#look at me procrastinating again 🤪

[tenthdoctxr]

getting to know me!

tagged by the wonderful @joanwtsn — thank you!! 🫶🏽

Favourite Colour: it changes quite often, but at the moment it’s blue, pink, and yellow!

Currently Reading: America Is In the Heart by Carlos Bulosan, Poison for Breakfast by Lemony Snicket, and All the King’s Men by Robert Penn Warren (a reread for my exam lol)

Last Song: Dice by Onew 🎲

Last Series: man, i guess Ted Lasso was technically the last series i finished, but i’m currently watching through Alias with my mum :)

Sweet / Savoury / Spicy: i think i would pick savoury? trying to hold back on a lot of sweets and can handle a particular amount of spicy for the sake of my stomach lol

Currently Working On: my final exam that’s due on Friday 😵‍💫 also prepping for the new school year!

i’m tagging whichever lovely people read this—feel free to consider yourself tagged esp. if you’re in the mood to do this 🤗

[scoups4lyfe]

Gavv ep 1 aired this sunday.

Also, hey, how are you?

IT AIRED ALREADY ??!!!

Damn.

I got lost in the sauce. I’ll see if I can do something then,,, 👀

I’ll try around 4pm PDT today to Uh…. 😼

(We’ll see)

As to how I’m doing—

Well, I got the meds I desperately needed to be on for the last few months, and so now I’m back to stability in my life which is great. Been going to Hot Pot a lot, because I’m in my meat 🍖 era. Also going to karaoke 🎤 this Thursday so that’ll be fun. I went like two weeks ago for the first time ever, with my friend, and we enjoyed it so much we decided to go again this week.

Honestly, the fact I like a lot of rap songs nerfed me because I immediately decided to go for it for karaoke. On the plus side I can kill Eminem’s “Without Me” cause I got that shxt memorized LOL! Some other songs I did really well were Papa Roach’s last resort, and Pretty Fly for a White Guy 🕺🕺🕺🕺.

But yeah, honestly I’ve just been chilling lately.

Something I found quite funny is my roommate told me I remind them of Laois from Dungeon Meshi and immediately pulled up a video of him barking like a dog to show me our similarities 😔🤪🤡🤡🤡🤡🥴.

I’ve been really wanting to get back into tokusatsu because I’ve seen some pics and clips here and there without context and every time im like “Dayum! This shxt looks fire!!”

But I’ve been busy procrastinating writing (the task that has taken up most of my attention) by watching v-tubers 😫.

I need to get back into my drawing practice too tbh, but I’ve been so focused on life and writing and v-tubers that everything gets shot to the wayside.

Here is one of my more recent doodles:

Back to my vtuber distraction—recently there was a GTA VTRP server and both Bettel and Ruze participated in it and I lost so many neurons watching that stuff for like 10 hours each day. The obsession was real, fr fr.

And my echolalia kicked in and I had a stupid southern accent every time I talked, for like, half a day.

Which was equally as embarrassing as my obsession of watching the GTA server LMAO.

Even if no one asks I might post some videos of my favorite moments from the GTA VTRP server, because there were some many good movie-worthy moments 😭😭😭.

I’ve also been waiting for an email from a doll company saying they got my doll and they’re about to ship it out to me considering it’s been Fking

32 WEEKS!!!

Dayum.

🔫🔫🔫

I know it takes like 6 months for the dolls to be made but holy shxt. (For context, I collect ball jointed dolls. It’s a very expensive fking hobby and I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone LMAO)

I know the site I ordered from has a good reputation so I’m probably not being scammed—but by God I’m impatient. A terrible trait for a doll collector.

Blah blah blah, honestly I could go on forever about what I’ve been up to but I’m sure y’all don’t want to hear that yapping 🤪🥴.

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

January 2024!!!

hello friends, i made it in time before January ends! hahaha

i got my very first GPA! and it's... drum rolls please... 3.95/4! ����✨ alhamdulillah if it not for Allah's numerous help, wouldn't be here 🥺 now it's time to prepare and plan and strategize for second semester and keep up with the good work!

here comes the best part of January: my coldplay Singapore trip! this trip is the first time i'm taking my sister with me as it's also her bday gift from our parents, and as you've probably guessed, i took care of everything lol even from renewing our passports to making itinerary list and public transportation route maps... but it was fun! i love making sure everything is under control 😂

but of course things don't always go by our plan because my flight to Singapore got delayed for almost four hours, and we arrived at Changi airport close to midnight. that also meant the last MRT train to city had already departed, and we were forced to take taxis. then of course yet again taxis are so hard to find it's so jarring the difference of night life in Jakarta vs Singapore lol so we had to take Grab Car ride which was a lot more expensive (S$ 32.4 or roughly 378,000 IDR! by cash!) i literally almost tried to kip a night at the airport but decided against it at the end because in the morning we have to be at the stadium 🤪 (spoiler this trip is all about rushing here and there lol) so yeah took a 13 mins car ride to our hotel and met kak Regina, my first coldplay twitter mutual i'm meeting on this trip! 12 am and exhausted from the flight, we all went to bad after a lil chit chat.

next morning is finally d-day! Jan 27th 2024 i won't forget you ever 🥺 i was gonna be super ambitious of getting barrier to the point i want to leave the hotel at 6.30 AM but you can't deceive your age lol ok well i was just so tired and i have early entry ticket anyway so i deferred a bit and went to the stadium at 8 AM instead hehe. fun part is kak Regina was told by local uncle a shorter route to reach Singapore Sportshub complex and that's the route we took, so instead of spending so much time at the MRT and walking to the station, we took a short bus ride and then walk a straight line from Geylang road to the Sportshub outer door near Nicoll Highway. surprisingly (not) i love the walking route because masyaAllah Singapore is so clean and i loooooove walkable cities it's my dream to live in one 🥺🥺🥺 we arrived at the stadium at around 8.30 AM, and of course there was no queue yet and the Kallang Wave Mall wasn't even open yet, so what did we do? sit down next to the entrance gate and enjoy the morning breeze, no pollution whatsoever... it was so calm and peaceful!

at 10 AM my sister left us to go sightseeing at Orchard rd with her friends while me and kak Regina decided to go eat breakfast at Kallang Wave Mall, to eat at this food court named My Kampung. this was the time i met three of my coldplay mutuals! one from is Sri from Pekalongan, Indonesia and two are ate Andrea and ate Abbie from the Philippines! it was nice all of us talk a lot about coldplay and lil bit of kpop, exchanged gifts, and took pics 💙 also here in this mall everywhere you look you'll find so many people coming down after finishing their workouts. again i envy Singaporeans so much they have this sports complex where you have ALL you need to accommodate their sports activities and then a living public area to shower and eat after, all connected to every line of public transportation system...

12.30 PM i left the group because i had to collect the special fabric wristband for early entry VIP ticket holders, and there was a lil queue, not much people start queueing. here i met another coldplay mutual bang Tulus from Indonesia!

(edit: 29/02/2024 - it's always the coldplay show posts that i procrastinate bc i have so many things to say YET no time to write it down!)

after getting my Kubik blue fabric wristband, came the dreaded part of going to concerts: queueing 💀 i swear to God, Singapore's temp was so hot that day, it's funny because days before it was full raining... not sure whether to be grateful or not because if it rained it'd be damp, if the sun's scorching hot we'd be sizzled. and sizzled we were! bang Tulus introduced me to his two other friends, the lovely kak Afi and bang Reza, both who have had the lucky opportunity of meeting Chris before! we set a strategy on how to get barrier, and thankfully i reserved a spot on the very front of the queue line.

4 PM, it was finally the time to enter the venue! (not yet the stadium, YES there were two different queues) and thanks to our organized strategy we got barrier when we were allowed to enter the stadium 🥺

(edit: 15/03/2024 - lol i’m buried in my assignments i’m so sorry for the very late update 😭)

barrier spot is always the best for me, though the minus point is that you don’t get the full view of everything - but i get to see Chris, Jonny, Guy, and Will sooo up close! almost got a fist bump from Jonny but his hands were too far 🥲

anyways again i can’t write down the whole story because honestly it’s an experience where i think words can’t do it justice! i just remember how much fun i have, seeing coldplay tour crews walking around (Anna Lee the tour photographer took a pic of us!!! and our pic is included in the band’s tour app gallery!!! and also Mike the camera guy he was in our section a lot hahah), the confetti cannons in front of us literally shooting hundreds of confetti into our mouth and pockets lol.

i’m always so emotional every time i get to the end of the show, listening to A Wave as the credit title rolls, seeing people leaving the stadium… listening to the studio mastered ver of it is already a tearjerker moment but hearing it live at the end of your show? man. i got so overwhelmed i think i spent a few minutes just taking it all in. trying to permanently carve the memories onto my brain. i’m so lucky i get to find happiness in everything everywhere everyone i’m so so so happy!!!

also at the end i get to meet Isha finally! we were separated at the start of the concert because she wanted a spot near A stage. we took pics with confettis and i’m sure we were one of the few who exited the stadium the last 😂 in retrospect i was one of the first to enter with my early entry ticket and the last one to leave? 😂😂 that’s so on brand of me 😆 then i went to the merch exchange spot to get the early entry special package and i’m so sad they cut off my fabric wristband! 😭 then i said goodbyes to kak Afi, bang Tulus, bang Reza… what a wholesome bunch 🥹🫶🏻

this show i’m only sad about not getting to meet Tugce (from Germany) and P’Bogey, P’Nummon, and P’Pang (from Thailand) because i was already in queue line and couldn’t get out 😭😭😭 next show i will make it through ☝🏻

11 PM, finally i went back to my hotel, the MRT was so packed i’m glad kak Regina knew a trick to make sure we don’t get stuck (from MRT Stadium you get on the train to Paya Lebar direction and drop off at the MRT Mountbatten station, then walk the rest to Geylang area it’s a straight route you won’t get lost, thank me later!) and we arrived at around 11.30.

can you believe we spent HOURS outside so we were drenched in sweat and i ordered everyone to take a shower lol and we couldn’t waste time because we have to get to the airport at 3 AM though our flight is on 7 AM (it’s our Asian blood behavior of always make sure you’re at the airport t-3 hours!!!) as the timekeeper naturally i didn’t slept at all 🤡 made sure everyone packed everything and then ordered the taxi! Isha tagged along because she didn’t want to spend more money though her flight is on 2 PM 😭

kinda a heartfelt moment when we finally part ways (kak Regina’s boarding gate is at T2, mine’s at T4, Isha’s at T3) and also thinking this is the end of such a chaotic fun messy spontaneous trip 😆 forever grateful coldplay got me into this adventure of a lifetime! my 2017 coldplay Singapore show is memorable because it’s my first but this second one… it’s so special because i get to meet so many of my best friends from all over the world 🥹

only spent less than 48 hours in Singapore but the energy i got is enough to fuel me for the second semester. my heart is so warm and full… 🫶🏻 so many things i never even imagined are happening, things i used to think can only happen in daydreams… i feel like a tide is about to turn and i’m so excited! there’s this phrase Chris wrote on his piano, “open + surrender” and it reminds me so much of the concept of tawakkul! i firmly believe in it and i’m glad i never wavered - time is indeed your best friend!

hoping for more happiness to come. see you in the next post, my friends 💙✨

[onlyseokmins]

[18:26] • l.s.m.

Pairing: lee seokmin x afab!reader

Genres: smut (minors dni!), established relationship kind of ig hehehe

Warnings: possessiveness, mild jealousy, mean!seok but he's whipped kind of, fingering but not really, slight choking, a tiny bit of degradation, as usual just hmu if I missed smth

WC: tumblr mobile bby it's kinda short tbh

A/N: unplanned smh but as seokmin's self-proclaimed slut I just kinda had to get it out of my system idk I'm not good at this 🤪 read a line out of a manhwa and yuh went w/ it procrastinating on other things hehe

Update 9/19: [Sequel]

"Aw baby, you're absolutely drooling."

Despite the flush of embarrassment at Seokmin's condescending tone, your hips betray you as they buck up desperately against his hand. Long fingers that have been teasing you for hours gather up your arousal, making sure to spread it all across your outer pussy lips so they glisten in the dim light of his bedroom.

There's enough wetness for him to play with that it's also smeared on both of your inner thighs from Seokmin's hand drifting down to pause at each one while he waits for you to beg. Glancing up at your scrunched forehead as you kneel over one of his thighs, he leans back against the headboard. Almost as if he's bored.

His other hand reaches out to tug at the cute pout that causes the corners of your mouth to turn down. "Your pussy is at least. Cute."

"Seokmin... "

"Is it that hungry for my cock?"

You whine and throw your head back, nails digging into the top of his shoulders as you rut desperately against his palm, hoping a finger may slip inside your needy cunt.

But Seokmin remains firm. Palm remaining flat and fingers stiffly held horizontally. A smile grows on his lips but it's not the sweet, bright ray of happiness everyone's used to. It's downright cruel, complimenting the hard set of his jaw, furrowed eyebrows, and darkened gaze.

"That's not the answer I want." He pulls away to lick his fingers clean, eyes fluttering shut briefly as he tastes you on his tongue before they open again. Narrowed and colder than before. "What do I want to hear from that lovely mouth of yours?"

"I'm... I'm yours."

He lets out a hum. "That thought's nice but not it."

"I-I don't understa — "

Mirthless laughter you hardly recognize is drowned out by your loud gasp when he harshly gathers your hair in a makeshift ponytail and uses it to tug your face close. Merely inches apart. Enough that your breath mingles with his but holding you distant so your lips can't touch his.

"How about, 'yes Seokmin, my pathetic, perfect little pussy wants you in it so bad.'"

"Y-ye — "

"'Fuck me stupid so I can't walk straight.'" A finger traces around your hole that desperately aches for it to enter. "'So I don't think about anything except your cock deep, deep inside me. Every single day, every single night.'"

"Please — "

"'Enough so no other man even dares to make a move on me.' Hm?"

You have to smile smugly at that one. "I knew it. You're jealous. Baby, there's absolutely no reas — "

The world spins as Seokmin easily switches positions, flipping you on your stomach. He's above you, pinning you down with the strength of his own body before kneeling behind you and running a hand up and down your back. Softness resonates from his fingertips despite the venom behind his words, as if he's suddenly afraid of breaking you.

"There's absolutely no reason to feel that way," you finish with a gasp. "You know tha — "

"I said, that's not what I wanted to hear." Seokmin interrupts and frowns even though he can't help but appreciatively look at the way you arch your back prettily for him. Showing off your dripping pussy from another angle. "Seems like you don't listen very well, sweetheart."

"Yeah? And what are you gonna do about it."

You're feisty attitude returns like you have the upper hand now that you know the reason behind Seokmin's different demeanor tonight. And you take every advantage of it, grinding your ass coyly against the bulge of his dick still inside his jeans.

About two seconds of your shenanigans last before he's pulling you up by your hair again, the back of your body pressed snug up against his. A hand wrapping around your throat to keep you still. He squeezes lightly and you moan.

"What am I going to do about it? Don't worry, I'm gonna fuck you silly, darling." A shiver of excitement crawls up your spine when you hear his belt buckle jingle. "But that's only if you behave. You know what to say to get what you want."

"Ah," you gasp out and tug at his hands, bringing them to fondle at your chest. "Please fuck me stupid, Seokmin. So I think of nobody but you and everyone knows that. This pussy and body belongs to you. I'm yours."

He kisses your neck, pleased. Like he wasn't fuming and demanding such words. "As you wish, my love."

[bontens-new-executive]

hello ji! im not sure if i clicked the right thing to request so sorry if im in the wrong thing or if i req smth u wont do

could i request draken and/or hakkai with a s/o that gets hurt a lot? s/o is really rowdy and likes to fight and usually just gains random injuries throughout the day and draken/hakkai always have to patch them up and maybe kiss their injuries

Ishsosjdiehe first request, I'm not crying you are ✋

SO im like over-procrastinating if that makes sense,, so it takes me like 50% of my will to live to write this 🤪🤝

but instead of leaving u with nothing I tried my best to at least give u draken,,, I might do the hakkai one as well but can't promise anything <3 <3

also ☝ the last 5 Manga chapters did not happen.

Requests Masterlist

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Draken with a reader who gets injured a lot

Idfk what to call this <3

draken is used to taking care of mikey, so he'd be excellent at taking care of you

which means he notices everything about you, even little things

for example: little injuries

before getting into a relationship he knew that you liked to fight, something he really liked about you since it meant you were strong and capable

it did worry him though, seeing you with so many injuries daily

even though he knew that you were quite the wild fighter he did tell you to be more careful and to not hurt yourself

while you did fight a tiny bit more careful, that didn't help much since you also get a few random injuries due to other things

like cutting yourself on paper, bumping into chairs, hitting your elbow on to tables and so on

draken couldn't really belive that such a skilled fighter like you, could be this clumsy on a daily basis

once he knew the reason behind your injuries he asked why you never took care of them

hearing the words "they're small so it's not that important" or "it's nothing", he decided to take care of it himself

from that point on he made it his duty and mission to always attent to your injuries

no matter how "small" or "unimportant"

Scenario

"Stop looking at me like that, Ken.", you told him, walking into his room after a ToMan meeting. "So you got into a fight again, only because someone was looking at you the wrong way?", he deadpanned. "Well", stretching the word, you tried to find a reasonable excuse, not coming up with any though. "You see", you started to explain, giving up on trying to find an excuse, "there was a group of delinquents starting to pick a fight with Keisuke and I, so, of course we had to fight them. They asked for it." Draken had already expected as much, "it had to be you and Baji, huh."

Sighing, draken sat down beside you. "Let's see. Give me your arm." Giving him your attention, you looked at him, "it's really just a scratch, don't worry about it, Ken." Taking it upon himself, he took your arm and started treating your wound, "I've told you often enough, no matter how small, I will treat it. Besides, this isn't just a small scratch." "Fine, alright. Go ahead, doctor.", you jokingly said, earning a small chuckle from him.

"And done.", He said after finishing up, "see? Wasn't that bad." Sighing you admitted "yeah, felt nice actually." while you thought that draken would be pleased with treating your injury, he frowned. "Ken? What's wrong?", you questioned him. "There's something missing.", he told you after a few seconds of silence. Giving him a look of confusion, he leaned down to your injury, giving it a soft and loving kiss, "yep that was it." Not being able to keep it in, you laughed softly, "really now? That's what was missing?" Smiling at you he said, "yeah, that's what was missing."

[jacobmybeloved]

guess who is procrastinating writing again 🤪 me. It's me.

Anyway I always like to make these little collages of what my OCs look like as they age and I thought it'd be fun to do with the UWBL ladies (spoilers ahead):

Starting with Amaia, the first pic [top left] I imagine is her time in the orphanage and right before she gets into University (and obviously when she's still Evimer]. The one below that I wanna say is 5 years laterrrrr when she gets involved with Espinosa (and also when she meets Juan and is gets caught up with Anton). The last one is how I picture her if she never got involved with Anton and was a successful politician 🤪

Of course we got Danijela. First pic is her in the first chapter. From there I'd say the one below it is her from like chapter 3-5??? I have no idea what the time line is anymore LOL whatever chapter had her at the fight club. Then of course how she looks for the rest of the story (kinda).

Of course my sweet girl Evee 😭 first pic basically right after the fight club chapter up to the two year time jump which then goes to the next pic where she's now officially a teenager (current). Then the next pic is how I imagined her if she was older (like 25-26ish)

[kingkatsuki]

Jo, do u ever feel overwhelmed by the amount of followers you have? I always wonder how many asks you get in a day and how u manage them… how do u power thru the stress If u experience it?

I hope u have a great night!!

So I used to get really fucking overwhelmed, I think last year I was just starting to focus too much on trying to make everyone happy and answer everything in my inbox, but then that led me to being worried that I was flooding the dash… and annoying people with post notes… so I stopped answering as many… but then I felt bad that I wasn’t answering peoples asks, and people were going unnoticed so it was this catch 22 that had me constantly panicking.

And then I would constantly worry about the fics I put out. Like, people had such high expectations of me and what if I put something out that was shit? I just didn’t want to disappoint anyone, especially with part 2/3s of my series fics. And trying to write characters I had like no level of care for so the fics just came out shit?

Now I think since I’ve come back to Tumblr I’m so much better. I’ve stopped caring as much, and I think that’s just made me happy again? Deciding to just write for myself has made me want to write more, and I truly enjoy what I’m writing again. I’m still working on loving my writing but I no longer get stressed or worried about notifications or my blog.

I just embrace being fucking annoying haha—

And don’t look at me worrying about Kinktober, that’s only because I’m such a procrastinator.

I think it’s so easy to get caught up in Tumblr and forget why we really do this? And you have to remember you don’t owe anyone on this website anything. It’s all about you, don’t worry about what anyone else thinks of you.

If I ever find myself getting overwhelmed I just close the app, text my bf, play discord games, watch true crime.

I don’t actually think I really answered this question properly, but like TL;DR: I don’t get stressed anymore 🤪

[wmarximoff]

Oh my god, 🤭 lmao! I’m sure you’re a great kisser. I honestly, didn’t even question it. It’s okay, we can be overthinkers together (one of the main reasons I can’t get to sleep 😪). For sure, if you can sit through it then what the hell, right? Don’t get me wrong, I’ve seen them all as well.

You do? Oh, you poor soul. 🤭 I don’t even know where to start, how does one even go about something like this? 🤔 (Oh no, don’t you dare… that’s the lowest blow of them all! 🫠 There you go again — mutual… it’s so mutual. 😩)

I suppose, but my plans were interrupted :( don’t tell anyone… but I’m thinking about sneaking off to bed to avoid my responsibilities. 🫣 Wait… just hold on, a walk at like three or four in the morning… by yourself? Forgive my paranoia but, like, are you trying to get murdered? 🤭 Curing boredom, maybe… uh, sleep? I know it’s the weekend and all — I’m a little jealous it’s only just Saturday where you are, my days go so much quicker — I’d like to be a day behind.

Sounds similar… my spotify is so neglected and I still need to listen to your DFTR playlist but I’m a procrastinator.

Kisses through the phone I can definitely do. 😘💗 Kisses sent, waiting on delivery. You’re very welcome!

Yep, no, definitely not a brat by any means. Of course you can’t I’m such a good girl most of the time and it just never happens.😌 Obviously. Not on here, not yet, no. I have some ideas floating around though.

You have a theory? I don’t know what else I can tell you, I’ve given you so much to work with already.

-🌸

I'm paranoid to the point of questioning myself right now if I'm really a good kisser. Maybe my entire life people have lied to me. And like, how could I even know about that? So many thoughts to think about right now, what the fuck. So yeah, let's be overthinkers together LMAO. Every time I have an identity crisis I'll cry in your lap.

Oh, I'm all about sneaking off to bed to avoid my responsibilities. We could just leave everything behind and go live in the woods for all I care (and it reminds me of my jokes about thayblossom and us being cult leaders… but on second thought I'd look good in a white dress in a self-sustaining community telling people that modern society is doomed, and i'm sure you would look so pretty in a white dress… not that i'm telling you to marry me haha 🤪). Well… in my defense it was only 2am when I left LMAO. And I'm back home, so… not this time, unfortunately or not. Okay I promise I'll stop with the self-deprecating jokes now, it's just stronger than I am.

Oh my god I totally forgot that we're living in like totally different days??? This is so weird lol. But yeah, I should probably sleep. It's five twenty-two am, fucking hell. I swear I'm gonna die.

But don't worry about it honey, that playlist is just a messed up brainstorm that I threw in there with no context at all lol. The songs readers rated are great of course, but mine are… well, mine 🫣 And I'm getting sleepy and dumb and would definitely like a kiss from you before I actually fall asleep. But life is unfair.

Ideas floating around… would you mind sharing them, good girl? 🤨

And it's not a theory, it's like… 99% sure and I just don't know what to make of it (and if I've totally thought of the wrong person it's going to be pretty, erm, uncomfortable LMAO 🫠)

[thoi2020]

Hello this is your santa yet again! Aww, would you rather get presents or money? Is anyone in your family really good at presents? I think I'm the same about winter. It's a lot harder to summon the energy needed to do simple things. I'm excited for you to hang out with your cousins! Not excited about the tests, but good luck, Amy, I believe in you :) Do you have any new year's resolutions? 🧑‍🎄

hello!! sorry for the late reply, i was really down on energy yesterday... and aaah i love both, honestly, i like the freedom money gives me to put it anywhere i want, but i love the thought that goes into the gift-giving 🥰 ooh i know this sounds mean but i don't think anyone is 😭 my dad is the most generous though,,, like when i buy gifts for friends, my mum can be a little thrifty but my dad is more relaxed about it. and thank u so much, really need it ahaha 💕 as for new year's resolutions, haven't given proper thought to it yet, (that's for the last 2-3 days of the year ig... ever the procrastinator lol), but 1 big one is to write and journal a lot. i don't have the best memory and #mental illness 🤪 doesn't help with that... so i've felt like the last 2 years, nothing happened. i hope to solve at least some of that problem by writing about my day, my thoughts, etc. so i can look back and remember u know? also i need to get into a good college this year but like that's a goal not a system i want to establish so i'm not sure that counts. also! want to make sure that i am under the sun/the sky for at least 30 mins everyday... it's wonders what touching some grass does to u really. ok this is already getting too long... how about u? any plans for the new year? resolutions? what's ur ideal way to celebrate the new year?

[bakarilennox]

Pancakes… 🥞 🍑 🍯

A quick OC while I procrastinate on my I Am King Killmonger series… have the day off!

Dedicated to: @wakanda-inspired & all my black women this reaches! 😘♥️

Inspo: Video

Audience: This for my plus sized black girls who have ever felt like their bodies aren’t worthy enough… Baby girl, you and your body are so gotdamn beautiful and worthy of love & adoration; how anybody feels about that is none of your business! Stay body positive & proud! ♥️✨

Backdrop: You are trying on outfits for a work related dinner meeting with the wives of neighboring tribes and nothing seems to fit right after the baby. You feel discouraged about any dress you put on… Your King M’Baku wasn’t about to let you feel anything less than a whole meal! 🤪

Content: If you don’t like your ass smacked, legs wide, front/back, side to side, pussy wet, slip and slide… then block me back. lol But yeah, you’re getting some bomb ass head from the thick King. M’Baku is soooooooo unappreciated in this fandom, I will make him my focus in this OC. I’m mad at Erik anyway.

“Hmm…” You turned to the side. “Mmm.” You turned to the other side. “No.” You grumbled under your breath. You stomped into your closet and huffed as you raked through your extensive collection of clothes. You weren’t gonna lie, you gained some weight since you had the baby.

Your snapback body wasn’t snapping back as quickly as you would hope. You grabbed another dress and yet and still you had no love for your slightly protruding love handles. Your husband M’Baku walks in, but you paid him no mind as you were trying to get ready.

He lies down on the bed and loudly yawns, then gets in a resting position. “Ughhhhhhhh…” you groaned in frustration as threw yet another outfit on the floor. You tried on a yellow dress, the one your gorilla king loved on you the most & if this isn’t right, you’re giving up and staying in.

“Oh Hanuman, please make this work.” you whispered to yourself. “Oh my gosh, I look so damn fat in this dress!” you exclaimed. Your king awoken like a man possessed, furrowing his brow at you. “AYE! What did you say?” He kept me in his gaze.

“I look so fat in this dress.” You squeezed at you soft skin. “I can’t go out like this!?” you protested. “HEY! What do I tell you?” You looked down. “I just feel so bad abo-“ “Look at me ịhụnanya m, what is it that I always tell you-oh? You are my what?” You looked at him. “I am your pawuda paini.”

“And how do I like my pancakes?” “Stacked and fluffy.” “Like what?” “Stacked and fluffy.” You stood upright. “Come to me, come to me now.” He damanded. You walked over to him and stood at his side. “Cross your body over me. eze nwaanyị m.”

You slowly obeyed his command, then he grabbed my leg and pulled it to the other side of his bed. “Now.” He smacked your ample behind, causing your body to jump up in reflex. “What do I call you?” He smacked your behind again. “I am your cinnamon roll.” He smacked again applying more pressure.

“And what else?” He smacked both cheeks this time causing you to moan. “I am your pancake.” you bit your full lip. “How do I like my pancakes?” He kept hitting you, making it harder to hide your wetness for him. You were moaning with each strike your love made to your backside.

“Tell me Y/N, how… do… I… like… my… pancakes?” He struck with each word of his sentence. Your juices were starting to drip down you thighs and you continued to moan, your king of course noticed because you had no underwear on.

“Ah Lord Hanuman, you have My Queen bringing me honey for my pancakes. Maybe I should feast on her now?” He spread both of your cheeks open til your asshole and pussy puckered at him. He chuckled in great amusement of the endearing sight.

“Chukwu m.” He breathed softly then after he licked his lips he dived in and started to consume your sex. His tongue masterfully building your orgasm as well as your self esteem. You love him eating your ass out and trailing down to your warm and inviting core.

“Eze m, ga-abanye n'ime ya.” you were becoming a moaning mess, your good bedsheets we’re getting soaked and M’Baku’s tongue penetrated your walls. “I love it when you’re like this. So delicate and soft for me.” He moaned, as you both enjoyed this moment.

“You are perfect as you are.” He continued, feasting again on your now sensitive flesh and throbbing nub. “This body…gave me… my son.” He stroked with each line. “This body…was the one…that belongs to… a perfect Queen.” He still spoke your sexual language with his tongue, trying not to wake the baby sleeping nearby.

“And this body…is made…to be loved…honored…cherished…adored…cared for and properly fucked to no end.” He tounged in between speeds, causing you to release a much needed sexual release.

All the evidence of your orgasm was in your shared bed, your love’s face and now this yellow dress. He wiped himself off as you plopped face first into the sheets in exhaustion. “Oh no!” You looked at how quickly the sun went down. “I missed the dinner!” You gasped.

“What will I tell the wives of the border tribes?!” You were slightly panicked, but haven’t budged from your compromised position. “Tell them that… you were double booked for a feast with your king that required your presence that you forgot about.” He playfully smiled wide.

You both laughed at his clever response, he always knew how to warm your heart and your bed. His statuesque figure soon hovered over you as his full warm lips met your ear causing you to freeze.

“One last thing my Moon & Stars…” all you could whisper was a “yes?”. Then there was a hard smack on your right buttcheek. “I kindly ask that you never defile your King’s name by speaking any ill towards his Queen’s body…understood?” His deep voice boomed in your ear.

You nodded as he gently kissed of the left side of you face, then he arose. “Good! Now here’s a warm wet towel I got for you.” He kissed your forehead, then you both hear crying from the other room. “Oy, It’s the baby. Momma is coming Adebamgbe!” Please, let me; you’ve done so much for us already my sweet. He sat me back down and went to comfort our awakened child.

Learn some Igbo:

(The Jabari tribe dirives from Nigeria, based on interviews with the crew of Black Panther)

ịhụnanya m: My love

pawuda paini: Cinnamon roll

eze nwaanyị m: My Queen

chukwu m: My God

eze m, ga-abanye n'ime ya: My King, go deeper

Adebamgbe: Male child’s name; A (Yourba) Nigerian term meaning “Royalty dwells within me”