#liya.answers

[yuechihua]

How do you think Harumasa would deal with jealousy? Like do you think he's the type to easily get jealous and get all clingy or would he act a bit cold towards the reader?

Oh, this was super interesting to think about!! It took me a while to formulate my thoughts on how I think Harumasa would deal with jealousy, just because I think it's such a complex emotion, and he's such a complex person.

In my Bangboo fic, I wrote about him handling his jealousy in a more light-hearted way, where he acts overly clingy and makes jokes, and doesn't really mind when reader brushes him off. Part of this is is because it's a non-serious situation, and part of this is is because if he's close enough to care for someone, then there's usually a strong level of trust involved where he won't feel insecure in their relationship. He doesn't open up to just anyone!

This is how I think he acts in general when it comes to jealousy: if it's a more casual situation, then he might play up his reaction as part of a joke, but he doesn't really think too much about it/actually feel that upset. I think he tends to respect people he loves too much to easily get jealous over their other friends/life/people hitting on them etc.

Additionally, I think jealousy mainly stems from insecurity, and Harumasa's brand of issues doesn't really revolve around low self-esteem. I think he's generally pretty confident and reasonable, and has a decent control and understanding of his own emotions, so he wouldn't lash out at reader, either.

If anything, I think jealousy for him would mainly arise out of anxiety over the factors in his life that he can't control, and he would need a lot of compounding stressors to really make the jealousy settle in. In that case, he'll still try to pass it off as a joke and act clingy, but he's a bit more subdued and serious about it and holds reader for a little longer than he usually would, before letting go abruptly and pretending he's fine. He wouldn't complain if reader noticed how he felt and was a little nicer to him than usual, though.

[yuechicake]

loved the most recent comm for li <|:-) bloody and ominous li fuels my soul... what are your personal thoughts/feelings on ais? i just think it's sooo funny that mhin has two (2) pennies now for every person they've met that has lusts for a difficult and bloody fight /pos

hehe thank you so much!!! I'm glad you like it when she's off-putting and strange <3 there's nothing like the thrill of a bloody fight to put a genuine smile on her face <3

Also, I personally was a little indifferent to Ais at first but because he's Gumi's blorbo and because I made Li and Ais beat each other up as a form of bonding, I've become a lot more fond of him lol. I'm primarily interested in him as someone with intense ennui, who can also only feel something through violence, which he relentlessly seeks. He functions a little as a parallel to Li for me in that sense!

I'm fascinated by Ais like he's my personal school science experiment. I'm curious to see how far he will push himself in pursuit of his goals, especially if it comes at the cost of his self-destruction. I also like that he's an asshole with a twitter character limit when it comes to his speech lmfao

[yuechihua]

How do you think harumasa would react to a reader who never gets over his death? They kinda become closed off and never allow themselves to love again. Maybe they become that one grumpy old neighbor who watches kids play in on their street and when the kids notice they close the shades ominously (I'm kidding about this part). Like I know he would be dead and probably can't react but let's just say he watches over in spirit or something for funzies!

ohhhh I love this ask bc I love angst and tormenting my favorite twink <3 Let's ignore the logic of time and distance together and imagine that Harumasa is somehow aware that reader never got over him!

I think, in general, it would make him sad, haha. He's someone who's all about living in the moment and treasuring what you can, and he does everything he can so people won't be too sad after he's gone. He wants them to laugh at his funeral!!! This is the exact opposite of everything he wants!!

On the other hand, despite all his attempts to devalue himself in people's lives, he isn't fully aware of how precious he is to others. So it'll hit like a truck when he realizes how much reader loves him, and how much his death has changed them fundamentally. It's not that he wasn't aware before, but that he'd done his best to live in a way to mitigate the impacts of his eventual death. Sorry Harumasa... you can't logic your way out of attachment like that...

Also, he can't even comfort reader in any way! Everyone loses in this situation... He wants to see reader be happy, even if it means they'll be with someone else, but their happiness is tied to him...

[yuechihua]

Can't stop thinking about him...

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Look at his eyelashes...

He is so pretty!!!!!! the prettiest boy i know!!!!!! i love his little spiky eyelashes it's so ridiculously cute..... shaking my head rn i'll never be able to get over him

[yuechihua]

Love all your Harumasa fic 😭😭😭 the angst, the emotional damage, and the dynamic between the reader and Harumasa is all soooo gooddd (like how you write and all iss soooo) OMG 😭😭😭

Have a little idea pop out of my head :

Harumasa sees Reader as the light that he scare to approach, a faint light that someday will dissapear, and even himself will someday leave the reader.

He honestly want to get close with the reader, but the illness he have, and the wounds he have (maybe a flower can bloms in wounds) make him scare that someday the reader will also have the same wounds because of him.

Like A Name Written In Water, something that he can't leave behind or even forget it (his feelings to the reader) but he tried to hide it under his playful and teasing manner.

He just want ... the reader sees him as a goofy adult Harumasa, not as a fragile little boy on the cage :"( tried to seek answer from his master, and tried to stay alive, surviving in this world.

Anyway, that's all lol (I end up making a new idea for my school project-the teacher wants us to make a short animation, and mine is all about Harumasa).

Anyway ... KEEP UP YOUR WRITTING BROO 🗣🗣🔥🔥

Thank you so much for your kind words!!! It means a lot that you read and enjoyed all of my Harumasa fics so much <3 It's so cool that you're making a Harumasa inspired animation! I'd love to see it if you'd ever be willing to share it, haha!

And I like how you phrase Harumasa's feelings towards reader! They really are so unbearably precious to him, like a gentle light he can never hold, because he's afraid of hurting them, and, conversely, being hurt by them. So he can only look from afar, because that's the safest distance to be with them...

He definitely leans in on the teasing persona in order to disguise how he feels, and to allow himself the room to express his emotions without it being "serious." I think it's true that as much as he doesn't want to worry others, and expects a lot out of himself, he also doesn't want them to look down on him, either. He wouldn't want reader--or anyone-- to pity him, not when he's striving to survive and live his life as much as he can.

[yuechihua]

In this household, we love freaky harumasa.

In this household, we love and respect freaky harumasa, especially when the freakisms are a release of emotion and pent up desire and everything he is afraid to admit 🔥🔥🔥

[yuechihua]

I've just known that Bangboo's weight usually is around 32-40kg, that's mean if we want to carry Asaboo it will not easy like carry a plushie 😞 I always forget that Bangboo is a robot

Wait are Bangboos actually that heavy 💀 I was under the impression they were weirdly light… brb everyone I have to edit some things in my fic rn….. To carry Asaboo we will all have to work out until it’s possible 🔥

[yuechihua]

All pictures of Harumasa I've collected on Twitter. Look at this dude, he's just so....

Oh Harumasa is absolutely GORGEOUS…. His smirk in the first picture? I’m going to put him in the ground. God…. The exaggerated motions of ZZZ animation is both fun and allows for beautiful movement of Harumasa’s hair…..

[yuechihua]

oooo. yes, i’m so intrigued with your study on how harumasa sees the world, especially on love considering he (agent story spoilers) had a grey relationship with his mentor. i say grey because he didn’t know if his mentor genuinely loved him until much later, and the period of uncertainty might have caused him to adopt certain thinking patterns… if harumasa was standing in front of you (or reader) rn, what do you want to say to him? (lighter anon)

Hehe I'm excited to write about his thought process, especially because I think he has a complex relationship with intimacy... he's been abandoned by his birth parents, he's been betrayed by his mentor (and how does he reconcile the hurt with the love?), and now, he has a home with section six, but he still keeps them at a certain distance even though it's clear they mutually trust and care for each other.

i just think he wouldn't be able to deal with a conventional relationship, and actually, wouldn't have a conventional approach to love (romantic or otherwise). he favors his light-hearted facades and clings to them to the end, and disguises his vulnerability through jokes until things get too serious for him to keep that facade up. he's someone who loves other so much, and yet has difficulty receiving love at times... ohhh harumasa, the person that you are!

anyways, if harumasa was standing in front of me, i wouldnt even say a word to him. i would just immediately flip him over with a german supplex before he could do anything <3

[yuechihua]

Next time they go to the doctors office they should totally fake kiss... Y'know just to make sure...

they have to fake kiss for harumasa's health ofc. and it has to be like ten minutes long. might or might not include harumasa being pushed against the wall and some tongue (he will actually die if so). and its just for the disguise guys you dont get it. theres no other reason. next kiss has to be thirty minutes long because--

[yuechihua]

I ripping my hair out rn.. Asaboo ruined my life.. THEY WERE SO CLOSE TO KISSING... BLOCKED BY A ROBOT 😭😭

LMFAO my bad <3 Asaboo just really knows how to make a dramatic entrance…. Will they ever get to kiss? Read the fifth fic in this series to find out !!!

[yuechihua]

I just had a dream where I was being Harumasa's colleague and one day his fan randomly asked him does he like [fanfiction's name] about him and me. Harumasa was kind of flustered and awkward, he said sorry to me. I was like "Oh no it's okay I don't mind." and when I walked back home, opened my phone and looked at the phone screen.

"Wait... I am the one wrote that fanfiction?"

Wait that’s so cute though!!! That reaction from Harumasa means he definitely read the fanfic lmfaooo. The plot twist of you being the author, too…!!!! I just know that ship is popular in new eridia fr.

What Harumasa didn’t tell you is that he also writes fanfic under a secret alt account in his free time and doesn’t want to be caught lollll

[yuechihua]

this is so specific please bear with me

about the reader passing away, do you think it would impact him more if their relationship was only starting to bloom? maybe its something along the lines of "hes only starting to get to know you and now he finally has something he can cling to" or "theres still so much left to say but he cant fully be vulnerable and tell you yet" oohhuuff

I think there's definitely a different layer of tragedy if Harumasa were to lose reader when there are so many things left unsaid, or if he's finally allowing himself to open up to them and then loses them too soon. It's the tragedy of losing someone before he could even begin to come to terms with his own feelings for them... it's the lost possibility of what they could have been... the regret of losing someone before he could really know them or let them know him...

There's so much he wants to say! So much he wants to do! Here's someone he can let himself care for, and then even that hope is ripped away from him.

I think there's also the additional angle of how Harumasa has always implicitly believed he would die first, so he never prepared emotionally for what it meant to be left behind by someone he believed would live for far longer. Or maybe he just wanted them to live for a long, long time, even if he couldn't...

[yuechihua]

The way you write harumasa reminds me of this song I like where the lyrics are "My love doesn't have to be me having you, even though it hurts to slice through all the promises" and ipajfjckvjjdkdjcnfn

Omg <3 it's an honor that the way I write him reminds you of a song you like!!! I think it's so him though </3 sorry I'm obsessed with Harumasa who would love someone to the point he prioritizes their happiness and wellbeing over actually getting to be with them, no matter how painful it is.......

[yuechihua]

looking at ur banner… now i understand your username! but at the same time… not really? why name it “moon eats flowers”? :3 (lighter anon)

The answer is a little silly, haha, but I was trying to brainstorm new usernames with my friend on a whim, and since I like all my socmed to have consistent theming, I wanted this blog to match with all my other blog handles!!! Which also are variations of yue + chi + word lol.

Fun fact. I was considering naming this blog yuechihuayuan (or garden instead of just flower) but it was too long so I scrapped it <\3

As for the specific characters, I just really like the moon and flowers tbh! I also like the way those words sound together, how it flows, and I’ve been stylizing it as moon-eating flowers in my head, which is kind of a cool concept, haha!

[yuechihua]

hello! idk how to send messages w/o exposing my account so i hope a twitter link is fine too!

https://x.com/northstardoll/status/1890827239559999548?t=q-ag0diiIK_M3q41bwgGeQ&s=19

this is so incredibly harumasa, especially in your fics omll

HELPPPP i love this tweet and it literally describes how i envision the harumasa relationship perfectly...... i love when he has deep-rooted emotional and intimacy issues <3 #1 yearner harumasa real!!!!!