#listen im allowed to get creative with the birds

[andr0nap]

cowboy au but i commit to the lack of horses on no mans land

[gentlewoman-scientistkisser]

⭐️Good evening.

I never thought I'd make this, but I'm sick and tired of dealing with this shit. Yknow who you are [Maru] if that's even what you want to be called. How does it feel knowing you ruined me and my friends lives?? How does it feel that you harassed my friends and demonized my friends BPD?? Do you feel proud of yourself? Do you feel like you're the shit? Do you feel happy knowing you've made the entire KJ community a hell pit? Do you enjoy seeing people suffer and manipulating them?

You claim that we don't deserve harassment yet you continue to do so, your hypocrisy is painful, you claim you don't like certain things but you've done them before on your old private acc because I've witnessed it. Not to mention how petty you are when it comes to people shipping their ocs with canon characters, yet I've seen YOU do it before so what's wrong with me and others doing it? I noticed how you slightly hint at things that have to do with me and my friends, but what have I ever done to you? You harass people that simply talk to us, we tried to help you, but you wouldn't listen to a damn thing we would say. I also wanna say that I don't care how much you hate a certain character, no one cares, you aren't getting a gold medal for being a "number 1 hater" you're just being annoying as hell and a petty brat. Your strong hatred towards something or a character people like is so fucking weird, you act like they burned down your home or did something horrible to you, I don't have a problem with disliking a character but the way you act is so immature. I barely ever spoke to you and the fact that you don't like me simply because of me talking to my friends is so petty. You would always change the subject whenever we wanted to talk about things we liked, I'm so sick and tired of hearing pholue this and pholue that, let us speak for once about something that isn't about that stupid fire bird and pirate for once. You also seem to love bullying small children when they make their own fanfiction, children should be allowed to have fun and be creative when they make their writing, and ranting about "cute girl ocs in the kj fandom" there's nothing wrong with that, I know damn well that it was hinting at my main KJ oc, don't fucking deny that because I know you, you blocked my parody acc that was made simply for fun, no harm, only for fun. And it's very ironic considering she is one that is shipped with a canon character, so stupid how you get mad at people for having fun and doing things that are FUCKING NORMAL

You constantly pull the "IM A MINOR!2!1!1!" card, guess what? I am too, how do you think you're gonna get anywhere in life doing that shit? You aren't, your gonna grow up to be an adult and the hard life is gonna hit you like a fucking truck. This has been going on for a year now and you need to fucking get over it, we TRIED to help you but once again you wouldn't listen, we would try to poke jokes and have fun but you would get mad. We didn't do anything to hurt you, and the fact that you basically made us look like bad guys is fucking wrong and sickening, do you know how hard it is to try and talk to people now without them knowing that you spoon fed them lies about us??? You need to just get off the internet ENTIERLY, and go outside and get some fresh air and grass [it might help you] I just want to continue living my life with my friends and do my writing in peace without your noisy obnoxious ass.

You've made the KJ community a hell pit, you've upset my friends and myself, you've ruined everything for everyone. Everything was so peaceful until you decided to run your loud mouth to everyone. I'm so sick and tired of you and hope your sorry ass learns a lesson. I'm done trying to be calm and be nice. The world doesn't revolve around you, and telling lies isn't gonna get you anywhere, fuck off and leave me the HELL alone and my friends.

Grow the fuck up and leave me and my friends alone.

[astro-b-o-y-d]

ANSWER TIME. I have to redo this because I messed up and lost my original answers, but tl;dr: You guys picked wrong and I'm a sneaky bastard.

The main girl is revealed to be a genetic clone of Scrooge McDuck

Ignore my spelling mistakes, I wrote this poll at 8am last week on my phone. ANYWAY, this happens in the finale and Webby is revealed to be a clone of Scrooge. I personally found this writing choice stupid (since her whole arc was about trying to fit in with the McDucks despite not being related to them by blood). But whatever, we got the implication that Scrooge is trans out of it so that's fun. Wrong answer.

Lin Manuel Miranda duck becomes a superhero (don't worry, he doesn't sing)

I apparently don't talk about Fenton Crackshell-Cabrera enough on this blog, because this is not only true, but his superhero name is Gizmoduck. Also yes, he does not sing. Everyone who thought this was wrong because 'LMM would never pass up an opportunity to sing' is hilarious. Get 'im, get 'im.

(But also Fenton is a sweetheart and a great character, don't hold his annoying VA against him. It's not his fault and he'd apologize for it 😔😔😔). Wrong answer.

A scientist gets in a slapfight with his old mentor, who gaslit him for 20 years

In the episode of my URL namesake, Gyro finds out that the guilt he'd been carrying for 20 years over the fact that his invention (we'll get to him 🥺🥺) destroyed Tokyolk (Bird Tokyo) was actually a result of his old mentor tinkering with his invention and turning him into a weapon. A mentor who then went into hiding and left Gyro to take the blame for everything, making him think he was responsible (and while we only get one scene of their past together, it is implied that the mentor was VERY verbally abusive to him).

Anyway Gyro finds out and they get into a fight over it. A slapfight, because they're scientists and also a man nearing his forties and another man older than dirt who spent twenty years hiding underground. Wrong answer.

One of the big bads REALLY wants a dime

Another spelling error, smh. Anyway, while technically Magica was TRAPPED in the dime in season 1 and wanted Lena to get it for her, she did still want the dime in a sense. Wrong answer.

There is a curse that send a monster after the richest person in the world

The curse is real, and the monster is called the Bombie. Wrong answer.

Bird Mark Zuckerberg finds a little robot boy in the dump

If any of my followers picked this one, I am so disappointed in you. I would never lie about Boyd. My special boy. My sunshine angel. My URL and regular name namesake. My transmasc egg cracker.

Anyway yeah, Mid Beaks found Boyd in a dump 20 years after the aforementioned Tokyolk stuff. Wrong answer.

Scrooge and Santa Claus have a exes-to-lovers arc

Listen, I know why people picked this one and it's not...Wrong. But hear me out; the entire episode involved Santa wanting to be 'friends' with Scrooge again, to the point where he faked a leg injury to try and get his help. And Scrooge was originally his business partner who left over creative differences but also talks about him like he was a despised ex for years ('That man is NOT ALLOWED' in my home'). And the ending even has them making up and Scrooge giving Santa access to his house (so long as he doesn't come down the chimney).

They are in old man yaoi love, and Disney might be too cowardly to say it but I'm not. Diversity win; the richest man in the world is both bi-coded AND trans-coded. Wrong answer.

The ducks save the world from Jörmungandr by wrestling him

I would not even know how to spell Jörmungandr to make this up, but yeah, this one's real too and he looks like this.

...What was I talking about again? Oh, right, wrong answer.

Bird Hercules is Donald's self-proclaimed 💗⭐best friend⭐💗

They don't even know about Storkules. Hero of man, champion of champions, beloved best friend of Donald Duck.

God I wish that were me. Who said that? Anyway, wrong answer.

The right answer is...

Donald Duck's twin sister got stuck on the moon for 12 years

Okay so I was very sneaky with this one. But:

It's less vague than some of the other answers that could be interpreted as right or wrong depending on who you ask, it's just straight up wrong. She was only on the moon for about ten years, maybe ten-and-a-half at MOST. Eleven if we really want to push it.

But she was definitely not on the moon for twelve years.

THAT'S RIGHT, I'M A JERK AND GAVE YOU A TRICK QUESTION. Anyway, this was fun and I'm mad at Tumblr for making me type this post twice 😊

[manifesting-mari]

Morning Pages 1/29/2023

I am feeling really grateful this morning. Yesterday it got kinda dark but im happy i was able to feel those feelings in a safe space. Right now i’m listening to a frankenstein-song that Jordan’s Song teacher made from one of their projects. Im really grateful to be in thighs creative space. Im grateful to be in this space with them. I feel so creative and so motivated to create. Its like i forgot this person and jordan is reintroducing me to myself. We were talking about being able to see our own light, and i’m grateful to meet jordan because so much of our experience together has been a mirror for me. Well. every experience i have with everyone is a mirror of some sort, but with jordan there are just so many synchronicities its just really hard to ignore. I sometimes have to remind myself that the synchronicities do not mean we would have a great relationship if we were together. But i think that the way we are open to learning about ourselves and open to working on our shit is what makes a great relationship. Also our willingness to communicate honestly.

As im getting into a new relationship i am now becoming more aware of my boundaries, or the lack there of. Or even when there is a boundary in a place that no longer needs to be there. I can feel the boundaries that i had up starting to soften. As the boundaries soften it allows me to experience the pain so much more. The boundaries i had up were to prevent pain, but now that my boundary has softened i am able to feel the pain so much more. I think because i softened the boundary with my mom it hurt me a lot when she didnt believe in my. It hit a chord in me that felt true. I feel like i cant make money or that i dont deserve to. There is still something in me that says i dont deserve nice things so i dont allow myself to have the money for nice things. 

I’m still working on this money stuff. Still trying to figure out what i learned, still integrating. I think there is still more of the ballet experience that im unpacking. I discovered yesterday that i feel very unsafe accepting money from my mom. Maybe i need to just stop depending on her. It feels like if i create this boundary its me running away. But i know i need time to process what happened. Im very hurt. I wish my mom could just listen and let me process. I guess i still have to accept that my mom is just not where i’m at and i’m better off telling her half truths. I dont owe my mom the whole truth, but i feel so inauthentic when i dont. I feel the scared part of me still walking on eggshells with her. 

I hate that feeling of walking on eggshells. That codependent feeling. If i want to end codependent relationships then i need to stop being codependent with people. What is my relationship with my mom? Thats what im really trying to unravel. I feel like clancey caught in the soul bird’s string in the Midnight Gospel. There are so many narratives that i need to unravel. I wonder what would happen if i just approached my mom as another human person in this world. She is my mom, but even the word mom had narratives wrapped around what is expected in the relationship. Maybe i need to stop trying to make a better relationship with my mom and just accept where its at. Maybe i need to be hopeless, not hopeless of change for the future, but hopeless for changing the wat things are right now. Right now i am still hurt and so is my mom. And as much as i can hold space for the pain my mom has experienced, there is pain that i have attached to past experiences with her that i need to hold and tend to, because she is unable to, im really tired when people are like “you know your mom is just not equipped and blah blah” and all that. Like im still fucking pissed off. Im angry. Sure, i know all that, but im still fucking angry. This was a feeling that came up with Kate during the nourishment retreat. I logiced my way to a reasonable reason to why the adults in my life couldnt show up, but that did not address the anger i felt when the adult did not show up for me. 

Feeling this anger is an interesting experience, especially with this spooky music playing. Im so angry. I am angry. There no narrative except the feeling of anger. I wonder if i just feel the sensation. I cant feel it now. Its like the sensation on my come sup when i speak the narrative i wonder if thats what spells are. You say words and feel them in your body and that creates an energetic output that attracts things to you. The anger that I was feeling has now morphed. Angry doesnt usually stay long, it quickly goes to sadness and pain and hurt. 

Its interesting coming into my body and experiencing sensations and seeing what kind of narratives i have attached to them and what feelings come up.

Passive aggressive. I can see the times where i am like that. And the habit of wanting other people to feel my feelings. I need to ask people for their consent if they have space to hold what i’m going through. I feel like ive been better at that. I can recognize the growth i’ve made and im really proud of myself. Im still sad and grieving for the little me that didnt have parents to hold her so well. I need time to process and grieve and for some reason the people around me want to push things. I get it, that what i was like in order to gain control. Thats how my mom gains control, by shaming, guilting, and pushing. Thats how i gain control. We can choose to be different. I can choose to be different. My first step is to accept and be hopeless. Accept that i project my shame in order to gain control. In order for me not to identify it. Wow. by brain and body are very clever to try not to feel the pain of shame.

Honestly, let me shower in that shame. Let me dance in it. Let me rub it all over my body and drag it across my face like war paint. I want to be able to wear my shame and move through this world bearing it like the cross. The shame i felt growing up in the church and in a religious house hold. The shame i felt for wanting to be myself. The shame i felt for believing in magic, and ghosts, and spirits. The shame i felt for feeling my feelings. The shame i felt for touching myself. So mcuh shame. Shame for tending to myself. Shame for getting what iw anted. Shame for spending money. Lots of this shame isnt mine. I dont even know what shame is mine. 

Let me look at the shame around money. The higher me doesnt feel shame for spending money or making large amount of money or even having money. But there is a part of me that does. A part of me thats afraid of it all. A part of me that is still attaching its worth with money. Worth and money was attached growing up in the 90’s. And in my household. We were taught that you were more worthy or better if you had more money and if you were good with money. But “good with money” is subjective. The “good with money” created this disorganized attachment with money. Money was a thing we wanted, but then it would be so bad to spend it. I understand that i need to invest in my home and in my self if i want more money to come back to me ten fold.I understand this because i am not attached to money. I have no attachment to money, because i have no attachment to money i am not desperate for it so it does not cause suffering in my life. But now it is. Its like this past year i’ve experienced all forms of this disorganized attachment and i can see the ways where this still feels disorganized. I think i need to bring this into my body. But i'm not feeling it right now. May i be more aware the next time i feel activated and bring it into my body. 

Yesterday i felt the pang in my chest and immediately hung up. And the my brain went on this wild ride into the pit of despair. I wonder what my body does when im in that pit. I'd like to be aware. There's something but my wearing the shame like a badge of honor that feel kinda good. Like i wanna be able to walk around with the shame and say “Yes, i have it, yes it bothers me, but not so much as it used to. This feeling will only have as much power as i give it. But it will do what it wants to do and i get to observe until i find a healthy relationship with it.

I’m happy to be building these relationships with these different parts of myself. I wanna be able to hold my shame and unworthiness with love and strength. I see the ways where ive tried to rid myself of the shame and rid the things in other people that triggered my shame. I wanna hold my shame’s hand and show her life and say “you see. Its not that bad.” maybe my shame is my 5 year old. Ohhhhh i felt bad for wanting to be a ballerina and i felt bad that my parents didnt have enough money and i felt ashamed that i had expensive tastes. I felt ashamed to be my messy self. I shamed myself for being messy too. I wonder if ive just identified with that shame and its been my base line. I havent been feeling it so its been stuck. Its hasnt moved out of me. Its ok to feel shame and its ok to not feel shame. Both states are accept here and every part of me is welcomed.

[pothosrays]

what are all the birds names and personality im planning on writing a short drabble of them,(not all of them but yknow so i can look back on) just because,as a treat <:oD (of course-if im allowed to of course/gen)

omfg you are ABSOLUTELY allowed to do this !! and this goes for anyone else too. fyi everyone is allowed to mess w/ my birbs :)

ok ik you said not all of them HOWEVER. heres (most) of them. i think.

idk how to exactly like pinpoint their personalities, it always been just vibes. its often flexible. I try to be loose with the personalities depicted within the art because I'd like everyone to think about the characters in their own way. They were meant to be more symbolic of different feelings/relationships/experiences in a way.

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_: dark brown/reddish crow w/ orange eyes, he/they/it.

personality: often anxious/nervous, overthinks a lot. Worries about friends. Often very tired, enjoys quality time with others and is kinda touch starved. Indulges in strange occult, paranormal, and multiverse knowledge very often. Knows Things. Could be considered delusional at times. Doesn't know how to fly and Does Not Enjoy Trying To. Loyal w/ the friend group, not comfortable around others or with being alone. Best friends with greg.

greg: light brown/grayish crow w/ blue eyes, he/they.

personality: caring and friendly, likes to give advice and is very supportive. A good listener, very affectionate. Enjoys goofing off or playing jokes. does a little trolling (impulsive). Talks a lot, will ramble. Dislikes taking things too seriously. Enjoyer of FOOD. Can be more philosophical and insightful, thinking of things in deeper contexts when needed. Gives others a sense of clarity and more level-headed judgement with their feelings. Best friends with _

Cap: scruffy greenish crow w/ green eyes, he/it/cap.

personality: I imagine he has a very raspy Australian accent tbh. Clumsy, often getting into accidents. A bit of an instigator and reckless, likes to take on challenges much bigger than he is. Doesn't take very good care of himself, appearing disheveled, but enjoys taking care of others and will often be very selfless. Will fight if someone cared about is put in danger/threatened. Will do whats best for the group. Collects random objects (mostly metal caps) Fiercely loyal to friends. Has a softer side that doesn't come out much. "Best friends" with Plastic.

Oak: Barn owl w/ _'s feather color for eyes, he/she/they.

personality: Nurturing and very affectionate. Calm, collected, a bit clueless/spacey, might come off as silly. Creative. Sleepy in nature but not actually. More of a loner, doesn't like to be around active areas, louder areas, or lots of commotion. Prefers to stick around fewer friends or one person. Sensitive to stronger emotions, dislikes heavy topics but will be the first one to try to offer comfort. speaks quietly, prefers to communicate through gestures and body language. Close with _, often visits them alone.

Plastic: Light gray street pigeon w/ minty green eyes, he/it.

personality: reserved, not a talker. Input is often very limited. Monotonous and stoic in a lot of ways, but generally laid-back and understanding. Enjoys everyone's company, sticks around often just to Be there, its enough. Simply wants companionship and safety, can be very loving if desired. Admires friends constantly, though quietly. Watches things from the side, might be considered too nosy or prying, hard to talk to. Often suspicious of others, but mostly inquisitive. "best friends" with Cap

[demon-that-slayed]

alright hello I'm already gonna warn you, this'll be long. btw, thank you sm for doing it, I'm really hyped! you're gonna do amazing, I know that, so do ti as you wish, full creative freedom. (btw, I'm gonna copypaste this because I've already written it once, hopefully that's alright with you)

okay! so. starting with me ig. i dont even know how to begin.

im listening to music atm. i always do - people that dont always listen to some music are kinda psychopaths if you ask me. like, if im not listening to music, i'll be listening to an audiobook or a podcast or be watching some video or netflix. i cant not do anything. i say i love reading, but the last time i read a book has been weeks ago. i just have reading slumps sometimes. not saying that i dont read regularly - god, no. i'll find enough fanfics and oneshots and shit to count for a book. but most of the time i can spare, i try to write. and at the moment, im really doing good! i write drabbles almost daily, and i try to finish a chapter for my actual wip bi-weekly. which... i gotta admit doesnt work all the time but im trying! im just a shit ton of a procrastinator. like, sometimes it physically hurts telling myself i need to do something but not being able to get up and actually do it. i kinda zone out a lot too when im forced to sit through something boring or just when i cant listen to music/watch something at the same time. i fidget a lot, too. so basically as you can see im always doing something, always have something going on inside my head, am quite loud. like, literally, im the loudest person i know, except for maybe my dad, and im really expressive. could be italian with how much i gesture.

for my hobbies, well, ive told you about some of them so far. im not really... sporty. in the slightest. and i dont like sports either. but the one thing i do indeed like is badminton, which i do somewhat regularly. i think i'd suck at quidditch, but, unlike football, i do believe i'd be interested in watching. also i just really want to fly a broom - like, if i could pick any animal to be, i'd be a bird. always would have said so in the past too. maybe a cat, just because i really love them, and am planning to get one as soon as i get my own apartment. i'll take one from the shelter, i think, and if i could pick it'd be a black one so i can call it toothless. i do have a dog right now tho, or rather my family does. i love her, but she's not as cuddly as i'd like her to be, which, i mean, is fine im trying my best not to step over her boundaries, but then again my love language most certainly is physical touch, so my favourite moments with her are when she just allows me to cuddle her in front of the fireplace. its kind of a tradition at this point when theres fire in there. what else is there to say?

ive said quite much already but i feel like im still missing some.

i guess im really insecure of some things. dont get me wrong, i know my strengths, and i fucking love correcting people, my ego is over the moon sometimes. im stubborn and i hate being wrong and i know that im obnoxious when i discuss, just because i cannot stop discussing if theres still something to discuss. but im trying to better, really. some of it at least. still, i am in fact really insecure it seems. i worry so much what people might think of me - i cant present anything to anyone other than my closest family or friends because my voice will start to shake and i will start to sound like im gonna cry. on the topic of that, i cry so so easily. its horrible, really. plus, i have huge anxiety and i get panic attacks regularly, which kinda fucks with my sleeping schedule because they always happen when i go to bed.

okay, but enough with the depressive shit, im not done talking about myself yet. if you let me talk about myself i can and i will write paragraphs. really, dont worry putting all of this into your response. just think of it as me being super happy youre doing this because, honestly, genuinely, i am.

but getting on with it. when im excited, im kinda... like a child, in a way. like i let out unnecessarily high pitched screams and i cant stop laughing when ive started, and i clap my hand in front of my mouth or shake my arms out. im just really, really emotional tbh.

my favourite feeling is melancholy though. its... beautiful, in a very terrifying way. its the kind of feeling you get when you think about your childhood, or old friends, or family members you dont see anymore. its a feeling but its so much more and - i dont know. i dont know how it couldnt be my favourite.

i love sunrises and sunsets and i love the sun in general. im a summer person, partly because im always really cold (my circulation in my hands and my feet is fucked lmao, plus my blood ran low on iron for a while) but like, its summer, i dont get how it cant be people's favourite. plus, my birthday is in june, and my birthday is my favourite holiday. with christmas following.

okay i match you with…

REMUSSS

okay so be warned this is a very bad description but i think you guys would be great with eachother like these are very random things sos I’ll make a list :

(these are like headcanons if that’s fine)

okay so at night when you can’t sleep, he’ll just like cuddle you and make sure you’re fine, and you would make him happy just being there I guess, yk

anyways you two would like bond on liking music and what books you like and you always would have like mini arguments which end in him sarcastically admitting youre right which makes you feel good even if it’s not bc atleast you are right about this song being better or this character being more beil. than the other.

in summer and winter you always dragged him out for the sunrise/sunset and like he would jokingly complain sometimes because he would melt in the heat because it was always cold in the dorms and he had his sweater on

in the winter though you would steal lots of his sweaters and wear them piled on top of eachother because you froze in the cold

also when the full moon was near you’d always like be there and make sure he’s okay and you’d be like there for eachother all the time and like

he would sarcastically/jokingly be annoyed at you but actually really enjoy being around you, especially before you guys date.

oh yeah and you have picture albums filled with pictures that you, remus, or someone else takes that fill the albums

anyways, i hope this was good, ive never done this before lmao

[pennys-rose-garden]

like okay. here. c’mere im gonna let you in on a little secret. now i know that oc “review” channels and/or deviantart “cringe” pages and/or the very few but very loud dudebros of the speculative fiction community and/or a shitty art teacher and/or an author who had a pivotal effect on you before you found out they have a coastal goddamn redwood up their ass and/or possibly even your own asshole brain would like for you to believe otherwise. but listen. listen.

being a bad artist

being a bad writer

being bad at something creative

being bad at anything creative

being “cringey” or “annoying” or “confusing” or “weird”

is morally neutral

it’s not the end of the world

joy is stored in the act of creation

joy is stored in the exchange of creation

it’s okay to be proud of your art

it doesn’t matter how much it compares to others’

there’s always a chance to improve

it’s even okay if you don’t actively want to improve!

you’re allowed to have fun

and you shouldn’t have to keep your “bad art” or your “bad writing” to yourself

it’s okay to get ideas out of your system, any ideas, even if you think they’re stupid

it’s okay to share them!!!

someone somewhere’s gonna like them

and even that doesn’t matter so long as YOU like them!!!

you think birds sing ‘cause they give a shit how good it sounds? ‘cause they don’t. they don’t give a shit. they wake up and they decide “you know what, i have a voice and i am going to make it everyone else’s problem”

be like a bird

be free

you have an idea

now go make it everyone else’s problem

why oh WHY are we SO AFRAID to be BAD AT THINGS

[neakco]

You're Not Alone Ch. 3

Ao3 the start Ch.1 Ch.2 Ch.4

Marinette looks back on her week as she gets ready to return to Paris and to school.

Marinette leaned against her bag in the bat cave. This was it, time to go home. She glanced fondly to where Damian and Tim were arguing over what her designation should be. Looking to her other side allowed her to see Kon and Jon who were supposedly keeping watch but instead were watching the two Robin’s argue.

 

“So you finish assigning me a designation then I get access to the tubes forever?” She watched as Damian and Tim paused in their scuffle, Damian's elbow jammed in Tim's ribs.

 

Tim smiled at her despite the painful position he seemed to be holding, “Yep, all you have to do is state your designation and you will have access to any of the tubes in Gotham or the one in Paris if you are here.”

 

Jon spoke up from across the cave, “Why don’t you two just ask her which name she likes better?”

 

Kon snorted, “Because the moment they decide on a name there is nothing to stop her from leaving.”

 

Neither Robin answered as they instead went back to their fight.

 

Marinette smiled and laid back on her bag. It was nice to see her birds getting along. Sure some may not see it, but neither had pulled out any weapons and none of the blows hit with force.

 

She looked back on her week, there were probably too many days where she cried on Tim, but she definitely felt better now, stronger. She could face her friend now and not have it hurt.

 

She almost laughed as she thought back to Monday night. Bruce saw her getting ready to join patrol and forbid her from lending Trixx to Tim. Not liking being told who she could and could not give the miraculous to she made the wonderful decision to lend Trixx to Jason instead. In hindering there was no way that was going to turn out well. She still thought it was worth the look on Bruce’s face.

 

The chaos was so great that he hadn’t  even noticed Damian using Longg until after she had recruited Chat to help her control the chaos. Marinette hummed to herself, if anything calling Chat had only made things worse. Seeing him twice that day was really bad for her heart, but at least Batman had a worse time. She still wasn’t sure if he ever noticed Tim shield surfing amongst all the other chaos.

 

Bruce had banned her from handing out any more miraculous during patrols, she only agreed because he said he would let Red Robin patrol again. It also helped that she could still drag the boys with her to fight akumas. Orikko and Tim paired well together.

 

Sadly Damian couldn’t help during that akuma. The fight would have been over a lot sooner with a dragon. Probably would have been less food puns with Damian threatening to stab someone. She blamed Chat Noir. He called Tim Rouge-Gorge like the American restaurant. They probably shouldn’t let Kon know how often Tim was called yummy during that fight.

 

She was snapped out of remembering quite violently when Kon had tossed her suddenly towards the sparing mats. She landed herself in a fighting stance and noticed Damian doing the same as Jon tossed him. She looked quickly towards Tim and saw that he had pulled up a summary of her last spare and what she needed to work on. She smiled, guess the supers were working as lookouts after all.

 

She didn’t allow anymore time for thoughts as she launched into a series of fast palm strikes. Damian sadly wasn’t taken surprise and blocked her before launching into a counter.

 

“What is all this? I thought Little Red was leaving.” Dick looked over the cave as she and Damian stopped sparing to look at him.

 

Dick walked over to Tim without waiting for an answer. He closed the analysis and started typing.

 

“MLB-01 registered.” Flashed on the screen and Dick just shook his head and walked back the way he came without another word.

 

The five teens looked at each other a little sheepishly before Marinette decide to take the opportunity to hug Damian.

 

“Get off me woman.”

 

“I will miss you too Damian.” She smiled and let go before he stabbed her then walked over to the Kents. She grabbed them both in a hug, “Come visit after an akuma attack sometime.”

 

“No promises,” Kon laughed as he hugged her back and tugged one of her pigtails.

 

She batted his hand away then went to gove Tim a hug. “Thanks for being my rock.”

 

His return hug caused her ribs to ache slightly but she didn’t care. “Anytime Bug.”

 

Her eyes started to tear up. This week was so much fun, she would really miss them. “We never finished writing our love song.”

 

Tim laughed, “That's because neither of us are very good at coming up with a melody.” He released her from the hug a little reluctantly and grabbed her bag from Damian in order to hand it to her. “Call me when you get home Bug.”

 

She smiled a little watery but accepted the bag.

 

“None of that now,” Tim wiped her tears away with a handkerchief, “We are still on for Saturday Brunch next week.”

 

“DC.” She looked over at Damian glaring at her and smiled. He was trying to hide how upset he was. “Call if you need us, it will be a pleasure to trounce your villains for you.”

 

She smiled, “Of course.” She stepped up to the tube. “Thank you. I will talk to you soon, I promise.” She input her designation and was off to Paris before any of them had a chance to respond.

 

It was better this way. This way she wouldn’t cry anymore.

 

She opened her purse and smiled at Tikki. “As far as travel goes I think I prefer Kaalki's portals.”

 

Tikki just giggled and munched on a cookie.

 

Marinette closed her purse and carefully left the building. She wasn’t too surprised to find herself near the Grand Hotel. Her secret phone dinged and Tikki handed it up to her quietly.

 

‘The limo is for u.’

 

‘I took u away in style Im going to return u in style.’

 

‘u r worth it.’

 

She smiled and sent a thank you back to Tim.  She would repay him with some pastries next Saturday.

 

Her parents were busy in the bakery but still made time to give her a quick hug. Her maman even commented on her smile. She flushed a little at that. Guess she wasn’t as good at faking them as she thought.

 

Once in her room she turned on her normal phone and listened to all the messages come in. There were a couple from Luka and Adrien asking her to let them know when she made it back and Luka hoping she found what she needed to.

 

Adrien let her know he was excited to see her at school and let her know he had a lot to catch her up on. Luka wanted to know if she could hang out after school since he had a new song to show her and wanted to know about her week.

 

She responded to both of them and then took a steadying breath. She couldn’t avoid it any longer.

 

She took her time to open up Alya's messages. Ninety-four messages, most of them creative rephrasing of the questions: How do you know the Waynes? Did you meet any heroes? Are you dating one of them? Why are you ignoring me? Oh and Marinette’s favourite; Lila says you would totally have cell service in the states.

 

She groaned and handed the phone over to Tikki to read while she thought of a response. Deciding that she really just wanted to call Tim and sleep she told Alya she was jetlagged and they could talk in person tomorrow.

 

Maybe future Marinette would be well rested enough to handle Alya.

One more chapter and we are done. Maybe then my brain will finally release me from this universe and let me write for other stories.

That said, let me know if there are any scenes you want to see. I am happy to try and write them.

Taglist: @novemberistired @novemberandmay @laurcad123 @certainmuffinbagelcalzone

[florvinhara]

my detectives (part 2)

celebrating the end of this semester w infodump part 2 ft luna! (part 1)

Luna [redacted] Kingston

Romances A or M

Age: 27

Birthday: September 12

Star sign: Virgo

Height: 5'3"

Hair: black, wavy and shoulder length w choppy front bangs

Eyes: dark blue

Other appearance details: eyesight is bad enough that she usually wears glasses but she can still mostly see w/out them. long scar on neck from the murphy attack. old scars on knees and elbows (the Klutz special).

Languages: Conversational fluency in lots of them!

Stats:

Charming/Intimidating

Impulsive/Cautious

Sarcastic/Genuine

Friendly/Stoic

Easygoing/Stubborn

Heart/Mind

Optimist/Pessimist

Team player/Independent

Primary skills: Deduction & people

Strengths: Outgoing, kind, trusting, creative thinker, jack of all trades, open-minded, thoughtful, devoted, loyal, strong-willed

Weaknesses: Guilty, flighty, overactive imagination, clumsy, low self-esteem, unfocused, nervous, dishonest, impetuous, irrational at times

Personal:

her middle name is currently [redacted] bc im pretty sure rook's sister is Evil and for the Drama im gonna make luna's middle name the aunt's first name ;) if it turns out the aunt isnt a villain then.... idk maybe she still will be in my heart <3

she's worn glasses since she was 12, but her vision is. Technically good enough that she can mostly get by without them, leading to her always putting them on top of her head and subsequently losing them

in my heart she's an investigative journalist who moved back to wayhaven after sm things went down at her old job that made her want to find out what really happened to rook and reconnect w rebecca, but then got caught up in the murder plot with UB starting book 1, but in the vein of canon, she joined the force to follow in rook's footsteps etc.

she was kind of a weird kid, always daydreaming and making up her own very in-depth games and stories in the corner- she was pretty shy! sometimes she wld write them down and that's what first got her interested in writing

the car is named Tracy and she is a LADY who is doing her best!!!! at this point tracy is a cherished friend, jokes about her being bad will Not be well received >:(

she's very much in her head all the time, smtimes her sentences sort of meander and just go off on tangents and then kind of drift off at the ends

rebecca sent her to boarding school for a while following an Event in luna's childhood that made rebecca feel like wayhaven wasn't safe for the time being, she had lots of fun but that's kind of the time when luna started to worry she'd done smth wrong and that's why rebecca didn't want her around, since she'd kind of blocked out the Incident

many nervous habits! including but not limited to: cleaning her glasses, braiding small strands of her hair, jostling her leg, cracking her knuckles

she is actually v smart! in a book sense at least :0 she's clever and good at solving puzzles, and she remembers a lot of rlly obscure info abt lots of things- look into her eyes and you can basically hear the mii music playing, but she is intelligent!

she loves animals :') walking anywhere with her takes Ages bc she wants to stop and look at birds and if there's a worm on the sidewalk everything comes to a Halt while a rescue operation is performed

rocks!!!!! she's a huge geology nerd and she Loves them sm, fun crystals and pebbles alike :) she collects them all and if you picked one up and asked her abt it she wld know exactly when and where she got it

she hates seasonal music!!!! halloween songs and Especially christmas songs!! she cant explain why but it drives her up. the. wall. during the last few months of the year she's like that gif from community of the woman hitting the guy with a candy cane like "its December 10th!!!" its the one thing about the holidays she doesn't like

lots of her favorite books are from the golden age of detective fiction! she also reads a lot of poetry and history books, and loves nonfiction :D she's a sucker for any book with really in depth worldbuilding and/or a map on the front inside cover- she DID read the entire silmarillion AND enjoy it! she loves animated and stop-motion movies, laika is her Favorite studio and she owns every studio ghibli movie

she loves any food or drink where the main ingredient is sugar <3 catch her eating lucky charms dry straight from the box! she'll only drink coffee if it has like. vanilla or sm other sweet flavoring added to it along with 12 packs of sugar

her sleep schedule.... oh no! she had insomnia even before murphy, and now with the nightmares, it's even worse :( it's ok though! she uses the nighttime to work on art or baking or writing etc.

she listens to lots of indie/folk music- the oh hellos are one of her favorite bands! also she's a big fan of fun pop music- carly rae jepsen, bleachers, hayley kiyoko, HAIM, etc. also smdfnsj she Does listen to lofi music

she's loved chess since she was a kid and often plays against herself or another opponent- she also usually has a puzzle she's working on, and really likes crossword puzzles/sudoku games!

background noise is a Friend <3 it rlly helps her focus!

she loves her potted plants a lot! she has very detailed instructions on how to take care of them and she does talk/sing to them to help them grow

her house Looks minimalist? she values the aesthetic but she cannot commit- open any drawer in her house and you'll find like 7000 receipts she hasn't thrown out yet

she is Sweet but! untapped Rage is there... she has a tendency to bottle things up until one tiny thing makes her Go Off with all the stress and anger she's been holding back :( she Will cry and yell and then be completely horrified and spend the next 3-4 weeks apologizing profusely

she feels bad about. Everything :( she blames herself a lot,, it's easier to tell herself that things are going wrong bc it's her Fault and she did smth wrong rather than accept that it's out of her control

on that subject things with rebecca are Awkward!! they kind of drifted apart and luna feels like she shld have tried harder to keep in touch

her primary love language... probably words of affirmation or physical affection! she's very open w her affections and telling/showing people she loves them (to the extent they're comfortable with it! she prefers to let whoever she's with dictate the pace of the relationship)

if you see her Sleeping on the floor.... just leave her be,, she's sleepy

she is. weirdly lucky at small things and games of chance? catch her being dealt a full house right out of the gate during card games or finding quarters on the street all the time! she wins carnival games like nobody's business <3

absently she knows all the Lucky things to wish on! shooting stars, ladybugs, eyelashes, pennies, 11:11, etc :)

she dresses like. a very specific kind of influencer lowkey, w the oversized t-shirts and jeans ksdfm, the Sweaters/coats, etc.

hot weather does Not spark joy- she owns like 700 fans and loves getting to wear all her cute winter clothes :)

she's not allowed to watch cooking/baking shows unsupervised anymore, following the Incident where she watched one and then spent the entire night building a Giant gingerbread mansion spreading across the floor of her apartment

she deflects. a Lot! not even intentionally really but it just Happens :/ she's naturally a pretty open person but smtimes she just naturally is Not Talking abt it and tries to play things off, especially personal things abt her feelings/reactions to things <3

she is Nervous,, her base level of stress is. kind of up there! surprises Do Not work bc she will just Shriek and drop what she's holding sndfsjn.... it was like that even before murphy but. you know. it's more pronounced now :/

in her heart she is like. a human golden retriever! she's excited!! she wants to be friends!! she's roaming around,, take her for a walk and maybe she will find a cool stick to carry!!

she walks with a little bit of a skip in her step! on her toes a bit so nobody can tell she is Short... (it doesnt work)

[kimnjss]

[ he stands you up ] requested.

@taestannie​: super angsty anniversary weekend where he stands you up.

@houseofarmanto​: forgetting your anniversary.

warnings: there are none?? 

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NAMJOON

It's been six months since you started your relationship with Namjoon and despite his  busy schedule he promised, a million times promised, that he would be able to meet with you for dinner to celebrate the special day. Any other day, any other time, you'd not get your hopes up because you knew how unpredictable his schedule was even if it was premade and solidified. Things came up and you understood that.

But, after seeing the look on his face, hearing the sureness in his voice when he made his promise, you decided that you would trust it and wait up for him. You put on a nice dress, did your hair and makeup prettily and waited for him to come pick you up, a large smile on your face.

As the hours ticked by, your smile seemed to fade and your patience began to wither. An hour, you could understand with him being late. If you remembered correctly, he had a busy day ahead of him so an hour late was expected. But four hours!? Four whole hours and not a single phone call?

To say you were livid would be an understatement. With a huff, you were kicking your heels from your feet, and trudging up the stairs to take all of this gunk off of your face and go to bed. Night completely ruined.

As you were wiping at your eyeliner, your phone lit up beside you. The smiling picture of you and Namjoon doing it's job in annoying you as a message from his truly popped up onto the screen.

[23:19] ♡ joonie ♡ : OHMYGOD!? BABY. im sooo fucking sorry, i forgot. im not even going to act like i didn't, because i really forgot.

[23:21] ♡ joonie ♡ : and don't take this to think ur not important to me, bc ur the most important thing to me... i just got caught up in the studio.

[23:26] ♡ joonie ♡ : im running home now, ready to make it up to u. please don't be mad!!

Setting your phone down, you shook your head, turning your attention back to your reflection in the mirror. You knew he meant his apologies and that he wasn't lying when he said that you were important to him.

If only this had just been the first time he forgot about you.

JIN

A hundred days together was a big deal. To you and Jin. He had woke you up this morning with the biggest of smiles ready to tell you exactly what today was, as if you'd forget. Like most days, Jin had to work, and of course you didn't mind. You were looking forward to when he'd come home.

There was no way he hadn't planned something fun for the two of you to do tonight and you couldn't wait to figure out what it was. Jin liked to keep things interesting when it came to your relationship, always surprising you and willing to spice things up.

Even after one hundred days, you could genuinely say that there has never been a bored moment between the two of you. Whether he was making you laugh with his corny jokes or if you were teaching each other new recipes, there was always something for you to do. Something fun that you could enjoy together.

Throughout the entire day, you couldn't help but think up what something special would he have planned for you two. Ideas changing the later in the day it got. The romantic walk where the two of you watched the sunset being crossed off as the sunset and he was nowhere in sight.

Briefly, you contemplated sending him a text, but didn't want to be annoying or overbearing. Surely, he didn't forget, right? He was just running late. Probably caught up at practice or in the studio or something? Jin was a busy guy, you understood that much, all you had to do was wait and when he came home the two of you would be able to do something fun together.

That was what you kept telling yourself as you watched the time change on the clock, until it's past midnight and the front door is slamming shut. Okay, stargazing was always fun! Especially if you got creative and brought blankets out into the backyard.

Without a word, Jin was entering the room. He offered you a small smile before kicking his shoes off of his feet. You watched as he stripped his jeans from his body, tossing his shirt away in the corner before sinking onto the bed. “I'm beat. Will you turn out the light when you're finished?”

He spoke on a yawn, eyes falling closed as he slowly began to drift to sleep.

YOONGI

[ 09:57 ] to- yoonfi ✩: you won't be busy all day, right?

[ 10:13 ] yoonfi ✩: nope, not all day. y?

[ 10:13 ] to- yoonfi ✩ : come home early! ive a surprise for you!!

To say your boyfriend was a hard worker would be the understatement of the century. Long hours spent in the studio, producing track after track, refusing to eat until he got the hook just right. He was so hard on himself, but with good reason, the boy was a genius when it came to making music.

The same could be said for his first mixtape, AgustD. You could perfectly remember the smile on his face when he let you listen to the completed version, the way it grew when it finally dropped and his fans loved it more than he had thought.

That was four years ago. Exactly. He had changed so much in the past four years, grown in so many ways and you were so proud of him. Which was why you were more than willing to spoil him on the four year anniversary of his mixtape.

Blessed that he didn't have a busy day, even though he told you that he didn't, you made sure to check with the others. Your boyfriend had the tendency to forget when there was something pending on their schedule.

According to them, though, he was free as a bird and you were ready to take advantage of the free time you'd have as soon as he finished his meeting this afternoon.

A little while after he left for work, you went out and bought an array of ingredients to prepare his favorite meal. Paired with his favorite brand of wine, you couldn't wait to see that smile of his once he walked through the door and caught whiff of what you made.

The food wasn't it, though. You also had splurged and bought him those speakers he had been eyeing for the past few weeks. Figured you'd surprise him with the gift after dinner, when he was relaxed in front of the TV just after you offered to give his back the massage it greatly deserved.

Then, of course, he'd be overwhelmed with happiness and here comes the wild monkey sex you'd have on the couch, and on the stairs, and on the bedroom floor, mapping out every inch of the room until you were falling onto the bed. Or something like that.

You had been so caught up in your plan and making sure that the food was just right, that it took you a moment to realize how late it had gotten. Way past the time Yoongi was supposed to be home.

With furrowed brows, you lifted your phone to dial him. His drawl of a 'hello' tickling your eyes after the third ring. “I thought you'd be home early?” You wondered after he moved to a quieter room to hear you better.

“I'm sorry, baby. I should've called. The meeting sucked so me and Joon have to come up with something new. It'll be all night, but I'll see you in the morning. Alright?” What were you to say? He had to work. Mumbling your agreement, you let the line go dead before plopping at the kitchen table.

HOSEOK

You had thought that Hoseok flying in on the same day of your anniversary would be cutting it close. It was a 14 hour flight, there was no way he'd land in time to make the plans that you had stupidly planned and you didn't really want him to. He'd be so exhausted after flying and you were sure that all he'd want to do would be to get some rest.

But it was your three year anniversary and he wanted to celebrate, insisted that he wouldn't be too tired to spend time with you and marveled about how the only thing he wanted after a long flight was to be with you.

So, per his request, you were slipping into the silky dress he had sent over. Allowing his stylist to come and do your hair and makeup, again, per his request.  

Despite the fact that he wanted to keep where he was taking you a secret, you were able to convince him that it would be better if the two of you just met there in hopes to save time. He, reluctantly, agreed which was why you were seated alone in the restaurant he had so graciously rented out for the two of you.

Scanning over the menu over and over again, reading and rereading every word hoping to pass time. He should be here by now, right? Hobi was clear when he thought you that he'd be landing a little bit after eight and he had planned to come straight here from the airport. It was now 10, so what gives?

Lifting your phone, you frown at the message that you had somehow missed while studying the menu.

[ 21:22 ] hoseokie: princess!! our connecting flight was delayed. i won't be able to makee it :( sooo sorry, ill see you when i get back!

Your standing from your seat before you can read the end of the message, annoyed and overall disappointed. If only he had listened to you when you said over and over again that he wouldn't be able to make it.

At least the restaurant was empty, definitely saved you from looking as stupid as you felt in front of a room full of strangers.

JIMIN

Six o'clock. He had repeated it countless times before leaving the house so where was he now that it was six o'clock? He knew how important this day was to you, how important it should be to him. So where was he?

Was it too much to ask to be with your boyfriend on the anniversary of the day you met? He had said he would be here, so why wasn't he sitting next to you on the stupid park bench, enjoying the picnic you had prepared?

You had met Jimin exactly a year ago today. Could still remember the smile that took over his features when he spotted you seated on this very park bench, exasperation tinting your cheeks as you leaned back in attempt to catch your breath.

He had plopped down beside you without a second thought, a lame joke falling from his lips one he used in hopes to cheer you up. It had worked, you had laughed and instantly fell for the large smile that seemed to light up his entire face.

The two of you had been inseparable since that day, falling in love with each other slowly as the days went by until he was asking you to move in with him five months into your relationship. You said yes, of course and these past months settled and together had been... not what you were expecting.

A nice place for the two of you to live meant that Jimin needed to become a bit more serious about his work and no matter how great of a dancer he was, the craft didn't really call for a steady check. Which was why you encouraged, not pushed, him to get a regular 9-5 that would benefit the both of you in the end.

That's what people in serious blooming relationships did. Started making plans for the future, preparing to take care of each other. And in no way, did you expect him to quit dancing – just dial it back a bit so you wouldn't go bankrupt.

Either way, you regretted the decision of both of you needing steady jobs because lately it was like the two of you had become ships in the night. Hardly seeing each other for more than an hour with your opposite hours. But tonight, he promised, assured you that he would make it and be able to make up all the time the two of you had lost.

You were excited, got dressed up, yet he was nowhere to be found. After a full hour of waiting or him, you were effectively annoyed and ready to pack up and leave. Just as you stood, your phone buzzed in your purse.

Setting your belongings back onto the bench with a huff, you're reaching into your purse and pulling out your phone. Jimin's name lighting up on the screen, only worsening your mood. Did he really wait a whole hour to text you that he wasn't going to be able to make it? Of course he'd miss it, it was obvious now after an hour.

[19:07] jiminie!: i know u must be pissed nd im sooo sorry.

[19:08] jiminie!: i came home early nd wanted to take a little nap, but overslept. [19:10] jimine!: come home, i've prepared something nice for us.

No matter how mad you wanted to be, how mad you knew you should be, you really couldn't bring yourself to be. The boy was tired and you loved him, asked this of him so the least you could do was be a little bit understanding.

TAEHYUNG

The scowl doesn't leave your face not once the entire day. While you're cleaning up the house, while you're fixing lunch, while you're binge watching your favorite TV show. Pursed lips, raised brows and clenched teeth. You've been a foul mood all day and you had one person to thank for that.

The same person who rolled over half sleep nearly crushing you to death, but you didn't say anything because you loved him and loved being in his arms no matter the fact that you couldn't breathe underneath his weight. The same person that sprung up this morning, not a word about the meaning of today, just a grumbled: “Could you get breakfast ready?” As he pulled himself from he bed to go shower.

The same person that forgot your fucking anniversary and didn't even bat an eye when you brought up the date in hopes hearing the numbers would some how jot his memory. It didn't. What it did do, though, was remind him of the various things he had scheduled today with his little friends. Barely stopped to kiss you as he rushed out the door.

So your foul mood was his fault and you were planning to give him the cold shoulder until you were satisfied with the groveling he'd pull from being ignored. If there was one thing Taehyung hated was being ignored, you knew that more than anyone. One thing that you hated? When your so called boyfriend forgot the day that marked the start of your relationship.

You figured ignoring him would be fair.

Now, there was no way you didn't understand that Taehyung was a busy guy. He was always in and out of the house and so adamant about putting his all into his work and you admired that about him. You just never thought it would be some type of tug of war when it came to spending time with him. Especially on days as important as this one.

Punching the pause button on the remote, you reached to grab your phone cutting it's vibrating dance short as you read the message that had appeared on the screen.

[ 17:11 ] joon: happy anniversary. sorry we're stealing ur boyfriend :( what did he do this morning, though?

Ah, Namjoon their ever so considerate leader. Not a surprise that he'd be more attentive than your actual boyfriend on this day. How could someone, who was not even inside your relationship, wish you happy anniversary before your own man!?

[ 17:13 ] to joon: he forgot.

Tossing the phone beside you, the scowl on your face deepens as you glare at the characters on the screen. Stupid idiots, kissing and cooing as if their whole love story wasn't about to go to shit within the second act. How unfair. Taehyung would love bad mouthing shitty romcoms, but you had to be mad at him because he was a little shit.

Not even five minutes after the message sent to Namjoon was your phone dinging, Taehyung's specialized name lighting up your screen. Pfft, did he really need his friend to remind him of the day? How pathetic.

[ 17:17 ] boyfriend!!: baby!! oooh my god, im sooo... u know this isn't like me, i don't know what to say. we're in a radio interview now, but im rushing home right when it's over. pls, don't be upset. i mean i know ur upset, but lets at least try to salvage what left of the day we have. please. im soo sorry.

You thought, for a moment that you could be petty in this moment. Type back some snarky reply that you knew would make him feel some type of way. You just... didn't have the energy. Being forgotten about sucked, hurt in an odd way that you couldn't really explain.

Taehyung was a great boyfriend, but it was starting to get a little old the way he had your relationship on the back burner of his life. He was either with you, or not. Something's gotta give.

JUNGKOOK

You knew from the moment the words left Namjoon's lips, your boyfriend wasn't going to find true peace ever again. Let alone be able to rest properly. Producer. Which brought on a new array of responsibilities that Jungkook to very seriously, as he should.

Much like your meticulous boyfriend, everything had to be absolutely perfect and anything short of that wasn't worth presenting. That exact mentality was the reason why he spent so many long hours in the studio, at dance practice. Going over and redoing each note, each step, until he was satisfied or until he was being dragged out.

It was more often the latter because this boy was never satisfied no matter how great everything he did ended up looking, sounding. He still strives to be the best, better than the best. So it was no surprise that you were seeing him much less when his new title was being announced.

Producer Jungkook. It was safe to say that he was stressed. Not to mention that he still had to keep up with choreography, singing, interviews and being the youngest of the biggest boy band in the world.

You understood that, so you didn't blame he when he was too tired to fool around. Didn't make a fuss when dinner plans had to be canceled. Agreed when he asked you to watch him, help him figure out what he was missing. You were always there for him when he needed you.

So it was completely fair that you'd get a little pissed when you asked the same for him and he didn't deliver. It wasn't like you were requesting something bizarre or out of the ordinary, honestly, you just wanted him to be home early to spend a few hours together for your anniversary.

Three months wasn't long, not that much of a milestone, but it was still exciting and you wanted to be with him. Especially since he's been like a ghost these past few weeks. Was it too much to ask that he was home for just one night? Just one night where he was Jeon Jungkook of BTS, but just your regular boyfriend.

His apology came two hours after he was supposed to show up. A short message explaining that he wouldn't be able to make it. Like you couldn't of guessed that. Still, you waited, his favorite show cued up and ready. The incoming message had you flicking the TV off with a huff, trudging up the stairs with a prominent pout of your lips.

The pout didn't lift from your lips the rest of the night and pretty soon you were slipping underneath the sheets, lip jutted. He missed dinner fine, five o'clock was a little early to ask someone to leave work. But was he really not even going to make the effort to get in before you had fallen asleep?

Guess not.

It wasn't until after one did you feel the bed shift, a tentative arm wrapping around your waist as a heavy breath left his lips. But you were in no mood to be cuddled, especially not by him. Fully awake and alert now, you were shoving his hand from your body, scooting away from him.

“Come on, baby. Please. Today's been so shitty, I just want to hold you.” You could hear the sadness in his voice. But what about you? Did he even consider that your day might have  been shitty too?

Forcing your eyes shut, you acted as if you had fallen back asleep. Back turned to him, because you could guess the sad look he had on his face. You couldn't bring yourself to turn around and give in, allowing yourself to be engulfed in him. Not tonight.

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

what are the randomest hcs you have for gossip girl, but absolutely love?

ohh this is such a fun question, but at the same time, more than my own headcanons, it’s random bits of canon that are so fascinating to me.

there’s a lot of tiny details in canon that i adore (nate’s favourite movie being the sound of music, serena & dan reading nylon together, dan being fashion savvy, jenny making her first dress at age 8, dan & nate having a don draper pact, chuck having a kangaroo tattoo he got in australia when he was really drunk, blair & serena being co-captains of the lacrosse team, dan and vanessa attending morrissey concerts together...) 

yeah so honestly more than headcanons i love how many hilarious things we got in canon (that bit where rufus is like ‘remember you needed your hand held on the way to school when you were in junior school, or else you’d cry, jenny?’ and jenny looks at him scathingly and she’s like ‘that was dan’ dkslhflkhg such a beautiful moment.)

so! i can’t rlly compare to this, very much. here’s a few random ones, though (some of which might show up in fics i’m writing/ i will write):

i feel like blair in junior school definitely had horse girl energy. idk if she was actually a horse girl, but i bet she was really intense.

nate is the best sports captain ever; he has all the skills needed to be a good captain. he’s good at strategizing on the field, at knowing what his players’ strengths and weaknesses are, at making everyone feel like they’re part of the team. everyone who’s ever played any sports with nate falls in love with him a little at the end of it.

in fact, i describe nate to people who haven’t watched gg as ‘the troy bolton of the gossip girl universe.’ am i wrong? (no. and nate/vanessa makes me think of troy/gabriella. i think just because of how smiley and wholesome and sweet both relationships can be? idk.)

vanessa &/or serena take dan to his first pride because he needs moral support. (if it’s vanessa and serena, and they end the parade with becoming girlfriends...nothing like it, honestly.)

dan can play the piano reasonably well.

nate doesn’t get the same childhood pop culture references his peers do, because what movies and shows he was allowed to watch were closely monitored by anne and howard. he had to sneakily watch cartoons at blair’s place, and at serena’s place. but sometimes dan & jenny will reference disney movies and he’ll be like, “huh?” 

i think more than rufus, alison’s the one who really encourages dan to be a writer & supports his writing.. while he’s younger. which i think is part of why her leaving hurts dan so massively.. he’s always felt like alison understood him better than rufus. and then alison leaves and he just doesn’t understand how it was so easy for her to go, how she could just leave him like that. and it hurts.

dan and jenny just GET each other’s creativity and ambition. they support each other in every possible way. dan’s birthday gift to jenny will always contain sewing supplies, along with whatever else she’s been wanting. jenny, from a very young age, has been gifting dan novelty dictionaries and thesauruses dead seriously. it’s fine though; he loves it.

in the same vein... dan knows a lot about fashion, and everything he knows he knows from jenny, because he’s listened to her and encouraged her and paid attention to her designing stuff over the years. SIMILARLY: jenny’s fucking amazing at scrabble, and can be a walking thesaurus at times, and is really good at proof-reading people’s writing, despite not being a writer. (’what? my brother’s a writer, you have no idea what i grew up around.’)

serena and nate 100% get high together a lot of the time and it’s a lot of fun!!

nate is a dog person & dan is a cat person. (when they move in together for a bit, jenny gets them a pet bird as a compromise.) 

serena is extremely good at maths & physics, relatively good at bio and chem. nobody really expects it, and she doesn’t announce it or broadcast it, and often due to the traumatic stuff happening in her life, her performance at school isn’t really the best. but she’s amazing at it. she’d also be really good at law, and psychology.

nate hates sitting in one place and reading books. he LOVES audiobooks, though. and documentaries and movies. he just finds it hard to like. flip pages and read.

something i’ve thought about a lot is that it makes a lot of sense for nate to have some sort of learning disability but very, very mild. like, super mild dyslexia. so it doesn’t get diagnosed and everyone keeps telling him to “try harder” but he genuinely is doing his best...

i’m really sad we didn’t get a debate club during the college arc, because dan & blair would be the PERFECT british parliamentary debate team. they would destroy everyone! 

finally (this is so random but. what isn’t really) i don’t think dan would propose to blair. i think, given the way marriage has been for her, with the louis thing and then the chuck thing, dan would just be like. ‘i would love to be married to her but i think this is something she’s got to initiate, and im not going to push her.’ he would do a very good job at being quiet about how badly he wants to marry her... right until blair reads something he’s working on (possibly by accident, i think both of them WOULD respect the other’s privacy and not snoop) and she’s like.. ‘dan you want to marry me?” and dan’s like “well obviously??” and she’s like ‘it wasn’t obvious to me.’ and it doesn’t come up again until later, when blair gets them both engagement rings and just goes, ‘we’re engaged now, i suppose.’ and then they do something romantic to celebrate.

[fluidsf]

Sonic Picks 23 The House in the Woods: Paralysis: Live at Silent Night #8 (2017) Reviewed format: Digital live Album on Genot Centre Today I'm onto the last Genot Centre release review in the Sonic Picks series for now. This is the live album Paralysis: Live at Silent Night #8 by The House in the Woods, released by Genot Centre in 2017. This 1 hour 12 minutes long live album features atmospheric but also mysterious, deep, at times psychedelically tinged experimental music with a lot of creative sonic manipulations in it in the usage of samples, synths and effects that create alien liquid clouds of sound or degrading tapeloops of sometimes familiar music, split up into two tracks, Paralysis /\ Side A and Paralysis /\ Side B. The download version of this album contains the album cover in good resolution as well as the two live album tracks in 24-bit/44.1kHz high resolution audio. Paralysis starts with the first half of the live recording Paralysis /\ Side A. The music starts with manipulated tape loops of a recording of Spiegel Im Spiegel by Arvo Pärt. Delay, reverb and saturation effects are used to create a warbled degraded kind of sound to the music, subtly rearranging the notes and ambience into what sounds like memories lost in time. The music ever fading into a cloud of harmonic sound, with a saturated scratchy sound repeating every so often to remind us of the fragile state of the analog recording medium. The repetition of bits of the recording into the reverb create a kind of moving "bird's nest" of knitted bits of sound floating in the sonic space. What I particularly like about this approach to the sonic manipulation is the way this allows you to hear shifts in the musical focus of the tones and resonances, in which over time different parts and notes of the melody become clearer while others seem to fade into the background almost until they're mere silhouettes of the original notes. The bird's nest of sound turns into a filtered cloud of sound and then fades into a dark distorted low drone, which evolves in its harshness over time and also gets overlaid with shifting and clicking reverberated field recordings. The dark drone feels like a refreshingly intriguing dark contrast with the first brighter and more mellow part and adds a kind of new element to the piece that is a running theme on this live album. The element of performance of music in movements that seem to mimic a series of dreams and perhaps even nightmares following eachother. Indeed, Silent Night, the Genot Centre associated concert series that this album was recorded at let the audience experience this music laying on the ground, in a state of sleep, or almost sleep. And while the concept of the "sleeping concert" might be dangerous for artists as they might fall into the trap of creating "appropriated" music that suits a purpose of sleeping, rather than taking the freedom to let the audience experience sleep in a new way and create dreams through music whatever its nature, The House in the Woods does the latter. So as this first half of the live album moves on, on the first track the dark, perhaps even a bit "doom-laden" distorted drone gets high pass filtered into a part of the performance that is filled with nicely trippy quirky "psychedelic" synth squelches and watery sounds but also a mysterious and immersive filtered wind sound that sounds distant and cinematic. This wind sound overtakes the synth squelches after some time which subtly moves and fades into a calmer part with tinkling guitar melodic pattern that's partially reversed and also features various percussion elements, a ride cymbal like sound and again shifting and clicking field recordings, like objects being moved. A warm atmospheric bright hypnotic part, very nice. This afterwards (through the hissy wind of field recordings) moves in a mysterious and also pretty tense filtered low repetitive melodic pattern, the warbled organ like sound of the melody gives it again a degraded sounding vibe, like distant memories playing back in the distance. There are some cool stutter / phaser effects at the end of the track and after the track fades out we move to the second half of this live recording which picks up directly where we left off, at Paralysis /\ Side B. On Paralysis /\ Side B the melodic pattern continues, combined with field recordings and then moves to hissy "traffic" like noise effects that are manipulated in pitch until reaching a high pitch at which point a delayed drum pattern comes in, the only part in this live performance that features percussion combined with still, the noise effects. Drone stabs get added and the percussion moves away after quite a short time and the noise effects get more varied, also featuring intense noise sweeps as the piece gets into a bitcrushed continuous drone. Nicely "infinite" sounding deep drone and the noise effects add some nicely fiery sonic textures to the mixture. The second half of Paralysis is definitely heavier on the noise / field recordings sonics, very nice. This drone part moves to a rather subtle subdued filtered melody, again pretty mysterious and the seperate tones that make up the melody seem to shift in and out of focus. We've got more field recordings added in here with chopped and scratched voice samples and crackly sounds adding an alien tone to this part, the music definitely gets increasingly crackling and hissy as it moves on and faint music samples can also be heard underneath all the hiss, appearing at short points throughout this second half of the live performance. After the voice samples fade out we move into a part that's more a bit brighter though still sounding mysterious and with alien tone manipulation throughout. The hiss stays as well, but long sustained resonating "tube" like tones create warmer ambience and as this part slowly moves the recording and live album to an end, the music keeps changing in unpredictable ways, the hollow tones ever changing in pitch or sonic signature and a long prominent drone adds some cool tension to the music as well and keeps things urgent. Great music definitely. Paralysis: Live at Silent Night #8 by The House in the Woods is an immersive, intriguing and meditative live album that takes listeners on a trip through dreams The House in the Woods create or listeners make up in their mind. The varied ambiences, mixture of synths, tape manipulation, drones, noise and field recordings create a rich constant haze of original and deeply layered Ambient sonics that while stretching out over a long time, is never predictable and is full of secrets and hidden sounds. This live album is definitely recommended for fans of Drone and Ambient music to the appraoch of creating the music but also fans of Noise as a genre, as the usage of the hissy sounds, noises and field recordings also adds a little harsh edge or what I would call "negative volume Noise", subtle but intense washes of dissonant random spectrum washes of sound. A great live album, I definitely recommend you to check it out. Digital live Album available here: https://genot.bandcamp.com/album/paralysis-live-at-silent-night-8

[lethiepie]

13 Things for You to Know About me For When I get Famous

Rules:

1. Share 13 things about yourself.

2. Answer the 13 questions asked to you and invent 13 questions the people you tag will have to answer.

3. Tag 13 people. (Tag-backs ARE allowed!)

4. Be creative with the title.

Tagged by @ma-lemons (thank uuu 💛💛💛😂)

1. what is your favorite TV show/webshow?

My 2 favorites TV shows are My little pony and F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Yes I really like friendship XD

2. What is one stereotype you wish people would stop associating with you/your identity (sexuality, race, ethnicity, gender) ?

I mean, idk of that counts but, I wish people could stop assuming that just because I seem happy all the time, that I dont have sad days or that I cant get sad by them.

3. How do you stay true to yourself when you really want to impress someone?

How ? Its simple, I just dont LMAO. No but being honest now, whenever I want to impress someone... I... just be my self, and try to act like a respectful person ? idk, Im just me XDXD

4. What is your favorite candy (If you have one)?

LEMON PIE... oh but there's brigadeiro too (brigadeiro its a really famous candy in Brazil ITS SO GOOD)

5. I know sometimes we see horoscopes as a joke, but what is one star sign you’d stay away from at all times ?

Dude I know nothing about horoscopes, I just know mine is scorpio because of my friends 😂😂😂😂

6. Favorite flavor of ice cream?

uhhhh thats a hard one, like idk if you guys ever heard of this flavor: cottom candy ? cuz IT EXISTS !!! I swear its SO GOOOOOOD but like in general, vanilla 😁

7. If you could campaign for one world issue for the rest of your life, what would it be?

8. What type of music are you mainly into?

Thats another hard question cuz I really enjoy listening to any kind of music (except brazilian funk) but I guess my fav by now are musicals (HAMILTON IS MY RELIGION)

9. Do you want kids one day?

10. Foxes or bats?

for this one I would have to pick the bats, they're so cute 😍 (aaand because I might be a little mad about ya know, Lila from miraculous ladybug, she had the fox miraculous and etc. I know there's good foxes out there but.. nah, bats)

11. If you could marry one celebrity or sort of famous person, who would it be?

OKAY OKAY, so, if he was around my age and wasn't married XD it would be Lin-Manuel Miranda. Buuuuut since thats not the case... I guess.. Ryan Potter ? Ahhhh idk XDXDXDXD

12. Would you own a business or work for someone else? And if you did one a business, what kind would it be?

Like, if my friend that had a business died and I am the one to keep it ? hm... yeah, sure I guess XD but If I had my own... it would be for some cartoon show, ooor some charity project.

13. What’s your favorite animal ?

BIRDS

All types of birds, I just LOVE THEM !!!!! 😍😍😍😍

alright, so... this is the part where I tag 13 persons right ? AHJSKAHAH I DONT HAVE THAT MUCH PEOPLE AHHASHAHHS

okay but lets go

@from-a-forgotten-kingdom

@bighgbrother

@beebernal

@alexanderhamllton

yeah thats who I got XD you dont have to do it if you dont want to ♡

(also Idk if IM supposed to do the questions, but feel free to create or take the ones I answered, cuz Im lazy af to make new ones, thank u LMAO )

13 Things for You to Know About me For When I get Famous

Rules:

1. Share 13 things about yourself.

2. Answer the 13 questions asked to you and invent 13 questions the people you tag will have to answer.

3. Tag 13 people. (Tag-backs ARE allowed!)

4. Be creative with the title.

Tagged by @olyollyoxenfree

1. What names/nicknames do you go by?

- I don’t have any nicknames. People try to call me DD, but I’m not having it.

2. When's your birthday, and how old are you?

September 27. I’m 17.

3. Where do you live, or what time zone are you on (whichever you’re more comfortable answering)?

Central Time Zone

4. What language(s) do you speak?

I’m only fluent in English but my native language has slipped my mind a bit so I’m relearning.

5. What’s you go-to food?

Bread, rice or cereal.

6. Do you like pulp in your juice?

Nopeeee

7. When your hair becomes grey, are you going to dye it, or are you going to leave it alone? If you are going to dye it, what color(s)?

Probably leave it grey. Good question.

8. What would you do if you had $1,000,000 (1 million) USD?

First and foremost give some to my church. Then to my school. And then some kind of charity/ies. Then I’d give a lot to my parents and whatever’s left I’ll keep. I don’t know what I’d do with the rest of the money; maybe buy clothing.

9. Is there something you disliked when you were younger that you like/don't mind now?

Uhhhhh orange juice. And applesauce. I went probably four years without drinking orange juice because it didn’t taste like oranges. I drink it sometimes now. Applesauce was the nastiest thing on planet earth and now it’s meh. I can eat it when I’m hungry and it’s not as bad.

10. What's the most embarrassing thing that's ever happened to you/that you've done that you'll willingly admit?

The most embarrassing thing is something I will never admit. But something else I remembered that was embarrassing was during my third (?) grade play. It was a winter performance and just before we got onto stage, the class was playing a game trying to figure out each other’s crushes. It got around to me and I freaked and said my good friend’s (let’s call him CS) name. Everyone started to shout and “ooh” and “aah” and CS himself has stepped out. Then he came back and we did the performance. He later figured out and I had to spend the whole year convincing people that I didn’t like CS and it was a joke. (Doesn’t seem embarassing but third grade me was dying.)

11. Describe your favorite accessory or article of clothing that you own.

Uh.. uh... I have a really cute (I think) orange sweater in my closet that makes me feel like I can actually dress like my age and not like I’m five years old :)

12. How would one win your heart (romantically, platonically, whichever fits more)?

Romantically? I’m not sure; I’d need a while to think about that. Platonically? Have a similar music taste. People don’t really like the music I listen to, so if we even have ONE song in common, you are literally my best friend. (I mean I guess this could work romantically too)

13. Tell me about something you're working on (e.g. something you're writing, drawing, sculpting, editing; a concept you're tinkering with; an upcoming project you're in charge of; etc.)!

Right now? I’m working on keeping my mental health together because im slowly falling apart Um, right now I’m working on like four different fanfictions (rwby and acotar) and I’m also thinking of how my home country could have better sanitation laws because I’ve found that interesting lately.

Thanks for these very interesting questions!!! My 13 are:

1. What is your favorite TV show/webshow?

2. What is one stereotype you wish people would stop associating with you/your identity (sexuality, race, ethnicity, gender) ?

3. How do you stay true to yourself when you really want to impress someone?

4. What is your favorite candy (If you have one)?

5. I know sometimes we see horoscopes as a joke, but what is one star sign you’d stay away from at all times ?

6. Favorite flavor of ice cream?

7. If you could campaign for one world issue for the rest of your life, what would it be?

8. What type of music are you mainly into?

9. Do you want kids one day?

10. Foxes or bats?

11. If you could marry one celebrity or sort of famous person, who would it be?

12. Would you own a business or work for someone else? And if you did one a business, what kind would it be?

13. What’s your favorite animal ?

Do... do I even have 13 people to tag?

@lethiepie

@shining-universe

@nahoqo

@redwriter-redroses

@honeii-boii

@keeping-it-rosey

@captain-strawberrytrash

@blackhakumen

@whitennerdiest

@spiritwolf284

@olyollyoxenfree

@just-antiyou

@tolkpopfan

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maddie!!!!  ( @othcrsidex  / @lamourhaine ) it’s your fuckin’ birthday, bromie!!!! and i just wanted to say how much i absolutely love and adore you. honestly, you are such a kind and wonderful person and you know i can gush about you 5ever!!! but i just wanted to let you know how cool and sweet you are. it’s been so great, getting to know you and write with you, getting to meet your muses, and being your friend. there are so, so, so many people who seriously love and adore you, and tbh if you don’t believe me -- and even if you do!!! -- you should take a cheeky look under the cut!!! happy birthday, lovely!!!

Happy Birthday! We don't know each other well but I really like seeing your posts on my dash. You're really funny and your writing is #goals. Enjoy today! c: - @mundaneocs

maddie, maddie, maddie … okay first things first, happy birthday you sweet young thing you. now get ready for a wild ride. you have, honestly, been a very influential person on my life. you make me want to be a stronger person, because you are so incredibly strong yourself. thank you so much for choosing to be my friend, knowing you for the past four (five? idk) years has been one of the highlights of my life. you are the bravest, funniest, live your life out loud person i have ever known. you truly are a blessing on those around you, even though sometimes it might not feel like it. you have such a big heart and you truly care about your friends, a wonderful attribute to have! and thank you so much for creating this little roleplay world with me, it amazes me every day how far we have come with these storylines and how much your characters have developed over the time i have known you. i wish you a lifetime of happiness because you deserve nothing less. have an awesome birthday and don’t let anyone bring you down. stay golden, pony boy.  - @hellfiredawn​

Happy Birthday, Maddie! For me, they have never been days where I celebrate getting older because fuck that noise. For me, it’s always been a day that I think “This is the day my existence first graced the world. Damn right, I deserve a party on this glorious historical event known as my birth.” It makes it better and I’m very happy that your existence has graced this planet for twenty five years. You have been a great friend to me since we met. You are extremely welcoming and friendly. I feel like I can talk to you about anything and I hope I’ve given you the same. Seeing you on my dash brightens my day. You’ve got a fun sense of humor and always have ways of making me laugh just as much as you make me cry. Which in what we usually write, happens often. You know how to work the emotions of people with your writing and that alone is a gift. You’re creative as hell and so passionate about what you create. You write beautifully and honestly, it’s an honor to get to know and write with you. I could go on and one about you. I’m so glad we’ve met and I hope that this birthday is a great one for you even if you hate them. I’m glad you exist.  Thanks for that. I love you. XOXO, Danny - @crimiinalchemiist​

You were one of the first people to follow me on Gina and you've made me feel so welcome. I'm so glad we're friends! You always make me laugh and you always listen to me and I love you so very much. Have an amazing and wonderful birthday, Miss Mama Maddie! - @ginatcnic​

  maddie maddie maddie. they call you mama maddie for a reason and that's because you've been here for all of us since day one. i know that's true for me. your presence, whether it be on jasper or your horror multimuse or any other blog, is something i treasure because i treasure the holy heck out of you. you're an amazing person and i know things have been pretty shit for the past many months with ups and downs, but we're always here for you because you're always here for us. i mean, not to speak for everyone, but the royal we love you! anD IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY AND YOU SHOULD FEEL LOVED BECAUSE YOU'RE SO LOVED! beyond just ic writing, you are the jasper to my monty (and no not bc of the shit you get up to), but because you're so full of love and compassion. so have some fun today! sing in the shower! have an impromptu dance party! do whatever because today's in celebration of you and how amazing you are! - @basiicphysics​

Maddie! Coolest mun I know, thank you for allowing your muse to drive mine up the wall in such a hilarious fashion - dumb shit aside, I hope you, a fabulous person, has a equally as fabulous birthday. Tonnes of love and good vibes your way xox - @aquilcm​

I heard from a little bird that it's your birthday. A day that should be celebrated since it means you came to be on it. I hope it's as amazing as you are. - @oasisofthemad​

I hope you have a awesome birthday Maddie you're a amazing person and you deserve the best day ever!  <3 - @barbeddxddy

I'd just like to tell her happy birthday and I hope that whatever wish she happens to make comes true for her <3 - @lostartfuldodger

Happy birthday, Mom! Gosh, I sure hope it's okay to call you mom cause I've done it quite a few times now. Anyway I'm here to wish you well and say thanks for just being around and posting your mind cause it's really fun to see everyday. You've become like staple of my dash and we've barely talked and never roleplayed for that matter, yet we remain mutuals on more than one of my accounts. So have a good one and here's to another of shit posting and cute boys killing you. Stay awesome Maddie!  - @bourgeoisbullshiit​

Maddie, I don't know you very well. We have written together a few times and had a few ooc conversations and you are always fun and pleasant to talk to. I love seeing you on my dash. I hope your birthday is as wonderful as you are. Ivy - @maggieesmerelda / @thefineartofbitchcraft

HELLO THERE YOU LIL GLITTERY CHICKEN NUGGET. I hope you have the bestestestest birthday possible and spend it with the people you love. keep on being a fuckin badass mofo and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalways keep a smile on ur face. — xoxox christopher @scvinglives​

Happy birthday Maddie !!!! Thank u for blessing the earth with another year of your presence here. You are so loved and appreciated and so incredibly special. We are better people because we know you. Hope you have a great great day!!!! - @holythievery​

I think Maddie is so sweet and so talented and easy to approach not to mention funny as all hell. I wish her the best birthday ever and I adore the hell out of her!!! I love all her muses sooo much her ocs are so good especially ...Much love to the birthday girl - @pridemasked

happy birthday from one momma to another! - @sysnix 

hapPY BIRTHDAY  MADDIE !!!  ! ! man look it's been a wild ride in the 100 fandom and honestly ?? ? it wouldn't have been the same without you? you've got so much passion, especially when it comes to jasper jordan, and you're always so bright and energetic on the dash?? honestly what would we all be without mama maddie? would we have no direction? no one to guide us? i cERTAINLY THINK SO! i hope your day is as rad as you are!! - @floathim​

Happy birthday you dank meme! I love you bunches xoxo - @se7entrials​

Happy Birthday Maddie!! I'm really glad that I started following all that time ago because you're amazing and a joy to have on my dash. I hope you have a great birthday because you absolutely deserve it. <3 - @storiestotell​

I hope you have the most wonderful day. You're awesome inside and out and so so talented too!! Happy bday <3 - @voiceiinyourhead​

i wish her a happy birthday and i hope this upcoming year for her is a good one~  - @terrifiesthem​

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!! you beautiful soul!! thanks for lighting up my dash with your posts, i always end up smiling because they're always so funny! honestly if anyone deserves to have an incredible day, its you!! so make sure it's a good one! and make sure you get spoiled with love! consider this a big hug!! love youuu! xxx  - @xnotafraid

MADDIE! My aries twin, I love you and I'm so excited for your birthday and I hope you party hearty (but like, safely, I need my fellow arien around) AND YAY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY LIKE IT'S 1999 - @foxofthe100

okay so there were actually a whole lot of other people who wanted to participate and, due to me being shit at time, didn’t make it in time before i posted this. but please know how loved you are!!! and that legit too many people to count were meant to participate.

( and thank you to everyone who allowed me to infiltrate their ims and a big sorry to those who i missed out on getting the birthday wishes from on time. )

[ugdigital]

[FEATURE] JG ( @iamjgforreal ) : THE REAL DEAL

​Artists like JG are truly redefining what it is to be a rap artist in today's hip-hop world. We've seen a complete metamorphosis in terms of what artists represent, and not only how they're portrayed, but how they present themselves. For those who have been around long enough to witness hip-hop from the eighties, through the nineties, and right into the new millennium, many will argue that we've watch the slow death of what we once knew. We've seen it start from artists coming with real "message" music to those who weren't saying anything at all. It had become more s stage show than anything, and not many truly respected the essence of the craft. In essence, it was no different than someone working a job simply for a paycheck, which goes against the whole code because the idea is that people are doing what they love. We're now arriving at a place where artists are becoming more attuned with themselves, and using the stories of their lives not only to elevate themselves, but connect their to the rest of the world. More importantly, we're seeing more artists with a genuine love for the art form, and it's reflecting in the product.

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We recently ran the debut of JG's "Birds in LA", which feature Rich the Kid. With one watch if the clip, its clear to see he's bringing back the essence of hip-hop that has been missing for a long time. While he's not drilling you with any particular message, it's clear he's having fun, and his heart is in it. It gives you a sense not only of what can be expected from his album, but also the direction hip-hop is heading, and how things are truly

coming back around.

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JG sat down to talk with us about the new single, the idea he had behind the track, and how this, as well as the upcoming barrage of singles will strategically lead us into his EP, which we'll likely get later this year.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I appreciate you sitting down with us bro. Kudos for all that’s happening your way.

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JG: Thank you man. I appreciate that.

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U.G. Digital Mag: Start off first by talking about Birds in LA. There’s a lot that I can really appreciate, not just about the song, but also your delivery, overall flow, and I think the style you’re bringing is needed right now. There’s a lot in hip-hop that I struggle with in terms of direction, but you’re taking it in the right direction. With that in mind, talk about the single and your goals for that?

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JG: Well I mean, with that record, just getting rich on it was a big thing because I wanted it to get the recognition it deserved. I felt like the verses were hot, and I was just trying to establish myself. Before this, I hadn’t had anything out there, so I was trying to establish myself, get on a record with somebody who may be in a different lane than myself, but also showcase what I’m trying to bring to the table. I feel like the record doesn’t have any real meaning per se, and its definitely not a political message. It’s just a dope record. I was showcasing my lyrical ability.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I think people who look at it can see that there's not necessarily a cockiness, but more a level of confidence. Overall, it’s like I’m here, this is me, and this is what you get.

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JG: Basically that's it. It’s really something that you speak about the confidence, because for me, it something that comes out more in my music. It’s like I’m two people. On the mic, things I want to say, that side of me comes out more.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I think that’s good. How do you feel like taking it back to your own life, this will allow you to show more of that confidence outside of music?

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JG: It’s not that I’m not confident. Im just not flamboyant or boastful. I don’t seek that, and my goal isn’t to flex on people. My goal is to make good music and hopefully, people will relate to my music. I don’t think this will really reflect superficially, but I am confident in my abilities. I’m just more reserved.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I think a lot of people can appreciate that, and relate. I see where your influence comes from, and obviously you listen to the J. Coles, and those artists who people label as “artists with something to say”. I think people see it, but at the same time, you’re your own artist. Talk about how this single leads into the album?

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JG: It’s definitely the lead-off to the album. I really was trying to set things up in terms of what you could expect. It’s a little different to me. The vibes on the album, and this song in particular, it’s more melodic. "My Side" is more upbeat, more wavy and club vib-ish. I try to give something for everybody, but at the same time, deliver a message throughout the project. That’s what I want people to take away from this. I have songs to turn up to, but then I also have songs where you have to sit back, listen, and think. Like you said, J. Cole and other artists are my inspiration, but I also realize there’s a fine line that you have to straddle. People don’t want to just be put to sleep, and unfortunately, we live in a time where the attention span Is not what it once was. It’s changed a little, so I try to cater to that, but also do what I love to do.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I think in terms of attention, a lot of people just want more artists who will bend the lines and be different. I think what helps a lot is being independent. There’s so much happening on the independent front, and you have the ability to do so much more of what you want. People see that creativity within you, and can see you’re not being guided in terms of what someone else thinks is hot.

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JG: That’s pretty much what it is. I don’t like being labeled, and being put in a box. If I want to make a super melodic record and then come back to make an east coast rap record, I like to exercise my freedom to do just that. That’s more of the artistry I want people to see. With these first 4-5 records, it’s a bit of every aspect of that. I’m hoping people get out of it what I’m trying to put into it.

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U.G. Digital Mag: I think they will. Even going back to "Birds in LA", I immediately felt it, and that’s a compliment in the highest form because being honest, I don’t easily get into a lot of music today. It’s not even in a disrespectful way either.

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JG: Right. No disrespect, it’s just not your lane.

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U.G. Digital Mag: Right. But I played it, and felt it right away. Then my son, who is ten years old by the way, listened and could vibe to it. You can reach people of all age ranges, which is cool. I think people, again, can appreciate that. What happens between now and later this year when it drops?

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JG: Right now, we have about 4-5 records lined up. We’re just building the fanbase. It’s been a while since I've released any music. A lot of people have not heard of me, and for those who have, it’s been a while since I put anything out. So it’s connecting with the new fans, and recapturing old ones. There isn't a date set in stone yet.

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U.G. Digital Mag: The reality too is that people don’t even need the date because as long as you keep coming the way you are, people will take to it, and regardless of when it drops, people will support because it’s something tangible.

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JG: Yea. I have a lot of music ready. My problem is I’m always eager to drop it. I think things are going in the right direction though. I think it’ll be a good year.

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U.G. Digital Mag: For people who want to check you out, we have the social media, Instagram, Twitter, Soundcloud, and YouTube accounts. Where else can people check you out?

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JG: I have my Facebook page, which gets the most interaction. I know Facebook is not really so big, but I get a lot of interaction there.

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U.G. Digital Mag: It actually depends on the artist. Some actually do better with Instagram and Twitter, but those who have more engagement, they do better on Facebook. It just depends.

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JG: Yea like me, I’ve neglected Twitter. I barely tweet, and I’m trying to get better, but it just isn’t my thing.

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U.G. Digital Mag: Everyone has their thing. I neglect Snapchat. Some people are religious to Snapchat.

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JG: Right. Also I have a few records on Spotify, and Pandora. I have one on Apple  music, and we're working on getting the rest up there. The music coming now will hit all of those outlets. Other than that, that’s about it. Worldstar obviously also. I think that’s about it.

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U.G. Digital Mag: What about your personal site?

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JG: It's www.iamjgforreal.com

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U.G. Digital Mag: Any final comments at all?

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JG: Not really. I feel like we touched on some good stuff. Really, I’m not even going down that route [laughing].

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U.G. Digital Mag: I just want to say I really appreciate you. Your artistry makes me want to do what I do. I relate to your comments about being in a box, and that goes for any industry. In terms of journalism or black media, if I write for others, which I have, and do here and there, it’s easy to get put in a box in terms of what you can and cannot cover, and the way you go about it. Having my own allows me to talk about what the artists really want to talk about. I appreciate being able to connect, and I thoroughly appreciate your music.

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JG: It’s a blessing to have this conversation. Everything happens so fast, and it’s been a long time. We just launched the campaign, and it’s happening so fast. The main thing is I don’t want to be in a box. If somebody is not feeling this record, just wait a minute, and you’ll feel the next one. I touch on certain areas just to show I can do this, and I also can do that. It’s not to say I don’t have a style; I just do what the fuck I want to do musically.