#like. a bit apathetic??
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can we start labelling the Traveler as "the most mentally stable person in the room" cause i think that'd be SO funny, especially if they're doing like deranged cryptid shit at the same time.
#genshin impact#i just played Mizuki's story quest#very fun!!#the reveal that the Traveler is mentally stable FLOORED me.#i wish that could be me#im unclear on if it's due to them not being human and thus having better control over-#honestly it'd be interesting if the Traveler experiences less emotions than people do#like. a bit apathetic??#...tbh it would explain a lot ahlskfjsldkfjsd#<- thinking about how we just left Scaramouche in a crater#like they obviously care but it's like. Deity level care. not deep attachments in the way that humans can understand#like. yknow??#the other option is just as canonically stated; the Traveler has gotten good at processing their emotions#which good for them!! but i think it'd be interesting if a touch of inhumanity helped with that#Ghost if you're reading this Aether being the most mentally stable guy in the room while rambling about guillotines#is where this thought process is going
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i love my Basketbot Portal AU
#Basketball is Chell and Robot Flower is Glados#i think GB would be Cave Johnson and TB is prob just her assistant.. and Puffball would be the Turrets (because she sings so beautifully)!!#maybe Flower is Caroline?#The plot would change a bit too... this AU is more like a role insertion and not a complete perfect run of Portal/Portal 2#Basketball would still be trapped by RF to do tests and she would try to get closer to Robot Flower and try to fix her#Basketball is really smart... i think she would admire Robot Flower's innovation and creativity even if shes Evil... they looove each other#they would totally fall in love and date in the end trust#in the end i think Basketball would try to code the personality spheres off of her#maybe each personality sphere could be a character... like Intelligence Core = Pin (cake) or Book (smart and knowledgeable)#Space Core = 8 Ball (in the sense that they both have a fixation on one thing... Space and 8 yknow?)#Morality Core = Teardrop..... or actually maybe Pie? shes apathetic and i think it would be cool#Curiosity Core = Liy or Pillow... in a sense? before her huge killing spree thing i think Pillow was the very curious and experimental type#im not completely sure for Wheatley... ill think on it#omg if you read all this thank you sm ive been thinking of this for literal months#btw please tag me if you make art#bfdi#portal#basketbot#basketball x robot flower#basketbot portal au#key rambling
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Two former military elites taking merc jobs perform absolutely hellish battle tactics together.
#ffxiv#digital art#zenos yae galvus#estinien wyrmblood#adventurer zenos#I will always adore this duo conceptually#because like- socially theyre that aragorn-geralt brooding in a corner of a tavern meme#but in combat they are absolutely terrifying#the azure dragoon and the super soldier legatus are here to fuck up a poachers day#aka zenos is about to crossmap someone's airship cause he knows estinien cant make himself jump that far#why have him try to jump when he can just Olympic-level javelin toss this man#also guys#my dudes#all this time I've been working on adven!zenos being a tank#I... have realized I just write him like a warrior who isnt carrying a weapon- sturdy unkillableness and countering and all#I am only a little bit of a dumbass but orogeny just seems to live in my head rent free#it also gave me the terrifying concept of- after spending time with the scions and after the ultimatum-#of him trying to learn more about dynamis- and zenos being zenos starts learning eventually how to harness it#local calm apathetic man can berserk on command because he's a lot angrier/more expressive inwardly than most people expect#depending on how I look into it- it might be how he fuels most of his shinryu transformations but I'll have to work on it more#but ANYWAYS#I love the thought of these two hunting and working together#and estinien being tossed being turned into a tactic#especially with proper form#this is something ive wanted to draw for a very long time and im very happy I actually have the skill to do so now
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tw: gun wounds, blood, dead parents

Noé...? no one at the orphanage seems to really know how he ended up there.
no one but Damsel, of course.
this was drawn specifically because @wreckowafer asked me to lol. I hope you enjoy, wafer !!!
BONUS CUTE DOODLE

the moment Damsel was dropped at the orphanage, she adopted Noé like you adopt a pet ♡
#Noé's always been a bit apathetic. killing his parents cause they're deemed unfit to take care of someone like him ♡#god complex as a six year old is CRAZY#rip Noé's parents 🙏🏽#they're paranoid hermits who lived off the grid so like...their asses are never being found i fear#anywho moving on to the cutesy doodle#you know those little like jelly glitter sandals?? thats what i imagine Damsel is wearing.#she and Noé show up with a few of their own clothes before it starts go get mixed with shit that Bailey gets them as replacements#noemie the singularity#damsel the starlet#dol pc#damsel draws sometimes#I'll explain how all my pcs exded up in Bailey's care eventually..once the headache subsides#cw blood#cw guns#ignore any size discrepancies cause gurl i honestly just did not fuck with drawibg the dead parents lol
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do u write fanfics? i need to GOON 💔
damn brother, you just gonna come at me like that? alright I see you
that's a great question tho! I have indeed thought about writing a fic... for years tbh...
but there's a merit of problems
well first of all I'm not native in english. that is probably noticeable more often than not. I sometimes even use a translator, I always secretly got google/dict.cc open in a second tab. didn't formally learn english, I just snagged it by proxy listening to American Youtubers and reading manga online. that's why I prefer to ramble a bit in public or to my damn self in private areas than live-texting 1 on 1/in groups; bc I can take more time totally judgement-free. you're gonna see me "typing..." for 30 minutes and wonder wtf is taking this mf so long?!
apart from that there's dyslexia. I can't spell one word correctly without swipe-to-type autocorrect. I think all arguments I've gotten into stem from me mistyping, using completely wrong words, messing up the sentence structure etc
my brain is a single dense cloud of fog that'll occasionally split open to drizzle down a bunch of jumbled thoughts that I could turn into barely cohesive words if I'm brave enough and exude copious amounts of energy.
so my linguistic skills are not up to par. my intelligence lies more in... intrapersonal and existential departments.
unsurprisingly I've thus become a visual artist to express myself.
the catch is... that I understand paperhat, I do.
but I can't seem to draw toxic dynamics. my head is just empty about how to depict it. it's like it doesn't come naturally to me. not without going overboard and making a whole comic that I would likely abandon before even reaching the half mark. I've been given these angelic skills along with the curse that I shall only draw joyous, bright scenes.
however if I could write it... now we're talking.
as a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure that most of my ideas are way too dark and sober. people don't know me like that so I'm petrified about the presumably shocked response when and if I did drop smth like that.
I'm not ready for that... I have really severe OCD (that the internet is making way worse with their anxious tendencies to interpret smth sinister into any and all fiction that is not happiness and rainbows. which seems new to me, idk where this mindset to read so deep into shit is suddenly coming from. I was here 2017-19, left for like 3 years and all of a sudden everybody's fallen off their rockers)
writing domestic stuff is too boring for me... there's gotta be gut-wrenching horrors and drama and tragedy and conflict!
none of this would be PG (which is what I assume you're asking for anyway) I'd just write smut with sprinkles of character studies and a pinch of comedy mayhaps, but I used to do that about 10 years ago and it was so bad. the way I describe these scenes comes off very plump and cringe
I... might. dip my toes into it later this year.
I'll drop a few ideas in the tags... maybe 2 ideas. very roughly. without spoilers, just in case.
#I draw 1 drop of blood and feel watched#I'm a horrible person why would I have such thoughts#intrusive thoughts brought to you by 2020 fandom culture#I've got a plethora of ideas at my disposal#I would like to write a fic about Flug finding a way (maybe an accidental way) to overpower and paralyse Black Hat#using the chance to take what he wanted for years; knowing Black Hat is conscious#and will remember every second of this for the imminent consequences#that Flug may be morbidly curious to take. just maybe... even a little bit thrilled#that in itself already requires every content warning under the sun#I got another more tame idea about Black Hat wanting to confess to Flug but not knowing how humans do that and what Flug likes#so he shapeshifts into different people to interact with Flug. messing up and confusing the HELL out of Flug at every corner of the path#until he eventually finds a type of person that clicks with him#a little too well. staying in the comfort of that disguise for too long.#until Flug got attached and he's run into the problem that he'd like to reveal himself now but that would inevitably break Flug's heart#...it doesn't have a happy ending#it's apathetic and bittersweet#I've actually started to outline and write the first of 3 parts to this way back in 2022#anyway lemme know what you guys think!#villainous#villanos#vilanesco#paperhat#ask reply#anon ask#fanfic#?
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shhhh the background will be done eventually
#ngl this sketch has been sitting in drafts for about 3 days now#i've been feeling apathetic af recently#but i'm finally getting back enough functionality to do the stuff i like so lets fuckin gooooooooo!!#if i can keep this vibe a bit longer i can maybe finish one of my tigerghost wips- fingers crossed homies#el tigre#manny rivera#nicktoons#nicktoons unite#my art
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I get why people say Wyll/Karlach is enemies-to-lovers but it's missing too many of its signatures for me to agree
By nature, E-t-L's are slow burn. A good chunk of the story waits for one party to discover they're on the wrong side/both parties to realize they have more in common with each other than their factions, then a whole other chunk is dedicated to them learning how to trust each other. The higher the stakes in the story, the slower the burn
Yet everything between Wyll and Karlach is revealed and resolved in a single conversation. There are no lasting consequences of that initial animosity. Both are too good to hold grudges and all the fault lies firmly in hands not their own. Karlach trusts Wyll instantly and he her. Their friendship is so immediate that it's easy to forget that we met Karlach with the intent to kill her
And then there's the source of their quarrel. Wyll was led to believe Karlach's a devil seeking destruction and Karlach was just trying to go home. The thing that sets them against each other isn't their own beliefs or loyalties or anything deep seated and personal, it's the chain of command, something they're both eager to be rid of by the time we meet them. While it gives them something in common, it leaves them with nothing to unpack or overcome together
Compare that to the king of E-t-L's, Zutara of Avatar the Last Airbender. Zuko spent most of the show's runtime trying to capture the Avatar to guarantee the Fire Nation's total conquest, something Katara wants to prevent at all costs. When the two are stuck together by happenstance, they lash out at each other only to bond over their lost mothers. Then Zuko betrays her, something Katara does not forget and does not forgive until he proves himself much, much later. Afterwards, they support each other, watch over the others together, and make a damn good team against Azula. Perfect, should have been canon, fuck Bryke
Honestly, I think Wyllach is just Faerûn's version of a meet-cute
#baldur's gate 3#yodeling into the void#karlach cliffgate#wyll ravengard#ive always found it difficult to justify killing karlach once you learn abt her backstory#outside of being an apathetic murderhobo what reason is there to kill someone trying to flee a war they never wanted to join?#i think some elements could have been salvaged if karlach had genuinely been a fiend#perhaps another cambion to contrast mizora and raphael#or maybe an alu-fiend for variety?#hells even a straight up succubus to really make the player wonder if she's going to be a threat if allowed to live#adds to the whole monsters in the making bit going on#her backstory and abilities would have to be altered but i dont think her personality would need to change at all#itd be neat to see a devil that isnt a business major#and i really like that one rewrite post where Wyll's relationship w Mizora is less antagonistic bc she's yknow.#actually being manipulative in her affection rather than whatever the fuck she's doing in canon#and the reason wyll is so susceptible to it is bc he believes so strongly in the good in everyone. even devils#and karlach being a devil whilst also a genuinely good person would open his eye to the fact that Mizora is Not Good#especially not good for him#i like wyllach but it doesn't intrigue me quite like wyllstarion or wyllzel#those two ships have that zing of 'by all accounts i should kill you for being a threat to innocents yet i cant help but fall for you'#fiend!karlach would fit right into that particular lovely niche#ngl the more i think abt it the more i want fiend!karlach#toss in werewolf!shadowheart and you'll have an entire party consisting of nightmare fuel and gale#make him be like sole human freddie in the eldritch scooby gang lmaoooo
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Hey, I generally try to keep tumblr a very fandom-centric space but if you can, please consider participating in any way in the 'global strike' for Gaza this week.
Spreading awareness, educating yourself or your loved ones, donating to charities or buying e-sims, boycotting companies, joining protests, calling/writing your local governments. Even if you can only do one of these, I promise it can make a difference.
#text posts#I'm a bit more active about these sorts of things on my discord server and my twitter#bc tumblr feels like a different breed /lh#but pls pls pls consider doing something either online or IRL#the world can't be this fucked up and we can't be this apathetic#i refuse to believe that
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the dragon curling up to protect the arisen from the brine as they fell into the sea and then again reaching out for the arisen as the brine pulled them away from each other................
#i feel like there's a teeny bit of bandwagon hate disfavourably comparing the dragon to grigori due to the more seemingly apathetic and#exhausted attitude that the dragon has in dd2#NO YOU'RE WRONG HE STILL LOVES YOU VERY MUCH#dragon's dogma#dragon's dogma 2#dd2#dd2 spoilers
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i have managed to actually do a hobby for the first time in months. yippee

#executive dysfunction and depression are kicking my ass#like severely. i am apathetic about everything and so so tired. things that brought me the most joy are no longer available to me#like. i love you so much you are so important to me but i no longer have the ability to care or do anything about it#things i love the most are behind a glass door that i can't unlock. or break.#sewing and embroidery especially are like. things i very much love and aspire to do but they are SO time and energy consuming#i don't have the patience#i stayed up till 4 am listening to lenka králová's interviews with trans people and it made me a little hopeful#currently transition doesn't really feel possible and i kind of just want to die so. hearing from others who made it was important#i also appreciated the comments#because a lot of them are from cis people. who didn't really know things about trans people but are learning thanks to lenkas channel#and after hearing a bit about our lifes their reaction is usually to applaud the strength we have. to be ourselves#and it's heartwarming to read. that there are people who learn. and can empathise in some way. that not everyone hates us#'you only have one life and no one else is going to live it for you. so you better be yourself' or something along that was in one of them#most of the comments under every video are just people saying how beautiful Lenka looks and yeah. true#i love her
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very excited for people to see how all of these characters have changed in subtle ways due to either maturity in nuance or dissatisfaction with the original portrayals, but i think i'm most excited for people to read about valerie this time. which, possibly may be because this book is centered around her, but i just feel like she's gained some good depth. all of her traits are still there, for better or worse, but there's definitely an added realism that i'm really proud of ♡ and i hope is better understood this time around.
#obviously i haven't had much time to get to izzy in this book considering he doesn't really come into full form until MS#but i think he's an interesting/darker/sharper character#much less sarcastic for the hell of it and just cynical/apathetic from the jump#axl is a better portrayal of a rockstar this time - i think#more frustrating and complex but also a little bit truer to form#less mad all the time so much as he just passionate about everything and sort of a quick temper#and jill is more difficult#plainly put#which i find infinitely more interesting and also prob what i was going for the first time around#she's not as coddled by the narrative -- though maybe she is by other characters; which is essentially the point -- and she generally just#has less patience and superficial kindness but in a way i think is realer and less cringe-inducing#also in a way that will make her drama with izzy in ms all the more compelling bc she's not just gonna roll over for his bullshit#but idk#im really happy with valerie this time#of the two people who've read the new version - her addiction is a lot more realistic; but also she retains her naivety and open heart in#again - a way that's not cringe-inducing. i literally had to pause rewriting in some of the early chapters because i could see how og#valerie was the perfect target for emotional manipulation and abuse. she was so forgiving and just passive and - that wasn't what i'd ever#gone for !! so this time she is also not taking axl's bullshit <3 yay. also her cool girl energy is more clearly a facade this time but als#much more convincing than her original which just felt like i was drawing insp off dark feminine/90s baddie pinterest pins which just isn't#the vibe anymore#aw tag rant#who said that
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Sansa Stark — Heaven’s Gate








#Sansa stark#the way this song goes from apologizing for lacking empathy to lacking apathy#is just so Sansa to me#because she’s a bit of a selfish child#but she’s also incredibly kind#even after everything she’s been through#Sansa refuses to be apathetic#she learned to play the game#but she’s kind to Ser Dontos and Mya and Sweetrobin#and that’s what makes her different from players like Cersei or Littlefinger#Sansa cares#asoiaf#characters as songs
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One single fancy man gets home and wonders why his allies are still awake so goddamn late.
#ffxiv#concept#gpose#adventurer zenos#zenos yae galvus#I like giving him fancy suits for some of his sets and realized the new dungeon hat actually goes pretty well with it#he hears his friends scurrying around after midnight#all you hear is a very stern “go to bed” three corridors down#i will forever love the thought that without battle lust hes just kinda a normal fuckin dude tbh#quiet and a bit antisocial but certainly not eccentric (kinda) about most average things#I do also want to work on a mechanic outfit of some kind for him- maybe fixing some sort of large machine or vehicle- too#local man has to fight to fend off the bored eepy#I think adventurer zenos would get really wary once hes used to not doing it- about napping or sleeping for too long#recovering apathetic man experiences general FOMO for the first time and hates it forever
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sebastian failing a class because he's terrified of hunt is a good bit and this time it's not even that man's fault
#he fails not because his work is terrible. i don't even think hunt finds his work terrible. it's because he misses too many classes#but sebastian is so scared of the Prospect of hunt finding his work terrible he just doesn't go to class#<- genius. he then has to redo the class and see hunt again#i have dropped the lore before that hunt is one of sebastian's favourite directors right. i know i did because i remember mentioning#john cassavetes as well. anyway. sebastian looks up to hunt a lot and he's terrified of interacting with hunt and 1. hunt hating#him (conscious) 2. his idealised image of hunt being shattered (unconscious). this is kinda homosexual behaviour ngl#let's ignore that for a bit we can return to that later. point here is sebastian's avoidance of frustration and the unknown and of life#in general. sebastian does not have any kind of social anxiety. just want to clear that up. he's just an introvert but he has no issue#talking to people. when i say sebastian is a coward i mean he avoids frustration and/or pain to the point it immobilises him/makes him#apathetic to life. so he doesn't Do Stuff. because what if he fails? what if he's rejected? what if it doesn't work out? i do think there's#a level of anxiety/low self esteem here but i also think it's a very comfortable place to stay after a while. esp. when you have someone#else as your compass (claire. and later on donna a little i think). so he starts to believe he might never be able to do anything and that'#when the cult comes into the story. i've already written about this bit before. okay. so sebastian failing hunt's class is another example#of him being afraid of... stuff. life. putting himself out there. and he always thought film was his safe haven and that he had figured ou#this One Thing but he got to university and wow... i guess not! i like this fear being represented by hunt. actually two things:#1. i like how hunt acts as a Figure for both claire and sebastian in different ways given their different upbringings and#2. how both claire and hunt exist as these idealised figures in sebastian's mind representing different aspects of his life/perceived#failures/fears/whatever. and claire and hunt marry that's so fun! i wonder how that makes sebastian feel.#so returning to point number 2 from earlier: sebastian's fear of hunt being something else entirely (than what he had idealised) puts hunt#in the same spot as claire in sebastian's mind. if he were not in a cult he would have the realisation of a lifetime here#anyway there's a little blurring of things here. there's a little convergence of things here. things are superimposed i'd say.#he and i are so similiar claire says. i bet sebastian replies#oc: sebastian ballion#oh that last bit says a lot about huntclaire too but this post is not about them. but big fan of how enmeshed they are#hm... sebastian failing and redoing the class... putting himself in the same situation as before...
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re: ur temper post
i need to be like that so bad but my anger issues are hereditary.... 😔😔
ahsnfmwksh im kind of lazy so im usually very quick to let go of things because its just like . very tiresome? like i dont want to be angry. its hard to feel legitimately bothered when it feels like a waste of energy. i have genuine empathy for anger issues it seems incredibly exhausting 🫂 holding u tightly
#return to sender#it’s not like. emotional maturity or anything im just an apathetic person a little bit
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i need desperately to draw princess more...
#my specialty is monster design so i tend to draw tlq añd the voices a lot#i do have a good bit of art of her but i need more practice...#like i keep trying to draw nightmare and she just never comes out right!!!! fucked UP!!!!#i wanna capture her scary yet enthusiastic nature but it never looks Like Her#i do love drawing the prisoner though. her apathetic expressions are extremely fun to draw#god . i should try making that Every princess deaign again bc it was fun
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