#like…. c!techno just generally makes me so fucking angry

[duawheat]

i think techno should go back into the prison pls because he has never had a real loss in his entire time on the dream smp and it’s fucking annoying and honestly unrealistic

some may argue that the butcher army was a loss, but it wasn’t really. he lived and he killed others and he left all of l’manburg worse than they were before. he escaped unharmed and he won and his friend escaped unharmed and won. he did not lose then.

others argue that the sixteenth was a loss for him, or maybe tommy’s “betrayal” was a loss for him. but we’re they really? cause on the sixteenth he spawned withers and killed people and hurt them more than they ever hurt him. and tommy’s “betrayal”? sure his feelings were hurt(even though he was never up front with tommy about his goals and he knew how tommy was and that tommy wouldn’t want his friends or his country to be hurt like that) but he came back the next fucking day and destroyed everything. he tore apart lmanburg, tore out its heart and left everything and everyone around it to rot and disappear. he came back and he got his revenge within one day and he won.

and then he got stuck in the prison and he didn’t even care, he was fine with it. and then today you think maybe, just maybe, he’s gonna finally lose, lose the book or even lose a life. but no, he gets to go home to his friend and laugh with him as if nothing happened.

it feels wrong and bad. people don’t win that much, the only people who never lose are the fucking billionaires and corrupts of the world. and he says that he wants to take down corruption and government and unfair power. the fuck? he cant even see that he’s so obviously the power here. if he really thinks that the governments of the smp are the people with the power then he is simply fucked in the head, living in his own perfect world of “anarchy” where he always wins and still thinks of himself as the victim. as the one who is in the right. it pisses me off. he needs to lose at least once, he needs at least one unbelievable tragic loss. he needs to know what it’s like to lose everything, and to let it happen because it’s all you know, it’s the only thing the world has ever given you. the only thing the world has even given you is nothing. he needs to know how that feels.

tldr: techno needs to have an actual real loss because he has never actually lost anything in the history of the smp and it’s just fucked up and makes me angry

[randomfansstuff]

I've been thinking for a bit on what bothers me in regards to c!niki, and why I find it strange that some paint her as a girlboss that'll beat c!wilbur to a pulp, and I finally figured it out I think

not only is it obvs weird because of cwilburs general circumstances, but also er c!niki kinda... did almost the exact same thing as c!wilbur? and then moved on without any consequences?

let's get down what c!niki is mad at c!wilbur for. shes mad at him for lying, for blowing up lmanburg, for changing so much in a relatively short time, for being (in her own words) manipulative; this all culminates together in the fact that c!niki is mad at c!wilbur for how he acted during his mental spiral and that he hurt people, that he hurt lmanburg, that he hurt her. that he left and abandoned them because he refused to face consequences for his actions.

trust me btw I know most of this shit is wrong and not a correct view on cwilbur, bit thats what c!niki sees in him currently and in the past.

but now that I think about it, didn't c!niki continue on to do just... very very similar things? after cwilburs death and everything in new lmanburg, she gave up on the country just like cwilbur did. she burned the tree down, she cut herself off. then c!niki joined a... 'group' that finds its purpose on checking up on others with the threat of violence that they don't dare make a government. then during her own mental spiral she pushed all her problems on a teenager and tried actively murdering him through a weapon his best friend build to protect them. then she went on to abandon c!jack and help c!dream escape prison because she just had to help c!techno with HIS favor. and then she also isolated herself, continuing her mental spiral.

so, c!niki: abandoned lmanburg, hurt people she initially cared about due to her own mental spiral, supported c!dream through assisting in his escape and has not apologized or realised a fault in a single of these things.

c!niki hasn't been mentally well in a long time, obviously, and c!wilbur did hurt her. she deserves a long talk and an apology as much as the next lmanburgian. she was close to cwilbur and seeing him shatter as he did must have been horrible.

BUT c!niki cant expect c!wilbur to come crawling for forgiveness when she hasn't spoken to c!jack or c!tommy in months. when she hasn't even thought about apologizing or atoning.

I will not be able to accept c!niki snapping at c!wilbur and being angry, blaming him for it all, with the knowledge that she tried fucking murdering c!tommy and still hasn't apologized.

[jjkyaoi]

ok tbh i thought it was just a dsmp fandom thing but in general why is it so common for people to like. shit on traumatized characters when they don’t behave,,,,in a docile way. like, i’ve seen way more acceptance and love for characters across the board when they’re portrayed as meek little uwu sad stereotypes that can’t do anything on their own, and yet there’s not nearly as much sympathy for characters who lash out and toe the line for what is and isn’t “acceptable” when they’re traumatized. like….why is it such a common thing that people are so ready to back up a character when they’re docile and meek from being traumatized and yet not when their trauma responses r they exact opposite. when it’s angry, and real, and they can’t be babied. like….if you only wanna deal with people who have trauma when they’re docile and easy to baby and yet don’t want to put up with any of the other signs that aren't that, then im gonna nave to ask you to to stay the fuck away from me loool /nbh

and its not even like— you dont even have to excuse somebody's shit actions, thats not even the point of what i’m saying, i’m just saying be a decent fucking person and maybe don’t give up on people when they’re hurting, in general, and when you can’t baby them?? maybe stop the double standards because it’s fucking weird?… man, the amount of people i’ve seen in the dsmp fandom—and it’s not just in the dsmp fandom but i’m a fucking dsmp blog so whatever—sympathize with traumatized characters and be apologists for them when they’re acting meek, and yet turn around the second it doesn’t stay that way— the second the character exhibits what they could determine as ugly behavior and start slandering them?? like, let’s fucking take c!tommy for example. during exile there was so many people sympathizing with him, there was so many people defending him and watching his streams and making sad posts about the horrible shit he was going through, because yes it was horrible, and yet the second the aftermath of doomsday happened— the second tommy “betrayed techno”— which he didn’t even do , but i’m not gonna get into that, that discourse is genuinely the bane of my fucking existence— it was like everyone suddenly dropped their sympathy and started bashing on the kid. there was animatics that were taking tommy’s words and actions completely out of context, mind you, and making it all about techno—making him seem Way more fucking sympathetic, there was war in the lore vods of tommy’s raging on his character for betraying techno, any doomsday animatic that didn’t even involve the betrayal scene whatsoever it would be brought up, my fucking fyp was flooded with that content and i had to search for people with common sense and this shit still goes on, i’m still seeing c!techno apologists bring it up, i’m still seeing doomsday discourse in fucking youtube comments, and it’s like. y’all really let go of any sympathy you had for c!tommy the second he made a mistake. and for the life of me i can’t fucking understand that

it’s so weird to me. do y’all not…comprehend that people make mistakes and hurt others when they’re hurting and just because they do that they’re not satan himself and they can, i don’t know, redeem themselves?? does it not click in y’all’s heads that not everybody’s going to be meek when they’re hurting??? lmao what kind of one dimensional thinking… and it’s funny because the thing that sparked this post was the fact that i, once again, saw fucking doomsday discourse on twitter and saw people still bashing c!tommy for something that happened months ago and it’s just. y’all really can’t let this shit go.

doomsday discourse is the bane of my existence, y’all sympathizing with traumatized characters until they make a mistake is the bane of my existence, eat shit, thank u for coming to my ted talk

[tobi-smp]

(inniter neg clarifier) 1/2 so i reread the original post (the one that sparked the discourse) n realized i fucked up and forgot the overall message of the post was inniters mischaracterization of c!tommy and reducing other characters, mainly SBI, to revolving around tommy and not having a role outside that. very very sorry about spreading misinformation. i was pretty tired, although i still should have reread the post first before explaining.

(inniter neg clarifier) 2/2 i highly recommend u read the original post by inniterneg (usually dslur-crossing w/o the censor) u can find it pretty easliy by searching "original post" on his blog. and also possibly read the anons sent to him, to get a full grasp on their overall issue with inniters. [End transcription]

Context: [Link]

once again, I appreciate the clarification but uh,

I’ve honestly debated whether I should answer this or not, or if I did whether I should censor the original username and not address the original post because there is absolutely nothing about it that is reasonable or worth talking about. but here’s the post [Link] and here’s an alternate link in case they change their url back [Link]

like anon, there is literally nothing worth while to take from this. op doesn’t like lore analysis and fanfic that comes from inniters so they took that and created an image of a guy in their head to get mad about. this is Literally nothing but “inniters make everything about their blorbo” but longer.

there are some things that are worth talking about that they mention in the post (even things that I’ve talked about before), but it’s not worth engaging with because they don’t have the nuance to start that conversation and they don’t care to, it’s all there to argue that inniters are the scourge of the fandom for having a guy they like that isn’t their guy.

for one Very Brief example, one of the things they called out was inniters getting upset with phil’s “advice” to tommy about not valuing people over objects. you can tell how I feel about that based on the scare quotes alone. here is an entire essay I wrote specifically disproving the idea that tommy has ever valued objects over people [Link] and here’s a post I wrote trying to put into perspective why phil saying he destroyed l’manberg as a “lesson” rubbed me the wrong way on an emotional level [Link]

there are other posts going into the specifics of why the advice wasn’t very good, but those were the essays that I made in response to the situation. it’s a conversation with a ton of nuance, but you wouldn’t know it from what op has to say about it. according to them, c!phil gave advice and it made tommy feel better so everybody should just sit down, shut up, and not think about it because it personally bothers Them to see it criticized.

once again: this is obviously, Obviously, targeted because they don’t like tommy. in the general sense, what they’re getting angry about is true across the board. techno mains are going to write meta and write fic that center techno and in turn they’re probably going to mischaracterize someone they’re less familiar with or present characters in a way that fans of that character don’t like because whatever they’re making exists in service of their favorite character. calling that an “inniter” thing is ridiculous.

“inniters mischaracterize my blorbo in their meta” yeah and I think people mischaracterize tommy when they write meta about him. that’s why I respond to them and write my own meta. wow it looks like we have the same opinion of each other but we’re separated by who it is we fixate on and care about. imagine that.

but really, to say that in a less sarcastic way, they’re angry Both about inniters mischaracterizing their faves in fan discussions and fan content And with inniters being spurred into writing said fan discussions and making said fan content because they feel like tommy is being mischaracterized. They’re allowed to be upset about it, but inniters are expected to lay down and take it because op is obviously the person that inniters should be catering to. it’s hypocritical, just like their blorbos.

the Only thing that can’t be described as them getting angry about something that’s true across the board is their apparent dislike for dark fiction. which wouldn’t be a problem on its own (it’s all about personal preference and keeping yourself safe innit), but tying it to Real morality and insisting that people who make it are being #problematic is. well it’s embarrassing.

dark sbi as a genre doesn’t exist as commentary on the characterization of the dream smp, dark sbi as a genre exists because there are people in the sbi fandom who like horror. and yes, I do mean The Sbi Fandom. I’m a frequent follower of that tag Because I Like Horror, and tommy is not always the victim of said horror. sometimes he’s a scary monster that does the Dark in the sbi like the others. I’ve seen dark sbi fic focused on phil, techno, wilbur, ranboo, tubbo, and even quackity (with the rest of the sbi acting as the source of horror).

of course, there’s different Kinds of dark sbi (less horror focused and more drama focused) but that’s besides the point.

a character with a story that involves heavy themes of horror attracted fans of horror so they made horror content. oh the humanity, won’t someone think of the children, somebody call the police and get these scum out of polite society

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obviously this person doesn’t deserve harassment, nor do I actually want to engage with them in an argument. but I don’t know why anybody took this seriously. someone made an unpleasant rant that probably should’ve stayed in dms because they like seeing content that’s catered to them and dislike seeing content that isn’t. there’s nothing here that’s Worth considering, not in this context anyways

[bistaxx]

Things (or things I can remember off the top of my head) that Tubbo did during his presidency that I agree were kinda fucked up

Going through Phil’s stuff while he was under house arrest

Trying to kill Techno without a trial of any sorts/defaulting to execution instead of any other punishment in general

Shooting at Phil after the failed execution

Going back on his decision to not exile Tommy at the last minute (While I agree with his reasoning and that all things considered it was the safest move to make the other cabinet members and Tommy had the right to be angry about it and he ended up playing into Dream’s hand- which isn’t his fault, the situation was fucked from the start and I’m not blaming him for that. Just saying that the Cabinet had the right to be upset by that decision )

Things I think he was justified in doing

Putting Phil under house arrest in the first place since he was aiding a known terrorist

Going after Technoblade and arresting him in the first place (As far as The Cabinet was aware Techno was still out there and still planning on attacking L’manberg, they had no way of knowing that was retired until they actually confronted him and couldn’t risk just waiting for him to come to L’manberg ( which he had in fact snuck into L’manberg several times and never told the citizens why ) after the initial wither incident on November 16th)

( also I rewatched the part of Techno’s “Nothing goes wrong” vod where the army confronts Techno  (about 35 minutes in ) and they were in fact willing to listen to Techno when he claimed to have changed his ways. Of all people Quackity was willing to give Techno a chance to show them that he had changed his ways and said “Let’s do this peacefully”. Techno leads them to his bees... and then runs away the second they turned their backs leading to things escalating. Now I’m not faulting him for panicking and running away because he had no reason to trust them BUT at the same time this gives the army no reason to believe that he’s really changed his ways, as far as they are aware he could be just trying to escape punishment for unleashing withers in L’manberg or so he can further plot to harm L’manberg like Techno said he would the last time they all interacted and it frustrates me that I’ve seen literally no one talk about this. 

when they catch up to him Quackity does start threatening him saying they can do this “the easy way or the hard way” and Techno is the one to initiate the fight, not the other way around. Is he allowed to defend himself, yes of course! I’m not criticizing Techno’s character- I’m more just miffed about how people talk about this event. I’ve just seen people word things to make it seem like the army was the one to attack first when that’s just not true. The situation wasn’t a simple black and white one. )

(also also I just wanna say God I forgot how I much I love C!Quackity and how much I miss him- that is all-)

[mcmoth]

Tommy and Fundy.

/rp

Ahhh!!! Ahhh my beloveds,,,,, my scrimblo and skrunkly,,, ohgghghh my boyyss......

Seriously I cannot emphasize enough how much I would LOVE to have them interact more in lore. They're Wilbur's boys!!! Something between nephew and uncle/brothers, with so much that ties them together, and yet, they stay so separated....

There is just so much that I could get into in regards to what conflicts they could have, so I'm just gonna put them in bullet points:

Fundy holding resentment for Tommy for how he sort of 'took' his place as Wilbur's son, as his top priority. I'm still utterly haunted by how c!Wilbur first elected Tommy as president at nov 16, then Tubbo, but never Fundy. Never even thought of him. God damn it, he's not even in the fucking anthem. While Tommy is thought of as the muse of L'manberg, the one who fought for it the hardest, Fundy was just remembered as a traitor in the end.... it fucks me up so much. I would love to have Fundy be angry at Tommy for this, more subconciously I think since he's not really one to blame people like that, and that would sort of lead them to talk, and...

I would love for Fundy, through Tommy, to learn more about Wilbur. To learn what was truly happening in Pogtopia, why he left them all the way he did, how he hung out with Tommy after his revival, still.... and how he's now kinda left Tommy, too. I think Fundy would sort of imagine that Tommy had it great - that Wilbur loved Tommy more than he ever did him and trusted in him and oh, how great would it be, to be at his side, to be so valued.... only to hear Tommy talk about it all, and realize "Oh... oh, he's kind of fucked up from it all." And sort of reconsider his whole view of Wilbur, why his dad left him, and whether he would have liked to be in Tommy's shoes after all.....

(Before I scare anyone, btw, I am not a Wilbur anti, I love him very very much, this is just from their perspective)

Both of their desire for guidance. For their whole lives, they've looked for people to follow, for people to protect them. Their stories mirror each other in that way, i think... for Tommy, it was Wilbur, then Dream, then Techno, then Wilbur again, and now Phil.... and for Fundy, it was Wilbur, then Schlatt, then Quackity, and he also confided in Phil at some point like Tommy. Both of them share this energy of having daddy issues, of being so desperate for paternal figures in their lives... both of them ache so desperately for family. And so wouldn't it make sense, for them to find it through each other? They are literal family, wouldn't it be so healing for them to remember that and reconcile?

On the other hand, though, while they are prone to following others, both of them also share the want for carving a life for themselves that is their own. And while Fundy aches to have people recognise him for his achievements, to recognise him in general, Tommy mostly deals with the opposite problem of too many eyes on him, too much attention that he'd like to get away from. They share so many similarities, really - characters that used to be fairly prideful, that loved to get up to mischief, that mask their pain with humor, that are so desperate to not be alone. I think they could find a lot of solidarity in each other, and see how each of their lives suck in different ways, and, through that, sort of come to understand what they need to find that balance in life, that happiness.

Speaking of solidarity - their relationship with Schlatt/Dream. It's canon that Schlatt was an abusive asshole, and that Fundy geniunely grew to believe in him and seek his approval and even come to see him as a father figure while he felt so distant from Wilbur. All to be awaited with only scathing words and smashed bottles, when Schlatt's life came to an end. I wonder if Fundy still misses him. If he regrets ever becoming a spy. If he ever had doubts and believed in Schatt's insults, if he hates him now. There's a lot of differences between c!disk duo and Fundy and Sclatt's relationships, but there are common themes, too, and I think it would be interesting to have that be recognised. Once again, they serve as foils - Fundy's mistreatment being born in neglect, and Tommy's obsession.

Fundy is alone. He feels so painfully alone, he is such a goddamn lonely character.... which is why I think becoming friends with Tommy would be so good for him. Tommy is a people magnet, he attracts attention like moths to a flame, he's painfully social and he could help build ties for Fundy between so many other characters. That's not to say that Fundy doesn't have important and deep relationships on his own, that he couldn't find them by himself - he does, and he has. But I think, with how Tommy's also grown to be more and more of an open and genuine person with time, he could help Fundy crack his shell and step out of it a bit. I think he could help him feel actually seen.

Now, there's probably more that I could talk about, but the question remains... when, and how, would they actually come to talk? Well...

It's hard to say. In canon, they haven't shown much interest in actively interacting with each other. But if c!Tommy does move on with a plotline where he builds up a new community, sort of a new L'manburg, that could be one way for them to cross paths. Or with how Dream is out, and Las Nevadas is so panicked about it, that would naturally lend to Fundy coming to Tommy's aid. But I don't think any meaningful connection would come with that, unless the elephant in the room is brought in.... which is, obviously, Wilbur.

It pains me so much that Wilbur and Fundy haven't reconciled yet. Haven't even talked. His dad has just.... forgotten him. Still thinks of him as a traitor. I think...

I think the thing that would make Wilbur want to reach out again would be learning about exile. If he learns that he's failed one kid, in such a major way, without knowing.... maybe, hopefully, he would come to realize he had another one waiting for him, too. And with how c!crime boys healing would mean c!Wilbur healing in general, moving past his warped view of himself, maybe it would begin to strip layers of his paranoia as well, and he would begin to doubt his view of Fundy, too. Leading him to finally, finally, go talk to him. And through knowing Wilbur again, Fundy would come to grow closer to Tommy, too.

Or, maybe, a perhaps more juicy option - is that Fundy sees Wilbur supporting Tommy, just like he always has, from his perspective - always Tommy, and never him - and it leaves him to finally break. For him to confront Tommy, since Wilbur still refuses to engage with him, for him to air his grievances and try to seek an answer for why. Why he was abandoned, why he was never answered. And thus, it prompts Tommy to emphathise with Fundy, for them to talk to each other, and together... they come to face Wilbur, and heal. As a family, at last.

So..... ya!!! This is so freaking long; as you can see, I have many thoughts about them shhshdhsh,, they are my two special boys. This dynamic would probably never come to full fruition, but... one can dream. Sigh..... </333

[stellocchia]

This is part 6 of the Comprehensive Analysis of c!Tommy and c!Dream’s relationship during the Exile Arc

Part 1 -  Part 2 -  Part 3 -  Part 4 -  Part 5

Here we go again. So, just to clarify: I honestly think that for the Mexican Dream stream almost only the parts where Dream is Dream and not Mamacita are canon, but I will check those other ones out as well for anything interesting. Drista’s stream however is like as vaguely canon as possible, so I will mostly give a general outline of it more so then analizing it bit by bit.

That said, a reminder that from here on out I will be only talking about the characters unless stated otherwise and that we will be talking about sensitive topics, so keep that in mind.

First stream we will be looking at is the infamous Mexican Dream stream: Tommy Speaks to Mexican Dream in Exile

Once again Tommy wakes up drowning, again just slightly further away from the coast in the opposite direction from L’Manburg. He also immediately takes off his armour.

“Wait, no, we don’t have enough friends to afford being angry at people” (by now even Tommy himself doesn’t value much his own feelings)

“So at the end of our last Dream smp stream, uh, we died [non canonically], but it’s okay because I got some of our things-” *Dream joins the game* *distressed noises* (I’m never not gonna point out Tommy’s reactions at Dream appearing)

Dream appears and immediately digs the hole for the armour. Tommy immediately gives it up actually apologizing for not doing it even before. Also right after this Dream investigates on wether or not someone visited Tommy while he was gone and he finds out about Ranboo.

“I’ve just been trying to keep you company” “Yeah, yeah, no, it’s been pretty nice” “We’ve became better friends” “Yeah, yeah, we have” (Dream and his ‘friendship’ agenda)

This is when they meet Mexican Dream who was just outside Tommy’s Nether portal. An interesting thing I want to point out is Dream immediately moving directly in front of Tommy when he notices him (probably got used by now to assuming a defensive position).

“We’ll make this place like home man...” (MD already making everything better)

“What did you [Dream] do to him man?” “No but he is my friend now, apparently- I think. You are my-?” (immediately starts questioning things with MD presence there challenging Dream’s)

“I’m your new friend man” “Oh, do you need me to put my items in a pit for you?” (...) “This is what Dream always makes me do, is this right?” (looking once again at Dream for approval in the last bit)

“Hey, wait, so now that you’re here do I even need to follow this man?” (talking about Dream here)

“Okay, wait, how do I know that this isn’t a Dream? Because I keep having Dream’s and shit. I’m like a hallucinator” (so we can add recurrent hallucinations to his ever increasing list of symptoms)

"Even though he may be naked and homeless- are you homeless? Do you need a home?” “I’m homeless man” (And this is why MD was a problem to Dream, he was more then willing to stay with Tommy)

“Oh no that guy [a squid] has committed suicide just at the sound of it! Oh that’s... I envy him” (he is now openly suicidal)

“I don’t like Mexican Dream, Mexican Dream is weird” (sure it’s not just because he admitted to wanting to move to Logstedshire permanently there Dream?)

“Alright, Thomas, come over here, come over here” *Dream starts following as well* “NO! NO! You stay the fuck away!” (this is why we love MD)

“You know actually, he is sort of actually borderline my owner” (I hate that there was a time were both Tommy and Dream thought this)

After this Dream swaps for Mamacita, so I’m really not sure how canon things are here... there is a scene where MD comforts Tommy while he’s looking at pictures of Tubbo and then Mamacita destroys all but one of them.

“I really miss my family man” “Oh I miss my- I miss my family too” (would his family be Tubbo for Tommy?)

Dream does swap back to being Dream for the last 25 minutes. And he proceeds to immediately takes one of MD’s lives. It’s technically his second life because the first one was from a creeper exploding.

“No no shoot me not them, [the pictures of MD’s friends(?)] actually shoot them. I definitely don’t have my confidence back” (Dream immediately setting him back on his progress)

Right after the kill Tommy asks if he can bodyguard Dream in hopes of keeping him and MD from fighting so that MD would be safe. It doesn’t work. Also pretty sure that Dream canonically decapitated somebody. 

“Mexican Dream, I-I’ve had enough of you” (Dream immediately ging back to be terrifying right there)

Dream then takes MD’s third canon life. Of course, in true Dream style, he immediately ignores all the distress Tommy is in and moves on like nothing happened.

“You just killed my last friend” (I hate that he’s not even angry)

“So Dream, do I not have any friends left?” “What do you mean ‘you don’t have any friends left’? You have me!” (Dream is the only friend that Dream is willing to allow Tommy to have)

Also I want to point out how Dream keeps ignoring any and all accusations of having killed MD, despite having done so right in front of Tommy. And then he proceeds to try and convince Tommy that he died of a drug overdose (which is just yet another example of gaslighting there from Dream). He then proceeds to make Tommy burn his remains, despite Tommy opposing this quite a bit.

“I know I haven’t really delved into my health with you ever, because I know you don’t really care, but I don’t think I have really long left” (at least he is somewhat aware about Dream not caring)

“I thought maybe we could have someone move in with us today, no. No He doesn’t allow that. Which is fine! Which is fine because, you know, it’s his- his uh- his rules now”

Once again I want to point out that this truly is just a glorified kidnapping. Tommy not only is confined to a very small area and not allowed to keep many items, he also doesn’t get to have anyone move in his area. Dream doesn’t want him to have any company that isn’t him, going as far as to literally kill someone to insure it (not too different from what he was planning to do in the season 2 finale). Either way the stream ends on a very pessimistic note about Tommy not having the will to go on for much longer at this point. 

Now let’s move on to the Drista stream: TommyInnit Speaks To Dream's Sister AGAIN

As I said I’ll just give a general outline for this one since it’s honestly barely canon as is, so here we go:

Tommy doesn’t start off drowning this time. Drista arrives and starts immediately being chaotic as usual. They mess around for a while in the Nether, start building a tower (Dream at one point tries to convince Drista that it was Tommy to have killed MD), get bored and mess around some more. Also Drista gives Tommy a bedrock block and writes “Drista” out of bedrock near Logstedshire. Then Drista convinces Dream to let them go back to the main Smp for a while (though we do see Punz trying to kill him for breaking the rules before finding out Dream had given his permission). Once in Dream Smp they meet up with Quackity for a little bit.

Also, Tommy, king of always being in character, constantly asks very uncertainly: “Are you sure that I’m allowed here? This feels wrong...”

They then spawn in a bunch of dogs and wonder around in the smp. After a while Techno gets added to the call and Tubbo starts kinda following them around (though Tommy thinks he has a hallucination). I honestly don’t think any of this is canon. Anyway after a while Techno gets a bedrock block as well and he almost manages to give a stolen Pigstep to Tommy, but it gets intercepted. After a while their time is up and he has to go back by Dream’s order. 

“If you don’t see me again in this, you know, in this shape, I’m sorry. (...) Yeah, in this alive form on this server... you might see me you knoa a bit- a bit- I don’t know... maybe a bit ghostly” (foreshadowing to his death that never actually happened during the Exile Arc thankfully)

The stream ends with a promise from Dream that he’ll be there the day after.

Moving on to the last one for today, we have Quackity’s visit: Quackity Visits TommyInnit in Exile

So, Quackity decides to go visit Tommy to try (and miserably failing) to lift his mood by giving him gifts supposedly from everyone in L’Manburg (which are pictures).

“I’ve got no reason to live” (and we start off immediately in the most depressing way possible)

Also, while we’re talking about this stream I have to point out that Tommy has a lot of self-harming behaviours, mostly drowning himself and shooting himself with arrows. Which is rather worrying to say the least.

“Big Q I have very little will to live right now” (again he's very open about his suicidal thoughts by now)

“Forget about Tubbo! Listen, listen Tommy, there are so many things you can turn to when you’re depressed, alright?” “I’m not depressed... I’ve got Dream, I’ve got Dream, I’ve got Dream” “Dream?! (...) Who escorted you out of L’Manburg? Who escorted you out of L’Manburg? Who gave you 30 minutes to go to L’manburg? [In the Drista visit]” “I want Dream”

This is Quackity trying albeit clumsily, to break Tommy out of Dream’s conditioning, though by this point it was far too ingrained for anything to be effective. Also we can see Tommy asking for Dream when he is distressed, which is something that keeps happening during the Bedrock Boys Arc as well.

After a little bit they decide to build a church and a “gambling place”. Techno also joins them after a while. (Also, according to Quackity, c!Dream is canonically racist for killing MD, do with that what you will). Also why does Quackity have a flight or flirt instinct with Techno?

Tommy, sarcastically: “I’m fine, I’m okay, it’s not like I have canonical depression”. That is a fair objection in any and all conversations. 

The stream end a while later with nothing else of note. It is very funny though, so do give it a watch if you feel like it.

[toastandjamie]

I have- so many feelings. I’ve been trying to write an analysis since last night but everything I wrote is incomprehensible so this is an attempt: advanced apologies. Originally I wanted to make a post about C!Quackity and C!Tommy’s relationship but then it got me thinking of talking about what makes Tommy so vulnerable to manipulation even incidentally which brought me to Wilbur and Techno. So I’ve decided to just make a mishmash comparing Tommy’s relationships to these three complicated people.

Starting with Quackity I think we can all agree, Quackity GETS Tommy. In a way others on the server(like Fundy or Foolish) just straight up don’t. Quackity treats Tommy a lot like he treats Slime, with this understanding that Tommy isn’t like everyone else and won’t respond to things like others would. Because Tommy in spite of everything really does act like a kid. He acts out because of boredom or frustration especially when he’s ignored. Often others get frustrated when dealing with Tommy, but Quackity has this odd level of patience different from say Sam, Puffy or even Foolish in that he puts himself at Tommy’s level. At the start I think this was just a genuine attempt at having fun with our chaos raccoon but at the moment it’s almost patronizing(a reoccurring theme). Quackity understands that pushing Tommy will only result in property damage, but he also knows that he can’t let him run around unsupervised(because property damage). When Quackity is unaware that Tommy is listening he sounds more than a little frustrated at his antics, but then Tommy throws on a pair of pants claiming to be called Trousers and insists that he is not in fact Tommyinnit. Quackity plays along, he doesn’t try and force Tommy to stop, he humors him. This is something Quackity does a lot with Tommy, and it’s why Tommy still seems to have positive feelings towards him. Quackity humors him the way adults will humor a child who’s insisting that they are a wizard. Through this lense(which I think Quackity is fully aware of) he’s able to get Tommy into a less aggressive state and get information out him. Like why he’s working with Wilbur, and Tommy’s feelings about it. Which also unfortunately makes him super easy to use. I think in the future as Quackity slowly succumbs to the inevitable power hungry corruption that’ll bury whatever soft spot he has for Tommy, we’ll see Quackity take advantage of Tommy’s blatant abandonment issues using the trust he’s built through these small appeasement based interactions.

Moving on; C!Wilbur Soot! This is a land mine let me tell you. Because Listen, Wilbur is obviously, severely traumatized and mentally ill. I don’t think Wilbur necessarily has any malicious intentions towards Tommy. But unfortunately this bad boy is backing a fuck load of unhealthy coping mechanisms and behaviors. Such as his possessive streak! We saw with L’manburg the whole “if I can’t have you no one can!” Mentality, which has now been transferred to Tommy. It’s a move to assert his control over a situation and unfortunately for Tommy he’s a prime vessel for this behavior because he has absolutely no concept of healthy boundaries! Since his backstory and relationships are a bit blurry we can’t make any definitive explanation for where this came from but for the sake of argument let’s say Tommy has known Wilbur since he was young, and Wilbur was always someone with a possessive personality(albeit less obvious due to the fact that he wasn’t traumatized yet). Being raised by or around someone who never sets boundaries with you can lead to a person growing up not able to do so themselves. And wouldn’t you know it Tommy has clearly never had a stable healthy relationship because all of them have been transactional or codependent. Which is, bad.(shout out to Tubbo and Ranboo though for trying to enforce healthy boundaries sadly though the timing of this separation couldn’t have been worse). Currently I think it’s safe to say Wilbur and Tommy have a codependent relationship. One with a very clear imbalance of power, comparable to a codependent parent-child relationship. In which Tommy excuses Wilbur’s bad behaviors out of a sense of responsibility, this feeling that because they’re “family” he owes it to Wilbur to stay by his side. Not to mention how Tommy obviously craves guidance and leadership from paternal/fraternal figures, which he originally found in Wilbur(later in Dream, Techno and Sam afterwards). Tommy very clearly desires a family structure in which he is loved and protected no matter what, and Wilbur fills that role easily and willingly. Wilbur wants someone who’ll be loyal to him and will never leave or betray him, and Tommy wants someone who’ll protect and care for and, say it with me boys, will never leave or betray him. There isn’t anything wrong with wanting someone to be there for you, but because of their complexes and traumas these feelings of fraternal affection are twisted into a relationship lacking boundaries and for Tommy, complete absence of autonomy. Only doing things because Wilbur wants him to me, because he wants Wilbur to be happy and Wilbur is never wrong. Not a good mindset to have when dealing with someone like Wilbur who is destructive as a means of coping.

Lastly another landmine, in the form of Technoblade! Ah yes, bedrock bros. We love them and miss them. But newsflash guys they ALSO had an unhealthy transactional relationship! But here’s the thing about unhealthy relationships, sometimes people are just not good for eachother. There’s no bad guy or good guy. No ones in the right or wrong. They just, weren’t good for eachother. Now whether this was situational or not can only be answered if they reconnect with healthier mindsets but for now we’ll say it’s situational. Obviously, Tommy was clearly in a bad place. Just barely managing to escape exile after a narrowly thwarted suicide attempt: now packing a whole slew of issues, from paranoia, depression, fear of abandonment, low self worth, and just general debilitating stress. Techno was ALSO in a bad place, he just hides it under a sense of self righteous justice: like guys, his only friend was put under house arrest because of him associating with him, and he was then executed under the threat of death of his faithful horse companion. Techno was angry and blinded by revenge. A bad mix when you toss in a traumatized codependent teenager desperately searching for someone to fill the empty void of fraternal leadership left by Wilbur’s death. Tommy really just wants someone to tell him what to do, like let’s not kid ourselves here. Techno offered Tommy protection from Dream, which yay! But also creates an unbalanced power dynamic(bringing that one back!). I genuinely believe that it wasn’t Techno’s intention, but the thing is, the relationship became transactional: a “I’ll protect you and take care of you if you do what I say and help me.” Type scenario. It was impossible for Tommy to really comfortably say no, at risk of being tossed out of straight up given to Dream to face whatever horrible consequences running away had. BESIDES that, they are just two very different people who had very different priorities. Techno wanted vengeance against L’manburg, Tommy wanted to be protected but always had the intention of returning to L’manburg one day(clearly believing getting the discs would be a catch all problem solver). These two priorities are in direct conflict with eachother; as a result they’re partnership would never have worked in the long term. Here’s the kicker to what makes this relationship so unhealthy though, because those things in isolation don’t make an unhealthy relationship but the fact that Tommy’s poor mental state fueled by Techno’s blood seeking revenge made him act in ways HE deemed wrong, makes it unhealthy. Tommy wasn’t lying, being with Techno made him become a person he didn’t want to be, and it’s NOT Techno’s fault. It was the unfortunate consequence of their opposing view points and unhealthy mental states. Perhaps in a world where the Butcher Army never existed the Bedrock Bro’s team up could have been a moment of healing for both characters; but alas that was not the world we are privy to in canon.

Yeah so that’s it for now I guess

[dracoria-azucar]

Hello and welcome to my one millionth dsmp!bedrock bros “neither of them betrayed one another or both of them did, no inbetweens” rant :)

But this time it’s about analyzing C!Tommy’s behavior during the “vengeance era” through the lens of him just coming out of an abusive relationship and struggling with his sense of self worth + mental health in general.

/rp 

Ppl who say that post-exile pre-doomsday C!Tommy had a choice to work with C!Techno, was safe + cared for, and could’ve left at any time make me so angry.

The kid just backed out of a suicide attempt and removed himself from an abusive relationship with an adult he was secluded with. As a 16 year old. With no help from ANY adults.

He went to Technos house with the intention of mooching off the guy until he was strong enough to protect himself again.

He got caught and was told that he had to leave. But ultimately was allowed to stay under the condition that they work together to get Tommy’s discs back and get “revenge” against L’Manburg.

Tommy made Techno promise that no permanent damage would be done to L’Manburg and that Tubbo would not be hurt. And Techno “agreed” to that condition!

Now I’ve seen multiple people say that if Tommy ever really believed Techno then it was his own fault for being so naive/stupid. Which is an incredibly fucked up thing to say! About a kid who just exited a seriously emotionally manipulative relationship with a caretaker figure!!

Tommy trusting Technos word about not doing those things, that he to any outsider was clearly going to be doing regardless of his “promises”, was when he was in the same mindset of being SINCERELY torn on whether or not Dream was actually his friend. His entire brain was fucking scrambled at that point. He didn’t know what the fuck to believe.

Dream was going to kill him, but Dream was his only friend, but Dream is the one who isolated him, but Dream-.

And Techno has always hated governments, but Techno promised he wouldn’t do it, but why would Techno suddenly change his mind, but Techno-.

Like??? Do you see what I’m getting at????

And then!

Tommy, on multiple occasions, attempted to verbalize his personal attachments to Techno, who is a very emotionally repressed character. Techno did care back but also repeatedly shut down and verbally refuted Tommy’s declarations regarding their bond, likely because he didn’t know how to handle the affection, but he still ended up coming across as very dismissive of Tommy’s feelings towards him.

Coupled with the thing about their agreement to work together, Techno on more than one occasion dismissed his relationship with the kid as a temporary alliance, a mutually beneficial deal, a business arrangement.

Tommy went so far as to go out to the greater SMP alone to get some “minor terrorism” done in order to prove to Techno that he could pull his own weight in regards to their deal. To make the guy proud because Tommy had shown initiative!

Then Dream dropped by, more than once, and made it explicitly clear he knew that Tommy was living there. He showed up to the house, practically unannounced, while Techno wasn’t home to rifle through the place to prove his own theory. Ended up saying that he would let the situation stay as is but that he’d be keeping an eye out and talking with Techno again to make sure Tommy didn’t break any rules.

Then when confronted by Dream after breaking the rules, Techno did offer protection as part of their deal. But he also proposed a better deal. One with Dream. Where Tommy was back at Dreams side without a fight. In exchange for that favor.

Clearly people have had their theories about whether or not Techno would’ve actually let it happen. If he somehow KNEW that Dream would turn him down. Or if he’d find some sort of loophole to keep it from actually happening or to get Tommy back just moments later. And we’ll never know! Because Dream didn’t accept that deal.

But the thing is that he could’ve. He could’ve accepted the deal and Tommy would’ve been back in the same situation he dragged HIMSELF out of, without any support, for however long that would’ve lasted. And when that reality was sinking in for the kid and he was sincerely panicking because his proclaimed ally was apparently throwing him back to his abuser, he asked what the hell Techno was doing. And Techno was nothing but condescending and dismissive about the interaction.

If Tommy didn’t want to help Techno anymore he very easily could’ve gotten kicked out. And if he was kicked out he would’ve been left with quite literally nowhere to go, with Dream supposedly right behind him to keep an eye out. He couldn’t go to L’Manburg. He couldn’t go anywhere another player had built upon. All he had was the remains of Logstedshire and a bunch of empty land for him to run though until he got too tired and eventually Dream caught up.

Realistically, that probably wouldn’t have happened. Because Techno isn’t an inherently bad person! But he also didn’t have the full context of the events that occurred at Logstedshire or Tommy and Dreams relationship.

Tommy had absolutely zero reason to feel safe with Techno. And I’m sick of people trying to paint Techno as some sort of savior to the boy. He definitely did more than some of the others probably would’ve but that doesn’t make him a saint.

The Arctic was NOT the right place for Tommy to be. Because he was working through some incredibly tough shit. And Techno was not at ALL equipped to help him handle that. To help him heal.

And that’s not entirely Technos fault! I’m sure he would’ve loved nothing more than for Tommy to feel safe and respected in that house. That’s probably why he made the terms of agreement for the Syndicate so clear about how people were ALWAYS given the choice to participate or back out depending on their comfort levels.

But it’s also not Tommy’s fault for interpreting the environment as unsafe. For feeling like Techno was an authority figure he had very little right to speak out against, even if he was uncomfortable. Because he was a suicidal abuse victim being stalked by his abuser, living in a house with a man who’d (unknowingly) reaffirmed his belief that he was a disposable asset.

[clingyduoapologist]

Uh. Hot take. Okay. With the exception of c!Dream, none of them can or should really be labeled as the Bad Guys. I don't hate any of the other characters, I have some biases but not to the point where I'd ignore all of a characters complexities bc they hurt a character I personally like more.

They're all complex characters, with complex actions and motivations, and yeah, those actions can hurt people. And they have hurt people, and those people are allowed to be hurt and angry but imo there's too much. Idk there's too much stuff surrounding each character for me to fit them into "these guys have done shitty things but theyre still good" and "these ones have done shitty things and that's why they're bad people".

Anyway that's my general consensus but also fuck c!Dream lmao

ok here's where I slightly disagree

to get it out of the way, people I can categorize as major villains alongside c!Dream are c!Techno, c!Phil, and c!Quackity (and c!Schlatt obviously but like he was obviously meant to be a cartoon villain).

c!Phil and c!Techno are just assholes who believe that their own moral standing is somehow better than those around them and will crush any form of dissent with overblown force. And while yes I don't agree 100% with the butcher army's tactics, they really weren't doing anything insane from their pov, just short-sighted. Techno had sworn to destroy them, and they wanted to establish themselves. Calling them villains isn't that hard for me.

Now c!Quackity on the other hand is a little different. So over the course of season 3, let's take a look at what c!Quackity has done.

let foolish lose a canon life, blew up purpled's ufo, and has been torturing Dream for what has presumably been months. And what's his motivation for all this? Well, he wants to further Las Nevadas and become rich. I would say that those aren't exactly sympathetic motivations. His past has motivated them, yes, and he is hurting, but his hurt is only an explanation for his actions, not an excuse (at least in my opinion).

Maybe we have different definitions of what makes a villain but just because someone has complex motivations for doing a shitty thing doesn’t mean it’s not a shitty thing

[impalaanddemons]

Enterprise Crowd - Part 2

Summary: These are the adventures of Reader, a Lieutenant Commander assigned the Enterprises IT engineering team. Her biggest flaw? Her temper.

Wordcount: 1850

A/N: This week in “Enterprise Crowd”: Heads are butted. Curse words are said. Are they gonna kiss or murder each other? Bets are on. No sweet fluffy “Monty” in here, I’m sorry.

Warnings: F-Bombs, Cursing, general head butting and techno babble. People yelling at each other.

PART 1

„FUCK,“ every motion on the bridge came to a sudden halt at your loud exclamation. „Is everything alright down there?“ asked the voice of Captain Kirk himself, who turned his head and leaned over his seat at the same time. „Captain, Sir, yes.“ you crawled out from under a panel and ripped the cables attached to your PADD off at the same time, prompting another curse, although not as loud or rude as the one before. „I’m sorry, Sir. Telemetric System C is now rebooting, the quantum processor got a bit jiggled up.“ - „I suppose jiggling up is an occurrence Mr. Scott will want to hear about.“ Kirk said, half a smile on his face. You could see at least a dozen eyes switching back to their respective posts, although most of the other present crew members were still clinging to a mug of coffee. Coffee. Nice hot coffee.

Your PADD showed the rebooting sequence and you flicked through the logfile. „Yeah, all fine, Sir. Telemetric System C is online again.“, you stuffed your PADD into your backpack. Alpha hadn’t officially started yet, but you had received another call from the bridge and had spent a delightful hour scrambling behind a control panel, running diagnostics and murmuring to yourself until you had pinned down the problem and then cut your hand on a metal edge - which prompted the aforementioned curse. „Your hand is bleeding, Lieutenant Commander Y/L/N“, the captain nodded into your direction. „It’s just a scratch, Sir.“ you assured the Captain, who shot you a look that seemed rather unconvinced. „I’ll report back to Mr. Scott and take a detour to medbay afterwards.“ „How about you make that detour now, kid.“ a pair of heavy hands landed on your shoulders, the soft drawl of the Doctor himself behind you as he started to guide you to the door. The handsome devil was known for hunting down everyone on the ship if necessary, even the captain himself. „I appreciate the concern, Doctor McCoy, but I’ve got a really important meeting at start of Alpha and Mr. Scott will flay me alive if I don’t attend it.“ „I will have to have a serious word with Mr. Scott on your behalf then.“ „Please don’t.“ you said, practically flinching at the thought. He raised an eyebrow and, to Kirks visible amusement, led you right to medbay.

When the Doctor finally released you after putting you in the dermal regenerator, of all things!, Alpha was well underway and you were skipping through Jefferies tubes to cut the way to Engineering as short as possible. You made a mental note to avoid bridge from now on. That place was definitely cursed and you now knew why security and engineering avoided that place. „Dammitdammitdammit“ you cursed as you slid down a tube, past an Ensign screaming from surprise and landing just a few meters from your Commanding Officers office with the hard ‚THUMP!‘ of heavy issue boots. You immediately picked up speed again and basically bolted through his office doors. Chief Engineer Montgomery Scott had already lifted his head from some ‚damned paperwork‘ at the commotion outside and seemed fairly unsurprised to see you standing there, panting and sweaty and overall apologetic looking. His eyes flickered to your bandaged hand and a expression of concern crossed his face, but was replaced within seconds by a stern look. „Lieutenant Y/L/N, is there not only a micro climate, but also a different time zone where yer room is located?“ You pressed your lips together before you opened them up again to speak. Already you could feel your temper flare. „No, Mr. Scott, last time I checked Life Support Zone C was working fine.“ His right eyebrow lifted just the tiniest bit and you bit your tongue. „Yer late.“ he stated. „I noticed.“. Why. Why did your mouth had to have a life on it’s own in front of him. „I mean“, you added, concerned by the look on his face „I had a call to the Bridge, Sir, and my hand got hurt and Doctor McCoy insisted on me accompanying him to medbay.“ A moment of silence stretched between the two of you as he got up and folded his hands behind his back, taking a leisurely step in your direction. „I assume yer well?“ „Yes, Mr. Scott.“ „I’m sure I dinnae need to remind ya of yer behavior last night.“ „No, Mr. Scott“ you answered and took a deep breath. „I want ya to retrain those AIs, so that something like last night will not happen again.“ He could see the „But“ written on your face and in the way you clenched your teeth. „We cannae have something like tha’ happen again, Lieutenant.“ he stressed. You opened your mouth and the look in his eyes dared you to challenge him. The scotsman took another step closer and you could see how the light got caught in his dark brown hair, the angry line that furrowed his face now. „Sir“ „I hope that’s a „Yes, Sir“, lass.“ The beeping of your communicator broke the tense silence. „Am I allowed to get that, Mr. Scott?“ He gestured a yes with his hand and you flipped your communicator open with more force then necessary. It was Vance. „Yes … No …“ it was difficult discussing in a civil manner with Vance, while the fire in your superior officers eyes seemed to challenge you even now. „I’m at Mr. Scotts Office, Vance, I’ll come right away.“ Shutting your communicator you lifted your face to Montgomery Scott. „I have to assist my team, Sir, but I’ll get to your request right after that.“ „Ya can go, Lieutenant Y/L/N“ he stepped back, finally releasing the tension between the two of you. Without further ado you turned around and strode away.

„You know, most people on the crew that work with him simply refer to him as Scotty“, Vance said without looking up from the diagnostics output he was reading. „So?“ you shot back grumpily. The words in front of your eyes slid past you without making much sense. „I’m just saying that he values good work and if you retrain those networks he’ll forget what has happened.“ „You mean I should save my sorry ass by being a nice little engineer?“ Vance rolled his eyes at your remark and continued to scroll through the data on his PADD. He knew better then to argue with you at this point. You tried to focus on your work. Reconfiguring. Yeah. Great. That would take you at least until end of Beta, you would never leave those systems unattended during a retrain. Probably an all-nighter. „The bastard can kiss my - „ Vance never learned what part of you the Enterprises’ Chief Engineer could kiss, as T’Sai opened the door to your teams office with an accidental loud bang. „Well, I’m gonna bugger off. Got to retrain some networks.“ you muttered and got up. „Gonna see you in mess later on?“ „Fuck you, Vance.“

„Okay, now inject the learning variables for the last manual warp core overrides and let’s see how you get along with that madmans attitude.“ you mumbled to the machinery while working, slid the data-PADD into the computing unit in front of you, then leant back to watch the graphs on your PADD change and shift. The blueish tint of the Enterprises datacenter was calming, but the cool air made your fingers go numb. You’d normally work from a remote office, but today you valued the secluded place down in the Enterprises belly. While the system worked through the data you’d fed it, you took the bandage off - if only to save yourself the trouble to go and visit medbay again tomorrow. „Hah“, you muttered, typed something on your PADD and restarted the learning algorithm. „If it wasn’t, it has to be!“ you said in a mock accent and let out a deep sigh, closing your eyes at the same time. Maybe you could just take a nap, while this thing worked. Gamma had crept upon you two hours ago already and you knew the lights on the ship were slowly dimming down. „Mr. Scott really can-„ „Ach. I really hope I dinnae have to listen to the end of tha’ sentence, Lieutenant.“ Once again on this day you sprang to attention, nearly tripping over the cables around you. „At ease“ the scotsman said and eyed the room. You eased, but just a little. „How is the training going?“ „Good, Sir.“ „And yer not working remote because …?“ You were positively sure you’d murder that man at some point, if only for questioning seemingly everything you did. „I like being alone, Sir.“ you remarked. He grabbed the PADD and studied the output shown without answering to your scathing remark. „Looking good, probably ready by Alpha.“ You sucked in your upper lip and nodded along. „Ya dinnae need to sit by it’s side for the rest of the night, Lieutenant. Yer relieved until Alpha. Get some sleep.“ turning away from the PADD he saw you shrugging. „I’ll not leave the system unattended to while in this state.“ „It’s only training, the network is not even deployed, lass. If it fails during nightshift ya can get back to it tomorrow“ „Just leave it alone? Waste more time?“ you raised your shoulders and felt a deep furrow appearing on your brow. „It’s … not just any network, Sir. I’m sorry to say, Sir.“ you drew in a deep breath and pressed your lips onto each other once more. „That’s no true AI, Sir, it needs supervision. It’s … it’s …“ another deep breath: „It’s gonna be part of the Enterprises subconsciousness! If it has to feel the ships ailments for us, we have to care for it beforehand. And you want it to practically sense whatever thing you’re up to at any given moment - that takes time!“ you had not noticed how your voice had gotten gradually louder, practically yelling at him. Mr. Scotts face changed from bafflement, to a certain softness and settled on a cool expression afterwards. „Thank ya for explaining my ship to me.“, he said, voice chilly. Your mouth snapped shut. „I …“ he began and you could see behind the cool demeanor he was giving you, could see how he was trying to be the best superior he could be. „I see ya care deeply about the ship, lass. But yer gonna take care of ya self as much.“ he nodded to the bandage. The air felt even more cool against your burning face. „Sir?“ „Off ta quarters, Lieutenant. Continue tomorrow.“ „But that’s stupid! I NEED to attend to this. NOW!“ For a moment it seemed as if he wouldn’t say anything, but the outburst followed just a second later: 
„YER AFF YER HEID!“, he raised his voice, his jaws clenched in-between words, „IT’S AS IF YER TRYING TO ARGUE WI’ ME ON PURPOSE! THA’S THE MOST GLAIKIT THING I’VE HEARD TODAY!“

Silence fell between the two of you, both of you huffing and staring at each other. You ground your teeth. „I“, you began and it was now your turn to be baffled, staring at him open mouthed. „Out. Quarters.“ he pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingers and closed his eyes. You collected your things hastily - „Good Night, Sir.“ and brushed past him.

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[lil-red-panda]

1-99 please

1) Sexuality? Hetero2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Itd probably be my friend Yvie3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. I dont have any books near me4) What do you think about most? Life probably5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? Here6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Some on 7) What's your strangest talent? I dont really have a strange talent thats im aware of at least8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence) Girls are great. Boys are cool too(?)9) Ever had a poem or song written about you? A poem10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?Probably Sunday night at work11) Do you have any strange phobias?Strange no.12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?I mean my septum is pierced 13) What's your religion?I think itd be Agnostic 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?Walking15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Behind16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?Oh jeez, my music changes like the seasons its hard to pick17) What was the last lie you told? Uhhhh.. besides the general im okay i tend to avoid lying18) Do you believe in karma?Yes19) What does your URL mean?Its two nicknames I go by, Lil Red and Panda20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?Im way to nice, and im not sure21) Who is your celebrity crush?Aubrey Plaza22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?No23) How do you vent your anger?Cant say I get angry much but Id like my space if.24) Do you have a collection of anything?You can say I have a collection of mtg cards25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Video chatting26) Are you happy with the person you've become?Not yet but hopefully soon27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?Nails on a chalkboard, would the snapchat notification count?28) What's your biggest "what if"?What if im misreading the entire situation.29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?Yes and yes 30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.Tiny pillow, same tiny pillow31) Smell the air. What do you smell?Nothing32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?Ware33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?East34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?Theres so many this isnt fair35) To you, what is the meaning of life?To find happiness36) Define Art.Im not sure how37) Do you believe in luck?Yes38) What's the weather like right now?Cold and storm is coming in tomorrow night I think39) What time is it?1:21am40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?Nope :c41) What was the last book you read?I started reading a small collection of Lovecraft but never finished it42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?My dad was a mechanic so i was used to it43) Do you have any nicknames?Yes lol44) What was the last movie you saw?I think Gaurdians 245) What's the worst injury you've ever had?My lip got split about an inch46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?No47) Do you have any obsessions right now?Awk48) What's your sexual orientation?Het49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?Not that i know of.50) Do you believe in magic?In a young girls heart51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?Ehhh not really52) What is your astrological sign?Aquarius sun/Virgo moon53) Do you save money or spend it?Spend it because im horrible54) What's the last thing you purchased?Food?55) Love or lust?Love56) In a relationship?57) How many relationships have you had?258) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?No59) Where were you yesterday?Home60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Nope61) Are you wearing socks right now?Yup62) What's your favorite animal?Panda63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?I can sometimes make people laugh64) Where is your best friend?On the other side of this floating rock65) Spit or swallow?(;Oh my66) What is your heritage?Irish, English, French and Polish67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?Probably watching Twitch68) What do you think is Satan's last name?I'd say Draghetti or Gaudio69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?😃70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?I think so71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?I save the damn dog72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?Probably not right away, im not sure, and i dont think I would be73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.Trust74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?Last of the Real Ones75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?343476) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?Honestly, loyalty, reassurance lol77) How can I win your heart?Tbh its as easy as being nice to me sometimes 78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?Yes79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?Could I say joininh tumblr?80) What size shoes do you wear?1281) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?Hmmm...hmmmm82) What is your favorite word?Fuck83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.Love84) What is a saying you say a lot?Oh jeez85) What's the last song you listened to?It was an industrial techno-y song my friend had in his car86) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?Purple87) What is your current desktop picture?Its a picture of an Eevee and Pancham cuddling88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?I can think of a few..89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?If I say people will ask.90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?Sit the curiously91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?Flight92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?No93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?Meh94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?Bruh.95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?🇨🇰96) Do you have any relatives in jail?Not that i know of97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?No98) Ever been on a plane?No99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?I would like to use this moment to say I love my best friend Yvie. I hope she knows how much she means to me.