#literally juat happened to me

[125storejuice]

Okay small rant time !!!!

[red-viewe]

general lilia x reader thoughts 🔫 (part two✌)

COLORED TEXT IS FAE LANGUAGE (tw: metions of bl99d, swearing)

Part 1 part 3

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'Fuck my life.'

Here's the tea. You found a half-dead but sexy asf fae on your sidewalk and decided, 'Hey! Let's bring him in, warp him up and fall asleep!' Which was a stupid decision, because now, you're leaning against Mr. Hot Guy's head, pretending to be asleep, because right now, THE FAE GUY IS AWAKE AND HE MIGHT KILL YOU.

After about 5 minutes of awkward silence, this happened.

"I know you're awake."

He said, as he slowly started to get up from the couch. "W-wow, i didn't think you would notice..." God, get yourself together, dude.

"Where am I?" He says, turning to the very sweaty(?) you. God, this man is so hot.

"You're in my house...in the woods, a-and you shouldn't stand up right now, you're still injured.

" You abruptly stand and gently push him down back on to the couch.

"I'm Y/n L/n, by the way... " Mr. Fae still seemed to be om guard.

"Why did you save me? Don't you know about the war going on right now?" He asks in a stern tone (which was kind of hot...).

"Well, war is stupid when you can literally solve everything without death." You say as you walked away into the kitchen.

"...Is that so.." He mumbled.

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It toke time for the fae to tell you his name, you respected that. You wouldn't tell a stranger your name either. (Expect you did, but we ignore that) Afte a while, he finally said to juat call him Liliy. Being shot in the stomach with an iron arrow, it toke Liliy time to be able to actually move, but it was progress.

Your days suddenly became more interesting, as you spent more time with him, learning more and more about him.

Like how he's insanely good at games, even when he doesn't try, or when he sometimes helps you prepare for the day before you open the bar.

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"I'm not playing with you anymore." You cry in a joking tone as you lose yet again another game of chess.

"Pft, if you'd like, perhaps you'd desire an easier game? May i suggest rock paper sissors?" Liliy says with mischievous smirk on his face.

"Oh, screw you."

'Is this man trying to poison me?' Was the first thought you had when you opened the lunch Liliy attempted to make for you.

"It can't be that bad..." You say out loud, slightly gagging when you scooped up some of the meal(?) onto your spoon.

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And...sweet moments, which made your heart beat a little faster and your cheeks warm up.

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"Sleeping late, beastie?" Liliy said, as he toke some of your hair into his hands and started combing playing with it, making you blush when you felt his breath a little too close.

"Mhm, I'm doing some stinky taxes before i go to bed." You said, writing down information. After a while of liliy playing with your hair, you started to feel drowsy and fell asleep, waking up the next day on your bed, with a half asleep liliy next to you, staring at you with half closed eye lids and a blush on his face.

'How are you so freaking fine?'

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You honestly did not know when you and the fae started getting so comfortable with each other, but are grateful for your friendship with Liliy.

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The some of the buildings were set ablaze, others half torn apart, and human bounty hunters were tearing the town apart looking for Lilia Vanrouge. Rumours of the infamous general seeking refuge with someone spread far and wide, wide enough to reach the ears of the royal family. The bounty on his head was more than 9 million thaumarks, and bounty hunters were eager to find the fae.

'Fuck, fuck fuck fuck fuck' You screamed on your mind as you swiftly ran back to your home in the woods, running from the danger.

"LIliy!" You burst into your home, praying that your fae would still be there.

"Y/n." Liliy was dressed in the armour you found him in, with his gargoyle mask on this head, carrying his weapon. "I have something to tell you, beastie."

"That you're Lilia Vanrouge, I know." You're not stupid. You saw the bounty posters. Bro.

"Are you leaving..?" You silently said, eyes meeting his.

Lilia stepped closer, his voice now low and soft.

"I have to. If I don't I- You- my queen needs me, and it's too dangerous for me t-" You hug him, eyes watering. Lilia's arms gently embrace you, and he kisses your forehead. "I swear I'll be back, my love"

Tears fall down your face, as he slowly releases you and leaves, turning back for one last glance of you.

'Please come back'

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Authors note

This one was a bit sad😭 maybe if i finish part 3 i can make some side stories with crack and stuff 😭🙏Would you like that ?🤔

(Also just comment if you want to be tagged if theres a next one)

(Tag list: @anonima-2)

[twopoppies]

I realize itʼs splitting hairs at this point but it pissed me off that one of the things that went wrong with Liam on October 16th was the balcony. I have a balcony and itʼs regulation that itʼs a certain height, it happens to be taller than my waist. If the sides of his balcony had been taller he would have passed out to the floor not off the side. And he still could have died! It could have been an overdose, but he wouldnʼt have died from falling off the side of a balcony. If it had been juat a little bit higher he would have had a bump on his head from the fall. I donʼt know why the balcony height pisses me off so badly. Mybe because even if every single other thing had gone wrong that day and everyone had still failed him, he might have lived. Fucking garbage architectual decision and he died I hate it.

I know. Literally every aspect leading up to his death is so fucking awful and so much of it was completely preventable.

[sejanusxcoriyo]

Now we don’t know what happened with Lucy Gray. BUT I JUST KNOW HER AND SEJANUS WOULD HAVE A BLAST SHIT TALKING AB CORYO. They would be best friends in the afterlife 😽

You have a point, I could definitely see them in the afterlife talking bout.

"So, he killed you huh?"

"Wait what?"

"Coriolanus?"

"No, I was killed for working with the rebels."

"Come on, Sejanus, we both know that he had you killed."

"What about you?"

"Weren't you Coryo supposed to be married either like 7 kids right now?"

"He lied to me, then tried to kill me."

"I mean it would make sense."

-

Then them just going on a fucking rant, talking about all the shit he did to Sejanus growing up and how he cheated so she could win..talking about 'I'm just sending water'

Then 64 years later..

"IS THAT KATNISS? MY SWAMP POTATO IS READY!"

"From the river?"

"Wait, she's a bit like you, Sejanus. LOOK!" And she'd point to Katniss shooting the apple at the sponsors ans Gamemaker.

"Mhm, that you alright."

"Exuse me, what's that supposed to mean?"

"You snuck into the arena to put Marcus to rest 64 years ago. Tell me you wouldn't do anything like that?" And he'd look off knowing that he DEFINITELY do something like that.

Then here comes Peeta.

"Lucy Grey, I know we didn't get reincarnated into District 12 tributes."

And she'd look and during the interview, "mhm, that one right there, that's me and she's you. Mhm, we know better this time."

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The arena when Rue dies.

"BITCH IS THAT MY SONG? MY SONG, SEJANUS, THEY SINGIN' MY SONG!"

"Didn't someone just die?"

"I MEAN YEAH, BUT THATS MY FUCKING SONG!"

Then it would show Coriolanus throwing a tantrum because Katniss was singing her song, and he was thinking about what he did.

The Sejanus and Lucy Grey are pointing down at him, laughing their asses off. And I know Mags, Finnick, and Rue are all juat joining in on the fun.

I can also Mags hugging Lucy Grey so right when she finally meets her. Like yeah, mhm, that's the bad bitch who make Coriolanus Snow fall in love with her. A literal bad bitch.

[triplegoths]

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i cant fucking take living like this anymore

i cant do it i have to end it soon theres literally nothing for me here anymore. its too much to do. im never gonna fucking have another close in real life relationship.

i want to just like order some food at work so im not more miserable being here but i dont have the strength or stomach to eat something. ill eventually try maybe. i dont know. the drugs make me not eat like a fucking sick dog already and everything rn just says i dont deserve it

i have no motive or energy to do anything but work or somethimes playing a game but even that were usually unable bc were too tired.

whats the fucking issue with me!!!! i just dont give a shit anymore i dont want to do anything nothing makes me happy everythinf eventually juat makes me feel scared and sick and weird. every time i try to make fun or have plans it goes horrible and it just feels worse so i wont anymore ill just fucking rot alone like life wants me to

nobody here can help me and if i could i couldnt afford it so who fucking cares its cheaper to kill myself and lose the body so they dont need funeral costs. theyd misgender and shave me anyway probably

im just so fucking over it all im never gonna be happy like this. i got nothing. theres no good its just working til i fucking kill myself and putting myself through fuxking agony constantly for a life that continues to just KICK AND KICK AND KICK AND KICK me when im fucking down. i cant handle anything else happening. im trying so hard to get things done and theres just fuxking nothing. i will never ever be enough and ill never feel enough.

doesnt matter what or when or the circumstance its so depressing that its not just romantic relations too im so fuckinf scared in groups i automatically feel unwelcome and hated and like i should just go off by myself because im literally so unlikeable and everything has proved it forever. like genuinely as soon as i realized there were more than 2 people i got terrified and started questioning everythinf i did and wanted to run away bc i felt like i wasnt meant to be there and it was ovipus and i was being annoying like fucking ALWAYS GOD IM SO SICK OF BEING LIKE THIS can i just shut up forever? dirk please come back to front im tired of annoying all the people who so graciously allow me to exist around them so i dont have to be in such crushing loneliness all the time i feel like such a fucking baby and everybody probably thinks im such an annoying drug addict too can i just quit it and fucking feel and then kill myself already when i realize its worse

like im never gonna be able to afford any of the shit i need to heal and i dont even wanna try bc ill get 3 appointments in and will run out of money and continue doing that and then ill die bc i cant afford anything else. like why would i do that to myself ill just suffer like this and just do my best forever til i can only rot. id rather get it fuckinf over with and just die now. this isnt a life

i go frm one box go another. rotting. i rot at home alone or i go to work alone. i dont really go out. i dont really talk to anybody. i dont really see anybody. i have 1 irl friend who talks to me and lives in town. the other i dont see her often and honestly feel so embarassed of myself around her because of how i am that i can barely convince myself to see her sometimes even if she is in town. the other person is one of my exs and he doesnt give a shit about me he just wants sex bc thats the only thing im good for. i feel like i just annoy and make everybody uncomfortable conwtantly i dont wanna do it anymore i want to shut up

i always do it i always just talk endlessly frm the second i fucking could before most kids could talk even and i just never shut up did i? my parents were always annoyed by me talking about things that brought me joy (and they never believed me for things that were upsettinf and it was just fake and i needed to be quiet about it bc theyre not taking me to the doctor. so i stopped talking about it to my family and everybody else in my life in that era did the same. the bullies. my friends who ignored me. no matter the form it was always like that i just need to learn to keep quiet and go away and not need anything ever again. i couldnt fucking learn it every time i got a red or yellow card for talking (usually trying to ask questions bc i didnt understand or couldnt see or couldnt hear in elementary school. or to make conversation bc i was friendly and had no friends and my parent didnt play with me so i was lonely. nobody ever liked me bc i was weird. i feel like such a bitter dickhead but i get so jealous when i see that people talk to others every day. especially in person. im so fucking alone i literally get so excited when people want to call with me even if it makes me really scared (and sometimes if im not comfortable enough or feeling sad i will run a away from that too because im so scared to fuckinf annoy people and say something stupid or be boring or trying too hard or just fucking being a total downer because theres nothing good ever going on for me. i got so depressed goin on bsky today and seeing everyone playing webfishing when i cant. but even so lik.e maybe im glad i djdnt join bc one of them was in a big group with new mut and then all strangers so like. its better i wasnt able to bc i would probably jusg feel worse and run away frm everyone bc i feel inadequate snd guilty for taking up space. i always feel like im bothering everyone no matter what. fuck my exhusband in general but he also made me so much more insecure than i was already. he made me feel so annoying and he broke my communication. i was alone with him and JUST him for so long. i could only communicate in nonsense phrases sometimes (literal jibberish not memes) because thats all he would respond to or wouldnt talk to me until i did. he changed my whole pattern of speech and i still almost lapse into it sometimes. it was never any kind of real conversation about anything i felt like it withered my brain. nothing ever in depth just stupid sensless bullshit and jokes (that were often insulting me and made me feel like shit) and i was doing it for fucking nothing because everything else sucked too!!!! the only time there was ever a conversation was when i was BEGGING HIM to stop sometbing or do something for the millionth time. or him defending himself or trying to force my support and trigger my ocd (i genuinely think he was trying to make it worse he never respected it ever he mever respected a single part of me) or him fighting with me on something again (usually the thing was due to him and i just was not being forgiving and quiet and turning off my emotions enough about it. learned numb happiness)

my existence is like a plague and theres nothing here for me. theres even less left of me after he got done with me. he stripped my personality all the way down and forcef me to mirror him. everythinf will always be rotted and ill feel like a horrid shell of a person any time im near anyone. the only option is being alone. maybe this time i will learn and just fuxking stop all of this so we can stop being a curse on everybody. even if i could afford mental help theres nobody that can help me here so its all a waste. i feel like everybody will just hurt me again. doesnt even have to be a partner i feel like every single person is gnna realize sooner or later that im not worth it or they dont like me (ir even hate me) and that im just too fucking annoying to be around

i dont want to be annoying anymore. i wish it was like right after he went to prison again when i didnt have anything and was an empty shell and had nothing to say or talk about that wasnt venting. i wish i never got back some of my "sparkle" or whatever the fuck people call it. mines not a sparkle. its a noxious cloud of toxic annoyance fumes and everybody just has to keep their masks up til i vacate the area. why would i ever fucking want this to come back. i need to shut the fuck up i really do. just take our personality and every crumb of joy again im so sick of it. make it so i dont have any of those thoughts to even post. thus sparing everyone from having to be like "UGH this motherfucker AGAIN. does he ever shut the fuck up? is he ever quiet? can he just log off already? this guy definitely has no life. why does he always have to butt into everything"

that way i can just post like. the shortest most boring updates ever like "back to work! only 3 days this week for the 39 hours. more time off is always good" and then shut up for days and then "got paid nice. going to the bank and then grabbing a few groceries" like thats do much better. nobody needs to fucking know man its sad and depressing and all the same OR you are the most obnoxious prick on any site youre ever and you ruin everybodys day when theyre forced to see you in their notifs or on their timeline

ive probably already muted me bc it didnt even take a week for me to just talk way too muxh when none of of it is important and nobody wants to hear it

even if im not allowed to talk frm my body. its already annoying enough in text and then psyically i just stutter and trip over myself or cant think or forget what i was saying

i wanna delete everything i have and crawl into the earth. i hate being alive. the one time i find something that makes me happy even the littlest bit i cant do it anymore. disallowed by the universe and painfully reminded of the fact im supposed to alone and theres actually nothing for me. it doesnt get better for me it only gets worse. and it makes me feel stupid for believing it could even though thats few and far between. theres nothing left for me i need to just get whatever drugs i decide on and have one last hoorah and take enough to kill me. which hopefully wont even be that hard because im mixing downers and uppers constantly so like its only a matter of time right. my nose hurts and i feel like crying and my body is killing me again so im taking both things again. one for pain. one for maybe like. a little bit of energy but mainly so i dont feel so absolute shit. i just want it all to stop i dont wanna get better anymore im sick of it every time i try i get fucking worse or am crushed by something else even harder than before im DONE WITH IT IM FUCKING OVER IT i just wanna end it theres nothing fucking here for me im never making it. im sick of trying. im sick of always helping even while going through the wordt shit imaginable. im not sick of it. i want to help and i love helping. but it makes me fucking SICK to think about how ive spent my whole life caring for others. have been let down or ignored or told i was lying or had them hurt me instead so many times over i just fucking wish i was important enough to have gotten help when i needed it. to be listened to enough for somebody to even acknowledge or believe there is an issue (or simply convince me im overreacting)

it was fucking stupid of me to think my last ditch effort of doing art school because every other thing i failed miserably at because im too stupid and cant do enough and dont have the support. it doesnt even fucking matter bc my body is slowly and slowly getting closer to just saying "no fuck you" to the art i NEVER HAD TIME TO MAKE TO MY FULL ABILITY IN THE FIRST PLACE. and then ill never be able to do it ever again because i cant get help

i am going to die knowing i never finished a single thing in my life and nobody will ever know what i was capable of.

i want to die in the most painful and uncomfortable way possible because its what i deserve. its the only thing i truly deserve. i need to endanger myself more than i already do obviously its not killing me fast enough if im still kicking and dragging myself across the pavement. i should be dragged along the pavement by a semitruck instead.

i wanna kill myself so bad tonight man. im gonna try not to bc my friend really needs me rn. but i really might relapse. im so fucking tired i want to just go and sleep but ill stay up just for that. i should just cut a vein already why do i care about beinf careful. there was a thing i wanted to do... cut myself with a razor right after i use it to chop **** because maybe itll make me feel good when im not or just fuck my heart enough to make me faint or do smth stupider

ive been writing this for so long im fucking done. i got 2.5 more hours here. i hope i find my mouse when i go home so i change my mind but i honestly really just want to end it right now. im at the end of the line really. im gonna work til i die and never get a break

"everyday it feels like noone sees and noone knows. every day i kinda wanna cancel the show." /lyr

please for the love of god like this if you read all of it i just spilled my whole guts and not even well

[also-fours]

the hi-fi rush situation really bums me out.

we had this game that looked super unique, everybody loved it, it won tons of awards

and then it barely got any marketing, feels like it only got as popular as it did thanks to word of mouth and the initial shadow drop, was deemed a "failure" despite selling what many companies would consider a success back in the day, (because it didnt sell call of duty numbers, probably.) and then its studio got shut down

the studio was just starting to spread its wings, start making shit that could inspire their peers, other devs, to start making different things and experiment

and they fucking killed them

it's gone

i mean, maybe they'll make their own studio, i've heard something like that's happened a couple times with the yooka-laylee devs and sonic mania's dev team

but i dunno

as much as i love games like spider-man and god of war (and i mean literally just those two, like, anything else sony does aside from ratchet and clank im not into) i wish they didnt worry so much about modelling photorealism

the obsession with stuff like that is what's made game development so expensive and unsustainable at this rate

i know this is tumblr so the first reaction im gonna get to saying something like "i like spider-man and god of war" at least in my circle is "GOOD GLAD THAT IT'S BECOMING UNSUSTAINABLE FUCK THEM" but like. i actually like what these games had to say and what they brought to the table.

"spider-man had nothing to say it's just a stupid marvel game cash grab and god of war is a generic over the shoulder game"

if you're going to tell me something like that, kindly, please don't interact with this post

like, please?

thank you

anyway, i want games like that that...don't have to upgrade their graphics every time and. waste everyone's time.

genuinely with how they both looked in 2018 i'd be happy with them just. not changing the graphics at all

but uh. sadly sony knows their audience, haha

there'd be hell to pay if they did that

(i hate mainstream gamers)

and as for everything else that xbox and playstation are doing right now, i still want them to do something different

and microsoft killed off the developer that could've inspired others to do that

soooooooo fuck. what now. are we just gonna be stuck in this position forever.

probably not, i mean, again, with how expensive games like spider-man 2 have gotten to produce and the amount of people in and out of the industry screaming that you gotta CHILL THE FUCK OUT, we won't stay like this forever

it might get better

maybe when we get a new series of spider-man games they can have a visual style similar to spider-verse, wouldn't that be rad?

...i mean. judging by the leaks, they might already be experimenting with that...

or something like shattered dimensions have y'all seen that game? looks fantastic, go look it up, they made four different dimensions of spidey and all of 'em have their own unique visual style inspired by their books

sorry im getting off topic

im juat rambling at this point

i just hope people learn the right lessons from hi-fi rush.

and that the people who made it find a way through and can still make great things

thats what i hope for at least

...anyway at least we still have fortnite and its really fun art style--

[writings-ofthe-heart]

JUST FINISHED BES, GOING CRAZY JUMPING ON THE WALLS‼️‼️‼️‼️

I'll post my thoughts on it here ummm its gonna be very long sorr🤦🏽‍♀️

HUGE BES SPOILERS YOU'VE BEEN WARNED

Ok first of all can we talk about the ART???? THE STYLE?????? OH MY GOODNESS ITS SO BEAUTIFUL IT REALLY REMINDS ME OF THE OLD JAPANESE ART AND COMIC BOOK STYLE TOGETHER?!! i love the uprising of stylized animation its so nice and good

ok second, THE CHARACTERS?? I love how they really kept everything consistent, taigena character development is 🥰🤌 mwah beautiful, akemi i lub her badass attitude honestly its rlly good at showing every part of japan in the edo period the brutal honesty of how women lived back then is amazing, omg speaking about akemi, madame kaji and her girls‼️‼️ so lovely i hope we see them in season 2 omg the purple girl when she got fucking killed i was so sad omfg my poor girl dude honestly and pf course imma make one big paragraph abit Mizu

ok mizu i think omfg omfg let me just say SHE'S LITERALLY THE MAN LIKE MIZU THE WOMAN YOU ARE😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 i could not get enough of her, her voice??? her face??? her personality??? flawless😍🥰 the character development is precious omfg the way she was such a cold stone killer in the first episode and you could see her heart thawing while still keeping that revenge and anger alive??? AMAZING omfg props to the writers because they did so well. i really cant wait to see more about her backstory, ESPECIALLY ALL THE PLOT TWISTS IN THE LAST EPISODE???? WDYM HER MOM ISNT HER MOM???????? also im so curious about Violet? cuz she killed him but... honestly.... i saw someone theorize that it was her mom that was white and not her dad because in my head it makes sense i dont think the white father would be so hateful for mizu?? if the white parent was the mom then it makes sense for the dad to be ashamed of her,,,,,,, maybe its just me and violet is a man not a woman, idk i cant wait to see what happens in that storyline

the animation is so smooth its so satisfying and the colors??? the backgrounds of each frame is so detailed and wonderful???? oh mt goodness if i could pause it every frame juat to admire the art (and mizu) i would 100% god omfg

I just cant wait for season 2

ALSO THE LAST SCENE WHERE MIZU JUST WENT??? TO LONDON?? NOW EVERYONE THINKS SHE'S DEAD😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 she looked soooooo good tho so I'm not complaining....

also there's def gonna be a triangle between taigen , takoyashi and akemi bro, like theres no way there wont be

tbh.... im kinda #teamtako because he's a cutie... maybe ill write for him.... idk Hes so cutie patootie like his little stammer is 🤌 u dont see it often and he's royaalty? great character designs

ringo i love you my favorite boy i hope he will be well

ok thats all

[gilbirda]

i mean i juat dont know what you expected when you said "blackface is not accpeted here, okay we had a guy do it literally this year but people were mad about it!" like you realize there is a level of acceptance for it to happen in the first place right. criticism after the fact doesn't stop the hurt caused by it happening in the first place

Do you understand that racism is not a switch button and it's not like one day the common consciousness of a whole country wakes up and says "hmm what we did yesterday was wrong and won't ever do it again"

I'm sorry for expecting the Tumblr "piss on the poor" websurfers to keep that in mind when understanding that racist depictions have happened in the past, and as a society we learned it was wrong, and still some asshole will think is great and everybody else's job is to turn around and say "hey that's not cool at all, stop that"

which is exactly what happened in that horrible 2024 parade, btw. It was news for weeks. Nobody agreed it was good and afaik people was fired over it.

also thank you for following that person i blocked's reading comprehension techniques and adding stuff i didn't say to my post. I never said that the hurt caused by racism disappeared if as a collective we said "oopsies". I never said that just criticizing it is "enough" if we don't anything about racism and racist depictions. That's all your words, darling. Maybe it says more about you than it says about me.

I was addressing the OPs of that post untrue statement that "the Europeans (in this case, Spanish) have a blackface figure celebrated on Christmas and everyone thinks is ok". Because 1)is not blackface, is a black man and 2)we don't think is ok to do blackface to portray that man.

Cheers!

[rosefulmadness]

update people: didn't have time to do my mehndi and didn't wear a bindi but I did end up reporting her to the school after she went on and on in class (which is 1st period both monday and wednesday) about:

- a friend of his son getting into a car accident and accidentally k!lling the other car and permanently disfiguring his face and cussing him tf out.

- talking about a student in his class who k!lled himself and described it as "one day he decided he was a bird and he jumped out of the window" and laughing. it was implied that the kid actually died from jumping out the window IN A CLASS, like during the lesson which like... wtf is wrong with you??

- talking about how being trans and gay is a temporary thing and god made adam and eve.

- saying that teenage/child depression is caused by phones and phones aren't the word of god so they are bad.

- also mocking a student from a different class that told her, when "debating" about abortion "oh but teacher, what if I'm a young child who got r4ped and can't have the baby" *in a mocking tone shall I add, because this is 100% a good thing to joke about ofc* and said that it doesn't matter cause you're a bad person for "killing the baby", the baby being a bunch of a week old cells. I got really fucking triggered and said "the "baby" doesn't exist so" and she screamed at me that I was insane and "did you study biology" like bitch?

- If you were wondering, she's also racist ofc. she once decided to start talking about hinduism out of literally nowhere (she got it wrong ofc) and start talking about reincarnation and how it's a super classicist society because it's India, insinuating that the reason why they are so "backwards" (as well as less improved, smart and overall valuable than "us", us being them, the white europeans, can't wait until she finds out I'm poc) is because they are Indian, brown, non-white. that's the reason why their dirty country is shit, not because of colonialism fucking everything up, but because they are Indian and Indians are bad by nature. so yeah, you got that.

after the class was over I went to the next class and asked the teacher if it was illegal to teach your political propaganda as facts to a class (I was texting everything to a gc and a friend told me it was illegal) the teacher said yes and asked me why. I told her and I also kinda cried a bit sad she told me to go report it immediately as well as calming me down ( I fr love her so much)

I spent the next hour waiting for nereida, who's in charge of everything, to tell her about it and she listened, then wrote it down on paper and said she'll do what she can. I wanna make it clear that every single teacher and authority that heard about this was shocked and apologized to me, they didn't do anything and didn't need to apologize but they wanted to cause they understood the gravity of the situation.

and ofc I asked a friend for her color pencils, borrowed a red one, dipped the point in water, and went to the bathroom to draw a bindi. I spent the rest of the day nicely talking with friends, saying happy holi and happy women's day all the time, and also learning about a muslim celebration they do the same day in pakistan (from my pakistani friend, zainib) it was nice tbh, happy ending and happy holi

we were studying Islam and the teacher had to leave to get heart surgery or something and a new ex-military nurse came as our substitute teacher. I feel really bad for all the soldiers that had to be her patient cause damn is that woman annoying. also, we are studying the christian church again now, double fuck off

[sepptember]

𝐬𝐧𝐚𝐢𝐥 — your turn! tell me about the characters you headcanon as queer. <3 I'm all ears.

okay this is a lil headcanon of mine!! all of draculas brides are queer in their own way and are really just draculas girl friends (key word: friends) who live with him cause it’s easier !!

now there’s three of them and two canonically have dark hair and the others blonde but i gave them names :3

the first: judith! i hc her to be from medieval times so a bit before dracula and she was born a vampire instead of being turned, and while being like an either french or german medieval countess or duchess or some shit she had this fiancée who she was gonna marry in secret and was very good at making it look like she was just friends w her or some shit idk but then she died and judith was like absolutely pissed and before meeting dracula juat terrorized thr shit out of that town for centuries on end before she n dracula found the other two wives and they all just moved into a castle tohetger

the second: sybil! the brides canonically don’t have races (i think) so i just decided that sybil is black because i can 🎀 anyway she was born human in the italian renaissance towards the beginning of where it started and she was a painter but not really a famous one but was popular in tht town she lived and because she was a girl kisser she liked the paint women mlre and was wirh definitely a few (not a lot but a few) of the women she painted and therefore she has a lot of paintings of a few of them instead of just one and one day a man wanted hee to paint him and she was like “no sorry i’d rather not i only paint women” and cause she didn’t have a business and was painting on her own accord and whoever she wanted so basically she painted whoever she wanted and the guy she refused was a newly turned vampire so he (attempted) to kill her and it turned her into a girl kisser vampire instead and eventually she met judith and dracula and they all became besties

the third: cleda! i was gonna have hee american at first but dracula takes place in europe so i didn’t ! but anyway my hc is she’s the youngest bride and was alive and an opera singer in the mid 1700s :3 and she was very popular and very famous and judith (the first bride) rlly liked her and went to a shit ton of her operas cause like i said she loved her voice and just her in general (fag. I CAN SAY IT) but cleda was unhappy with herself and how she sounded and had a terrible “i need to be the best” complex and out of straught up anger was like “yk what i hate u all” and also rlly rlly liked this ballet dancer but hated that she felt like that and didn’t think t was normal and after she got rlly pissed amd just (tw!!) tried to commit and judith was coming to be like “hi ur literally amazing” and saw her like unconscious and abt to die on the floor smd bit her and turned her before anything could happen

anyway now they’re all gay and live in a castle together (until they die at the end of the book) and just hrlp dracula out with certain things and vice versa and are only rlly called his brides cause of homophobic pieces of shit and him being like “erm they’ll burn u guys alive” and it’s just a cover for them all being gay and are actually poly and eachothers brides

the way I ate every word of this up?? hello?????

I'm gonna read this book now. and I'm going to envision all of them in this way. idk anything about the book, but this genuinely sounds more interesting than the actual book itself does.

all of them are girl kissers and they kiss each other now! it's canon. you should make a rewrite of the book like this... yk like a retelling? you'd eat it up!! and I'd buy it!! and so would a lot of other people honestly.

[starryglitch]

Im not over the musty i just can't keep talking about it. It makes me sick, i can't even listen to taylor right now. Idk how people are juat back to posting about her being babygirl and what not.

Tolerance for racism is such a turn off for me. I can't believe it isn't for everybody.

It's so odd to me!! A few days ago, it was every single post, but now there's only edits?? I'm just confused on how it's not the hot topic anymore. I understand not being able to talk about it 24/7 though, because it does really become draining. Trying to figure out why this is happening because it seems to confuse literally everyone and there's so many different conflicting opinions. Definitely take some time to rest and take care of your own mental state and health first!! I haven't listened to Taylor since because I feel so weird about it all

[horrorsequel]

literally don't know how to make new friends. I'm honestly not sure I ever did and i just lucked my way into every relationship I've ever had. Like i juat see ppl and i think oh maybe we could be friends and i add them on discord or whatever and i nev4r figure out how to actually talk to them. like i think the way i try to have convos with ppl doesnt work. i think ppl dont like it? the way my mom tought me to talk to people and all the rules i have learned during my years on earth. people dont like that. i am so confused. like i know its probably just autism but like. is talking to other people a natural and normal thing that juat happens. do other people experience that and not agonize over every interaction they have until there is a rapport?

[weebsinstash]

Since I was telling you guys about The Silent Alpha (listening to it on DreameFM), i figured I might share a little on the first book in the series, The Ivory Queen? I actually think both stories are quality and was mostly juat gossiping on all the juicy drama parts haha

The Ivory Queen is about a Mexican-American girl named Aurora Montenegro who's father Emiliano is killed by rogue wolves on her 13th birthday, and when her pack finds her with the body they immediately blame her. Since your 13th birthday is your first shift, they automatically assume she went feral and killed her father, and the entire pack, the Lluvia Blanca pack, spends the next 5 years absolutely torturing her, even by her mother and siblings. She's beaten up, kept in a basement, denied proper food, forced to work as a slave, and denied ever being able to shift which makes her incredibly weak on top of already being malnourished. This isnt even to touch on stuff like, "oh her brother Chava once locked her in a closet and used his illusion powers to make her see rogues like the ones who killed her father and left her like that for hours and then he dragged her out covered in her own piss and shit because she'd literally been losing control of her bladder and bowels in terror after being in there so long and he dragged her in front of other people and then everyone mocked her during this extremely traumatizing experience and after the fact some of them literally threw diapers at her, for MONTHS". Like. jesus fucking christ dude. Kill all of them maybe? Like Im starting to adore the idea of a Reader who was horrifically abused and just goes "fuck this high horse bullshit, hey new mate, you're a powerful wolf and you love me? Kill these bitches to prove it. Make them suffer"

When Aurora finally meets her mate, Alpha Olivier of River Moon Pack, he rejects her because he recognizes her and has heard all the awful rumors, but soon, he actually regrets his decision and vows that he wants to see who she really is and they team up to not only get her away from her abusive pack and family, solve the mystery of her father's death, but also discover an even deeper plot of a looming war, a prophecy, and the truth surrounding her heritage

The story is not only well written and well voice acted but also contains decent amounts of representation (like Olivier is French, and he has his pack cook traditional Mexican food for Aurora when she first arrives which literally makes her sob with gratitude because she hasn't had home cooked Mexican food since before her father died) and also naturally covers subjects like women's rights and things are written in a mature and realistic tone (like another conversation with a Luna named Kehlani opening up that she felt like her breasts were too low and far apart after giving birth, and it's like God that is such an actual realistic female struggle. a lot of these other authors just kind of, idk, some of these stories are like comparing potato chips to a full course meal kwim? Emotional journeys vs popcorn literature YA novels)

Oh. I will say though. One of the horrible things to happens to Aurora is that she is and had been sexually assaulted by another member of this pack and this does happen in written detail so, if that is triggering for you you may need to skip any interactions with that character (who's name i can't remember but you'll be able to tell because he's openly creepy and before the assault happens Aurora already let's the reader know, he's a guy who "does unspeakable things to me I can't talk about")

Like it is very dark. She gets knocked out and wakes up with her attacker already on top of her, already in the midst of it while she was blacked out, and interestingly, this is a story where the mate bond also transfers pain, so, Olivier experiences the pain of, well, being an assaulted woman, and that deepens his love, respect, and sympathy for Aurora and her strength to survive. But I also don't like that Aurora also had to lowkey provide comfort to Olivier for something that happened to her after the fact, like it isn't like forced upon her ,she wants to comfort him, but it's like... that happened to HER, idk, Olivier getting attention for the issue makes me feel kinda weird

Either way it's a cute story about finding love and acceptance when you feel like you have nowhere you belong and feel like everyone hates you and sees you as nothing. A nice read and a nice story, albeit a little long ^^;

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here bestie, still in shock that we got a big emotional beat on OG last night!! Yeah it was just the one, and I have some concerns about how the rest went (the Connor visit is not going anywhere good and I'm worried it's going to the absolute worst place), but I'll take that Buddie scene as a win, especially since I was expecting disappointment all around on both weewoo shows this week. Yeah I'm not to excited for LS tonight even though I ALWAYS want the underused characters on it (Paul, Mateo, and Marjan) to have more time. But this arc for Marjan is literally the THIRD unhinged killer plot we've had only half the season has gone by!! Can we please stop and get back to emergencies ffs??!! Or lovely character driven plots like Paul's in 4x07 which might be my favorite episode this season (don't get me started on how well done that was next to Carlos's "arc" which coincidentally also involved an unhinged killer 🙄🙄). Anyway last night turned out better than expected, maybe this will too so good luck to us 🍸🍸🍸!!

Hello friend! It looks like this week putting expectations in the ground went more to "pleasantly surprised" instead of "our expectations were low, but holy fuck" so yay for us! Overall, I enjoyed the episode, though I agree I never want to see Conor or Kameron again and I can't anticipate anything good coming out of this (still manifesting HARD that it ends up not being Buck's baby and we can juat forget this nonsense ever happened.) I do have some issues with how the rehab place was portrayed and the lack of build up for a character they decided to retcon all the way back to season 1 (not to mention him leaving Bobby that voicemail and even doing a flashback in episode to it only to then say Wendall died immediately 🙄), but I get what they were trying to do and the present day Bobby stuff did turn out pretty good! I just...I WANTED to mourn Wendall and feel that loss but by them never mentioning him BEFORE his death it was just...hard to care 🤷🏻‍♀️ Also, not NEARLY enough Chimney. Also, also, 2 weeks without any emergency calls before going on a 2 week break with all the storylines looking mostly wrapped up? Weird choice. I can't wait to talk about the Buddie goodness though!!

LS is, as you pointed out, doing yet another crazed killer (let's not forget we've had a few in previous seasons too like Sadie and that dirty cop dude from the ice storm) and ALSO running light on emergency calls this season which is...a bummer. I AM excited to get more Marjan though, and hopefully the 126 coming to her rescue so we can get *some* kind of emergency call and team feels!

Cheers friend, and let's manifest some good things while we've got all that good Buddie juju flowing!

[sufau]

I just realised what the song Nothing's New about

so w

When the singer says "nothing's new" refers to how her lover talks to her. Like she asks how her day was and she just says that "nothing's new" like texting dryly and generally being unresponsive to our singer. The Girl won't directly say that she doesn't like our singer anymore and instead ignores her. So the singer is singing about the girl still staying with her despite the girl ignoring her. And how the singer wishes that the girl would just be clear with her. Around the end she says "nothing's new" multiple times just to show that this has happened many times, or that the girl ignores her often. When she says "spare me indignity" she is asking that the girl juat breaks up with her instead of her having to do it. It's literally just clicked. I'm high rn btw but that's not important

[poltergeist-coffee]

I know I sent an ask juat now but...

DID YOU SEE THE EVENT POST, DID YOU SEE THE "A0 PROJECT"???

I CALLED IT

I FLIPPING CALLED

I SAID SOMETHING ABOUT PROJECT A0 WHAT'S HAPPENING AAAAAAAA

...

I'm normal now

I can hear Cellbit complaining about they making events of a monday, he's right, who makes this on a monday?

- A completely normal 🍽️ anon

YEAAAH WITH SOME OF THE MEMBERS THEY LOOK LIKE TOYS!!! COLLECTIBALS!! YOU CALLED IT LAST NIGHT YOURE LITERALLY A PROPHET!!

me and cellbit chaking hands and complaining about events being on monday u-u when the event starts im literally going to be stuck in class for another three hours :")) very saad for me