#lol sorry I'm just very nervous and excited about interacting with people I like

[honeyandbiscuitandtea-cafe]

Thank you for liking so many of my ramblings!! 😬

I thought absolutely no one was reading those 😂💜

OMG I legitimately had a heart attack when I saw you in my inbox like no joke I legit thought I saw wrong like I love your writing and fics a lot I also love your oc your an amazing and talented writer also hope there's no problem with me liking a lot of your ramblings I just found them all so funny and relatable that I liked them like your legit one of my favorite nanami and higuruma writers like those two have me in a absolute chokehold and I'm happy I found your blog because of it

[libbytwq]

hey can i be sappy for a moment, i feel like getting a thing off my chest (positive vent)

I love you all in the SMG4 Tumblr community so much. Y'all are absolutely epic and amazing and so creative and just. chill.

I've always been so nervous about joining set fandoms/fandom communities, cuz usually the community is huge and overwhelming, toxic, scary, crazy, and the idea of being in those communities and interacting with people in those communities and being in there not just to post a dingle fanart from it and dip, but to help be a big part of the community and whatnot sounded... overwhelming.

Then I slowly began getting super hyperfixated on SMG4, much more than I usually am, leading me to post more about it. Fanart, things I notice, goofy theories... more than just me saying a couple things i like about it, posting a fanart, then moving onto something else.

I started kinda just exploring the SMG4 tags and gradually, I began recognizing most of the people in this community more and more -- recognizing art styles, etc. I noticed how small a community it was.

And it was a mostly chill community. I wasn't really seeing much drama or questionable things, maybe some criticisms about the show or theories or whatever, but nobody was at each others throats. Plus, the fan OCs were super neat.

I had begun posting more and more SMG4 content, drawing fanart, their OCs, and the fact people were so just... chill and welcoming about it was so nice. It wasn't nearly as scary -- we are all just vibing here. Most of the artists you look up to will probably see your work, and give it attention too.

It feels super strange to be considered an SMG4 Tumblr artist, having people literally enjoying the things I make and making things for me when they make things for SMG4 fanartists... its honestly super surreal. But so so exciting and euphoric.

Cuz yall are so awesome!! Yall make my day so bright. Yall are the best.

I'll be honest, when I first was slowly being a part of the SMG4 community -- sometime right after summer vacation began -- I had been dealing with some petty but difficult irl person issues.

I don't want to get into it too much, but I had basically messed up in a pretty bad way (enough to make me feel bad the moment I did it, but not enough that we couldn't move on and mature from it), and the people involved were hurt worse than I thought they were, and instead of trying to talk it out they resorted lying about being my friends for months before school ended, and over summer break, tried to cancel one of my Scratch account and drag my followers there into drama that they had no business being in, for the simple reason being "you don't deserve all that fame".

Despite their attempt at trying to cancel me not really working out very well, it very much affected me negatively and made me very very scared about using Scratch again. I still post projects there sometimes, but i felt weird when i do it. I felt like those people were watching my every move, waiting to try and drag me down again. It felt so strange and scary to feel like the people I once cared so deeply about are breathing down my neck, waiting for me to make another wrong move and add it to their proof of why I'm an awful person.

It sucks ass.

The SMG4 community here on Tumblr, despite none of you knowing I was going through anything at all, you all helped a lot. Just existing.

Being a welcoming community that I feel safe to be silly and normal in.

I've never been the best at expressing appreciation, but let me just say:

I think of you all so highly and I never want you to change.

Keep making silly art. Or fanfics. Or AUs. Or OCs. Or whatever you like doing in this tiny close-knit fandom.

Keep doing everything you're doing to make this community mean so much to me.

❤️❤️❤️

...this sounds like im leaving the community,, IM NOT I just wanted to get it off my chest cuz ive been experiencing the emotions™ yknow, sorry that its not like my regular posts lol, im not gonna post like this much LMAOOO

TL;DR: yall are fuckin awesome please keep being awesome forever and ever ily bye

[ghost-in-the-hall]

Hello! I have finally stopped crying about Friday night long enough to come tell you guys about it! Also kind of a face reveal I guess? I wasn't planning on posting pictures of myself ever on Tumblr but, um, I met some of Powerwolf, so I'm telling literally everyone who will listen about it. If you'd like to read all about the most amazing night of my life it's below the cut cause my god am I going to ramble and there's going to be a lot of pictures. Posting Update coming later now that I can finally get back to work ❤️

*cracks knuckles* now, I had to take the full day yesterday to literally sit on my floor with my friends to recount that night in as much detail as possible. Every thing I tell you has been fact checked and reviewed by 3 other people lol. I literally can't even believe the night I had, I still think I'm dreaming tbh.

So, as you may or may not know, Powerwolf is literally my favorite band ever. I missed their first US tour so I was determined to get my ass to this show and have the greatest time, also I'm not going to turn down a chance to see Falk Maria Schlegel in person, it ain't gunna happen chief. I got tickets for my friends and I, we made a whole day of it, we got our nails done and met up the morning of and had breakfast and did face masks and all got ready together, it was wonderful, I'm so glad we made the decision to do that because of my god my NERVES that morning. We ended up getting to the venue around 3, which meant we had to stand in line for 4 hours but it was definitely worth the sacrifice. We were about 10 people from the front by the time we lined up. When we got there, none other than Roel VanHelden was hanging out around their tour bus, taking pictures and just talking with a small group of people. He was so nice when we went down to meet him, my friends and I were all dressed up for the occasion and he looked at us and went "wow, you all look incredible!" I think my soul left my body. I told him he was my favorite drummer ever and I'm so excited to finally be able to see him live and he looked so genuinely flattered. I got a picture with him that's at the bottom.

A little while later I look down the sidewalk and happen to notice Charles doing the same thing. He was also super sweet and super funny. I, for some reason, was so much more nervous meeting him than I was meeting Roel so I just kind of ran up said hi took my picture said thank you and ran away, but he was very sweet when he was talking with my friends. ALSO HES SO DAMN HANDSOME WITH HIS GLASSES ON I AM SUCH A CHARLES GIRL AFTER FRIDAY NOW BUT WELL GET MORE INTO WHY LATER!!! Sorry lost my cool, picture with him is also below

We get inside, we get all the way up to the left side of the stage at the barrier, I'm directly in front of Falk and Matthew the entire concert. Unleash The Archers was incredible, I unfortunately only know their song Soulbound, but they're amazing if you're into women fronted power metal bands, I highly recommend them. The entirety of the concert itself was incredible, everyone is so talented and it was so amazing, just for the music I would go back again and again.

But, my god, do those men LOVE interacting with the crowd. I'm gunna go member by member, we made a bullet list lol. We ended up getting notices by every single member of Powerwolf multiple times, like I seriously still can't believe it, it doesn't feel real, but it happened and I have 3 other people telling me it happened so I guess I have to trust them lol.

Roel we unfortunately didn't get to see much obviously because he's at his kit, but after the show was over he came over and gave my friend a drum cover that was signed by the entire band, we have agreed that one day a month I come over we pull it out (until it gets framed), smoke a bowl, and just look at it for a little while together because that's how we're going to share joint custody of it lol. Seeing him play live was also just unreal.

Attila carries such a presence on stage it's actually fucking insane. How easily that man can command an entire room is scary. I don't know if I have the video, I might have to get it from someone else still. But there was one point we were singing along with Attila and he came over and sang directly to my friend and I and reached out for us and we both screamed. He acknowledged us a couple other times throughout the show.

We were on the opposite side of the stage from Charles but him and Matthew switch sides pretty much during every song so he was over pretty frequently. The first time he came over he immediately recognized my little group, he pointed right at me and smiled, I personally think he noticed how I loosened up a lot since almost passing out earlier lol. But he would be constantly coming over and singing along with us, there was also one point I noticed he accidentally bumped into Attila and he just looked at him and blew him a kiss and it was the funniest thing I've ever seen. CHARLES ALSO THREW ME ONE OF HIS ARM BANDS!!!! When he came over after final bows, he threw a couple pics, I missed literally all of them because I have zero depth perception and despite the fact I was wearing 5" platforms I was still stupidly short lol, he noticed proceeds to pull off one of the ones he had on, came right to the edge of the stage and tossed it to me and he got so smiley when I screamed back thank you, he has such a nice smile omfg it's not fair. But he was incredible.

We were right in front of Matthew, we definitely spent the most time with him, he was also in love with us. They played Sinners of The Seven Seas, which is a personal favorite song of mine, so I was absolutely losing my shit, screaming every word, and after they finished each song he would acknowledge the whole crowd and give thumbs up and all that, and then he looks at me, I shit you not my knees almost have out from just now direct this eye contact was the first time, he goes "wow" and gives me a thumbs up and a really impressed look, so of course I got all flustered which made him laugh. He would acknowledge me after pretty much every song, doing kind of the same thing, motioning to the whole crowd and then motioning directly to me, it became a joke, we would both laugh whenever he did it. At one point I made a heart at him and he got the brightest smile and also seemed so genuinely flattered, they all did, every one of them just seemed so touched and happy that all of us loved them so much it was super sweet. But, anyways, back to Matthew. He sang along with us a lot too and was just genuinely so fun to watch, he's such a talented guitarist, I got to see him play the most. He also threw me a guitar pick, I gave it to one of my other friends that came since she didn't catch anything.

Falk Maria Schlegel... I was so insane about this man BEFORE this concert... I am simply unwell about him now. This, to me, is by far the most unbelievable part of my night because I'm literally in love with him. He's kind of similar to Roel where it's hard to get his attention cause he's also mostly up on the back stage, so he didn't really start to come down to the stage until near the end of the show anyways. But he came down at one point and that man held eye contact with me for a good 30 seconds while Attila was making his speech, I thought my heart stopped, how are his eyes even prettier in person? He's just so fun and so cute, I love watching him interact with the crowd. He came over to my side of the stage after the first encore, Attila was giving a speech about how we're all one big heavy metal family and it was very nice. I had to go over this with my friends about 9 times, I still think they're lying to me and I hallucinated the whole thing. Falk motions to the whole crowd and says I love you, then turns looks directly at me, motions to me specifically and says I love you. I blacked out for about 30 seconds I think, my heart was restarted by the last song starting (I fucking love werewolves of Armenia) they were doing final bows and Falk came back over to my side of the stage, he looked at me so I blew him a kiss and made a heart and he went, "oh! Thank you!" Motioned to me and then held his hands over his chest and he looked so happy, they all looked so happy, I hope they come back soon I already miss them. I plan on being right back up in front next time, who knows, maybe they'll even remember me lol

We're also going to be in their city recap video, and Jen Dorn (Attila's wife) took a bunch of pictures and posted a video of us on her Instagram and we got to meet her too, she was also very sweet and very pretty!!

Okay have some pictures of the greatest night of my life, some of them aren't cropped right, that's my bad lol

I have more videos and stuff I can post if you guys would like to see them!!

[sunshinevanfleet]

something in the air - s. kiszka

pairing: sam x reader

a/n: hi guys! it feels so weird to be writing on here after a very long, shall we say, hiatus... this is a decently long one (compared to others i've written) and it's also my first full-blown smut. so i'm kinda nervous about that, but i do have experience writing smut so i hope it's decent lol. anyways, i was just inspired and wanted to do some writing. i've opened up requests again if you have any. this is unedited so sorry for any mistakes! let me know what you think.

genre: smut (18+ ONLY, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT).

word count: 3.4k

summary: the reader and sam attend a friend's wedding at the beach. things get a little out of hand.

warnings: alcohol consumption, explicit sex scenes, fingering, unprotected sex, etc.

There was something in the air tonight. A light ocean breeze caressed your skin delicately as you sat reveling in the candlelight. A few tables over, you watched one of your close friends from college, Anna, giving her wedding toast alongside her now-wife. The ceremony had been intimate and beautiful, but nothing in comparison to the breathtaking reception taking place around you. There were a few tables clustered throughout the grass, each decorated with elegant candles and gold-trimmed glassware. White roses were scattered around: as centerpieces, hanging from the canopy above, and even carefully placed on the ground around you.  She raised her glass of champagne in the air, the warm light shimmering against the chilled glass, and she made her toast. Beside you, Sam lifted his own drink in the air, and clinked it with yours. You took a long drink, watching with tears in your eyes as Anna kissed her wife and everyone cheered.

“I can’t believe I’m crying,” you muttered to your smiling boyfriend. Sam merely laughed, brushing a strand of hair out of your eyes and stroking your head comfortingly.

“I can,” he said in return. “You cry at weddings on TV, Y/N.”

You laughed at this, your voice barely audible over the excited chattering all around you. Now that dinner was over, and all of the toasts made, it was well into time for dancing. You took another swig of your champagne, the expensive drink bubbling over your tongue and stinging slightly in your throat. You had never been a very good dancer– you figured it would probably help to loosen you up if you were a little tipsy.

Sam was already on his feet, his cream-colored linen top unbuttoned halfway down. You could see a thin sheen of sweat adorning his skin from the humidity in the air. He grasped you around your wrist, and pulled you to your feet without a second thought. You still had your champagne flute clutched in one hand as he dragged you over to the stone dance floor. Both of your shoes lay forgotten beneath the table. 

There was a slow, beachy instrumental playing in the background as the other guests joined all of you. The brides were entwined with one another several feet away, and you smiled as you caught Anna’s eye and mouthed, “Congratulations.”

“You know,” said Sam as he curled an arm around your waist. “I always thought the beach was a shitty place for a wedding until now.”

You laughed incredulously, hushing him with a finger to his lip. He grinned. 

“What changed?” you asked, voice almost a whisper. You swayed along to his lead, keeping your hand with the champagne balanced on his shoulder. The last thing you wanted to do was shatter the glass by dropping it. 

“Being here with you,” he said softly. The candlelight glowed around him; silhouetted against the darkness of the sky above the ocean behind him, he looked more like an angel than ever. You brought your free hand up, and placed it against his cheek.

“I love you,” you said, your face flushing. You were never big on PDA, but here, somehow it felt like you were the only two people in the world. Sam leaned his forehead against yours, and you felt your breaths mingle together.

“I love you, honey.”

As the song changed, Sam moved to grab your hands. 

“Hold on, let me put this back,” you said, taking a step to put the champagne back on the table.

“Nonsense,” he grabbed the glass from your hand, drained it in one gulp, then placed it on top of the nearby piano. Luckily it was unoccupied.

“Don’t let me leave that there,” you said. He grasped your hands as the song began to pick up tempo, and spun you around. Your dress billowed gracefully around your legs, barely sweeping over the tops of your feet. You hummed softly along, grateful for the cool night breeze. It surprised you that you had yet to sweat all of your makeup off; you thought it had been an incredibly hot day to choose to have a wedding on. Although the makeup survived, your hair could not say the same. The silken tresses you arrived with  had now sweated out to reveal unruly waves framing your face. 

The champagne was finally hitting you as Sam spun you once more. Your head swam blissfully. You thought vaguely that this was the happiest you had ever been. The night air grew cool against your burning skin, against the temperature rising between your body pressed against Sam��s. You were still sweating, although it was less noticeable as you were very distracted by the ethereal view of your boyfriend swaying in the low light. His eyes were closed, head nodding as he held you close to him. The hand on your waist traced tiny circles along the exposed skin of your back. 

To you, it seemed that you had only been dancing for a few minutes. But, when you finally peeled your eyes away from Sam, you noticed that there were very few guests remaining besides the two of you. You were the only couple still dancing. Anna and her wife entertained a few friends at their table, chatting animatedly. There were a few guys crowded around the bar, laughing lightly at something the bartender said. Behind you, a waiter swept the empty champagne glass off of the piano.

Sam finally caught your attention once again, tugging on your hand. 

“Let’s go down to the water,” he said, his voice whispering along with the breeze. 

“Hmmm?” You asked distractedly, meeting the warmth of his eyes. There was something deeper than mere affection clouding his gaze, something burning there. His eyes had darkened considerably. 

“Let’s go for a swim,” he said, a gentle grin playing on his lips. 

“Okay,” you said, “Let me grab a towel.” You let his hand go for a second, grabbing a conveniently placed towel from a shelf at the edge of the lawn.

“C’mere,” he pulled you along, slipping past the group at the bar to the rocky path that led down to the beach. It was cooler here, without the burning candles and fairy lights and what little was left of the crowd. He walked with confidence, like he had been down this dim path before, leading you down to the sand. You stumbled a time or two, but he always caught you with ease. You were like an extension of himself– he was constantly aware of you there beside him. 

The winding path led you down to something like a cove; it was shielded from the rest of the beach by several towering cliffs and some greenery. Behind you, you could vaguely see the glow cast from the wedding party, shimmering above the cliffs. You gaped at the sight around you; from the view at the reception, you would have no clue that this place even existed.

“How’d you know this was here?” you asked quietly. Your voice was still loud, as isolated as the two of you were. The only other sound around you was Sam’s slow breathing and the ocean waves lapping against the sandy shore. You placed the towel carefully in the sand, laying it out for when the two of you were done swimming. 

Sam grinned, “I may have gone exploring this morning, before you woke up.”

Your jaw dropped. “Are you serious? I would’ve loved to see this place in the daylight!”

Sam hushed you quickly, pulling you into him. “Shhhh, baby,” his eyes glanced from your face up to the cliffs behind you. “Don’t want anyone else joining us down here.”

You made a face. “Why’s that?”

He grinned again. “Want you all to myself.” His voice was muffled as he pressed his lips into the crook of your neck, trailing kisses up to your jawline. He pressed his lips gently to the sensitive spot behind your ear, and you shivered as you tangled one hand into his hair. Your other hand gripped his shoulder desperately, your nails digging into his skin through his shirt. He breathed heavily, kissing up your jaw until your mouths were less than a centimeter away from each other’s. 

His lips brushed yours, just barely, and you nearly whimpered. Your skin burned against his, and one of his hands snaked up your side to the zipper on your dress. “Take it off,” he said, his voice hoarse. 

“What if someone finds us?”

“Don’t care,” he said, his lips finally finding purchase against yours. Your skin erupted in goosebumps as his fingers began to drag the zipper slowly down. Using the hand not tangled in his hair, you began to unbutton his shirt the rest of the way. Your fingers brushed against his stomach, and you felt the muscles clench beneath your fingers. 

“Seeing you in this dress has been killing me all night,” he muttered against your mouth. “Couldn’t wait to get you out of it.”

You groaned against him.

His fingers reached the end of the zipper, and he began to peel the dress apart, watching with hooded eyes as the fabric dropped into the sand. You wore nothing beneath the dress. You breathed deeply, a shiver crawling up your spine as the cool night air hit your bare skin. 

“God, you’re beautiful,” his hands found your bare skin, fingers dragging against your sides. He stood and admired you for a moment. Your hands twitched, resisting the urge to cover yourself; you felt exposed, standing there bare in the moonlight while he was almost entirely clothed. 

“Sammy, ‘s cold out here,” you said, a low whine in your voice. Truthfully, it was cold, but you also could barely stand to see that look in his eyes and not have him touching you. You were almost writhing just from his gaze. 

“Lay down,” he said, nodding towards the towel on the ground. You did as he said, lowering yourself gently to the ground. The towel was soft against your bare skin, and warmer than the night air. He stood above you for a second, then kneeled on the ground in front of you as he swept his shirt off of his shoulders and let it fall to the ground. 

Without saying anything, he bent over you, crashing your lips together once again. The kiss was more desperate this time, now that you were sprawled beneath him and the starry sky. The sound of the waves behind you helped lull you into relaxation. His torso melded against yours, his skin burning hot. You were beginning to warm back up very easily. One of his arms propped his body above yours, but the other snaked down your chest. His fingers trailed beneath the valley of your breasts, tracing over to drag over one of your hardened nipples. You gasped into his mouth. He smiled against you. 

You moaned into his mouth as he pinched the nipple, rolling it between the pads of his index finger and thumb. Your hips rolled up against him, trying to find any friction against his still-clothed bottom half. You felt the drag of his hardened bulge against your core for half a second, and let out a lewd moan. 

“I love hearing you,” he muttered, finally disconnecting his lips from your own. His mouth once again trailed down your neck, sucking a dark mark into the skin of your collarbone before he moved back up to face you. “Let me hear you, baby.” Then, the fingers attending to your nipple moved down your stomach.

Your hips bucked up again, but he leaned back and used his other hand to keep you from moving. His hand dragged over your hip bone, and down to your thigh. He gripped the skin here, kneading your thigh as he watched your expression hungrily.

“Please, Sammy,” you whined, still writhing beneath him. 

A look of smug satisfaction graced his features. “You’re so cute, honey, lying here so desperate for me. Begging me… and I haven’t even touched you yet…”

He licked his lips as his eyes dropped from your face, to your dripping core exposed to him. “So wet for me, hm?”

One finger dipped into your folds, slick and hot. He groaned at the feeling, coating the callused pad of his middle finger in your juices, before rubbing it delicately against your clit. He was torturing you, going so slowly that you were barely able to think about anything other than him giving you what you needed so desperately. And you needed him like never before.

Again, you tried bucking your hips, but he was pinning you down with ease. It was in these moments when you realized just how strong he was; how easy it was for him to overpower you and do whatever he wanted with you. The thought alone made you moan aloud. 

“I need it faster, please,” you said desperately. Your voice barely made it out of your mouth before Sam was speeding up, just a bit. You threw your head back, your entire body tensing as the feeling of him working your body with his expertise shot through you. Your hands shot up, gripping his wrist as he increased the speed even further. 

Without you asking, his other hand moved from its place above your belly button. He brought his middle and ring finger to his mouth, coating them in his saliva before he brought them down to your center. He teased your entrance excruciatingly slowly, as if this were the first time he was touching you at all.

Your face was on fire, and your nails began to dig into his skin. He was holding you right on the edge– his fingers on your clit speeding up and slowing down with each change in your facial expression. A moan tore from your throat as he continued edging you.

“Sammy–” you gasped, feeling the two of his fingers dip briefly into you, before he removed them.

“What’s that, honey? Did you say something?”

“Sam, please, I need it so bad…”

“You need what? Need me to stop?” His finger slowed again, and you nearly screamed as he moved to pull away from you.

“No– No, please, I need to cum. I’m so close, please,” you begged him, meeting his gaze. He grinned at you, his lips curling up into that sweet smile as if he weren’t torturing you with every single touch. 

“Hmmm, how close?” He leaned forward, still smiling at you. His dark eyes met yours, his forehead brushing against your own. You could taste his breath, the faint remains of champagne making you dizzy as you gasped against him. 

“So close, please, I need you so bad,” you whimpered, holding his wrist in a vice-grip. He still rubbed your clit, extremely slowly. Slowly enough to just keep you teetering against the edge. “Please,” you managed to squeak once more, and that seemed to be enough for him.

His fingers increased speed on your clit, and a second later he was curling two fingers inside of you as well. A string of high-pitched curses spewed from your lips, your back arching and your eyes screwed up. It was bliss, every muscle on your body tightening as you shook there beneath him. Your hips moved in time with the thrusts of his fingers, rocking against him.

Stars bloomed behind your eyelids, your forehead scrunched in concentration. 

“C’mon, honey, cum for me,” Sammy coaxed you sweetly. He placed a kiss against the corner of your mouth, watching intently as your face contorted in pleasure. You were nearly screaming at this point, too fucked-out to care if anyone nearby could hear you.

“Fuck,” you breathed hoarsely. “Sammy, I’m gonna–”

“Let it go,” he soothed, and your body began to shake forcibly as you finally teetered over the edge. Your legs clenched around his hands, and you rocked your hips against him almost violently. Your voice cracked as you sang out his name, over and over again, his hands never stopping their ministrations. As you finally came down once again, he kissed you very gently, as if you were some delicate flower lying under him.

Your vision was hazy when you finally came to, after. You watched him as he fiddled with the clasp on his pants. You wanted to lean up and help, but your limbs felt like jelly as you laid there. Instead, you watched him in all of his glory. Sweat dripped down the side of his face, and he breathed as heavily as you were.

Your eyelids drooped as you watched him. It was pure bliss, seeing his figure silhouetted against the moonlight shining on the waves behind him. Your toes curled in the sand, and you shifted slightly as he freed himself from his pants and briefs. His cock sprung up against his stomach, and you reached for him instinctively. You began to sit up, but he stopped you.

“No, honey, I need you. Now,” he said breathily. He leaned over you once again, and placed a kiss against your forehead, then on both of your eyelids, your nose, and finally your lips. Between you, one of his hands guided him to your entrance.

Your mouth dropped open in pure ecstasy as he pushed inside of you; the both of you moaned in sync. His head fell into the crook of your neck as he slowly began to move. Your legs quivered around his waist already. The feeling of him stretching you open was divine; you thought this was as close to paradise as you had ever been in your life. 

“It’s been too long,” he breathed against your skin. He placed open-mouthed kisses along your neck and shoulder as he rocked against you.

“Way too long,” you agreed. You missed feeling this, having him buried to the hilt inside of you. You loved being close to him. Having him be the only one to know you this way. 

With every thrust, his cock dragged slowly against your g-spot. Your head was swimming again, as you jerked your hips up against him with every movement. He was slowly increasing the pace, grunting against your neck.

“Fuck, you’re so perfect for my cock, honey,” he mused, pulling away from your neck. You leaned up, planting a kiss on his jawline. You could taste the sweat dripping over his face as you moved up to press your lips against his. His tongue found its way into your mouth, tangling with yours as his movements became jerky.

You were getting close, too, your stomach clenching underneath him. You gripped his back with one hand, and moved the other between your bodies, circling your clit once again. You pressed your chest against his, holding him as tightly as you could as the both of you chased your high once more.

His hips continued their relentless movement, now barrelling into you. You were moaning uncontrollably now, your head thrown back in ecstasy. 

“Fuck, Y/N, I’m close,” he moaned, his breath fanning against your face. 

You nodded, “I know, Sammy, me too,” you breathed. “I want– I want you to cum inside me.”

His movements stuttered for a moment, but he resumed them easily. “Oh, honey, you’re killing me,” he groaned throatily. You sighed as he reached down and replaced your hand with his own. You let out a vulgar mewl, toes curling and hands gripping Sammy’s shoulders so hard you thought he would bleed.

You were right on the edge, your walls clenching around him as he deepened his thrusts. You were practically crying, his fingers toying with your clit relentlessly. You felt him twitch inside of you, and you knew it was time. He came inside of you, filling you to the brim with his cum. You sang his name again, your voice hoarse as you tightened around him, milking the rest of his orgasm out of him. It was over after another few thrusts, and he collapsed on top of you. You reached up, cradling his head as he leaned down into the crook of your neck. He placed a kiss on your collarbone, sighing. 

“So good,” you hummed, exhausted. 

“I needed that,” he whispered, kissing you again and again. “I love you so much, honey.”

“I love you, Sammy.”

He flipped off of you, and passed you his discarded shirt to wrap up in. You pulled it over your shoulders and buttoned it haphazardly. You were no longer cold, sitting there with the light breeze washing over your flushed skin. Sam pulled his pants back on, and wrapped his arm around you. You leaned into him and rested your head against his shoulder. A yawn fell from your lips as you sat there, admiring the view of the beach in front of you. You couldn’t be happier. 

[friendly-neighborhood-furry]

I really wanna be friends with you but i'm scared to take the first step, specially because, what if you don't want to? what if I scree it up?

you're just so cool, sorry..

oh yeah I have to ask something

Do you have pets? (genuine I wanna know because of the cat in your pfp lol)

its okay, don't be afraid to reach out! i'm always excited to make new friends, especially through places like tumblr! :) and don't worry about messing up either, if it makes you feel any better i have flubbed plenty of social interactions myself lol - -''

please feel free to reach out though! i'd be delighted to hang out and chat with you anon :)

to answer your second question, yes i do have pets! three cats and a nasty (affectionate) little dog.

funny enough, none of my cats are the one in my pfp! i just found that picture somewhere and have been using as a pfp ever since. but since we're talking about them already, i'll share some actual pictures of my critters!

this is wilson! we adopted him in 2018 (i think?) and we love him so dearly. since hes orange he has his weird little quirks, but he’s a very affectionate cat and an excellent napping companion :3

here are biscuits and cosmo! both were rescued in summer of ‘22. cosmo (right) was rescued first as a very young, malnourished, yet surprisingly fierce kitten, whom we nurtured and cared for diligently until she blossomed into the spry young cat she is today :) oh and biscuits kind of just showed up in our backyard one day

hes also VERY sweet and probably the most vocal cat i've ever known! you cant see it in this picture, but hes actually got a broken tail. the vet said it must have been broken a long time ago, and since it isn't causing him any pain, we've elected not to mess with it.

it is pretty interesting to look at though! i've thought about doing photoshoots with him so that myself and other warrior cats fans artists can use them as references. if anyone would be interested in seeing that, please let me know! :D

and here is the aforementioned dog. his names walter and he’s a terrier-dachshund mix (we suspect the terrier half to be a carin terrier) and he will be turning 14 this year!

truly one of the most vile, stubborn and ornery creatures i have ever lived with, but to be fair those words could also be used to describe everyone else in my family (myself included). its good that we're the people he ended up with because i truly don't think anyone else would put up with him LMAO-

all jokes aside though i really do love the lil guy. he’s incredibly loyal to us and he gets nervous when one of us isnt home (so quarantine was basically a dream come true for him). he's very cute and his age hasnt stopped him from being playful and excitable :)

anyway yeah i love my pets i love our animals couldn't imagine my life without animal companions in it

[just-a-carrot]

spoilers for arc 5 part 1 1/2

i haven’t seen that much people talking about scene where genzou apologised to orlam so imma tell you what i think about it personally

to be completely honest with you i didn't experience that many emotions when going through Arc 5. i still like it very much!! but it’s not the same kind of feeling that i had back in winter, when i played Our Wonderland for the first time. i can’t even explain what i’ve felt but it’s been soo amazing and powerful, my mind has been all over about your visual novel, i’ve spend nights discussing theories about it with my friend, and literally nothing else i've ever been interested in has awakened so many emotions in me as OW did. so when arc 5 came out, by that time i’d already cooled down and got into other things, and for some reason, i didn’t fall back to this kind of interest like i though i would, just had a nice nostalgic feeling while playing. including newest part.

i bawled my eyes out when genzou hugged orlam

i didn't expect it to have such an impact on me!! i had this deep and long forgotten feeling developing in my chest when genzou refused to speak about what he hates in orlam, and I was expecting something like this to happen, but only when Genzou proved my thoughts correct, BAM and I'm IMMEDIATELY in tears! it was like it’s winter all over again! and omg carrot i didn’t even get a chance to catch my breath, because genzou continued his speech and the animation just kept going and showing their interactions back in school, and i just cried louder and louder WHAT!!

i feel so so so sorry for orlam, he was so compassionate, kind, and feeling, and he didn’t deserved anything that had happened to him, and i can’t even imagine how much guilt regret and remorse is experiencing genzou. it was such an emotional moment, and now i’m actually really excited and looking forward for the future part(‘s ??) and seeing more of their interactions.

this part was great, i loved it! keep it up carrot you’re doing great!!

owowowowowo... 🥺💕 this is very sweet... thank you for taking the time to write up all your thoughts, i'm getting very weepy...

ahhh... what you talked about is one of my biggest points of anxiety and pressure/fear when making this game tbh (among others) 💦 that because it takes me so long to put out parts even those who might have played and liked the game won't care about it anymore 💦💦 ahhh... it's a big problem when you're a solo dev. i'm sorry i can't get stuff out more quickly 💦

i'm really happy you were able to find some of your past feelings when playing the new part though 🥺💕 it was also a very Important and Meaningful Scene for me (and by that i mean i cried even while planning it) so i was really hopeful that it would have a lot of impact and people might be able to feel things from it. i feel like so much of the story and the various character arcs having been leading up to it, so i wanted to make sure i put everything i could into making it. ofc hopefully the actual final finale will be what everything ultimately leads to LOL but like, this is the last stop along the way and something that's been building for a long time, so... i was rather nervous in general hoping that it could be impactful for people who have been playing the game

thank you very much writing all this up. this truly means a lot hearing something like this. i feel really grateful having people who can look forward to and enjoy the game and feel so much from the characters and story. thank you so much for all of your support and for loving the game 💕 i will keep working hard to make the finale as good as i can 💦

[antisociallilbrat]

Okay, I'm coming clean, lol, I'm Kori– Hi, I'm your brainworms' unofficial feeder 😂 Feel free to keep calling me Kori or change to Allen <3

Sorry that I didn't come out sooner, I get so nervous asking people about the stuff going on in my brain that I just automatically go to Anon just to get them out. I just got the courage today.

I still mean it when I said I love your takes, they're freaking amazing and I never get tired of reading them. I wish I could think like you, honestly.

ANYWAYS–

So I've been thinking of writing a long-term IT x Stranger Things crossover fic where the Losers Club are all numbered experiments like Eleven but managed to escaped. I haven't fleshed out the fine details yet but if you're interested, I'll be more than happy for suggestions!

Anyways, what I've been wanting to figure are their powers. What would they be and how does those powers suit and compliment the Losers' personalities. I've thought of giving them telekinetic abilities just like El but I thought that wouldn't be that complimentary to them except maybe to Richie? ( for some reason, the thought of Richie looking like El when she jerks her head to the side and breaks someone's bones spooks me lol ) then I thought of giving them the powers similar to their Neibolt selves; Beverly has pyrokinesis, Eddie has acid fluids, Stan can control spiders and detach his head to become a spider, Bill will probably have like sharp teeth and hunter like skills ( idk ), Richie will either have the ability to turn into a werewolf, be invisible ( connected to his fear of disappearing ), or something about being a doll. But if I go with that, it will leave out Mike and Ben. So now I'm conflicted.

Any suggestions?

AAAAAA Kori this makes me so happy you have no idea. And do you have a preference for what name I use?

Everytime you pop into my inbox I get so excited bc I know my brain worms are about get FED and you encourage my silliness and my takes. It's totally okay btw!! Trust me when I say I understand anxiety/nervousness 🥲

AND HOLY SHIT THAT'S SUCH A GOOD AU

I can see where you'd want to pull from the Neilbolt versions and it works for them. Bev having pyrokinesis is so cool and Eddie being having acid fluids. For Bill maybe you could do shapeshifting? Like how he looks normal but then he shape shifts his teeth being sharper and can just shapeshift in general to have more monster like features when he needs it. I like Stan and the spider thing, VERY Henry Creel vibes and it's freaky. For Richie maybe you can incorporate the 'doll' aspect to him being physically mute- like how the doll's mouth is sewn shut. Then a fun power would be Richie being able to project into people's minds and talk to them that way. Poor Stan can't tune him out that way. Idk just a few suggestions! I really like what you've thought for these Losers already though

Ben and Mike are tricky if you're trying to stay on theme. Hmmm maybe relate it back to how It interacts with them? Like Pennywise tries to make Ben feel like his friends don't like him and with being the new kid maybe being able to turn invisible would be Ben? Then with Mike Pennywise calls him a 'mad man' so maybe super intelligence? But Mike is such an animal man and I've always thought him being able to communicate with animals would be cool.

I'm always done to talk about this with you, I really hoped I helped 😭 and my messages are also open as well! Got me all feeling all emotional that you sought my silly ole input on this fuckin dope idea 🥲

[luveline]

i've been going through a really similar experience with my own writing, so i really empathise with the way you're feeling. it fucking sucks. especially because (for me, at least) people being supportive about it almost makes you feel worse (and then in turn feeling bad about people being nice makes you feel EVEN worse, like what a vicious fucking cycle). like, i know they're being so genuinely kind but it fundamentally clashes with whatever's going on in my brain so it's easy to disregard or see it as disingenuous or overly optimistic (like, i don't feel talented. i don't feel like a particularly noteworthy writer. so i'll just smile and say thank you and then go back to feeling like shit and obsessing over the negative comments)

ANYWAY what really spoke to me was the way you said even thinking about your blog, or a character that caused anon hate, or any of it inspires dread. i feel that way too. i went m.i.a. from tumblr for a solid few weeks because of it, and even then i couldn't stop thinking about it and feeling awful. like my heart would race when i thought about opening the app or reblogging something or ANYTHING

also, the feeling that you're betraying yourself (blegh corny) is so fucking real. like you're giving up on something you've put so much time and effort and thought into (and that people keep telling you means a lot to them, too) just because someone maybe said or did something not so nice to you. it feels like shit. like you're weak for getting upset over something (that, to be fair, most people would be upset over) because none of this is meant to be that serious

i don't know if this is helpful in the slightest (especially because it's kind of just me talking at you about something you already understand and experience) but i want you to know that you speaking about how you're feeling made me feel seen because it's so similar to how i'm feeling. it's like, the things that used to be fun on here aren't anymore because you have to exist in a intensely self aware space where you overanalyse everything you do/say and feel at least a little nervous every time you get a notification or some interaction, even if (proportionately) the odds are it's something very supportive

(no pressure to answer this, i just felt like letting you know that what you're going through isn't a personal failing... or if it is then we are personally failing together lol)

no really I'm gonna kiss you on the mouth cause god am I I sorry you're going through this but christ I am fucking relieved 😭😭 I'm so sorry for being relieved

I KNOW it's tacky, it will always be tacky, but every time someone says to me "You're a good writer" I have that moment (which changes in length depending) where Im just thinking no I'm not. I don't like to make other people feel bad or awkward and I know the right thing to do is say thank you, but when you don't believe what the other person is saying, the thank you doesn't feel as genuine as they deserve and then you hate yourself for hating yourself

The dread thing, I'm so glad to know you know how that feels, but so sorry too, but there's a big relief in knowing my brain hasn't individually pathologised a new strain of worrying. And the weight of self awareness. I think, besides fighting with yourself, there will always be people who want to misunderstand you. If you don't phrase something specifically and add disclaimers you worry later on that someone will emerge from the woodwork and neg about it because that's a thing people really do. And so, like you said, notifications stopped making me happy and started to make me worry instead. I turn my anonymous asks off after I make a personal post most of the time because I know from experience that someone will find error in what I've said and seek to correct me, and it's kind of the same for fic. I used to be really excited after posting a new chapter, now I turn off my phone 😭 Not saying this is the absolute 100% source of my dread, but it def doesn't help!

Thank you for letting me know angel. I don't know if anything that I've said in return has any merit, or even makes sense, or is useful to you, but I'm really grateful to know how you feel

[dean-winchester-is-a-warrior]

Thank you for reblogging and sharing that ask regarding being blocked by a blogger who didn't like the serial likes of their stories. That was me btw. Thank you for making me feel validated. I've been such a long time silent reader just bc I'm not a marvel account and I genuinely don't know what to comment on stories. I got excited at the thought of reading all the posts I liked and even tried following them thats when I realised I got blocked, it honestly made me so sad and feel bad, and tbh made me insecure. I didn't know it was such a bad thing? I've been on here reading a lot of stories for years now and never came across someone who would actively block someone liking their stories. Now I'm scared everyone who's friends with that person who writes fics also that I read also will block me too. Idk now I'm a little discouraged to read stories in that fandom that I have found such comfort and excitement over.

I'm SO sorry this took me so long to respond to. I have no excuses. Lol! I saw it when you sent it - meant to respond and then completely forgot till I came to my inbox today. 🤦‍♀️ As my mom used to say, "I'd forget my head if it wasn't screwed on tight."

But I'm glad I could make you feel less guilty (you should feel NO guilt, imo) about "serial liking" someone's fics. It's one of my favourite things when readers do that. I especially love it when I can see them making it through a series, chapter by chapter. Just makes me smile!

I don't really understand why that would bother someone. As I mentioned in my reblog of your original ask, interaction - with comments/reblogs - are always VERY appreciated. But I also get that not everyone has time for that, or feels comfortable commenting. Some people are shy, some people are nervous about reaching out to someone when they don't know what their response might be.

And I don't blame them. I have unfortunately seen a couple of asks answered by a fairly popular blog (who shall remain nameless) that I found to be quite rude. Of course, I may be wrong about the intention behind those seemingly rude answers. You never can tell, because getting emotions and sarcasm across in text only, can be tough. (I'm still lobbying for a universal "sarcasm font". 😁)

Anyway, I hope you will be able to still enjoy fics within that fandom, and that it can continue to give you the comfort it has in the past. We all deserve that.

Thanks for reaching out, and again, sorry it took me so long to get back to you. 🥰

[look-at-the-soul]

Hi! It's gossip girl❤️ omg I'm so sorry this is only getting sent now' I wrote most of it the day after I sent the last one and then the anxiety hit and's now I finally have time to finish it! But I hope you're doing well today❤️❤️ 

And awe!! The puppy🥲🥲🥲 I think all dogs just deserve the biggest hugs🥰🥰 🥰🥰 

And lol 😂😂 You do sound like a mom but like it's totally correct😂 Moms have the best advice (usually)😂 School is very expensive and it doesn't stink when people aren't able to make it though! I have a few friends who've done that and it's not fun!😭 and Omg! That's crazy about the engineer! 

And ohh that's great about part 4 of The Runway!! I a saw it on my dash today but haven't had time to read it yet!! I did see that it's a bit of a cross over though 🤭🤭🤭🥰🥰 Baby Lenny Desreves all the hugs too😂

And omg the snippets😂😂 I think I have like 10 individual ones right now that I have bits and pieces of😂 Just the other day I wrote like 2k words but for about four different stories😂😅Omg you're totally right! We are worse than lawyers😂😂 

🥰🥰🥰 I think you are definitely a safe spot!❤️❤️ And OMG NO! I promise you taking time to reply doesn't trigger my anxiety at all!  You are absolutely perfect! I can't really explain why my anxiety happens on here very well🥲 I know here it happens like I'll post something and be excited to post it and then I'll see a lot of other people will be active at the same time and that'll kinda pysch me out and I'll hide for a few days😅 Or I'll have time to get on and see a lot of stuff on my dashboard and then I'll start feeling bad like if I don't interact with every single post and say something people will thing I don't like them or don't care what they've work hard on. I do it's just sometimes the idea of saying something is scary😅😂 and that's really not a good explanation if it at but it's the general gist! 

Oh no! I'm sorry people tired to pressure you in high school/college about that stuff! I'm the same way right now about drinking (nothing against it, it's just not super my thing) But I am lucky enough that the friends I do hangout with more often don't pressure me into doing anything I don't want to! Like the friends I'm closest with now we have a good number of similar interest but on the stuff I'm really into (like Peaky Blinders and Reading and stuff like on here) I haven't met many people offline to talk to about it. So even when I do have the fiends I have, it don't have anyone who I could tell everything too. Also honestly most of the activities I enjoy that aren't like writing fics aren't sports but are like woodwork or building so it's a bit harder to find people around me that are into it under forty😂😂😅😅 Plus being as introverted as I am it can be harder to get out and meet new people to do stuff😅 Buts it's pretty good! I have the friends offline I have and they really are great, and my family is great, and Everyone here (like you🥰) is great too! So even if I'm not super close with one specific person I'm happy knowing everyone I do know🥰🥰

And yes! You have absolutely helped!🥰 interacting off anon has become much easier, even if I still go through spurts of it! And for somethings like requesting I still do use anon and like I'll let the person know how much I liked it on anon, but I'll also try to say something about it off anon too now😂😅 Which may sound weird, but I guess it's a way for my to let the person who I requested it from know I saw it and liked it without having to tell them I'm the one so did it (because for some reason that makes me nervous too) And then I can let them know I liked it off anon too so I'm a little less 👻 like😅 

And yes! I have been on a bit of an inspiration spree! But a at the same time I'm having a hard time finish things now😂😂 I'll jump from idea to idea and have a bunch of little collections now. So I guess I have a bunch of mini back up stories😂 

And you're totally right! Alfie is an absolutely gem! Tom Hardy did a great job!  The world needs more Alfie content of all kinds and Cyril!! 🥰🥰I like to imagine he lived happily ever after and got all the treats he deserves! SK give us the truth!!😂😂!!And thank you! I'm glad you liked that little idea! Alfie's so fun to write! He's honestly the biggest idea kick I've had recently! 😂😂 And OMG yes!! Alfie would absolutely read it aloud and and explain things to Cyril!! He'd probably ask the pup for opinions on what to write back! AND OMG! He'd make Cyril "sign" his paw print at the end of each letter!!🥰🥰 That may be an idea I have to hold on to!

And oh I don't know! I haven't seen the movie with Ripner yet (it's Red Eye) right? Though I've seen like the gifs! But I really can't imagine someone being more coocoo than Crane😅😅 Once you got past that man's iron clad shell he'd definitely be into some kinky stuff (and that's totally ignoring his glaringly obvious fear kink😂😅)  But his is definitely funny at times! He's got that dry humor that just pops out at times😂  But he definitely like changed between those two scenes! I love those gifs😂 And I did see that request and loved it🥰🥰🥰 It was such a good fic!!

OMG OMG OMG!! STEVEN MCGARRETT MY DARLING LOVE😍😍😍 Tell me more😂😂🥰🥰 I actually have had a few fix ideas for that series too, but Hawaii Five O is definitely another one id my comfort shows (Along with NCIS) but I get what you mean about Scott Cann (Danny, Who's also the son of the Dad in Elf?) being in other stuff and Alex O'Loughlin (Steve, who's apparently Australian?😂) not being in much! I think Alex was a producer of Hawaii Five O though so I thing he's done more of that stuff recently! But omg I absolutely adore that show! I feel like Danny and Steve have a similar friendship to Alfie (Steve) and Danny (Tommy) if that makes sense😂😂

And yes! The mail stamping videos make it look so easy!! And lol I've done that before😂 And I agree that the bigger stamps can be easier, even with the polish it can be hard to get some of the super small designs! 

I hope your concert went well (I think you said it was at the end of May?) And OHH YES YES YES! Luke Bryan all the way!! I think one of the first songs I was able to fully memorize was "Play it Again" 🥰🥰 I love his work! And Jason Aldean and Brad Preasly too🥰🥰 

Thanks for the chat! And I'm so so sorry it took me so long to get this back to you😅😅 I promise I'll be quicker next time🥰🥰

I hope you have a great week🥰🥰 XoXo GG🥰🥰

Hello darling!! Please don’t apologize specially if it’s because you went through an anxiety episode, how are you doing now? ❤️‍🩹 I’m doing alright thanks! Well not so well got an ear infection and the meds are making me feel terrible but I’m hoping to get out soon!

Right? 🐾 they have so much love to give us and that’s all they ask in return ♥️♥️

Hahahah now I don’t know to take it as a compliment or feeling old 👵🏻 🤣 just kidding! I’ve always been like that, worrying about people around me thinking of 1,000 they will mess up and me trying to prevent it LOL but I do hope something in my advices works for you ☺️ yeah unfortunately and to think it’s so hard to get a job and make enough money to monthly payments (but don’t you worry about it yet! You have to focus on school ☺️ and that’s enough for now). Right? But I also know people who are very successful in fields completely different to what they originally studied and that’s amazing!

Oh yes!! 🤭 I had the idea to make a crossover between The Runway and The Photoshoot did you read it afterwards? Should I do it again? 📸 aww I love Lenny!!! Need to start working on part 6 tho and I’m thinking about maybe finish it in part 8 to continue working in something else… a new Emmett or Robert Fischer story 🤔🤐🤫

WOW!!! You have a lot of WIP 🚧 love it!!! Have you been able to write some more? -how’s the summer job going btw?- 📖 will the wip list ever end?? (Deep down I don’t want it to end, I just want to write, write, write..) 👏🏻👏🏻 that’s amazing!! It means you let the ideas flow freely 🥰

🥹 this is the best thing I could’ve read! ❤️‍🩹 thank you for that *jumps on the screen and gives you a tight hug*

Don’t worry about it, really (I know it’s easier said than done..), but the thing is tumblr is kind of messed up somehow, one day I logged in and all I could see it was posts from like a week ago, and I refreshed like 5 times, sometimes I don’t see a story being posted right away, but a day or two later and thanks to a reblog (reblogs are magic btw)… other days the tags won’t work 🤷🏻‍♀️ a lot of things can happen in between, but I totally understand how you feel, when I hit the post button I get so nervous and sometimes there are interactions, sometimes there are not, but I think well the story/part is there in my masterlist for anyone who wants to read.

Something I’ve learn is no matter what you do, you will never get it back, but do it anyways. I’m always sharing and reblogging stories because I know how important it is, I’ve noticed it doesn’t work in both ways, but a few days ago I saw a post about if it’s only for one single person that likes your work, keep doing it for that person, or if you only have like 30 people, imagine 30 people in your home right now, that’s a lot! 🥰😍 do what you feel comfortable with, start little by little, a small comment, a thought, whatever makes you feel good, just know it’s natural that you feel that way, but who knows? Maybe your small comments ignites something in the writer and you end up finding a nice friendship? 💖

It’s alright, it’s part of growing up and growing out of people too… keep those friends close! Your close group has a huge impact in the person you become, oh I feel ya! Non of my friends like PB either 🥺 too bad.. and frankly Im terrified of speaking about tumblr in the real world, what if the people I know read what I write?! I’d die from embarrassment 😅 Can you imagine? I haven’t told my best friend scared what she’d think of me, so we better keep company each others on here, we can be anonymous bff 👯‍♂️ … ohhh what kind of woodwork?!

I’d looove to be more DIY, I have my Pinterest invaded with bedroom and living room projects, library, the outdoors decor but I don’t do it 😂 perhaps that’s why I love to add it to my character Yael in the Photoshoot 📸 hahah no but maybe you can find people! The other day I found a woman presenting her work as carpenter 🪑 the pieces I saw were amazing!! Can we make an introverts club please? Noisy people make me feel uncomfortable and when I go to the office I come back home with no energy left 😔 which made me remember I found a book for introverts, I will read it and tell you more about it, maybe you find it interesting, that’s lovely! And so true everyone is amazing with their characteristics 🥰

I started just like that, as anon sending small messages to a couple of writers on here until I was brave enough to say hey it’s me! 😁 and it’s been a lovely community ever since! Oh you’re so right! From the requests I’ve post, I always wonder if the person who sent it actually saw it (because sometimes it takes me so long to write it), so it’s nice if you go back to give a little comment off anon and let the person know 😍 hahah and then you’re no longer a ghost 🤣

Hope you have been using that inspiration spree to the max! I love to read the little snippets you send me, haha but that’s good your mind is working at speed! ☺️ have you been able to finish any of them in the mean time? That’s nice well, at least to me I’ve a few like that so if I feel frustrated at a story I turn around and there are another four little ones screaming at me -I feel like a mom of triplets or something if one starts crying the rest of them as well - 😂😂🤣 the same goes for writing or is it just me?

I simply cannot imagine someone else playing Alfie’s part, his mannerisms are very particular and he’s really funny (Idk if that was SK intention) but he nailed it! Aww yes! Loads of treats for Cyril! (I wonder what happened to him in real life) I try to include him whenever I can in a story, and recently I’ve been reading a couple of Alfie stories. Have you been writing for him? OMG that’s the best idea ever! I can totally picture it 🤩🤩 bet he’d ask Cyril for advice too, but the big question is are you writing it?

Yes it’s Red Eye ( can be confusing with Red Lights too!) 😅😂 you’re so funny but yes Crane is a bit coocoo 🤭 but Ripner wins the award, so creepy that he had been watching the girl and knew all about her… oh my 😈 do you think so? 🤭 but now that you mention it… yes I bet there’s a kinky side to Jonathan 😏 I think my favorite side of him would be his sarcasm god I think all of his answers are oh no this idiot is talking again… *rolls eyes-* haha aww I enjoyed writing for him!

Would you believe me if I say I googled Alex a bit ? 🙈 guilty! Turns out he was so stressed and into his character he had to go to rehab for it for a while, I think he’s missing from half a season or something like that… and he actually lives in Hawaii ♥️ oh I used to watch that show too! Dinozzo made me laugh so hard! And the girl at the lab Abbi was hilarious! What? Scott is related to Elf? Really? *shocked* oh wow!! Guess being a producer is something common then, since Cillian also became a producer of PB and I just heard Margot Robbie was also a producer for Barbie (I guess I should have become a producer instead of my real life job!) definitely!!! That combo sounds similar to Tommy and Alfie! 😂 how great is that you also like them!?!

Side note: I gave up the stamping 😂😂 I wasn’t made for that lol guess I will have to find a new hobby now… there’s a show I used to see “Justified” with Timothy Olyphant (guess the last name is wrong), he was sarcastic as hell and I loved it!! But they took it from the channel and now is back on Hulu (which I don’t have) :(

Oh yes! The show was unbelievably great! It was packed, loads of people from all places but we got some good places, standing, I had the time of my life, I’m planning to go and see them (Westlife) in Boston or Chicago next year, I need more 🍀🇮🇪💚 I’ve been listening to their music and their new album took me by surprise, it has an awesome electric sound, so different from all the previous albums… yeah! Almost, end of June ☺️

Have you been to any concert lately? Oh “play it again” is a great song! Love it! I wanted to see Luke in Las Vegas (he had a residency), but the dates wouldn’t work… those 3 are my favorites for country music, haven’t heard them in a while tho..

And I finished this one! I’m still missing one you sent a while ago I will try to finish that one before you reply to this (sorry about that)

Oh before I go! Have you seen Oppenheimer yet? Did you went to see Barbie too?

And I will leave the answer to your previous message here because I’ve been reblogging a lot of stuff 🤭

Loved this chat so so much! 💖 like always it’s a pleasure to hear from you GG, I hope you’ve been doing fine! And looking forward to hear from you! ♥️🥰

Take care, enjoy your summer! Write some more, have a blast you’re so young, and whatever you do, do it from the heart ♥️ ✨

Talk to you soon, xoxoGG 😘

[uppuzs]

thanks so much for your lovely answers, it's been so amazing getting to know you these past few weeks! ive started on your gift and i hope youre as excited about it as i am !!!

my last few questions are what do you look for/ enjoy the most when looking for fanworks? like tropes/tags/characters/etc.?

what would you love to see in your gift or have your gift include?

and what are your top 5 favorite ships and why?

thank you, thank you, again and i hope you enjoy the holidays as well!!!

- your animanga secret santa ❄️☃️

aww it was great getting to know you too! i'm so excited since this is my first time participating in something like this, so i'm sure i will love whatever you make <3

when i look for fanworks i look for my favorite characters. when i see edits of my fave characters and how pretty they look it makes me wanna edit them too. i also love bright colors and pastels so i look for those, and pretty fonts. idk what it is but i think fonts that are simple looking can make an edit very pretty!

as i said, i love bright colors, pastels and all. i get so mesmerized when i see bright colored and pastel edits. i would like to see my fave characters too, but whatever you make i will love. i'm very excited!!!

my top 6 fave ships are zosan, bkdk, renga, sasamiya and akafuri.

zoro and sanji have always been my number one ship, they were the first ship i fell in love with. their banter and their dyanamics make me smile and i love that they trust each other even if they don't admit it hehe.

bkdk is my favorite ship right now. idk with the way people have treated us in the past, i still get very nervous to spam how much i love this ship when im not on twitter with my bkdk mutuals. people who are anti bkdk will say how toxic and unhealthy it is and continue to undermine both characters relationship with each other (it honestly gets tiring hearing the same thing after 4 or 5 years) but i love this ship so much. izuku and katsuki's journey was very fascinating to watch. i love izuku standing up for himself and showing katsuki he's not messing around. i love izuku being aware that katsuki has always been big jerk but still sees him as an amazing person. i love how izuku still calls him kacchan and katsuki has never told him to stop calling him that. i love katsuki realizing his weaknesses and growing as a person and taking responsibility for his actions by trying to atone and apologizing, i love how they're both nerds.

im ranting lol, but bkdk is my comfort ship, it brings me much joy. if i could live in heroes rising movie i would!

renga was my obsession since last year. once i got obsessed with that ship, i was on the A03 tag more than i was on the bkdk tag lol. i just love how they both became friends. they're soulmates. literally the sun and moon. two strangers who were alone but found solace in each other.

sasamiya is just adorable. i haven't read any fics of it yet but the way sasaki accepted miyano's interest and wanted to share it with him was so cute. i love how sasaki never pushed miyano for an answer to his confession and just waited until he was ready. i love how miyano took the time to know sasaki and realize how he felt. i love how both miyano and sasaki love each other so much and how flustered they get around each other. my babies <333

akafuri was a ship i got into this year. i was rewatching knb again and their interactions were so funny. even though furihata and akashi literally have like three interactions but those were enough for me to love this ship. the A03 tag is pretty much not active but i did right a fic and i want to write more fics!

sorry i was rambling lol. i hope you have a safe holidays <3

[sspacealienn]

GASP MY TIME HAS COME

warning this is gonna be kinda long, I have A Lot to say lol

OK SO

they display very little outward emotional expression, so it's difficult to tell what they're feeling a lot of the time. they could be having the time of their life or feel like they're in hell and you would have no idea because their facial and body language don't change very much. people tend to assume that they're just stoic or unemotional but in reality their facial expressions just tend to stay neutral most of the time. (I mean they are pretty stoic but definitely not unemotional, and not to the degree that people assume)

that said, there are subtle hints that give away what they're feeling at any given time, and Guy has memorized them all like he's studying for the most important test of his LIFE

for example when they're excited about something they crack their knuckles a lot or just make that motion without actually cracking them

and when they're nervous they shift their weight from one leg to the other more than they usually do (or if their sitting down they bounce their leg up and down really fast)

they don't actually notice these things but Guy 100% does. Honey isn't sure how he knows what they're feeling so often (especially given that sometimes it's hard for even them to know what they're feeling) but they both appreciate it and think it's a little bit scary (in a good way, if that makes sense)

there are certain fabric textures that feel like sandpaper on their skin so they're very particular about their wardrobe and what goes in it

they have several very soft hoodies that make them feel safe and comfortable, but the one Guy stole in that one audio is their favorite because it's the softest but it also puts just the right amount of weight on their shoulders and it's really comforting, especially when they're overwhelmed or uncomfortable (im ashamed to admit this is 100% me protecting, I have a hoodie just like that and I wear it almost daily)

they like that Guy talks a lot because they much prefer to listen and contribute in smaller ways during conversation rather than talk equally as much as the other person. it can be exhausting to know how much you have to say to reach some unspoken minimum word count for social interactions, and having the pressure taken off them and just being able to listen (especially to someone they love) is wonderful. (also me projecting rip I'm so sorry)

they were SO happy and relieved when Guy asked them if they wanted to get a place for just the two of them to live; both because they love him and wanted to live together without a third person, but also because the constant change of third roommates coming and going was exhausting. even if it only happened every couple months it was always a huge upheaval that threw them off for a long time

they HATE the feeling of wet clothes. they will do anything they possibly can to avoid their clothes getting wet, it's the WORST feeling.

they used to wear earplugs to go grocery shopping, but now they just take Guy with them. He talks loud enough and often enough to drown out the sound of the buzzing lights (if they have no choice but to go alone they'll still wear earplugs though)

when they moved in with Guy, the two of them divided up the household chores so that they could both could avoid doing that one chore they hate more than anything. for Honey, that's doing the dishes. the sensation of the soap and water (and god forbid they have to use a sponge) combined with the sounds the dishes make when they hit one another is really overwhelming so Guy does all the dishes for the pair of them. in return Honey does all the laundry because Guy absolutely hates doing laundry

they have a tendency to come across as mean or angry when they're just trying to have a lighthearted conversation. they don't know if it's because they're making the "wrong" facial expressions, or if it's their tone of voice or what but people often assume Honey is angry or trying to pick a fight when all they want to do is talk

they admire Guys ability to talk entirely unfiltered a lot of the time. they've spent so much of their life masking that it's difficult for them to converse without borderline overthinking every single word they say (which often contributes to how little they actually say out loud) and watching him talk without thinking is ipressive to them and they admire him for it.

their don't wear jewelry because it feels suffocating and itchy

their favorite stim toy is a small infinity cube that they can hold in one hand and flip open and closed really fast

they get hyperfocused on things they enjoy very easily and will forget to eat sometimes

on the flip side of that, they find it extremely difficult to focus on things they don't enjoy which leads to procrastination every so often

penguin pebbling!! they have a knack for finding random tiny objects everywhere they go and they pick them up every time to gift them to Guy. he lines them all up on a shelf and they try really hard to pretend it doesn't make them emotional when he treats some tiny rock or some old scuffed up dice they found on the sidewalk like they're real heartfelt gifts. (they are heartfelt, of course, but Honey's used to people rejecting them when they give them things like that so it's really meaningful to them)

Guy 100% knows how much it means to them that he's so appreciative of the tiny things they give him, but he pretends its not a big deal because he knows they'd get overwhelmed if he called attention to it. plus he knows that it's how they're showing that they love him so he genuinely adores all the little gifts he gets from them, and he doesn't want to risk them feeling cornered and stopping.

Honey. fucking. HATES metal spatulas. they are unnecessarily loud and they feel awful in your hand and they hurt and they scrape against the pan and they're just overall a stain on Honey's life and kitchen experience. this one I am, for once, not ashamed to admit is me projecting. I can't fucking STAND metal spatulas, they are just. the bane of my existence. why are they so awful. oh my god.

ok that's all I've got right now. THANK YOU for this opportunity I have been DYING for a chance to talk about how autistic Honey is

also if you have any hcs of your own I would LOVE to hear about them !!

does anyone have any autistic honey hcs? I have a desperatere Need

[whorror-barbie]

Sexercising(Au! trainer! Han Yun-Jae x chubby! fem! Reader) (part 1/2)

Summary : you are trying to lose some weight because your modeling agency is up your ass about it, so you decide to join a gym,but it's not your average gym.

Mini series warning: body shaming,slight slut shaming, bombofication, vaginal sex, rough sex, Jae is an asshole,some degradation. DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE UNDER THE AGE OF 18, YOU WILL BE BLOCKED, AND IF ANY OF THE WARNINGS TRIGGERS YOU, PLEASE DO NOT READ FURTHER.

A/n: I got this idea from a manwa or webtoon series called sexercise. I have only read the first volume(it's quite wholesome believe or not lol,so not my original concept )but this is my inspo. I'm also writing this because I'm a chubby yet thick woman lol..so why not?

Today was not your best day, you just got off a phone call with your sleaze boss about losing weight or you will be fired within the next couple of months. Being a model your size was difficult. You have been doing model for a little over a year now, it's a blessing, though, on the downside of it, you have to work with the worst boss ever. he makes comments on your weight especially in front of the other thinner models, it's humiliating. Yet, he tries to make passes or cop a feel every time you two are alone, it's pretty creepy. Not just that, other people from the agency itself agree with him

"sure, you're very pretty and all, but you managed to get fatter than you already are, sweetheart...are you midnight snacking or something? Whatever the case is you look bad.. remember, you're always replaceable " is exactly what he told you on that so-called discussion. his stupid chuckles echo in your mind as tears are threatening to fall while you are walking down the sidewalk. so what if you have wide hips, big boobs with a big booty to match, and a tummy pouch to along with it. that's just how you are built, but you love being a model, so if losing weight is what you would have to do then so be it.

"That fucking bastard," sniffling as you are typing away on your pink bedazzled phone to find where the nearest fitness center is. you Google maps it so you don't get lost, lord knows you are not very good at directions, so you make your way there. Now after getting this stupid 20-minute walk in, you finally arrive at a black suspicious looking building that's sandwiched in the other buildings. "This can't be right, it looks abandoned," you thought. As you were staring in confusion, two men come out of the building, happily chatting away with each other as they are now walking on the sidewalk away from you. Staring at them, noticing that they had activewear on. you trusted it and decided to enter.

It looks like your standard gym, very nice and clean. looking around, it was pretty empty, It's only 3pm so you're kinda surprised no one is here. a pretty and fit lady approaches you "hey, ma'am how can I help you today?" she says with her perfect smile, you feel immediately intimidated by her. She's so gorgeous, definitely modeling material that could take your place in a heartbeat. It makes you insecure which causes you to look down. "Um, ma'am?" Hearing the concern in her voice, you look up "oh, sorry I was wondering where I can sign up for a membership here" getting nervous, not making eye contact with her then she smiles. " Oh sure, come follow me," she says with excitement. You both walk up to the second floor of the building.

On the path to wherever she's leading you, the sound of moaning, grunting, and somewhat sounds of slapping? coming from the walls of the different rooms as the two of you pass them by. "Huh? What are those noises? Is it that bad? Maybe it's not too late for me to dash out of here..this going be so hard" in thought as you sigh in frustration, she opens the door to a pretty decent size office with other desks and chairs. "Hey, Mr.Sangwoo. We have someone who is interested in our program" smiles almost too happily at him " thanks, Eun-yi. I can take it from here" then he directs his attention at you with a welcoming smile "Hello, please have a seat" exchanging bows to each other.

"I'm glad you are interested in our program, I'm going to ask you some questions, if that's ok " You nodded happily then he smiles politely. "good" as he's typing on the computer. he asked for your simple info like first and last name, date of birth, etc. "Ok, good..." he grabs the pamphlet and puts it on the desk " Now miss, it's all about fitness for us, I want to make this very clear" nodding once more at him then he continues "with that being said we offer exercises with or without penetration. the penetration one we'll need additional info, I'm going to have to ask you to take an STD testing for us and even weekly if you choose penetration frequently." Looking at him lost "huh? An STD testing? For working out? "You asked sounding like a ditz. " Huh? Oh sorry ma'am, I should of made it clear, this is a sexercising gym it's where we combine sex and exercising." He explains as if it was a normal thing, Your face feels so hot right now.

"Sexercising? I didn't even know that was a thing, sir" Sangwoo gave you a caring smile for some reason, the conversation got interrupted by the sound of the door opening as Sangwoo give a small nod of acknowledgment to the person behind you. turning around to see a tall, slender yet muscular man with a loose grey tank top and black long shorts, he's also sporting a geometric tattoo on his neck. made eye contact with each other, he is looking at you like meh and it makes your insides a bit nauseous. "he's so hot...I hope he's not judging how fat I am right now" in your insecure thoughts again, looking down at your lap now. " Ma'am, are you ok?" Sangwoo stared at you with concern, you nodded so fast. " I get it, it's a usual gym program, you are going to be up close and personal with your trainer so to speak" he laughs a little then continue " the end goal is still the same, losing weight and staying fit that is if you are still interested. Its all up to you" you look to see the mysterious man stand nearby his desk, studying you as he's drinking some water out of his water bottle. "Oh sure I would love to join, sign me up, sir" giving sang woo a ditzy smile ." oh, good," he says in return. You hear the man scoffs as he walks out of the room. your stomach feeling sick again, does he not like me?

After a while of uncomfortable questions, you decide to do the sexercising with penetration. Just out of curiosity of course. "Almost done, now we need to pick out a trainer for you" he pulls up the tablet to show you the different women and men trainers to chose from, it was like a catalog of some sort. "Ummm, are you a trainer? can I pick you?" Playing with your hair, giggling as Sangwoo clears his throat, trying not to look at your very exposed cleavage "oh! I'm flattered, ma'am but I'm not a trainer though" laughing nervously ."oh" You think for a second then you remembered, "what about the guy that came in here earlier? he had a tattoo on his neck" getting flustered thinking about your fantasy scenarios with him. "Oh, you mean Han Yun-Jae, he's a very popular trainer here, so it might be difficult to schedule you in with him though." Look a bit disappointed and he notices" oh that's fine then,I can find someone else" keeping an enthusiastic attitude.

"Why don't I call him in here and see if he wants to train you" you look at him with doe eyes then nods, "Hey, you got minute" Sangwoo asking him on the phone. a few minutes pass, Han Yun-Jae enters the room once again to see you still here, he is almost annoyed with your presence for some reason "this young lady would like to be trained by you, up for it?" Sangwoo waiting for an answer. Hans is checking out your curvy body with no shame, feeling yourself getting soaked right now, then looks to sangwoo "sure, why not" he shrugs, sounding very uninterested. "Ok then it's settled, well let you know your results, and you should be good to go, Thank you for your time" you get up and bow "No, thank you for your help today, I can't wait to start" Hans staring at your form standing, looking at your cleavage. "Bye" you wave at sangwoo, he mirrors your actions.

Reaching for the door, you leave out the room into the hall, but Han follows suit and is now next to you "don't think this going to be you laying on your back the whole time, I know that's something you are used to doing." looking at him with such shock now turning into anger" what the fuck, sir?" He clenches his jaw, stops in his track to look at you" Mind your language with me" in a threatening tone which causes you to gulp nervously. " I'm a pretty strict trainer, and from the looks of it, we have a lot of work to do because you're pretty fucking fat" as he's checking out your fat ass shameless, admiring all your thickness. you get offended giving him a glare "so be ready and don't be late" as he departs from you, leaving you shocked at how he talked to you just now. Making it down the stairs, leaving the building. You feel yourself tearing up as the cool air hits your face. yet at the same time, you also get so aroused at the hot trainer being mean to you. It's a very confusing emotion because normally anyone else that talked to you the way he did, would be so upset, but with him, it was different somehow. Maybe this day has gone on too long, you need a shower and a good night's rest, Who knows how this week is going to go.

[castiel-left-his-mark-on-me]

Hi, Ary, very inactive ex-mutual(i think???) here. Good to see you thriving! ♥ It's been a while since I've dipped my head into cockles stuff. Could I perchance maybe ask uuuuum tf is going on??? lol I see Mish apparently confirmed he used to stay over at Jensen's in Van, and heard newbs were apparently freaking out about it and getting a bit messy, which I get that, business as usual. But I'm also seeing shit about spin-offs? And Jared getting in a twitter fight with Jensen, causing/resulting in stans to going feral and sending hate?? I know you're not as big a fan of Jar, but that's part of why I figured I'd ask you, you usually have a really level head about this kinda stuff. If you don't wanna answer publically, or at all, that's totally chill!

Hey, Rhi! We're still mutuals! Of course we're still mutuals! When I saw the notification of your ask, I was like "Hey! I haven't seen you in a while!" and my husband was like "???" and I said "Tumblr" and he said "Oh."

It was a wild time haha.

In any case, welcome back to the dumpster fire! We are obviously still a mess. So to catch you up, I guess I will start by summarizing both before and after the finale (not sure where you left off so this might be redundant for you) ... basically, it became obvious as the end of the show neared that Jensen was not on board with the plan for the finale; although Jared never stopped singing its praises.

We got confirmation of this during a zoom interview where Jensen said that he actually went into the writers room as well as called Kripke to basically voice how he didn't agree with the direction the final season was going, but he was shot down on all fronts. In another interview, he was asked "What would you tell your younger self going into this career?" And Jensen responded with: "I would tell myself to just keep your head down and do the work" meaning, "Don't try to change things because you can't." I also think that this whole situation is what he wrote "Let Me Be" about for his first Radio Company album, but that is just my own speculation. All of his reluctance, even though he always followed it up with "But I eventually saw the value in the script" or "I came around in the end" (which never sounded sincere, and I don't think he was really trying to sound sincere) made us all very nervous about what was to come for 15x20; and of course, when the last two episodes aired, we saw just how badly they fucked it up.

After the awful finale, the entire fandom became aware of the CW's heavy handed role in the thing, basically squeezing all the life out of SPN to shape it into a ramp from which Walker could launch itself. They not only erased all the love and joy and representation that Cas's love confession gave us, they also tore apart the things that made sense about the bond between Sam and Dean, making it really just about Sam-- and therefore Jared, which of course, Jared seemed to be fine with ... even though no one else was. Misha barely said anything during the finale, and a few of the other actors talked about the show ending in various posts, but Jared tweeted up a storm ... and Jensen? Jensen just sat in sexy-silent resentment of the whole thing. He didn't tweet, he didn't post, he didn't say a word once he no longer had to, and I think that's because he was already going full-steam-ahead on his plans for redemption.

Which brings us to Chaos Machine-- Jensen and Danneel's new production company that is being run by a queer creative director and has a mantra of inclusivity and representation woven throughout it's fabric; and apparently, the first story that Jensen wanted to tell through this new platform is the origin story of Sam and Dean's parents; so last week (?) he announced the upcoming production of "The Winchesters" -- the untold love story of John and Mary. Obviously, John is not the most likable character from the show, so the idea was met with a lot of resentment when it was first announced, but Jensen has gone on to say that he is excited to take on the task of telling the "true" story behind these characters-- the one that makes sense with the pre-established canon and doesn't reject it. So, given that, the idea is being mulled over with a bit more optimism from the fandom.

Who isn't being optimistic though?

Jared Padalecki.

When Jensen made this announcement on Twitter, many of his friends and coworkers congratulated him, but not Jared. Jared responded with a passive aggressive: "I'm happy for you, man, but I wish I didn't hear about it through Twitter." This of course, sent all the die-hard Jared fans into a tizzy and they immediately began asking him if he was serious (hoping it was just a joke-- we all hoped it was because there would be fallout no matter what one's opinion on Jared is). Instead of leaving it there though or just deleting that tweet, Jared went on to tweet some more, saying that he was being serious that he didn't know about the plans for the prequel, and that he was "gutted" that Sam apparenlty wouldn't be included (mind you, this a prequel to SPN... meaning BEFORE Sam and Dean were even born, so how could Sam be included? But Dean is apparently narrating this story so maybe Jared thought Sam should be helping to narrate it? I don't know). But Jared being Jared couldn't just leave that there, he then went on to tweet at Robbie Thompson who was announced as a writer for "The Winchesters" so then Jared went off on him too, calling him "Brutus" and a "coward" acting like Robbie betrayed him (speculation is-- Robbie refused to write for Walker, so Jared is pissed that he essentially chose Jensen over him). He did fairly quickly, remove that tweet attacking Robbie, but of course the damage was done at that point. And it truly only took his first tweet calling out Jensen for some people to be like "Jared-- that sucks if you didn't know but why are you saying any of this publicly?"

As you might know, Jared has had issues in the past with posting hurtful things on social media, and has even used it as a tool for attack before-- calling out customer service agents and public workers that he felt have wronged him, which is bad enough ... but for him to then do the same thing to his best friend of well over a decade? Many people who had once liked him or at least gave him the benefit of the doubt (I used to ...) stopped after this latest twitter tantrum.

However, some people have suspected for some time that J2 had a falling out either shortly before the finale or just after. Their public/social media interactions have seemed awkward, stilted or even non-existent in moments that they normally wouldn't be. In the past year, when Walker premiered, Jensen didn't say much about his friend's new venture other than a "Congrats. buddy" here and there. Later, we learned that Jensen refused to work on the show ... Jared said he make him do it, drag Jensen to the set "kicking and screaming" which made many fans quirk up an eyebrow because, why would Jensen put up a fight unless the two weren't as close as they used to be? And then Jensen moved his family to Colorado (either permanently or for an extended period at least) which is notable considering how he moved to Texas seemingly to be closer to Jared, even buying a house that was near his. All this was just speculation though; but it wasn't until Jared's tweet complaining about not knowing about the prequel that the theories behind them falling out, became less theory and more fact.

The day after his twitter tantrum, Jared tweeted again-- not retracting his statements or apologizing, but instead saying that he and Jensen "talked" and were "all good". Jensen then tweeted too, parroting this statement to some degree, which only made the whole thing even more sour in the mouths of the fans. The fact that Jared didn't apologize for his outburst and throwing his friend under the bus, and also the fact that Jensen-- Mr. Sexy Silence, Mr. Never Tweets, Mr. Tech-Ignorant-and-Proud, actually had to POST SOMETHING saying that he and Jared made up, it just screamed OPTICS. It was obviously the work of agents and PR firms and lots of people going "Look, if you two keep beefing, that will mean the death of both of your projects. Even more people will stop watching Walker, and this SPN prequel will never get picked up due to the scandal." So, the two "made nice" publicly to quell the chaos, but in my opinion, it's all too little too late. Jared started a storm that he can't contain now with a little tweet, and it seems like he knows that too because before he talked about him and Jensen making up, he asked that people "not send threats". He could have just as easily said that he shouldn't have made this a public issue and that he's sorry, but instead, he continued to play the victim and stoke the flames by alerting us all to the damage he's done.

Now, like I said before-- I used to give him the benefit of the doubt. I don't think he's an awful human or that he deserves to be attacked or anything, but he is an adult man with very poor judgment and an obvious selfish-streak a mile wide. He should know better, and he should have more respect for his so-called "friends" and "brothers" than to make them targets to public ridicule. I have a hard time believing that Jensen still sees Jared the way he used to, and I wouldn't blame him a bit for wanting to pull away-- especially when he's moving on to so many new and exciting things. Jared certainly deserves happiness just as much as anyone else, but he went on twitter and basically asked for a scandal, and he got one.

The question is now-- was there a motive behind it? Was just looking for a reason to bring his and Jensen's falling out to light-- while making himself looking like the victim in the process? Or did he genuinely not know about the prequel and just decided to go about "not knowing" in the most toxic and hurtful way he could manage?

In any case, that is the drama ... that is the J2 insanity in a rather lengthy nutshell ... that is the tea ... and I hope it all makes sense.

But the good news out of all of this is, Cockles is thriving-- they are happy and in love and Jensen calls Misha "Babe" and Misha misses waking up to see Jensen in the morning, and they are just as cute and wonderful as can be.

So, I will end that there. I am so glad to see you back, and I hope I answered all your questions in a way that made sense ... I tried anyway!

💖💖💖

[skepticalarrie]

Hello Allie!

How are you? Sending you lots of love💙

Sadly I couldn't watch Hs first show bc. of an illness. I don't have much energy to stay updated with all what happend...

Just wanna ask you, if you can write a post, summarize the basic facts about H. show, what he did and how he was? And what you think about all of it?

I would really appreciate it💚

Hi love, of course. I'm really sorry to hear that you're unwell, I hope you can feel better soon. I'm sending loads of love ❤️❤️

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Love on Tour Las Vegas 04/09

- Harry was wearing an amazing all pink Gucci outfit, no shirt. He looked incredible. Pink nails too. 💗 💖

- Harry has a lot of new members in his band, I really like the new people! Most songs also had a new twist to them, which made it sound fresh and exciting. I love that, it was great!

- The stage was pretty big and 360, Harry had mic stands all over it which made him run around the stage quite a lot! It looked good though, a very different setup. He felt the need to warn people that sometimes they would get his face and sometimes they would get his ass lol

- The setlist had 17 songs. No big surprises there, all songs from Fine Line except TBSL. Unfortunately, a lot of songs from the previous tour had to go because of the new ones and I think we all got a bit emotional because of that, but apparently, the setlist will be changing over the tour. So there’s always hope

- They made a mashup between Two Ghosts and Falling, amazing.

- Blue and green lights during Sunflower vol. 6

- Harry’s speech was very very emotional, he talked about the tour being his favourite part and how much he missed it and how we all went through some hard times for the past year and a half.

- He answered a fan sign "dogs or cats?" with "dogs" and we were all a little in shock.

- Harry sounded very excited to finally being back, it was pure joy watching him. He’s such an amazing performer! But you could also tell he wasn’t completely loosen up, I think he sounded a bit nervous in the beginning and missed a few lyrics. But I imagine it was a lot to take in at first, and the stage demands a lot of him physically. On the last tour he was also stiffer at the beginning of the tour and clearly more comfortable after a few weeks. He also just lost his grandfather very recently, so I’m sure that made him a little more emotionally unstable too. There wasn't much interaction with the crowd, no jokes, probably because he's going through a hard time and covid also make things extra hard. A lot of rumours going around that things don’t look good behind the scenes too.

- Pretty clear reference to Freddie Mercury before singing Watermelon Sugar.

- He slipped and fell, obviously.

- There weren’t many pride flags in the crowd, which was surprising and quite upsetting. Before the show, there were rumours going around that a larrie got punched by someone and apparently the atmosphere didn’t feel very safe there. But Harry managed to find a few and waved the flags during TPWK and WMYB (they gave us a really nice version of the last one!!). I hope the atmosphere is safer on the next one and that people can bring their flags. That is something clearly very important to Harry and it really upsets me how hostile his fanbase is towards that and struggles to understand who he is.

- Olivia was there, waving to people and surrounded by security. No one gave a shit.

- Rainbow rabbits.

- Lyric changes again in the middle of Golden, as expected, but it's hard to tell exactly what he said this time.

- In terms of covid, Harry and the band were using masks before going on stage and immediately after. However, Harry did the whale and also threw water he had just drank from into the crowd. I hope he can realize how unsafe that was.

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Our Songs | Extra | Wendy x F!Reader SM!AU

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A/N: So happy to say this series is completely finished now!! Enjoy!! I'm moving onto more projects and hopefully can wrap up some one shots I've been working on. This is a different style from what I usually do since it is an extra, warning that the post looks really long because it's in bulleted style lol

Date: 9/1/21

Series Masterlist

after your confession with wendy you were stuck with an enormous burst of energy

you were on cloud nine, a seemingly never-ending high

you decided not to text wendy the day right after

you didn't want her to think you regretted anything but you also didn't want to seem too clingy

also it didn't help that just thinking about her was enough to throw you into cardiac arrest

you didn't receive any notifications from wendy either

it was a bit disappointing, but you assumed she was also trying to take in the shock of it all

trying to take your mind off of wendy you spend an entire day running around your house

you pick up your instruments and have the jam of your life

emotional highs are very good for your creativity it seems

you decide to record some things and save some drafts

who knows if it'll be useful in the future?

you worked till you felt dead tired and like you couldn't have another thought in your brain

even after you spent an entire day trying to exert your nervous and elated energy you were still hesitating on texting wendy when you woke up

but you missed her so much already

so you send a text asking her how she feels

she says she feels okay, and then asks about you

'yeah, i'm okay too'

your conversation was rocky

things weren't going as smooth as before

and it was evident that it was because the both of you had no idea how to behave

you took a deep breath before texting her your question

'so, can i take you on that first date?'

you see a bubble showing that she was texting

and then it disappeared

before showing up again

and disappearing

and- ugh! your heart was racing waiting for her answer

i mean, she liked you back right? so why would she say no?

'yeah, of course! :)'

whew, okay, looked like you almost made a big deal out of nothing

little did you know wendy was freaking out

she was a bit embarrassed at herself, acting as if she was a high school kid in love or something

it took wayyy too much concentration for her to type out something sensible

but she was excited for you to finally ask

you were also excited for her to say yes

your first date is at the downtown center

there was a festival and you were hoping to enjoy all the effort the artisans put into their work with wendy

you're walking with her through the numerous stalls set up

as the both of you admire the beautiful crafts set on display your hand reaches for hers

you feel the pressure of her hand squeezing back and you look at her

she looks at you and giggles

you didn't even realize what you were doing

'oh, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to do that suddenly.' you freak out and let go of her hand

you're worried that she was laughing at you and that she didn't want to hold hands

'it's okay! i thought it was cute'

she reaches out for you and you don't let go this time

instead you enjoy how happy she seems to be sharing this moment with you

and out in public too

later on you both go to the square where there were musicians

the sun was beginning to set, allowing for beautiful lighting and you appreciated songs you've never listened to before

wendy tugs at your arm while still staring at the performers

'i hope we can perform up there someday. together.'

you smile at her as she still looks on

'i think we will.' you assure her

finally night hits and you both call it a day

you walk her to her car and stop her

you kiss her forehead

'so, will there be a second?' you ask with a smile

you feel like you already know the answer

'i think that sounds great.'

life with wendy in it became easy

you guys seldom fought

and even when you did at least one of you would make something for the other

dropping it off at the doorstep and leaving an apology note

and after enough time of cooling down you would always come back to each other, talking out your problems from before

you personally felt like your work improved as well

wendy had become your muse

you sought to create tracks that would impress her

or that would be worthy of having her voice in it

and you felt like it was easier to write lyrics

because every experience with wendy created new feelings

feelings that you could hardly describe sometimes

when you guys decided to finally start working on your second collaboration you busted out the drafts you created long ago

wendy was impressed after sitting down and listening to your drafts

'woah, how many hidden gems do you have on your computer?'

'well, these ones in particular i made on the same day. the day after i confessed to you.'

you're both flustered

because it's easy to tell the kind of state you were in by the songs

wendy takes your hand and kisses it gently as your music continued to play

'you must think of me pretty highly, if the thought of me compelled you to make something so incredible'

you heat up at her cheesiness

'oh stop it.'

the two of you end up choosing a refreshing feeling/sound for the album

'cause you recharge me every time i see you!' she says

when you guys are almost done producing the album, that was when you went on the dinner date with wendy

the one where you guys would finally confess to the world

after recording and uploading the announcement video the both of you decided to turn off your notifications and avoid reading people's reactions

instead you guys opted to spend the rest of the day baking and then watching a movie together

the both of you decided that it would be stressful to engage with your audience right away, and that's why it took a full day for you both to check your phones again

both seulgi and yeri already knew about your relationship but they both flooded you guys with congratulations anyways

they just wanted you to know they were proud of your bravery!

besides them, both of your families already knew and didn't comment much

they'd already stated how they think you're good for each other when you guys had visited together

especially your younger cousin

cause apparently she's a big fan of wendy and is definitely not using you as a way to get close to her idol

and is definitely not bragging about her how cousin is 'super super cool and famous and is dating another famous person and i think they'll be rich someday!!! so get on my nice side!'

you're happy to see that a lot of fans are happy for your relationship

wendy just keeps telling you 'of course they are, who wouldn't for a cute ass couple like us?'

it was at that point that you guys had decided to save up and move into a nice place together

you guys had talked about future plans before

not only that, but you had been practically living together already

between all the dates that lead to seemingly indefinite sleepovers

and the recent collaboration that made you guys be stuck together

it was really you guys living at each other's place weeks at a time

when you guys move in you're grateful

because you get to experience all the little things from her even more

some nights when you're stressed she rubs circles on your back to help you sleep

when you guys shower together she takes her time to carefully wash your hair

it was those deeply intimate moments that made you the happiest

both of your careers were doing really well due to the reception of your second collab and all the media fuss that happened with your dating annoucement

you both still have solo careers and interact with other musicians

but along with moving in, you guys decided to become a duo and consistently create music together

in the morning when you share breakfast you always remind her how good life is and how thankful you are