#lilh chats

[lilmerh]

Any other aroallos annoyed by sex being viewed as shallow, loveless, not fuelled by "pure" emotions - just lustful, for your own pleasure - when that description is much more true for my romance?

Out of all of the attractions I feel (platonic, familial, sexual, etc) my romantic feelings are the most shallow and fleeting. It bothers me when romance is described as an inherently superior, deeper, and more pure form of attraction. That does not reign true to me at all!!

I love familially, I love platonically, and I love sexually. I love deeply and intensely. It bothers me when all that is overlooked because I happen to not love romantically enough.

No form of attraction is inherently purer or more valuable than another.

(I'm not shallow for experiencing sexual attraction nor heartless for not experiencing romantic attraction, thank you.)

[ffxivakyi]

Eighteenth Sun of the the Sixth Umbral Moon

Lilh.. found her higher than Moogle’s pom, half naked around Ul’da. Hanging around a male named S'honji of the Silver tongue. I realized fast that I had to get her away from him and some second male who’s name I did not catch. I took her home, her home. Sunny was there, so Book this was not good. I tricked her into drinking of of Silver’s super potent antidotes, and waited.

I also tricked Sunny into selling me one of the pills she took. So she was coming down, while Sunny is smoking herbs, and next thing I knew, she is naked. Sunny thinks he is getting two females, and I am thinking. Lilh get sober faster.. please gods.

Spring Brother, I love you I love you so much. Spring is the only reason I could save her, everything he taught me about the underworld. Alone in her room we got her out the window and me out the door. Yes book Sunny will not be too happy once he realizes I kidnapped Lilh out from under his nose. Not the first knife wielding failure of a male to be angry with me.

Club night is next, One win one loss, both fun. I saw Raz’a spar, and Book, my heart hurt for him. I  can tell he is struggling with just enjoying fighting, he has to not lose control if himself, hold back. It is up to him if he will spar again, I will have to talk to him about if he ever wants to spar with me. Bri was there, and those two got along well, Raz’a knows some hand language. A tad rusty, but he will adapt. He gave me a wonderful gift. A skinning knife that also turns into a scrape, no book I have no idea how it works. He made it for me and it is clearly from his city, and something super useful. It is so painful to scrape and separate hides with running a wire on it. He got super shy I can see he had butterflies in his tummy worried I would not like the gift. It has a name, ‘The Moon's Crescent’. Raz’a calls me his moon, I feel my cheeks go warm when he dose.

Went to the Jewel next and waited for Hope, we sat down for a debrief. That is what Tal calls the after mission chat. I told him about my adventure at Lilh’s flat, he is my best friend and he needs to know. I believe in Lilh, I saw past that wild seeker paint and saw someone just surviving the only way she knows. Hope and I talked about that moment where I found there was a different way then the Blood Clan. When I found out nearly everything I had known was wrong.

That was my day Book, let us see if Sunny comes for me or not. I will be waiting..

[lilmerh]

"...and the 'A' stands for 'asexual'..." you forgot something there

[lilmerh]

Being aroallo and poly AKA the "you're an abuser" combo

[lilmerh]

Shoutout to girlfrien for dealing with me even when I'm annoying

[lilmerh]

I'd be so powerful if I knew how to animate

[lilmerh]

When no one else got me, at least breakup/loss of relationship songs got me

[lilmerh]

Guys... I think my boyfriend is gay. Don't tell him

[lilmerh]

All my butterfly pictures so far :]

[lilmerh]

7 days clean lol

[lilmerh]

Being bigender is hard bc first I go to college to get more knowledge... but then I lose it bc I go to Jupiter to get more stupider 😔

[lilmerh]

The slightest little thing can get me downn

[lilmerh]

Ghhh... I could learn ASL because it's what my friends speak, BSL because it's what my other friend speaks, or SSL because it's what most people speak in my country. Options, options...

[lilmerh]

I need a pet cat

[lilmerh]

Benefits of dating a poly guy: you can score a friend from his polycule if you're lucky

[lilmerh]

You should tell me nice things (about me, about my blog) while I'm asleep tonight btw