#loathe to punish

[justana0kguy]

2023 OCTOBER 11 Wednesday

"You are a gracious and merciful God, slow to anger, rich in clemency, loathe to punish."

~ Jonah 4:2d

[aerithisms]

anyway i'm obsessed with how raven awkwardly asks after tai and the kids... she is at heart an insecure little loser and i care for her deeply

[ameraine]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY🩵

Charisma of Internal Punishment / Self-Loathing Charismatic (it's what's on the official so), Minato Ohse⛓️

[cometcrystal]

if you think The Substance is misogynistic youre a fucking moron. sorry. do we need to go back to 1st grade reading comprehension worksheets

[dearreader]

i think there could be a really interesting level of self loathing to an extent with riza and roy if they did have an affair as supior officer and subordinate that i don’t think i’m smart enough to articulate or show in fanfictions and im upset cause i got the like idea of it but i can’t do anything with it

[lesbianraskolnikov]

CAN HE DIE

[vaporgrove]

pros of picking up writing and starting a little self-indulgent one-shot: im having fun writing prose again and slowly building my confidence about it back up

cons: oh god. oh god. oh god. oh fuck. oh god

[nomsfaultau]

https://www.tumblr.com/nomsfaultau/771631024856858624/fault-fireworks-duo-is-like-what-if-you?source=share

I beg you to elaborate

I'm mentally ill about them

“fault fireworks duo is like. What if you personally knew the hand of god and flinched everytime it moved but still worshiped its retribution all the same because a wretched sinner should know their place is under heel”

Okkkay shourt answer: I was sleep deprived lmaooooooooo

long answer: ‘You’ being SCP Tubbo, I’d like to clarify The Blade has None idea this dynamic is present bc he’s an oblivious dork getting a crapload of stuff projected onto him. Anyway. Tubbo has some (a lot) vicarious ex-Catholic guilt from the time they killed/subsumed Rosalind into their Hivemind (and making them ex Catholic by joining). And immediately after in the depths of their guilt, (The Blood) God destroyed their legs. This created several effects:

“Hand of god.” Distinctly, not hand of God. This is about Tubbos’ dehumanization of The Blade (or in Tubbos’ POV, the blade), reducing him to the vessel of The Blood God/a monster. Simultaneously, the Hand of God as something delivering justice.

”Flinched everytime it moved.” More dehumanization (it). More importantly, Tubbos’ deep trauma from The Blood God disabling them. In the context of ‘Hand of God’ there becomes a presumption of guilt, flinching because Tubbo fears ‘justice’ for what they’ve done.

“Worshiped its retribution all the same.” NOW. I could (and have) write a very long essay about disability within the Bible. But for a quick gloss that wildly skews historical context and greater themes, there are a number of sections (such as Deuteronomy) that have been used in a long history of ableism in the church. All we really need for this is the concept of ‘Disability as divine punishment for sin’ that is DEEPLY FLAWED ETHICALLY AND THEOLOGICALLY AND SUPER ABLEST. Regardless, Tubbo ((((incorrectly)))) comes to the conclusion that The Blood God destroying their legs is divine punishment for killing Rosalind. And thus is in a way glad because they think it’s deserved/part of atonement.

”A wretched sinner should know their place is under heel.” Notably Tubbo gets the pronoun ‘their’ compared to The Blade’s ‘its’ which contrasts a hierarchy of personhood against a hierarchy of power, and firmly cements power as dominating. This is also important bc Tubbos’ sense of personhood is fragile during this arc due to equating immoral acts with inhumanity, but that’s an entirely different essay. Hence, the wretched sinner.

Heel might be a joke bc Tubbo doesn’t have those anymore. Or bc pigs don’t have heels, but hocks.

The Blade knows approximately 5% of this. Btw. Mostly the Tubbo flinching part.

And suffice to say, Tubbo has an entire character arc debunking this wildly ableist point of view, and was also in debilitating pain and self loathing, so like, they were stupid and angry and hurting and WRONG for this take. However. Delicious angst.

[ladylilit]

playing with some lore, and i'm thinking of going a lil divergent from the show storyline that she & lucifer were cast to hell only after tempting eve... thinking.... lilith's death came at the hands of angels. after she fled the garden, she was 'drowned' in the red sea by three angels sent by God for her defiance and refusal to return to adam, and emerged a demon. lucifer eventually found her again and took her with himself.

[citrusai]

i started inquisition when i was like. fifteen i think. and even then i really didn't get the numerous fan posts about how annoying solas is / up his own ass when the game time & time again feeds us tidbits of a broken down shell of a man who's going on a suicide mission to fix what he thinks he broke when he cast the old gods out. yeah his attitude about the dalish at the start of the game is insufferable but if you play as a dalish inq regardless of your rs w him he clearly admits he's blinded by his own bias to have recognized that the dalish are trying their best to reach for something long gone, revered only in tales & tomes.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

bad wolf soda <3

[intertexts]

and the thing is, right. miranda has to be wrong, when she says flint is doing this all to outrun the shame. she can't be right, because this whole thing is predicated on the opposite. everything he's done has to be predicated on that inscription -- know no shame -- because otherwise, it's all fucking meaningless. to have shame is to believe yourself wrong. like accepting a pardon is, as he says, a statement of your contrition. flint has to be on this collision course because, fundamentally, he sees what's happened as this: a good man is ridiculed and sent to hell for the crime of 1) the audacity of considering mercy and forgiveness viable courses of action in this world and 2) loving another man and refusing to believe in any sin inherent to it. and--to reuse the word-- fundamentally, what the lack of shame when shame is expected means is this-- that if you are not in the wrong, they are. it's a fixed quantity. that if you are not wrong, in some intrinsic sense, for kissing a man, for extending grace, for finding joy where you will without fear of how it comes to you, then the structure which persecutes you for these things is. and this is can be the only driving force behind why he's been able to do these awful fucking things!!! do you think he would have been able to murder his best friend with his own hands if he was having misgivings over whether whitehall was right this whole fucking time???

[herawell]

Every day I come closer and closer to writing a fic where Ma/rmee beats the absolute crap out of A/my for burning J/o's book and ensures the rest of the family shuns her for a long, long, time. And doesn't tell J/o to get over it before the sun sets.

[ilynpilled]

trope i really like is self-loathing characters desperate for the catharsis of punishment for frankly rather selfish reasons who r also obsessed with repeatedly pressing others into hating them and hurting them as essentially a method of self harm. yes baby continue making it worse for urself and everybody around u instead of doing an actually productive and effective journey of improvement

[slightlytoastedbagel]

more or less got top 2k on Kohane wl unless something horrible happens overnight

[nownow-noneofthat]

ooo but like!!! i could talk about this endlessly!!!!!!! and i bet i fucking will!!!!!!!!!

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