#listen i'm aware lmfao but i can never change it

[leighways]

your icon just jumpscared me it's so cursed

Oh gosh!! I'm sorry nonny! I didn't mean to

IMPOSE UPON YOUR SLUMBER

[theyluvlyss]

𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐞𝐭, 𝐬𝐨...

anyways😃...

slight disclaimer of sorts, I'm not at all trying to play the "I'm better than you" comparison game, nor am I trying to come off as a bitch lmao I just have thoughts all of the time and this blog is damn near my only outlet. not to mention, this blog barely receives, like 5% of them anyways (so count yourselves lucky🤨🫵🏽).

do y'all ever just think about the fact that - in whatever fandoms you're in - you're probably one of a group of, maybe even in just a handful,, or possibly part of just a couple,,, maybe the one and only,,,, shifter in that fandom?

and if so, does it ever come to mind that because you are a shifter and because you're probably shifting for whatever "character" you're shifting for, that you love them infinitely more than the average person indulging in that fandom you're in?

'cause I think about that all of the time. like... all of the time.

like, what do you mean no one will ever never ever possibly love *insert one of my s/o's and/or best friends* more than me? it's a bittersweet feeling, too, because I feel all alone in my love for that significant other/best friend/comfort person. but at the same time, maybe that's for the best because idk if I'm the jealous type or not, and I'd hate to become a person who can't indulge in content of the comfort person I love bc my jealousy is holding me back.

but anyways, not the point, I just...

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I LOVE *insert my comfort people here* INFINITELY MORE THAN THE OTHERS THAT CLAIM TO LOVE THEM all because of the simple fact that I shift for that person and they don't? again, not saying it's a bad thing or that I'm sitting here trying to one-up somebody or play the comparison game, I'm just genuinely baffled because listen...

I bet there's someone right now going on tiktok or insta or even on here rn being all, "oh I love this "character" so much and I just wish I could be with them, but all I can do is post my edits and my fanfics and my hdcns, oh, woe is me, pouty-pout-pout🥺" and it's like biTCHYOUCAN, YOU LITERALLY C A N BUT THE CHANCES OF YOU BELIEVING ME ABOUT SHIFTING ARE SO SLIM SO WHAT'S EVEN THE POINT👹⁉️

I just gotta sit here like, "I know something you don't😗 ... I know something you will never knowww😙."

AND THEN (this is where the asshole in me jumps out a lil' bit) WHETHER OR NOT YOU DO TELL THEM DON'T EVEN MATTER, at least not to me, because I'ma still just sit there and be like, "I actually love them more than you, though, because I've been LITERALLY shifting my awareness/consciousness for them for like, five years now, so🙂." like I promise you, that's like ... the ultimate form of loving a "character". to not only see them past being a fictional thing, but to see them as a person, a REAL person, and just because they aren't real here doesn't mean shit bc I love them in EVERY reality I'm in and that they're in, real or not.

can you even say the same🤨?

you can post fanedits of them all day and change your user to "so-and-so's wife" all you want, but I'm the one that's hopping realities and putting a ring on that finger💀💅🏽.

😀 ... sorry, sorry, I literally said I wasn't gonna do that and act a fool lmfao I just get cocky sometimes, but Y'ALL KNOW WHAT I MEAN/AM TRYNA GET AT, like-

or shit, maybe you don't, but if not, then ig this post isn't for you lmao, because I totally understand that not everyone loves the same way as one another and/or as I do. like, my love has never once been a "casual" thing. if I love someone or something, it's intense, and ig to others, can come off as obsessive *not in a unhealthy way dw lol*, whereas others, they say "oh I really love this thing✨️." and that's it, no underlying feralness or passion to it, so...yah, idrk or rmbr where I was going with this, I just have a constant stream of thoughts and rambles so...

lol bye, more fics comin' soon♡.

[tonberry-yoda]

Jotaro fluff Alphabet

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Jotaro Fluff Alphabet

notes - AHHHH I HAVE BEEN MISSING JOTARO TBH!!! Like I am obsessed with Jotaro in part 4 and kinda brainrotting I'm ngl LMFAO, so this will more than likely be more of a 4taro fluff alphabet, but it's the same dude LMFAO. Anyways, thanks for the request anon! I hope you have a super day and stay hydrated! <3

fluff alphabet

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Go to the beach. Like come on LMFAO he would love to swim with you or just go on late night walks on the beach. He also loves to tell you stories I think. Like if you weren't there in Egypt, he will tell you all about it, but if you were, he would just reminisce or tell you new stories and teach you about the ocean.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

Your intelligence. If you are able to pick up on something or have passion about something, he thinks that's super hot. And just the way you speak, I think lol. Like he loves talking to you a lot and could literally listen to your voice for hours. Also the way your fingers feel when you give him head scratchies, but he would never admit that.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

He would be calm and make sure that you're alright first and then take you outside. Fresh air can be super calming and helpful, so the first thing he will do is walk with you until you're ready to talk.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

Marriage and children. That and traveling the world with you and the rest of your little family (dw, he won't run away like he did in canon LMFAO, in this house, we know he would be an amazing father)

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

He can come off as the more dominant one, so that's how it feels most of the time, but honestly, it's pretty equal. He doesn't want you to feel lesser when you're with him, so everything equals out

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

He would act like a grumpy little pouty pants and act like he's soooo mad at you. But then he'll be thanking you for dinner with a kiss on the cheek quietly. He will never apologize first because he's petty. But when you apologize, he quickly will and then tell you how much he loves you. But know you're gonna deal with a grumpy toddler when you do argue lol. They never last long and it can be rare.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

You have been everything to him. You were the one to pick him up out of a traumatic situation that he had to deal with and he is forever grateful and will not stop reminding you with sweet words. He knows what you are doing for him and he will never stop saying thank you <3

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

BIG SECRET KEEPER. And not on purpose to hurt you or anything, if anything, he thinks it's protecting you. You tell him to be more open because it hurts when he hides stuff, so know that he is getting better, but he has always hid stuff from you.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

He finds himself smiling more. But other than that, not much. And that's a good thing. He never felt like he needed to change around you because you fell in love with that grumpy idiot and you'd rather keep that grumpy idiot forever <3 But you two have been through hell and back together, so he sees you as his one and only

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Y E S. You are a very kind and open person, so when he finds you talking to other people, he can get a little jealous. Especially because he is so introverted doesn't want to interrupt your conversation with this other person. But he will express it to you afterwards or sometimes if he's REALLY JEALOUS, he will walk right next to you mid convo and wrap his arm around your waist and DEAD STARE the other person until they leave. He's a menace tbh

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

*passes out cutely* Y E S HE IS SUCH A GOOD KISSER AHHHH. Like his lips are so goddamn soft and he's kinda possessive with his kisses in a really hot way and then he'll always pull away making you want more because he's evil like that. But yeah. The first kiss was really good because he shyly pecked you on the cheek on the beach and then acted like nothing happened until you pulled him down in the sand and pressed kisses all over his cute little face all night.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

He didn't. I'm sorry. Dude was WAY to shy for that LMFAO. You had to. But after that, he always tells you that he loves you every day <3

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

Oh absolutely. You two have been on some crazy adventures, so to do that for the rest of both of your lives together sounds good to him. So on that note, he would propose to you on the - you guessed it - the beach! No one was around and he just kinda slipped the ring on your finger and asked you very nicely. The wedding will only be close friends and family and nothing crazy, which is really nice for the both of you tbh

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

Oh god, probably nothing really. Maybe starfish if he's feeling really cutesy, but he usually just uses your name or something like honey.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

The same as he usually is on the outside lol. Like totally not obvious. However, when it's just the two of you he gets all cuddly and tells you how much he loves you all the time, the little turd.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

BIG NO. I'm sorry, but bro will not talk about you at all like even at work. Like maybe he'll mention he's married like one time, but other than that, he's just working at work lol. And he will NEVER kiss you or hug you or anything out in public. Maybe hold your hand if you really just grab it, but he won't initiate anything. The lil dude is too shy.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.

Always tells you that he loves you. His love language is words of affirmation, so he will always tell you that he loves you. So you never need to be reminded because it's a habit now that brings you so much joy.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

Pretty romantic. Most of your dates are outside like picnics in the backyard or beach walks, so I would say that's pretty romantic. He would do anything to make you happy, even if that's doing something crazy for a date lol.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

Oh hell yeah! He will always be here for you and help you with whatever you need. You two have always done stuff together and he wants to keep it that way! He will always be helping you no matter what and hoping that you'll do the same

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

He is totally fine with routine. You two have always accidently been on crazy "dates" fighting stands and stuff, but when it isn't that way, your relationship is very chill and VERY cozy, which is lovely.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

He knows you better than most. You two communicate a lot, so he will always know what's up with you just because he knows you so well. He is always very caring about your feelings and all that, even if he looks angy most of the time, but know that beneath that pissed off face he is a teddy bear.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

It means a lot to him. Just because you two have been through so much, he kind of needs you by his side to feel comfortable doing certain things like fighting or having to remember the trauma from the SDC time. You mean the literal world to him and he hopes you feel the same because he will do anything to protect you.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

He is an AMAZING cuddler. Like when you two are alone and cuddling, he hugs you so tight and is your little weighted blanky to fall asleep to. Also, he loves being little spoon tee hee

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Only in private. He will never reveal to anyone how cuddly he really is and if you tell anyone, you're dead, I'm sorry. But yes, he is a big teddy bear who will love to cuddle more than anything with you, so expect a lot of kisses and cuddles when you get home

Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner?

He'll be fine I think because he knows that you'll come back, but he does get really REALLY worried. Like he will call you a lot to make sure you're doing okay and always just be super worried at home. He knows you'll be fine, but he doesn't want to lose you, so expect a very worried boyfriend lol

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

He will do anything for you and will even take a bullet for you. The last thing he wants is to lose you and he will do anything to keep you with him. Like bro would be willing to fight DIO again if you were in danger. He wants to be your protector because he feels like he has to, so he's your big protective teddy bear

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[simlit]

ALL OF THEM FOR EIF YA BITCH

first of all, how rude.

What's something about your OC that people wouldn't expect just from looking at them?

His resilience. Eifra is constantly seen as an easy target, and physically, he's not particularly strong, but he's endured a lot and has the ability to bounce back from just about anything.

What is your OC's fatal flaw? Are they aware of this flaw?

His kindness. It's the one thing he's most taken advantage for. He's aware of it, and people constantly warn him, but I don't think even he would choose to be different.

When scared, does your OC fight, flee, freeze or fawn?

All of the above lmao. Depends on the threat. He does naturally frighten easily, but he's also a very seasoned hunter. Even if he's afraid, he has the ability to temper his nerves to withstand a fight, but if he knows it's a fight he'll lose, he'll happily flee.

How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

Eif would never endanger others, but he would put himself through a world of pain if he thought it would help someone he loves. Again, all depends on the context.

How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

Not... easily. He would have to be put in a very precarious position, to know it was his only option, or if someone's life depended on it. But he's also not so much of a goodie two shoes that his moral compass is swung so far to one side.

What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

Ah, this is a fun question. I think I mentioned before I actually intended for Eifra's PoV to only exist as an introduction to Zeh's. But instead he became pretty much the defacto protagonist and narrator for the sequel. I didn't expect to love Eifra as much as I did, and I got attached to him, both as a writer, but also through Zehel. In the same way that I fell in love with Yeryn's romance, Zehel and Eifra's relationship *is* the main dynamic of Arcaen'vel. Eifra is Zehel's crux. He's his driving force and he pushes both the plot and Zehel's character development forward. I went in thinking Zehel would be the main character in what I thought was his own story, but Eifra really had another plan (though I'm sure if I explained it that way to him, he'd disagree and hold Zeh's pedestal that much higher lmao). The two share the spotlight in different ways. But if you asked me like three years ago if I thought the successor to Yeryn's line would be some random hybrid kiddo I'd have slapped your face.

Would your OC ostensibly be able to get away with murder?

NO lmfao. Eifra would never just commit murder. But he certainly wouldn't have the braincells to get out of it if he did.

Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

Yes! Zehel's theme for Eifra is "A Sky Full of Stars" by Coldplay, and I can literally not listen to this song without thinking of him. "Cuz you get lighter the more it gets dark, I'm gonna give you my heart."

What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC?

Tbh, I think Eif would work in any AU, but I'll have to choose the most boring and say I'd love to see him in a modern storyline with Zeh. Just because Eifra adapts so well to our timeline.

What is your OC's weapon of choice? Have they ever actually used it?

Bow and arrow. He can hunt well regardless, but his arrows are also the only way he can channel dragonfire. It's the only defense he has, not having been born with arcane magic.

Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways?

Yes, and no. I think he sometimes gives too much of himself away, but I wouldn't say he's actively tearing himself down. But he'd be willing to let people walk all over him if it'd make them happy and that's not a particularly healthy way to live, either.

If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

Probably LOL. I mean he's a much MUCH better person than me, but his self-deprecating humor is so relatable. He's a really uplifting person, which is actually the type of person I most enjoy being around, but he does lack the petty shittalk side I require my friendships to have so that I may thrive lmao.

How does your OC want to be seen by other characters?

I don't think he much cares how other perceive him, but I think he'd like his friends to see him as reliable. Someone that can be depended on, even when things get difficult.

Does your OC have a faceclaim? If so, who?

We all know I don't do real human face claims, but I do have an artwork I pinned ages ago that encapsulates his vibes down to his stature and dress style, the only thing off about it is the hair, otherwise really spot on: here.

What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

Surprisingly high. Eifra has been through... shit. And he's conditioned himself for things most people have never had to. He's been forced to survive most of his life, and I think that gives someone a lot of internal strength. He also has an incredibly good hold of his mental. In a situation where he knew he'd have to endure something to save someone, he wouldn't even miss a beat.

Is your OC more cold and detached or up close and personal?

He's very personable, but honestly he understands people wanting space. He gets attached to Zehel so easily because he feels like he owes him his life (he kind of does lmao), so it's a bit of specific situation. Normally, Eifra is the type to only approach if asked, but he'd always be able to reply. He's incredibly charismatic.

How does your OC behave when enraged?

I think Eifra has only been truly angry a handful of times in his life. Only once severe enough to have some physical repercussion. Usually he lets things slide off him, and doesn't get caught up on negative feelings.

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Unsurprisingly not at all lmao.

Does your OC have any illnesses or disorders? How do they handle it?

Neither, but I suppose in the context of their world, he's sort of "broken". He's half elf, half dragon, but he was born magicless, and his wings never developed properly. He's also not able to shift into dragonform, which is usually something that gets bred out over many generations. As he's a "first generation" mix, this is exceedingly odd. He's the only known halflyn to have one dragon parent and not be able to shapeshift.

What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

Lawful/Neutral Good

What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

Desire. Eifra has an incredibly difficult time asking for anything, even if he needs those things to actually survive. He feels embarrassed and burdensome to ask favors of others, and hates to be indebted to them. He constantly sees himself as a weight holding back his friends, and would rather starve than to ask for money for food or anything similar.

What is your favorite thing about your OC?

His tenacity. Eifra is such a hard person to keep down, and even though I find these people really annoying irl, I think in stories, juxtaposed characters like Zeh, they become so much more likeable, and important. I think Eifra has a lot of qualities I gravitate to, but being in Zehel's head for almost four-hundred pages, my love and violent need to throw my life on line to protect Eif at all costs is so deeply engrained in me LOL. Zehel really following in Daddy's footsteps by being the world's second biggest simp, only in his case it exists within a platonic friendship, and honestly, I think it's the most fitting storyline I could have written for him.

[r3starttt]

omg, I just stumbled upon your account and read the things that you mentioned on your other page. this is so real; i felt (feel) the same way most of the time, and sometimes things so bad, to the point where you think: would it be better if i just leave? would people feel better if i free them of my existence? would my mother feel less strained and irritated of having to take care of me and listening to my bullshit? i know it might sound funny or even ridiculous to some — hell, a girl told me she never experienced the lack of happiness, the total emptiness, the "flowing through your life", or even the want to khs. i felt even more lonely in that moment, but it didn't affect me much, if i'm 90% dissociated. am i aware that it's unhealthy and not serving like anything? yes. can i change it? probably. do i want to? not really!

why? because it helped me survive for so long. if it weren't for my lack of awareness, i wouldn't be writing this right now. goddammit, even people told me so many times i'm not a good person. does it affects me? obviously, because how else am i gonna grow and learn if not from the perspective of someone else? do i need to listen to all of this and not have my own critical thinking? i don't think so. at the end of the day, we come into this world alone and we go alone. no one cares, yes—but it depends how you see it.

there are hobbies, interests, sports, even people worth living for. don't give up because life it's unpredictable, and you don't know if you can lose your happiness. or take the happiness of someone else.

when we die, we don't get rid of the grief—we pass it to someone else.

I'm very sorry you've been through this, it genuinely breaks my heart to know there's so many people feeling this way for so long and there's just nothing it can be done but to hope for the best. it feels incredibly isolating. Just know that you’re not alone in feeling this way, and there are people who understand and care, not necessarily around you but there's also many communities online and people you can talk to and trauma dump like one does lmfao (thanks to all my bros online I love u all sm)

It's really nice that ur sharing this w me (BTW if you want I'll delete this I just thought it was nice to share as I did) and ur words just hit me real hard like 🫂 thanks

If anyone ever needs to talk, just know you can always come to my acc and use the anon option or send me a dm, I will always listen.

[3416]

i feel really similarly re: your answer to the ask about leafs fans. one thing that genuinely annoys me to no end is how people don’t seem to realize that a lot of the hate/negativity that surrounds the leafs is literally a direct byproduct of other fanbases seeing how awful “fans” of the leafs themselves talk about the team and its players 😭 like uncles will complain about all the disrespect the leafs get but if supposed fans of the team constantly broadcast themselves ripping into players then why wouldn’t fans of other teams think they have a free pass to repeat the same talking points lol. steve dangle making an entire career off exactly that and still being popular within the fan base speaks for itself. it’s just irritating that every single widely held (obviously baseless) criticism about the players like about mitch and his character or jt not being captain material or the core not caring etc etc etc literally began from fans themselves like that’s so sad to me lol

that's extremely well put and 100000% the case, lol. i totally agree. and it's why the divide in fans annoys me so fucking bad. all the neutral people who are like 'you can't tell people how to be a fan and ultimately we all want the same thing' are also obnoxious bc like. these people who are actually hateful and constantly negative use the length of their 'fandom' to explain why they're fed up and it DOES contribute to the way other teams fans view us and makes it hard to be a fan out loud and it EVEN impacts how players perceive toronto as a market (elliotte on a show last night admitting that the marner debacle has made players be like... ehh not there! abt toronto is so funny). anyway it's like........ once again, i fully believe engaging in sports and hobbies in general is a choice, whether it was something shown to you as a child or you discovered it yourself later. plenty of people who have been fans for the same lengths of time have managed not to become ugly and over the top about it so lol. i know some people manage to detach themselves from players but ultimately.... you're here to root for players as much as the team. you buy jerseys with their names on it and you spout facts about their individual play to other teams fans to defend your own. athletes are human beings, and i think that's a much more interesting and grounding way to interact with sports than the barbaric and annoying ass way so many men do. nothing's going to change about it, but i think toronto media in general needs more neutral to positive voices (fuck you steve dangle fr.) bc they get accused of having homer broadcasts and yet. every time i listen to either the american or the canadian ones during leaf games, the leafs are never getting the benefit of the doubt and they can never do anything right, lmfao. and maybe that's been shaped by their playoff failures of late but i don't care. we're here to have fun, and i want to be able to be positive and believe in this team and its core players (who are going to end up the best to ever do it in blue and white regardless of the playoffs btw) every offseason in a place without 49023492 idiotic comments telling me they can't win a certain way. like. you've lost the plot if part of your thing as a sports fan isn't blind belief. that is quite literally what it is... every year 31 teams lose and still have a fanbase at the end of it, lmfao.

i'm aware of how celeb culture and parasocial relationships impacts all of that too. i feel it in myself, the weird urge to be defensive over some of these guys i know that i don't know, but on the other hand, i fully think that the people who are overtly negative have their own little parasocial thing going on where they make up their own narratives and personalities for these guys they don't know either. i've fully seen a couple twitter users insinuate bc they, a toronto/ontario native themselves, have never heard about a positive interaction with mitch marner first hand that must mean he is actually the devil (they never say they've heard negative things either LMFAO.. like they don't know him or know people who know people who know him and say he's decent so he must be rotten bc hockey circles are small and blah blah blah). it's just so................ it's all bc toronto's a huge market and hockey is the thing to talk about 24/7.

[unhingedselfships]

So I was asked to elaborate! And here we are. Cause I'm procrastinating. Lmfao.

H. - Tool (Ænima 1996)

This one, kinda hit pinnacle of her side of the dynamic for me. I latched onto it hard.

Kadokura is an objectively "bad" man. She knows this very well. She knows he manipulates, and that she is not separate or an exception to/from that. There is darkness in him, and he brings out the darkness in others. If he can be bothered to.

He hurts people. Literally and figuratively, herself included. And she lets him. She knows, and she allows it, accepts it, at times even craves it.

It's unhealthy. She's unhealthy. She doesn't mind.

Freak - Sub Urban ft REI AMI (Thrill Seeker EP 2020)

And here we see perfectly normal totally healthy Kimi again. (/s)

As far as I can figure, Kadokura collects people. And if they weren't monsters, chances are, he'll make them into one. Kimi will do anything for the validation and praise she needs. It's almost... Pathetically desperate.

DEVIL - Shinedown (ATTENTION ATTENTION 2018)

This one is almost... Playful? On Kimi's part. And includes an unnamed and irrelevant 3rs party. But it basically comes down to Kimi telling someone to watch themselves because "the Devil", Kadokura, is aware and waiting. A warning to tread carefully, because someone much more dangerous than they're prepared for, is just in the other room.

Under the Water - The Pretty Reckless (Hit Me Like A Man 2012)

Given the background she has here, in a messy sort of way, Kimi views Kadokura as a savior. She was crying out for someone, anyone, to save her, and then there he was. Serendipity.

The Remedy (3 Kord Scissor King) - Puscifer (Money Shot - Your Re-Load 2016)

This is also almost playful. And Kimi getting a bit... Big for her britches, as my mother would say. It's a sort of, telling off anyway who dares to cross her boss. When someone she loves, is devoted to, is treated or spoken of poorly she can get. Mean. They've become "lowly" in her eyes. Unworthy.

Dance with the Devil - Breaking Benjamin (Phobia 2006)

This one's mostly self explanatory I think. I'm sure she's been warned away, by more than one person, but. She's never been very good at listening. This can only end terribly but. Oh well.

Fragile Minds - Silent Theory (Delusions 2016)

A peak into how she's doing with her devotion. Not well lmao. She is willing to give anything and everything. Her mind, her body, her soul, her life. She'll break herself for him, in any and every way. Whatever he asks. She destroy herself if asks. And she knows it isn't ok. That she isn't ok. She doesn't care. It scares her sometimes, the depth of her feelings, but she wouldn't change it. Not for anything.

There is also an element here of, what he could shape her into. She isn't much, physically speaking. But with the right guidance, I think she could be a kind of dangerous. Not to mention how easy it would be, with the right push, to make her snap.

Devil's Playground - The Rigs (Black 2015)

I feel like Kadokura has a way of making even the worst parts of society look appealing somehow. This is sort of a "welcome to my world, it's fun, I promise" kind of track.

Do Bad Well - KSHMR, Nevve (Do Bad Well Single 2019)

This one is fun. In terms of symbolism and what not, I definitely view Kadokura as something of a devilish character. If I were to assign him an arcana, that would be it. But the life he's given her, certainly isn't hell. Devil's in heaven indeed. Couple that with a healthy does of enabling. Here we are.

There is also an element of "whatever you do, do it well", a "take pride in what you do". Commit to it, basically.

(there was also an amazing conversation on his reaction to being called Daddy. Hilarious 😂)

[lostusagis]

@jiraipink asked: ❤ - What's something you feel like your muse needs to work on for a relationship to happen or for a relationship to be healthy? Do you think that's possible? Or is it something that'll likely never happen? (For both!)

Let's talk about romance! Muse questions

( Kagura's biggest and only problem really is that she's quick to anger. it tends to be really hard to talk things out with her because Kagura being mad tends to lead to her yelling, and not wanting to listen to reason depending on what exactly she's mad over. She doesn't hurt her partners when she's pissed though at least.

It is possible for her to work on this, but it's a matter of having patience with her. I suppose if someone dated Kagura, they would already be aware she has a foul temper. I think something really important when dating Kagura is explaining that her actions can be hurtful. She doesn't have a filter like her brother too, and certain things slip out that can be really insulting. She's really used to talking like this to people, and her partner needs to explain that being spoken to like that hurts, if it bothers them. Not all people are the same but IF it bothers them it needs to be said or she won't realize.

Kagura will feel bad if any of this is brought to her attention at least, she doesn't want to hurt the person she loves. Hell, getting her to fall in love is pretty impressive in itself so it means she's willing to go above and beyond to help them be happy dating her. She also doesn't fall in love easily after all. )

( *Internal groaning* So much needs to be worked on, but it's occurring to me a lot of the muses he's shipped with often encourage and don't scold his behavior and this leads to it continuing LMFAO.

Kamui is extremely problematic. Starting off with how possessive he is as a boyfriend. I'm talking just looking at his partner for too long will piss him off. He's VIOLENT too and ends up beating the shit out of whoever was talking or looking at his partner for too long. Killing happens more often than not too. This is connected to that other headcanon for something you sent me, where I mentioned he tends to feel a lot with his emotions. An argument would break out if his partner expresses not liking his behavior. Which leads to another issue he has. Kamui especially after a really severe case of jealousy tends to mark his partner, a lot. If this isn't something they're into, they really needs to mention it asap. Because despite everything he does care about consent. He won't enjoy something if his partner feels uncomfortable.

Kamui, a lot of the time, doesn't like admitting he's wrong. It depends on the situation like if he accidentally harms his partner, he will admit to his mistake there. But for a lot of arguments in general it's next to impossible to get him to back down. He's extremely petty and childish. Self esteem issues but also egotistical and arrogant. It's really hard to explain.

This is like a given but he tends to solve most situations with violence or killing. Unfortunately, getting him to stop killing completely is next to impossible. However, talking to him about this might at least get him to work on his temperamental issues so he won't kill someone solely for annoying him too much. Like Kagura, temper issues. They got it from their mom probably but yeah. Thing though about Kamui, he doesn't yell, he channels all of it into his violent acts.

As to the concern over his lack of filter, depending on the dynamic between him and his partner, he may or may not ease up on the insulting way he talks. But there will be the occasion of him saying really out of pocket shit. If his partner ends up mad, well, he'll feel extremely guilty after and will do anything to try and make it up to them.

But yeah. Overall.... one should be wary of Kamui being a violent asshole when wanting to date him. Getting him to change how problematic he is definitely isn't the easiest thing to do. Expressing that they'll leave him because of one of his acts will definitely make him more likely to change, because it'll make him really anxious over losing someone important to him.

However, again, getting him to change behaviors he has because of being a Yato is not possible. Maybe they could get him to fight less? But not to stop fighting/killing completely. It's like trying to take the feral nature out of a wild lion.

But maybe he could change the possessiveness. But again, he's childish. He doesn't want anyone stealing what's 'his' away from him. He doesn't want them looking at his partner in the same way he does either. God forbid they try flirting 💀 Death is immediate usually. But it's possible for him to work on that. Those feelings are largely due to him never experiencing romance before, and realizing how much he enjoys it and not wanting to ever lose it.

So yeah.... there's a lot of unhealthy aspects that come with dating Kamui. Way worse than Kagura, all Kagura has is a short temper and some mild rudeness, Kamui has a whole list of red flags. A lot of his behavior won't be found out until a person starts dating him too. Kamui is definitely a person that's hard to change, next to impossible, but if he really loves someone he'll definitely try and change certain things because he does value his partner's happiness a lot. But a person needs to be prepared for a lot of bullshit if they want him as a boyfriend. )

[aerltarg]

Maybe this is a stupid question, buuuuut:

I just can't imagine a world that Rhaegar comes back from the Trident, wins the war and becomes king. No, I'm not a anti Rhaegar, matter of fact I like him very much, I'm just can imagine how would Lya, little Jon, this whole affair, would settle in the capital. The norm that fics (at least those I read) tend to follow is to make Rhaegar:

1. A douche, paranoid and destiny-obessed king.

2. Completely incompetent, aloof monarch, that deep down has a heart of gold, but can't really be understood.

I mean, isn't he supposed to be a scholar since he was a kid? What's are your thoughts about it?

oh, yeah, i can totally understand this! it's is the whole point in canon actually, "the wrong man came back from the trident". you would expect a hero win against his antagonist and have a happy ending w his lady love but it doesn't happen. instead the subversion happens to them with rhaegar being killed by robert who becomes obviously a shitty king and lyanna dying after him. they were never supposed to have happy ending, they were created as tragic and doomed and dead from the beginning for the whole plot to start, jon to have his parentage mystery and dany to take the passed baton as the last dragon, prophesied savoir and the heir who has to carry entire house on her back now.

as for the realistic rhaegar wins aus that's the difficult question. tbh we just don't know enough abt their situation, plans and wishes. you see, e.g. in agot we can be right in ned's head and see his motivations, what he was thinking abt, what he was planning, what he was hoping to do. but if his story was told the way rhaegar's was i bet he would have his own crowd of haters and ~intellectuals~ jumping out every two seconds w their "hot takes" how actually all hints abt what rlly happened (ned being a good man w his own sense of honour, justice and experiences affecting him and the deal w cersei's children) doesn't matter and he was an ambitious prick, planned to grasp the power by being joffrey's regent and make his daughter sansa queen. (you can actually insert there any bullshit and still don't reach the level of stupidity of such "hot takes" this fandom loves so much lmao). also he would be blamed to the hell and beyond for being too stupid and not foreseeing the future and actions of other ppl bc ofc after everything happened it's so easy to say what was so obvious to notice. also they would say that the deaths of his men and horrible fates of his kids are 100% his fault and even straight up say he killed them lmao. i can rant abt it for hours so yeah. this is a situation w too many unknown variables bc it depends too much on actions of too many characters we don't know enough abt. the only thing it's possible to tell for sure is the fact that there couldn't be any perfect solutions since things got too complicated at this point.

such fics as you've mentioned tho are just a part of this dumb fanon where rhaegar is "too prophecy obsessed"/"incapable of love"/shrodinger's rhaegar both smart and stupid at the same time/whatever/all of this combined lmfao. the man was notably intelligent from the early age as you've absolutely rightly mentioned, his guesses abt himself being tptwp have nothing to do w egocentrism as some parts of the fandom would want us all to believe unless he wouldn't be so reasonable abt it and later on, after so many years, wouldn't have changed his mind and thought his son could be tptwp.

and literally fuck all antis that think you shouldn't consider prophecies that hold real power in this fantasy world lol. you know, aegon the conqueror was said to be motivated (or at least partly) to unify westeros by the prophecy and still got the treatment of perfect/maximum close to perfect figure of a leader everyone should look up to from the narrative and grrm. prophecy obsessed much, huh? i don't even talk abt all these parallels between him and rhaegar grrm put there not for bitches to ignore them completely! and i will never get tired of reminding that dismissing prophecies is UNWISE for targaryens of all people. the house whose story is built on the dream of young daenys and her father aenar that listened to her despite common sense (or what local "anti magic"/"anti prophecies" clowns consider to be common sense). targs would be as dead as the rest of dragonlords if not for daenys the dreamer. who else in the world has as many reasons to take prophecies seriously as them?

yet antis out there act as if rhaegar is one dimensional weirdo whose every character trait is abt mf ~prophecy obsession~. like how can they miss one of the main points so badly?? the game of thrones distracts ppl from the real danger beyond the wall, yk, the one rhaegar was aware of and meant to deal with. there wouldn't be such a problem if he became king and had as many years of head start before ice zombies apocalypse as ignorant bobby b did. rhaegar had to die just for westeros to sink in shit and our main heroes to save everyone to make this story more epic LMAO

so yeah, too many ppl portray rhaegar as this one dimensional robotic creature without any knowledge of what feelings are idk even for what reason. it seems these ppl can't read for real bc rhaegar was not only intelligent af as well as dutiful ("it seems i must be a warrior" but "he loved his harp more than his lance") but also. ugh emotional?? my boy had constant emo sessions w brooding at ruins of summerhall, sleeping out there beneath the stars all alone and writing songs that made all women cry. does it sound as someone who "isn't capable of love" lol? folks act as if he was completely heartless from the day he was born (bc he didnt play w other kids ig??) but in reality their emotional range is less than the one of a spoon in comparison to rhaegar's lol. i'm not even gonna address the horrible attitude of demonizing him for his implied depression, vile clowns never listen to themselves when they talk abt targaryens and their "madness".

tldr; these fics are mostly lame af and suck at characterization if they're making rhaegar like that lol. anyway his character isn't abt being a good or a bad king, it's abt being a would-be-king for characters in books and readers in reality to sigh over his tragic aura and pretty aesthetic abt how it could've been. however, grrm clearly doesn't write rhaegar as evil or incapable as some parts of the fandom would want to try to persuade others. realistically speaking in the scenario where he wins there couldn't be any perfect decisions but it's a territory of speculations on thin air and lit nothing more since canon doesn't provide us with enough information to rlly theorize anything instead of building biased headcanons some ppl call "analysis".

but remember what barristan said about rhaegar while practically watching him all his life, from a literal baby to the man grown:

“I know little of Rhaegar. Only the tales Viserys told, and he was a little boy when our brother died. What was he truly like?”

The old man considered a moment. “Able. That above all. Determined, deliberate, dutiful, single-minded.” (ASOS, Daenerys I)

“Prince Rhaegar’s prowess was unquestioned, but he seldom entered the lists. He never loved the song of swords the way that Robert did, or Jaime Lannister. It was something he had to do, a task the world had set him. He did it well, for he did everything well. That was his nature. But he took no joy in it. Men said that he loved his harp much better than his lance.” (ASOS, Daenerys IV)

[yeonjuins]

hiii! It’s the goingtouniversitysoonforgfx anon again💀💀

call me june☺️! ngl that’s what I acc go by on my blog so if you ever find it, cool and hi :) (im just anon bc im shy lmao) - honestly i really love that name and it’s my birthday month, (I finish in June too!), also one of the first krnb artists I started listening to back in 2020 is called june and I was absolutely in love w his music, like he was all I had in rotation with gsoul and couple others

i haven’t acc tried using ae yet, your guide gave me a rough idea of where to start, I just haven’t gotten round to it . Truth is I’m so so so soooooo bad w time management and getting stuff done so I couldn’t make any extra passion projects for my portfolio (I ult txt and procrastinate like crazy so put that together with having to prepare for a 6hr exam) 😭

I had this really cool idea for an Ateez zine but all I’ve done is the cover roughly and nothing else - so I just quickly made a few things and compiled school and personal stuff together and sent it off, im really bummed out about the zine because it’s something I would’ve really put my all in and be so proud of but I didn’t wanna rush it and not be proud of it 🥲 if I ever make it I’ll be sure to show you!

On the bright side I made this fairy of shampoo poster that I love and a Polaroid love poster that I made on a whim-that oddly turned out really good that I sent off, but i wanted to animate it which I ended up not doing….. I’ll get round to it eventually…..

I have 2 offers tho! Just not from where I wanna go lmao, I should have the rest by the end of March so fingers crossed..

this could be the weirdest question you’ve ever gotten but like, how do u sort all your gfx stuff..? Like resources wise (colourings, pngs, elements) idk if I’m using the right terms but you get what I’m saying right?

I do have them in folders but most of the time I go on downloading sprees and then I end up leaving everything over the place - I may have just answered my own question but I’m just wondering what works for you or if you know anyone that has anything organised in a specific way where it’s easy to navigate, u know?

SORRY FOR THIS REALLY LONG ASK, I see you’re really swamped with asks already but….yeah. I also saw that you take music recs so I wanted to make a few! (That was the originally whole reason why i was sending an ask but i rambled alot replying to ur last answer to me…)

I have a million and one favourite songs rn, but these are my faves in rotation - lmk if you’ve already heard!

snowy night - billlie

sincerity - WONPIL

super rare - epik high, wonstein and ph-1

again - def, LEON

Cool to see other DVWN Fans and also it’s really cool to see how you’ve kinda created a space to talk about music, krnb and such, I always felt like I was the only one in this music bubble skhsjsj

Anyway, ENJOY :]

(putting under read more cause lengthy response (": )

please please !! never feel bad for having a long ask (": i'm honoured really people want to talk to me hehe <3 secretly typing up my response in class right now because this class is boring LMFAO

hello june !!! i acc have a friend with the same name on here so i'll call you 'june anon' if thats alright hehe (will go back to previous asks and change the tag as well so we can look back if we ever need to <3) and I CANNOT BELIEVE JUNE WAS ONE OF YOUR FIRST KRNB ARTISTS..... if we're talking about the same person- he's also apart of plt records right?? i am absolutely in love with anyone that is aware of plt....

oh my- please i feel like that wasn't even a proper guide ;; ik i already said this but i feel like i should've gave something more structured PAHHAHA hopefully it still helps you in some sort of way ;; and a 6 hour exam wtf that's acc insane imo ):< time management is super hard (<- literally micromanages everything to get stuff done <- horrible at micromanaging <- don't micromanage either, it's horrible for mental health if you don't condone time for it)

omg zines... i absolutely love making zines they're so fun... i think the first zine i made was an isometric house illustration based off of childhood photos of my friends ;0 i think i titled it the 'HOME' project or something but that was one of my first big projects that really pushed me towards wanting to do stuff with design in my fuutre (": i entirely know what you mean by 'wanting to give it your all'... it's really polarizing but as creators you feel the weight on your shoulder to make things good esp if the topic means a lot to you ;; please do show (if you feel comfortable and if you end up making it) !!!!

wHAHHAH edits on the whim are SOOO fun... i made my animal crossing edit / gyugle on a whim and they're truly one of my favourites hehe... i think i said this with humming anon but i feel like anything associated to fos is instnatly god tier... like nothing can go wrong with it ever and that is simply the truth !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND YAYAYAY CONGRATS ON GETTING TWO OFFERS OMG ! that's acc amazing ;0 excuse me for prying but are you perhaps in canada...? it sounds like your school system is the same as mine ;; if you don't feel comfortable with sharing though feel free to ignore !! whatever college/uni you end up going to, i'm 90% sure it's all purely what you make out of the experience (the other 10% comes from me not even . being in university so i can't entirely vouch for this PAHAHAH) i believe in you my love <3

i’m going to answer your gfx organization question in a separate text post !! just in case someone else asks me so i can just redirect it easily ;; (you can find it here!) 

oh my god i wanted to get into billie for so long because i absolutely love their debut song + concept + THEIR ?? CHOEROS ARE SO COOL (lia kim <3 she never misses... <3) snowy night feels so christmasy it’s so cute... omg i acc never listened to wonpil’s solo stuff ;; i used to be obsessed with day6 in like 8th-9th grade but his voice is so angelic and soft ): my spotify acc broke listening to wonpil’s song SO I CAN’T . PAUSE IT NOW . (<- had to force restart my phone PAHAHHAH wonpil your power...) ASDHOIAKLMW AND OMG EPIK HIGH SOOOOO TRUE.... istg the more i answer asks the more anons bring out my krnb/khiphop days... absolutely love epik high’s ‘we’ve done something wonderful’ album... no skips on that album imo but i’m not sure if everyone would like it since it does have some of those ‘old school’ vibes to it (the song is lovely btw ph-1′s part is <3) ouu i feel like i’ve heard of leon before but this song is new to me ;0 it’s so chill wHAAHA it has like..... a hint of dpr vibes to it (<- thinks about dpr live’s jasmine obsessively... i also hate the fact that i use the word ‘vibes’ but idk what else i should say like ‘energy’ sounds equally as........... ‘gen z’ to me ASOHDIMKLWA)

thank you for the song recs my love (”: and thank you for dropping by my inbox hehe like i said all the way above, i don’t mind long asks !! let’s me talk about similar interests and i just think it’s wholesome overall <3 i hope your day has been going lovely as far my angel <3

[quellines-stories]

I've probably sent you five messages now and I'm being super annoying but I'm having valeyne withdraws

You’re not annoying at all don’t worry anon! Your messages are v sweet and mean a lot to me so thank you for taking the time to send them!

I’m sorry you’re having Valeyne withdrawals asdfgkh–

I haven’t finished the next chapter yet but here have some imagines if that helps lmfao 😃

[14 yr. old Wayne and 17 yr. old Jerome] 1) The Gotham origins era. Essentially the show era where Wayne and Jerome are just a pair of kiddos. To the GCPD, Wayne’s just a rich kid and Jerome’s a criminal that went into hiding. The unrequited era where Wayne has a thing for Jerome, but Jerome doesn’t return the notion due to how he’s about to be an adult, and Wayne’s just started high school.

2) Everyone including Jerome knows Wayne has a crush on Jerome and Wayne even admitted it at that, yet for the one time he admitted it the one hundred times he’s denied it. It’s become a game- a bet- to see who can get Wayne to admit it again first. Jerome isn’t fond of the game and tells the kids to bug off.

3) Jerome is a natural flirt. A jokester flirt. A flirt who accidentally says something flirty to Wayne that wasn’t meant to be flirty and results in Wayne either being awkward and avoiding him with a blush for a week or ballsy and smirking at him smugly for a week. There’s no in between and Wayne never comments on it– only provides expressions.

4) Wayne very rarely laughs, but when he does it’s generally thanks to Jerome. Jerome is rarely serious, but when he is it’s generally because of something involving Wayne. They balance each other out.

5) They both help each other’s impulse controls. Wayne eases Jerome’s urges to lunge at Gordon and Jerome eases Wayne’s urges to challenge five high school bullies to a fight. Wayne keeps Jerome’s ballsy behavior in check, Jerome keeps Wayne’s pride in check.

6) The only other friend they feel as comfortable as they feel with each other is Selina. Jerome views her as a little sister, Wayne views her as Crush Number Two.

7) Despite Jerome being careful to not be too touchy feely after finding out about Wayne’s attraction towards him, he still comforts Wayne with long hugs and rubs on the back whenever the boy has a nightmare about the alleyway, or when he’s freaking out about how Selina has been gone for way too long. Additionally, while Wayne respects Jerome’s boundaries, he does the same whenever Jerome is feeling upset, and while it occurs A LOT more rarely and A LOT less severely than Wayne’s panic attacks, they still occur every once in a while.

8) Despite being closer to one another than anyone else, they can pick up each other’s social cues, and know when to let the other have some time to themselves.

9) While Wayne’s bummed out Jerome doesn’t return his attraction, he gradually grows thankful when realizing Jerome could have very well taken advantage of him, and is even relieved Jerome was clear about why he needs to look out for older men who would welcome his affection.

10) Jerome is terrified of clowns, Wayne’s terrified of bats. Selina is the only other one who is aware of this. Selina resists the urge to dress up as a clown bat, because Selina is not a mean person, and that costume would probably look silly in any case. Jen encourages it jokingly.

11) Jerome definitely has a bond that’s stronger than a close friendship with Wayne, and it’s not a brotherly one, however it’s certainly not romantic.

12) Jerome and Wayne are just two traumatized kids that found each other, and aren’t sure what it would be like if they hadn’t, and aren’t sure they want to be. This is also why they view their other friends (Selina, Ivy, Jen, Jonathan, and Harley) as family as well– even if Jerome isn’t as close to them, to an extent, he cares about them.

[19 yr. old Wayne and 21 yr. old Jerome]1) The training era. The era where Wayne trains to become Batman, and something pushes Jerome to train with the Redhood gang. To the GCPD, they’re not worth noting yet, because Wayne’s on the other side of the world and the Redhood gang hasn’t committed big enough crimes to get noticed since the cops have bigger things to worry about than a few stealthy robberies. The lenient era where Jerome doesn’t frown down upon Wayne’s occasional flirts, but doesn’t encourage them either, but since he smirks at the advances rather than give Wayne a look, the occasional flirts have become a bit more common.

2) One of Ra’s Al Ghul’s first questions is whether Wayne is close to anyone who isn’t family since he needs to separate himself from all loved ones regardless of relation. Ra’s Al Ghul elaborates by asking Wayne if there’s a woman, for example. Wayne says no, and technically he isn’t lying, because Jerome isn’t a woman.

3) Jerome never mentions Wayne to the Redhood gang, because he’s aware that if he ever messed up, they’d go after anyone he cared about. So Jerome lies and insists he doesn’t have any loved ones.

4) Wayne writes a lot of letters to all of his friends– particularly Jerome, Selina, and Alfred. Alfred’s the only one who receives the letters, because the others get ‘lost.’

5) Jerome gets his ass kicked by a Redhood member he directs a sarcastic comment to. This is the first time Jerome has to patch himself up without Wayne’s help.

6) Wayne allows Ra’s Al Ghul to mess with his mind the same way the older guy that mind controlled him in Gotham did. Wayne tries to keep Jerome and Selina secrets since Ra’s already knows about Alfred. Wayne fails, and as punishment for not being honest Ra locks away his emotions towards them. It takes Wayne a month to break free of such and finally feel something other than disdain towards his old friends.

7) Jerome visits Selina sometimes. She can tell he’s not doing well, but he won’t listen when she begs him to leave the Redhood gang. Selina hopes Wayne will come back soon to talk some sense into Jerome. Wayne doesn’t come back for a long time. Jerome gradually starts visiting Selina less frequently.

8) Wayne has trouble recalling what Jerome looks and sounds like after a while. He’s also lost the picture he took of him with his friends the day before he left for training. He’s pretty sure Ra’s magic is the cause of this.

9) Jerome promised Wayne he’d stay on the right track when Wayne left. He doesn’t.

10) Wayne finally realized Ra’s was trying to shape him into a killer. Wayne escapes the league of shadows, but it’s a long way down the snowy mountain. It’s cold, but it’s fine, because he’ll see Jerome and the others tomorrow, and that’s what keeps the injured male going.

11) Jerome doesn’t miss Wayne anymore. He’s pissed at him for not coming back.

12) When Wayne finally does come back, he finds all his friends have moved, and only Alfred is there. He’s not sure where any of them are, and not even the best resources manage to tell him.

[21 yr. old Wayne and 24 yr. old Jerome] 1) The vigilante and Redhood era. The era where Wayne doesn’t really have a name for himself, and Jerome’s not solo nor Joker yet due to being in the Redhood gang. To the GCPD, they’re both menaces. The mutual era where the pair haven’t seen each other for a while, and neither is aware of the others’ secret identity, although this time Jerome returns Wayne’s advances because he has to admit– Mr. Wayne has become quite the catch.

2) Jerome sees Wayne just passing by when they finally reunite, and he has to do a double take because that’s definitely not the scrawny kid he befriended a while back, is it?

3) Wayne isn’t that different because when Wayne realizes Jerome’s staring at him in disbelief from the sidewalk he stutters like four times before regaining himself and ‘smoothly’ greeting the other with that charming Mr. Wayne charisma

4) Jerome can’t tell if he wants to hug his best friend, flirt with the new and improved billionaire, or strangle the jackass that went away for two and a half years longer than he said he’d be gone. Jerome goes with just flashing a smile to cover up his pissed off expression.

5) Wayne is too excited to realize Jerome’s a bit sore. He’s so excited in fact that he blurts out an invitation to dinner. He somehow does it casually, however.

6) Jerome accepts the dinner invitation because he likes free food. He’s not sure whether or not he wants to kill Wayne after dinner’s been paid for or get a few more free meals out of him. Jerome is nice and doesn’t kill the bastard acting like he hadn’t just left him high and dry for almost three years.

7) Wayne takes Jerome on a lot of dates. He’s still surprised that Jerome actually agreed to go with him on each date.

8) Jerome starts flirting with Wayne for fun. Jerome does not expect to have as much fun as he does.

9) Wayne flirts back, of course. Wayne is rather suave on the outside, and he’s pretty sure Jerome’s the only one who can tell he’s actually fairly anxious.

10) Jerome starts to fall for Wayne and Wayne’s an ass for making Jerome fall for him because Jerome’s SUPPOSED to be upset at Wayne but he’s gradually becoming anything but.

11) Jerome realizes they’re running out of date plans. He’s not sure why that’s resulting in him becoming so panicky until Wayne invites him to his house to just hang out, and Jerome feels relief at that. Jerome’s relieved that Wayne still likes just spending time with him, and they don’t always have to do fancy things to have fun. Jerome’s relieved that hasn’t changed.

12) Jerome is used to getting into others’ guy’s pants. He’s never really liked the guys he’s been with for the last few years, but at least the fun in the sheets wasn’t as boring as the guys were. Wayne hasn’t been with a lot of people despite his title of playboy, so when he goes tense when things get a little too heated, Jerome catches it, and Jerome backs off. Wayne isn’t used to not being chastised for being a 'prude’, and he feels rather safe around Jerome. They watch movies instead, and Jerome’s fine with that. Eventually, they do have a bit of fun, and it’s the first time Wayne hasn’t been teased into it. Wayne finds he’s pretty sure he loves Jerome, and while the feelings are mutual, Jerome can’t really find the words to say it back, and Wayne’s fine with waiting until he does.

[26 yr. old Wayne and 24 yr. old Jerome] 1) The Batman and Joker era. To the GCPD, Joker’s the only menace– unless you’re a bad cop. The complicated era where Joker has this obvious thing for Batsy that neither of them comment on, and where Wayne has a thing for Jerome– who he hasn’t seen in five years.

2) Jerome had a fight with Wayne a while back. He acts like he doesn’t even recall what it was about, but he does– it helps to just distract his mind from it, and insanity certainly helps with that.

3) Wayne blames himself for the argument. He should have handled it better. He shouldn’t have acted rashly. Jerome had every reason to be upset with him. He hadn’t realized it was going to result in Jerome leaving and never showing back up. The best resources couldn’t find Jerome, and Wayne’s not sure if he’s even in Gotham anymore, much less alive at that. Wayne likes to believe he is.

4) Jerome hasn’t been called Jerome for a while now. He’s not sure how many times he’s dyed his hair a lovely shade of emerald, or how many layers of war paint he has on his face that he never removes, or how many makeup kits he had to go through until the scar designs stopped rubbing off and ended up settling in like a permanent smudge.

5) Wayne became Batman to protect people like his friends. To be sure no one else ever had to go through what they did. To be sure they never had to go through what they each faced again. Nowadays, that Wayne seems like a mask, and he keeps his distance from it by occupying himself with capturing his friends he swore to protect and throwing them back in Arkham, because he’s gone and convinced himself that there’s a chance they could get better in there, and he’s doing the right thing.

6) Joker knows who all of the rogues are, but he doesn’t know who the vigilante is.

7) Batman is aware of who all the rogues are except for Joker– he’s believes he knows, but he doesn’t. He believes it’s a copycat from Jerome’s following– believes it’s Jack Napier. It’s not.

8) Joker manages to convince himself he feels nothing but hate for that jackass Mr. Wayne by directing the affection he’d had for him towards Batman. In reality, his affection has become obsession. In reality, he does feel a lot of hate for Wayne– but that’s not all he feels. It hurts to accept that, so Joker doesn’t.

9) Batman hates Joker because this piece of shit copycat just keeps coming back around and reminding him of Jerome. Nonetheless, considering he’s the closest thing he has to Jerome he can’t help but also somehow have this thing that he doesn’t have with the other rogues, and he’s not really sure if there’s a word for it, and he’s not sure how to describe it, but it’s screwed up and it pisses him off since it’s like this piece of Jerome is both helping him cope with what happened while also forcing him to not let it go.

10) Joker doesn’t expect their fights to ever turn out very different, however one does when Batman says those words, and even the voice changing device can’t cover up a phrase, because Wayne used that exact same phrase when they were pillow fighting and Jerome pinned him down, and how. funny. is. that.

11) Batman realizes who Joker is when Joker replies to that phrase the exact same way Jerome did.

12) Joker can’t help but contemplate on whether he wants to stab or kiss the jackass that he’d tried to leave five years ago yet had been seeing weekly this whole time in their little fights the same way five years ago Jerome couldn’t tell whether to strangle or flirt with the bastard that just showed up out of nowhere after disappearing for two and a half years.

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like honestly i AM tired. i stay in my corner n do my own thing as much as i can.... i avoid people i don't want 2 see and i try to go on my merry way.... i won't be surprised if i lose followers bc people here are so obsessed w this idea of any of this shit being "drama" and "vaguing" and i'm sure i'll be villified 2 for speaking out about it !

but it's fuckin infuriating seeing the way people in this rpc treat minorities........ y'all are so willing to apologize 4 abusive characters and shove their """mistakes""" ( 🙄 ) under the rug but villify the victims.......... i won't even be fuckin vague ABOUT it. @pyrenji don't talk about pride month when u sit there and make a CANONICALLY ABUSIVE MAN GAY. how does that not? sit wrong with u? how can u say it wasn't intentional or that he never meant it or whatever other bullshit excuse..... not to mention shipping him w/ someone his daughter's age..... way to fuckin go contributing to the gay men are predatory and abusive stereotype ! literally hawks was a child when he first met enji, he's as old as enji's DAUGHTER, WHO ISNT EVEN HIS OLDEST CHILD LIKE... HOW DOES THAT NOT FUCKIN WEIRD U OUT? how do u find it okay in ANY respect and get OUT of here if u wanna support endeavor being a "queer icon" and "a stand in parent 2 queer youth" when it's fuckin canon he pushed a 5 yr old to the point of throwing up. idc if he's changing, if he's trying to do better, whatever !! it sure as hell won't ever excuse it, doesn't make him sympathetic, doesn't make him redeemable.... like it's soooo telling it truly is how people wanna scream abt villain apologists but that doesn't apply 2 enji? bc what? he said sorry? he knows he don't deserve forgiveness? he removed himself from his family? sure.... but he hasn't faced ANY real consequences, he's still heralded as a hero by the public.... like it's such a disservice 2 his actual kids and his wife when y'all wanna act like he's sympathetic. i kno sure as hell if u met any 15 yr old who told u his father beat the shit out of him likely on a daily basis 4 literal years since he was 5..... u would not be lookin at that man the way u do endeavor.

n not to mention shit literally hasnt changed outside rp either.... u wanna talk abt caps bitch i got plenty! don't tout around blm and activism and supporting the movement when u still actively contribite 2 racist behaviors......... ESPECIALLY WHEN UR DOIN IT TO HOWL, A BLACK MUN???? LMFAO????? it is SO fuckin ugly and TELLING to say "i'm not gonna stop spreading awareness for irl issues that matter 2 me just bc u think me disagreeing with u makes me racist ://" like u can't go home at the end of the day and be safe 2 A FUCKING BLACK PERSON WHO HAS TO LIVE THAT FUCKIN LIFE EVERY GODDAMN DAY. ur really just outting urself. ur still using aave to be aggressive / assertive, ur still twisting the narrative 2 make urself look like a victim, ur still NOT LISTENING.

tired of bein nice... abt to go ape shit