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[livlovlrn]

What lengths would you go to?

I know it’s been a while.  I feel like this has been an outlet for me, a voice to my journey that has been long and stressful and now I am coming to the end of that journey because I am getting better and better.  I still intend to blog but I have to decide what tone to give that blog; and whether to continue here on Tumblr or to find another outlet for it.  We’ll see.  I hope I’ve helped or encouraged someone somewhere with my sharing of my life; I hope I’ve helped make someone search a little more for help or feel a little less alone in their struggles.

Today I want to ask you a question which I already have there in the title. That is: What lengths would you go to to gain, regain, maintain your health? Would you give up your favorite food? a pet? you entire lifestyle? What extent would to stop and say “I’m willing to stay sick to stick with what I’ve got”?  I can honestly say I can’t say what I’d do in all those situations but I have gone to great lengths to regain a great deal of health.  I’ve given up many foods, spent a lot of money (in my world anyway) on health care providers, and, most recently, given up taking showers, to regain and then maintain my health.  It isn’t easy to give these things up but there is this thing inside of me that won’t let myself accept the less than a life I was living when in the depth of the illness.  When anything begins to cause me to slide back I do what I can to stop the regression.

This is why I stopped taking showers (hopefully as temporarily as possible).  I had been noticing in the past month that my hair had been seeming different, a lot dryer and I started getting split ends, when I hadn’t had any previously (in all honestly I have had split ends before, just not since I started eating super healthy).  Then the last time I took a shower my face stung all day long; there must be a big ol’ bunch of chlorine in the water to make it hurt that bad for that long.  With my system being so sensitive I realized it wouldn’t be a good idea to subject it to that kind of chemical bombardment all the time so decided I would forgo showers and do basin washing instead.  This is not an easy task.  I use filtered water from our on the counter system, but that in itself takes some work so I also buy jugs of purified water from the store.  The leaning over kills my back, especially when washing my hair but I am willing to put up with it because I know I don’t want to pay the consequences of allowing those chemicals into a system that can’t process them well.  I have people roll their eyes at my seemingly crazy ideas, but thankfully that doesn’t bother me.  I know I am doing what is best for this body of mine that tends toward the fragile side.  I also know that working on keeping it healthy makes me a better person which allows me to focus on things other than just surviving.

So let’s get back to the question, really I have even deeper questions for you. Are you satisfied with your health the way it is? Do you feel you’ve found answers to your questions why rather than getting a “band-aid” on your symptoms? How far ARE you willing to go to truly find the cause and find healing rather than temporary fixes?  Ask yourself these questions, go from there

As always thanks for listening Until I check in again Shalom

[bossladyjs-blog]

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.#bossladymoves #livingnotexisting #unruly2020 https://www.instagram.com/p/B7nrAJyhNB5B1OvpC-OpiIbpnEyllUsQbEZHs00/?igshid=havuvdu8g679

[xp0sedpoetry-blog]

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[chronicallykiri]

Despite everything, here I am still living. Every day I thought I couldn't get through, every time I thought my life was over, every time I was in so much pain I thought I would die, every operation where I didn't know if I would wake up the same, or at all. Here I am living despite it all. 💖💕 #quote #poetry #rupikaur #rainbow #neon #spoonie #chronicillness #disabled #eds #chronicpain #warrior #iam #livingnotexisting

[pincodetone]

#day31 in #Taiwan #oldschool #people #culture #travel #wanderlust #exploring #livingnotexisting #life #openbook #nextchapter #Kenting #forest #lizard #justchillin #camoflauge #reptile #mothernature (at Kenting National Park)

[nikimoorefunny]

I love ❤ you too my sista! repost via @instarepost20 from @raeofluv_ Never a dull moment when I link up with @nikimoorefunny ❤️😍! I love you so much and I can’t wait to see you live on stage next weekend! #TheGiz #mymentor #allLove #SundayFunday #laughsfordays #lesterisafool #kickstandleg #busboysandpoets #livingmybestlife #livingnotexisting #brunchislife

[relaxandconquer]

Up since 1am after sleeping for 8 hours, and let me tell you - this morning has already been hella good. What a beautiful way to start a Friday. #grindtime #billerlife #livingnotexisting #lovethelifeyoulive (at Wilmington, Illinois)

[meganutriland]

Early morning #quickworkout #greensmoothie #positivevibes #udanegodnia #cabbage #spirulina #kale #honey #mandarin #water #oats #magical #mix #blended #yummy #morningbooster #lifestyle #blogger #livingnotexisting #havinggoodtime #onmyway #drivingto #beingpositive #glutenfree #forhashimoto

[flycondesign]

Last night was #EPIC! Last night, I truly understood what it means that for every negative thought you need 10 positives to rule out the negative. So here’s to #livingmore and more #positiveenergy more often #GrowForwardNOW . . #positiveexperiences #halloween #morelife #livelife #livingnotexisting #dance #sing #unicorns #blackunicorn #angelicarugrats #bigbadwolf #deadmau5 #thejoker #mickey #mickeymouse #witchdoctor #halloweenparadenyc #unionsquare #unionsquareny . . . @maxresultsnow #WeAreALifestyle www.maxresultsnow.com (at 14th Street/Sixth Avenue)

[onehapeehipee]

This has been very much what I've been thinking recently.. and moving has always been a stable part of my life so... #quityourjobandtravel #move #travel #newlife #wander #againsttheratrace #dowhatyouwant #live #dontexist #livingnotexisting #seetheworld #dontconform #neverstopmoving #changes #changesinmylife #needchange

[shaunjudahyo]

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I different...DIFFERENT #LivingNotExisting #GoBeGreat #AlwaysInspire #OldHavana #LaHabanaCuba (at Havana, Cuba)

[livlovlrn]

Thyroid treatment

Well I had my first treatment session for my thyroid.  Just a reminder I have been disillusioned by “western” medicine for a long time so always am searching for more natural ways to treat whatever is going on with me.  The doctor(s) I am seeing label themselves as naturopaths and that is the field I have stuck with for about a decade now.

SO! My session was actually 3 treatments together.  First the doctor did what he called “manual manipulation”. Normally I think of that as chiropractic procedures of popping joints back into place. For this really he just pushed on and massaged the areas around my neck and throat.  Most of it was tolerable, the only part that really hurt (a LOT) was when he massaged deeply around my clavicle (collar bone).  YIKSEES!!!! that hurt.  He also massaged my neck a fair amount, I think he said working with the lymph system getting some adhesions broken up (basically that’s like a muscle knot that won’t let go)

Next they did galvanic treatment on my thyroid.  This is the type of treatment I had done once before and got burned.  The attendant was very kind and helpful making sure I didn’t get burnt this time; especially considering it was on my neck!!!  So for this treatment they put a damp towel on my back; this is the part where they had to make sure it wasn’t wrinkled so it wouldn’t burn me; she was very careful about that.  Then they had 2 largish electrode discs which I believe had iodine on them. They put one on each side of my neck and then put a cloth and velcro collar around those to keep them in place.  This treatment was set for 15 minutes to see how I tolerate it (because my body is so very sensitive) but will be a 30 minute treatment eventually.  They turn on the electrodes and allow me to say how much frequency I could stand; it was pretty low this first time. I have sensitive skin and it felt like I was being poked by needles a little bit...not terribly painful but a little uncomfortable.  If you’ve ever had any kind of electrical treatment you know that whatever discomfort you may feel at first goes away after a few minutes.  the doctor warned me it would make my neck red and it sure did :D Also very swollen, I could feel my thyroid when I swallowed for about an hour afterward.

The third treatment was high frequency electro-therapy. They had this wand like tool they could put different pieces on, for me it was a “T” shaped piece made of polycarbonate or something of the sort. The top part of the “T” was curved a bit. I was given instructions not to touch anything metal or anyone else. They gave me a bell that was not metal and told me if I needed help to not stop the treatment but to ring the bell and they’d turn it off for me. The attendant put some lotion on my neck and turned the machine on for me and I used the tool massaging gently up and down my neck.  It felt a little like I was shocking myself, I could feel it every now and then as if it got off the lotion (which was pretty impossible with the amount she put on LOL) and was “jumping ahead”.  Again it wasn’t really painful just felt like little pokes.

Now we see if it helped at all.  I will have treatments every two weeks for now (again because my body is sensitive and takes a while to adjust to things, otherwise I’d go in once a week minimum) and see how we progress. So much hoping this is the answer I’ve been seeking for so very long.

That’s it for now, thanks for listening. Until I check in again Shalom (Peace: full thriving flourishing happiness, prosperity, health and completeness)

[aroundtheworldinonelifetim-blog1]

Always on the move! 🍃👣 #Travel #aussieabroad #adventure #europe #England #UK #aroundtheworldinonelifetime #alwaysonthemove #nomad #wheresnext #livingnotexisting #borntotravel #hiking #travelgram #instatravel #follow

[mycursemyblessing]

Looking back on this past year of self-discovery & I have to say it's been pretty good to me! May 2016 was officially the start of a new chapter in this journey of mine, set free from the corporate shackles. Although venturing out into the unknown was extremely risky & took a huge leap of faith it was absolutely necessary for me. My exit plan was strategic yet there seemed to be an even bigger plan for my plan. The universe is really good at throwing signs your way when needed & they've never been more clearer than in this past year...Or maybe I was just more open to receiving them. If the culmination of my years of work experience has taught me anything it's that were all great at many things. We shouldn't limit ourselves to just one passion, one lane, one direction. Embracing this new lifestyle of mine & a deep-seeded passion for all things positive. Have met & inspired so many new, amazing & like minded friends since as you know, like attracts like. Thankful for a blessed year & looking forward to what this self-directed future of mine holds! #casitadedraeger #mycursemyblessing #uptownwhittier #namaste #stayhumble #stayblessed #inspiredtomotivate #entrepatronaneur #positivevibes #lifesajourney #livingnotexisting #healthymindbodysoul #photography #mylifemylens #takeninBigBear

[sunshyne2014]

This! #LivingNotExisting

[pincodetone]

#day38 in #Taiwan #oldschool #people #culture #travel #wanderlust #exploring #livingnotexisting #life #openbook #nextchapter #jiufen #beard #redbeard #longbeard #strongbeard #viking #celtic (at Juifang, T'Ai-Wan, Taiwan)