cyannidex33

[cyannidex33]

that feeling after you send an anon with your little anon emoji but then don't remember if you actually did it anonymously so you might have just revealed yourself but you have to wait for them to reply to it to see and uhm anxiety happens so yeah :((

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jirai has nothing to do with clothes or makeup. it's a lifestyle. stop saying lifestyle jirais aren't 'real' jirais.

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i'm actually too magical for that world and i deserve someone way better than all of you in fact i deserve everything in the world good and bad i am worthy of both a despair death and a hopeful life

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she's definitely falling out of love with me she's online and posting on her story but not replying to me?? what the fuck just say you hate me

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hewo cyan i think you are really special and amazing and interesting and also your struggles are relatable ! do you enjoy any drinks or even just water?

AAA thank u sosososo much for the compliments and im happy you find me relatable though im not the best person to be relating to..but i do appreciate it very much !!!! ヽ(´¬`)ノ

as for drinks i really really love orange strawberry or grape soda !! i love all soda honestly just not mountain dew and i drink water occasionally but i have always kinda struggled to drink water and i once got so dehydrated i went to a doctor and they used a baggy thingy with a hose to i put salt (i think??) into my blood

uhh im rambling now but yeah thank u sosososososo so much for the ask!!! <3333

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i love writing so much except i mostly write about wanting to die but uhm yeah

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please someone save me for the 2827th time i want to die so bad and i don't even know why please someone help i hate thisisusussbfrjrujddkhddjjejssjsjsjrjnddnsj

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i don't want to wake up anymore

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I like to daydream that I matter to someone

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bro my friend saw my cuts because i cut my arms instead of my thighs for once uhhhh never again

[cyannidex33]

nothing goes the right way in my life anymore why is my favorite vtuber a pedophile sigh fuck my life

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i got an 11/20 on a test today but it's okay it's just social studies it's not math or english so it's not that important i think??

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i hate this i can't tell anyone about this sigh besides you guys i luv you cute little people on the internet who like my posts and reblog my posts and follow me and ddidnsfisieisahahshdbejrjdjsje i love you all so so much jaissjnrhrnsowwnfhsj <33333

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tw sh ramble !!

i cut at school today but i usually don't on my arms but like whatever i was at school im not gonna pull my pants down to cut my thighs instead uhh so yeah !! my one friend that checks on me and like is lowkey kind of fucking annoying sometimes because like leave me alone yk i cut myself erm why ask me about it but like i know they're just trying to be nice or whatever but like sometimes just don't say anything. anyway i didn't have to worry about them cuz they weren't at school today anyway :3

but i do love them a lot

but like still leave me alone plz js don't mention it every time you see it "are those fresh?" YES NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE STOP ASKING ME ABOUT IT.

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what if we liek …. held hands n jumped off a roof together ^_^

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i'm back after idk how long i think like almost a month?? idk uhh who missed me !!?!?!??!???? (nobody even realized i was gone LMAO)

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This riff is hard...