#like. I am not joking when I say shit has been like this my entie life and I'm TIRED. I just want it to all be over. I'm TIRED.

[imwritesometimes]

sitting down last night and realizing like lmao shit went super rough in December and then just... never got better like no wonder I've been white knuckling it through mental health crisis after mental health crisis ✌️🥴

[survivor-north-sea]

Episode Seven: "I’m crying in my cake" - Brandi

Tyler Frazier

Okay. So. I talked about how I built a relationship with Raffy and how I’d like to sort of use that going forward but I also did two other things in that conversation. I tried to cautiously defend my girl bethany bc they’re only sketched out by her bc they are misogynists and I also tried to set up AJ to be the merge boot with Raffy running the vote. I did this by talking about how scared AJ is of returning players and how she did research on them which scared Raffy bc he already thinks she’s obsessed with him. If it works it would further establish him as a threat so that way when we decide to stop picking off members of the Hidra 4 they’re not gonna be looking at me, bethany or Esteban but more so as Raffy as the biggest threat and Hairie as someone generally sketchy. This is all assuming we win the challenge (🤞) and I don’t have to throw Hairie under the bus to try and save Bethany btw but you’ll be getting confessionals from me then too so I’ll keep you all posted!

Toni

Theme: The Merge Is Uncharted Waters

We were so close to potentially winning this last challenge. I wish we did because we needed some sort of number for this next one. Zach is going today because he has not yet listened to Renaissance - thats legitimately why. JK.

Merge is going to be uncharted waters but lets try and win this next one first!

Signing off about to 'dive in'.

Hairie

Tribal was expected, another OG Tromoya going hope but what’s interesting was it was Zach instead of Arvin. If Zach was the one that flipped 2 tribals before, then Zach’s been played. 🤣

Toni might have some agenda for wanting to target returning players so I’m hoping they spice up their next tribal before merge to take out Jinx since it’s all new players having the numbers over there. Yes I said that right, Tromoya is gonna win this last tribe challenge.

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Honestly thinking of throwing this challenge so Arvin can be safe next tribal. He’s a number for me for sure and we can take out Tyler or Esteban (keeping Bethany) but it’s not about an individual (me) thing right now. In such a frazzle dazzle situation right now because I don’t want this to come back and bite me from my behind. It’s my asset we’re talking about here.

AJ

God has let me live another day and I'm going to make it everybody's problem.

In reality though I'm super thankful to still be around and now here's to hoping I can make merge and at least be eliminated onto the jury.

Tyler Frazier

This is so awk. I didn’t wanna do this at all I suggested it as a joke like “chapstick taser” really. That’s what y’all loved? Come on.

Bethany

another day, another confessional about me hoping we win the challenge!!! if i do make the merge, im causing chaos 😇 these og tribal lines are boringgggg 🥱

Tyler Ftazier

ITS NOT EVEN A FREAKING INVENTION IT LITERALLY EXISTS TOO LIKE THATS THE WORST PART

Arvin Bentonon

I am happy to be here. Huhu

Trinica

Not to be *that person* but I hate group projects actually!!! Toni and I are bonded together by how frustrating it is to try to get anything organized on this tribe. Too many different ideas floating around on this shark tank idea, not enough working on what actually needs to be done- the pitch video. Like, it doesn't matter how much supplemental shit we have if we don't have the one deliverable required for the challenge. I couldn't say this at tribal but I CANNOT WAIT for individual immunity challenges. Oof.

I think Toni's going to ace this video, but I honestly don't think we'll have enough footage of us to pull it together for a win. I really wanted to do an infomercial but nobody seems inclined to work on the script or film anything so!!! It's fine!!!

Toni

This challenge has been hard and lonely. I think everyone is exhausted though - the challenge to tribal pipeline has been difficult. Slightly glad group challenges are over? Hoping individual challenges are a little less work.

Hairie

I think creative challenges could be my downfall because I don't think I'm that entirely creative. Doing the best and hope my contributions were enough for this Shark Tank. Enough not to be voted out that is.

So far, our tribe has come up with loads of stuff for the challenge - from graphs, reviews, posters, video and even a presentation. Collectively, I feel good that we might win this again and avoid the last tribal council as Tromoya just right before we shift into individual portion of the season.

AJ

Alright we’re like, almost done with this challenge I think, and so far I’d say I feel actually pretty confident in us right now. It’s really tricky because we don’t know what the other tribe is doing or has done or how much effort they’re putting into this, but I can only hope they haven’t gone as hard as we have.

Raffy

I sat out because I didn't want to think about if I should throw or not. Honestly, I'm perfectly fine with losing or winning. There are pros to each. If we lose, I get to vote out Bethany and then I feel a little more comfortable going into merge. If we win, Arvin gets voted out which means I do not have to worry about Arvin being a traitor to Tromoya.

Trinica

Why am I always so grumpy in these lol. I *think* we may be able to pull this challenge off? Maybe? I wish we had more clips from our tribe in our video but maybe that won't matter.

This challenge has really made me warm up to Arvin as well, so I do hope we win so that he won't have to go home.

Tyler Frazier

Oh my god. How did they mess up the challenge THIS BAD. Jesus Christ. It’s so frustrating and it’s not even that I’m worried I’m gonna be booted it’s more so the fact that saving Bethany is not gonna be easy and champ wants to offer minimal support so that if she has to flip she isn’t suspected. LIKE MAYBE IF WE HAD PEOPLE BACKING US IT WOULD BE EASIER TO TARGET HAIRIE? MAYBE TELLING YOUR TRIBE TO STAY STRONG WONT SAVE BETHANY? Idk though maybe I’m the one who’s wrong here.

Brandi

im literally at a wedding rn I’m so sad we lost I’m crying in my cake

Esteban

I am so sorry that we lose in the moment where merge is approaching. It will def either me, Tyler or bethany.

They might think of putting seed on bethany to vote me out and me to bethany. That will be the smart move for tomoya 2.0.

But hopefully these people will realize that Bethany has closer bind to the hindra OG girls in the other side.

If it will be me i feel bo worries. I played a different approach and i had fun! 😅

Trinica

We actually pulled off a win!!! Amazing!!! I want to be happy but mostly I'm worried because Bethany is 99% likely to be going home. Tyler will flip, and he'd protect Esteban over her I think. Even with our extra vote, that puts us at a numbers disadvantage worst case, or a tie in the best case IF Esteban sticks with us.

Bethany

https://youtu.be/xzVQydnHNyc

Tyler Frazier

So I’ve started to do the work to save Bethany and right now it seems to be going well. Esteban is VERY anti Hairie thanks to work that I did (slayed) all we need to do is flip Brandi. We then would have a majority vote to save Bethany and I could not only go into the merge but also go with my two closest allies unified which is something I never thought would happen.

Hairie

Soooo for the first time in herstory … Oh wait right we lost before *SCREAMS* It’s soo funny because as a tribe Tromoya lost the first and last challenge as a tribe 😂. We lost by a mere couple of points and I think I’m to partly be blamed as well for the disadvantage. WHY DID I GO TO LEVEL 8 *Facepalm* But silver lining, Arvin gets to merge and I cannot wait for all the tea, the full tea and nothing but the tea of what went into at Hidra after the swap. We’re shifting into individual games pretty soon and it’s all about threading carefully and knowing who to take out and when to take them out !!!

Lowkey can’t wait for tribal also because I haven’t gotten to answer a question in full and knowing Jay she’s gonna come up with questions that are bound to make everyone’s head spin and jaws dropping.

I don’t think it’s me tonight but I’m not suppose to feel that way because the minute you think you’re safe YOU’RE ACTUALLY NOT

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Jay: you lost Tromoya

Everyone: Reacts

Raffy: Gets lit 🍻🥂🍷🍸🍹and slipped the fact that Bethany is the vote to Tyler

Tyler to Bethany: Sorry Bethany you’re being voted out

Bethany to me: I’m sad because I’m being voted out

Hairie to Bethany: Wait what?!? Who told you that?

Bethany to Hairie: Tyler but he won’t say who

Hairie: goes to OG Tromoya chat: Who told Tyler it was Bethany??

Raffy: It may have been me. Goodnight yall

Hairie: 🥹😂💀

And that’s how the first few minutes of post Shark Tank went down

Arvin Bentonon

I made it to the merge. I so happy we earned our spot to the merge!

Tyler Frazier

So this is a weird round gameplay wise because we have 5 people who want Hairie gone and it’s also in Raffys best interest even though he doesn’t know it. So you’d think “boo ya! Got this in the bag” but I still am unsure of how to pitch the plan in a way that is not super sketchy because if the round plays out naturally Bethany would leave despite majority wanting her to stay which is like bizarre but whatever

Bethany

everyone is ignoring me, which ugh this sucks because i’m probably going home. but tbh like at least if im voted out premerge i can go back into the VL and talk (respectful) shit on everyone’s games (as people everyone is very wonderful but the gameplay is making me want to scream) i honestly have not committed the time i should have to this game and it’s my own fault but i still dont want to get voted out!!! trying my best here but :/

Champagne

UGH OMG THIS IS BAD I CANT AFFORD BETHANY TO GO HOME :( I wanna stay loyal to Tromoya strong bc I really really like them but there has to be a miracle to save bethany

Raffy

I spent all of last night pushing for Bethany because unsober me has no filter and did not give a fuck about laying low. So now I have to deal with the problem. In any case, I think it ended well. I told everyone on the tribe about my suspicions of Bethany potentially flipping back to Hidra. They all seemed to agree. It seemed like a done deal. But there have been a few hiccups along the way as with anything I do.

1. Tyler told Bethany her name is going around for whatever reason. Not like she'll be in jury, but nice to know that Tyler will always be watching out for himself and has no qualms with throwing me under the bus.

2. Bethany messaged me her pitch about being a double agent for OG Tromoya. However, that's just giving her power to play the middle at merge. It only benefits Bethany, not us.

3. Hairie, apparently, has decided to try to flip the vote on Tyler by getting Esteban, Brandi, and Bethany to vote him out. That makes no sense. I mean, I guess Hairie wanted to keep Bethany since he talks to Tyler less? Or maybe he's trying to split the vote to take me out. Fun stuff.

4. Also, I told Hairie about my idol which I really shouldn't have but someone needed to know why I thought Bethany didn't have anything to save herself. Now that could be the thing to get me out of this game. Yipee.

So I don't know if Bethany will get voted out. Hairie just might actively be trying to take me out the whole time in spite of the fact that I'm incredibly close to him and probably his #1 ally. If I do get voted out because of him, mark my words that it will shoot him in the foot. In any case, I'm going to keep trying to get Bethany out because it really is the smartest decision I can see at this time. Everyone else should get on the same page.

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Newbies need to take a chill pill and actually think through the words they are saying. I am playing with people who are all overthinking every single detail, and I need them to slow down.

Tyler Frazier

I am BEYOND frustrated right now with pretty much everybody. Raffy's social gameplay is complete garbage right now like you’re gonna sweet talk me into working with you and then the second I have an opinion you completely ignore it and make it very clear you’d rather work with your original tribe. It’s not even like he’s just ignoring my opinion he’s choosing to not even care about what I could possibly think like he’s ready to vote. Brandi literally wants Haire gone but won’t bite the bullet and commit. Champ refuses to do any work to save us and you literally have more say than us. If we are such a priority for you then maybe stick your neck out a bit????? Esteban is actually being reasonable this round so thank god one person is. Well bethany is also being reasonable but she can’t do anything because people are acting like they’ll get the plague from talking to her. I just cannot stand these people. I hate this cast. Everyone sucks except Esteban and Bethany. Champ you’re fine too but I’m just really annoyed with you rn

Esteban

now that i am a little sober here’s my thoughts.

1. I don’t want Bethany to go home anymore. Returnees were swept out on the other side of the tribe. And if bethany goes home where i am on this position come merge? It will only be raffy, jinx and I left.

2. Hairie is kinda making me awk as all our conversation is always about game plan and never had a deeper talk. He is giving me an AJ vibe tbh. And i have a speculations about Aj/Hairie deal when they became the captains of the ships.

3. I am convinced that Bethany wanted to work in merge with clean slate as they tild me all their truths. Aj/trinica controlling, jinx idol, then targetting clefford and I but they tried to convince then it shoukd be clefford. And that toni and I were just pulled out on the alliance that they have (seeee i am right!) and that she felt that she is at the bottom of that alliance as a returnee.!

So the update was… bethany tyler and I had group chat. (What took us so long? Lol) and trying to convince one person each to how they will benefit keeping us 3.

Champ is positive about it. Brandi would feel the vibe she said but might be positive. Jayjay last night she seem open about it Raffy was solid wanted Bethany out but might consider bethany’s new info to him

Hairie - should go home if this works.

I am happy yet scared that my name wasn’t out there. Am I hallucinating and will get caught off guard tonight? That IDK. I am giving info that i just know soooooo knock on the wood. It is not me! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

And yes i am proud to still be here after a rough sailing before swap and that i can write a detailed vl confessional too.

Jinx

pre immunity results jinx cast https://voca.ro/18jW2pDmnQWy

Jayjay

I am so grateful I got to sit out this last challenge because so much happened to where I wasn’t gonna be able to be fully attentive in the challenge if I wasn’t! I got really sick unfortunately so it’s also been difficult for me to keep up with everything going on. However I’m glad that I have Hairie who’s been keeping me posted about everything going on. I’m sad we lost the last challenge we had to win right before merge but tbh I kind of see it as a good way to start the merge and see where everyone’s head is at and where alliances really lye.

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So everyone is going BANANAS about this tribal council which kind of has me on edge a bit and a little worried. I thought that we would of had it be an easy vote and take out an ex Hidra but now it seems since we will no longer be separated into teams people are starting to really strategize for their own personal gam. Which makes sense. Our original vote was Bethany. Lol but little Raffy was frisky last night and told Tyler and Tyler told Bethany and she told Hairie. Which seemed to have complicated things a bit. I originally thought Bethany would be the smartest way to go, considering she’d probably have the strongest connections with Hidra come merge. However she has been really pleading her case to stay in the game and I feel bad :/ Now I’m just going to take the time and think that if we were already playing a solo game, who would be the person that I would vote out for my best interest in getting furthest in the game…. 👀

Trinica

How am I supposed to vote AJ out now that I know she's a gay?????

Tyler Frazier

So! Going into tribal im not feeling great! My best bet to keep all my allies is via a rock draw and the hope that people aren’t willing to go that far to protect Hairie. Hopefully Esteban is with us because if he isn’t im gonna be very upset and cry. But that’s okay! (No it’s not)

Raffy

Bethany is trying to flip on Hairie. Esteban is just as unreliable as I thought. Everyone should just listen to me.

Hairie

Waking up to messages hearing my name was tossed around was not ideal at all like it made me go into a frenzy

[statticscribbles]

Strongest Pt 2

Summary: Sweet Pea/Reader Request: Pt 2 to Strongest

“Listen I don’t want to cause anything; but is everything okay between you and Sweet Pea?” You turn confused to Betty who sits next to you. “As far as I know it is; why? Is he saying something?” “No it’s just; Jughead’s been seeming more stressed lately and it seems to constantly lead back to Sweet Pea.” “I mean maybe its cause he’s been trying to actually take paying work? Since I’m taking any shifts I can at Pop’s but even then it’s not much; or near enough when it comes to being able to have any sort of savings.” Betty nods chewing her lip.

“I know it’s probably a bit late to be talking about this; but are you going to keep it?” You nod. “Yeah; I mean I thought about you know; just getting rid of it; and then about what happened to Polly; going to the sister’s giving it up for adoption but I just; I got scared. Like the thought of this kid just getting rejected right from the get go; like all the Southsider’s deal with shit, we’ve all been rejected or overlooked but the though of having abandoned it; just; I couldn’t do it.” “Well I think it’s really good that Sweet Pea’s stepping up to actually help. I was pretty surprised when he told us he got another job to help support you. It’s sweet.” “Surprised?” You furrow your brow.

“Well yeah I mean Southsider’s aren’t known for their parenting skills. I mean you’ve heard what happened to my mom.” “Like father like son.” You mutter chuckling to yourself freezing when Betty glares at you. “I can’t believe you’d imply that Jughead would do something like that to me! That’s horrible of you; just because you don’t have the mind to be safe about these things.” She snaps and you can’t help the red you see; you thankfully have the excuse to blame hormones for now. Although even as you’re saying it you’re regretting it. “It’s not an implication; it’s fact; who do you think he was slumming it with when you threw a fit and broke it off with him?” “He what?” You swallow shaking your head. “Nothing it was a low dig I didn’t- Betty wait! Fuck.” You hold your face in your hands.

“Y/N? You okay?” “I just fucked everything up. I’m gonna die.” You look up to see Toni and Cheryl standing in front of you. “Betty knows.” “Oh; well shit. I mean that’s not really your problem; it’s Jughead’s. Don’t stress about it.” Toni awkwardly pats your shoulder. “How about something to cheer you up?” “Cheryl I don’t think anything can cheer me up; why are you handing me your credit card.”

“Because yesterday Fangs told me you were stressing about clothes because you’ve been spending most of the pay checks you’ve been earning on practical things like diapers and food; like hell if I’m letting my god child be dressed in rags.” “Cheryl you don’t have to, really it’s fine.” “So I am a god-parent.” She smirks and Toni raises an eyebrow. “Well yeah, both you and Toni are like live savers for me right now and-“ “Cheryl calm down. People are staring.” Toni sighs smiling at you as Cheryl untangles herself from the hug she’s given you. ————————————————

You look confused to where Sweet Pea sits half asleep half holding a book. “What’re you doing?” “Reading?” “Sweets you just got home from a double shift you can read whatever it is later; you need to rest.” “You’re upset at me cause I’m reading?” “I don’t care about the books; just rest please.” “No not about the books; something else then.” He hums when you nod sinking onto the couch. “Betty knows; I fucked up and let it slip and now she knows and she hates me and Jughead is gonna kick me outta the serpents and-“ “Whoa hey babe, no he’s not; no he’s not; come here love. It’s okay; it’ll work out.” He moves over pulling you onto his lap instead of where you’d settled on the couch. “Did you know-“

“Babe please, please don’t tell me any weird or scary pregnancy facts” “I was just going to say I love you.” “Oh.” your face flushes and he beams. “You’re adorable when you’re embarrassed you know that right?” “I’m not; I’m awful and-“ “Please don’t finish that sentence or I’m going to have to start learning poetry to combat your self hatred. I love you; no matter what you look like; even if you’re gonna go all stereotypical and complain how fat and horrible you think you look, I don’t think that and nothing you can do will change my mind.” ———————————————————————————-

“Listen Y/N; I know I’ve been a huge asshole lately but I want to try to help.” “Is this cause Betty threatened to break up with you again?” “No, Betty has nothing to do with this.” “So you already broke up then?” “Will you listen? Christ I’m trying to be helpful and here you are acting like-“ “Like what Jones? You have something else to say to make her cry? Or anything to add to her stress levels? You really want to ‘just talk’ I mean it’s obvious how Betty’s not talking to you again.” “Sweet Pea this doesn’t concern you it’s between me and Y/N” Jughead snaps and you watch slightly amused as you remember the last confrontation you’d heard.

“Its about my girl so it concerns me; about my family too.” “Don’t pull that shit we both know it’s not your kid.” “Oh; so everyone knows you’re just like your dad? Abandoning your kid before they even realize what’s happening? I’ve told you before Jones; you don’t get to be involved unless Y/N needs something; does she need you?” “Well obviously I’m the actual dad.” “Did you ask her?” You sink in your seat and can feel Toni nudging you. “Stress is bad. You want to bounce?” “It is kind of fun to see them awkwardly try to fight. Does everyone really know about Sweet Pea?”

“No I think Jughead’s just trying to rile him up; FP knows though; apparently he’s livid so I’m sure Jughead is stressed from that.” “FP knows?” You laugh a little and Toni looks confused. You pull your phone out scrolling through your photos. “After that little shopping spree Cheryl dragged us on; I was putting stuff away and assumed I must have gotten it as a joke; but I guess FP snuck it in.” Toni snorts smiling and nodding. “Please you have to put the kid in that. Please.” You nod laughing looking up when you hear a cough. “Put him in what?”

“My dad got you something?” You shrug showing the picture to Sweet Pea who grins laughing. “Your dad has good taste Jughead; I’ll give him that.” Jughead rolls his eyes at the tiny leather jacket. “I don’t see why you didn’t bother finding out the gender; it would make the whole clothes shopping easier you know.” “And what would you know about that?” You shake your head at him and he shrugs. “Well if you let me help;” “You just want to get back in your dad and Betty’s good books.” “Speaking of Betty.”Toni mumbles and you turn when she walks up.

“Hey Y/N can we talk; alone.” She glares at Jughead and you nod following her out of everyone’s earshot. “I’m sorry about how I reacted earlier. I shouldn’t have been so upset at you.” Her hand brushes your shoulder. “I mean you had a right to be; you’d found out your boyfriend slept around and then knocked up one of the people he was sleeping around with.” “It doesn’t mean I should take my anger out on you.” You shrug. “You didn’t really.”

“Toni and Cheryl told me how it was stressing you out and-“ “Betty; a lot of things are stressing me out; I’m becoming a southside statistic; I’m working any chance I get at Pop’s or the Wyrm when Sweet’s doesn’t notice. He’s pulling double shifts. We’re trying to get something saved up for hospital bills; not to mention just regular baby stuff; so you being a little bitter cause your boyfriend caused all this is okay. I am also a little bitter.” “If it makes you feel better FP is making him use part of his tuition money.” “For what?” “Whatever you need according to how pissed FP was.” “I should talk to him.” “Jughead?” “No FP.” Betty nods. “Do you want company?” ———————————————————————-

You tap at the trailer door. Waiting until FP opens it. “Jughead isn’t home; but I’m guessing that’s why you’re here. Come in.” “You don’t need to make him use his money on-“ “Y/N calm down; I’m not making him; I strongly suggested it and then explained why it was the best idea; if he puts money towards the kid now; you’ll be less likely to wreak havoc later; not saying you would but just in case. Besides the rest of the Serpent’s are already pitching in and- Don’t you dare say no; we’re you’re family, and family take care of there own; besides you know what they say about baby rattlesnakes right?” “Is this another famous snake fact?”

“Yes, yes it is; baby rattlesnakes are more venomous than the adults. That kid is going to be so protected bubble wrap will be out of a job.” You laugh and FP smiles. “Seriously Y/N just cause my son doesn’t want anything to do with his kid doesn’t mean I want the same thing.” “I dunno you, being a grandfather? I can’t see it.” “I’m already retired, besides I heard your mom kicked you out; you’ll need someone to babysit who has experience.” “You heard about that?”

“Yeah, apparently you told Sweet Pea not to tell anyone? Like I said, we’re family; we’re here to take care of you. You’re a kid; you need help; please ask for it. Please.” You nod sighing. “Come here.” You lean into FP as he hugs you. “I’m sorry you’re in this mess; I’m sorry it didn’t work out with Jug; I’m sorry I can’t do more to help.”You nod wiping your eyes. “It’s okay dad don’t sweat it.” You can tell he lets the slip up go. “I won’t. I just have one request..” “I’m not naming him Forsythe if he’s a boy.” “I was going to say to not get me any of those ‘worlds best grandpa things’ but that too.” “Well now that’s all your getting.” FP glares but you can tell he doesn’t mean it. ————————————————

You frown when you see your mom sitting on the couch. She dangles the spare key in front of you before setting it on the table as she stands to hug you. “Y/N I’m so-“ “Don’t.” You cringe back and she sighs. “Honestly this entire mess can still be resolved if you just go to the sisters or-“ “Mom. Please stop.” “No you’re going to throw your entire future away for some child that the father doesn’t even want; you’re slumming it with some lesser Serpent cause he said whatever he did to get in your good books so he can sleep with you; you know that right? Whoever he is doesn’t actually care about you or the child; nobody cares about it besides you sweetheart; it would be better to just get rid of it.” “Mom just, please leave I get you think I’m making a mistake but it’s my choice and-“

“Exactly, it’s your choice you’re just a child; you can’t make a decision like this and expect to pick the right answer. Until you change your mind; until you make the right choice, the only choice I can’t be a part of this.” “I never expected you to be. It’s why I left; why I came here with-“ “Y/N I don’t care anymore. You’re free to ruin your life without me. I just came to let you know is all.” “You came to rub it in my face you’ve kicked me out of the house?” “Not to rub it in your face just to say goodbye for now; until you reevaluate your life.” She smiles as she leaves patting your shoulder. ———————————————————

You try your best not to wake Sweet Pea but when you shift over and sniffle slightly too loudly his hand twitches and he mumbles sleepily. “It’s okay Sweets; it’s nothing.” You assure him; you know you probably sound a little panicky a by product of the nightmare you’d just had. You swallow shifting backwards in the bed hoping he can’t feel you shaking. “You sure? Is Peanut okay?” “Peanut?” You watch as his face pulls back sheepishly. “Been calling him peanut in my head, easier that saying it, or the kid every time. I can stop if-“ You kiss him softly and he pulls you into his arms sighing. “It’s not peanut; just had a nightmare.” “You want to talk about it?”

“You weren’t there. I don’t know why but you just couldn’t make it and no one else was there and I was alone and-“ “Hey; hey baby it’s okay. I’ll be there I promise.” “Don’t say that.” “Well I did; and I’m going to. Can you sleep more right now its only four am.” “No I can’t.” You grumble and he smiles kissing you on the forehead. “We should probably figure out what to do whenever peanut decides to come out huh?” “Yeah I guess.” “You guess? You expect he’s just going to ask us if it’s convenient? Send us a letter or something?” You laugh shaking your head. “Just pack a bag and go to the hospital; like normal people.”

“You could always schedule it; it’d cost more but probably better in the long run.” “Oh yeah let me just call Peanut and see when he’s free.” “No babe; like a c-section. You can-“ “I don’t think that’s safe.”You shrug and Sweet Pea frowns. “ Did you know-“ “If you tell me any scary pregnancy facts I’ll cry.” “Babe… It’s just numbers about teen pregnancy; which you are, sort of. Most teen pregnancy births end in c-sections; it’s safer for everyone involved. You can’t just pretend nothing bad is ever going to happen.” “I can and I will, denial is my best friend right now.” “Y/N; what’s actually going on? It’s not just the nightmare is it.”

“My mom came over earlier.” “What did she say love?” You shake your head hiding your face in his chest. “I’m gonna end up like her and you’re going to leave; peanut won’t have his dad around and he’ll hate me.” “That’s not going to happen; you have me. I’m here; no matter what.” He kisses you and you smile into it. “I know; I love you.” “I love you too; but back to the Peanut issue. A C-section might-“ “No. That’s surgery; that’s too expensive we can’t afford that.” “Cheryl-“ “No I’m not asking anyone else to do shit for me and-“ His hand runs through your hair.

“Y/N; she almost strangled me when I told her and Betty you didn’t want a baby shower; she keeps tipping me fifties when Toni lets me take her shifts. Just ask, that’s all I’m asking.” You chew your lip. “It would make sure I could be there; you wouldn’t be in pain.” “Like FP won’t let you take off for you own kid being born…” You glare at him and he laughs. “I wouldn’t put it past him.” He coughs and you frown. “What’s wrong?” “Nothing.” “Sweet Pea; I can tell something just happened.”

“It’s nothing.” You watch as he snuggles closer to you, you can feel him smiling into your hair. “Sweets. Come on; I just had a nightmare. I’m having your kid; tell me what made you happy.” “That.” He grins and you look confused at him. “I had a nightmare?” “No, that’s horrible; I meant the thing you said about peanut.”

“What about him?” You chew your lip thinking back to everything you’ve said. “Is it about the C-section?” “No it’s just; don’t make me say it.” “No I legit don’t understand what’s got you so happy?” “You said he’s mine.” You nod dumbly at him. “Yes? That’s kind of a fact? Why is that making you happy?” “It’s nice to hear you say it.” You nod still slightly confused. “I mean you are his dad? You’re the one taking care of me and him.” “Or her.” He corrects grinning and you roll your eyes. “Or her; you’re the one who’s got me saying him; I think Fangs is the only one still on the ‘it’s a girl train.’ Cheryl was but Toni somehow convinced her.” ——————————————————————

You glare at Sweet Pea when he walks in. “What’s wrong?” “Cheryl agreed.” “To what? There’s a lot of things I asked her for in the- I’m joking babe, I’m joking! I didn’t ask her for anything. Besides that fancy ass crib she- IT’S A JOKE Y/N.” “The 15th at 9 am. That’s only a week early. I called FP already so he knows; so you have two weeks after that off.” “Oh, oh shit!” You watch his face and laugh when it clicks. “Yeah.” “Holy fuck we’re going to be parents.” “Yes? We’ve known for months?” “Well yeah there’s a date, and time now. It’s serious; like real, really real. Holy fuck.” He mumbles walking over to lean over to kiss you.

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“I expect you to be more stressed.” Sweet pea shrugs and you arch an eyebrow. “One, I can’t feel anything from my waist down; two since this is all scheduled I’m pretty much waiting for them to call me back.” “Surgery’s kind of a big deal.” He reaches for your hand and you squeeze it. “Didn’t you read all sorts of statistics about teen pregnancy and c-sections in the books you got?” “Well yeah; but it’s different seeing it on paper and it being you.” “How is that different?” “Well I love you; I don’t want anything bad to happen to you.” “It won’t. If you start listing all the thing that can go wrong; I won’t; let you hold peanut.” “You can’t make me not hold my own kid Y/N that’s the dumbest threat I’ve ever heard.” “But it’s still a threat.” “A real threat would be putting Jones’ name on the birth certificate.” “Isn’t that what she’s doing?” Fangs question and you laugh as he drags a parade of balloons into the room. “Cheryl made me get both.”

“I get the pink and blue cause we kept it a secret but uh, why are there four; it’s not twins.” “From her and then from Toni I guess.” Fangs shrugs. “Is that a toy snake?” “Yeah, gotta make sure she loves snakes duh.” Fangs grins and you shake your head laughing. “You have to tell us the name!” Toni interrupts; Cheryl following her. “No I’ve already told you we’re not revealing that or the gender until they’re born.” “Killjoys.” Cheryl laughs smiling at you. —————————————————–

You wake up to the room being empty save for Sweet Pea curled on the chair; you watch him for a moment debating alerting him you’re awake before you can he turns back towards where you can hear the beginning of crying. “Hey whoa, no, no need to get so upset; come on you have to let mom sleep a bit; she can’t take you home unless she’s slept; I know you miss her it’s okay I do to. Now, we have- don’t look at me like that I need your help. Yeah exactly.” You watch Sweet Pea nodding as he looks down at your son, you can see his hand waving, he must have gotten it free while he was sleeping.

“Okay business time and then we can wake mom up yeah? Good; now, black or green? I was thinking green cause you know Serpents but blacks traditional. What do you think? No I’ll show you it in a second you have to help me choose, it’s a family thing after all. So; black or green.” He grins and you only hear laughter in response, you shift pretending to wake up and Sweet Pea grins. “Shit.” You hear him mumble shoving whatever he was holding into his jacket pocket, you can hear it clank and try your best not to get excited about the idea of him giving you your own key.

“Look it’s mom!” You can’t help but smile, Sweet Pea handing him over and you laugh when he cries. “Aw do you miss dad? It’s okay he’s like not even a foot away. You’re just unable to tell, you’ll get your object permanence soon.” “Hey you read some of the books!” Sweet Pea grins and you laugh nodding. “Of course; I was pregnant; I sort of had to.” Sweet Pea nods. “Hey listen this is kinda silly but can I take you out to dinner soon; like a proper date?”

“Yeah? They said I need like six weeks to heal from this; movement wise at least; but I don’t see why we can’t go to Pop’s or somewhere else later in the week when we’re a bit more coherent.” “So you mean when you’re not so drugged up you can’t feel your toes.” “Basically yes; why? We went on a date the other day.” “Yeah but I want to go on a date as a family, well like us; you know celebrating we’re a family.” You can see how his face changes, how he stutters and you can tell he’s nervous about whatever he’s planning. You laugh. “What?” His face falls as you grin. “I heard you, well the tail end of your very important conversation.” Sweet Pea’s face pales. “You did?”

“Yes, if you’re going to give me a key you know I don’t care about the colour.” Sweet Pea nods and hides his face. “Aw come on it’s not that hard to figure it out Pea.” “I know just I wanted to surprise you.” “It’s okay I’ll probably forget half of this by tomorrow.” He nods grinning.

“Hopefully.” He winks as the nurse explains you can go home, he helps you into the wheelchair and when you shiver he drapes his jacket over you. He’s distracted with loading everything into the car when you slide your hands into the pockets confused to feel an open box. You fish your hand around deeper trying to figure out where the key meant for you is instead finding a ring catching on your finger.

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