#like. in 2010 i didnt really know what fandom was but if i did my big fandoms wouldve been buffy which slay but no one my age knew it

[kurthorton-moving]

I watched the lightning thief movie the other day and i loved it so much it made me sad

[noctiilio]

If gengetsu was never your favourite, who would be your second choice?

See, i'm sorry to disappoint, but that's an impossible answer for me. But I guess i can find still an answer bc i actually didnt have Gen for most of my time in the fandom. But i can tell you i've been even more invested since ive had her.

I was actually not interested in learning abt her character bc her fanon "jokes" were really insensitive, and turned my 14-15 year old self away from her without even digging deeper. I left it at that and forgot about the twins entirely.

But i did look for her trope these entire 12 years ive been here. I looked for the protective, caring, whimsical, powerful yet still playful personality Gengetsu has. So to me it's like she's been here this whole time but i just didnt know it and attributed these traits to one of the non-speaking midbosses instead bc i could do whatever w them bc no canon info could contradict my vision. imagine my joy when i found out that character EXISTED without me having to make things up. Shes been here for 2 yrs with me knowing but ive acfively searched for her for a decade.

my true best friend who stood the test of time since i was 13, though, was flandre, now that i think of it. That's the case for millions of people, yes, shes a popular kiddo! but i always saw in her what most people in the 2010s (the peak of fanon flan's popularity) didn't see. Even when i was in middle school i saw in flandre a lot of my own traits growing up undiagnosed, so i couldn't antagonize her for the life of me. and so, my portrayal of the scarlets were surprisingly canon friendly despite me not having THAT good of a character reading comprehension skill in my teens.

But still, Gengetsu surpassed her even in those short two years ive had her, and ive made it my life mission to make those horrible jokes about her a long gone nightmare so that people see the good in her. Actually, that's kind of what i do for flan too! I shine light on them so that people can see past the terrible fanon that turned me away from Gen so long ago.

I think they should be friends by the way. A lot of people say that but for, again, fanon "evil girls" reason (to which i frown, pout, and make a sad face) but i think theyre full of whimsy and have a lot of energy to spare, they could be friends on a canon setting too!

All this to say i finally found my Blorbo of All Time and i'm not letting go!

[mihai-florescu]

I was reflecting on my early 2010s internet days and man... i sometimes worry that my obsessions now are performative, i Am doing fanarts in hopes of likes, i Am making posts in hopes of conversations etc, i worry that i only do things for engagement. But then i look back at my adventure time days. I would spend hours drawing fanarts, making fancomics, writing down my favorite song lyrics, browsing wikis, hand drawings character refs and then putting it all together in a big binder that i considered my bible. I had no social media, no friends who cared (those who did were casual watchers on tv because we were 9. I learned english to watch episodes in advance online). All i had was the power of undiagnosed autism. And i must admit an embarassing secret, dear readers. I didnt like bubbline (i only knew that was a ship through youtube comments and amvs) because 1. I was 9 and didnt know 2 girls could date, and 2. I wanted marceline for myself. Looking back it's really funny, the track record was that all my crushes in elenentary school were fictional girls but i just assumed thats normal. I remember when the first fionna and cake episode came out and people were going crazy for matshal lee, i thought he was fine, fun, but i was also mentally rolling my eyes because he's not as cool as marceline. I dont even know why i was a hater there i think i just was too much of a marceline fan to accept what i perceived as people hyping up this guy more than her? Once again i was in elementary school. I had no connection to other Actual people in a fandom setting. And thats how things should be at that age... once i hit middle school my pokemon hyperfixation came back and i also discovered what reddit was... i wasnt posting myself as far as i remember but still. I think it wasnt until my superwholock phase, youtubers phase, and early anime phase in middle school when i started posting online. Wait i just remembered another core memory of the late elementary school days. All the rule 34 that was just free floating on google images when you searched for a character. I was also a mlp girl, so, you know. I like to think im truly and properly desensitized to any and every thing the internet can offer.

[thrashmaiden]

Evilutione5150

@evilutione5150   

Writing this here seems like a better idea then hammering it out in my physical journal since this is where our friendship began.

Preparing to age myself heavily as I pour my thoughts out into the tumblr void. Thinking about how online culture helped shape me, helped me find friends and connect with the various fringe subcultures littered around the country. What started as a way to pass time in a telco job with unlimited access to the net and a barely basic understanding I started this Tumblr roughly 12 years ago and Acky aka @evilutione5150 was one of my first friends. 

He joked with me about music, art, 80s t.v or movies and never missed a pun or 10 deep simpsons quote. He was kind and abrupt and not once did he slide into my DMS looking for an ass pic. 

For a girl on tumblr into heavy metal facing the brunt of aggression from men for ‘doing it for attention’ combined with the misstep of using the hashtag #metalchick to try and find other girls into metal and finding only hate, he was a breath of fresh air. No hate, no pick up lines or sleeze. We just chatted like we were stood next to each other at a show. 

The first time he posted about one of my fave local and best mates band I instantly reblogged it, excited, they were going to absolutely kill it and they were making people happy and here was the proof, in Ackys words, they did it! He enthusiastically chatted with me about them and would tell me about their shows from across the country. 

He was not shy with coming forward about what he did and did not like but more then anything he was inclusive and passionate. Seems like everyone is striving to be exclusive these days, which is wonderful, but he didnt need to learn that, or be shown, he didnt need to be shamed or bullied into it, it was just a small part of the foundation of Acky. 

His passion saw him front of the gig, supporting the scene with promos, podcasts, designing shirts and sharing information on pretty much every platform, and for free. 

He did so much, just this one guy and now he is just gone?

His shirt designs are still in my top 3 rotations and I have taken my ‘ big sunglasses, very important’  shirt on every trip I have been on and it has been the best conversational piece. His humor translated well through his art and shirt designs. The dry blunt Aussie humor mixed with heavy metal references have lead to me meeting so many new people and each time I would let him know....dude....people LOVE your shirts! 

so whats a t shirt? whats the big deal and how does this make him inclusive?

Ackys humor made me feel seen and made me feel like I had somewhere when for most of my life I have been a nomad. He created a way for people to talk to me, to point at my shirt, laugh and strike a convo and some of those interactions have turned into life long friendships. 

I'm sure now there are plenty of fifth element or robocop album cover mash ups but at the time he was doing something really cool for so many people involved in fandoms that spanned so far. I chat to so many people about wrestling, or troma films or sci-fi and retro gaming because of Acky. His humour just translated well enough and was not at the expense of others (unless you were a politician) nor was it just a cash grab because pizza+ninja turtles+slayer=profit. He just threw his passions and artistry together and ran with whatever came out which in turn created a wicked community around him. 

We initially bonded over BLS, we had the same necklace charm with the logo on a dinky ball chain straight from the 2010s and would discuss at length what shows we would go to, albums we liked, new projects Zakk worked on and he would share his own musical talent which he had a lot of. He spoke kindly of his son and quite frequently would sacrifice his time or skip shows he had been talking about and dreaming about to spend time with him and not once did he complain about the trade off. 

I truly think that over the years he has been my biggest supporter in whatever I do. My strongest confident and kindest advocate. We shared our rough times and he would recommend songs or thow me a meme to let me know he understood. 

Now as his name slips down my message inbox, and as I post, his notification isn't the first to pop up anymore I feel a new kind of lonely. 

Its a kind of lonely I haven't felt since we met from a feeling that goes deeper then a romance or a family bond. He made a community and he let me in.

I hope I made him feel less lonely and I hope I could be there for him the way he was for me. I hope he knew he was loved and that his art and the community he built will live on in some way. I hope his spot at shows is filled and someone else is there to reach out to let others know they have somewhere to belong, if not in person then just online.

He went through a lifetime of pain and discomfort so the idea he is relaxing with his guitar, or cracking his fingers to write out another review or chuckling to himself as he edits his face into another metallica meme is a nice one. 

But most of all I hope he found some happiness or comfort in the really wonderful way he impacted those that had the pleasure to know him.

As time unravels and my tears settle, I will have more to say and share but for now Im posting this knowing he wont ever see it, when after so many years on here, he was one of the only people I kept this blog alive for, for so long. 

[pwnyta]

Idk if you have ever watched Katekyo hitman Reborn, but I was part of the fandom even before the anime boomed (it’s like… 2010-11-ish, I think?I was a little younger than MCs, so around 11-12 yo and now I am 20+) and I remember out of all characters liking Tsuna (mc) the best, even tho he was a loser and wasn’t really all that cool… and I still remember how anime boomed bc the artstyle changed significantly in the later arcs and suddenly all characters started to look really hot.

And god how much I’ve hated it! Bc suddenly there was shit ton of people who were actively thirsting for all of those characters but also there were A LOT of people who were hating on Tsuna, and I really, REALLY disliked it :)))) Idk maybe I’ve really related to the fact that he was a normal guy just thrown into the world of mafia and crazy people out of nowhere, in a way that I also experienced a lot of bullshit I didn’t want to be a part of back then(but no one asked my opinion obv).

For that reason I really disliked the fact that so many people have joined KHR bc characters were hot… it rubbed me the wrong way and I think I also didn’t really like majority of the cast all that much? Characters like Hibari seemed to be just hot and crazy without any personality outside of it. I wouldn’t say that my years in the fandom were miserable, but it sucked to constantly hear that your fav character is annoying and dumb…

………..

…And then I’ve decided to rewatch the show a lot of years later :’))))) AND GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I AM SO FUCKING PISSED.

I don’t even know how to say it… but after I’ve rewatched KHR I’ve realized that majority of the characters I’ve disliked are actually pretty cool and I love their personalities and little quirks, and as for Tsuna… holy fucking shit he takes the medal for literally not changing AT ALL. Like, at first everything was fine, but then I’ve realized that he legitimately practically didn’t change from the very first episode. Then again, I don’t know if you’ve watched it but anime have ended on the arc where Tsuna and his friends literally have saved SEVERAL WORLDS (it makes sense in the context I swear) and then in next arc (two last arc weren’t animated) he was beaten up by fucking SCHOOL BULLIES… bruh wtf… I mean, sure, he was beaten up while trying to help another person to get out of troubles (which he probably would have never done in the beginning of the story) but I still can’t get over the fact that so many chapters/arcs later he is unable to defend himself…

What I am trying to say is that is an extremely shitty feeling to return to the franchise you love just to find out that your fave sucks ass practically didn’t change from start to finish, while a lot of other characters get a lot of growth and actually CHANGE. I’m so salty about it you have no idea :))))))

Reborn was THE fandom for me back when it was pretty popular!

I dont remember Tsuna being hated all that much but as always I mostly stay on the fringe of fandom because I know how people can be. But yeah... I do know the KHR fandom was one that you just wanted to avoid due to its size which is usually true for most fandoms.

Hibari (who I actually liked), the guy who looked like he was from Black Butler, and Gokudera... as is typical of fandoms of kind of douchey characters... a lot of the fans were also douchey and probably insist that the characters who were nice were too boring because they werent assholes.

I disagree with you that Tsuna sucked, he did largely stay the same but he was fun and funny. I enjoyed his rapport with the most of the cast and even though he had his typical Shonen protag vibe... like I just didnt expect him to NOT be that. He filled the roll he was made for. Gokudera was the loud jag that bitched about everything, Yamamoto was the clueless powerhouse that just was cool with all the crazy shit happening around him, Hibari... had a deranged love for his school for some reason, Tsuna was the power of friendship good boy who did his best even though he was a fucking idiot...

You were not wrong or dumb for liking Tsuna he was a sweet, idiot boy with the power of frienship! Dont feel influenced by the shittiest parts of fandom just because Tsuna wasnt MEGA deep. He doesnt need to be, he was a fine protag in a shonen series that was largely there just for fun. There was mafia babies, there was a bitch who kept poisoning her brother, a guy who couldnt function unless he saw his boys, an infant who shot himself with a bazooka when he was upset, a little baby that didnt have ears and you think its just a stylistic choice until theres a story involving her bad eyesight in which they get her glasses but she cant wear them because she doesnt have ears! ...

It was never that deep.

Tsuna didnt have to be anything more than he was to carry the series. People need everything to be like top tier and mega nuanced and shit... and its so boring... Just have fun with a series...

Like you dont expect Hocus Pocus to be that deep... the characters have a pretty predictable not that EXTREME change throughout but no one cares because its a fun movie. Do I wanna watch Citizen Kane? Or do I wanna watch Hocus Pocus for the millionth time?

FUCKIN HOCUS POCUS. Citizen Kane is fucking boring.. I wanna have fun.

Thats all Im saying sometimes a series is Hocus Pocus... you know what I mean?

-Signed a mega fan of Yamamoto and Ryohei the two dumbest mother fuckers in the series.

[lilatreus]

im new to the ac fandom and i didnt know there were any books should i be reading them?? or are there certain ones that i absolutely need to read or would i be okay if i skip them?

Yeah it’s okay to skip them if you want! They’re mostly there to give some more insight on some of the characters. If you want to read them but you don’t have to money to buy the books, you can read them here. I actually have all the books already on paper copy so I would definitely recommend buying them if you really enjoy them.

There’s also some comics and graphic novels about them too which I have included in on the master list. They actually follow the modern storyline of you want to read up on that. If you want to read them just do readcomicsonline. They have them all, only watch out for ads.

Anyway here’s the master list, it’s pretty long won’t lie:

The books, in order of strictly historical events:

Assassin’s Creed Odyssey by Gordon Doherty (2018)

Basically this books gives the canonical story to assassin’s creed odyssey following Kassandra around Greece. If you had the “best” or good ending from the story then you’re probably going to be upset with the book. I actually liked it and if you were ever confused about the game then this is definitely for you to read.

Assassin’s Creed Origins: Desert Oath by Oliver Bowden (2017)

This book takes place years before Origins. It follows Bayek who a teenager at the time. We learn how Bayek and Aya start their relationship and it kind of explains some of the side missions that talk about Bayek’s past. If you love Bayek and Aya’s relationship you will love this book.

[ insert for whenever an ac valhalla book is written ]

Assassin’s Creed: The Secret Crusade by Oliver Bowden (2011)

This book is the one I’m currently rereading, so it takes place with the father of Marco Polo talking about Altaïr’s life. It talks about his—Altaïr’s—dad within the first few chapters, events that happened in the game, and then what happens after. It gives more insight on what happened between the events of ac one and the little bits of scenes we see in ac revelations of Altaïr in game. If you want to know how Maria and Altaïr got together you’ll like this book it’s very sweet and I love how smitten Altaïr was. If you love Atlmal (Altaïr and Malik) you’ll also like this book but it will crush you.

Assassin’s Creed: Renaissance by Oliver Bowden (2009)

This follows Ezio through assassin’s creed two. Literally just the book version of the game. Does talk about how Ezio and Cristina got together and a few of the memories you get to play in Brotherhood are in this book. I like it. It pretty much follows the game exactly so if you want to skip it, you can but still a really good book that I recommend reading.

Assassin’s Creed: Brotherhood by Oliver Bowden (2010)

Follows the plot of the game. It’s pretty similar to it as opposed to a few differences. While I like this book, I will always say the game is better than this book entirely. Still, it’s pretty good and explains a lot of plot.

Assassin’s Creed: Revelations by Oliver Bowden (2011)

It explains why Ezio is doing what he does in the game. Why he’s there and what is reasoning is. You get a little small bit about Claudia but that’s it. Ezio does, in book, visit Leonardo on the last few days before the artist dies :( that’s pretty much it. Only some minor differences to the game. If you’re looking for something about Desmond, you won’t find it in this book.

Assassin’s Creed: Black Flag by Oliver Bowden (2013)

I’ll be honest I only read this book once so my memory is pretty poor on it but from what I can remember it’s about Edward and Caroline and how they got together. And then there’s something about Anne Boney and Edward towards the end I believe. Kind of explains his backstory from the little scenes we’re shown in the game I think? (Correct me if I’m wrong on this one but I’m certain that’s the gist of it).

Assassin’s Creed: Forsaken by Oliver Bowden (2012)

This one was the first assassin’s creed book I read. Now fair warning: if you do not like Haytham Kenway, I strongly advise you to not read this book. It is all about Haytham until the final few chapters and then Connor takes over the book once you’ve killed him in game. This book explains how he (Haytham) came to be apart of the Templars and how Edward dies. It talks about his relationship with Ziio and how he built the Templar order up during the seven years war. I’ll be honest it was okay when I first read it because I was like 11 and the only other thing I had read was like just percy jackson. Looking back on this book though, it’s not that great. I do not like Haytham at all so I, personally, would not recommend this book. I went in reading it expecting for it to be about Connor and I was very disappointed and upset that it wasn’t. So you can skip this book if you like because the only thing it does is give insight to a lot of what Haytham does.

Assassin’s Creed: Unity by Oliver Bowden (2014)

This is my favorite book. This is about Arno reading Elise’s diary after she passed. There’s little bits where Arno writes in here and there throughout the novel. It’s pretty sad I won’t lie. Explains how Elise grew up, what she did during the parts where we didn’t see her in game, and talks about how she felt during the parts where we did see her in game. Basically at the end of the book it’s Elise asking Arno to please help seek unity and stop the war between the Templars and Assassins.

Assassin’s Creed: Underworld by Oliver Bowden (2015)

This book follows Jayadeep Mir, also known to us as Henry Green. There’s two parts to this book. The first part takes place six years before the events of syndicate and you get to really learn about the twin’s father and then the second part takes place during the events of the game. It talks about Evie and Henry’s relationship during the second part and it’s pretty good!

There are no books about assassin’s creed chronicles (ac China, India, and Russia) if you’re wondering why they’re missing :(

The comics:

*most of these take place during the modern storyline I’ll try my best to explain when they come in and how it adds up to the new our modern storyline at the end

Assassin’s Creed the Fall

There’s three issues with this it’s just a graphic novel honestly. Takes place with the main character from AC Chronicles: Russia

Assassin’s Creed the Chain

Graphic Novel sequel to the Fall

Assassin’s Creed Brahman

Written by the same people who wrote The Fall and The Chain, however this focuses on Arbaaz Mir who is the main character from Assassin’s Creed Chronicles: India.

Now from what I’ve seen, correct me if I’m wrong, but the templar and assassin comics pretty much take place around the same time.

Assassin’s Creed: Trial by Fire

Assassin’s Creed issue #1, #2, #3, #4, #5

Assassin’s Creed Templars: Black Cross

Assassin’s Creed Templars issue #1, #2, #3, #4, #5

Assassin’s Creed: Setting Sun

Assassin’s Creed issue #6, #7, #8, #9, #10

Assassin’s Creed Templars: Cross of War

Assassin’s Creed Templars issue issue #6, #7, #8, #9

Assassin’s Creed: Homecoming

Assassin’s Creed issue #11, #12, #13, #14

Assassin’s Creed: Uprising

Common Ground Vol 1: issue #1, #2, #3, #4

Infection Point Vol 2: issue #5, #6, #7, #8

Finale vol 3: #9, #10, #11, #12

Assassin’s Creed Reflections (pretty much a stand alone I would say, focuses entirely on past assassins but canon to the templar comics).

Reflections 1: modern story focuses on Otso Berg historical story focuses on Ezio where we learn Ezio is implied to have hooked up with the woman who in the Mona Lisa painting.

Reflections 2: same thing for modern story but now Otso is looking into Altaïr’s story. We get to see Maria, Altaïr, and their son Darim.

Reflections 3: Otso is now looking into Edward Kenway.

Reflections 4: Otso looks into Connor and we see him with his daughter. It’s super cute this issue is my favorite.

Last Descendants

The Last Descendants (Novel)

Locus: issues 1 - 4

The Last Descendants: Tomb of the Khan (novel)

The Last Descendants: Fate of the Gods (novel)

Assassin’s Creed: the French Books (these have all been translated into english and theyre all graphic novels).

These books I would say to skip. If you want to read it you can, however the modern storyline has been said to no longer be canon anymore. The historical storyline however is still canon but not actually necessary to the plot of anything.

Cycle 1

Assassin’s Creed 1: Desmond

Assassin's Creed 2: Aquilus

Assassin's Creed 3: Accipiter

Assassin's Creed 4: Hawk

Assassin's Creed 5: El Cakr

Assassin's Creed 6: Leila

Cycle 2

Assassin’s Creed: Conspiracies

This takes place during WW2

Vol 1: Die Glocke

Vol 2: Project Rainbow

Cycle 3

Assassin’s Creed: Bloodstone

This takes place during the Vietnam War. A follow up on Conspiracies.

Vol 1: book one

Vol 2: book two

The last two I have listed (Conspiracies and Bloodstone) are canon to the comics’ modern storyline as well as the historical. Cycle one is not. They’re both graphic novels. Also I want to say that I have not read these two yet so idk if I’ll be allowed to recommend them but they’re there. I have no idea where they’re placed in terms of modern storyline bc these two are very confusing seeing as they originally were canon then told they weren’t and now they are again.

Other comics that I really have no idea where to place but they do exist if you want to read them:

Assassin’s Creed: Origins (mini series)

Four issues for this comic takes place following Aya and her journey. You get to see what happens with Cleopatra. I personally really like this comic you get some lore on the Brotherhood and Aya so it’s good. Read this after the video game. (Pretty positive it takes place after the game events but before the DLC: hidden ones)

Assassin’s Creed: Valhalla: Song of Glory (mini series)

There are three issues in this. Haven’t read this one yet, however it focuses on Eivor. Read this alongside the video game.

Okay so for canon timeline purposes here is the exact order of everything I’ve listed and where they fall in for strictly the modern storyline:

1 The Fall and the Chain (also called subject four which is just the two of the books into one)

2 Desmond’s story

3 Brahman

4 Assassin’s Creed: Trial by Fire 1 - 5

5 Assassin’s Creed Templars: Black Cross 1 - 5

6 Assassin’s Creed: Setting Sun 6 - 10

6 Assassin’s Creed Templars: Cross of War 6 - 9

7 Assassin’s Creed: Homecoming 11 - 14

Assassin’s Creed Reflections (stand alone don’t have to read if you don’t want to but if you do, read along side the templar stories.)

8 Assassin’s Creed Syndicate modern storyline takes place here

9 Assassin’s Creed: Uprising

10 Origins modern storyline starts here and continues for assassin’s creed odyssey and valhalla*

*If you’re confused as to why Juno isn’t in the game plot anymore the comics explains it. Ubisoft has completely moved her story to the comics entirely and in doing so completely finished the story.

[scribblesandsorcery]

Tagged by @celta-diabolica and @bedeliainwonderland 🖤 Thank you!

1. Why did you choose your url?

All the previous usernames I'd used had been based around fandoms I was in when I made them, so I was looking for something not fandom-specific that could encompass my current interests and whatever else I might get into. I chose "scribbles" because it covers both writing and art, and "sorcery" for the alliteration and because witch vibes have always been a thing with me.

2. Any side blogs?

No.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

I had an old Tumblr back in the day (2010-ish?) that I barely used, but I lost the login. I made this blog in 2019, but it didn't really get used until 2021.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

No, I still don't really understand Tumblr or its user interface (I miss the LJ/Dreamwidth system tbh), so I just reblog stuff as I feel like it.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Back in 2019 I was considering dipping my toe back into fandom for the first time in a few years, so I made a new Tumblr, but then I got busy with work and real life stuff so it sat inactive until lockdown. During lockdown I watched the first 6 seasons of The X-Files and became a fan of Gillian Anderson, and then I watched all of Hannibal on Netflix in like two days, and well...Bedelia is very much my type of character. And then fic ideas started happening, and that's when I started actually using this blog.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

It's a stock image that I thought fit the vibe of my url.

7. Why did you choose your header?

It was big enough and the right colour scheme, mostly xD But also, Yuuko Ichihara has been a major influence in my life since my troubled teen years. She's one of my favourite characters, I RPed her on LJ back in the day, and she was the subject of the first fanfic I ever wrote, so it felt fitting. Also it's just nice artwork.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

This shitpost about writing that I made in the middle of the night is the only post of mine to hit triple digits, and I gained four or five followers from it (doesn't sound like much, but I was new on here and had maybe six followers at the time).

9. How many mutuals do you have?

...something like 6? I don't know many people.

10. How many followers do you have?

About 25? And I think half of those are bots. I hang out in my little corner of fandom and I'm pretty shy, so I've only made a few new friends on here.

11. How many people do you follow?

82, apparently.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

That's basically what my Tumblr is for. I get the shitposting out of my system on here rather than on social media that has my professional name attached. Well, mostly.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

I check in regularly.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

No. I just hang out in my little corner, and most of my fandoms are dead enough that there's no one to argue with anyways.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I mostly ignore them.

16. Do you like tag games?

Yes! I'm very shy, but I'm always happy when people tag me in things.

17. Do you like ask games?

I haven't posted any yet, but I have a bunch of fic/writing ones I'll get to at some point.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

I mean, I have maybe 12 people following me, so y'all are famous compared to me.

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

If we've ever interacted at any point, I am still thinking about it and worrying that I said or did something stupid/weird, so uh...interpret that how you will.

I tag @the-girl-who-didnt-make-anysense @ohhalefire @boojums-snark and anyone else who wants to play 🖤

[scifiphan]

okay this is going to be a bit of a rant because i haven't found a place where I can talk about this (hope you don't mind ah) but oh god i witnessed the entire twt shitshow on my tl i didnt say anything cuz twt phannies (stan twt in general actually) have pathetic superiority complexes and are so up dnp’s asses they have no awareness whatsoever. i hate how twt fandom culture doesn't let you criticize anything ur faves do and put these celebs on a pedestel. honestly, anush literally didn't say anything wrong dnp have a communication problem we all know that and its extra sucky how after 10 years of giving so much to the fans and the fans being so invested, they just thought it was okay to end things without proper closure. like, i understand why they did what they did now but it still doesn't sit right how they just swept everything under the rug and said sayonara. also twitter started this whole 'dan is suffering mentally ur being so selfish by saying he doesn't care' narrative which also so fucking insensitive??? he's said it so many times that he doesn't let his depression define him or hinder his work and for stans to use that as a justification for poor communication is just shitty.

i shall not be opening the dan howell can of worms just yet because oh boy.... i have so many thoughts about daniel james howell and how the twitter phandom treat him that i could right an entire essay.

but piggybacking off ur rant, i really really really hate stan twitter. yes i do spend most of my social media time on twitter but goddddd i hate the self-centred superiority ‘my opinion is the only right opinion pls don’t argue with me or i’ll doxx you’. and not only that, talking to twitter phannies is like ur talking to a brick wall.... they just refuse to listen. and like even tho i have every single dnp related word muted on twitter, I STILL SEE THEIR DUMBASSERY. like an ex-phannie or still-phannie-but-adult will say a genuinely good opinion, albeit controversial, and boom next thing you know the 13 year olds come to cancel you.

as for dan and phil themselves..... it doesn’t sit right with me either. like dan and phil were notorious for having a loyal fanbase. for almost an entire fucking decade dan and phil and the phandom dominated social media spaces... phan always ranked in the top of the tumblr tags... phan was always so high up on ao3... phan was something everyone knew, either by watching youtube or social media osmosis. like they were so fucking integral to western internet culture of the 2010s and then they just get up and leave?? destroy what could arguably be the most loyal youtuber fanbase... well not arguably, the phandom was the loyalist fanbase. and now what do they have? older fans who are annoyed at them, annoying kids, and ppl who r just too lazy to find another interest (if ur in the 3rd category pls find a new hobby.. pls). i think dan and phil royally fucked up by throwing away that loyalty and throwing away that relevance. yeah, all youtubers eventually become washed up but dnp had the potential to at least settle into youtube irrelevancy with a smaller, yet loyal fanbase. but instead phil decided to sell out and dan fucked off into nowhere and the phandom was left in shambles. so yeah, thanks dnp

[alwaysxyou]

hi! i was so full of love for Harry and Louis today and still am, but I saw a bunch of antis (like a bunch) completely bashing Larries and talking about how we “ruined their relationship” and “are delusional” I’ve learned that there is no reason to fight with them as long as I’m also not prying/being respectful they will leave us alone, but they were basically saying we were bad people for that. I know I couldn’t have ruined their relationship, as I literally became a fan in May and am still (1)

(2) really young, also I usually keep my thoughts/opinions to myself to not be disrespectful to what other people think. I don’t think I’m a bad person for loving two peoples love? Even though it didn’t change my thoughts, it made me sad that they genuinely think we are delusional and I don’t want someone to think of me that way. Idk why I’m really writing this, I guess I just want reassurance that I’m not a bad person for shipping/believing it?

(3) last thing, I just don’t get the whole “ruined friendship” thing. Like why would their family and close friends encourage it a lot then? If they really believed they were just SUPER good friends, wouldn’t it take more than some “crazy” fans to ruin that. I can’t speak for that (maybe it’s different for how some people feel) but someone thought me and my ex-best friend were dating and we thought it was the best thing ever. it’s clear that in 2010-12? HL did too, whether bc it was true or fun

i think you partly answer your own concern here. larries regardless of when they joined the fandom have never ruined their relationship or friendship. that was a narrative created years ago, that antis ran with to fit their het fantasies for the boys. but even through those times, there were always signs that hl were still insanely close, that they appreciated and found ways to communicate with larries and be like we know you see and get it!, and they still continue to do those things to this day. 

youre exactly right, why would their entire social circles be intertwined and overlapping if they actually hated each other. and why would their 1d management go to such absurd lengths to try and force that narrative? there are narries and zarries and ziams and who knows what galore but they never did anything to try and make people believe they werent friends in 1d. why was it just larry? why was larry the only pairing that didnt get a 1d day hour? it’s different, because it is, because there is something real there. 

and antis are just assholes. especially the ones being exceptionally vocal. larries arent hurting anyones. theres bad bunches in every setting in the world, and antis love to run with the few examples that they can find and grasp on to. but overall most actual larries are insanely aware and recognize the boundaries. which is something that antis very very much do not. you are not a bad person for believing (for seeing more like it), for loving them both individually or together, or anything else that comes with it. youre doing just fine 

[funky-furby]

ive been thinking abt a lot of old, internet stuff lately cause my relationship with the internets changed a lot as ive gotten more popular as a content creator (not on here, on tiktok)

fandom started as entertainment but shifted to a community for me in highschool, and i kinda lost that after the furby community. im not great at making friendships (getting better tho!!! so much better!!) and the small nature of the furby community and the similarities a lot of us shared facilitated that process

im still really new to posting and  interacting online (and having more than one friend), i joined my first discord in 2016 or 2017 or so and that was a damn, whirl wind of drama (not furby related) and i still didnt really know how to talk to people. i learned a lot about managing relationships from that.

after that the furby fandom helped me open up, and learn some healthier coping mechanisms (and let myself stim) and start to understand that i, probably am on the autism spectrum (my mom refused to get me tested when i was younger). having a community of lgbt people to talk to too, as someone who lives in a really conservative town, was invaluable too

im in a very weird place now with online stuff, because internet culture is shifting and i dont understand a lot of these changes. i still remember a lot of 2010s anime fandom stuff that was accepted, but if you did it now you’d get called out for and ive tried to understand why, but im having a very hard time adjusting as i get back into anime (which is what im popular for)

ive always had “childish” interests, so my accounts mostly popular with children, and interacting with minors wasnt weird in highschool, it was just like having younger friends, but i dont know how to handle it now that im almost 22, when the anime community is ripe with accusations of lewding minors, or other sus behavior that im really, really struggling to wrap my head around (i dont want to hurt anyone, but it doesnt make sense to me when its fictional, but my concerns abt being called out or hated are affecting my ability to talk online, and in person to kids)

and i guess, fandom isnt really even entertainment for me rn, its something to analyze because i adore looking at trends, wondering where they came from, maybe why a characters mischaracterized in a certain way. but now that im a creator whos actually seen it colors my ability to interact with fandom

the furby fandom was a really big part of my life and in my personal discovery and growth and i feel like ive managed to continue that growth in some ways, but in others i feel like im stepping back. those steps back are upsetting when  it comes to being a creator considering being an online creator as a job has  been a dream of mine since middleschool and now that its actually starting to seem like a possibility, im not sure i can handle the visibility healthily

[tl-trashtalk]

Get To Know Me

tagged by @ashtcnirwin you’re so cute anna!! thank you for these

1. what was your first encounter with fanfiction? 

my first encounter with fan fic was on the-n.com for the show Instant Star and the ship was Tommy and Jude but it was written in like message boards lmao

2. your favourite creation of your own of all time if you create stuff (feel free to link it)? 

my angsty cashton fic which you can find here

3. what vibe are you going for with your home decor (or what vibe do you wanna go for one day, if you don’t have your own place atm)? 

queer as fuck lol. no seriously i want it to be eclectic, organized chaos with lots of color and plants hippie meets gays with lots of music everywhere

4. first fandom you ever joined? what was it like? on what platform did it happen? 

first fandom i joined was here on tumblr and it was the killers back in 2010. i def flew under the radar and just kind of did my own thing. i never really got involved. 

5. what are your sun, moon and rising signs, and do you think they make sense in relation to how you know yourself? 

I am a Scorpio Sun, Libra Moon, and Sagittarius Rising. I have to be real I dont know v much about zodiac stuff so if anyone has insight on this im up to hearing it

6. if you write and/or read fiction (original or fanfiction), do the tropes/plots/character types you typically seek out to read and/or write about reflect something about you as a being or how you see the world? 

if we’re talking about smutty stuff i would say that the fic i seek out is v indicative of my kinks/what turns me on lol but other non-smutty fic i tend to be drawn to a lot of slow burns and angst which i think might be because of all the trauma ive faced in my life. i like the realism in it because if its too fluffy or happy i get sad that life isnt really like that.  

7. what is the hardest obstacle you’ve had to overcome so far in life? 

my dad passing away. he was my favorite person in my life and i will miss him every day until my last breath

8. what is your all time favourite song(s)? 

Sweet Child of Mine by Guns N Roses, Lucky One by Amy Grant, The Rain Song by Led Zeppelin, Just Hold On by Louis Tomlinson. I could go on and on but if you wanna follow me on Spotify you can do so here

9. what do you look for in a person you wanna keep in your life, be it a friend or a romantic partner or anything in between? 

Genuinity: someone who is the same no matter who they’re around. Honesty: not just in word but in action and in thought. Living and speaking your truth. Loyalty: having someone that’s “my person” and will be on my side and back me up when I need it. Kindness: someone who is acts in love at all times and isnt vindictive or hurtful just to do it or because its “funny”.  But also someone who is dedicated to making me a better person and will call me out when I need it. 

10. this is a bit of a difficult one, but have you ever had a moment of clarity, a conversation with someone that made you go “oh!”, or anything along those lines?

the moment of clarity that sticks out the most was when i realized i was a lesbian. i had been on the fence that maybe i was bisexual or pansexual. but i was in a bar and had been eyeballing a girl all night. my friend was with me and she was my wingman and went over to the girl and told her i wanted to dance but didnt tell me. so im sitting there minding my business and the girl comes up to me and pulls me off my bar stool and says something like “your friend told me you wanted to dance with me” and she basically lead me around the dancefloor to Hotel California by The Eagles. It was a moment that i realized i had never felt that kind of peace and attraction and happiness at that level that i ever had with the 2 male relationships i had. 

tagging @thursday-knight @creampiecashton @queenie-004 @eternalgoldfish

[luupetitek]

I did the thing! Lately a lot of artists post their 10 years of art progress meme, to celebrate that we're starting a new decade. I liked the idea, so I made my own \(*´▽`*)/ 10 years! Who could have thought! My art journey is of course longer, but those are probably my most intense art years x3

More about my art journey under the cut!

2006/2007 was the moment I discovered manga and anime and after joining the fandom, I started writing fanfics and slowly drawing more often. I was inspired by all the stories I could watch and read and by all those cool characters. I also get to know more people who also liked to draw. My first love was InuYasha, and right after was Death Note, which you can see even here ;)  I joined my first art community, deviantART, in 2008. Thinking about making my own manga, but I've never drew any page, staying on the first stage of planning everything.

In 2010 I was still drawing. Drawing even more. All the time! Usually on my lessons :v As you can see, I drew mostly traditional, usually fast pencil sketches, or more fancy, inked and color pencil ones :v But that was the year I got my first graphic tablet! It was terrible, but I was happy I could finally draw digitally... with Paint x'DDD oh my good, yes. My first graphic program was window's PAINT. Still it was fun! But, as you can imagine, my works weren't too good quality (you can see them in the scraps, lol), and i didn't have many tools to work with. So I stayed with my fancy Faber-Castell Polychromos color pencils 😎 I was no longer writing fanfics. Nonetheless, I didnt stop writing at all, I started chat rpgs with my friend! Beginning with Death Note characters.

2011 was the year I started thinking about my art carrier even more seriously. Taking some private and class art lessons. Not for too long, but I was introduced to other art styles, mostly realism. Still practising digital art and my own art style too. I also started doing commissions this year!

2012 I changed my high school for a school with an art class :D I also started taking some private lessons from a skilled artist, who could teach me not only traditional, but also digital art and liked manga too. I think that's the year I made my biggest and probably mostly visible art progress. I was drawing ALL THE TIME. I was no longer using Paint, but Paint ToolSAI and then Photoshop. I got a Wacom Bamboo tablet (which I still have and use up to this days). But what's even more important: I was not only drawing, but also observing. I was looking at photos, at people around me. Noticing how their bodies move, how do they look like, how their body parts and their clothes look like. Drawing from references and from the world around me, sitting in a subway and drawing people sitting next to me. I was learning the anatomy, shapes, gestures, shading. I LOOOOOVED sketching and making full pencil pictures! And still, even though I don't draw traditionally anymore, sketching is my most favourite part form the whole drawing process cx Oh! And that's the year I started to play on a rpg forum with a ttly original story and when Drill was made! ♥ My first true original character, that I'm proud of and that I still love~

2013 was busy with my preparations to get to the art university! I still drew a lot, mostly the rpg characters and some practice sketches, but now also big format pencil and paint pictures for my portfolio. I felt in love with aquarelles 😍 and was practising them together with pencil sketches and digital art. I also did my first, short animations : > And did a project with the whole movie clip for the Disney's song "I'll make a man out of you"! I had a lot of fun AND I GOT ACCEPTED INTO MY DREAM COLLAGE!!! ＼(≧▽≦)／ Like, seriously, it was my goal since my middle school, when I first saw their ad in a subway, lol

2014 More art! More digital! More aquarelles! More OCs! Generally the only thing I was drawing that time was rpg characters and uni projects xD Started experimenting more, connecting traditional art with digital art

2015 Same, just drawing those OC's in many ways and having fun~ RPing a lot and... OH! Is that? Yes it IS! It's RAVENIA! It's the year when Vasdorl was born ٩(♡ε♡)۶And my love for drow ofc!! I was introduced to DnD and fantasy and there was no going back from that path. I joined the drow community on tumblr and discord to meet more people with the same interests.

2016 IT'S RAVENIA!!!!! And the real start of the drow era! That's also the year when "Vicous Vasdorl" comic started! And when I began working on my BIG "Escaping the Underdark" game project, as my final uni project ♥ I came back to doing commissions and developed my comic "simple style"

2017 More drow! More Ravenia! More Vasdorl! And of course MORE OF MY GAME, that was taking most of my time as I already was too late with it. It was such a big project for just a one person and I had to take a one more semester to work on it. Drawing all days and all nights. Generally I was just waking up, working and going to sleep and that was my life back then. That was also the moment I learned how to do good digital sketches, as I was drawing A LOT. Especially while working on my animations. (Drawing them traditionally just to remake them digitally was too much time-consuming. So I completely stopped doing it. I was abandoning my pencil, and replacing it fully with tablet pen). AND I DID IT!!! I graduated with the highest grade possible and I finished my game! \(^ヮ^)/ I started doing plushies and chibis and went more into doing commissions.

What about those last 2018 and 2019 years? I guess you know them well. I had more problems so I stopped doing my comic and focused on doing commissions. Doing commissions and from time to time drawing our dear Ravenia characters but I didn't stop in my journey here. Working on comms was a perfect way to experiment more and go out of my comfort zone! Drawing many different things, many different characters and of course backgrounds! Which I always hated doing and now I don't have anything against. Experimenting with light and perspective. Mastering my skills and my anatomy knowledge. Making art trades and gifts. Having fun with you on streams x> Just trying to push myself a little bit more foreword and learn something new with every picture~

Woha, that's a really long description xD' But for the TLDR people: It was a long journey! But I'm very proud of it! Starting from manga and anime, with traditional works and doing mostly fanarts. And slowly going to digital fantasy, not using any traditional techniques anymore, to draw my and my friend's OCs. I spent most of my life on making art, 12 years on deviantArt, 5 years on being here and sharing it with you and 10 years on learning as much as I can. Still learning and trying to improve even more!

Thank you for being with me through that time ( ˘⌣˘)♡(˘⌣˘ ) And hopefully we will be able to continue it through the next 10 years! Let's see what the future holds ;) ____________________________________ You can find me on: (@Luupetitek) Deviantart | ArtStation | Mixer | Ko-Fi donations

[mr-mr-ontheradio]

Something changed after Jan 2014. Harry changed. Jeff more in the picture. Enter Kendall still hanging by. Minimal Larry interaction. Something happened. Harry's entire look and persona changed. I always thought it was the time that Harry matured and wasn't naive or wide eyed anymore.. More closed off before cameras. Maybe Larry also had some fights, obviously like any couple. What are your thoughts about it??

ok 2014. I've been meaning to make a masterpost about this so thanks for the question.

So 2014 was the Where We Are tour, and the boys were all severely overworked and it SHOWS. Niall lost weight, Louis and Harry both look starved, and Zayn is horrifyingly skinny.

They look on the verge of passing out during this entire interview especially Harry and Zayn.

Zayn was ~rumored to be~ struggling with a drug problem and anorexia during this time, and dealing with his own range of drama but I'll keep this on Harry/Larry.

Obviously an easy explaination for the decreased Larry interaction is that they were broken up. And its very possible they are/were an on again/off again couple and 2014 could have been an "off" period but 2014 is also when

Harry got the anchor corresponding with Louis' rope (January)

Harry gets the heart (February) and Louis gets the arrow (March)

The christ-the-redeemer trip where Harry and Louis are heard kissing in the bread van and this picture is taken where they seem like theyre holding hands (May)

Harry goes to Jay's wedding (July) and holds onto the wedding bracelet all the guests had for the rest of the year, even after it broke.

Louis gets the dagger (November).

Harry sings "Night Changes" directly at Louis during both the Graham Norton Show and the Royal Variety Show (December).

There are a lot of little things/speculation in between but these are the big things I think definitely prove they were still more or less "together" throughout the year. The months we saw virtually no Larry interaction at all were from end of May to End of October, with the major exception being Harry publicly attending Louis' mom's wedding.

It kind of seems like the wedding was a big deal to management (even though I don't think the fandom saw it as proof of anything as much as they were happy to see it happen). But it kind of seems like Louis and Harry had to pay the price for this one because there was a big eleanor presence in the month or so leading up to it whereas before she was barely seen all year apart from one publicized ski trip in February before WWA kicked off. But from the 1st of June until Jay's wedding on the 20th of July, she and Louis were papped twice in paris and once in portugal, she went to 5 or so concerts, she was spotted leaving his hotel twice, she was spotted eating lunch with Louis and Lottie, Louis attended her graduation, Louis took her out for her birthday, and *drumroll please* it was announced Eleanor would be Jay's maid of honor (she was actually just a bridesmaid so they played that one up for the media).

They also brought Paige back breifly in the days leading up to and after the wedding with her posting pics of herself in Harry's clothes on instagram, them attending a party together, them going out to lunch with jeff and the mirror reporting they were dating again.

Meanwhile apart from the stunting, the fandom as a whole was FREAKING TF OUT over the video that was "leaked" at the end of May of Louis and Zayn smoking weed (coincidendally two days after the European leg of WWA had started) and we were being bombarded with articles about bad boy Louis and Zayn, and how perfect 🥰 harry 👼🏼 was 😱 totally 😵 offended 👎🏼 and 😤 against 🙅����‍♂️ Louis 😖 and Zayn's 👿 drug addict 🤢 ways 😒.

This wasn't the first time we saw articles about Louis and Harry no longer being friends, but this was definitely a new angle that started to separate Harry and Louis because of an actual reason and it was the beginning of Harry's image being separated from the other boys.

As far as Kendall goes, Hendall seems to have wrapped up in Februrary and then she disappeared for the rest of the year in typical Harry-stunt fashion. Nothing strange there. And when he did hang out with her Jeff was always there. Harry's most prominent "relationship" in 2014 was actually Nadine which didn't even start until December.

Jeff and Harry were definitely attatched at the hip right from the beginning of January for sure. It's not unlike Harry to be like this with new friends though, and he was the same way with Grimmy during the years before.

Jeff is a special case too becuase he's very connected in the industry so I think Harry felt safe with him and it might have comforted Harry to have someone like that he could trust looking out for him. I think Jeff was maybe helping him navigate his way around the utter PR nightmare that was his public image too. He certainly had a lot less "womanizing" stunts in 2014. Jeff might have even been talking to him about taking a break from the band, since 2014 is supposedly when Harry suggested hiatus.

As far as Harry's "look" goes he's literally been changing it every single year. 2010-2011 was baggy pants abercrombie and jack wills. 2011-2012 was the blazers and bowties and the fetus harry hair. 2013 was take me home/fratboy harry. headscarf harry was 2013-2014 until he started wearing those fedoras, then that was his look for a while as his hair grew out and he started wearing the unbuttoned shirts and took on a more hipster/rockstar aesthetic. then he started with the floral shirts and the skin tight jeans leading up to the floral suits and it went from there. Like I said it's never been weird for Harry to completely change his look in a whim. We literally have grandpa harry now.

His persona changed too but really it's not that strange considering he was entering is 20s, 2013 had been hell for him and Louis, he was so overworked that he was probably getting burnt out on the positive side of his life (making music and performing) and starting to resent the negative side of it even more.

As far as being more closed off in interviews, he was probably sick of them since they all ask the same questions and there wasn't much he could say that he hadn't already said. At this point if he'd been in a relationship with Louis for four years then he wouldn't have many anecdotes or side interests that didnt involve Louis or their private life on some level so he might not have had much to talk about. Try to avoid saying "my boyfriend" when you're talking about your life after you've been together for years and years, it's not easy. And he obviously learned the hard way that every thing he says on camera will follow him forever so I think he forced himself to stay quiet rather than risk letting something slip.

In my opinion, overall things weren't really that odd during most of 2014 until november/december when they started Four promo. They were touring most of the year so their lives were pretty out of the spotlight apart from the occasional stunting and Harry hanging out with Jeff in his free time. The changes we saw were typical of someone his position.

I think there were some power struggles behind the scenes based off their little rebellions during WWA ("i have a secret", refusing to deny larry twice when asked directly if there were rumors they wanted to clear up) and 2014 is when RBB started (though i think it was just for fun at the time). Jeff might have been encouraging Harry to stand up for himself against his management or at least teaching him that he didn't have to take everything lying down and he did actually have some leverage.

Jeff also might even have been priming him to go solo and if Louis and the boys suspected Harry was being eyeballed for a solo break out there might have been some tension and I'm sure Louis at least thought that's what was going on. But I don't think it's something they would have broken up over considering at the end of the day Louis has always been supportive of Harry.

I will say that 2015 was one crisis after another though and i think at the end of 2014 we saw that ball start rolling because all the boys looked strung out for the majority of Four promo and Harry was kind of being rebellious as far as maintaining his hetero image with comments like "not that important" and "dont knock it til you try it".

Anyways thats my thoughts on it. I am intoerested to know what you think changed though ?

[pointyobjects]

12, 13, 16, 45!!! Because I demand answers to many questions and that's just how it be! 🤙🏻🤙🏻🤙🏻

Yay! An ask! Youda besssst!

12. What turns you away the most from a fic?

So IMMEDIATELY, if everything is one huge paragraph. It kills me, and I feel like if you're a reader of any kind of writing, you know better. DONT DO IT. It kills me. I will immediately hit that back button. Also, I hate weak storytelling. Like, when theres a convo between two characters and I get a whole long patagraph about what they're wearing. If I'm reading about a charavter who is obsessed with clothes, then MAYBE this works, but usually its just boring. It feels like filling space in the least interesting way possible.

13. Has a fic ever made you cry?

Friend. Friendmigo. Compadre. HOMIE. You know the answer to this. Your poem in Spanish Two Was All For You still hits me. Sometimes I need a good cry and I head right over there. And The Club. Those are the last two that really made me ugly cry at my phone in the middle of the night. But "Happily Ever" and its companion fic "Never After" by Mouse9/@stlgeekgirl are serious tearjerkers that I didnt see coming. Like, do not read these without some serious Kleenex around.

16. How do you feel about character death in a fic?

I dont mind it at all! I've killed my fair share of characters, so it doesn't bother me so long as it A) makes sense, and B) serves a real purpose. I'm also firmly against killing the token POC/gay/mentally ill character so another one can "grow". Its weaksauce. Dont do that. Other than that, let the killing begin!

45. Favorite fluff fic?

YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE FLUFF. It feeds my whole soul. So, Denting the Do is TOO CUTE. Stop. You have to stop being so cute. Its so sweet I got a cavity. "For Eleanor " by marble eyes is an older fic that I always love.

Honestly, I'm also a super bad reader...I'm still reading fics from 2010 that are completed that I love. And in the fandoms where I do read voraciously, I'm too scared to write (cough, cough, Inuyasha fandom, cough). So I just did Hey Arnold for this ask because that's where most of my writing is. Thank you for sending me these fun asks!!

[paralianprince]

🍌🍓

🍌 - What drew you into the fandom in the first place?

i had been like… sort of ambiently aware of hetalia since about… 2010 i think??  i wasn’t super into it, but i thought it was funny and i liked it well enough.  the thing that *actually* got me invested were: 

1. ironically, headcanon blogs on tumblr, which always made me think like, wow, i never would have thought of that, that’s really informed / funny / clever / tragic / cute and sweet!  and headcanons which can shift the tone of the comedy into other directions increases my enjoyment of the whole thing immensely.  fanart did that as well but it was actually hc blogs that hit me first!

2. and marathoning all of hetaoni in one night lmao.  because im WEAK for big ambitious fan projects, i respect the hell out of them so i was super impressed, i didnt even know what ao oni was, i was just like damn yall are really out here making me give a shit huh??? 

my first experience rping hetalia was actually a real-time chatroom rp, which lasted a few months, of a slightly-au hetaoni plotline (of the very first timeline, except first timeline feli receives a warning at the very beginning from current-timeline feli, telling him everything that’s going to happen.  and also the characters were different, etc.)  i was the feli actually!! 

so if anyones still wondering why i havent shut up yet about hetaoni in 2020 this is why.

🍓 - What’s your sweetest rp experience so far?

ohhhh my god well i did meet my wife thru this actual blog bc she happened to be a big fan of mine!!  before we had ever talked she used to draw me fanart and stuff, then we became friends and etc etc. 

SOOO OBVIOUSLY THAT !! 

a lot of my other very cherished friendships ive made also come to mind, i love getting to know my friends’ characters so well that you can just chat about them for ages, about hcs or crack jokes or anything!  and there’s a lot of people i get to do that with and its really lovely! 

[detectivehole]

Go comic feral, i followed this blog for a rEASOn and it's bc i like to hear your random vents and rants and also you reblog cool stuff. But i digress, go comic feral i am hERE for it

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PETER PARKER BEING RICH IS STUPID  he didnt even ern what he has himself it was nt even himn he wasnt in his body maybe if i had got to see him start fron nothing to being a cool ceo or whatever id be able to stand it but nooooooo he just GOT is for nothing so it feels stupid like “ha ha what if like tony stark haha” its DUMB and i haven’t read a spider man comic for a long time

deadpool/spiderman crossover comic bad. feels out of character a lot. funny concept and full of funny jokes but as far as characterization its bad in my opinion- was made to capitalize off the hype of the ship and we all know it

don cates should be banned from writing comics bc he fucking sucks and ill never forgive him for what he did/tried to do to venom

deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good dea

the venom movie was a lot of fun but it was very ooc a lot HOWEVER seeing some of the cut scenes and scripts you can see that it used to be actually fairly in character for the comics but a lot of scenes with eddie establishing himself as not actually the most nicest of guys (not that eddie isnt a nice guy deep down but he is a good amount fucked up with a big ol hero complex and a problem with ‘i can do no wrong” mentality sometimes) were cut and considering how the fandom for the movie treats him i can see why the cut those bits out bc i dont think movie goers would have liked him as much wich is a shame bc he is a good guy at the end of the day just fucked up

straight white male comic fans are the worst people in the world and breaking their fingers is a daydream i indulge in 

matt murdock is a himbo

foggy nelson is a good man who deserves better friends

i can tell what deadpool comics someone has read based on how they characterize wade in their fan works and i have a 80% success rate with it. the most common was the daniel way run but now its the spider-man/deadpool crossover series

soulda used miles for the mcu spidey instead of cannibalizing his story for parts like they did. dick move, Disney

mcu bad

i think just the idea of dc’s Red Tool is fucking hilarious but i dont like his character at all

batman and superman should fuck but they wont :/

matt and foggy should to but the comic industry is afraid of making long running characters lgbt bc theyre WEAK

deadpool need a canon bf they cant keep telling us hes pan and not showing us for reals- hell he could just go on one date or be shown having a one night stand or something- something beyond a damn joke

cable gay. no i will not listen to any other opinions.

im excited to read moon knight i have a book waiting i just have to finish my current one

SCUD the disposable assassin is the most underrated comic EVER and i LOVE IT however i think it ended stupid and bad however it went on fucking hiatus for like a decade and then was rapped up really fast so any ending is a godsend

i desperately want a long-form stand alone series abt wanda wilson bc shes the perfect foil for a good Feral Dumbass Woman comic. think abt it; shell sell immediately bc of recognizable brand, and then she can just go on violent stupid adventures without any of the other dp corps. it doenst have to line up with any canon i just want insane lady dp adventure comic. this is an unreasonable dream but mine none the less

i though that agent venom was stupid

tank girl is fucking amazing and i love it i never understand whats going on and i enjoy the confusion

reading early hulk comics feels like watching a weird, poorly produced old black and white sci-fi soap

there needs to be better, more easily accessed, official reading-order guides published and posted on the walls of comic shops everywhere

the 80s and 90s were the best time for marvel comics and no one can tell me otherwise. that was peak comic time

the worst time for comics was the 2000s and early 2010s

sometimes i am shocked by the art that gets the editors pass in comics. some of it is so bad and im not even talking about the disproportionate ladies

the lego marvel and dc movies are way better than the live action movies and im not even being sarcastic

seriously the 2000s made some horrible comics

i feel like committing acts of mass violence every time someone says comics arnt real reading/stories/implies theyre worth less of any value than a novel

i read the first deadpool comic i got so much that the art itself is so ingrained in my mind that people have shown my just the corners of panels and ive identified them correctly

i distinctly remember the first time the woman at the book store stopped asking me for parental permission to buy the comics i was getting (12yos) because i went there so often that she just remembered who i was and that the adult would say its fine

i refuse to talk about comics with people at cons because i am gatekept or flirted with every single time no matter what and there is no in between. and yea its because i have tits. youd think that eventually theyd learn but gross comic men never do and all the others have adopted the same policy as me so the closest i come to positive comic interaction at cons is standing in the same vicinity as another chick, looking at the same section, and the kinda smiling at each other

i think the avengers are boring. really really boring. the x-men are way better

i related to gwenpool too much when she first started and it scared/offended me so i stopped reading for a while until her character developed more and we stooped being so similar

i have spider-man bedding. i picked it out only a few months ago. its good it makes me feel cool in a very uncool way

watching spider-man as a kid made me wanna be a scientist. watching batman as a kid made me want to do martial arts. i ended up failing chemistry and falling on my face a lot instead.

i had a huge venom toy and a huge spiderman toy as a kid and while i did make them fight a lot i also made them hug just as much. i wanted them to be friends

on that note PETER IS MEAN TO THE SYMBIOTE NOW AND HE DONT EVEN HAVE A REASON NO MORE hes just such a dick about criminal reform eddie and the symbiote aint special with this- he says he believes people can be better but he really doesnt show it. he tends to think people are set in their ways and while this makes sense forthe most part considering how much hewas bullied as a kid/adult (that also contributes to his mild “i protect my own” mentality  tho at least he consciously fights that one) it stil pisses me off

i can think way more but i need to sleep i think