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spaciebabie · 8 months ago
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i cant even have sex with my own wife in cotl. fuck this.
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ibreathebooks-42 · 2 years ago
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I posted 436 times in 2022
That's 129 more posts than 2021!
35 posts created (8%)
401 posts reblogged (92%)
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I tagged 399 of my posts in 2022
Only 8% of my posts had no tags
#reblog - 297 posts
#art - 84 posts
#lol - 81 posts
#mine - 49 posts
#the sandman - 30 posts
#wow - 26 posts
#fan art - 24 posts
#cats - 21 posts
#makes me smile - 17 posts
#xd - 15 posts
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#right eye is still healing a bit- but it used to be basically useless and now i can actually read things with my left eye closed
My Top Posts in 2022:
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Thing I am bad at: Saying no to people
Thing I am weak to: Adorable kittens
Completely unrelated to the above two facts, and asking for a friend- how many cats is too many cats for a single apartment sized living space?
12 notes - Posted November 26, 2022
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Mr. Swales will forever and always in my head be the best art teacher I ever had, which led to some confusion at the posts coming across my dash….until I remembered dracula existed XD
18 notes - Posted August 2, 2022
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A fic I probably won't write
Throwing this out into the world in the vauge chance someone else will run with it- figure that's better than it sitting with all the other bits of fics in a bits and pieces doc until I completely forgot about it. This is just what I happened to get down before the muse ran out, feel free to take it where you will! If someone does happen to write something though, I'd love a heads up so I can read it :)
Leverage/Sandman x-over - nooooo, why brain???
Leverage stealing something from Burgess estate- family of past cult member heirloom??? Something.
Uber sketchy this place
“Nate?[Guys?]  We have a problem”  “What is it Eliot?”  “They aren’t keeping a vault in the basement, it’s a guy”
Or parker finding Dream?
Yep, we are stealing him now
Parker and Dream head tilting at each other
Break him out, bundle him up
Dream too weak to return to the dreaming
Held back from first rush of power so as not to hurt leverage?
Idk, he is stuck now. cause fic.
Uuuuhhh, what do we do with him now?
Dream tells them Robert Gadling and then becomes mr unconscious
Hardison looking for this dude, like- what’s with all the aliases every so many years, hid his trail as much as possible
Finds a rare photo- Uh guys!?  Either this dude’s genes are REALLY strong, or….
Some of them go to pub to find him
Eliot is seeing this guy and like- that’s distinctive this, that’s distinctive that, wtf
Hob is suspicious of random americans who are calling him a name he hasn’t used in years
Reunion!
Angry Hob is angry- what did you do!  What? No! We rescued him! (Angry Hob is possibly plotting vengeance, Burgess should be scared)
Dream gets wrapped in all the blankets
Immortality reveal
Leverage going after ruby???
54 notes - Posted October 24, 2022
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So I've been maybe designing a (tv) Sandman stained glass window and doing screenshots/cleaning them up for references.
Just love this one so much
57 notes - Posted September 6, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Hopes and Dreams
It had taken a few drinks to get them to this point, but Hob rarely got a chance to be open about his longer than expected history and eventually the talk came around to his centennial meetings.  And what had happened at the last one in 1889.
“Wait a moment, let me get this straight- some powerful entity makes you immortal, meets back up with you century after century, and then on your sixth date you tell him he is lonely and say you are just friends?  Geesh, no wonder the guy stormed off.”
“What- no- it wasn’t like that!”  Hob sputtered as his drink came down hard on the table.
“Uh huh, sure- and in the 1500s you didn’t shove your wife and kid in his face only to get upset when he then went off with someone else?”
“...”
His friend just raised his eyebrow at him and went back to sipping his beer while thoughts chased themselves across the immortal’s face.  When put like that…..
“Honestly I’m just impressed whatever he was just stormed off and you didn’t end up cursed or something.  Powerful enough to give immortality without a noticeable drawback?  Definitely powerful enough that breakups tend to spawn legends.”
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Who is Hob drinking with? No clue, but someone who is supernatural or at least involved in the supernatural. Honestly was kinda thinking of making it be John Constantine and having it be a relative of Johanna, but decided to leave it up to the imagination- feel free to insert your favorite character/crossover.
Had this conversation stuck in my head, but it isn't going to fit into Silver Linings so figured I'd just post it on its own. AO3
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dehliadelights · 2 years ago
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#kingdom hearts - 38 posts
#twewy - 8 posts
#kh ventus - 7 posts
#kingdom hearts oc - 7 posts
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#theres gonna be a fucking riot when someone makes a xehanort-official account
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isabela: status report on mariano
dolores: the target has been taken out.
isabela: very goo-
dolores: it was a wonderful restaurant. candlelit dinner. he proposed at the end of it.
120 notes - Posted January 27, 2022
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kh1 riku is a closeted homophobic gay with a crush on sora he tries to deny by becoming soras rival for kairi's love but all that gets is sora getting a crush on riku in ✨bisexual✨
121 notes - Posted April 15, 2022
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encanto content? naaahhhh...
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302 notes - Posted January 27, 2022
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i just wish to reiterate the well known fact of vanitas' japanese translation being actually really bittersweet.
"it's my reason for being born. it is because i am darkness, that you both belong to the light, able to exist there. if that isn't 'working together' i don't know what is."
vs. the english version.
"because i am darkness. and i do stand by your side. i'm the shadow that you cast. how much closer could i be?"
it's not just a case of "lol i am darkness", but that's how the english version of the game makes it seem. it's a case of "because i am on this side, you get to be on that side". vanitas is jealous of ventus because HE is the one to be on the side of light, to have people that love and care for him. but he's resigned to his fate, he was created from the darkness in ventus' heart, and he knows that in the end, he doesn't belong in the realm of light.
but he doesn't want ven to know his jealousy. he's too prideful to accept help from anyone, especially ventus.
ventus: "there is no need to bother with who is with the light and who is with the darkness, i am me and you are you, it's fine to live freely the way we want."
vanitas: "freely? yeah, i am living freely... in this way."
vanitas HESITATES for a split second. he hears ventus basically asks him if he really wants to vanish into the darkness he was born from, and vanitas hesitates. he doesn't want to accept his other half's offer, he's too prideful.
ventus: "is living trapped in the darkness freedom to you?"
no, it isn't, but vanitas won't admit that. instead, his reply?
vanitas: "this is how i chose to live my life."
ventus: "i see."
vanitas doesn't say 'yes' to ventus, he DEFLECTS the question by saying "this is the life i live". he says 'chose', but he never got the choice. he was created because ven had the choice, he chose not to summon the 𝑥-blade. that's the reason vanitas was created in the first place, so it could be formed another way.
kingdom hearts at it's finest.
400 notes - Posted September 28, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
AITA for treating two 'children' like shit because i was jealous they were such good friends with my best friend?
(inspired by @goldensunset and @palizinhas)
Throwaway for obvious reasons.
So I (27m) and my friend 'L' (also 27m) were recruited into this cult of nobodies after forcefully having our hearts and bodies split. While we originally planned to use this to find a way to save our friend 'X' (18?F). However, as our newest members joined, let's call them 'R' (0M) and 'P' (0), L quickly abandoned me in favor of these kids.
Of course, I was rightfully upset, given the fact he forgot about the reason we were originally working for, and i tended to take that out on R and P.
R happens to be a special nobody with the ability to wield a special weapon, of a boy we'll call 'S' (16M). However, P was created to be a replica of S, so therefore it is not a person.
While I admit, my response to the two of them being friends was probably irrational, it doesn't change the fact that they were incompetent little brats who slacked on their missions and ran off to a nearby town at every possible opportunity.
So reddit, AITA for treating R and P like shit?
Edit 1: R and P were returned to S, as they held his memories and he was unable to wake up as a result of them existing. L is absolutely distraught.
Edit 2: The group I was in has been remade with certain different members, and I, along with my coworker 'V' (40M), plan on trying to create bodies for R, Xi ('P' doesn't really work for her anymore, as it was a derogatory name), and another nobody of a friend of S' called 'N' (0F). My idea is to cause Xi to remember L and R, in order to switch her to the side of light. While it means I have to get the shit beaten out of me, I'm sure it will be therapeutic for R and Xi. Thank you for reading.
Final Edit: We're a family now.
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lonely-business · 2 years ago
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for me, the story of RDR2 is watching a cult fall apart at the seams. Dutch the charismatic leader, the man with the plan, born with the gift of gab and at the beginning his actions did seem to match his words. He spoke passionately about how the white man actively hurt Native Americans, he speaks like women are his equals, and he touts lofty ideals of morality with him as the guiding light for his gang of lost souls.
throughout the game the facade that Dutch overlaid on himself began to crack. He treats the women he entangles himself with abominably. He also chooses much younger, easier to manipulate women. He despises criticism, even from those who have known him the longest, getting angry at those who dare defy him. He comes to despise Arthur for speaking up against him, to the point of actually trying to murder him, to regain his sense of control.
Micah didn’t change Dutch, he just encouraged Dutch to be who he truly was all along. A racist, misogynist, whose love of power and control over people was what truly drove him to lead the Van der Linde gang. Dutch’s growing paranoia about members of the gang leaving, his willingness to throw their “friendship” with the Native American’s away so he could gain an upper hand, and his escalating erratic behavior truly showed that Dutch was beyond what any of the gang believed him capable of. Even the “true believers” were finding him a bitter pill to swallow.
He is very much like cult leader Jim Jones. Jones began as a preacher speaking about loving your fellow man and had a large following of POC. His speeches stoked fires in people. He was active in the civil rights movement, had integrated congregations, and promoted socialism and communal living. His followers happily joined the Peoples Temple (his “church,” later his cult.) However, the more people that followed Jones, the more he control he exerted over their lives.
Arthur was lucky that he was allowed to wander and explore during this time frame. He would pop into camp, do the occasional job with the gang, but largely on his own. This left him (and the player) free of much of Dutch’s influence and mind games. However, those left at camp were inundated with it. Having a free thinker in a cult is bad, especially one as liked as Arthur, but this did set the player up to help save as much of the gang as they could when Dutch went Jonestown on them. When a cult leader overextends themselves and sees no way out that puts them on top? Kill the followers and start again. and that is exactly what Dutch aimed to do. Except, he let Arthur too far off leash and that allowed Arthur the exert agency in his rapidly crumbling world and save who he could.
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4rainynite · 3 years ago
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Infinity Train Headcanons
Just a bunch of Infinity Train headcanons I've come up with, I'm only doing five per character so it won't too long. I'm mainly gonna focus on the passenger characters and do the denizens later on. Majority of them have been posted on @infinity-train-headcanons already (awesome blog by the way), but whatever here we go:
Tulip
The reason Tulip loves onions so much is because when her mother was pregnant she craved onions a lot. Mrs. Olsen thinks onions are okay at best, but Tulip loves them.
Tulip is fairly athletic (that explains why she could do all those stunts on the train), but prefers gaming and coding. Her classmates that are on sports teams are greatly annoyed that she won't join.
Despite Lake being gone she can still take pictures of herself on cameras or through a selfie (and sometimes see herself in water), because those are images not reflections.
Tulip would so adopt a corgi and name him “Atticus the 2nd” and put miniature crowns on him.
When Tulip goes to Oshkosh she'll based her game on her adventures on the train. Not only will it be super popular, but some of the other campers and counselors will suggest some cars because some of them were passengers as well.
Lake
After, Lake left she accidently started a revolution in the Chrome Car. In the end (in a future fanfic of mine) there will be peace and Lake and a certain group of passengers will help.
Lake won't be able to start school immediately (due to Tulip being in middle school and Jesse being in high school) , but she is able to do homeschooling. Come next school year she'll be at school with Jesse
Lake lives in the Cosay's attic. They've tried to convince her/him/them (other pronouns) to take the guest room, but Lake's cool with it. Mainly, because she/he/they gets a view of the lake she/he/ they named themselves after.
Lake is super into art! It's mainly abstract and black, but she loves it! The problem is Jesse's parents have to buy the spray paint for her.
Lake loves traveling to new places and Jesse brings her/him/them along when the swim team travels to different places.
Jesse
After, the train Jesse decides to join theatre class/club. He mainly gets background or understudy parts, but he loves to sing.
Is a Chicken Choice Judy fan and gets Lake and Nate into them. Jesse and Lake theorize that Chicken Choice Judy were passengers at one point.
Jesse becomes closer with his swim team to be friends, he is currently co-captain.
Jesse really misses Alan Dracula, so, Lake got him one of those deer plushies as a gift. Jesse put glasses on it and named it Alan Dracula the Second and Cuddliest.
Jesse always picks vampire movies during movie night at the Cosay house. I believe he really likes vampires .
Grace
Grace's parents so would've sent her to boarding school after the shoplifting thing instead of just talking to her.
Grace will be the last former Apex member to leave the train due to her number still being high. In the meantime she still helps passengers lower their numbers.
There is no way Grace was the only person to form a cult on the Infinity Train. Grace's was just the longest surviving one of eight years, I won't explain why Grace's was the longest due to... cult stuff.
Grace rarely got to see her maternal grandparents, due to her mother wanting to reject her low-class upbringing. From what little memories she had, Grace misses them.
Grace regrets what she put Hazel through and wants her back, but she knows her leaving was for the best no matter how much it hurts.
Hazel
I don't know why but I see Hazel as a vegetarian.
When Tuba found her she was a baby, not a baby turtle, a baby- baby.
She and Amelia will be close, but will never have a true mother - daughter relationship. I know Amelia is trying to get better, but she admitted she's not a caretaker.
She'll sing Tuba's Lullaby to comfort herself in stressful situations and whenever she feels she'll forget her.
Hazel will be adopted by Ryan and Min-Gi when she gets off the train and Tulip, Lake, Jesse, and Nate will be like siblings to her. Okay, okay, okay, I know that's a very long shot, but Hazel deserves happiness!
Simon
Was a boy scout or took a survival class, I mean how else would he know about frostbite in Le Chat Chalet Car.
Probably went to way too many funerals as a child. I'm going by what he said to Hazel about neighbors brining casseroles.
Simon would get into fights with his teachers and classmates about being right about every little thing, even as a he was a narcissist.
Simon so had a crush on Grace way before their 'awkward middle school kiss' . After, Grace's betrayal whatever feelings he had were gone.
Was a fantasy nerd and wanted to be a fantasy writer. His trilogy book would've had his character based off himself being made a king.
Ryan
Ryan and his youngest brother are the only two in their family who wear glasses.
Is still on good terms with his ex-girlfriends (Disco Girl, Punk Girl, and Hippie Girl). Yeah, they broke up, but Ryan wasn't their worse ex and was nice to them. They love telling Min-Gi embarrassing dating stories.
He most likely had suicidal thoughts, once off the train he tells Min-Gi and gets help through therapy.
Despite not gaining attention during his solo gigs he did make a friend or two during his stops like the lesbian couple at the party in the Twin Tapes. Which helps spread Chicken Choice Judy's music.
Ryan is very strong despite his scrawny appearance, due to carrying equipment, changing tires, and other heavy lifting activities.
Min-Gi
Was diagnosed with dyslexia at an early age. His parents worried this would hamper him so they would hire a tutor after school when he wasn't playing with Ryan.
Is a really good cook, but his main specialties are Korean dishes (his mother taught him) and breakfast food (working at Dumpty's Diner).
Has an artistic side, but rarely used it except for the Chicken Choice Judy t-shirt. Later on he designs the covers for CCJ's CDs.
He most likely has a bunch of older cousins. I think Mr. and Mrs. Parks had Min-Gi late, so he's the baby of the cousins.
To me Min-Gi never shown in interest in dating or romance. His parents tried to set him up a few of their co-workers' daughters, but nothing ever happened afterwards. He does love Ryan though.
Amelia
I believe Amelia will get off the train, but when she does majority of her friends and family and friends will be gone and will return to the train.
Amelia will allow Hazel to play with the denizens while she works on the train. She may not be a caretaker, but she remembers being a child and children need to have fun.
I think Amelia was jealous of Min-Gi and Ryan, since the two remind her of Alrick and herself in their youth and what could've been if he lived. She dubs them 'Destiny Rubbish Duet'.
Amelia would monitor the Snow Car frequently to make sure One would never leave or any passengers interacted with him. But, the one time in thirty years she set her clock on the wrong time to wake up, allowing Tulip to find One-One.
The day Amelia picked out her wedding dress was the same day she got the news of Alrick's passing.
Well, that was a long post. I may do more in the future, so I'll just end it here.
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littlemisspascal · 3 years ago
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The Last Mandalorian
Chapter One: The Warrior in Carbonite Part 3
Fandom: The Mandalorian / Pedro Pascal
Eventual Pairing: Din x Togruta!Female!Reader
Word Count: 4,320
Rating: G
Summary: A series that is a mixture of Mandalorian, Star Wars, ATLA, and my own imagination. The Imps have seized control of the majority of the galaxy, including your homeworld Shili. You and your sister Ahsoka have developed a daily routine despite the stormtroopers keeping your village imprisoned. One morning you make a startling discovery that will change the course of your lives forever.
Warnings: I don’t know much about starship mechanics so probably nothing in this is accurate but it’s fanfiction people so cut me some slack please, reader gets a nickname 🥳, plot plot plot, discussion of loss of loved ones, worldbuilding, dialogue heavy, this is a slow burn but it’s also ridiculously self-indulgent so I’m including as many cute getting-to-know-you scenes as I can, reader is 17 and Din is 19 so I’m going to warn this as underage even though nothing sexual or even vaguely romantic happens in this chapter.
Author Note: Thank you anyone and everyone who has read even a sentence of this story! Special thanks and love to @dindja for creating this stunning, fantastic, amazing piece of fanart for me 💖💖💖 I still can’t believe how perfect it is. I mean, I’m such a sucker for pinky promises it’s not even funny and this is just beautiful 😍😍😍
Part 2
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For as grand and wide-reaching as the Galactic Empire has become in its ten years of existence, it had relatively small beginnings. A group of radical Force-wielders banded together under the leadership of an old, beady-eyed man named Sheev Palpatine who believed it was his divine destiny to seize control of the entire galaxy, rewriting the ancient laws to match his own beliefs. His cult, the Sith Order, gained attention by attacking Jedi temples, capital cities, places with large populations until every corner of the galaxy had heard of them. Most regarded them with fear, but over time they began garnering a startling amount of followers who were discontent with the status quo and willingly drafted themselves as soldiers in Palpatine’s fight for control.
At first everyone in your village thought Palpatine and his cult of followers weren’t worth worrying about—after all, Shili was a peaceful planet that never drew much attention to itself. But within the first year of its inception, the Sith Order captured Ryloth and the similar peaceful characteristics between the Twi’lek planet and Shili were too glaring to overlook. A seed of anxiety took root in every Togruta’s mind after that, and continued to grow with every planet seized as the years progressed.
The Decimation of Alderaan didn’t start as a tragedy, believe it or not. The Mandalorians, Jedi, and Alderaanians combined their numbers in an all-out fight against the Sith Order. It was the largest battle ever fought in the history of the galaxy, thousands of souls willing to die to defeat Palpatine’s followers. For the first three days of warfare, the fight seemed to be in favor of the allies with many noteworthy Sith members reportedly killed in the fray, such as Palpatine’s second-in-command Dooku and lethal Zabrak assassin Maul. You remember there was a sense of hope felt within your village as everyone listened to the news reports blaring across the Holonet. A belief that things were finally, finally going to return to normal after so much chaos.
But on the fourth day, the Sith Order brought their own ally onto the battlefield.
At the time there wasn’t a name for the droids that slaughtered every opponent they faced. They were described as indestructible, unharmed by blasters and the intense heat of Mandalorian flamethrowers. Not even lightsabers could damage them. The allies didn’t stand a chance, brutally murdered one by one, their dying screams echoing across the Holonet, forever haunting listeners far and wide.
The Dark Troopers were unleashed upon Mandalore afterwards and out of the ashes rose the Galactic Empire, except, in a twist nobody—not even the Sith Order—saw coming: Palpatine died before taking on the title of emperor, passing away in his sleep. A mediocre ending for the monster who permanently altered the foundations of the universe. One of his loyal followers from the cult’s early beginnings took control in his place, a vile man with a penchant for spilling blood and a deceptively bland name: Gideon.
Only seven years-old then, you didn’t understand the unbalance in the Force your aunt kept referencing. You didn’t understand the meaning of the word genocide either. But you did understand the galaxy would never be the same ever again, and the lesson was only further established as truth when the Imperials seized your village. 
There is no normalcy to return to anymore.
And as long as Emperor Gideon remains in control, there is no future to hope for either.
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Silence reigns in the aftermath of Maar’s explanation as the long list of tragedies hangs heavy over the four occupants. There is tension in the air as you await the Mandalorian’s response to the extinction of his people, whether that be an outburst of anger or tears, and each passing minute only intensifies the nervous energy thrumming through your veins. Your leg starts to bounce restlessly, a bad habit you have had since childhood.
The Mandalorian stands eerily motionless. Your eyes keep flicking from your lap to his visor though you know it is rude to stare. His helmet hides his expression, but you don’t need to see it to know he is floundering right now, mind scrambling to piece together all the details thrown at him. From personal experience, you know the loss of a loved one hits like a tidal wave, hitting you over and over again until you must decide if you are going to stand up or surrender to drowning. Grieving the loss of your parents is the hardest experience of your lifetime to date.
But this...this is vastly different. The Mandalorian didn’t just lose his loved ones. He has lost his friends, neighbors, comrades, acquaintances, everyone all at once. This loss isn’t a tidal wave. It is a kriffing avalanche, burying him ten feet under in total darkness, and there is no one he can count on to save him. 
Finally, after the longest five minutes of your life, he shifts, resting his hands upon his belt with an unexpected air of seriousness. “I need to go.”
You frown, head tilting. That is his reaction?
“Go?” Ahsoka echoes, sounding as incredulous as you feel. “Go where?”
“To look for survivors,” he answers, blunt and harsh, the words forced through clenched teeth. 
Ahsoka is struck silent, and you feel your heart break on his behalf. Your mother’s stories about the Mandalorians had always included, one way or another, their lifelong bonds with each other. You had felt those ties when you had connected with the Mandalorian, believed for a moment as strongly as he did that his fellow warriors would come search for him, that his absence would be noticed and missed amongst them. And here he is now, still desperately clutching to them, unable—or, perhaps unwilling is more apt—to believe a stranger telling him those bonds have been cruelly severed. 
“What you need is to rest,” Maar says, gentle yet firm, letting her authority as the eldest in the room seep into her tone.
He shakes his head, not backing down. “I’ve been asleep for ten years. I don’t need any more rest.”
“Your ship, it, uh,” your shoulders hike up defensively when his visor snaps in your direction, pinning you with its blank stare. Clearing your throat, you continue with a slight grimace, “It’s going to need some repairs before it can take off. I can help you fix it.”
Ahsoka looks over at you in surprise, and then in worry. You don’t blame her, especially since the offer had slipped out without you consciously meaning it to. Once again, the Force is calling the shots and you are just along for the ride, a passenger in your own body.
He considers you for a long moment, then asks, “What do you know about the mechanics of a gunship?” 
If anyone else had asked you that same exact question, you would have bristled at their condescension and retracted your offer in the next breath. But with the Mandalorian, there isn’t even the slightest hint of patronizing courtesy. It is a serious question prompted from genuine curiosity.
You sit up straighter, smiling at him now. “Enough to confidently say I’m your best shot at getting off the ground.”
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“What’s your plan, exactly?” Ahsoka asks you, braced against the wall with one eye on you and one on the Mandalorian across the garage, patiently waiting for you to finish assembling your tool kit. 
“Huh?” You reply distractedly, trying to decide if you should bring your carbon chisel or not. 
“You don’t have one, do you?”
Not. There are bigger concerns than a bit of carbon scoring. You move to grab your favorite screwdriver with a tapered socket, only for Ahsoka to snatch it away, holding the tool hostage.
“Hey!”
“Have you thought about what you’re doing?” Ahsoka asks slowly, staring you directly in the eyes. “Once you fix his ship, he’s gone. And he’s taking our best chance at escaping Shili with him.”
A quick glance over your shoulder shows the Mandalorian studying the scattered BB unit parts on your workbench. You are missing a few vital components needed in order to bring the little droid back to life after a stormtrooper shot a plasma bolt through it for accidentally bumping into his leg, and haven’t had any luck convincing the village traders to track them down for you when they went to the capital. 
“We can’t keep him here against his will,” you manage at last, turning back to your sister. “Otherwise we’re no better than the Imps.”
When Ahsoka doesn’t say anything, you shrug a shoulder, adding, “Besides, I think I’m supposed to fix it for him. The Force seems pretty insistent about it.”
She makes a face at that. “I liked you better when you ignored your Force instincts. You didn’t make me worry as much.”
A laugh escapes you, embarrassingly loud in the otherwise quiet space, and your cheeks immediately start burning. Ahsoka’s lip twitches like she wants to smile, but instead she schools her features into a blank expression when the Mandalorian’s head turns at the sound. Only once he diverts his attention elsewhere again does her stare lose some of its intensity, looking less like she wants to dissect him beneath a microscope. You can practically see her protective-older-sister-instincts buzzing, reacting to the warrior’s presence. 
As much as he is a chance at providing an escape, he is also first and foremost a complete and total stranger. Even worse, he is a complete and total stranger who knows how to handle weapons. 
“I’ll be fine, I promise.” You squeeze her arm reassuringly. “Shouldn’t take longer than a couple of hours. You’ll be so busy smoothing the Elders’ ruffled feathers you won’t even notice I’m gone.”
Ahsoka finally relinquishes the tool, exhaling a quiet sigh. “You shouldn’t make promises you don’t know for certain you can keep.”
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Walking side by side with the Mandalorian in silence isn’t awkward, per se, but it definitely isn’t comfortable either. He is close enough your arm keeps accidentally grazing against his, the cold brush of metal against your skin startling you each time. You would have considered his nearness strange if you hadn’t heard Ahsoka threaten to castrate him if you wound up hurt before she sent him flying at the juni tree branch outside your window with an unnecessarily strong push of Force. 
To his credit, the warrior handled her rough treatment with the same ease he has handled everything else thrown at him. You are beginning to think Mandalorians don’t just wear beskar—they are made of it too. Other than the few glimpses of frustration earlier in Maar’s office, he keeps his cards close to his chest, impossible to read. 
He watches everything though, reacting to the slightest of movements and sounds. Constantly alert. You are certain he is watching you right now, despite the fact his helmet is facing forward, your nerves prickling in response to the sensation of eyes upon you.
To your surprise, he is the one to break the silence first. “You sneak out often.”
It is a statement, not a question. 
You suppose the dots are easy enough to connect to reach that conclusion. Still, the certainty in his voice has your heart skipping a nervous beat. He hasn’t even known you a day and yet he is privy to secrets no one outside your community is aware of. “Yeah,” you nod your head after a brief lapse of silence, “Ahsoka can’t train in the village. Not with the stormtroopers around.”
“Has your village tried to run them out? Fight back?”
It is only because you know he is just trying to understand your village’s predicament with the little bits of information he has that you don’t snap at him for being so insensitive. He has no idea what these past five years have been like for you all. No idea the amount of losses and sacrifices the community has suffered. 
Your grip on your tool kit tightens. “I was twelve when they came. The community is mostly traders and hunters, not trained fighters. The few weapons we had were nothing compared to their blaster rifles, but some of the adults tried to defend the village, including our parents. They...” You swallow, or try to, at least, your throat suddenly dry as sand. “Our aunt looked after us until last year we woke up one morning to find a note she’d left to join the rebellion. We haven’t had any contact with her since.”
The Mandalorian’s gloved hand brushes against your knuckles. This time you think it might have been on purpose.
“I lost my parents as a child, too. There was a riot and they died protecting me,” he offers his own private details with the same reluctance as one volunteering to have their teeth pulled out. “The Mandalorians took me in, raised me as one of their own.”
You say nothing about the way his breath slightly hitches when he says Mandalorians, appreciating his openness as it puts you both on somewhat equal footing with each other. 
“I owe it to them to look for survivors,” he tells you, and your montrals detect the quietest hint of a plea in his voice. 
“I understand,” you answer, keeping your tone light to preserve the fragility of this moment. This kind of situation doesn’t happen often—two strangers on the same wavelength, exposing their vulnerable underbellies, desperate to be heard and yet skittish at the same time—and it is oddly therapeutic. 
A decision is made right then and there in the span of a heartbeat. And even more significantly, it is 100% your own choice without any intervention or manipulation from the Force. 
You stop walking, causing the Mandalorian to halt as well. He scans the area for a threat, then visibly jerks when he turns back to find you have your hand held out towards him, pinky raised high, reacting as if you are pointing a weapon at him.
“I don’t understand,” he says, blunt and almost suspicious sounding. Are you just imagining it or can you actually hear him frowning? “What are you doing?”
“Haven’t you ever made a pinky promise with someone before?”
“...A what?”
You snort, ducking your head to hide your smile, and then reach for his hand. Surprisingly, he doesn’t protest your touch.
“A pinky promise,” you repeat as you make his hand form a fist, curling his fingers towards his palm, and then adjust his pinky so you can wrap yours around it. He watches the whole process wordlessly. “It’s a sacred vow shared between two people. The Elders say once it’s sworn, the promise can never be broken.”
He cocks his head, skeptical. “Never?”
“Never,” you reaffirm with a nod. Licking your lips, you look at his visor, right where you instinctively know his eyes are staring back. “I promise I’m going to help you. No matter the odds.”
And something leaks into your voice then, something resolute and binding and otherworldly. A tremor shoots down your spine, too quick for you to make sense of it.
Your sister’s words echo in the back of your mind, ‘You shouldn’t make promises you don’t know for certain you can keep.’ 
You try to pull away, self-doubt gnawing a hole in your stomach, only for the Mandalorian to wrap his pinky tighter around yours, holding you still. A gasp escapes your lips, muffled by the bleeding sincerity in his voice as he swears:
“I promise I will be there when you need me. No matter the odds.”
And although your sister could undoubtedly provide you with a long list of reasons why you shouldn’t, you believe his promise to be true.
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The Mandalorian heaves a heavy sigh at the sight of his crashed ship. 
“I can’t do much about the landing gear,” you inform him, believing honesty to be the best policy for cases like this. “And I brought some foam-jet for the cockpit viewport, but it’s not a permanent fix. You’re going to have to find someone offworld to replace them.”
“Right,” he agrees absently without turning his eyes away. It occurs to you then that this ship is the closest thing to a home he has now. One of the few precious relics from his past he can still physically cling to. 
“Does your ship have a name?” you ask.
He looks at you, as if coming back to self-awareness, and answers, “Razor Crest.”
A good name, you think. Strong. A bit mysterious. Just like its owner.
You nod decisively. “I like it.”
His modulator crackles faintly, a quiet noise produced from a sudden exhale of air. You blink at the unexpected sound, surprised to realize you recognize it. A laugh. The Mandalorian just laughed at something you said. What is next in store for you? Are akul going to sprout wings and start flying?
He steps around you, heading for the side entry door still open from yesterday with its ramp laying on the ground, pebbles shifting noisily beneath his boots with each step. You don’t realize you are staring, oddly entranced by the swish of his cape and his purposeful strides, until he calls out your name to ask if you are coming.
You nearly drop your tool kit in your haste to follow after him into the Crest’s interior, ignoring the flaring heat radiating from your cheeks. 
For the next few hours, you and the Mandalorian work in companionable silence, engrossed in rerouting wires and welding damaged components with your trusty hand torch. The gunship is older than you initially assumed, perhaps even as old as yourself, and you idly wonder if the Mandalorian found it in a scrapyard somewhere or maybe inherited it from another Mandalorian. You notice the way he handles each piece with an experienced and respectful touch; the same kind of care someone reserves for their most cherished possessions. Anyone with eyes can see how much he loves the Crest just by watching him.
Once you have finished sealing the numerous cracks dissecting the cockpit’s viewport like a spiderweb with foam, you approach the Mandalorian to see his progress on returning power to the dashboard. He is on his back beneath the steering controls, rearranging a mess of wires, and barely acknowledges your presence when you squeeze yourself into the tight space next to him.
“The red wire goes before the white one,” you point out, noticing the mistake immediately. “Fire hazard.”
He pauses, looks at where you have gestured, and corrects his error without criticizing your intervention. You bite back a smile, pleased to be heard. Within your community, even though you have proven your skills time and time again, some of the villagers, usually men, don’t always adhere to your advice, thinking you are too young and too female to know about technology, until they inevitably make their problems worse for themselves and come back to you with their metaphorical tail between their legs. 
You help him reattach the cover plating once he has finished, screwing the bolts back into their corners, and then watch, fingers crossed, as he attempts the ignition sequence, flipping a series of switches.
None of them light up with even the faintest flicker of life.
“Dank farrik,” he growls under his breath, slamming a fist upon the console.
You take a tiny step forward, hesitant to direct his frustration your way. “Can I try?” 
He tilts his head, probably thinking he knows this ship better than anyone and if it doesn’t work for him then you aren’t going to have any luck either.
Eventually he steps back with a shrug, uttering a simple, “Sure.” 
Although you can’t remember the last time you were on a ship, it doesn’t take long to refamiliarize yourself with the various controls and screens once you take a seat in the pilot chair. When your hobby for fixing broken machines changed into a passion you wanted to pursue as a future career, you started memorizing any reading material you could find on the Holonet, including the flight manuals for different classes of starships. You flip through the stored information in your mind about gunships as you press a few buttons on the panel overhead, trying out different sequences for a response.
When your third attempt fails, you bite your lip, racking your brain for a solution. You think about Huno’s kitchen droid and how you had been on the verge of ripping off one of your head-tails trying to repair it after one of its fuses blew, causing it to malfunction. Your tools and knowledge hadn’t been able to fix it in the end. It had required a special remedy to bring it back to life.
You lay your palms flat on the console, just as you had held onto the droid’s square torso. Out of the corner of your eye, you notice the Mandalorian fidget, as if he wants to come closer but is hesitant to crowd you. You ignore him, pressing your fingertips harder against the metal, visualizing in your mind the unseen gears, cables, and components stiff and powerless. You imagine the parts working properly, a current of electricity running through each wire, life ultimately returning to the entire ship, and whisper under your breath a request to the Force.
“Please work, please work, please work…”
An invisible pulse of energy burns down the length of your arms and discharges through your fingertips, strong enough you jerk backwards against the seat. Every button and screen on the dashboard lights up all at once, beeping with alarm at being so rudely resurrected.
You sit there helplessly, stunned and breathless, hands twitching in your lap. The kitchen droid hadn’t required even half as much energy to restart, barely a pinch. Now your body feels like you have been thrown against the electric fence a dozen times. Wordlessly, the Mandalorian comes to your side to help, punching buttons and turning knobs until the alarms quit blaring. A distant part of your brain thinks the Razor Crest as a whole seems strangely soothed by his presence, not quite as cold and dark, but it is hard to follow that train of thought due to the distracting pain throbbing along your temples.
“That’s quite a spark you’ve got,” he says, not unkindly or accusingly, just a statement of the obvious. He looks down at you, not outright asking for an explanation, but giving you the opportunity to open up if you wanted to.
“Yep, that’s me,” you reply, forcing a cheerful smile, praying it doesn’t resemble a grimace. “Sparks Tano at your service.”
He chuckles again, oblivious to how your heart stutters at its raspiness. “Thank you, Sparks. I appreciate it.”
“Well, we’re not done yet.” You rub at your temples under the guise of adjusting your headband. “I need to take a closer look at the engines before we attempt flying out of here. I—”
“I’ll do it,” he cuts in, already heading for the ladder. “You stay here, see if you can update the navicomputer settings.”
You know he knows that updating the navicomputer is child’s play for you. Clearly you aren’t as great at concealing your pain as you thought you were and this is his way of giving you a break. A small part of you is irritated at being treated like a porcelain doll, but you push those negative feelings aside as quickly as they develop. Your aunt always used to remind you and Ahsoka it was okay to accept help when it was offered, that needing support didn’t in any way make you weak. 
“Hey, wait a second,” you call out as you spin around in your seat, freezing him right before he disappears from view into the hull. He holds onto the ladder, waiting patiently for you to continue.
“Back at Maar’s place you didn’t introduce yourself and it’s weird just calling you Mandalorian in my head,” you say, awkwardly drumming your fingers on top of the armrests. He doesn’t answer, eliciting a sigh from your mouth after a drawn-out beat of silence. “What’s your name? You do have one, right?”
“I do, but I can’t tell you it,” he admits at last. “By Mandalorian Creed, only other Mandalorians or my riduur—my spouse,” he corrects, seeing your confusion, “are allowed to know my name and see my face. This is the Way.”
He doesn’t linger to hear your response, dropping down into the hull with a resounding thud. You slowly turn back around, staring absently out the glass. Every culture is unique, including your own, but you think there is something especially interesting about the Mandalorians’. It sounds like a lonely existence, only able to show your face while in select company. What would have happened if he had been unconscious and you had slipped the helmet off his head? What consequence would he have faced? 
And if there truly aren’t any Mandalorians left besides him, his spouse will be the only one to ever know him completely. It almost sounds like a love story, if not a little bit heart-wrenching. 
Two high-pitched dings from the console jerk you out of your thoughts with a wince. You look for the source, finding the radar lit up and actively scanning the area, and bristle when you see a pair of red dots moving across the screen. 
Not even a minute later you are sprinting out of the cave, ignoring the Mandalorian’s alarmed shout from the roof of the Razor Crest. They’re early, you think with panic, looking towards the sky where two starships with Imperial logos are heading straight for your village. Why have they come back so soon?
You push your legs to run faster, your surroundings a blur beyond the trail in front of you, but the effort is meaningless. You won’t make it back home before they land.
And when your absence is noted, bloodshed is not a possibility. 
It is a guarantee.
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maeviana · 4 years ago
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Lorelai Gilmore & Luke Danes Analysis & how I would change the story
A Lorelai Gilmore analysis because apparently I'm doing this for everyone on the show now!
Lorelai Gilmore...how do I begin to describe Lorelai Gilmore. There are times when Lorelai can be my favourite character and times where she can be my least favourite character. 
 I think Lorelai denying the fact that she is still very privileged despite leaving her parents world when she was 16 is one reason she can drive me up the walls. Lorelai is a conventionally attractive white woman who fits the trope of 'single mom but my child is really smart so men don't see it as a turn off' - she seems to be able to get any guy she wants, the whole town falls at her feet and are willing to do pretty much anything to help her, she was promoted to Manager seemingly above Michelle (who actually went to school to train to be a concierge or whatever he is and who we know started at the same time as Lorelai) Lorelai has all the advantages of someone who spent their whole life in a small town but whenever she needs it or wants it she always has her parents money to fall back on or their connections which I get makes her uncomfortable and I don't hold her privilege against her - no but what I can hold against her is the fact that Lorelai Gilmore is not a pay it forward kind of gal.
When I say that Lorelai is not very "pay it forward" I'm going to talk about three incidents where Lorelai benefitted from something in the past which she does not need anymore and which she very begrudgingly relinquishes.
1. The first is when Suki wants to ask her if Rune can sleep in the potting shed while he is out of work. Lorelai's response to this is "Suki that's where Rory and I stayed when she was a baby" Just to recap Lorelai was allowed to stay in the potting shed rent free when Rory was growing up until Rory was 11 until she could afford to get a place of her own. Which is fine. But Lorelai has her own place now and now she is in a position to help someone else who could use the same help that she was once given and her first instinct is to keep it for herself which is made worse by the fact that Suki is asking her - Suki is Head Chef at the Inn and so she equals Lorelai in rank - as long as Rune staying in the shed doesn't interfere with the running of the inn, it should not be Lorelai's place to deny her.
2. When Jess comes to town. When Jess comes to town Lorelai doubts Luke's ability to care for a rebellious teen - which again is fine. She tries to reach out to Jess twice and ....things don't go well which I also think is fine (except for her essentially telling Jess that Dean is better than him ummm wtf Lorelai he's 17) ...look I could do a whole other post about Lorelai and Jess' interactions (Jess is my absolute favourite character on the show so you can probably guess what I'm going to say) and why they don't get on but I'm going to focus on Lorelai's reaction to the car crash and what she says to Luke in 'Teach Me Tonight' when Luke tells her he has an obligation to Jess and she responds that he had an obligation to the town and to her and to Rory. We are shown and we are told that Luke has done a lot for Lorelai and would do a lot for someone that he cares about, however, I think again that on some level Lorelai thinks of Luke's generosity towards her as a special privilege just her own. I don't think Lorelai views Jess as someone like herself who needs a "Mia" or a "Luke" to help him get through a difficult time to let him stay in a metaphorical emotional "potting shed" but look having said that she does cut Jess some breaks and does help Luke understand things about Jess.
3. Her not wanting Mia to sell the Independence Inn because she wanted a memory home....ummm what. the. fuck?
Growing up Emily tried to control almost every aspect of Lorelai's life and this has impacted Lorelai by her being ultra controlling in her own life. I think her need to have complete control over her life made it very difficult for her to get serious with anyone because to do so you need to have a 50/50 say in a shared life. I think it's really telling that her two major love interests even over the guy she was engaged to are two men who have been in her life the longest.
I think at the end of the day when it comes to relationships Lorelai just wants someone to love her and to listen to her. She wants someone who would be willing to sleep on a park bench outside her window and someone to call at 2am. i think Emily and Richard we’re a real unit in their household and I think Emily was a Wife first, a lady of high society second and a mother third. Richard was well emotionally shut down and was all about appearances. But Emily and Richard work well as a unit, they are kind of like Lorelai and Rory that way they have their own way of doing things, their own language. I think it was hard for Lorelai growing up an only child next to that kind of relationship but not on the inside. 
The story line I'm most annoyed about the writers dropping for Lorelai was the story line of her now living her life as an adult woman without a child - about her not wanting to be pregnant. The offer from her Dad's friend to buy the inn and for her to go travelling by herself! But if there is one thing that comes for all television characters in shows in the 00s it's hetero normative ideals those relentless bitches! Because...here is the thing I think that the life Rory thinks she wants for herself travelling and seeing the world as an independent woman that life is really the life that Lorelai wants. Lorelai is very like her Dad and she even says that she wants to travel like her Dad always travelled and I'm so annoyed that THAT wasn't the major Luke and Lorelai conflict instead of April Nardini. (who I think was in part written as a way to give Luke a biological child of his own and still get with Lorelai ....because again hetero-normativity) (its a trope *cough* How I met your mother *cough*) That's why the whole "Wild" trip was written for Lorelai in my opinion it's because Lorelai does want to go out and have an adventure and she does want to find herself. What's more annoying about this story line being dropped though is because the seeds for it being a major Luke and Lorelai conflict are there. Dean telling Luke that Lorelai wants more than Stars Hollow, Lorelai's curiousity about the job offer from her Dad's friend and Lukes reaction to that, Lorelai realising that some of her aversion to certain paths in life come from her parents wanting them for her which may include "going corporate" which could open doors for travel. That’s how Luke lost the last love of his life - Rachel. It was potrayed that she was always leaving - but it could also be interpreted as Luke never following her. Then Lorelai wants to travel to run incorporations of an inn that Rachel introduced her to through her pictures. 
Think about it Luke's major character flaw is that he finds change very difficult. He lives in the same town he has lived in his whole life, he doesn't change his clothes, he can't make a move. This made sense for Luke before - he needed to be so solid because his family was so erratic, he needed to be there for his dad, he needed to be there to bail his sister out but at the end of the show Luke has no reason not to change, his business is well established enough that he could trust Ceasar to run it while he was away, he (would not have had) any children, any real reason to stay in the town other than stubbornness.
I don't find April annoying as a character - I find why she was written annoying. Luke didn't need a kid. The show is filled with biological parent child relationships that don't work, that show that bonds are more about being there for someone than being in their DNA. I feel like writing as if Luke needs to have a child is just weird (it's stated and shown on multiple occasion he in fact really doesn't like kids), when he's been a relative hermit up to age what 35/40 means that maybe he'd be ok without kids and the fact that Luke is loved like a father by Jess and by Rory but no Luke needs biological children because? why?
And then Jess (who was always ready to leave and never shows his cards when it comes to love) could show up and tell him that he should go be with Lorelai wherever , that he’ll make sure Liz and TJ don’t join any vegetable cults. Because Luke now has someone else in his family that he can rely on and he doesn’t have to plan funerals and interventions for his crazy family members on his own and also the this plot line would fall in nicely with the GG theme song but that’s not that big of a deal. 
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grapecinnamon · 3 years ago
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I posted 247 times in 2021
100 posts created (40%)
147 posts reblogged (60%)
For every post I created, I reblogged 1.5 posts.
I added 462 tags in 2021
#ruff ruffman - 82 posts
#fwrr - 78 posts
#fetch with ruff ruffman - 78 posts
#fetch - 71 posts
#fetch! with ruff ruffman - 49 posts
#au - 28 posts
#fetch!-tober - 21 posts
#fanfiction - 20 posts
#fanfic - 19 posts
#fetch!-tober 2021 - 16 posts
Longest Tag: 107 characters
#lol just screaming at ruff from the sidelines to do the right thing while writing him to do the wrong thing
My Top Posts in 2021
#5
Hi, Ruff Ruffman here
Welcome to the literature club! It's always been a dream of mine to make something special out of the things I love, like I did with Fetch! Now that you're a club member, you can help me make that dream come true in this cute au!
Everyday is full of chit-chat and fun activities with all of my adorable and unique club members:
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Chet, the youthful bundle of sunshine who values happiness the most;
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I've had a hyperfixation on Mr. Peabody and Sherman for a while, but I stopped indulging in it because I was embarrassed about it, but now I recently started indulging again. I've been watching the netflix cartoon and I realized how much I love mpas so here's some sketches.
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17 notes • Posted 2021-10-20 02:49:17 GMT
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Hey Guys! Are y'all ready for another AU?
You like Fetch! with Ruff Ruffman? You like Sam and Max? No? Well, too bad. And if you do, that's great! Introducing Ruff and Chet: Freelance Police
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@hi-im-greenjunipertree sort of helped me on this. They brought up how Ruff's spy outfit in Spyhounds looks similar to Sam's outfit. I sort of combined them, using Sam's design and Ruff's colors. Since Chet is supposed to be Max, I gave him Max's mouth, which kinda looks blursed.
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22 notes • Posted 2021-08-28 05:10:52 GMT
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More Fetch au/fanfic ideas I may or may not make a thing (not making promises but it's a nice thought)
An au where instead of a game show, Fetch is a cult (ok that went 0 to 100 real quick)
A crossover au between fetch and deltarune, or Fetcherrune (inspired by the Fetchertale au)
An au where instead of a game show, Fetch is a daycare (ok this is a really cute idea, I might do this one)
A crossover fanfic between Fetch and Animaniacs
A fanfic where Blossom's cousin (new oc time) Marcus comes to town and lives with Ruff and Blossom in the dog house for a while. Hilarity and Ruff being racist ensues (i've actually had this idea in my head for a long time).
Another Two Gay Dogs story where Ruff tries to go see his fiance Mason at his house, but a thunderstorm suddenly comes in and Ruff has to stay in his house, afraid for Mason (and of the thunder) while Blossom has to comfort him
This will be updated in the future, I think
25 notes • Posted 2021-11-08 01:41:42 GMT
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Random Ruff Ruffman Head cannons (because why not)
-Ruff is a mutt and there’s a chance he’s part pitbull
-Ruff is neutered 
-Glen got Ruff into Pokemon. They both seem like the kind of people (dogs) who would be into Pokemon
-Ruff has verbal autism
-The reason loves Chinese food and sushi so much is because his person probably fed it to him once 
-When Ruff pitched his idea for Fetch to pbs kids and met them in person, they probably thought he was a furry (this one might actually be cannon)
-Ruff is aware that he's not as popular as certain pbs kids shows. He can't compete with shows like Sesame Street, Arthur, etc. He almost never hears about people talking about him, but when they do, it fills his heart with joy.
-Ruff is secretly gay. Think about it, people are more accepting of gay people now than they were in 2005 (which is when Ruff would’ve pitched his vision, since the episodes first started airing in 2006). He kept it as a secret from the public so people would be more likely to watch his show, and to prove it to people, he pretended to have a big crush on a poodle named Charlene. You never see Charlene in the show, so she either doesn’t exist, or she doesn’t know Ruff too well. 
-Ruff looks at posts about him on social media and gets really happy when he sees posts about himself. But there's something about it that bothers him, and it's really small: whenever people talk about their favorite episode being the "haunted house episode," they never specify which one (because there's two), so whenever Ruff sees posts like that, he gets angry cause no one specifies which haunted house episode they like
-Ruff saw rule 34 of himself (and no, he wasn’t happy about it)
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starcrossed-pharaoh · 4 years ago
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Red Crackle Breakdown
Itstalkcartoons recently had a live stream interview with Carmen Sandiego’s showrunner Duane Capizzi, I’ve seen some thoughts on tumblr so after watching the interview I thought I’d drop down some direct quotes and talk about what happened. You can find the interview on Istalkcartoon’s IG page, it’s about an hour and a half long full of other tidbits about the characters and the show so definitely check it out if you’re interested. The post below will have spoilers from season 1 - season 4 so if you haven’t seen it yet, do not read below. 
- Duane confirms that Gray is the most complex character and has the most complex arc of anyone in the show. 
- Gray’s story was meant to be wrapped up in the season 1 pilot. Duane created his story for that episode only. After the pilot, the Writer’s Room was developed and he was blown away by the interest that people had in Gray as a character. It was from there they decided to go with the ‘amnesia’ arc to expand and enrich his character. 
- Duane confirms that in the pilot episode, at that point in time, Gray “was willing to kill her [Carmen] for V.I.L.E on the train”. He says a little earlier to this quote that “we know Gray has good qualities, from his days back at the school protecting Black Sheep, but he’s still a criminal, still a sociopath” and he admits that this is a controversial opinion of the character. “He [Gray] says one of the most awful things to her, that anybody in the series has ever said, something like ‘You proved yourself to V.I.L.E, that’s all you ever wanted, wasn’t it?’ and it’s so demeaning.” By Carmen leaving him gift-wrapped in her coat on the train, Gray “got what he deserved” and Carmen “moved on”. 
So what we do know is that despite Gray and Black Sheep being very close on the island, when Black Sheep defected, no matter how hard Gray could have found this he was still grimly determined to kill Carmen for V.I.L.E. This is heart breaking, not only for their friendship, but because of the successful brainwashing and nurturing of sociopathic tendencies that V.I.L.E did to these barely legal adults. Carmen clearly proved herself unique to this, she had the longest exposure to villains and brainwashing on the island, but her innate empathy for others won over her drive for success. 
I suppose, we don’t know exactly what the lives of the other V.I.L.E members were like. We know from season 4 that Gray’s drive was to be successful, he was a junior technician at the Sydney Opera House and wanted more out of his life. But V.I.L.E is, essentially, a cult. V.I.L.E engages in mind altering practises, cull dissenters, dictate their students’ beliefs, education, social communities. They clearly target and prey on teenagers with specific skill sets, who likely have specific backgrounds that make them more vulnerable in society, or more likely to respond to a vigilante or criminal way of living. They clearly make sure that their students know V.I.L.E is their entire life, their entire community, and if you want that: you need to follow the rules. 
It’s not too surprising to me that Gray is like this in the pilot. He’s a complex character leaning into sociopathic tendencies, he was written to be that way. 
- Gray’s arc changes with his amnesia. Duane confirms Bellum created nice guy Graham Calloway onto Gray, it was a personality “grafted onto him” that opposes his personality in the pilot. Carmen protects Graham Calloway, she recognises that he isn’t the ‘V.I.L.E Gray’ and that he is innocent and has the potential for a do-over. This shows Carmen’s true selflessness, despite her ex-best friend trying to essentially kill her/take her down, she sees he doesn’t remember any of that and believes in his goodness. So much so that she protects it. It’s the opposite of where Gray was in the beginning.
- Tragically, when Gray gets his memories back, he does revert back to V.I.L.E. Duane does not confirm exactly why this is but he does say that Gray was never good enough for Carmen up until the finale. We can theorize and infer a lot from what he’s told us of Gray’s character, despite the good qualities he does have, he struggles with doing the right thing. How much of Gray is because of V.I.L.E’s cult-like brainwashing and how much of it is due to Gray’s own chaotic morality and ambition is up to interpretation. I’m of the belief it’s a strong mix of both. In saying that, I’d like to think Gray’s aware that if he defects with Carmen, he knows he’s as good as dead. Graham Calloway might have believed Professor Maelstrom would let him walk free, but Gray is not so naive. He made his choice a long time ago and taking Carmen’s hand is not just about caring about her, it’s choosing a side and who he wants to be. 
Just because Gray doesn’t join Carmen doesn’t mean his arc is entirely reverted though. In the pilot, he was willing to kill her. After knowing her through the eyes of Graham Calloway, and having the empathy and naivety and kindness of Graham Calloway literally injected into him, Gray truly feels regret and empathy. V.I.L.E unintentionally gave Gray a huge gift they likely never foresaw: a different perspective. He regrets ever hurting Carmen and never wants to do so again. That’s a huge step from where he was at the beginning, but is it enough to leave what he’s familiar and used to? 
There’s a lot to unpack there that I won’t go into because this is long enough. I think it’d be interesting to go more in depth about the psychology of cults and how future Gray and future Carmen would assimilate the personalities they were forced into. Do those personalities go away when the memories come back? Can the trauma of it cause black outs and more memory loss? What does it do to your mental health? Do you assimilate it into who you are? But I digress
- The most important part of Gray’s arc is in the finale. As Duane says, it’s Gray’s “coming of age, when he becomes a real person” and he does so by showing what Carmen stood for: true selflessness. There’s a bitter irony to Gray’s ambitions of success, his desire to work with Carmen as a team, pulling off successful and incredible heists ... all his dreams are coming true. But she takes more risks, he’s shocked by her ruthless and individualistic impulses, he knows it isn’t truly her, and whatever he could excuse before, he knows it’s wrong. He chose to be a criminal, Carmen didn’t. The final thing that gets through to him is what Gray knows she can never take back: killing Shadowsan. He defects and betrays, not for himself, not for success, not for anything except for her. He’ll risk getting killed, imprisoned, he’ll even betray this Carmen, out of a true selflessness for her to be herself again. He proves he has become a person good enough for Carmen Sandiego.
- I also absolutely love that at some point he changed his Crackle Rod to stun mode as a ‘maximum setting’. He didn’t plan for Carmen to be able to use it against him because he thought she couldn’t use it, so for awhile now he’s been ‘stunning’ people instead of killing them. Even though he returned to V.I.L.E, he came back as a changed person.
- His decision in the hospital room was also quite tragic, he didn’t want to complicate her life any further and Duane confirms he felt shame over his actions. That it was the right narrative at the time. I agree with this, though I’m a RedCrackle shipper at heart, the writer in me recognises the parallels of Carmen selflessly staying away from Gray to not ‘complicate’ his new beginning, and now Gray showing the same selflessness is a mirror to me that they’re on equal footing. (But also, please meet up again and talk to each other, because they’re the only ones who have gone through traumatic memory altering and personality grafting and there’s bound to be mental issues with that and they could help each other!)
And now, some talk by Duane on some RedCrackle hints:
- Carmen [on V.I.L.E island] was at an age where she probably didn’t know how to interpret her feelings for him, referencing when she called him a big brother to her. She tells Player she cares about him but doesn’t specifically reference that this is romantic or not
- 100% Graham was flirting with her in Australia
- They absolutely will meet up again in the future.
Anyway, I’ve seen some things circulating about the interview on Tumblr and I just wanted to provide some context and quotes from the interview. It was surprising to me that we were to read Gray as someone ruthless enough to kill Carmen in the pilot, because I didn’t interpret that exactly from my viewing, but I suppose that’s the great thing about art: it’s your interpretation. It also makes sense to me that Gray was written for the pilot and it was the Writer’s Room afterwards that took his character in new ways, just proof of organic storytelling. I also love that in the interview, he doesn’t specify any of the pairings as canon but if we saw things happen between characters or implied by a character, it was intentional, and I love that. 
Definitely check out the interview for yourselves on Itstalkcartoon’s IG, they had a lot more to talk about, particularly with the goodbye to Zack and Ivy and Carulia. 
Special thank you to Duane Capizzi, I doubt he’’ll ever read this, but thank you for your part in bringing this amazing show and its characters to a new narrative. It’s such a shame it only lasted for four seasons, hopefully in the future we get new stories to tell with these characters. As a complete side note, I am a New Zealander and it was so great to see NZ represented in media, even better that it was a Carmen and Gray episode :D To everyone else, thanks for reading this if you have gotten this far :) 
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First time read through light novel vol. 8. Random thoughts.
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...So...does anyone else feel a little uncomfortable with that cover image between Reinhard and Felt? I mean, I know he's not going to do anything sexual to her and she's not as young as I originally thought she was (I think vol. 1 said she was 15, while ever since the anime I thought she was like 10 or something), but she still is underage, being forced into wearing and doing something she doesn't want to by a grown man, and I think just the way he's got his hand holding her bare thigh makes it feel more sexual than it should be.
Also, is Wilhelm floating? The heck is he sitting on?
Subaru was afraid of death. Dying constantly trashed his life with an unbearable sense of fear and loss. He thought it was like that for everyone; he assumed that was how it had to be. Subaru, who had experienced death more than anyone via Return by Death, didn’t want anyone else to know what it was like.
I'm definitely seeing more similarities between Subaru and Ferris here than I did in the anime. I like how they both have a more unique perspective on life and death than most people would; Subaru from his Return By Death and Ferris from being such a powerful healer (to the point he can even regenerate himself from near death, I guess). Again, for a series where death can be undone so easily, it really knows how to use that premise to show just how weighty and serious death is. While the two will and do kill, it sits with them more than it does for others because they know just how awful death can be.
Something I've really enjoyed when reading through various LN series after watching the anime first is that I end up liking certain characters that I didn't in the anime. I didn't hate Ferris but the cutesy way he talked really bugged me and I didn't focus on him much. Here though I'm definitely getting a better feel for his character, especially with how much he values life, cursing at the suicidal witch cult members for tossing theirs away so easily. He and Subaru's back and forth makes the ending feel that much more heartbreaking when Ferris has to mercy kill the possessed Subaru.
Also, just to clear up any confusion I have, is Ferris in drag or does he identify as a woman? I don't have any problem referring to him from now on as a "she" (I never had that problem with Magne in My Hero Academia) but I'd prefer to get my facts straight. Ferris also makes a joke about Subaru swinging over to his side of the fence but I'm not sure if that means he's gay or not. It's a little hard to tell how far his affection for Crusch runs, for example.
Similarly, there's Julius, a character I never disliked in the anime, but I can definitely see more of a path to him and Subaru becoming friends here. It is funny that a comment from Ferris got me thinking how something to two have in common is how easy it is for them to get others to immediately dislike them just by talking. For Subaru it's because he too often talks without thinking, shoving his foot into his mouth, and for Julius it's how unintentionally snobbish and "better-than-you" he can sound. It's also nice that the story is getting Subaru to try and work through his issues, acknowledging that he's being unfair towards Julius, whom really has done nothing wrong aside from unintentionally pricking at Subaru's inferiority complex.
Like Subaru, I thought demon beasts and monsters were just so common in the world that a barrier around a lord's domain was a very common thing. But from how the other characters in-story are talking, it sounds like Roswaal deliberately put his domain and the village in the center of (or at least nearby) a demon beast habitat. Even in the anime I always believed he knew more than he let on but here he feels like a straight-up mastermind with everything he's been pulling behind the scenes and all the things he's done that, as of yet, have no explanation or reason behind them. Just what is he up to?
One thing I'll say about this series in comparison to some others I've seen/read; the dark magic here, like with the Witch of Envy, Return By Death, the White Whale, and the Unseen Hands, really feels like DARK magic. I've seen series that have their own version of dark magic that'll make bad things happen or summon demons or sacrifice people, but this? Everything to do with the witch feels creepy and unnatural, like it's not or should not be part of the world. With how much suffering it's caused, the mystery behind the gospel, just how unhinged Petelgeuse is and his body jumping, it all feels like stuff you should really not be messing with. Even at the end with Subaru running off and Julius finding him, getting no response at first from Subaru, feels like something out of a horror movie.
Subaru keeps getting asked if he's Pride, to which I'm assuming they mean if he's the one to become the Archbishop of Pride. Personally, my theory is that because of how much the witch seems to "favor" him, Subaru is Envy, like, well, the Witch of Envy and the only one of the seven sins they never mention to have an archbishop, given Satella destroyed the other witches. If that's the case, I can only imagine how much that's going to piss off all the other archbishops, that after all their shows of devotion some schmuck came to their world out of nowhere and became Satella's favorite.
“Lending one’s strength does not mean merely swinging one’s sword. It means challenging the same foes, worrying over the same obstacles, sharing the wounds and the weight of the burdens. This we can do. This is the lesson I learned in the past.”
Obviously this is meant primarily for Subaru but I can't help but think it can apply to Rem and Emilia as well. With the exception of Puck, Emilia tends to go out of her way to avoid involving others in her problems or having them feel they owe her anything when she helps with theirs. Rem dedicated a good chunk of her life to live as her sister's replacement after Ram lost her horn and tried to kill all the demon dogs on her own after Subaru was cursed saving her. They both seem determined to bear the weight of their burdens solely on their own, like they're the only ones who need to suffer. Subaru goes back and forth on how much he involves others in his problems, but while he's more than willing to help ease the burdens on others, his problem for the longest time was that he was so fixated on "swinging his sword", as he thought fighting and strength was the only way to help (probably because strength would honestly solve a decent chunk of his own problems).
“Two days ago, the forest around the mansion became unnaturally calm... to the point that even my eyes could catch nothing. Thereupon, an armed group appeared bearing the crest of the House of Karsten, which had declared war with the blank letter... Surely you cannot blame my little bird’s heart for being on the verge of breaking?”
Ram, I had no idea how much I missed you until you came back.
Namely, that someone out there had swapped his letter of goodwill, aiming to turn Emilia and Crusch against each other.
I don't think a line or speculation like this was in the anime, which it probably should have been. Without it, it just seems like Subaru's an idiot and made a stupid mistake, but now it seems like someone is directly manipulating events behind the scenes. Personally, I'd say my money's on Roswaal if I didn't have terrible luck when it comes to gambling.
“Silence! Cease your prattle! Give that book back, right—”
“Hey, don’t shout. If you get too angry, you know—your brain’ll shake.”
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“G...gah...! How dare you, dare you, dare youuuu! My disciple of love!!”
“Don’t gimme that, you’re the one who mixed us up! Tunnel vision! What, are you lazy?!”
HA!
Overlord was the first light novel series I read (the only other LN I'd read before was Death Note: Another Note - The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases and that was years ago), so naturally it's the series I tend to make the most comparisons to for the other series I've been reading. In this case, something I really like about both Ainz and Subaru is that, despite how they're presented sometimes, neither is actually stupid (though they too often suck at reading the room). They're both just in situations way over their head and they have no frame of reference for how to deal with these fantasy world situations. Subaru, like with tricking Sloth into getting attacked by demon beast or figuring out what was up with the flowers, has plenty of times where he shows he can come up with decent plans or quick thinking that can pull off a win. His flaws are based more in his own immaturity and need to grow more as a person.
Honestly, Ainz and Subaru are fun to compare because, of the LN MCs I've read so far, they both seem to get every break the other doesn't. Ainz is obvious. He's got actual power, tons of resources, and numerous people whose faith in him is absolute, while Subaru has almost nothing save for the curse and the clothes on his back and has to continuously struggle to make any difference. On the other hand, Ainz has no one in his life he can relate to or be his real self around, making him feel incredibly empty and lonely, while Subaru has attracted a surprisingly wide web of people around him whom, despite some hiccups, do genuinely believe in the real him.
I am 90% certain Emilia and Puck fighting Sloth wasn't in the anime. Well, no wonder anime-only fans have trouble liking her when you cut out nearly all of the character's best sh*t! [Edit: I was wrong. Another post pointed out it was at the end of ep 23. Like I said, it's been a bit since I saw the anime and I remembered none of this fight. Though I still stand by that LN Emilia is better than anime Emilia] Like I've said before, it's not like anime Emilia could just be replaced with a sexy lamp and nothing would be different, but compared to the LN version she really didn't get a lot to do in the anime outside of the first arc. She wants to be queen and sometimes heals people. Otherwise she was mostly off-screen or serving as Subaru's object of affection (and sometimes obsession). Just being able to fight isn't everything but Emilia here certainly feels like she has a lot more fire to her personality and does more when she appears. She's not just a nice, pretty girl for the MC to fight for.
Somehow, he’d died again. He’d probably lost it all once more.
He surrendered everything to the abyss. This was the familiar embrace of failure after he pathetically lost his life.
Look back at the world.
Look back at your failures.
Don’t forget. Don’t forget. Do not forget.
Ferris’s tear-filled voice. Wilhelm’s lament, shaking with regrets. Julius’s resolve and remorse, so great he probably gnashes his teeth over it—Don’t forget, ever. No matter how low you are, don’t ever let go.
Is this Satella saying this to Subaru? I'd assume so since it ends with the "I love you" line Subaru's been getting before he RBDs. But if so, why is she saying this to him? One theory is that she has her own regrets from her life and is giving Subaru a chance not to have the same. That assumes she is a good person and that the stories around her are wrong. Another theory, given the Witch of Envy title, is that she's insisting Subaru never let go of what's his. It's his (and hers, since he is hers) and no one else can have it. I mean, that applies more to greed than envy, I suppose, but stretching a bit you could say she'd be jealous of a world moving on without her.
Original Reddit post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Re_Zero/comments/gwjfwy/novels_first_time_read_through_light_novel_vol_8/
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boreum-dal · 4 years ago
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cardcaptor sakura: boy band au #1
so, a while back, in the midst of a DEEP dive into BTS, @swingsdown​ and i brainstormed a stupidly indulgent CCS boy band AU which i’ve written in bits and pieces over the last few months for fun. i don’t plan to do much with it, but i thought it’d be fun to post little bits of it here as it gets written.
below is the rundown: 
touya, yukito, eriol, syaoran, and yamazaki make up japan’s hottest boy group, CLOW, a group that has smashed regional and global records, amassed a cult-like legion of fans, and reached new peaks of success with every comeback they stage. beyond good looks, catchy music, and charming personalities, the group captures the hearts of fans with what appears to be genuine brotherhood and love for each other both on- and off-camera. but just when it looks like they can’t fly any higher, yukito, the glue of the group, abruptly leaves, and everything is at risk of falling apart. 
these are non-chronological vignettes of the band’s time together, both while yukito is with them and after he leaves as they try to stage a return to the music world. 
[see below for descriptions of the boys’ roles in the band, etc. + first vignette]
navigation:
[intro & post-yukito #1] [post-yukito #2] [post-yukito #3]| [during yukito #1]
-touya: rapper/singer, 26, group leader, trainee for longest (6 years--15 to 21) because he didn’t have any proper musical training when he auditioned; wanted to become a musician to help make ends meet for his family. best rapper, ok singer, worst dancer. Is friendly enough for an idol but a little stoic but has lots of fans because he’s very good looking
-yamazaki: rapper/singer, 24, exceptionally good dancer and ok rapper, relatively terrible singer but had to take vocal lessons to improve after yukito left to help fill the gap; never fights with anyone, chaotic energy at almost all times, known for his smiley eyes; known for weirdly high iq
-eriol: singer, 22, classically trained/very good vocalist, TERRIBLE rapper, pretty good dancer, calmest/most polite out of the group, best “face of the group,” known for classic good looks, comes from rich family, bff/roomies with syaoran
-syaoran: singer, 22, second best vocalist behind eriol, not good rapper, pretty good dancer, sometimes gets called “mini touya” because they’re both a little surly and look alike (and is popular despite stoicism/attitude bc he’s cute), hardest on himself and known to be a perfectionist, bff/roomies with eriol, auditioned through global casting in hong kong, had to learn japanese, english, and korean in training
-their fans unironically call themselves “CLOWn.” 
-this is modeled much more after kpop boy groups/the kpop system in general, which i know is quite different from the jpop scene. 
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[post-yukito #1]
Syaoran watched, holding his breath, as the cameraman counted down with his fingers from three for their cue. At zero, he bowed in perfect unison with his bandmates, rising back up with a practiced smile. Yukito had taught him that the eyes mattered the most--if they don’t crinkle a little, people won’t think it’s genuine, he’d said. Syaoran squeezed the muscles around his cheeks just a little bit tighter and swallowed back bile. He felt Yamazaki squeeze his elbow to his left, and realizing how tense his shoulders were, he took in a breath and tried to force himself to relax.
“Hello, we’re CLOW,” he chorused with the group, and he threw up a v-sign with his fingers, maintaining the fake-genuine smile. Yukito would have been to his right if he’d been here, and he tried not to think about how painfully naked his right shoulder felt. They’d been preparing for this for months, and even so, everything about this situation suddenly felt horribly wrong.
“Hi, CLOW!” the host, a chipper young woman with bright blue hair and purple contact lenses who’d recently made her solo debut a few months ago, exclaimed, turning briefly to them before facing the camera again. 
Syaoran briefly recalled the first time they’d been on this particular concert pre-show; it had been three weeks into their debut, and he’d been so nervous that he could hardly see straight. The interviewer then had been a young man, a fellow idol singer doing a three-month stint as the host for the show, and when the host had held the mic up to Syaoran’s face, he’d been totally speechless, his voice shot from nerves. His whole group--Eriol in particular--had given him hell about it for weeks afterward. Even Yukito, in all his sweet earnestness, had given him some good-natured ribbing about it. Only Touya had refrained, for one reason or another. 
“Today is a very exciting day--your first comeback in over six months with your new single, LOVETORN!” the host said, turning towards Touya. “Tell us, how are you feeling?”
Touya leaned into the mic, facing the camera and wearing a convincingly charming grin. “It feels amazing. We are so happy to be able to provide new music for our fans, who have been so loving and wonderful while we’ve been on our break. We only hope that our fans love the single with as much love as we poured into making it.”
“Well, within twenty-four hours of the music video’s release on YouTube, it already hit 70 million views, so I think we can say with certainty that your fans love the single!” the host chirped. “Can you tell us what the meaning behind this song is?”
Syaoran was relieved the mic did not go to him for this question; he’d have had a difficult time not rolling his eyes. The meaning was pretty clear, he thought. It was a song about wanting someone back. Touya and the producers had decided to capitalize off of the most painful moment in the band’s four-year history by writing a fucking song about the departure of the one member that had truly held the team together. 
Eriol, predictably, was a little more diplomatic in his response, for better or for worse. “Yes, it’s about the pain of being apart from your loved one for a prolonged period of time and life not being the same without them,” he said into the mic. He pushed up his glasses. “In our case, it’s about us being separated from our beloved CLOWNs for so long and wanting desperately to be reunited. And here we are today.”
The host smiled. “Such a sad song, but you’re all so happy to be here! How are you going to emote something so painful onstage?”
It was Syaoran’s turn to speak. All eyes were on him now, and taking an imperceptible half-second to compose himself, he turned on his megawatt smile once more. “It’s quite simple, really. We’ll just think about the times that inspired us to write this song in the first place. All the hardships, all the heartache--we’ll bring it all back onstage. And to that end,” he said, looking directly into the camera, “we’ve missed you very much.”
He hoped Yukito was watching, even though he knew he wasn’t. 
“That is lovely, and we can’t wait to see you perform. Yamazaki, would you like to kick off the performance?”
Yamazaki stuck his face into the camera with a wide grin. “Absolutely. You’re watching Music Centre, and get ready for CLOW’s comeback with our new single, LOVETORN, in three, two, one!”
“Cut!” The director shouted, and the cameras stopped rolling. “Great job, everyone. I love when we get everything we need in one take--after all that time away, you really are true professionals.”
The group bowed, murmuring thanks, and shuffled backstage toward the dressing rooms. 
“Good job, everyone,” Yoshiyuki Terada, the group’s manager, called, looking up from an iPad. “Take ten and then we’ll meet back here--you’re due onstage after this next performance.”
Syaoran made it into the dressing room first, and immediately, he grabbed his headphones out of the pocket of his hoodie hanging from the door and shoved them into his ears. The last thing he wanted to do right now was reflect with the band on that painful interview--not right before they had to go outside and bear their souls to the world for a four-minute performance. Just as he sat down on one of the sofas, though, he felt one of the earbuds being plucked out of his ear. 
He looked up indignantly to see Touya holding the earbud, who was staring down at him with his lips drawn into a disapproving frown. “Quick team meeting.”
Syaoran scowled, but he turned around and leaned the front of his torso against the back of the sofa to face the rest of the group. 
“Okay, guys,” Touya said, leaning against the vanity and crossing his arms. “First live performance of our comeback. How are we feeling?”
“Pretty good, now that the interview’s over,” Eriol said with a sigh. He reached down toward the floor to stretch his legs. “That was the hardest part for me.”
Yamazaki nodded. “Now that we don’t have to talk, I feel fine. It’s just a matter of doing what we’ve been practicing for the last two months now. It’s all muscle memory from here!”
Touya glanced at Syaoran next. Syaoran glared at him for a moment, but then he met Eriol’s softer gaze, and he deflated a little. “I’m--I’ll be fine. I’m not nervous.”
Touya pursed his lips. “You know that’s not what I’m asking.”
“I know.” Syaoran swallowed. “But I don’t know what else I can say.”
Touya regarded him in silence for a moment, and Syaoran knew without looking that Eriol and Yamazaki were watching the exchange with bated breath. Much to Syaoran’s relief, Touya let out a sigh and shrugged his shoulders. “Okay. Let’s do a good job out there tonight. No mistakes. The choreography on this is a little different from what we’re used to, so everyone needs to be in the exact right place at the exact right time.”
Of course it’s different. We’re missing a fifth body.
“How about you, Touya? How are you feeling?” Yamazaki asked, fiddling with the zipper on one of his many pant pockets. 
Touya exhaled softly, and for the first time all night, he raised the corners of his lips in a small smile. “I’m okay. This feels right.”
It didn’t, though, Syaoran thought. Nothing felt right. But his bandmates were clearly so excited to be performing again, Yukito or no, and he wasn’t going to ruin that for them just because he didn’t feel ready. 
“All right, guys, bring it in,” Touya said, holding out his hand. Eriol, Yamazaki, and Syaoran joined. “On three, CLOW. One, two, three--”
“CLOW!” the four of them chimed, and Syaoran followed Touya out of the dressing room and back toward the stage.
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myheartrevealedocs · 4 years ago
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Untouchable Ch 25: Minimal Loss (S4E3)
[TW!!] Warnings: (This is the same content as found in the episode, so if you’ve seen it, don’t worry too much, but I find this one to deal with multiple sensitive topics at once, and I don’t gloss over it all, like I often do, so be careful) mentions of rape and pedophilia, depictions of torture, cults, murder-suicide
Ch 24 | Ch 26
A/N: Okay, so I’m four days late on posting this, but this is quite possibly the longest chapter I’ve posted, so hopefully that makes up for it?
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Lydia’s family stayed for about a week, attached to Lydia at the hip the whole time. She loved her sister dearly and was glad to have some time with her father, but she could barely breathe by the time she was taking them to the airport. As she explained to Spencer, she was merely frustrated they didn’t give her any heads up.
Luckily, they left before her teaching schedule came back into full swing at the university. It was nice to get back into her routine and see some of her students and coworkers who were worried about her. She didn’t realize how close she’d gotten to the people there until the letters, phone calls, emails, and gifts started flooding in, telling her to take it easy and get back soon.
And then, in October, Hotch finally gave her a call for a case.
It was small, but she wanted to get out of her apartment so bad.
Hotch was sending Lydia and Prentiss to Colorado where there was a claim against a separation church leader raping young girls.
Spencer wasn’t exactly thrilled to hear Lydia was leaving, but the whole thing was fairly straight-forward: interview the kids, determine what they could about the cult itself, then see if there was reason to shut them down. Hotch knew that there wasn’t going to be any extraneous activity, so it was a perfect start to reintroducing Lydia to the field. Not to mention, she was very perceptive and a master manipulator.
“Tell us about the 911 call,” she said as she flipped through a file on the people of the church.
Emily was in the front seat with Nancy Lunde, from Child Protective Services. She was the head of the case and had the most prior knowledge on the group itself. “I believe the ‘he’ that they referred to is the church’s leader, Benjamin Cyrus.”
“Benjamin Cyrus,” Lydia mumbled, flipping to his page. “No criminal record. No record at all, really. I doubt it’s a real name. Correct me if I’m wrong, Emily, but Cyrus is a biblical name. A monarch. I’m seeing some subtle messages in there.”
“It translates to ‘sun’ in persian,” Emily agreed. “What else do you know about him?”
Lunde shook her head. “It’s rumored that he’s practicing polygamy and forced marriages,” she said, but it sounded more like a question than a statement.
“Any idea who the caller is?”
“Uh, Jessica Evanson is the one who the age fits, but… we can’t be sure. So I negotiated interviews with all the children. It wasn’t easy.”
“Well, considering their view on outsiders, it would be best if you didn’t identify us as FBI,” Emily explained and Lydia got to work on their covers. She took their guns, holsters, and badges, hiding them in the door of the car and handed Emily two fake IDs. “Just use our real names and introduce us as child victim interview experts.”
The Bureau had made them brand new drivers licences and CPS badges with Colorado addresses to complete their cover stories.
All too soon, they were approaching the front gate. The sign read ‘Liberty Church Ranch’ with a large cross beside it.
It was hot outside and Lydia could feel the dust coating her nose and throat as she exited the car, approaching a set of stairs leading up to the church.
“I’m looking for Mr. Benjamin Cyrus?” Lunde called to a figure on the steps.
“You found him.”
Cyrus wore a light flannel and jeans, with reading glasses perched on his nose and a book in his lap. Lydia had to hold herself back from calling him out on framing the scene. Oh, look how kind and relaxed we are. Our leader sits outside and reads books all day blahblahblahbl-
Open mind, Lydia.
“I’m Nancy Lunde. We spoke on the phone regarding the allegation.”
He got up and approached the three of them. “‘Savages they call us. ‘Cause our manners differ from theirs.’”
“We didn’t come here to hear you cite scripture, Mr. Cyrus,” the red-headed woman huffed.
“Actually, that’s Benjamin Franklin,” he sneered.
Nancy ignored this, and began introducing them. “Emily Prentiss, Lydia Ambers. They’re child victim interview experts.”
“How far from God’s word must we have strayed for there to be the need to invent a job called child victim interview expert?” Cyrus wondered.
“We wish we didn’t have to be here,” Emily said.
“So do we. But you are welcome, nonetheless. The children are in the school as I indicated.”
“Thank you.”
Lydia nodded and followed Emily off to the school building.
~ ~ ~
Jessica Evanson was not the kid they were looking for. Lydia could tell the moment she walked into the interview room. She was completely calm, the perfect child. Her hair was neatly brushed back, her polo shirt well ironed, and her hands folded neatly in front of her.
Her mother, Kathy, stood beside her, petting her hair gently, as if to reassure her, but Jessica clearly didn’t need it. She wasn’t intimidated by their presence at all.
“We go to school. We do our chores. And we treat ourselves and each other with the respect God demands.”
Emily sat across from her, conducting the interview, and Lydia stood beside her.
“But you’ve never been off of the ranch?” Emily asked.
“I brought Jessie here when she was two,” Kathy explained.
Jessica clearly was not having any of this. “You’ve talked to lots of children in your work. Tell me, are their lives somehow better than ours?”
“We devote ourselves to God,” Kathy continued. “That doesn’t mean we’re not devoted to our children.”
“We are not here because of your religious beliefs,” Emily reasoned.
“Why are you here?” Jessica demanded.
She was starting to become hostile. She grew up in a cult that taught her to hate outsiders, so Lydia couldn’t blame her for her behavior. But her mother was clearly a peacemaker, so where did she learn it from? It wasn’t defiance from her family, because that would put her against the group, not for it.
“We received a phone call alleging that an adult male member of your church was having inappropriate relations with the younger women here.”
“You’re talking about Cyrus,” she responded, almost immediately.
“What makes you say that?” Emily asked.
Her mother immediately became defensive, trying to get her daughter to be quiet, but Jessica was still determined to make a point.
“Is it inappropriate for a husband to share a bed with his wife?”
Lydia’s eyes shot open. His what?
“You are married to Cyrus?” Emily spoke slowly, as if worried that the question would escalate the situation, but Jessica stayed proper in stance, if not in tongue.
“Yes. Cyrus is my husband and a prophet. It’s an honor to bear his children.”
It took everything in Lydia not to look disgusted by the thought and keep the interview going. “Jessica, you aren’t old enough to get married without parental consent.”
Emily nodded at the mother. “She gave consent.”
Before anyone could continue, a loud sound from outside got their attention. There was some yelling and suddenly Cyrus and a few other men were rushing in, machine guns in hand.
Lydia let her shock show on her face. Not just that they had the weapons, but that they would carry them around a school where CPS workers were present.
“Get up!” Cyrus demanded, turning on her and Emily. “Get up! Move!”
On the other side of the room, Nancy was entertaining the other kids. “What’s going on?” she asked softly.
“We just got a very strange phone call from a news reporter,” Cyrus began and a man walked around Emily and started to pat her down for weapons.
They were both unarmed, but Lydia was starting to regret that. These men were clearly threatened by their presence. What the hell had happened?
Another man walked around to check her and unceremoniously smacked her in the side, causing her to wince involuntarily. Cyrus clearly noticed this, but said nothing, continuing on with his point.
“Is there anything you want to tell me? About a raid, maybe?”
She and Emily exchanged a concerned look. A raid? They weren’t prepared for that. They had checked in with the state before joining child services to the ranch, there shouldn’t have been a raid on this church.
Luckily for them, Cyrus took their concern for fear and nodded. “They don’t know,” he determined. “Bring them along.”
A man grabbed Lydia’s arm and dragged her across the room, where another armed man was opening a hatch in the wall. A tunnel. A few guards went first, then they started ushering the people in. Women with their kids, Nancy, Emily, and Lydia all surrounded by machine guns, leaping into a dark hole underneath the church.
The passage underneath the buildings was too thin to walk side by side, so the guards let them go on by themselves.
“What’s going on?” Nancy whispered to the two FBI members ahead of her.
“We’re not sure yet,” Emily hissed. “Just stay calm.”
As they reached a large opening directly underneath the chapel, they could hear gunfire from above ground.
Prentiss pulled Lydia aside, trying to get as far away from the crowd as possible. “If this escalates, Cyrus is going to put this place on lockdown. The FBI is going to be in charge of negotiations as long as we’re inside. Do you know the Critical Incident Response Group handbook?”
Lydia shook her head quickly. God, it would be helpful if Spencer were here. He probably knew that book front and back. Lydia didn’t know what she was doing.
“Okay.” Emily fumbled, trying to determine what was important for Lydia to know before they had to revert back to their covers. “CIRG will bug all the windows and anything else they can get to. So, anything you need them to know, find a way to say it out loud. Keep the inside members talking. We won’t be able to know what the team already knows so tell them everything. If there are blinds on a window, they might be blocking the sound, so try and get them out of the way before speaking.”
“Best hope it doesn’t come to that,” Lydia argued, but the sound of the gunfire overhead was diminishing her hopes of getting out any time soon. She just hoped Spencer didn’t know what was going on.
At the sound of Cyrus’s voice, the two girls stepped away from one another, trying to blend in with the crowd.
“Alright! Move quietly! Quickly, go to the left! Everybody stay together!” he ordered, pushing his way through the room. “Children, listen to your parents. Have faith.”
“Where did these guns come from?” Emily whispered hurriedly and Lydia glanced around her to see what she was looking at.
Wooden crates lined the walls, each labelled as bullets or magazines. Leaning into the corners were more machine guns. Buckets of them.
“I thought Garcia checked with the state police to see if they were involved in…” Lydia trailed off, not sure how to frame the inquiry, but luckily Emily was on the same page.
“Someone lied to us. You don’t just lose track of these weapons, not when you’re already watching this group.”
“At least the raid is unrelated to the FBI,” Lydia reasoned. “Our cover is still intact. But you’re right… someone from the Colorado government just ruined their career. Once we’re back in Quantico, Hotch is going to lose his shit.”
Lunde approached the two of them once more. “This is ridiculous,” she sneered.
“It’s okay,” Emily tried again. “Just calm down.”
Cyrus continued to reassure his followers, telling them that God would look out for them as long as they stayed calm.
Once he had disappeared, Nancy was arguing with them once more. “It’s the state police. I’m an officer of the state.”
“Well, there’s nothing we can do right now.”
“I can talk to him.”
“No!” Emily rushed after her but Nancy was already halfway through the crowd of people. “You can’t. It’s dangerous. Nancy, stop!”
The woman rushed out of the room and before the two of them could follow, one of the guards blocked their way. The other went after Nancy, but she was booking it back up to the ground level of the chapel.
Shit. This was starting to look… bad.
She stood next to Emily at the front of the group, anxiously waiting for the battle to cease, but the hail of bullets above them never slowed. After a minute or two, Cyrus came stumbling back down the stairs.
“Do not fear! We are on the side of the righteous.”
Behind him was the guard that went after Nancy, but no Nancy herself.
“Where’s Lunde?” Emily asked him.
“It wasn’t us.”
“What?!” Lydia screeched, then quickly lowered her voice, seeing the attention she had attracted. “You can’t shoot it out with the cops! You have children here!”
“I didn’t start this,” Cyrus argued back.
Emily was clearly distraught watching him reload his gun, then take off with the rest of the men to the roof.
“The BAU is coming,” she whispered.
~ ~ ~
“Reid!”
JJ’s voice reached Spencer from the center of the bullpen and he looked up from his email curiously. “Hm?”
Her eyes were on the TV she was in the process of starting up and he noticed that Morgan was also looking up at it intently. It lit up in the middle of a news report.
“...a routine questions and answers meeting by Colorado child services-”
Colorado… that’s where Lydia and Prentiss were…
“-has turned into a violent and deadly standoff between Colorado authorities and a fringe religious group known as the Separtarian Sect.”
Spencer jumped up, joining Morgan and JJ in the middle of the room, his mind still not coming to terms with what was happening.
“JJ,” Morgan breathed, standing up, his eyes not leaving the TV, “That’s not the ranch where Prentiss and Ambers-”
“They’re still inside,” she said, softly.
Spencer’s legs almost gave out underneath him.
“HOTCH!” Morgan screamed.
The unit chief was rushing out a moment later to see what was going on, but Spencer didn’t pay him any attention. His eyes were glued to the screen in front of him. Where’s Lydia? Where’s Lydia? Where’s Lydia???
“...While no one knows for sure how many people are inside, it is believed that at least three of the child service members are still trapped within the compound.”
~ ~ ~
Spencer sat on the couch of the jet, his head in his hands, listening intently to the ongoing news report on Morgan’s laptop.
“...turned deadly when the Colorado state police officers tried to serve a warrant. Colorado Attorney General Jim Wells says the reclusive cult has been the subject of a 6-month weapons investigation.”
“Six months,” Morgan repeated. “We didn’t check?”
“No. We checked,” JJ argued. “I had ATF call Wells. He told ATF there were no pending state investigations. He lied.”
“Why?” Rossi demanded.
“Wells is challenging the governor in the next election. He thought that ATF was about to poach his big election-launching weapons bust,” JJ explained. “Now, it’s clear he didn’t know there were FBI agents there. He just thought the best time to serve a state warrant was when the kids were safe inside the school being interviewed.”
“Agent,” Spencer corrected quietly, his head finally lifting from his own grasp.
“What was that?” JJ asked.
“There aren’t ‘FBI agents’ in there. There’s only one.”
It seemed to slip everyone’s mind that Lydia wasn’t an agent. They looked around nervously, noticing the edge in Spencer’s voice as he corrected them. Hotch was the first one to speak up.
“Ambers may not be an agent, but she’s not a civilian, Reid. She can look out for herself.”
“The FBI only worries about their own,” Spencer hissed.
“She is one of our own,” Morgan fired back. “We’re going to get her out of there, just like Prentiss.”
“Just like all of the hostages,” Hotch continued.
Not wanting to argue more, Spencer nodded at him, then jumped up from his seat and walked to the back of the plane, unable to listen to any more. The media wouldn’t be able to tell him what he wanted to know, anyway.
“Hey, Spence,” JJ called as she approached him at the refreshment table. “I know you’re worried about Lydia, but we need your help on this case. You gotta stay focused, okay?”
“JJ, she’s in the middle of a deadly standoff and she’s still recovering from getting shot last May. Injured tissue takes months to repair itself and it’s going to take even longer for her to regain abdominal strength.”
“I’m sure that she’s safe inside the church with the other hostages.”
“Even if that’s true, I-” He shook his head. “I always seem to be away from her when she needs me most. When that bomb went off in Annandale, when Sonia had a stroke, when Frank got her… Why does it always feel like I can’t reach her?”
JJ sighed, contemplating his question. “I don’t know, Spence. I wish I did.”
~ ~ ~
Once the police had fallen back, Cyrus brought the two of them into a seperate room. Clearly he wasn’t sure how to deal with outsiders being barricaded in with his people. As him and his men tried to assess the damage done to the church and get people back inside, Emily was prepping Lydia for the worst.
“Don’t antagonize them,” she tried to reason. “I know you’re not a fan, but we need to know everything we can. They won’t tell you anything if they don’t think they can trust you.”
“There are two ways to find things out, Em.”
“What are you talking about?” Her voice was sprinkled with annoyance. Emily knew that Lydia tended to be very blunt. She didn’t need to worry about Cyrus killing Lydia when she was supposed to be helping the team get these people out.
“You keep Cyrus’s favor. But someone here doesn’t believe him, or else we wouldn’t have gotten that phone call. They’re going to seek us out.”
It wasn’t a terrible plan, she realized. One of them learn from the higher ups, the other speak to the underdogs. “You want to play two different sides?”
Lydia nodded. “For the time being.”
“Okay. That means we have to distance ourselves, though. Act unfamiliar with one another.”
“Brief me faster, then.”
She was on top of it from that point on. “The hostage negotiator’s job is to slowly get the women and children out. They want as few innocent people inside when they raid. But if they think anyone inside is in danger, they’ll come in, no matter what. We can speak to them through the mics on the windows, but they have no way of talking to us. So if we need to know anything, they’ll tell us through other means. Look out for signs from them. They’ll be listening to our every word…”
~ ~ ~
Hotch had put Rossi in charge of being the lead negotiator, in the hopes that he was both objective enough to not be blinded by his care for Prentiss and Ambers, but also knew them well enough to predict how they’d react while still inside.
Frankly, Spencer wasn’t sure he could do either. He hoped that Lydia would play it safe, but a part of him knew that she was just too impulsive.
The entire team gathered around as Rossi made his first call to the church, waiting to find out what happened to their friends.
“You killed my mommy and daddy. Are you going to kill me too?”
A kid. A little girl had answered the phone. It wasn’t surprising that Cyrus had set something like this up, but it was frustrating nonetheless.
“No one is going to kill you, honey,” Rossi said calmly.
Then, there was a shift. A new voice. “This is Benjamin Cyrus. Who am I talking to?”
“David Rossi. I’m an FBI agent. We sent the state police away. There’s just us and the local sheriff. All we wanna do is resolve this before anyone else gets hurt.”
“Then leave us alone.”
“I’m afraid we can’t do that, Benjamin. One of the police bled out on the way to the hospital. So let’s just stop this before things get worse. Please, just put down your guns and come out.”
“We’re believers, Dave. We believe God says what he means and means what he says. His laws don’t depend on what state you live in.”
“I have no issue with your beliefs.”
“You don’t, but the state does.”
This was taking too long. Spencer needed to make sure they were okay. He needed to make sure Lydia was okay.
“I can’t answer for other people.”
“Oh, God will answer for everyone in the final battle I’ve foreseen.”
“That’s why I’m here. To make sure that this is not that battle.”
“We shall see.”
“Now, the three child service workers...” 
“One of them is dead.”
Everyone’s heads shot up. Dead. Dead…
“It wasn’t us.”
Rossi leaned away from the phone, trying to take in a deep breath before continuing. “I need a name to inform the family.”
“Her name was Nancy Lunde.”
The relief between them was almost a solid entity, letting their eyelids hang heavy as they realized neither of their friends had died. But someone had.
“Okay. Now, please, Benjamin, send out your wounded. I promise you they’ll be well taken care of.”
“With enough supplies we can tend to our own.”
“Okay. I need a few hours to put it together. I’ll bring them up myself at first light.”
With news that supplies was coming, Cyrus hung up the phone and the rest of the team was left to ponder what to do now.
~ ~ ~
Lydia and Emily didn’t know much about their situation until the next morning. Everyone was assembled in the chapel to pray. Cyrus had sent the two of them to the end of a row of chairs, trapped in by the wall. Not that there was any point in running anyway. There were men at all exits, guns at the ready.
A soft knocking came from the church entrance and to Lydia’s surprise, Cyrus opened the door. It was difficult to see at first, with all the armed men surrounding him, but after a moment of discussion, Lydia was able to make out Rossi walking through the front door, a box of bandages in his arms.
Despite everything Emily had told her, Lydia could feel a twist in her heart. The BAU was right outside. Spencer was here.
Dear lord, he was never going to let her leave their apartment again.
Lydia reminded herself to steady her facial expressions. Cyrus had no suspicions of their connection to the FBI yet and she wasn’t about to give him any. She silently prayed that whatever Rossi was bringing in was bugged, so that she wouldn’t have to make sure all the important dialogue happened by a window.
They took his supplies, patted him down, and then Cyrus walked him down the center isle. Lydia couldn’t make out much of their conversation, but it seemed like Rossi was trying to convince Cyrus to let some people go.
Their discussion took all of about 30 seconds, then Cyrus was ushering him back out the door. With Rossi gone, Cyrus started giving instructions to his right hand man, Cole, then indicated for Lydia and Emily to get up.
The two of them exchanged a look before standing and walking to the back of the chapel.
“We’re going to have communion,” Cyrus informed them. “Feel free to stand and watch for the time being.”
They nodded politely, noticing Cole at the front with a jug of wine and stacks of plastic cups. A few of the men went around, passing them out while Cyrus poured each person a sip of wine.
“We are celebrating,” he announced. “Everyone drinks. Everyone rejoices. Because today we are one day closer to being with Him.”
“Look at Jessica’s body language,” Emily whispered. “The way she looks at him.”
Lydia nodded. “She literally worships him. There’s no way she made that 911 call.”
“Trust in God with all your heart. Lean not on your own understandings. Trust in mine.”
As Cyrus kept talking, Kathy stood up and walked over to the row her daughter was sitting in, leaning over her and speaking quietly. Jessica tried multiple times to nod and turn her attention back to Cyrus, but her mother kept talking.
“Look at how she comes between Cyrus and her daughter,” Emily continued. “She’s inserted herself between them.”
“Acknowledge Him in all things and He will guide your way. Drink to acknowledge him and I will guide our way.”
Everyone lifted their cups together and followed Cyrus in raising it to their mouths. Men, women, and children alike drank the entirety of their share and watched him intently.
“We will be with him soon. We have drank the poison together.”
Lydia was almost too distracted by the audience's reactions to comprehend what this meant. Some seemed completely calm, maybe even relieved. While others gasped or looked around wildly. It was easy to see a line between the diehard believers and the… less-so believers.
“Mothers… Fathers… Children… Though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we fear no evil. For thou art with us. And God will wipe the tears from their eyes, and there will be no more death nor sorrow nor crying. And there will be no more pain. For all of the former things have passed away.”
Some families grouped together, mothers holding tight to their kids. A few of the loners cried silently while the rest nodded to Cyrus in admiration. It was a wild array of people he’d collected.
“What do we do?” Emily hissed.
Lydia blinked, beginning to realize that the team was probably thinking the same thing. They wanted to save these people. If the bugs were working, they could hear Cyrus announce their imminent death.
“I don’t think he’s telling the truth,” Lydia admitted, looking Emily in the eyes.
She looked frantic. Her instinct to help was kicking in, but there was no way for her to act on it. “What makes you so sure?”
“Look at Cole.” She nodded up to the stage. “He’s writing in a notebook. I think Cyrus told him to make note of the people who had a bad reaction to the news.”
Emily’s gaze followed that of Lydia’s. At that point, both Cole and Cyrus were scanning the crowd. “They’re writing down the names of the people who are crying,” Emily realized.
“It’s a loyalty list,” Lydia finished out. “He wants to know who will follow him to the end.”
“Be still.” Cyrus’s voice broke through their conversation just in time to confirm their theories. “There was no poison. Instead a test of faith. Because your adversary, the Devil, walketh about as a roaring lion! Choosing whom he may devour. Watch each other for signs of weakness. You are your brother’s keeper.”
“What’s he going to do with those that the Devil has devoured?” Lydia asked slowly, but Emily shook her head, not ready to consider it yet.
~ ~ ~
“You exhausted yet?” Emily asked jokingly as the two of them lay up against the stone walls of the basement. Cyrus had brought the two of them back down there a few hours ago and left them on their own.
“You’ll excuse me if I didn't get much sleep last night,” Lydia shot back. “A cement bomb shelter isn’t exactly my idea of comfort.”
“No kidding.” She was on the opposite wall, one leg propped up on the wooden bench she had taken. “You should try to get some sleep now. We don’t know how long we’ll be here. I’d rather have you well rested when the raid starts.”
“I would try, but-”
They swiftly stopped their discussion as the sound of footsteps echoed through the halls. Cyrus was at the door and he looked pissed.
“Ambers. Stand up.”
Her and Emily shared a curious look, but she did as he said and got up from her bench.
“Lift up your shirt,” he ordered.
“What the hell?” she demanded, but Cyrus had already stepped between her and Emily, reaching for the hem of her shirt and pulling it up above her waist. “Hey! what are you-?”
“That’s what I thought,” he grumbled. “Child interviewers don’t often get shot, do they?”
Lydia glanced down nervously at the bullet wound on her side. She had seen the weird look he gave her when his men had searched her and hit it painfully, but she never would have thought it would lead to blowing her cover.
“I don’t know why you…”
Dropping the front of her shirt, he reached up and grabbed a chunk of her hair, pulling her head back painfully. “We just got word that there was an undercover FBI agent in our midst. Care to explain that?”
Lydia hissed through gritted teeth. “What do you want?”
“You’re not CPS, are you?”
His grip was getting stronger by the minute. She didn’t like the idea of blowing her cover, but he already knew it was one of them. Might as well let him think it was only her.
“No. You were right,” she admitted. “I work for the FBI.”
Now, Lydia didn’t expect him to thank her for her honesty and let her go, but it still came as a shock when he walked off, while still holding her hair. Her feet were immediately yanked out from underneath her, not prepared enough to steady herself, but Cyrus just kept going, not deterred in the slightest by her weight.
Lydia groaned, her hands wrapped around his wrist in an attempt to alleviate some of the pressure, but it did very little. Luckily he didn’t take her very far, throwing her down on the ground inside a nearby supply closet.
“I told you not to put me in this position!”
She moved to look up at him, but he was faster, swinging an arm up to her chin and knocking her down onto her back. Upon her next attempt to stand, she received a swift kick in the stomach.
“Ugh.” Her left side lit on fire in an instant and she stayed on the ground, her arms and legs wrapping protectively around her abdomen.
“Get up!” Cyrus sneered.
He reached for one of her arms and pulled her to her feet. Lydia flinched away from him as he threw an arm above his head and brought it down against the side of her face. There was a mirror on the wall behind her which shattered as her right arm moved to steady herself.
“Proverbs 20:30 tells us blows and wounds cleanse away evil.” As he said this, he held her still against the broken mirror so that she could see herself.
It wasn’t until she physically saw the blood dripping from her nose that she could taste its warmth on the edges of her mouth. The temple that he hit was tinged pink, but from the way it ached, Lydia knew it would be a dark purple by evening. And her right arm, which was still lodged in the remaining pieces of the mirror was staining the white sleeve of her shirt.
She shrieked as he threw her backwards again, running into the shelf of canned goods against the opposite wall.
The BAU is listening, she remembered. And Emily said that if they thought someone was in danger, they’d begin the raid.
They needed to prepare. They hadn’t gotten any of the children out yet. If the team could hear her and decided to come in prematurely, a lot of people would die. Lydia wasn’t about to let that happen.
There was a window towards the back of the closet she was in. She could only hope that Spencer was listening.
“Careful.” Her voice was shaky and unconvincing, but she made sure Cyrus saw the anger in her eyes. This message wasn’t for him. “Hit me too hard and everyone will see the bruises on your knuckles.”
“No one is going to care,” he replied calmly. “You came here to shut us down! I’m protecting them!”
“From me?” Her laugh came out almost maniacal with her bruised stomach and battered jaw. “I’m fine! I got bruises on my knuckles too! I can take it!”
“Pride comes before the fall.”
His next blow sent her into the metal shelf again, this time her skull ricocheting against one of the sides and knocking her to the floor. She was just able to see a few drops of blood land on the ground below her, though she couldn’t identify where exactly on her face they came from, before her arms shakily gave out and her cheek hit the cold cement.
She prayed silently to whoever may be listening that Spencer understood. She really hoped she didn’t face all that torment in vain.
~ ~ ~
“We’ve got audio!” Morgan called from across their tent set up.
Spencer ran as fast as he could to the panel controlling the microphone feedback, throwing on a set of headphones.
Hotch hadn’t let him do anything for the past day, claiming he was the most emotionally involved in the situation. And although he couldn’t argue with that fact, it killed him to sit and listen. Lydia was right there. She was in the building just over that hill. And he wasn’t allowed to see her, talk to her, call her, save her.
When the fact that an FBI agent was in the church hit the news, Spencer felt an anchor drop to the bottom of his stomach. She wasn’t even an agent. There was nothing to suggest Cyrus would target her. But his instincts screamed that Emily wouldn’t be the one in danger.
And unfortunately, he was right. When he set those headphones over his ears, he immediately recognized Lydia’s voice. She was moaning in pain.
“We gotta go in,” Hotch said, but Rossi stopped him from throwing off his headphones.
“We’d be risking the lives of everyone in there.”
“Get up!” Cyrus’s words were followed by a crashing noise, like glass shattering.
Please be okay. Please don’t let it be as bad as it sounds.
“Proverbs 20:30 tells us blows and wounds cleanse away evil.”
There was more struggling over the line and Spencer threw off his headphones, unable to bear it any more. She was in pain. He knew this would happen.
“How could you let this happen?” he demanded of Hotch. “We have to go in! She’s not-”
“Sh! Sh!” Rossi hissed, one hand over his earpiece, the other between the unit chief and the boy.
Both looked at him confused, but he just kept listening silently.
“Everyone will see the bruises on your knuckles,” he finally recited. “Does that mean anything to you?”
Spencer didn’t answer, but put his headphones back on swiftly.
“-protecting them!”
“From me?” Lydia’s laugh sounded more like a wail over the mic. “I’m fine! I got bruises on my knuckles too! I can take it!”
“She’s antagonizing him!” Morgan exclaimed, frustratedly.
“She’s not talking to him,” Rossi argued.
“Pride comes before the fall.”
There was one more grunt, then the line went quiet. When Spencer finally breathed in again, all eyes were on him.
“She gets bruises on her knuckles when she lets off steam on a case,” he explained quietly. “I always worry for her, but she says she’d rather hurt her hands for a little bit then do something rash or detrimental on a case.”
“So what she’s saying is-”
“Don’t come in,” he finished begrudgingly. “She’s telling us not to go in.”
~ ~ ~
Cole had to basically carry her to one of the upstairs bedrooms. Every breath was agony for her lungs and a violent sting for her nose and mouth. And she figured it was psychosomatic, but her bullet wound hurt as if she’d just been shot yet again.
Who would have thought this whole hostage thing could get ten times worse?
Cole tied her arms to the sides of the bed, though frankly, she didn’t think she’d have the abdominal strength to sit back up anyway. And she didn’t want to try.
Kathy Evanson came by with a washcloth to clean the blood away from her nose, mouth, and temple. She tried to warn Lydia against lying to Cyrus, to which Lydia snapped back, “Do you speak from personal experience?”
Kathy didn’t say another word before standing up and leaving. It was a clear sign that she was hiding something and Lydia could only hope Emily caught onto that too. ‘Cause Lydia… she wasn’t going anywhere fast.
Downstairs, Cyrus had pulled Emily into his office, using some of his only medical supplies to disinfect the tiny abrasions in his hand from his fight with Lydia.
“Did you know she was FBI?” he demanded, as Cole shut the door behind the three of them.
Emily quickly shook her head, but her heart was in her stomach with fear for Lydia. Lydia was strong. She could take a lot. But she was also far too defiant to make this easy on herself. Emily silently wished she’d been smart.
“Nancy told me the woman was a child abuse interview expert from Denver.” Emily hated to put the blame on someone else, but Cyrus couldn’t hurt Nancy anymore. Nancy was gone. Lydia was still here and if Emily made her sound worse, it could fuel Cyrus’s anger towards her. “In the 4 years I worked with her, Nancy had never lied to me before.”
“As far as you know,” Cyrus replied. “Their law says that a 15-year-old girl is a child. Fifty years ago, that same law said a 14-year-old was an adult. Have children changed so much in 50 years?”
No, but people have, Emily thought. It was frustrating. Hotch had chosen Lydia because she was so good at acting calm. At least… in the workplace. She could have any unsub they met trust her entirely, or keep them constantly on their toes. Now, Emily could act, but she couldn’t do that.
If anyone’s cover should have been blown, it should have been hers. Emily knew more about CIRG protocols. She could diffuse a situation. Acting like she wasn’t totally disgusted by Cyrus’s morals was not in her skill set.
“I think it’s a matter of trust. People have stopped believing that kids can make good decisions, they’ve stopped believing in selfless acts, and they stopped putting their trust and faith into God.”
Her appeal seemed to work. Cyrus looked intrigued. She hoped it would hold long enough to make a good argument in her favor. Now was the perfect time to build up Cyrus’s trust with the FBI, because he had brought in the medical supplies Rossi had given them. There was absolutely no way that the BAU wasn’t listening.
“On your next call, you should test them. Test the negotiator. Make him prove that he isn’t a liar.”
“How would you suggest I do that?”
“Ask for the identity of the FBI agent.”
Cole looked unamused. “No. We already know her identity.”
Emily opened her mouth to respond, but Cyrus beat her to it. “They don’t know that.”
“Yeah. But the FBI would never tell us.”
“They keep asking you to release people,” Emily argued. “Tell them you’ll release a kid and you won’t harm the agent. If they really care about the children, they’ll have to tell you.”
“You’re trying to get us to release a child!” Cole accused.
“It’s one kid! If they don’t hold up on their end of the deal, then you know they can’t be trusted!”
“She has a point,” Cyrus conceded much to Emily’s relief. “What is it, Christopher?”
Emily glanced over her shoulder to find Cole pacing the room.
“Some people have been talking about… leaving.”
“Leaving?”
“Yeah.”
Cyrus glanced at his hands. “Wake the baby. Let’s let them meet the orphan that they’ve made.”
~ ~ ~
Cole held onto Lydia’s shoulder’s firmly as he led her back to the chapel. She’d been dozing for most of the day, unable to move from her bed, so her ability to process the situation was hazy.
Cyrus had everyone gathered in the pews. “It has come to my attention that some of our brothers and sisters have lost their faith in God. That they no longer love us. They want to abandon us. So, when I call out your name, please stand.”
Cole left her leaning up against one of the back walls as he went to usher the last of the people in and that’s when Lydia noticed Emily eyeing her, slowly creeping closer and closer while still looking as if she was listening to Cyrus.
“He looks pissed,” Lydia whispered to her when she was close enough. “He’s choosing the people who failed the loyalty test.”
“I’m so sorry,” was all Emily could say.
“Em, I’m okay,” she snapped, more forcefully than she meant. She knew she wasn’t okay. “You need to stay focused and tell me what to do. What does this mean?”
Emily cleared her throat quietly. “He’s releasing these people, because he knows it’s over. He’s getting rid of any possible threat to his mass suicide plan. I’ll try and figure out when it is and get word to the team. Be ready. There’s going to be a raid tonight.”
~ ~ ~
“Drugging the food’s not an option because of the children,” Hotch was saying as they passed around tubs of fried chicken. “We have to go in.”
“Best time to hit ‘em is when they’re least mentally prepared,” Rossi added.
“3 AM.” All eyes turned on Reid. “Biorhythms are at their low point then.”
“Reid, I told you to stay with JJ,” Hotch argued, already on his way to lead Spencer out of the room, but he stood firm.
“Please let me help. I can’t just sit here and pray that she’s going to walk back out of there. I need to do something.”
There was a moment of silent tension between the two of them. Hotch didn’t want him to go. Technically, he shouldn’t let him go. But he didn’t have the time to argue, and Spencer would no doubt be helpful when it came to setting up this plan.
“The plan depends on Ambers and Prentiss separating the diehards from the followers,” Hotch continued, turning back to the group.
“And delaying Cyrus’s diehards from reacting to our assault,” Morgan said.
“No, that’s not my main concern. Ambers and Prentiss know what they need to do. I don’t know how to tell them when we’re coming. This whole thing hinges on them being ready for us at 3 AM.”
“Reid? What the hell are you doing?”
Hotch and Rossi followed Morgan’s gaze to the young genius who was covering the top of one of the food trays with red sharpie.
When he stepped back, the tray read, ‘New owners! New hours! Open ‘til 3 AM!’ The time was underlined multiple times.
“They’ll recognize my writing,” he promised. “Just write this on a few different plates so that there’s a better chance they’re near someone with a sign.”
“Let’s just hope it’s that easy,” Morgan grumbled.
~ ~ ~
Lydia watched curiously as Emily slipped into her room and carefully shut the door. She wasn’t sure how Emily had gotten away from Cyrus’s men, but she was positive something big was happening, else she wouldn’t have taken such a risk.
“3 AM,” she said, reaching the bed and helping Lydia sit up. “We need to get all the women and children down to the basement before 3.”
Lydia had no clue what time it was, only that the sky was completely dark and their time frame was getting shorter. “Find Kathy,” she told Emily. “I’m pretty sure she made that 911 call.”
“Pretty sure?”
“She’s hiding something,” Lydia admitted. “But no, I’m not positive that that’s it.”
The unease was more than a little scary, but there wasn’t much else for them to do. These people wouldn’t trust her or Emily. The only way to save them was to find someone they trusted.
“Stay here. I’ll be back for you before 3.”
“Don’t get caught.”
~ ~ ~
“They’re setting the place to blow up,” Kathy said as she ran into Lydia’s room.
Lydia’s heart fell. “Where’s Emily?” she demanded.
“I told Jessie that Cyrus wanted the two of them to gather the women and children. She’s leading them to the basement now,” she explained, untying the ropes on Lydia’s wrists.
Oh, thank god. Lydia thought for sure when Emily didn’t come back that she’d been caught.
“It’s 2:45. We’ve got to hurry.”
Kathy pulled Lydia along by her arm, Lydia’s other hand wrapped around her waist. Her entire torso burned as she ran down the stairs towards the basement. Almost out. This was almost over.
The sound of gunfire was muted through the walls and Lydia didn’t have time to place where it was coming from.
Get out. Get out.
As they were reaching the door, Lydia could see Emily leading the group into the basement.
“Let’s go! This way!”
“Let’s go, kids!”
“This building’s going to blow up!”
There was shouting in all directions. Lydia’s legs barely held her steady as she ran alongside Kathy. The only thing that was keeping her from passing out was Spencer. He was just outside. She needed to see him.
“Lydia!” She looked up as she passed through the door frame and found herself face to face with Morgan. She didn’t have time to open her mouth before he had pulled her into his shoulder. “I’m going to kill Cyrus.”
“You don’t have long,” she said, almost jokingly, but the timing was badly placed. Not a moment later, the ground and walls began to shake and a deafening sound filled the basement.
Everyone still inside hit the floor, protecting their heads from possible falling debris, but the ceiling was solid. Lydia had been through earthquakes before, and she’d survived an explosion, but this was somehow worse than both. She felt so claustrophobic she didn’t even try to breathe, out of fear she’d find herself unable too. For many seconds, she stayed on the floor, unable to tell if the rumbling had stopped.
“We’ve got to get out of here.” She didn’t realize it was Emily who was talking until Morgan and Rossi were helping her off the ground. “That was the explosives. If Cyrus planned a second round, the basement might crumble too.”
The four of them made a run for the secret door in the school, Lydia now holding onto Rossi for support, so that Derek could lead the group and make sure the rest of the kids got out.
“How’s Spencer?” she asked as they climbed back into the school building.
“I imagine Hotch has got at least seven guys holding him down right now to keep him from running into the rubble to find you. How are you?”
Lydia didn’t want to answer that. Not only was she in a lot of physical pain, but after that explosion went off above her, her heart rate had been soaring.
Everyone’s eyes were on the smoking ruble that was the chapel, amazed by the destruction. Many kids were crying and women were no doubt waiting to see if their husbands had survived. Rossi kept pulling Lydia along, not letting her stop to watch. They walked through the barricade of armed men with ease.
“Lydia! Lydia!”
It was Spencer. He was looking for her. Lydia tried to yell back, but Rossi could tell she didn’t have it in her.
“I’ve got her, Reid!”
Not too long after, she saw her boyfriend pushing through the crowd, his eyes looking around frantically.
When their eyes met, it was like Lydia’s whole world muted to a dull roar. Three days. Three days she’d been trapped in that building, trying to reach the team and getting the shit kicked out of her. Three days she’d been quiet, accepting Cyrus’s blows. All to see him again.
She wanted to run to him, but she just didn’t have it in her. Luckily, he was eager enough for the both of them.
His arms were so tight around her that she felt like all her ribs would break at once and her nose was so deep in the side of his neck that the bruises burned. She couldn’t care less.
He pulled away all too fast and she was about to protest, when she realized why. As she looked up at him, a breeze hit her cheeks, making the wet trails going down her face apparent. She took in shuddering breaths.
She was crying.
“I’m sorry,” was all she could think to say, the back of her hand reaching to wipe them away, but for some reason, it didn’t feel like they were gone. “Sorry, I can’t-”
Before she could finish, he leaned down and kissed her. He kissed her in front of the whole team. In front of everyone. He’d never done that before. PDA was a very rare thing for him. But all her shock died on her lips, suffocating between his own.
“I love you,” he whispered, barely moving an inch away. “I love you so very much. You don’t need to apologize for your tears.”
Such kind and affirming words should have quelled her tears, but she just sobbed harder. “I love you too. Please don’t ever leave me.”
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Yo! Do you have any headcanons for team interactions and such in your p5r labby au? I'm really interested in the little things of how she meshes with the other characters
I do! Though everything is likely to change cause my mind is always a muddle till I actually ya know... Get there
Labrys strikes me as the type that will love literally anything that's not related to her past so I'm gonna take that and run a bit
Haru probably has the best relationship with her since she's around the longest in this AU aside from Yoshizawa. Labrys helps her out with her gardening and stuff and Haru has the patience of a saint with her and all her questions on how plants just grow. She likes showing her all these pretty flowers and stuff and they trade tips on axe wielding and stuff. Jdkdn they walk into Iwai's and Labrys is like 'so what kinda gun ya want?' and Haru points at the most explody thing she can see like 'that one.' and the second she first uses it she has the stupidest smile on her face and now Labrys wants one too.
Morgana is the one that wisely banned Labrys from using guns. She can't aim for shit and she nearly shot his tail off once so he makes the call that she's not allowed to shoot unless everyone is at a large, safe distance. He's encouraging towards her when it comes to making infiltration tools and he likes to bounce between staying with the different members of the team rather than just one. He absolutely abuses the fact Labrys doesn't have much of an understanding on what animals need to eat and will have sushi or curry or anything he can convince her is necessary to his health. Sojiro is like 'just give him cat food?' and then turns around and gives him curry and Morgana is loving it. Labrys is always fussing over him in his cat form though and while he pretends he hates it, he adores all the attention she loves giving him.
Makoto is a fun one. As student council president, Labrys looks up to her a great deal especially at first. Makoto's arc is a bit different in this AU but she becomes Labrys' go to when it comes to questions about how the world works. The team like dragging her into their shenanigans and whenever Makoto doesn't know the song they're singing in the Monabus there's a bunch of scandalised gasps and later Labrys spams her texts with all the songs she didn't know and all the new ones they're getting into. It takes ages before Labrys starts calling her by her name instead of 'Miss President' and it kinda irritates her but she kinda gets it.
Futaba introduces Labrys to Featherman and they maybe get a showtime where they imitate Team Rocket or something with Morgana. Once they get to know eachother, they bully eachother just a little bit in good fun and Sojiro just watches when these two get started with their little bickering matches like 'ah shit here we go again'. No one ever wins it usually ends with them both laughing about whatever dumb thing the other said last. Futaba likes to joke that she fears nothing since Labrys has the ability to talk to people and she doesn't and you can't tell me Futaba isn't a bad influence. At some point she's sat there trying to get Labrys to say 'fuck' and the next they've invented a coffee called 'Cyanide' so if anyone asks what they recommend they can say 'For you? Cyanide.' Basically: these two are chaos incarnate. Do not start a prank war. Futaba the master strategist will lead them to victory.
This is turning into a long post huh? But uhh Ryuji starts singing in the Monabus and suddenly these two are best friends. She helps him with training where she can and they hang out at the arcade sometimes building a hoard of tickets to get the biggest prizes possible. Labrys kinda gravitates towards him when she's feeling a little low and his persona's natural electric abilities are to blame. They leak out into the real world a bit and charge his phone a little and stuff so when Labrys is near she gets a little boost too. Ryuji uses it as an excuse to hug her. Futaba ships it but doesn't complain when they both hug her and her wireless headphones charge back up. He's kinda protective of the team, but especially with Ann and Labrys. He will not let her live down how she forgets she could yeet a train across the whole of Shibuya whenever she asks how he forgets his homework or something. He also probably loves the short jokes.
Ann uhh... Is Ann I guess? She's one of the ones my brain struggles to visualise doing stuff honestly. Maybe they go shopping together and just try on all the silly hats and stuff they can find. I have a few ideas for things they can do but they're spoiler heavy so I'll skip over those. She also forgets about Labrys' super strength and is amazed by it every single time she effortlessly lifts something. Maybe the one to explain sexualities to Labrys? I dunno I've not messed around much with her arc yet.
Yusuke is... Uhh well he's very spoiler heavy. They're both people watchers and just like vibing in eachothers company. They're very protective of eachother but don't necessarily talk much. He does become her curry taste tester though. She's determined to make sure he doesn't go hungry just like the rest of the team is. I dunno, they're vibers. Could both probably turn into theatre kids at the drop of a hat though
Yoshizawa is a fun one. Labrys isn't exactly human and Maruki didn't account for that and her already decent knowledge of illusionary abilities so Labrys is constantly getting her name wrong until they come up with a nice nickname to use instead. It kinda freaks Yoshizawa out but she sees Labrys calling Makoto 'Miss President' for ages and assumes she just sometimes has problems with names or something but being called her dead sister's name is weird as hell. They're relationship is a bit strained at first thanks to all that but it gets better. They're constantly supporting eachother and building eachother up. They do it with the rest of the team but when they do it with eachother they can be going back and forth for a while. Everyone outside their group assumes they're together. Whether they are or not is anyone's guess at this point though. Yoshizawa can and will eat as many Big Bang Burger kids meals as it takes to get Labrys all the spaceship toys and Labrys will practice for hours the gymnastics stuff she's been taught so she can get it right the next time they hang out. They will kill you with nice words and sunny smiles and feel no remorse and Akechi wonders how the fuck he's survived in their presence for more than five minutes. They're innocent oblivious beans and they get along so well singing showtunes with Ann and Ryuji in the Monabus.
I plan to give Akechi an overhaul I've not yet worked much on yet so I'll skip on him for now. And Akira has his own arc and stuff now that I don't really wanna spoil too much but he is sucked into what the school are now calling 'The Gardening Cult' with all the others.
I spent maybe too long on this but I don't care it was fun thanks for asking buuuud ^-^
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To the Sky - 00: Arcadia
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⤑ genre: steampunk au, sky pirates, ateez au, angst, fluff, smut ⤑ pairing: Seonghwa x OC ⤑ warning: alcohol consumption, mention of death, major character death, strong language, mentions of religious cults,  ⤑ summary: Living in the sky is not always easy, especially with a religious sect policing everything you do. One florist, Bang Min-ah, has always dreamed about life outside Arcadia. Little does she know, she’s about to find out how very different life is when a group of sky pirates accidentally kidnap her. ⤑ word count: 1.1k
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a/n: here we have it. The start of my most anticipated story of 2020. I have created an entire world here so I hope you all are ready to join me on this journey. We’ve got 20 chapters and an epilogue on this one! This is going to be a long story so I hope you’re all ready! Now, without further ado, here is the opening of To the Sky. ~K
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Maybe journeys aren’t about becoming anything.  Maybe they’re about un-becoming everything  that isn’t you so you can be  who you were meant to be in the first place.
This is a story about death.
Well, it’s more than that. It’s also about chance encounters, soulmates, mystery, love, revelations, life, and best of all, it’s about pirates.
It had been years since anyone lived on the surface. Decades since anyone had even been down there. We were told the air was toxic and the ecosystem was unstable. It started with an earthquake. The ground split open from violent tremors and spewed noxious gases into the air.
As the fumes continued to rise from the cracks, people got sick and started dying. So they did the only thing they could think of. They moved. Great migrations of people began, from the lowest valleys to the highest mountains, entire families moved as the air was poisoned.
To overcome the problem of the air toxicity, entire cities were built and raised up to float in the sky, held in place by very secure chains. These cities were the last places of refuge for the people of Eommuron.
There were ten of these cities. Voxstead was the first city to be built. It is also the smallest. Emberton, Blackburg, and Ravenmoor were the next cities to take to the sky. Construction of Chalcedony, the capital, began before Voxstead but took the longest to complete. I’ve only been to the capital once with my father when I was eleven. 
My brothers stayed home with Mother while Father took me to the capital for my birthday. It was a vast, sprawling city, covering the entire surface area of the pedestal it sat upon, high in the sky. The city was a shining example of high class society; a beacon of aristocracy.
I didn’t like it there. The people were cold and distant. It was as if they knew I was an outsider. Like I didn’t belong in their city. ‘Oh, Arcadians,’ they would say with disdain as if I was some other species. Like I was some sort of wild animal in their pristine city. I never went back to Chalcedony after that.
My name is Bang Min-ah and Arcadia is my hometown. I was born and raised there. My family has only ever lived in Arcadia. It’s a large city in its own right. Not nearly as big as the capital of course, but it’s not exactly small either. 
Arcadia is one of the older sky cities and it doesn’t receive as much maintenance as some of the other cities. The edges have been weakening for years as large chunks of earth on the bottom fall off and down to the earth below.
Part of the city has been lost to age and decay. There was a portion of the city the Church kept fenced off, refusing to let anyone go inside. We’re told it’s too dangerous. Some of us believed them when they told us that but some did not. Tragedy struck the city when a couple of young boys snuck into the caution zone and part of the zone crumbled and fell, taking buildings and unfortunately, one of the boys as well. A young boy named Bang Min-ki. My brother.
After the accident, the Church as well as the Founding families decided to purposefully remove that part of the city to avoid further accidents and more casualties. 
The Church. That’s one name for the governing body of our entire society. They’re also called the Order. They’re based in the Second Sanctum, a sort of utopian paradise that houses only the highest members of the Order and their families. You have to be invited to the Holy City to even board the special airship from Arcadia to the Second Sanctum.
Some would say the Order is archaic. A relic of a forgotten time and should be considered obsolete.
After my brother’s death, my family fell apart. My father, who was never around much to begin with, started coming home less and less. Mother took the easy way out. She started relying on alcohol and drugs to numb the pain of losing her favorite son. It was hard on all of us but no one took it harder than Min-ho, my other brother and Min-ki’s twin.
They were eleven years old when Min-ki died. Not a day goes by that he doesn’t miss his twin. I know how much I miss him and I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it must be for him. Min-ho was there when the ground split and fell. He heard Min-ki scream out for help. He still has nightmares.
After the accident, actions were taken to ensure the cities would be safe for the rest of their citizens. We weren’t told what these actions were but instead we were told to trust the cities and trust the Order. ‘Trust in the Order and everything will be fine.’
The only city not under the protection of the Order was Copperdrift, the Sky Sanctuary. The Pirate City.
Pirates. Another thing that took to the skies when the oceans were no longer safe.
I’ve never seen a pirate in real life but I’ve heard stories my whole life about the carefree souls who roam the skies in airships, usually stolen or built from scratch. Some people say they’ve caught a glimpse or two of a strange ship in the sky. Spotting it as it passes through the clouds.
I’ve seen the posters of these ‘sky-devils.’ They attack other airships and steal the valuables to sell off for gold in their Pirate City. One well known pirate ship in Arcadia is the Horizon. No one knows for sure how many people make up the crew. Rumors whispered around the city telling tales of a group of anywhere between 8 and 20 people. Their captain, and man known only by the name of Galpyeon -- the Scorpion.
They don’t come to the cities often and I don’t blame them. Everyone knows piracy is illegal. To be caught a pirate is to be put to death. The Order takes the threat of piracy very seriously and even if you are suspected of piracy, guards will take you in the middle of the night to be questioned. Interrogated even. And the Order was never wrong.
I try to stay out of the Order’s way. I believe they do protect us from dangers beyond our comprehension. I believe in the Church, which Min-ho would say is a curse. He tells me I trust people too much. I see too much good in everyone. I shouldn’t be so forgiving or inviting. Maybe he’s right.
Who knows, I’m just a florist.
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“We Have Just Never Listened to Women”: Patrick Ness on Chaos Walking’s Relevance Today
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Patrick Ness’ 2008 science fiction young adult novel The Knife of Never Letting Go was published the same year as Suzanne Collins’ The Hunger Games, but while the latter launched a dystopian YA franchise, Ness’ Chaos Walking series seemed to attract more of a cult following despite tackling similar early-2000s issues through a speculative lens. While Collins struck an arrow through the heart of reality television, Ness turned his attention to information overload, manifesting it as the Noise: an ever-present broadcast of one’s most private, cringeworthy, hateful, earnest thoughts for all to hear—but only for men.
On the “New World,” an alien planet only recently colonized by humans, the all-male settlement of Prentisstown has ascribed varyingly demanding interpretations of masculinity and morality to their members’ handling of the Noise. Todd Hewitt, the community’s sole boy, must come of age when he faces something even more chaotic than his Noise: the first girl he’s ever seen, a silent space traveler named Viola.
Over a decade later, the book’s dual commentary on information overload and toxic masculinity remains relevant. In fact, as Ness told Den of Geek, the intervening 13 years have only provided more dire inspiration for adapting his novel to the big screen. Doug Liman’s adaptation of Chaos Walking, starring Tom Holland and Daisy Ridley, finally arrives in the UK (it hit the US last month) after a perfect storm of delays, from scheduling around two of the biggest franchise stars to dealing with COVID-19 setbacks. The film conjures a similar lo-fi dystopian setting as Gary Ross’ The Hunger Games film while transforming the book’s free-associating monologue into an ever-present visual and aural halo—not unlike the information overload depicted in more tech-y futuristic tales.
In addition to the forceful depiction of the Noise, Ness spoke with Den of Geek about the book dog’s Noise that didn’t make the final cut, the Western homages behind Mads Mikkelsen’s villainous Mayor Prentiss, and what happens when men don’t listen to women.
DEN OF GEEK: When you first wrote The Knife of Never Letting Go, it was a response to information overload circa 2007. What was it like revisiting the story to adapt it over a decade later?
PATRICK NESS: Gosh, just that the world has gotten so much noisier—that there’s just so much more information coming at us. If the original idea was about questioning how much of ourselves we feel obliged to share and give to the world, that question has only become—not more serious, but we now do it so automatically that I just want to be sure that we keep asking that question: What are we losing, and how much of ourselves do we need to keep our sense of identity? The other big thing that’s happened in the last 13 years is that we’ve all gotten so used to sharing on social media—we’ve gotten so used to what it does, that it’s such a fabric of our lives—that people have now recognized, “I can abuse this. I can use this to tell lies; I can use this to make fake enemies; I can use this to manipulate elections”—for example. The genie isn’t gonna go back into the bottle, and I’m not some doomsayer saying we need to go back to phones and blah blah blah. We need to not forget that we have a choice of what to share and that there are—for all the good things the Internet brings us, which it does—we should not and must not ignore the darker parts of it, because there are very dark parts of it.
That darkness is especially apparent in the culture of Prentisstown and their need to control the Noise. In adapting, did you find yourself approaching Prentisstown differently than when you wrote the book?
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There was always meant to be a feeling of poison in Prentisstown—something has gone amiss here. And in the intervening 13 years, we have only had further and further and further proof of how we have just never listened to women. One after another, we keep having to learn this stupid lesson and then not learning it. And so the feeling of something bad in the well of Prentisstown feels like it became clearer and sharper and more dangerous-seeming, because we have so much proof now of the danger that leads [to]. There isn’t much of a step from dismissing what a woman says, to dehumanizing a woman, to pure misogyny that they have nothing to say—that’s not a long journey. The point of Prentisstown was always to show the most extreme example of what a community might do in reaction to this huge difference between men and women that happens to be made apparent in every communication in this place. But it has only—I think the world has shown us that it’s not that fictional, and that’s a scary thing. Again, the question must be constantly asked, it must be constantly second-guessed and demanded: Why does this happen? Why do we keep doing it, and how do we stop it, and how do we keep stopping it? I’m not acting like I’m some prophet, because that poison was always there, but fortunately there have been some attempts to recently counteract it—and long may that continue.
What you said about information overload and fabricating reality to influence things ties into what made the Noise striking in this movie, especially with regard to characters who can project lifelike objects and people into others’ minds. What was the thought process in depicting the Noise so visually on-screen?
That was the longest conversation, because the Noise is the movie. That’s the thing that has to work. We didn’t want it to be exposition—people sitting around thinking these thoughts that just happen to tell you the history of the planet—because I hate that kind of stuff. So we thought, it’s got to be immersive from the start; you’ve got to be able to see and guess what’s happening before it’s explained to you. My favorite Noise is that of David Oyelowo [whose preacher character’s Noise looks like hellfire]—that’s kind of what we’re after, that it’s an emotional thing, an unfiltered expression of our brains, which are a mess. I think we’re charming messes, humans, really, but without this filter—which is the thing that makes us human, the ability to decide what to say—how much of a mess does that look, because it’s a purely emotional situation. So with that basis, the conversation was always, how do we make it so it’s not confusing or oppressive—because it would be very, very oppressive, if it were real—and how can it be used, how would people have evolved to use it, if they’ve gotten used to manipulating it. 
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Lots and lots of special effects tests and approaches, some really cool technology. There was a Noise unit on the film, so Tom would stand in the middle of a circle of cameras capturing him from 360 degrees, linking it up. Then the final results are a combination of all those things: technology, some artwork, some animation. My favorite little bit of it is a scene where Daisy Ridley’s walking up a hill and Tom Holland is behind her, and he’s kinda grumpy about her, and he’s complaining, and you see the complaints kinda just fly off the back of his head. That, to me, is what Noise would be.
Was there anything cut from the book, or an early version of the screenplay, that you would have loved to have seen?
One of my favorite characters in the book is called Wilf; and he does play an important part later in the trilogy, as well. But it’s a 500-page book, and at most a movie is a long short story, so you do have to make sacrifices. But what you get in exchange is, there’s a scene in the film where Tom and Daisy are under a little tarp in the rain, and something very funny happens. And that’s not in the book, but what you get in exchange is something like that, a little scene that expresses a ton that you can do visually, because [that scene] wouldn’t work in a book. I don’t mind; you give and you get. I’ve always viewed adaptations, even when it’s not my own work, as a remix. It’s not a cover version, it’s not an exact replica, it’s a remix. If I can start with that premise, then I can feel more creative.
Was there ever a version in which Todd’s dog Manchee has the Noise, like in the book?
Yes! But what you find out very quickly is that it’s all kind of about real estate. The animal Noise is very funny in the book, to me—it always made me laugh—and in a massive novel of 110,000 words, that real estate in the book doesn’t take up much. A movie is much more compressed, so every time an animal spoke, it just took up so much room in the movie. And it is funny, because it’s meant to be, but it kind of unbalanced the story, and it totally took away from what really needed to happen. Read the book, is what I would say, because I still love the idea, it still makes me laugh; but in a movie, it becomes too cartoon-y. We’re not making The Incredible Journey, as wonderful as it is! So you have to make some sacrifices.
The movie ends differently from the book, which is more of a clear cliffhanger setting up book 2, The Ask and the Answer; whereas the movie is left open-ended for sequels, but on a less dire note. What influenced this decision?
Doug Liman is an exploratory filmmaker; it’s a different approach than any director I’ve ever met. He’s really very much about what’s happening on set, what feels the right energy, where are we going—which is why there’s additional photography in all of his films. That’s always planned, it’s always in advance; we always knew that was going to happen, we just had to schedule the two biggest franchise stars in the world. But because of that, the story tends to organically develop. So we thought, Where are these two going in particular now that we have these actors, we have this situation, and it just starts to slightly change.
And I don’t mind that—again, in the remix idea—but what it interestingly has done is that it’s become more pandemic-themed, unintentionally, in that here are all these people who have been presented with a situation completely beyond their control, so how do they adapt? And there is a hopeful feeling at the end of this film, one I think is true, because they’ve really earned it, but also it’s like what we’ve done—we’re talking via Zoom, we’ve adjusted. It’s not perfect, and we’re all waiting for a better world, but we’re also probably not gonna go back to the old world, exactly. We’ve found a way, and that is kinda the whole point of the story, which is, here is the very worst example of people who didn’t find a way, as we move forward to people who do. To me, the ending makes emotional sense.
Are there plans to adapt one or both of the book sequels?
They’re optioned, they’re ready, but with a new series it’s all about if an audience wants it. 
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Very different filmmakers, which is interesting because I always tell people writing novels that there’s no one way to do it—as long as you end up with a novel, you’ve done it right, so find out what works for you. So, a very different experience as a writer, but interesting in their own ways. 
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What was it about Daisy, Tom, Mads, et al, that made you feel that they were right for the roles in Chaos Walking? Mads in particular has such a striking look as Mayor Prentiss, with the cowboy hat, jumpsuit, and fabulous fur coat.
That coat is actually a tribute to McCabe & Mrs. Miller, a Warren Beatty Western from Robert Atlman. It’s interesting that they’re all European! We didn’t go out hunting for necessarily European, but also Cynthia [Erivo] is European, and David’s European. Nick [Jonas] is not… [laughs] But there is a sensibility that feels approachable to Tom and Daisy, that I think is their little movie-star magic, that they are not forbidding. Forbidding movie stars can be amazing! But they seem like somebody that you could meet, and talk to; and for a younger-centered film, that is vital, to feel like these could be my friends, and I care about them and am worried about what happens to them. That is what they bring so beautifully to the movie. And Mads has that magnificent face—he’s got such a great acting face, especially for a villain—and his manner, the sort of Scandinavian understatements, I love it.
Especially for a villain who’s trying to hide his thoughts—there’s so much still that comes through on his face.
A villain who thinks he’s right! He doesn’t think he’s a villain—and that’s the scariest kind of all.
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MLA Week, Day 5: Question
Coming in late because this one was much too short and when I finally figured out what to do with it, it became too long.  
A young Re-Destro learns some things about his family.  Features my headcanon that “Sanctum” is a title as much as it is a code name, a name that designates a keeper of knowledge and history.
Content Warning: Referenced sibling death, depression, and police raids.  Explicit cult dynamics.  Rikiya is nine years old and already carrying too much weight, but there’s only more of that to come.    
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There were certain things that his mother didn’t talk about around Rikiya when he was awake.  He had learned that as young as five years old, lying with his head in her lap and listening to her report to the elders on the phone about how she was feeling that day.  She often grappled with sadness—turning sadness into power was her quirk, like turning stress into power was his—and it was because he knew of that sadness that he didn’t ask her for answers when she first mentioned missing her brother.
Rikiya, at nine years old, had not grown up knowing he had—or did have—an uncle.  His mother had never mentioned a brother before.  Rikiya thought about the pictures in the house—the portrait of the great Destro over the door, photographs of Rikiya himself, of him with his mother, of his mother smiling peaceably from the encircling arms of her father, whose brows were always knotted with the anger that had killed him long before Rikiya was born.  Pictures taken on holidays, Rikiya’s mother’s graduation photo, her with her companions at some long bygone track and field day.  Graceful, lovely watercolor prints and solemn black and white photography—his mother had many pictures.  
Rikiya looked through all of them again, in stolen moments over the next few days, in between meals, lessons, training, socializing.  He mother had a great many pictures, but none of a strange man who looked like her.
He couldn’t ask his mother, but there was someone his teachers told him he could ask anything—the warrior whose very name meant that she served the Army by knowing its history and keeping its secrets.  
And so, the next day, when he’d bade his mother farewell at the door and climbed into the car under Rampart’s watchful eye, he turned to look up at his guardian before buckling the seatbelt.  
“Rampart, I’m sorry, but I need to skip school today.  I have a question for Sanctum.”
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The Meta Liberation Army’s longest serving member lived on the other side of town, in an upscale neighborhood across the street from a large playground.  A few people were out already, walking dogs, jogging, playing with children too young for school.  He watched their faces, making note of the ones who spotted the car and stopped what they were doing; when Rampart opened the door for him, he met their eyes briefly and mirrored the sign of Liberation back to the ones who gave it before he turned away.  
Sanctum answered the door herself, an elderly woman in a gray-green kimono with thin, sharp features on which the softness of age clung like lichen on a cliff face.  She still stood as straight as a pine tree, long gray hair swept and pinned up at the back of her head.  
“Good morning, Re-Destro.”  She greeted him with a salute of her own.  “Rampart, I’ll take it from here,” she added, and he nodded respectfully, not even giving Rikiya the usual warning about calling if he had any trouble.  Still, his shadow stood vigil against the screen door.
Sanctum ushered him inside, through a Western-style living room and into a very traditional tea room after that.  He looked around in interest, taking in the sunken hearth in the center of the floor and a hanging scroll inscribed with a complex kanji he couldn’t read adorning the wall.  Most of the warriors of Liberation preferred more modern styles, furnishings that spoke of the future way, but it felt right, even encouraging, that the woman tasked with witnessing for the Army’s past kept a connection to such things.  
She already had a tray with tea supplies set out beside the hearth, so he knelt quietly on a cushion across from her, nibbling on a frog-shaped manju and watching her movements as she whisked the thin tea into a fine green froth.  She presented it to him with a bow, watching with a half-smile as he took a dutiful sip, biting the inside of his lip to stop himself from swallowing too quickly, though the heat of it burned his tongue.  
“It’s delicious as always, Miss Sanctum.”
She nodded acceptance of the compliment, rote though it was, and waited while he carefully set down his tea bowl.  His shoulders drooped slightly once the dish was safely down on the tray and out of his hands.  Her tools were very old, his mother had told him the first time he’d been brought to visit Sanctum, and handling them was always a balance of showing proper care without getting so self-conscious that he endangered them with his own worry.  
“So,” she asked, hands folded in her lap.  “What brings you to me today, my young Commander?”
“I had a question,” he responded.  He let his eyes drop down to the half-eaten sweet bun, arranging the words in his head as he’d spent the drive over conceiving them.  “What can you tell me about my uncle?”  
There was a beat of silence. He went on staring at the frog manju and its missing back leg.    
“Your honored mother’s brother?  I see,” she said when he nodded.  She took another moment to gather herself, during which he chanced another nibble at the sweet.  “His name was Kyouyuki.  He was four years her elder.  You know, of course, that all of your lineage are deeply in touch with their driving emotions thanks to your meta-ability.  You have your stress, your mother her sorrow, your grandfather his rage, and the great Destro his sense of purpose.  Your uncle was the same, but his manifestation lead your grandfather and the First Families to declare him unsuitable as heir to the position of Grand Commander.”
Rikiya swallowed.  He scanned his education for an emotion that could not be turned to the cause and came up empty.  “What was it?”
“Joy.”  She waited, letting him take in the word, before she continued.  “A beautiful thing, but there is so only so much joy to be found in this country when meta-humans still live in chains.  While he was with us, though, your uncle was much beloved.”  She paused, looking thoughtful.  “Would you like to see a picture of him?”  
“Yes, please.”  Rikiya perked up, picking up his bowl and taking another quick swallow.  Sanctum laughed.  
“You can take it slowly; the picture���s not going anywhere.”  
“So what happened to him, then?” Rikiya asked, cupping the warm ceramic mindfully in his hands.  He looked at her over the bowl’s rim as he raised it up to his mouth again, taking a slower sip.  
“He went missing one day in college,” Sanctum answered with a sigh.  “It was in December, just a few days before the end of term.  He went to some campus party and just—never came out. Not as far as we were ever able to determine, at least.”
Rikiya glanced back down at his lamed frog.  “…You looked for him?”  
“All of us did, for months. There were people tasked with it for years.  There’s a young man working in forensics up in Morioka that still makes it a point to check through unidentified bodies once a year, on the anniversary.”
Rikiya definitely didn’t want to finish the manju now.  He took another quiet sip of the tea, finishing it off and letting his eyes rest on the lingering foam.  
A cold sensation curved down over his cheek, around the hollow of his eye, and he hurriedly set the bowl down and closed his eyes, focusing on inhaling and exhaling, on the sensation of his hands folding together on his lap.  
Still kneeling across from him, Sanctum matched his stillness.  Not even a rustle sounded from her long, draping sleeves.  Even her breathing fell naturally into pace with his own.  Silence blanketed the room, no sound from outside making its way to his ears.  
Finally, he released a sigh and opened his eyes.  Lifting his hand, he brushed his fingers over the side of his face then drew them back down. After particularly bad spells, his fingertips sometimes came back black with residue, as if he’d smudged them over wet ink, but today they came back bare and clean.   He sighed again, shorter, more relieved, and looked up into Sanctum’s patient, sympathetic eyes.
“Can we go see his picture now?”  
“Of course.”  She smiled.  “The picture’s in the community center at the playground.”
Rikiya hesitated.  The rec center was visible from the house driveway.
“…Can we use your Stride?” he asked.
“Your wish is my command, Re-Destro,” Sanctum chuckled.  She stood, bowing as he stood in turn, and ushered him back up to the front.  
Outside, Rampart was talking with one of the men who’d been out walking his dog and stopped to salute—which he and Rampart both did again as Rikiya leaned over to offer one hand to the dog, smiling at the wet press of its nose on his palm.  He ran his other hand over the thick waves of its fur in long, even strokes, watching its tail sweep excited circles in the air.  
“We’re taking a jaunt over to the community center,” Sanctum said above him.  “I’d offer to take you, too, but my spine says ‘Only in the case of an emergency, you daft old woman.’  I’m sure you understand.”
The neighbor snorted back a laugh and Rikiya looked back up to find Rampart checking his watch.  
“Ten minutes?” he asked.
“Probably less,” Sanctum answered, and leaned down, stretching out her arms.  
Rikiya stepped gingerly up to her.  He kept his hands to himself rather than get dog on her kimono, but leaned his weight in when she scooped him off the ground and straightened back up.  She fixed her gaze on the building at the far end of the playground, narrowed her eyes, and took a single firm step forward.  
Deep shadows fell over them both.  The air felt suddenly closer, filled with the rubbery smell of sports equipment.  His head still spinning pleasantly, Rikiya obediently held still as Sanctum set him down.  
“Let your eyes adjust for a few seconds while I find the light switch,” she said and shuffled away into the gloom.  Sure enough, a moment later an overhead light flickered to life, illuminating a room that was half office, half supply closet.  Next to Rikiya, in one corner, a desk and chair sat tucked beneath a small window, a short filing cabinet standing beside it.  Plastic bins were stacked up beyond that, and past them, the door to the room. Metal shelving units lined the opposite wall, holding books at the end near the desk and an assortment of games and sports equipment all along the rest of its length.  A hefty toolbox and a first aid kit were displayed prominently across from the door.
Sanctum scanned over a row of books on the shelf, mostly titles like “Activities for Children” and “Complete Rules of Classic Baseball,” but at the far end, simply a row of blue photo albums, spines unmarked save for thin numeric inscriptions.  With a satisfied noise, she pulled one down and brought it over to the desk.  
“May I sit?” she asked, and when he nodded, swept a hand under her kimono before lowering herself into the chair.  He closed the distance between them, standing at the arm of the chair and observing as she flipped through the album.
Pages and pages of old photos passed them by, discoloring at the edges.  Rikiya frowned—his teachers told him regularly that he needed to be as familiar as possible with the members of the Army, but in those pictures, the best he could pick out was the odd sign of a particularly distinctive meta-ability—Anchor‘s curving horns here, a boy with Aozono‘s bright green skin, a girl with a lightning stripe mark in her hair just like Toryu.  
“Ah.  Here we are.”  Sanctum spread the album wide and angled toward him.  The righthand page was covered in handwritten text, words flowing together under his eyes.  Opposite it, a large photo, twice as big as the others, took up the whole left page by itself.  A boy and a girl in gym uniforms, arms wrapped each other, looked out from the picture.  The girl had to be his mother—because who else could she be?—with her dark hair and soft eyes, the mark of her meta ability a dark little blotch at the base of her throat.  She was smiling wider than in any picture at home.  The boy…  
“You have his hair, you know.  The color,” Sanctum said quietly as Rikiya started at the bright-eyed boy in the photo, caught mid-laugh, the reddish-brown of his hair vivid even on the faded paper. The dark shell of Destro’s power covered his hands and upper arms, effortlessly holding Rikiya’s mother off the ground.  “They’d just won a brother-sister relay race.  It was at a family event in the summer, back when he was still in high school. There were some quick people in his generation, but none faster than him when his spirits were high.”
“I guess—you never found out what happened to him?”  It didn’t seem likely, but then, even if the warriors had never found him, that didn’t mean they might not have…
“I’m afraid not,” Sanctum said, dashing his small hopes.  
“Do you think it was heroes? Could they have found out about us?”
“No.”  Sanctum’s voice grew more serious.  “When heroes find us, they carry out raids.  They break up our communities.  They split up families, take children from their parents, send those parents off to jail for years and years, even for the rest of their lives.” She shook her head.  “If heroes had found out about us, we would have known.”
“Were you ever in a raid, Sanctum?” Rikiya asked, resting his hands on the arm of the chair and looking up into the old warrior’s eyes.
“Once, when I was very young—even younger than you.”  
“How did you get out?”
“Well, I inherited my father’s quirk, you know.”  She closed the album and placed it on the desk, then turned to face him.  “He had brought me along to a meeting—there were few enough of us in those days that it was hard to spare anyone for child-sitting. I remember that one moment, everyone was talking in hushed voices, and then the window broke and suddenly, everyone was shouting.  There were feet pounding on the stairs, a fist punched straight through the door, and then my father was calling for me.”
She paused, then chuckled ruefully.  
“You won’t hear me ask you this often, but did you see that news clip going around last week—the one of the hero from America rescuing all those people from a fire?”  When Rikiya shook his head, she placed her elbows on the arms of the chair and knitted her fingers together, resting her chin on them.  “That’s how I remember Father looking back then. There were people holding onto his shoulders, being carried in his arms.  He had to bend over so I could get my arms around his neck, and I remember being afraid that he wouldn’t be able to stand back up.  It must have been so heavy…”
She was quiet for a moment, staring blankly over his shoulder, and Rikiya took a breath.  
“He honored Destro and Liberation with his service,” he recited, as level as he could.  
Sanctum’s eyes snapped back to the present and she smiled at him brightly, looking, for a moment, as happy as his lost uncle in the picture.  She saluted, the movement every bit as graceful and precise as her movements during tea ceremony.    
“Thank you, my young Commander.  Do you wish to keep the photo?”
He thought about it—thought about being able to look at it whenever he wanted, then thought about all the pictures his mother didn’t have of her brother, and what might happen if she found one.  
“I think—I think Mother is sad enough already,” he said.  “But I know where to find it now.”  
“That’s very wise, and very kind of you.”  She stood and placed the album back on the shelf.  “Then we should be getting back.  The same way we came?”
He chanced a smile.  “Yes, please.”  
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