#longer ramble 2night

[cyannidex33]

tw sh ramble !!

i cut at school today but i usually don't on my arms but like whatever i was at school im not gonna pull my pants down to cut my thighs instead uhh so yeah !! my one friend that checks on me and like is lowkey kind of fucking annoying sometimes because like leave me alone yk i cut myself erm why ask me about it but like i know they're just trying to be nice or whatever but like sometimes just don't say anything. anyway i didn't have to worry about them cuz they weren't at school today anyway :3

but i do love them a lot

but like still leave me alone plz js don't mention it every time you see it "are those fresh?" YES NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE STOP ASKING ME ABOUT IT.

[genderfluidloki]

some rambly thoughts about the wwdits finale and also i am stoned

hit me talking to quinn 2night that there’s still a pretty significant power imbalance between nandor and guillermo. i appreciate that they are on *more* even ground that they used to be, with guillermo being a hunter and no longer nandor’s familiar... but it’s still like, far from equal footing. guillermo wants desperately to be a vampire and he’s pretty immersed in vampire society, but in vampire society he’s still less. humans are just not equals to them. vampires do not respect guillermo. in that circle of society, guillermo is seen as less of a person. also nandor holds the key to getting guillermo what he wants, which is to be a vampire. 

the only way nandor and guillermo can truly get to the point where they are able to have a functional relationship is if guillermo is a vampire.

or if nandor is a human.

i’ve always wondered if wwdits would go the route of guillermo not choosing to be a vampire in the end and embracing his humanity. it’s something i’ve seen in plenty of vampire media and also i wonder if he can’t become a vampire because of his vampire hunter ancestry.... but i’ve always preferred the idea of him becoming a vampire anyway. i think he should take what he’s owed. i think sometimes characters don’t need to learn a lesson about not getting what they want. i want guillermo to be happy, more than anything.

but with him asking derek in the season finale, like.... i don’t think they’re gonna turn guillermo into a vampire in season 5. i think if such a big dynamic changing event like that is gonna happen, it’s going to be the finale finale. wwdits COULD change up the formula, they could change up the dynamic and make guillermo a vampire when there’s only two seasons left, but it’s risky to make such a big change to the structure of the show like that.

so yeah i don’t think derek is gonna be able to turn him.

but there’s that second option. if nandor is human....

nandor has been so fucking sick of being a vampire for a while now. he’s trying to find the love that is going to change his life and make it exciting again, and it keeps not working. he’s lonely, but he’s also in a rut. he isn’t doing anything, his life has stagnated. he has said he doesn’t want to turn guillermo because it’s a curse.

nandor needs to change his own life, he can’t keep waiting on falling in love or hoping some outside force is going to make his life interesting again. and he still has two wishes.

i also think that nandor will definitely not be made human next season, that’s probably like. finale finale material. for the same reason i don’t think guillermo will be a vampire next season. 

i think it would be really sweet for nandor to become human. a little bit cliche, but the road to get there would be interesting. 

i already thought that a lot would need to change for nandor and guillermo to get together. their relationship is NOT healthy. guillermo does not and should not keep putting up with his shit. i think nandor can change but i think it’s going to take a LOT. especially after the freddie episode.... he’s hurt guillermo a lot over the years but that was so far over the line. 

also i would be fine if they don’t end up together. as of the finishing of this season i’m more okay than ever if nandermo isn’t endgame. in the end, maybe nandor simply doesn’t fucking deserve guillermo, and they could have been something if nandor had gotten his shit together sooner, but he lost his chance. he had so many of them.

also dude i’m so fucking proud of guillermo for asking derek to turn him btw. i love that. he’s been waiting on nandor so long i’m so glad that he’s not letting nandor have that power over him anymore. he’s fucking earned it. 

[lightningfilledsaber]

*takes my break early*