
"I'll make you some hot cocoa then we can talk?" He suggests. "Dodger's on the sofa."
You nod, following him as he walks inside the house. You're familiar with it, but it's been so, so long that it just felt a little awkward to be back in Chris' home again.
Chris goes into the kitchen while you head to the sofa where Dodger's just sprawled out on.
"Bubba!"
The pup perks up at your voice and he barks immediately as you rush over to him and plop yourself beside him before he climbs into your lap. Dodger excitedly licks your face and he pawed at your hoodie.
You laugh at the mutt, letting your hand rub over his belly. "I missed you too, baby."
Dodger nuzzles into your touch when your fingers brushes through his fur as he slowly calms down. You're glad he didn't tackle you to the ground like when he finally met Chris after two whole weeks. He's cute but he's a huge dog. And heavy.
"Hey! Stop hogging her, you goof." Chris chides playfully when he comes into the living room with two mugs in his hand. Your hand stays on Dodger's fur while the other reaches grabbed a mug from Chris. The moment he sits beside you, Dodger moved so that he's half-sprawled on your lap and half on Chris.
"So," He drags awkwardly, a free hand going to the back of his neck and scratches at his nape. "Nice song."
Both of you stared at each other for a quick second before you both burst out in laughter.
"Okay, okay," He shakes his head with a chuckle, "But I'm serious, it's a really good song."
You cleared you throat, "Uhmâ I didn't think that it'd reach you, honestly." You tried your best to look at him but for some reason, your gaze kept shifting down to the mug in your hands.
His voice got lowerâ almost a whisper but it was still loud enough for you to hear. "Did you mean it?"
You glanced up at him, and his eyes never left yours. You never stopped thinking of himâ that's how you got the inspiration to write the song in the first place.
"Every word."
"Good." Chris breathes.
His lips was on yours in a split second, his free hand cupping your jaw and he shifts so he's closer to you. You tensed up, hands staying in the same spot with your fingers wrapped around the mug in your lap.
You pulled out of your daze, letting the mug rest in between your thigh so both your hands are free. You reach for Chris' face, twisting your body just a little and pull him closer, your lips moving slowly against his soft ones.
You feel Dodger hopping off your lap and you almost feel bad for the pup but Chris pulled away, so you kinda forgot about the dog. He had a cheeky smile on his lips while he stares at you. His fingers gently rubbing your cheek and he leans in to rest his forehead against yours.
"I love you too."
You couldn't help but chuckle before you realised that his hand holding the mug is hovering over your lap. "God, please don't spill that hot cocoa on me."
Chris glances down, laughing lightly before he backs away and took your mug tooâ placing both on the coffee table. He sits back beside you, hands reaching out and swiftly pulling you to sit on him.
"I missed you." He says softly, his hand staying on your waist and the other gently rubs your back.
Your arms rest on his shoulders, nose pressed against his and your lips curl into a grin.
"I know."
"So what? We're dating again?"
You hum, quickly pressing a kiss on the tip of his nose.
"Wanna tell everyone that I called you when I heard that song?"
You looked at him then, palms cradling his face and thumbs brushing against the soft skin underneath his eyes. "You sure, Chris? The media's gonna flip."
Chris nods, pulling you closer to him as he sits up. "We didn't tell anyone last time because of your career. There's nothin' to be scared of now, baby. Maybe the privacy thing, but it's nothing we can't deal with, right?"
"Olive's gonna kill me."
"And Megan will kill me. Should we request to be buried next to each other?"
"You only live once, right?"
Chris grins. "How do you wanna do this?"
"I'll post that video of us that Scott took on my stories with my song in the background."
He nods in agreement and pulls his phone out. "I know what I wanna post."
"You gonna show me?"
He hums as he taps on the screen and hides it from your view. "You'll see, sweetheart."
He glances back up at you after a quick minute, waiting for you to stop tapping on your phone. "You ready?"
You tap the button and wait for the story to load, and you quickly switch to Chris' account and refresh his page just to see his story.
When the purple ring pops up around his profile picture, you click on it. A picture of you on his couch with Dodger pops up with your song playing in the background. You realised its a picture he snapped just a few minutes ago while you were waiting for him to make the hot cocoa. Your face wasn't shown in the picture but it's easy to identify the person as youâ if your voice singing in the background isn't enough.
"Sneaky." You teased as you turned your phone off and set it aside.
"No backing out now. You're with me for good, baby."
You cradle his jaw and lean down, bringing your lips close to his. "There's no other place I'd rather be."
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an | put me in jail but idc if this flops i really don't like it and it makes me sad bcs it could've gone so much better but im so đŤ đŤ đŤ
#chris evans fanfic#chris evans#chris evans smut#chris evans imagine#christopher robert evans#cevans x reader#chris evans x reader#cevans#chris evans fluff
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i'm setting off, but not without my muse | chan
pairing: bang chan/reader
word count: 1.4k
genre: romance, fluff
warnings: none! just some nice cuddling and words of reassurance
summary: chan works too much, you think he should take some time for himself.
Chan is a workaholic.
Itâs not a quality that particularly goes under the radar by really anyone; not his groupmates, not his fellow staff, his family, him, but more importantly: you. There are at least four different cans of Monster littered across his desk, the lights dim in the small, confined space. His monitor hangs above him while he works, eyes darting from screen to screen while he clicks into different sections of the song heâs working on. A lazy bass pours out of the speakers as he clicks and drags it, pulling a distorted cymbal sound on top of it until heâs satisfied.
You like watching him work. Heâs intent and focused, quite frankly itâs a little sexy, but mostly itâs relaxing. You get to sit and lounge, reading or playing on your phone or working on your own stuff while he does his. Itâs a type of togetherness and closeness thatâs comfortable, you donât feel the need to talk or really say much of anything; just being in one anotherâs presence is enough. Plus, itâs pretty fascinating in the times you do pay attention to what heâs doing. He tends to do things without realizing, muttering under his breath, a mix between Korean and his thick Australian accent, for example. Sometimes he groans, pouting at himself for not getting the result he wants until he sighs and gets back to it. You usually donât interfere, itâs part of his process. Itâs not until heâs doing it in a timespan you deem a little too short for him to be doing it that often that you suggest a break, and heâs forced to sigh and agree with you.
âWhat do you think of this?â he asks, breaking you out of your thoughts. Your Twitter feed shines on your laptop next to you on the couch, long forgotten in favor of admiring your talented boyfriend. He clicks play, and the instrumental heâs been working on practically bounces off of the walls. Itâs slower than the usual song the boys use, something more adjacent to the song he and Hyunjin worked on, but not quite as sexy. A cool electric guitar curls in a few seconds into the intro and you smile, nodding along with the beat. Itâs good, no itâs better than good.
âI think it sounds like a new single,â you praise, letting yourself fall into the sound as it envelops you. âWhatâs the topic for the song, anyways?â
âDunno, Felix is actually supposed to be set to write this time, they really liked some of what he did on Surfinâ,â he replies, and he dons that sweet, adoring smile whenever he talks about Felix, warm and caring. âBut he wanted me to produce the instrumental for it, weâre supposed to discuss how itâll all sound with the lyrics sometime this week.â
âWow, you sound so professional,â you tease, and Chan rolls his eyes playfully as he turns the track down, swiveling his chair to look at you. âIâm excited to hear it, though. I canât believe he gets to write his first full, real song.â
âI know right?â Chan smiles. âIâm so proud of him. Hey, maybe you can be in when he records it, give some thoughts, yeah?â
âWow, what an honor,â you intertwine your fingers together, and place your chin on top of them. âOf course I can.â
âAh, perfect,â Chan stretches his arms above his head, the edges of his cut shirt revealing his sides as a yawn finally escapes him while the track runs to the end. It isnât until then that you realize itâs well past any decent time to sleep, flicking your eyes to your laptop to see the clear 5:38 AM right in the corner. Oops.
âWe should get some sleep,â you suggest, and you catch Chan closing his eyes for a second, narrowing your own at him.
âMmm, soon, I just need to ââ
âBabe,â you put a touch of an edge in your voice, more of a warning than anything, and he purses his lips at you. âItâs almost six in the morning. The track can wait for finishing touches, itâs not going to run away,â you tease.
âBut ââ
âCâmere,â you close your laptop, placing it onto the floor as you scoot over, patting the spot next to you on the couch as he eyes it. He stands up, and you hear a light pop in his knees as he makes his way to you. He settles in next to you, wrapping his arms around your middle, as he buries his face into your neck.
Heâll never admit it, you think, but he needs the break. Heâs always doing something, writing or producing or giving an interview or learning choreography or taking care of the other members. He doesnât mind, you know that, but Chanâs always been one to overextend himself. He always gives so much of himself to others, you included, and has a tendency to forget himself. You catch a glimpse of his eyebags, deep and heavy from the corner of your eye and it has you bringing a hand to curl in his hair as he properly relaxes into you.
âYou shouldnât work yourself so hard,â you mumble, letting your nails scratch lightly at his scalp. He gives a sound of appreciation and squeezes you tighter.
âI know,â he whispers into your neck, and it tickles just a touch.
âIâm serious,â you keep your voice low. You donât want to yell at him, but more soâŚto remind him. Chanâs always taking care of others, watching over them and making sure theyâre taken care of. You think itâs time someone was there to take care of him for once. âYou shouldnât worry about being up into the morning hours to just work on something. Itâs not good for you.â
He stays silent, his hand rubbing circles into your shirt, like heâs contemplating your words, actually taking them to heart. His breath is soft and warm against your skin, and despite the conversation, itâs a comforting feeling to be surrounded by him, held by him.
âOkay,â he says, and he shifts, resting his chin against your shoulder to look at you. ââŚIâll ask for some time off. Itâs been a while, anyway. We could all use it.â
ââŚReally?â
âYeah, really,â he smiles, and he presses a kiss against your shoulder. âLetâs take a trip somewhere, just the two of us.â
ââŚReally?â you ask again, and he laughs, bright and like honey, your favorite sound in the world.
âYes, really,â he grins, teasing tone in his voice, a light giggle mixed in. âFeels like the only time alone we get is in here, you deserve romance! A picnic and a night sky!â
âI like watching you work,â you insist. âItâs nice, and relaxing.â
âDid you not just tell me I work too much?â he grins, and you narrow your eyes at him good naturedly.
âYou do,â you say, and move to kiss the tip of his nose, earning a sound that crosses between a giggle and fake disgust. âIâm just saying donât feel bad that this it the time we have to spend together. Itâs not a punishment to watch you create masterpieces.â
âIâm so glad you think Cheese is a masterpiece.â
âIt is, you helped make it,â you grin, and he returns it, letting his eyes slide shut. âIt doesnât matter where we are, or what weâre doing, Iâm just glad I get to be with you doing it. But,â you pause, and he lifts his brows in wait, keeping his eyes shut. â I do want us to feed each other and be totally gross while you point out constellations.â
âThen I guess Iâll just have to give you exactly what you want, huh?â he hums.
âI guess you will.â
He smiles in response, and you start to feel the evening out of his breath, a whispered, groggy âI love you,â before sleep finally pulls him in, rested against you, his arms loose around your waist now as he leans into you. You rest your cheek onto the top of his head, letting your own lids slide shut, cuddling in next to him.
Itâs not the most ideal sleeping arrangement, you know youâd both be more comfortable sleeping laying down, even in the tiny bed back at his dorm, but having him draped all over you, finally getting the rest thatâd been pulling at him for ages, well, the ideals could always be saved for later. Right now you had your boy, and a sweet promise of something even more exciting later; what more could you ask for.
#stray kids fanfiction#bang chan fanfic#bangchan fanfiction#bang chan x reader#bang chan x y/n#bang chan fluff#hello.....#this is my first time doing readerfic#chan overworks himself and it stresses me out so i needed. to write something#i made this as...gender neutral as possible hopefully that comes across#anyways just nice cuddles and side felix appreciation. thats yalls son/baby brother now.#fics
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Hi! I love your writing! I live for every notification that you've posted something new.
I really like your fics where Coops are being fluffy and adorable, and the team finds them and are all adorable about it, like the Sirius cuddle one. I think that's my favorite.
Would you write Coops skating together before/after practice, and the team finding them and quietly going mushy watching?
I love those moments, too! This was an interesting (and difficult) fic for me to write, since I've never written Cole before, but I'm so looking forward to him in Vaincre. The song playing at the rink is 'American Gods' by ONR. SW credit goes to @lumosinlove!
Cole frowned. Upon Katie Dumaisâ request, he had listened to âHoedown Throwdownâ enough times in the past two weeks to know the rhythm in his sleep, and that third beat just wasnât lining up. He paused his attempt at working through the mess of his stall and straightened up, removing one earbudâsure enough, different music drifted from outside the locker room.
Someone else was at the rink.
He scanned the locker room, but saw no gear other than his own; two voices burst into faint laughter. Not the janitor, then. âHello?â he called cautiously. It wasnât against the rules for him to be at practice early, but maybe it was frowned upon by the others. Oh god, what if he became known as âthe early guyâ? The last âearly guyâ he knew had become a suckup Coachâs pet, and everyone hated him for it.
There was a clatter, then more of the voices. Cole took his earbuds out and crept into the hall, wincing with each squeak of his sneakers.
Dumoâs at home, so itâs not the kidsâŚCole bit his lip as he tiptoed around the corner to the rink. âOh, shit!â someone yelped before dissolving into laughter. He spotted two duffel bags on the bench, still full of gear, before a blur of movement flashed past and he had to duck behind the wall again to stay out of sight.
âDid you just trip over yourself?â Remus shouted across the ice from the other end with a wide grin. Cole craned his neck in time to see the captain nod, red-faced. âThe great Sirius Black, everyone. Bravo, sir!â
Sirius skated over and checked him lightlyâneither of them were wearing their pads, just skates and regular clothes. It was an odd sight. Cole felt a little like his two worlds were colliding. Off the ice, Remus and Sirius were kind (if a bit intimidating), and close with the team in a way he desperately wished for himself. On the ice, Cap and Loops were a wicked one-two punch that he idolized. They were careful with their words, and closed-off whenever media was around.
But out there, in their street clothes with well-loved sticks and a scattered collection of pucks, they looked so very different than the people Cole thought he knew.
A new song came on and Remus started doing the Sprinkler; Sirius had to sit down for a moment to catch his breath from laughing so hard, only to be dragged back to his feet and pulled along as Remus skated backwards. âIf I have to get up, you have to sing for me,â he said with a groan, though his fond smile was visible from twenty feet away.
âTell me all of my secrets, tell me all of my lies,â Remus sang, then paused. âAnd something, something, somethingâŚoh, American gods.â
Sirius shook his head. âHopeless. Isnât this your playlist?â
âI only added it for the drumbeat!â Remus protested, spinning him in a slow circle. âWhat, do you want to change it?â
âNo, I want to watch you try to remember the lyrics while I push you over.â
âWhââ Remus cut off with a squawk when Sirius let go of his hand mind-twirl, nearly sending him to the ice. âSon of a bitch!â
âYes?â Sirius bit his lip and made a dash for the other end of the rink as Remus raced after him; Cole would never understand how someone so compact could build up that much speed in mere seconds. They chased each other in loops and swirls around the fresh ice, their voices echoing off the empty bleachers that didnât hold a single fan or camera.
Realization trickled in like summer rain and he rested his shoulder against the wall. If he didnât know them, Cole would have thought they were just some random couple, instead of two of the most famous modern athletes. He wasnât watching Cap and Loops warming up for practiceâhe was watching Sirius and Remus screwing around in their free time, on the equivalent of a date.
Remus tried to dip sidewaysâa move that had helped him evade countless opponents, though Cole could never figure outâbut Sirius caught him around the waist at the last second and lifted him off the ice. âDirty play!â Remus called, sticking two fingers in his mouth to whistle. âTen minutes in the box.â
âTen minutes?â Sirius laughed. âI donât think thereâs an official penalty for picking other players up.â
âYou wounded me.â
âWimp.â
âMy emotional state is in tatters,â Remus insisted as he kicked his legs halfheartedly. âIâll never recover from this.â
âAre you sure?â Sirius set him down and turned him around, pressing a kiss to his forehead.
âI feel short when you do that.â
âI hate to break it to you, but you are short.â
âTremzy is short. Iâm above the national average for menâs height by four full inches.â
âShortie.â Sirius caught his hands and pulled, skating backward across the ice as the next chorus began. âShow my life in a mirror, through the opposite sideââ
âSinging wonât get you out of this.â
ââand we kill for that moment, when we long to take flightââ
âHow do you even know this song?â
âBecause I actually remember lyrics when I listen to music,â he teased, turning them in a wobbly circle.
Remus leaned back, using his momentum to slide closer until they bumped chests. âPoet.â
Cole forgot that they were people, sometimes. Just people, enjoying some well-deserved time out of the spotlight.
âCute, arenât they?â
Cole jolted and clamped a hand over his mouth to stifle his yelp of surprise.
James shot him an amused look. âThey do this before every afternoon practice.â
âReally?â
âMhmm.â
âItâs soâŚnormal.â He knew his bafflement shone through every word, but Pots seemed unbothered. Ahead of them, Sirius was lip-syncing to an old Paramore song as Remus tried to skate around him to get to the goal.
Pots raised an eyebrow. âWhat were you expecting?â
Cole made a vague gesture. âI dunno, actual practice? Running drills? The captain face?â
âThe what?â James laughed quietly.
âThe captain face.â He felt heat rise to his cheeks. âThe one where it looks like youâre about to get reamed out by Cap at any given moment. Itâs terrifying.â
âReyes, I hate to be the one to tell you this, but thatâs just his resting face.â Pots clapped him on the shoulder. âHeâs the definition of RBF.â
Cole blinked at him. âThis whole time, I thought he was gonna kill me if I slipped up.â
âYup.â
âIâve been afraid of him for two months and thatâs just his face?â
âYou get used to it.â He turned Cole back toward the ice, where Siriusâ smile was brighter than every fluorescent light in the building. âBut he only looks like that around Loops.â
They stumbled a little going through an awkward attempt at a waltz, but they recovered at the last second, and Remus pulled him in for a light kiss. Cole felt his blush creep to his ears. âShould we go?â
Pots shrugged one shoulder. âThey wonât notice either way.â
âThis isnâtâŚcreepy? Theyâre basically on a date.â
âTheyâre at the rink, remember?â A gleam entered his eye behind his glasses. âThat means we get to chirp them for PDA in the workplace.â
Cole paused for a second and looked back, where Remus was playing keepaway with Siriusâ beanie. They darted around each other, practically flying over the iceâtheir footwork looked as natural as if they were born doing it. âIt must be hard for them.â
âWhat?â
âFinding time to do this.â He glanced at James. âEveryone is expecting them to be one way all the time. I expected them to be one way all the time.â
Jamesâ face softened and he draped an arm over Coleâs shoulders, leading him back down the hallway. âThatâs what weâre here for. The best thing about this team isnât our cohesion on the ice, or the Cup we won, or any of that. Itâs that weâre friends, on and off the ice. As long as you remember that, youâll never have to fit yourself in one specific box.â
Cole blinked at him. In two months of mentorship, he had never thought of James Potter as wise. âI swear youâre the same person that put shaving cream in everyoneâs skates and blamed Harzy for it.â
James barked a laugh and ruffled his hair. âNo boxes, Reyes. No boxes.â
#cole reyes#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#coops#vaincre#lumosinlove#my fic#fanfic#skating#rookie
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