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[yuechihua]

please continue cooking with that harumasa fic!!!!!!!!! i will absolutely devour any and all harumasa content you post. you are singlehandedly keeping me away from starvation, thank you my saviour

Thank you anon <333 I definitely will!!!!! Harumasa lovers unite and get behind me. I will finish this fic for us.

[yuechihua]

gamers it's so over.... 3.6k words into harumasa pov fic and i still have like three or four different sections to write. maybe more, depending on if i think it needs it for context/build up. Quick snippet under the cut btw

“Harumasa, look at me.” A rustle of fabric. Your gloves flutter to the dirt below, stark and black. And then— warm hands. The warmest hands he’s ever felt, cradling his face, bringing his wane face to yours.  A smear of blood across your cheek. Sweat heading across your forehead. But your eyes are beautiful, steadfast and luminous. Like the moon, lighting his way home. “You’re okay,” you say, voice so quiet, as if it’s meant for no other ears than his. “You’re okay, I promise.” 

[yuechihua]

I know it's not an exact one to one but why does the kid in Harumasa's nightmare in his character demo look a little like him when he was a child? there's something in there about being afraid of what he will become and trying desperately to save himself.....

[yuechihua]

How do you think Harumasa would deal with jealousy? Like do you think he's the type to easily get jealous and get all clingy or would he act a bit cold towards the reader?

Oh, this was super interesting to think about!! It took me a while to formulate my thoughts on how I think Harumasa would deal with jealousy, just because I think it's such a complex emotion, and he's such a complex person.

In my Bangboo fic, I wrote about him handling his jealousy in a more light-hearted way, where he acts overly clingy and makes jokes, and doesn't really mind when reader brushes him off. Part of this is is because it's a non-serious situation, and part of this is is because if he's close enough to care for someone, then there's usually a strong level of trust involved where he won't feel insecure in their relationship. He doesn't open up to just anyone!

This is how I think he acts in general when it comes to jealousy: if it's a more casual situation, then he might play up his reaction as part of a joke, but he doesn't really think too much about it/actually feel that upset. I think he tends to respect people he loves too much to easily get jealous over their other friends/life/people hitting on them etc.

Additionally, I think jealousy mainly stems from insecurity, and Harumasa's brand of issues doesn't really revolve around low self-esteem. I think he's generally pretty confident and reasonable, and has a decent control and understanding of his own emotions, so he wouldn't lash out at reader, either.

If anything, I think jealousy for him would mainly arise out of anxiety over the factors in his life that he can't control, and he would need a lot of compounding stressors to really make the jealousy settle in. In that case, he'll still try to pass it off as a joke and act clingy, but he's a bit more subdued and serious about it and holds reader for a little longer than he usually would, before letting go abruptly and pretending he's fine. He wouldn't complain if reader noticed how he felt and was a little nicer to him than usual, though.

[yuechihua]

Harumasa spotted in new event!!!!!

[yuechihua]

Thinking about Harumasa's feelings to reader when I listen to this song (´;︵;`)

“The night I got drunk and confessed my feelings for you

Let's forget it now

Walking together on the snowy day felt like a romantic movie scene

We must forget it now”

https://youtu.be/V1gFInEPENY?si=tF1LQ4boMRMsRNoq

I think this song encapsulates Harumasa’s feelings so well!!! T_T cherishing every moment he spends with them, even as he tries to maintain a certain distance/pull away. It’s the conflicting desires of wanting to be close vs wanting to spare the other person from heartbreak…

[yuechihua]

No the way you characterize harumasa is SOOOO GOOD OML!!!! When you say he doesn't wanna get super close to the reader all I can think about is reader saying they'd rather be together with him for a short time than regret not being with him forever 😭😭 (sorry I'm bad at wording)

Thank you so much for enjoying the way I characterize Harumasa!!! <3 You also worded it perfectly! I think he really does need to hear that reader wants to be with him even if he can only offer them a few years, because it’d be more painful to never be with him at all….

Despite all his cunning plans and pragmatic habits, deep down, he really does want someone to say he’s worth it, and that he’s loved. He does want that distance to be bridged, even if a part of him is afraid of what will happen when it does…

[yuechihua]

this is so specific please bear with me

about the reader passing away, do you think it would impact him more if their relationship was only starting to bloom? maybe its something along the lines of "hes only starting to get to know you and now he finally has something he can cling to" or "theres still so much left to say but he cant fully be vulnerable and tell you yet" oohhuuff

I think there's definitely a different layer of tragedy if Harumasa were to lose reader when there are so many things left unsaid, or if he's finally allowing himself to open up to them and then loses them too soon. It's the tragedy of losing someone before he could even begin to come to terms with his own feelings for them... it's the lost possibility of what they could have been... the regret of losing someone before he could really know them or let them know him...

There's so much he wants to say! So much he wants to do! Here's someone he can let himself care for, and then even that hope is ripped away from him.

I think there's also the additional angle of how Harumasa has always implicitly believed he would die first, so he never prepared emotionally for what it meant to be left behind by someone he believed would live for far longer. Or maybe he just wanted them to live for a long, long time, even if he couldn't...

[yuechihua]

i love you and how you described harureader interactions so much 😭 and the ideas are really nice too PLEASE KEEPS WRITTING MOAH

Thank you so much!!! I'm glad you enjoy my Harumasa fics so much <3 It's very flattering to hear!!

[yuechihua]

I really love your Valentine's harumasa idea.... What if reader gives harumasa specifically dark chocolate since it's bitter and(hopefully) suits his tastes?

I think that would be so cute!!! I was thinking similarly that reader custom make the chocolate to be bitter to suit Harumasa's tastes, though I also have no doubt if it had been regular milk chocolate, he still would have eaten the whole thing with no complaints and said some cheesy line about how he doesn't mind the taste of sweets if it's from them LMFAO

[yuechihua]

the truth is I want to try opening drabble requests so bad but I'm afraid I'll get super into a different idea and then write it out into a full fic and harumasa pov fic will languish in the background....... it's kicking my ass so hard rn bc tell me why i decided to try to explore his mindset and character instead of writing a straightforward relationship study.........

[yuechihua]

The way you write harumasa reminds me of this song I like where the lyrics are "My love doesn't have to be me having you, even though it hurts to slice through all the promises" and ipajfjckvjjdkdjcnfn

Omg <3 it's an honor that the way I write him reminds you of a song you like!!! I think it's so him though </3 sorry I'm obsessed with Harumasa who would love someone to the point he prioritizes their happiness and wellbeing over actually getting to be with them, no matter how painful it is.......

[yuechihua]

looking at ur banner… now i understand your username! but at the same time… not really? why name it “moon eats flowers”? :3 (lighter anon)

The answer is a little silly, haha, but I was trying to brainstorm new usernames with my friend on a whim, and since I like all my socmed to have consistent theming, I wanted this blog to match with all my other blog handles!!! Which also are variations of yue + chi + word lol.

Fun fact. I was considering naming this blog yuechihuayuan (or garden instead of just flower) but it was too long so I scrapped it <\3

As for the specific characters, I just really like the moon and flowers tbh! I also like the way those words sound together, how it flows, and I’ve been stylizing it as moon-eating flowers in my head, which is kind of a cool concept, haha!

[yuechihua]

More Harumasa fic ideas I’m turning over and over in my mind:

Valentine’s Day fic where everyone in section six is flooded with chocolates from fans and reader gives everyone some as a casual sign of their affection but debates on giving Harumasa something more special since he doesn’t care for sweets as much and already has so much from other people (he wants something special from reader soooo badly he’s dying and trying not to show it)

Dying tragically in his arms and he feels like it’s all his fault and he’ll never recover emotionally from this <3 Harumasa's ultimate crashout

High school classmates AU. He’s flippant and popular and part of the archery team, and reader is serious and the student council president. Both of them are striving to work for HSO after they graduate and reader has a one sided academic rivalry with Harumasa (they’re both neck and neck for first place all the time). They hate him, he finds them cute!

Time loop AU. I just want to see him go crazy trying to save reader OR for reader to go crazy trying to save him. If you're in a time loop and you're experiencing different traumatic events over and over while the person you love stays the same, are you still the same person who loved them? And are they still the person you love, or just an ideal you cling to for your own sanity?

[yuechihua]

How do you think harumasa would react to a reader who never gets over his death? They kinda become closed off and never allow themselves to love again. Maybe they become that one grumpy old neighbor who watches kids play in on their street and when the kids notice they close the shades ominously (I'm kidding about this part). Like I know he would be dead and probably can't react but let's just say he watches over in spirit or something for funzies!

ohhhh I love this ask bc I love angst and tormenting my favorite twink <3 Let's ignore the logic of time and distance together and imagine that Harumasa is somehow aware that reader never got over him!

I think, in general, it would make him sad, haha. He's someone who's all about living in the moment and treasuring what you can, and he does everything he can so people won't be too sad after he's gone. He wants them to laugh at his funeral!!! This is the exact opposite of everything he wants!!

On the other hand, despite all his attempts to devalue himself in people's lives, he isn't fully aware of how precious he is to others. So it'll hit like a truck when he realizes how much reader loves him, and how much his death has changed them fundamentally. It's not that he wasn't aware before, but that he'd done his best to live in a way to mitigate the impacts of his eventual death. Sorry Harumasa... you can't logic your way out of attachment like that...

Also, he can't even comfort reader in any way! Everyone loses in this situation... He wants to see reader be happy, even if it means they'll be with someone else, but their happiness is tied to him...

[yuechihua]

i still need to replace some of his disc drives for better ones but i maxed him out as soon as i could. he doesn't deserve all of that -_-

[yuechihua]

it's funny how he thinks death is going to get him out of this relationship <3