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[iamgonnagetyouback-recs]

SIRIUS BLACK.ᐟ

a little list of my favorite stories ୨ৎ remember to be kind, reblog, and support the wonderful authors who share their magic with us.ᐟ

NOTE ಇ. none of these stories belong to me ♡ if you’d like your fic removed, just send me a message, and i’ll take care of it!

date by @sun-kissy

⁀➴༯ sirius for some reason thinks you have a crush on regulus

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh my god the tension in this had me actually holding my breath, san. sirius being all dramatic and broody while reader is just exhausted with potions?? perfect. but then the confrontation?? my heart hurt for both of them. sirius being jealous and insecure and reader being so confused but so soft when she realizes what's happening. and the james/regulus mention?? peak comedy. the ending was so sweet, i'm actually kicking my feet

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forever by @/sun-kissy

⁀➴༯ you're cold, and you're in love with sirius

REVIEW ୨ৎ this was absolutely gorgeous. the tenderness, the pining, the way every little movement is soaked in love—it’s stunning. you have such a delicate way of writing sirius, san, i love it! the smoking detail was such a perfect addition—how he doesn’t put it out but still adjusts for you, how you bought an ashtray just for him. it’s intimate in the way that truly knowing someone is intimate. and that cuddle request??? i nearly stopped breathing. the way reader braces for rejection only to be met with sirius’ sure, get over here, babe—it wrecked me. and then the way he pulls her closer, holds her like it’s second nature? absolutely everything. “my arms have no curfew, sweetheart. they’re content to hold you as long as you please.” —i’m going to be thinking about that line for days. i’m in awe.

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right where i want to be by @appocalipse

⁀➴༯ it's only when lily accidentally spills amortentia on you and all you can smell is cigarettes and dog fur that you realize you're in love with sirius — probably the only person in the world you shouldn't be in love with

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh this hurts in the best way. the slow, creeping realization, the way sirius just knows and won’t let her run from it, the tension??? i’m actually losing my mind. the teasing, the softness, the way he says i want you like it’s the most obvious thing in the world??? i need to lie down. no one disturb me, except maybe you amy cause well you wrote this

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shy!reader by @moonstruckme

⁀➴༯ bf!sirius teasing reader about something, and it actually hurts her feelings quite a lot? maybe she's always thought she's to shy for him, and he teases her about being quiet and it just hurts so much that he sees her just like everyone else does? like she thought he understood her, but instead he's teasing her about something she's really insecure about

REVIEW ୨ৎ this is so soft i could cry. sirius just knows her, and even when he messes up, he listens, he cares. the way he apologizes??? instantly, genuinely, with no ego—i’m in love. and the way he tucks her into his space so easily, so naturally, like she belongs there??? i’m melting. i now identify as a puddle of tears from all this fluffiness

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clingy!sirius by @inkdrinkerworld

⁀➴༯ sirius being clingy and your friends teasing you guys

REVIEW ୨ৎ this is the most disgustingly adorable thing i’ve ever read. sirius is just so in love and unashamed about it, and everyone else is exasperated but also just accepting of his dramatics. like yeah, of course he buries himself under her shirt like a needy puppy, what else is new?? i am weak

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kids by @/inkdrinkerworld

⁀➴༯ you are unsure about having kids

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh this is so soft i actually can’t breathe. the way they’re so open with each other and sirius just listens???? no judgment, just love???? and the way he reassures her without trying to change her mind??? “we can keep our family just like this” i’m actually going to cry. and then the stupid little “and a cat” moment like please. and him being like “i don’t think i could put someone over you” like sir. that is the most sirius black thing i’ve ever heard. i love them so much this fic is everything

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i got you first by @thatdammchickennugget

⁀➴༯ "if i scare you tonight, you'll owe me a kiss." with sirius black but in the end he ends up getting scared

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh, this is delicious. sirius trying so hard to get a reaction out of her, only for her to completely turn the tables on him?? absolutely love. and that moment in the maze? when she flips the game on him, and he just folds under her touch?? yeah. that man is gone. completely and utterly wrecked by her. the way he just stares and then that lazy grin—i swear, i felt that in my soul. also, the fact that their first kiss isn't rushed or desperate, but soft and slow? sirius black, you are in love. and so am i with this fic

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sober feelings by @lovemenotts

⁀➴༯ bsf!reader with him out of the blue suggesting 'what if we kiss but not in a dating way?'

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh my god. oh my god. this was everything. the casual suggestion like it’s nothing while my heart is combusting?? sirius being all cocky but then immediately spiraling after??? the way he was so worried the next day i'm gonna cry. and then the confession??? i am on the floor. “we should’ve kissed as friends a long time ago” sirius please be serious about me next

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yellow hearts by @nottswitch

⁀➴༯ the times you put yellow hearts around his name, and the times he put them around yours

REVIEW ୨ৎ this was so soft i’m actually going to cry. the progression from absolute mortification to comfort and love??? sirius teasing but also so gentle???? the yellow hearts showing up again and again??? and the honeymoon bit oh my god. their bickering is so stupid and adorable and so them. the fact that they get their little happy ending and it’s literally framed in yellow hearts. i’m unwell

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bad dog by @lupinsversion

⁀➴༯ sirius has a bad habit of flirting with others, especially in front of his girlfriend. has she finally had enough?

REVIEW ୨ৎ oh he DESERVED that bonk on the head. “bad dog” is actually the funniest and most fitting reaction ever. like yes, he’s sirius black, of course he’s going to be a little shit about flirting, but also? he needs to learn. and i love that james and remus are calling him out too because yeah, it’s “harmless” but it’s also not harmless when it clearly hurts his girlfriend. sirius sulking about it and realizing he actually feels bad?? good. let him sit in his wrongness and learn from it. this was so well done, i loved it but ahem mak i think i speak for all when i say part is needed

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a marauders guide to siblings by @ellecdc

REVIEW ୨ৎ this was absolutely delightful. james potter and his love for love, his pure dedication to making this triple date happen—it’s so him. the way he just won’t take no for an answer, and how everyone else is reluctantly dragged into his chaos, is peak marauders energy. and the dialogue? oh mama. i love how everyone interacts here, from sirius being completely against it because of the “googly eyes” problem, to remus and regulus just being exasperated with the entire situation. and the moment james finally gets what he wants, only to immediately start overthinking it and worrying about the sibling connections?? absolutely hilarious. and sirius being all soft for reader, saying she was worth the nonsense? perfect. this was so fun to read, i adored every second of it!

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Batfam and Danny, Part 26

At Jason's office at his Gang's Headquarters.

Danny: Nice office.

Jason: Thank you. Now before my governors arrive remember, the Red Hood that they work with is not the Red Hood that works with the Bats. The Red Hood that works with the bats is a wannabe and only wears a simple domino mask, while I am the original Red Hood who wears a helmet that covers my whole head.

Danny (trying not to laugh): And the two Red Hoods have major beef with each other.

Jason (smiling): Yes it's a little dumb, but I can't go around as both a vigilante and a crime lord, I need to keep both of those identities separate.

Danny: But why the same name? You already have two entirely different suits for both Red Hood identities.

Jason: I thought it'd be funny.

Danny: I guess.

Jason: And you're not Phantom, you're my new righthand man, Phantasm, a extraterrestrial child who I adopted.

Danny: I am born of the stars themselves, I have not flesh but am made of stardust, look into my eyes for they hold the universe itself.

Jason (proud dad): Making your skin look like the night sky was a nice touch to hide your identity both as Danny and Phantom, but did you really have to make your face devoid of features except two green voids for eyes? It's a little creepy.

Danny smiled, revealing razor sharp teeth in front of a green void. Jason leaned back, a little scared of his son's flair for the dramatic.

Jason: Case and point... the suit is nice though, I like the sci-fi look.

Danny: Thanks dad.

There's a nock at the door.

Jason (sat up): You may enter.

The doors opened and four goons walked in.

The Goons (happy): Good morning boss!

The four goons walked towards Jason's desk and stood in front of it. Only then did they notice the strange alien child. They looked at Danny, then at Jason, then back at Danny, then finally back at Jason.

Jason: Good morning everyone, I would like you to meet my new righthand man, Phantasm, he is an alien child that I have adopted.

Goon #1: You're a dad?

Jason: Yes.

Goon #2: We have a nephew!

Goon #3: I'm an aunt!

Danny: What...?

Jason (embarrassed): We're all family here, if you wear my bandana you're my family, speaking of here you go.

Jason handed Danny a red bandana with the silhouette of Jason's hood embroidered in the middle with white silk.

Danny: It looks like you.

Jason: That's the idea, that way people know that if you mess with this person, you're messing with the Red Hood's family.

Danny (wrapping the bandana around his neck): It's cute.

Goon #4: It was your dad's idea.

Goon #3: We love it, we may be criminals, but we do crime with style.

Goon #2: By the way welcome to the family, little boss.

Goon #1: "Little boss," that's so cute, can we call you that?

Danny: Sure thing!

Jason (clearing his throat): As sweet as this is, we're here to talk about past month's reports. Sarah, do you mind stating us off?

Sarah "Goon #3": Sure thing boss, the Northern Sector has done well this past month, we were finally able to stop the drug ring that popped up there two months ago, we deposited the ringleaders at Commissioner Gordon's station.

Jason: Good, those bastards should have never showed up there in the first place, we're going to have more diligent in the future.

Sarah: My apologies, the north is my sector, I should have never let that happen.

Jason: It's alright Sarah, we all make mistakes, I wouldn't have made you one of my governors if I wasn't confident in your skills.

Sarah: Thank you.

Jason: Robert, what of the Eastern Sector?

Robert "Goon #1": All is well, the orphanage just opened its new wing, now we can accommodate another hundred kids. The new home ed. classrooms have also finished construction, but we're still looking for teachers properly qualified to teach.

Jason: Let's get working on that, those kids need to learn basic life skills, but remember to do thorough background checks, those kids have been through a lot, they don't need a maniac teaching them how to cook or how to use a circular saw.

Robert: You got it boss.

Jason: Amelia, what of the south?

Amelia "Goon #2": The Southern Sector is doing well, our food bank is still going strong thanks to Wayne Enterprises' weekly food donations. There is one thing however, this week the WE agent overseeing the delivery approached our head of operations for the food bank and said that Mr. Wayne would like to make a direct donation of 100 million dollars so we can expand our current location, as well as open a few more around the city. Elizabeth said she would have to talk to her superiors before accepting such a large monetary donation, the agent is expecting a response by the next delivery in five days.

Jason: How n̵͓̟̏͌i̴͎̎̔͜c̸͍̺͆̔è̷̢ of Mr. Wayne, I should pay him a visit to thank him in person. Amelia you can tell Elizabeth that she can accept Mr. Wayne's g̴̞̲̈́e̷̺͌n̶̞̝̉͒ḛ̷̹̍̀r̵̤͙̅o̶͎͆u̷͎̎s̴̪̒͌ donation. I'll also entrust you with setting up a committee to appropriate those funds, simply show me the names for approval.

Amelia: I'll start drawing up a list.

Jason: Henry, what of the west?

Henry "Goon #4": Uneventful, the arts academy is almost ready to open, the whole placed is furnished, we have staff lined up, final details should only take us a few more weeks, at most a month.

Danny: Arts Academy?

Henry: Hood's Academy for the Arts, a school to teach kids more artistic subjects, painting, pottery, acting, dancing, music, photography, cinematography, poetry, and the boss' favorite writing.

Jason: A well rounded education should allow kids to express their creativity, the Academy will hold classes during the weekends, as well as a summer semester for those who would be interested. We will be able to enroll as many as 5,000 students.

Henry: We made sure to hire a large staff, there will be plenty of teachers to ensure each classroom is a reasonable size, as well as many deans, councilors, library staff, and other members of administration, everything and anything that will make the students' time at the academy as easy and assessable as possible.

Jason: Thank you Henry.

Henry: Sure thing boss!

Jason (standing up): Well if that is all, then we're done here.

Sarah: Boss, wait!

Jason: Yes?

Sarah looked at Amelia.

Amelia: We're throwing a party, to celebrate all the progress we've made this month.

Robert: We know parties aren't your thing, but everyone would be happy to see you attend.

Henry: It'll make everyone's day.

Jason looked unsure about accepting the invitation, he looked over at Danny who was giving him a "please dad, let's go" face.

Jason (sighed): I suppose I can make an appearance.

Sarah, Robert, Amelia, and Henry: Yes!

Robert: You won't regret this boss!

Sarah: I'll run ahead and tell everyone!

Henry: Tonight it's going to be lit!

Amelia: We'll party till dawn!

Sarah, Robert, Amelia, and Henry ran ahead, Jason and Danny followed behind.

Jason: Kid, we will not be able to leave that party till well past dawn, my gang are party animals.

Danny: That's fine, besides you still need to introduce me to the gang at large.

Jason: I suppose that's true.

Danny: Come on dad, relax, you guys did a lot of good this month, you deserve to celebrate.

Jason: Ok, one night, but tomorrow it's back to work.

Danny: You got it!

(Master Post)

[druid-in-hiding]

I am anti-civ

Got good reasons for it, can explain in detail the wheres and whats and why-fors that got people to the point they are now.

And let me tell you, I could easily merge into a white-hot rage at everyone. There is not a single person on this site or in civilized countries that isn't actively killing the planet we are living on.

I have met the nicest, sweetest, most liberal people you can meet who will wring their hands at the idea that their Apple Watch was made by literal child slaves and go "well, that's just how it has to be."

I've had men of Science and Learning and political power scoff and go "but we've achieved so much! It's horrible that bad things happen but we can't go back now!"

It would be easy to become the person who would try and tear it all down.

Empathy stops that.

It allows me not only to see the trauma that the system has inflicted on everyone to some extent but also the trauma inflicted on me.

It's easy to hate, easy to want to destroy. Rougher to build boundaries, to recognize where you can help and where you can't. Those sweet old liberals would breathe a sigh of relief if given another option. Those men of Science and Learning(tm) would grump about it but label it under lessons learned if there was a new option.

But certain people--like billionaires--have made clear and obvious choices. They weaponized their trauma into a blunt force for horror.

That doesn't make them any less human or any less deserving of empathy.

By understanding the problem, you can prevent it's growth in potential others, even as you enforce boundaries.

The bottom line has been stated above more eloquently than me: if you choose to picture people as monsters, you will never run out of targets. If you choose to understand people as people, you will never run out of solutions.

I thought it was fairly normal to feel empathy for bad people.

I thought it was common, even.

But after my Elon/Grimes post... now I'm wondering if I was mistaken about that.

I wrote a post about Trump being traumatized after his assassination attempt and a post about his poor adaptation to aging. I expressed sympathy for him in both cases. But I still maintain my white hot hatred of him and wish for him to face consequences.

Elon was abused by his father. Some of the stories are incredibly tragic. Hearing those stories triggers an involuntary response in my emotional systems that I can't stop no matter how much I despise present-day Elon. I also wonder if that abuse never occurred maybe we wouldn't be dealing with this current clusterfuck.

I have never held so much anger towards a single person as I do my brother. But I also see him as a victim of abuse. I know he was once a really good person and he was slowly corrupted. I feel sorry for him. I mourn the amazing person he used to be. And I still love him.

But that doesn't make me any less angry.

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Hiii🪄 saw you were asking for AK Jason requests! I am a sucker for a xfem!reader who gets rescued by AK Jason. And maybe after he can’t get her out of his mind kind of vibe. Hope this is okay 👀 love your blog btw❤️

Thanks xxx

ak! jason todd x fem! reader

hey baby thanks& for the idea!! i went off ig so of there are still ideas let them in! thx

! don't be a dick and reblog creators' works. i see no reason for ppl to open tumbr accs only to not spread the work they liked. i absolutely hate like spams w/o reblogs - it demotivates us writers since it reaches no one. box convos are also open! talk to me about jaybird fr.

a litany of what-ifs and existential dilemmas fill your days and nights - another round from a game boy casette that urges you to walk on crumbly ground before falling into the deep abyss.

everything is grey. from the sky to the bricks that lay at the end of the path. rats and cats peek from underneath the sacks of rubbish, their eyes painted in the blueish lights by the beams that penetrate through the rooftops.

a single pack of black silhouettes falls over you, their steps clicking against the concrete. you stiffen at the ridiculosity of your situation. you are worrying only to attract more. they stand somewhere close, blue and red LED lights mockingly reaching into this vile corner of gotham.

you are sealed off the rest. it's disstressing- knowing that no one could hear you even though you are in the open.

before you can cling onto your possessions, he flies across - a real-life knight in shining blue armor. you blink a second time, the criminals run off. a blur of grey and blue before he is somewhere in the nowhere.

"watch out." in all manners non-human, from the tone to its robotic sound.

when the helmet slowly turns to survey you he hates how you don't even attempt to run away. take your things and just sprint off for god's sake. frozen in time and space, eyes goggling as he has an arm up.

another sheep of the herd that senses danger from him. how bad that it doesn't matter - it never will - as another judgement against him will dry out from a lacking source of care.

the hook is still warm, about to catapult him to the sky to rescue another defenceless being in this hellhole of a city. again and again until non of them are anywhere near his streets.

he dissapears.

a savage screeching echoes, "THANK YOU!"

your hands fall to your sides, hoping that your voice was somehow heard louder. droplets fall down, it's rhythm so comforting that you stare at the same empty wall. you wouldn't forgive yourself if you didn't try that moment.

the arkham knight is not someone to attach to people, not when his past hunts him down every skyfall. after his death, he has been replaced, his memories and imapct left on the sidelines by whom he deemed was worthy to be called father. the very same person that promised to protect him in the new chapter of his life.

kids cling onto him whenever he safes them out of dangerous situations. they would cry into his shoulder and admit how scared they are. then at the end of the shift, they hurry off to their family members - fearful big orbs looking up, hiding behind the adults until he is gone.

he is needed until he isn't of use.

when a simple gesture… a simple action… a simple word such as a swift thank you reaches him even through scurrying rats and ravens, he is taken back. a scream so childish yet deeply profound. those criminals must have pushed you to the edge. a cry from within to show a short sign of gratitude. to him.

he remembers those eyes of yours, despite flickering patches that he hasn't made up yet. another fit of idiots and high-ego mobs trying to rule his city, another damsel in disstress here and there and batman - he replays your voice.

the same routine repeats itself. it's when he stands on the same rooftop that he shamefully realizes it. he scrunches his brows, a look to the left and right before he starts to work his way up through adjacent streets and buildings. lamps shine down on bread crumbs that are being picked apart by birds. some parts flicker, others are in the pitch dark.

the stone gargoyles watch him move, balconies and terraces devoid of live… until white emits from one of the high rows of windows. he knows it's non of his business but at the same time he wants to know, for his own good.

a wooden door confines the small surface of light. a bed, a desk and an open shelf of spilled pen, books, some socks and lit candles. what gets his attention first is you - how you sit on a chair which has left marks on the carpet and tiles beneath. the knight observes as you lean against your palm, the other holding a pocketbook. he can't read the title. the cover pattern doesn't help either.

in retrospect he would blame and shake himself to the ground with how unordinary this action of his is - no matter if it's from a vigilante or personal view. yes, he already knows he can't. he is not allowed to. that doesn't mean he is going to pry his eyes off you from the distance. it will be a little secret of his - a treat for the meantime.

the novelty of the knight's discovery of honeyed milk. it's nothing unheard, yet, he finds himself wanting to know its alluring aroma in a fatal position of desperation. a little comfort.

[purpdrawsthings]

Hey wdym it's been like 24 days since that one post I made that was like to draw ppls Me Puzzles' ?... Oh.

I'M SO SORRY FOR LEAVING Y'ALL HANGING FOR ALMOST A MONTH GUHHHHHH

Immediately speed running since yesterday and today. Yes that meant I didn't even do anything for more than 20 days. I'm a lazy person you see 💥💀

Guess the Spotify music motivated me so hard I decided to speed run ig let's go?

Anyways enough yapping I know thats what y'all don't wanna read or see about rn y'all wanna see the JUICY Puzzles I drew right???

Anyways have them + how I think about them =D

Btw these weren't meant to be coloured.

First up, @fluffygiraffe 's PJ!

We got the silly Puzzles that was first to comment on the post! Hihi Fluffygiraffe. Idk anything about this Puzzles but I just gotta say I love the way you draw in a fuzzy and almost comforting art style and also PJ's design is very very cute thank you for the Puzzles 💜

Second, @emeraldsk 's Complete Puzzles!

Wait.. I've seen this man before... Hmmmmmmmmmm oh nvm. /silly anyways, I like the design! It's quite nice and the way the colours are arranged are done quite nicely. Overall, this Puzzles is approved by yours truly 💜

Third, we got @mrtophat518 's Grudge Puzzles!

Ono we got an edgy Puzzles chat get away /silly anyways, I've read the entirety of the whole Grudge Puzzles AU blog just today! I love that one time he broke the literal fourth wall and cracked the screen, that was a really nice surprise. [Thanks Micheal for fixing the glass with a new one we owe you something 💥] overall, the story is very enteresting and very VERY intriguing! I'm hoping to see how this progresses! Oh and also I love the puffy sleeves, those are literally my favourite, thank you for putting that on your Puzzles teehee it was fun 💜

Fourth, we got @bidinonsense 's Virus Puzzles!

I appreciate Alex for sending this in with their submission! The design is quite interesting to say the least! [Ooooooo funny sharp thingys.. Demon Puzzles... Ough....] I like how the mouth has a jagged line to represent sharp teeth ig, the 1 and 0 on the eyes are quite interesting! I think it kinda makes sense for a virus themed Puzzles? But overall, the design is interesting! Btw, I wonder if this is an au, if so.. I wonder how it works hehe... Oh anyways, thanks for the silly man! 💜

Last but not least, @alex-dolmatescu2-0 's Darkness Puzzles!

Ooooooooo, hello very... Handsome Puzzles... /silly /hj anyways, I've seen this Puzzles before! Saw a couple of posts about this guy and overall he seems pretty intriguing. The wings are a really cool concept, especially with the RGB colored looking wing! I really like drawing wings so thanks for giving me an excuse to draw one. Oh and the designs nice! Quite recognizable if you ask me. Anyways, approved! 💜

Special mention, @tsucacatenma 's Fallen Star Puzzles!

Yep, bonus Puzzles! For the past few days this person has been mentioning me on their posts about this particular Puzzles, and honestly, I love it! I love messy designed OCS like these that fill up space even tho ppl can't see shit. [That was a compliment 💥] the monocle was very nice, made him look a bit ✨ b r i i s h ✨ he truly is a very nice gentleman and definitely won't try to murder the SMG4 crew again. Btw the hand things coming out are very cool, I very likey. Anyways other than that, hope ur happy for this silly surprise teehee 💜

Anyways, that's about all! Last thing before we end this off, sorry for the long wait! I almost forgot this existed and during days I DID remember I just didn't get the motivation to work on it cuz I was scrolling through YouTube shorts or smth. I won't sugarcoat it, I'm a lazy ass =']

Anywaysssssss that's all buh bye! Hope I post or smth idek I'm working on smth but I'm not sure when it finished wait why am I still yapping OAHDISGXIXHDKDBPXBDPFBFOFBOFB

Yeetus

[ihaveasolutionbutyouwontlikeit]

This is very similar to my experience pre realising and coming out as genderfluid and AuDHD. And while my trauma responses kept me bound in dysfunctional family and social relationships and I always gave a thousand shits what happened to them, my own welfare barely registered because during those times, I wasn't really anything I felt like caring about, inside. When I finally clued in, broke off an abusive relationship that had been going for ten years and started looking for why and how to start giving a shit about myself (at the time I started doing that to do better by my kid and it took a lot of help to gain momentum, for which I am grateful), that's when things incrementally started shifting.

Being your authentic self, the one not constantly bound by everyone else's labels and ideas of you, but messily bursting at the seams with new growth and knots of healing and fucked up but "real" days (thank you ADHD meds, I can finally do "reality", at least in my own way) makes you actually start to give a shit about your own life, in a weird way.

There's a difference between giving a shit because you're "supposed" to and shaming/boxing yourself into ill fitting actions/portrayals/behaviours because it's just what you've always done or been taught to do, and giving a shit because you *actually* do, practicing being curious and open and a whole lot of unsure and scared with what may actually apply to you. It's not easy, but it is definitely worth it, because I can definitely say, even on my bad days, I would choose my real self on a bad day over my performative self on a good day. And by extension, you're more likely to want to get back up and try again after a "real self" bad day.

I used to drink excessively, do drugs, make and be subjected to dangerous and unhealthy sexual choices, ride the "high" of life, be around people constantly to distract myself, on the daily, trying to feel something other than the feeling of not right, not this, not that, and made these things my "personality" as a way to mask the very real chaos in my brain and heart. The amount of time I had spent in a shut down or dissociation state over three decades has made a few of my previous therapists jaws drop or minds just blank out, trying to understand how that's possible, and still be alive, let alone moderately sane. (My understanding is that having learnt to mask my "undesirable" traits from such a young age so effectively allowed me to willfully enter a continued dissociated state and I simply set my body to auto pilot as a way to cope with my very real, very lived, and often very traumatic, experiences of never ending mental, emotional, sensory and even physical overwhelm) My funny, bubbly, "go getter" and stereotypical feminine physical and behavioral traits were desirable for others, I had off handedly moulded them perfectly for others, to fit into the adopted perceptions (and given understanding) of who I was "supposed" to be (which is the experience of many, but especially persons on the spectrum, but hey overachievers unite!), thanks to layers of childhood and adolescent traumas - emotional, physical, sexual, mental, neglect based, financial, domestic violence based, it's like ticking off a shopping list of terror and adrenaline that taught me, on a foundational level, how to give everyone except myself what they wanted or needed. And I learnt with the additional focus of autistic processing and pattern recognition and ADHD RSD and dopamine seeking. Everytime I did something others considered "right" or beneficial for them, but not healthy for me, was a dopamine release, and fuelled by my pattern recognition and masking skills, I hardwired this framework into what my understanding was of how life should be, and infact is, for "everyone else". I just wanted to belong and do life well so so so much. I didn't want to be easily overwhelmed all the time. I didn't want the world to keep speaking to me in the way it does and have no one understand. I just want life to be as easy for me as it seemed to be for everyone else. But having lived like that and comparing that to now, I realise, now, how close and how often I actually came to the point of insanity and death, but if you had told me what it was in the moment, I would not have believed you. "This is just my lived experience, "everyone" does and has had things like this happen", "I am same but better and worse" (such was my brainwashing, begun by my father and continued by me). That is exactly what it felt like. Like emerging from a cult mindset and not truly understanding the horrors witnessed as being horrors, because they were the norm.

Then I had my kid. My mental labyrinth started cracking. Started adult education. Started working in a field I'd never have even considered, initially. More cracks. Made friends. A hole was knocked into a few walls to allow their entry. Stared down the decade-long parasitic abuser in my life, into submission and retreat with never before felt uncontained rage and pure confidence in making a choice and drawing my first big line in the sand. Continued therapy. Walls started crumbling. Discovered and validated my identity. Those walls crumbled to rubble and dust. Got a diagnosis. Got medicated. Stopped drinking and fucking to cope. Continued messily trying things on in the newly cleared foundations and healing parts of me I didn't know needed love and complete redirection and renovation. Growing things in the space that were as alien to me as anything in the deep sea or in deep space. But still recognised by the universe that is my mind. More than that. It was (and still is) an unlearning and leaning in to authenticity. Continuing to fall a little bit more into a steady and consistent reality, that felt less chaotic, less big bang, less overwhelming, more affirming, more validating, more expansive, more inline with values I didn't know I had. And when you get to that point, reality, subjective and individual as it is, does come to feel more "real". My body, my mind, my heart and soul, more tangible. And when things feel tangible, when you can touch and taste and smell and start to love them, you start to give a whole lotta shit about what happens to you. So you make even more choices, you grow, you learn. But you learn in the aim of curiosity and self love now, instead of learning for the sake of survival. One can understand the utility in learning. But once you realise that now you're now learning for the sake of, and indeed the joy and peace of, growth and love, you fall a little more into the love of learning. And that's all a life well lived or made peace with is. Its understanding that learning, about everything, but especially yourself and growing through the experience of it like a tree through a brick wall, was the greatest joy of all. Doing so takes the path less traveled by, and that makes all the difference. Because look at you now. Doing things you never thought you'd love, or even get, to do, depending on how far back you go. Resting. Parenting. Showing up as your true self and being (sometimes clumsily) accepted and even sometimes celebrated and supported. Dude, I HAVE A CAT. That alone is mind-blowing, because if you had told my 5 year old self or my 29 year old self that I would have a cat, despite all the allergies and relative issues of financial, emotional and mental inconsistencies, I would have called you a liar and probably gotten upset at the thought of never being able to live up to my dreams, only my fears. But I did. I do. I have. I am. I will continue to. I may not know what all of them are, as yet. But hey, that's part of the process of self discovery. And I have discovered that I love to love and I love to learn.

You do you, it'll all come through. ✌️

Before I realized I was and came out as trans, or actually before I started medically and socially transitioning, I didn't really ever care about my life.

Everything felt temporary and not real. I could freely do whatever I wanted. I didn't care about the consequences despite also battling my debilitating perfectionism.

It was a double edged sword where my inner world didn't care and didn't feel real, but the outer world had so many expectations of me.

What I mean to say is, now that I am almost 3 years into my medical and social transition, it's been this gradual change of starting to care again.

I actually want to put effort into my life and figure out who I wanna be and how I wanna show up in the world.

I care about the consequences of my actions and I realize that I am an actual person with feelings and stuff.

Idk. I just actually care this time and maybe life does have meaning and maybe I am worth it and maybe things really will be okay after feeling hopeless for so long.

[respectissexy]

Things I find myself telling my teen patients often, in no particular order.

(I am not your therapist and nothing in this post is a substitute for getting your own personal mental health treatment if you need it.)

Being a teenager sucks. Your brain is in a state of development where all your emotions are intensified, and those emotions are frequently bad because being a teenager sucks. You’re basically an adult when it’s convenient for the adults, and a kid when it’s convenient for the adults. This is crazymaking. It is my opinion that critics of “it gets better” messaging do not recall being a teenager very well. I’m not saying being an adult is a picnic. But generally speaking it beats the hell out of being the legal property of your parents while your brain is going brrrrr.

On that note, if you have any kind of mental illness, these may be your worst, most symptomatic years. 

Your brain is also in a stage of development where new habits are more likely to stick. That means that if you and I (33) both started learning Russian tomorrow, you would be more likely to stick with it and get better at Russian faster than me; but if you and I started doing a new drug tomorrow, you would be more likely to get addicted.

It’s normal to hate living with your parents even if you love them. I’m not saying you have to love your parents, but if you do, that doesn’t obligate you to enjoy living under the same roof. MANY adults have loving relationships with parents they would never want to live with again. (It may also take a few years of living apart for you to determine whether you actually hate your parents or whether you just hate living with them. This too is normal.)

There’s nothing wrong with going through phases. If you believe that what you’ve got going on right now is going to be your permanent identity, well, you’d know better than anybody else; but it’s fine if it’s not. “I’m into this right now” is good enough and people should respect it.

How much time you spend on your phone is less predictive of mental health outcomes than what you are actually doing on your phone. Three hours of gaming with your friends beats one hour of watching thinspiration videos on TikTok or arguing with strangers on tumblr about who gets to call themselves a dyke. (Assuming your friends are nice to you.)

Sex is supposed to be fun. If you’re having sex and it isn’t fun, something is wrong – maybe you’re not ready to be having sex yet, maybe you’re having sex with the wrong people, maybe your partner needs to learn your body and preferences better, or maybe you’re having sex for the wrong reasons.

(Obligatory don’t do drugs BUT) if you’re going to do drugs, weed is safer than alcohol.

You may be tempted to assume that the people who treat you like you’re not cool enough to hang out with them are, in fact, the coolest people ever and ultimate arbiters of cool, and expend a lot of energy trying to win them over. I implore you to at least consider the possibility that your friends who actively want to hang out with you are exactly as cool as those people, and quite possibly cooler. 

If you barely eat anything all day and then binge at night, the reason you’re binging at night is because you barely ate all day. If you teach your body that it will not be fed for long periods of time, it will do its best to ensure, whenever you do eat, that you eat as much as possible. This is a feature, not a bug.

Sleep hygiene is unfortunately not bullshit.

“People experience social penalties for not being thin” is extremely true, but “no one will ever love you unless you’re thin” is extremely false.

The world is full of happy, successful, financially solvent adults who did not get into their first choice colleges.

[cosmerelists]

Ranking the First Five Stormlight Novels

For the record, this is not meant to be an objectively correct ranking or anything--but it is my personal ranking. I wanted to wait to do this until Stormlight 5 came out!

And I gotta say--I like all of the books. But I can rank them by "least favorite" to "favorite," even if they're all among my favorite books in general, you know?

[Spoilers for Wind & Truth! ...And all the other Stormlight books too!]

#5: Wind and Truth

I feel bad ranking the newest book at the lowest spot...but so it goes. The thing is: I'm a simple woman. I come to Stormlight Archive looking for people with huge fantasy swords fighting each other in the sky. And while I do respect and understand Kaladin finding his place outside of battles and becoming a Therapist to the Stars, I did honestly miss him getting to duke it out against overwhelming odds.

I will say that this was probably my favorite Adolin book--his WAT arc was my favorite. I also loved the new ways that Shallan is using her powers, to say nothing of finally getting the Rlain/Renarin love story. It was also extremely gratifying to finally get a lot of the backstory about the Stormfather and Honor and the Recreance. I'm also fascinated that so many arcs involved oaths being broken framed as a good thing.

Lots of great stuff in Stormlight 5. But my monkey brain really wanted more sky fights.

#4: Oathbringer

I have to imagine that if you are a Dalinar stan, Oathbringer is probably your absolute favorite book. I'm a Dalinar fan but not a Dalinar stan, so that definitely flavors my reaction to this book.

This one does have one of my favorite Sanderlanches--the battle of Thaylen city is amazing (and Shallan single-handedly fighting an entire army does legitimately make me tear up every time). The invasion of Kholinar storyline is also great, and I loved meeting Azure.

Again, lots of good stuff, but not as much good stuff as some of the other books, at least for me.

#3: Rhythm of War

Rhythm of War was challenging for me because Kaladin is having the ABSOLUTE WORST time in his whole life and it's sometimes legitimately hard to read about it. At the same time, we get such great Kaladin fights thanks to the Pursuer, and one of the all-time great Kaladin Dramatic Entrances at the end.

Plus, I mean....Navani and Raboniel? So good! So toxic! Such an accidental toxic yuri horrifying love story. I'm such a sucker for self-sacrifice too, so Raboniel sacrificing herself to save Navani AFTER Navani killed her? That could have been created in a lab just for me.

PLUS this book had Maya and Adolin, both their kata fight and the whole "WE CHOSE" scene.

Incredible book, IMO.

#2: Way of Kings

I go back and forth about whether Way of Kings or Words of Radiance is my favorite, if I'm being honest. At the moment of writing this list, it's turned out this way.

I really love Way of Kings. The whole bridgeman plotline is horrifying but so compelling, and I love watching Kaladin build himself and his man back up. I love seeing all of the ways they manage to survive, from the side-carry to, well, war-crime armor I guess. The scene of Kaladin surviving the highstorm--with Syl in front trying to block it--is one of my all-time favorite scenes ever. The Tower Fight is fantastic all the way through. And the end with Dalinar giving up his shardblade to save the bridgemen is so earned.

On a first read I was less compelled by Shallan's narrative but it honestly gets more compelling the more often I reread which I've done...let's say a few times. She's such a great character from the first line.

#1: Words of Radiance

As I mentioned at the beginning, I am a simple woman sometimes when it comes to my fantasy series. Words of Radiance wins for me because it contains my three favorite plotlines / scenes:

The 4 v. 1 duel. So amazingly fun to read. Such a good scene for Adolin, for Kaladin, for Renarin. "Honor is dead but I'll see what I can do." Come ON.

Kaladin & Shallin fieldtrip in the chasms. I loved the way their relationship developed over the course of this scene. The end when they're huddled in the cave in the middle of the highstorm while listening to the Fused above them, telling each other their true stories--top-notch. Plus I'm a sucker for storylines where people have to both use and hide their powers, and so the fact that they're both Radiant and trying to hide that from each other makes me giggle maniacally.

The Kaladin vs. Szeth duel. This fight has EVERYTHING. They're in the sky. It's a highstorm. They literally run across enormous boulders that were RIPPED from the GROUND by the storm while said boulders are SPINNING THROUGH THE STORM. It's so over-the-top and it's my favorite fight in the whole series.

So that's me! I know there are tons of "What's your favorite Stormlight book" polls out there, but if you want to put your ranking in the tags I'd be interested to see it!

[cy-cyborg]

Please remember I am trans/nonbinary, my pronouns are xe/they.

I am starting to get genuinely annoyed with people’s shocked or doubtful reactions to hearing I want to have kids in the near-ish future. And I don’t mean strangers. Strangers say weird things to me all the time lol. I mean my family, my doctors, people who have known me for decades.

My mum in particular has made several comments now ranging from just genuine shock at the mention my partner and I are planning for kids during a conversation about plans for the future (I’ve literally talked about wanting kids to her since I was a kid) to outright saying during a casual conversation that “they (referring to doctors) probably wouldn’t let me carry to term”. Over Christmas my partner also told mum that we had some news we wanted to share in person, and her first reaction was “Cy’s not pregnant are they?” My partner said no and she responded with “oh thank god!”

My sister and dad have also made similar comments. Dad has brought up valid concerns (mainly about some genetic stuff that caused complications for my mum) sprinkled with the same ableism my mum always goes to. My sister I’m willing to give a bit more leniency, since she’s the only family member I talk about my transition with and she admitted recently she thought i was already medically transitioning and she thought that made you infertile so she just assumed kids were off the table. Neither of those things are true but her doubts at least aren’t tied to my disability, just bad info.

But it’s the doctors (and other healthcare professionals) that are the most frustrating. It’s not one or two. It’s nearly every doctor. Every nurse. Every medical technician. If the subject comes up, they all have something to say about it.

I don’t want to go into pregnancy blind, I know I would be at higher risk than the average pregnant person and I want to know what those risks are before I agree to them. I want to know what recourses are available. I want to know how me being in a wheelchair will change the process of things like giving birth. I want make sure the local hospital is equip to deal with that and I won’t be having to educate people while I’m in labour or if I’m better off going somewhere else.

But every doctor I’ve tried to discuss the subject with has shut the topic down and hand waved it with “we’ll cross that bridge if we get to it”. Like it’s something I’d obviously want to avoid that I probably don’t need to worry about. Even trying to get my contraceptive replaced, get a fertility test done or even getting a damn pap smear has been a nightmare. why am I fighting to get a Pap smear??? I’m nearly 30 and still haven’t been able to get one because several doctors seem to be under the impression I’m not sexually active, even when I bring my partner into the appointment. If they say it out loud (half the time they dance around the subject) and I correct them, they are genuinely shocked, then tell me we’ll worry about that later. Nurses and other healthcare providers are no better. There’s been several occasions where I haven’t been asked the mandatory “could I be pregnant” question when going for X-rays or CT scans (and I know they were supposed to ask because if I ask to see the paperwork, it’s always there and they’ve just checked “no” without asking), or if I am asked at intake, they say something to the effect of “I know the answer is probably no, but is there any chance you could be pregnant?”

Though I take back what I said earlier, there’s one comment from strangers on this front that pisses me off, and it’s “be thankful you don’t have to deal with being pestered about having kids”.

No, I won’t be thankful when my reproductive health is ignored, my family are telling me constantly they think I shouldn’t have kids or expressing surprise that I’m even “allowed to” and I can’t even get any answers about what it would look like if I DO get pregnant. My heart goes out to the people who are harassed and pressured into having kids, and to the people whose health is ignored for the sake of them being able to have a baby. Both my mother and sister have dealt with that, my mum almost died because they didn’t want to do anything that would prevent her from having more kids she didn’t want after my younger sister was born. But BOTH things are terrible and shouldn’t be happening!

Im not unreasonable, if someone brought up a decent, genuine concern to me that wasn’t just “can someone in a wheelchair even look after a kid” or “I didn’t think someone like you even has sex” I would reconsider. If it was found I would be likely to experience serious complications for myself or the baby, I would reconsider. If I found out I wasn’t going to have the needed supports to raise a kid, I would reconsider. But everyone assumes that’s what I want. If I were infertile, or any of these things were true, I’d reconsider, but I’d be upset about it! I’ve always wanted to be a parent and if that was something that wasn’t actually possible, I would be sad about it.

But my family members talk to me about it in the same way they did when I was 10 and didn’t know where babies came from, doctors are shocked at the idea I’m even sexually active let alone thinking about children. I’m genuinely worried the people in my life other than my partner would treat any fertility issues like a good thing, or be shocked that I’d be upset if kids weren’t actually on the table anymore.

[distortionenby]

A uni professor once took the time in a lesson regarding social language to explain what most of these actually mean and why they're used, so I'll try to help clarify the ones that are most confusing in your response, if that's okay? Most of the ones I clarified apply primarily to the work environment (especially as a worker, not a boss or higher-up), however they can be extrapolated to social situations too. They're also mostly regarding one's own sense of importance (either conscious or apparent), which allistics don't take very kind to, especially when there's an established hierarchy and you're "below" them.

Note: in these I use "you" in a general sense, not directly at the person who added the commentary.

Note: if I didn't clarify one, I either agree fully that it's easy-to-spot bullshit, it's been explained by prev already, or it's too self-explanatory and does not require further comment.

Note: I am autistic and have experienced the weirdness of these "rules" myself, so my professor (also autistic) did me a big one for that class.

1. To allistics this makes them think that the person sitting is being disrespectful by "feeling too important to make the effort to stand up as well and see eye to eye". It's kind of like a king on a throne won't stand for a peasant. I think it's utter bullshit tbh, especially for those that may not be able to stand or stand easily.

2. One thing is to have food issues and another thing is to insult the person who made the food. This is about the second option. It's under the premise that a person put effort in making the food/spent money buying it, and you're telling them "this is gross and you're stupid/bad for making/buying it". If the problem is a food issue (such as sensory issues, allergies, etc, or even that you just don't like eating this dish in particular), you can indeed say that you don't like it or won't eat it in a polite way, without making the other person's effort seem stupid. Again, this "rule" is about outright insulting the food a person made, or the person who made the food. If you (general you) feel entitled to make someone else feel bad for making food for you and inviting you to have it in their own home, you can go get your own food at your own place and avoid all the hassle.

4. The first part means to "protect" those less experienced than you, such as children or new people at work, as you know more and are likely to have more skills in the specific environment than them (such as a new person at a job may have a hard time working the register and it's nice to help them figure it out instead of letting them take a reprimand. Obviously, this would vary in hierarchy and time accessibility you have. Generally a boss/manager should be in charge of this in work settings not make it the obligation of a same-position coworker, tho I'm sure some of them won't mind helping, and for kids, they're obviously more at risk than adults in many things so adults should try to watch out for them if they see a lone kid, however it shouldn't be the job of a 10 y/o or even a 15 y/o to raise a 5 y/o, even though it happens). The second part means to not devalue those who are in your same position/age/level but rather to have mutual respect. They're supposed to be your equal and you are theirs, and you, nor they should not act like one is superior to the other when you are both in the exact same playing field or level. In a simplified example: you should not claim you're superior to your twin in looks and features, you're literally twins, you should have mutual respect for each other.

5. No typo. "You should never make the first offer in negotiation because the other person will try to take advantage of this to fuck you over or reject your offer. Especially if you're, say, looking for a job, if it's your first time in such a job and you don't know the salaries in this position, making the first offer may mean you're either way underestimating what you should earn (and they'll obviously take advantage of this and make you work for far less than you deserve), or they'll see you as "feeling superior" because you're asking too much and decide you're not worth the effort because they're either wanting to cut corners or don't trust you're worth that much. For example: average rates for X job are $5.00/hour. They ask for what you think your salary should be. You (inexperienced in the job market) say $1.00/hour, or worse, $5.00/day. Boss says "okay, that's great, you're hired" and they keep the other $4.00 an hour for themselves without ever telling you. If you say, however, that you want $20.00/hour, they'll mentally sneer at you lile "who does this bitch thing they are? The goddamn Michelangelo of this gig??? You can't earn more than me" And reject you, even if you have incredible certifications and recommendations.

7. Is entirely judgemental and classist. At the very core it means "don't dress with dirty/broken/offensive clothes", as in, if you have ripped and stained pants, your shoes have an unglued sole, or you wear a jacket with "cumslut" embroidered in the back, while at a job interview or visiting an elderly home, it either gives (them) the impression that you don't care about things, are unhygienic/unkempt, will be rude to people, or will overall present a bad image when presented to new people. Of course, however, people have taken this to outrageous heights where they think you should dress in high fashion or brand clothes and look expensive to be considered "good" nowadays, even if you can't afford it/don't feel comfortable like that/have a defined personal style. And while they cannot force you to do this, it's socially accepted for them to turn you away.

8. First half "say what you mean": allistic people will take only the truth that either benefits them or makes them feel flattered, if you talk honestly but cushion it or phrase it in a way they like hearing, they'll be okay with it. It's bullshit because if you mean to be rude and say something rude, it's looked down on but if you mean something rude but say it "nicely" they won't mind that much. Second half "mean what you say": basically "don't lie". If you say you can carry 50 bottles of water in one go, then you better mean it because they'll take it and expect you to deliver by carrying the 50 water bottles in one single trip. If you say you have a good grasp on guitar playing, you better play more than decently rather than barely knowing how to play isolated chords. If you say you have the skill to animate a short film on Blender, you better have Blender and know how to use it to animate.

9. This one is double: a) if you ask more than you answer, you show initiative and interest in what's happening, most people see this as a positive thing and are more likely to hire you/include you in stuff, it also makes you seem not self-centered in situations where you need to gain favour from higher ups. Once again, people in higher positions like bosses don't like their workers or even potential workers' sense of self-importance because it disrupts hierarchy. They're the boss, not you. And even if you know better, they're the boss, not you. (Bullshit, I know) And b) it's useful to get as much info as you can from stuff like a job interview, while not giving them literally all your information in exchange of nothing (because they may not even hire you yet they'll have all your info and you'll have nothing), however, if you ask a lot, you'll also have more referents for future endeavours of similar nature (like rates! If you learn in interview A and B that rates go between $4.20/hour to $6.00/hour, you'll be able to negotiate reasonably within that range in interview C!)

11. 12. and 13. Are all three regarding self-importance (again...)

11. Having your phone on the table makes it seem like you care less about the people you're sharing with during the meal than whatever is on your phone, and therefore your phone deserves "presence" despite being an object.

12. Allistic people (especially authorities) like feeling like the center of attention when they're speaking. They're very visual when it comes to their reassurances, so having eyes on them and being smiled at makes them feel like they're being given the importance they deserve because "wow, attention! And smiles are positives that imply this person agrees with me! Good". If you don't look at them (in the eye, especially) or don't show being "agreeable" by smiling, they interpret that as "this person feels superior to me (bad thing!) and feels that I'm not worth their unadulterated attention even though I'm their higher-up, so they think they're better than me and don't respect me".

13. If you ask to go to a party some coworkers from a different branch are organising, you seem like relatively exclusive events should make an exception for you specifically, and this is considered rude because "why should we invite you? You're not the target demographic yet you're pushing the door open to come in". A couple is going on a romantic date and you ask to go, it'll be intrusive to them since this was a date for them as a couple, you'd be third-wheeling. If your friend gets tickets for themself and their sibling for their birthday to see their favourite artist, and you ask to go as well, you're changing their whole plan because even if you pay for your part of everything, they'll now have to account for a bigger hotel room, maybe a different seating area at the concert because there weren't 3 consecutive seats where they initially placed themselves and it'd be rude to leave you on the other end of the stadium if you're going together, different meal plans, more luggage to take care of, etc. If someone's having a friend over because they got kicked out, and you ask to go as well like it's a sleepover, you're seen as not considering the painful, or even dangerous situation in which the person who got kicked out is (and why their friend is offering their place), and you're somewhat making light of it instead. Now, obviously, there's exceptions and when you start listing events to which you could invite yourself to, they can seem obvious, but generally if there's a plan that doesn't include you, to allistics (and some others) you'll be seen as if you should be given some priority over others if you ask to go with.

15. This is basically "no means no" but with the added bonus of "if you're begging on your knees for weeks after being told 'no' right to your face, you'll look desperate, pathetic or like you're harassing them, or all three". If a relationship is not meant to be because one side has made it clear they don't want it, the side that continues to beg looks bad.

1. Never shake hand while sitting. 2. Never talk bad about the food when you are the guest. 3. Don't eat the last piece of something you didn't buy. 4. Protect who is behind you and respect who is beside you. 5. Never make the first offer in a negotiation. 6. Don't take credit for the work you didn't do. 7. Dress well, no matter what the occasion. 8. Speak honestly: say what you think and mean what you say. 9. Ask more than you answer. 10. Leave the profane language for the less educated. 11. Avoid placing your phone on the table when eating with someone. 12. Listen, smile and most of all make eye contact. 13. If you're not invited, don't ask to go. 14. Never be ashamed of where you come from. 15. Don't beg for a relationship.

This is why it's so hard to be autistic.

Some of these are critical advice. Some of these are utter bullshit. But they're all on the same list and people regularly share lists like these as if they're gospel.

[absolutelynotclassicusernam-blog]

Anne of the Island Book Club: Chapter XXV, Enter Prince Charming

I’m finally caught up!

I love Aunt Jimsie’s distinction between her legs and her soul. So real.

I know the fandom loves identifying quotes, so when Anne says “Nobody axed me, sir, she said,” that quote is from a Mother Goose rhyme, “Where Are You Going, My Pretty Maid?”, also quoted in “By the Shores of Silver Lake” by Laura Ingalls Wilder, which I just so happened to be rereading last fall.

I love all the different moods November has in the Anne series. I think Montgomery has a different paragraph describing it in every book.

I am very glad that Jonas has a sense of humor. I think Phil has a shot at being happy with a minister who has a sense of humor, but if he was all prunes and prisms all the time she’d be miserable.

And finally, Roy. He’s smooth—too smooth. If I hadn’t read the book before I’d expect him to turn out to be an utter sleazebag. As it is, he’s just too perfect. Does Anne really think he “could be wicked if he wanted to”? I’d think it more likely of Gilbert.

I am, like many of y’all, now reading “The Redmond Diaries”, and I love the writer’s concept that Anne unconsciously based Maurice Lennox on Gilbert. We don’t really know anything about him in canon other than that he’s the bad guy—but we do know that Perceval is too perfect, and Roy, naturally, is the same. I’m going to borrow from Anne’s later description of Fred and say that he’s “hopelessly good”. Of course, none of this is news to anyone—that is the very point of Roy. I just think it’s interesting how much Anne projects personality onto him to match his looks, when in fact the personality she’s looking for is really much closer to home.

(Although I’m annoying myself in writing it. I do ship Anne and Gilbert, but I simultaneously find all the in-universe people who ship them really annoying. In a final harken back to “Averil’s Atonement”, if people were always doing that to me, I’d pitch them—and the person they were trying to set me up with for good measure. Anne and I have many things in common, but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to achieve her dignity.)

[dreamy-guardian-angel]

:) oh buddy I'm about to be your new best friend. I am the Delta anon. I come from mainly @/howlsofbloodhounds inbox (also Howls if you're somehow seeing this. I'LL COME BACK SOON I PROMISE).

RANT IT IS!

I find that Delta usually has very complex relationships with a lot of people, especially based on his reputation around the Multiverse and Omega Timeline. Bad guys know him as a threat who will stop at nothing to kill, good guys know him as a bit unhinged but their heart is in the (mostly) right place (aside from the murder). Anyone who poses a threat will be treated as such by them with no hesitation.

However, that being said, if a stranger approaches with caution and strikes up a conversation (asks for directions, for him to translate something, etc.), they will actually he extremely polite and patient with them. He won't be aggressive if they approach nicely, which can often confuse the ones who view him as a threat waiting to be unleashed. They know if he's around, a fight will most likely soon follow.

Does Delta know this? Absolutely. I'd imagine that they actually kind of enjoy the fear that comes from others - if they're bad, then they have everything to lose. If they're good, they're safe. He will only attack bad people and it is very well known.

And like most of the talk about Delta and Color's relationship, the headcanon of Delta being Color's roommate and protector (and semi-caretaker while he's in recovery) is usually adopted.

For me personally, I like to imagine that Delta had to reteach Color everything from day one - not to say Color was helpless whatsoever during recovery, just needed a bit of help, love, and routine to get their life back in order. They are very close friends, even though they argue on occasion and blow up at each other due to their explosive natures.

With that being said, I also like to think that Color taught Delta a LOT about so many things, opened their eyes to a lot more possibilities than they realized before. Because before Color really came around, Delta kinda only had himself, Beta (the collective nickname that was chosen for the Bravery Soul), and whoever they encountered.

Some of these things could be about the patience and time recovery takes. Delta is usually a get-in-get-out sorta guy I think, so if he gets injured, he heals himself quickly and rushes to the next AU or fight. But Color practically forced him to realize that what he can survive with ease is not the case for everyone else - he may be able to heal himself without thinking about it, but others sometimes don't have that luxury.

Another thing I'd like to imagine Color taught them more about is patience (ironic, i know). Healing takes quite a bit of time, even if it's done instantly with magic. Color had to be rehabilitated, taught the things people would just know, and Delta was a big part of his learning process. But when things got hard, he practically forced Delta to learn that instead of fighting it (usually physically or verbally), they needed to be patient, take a breath to calm down, and keep trying while keeping their cool.

I also think that Color would help them to actually accept the things they need to do in regards to their neurodivergency (I hc that Delta/Beta have ADHD and probably a few other things, but right now ADHD is the main thing I'm talking about here). Color was taught by pretty much everyone around him that he was allowed to express themselves however they wanted, as long as it wasn't hurting anyone or themselves.

I feel like Delta would be the type of guy to refuse himself stims or breaks, not wanting to be seen as 'weak' or 'vulnerable' by their enemies. I'd imagine that they mask often, causing them only more frustration the longer they do it - hence why they get so excited when they can fight. They get to release all that pent-up stress and energy, and use it to protect people that they care about, including themselves. What better coping method could a neurodivergent with anger issues ask for?

But Color taught him that they don't have to resort to fighting to get out energy, and don't have to mask in order to feel safe - don't have to view themselves as weak for allowing themselves the comfort of stims and all that comes with it.

And that's not to say Delta didn't know about these things before - just that he didn't think of it. Color obviously taught him much more than just these things, but these are the first ones that come to mind. They undoubtedly have the closest bond that could be, no matter what happens.

And moving onto Epic now, I actually don't know how I imagine these two meeting. So I'm open to ideas on this one lmao.

But no matter how they met, they are also very very close - they enjoy spending time together, mostly because it's so different than what Delta's used to. He can feel a bit more relaxed around Epic. And, like Color, Epic encourages stimming to the highest extent (I imagine he has AuDHD). With the memes and overall chaos, though, Delta would probably need breaks of silence in their hangouts lmao.

I'm gonna be real with you, I don't have much of an opinion on him. But that isn't to say that he's not a massive part of Delta's life.

I'd imagine that he'd be the first person aside from Delta that Color was introduced to. Naturally Color wouldn't be as friendly, maybe even viewing him as a threat until he eventually came around. (You gotta introduce early post-VOID Color to people like a cat, from what I understand. It'll work, trust.)

Now, with Cross, it could be a bit more complicated. Even though it was claimed as non-canon by Jakei I believe(?), in Delta's story, he canonically fought Cross. Which obviously leaves a bad first impression for both of them.

Needless to say, when Delta finds out that Epic is friends with Cross, he is NOT happy. Things would probably be tense between the two for a very, very long time, probably involving multiple altercations and fights between the two. But I think they would eventually get on better, more neutral terms - maybe even respect each other eventually.

I do think that the longer Cross is around and the more he integrates into their group, Delta will accept him soon enough and not put up as much as a fight about it. They might even grow protective of Cross, instinctively wanting to protect him from danger, just how he does with everyone else.

And honestly, Cross would probably teach him to be more accepting of people who are trying to turn their lives around. Delta has most definetly fought this dude multiple times in the past, and will proudly admit to that. But he learned that even people who did a lot of bad shit can change, and should be allowed the time, resources, and space to do so. I think they'd be friends eventually.

Now, with Killer, it is going to take him MUCH longer. Cross is mostly acceptable because they showed genuine change and apologized for past actions - Killer, on the other hand, has not yet.

It's kinda known how Color actively saved Killer and helped him begin learning to change and recover. And he's seen firsthand how much Killer has hurt Color - they were on the front lines with them.

So naturally, once Killer tries to assimilate into their friend group, Delta fucking hates it. He is completely unwilling to accept Killer, an unapologetic sociopath with a body count higher than Delta and all his friend's combined, into their friend group. Hell no. They'd rather die (again).

It probably goes on like this for the entirety of Killer's reintegration-into-society process. No matter how hard Delta tries to bite his tongue, mask it, fake politeness and try to be patient, it is a never-ending battle between him and Killer - and in turn, with Color.

Killer being in their lives would definetly create a lot of conflict between them and Color. Delta doesn't want to let some murderer around them - especially one that worked with their literal enemies! But Color is determined to help, and not a single thing is going to stop him.

Eventually, of course, things would get better. Killer would stop being such a menace (though he'd still be chaotic) and Delta would slowly get over his pure hatred of the guy. I'm honestly not sure if they could ever be friends due to the unyielding grudges that Delta holds, but they can at least be on decent enough terms to not try to kill each other every time Color leaves them alone in a room for more than 10 seconds.

I think his relationship with Beta would be very different from all of these, though. They have quite literally known each other the longest, as they are fused together. I'd imagine that at the start of their relationship, it was pretty rocky.

Beta just got freed from his eternal chamber where he was forced to stay in the dark after being killed, and was immediately absorbed to fight and beat a demon before they left forever. That statement alone carries through some the trauma this kid endured - and now he was suddenly fused with one of the Monsters he had previously known. So of course their relationship would be very complicated at first. But with time, things would get less complicated - they would get more in sync, trust each other more.

I think that as the years go by, they'd eventually develop a brother-like relationship. They are definetly very close, always having each other's backs, ready for whatever comes next.

Now, onto headcanons about his other relationships outside of the Chromatic Crew.

For me personally, I think he'd actually get along very well with Lust! (I know a lot of people call him Plum or Sugar or whatever, but I honestly don't mind calling him Lust.) I'm not exactly sure how they would meet, though. Maybe Delta was saving him from someone? Or maybe they met in the Omega Timeline somewhere.

I think their first meeting would be a bit awkward. I don't know Lust very well so forgive me if I'm not doing him justice here, but I imagine he'd be the type to flirt slightly with people he just met (not inappropriately of course).

I personally hc that Delta is aroace, so obviously this would make a very awkward first introduction if Lust gets flirty. However, I think once they get past that (and once Delta sets firm boundaries), they would be good friends!

I also think that they would gossip together. With how involved Delta is and how strong his opinions are on about damn near anything, he definetly knows about a lot of drama happening in the Multiverse. And Lust being Lust, I imagine he'd be involved in drama, too. So I think they would definetly bond on that front.

And honestly, I think he'd be on decent terms with the Star Sanses as well. In truth though, I also don't know them very well aside from the things I see everyone else putting out here, so I may not do them justice in this topic lmao.

I think he'd be fine with Ink, honestly. He may disagree with the things Ink stands for and how he perceives the Multiverse and its inhabitants, but he can't deny that Ink has saved countless AU's - regardless of intention, morals or motive. As long as Ink doesn't try to interfere with their work, they have no issues with him.

Dream, on the other hand, I feel Delta might be a little more frustrated by. Of course Dream is a genuinely good person - that is simply who he is. But the almost foolish (in Delta's eyes, at least) belief that Nightmare can change and may come back around one day can annoy him very easily. It's obvious Nightmare isn't coming back, no matter how much Dream still loves and cares about his brother. It ain't happening. (He thinks Dream is a tiny bit delusional on that front. And also that the whole 'balance' thing is absolute bullshit. However, he thinks that pretty much everything else Dream stands for is good.)

I think he and Blue would be good friends, though! They have quite a lot in common in my eyes. I think they'd go sparring and patrol together on occasion, when they both have the time.

I also think that he and Ccino would get along very well despite how different they are. They balance each other out in a way - and plus, Delta always tips well. (He also tried to steal a cat for Color once. He felt bad and returned it the next day. Ccino has too many cats - his answer to the return was "I thought I just counted wrong. I should probably take a nap and fix that". And that was when Delta became concerned with this man's sleeping habits lmao.)

And finally, Ganz. I'm not sure if you know him or not (he's kinda unknown as well) but I imagine Delta's actually pretty close with him. Due to Ganz's depressive nature, Delta offers help at a moments notice, no matter what kind of help he needs.

All in all, they care very much about their friends.

Anyways, that's all I got! Thoughts?

(Context)

ANON I LOVE YOU, thank you so much for taking the time to answer me<33

Okay, first of all, while I was reading your answer I saw someone reblog my previous post, so @swelteringfire , sorry for the tag, but I thought you might want to read this as well

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SECOND, thanks again, it really helped and it was actually interesting!

I saw quite a few fanarts of Delta and Color and I was confused at first because I didn't understand their dynamic, but this clears up a lot of things. It actually sounds really sweet how they basically helped each other in so many different ways when they needed it. Same thing goes for Epic and Cross. I believe Cross is a really complex character, and I know he had his problems with a lot (or even the majority) of other monsters, so I'm not surprised they might've had a rough start as well seeing Delta's nature.

I'll be honest, I was particularly curious about his relationship with Killer (sorry, I love him more than anything</3), and yes, I can see how they might have their difficulties. I'm not sure if this is right, but Delta's behaviour and thoughts about Killer at first remind me a bit of what Dust or Horror might think of him too. Now, I love the found family trope for the MTT, but realistically speaking I know they both would view Killer as a sort of threat as well (which is...ironic, but understandable).

Also I didn't know about Beta but thanks, now I'm crying<33 The fandom usually tends to ignore the other souls' trauma, so it's nice to know that someone actually takes the time to focus on that sometimes. They were just kids too.

I also love how you mentioned Lust and Blue as well! Swap is basically everyone's bestie at this point, and I'm so happy about it (also he's probably the most stable out of everyone there). And Lust would absolutely love to stop and gossip after getting to know Delta!

I think he would be fine with Ink and Dream too, and at the same time it's so funny how the bad guys would be kind of scared of him

Overall he sounds like a really interesting character, I would like to see more of him!

(Sorry if it's short, but I have class now)

[hollow-lime-green]

hi, anon from "t/b discourse is dumb" ask here 👋 this conversation actually is really interesting and i wanna add a little more if thats okay. (how long is the average anon ask? im not new to fandom but i am relatively new to tumblr and its etiquette... so sorry if this is too long. ive done my best to condense it 😭 there's just too much to say and im a rambler)

i hope i didn't come off as blaming anybody for their response to harassment and such, i don't want to contribute to that. my ire is only pointed toward people who make it their business to hurt others over innocuous fandom happenings, those people who leave dickish comments on fics and send anonhate and mass qrt on twitter. but like i said, expecting those kinds of people to go away any time soon is not really something i have hope for at this point. you put it well: people get so emotionally invested --- and i too Love getting emotionally invested when it comes to fiction --- that logic stops being a factor. people all over the internet also tend to struggle with simply disliking something and leaving it there. you're allowed to dislike/disagree with something without turning it into a moral failure when it's all down to preference and the characters involved are not Real

i just wish more people saw the value in Healthy™ discourse. hell, even if someone's opinion ticks you off, that doesn't mean you can't engage in an open minded discussion with them, if you want to. but people can't do that even outside of niche online fanbases.

i would love to share my own opinions on t/b dynamics for satosugu and to learn why others may feel differently. actually, stsg is the first yaoi ship ive been this invested in, though it's been a while now, and reading fics for them has opened up a Lot of doors of thought for me that i wanna talk to someone about. but there's such hostility around the topic that opening that discussion up to the general fandom public hardly feels worth the risk, as much as i want to. that kinda leaves one floating out at sea here. so i have these conversations where i can, but i'll also block people over simple things. not because i think they're evil or their opinions are invalid, but because i really do just want to have fun, and previous fandom experiences have exhausted me with how much of the same repetitive venom i can personally handle at once

welcome back anon, and feel free to ramble away. honestly this has been a nice side quest for me during the thesis-ing, believe it or not.

if you want to have discussions/share takes on stsg (or fandom meta), then feel free to keep sending them anon, and i am happy to host that discussion in our friendly little corner. i haven't gotten anything nasty in my inbox, and i think everyone commenting and engaging with the posts on my blog is pretty friendly and level headed :)

i think it's possible that some people could get offended by your previous ask? but it's very obvious, to me, anyway, that what you are saying with "t/b discourse is dumb" is "this drama is dumb why are we doing this why can't we just have fun". you can twist the words, but that's the clear sentiment that I think 99% of us are trying to get across here.

and that also does not conflict with empathizing with and supporting people who have been targeted by this harassment. in fact, i would say out of anyone, they are probably most securely in the camp of "this drama is dumb please let's stop".

as @fushiglow pointed out, part of the reason fandom can get so vicious is due to depersonalization. none of these people would be acting so fuckin foolish in person. but across the screen, it is a lot safer and easier to be an absolute asshole than when you have to look someone in the face as you tell them that they are literal scum for your opinions on dick in ass, or something.

over the past few months i have been struggling with this in reverse, actually. one of my gaming group members almost definitely voted for trump (white women... we need to talk). i get so worked up when i think about it, because i hate her for it, especially her reasons for it (she is antichoice). and yet, when I see her in person, when we hang out, it is so easy to remember that she is my friend and she held my hair back when I was puking after my other gamer friends gave me too many free beers (blue moon isn't worth it guys).

one other thing i would like to add, and part of why i'm so happy to post this ask, is that conversations are not sentences. you get to clarify. you get to add. you get to change your mind. real 'discourse' (note: this word has lost all meaning in the year of our lord 2025) or debate is an exchange of ideas, whether it's about dick in ass or how we react socially in the situation of being attacked for dick in ass. keeping the conversation going to clarify these things, like your intent with the last ask, is important and necessary! it's what keeps us from being xitter/bluesky. we don't need to live as zingers and soundbytes on a text-based forum. we have the space to express ourselves fully, as many times as that takes. and i think that helps build back the empathy that is lost with the lack of face-to-face, voice-to-voice communication in online spaces.

so in the words of the great philosophers re: t/b discourse:

any hole's a goal

[captain-kit-adventuress]

I never, ever said that mutual aid refusal to labour are defeatism. What I actually said was that they are only two parts of what must be a multifaceted solution, given that the problems themselves are multifaceted. There is no one size fits all in activism, and there never was.

And before you start denigrating me as someone who doesn’t put their money where their mouth is, maybe ask yourself how old I am before you start insinuating I don’t know how to work as an activist. I’ve worked in activism longer than a lot of the user base of this website has been alive, so don’t come at me with that bullshit.

I never suggested assimilation or appeasement, either, so if you’re assuming that’s part of my proposed solution, you’re dead wrong. You don’t even know for certain I support it, all you know is that you think I support it, but what you think isn’t always true, and critical thinking will tell you that a mile before you ever get to responding to my post.

What do you liberals have been trying to do for at least the last forty years, with very little support from other liberals or liberal politicians? How do you think I know that? We’ve never had help, and it’s often because a bunch of other smug-faced liberals who talk a big game about the revolution but won’t bother to get their hands dirty refuse to accept any solution that isn’t their solution, or they insist on ideological purity. These problems of the left are not new, they’re old, and I’ve been experiencing them firsthand for most of my life.

Also, I would watch my mouth about someone’s bandwidth, if I were you, because I am a chronically ill, multiply disabled person who honestly, doesn’t always have the spoons to handhold condescending so-called progressives who think the only solution to any problem is to blow it up. I don’t have to explain a damned thing to you, and all I’m liable to think from you trying to force an explanation is that 1) you don’t actually have a substantive rebuttal that doesn’t resort to name calling and ignorant insinuations and assumptions, and 2) you don’t know what the other solutions even are and my point about doing research still stands.

If anyone’s the defeatist, it’s people like you who just throw up their hands and go, “Ok, time to kill everyone!” any time they want systemic change rather than bothering to understand that even in a perfectly liberal society, progress and change are slow, and they will always be slower than vulnerable people need.

We’re treading water and trying not to drown, but you’re out there like, “Why not just drain the ocean?”

Ignorance is never the leverage people think it is.

votes don't influence policy, and now there's no way for anyone but 1% of the wealthiest to leverage buying power.

the only power anyone has left is withholding labor.

to do this we will absolutely require alternative sources of water and food.

if, as is so much more likely, everything falls apart, we will still need water and food.

Mutual Aid + General Strike are literally our only shot to stave off mass mayhem and aimless violence.

[heartfullofleeches]

How do you think D.Angelo would react to D.kay?

(I know it literally couldn’t happen but due to some timely wimey stuff they get to meet)

D.Angelo was kept relatively in the dark about the secondary purpose of the androids created by his family's company. There would be an entire new level to his thoughts towards D.Kay if he knew they were an android with the directive to kill those who could not be saved from their emotions. If he had more time, D.Kay's father would've chosen a different vessel for his son's personality.

D.Angelo has very mixed feelings towards D.Kay - When he had first gotten sick, D.Angelo made it his goal to live on in the memories and hearts of those he loved. In a way, D.Kay is a method for him to carry on. He both wants D.Kay to exist because it'll soften the blow of his inevitable demise for a time, but he knows the android's existence will only hurt those he loves more in the long run.

D.Kay is not an exact one to one copy with D.Angelo. His personality was meshed with the fractions of the android's original code. Because of this, D.Angelo would settle his uneasiness towards them by viewing him as a younger brother.

D.Angelo was the type of person who could befriend nearly anyone- even himself.

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"You'll keep the old man in check without me? Dad starting eat less than the scraps he already ate when I got sick... There shouldn't have to be two funerals this year...."

"Eh... Not exactly in my department.... Just kiddin' I'll watch him for you. He's kinda like my dad too, ain't he? By that logical our dad has a lot of kids. Guy gets around."

"Guess so.... And them? You'll make sure Y/n is.. okay? They're the last person I need crying over me. Say you'll hug them for me at the first drop of a tear?"

"Oh, I'll definitely look after them. Losing someone close to you is one of the toughest things a person could go through. They'll need all the support they can get."

"I don't like the way you said that. You try to chat up my best friend I will come back from the grave and unplug you everytime someone puts you up to charge-"

"Dude, I literally am you- You know a threat like that won't stop me. Just got upgraded with solar panels too."

[thatbitchery]

Pick me behavior sickens me more than actual sickness could sicken me I can not think of one thing more unladylike than auditioning for something as stupid as acceptance. Yes when you don't have status markers when you are ugly or poor or nameless sometimes you do have to lick the floor will your pride pay your bills? Help you survive? Even then I can not watch it. Go be ew far from eyes of mine.

Had a conversation with a pick me this morning and if flying and exams didn't already ruin my mood this 🚮did. It's hard enough to meet a fully black person let alone girl in these roads I walk so when I met an African even mixed it's like Jesus praise the Lord. I actually get excited so I see this girl and it passes we share the motherland and ugh. Finally. I've swam in snow for so long I thirst for chocolate so we go on and on about it and obviously at some point it hits the political marker? How? We've both been to the same countries mostly and we bond over it and I say well I'm not confined by 'rich' or 'poor' I just like what I like. I like private jets and I also like Starbucks I don't have a poverty mindset so I don't rank things by price Im self centered I rank them by me. I am my unit of measure so yes I like Starbucks even if it's poor people drinks. She goes yes but you know I no longer take it. I'm waiting for an actual reason like it's unhealthy or an actual tangible reason and this thing hits me with *Free Palestine*. I laugh say mama I can not give a single fuck about Palestine if you paid me to. She gives me the Oh so you're an Israeli supporter you- I say naw I don't give a single faaaaaaak about Israel or Ukraine or Russia or Afghanistan I genuinely do not care who is killing who for what I want Starbucks I'm getting Starbucks idk what "cancelled it" if it's my money I get what I want. This thing gives me a humanitarian speech and I just walk out mid because

Extremely unobservant of you to try guilt trip me do I looooooook like I have ANY morality in me lmao

If the cards were reversed? If they said in Kenya the women can not speak or study or- do you think Afghan women would care? The Democratic Republic of Congo has been on fire since God knows when how many #FreeCongo posts have you seen? Somalia had a clash the same time Russia and Ukraine were measuring nuclear prowess how many of them changed their Profile Picture to include a Somali flag? Sorry do you know what they do to black women there? African women? When I tell my mom Im travelling to ANY part of Asia I can feel her heart break because she watches the news and knows not only am I African with a very African second name I'm also dark skinned and that's anti negro land. They make their idols bleach to ghost level and get their daughters and sons nose jobs do you know what they see you like? IF THE CARDS WERE REVERSED do you think they'd do this for you. The pickmeism of the black community needs to be studied but it is so funny to me when I see it in dark skinned black women like you do know you're at the bottom of the food chain do you not?

So girl goes around saying whatever and one of my friends call me after whatever tf one hour of flying is & I'm trying to deal with all the biological issues of being high altitude in this weather mentally preparing for my exam and I get as SOS and it's *Oh you're pro Israel?* And now I'm pissed because is Israel pro me? I'm pro Russia because Russia erased all my people's debt and I am self centered everyone else bomb each other idk. What does that have to do with me? Girl says YESSS I KNOW RIGHT. We schedule an anti 🚮 session because whew girls are weird out here and now I'm reeling on main because I can't gossip yet so y'all have to catch this stray.

It is a form of stupidity that even a sea cucumber can NOT fathom to be a pick me when you don't need to. And in my books you never need to. Sometimes I get it sometimes I see it I respect it but every single times it disgusts me. Have hundreds of years of femicide and misogyny taught you nothing? And the problem is you know you're not supposed to be a pick me for men (& STILL MOST OF YOU 🚮 ARE. DO NOT TEXT OR ASK ME ABOUT YOUR DEEEK CARRIER I DESPISE YOU BOTH) but when it comes to social settings COWARDS. ALL OF YOU.

Ladies I tell you this because I went through it I speak purely from experience listen to me. Listen to me carefully. Alexa play Mother by Meghan Trainor.

Do. Not. EVER. Turn against yourself in public, not even as a joke. ESPECIALLY not as a joke. It's acceptable if it's serious in a certain way but as a joke? When people make fun or you or yours you- YOU LAUGH??? YOU LET THEM LAUGH? 🤮🚮

IN PUBLIC, PROTECT YOU AND YOURS. 🔊🎤.

I don't like my people I don't I like that I'm African because it's Integral to me and it's not like everyone else is better actually wtf even is that ? But if don't like my people. I hate my culture I hate the mindset I hate the mentality etc when most people are talking shit about us mentally it's like BRUH I KNOW but uhm. Shut your mouth. As far as publicly I'm concerned AFRICA and it's people have never done anything wrong. You exist because we exist. We are the blueprint? Go wear sunscreen and shut the fuck up try to dance with rhythm and cut down on the BBL it looks embarrassing on you. Fillers too. You wanna be me so bad lmao. I HATEEEEE my family so much but you say ONE semi negative thing about them I dare you. No no. Go on. Run your mouth I run mine let's see. PUBLICLY I'm for mine and mines. I do not play pick me games we can NOT bond over hating something that's integral with me. I get along better with men and in a lot of ways I prefer male company ( and I'm a misandrist, so you see it) but Publicly all men are trash women are godesses queen mwah could never be wrong. I will defend a girl I want to unalive to men because I am a woman first THEN I'm a hater . Womanhood is INTEGRAL to me hating is a choice. If I make men feel they can run their mouth about women past me they will start disrespecting me because am I or am I not a woman? Exactly. I am black first then a hater second. Even a mixed person run your mouth go ownnn go on try me. When my people are talking trash about each other too I'll be all over that. I am my father's daughter first before I am the family disappointment so I will say whatever I want about him, you on the other hand. Who are you? Literally why even did you think you could?

If something is INTEGRAL to you, you protect it. In public. You DO not, NAUT. NAWT. Let people talk down on you or yours. Ever. And you do NOT, even as a joke, talk down on any part of yourself that's inseparable from you. I'll make fun of my career all day because it's a choice it's outside me idc about it. It's not a part of me I'm not loyal to it. If that thing is a part of you that's inborn you protect it with your blood .

I digress as one does, let's redirect my anger where it belongs.

It is pick me behavior to do for others what you know for a fact they would not do for you, especially when you know they would hurt you if they had the chance. It is this pickmeism that drives and keeps misogyny and the patriarchy going but we all know that. When in doubt, ask yourself- if this situation was reversed, what would they do? If it's not exactly what you are about to do for them, go home wash your hair and repent to your higher self for whatever that self sabotage was, and learn to mind your own business.

BMAC