#like we KNOW hes lying abt/hiding SOMETHING

[catssluvr]

it would be sososo wonderful if you wrote a cute little blurb abt Spencer and fem!BAU!reader both coming into work with little doodles all over their arms and the team notices or something <3 (yes this is the same anon that sent the headcanon lol)

hii! i loved your headcanon and am so glad you requested this 💌

𝒅𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒍𝒆𝒔, spencer reid

spencer reid x fem!reader

you relationship with spencer is revealed when you both show up to work with doodles on your arms <3

warnings: none <3

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Spencer reaches for the mug full of hot coffee, taking a generous sip. His button up feels almost immediately too hot, body warming up due to the hot beverage. He rolls up his sleeves without a second thought, arms covered in little doodles on full display to anyone in the bullpen who decides to look at them.

"Hey, pretty boy. Did you see- are those hearts?" Derek approaches his desk with a teasing smile already making it's way to his lips. Spencer scrambles to cover his arms up, clumsy pulling his sleeves down.

"Did i see what?" He feigns innocence, crossing his arms over his chest as he's way too nervous to actually button up the sleeves. There's no way he's going to out the relationship he's been hiding for a good few months because of some doodles.

"Oh no, you're not running away from this. Why have you got cute drawings all over your arms, uh?" He teases even further, trying to take a peek at the skin under Spencer's button up.

Your gaze immediately shoots up to them once you realize what Derek is referring to, quickly faking a normal expression once you realize your eyes have widened. You pretend to be looking at the files in your table, waiting for the answer. Your table is not far from his so you really have to keep it cool.

"I uh- i was bored and drew them." Spencer says the first excuse that comes to mind and realizes rather quickly how bad it sounds. His neck turns red and it soon spreads to his cheeks and ears too.

"You want me to believe you were bored and decided to draw hearts and butterflies on your arms? Sure, Reid." He chuckles, making sure to give him a hard time.

"Aw, does my sweet boy genius have a girlfriend?" Penelope snoops in, a less teasing and more bright smile on her lips.

"It sounds like he does. Unless he's suddenly ambidextrous and is able to draw perfect hearts on both of his arms." Emily comments, just as interested to make Spencer flustered as Derek.

"I- What if i am?!" Spencer's voice comes out a tad bit squeakier than intended, facade crumbling very easily. He looks at you almost desperately, trying to find a way out of this interrogation without having to reveal your relationship.

"Come on guys, leave the poor boy alone." Rossi saves him before you can, but he seems just as curious as the rest of them. Raised eyebrows and looking directly at him.

"Do you know anything about this, gorgeous?" Derek turns his gaze to you. Spencer gulps nervously, trying to act as normal as possible now that you're also about to be involved.

"Me? Why would i know?" You question a bit too defensively. Lying isn't exactly your forte and now that everyone is looking at you, it feels even harder.

"Wait- do i sense jealously?" It now feels like you're the next chosen victim to their interrogation. You might have aimed for careless but it definitely came off as defensive and bothered.

"You really don't." You roll your eyes as you answer, noticing the way Spencer gives you an apologetical look. You smile for long enough so that he notices but quick enough so no on else sees it.

"I think we do." Rossi agrees with Derek.

You sigh exasperatedly, hand coming to rub your forehead. What you don't notice is the way your shirt rids down, exposing your also covered arm.

"Oh my god- she has them too!" Penelope gasps, not holding back the surprise.

You wonder how they hadn't figured out you and Spencer are dating before. You both aren't exactly great liars and it was just a matter of time until someone caught one of your stollen kisses on the workplace.

"Oops?" You mutter out, cheeks painfully hot as you give up on trying to hide it. There's no way they would believe any kind of excuse now.

"Can't say i'm surprised." Emily is the first to say anything, leaving to go back to her desk as if nothing had happened.

"I'm so happy for you guys." Penelope ruffles Spencer's hair with a smile that's definitely making her cheeks hurt, while Derek resumes to shaking his head with a chuckle.

Spencer gives you a lopsided smile and you quickly realize he's trying to know if you're okay with all of it. You nod with a smile of your own, fingers tracing the doodles on your arm.

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love you,

cat 🤍

[saturnsag3]

The Lead Up - will smith x macklin celebrini

summary: from my Erase Me series, mack gets a little insecure and starts to push will away

part 1 here, part 2 here, part 3 here, part 4 here

wc: 1,171

It wasn’t anything specific.

Just little things. Barely even things, really.

Will had picked up extra hours at the writing center to help pay for a summer course he wanted to take. It meant his schedule shifted a bit—some nights he stayed late, tutoring first-years who needed last-minute essay help. Sometimes he’d text, “Hey, I’m wiped—mind if we reschedule dinner?” or “Totally forgot I promised this kid I’d look over their midterm draft. Can we do tomorrow?”

It wasn’t weird.

Mack told himself that again and again. It’s not weird. You knew he’d get busy.

But still—he noticed.

The pauses between texts grew longer. The late-night phone calls they used to fall asleep to became more sporadic. There were new names mentioned in passing—coworkers and classmates, nothing serious—but they stuck in Mack’s mind.

He didn’t say anything. It would sound ridiculous. Jealous of a classmate? Over a name?

Still, it sat under his skin.

There was one night Will was in the kitchen making tea, his phone lighting up beside Mack on the couch. Just a text. A flash of a name Mack didn’t recognize. Nothing overt—just:

> i was just thinking abt what you said earlier and started laughing out loud LMAO

> ppl were looking at me crazy

Mack didn’t even know who it was from. He didn’t look. But he didn’t not notice, either.

And Will?

Will came back, handed him the tea like nothing was wrong, kissed the side of his head, and sat down like always.

That was the worst part. He was being normal.

And Mack kept waiting for the other shoe to drop.

—

He started pulling away without meaning to.

Not drastically—just small things. Letting his texts go unanswered for a bit longer. Turning his head when Will tried to kiss him hello. Pretending to be busy. He didn’t know why he was doing it. Some kind of defense mechanism. If something was coming—some betrayal or break or fallout—he wanted to be ahead of it.

Will noticed. Of course he did.

One night he texted:

> u okay baby? you seem off lately 

Mack stared at it, typing, deleting, retyping. He almost wrote something real. Something raw. But instead, he sent:

> i’m okay :) just tired 

Another lie. And Will, being Will, didn’t push.

But that only made it worse. The space. The patience. The way Will was still showing up—checking in, making plans, brushing hair off Mack’s forehead like none of this paranoia was real.

Mack’s brain kept spinning:

If he is hiding something, he’s good at it.

If he’s not—why do I still feel like this?

It was like trying to hold a mirror up to fog. Nothing looked clear.

Then one rainy Friday afternoon, Will came through the door soaked and laughing—something about the buses being late and almost getting tackled by someone’s umbrella—and Mack just stared at him, heart pounding. Because how is he this calm? How is he this happy if something’s wrong?

The words came out before he could stop them.

“Where were you?”

Will blinked, mid-laugh. “What? I told you—class ran late. We had that guest speaker I mentioned earlier?”

Mack nodded once, too quickly. “Right. Of course. Totally forgot. Guess that explains everything.”

Will’s face changed then—confusion twisting into concern. “Huh? What’s going on?”

And just like that, it snapped. The restraint. The months of anxiety. The half-swallowed suspicions.

Mack exhaled, sharp and bitter. “I don’t know, Will. You tell me.”

“Mack what?—“

“You tell me, Will,” Macklin repeated, harsher this time. “You’re the one sneaking around.”

Will stepped back slightly. “What?”

“You’re lying to me.”

“About— about what?” 

Will’s voice cracked slightly at the end, jacket still soaked and dripping on the carpet, the smile from earlier completely gone now. “What the hell could I possibly lying to you about, Mack?”

“I don’t know.” Mack’s arms folded tight across his chest like they were the only thing holding him upright. “Late nights. New friends. Texts you don’t mention. Names I don’t recognize.”

Will’s mouth opened, closed. “Mack—what are you—”

“I saw that text,” Mack snapped. “The one from whoever that was. “Laughing my ass off,” or whatever. “Thinking about what you said.”Like I’m not supposed to notice that kind of thing?”

Will blinked, stunned. “Are you serious right now?”

“Do I look like I’m joking?”

Will let out a shaky breath, dragging a hand down his face. “Mack. That was Ruby. She’s in my film analysis class. We were talking about some dumb short movie we watched in class” 

“Oh, so now I get names.”

“You could’ve asked!” Will’s voice was climbing now, equal parts disbelief and panic. “You could’ve asked, Mack, and I would’ve told you. But instead you’re standing here acting like I—” He stopped short, his chest heaving. “Like I cheated on you? You really think I’d do that to you?”

Mack didn’t respond right away. His jaw clenched.

And then, quiet, deadly:

“Well, you’ve done worse.”

Will flinched like he’d been slapped.

For a long, terrible second, neither of them moved.

“You think this is the same?” Will finally asked, voice low. “You think this—now—is the same as before?”

“I don’t know what this is,” Mack bit out. “Because it doesn’t feel like before, and it doesn’t feel like now, either. It just feels like I’m waiting for everything to fall apart again.”

“Then why are you here?” Will asked, not cruelly, just desperate. “Why did you say yes? Why did you let me fall back in love with you if you were just gonna assume the worst the second I got busy?”

Mack looked away, breathing hard.

Will’s voice cracked again, softer this time. “I’ve been showing up for you. Every day. I text, I call, I check in. I’m not perfect, but I’ve been trying, Mack. Really fucking trying. But I can’t keep proving I’m not the guy I was.”

Mack swallowed thickly. “It’s not about you being perfect.”

“Then what is it about?”

“It’s about me not knowing how to trust that this is real.” Mack’s voice dropped to almost nothing. “Because it doesn’t matter how good things are when there’s a part of me always waiting for you to leave.”

Will stepped closer, cautiously, like he was approaching a wounded animal. “I’m not going anywhere, baby” 

Mack didn’t answer.

“I’m not,” Will repeated, firmer this time. “You wanna check my phone? You want me to text everyone I’ve ever spoken to in front of you? I’ll do it. Right now. But this—this distance, this second-guessing—I can’t fix that unless you let me.”

Mack’s voice wavered. “I’m scared.”

Will’s expression softened. “I know.”

“Its just like.. when I lov— when I feel strongly about something, I wait for it to disappear, because good things never happen to me, the second I let myself get comfortable they leave so— I don’t fuckin know, Will” 

Will’s throat bobbed. “I’m not going anywhere,” he said again, gentler now. “You don’t have to believe it yet. But I’ll keep saying it until you do.”

Macklin’s eyes were glassy now, but he didn’t look away. And Will—soaking wet Will—reached out slowly, resting his hands on Mack’s waist.

“You don’t have to be ready overnight,” Will murmured. “But don’t push me away because your brain’s feeding you bullshit.”

Mack let out a shaky exhale. “Okay.”

“Okay?”

“I don’t know how to fix it yet,” Mack whispered, “but I want to.”

Will nodded, eyes a little glossy, too. “We’ll figure it out.”

And Mack let himself lean in—just barely—forehead resting against Will’s.

Will’s breath caught, soft and warm against Mack’s skin.

They stood there for a long moment, rain pattering against the windows, the sharp edge of the argument dulled by the quiet that came after.

And then, softly—barely more than a whisper:

“I love you,” Will said.

Mack paused.

Will didn’t pull back. He didn’t rush to fill the silence. He just let the words hang there, patient and sure.

Mack’s heart was pounding so hard it hurt. He could feel Will’s hands still resting on his waist, steady. Solid. Everything in him was bracing for a fall—but Will was still there. Still here.

He pulled back enough to look Will in the eyes.

“I love you too,” Mack said, quiet and certain, like he’d just figured it out in real time. “God, I love you.”

Will smiled, and it was the softest thing Mack had ever seen.

But then, of course—because he was Will—he added, “Can’t believe your first ‘I love you’ is after an argument about me cheating on you.”

Mack groaned, pulling his face into Will’s shoulder. “Stop it. I’m embarrassed.”

Will laughed into his hair. “You should be.”

“Shut up,” Mack muttered, muffled by Will’s shirt. “I was spiraling.”

“I noticed.”

“You were supposed to lie and say I was being normal.”

“Not when you accuse me of running around with Ruby the Film Major.”

“She texted you!”

“She texted about a squirrel documentary, babe.”

Mack groaned louder. “I’m never recovering from this.”

Will pulled him in tighter, chin resting against Mack’s head. “You don’t need to. We’re good.”

Mack leaned in, exhaling slow.

“Yeah,” he whispered. “We’re good.”

Will kissed the top of his head, still smiling. “Say it again.”

“What?”

Will tilted his head down until Mack met his eyes. “The part where you love me.”

Mack rolled his eyes, cheeks pink. “You’re annoying.”

Will grinned. “And?”

Mack hesitated, lips twitching. Then he mumbled, “I love you.”

Will beamed. “There it is.”

And just like that, Mack believed it—at least a little. Maybe enough to stop waiting for the worst.

Because Will was still here.

And he wasn’t going anywhere.

sages thoughts⋆˙⟡: i’ve actually had this sitting in my drafts for like two weeks i just didn’t know when to post it lol, pls enjoy!!

[gorgeys]

I would love a continuation of thirty minutes!!

I didn’t think it would make my heart hurt so much but I did…truly beautiful

crawling back to you ★ santana lopez x fem!cheerio!reader

like clockwork, you come crawling back to santana

part 1

word count: 1700 warnings: SMUT - fingering, kinda angsty again

a/n: thank you anon! i so needed an excuse to keep writing abt my baby

the three knocks on her window are unmistakable and familiar.  santana rolls over and lugs herself off the bed toward the source of the sound.  although she can only see the outline of a shadowy figure behind the glass, santana pushes opens her window without hesitation.

"hey," you say casually, climbing in santana's room before she's even stepped back and made space for you.

"hey.  i thought you were going on a date tonight."

"yeah, we went to breadstix again.  he just dropped me home," you say, plopping onto her bed with a sigh, like you've just come home after a long day of work.  you inhabit her space like it belongs to you.

santana glances over at the digital clock on her nightstand which already reads eleven.  she could've sworn it was seven just a moment ago.

"oh."

she turns and finally notices the blue mini dress you're wearing: tight at the top, but flowy at the bottom.  it pools naturally around your thighs, reminding santana of the robe of an angel.

when you carelessly lean back on your hands, the strap slides down your shoulder and the hem rises higher.  per usual, you're oblivious to santana's attentive and conflicted gaze.  she wants to admire you in all your beauty, but she hesitates.

you're obviously disheveled.  obvious to her at least.

your dress is ruffled in a way that's caused by more than the wind.  your hair is tangled and partially hiding your face.  even behind it, santana can see that the lip gloss you religiously apply is faded and barely smudged at the corner of your lips. 

"how was it?" she tries to ask neutrally, but it's loaded with something spiteful.

you shrug, watching as santana slinks toward you.  she walks around the bed and lies down on the other side.  you follow suit, kicking your shoes off and throwing your legs over her comforter.

"it was fine, i guess," you say, both of you lying on your sides and facing each other.  "he was...nice."

santana fights the urge to roll her eyes.

that's what you always said, like it was the only word you could think of to describe him. 

finn's a nice guy. 

two people in love didn't describe each other as just nice.  how would you describe her?  because she knows how she'd describe you.

"we ate at breadstix.  he paid, of course.  and then we were...going to go back to his place, but his mom was home.  so was mine.  so," you say, absentmindedly playing with messy strands of your hair as if santana wasn't hanging on your every word.  "he just parked his car somewhere, and we climbed in the backseat."

santana's breath hitches and her lips turn downward before she knows what she's doing.

how could you climb into his backseat without thinking of her?  without thinking of her backseat, your safe haven from the outside world?  the place where she had claimed you as hers with three fingers and her lips.  it was the one place that belonged to just the two of you and where finn hudson couldn't reach you. 

well, not anymore.  that all must have meant nothing to you.  or at least it didn't mean nearly as much to you as it meant to her.  did you even feel the difference when you were climbing onto finn's lap instead of hers and letting his stiff hands replace her thoughtful ones?

it's even worse that santana can smell the notes of his cologne lingering on your skin now that she's inches away from you.  if you looked deep enough, maybe you'd see the betrayal buried in santana's eyes.  not that you'd even know to look for it.

"but it was just so...awkward.  he didn't know what to do with his hands and i'm pretty sure he hit his head, like, three different times.  so we just gave up and he drove me home."

in an instant, pride masks santana's pain. maybe he was the one who could parade you around school like a trophy and take you out on romantic dinner dates, but he would never be able to have you in the way she did.  he would never be able to recreate the moments she shared with you in her backseat, whatever they meant.  he would never be able to make you feel the way she did.  that part of you was reserved for her only.

santana hums, as if she's sympathetic.

"it just felt so...wrong," you say, a little disappointed.

wrong because it wasn't me, she thinks.

"i bet," she says instead, fingers impatiently dancing over her comforter.

she watches your lips purse like there's something more on your mind.

"what?" she asks, fingers creeping closer.  she can't deny the desire brewing inside her now that you've all but confessed that she's better than finn.  she'll prove it to you, no words necessary.  the talking is the hardest part after all.

"it's just..."

santana is immediately overwhelmed when you simultaneously reach out to fist the side of her loose shirt, exhale sharply, and rub your thighs together beneath your skirt.  she internally thanks whatever higher being has brought you both to this moment.

"he didn't even...touch me, really," you say, pout playing on your lips.

"yeah?" she asks breathlessly.  she doesn't move yet, curious to see what you're willing to take from her in your distressed state.

"yeah," you say, fingers curling tighter around her shirt, anchoring yourself to her.  you have that wanting look in your eye and santana knows exactly what it is that you want.

"poor baby," she sighs, nails enticingly grazing the skin right above your knee. "all dressed up and can't even get what she wants."

her eyes flicker down to the hem of your dress, and you suppress a groan.  you've never felt this way with finn.  a part of you knows you never will.  you probably won't feel this way with anyone but her.

"santana," you whisper, a quiet plea.

your hips shift intentionally beneath your dress.  it's an invitation santana has been waiting her whole damn life to accept.  she curses under her breath, hand tracing your skin to the back of your knee.

"he tried, but...he doesn't know what he's doing."

"well, i could'a told you that," she says, the corner of her lip curling up in a smile. 

now her entire palm is around your leg, grabbing and pulling your closer.  you lean into her like it's all you've ever wanted.  she can feel your nails through her shirt, digging into the skin of her side.

"you need," she starts, hand inching up the back of your thigh and forehead nearly touching yours.  "someone who knows exactly what they're doing."

she would've kept this game up for even longer, but you break quicker than she'd imagined.  you surge forward, hand leaving her shirt to grab the side of her neck as you finally kiss her.  she responds immediately, kissing you back with confidence finn could only dream of having.

it's different than the times in her car, when everything was rushed and frantic.  now, in the comfort of her own room, free from distractions and interruptions, she can take her time with you.  each kiss is deliberate and slow, like you're trying to consume each other bit by bit.

her fingers press into your thigh, pulling you closer only to push her weight onto you.  you easily let her roll you onto your back and keep you pinned to the mattress with a firm hand on your shoulder.  a whine escapes your lips when her other hand finds it's way under your skirt, pressing your clit over your underwear.  she groans when she realizes what she's feeling: wet, lace panties.

"did he do this to you?" she asks, massaging you over the soaked lace and lips ghosting over yours.  "or did i?"

santana nearly melts at the way your hips stutter against her hand.  she's barely touching you but you're still so responsive.

"you already know," you mumble, hand tangling itself in her hair and bringing her lips back down to yours.

"yeah, but i wanna hear you say it," she says in between kisses.  maybe she's teasing you, but it's more than that.  she needs to hear it.  she needs to know finn can't beat her in every way.  she needs to know this part of you is hers and only hers.

when you don't respond right away, she slows her hand and pulls her lips from yours.  she looks down at you expectantly and you crumble, already missing the feeling of her.

suddenly "you" rolls of your tongue like a mantra.  "always you."

"that's my girl," she whispers, heart fluttering in her chest.

she rewards you by dipping her fingers beneath the lace and rubbing your bare clit.  she keeps her lips against your jaw as you moan and arch into her, legs spreading instinctively wider for her.  she takes her time rubbing gentle circles, working you up until you're bucking into her hand and whispering soft "pleases" against her lips.  she has you right where she wants you.

"see," she mumbles, lips pressed to your cheek.  "this is what it's supposed to feel like."

then she slips two fingers inside you with ease.  she thinks she might come undone herself from the moan you release in return.

"jesus christ," she whispers when she feels you clench around her fingers and whine her name like it's the only one you know.

she repeatedly curls her fingers inside you, stretching you a little more with each teasingly slow thrust.  your head falls against the pillow, your lips permanently parted in bliss.  this is perfect.

actually, there's only one thing missing.

"say you're mine," she says, voice low and confidence cracking in favor of desperation.  you'd notice if you weren't so fucked out.

"mmph, fuck," you groan.  she knows you're close from the way your nails dig into her neck, the same way they always would in the backseat.

"tell me you want me."  her face hovers above yours, watching you at your most beautiful.

you look up at her, eyes locking onto hers, and for a moment, there's no world outside the walls of her room.  there's no finn, no stupid date, no judgmental eyes or whispers.

"i'm yours," you say, never looking away.  "i need you.  always."

for the seconds that you come on her fingers, back arching off the mattress and thighs trembling and squeezing her hand, she lets herself believe you.

[benevadeca]

Ok ramblings that lost the plot but... One of my least favorite SJ tropes is his past abuse leaking and everyone is suddenly soooo sympathetic to his past as a slave. Like it puts so much of the misunderstandings about him on his own shoulders, in a "oh this was a safe space and if you'd just been honest people would've been understanding" way. And i get it's a very modern-ism to be like ofc slavery is bad and the worldbuilding has weird mixes of gayness being fine but slavery is legal.

Like if anything the reveal in the original PIDW-verse just reaffirms to them at the end that ofc SJ was an outsider that could never fit in or make nice. They would've been like well that's a mortal social issue that the cultivation world should be above but ofc it makes so much sense for a snake like him to have been lying and hiding even more of his true colors.

And I mean even in SVSSS verse w shen yuan when it gets revealed they're just like well whatever! We don't care abt his past bc he's our guy and stopped being sucks so he like got over it and also we have a monopoly on violence so him doing a little childhood massacre is fine. He's Good (read: one of us) now. Like the hypocrisy and classism and ignorance, not even of social issues or your peers burdens but not even knowing what you don't know, is never something the members of the cultivation world ever worry about until it the consequences of those things actively effects them. SJ was their martial sibling but never One Of Them, but SY integrated well in an entirely different cultural norm bc he still had young master socialization. And unlike SJ he was good at being nice even though it was for equally selfish reasons as SJ's meanness. IE both being their learnt survival methods they used to protect themselves.

Idk it just undermines SJ's entire reasonable paranoia and valid reasons for not being willing to reveal the things he could v much get into legal trouble with, that people would use against him, the tangible discrimination that exists, etc. Like he was literally named qingqiu it kind of shows the trend of the things people do to him when they Know.

Anyway idk let them be ignorant and hypocrites! I like SY as a character bc he's a Nice person that is simultaneously incredibly narrow-minded, privileged, selective in who he gives a shit abt, and resistant to having his preconceptions questioned until his life is literally on the line lol. They are both posers! And for that to be undermined by the well sy wins bc he is Nice and Cares while sj wasnt those things is so like. Reductionist and equally woobifying in my opinion.

Rest of the CQM PL's too! CQM is destroyed in original PIDW-verse not just bc of SJ but bc it's complacent w the system no matter the guise it puts on as being the liberal equitable sect. Like this is the breaking the bones and locking a kid in a cave and then sending him to fight a demon lord sect.

[angelsdean]

All these thoughts also prompted me to think abt what John and Mary's fights were often about, especially the fight where John leaves and Dean then comforts Mary. And I think a big part of it was Mary keeping secrets and sneaking around with regard to hunting.

We know she was still hunting in 1980, when she saves Asa Fox. Dean would've been a year old and the hunt is not local, it's up in Canada. Mary says she's been tracking this werewolf for a long time and that they have history. I do think when she says "a long time" she means years and that she hasn't actively been tracking it but it's been something on the back-burner that she's kept an eye on all these years. But that still means she left for a number of days at the very least, and I wonder what she told John. What excuse did she come up with to justify suddenly taking off when they have a baby at home. And no, I don't think she needed to be there as "the mom" to take care of Dean or that she can't spend time away from the home or that fathers are incapable of taking care of their children or anything like that. But I think John would certainly wonder what's taking her away from them so suddenly. What could possibly be so important. And with a hunt like this, I don't think she could've exactly given him a set time-frame for her return.

Now, imagine that happening multiple times. Imagine that happening again when Sam is just a few months old. She says she has to go visit her uncle who's poorly (father of the Campbell cousins. The uncle that paid for her headstone when she died). And then she's gone for longer than she anticipated. And John is just suspicious. And when she comes back they argue about it. "I know you're lying! Just tell me the truth, Mary! What, are you seeing someone else?" And Mary holding firm to her lies because her family cannot know about the supernatural and hunting. Because she doesn't want her kids growing up like she did. Because John is her suburban fairytale. He can't know. And then John snaps. He's pissed. He thinks she's cheating while he's working to provide for the family AND watching the kids in her absence. So he flings a "Is Sam even mine?" at her in his rage and she slaps him and tells him "Don't you dare" and then John storms out in a huff but then calls later to talk about it more and Mary shuts him down. "No, John. … We’re not having this conversation again... Think about what? … You’ve two boys at home. …"

I can imagine a version of this phone call going something like this:

John calls. Maybe apologizes for what he said, but mostly just wants her to be honest with him.

John: Please, Mary, can we just talk about this.

Mary: No, John.

John: I just want you to tell me the truth! What are you hiding? What's going on that you can't tell me?

Mary: We're not having this conversation again.

John: Oh okay, 'we're not having this conversation again.' Well then can you blame me for where my mind is going? What would you think, huh?

Mary: Think about what?

John: You know how it looks, Mary. And I just, I can't keep doing this--

Mary: You have two boys at home. (and ohh the delicious irony of that in the context of her being the one leaving to continue hunting in secret)

John, probably, since the convo seems to continue: Oh that is rich coming from you right now, Mary.

Anyways, this is only one of many many scenarios I can imagine of their fights. And it's perhaps a little too sympathetic to John, but! I enjoy thinking of John complexly, especially considering how Young John is presented in SPN, and also John in the opening scene of the Pilot seems like the easy-going family man, who definitely had underlying issues prior to Mary's death (thank you SPNWIN for confirming that) but clearly those issues got worse after Mary's death, and for the most part he wasn't yet the guy we see him become after he is transformed by grief and anger. Also s12 Mary's rose-tinted recollections of John being such a good father, which starkly contrast to Dean's later memories of John, I think it's not a huge leap to say John pre-Mary's death was a good father, and I think seeing Mary leave them (likely repeatedly) under secretive circumstances for days at a time would have bothered John back then and been a continuous point of contention in their marriage.

And again, this is all simply one angle of interpretation, theorizing, and headcanoning and by no means the only possible scenario.

[fallenhunnyapple]

@ilikelookingatthings left a very long and question filled essay about Angel!Lu AU in the replies so now its time to delve into More Info about the AU! @fallenguitarhero is my Adam so I got his input for all the Adam-related parts of this. Under a cut because.... this is Very Long LOL (bonus art at the end)

I'm going to just Copy-Paste the answers I got when we discussed it

I do think that Adam actually subconsciously shifts blame to Lilith because he's very black and white in his views. He hates devil Luci but he thinks he can prevent angel Lu from going down that path if he just keeps them apart. Lute also believes this and ngl her view of Lilith is like...really awful internalized misogyny type shit. Both of them think its better the two never meet and Lute outright threatens Lilith to stay away. Adam is too possessive to try and shift Lu to someone else but he does like... try to push Lu back into friendship type feels. Adam is a dumbass about sexuality so he thinks if he brings Lu to do Masculine and Straight things it will fix this. Instead he ends up just spending even more time with him and making it worse. As for his trauma... yeah Adam tries to hide it. Mostly by changing the subject and acting like an asshole tbh. I've thought abt Lu finding out about Cain and Abel p much by mistake (maybe saw artwork of it, all the hell related stuff is hidden but they wouldnt think to hide art of Adam holding Abel's body or Cain's exile) and it breaking his little baby heart. Adam def has moments where like... his mind is busy w something else like a bad day or a nightmare and for a second he sees the devil instead of his angel. Adam always like... 'shit, sorry, i thought you were someone else- fuck, don't look at me like that, c'mon.' There are other issues he just... doesn't realize he needs to hide. They're right about Adam being cynical and like... telling himself Lu doesn't really love him. Even once they date, he's still insecure. At that point i think he'd tell Lu about Lilith leaving him for a friend of his (whose name he never gives) and his marriage with Eve ending badly. He avoids details. He prob talks way more about his kids and prob even introduces Lu to them... Lu being around might encourage him to work on his relationship with them. Adam's body dysmorphia is such a contrast from the Adam Lu knew before... i do think that with him hiding so much from Lu, he tries to make it up to him by making sure his life is perfect. He goes out of his way to keep his angel happy and his attitude spreads to his exorcists who accept Lu into their flock. tbh Adam's dynamic with them prob becomes way healthier over time due to Lu's influence. i think Adam does tell the truth about some things but leaves out the details. Like he says evil found earth and destroyed Eden but says it hurts too much to talk about it (not a lie) and tells Lu that it's why the exorcists exist, they protect heaven and the dead humans from it. Which is what the official story is anyway! i think Lu prob has the same info the average low ranking Heavenborne and winners do. If Lu pushed him too much Adam might admit there are things he can't tell him but frame it as a military thing - there are things only Michael, Adam and the high ranking exorcists can know. He feels a lot of guilt about lying. it weighs on him a lot. that and the stress of protecting Lu from his brothers honestly makes Adam act more subdued and tired than canon Adam. His eyebags are awful. It prob becomes obvious as time goes on that Adam is Not Well. He keeps his mask on for a looong time after the first time bc it helps him hide his feelings and self-regulate but when he finally takes it off it's obvious to Lu from how he looks that Adam is struggling mentally. Comparing him to how he looked in Eden makes it so clear.

For Lu's part of things. Of course he'd ask about Lilith. Especially after finding out that so long has passed and Adam is here, so Lilith is probably here too, right? I feel like because he missed... So much, the concept of Death to him still doesn't really sink in. Like even with the Sins, it's basically like he just Knows he can't See them again. So with Lilith its like Adam has to just lie the same as with Anyone else from Hell. And Lu is definitely heartbroken about Lilith being Gone.

And like, at the time, Adam isn't lying so he doesn't feel Guilty about it, he just feels bad seeing Lu so upset. The timeline of this is kinda indeterminate but it definitely is Earlier than the 7 years of Lilith being in Heaven. So when he first Appears, she hasn't left Hell yet. Who knows, Charlie may not have even been born yet at that point. There's no Solid point in Time for Lu to have appeared in Heaven, it's just... Earlier. He doesn't think to Look for her because he knows that if she's Not Already There, then she's Inaccessible. Otherwise Adam would have told him, he's sure of it. (Adam has no obligation to tell Lu when Lilith does get there and for the reasons stated above + the fact that the Elder Angels probably would try and deter any interaction between the two. he's left in the Dark about her arriving in Heaven. He doesn't know Adam has even made a Deal with anyone) He still misses her because Adam is Truly the only friend from When he's from left.

And tbh the mixed signals are what keeps Hope Alive for Lu. As much as he tries to be okay with friendship, he still wants more because he's In Love and Adam is the only thing that makes him feel Normal when his entire life and everything he knew was entirely up-ended. It's why he's so passive about it. He doesn't want to make Adam feel bad, but he sees Adam being so Conscious of him now and it makes him happy. He doesn't wanna Push it, but he still likes seeing that Adam is Aware of him like that now. Especially because it's not in a way where Adam is trying to push him away, Adam is actively spending more time with him!

The longer time passes, the more discontent Lu grows. Knowing he's being lied to/that things are being hidden, even by Adam, he is Curious and he wants to learn more. But he also isn't going to be reckless about Learning More. The thing is also he Doesn't Know what questions he should be asking. He could ask Winners things and get answers, its not like anyone would stop him from Talking to Winners, its part of his Job. But like... How would he even start to figure out what's Missing in his knowledge?

Also Lu is definitely Aware of how different Adam is from his Eden self. Like just Visually, it's so easy to separate them because Adam wears his mask. But when its just the two of them and Adam is maskless, Lu may be more susceptible to treating him like that. But he's also very aware of the fact that actually their Knowledge Base is completely flipped. Lu hardly knows anything and Adam knows Everything.

And like.... Lu Knows that being kept in the dark is probably 'for his own good' but as stated, the person who fell is Still him. So now instead of resenting/being upset that Humans were kept in the dark, now it's himself. There's no Fruit That Will Fix Things for him though. He's just left frustrated at his lack of agency in this. And honestly, what keeps in line Most is Fear. Since coming to this time, his family has been Nicer to him, he's actually getting along to some degree with his brothers who used to ridicule him (or worse) and he Knows it's only because he's 'behaving' now, now that Creation is over and Life Has Existed. And he's scared or what will happen if he steps too out of line. He doesn't have the refuge of going to Eden to visit the Humans if things go south with his siblings. He isn't allowed on Earth, he's confined to Heaven, so he would just be stuck with the same sort of things that ultimately drove him originally to commit the Sin of giving Eve the Apple (not that he's Aware of how it culminated) And Also he has Adam. He doesn't want to know what the consequences would be if they were to decide that they shouldn't be allowed to stay together. It would absolutely break him.

If Lu were to find out about the exterminations, he'd be just as Appalled by it as Emily was. Lu doesn't know about Sin, what that entails, how Sinners destroy everything. He hasn't had to live with it so he can't see any contempt or justification for their destruction. Lucifer hates them because they came in a ruined the world he tried to build in Hell. Lu doesn't have any such associations with them. He would just see them much like Charlie does, souls who made mistakes and who should be given the chance to Do Better and make up for it. (That's sort of what he is, in a way, too.) He would absolutely be upset and scold the fuck out of Adam and Lute if he knew what his besties were REALLY doing once a year-

As for the sexual stuff, Both Lucifers started without having a concept of sex or sexuality, so both of them are specifically shaped by their partners (literally in a way). So the Lucifer who learned and explored with Lilith is going to be completely different from the Lucifer who learned and explored with Adam in terms of How they have sex. It's a skill they learn by doing, so it's not the Same.

Thank you for sticking it out this long, have a doodle for your troubles 🙏

[jennrypan]

The name change was kinda unnecessary but slay ig,

Why is Lila the smartest person ever—? I-

“You mean when Gabriel Agreste became a hero.” ..Yeah. You should maybe call her out on that cuz?? It’s not..great. Idk— it not being funny shouldn’t be the reason you give pause. Anyways. Lila lowkey looks like a Spider-Man variant. It’s soo dope but I wish there was a lead up to her being this smart throughout the entire series cuz she seemed so dumb fr. But..Lowkey I fuck with her, shes a massive hater fr. Also..if Lila knows that Gabriel is Hawkmoth..she should.. out that to the world, while making herself out to be a better hero, like claim that Ladybug got corrupted or something and make it seem like her hiding Hawkmoths ID was apart of some evil plan or something. Idk. Like it’d be super cool, tomorrow I’ll.. explain more about that later cuz I’m cooking rn..

“I should’ve stopped him years ago.” ..Correct. Anyways Plagg should be giving Marinette the meanest side eye rn cuz she just believed Gabriel and he used the wish and they didnt accomplish SHIT- also Natalie, you were like him for a good long while so.. you really dont have a leg to stand on?? Hm— also Marinette. Adrien didnt have a father when his mom got sick. Let’s be so fr—

“Adrien is all alone.” GIRL YOU, ALYA, NINO, NATALIE, KAGAMI ARE RIGHT THERE!! AHHH— You and the class had that all little fairy tale nonsense talking abt how Gabriels the dragon you need to save Adrien from and now?? ..stop playing with me..

Natalie just confirmed what I said and its just..I like that Marinettes devastated for Adrien, it’s sweet but even after this she just..doesnt tell him? It kinda. Ruins the love square for me fr cuz the power dynamics fucked. Also.. Natalie joined in on imprisoning the Kwami, they should hate her i think?? Like— I like Natalie, she had potential but..she just— ughhh. She just barely realized what she was doing was fucked up, Im sure she loves Adrien way more than Gabriel but I wish they had her showing that way more?

I love that theyre fighting quietly lmao. “Natalies on our side.” …Finally. .Natalies so pretty..Im getting distracted.

UGH ADRIENS SOO CUTE. Anyways. You cant tell Adrien what transpired but you should be able to tell Chat considering..hes been your partner from day one? ..moving ooon. WHY IS LILA SMART?

“Adrien will have no one left.” ..which is why..youre here..and Nino..like I LOVE Natalie being Adriens mother figure but she really needs to be up front with him..like yeah obviously the truth would hurt him but lying to him and him finding out would be way worse. Anywho

This scene was lowkey wild— it had no reason to be that unsettling lmao. This fight sequence was really fucking dope though. Mkay so..Marinette just erased the part about her being Ladybug so..Lila knows about everything else? Which I adore for the drama of it!! I have thoughts about this I’m just tips for it.

GOD SHES SO UGLY WITH BLONDE HAIR EW- I FORGOT HOW NASTY SHE LOOKED, EW. Also lmao Lila tweaking out is still so funny, why is she insane— chill girl damn. Alix is just soo pretty omg. (Also more ideas is sooo— YEAHHHHH. I cant wait for this to be dramatic as fuck. Ill write it tho cuz i dont trust the writers.)

Oh it’s Chronobug idk why i heard chromo. Also..how does Tikki know what happened and Plagg doesnt? I— to hell with you. Making a rewrite and Plagg also knows cuz..ying and yang mf >:( like they know bits and pieces but not exactly everything. Alsoooo did she tell Chat about the new Hawkmoth? Also..not every miraculous needs to be with their holder? Like just the main five.. whatever. Also Plagg being so chummy with Marinette despite how she’s lying to Adrien doesn’t sit right with me. Like NO ONE is in Adriens corner fr…tomorrow Im fixing that I’m feeeling ways about this.

“We— I mean you..I mean Gabriel Agreste has..” UGH DRAMAA PLEASE.. and the fact that Adrien just lost his father and he has to comfort Ladybug AGAIN cuz they dont know each others identities..Ima scream. “I cant even tell you about it.” WHY???? ITS CHAT— YOU- Anyways. It’s not like old times cuz she has more secrets to hide and she has way more holders to call upon and now Alyas her actual partner ! Also ew..Blonde Lila..go away. Thats the scariest thing about her, shes fugly—

Anyways gonnna rewatch old episodes while i still ahh we my buzz.

[sayakxmi]

Saiouma Puella Magi AU, but Kokichi takes Madoka's role and Shuichi takes Homura's.

For one, Kokichi's too naturally distrustful to just hear "I can grant you any wish :)" and not think ok where's the hook. So he just does what no one ever has & essentially interrogates Kyubey, so he knows it all even before he gets to make a contract. So, some of his classmstes are MGs & he won't become one himself BUT he still ends up tagging along to just protect them in his Kokichi ways. (Though I'm entertaining Kokichi lying about being a magical girl, because, well, it's Kokichi).

(I also got a small idea of Gonta being a magical girls and Kokichi originally tagging along him into labyrinths, Gonta also makes him a magic gun from the toy one he had, and at some point witches out & Kokichi manages to kill him with that gun. So he always has that spare Grief Seed on himself, bc it's still his best friend & he can't handle the idea of just giving it away or using it himself (he does anyway in the end).)

Shuichi prolly ends up being a new kid & it isn't like MadoHomu, the ppl who reach him first are Kaede & Kaito, classic. Kokichi's there, too, but he's his usual sus self. He's actually discouraging ppl from making a contract when they find out magic and miracles are real, which absolutely includes Shuichi. He's very vocal abt it, but he won't explain stutf, bc 1) he's a liar, so who'd believe him? and 2) he doesn't want them to witch out upon finding out the truth or, idk, murder everybody Mami-style.

Anyway, fast forward, bad things happen bingo & by the end of the run most charas are dead, there's Walpurgis nachting, and he makes his wish to bring back the ppl who died notably not as magical girls. Contract signed, he fights & fails, rip. I also thought it was similar to how he thought he could end the killing game by himself - he though he could finish Walpurgisnacht by himself, too. And he failed in both times. Whatevs.

Shuichi doesn't actually make his time travel wish for Ouma specifically, he wants to save all his friends. Timelines are messy esp at first bc he either tells then or it backfires or just makes himself look very sus bc he's trying not to tell them. He also realizes why Kokichi hadn't told anybody aby witches at some point, bc, yeah, it messes them a lot, assuming they believe it.

Still, Kokichi ends up one of the few people who are nearly always giving him a chance, not necessarily out of belief, but out of pragmatism - bro can stop time & knows the truth, that's just too useful. So they often work together & Shuichi grows closer to him but still we ain't there yet. But the thing is, Shuichi's time travel still makes Kokichi more & more powerful with each timeline, bc Shuichi usually goes back after Kokichi dies, so the universe figured out this guy's life's important. Anyway, another notable thing is the iconic Homura kills Madoka scene, but it's Saiouma with guest stars of Kaito & Maki. It's Walpy, it's not defeated yet, but the training trio are spent & just kinda accept their fate of turning into witches together. And then, boom, Kokichi appears & steals their Soul Gems for a sec & he's like did u know you can cleanse your Soul Gem with a darkened one? But it's a lie & he quickly tells them so, he just had a spare Grief Seed after cleansing his Soul Gem & he needs them to do some stuff. Shuichi can travel back in time & fix things, and Maki & Kaito are needed to fight Walpy here. He actually questions what happens to the timelines Shuichi leaves behin, and ofc he doesn't know. There's a chance they remain, so Kokichi needs Maki & Kaito to fight Walpy here.

Kaimaki leave, and Shuichi finally looks at Kokichi & realizes sth is Wrong. Kokichi struggles to hide how he's trembling & grimacing, and it's Kokichi, so obviously it must be extremely bad. Shuichi dreadfully realizes something worse, and he weakly asks Kokichi why aren't his wounds healing. And Kokichi just falls, laughing weakly, and Shuichi catches him & searches for his Soul Gem and, God, he knew it. It's nearly completely black. Kokichi laughs & admits he lied abt having two Grief Seeds, he only had one he never wanted to use. But they'll have the second one soon, so no need to worry. He asks Shuichi to maybe destroy his witch form as it's hatching, so he'll have the Grief Seed without any fighting… and he admits that he hates fighting, he hates this magical world and all its violence. He says that Kaito was right in calling him a coward, even here he just can't handle the idea of fighting any longer, he's so sorry. And Shuichi tells him he ISN'T a coward. He was scared, but he always followed everybody, trying to help, and when push came to shove he would always make a contract for the benefit of others rather than himself. He's a lot of things, but a coward isn't one. Kokichi actually tears up hearing that, and Shuichi promises he won't let him fight ever again, and especially he won't let him turn into a witch and hurt anybody, because he knows it's the last thing he's ever wanted. Even now he only accepts turning into a witch to help them fight to keep others safe. So Shuichi won't let him. Kokichi probably apologizes and thanks him and then he dies.

Keeping Kokichi from fighting starts off as a side quest that gains importance with time, bc it's something Shuichi won't compromise on (ah, trauma), which leads him to occassionally neglect others a bit, which makes them more likely to get hurt & ironically Kokichi more likely to make a contract, especially since he gets more powerful & Kyubey is more interested in him with each timeline. And that also makes him witch out super quick. Shuichi's paying more attention to him & over time grows resentful of others for how they're treating him. To Shuichi it's no question that Kokichi cares & is just doing his best to help, but nobody realizes that.

But the biggest obstacle in keeping Kokichi from fighting is actually Kokichi himself, bc he's too smart and nosy, lmao. Even if he knows nothing, he will find out quickly. Doesn't help that Kyubey wants him to make a contract.

Also, obviously Kaito is Sayaka-coded and Maki could be Kyouko-coded, so that's a thing, BUT it's usually Maki that witches out. Kaito is usually pretty close, but Kokichi intervenes & he survives, but Maki later cracks on her own (and since in the new timeline Kokichi isn't there, Kaito's the one to die, so he's still the secretary). So it's Kaito who gets the dramatic sacrifice. I imagine he genuinely hoped you could bring somebody back if you tried Very Hard & Kokichi called him a moron bc obviously it's not possible. If it was there'd be far less witches that there are. But it's Kaito, he doesn't listen to reason. So, Kokichi follows him to the labyrinth. At first Kaito's mad cuz what if Kokichi being there ruins the plan? Maki hates his guts! But eventually he gets hit pretty hard, and Kokichi is near immediately by his side, trying to help him get up, which kinda makes Kaito short circuit a little bc wait Kokichi's trying to help? But witch!Maki attacks them & Kokichi pushes Kaito away & gets caught himself (and choked until unconsciousness, naturally). Anyway, Kaito gets him away, Shuichi catches Kokichi & Kaito makes up his mind about going down with Maki & asks Shuichi to tell Kokichi that he's sorry. He doesn't get him, but he got hurt trying to protect him, so he'll believe in that if nothing else. F.

As for The WishTM, in the last timeline Shuichi lashes out at Kokichi for his willingness to just become part of the system. In no timeline has his wish actually helped, it did NOTHINHG, which OUCH but it also makes Kokichi think out of the box more & he becomes the Law of Cycles. And Shuichi realizes what is happening & freaks out bc Kokichi's doing it bc of what he told him & like Homura they end up having a momentTM in space & Shuichi remembers. He feels a lot of guilt even tho he also questions whether anything was real, but if it was, he pushed somebody he far too realized he loved into erasing himself from existence.

[rillils]

do you ever think abt how we couldve seen more of nomad steve

NOMAD STEVE MY BELOVED

ohhh we were robbed, honey, in so many ways! imagine what we could have had!

- more footage of this man, luscious lovechild of hercules and adonis, most glorious chunk of deliciousness, sexy teddy bear man, the mane of a lion and the eyes of a puppy, mr Dirtied Up Good™, holy shield straps of sex, elected man with the sluttiest forearms of 2018 through 2024

- more of this Steve, who ain't playing dancing monkey for anyone anymore, who ain't asking for permission and/or forgiveness from anybody, who isn't taking anybody's shit, he just wants to fight for what he feels is right and he's not going to apologize for that, thank you very much

- his developing friendship with both Sam and Nat! them fighting like a unit! trusting each other, leaning on each other! learning more about each other! actually getting to know Steve, and his fun side, and his darker side, and his brooding side, and his silly side, and nagging him when they know he needs help but he's just too damn stubborn to ask for it

- FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY

- the three of them trying to comfort each other, each in their own (sometimes clumsy/awkward) way when a mission goes wrong, learning random words from random languages from one another (especially swear words they might have picked up in their respective times abroad lol), watching old sitcoms in their downtime, laughing together, hell even crying together, sharing too little space for too long, complaining about each other's unwashed socks, and still falling asleep on top of each other

- the few times Sam got to call his parents from a safe location. can you imagine Steve talking on the phone with Mrs Wilson? scared at first that she'll tear him a new one for putting her son in so much danger and dragging him away from home? but her knowing all too well that nobody's ever been able to make Sam do something he didn't want to do, that this was his own decision? and she's not actually mad at Steve, she just wants to make sure that "all of you kids are alright"? can you imagine Steve holding back tears the first time he hears a mother's voice talking to him, reminding him to be careful, to stay safe, after so long without it? do you think I'm crying???? I AM

- THE SKYPE CALLS WITH BUCKY

- actually EVERY SINGLE KIND OF INTERACTION WITH BUCKY, even when he's not there. Steve gazing longingly at a picture of Bucky, either physical or digital, that he makes sure to keep on him at all times. taking it out when he's lying awake at night, and everything's quiet except for Sam's snoring and the muffled sounds from the streets, and Steve thinks he saw Nat's eyes watching him in the dimness, but neither of them are going to say anything. he's just sitting in the dark, picture in hand, twirling some secret worry around in his head and missing Bucky so much it hurts. and those times (although he tries to keep these to a minimum) when he just can't help himself: he sneaks out of the room and calls Bucky, just to hear his voice. to listen to Bucky speak softly to him, his voice a little rough from sleep, but always so warm, so sweet for him. and Steve just leans his head back against the wall, and closes his eyes, and imagines he's curled up into Bucky's side, his head resting on Bucky's shoulder, with Bucky's fingers carding through his hair, and it's only then that he finds a little peace again

- all the videocalls with Bucky! the playful banter!! them arguing like an old married couple one moment, and exchanging the most besotted looks the next! Nat and Sam having to put up with all of their old-men-in-love shenanigans, and Steve never hearing the end of it lol

- Steve!! literally bounding out of the quinjet like an excited puppy when they visit his husband Bucky in Wakanda!!! overjoyed and not even bothering to hide it anymore after like the second or third time, 'cause everybody knows by now anyway!!

- all of them actually getting to rest for a while, and Steve enjoying his impromptu honeymoon with Bucky, savoring each day like it's both the first and the last of their life together, love sparkling in his eyes, happier than he's ever been before, finally free, ironically, now that he's an outlaw and a fugitive, and finding utmost delight in that knowledge

WE WERE ROBBED BLIND, HONEY

[velvetvexations]

as we all know you are THE popular Tumblr transfems. all of the popular radical feminist transfems on the site are actually the underdogs and definitely don't have huge followings or any social power on this website. don't look at their four-digit follower counts or the way they subtly encourage dogpiling people because they know there's a crowd of people who will do it immediately that's irrelevant

TRFs think 1k and 15k are the same number because they both have a one in them.

Being so many levels deep in the feminism discourse makes daily life amusing sometimes. Like some of the shit I wanna joke about would probably comes off as misogynistic without the context of it being in response to radical feminism but it's so funny. Like saying shit like I love erasing women doesn't necessarily make sense to someone who doesn't know it's in response to terfs talking about gender neutral medical language etc. Or like having to hear constant feminism 101 basic bitch feminism stuff from people around me and just nod cause I know they don't wanna hear about The Nuance cause the average person isn't as interested in social and gender theory as I am. Like to the average level one feminist I can understand how more complex feminism can come off as misogynistic so I don't Get Into It with coworkers and the like but I am always sitting here brimming with Opinions anyway. That and people at work seem to read me as "guy who's kind of gender nonconforming" rather than trans so I don't get interpreted as being a voice of "authority" on anything about gender or misogyny (and I'd rather stick with that than be the Outspoken Tranny tm). It's a silent game of "I know more than you"

lmao you're hiding your power level

How the heck do I not take doing something bad as life ending. I fucked up today bc I lost track of time and missed doing something with my bf. He says he’s not mad but I can tell he feels bad in some way, and I don’t blame him, I unequivocally DID fuck up, and it’s hard not to want to just fall on the ground and rip my skin off ngl lol but I know at this point if I keep apologizing or asking him if I can fix it or offering him shit is just going to come across desperate and weird, and I have to take him at face value that he is not mad, and it’ll be okay tomorrow, but arghhhhhhhh I’m historically horrible at taking people who are clearly upset saying “I’m not mad at you” at face value

please let me know if you find out because that wrecks me too

Fascinated by how much transandrophobia in queer spaces is like, 'youre a Dude and therefore obviously you cannot experience this opression the way you think you do, people obviously view you as a Man and therefore you have male privilege, anyway heres the most wildly specific misogynistic trope youve never seen aimed at cis men aimed at trans dudes, this is not sus at all' Yes this is abt the 'trans dudes on t should go on mood stabilisers' before someone asks.

it's so blatant

i find it very fun(/s) that theres like, two separate groups of trfs where one is super open about hating transmascs n shit and the other is more "guys THEORY" and the second group constantly pretends the first group doesn't exist and actually you're lying literally no one has ever said that ever what are you talking about

Mask on, mask off.

started just instant blocking anyone I see putting trf bullshit on my dash. soon I will have peace.

true inner peace

[the1andonlyv1nny]

(spoilers for the latest chapter)

Read at ur own expense 🤐

so the ending…. I would be lying if I said I didn’t cry when Ochaco did. I think ik what Izuku and Ochaco are gonna talk abt though. Btw if u think Izuku gonna confess then u r wrong 😕 I don’t make the rules. So in chapter 426 Izuku noticed Ochaco’s weird behaviour and how she was acting all happy when she clearly wasn’t. She was clearly affected by Himiko’s death, a lot. So was I 😖. ANYWAY! Ochaco has been hiding the fact that she is hurting as to not make people worry about her, Izuku knows this so goes to talk to her, he sees her crying. She know has to talk to Izuku about what’s bothering her. It’s like the talk they had b4 the battle. I’m sorry but Ochaco clearly had some deeper feelings for Himiko, Izuku is a good friend so he prolly knows this hence he went to comfort her. They’re gonna talk about Toga and Ochaco might feel a little better after talking abt it to someone. The topic of Ochaco previously having a crush on Izuku might come up but will most likely be brushed aside bc no matter how hard you try to say otherwise Izuku doesn’t and never has had romantic feelings for Ochaco. Since the two have been getting along well recently Ochaco might ask how things With Katsuki are. Then the scene will change conveniently to something else. So we won’t see the end of the convo 😛… unless Horokoshi wishes to let us see.

anyway that’s my predictions for chapter 429 😚! What do you think? Criticism is reasonable however homophobia isn’t 🙂

[oetscop]

okay so im making a new post abt this since its a little different from my last analysis post. but @petscopping brought up a very interesting point in the tags! that being "nobody is innocent" and he is so fucking right abt that

that was in regards to the objectification of care, and how paul also contributes to that. but like, even characters that aren't explicitly on screen are culpable. specifically belle.

i always get this impression that shes hiding something. she knows far more than she lets on, and i almost have to wonder if its in a way to protect paul? which is interesting since we know how in denial he is about Literally Everything, which is actively harming himself in some way.

she knows. a LOT about this game. like, paul is only recording gameplay to prove that hes "not lying" about the weird game he found. then later down the line after paul gets to the other side of the quitters room and tells her tiara is gone and her reply is "of course." the way paul replies to that too is telling since hes confused as to why she knows somethings up. even earlier than that paul mentions how he was shocked to find "his room" but isnt anymore since it makes sense that the game would be connected to him through belle. not to mention she knows an older version of the game that had the passageway to the caskets. she had played it as recently as 2004. why lie at first?

a little tangential, but i really gotta wonder about her connection to rainer. obviously they were close enough for him to be doing...whatever the fuck happens during a rebirthing event. or whatever he thinks is supposed to happen, i should say. shes heavily connected to tiara in some way, and has a stupid amount of play time on the damn game. if you ascribe to the theory that tiara and in game marvin are based entirely off in game behaviors of real people playing the game, its no wonder tiara seems to be almost...sentient? all marvin does is run around and say shit and like be weird and the game was literally made for him. tiara like. can edit texture maps, and use that to also speak directly to paul thru tool. and because of that, she can speak more directly, and isnt hindered by the p2 to talk mechanic like marvin is.

point is, belle has logged a crazy amount of time into the game. sure you could probably say the hours played is inaccurate, maybe she just had the game left open on a console for what. 17 years was it? even rainer admits its dubious. but imo, it feels more...symbolic? like sure maybe she wasnt playing it for that long. but she had some kind of passive connection to the game in that time. she is/was in contact with rainer. she HAD to be. (this also might imply the game was still being worked on after 2000. but thats a whole nother can of worms)

i cant think of any other motive for her lying about that other than to protect paul in some way. which, in a way, ties back to cares objectification. paul is absolutely denying any humanity to his child self. its ingrained in the very code of the game.

and in some way, belle is also participating. maybe im reading too far into that, but with how much the series is able to tell us abt characters who dont even fucking talk is really impressive so its not completely unrealistic.

[dearweirdme]

how do u guys not see that taehyung is using jk and tkk for attention? he has consistently claimed things that then don’t align w what jk has said/reality. if they were actually together i dont think he would want to be drawing attention to their relationship the way he does. like when he said he recorded his album at jk’s house and jk helped direct it, that was SUCH an exaggeration and he knew it. and ofc jk had to clear up the situation stating that taehyung just randomly called him up one day asking if he could record some guides at his apartment studio and jk only gave him some advice here and there abt how he should sing some lines. taehyung always find some way to mention jungkook and single out their relationship when jk doesn’t do the same. and the whole “to find you” thing…there’s no way that that’s the legitimate and whole truth. taehyung worded in a way that would catch ppls attention when in reality im sure jk would just sing that song a lot in general cuz it was stuck in his head or something, not directly to/for taehyung. bc if they were actually together and jk sang that song FOR him, taehyung would not be out here divulging all that information. he would want to keep that secret bc that is something that would directly give them away. and w the story he posted of him and jk on instagram before enlisting. that was completely on purpose for attention bc why would u not post something for jimin as well who was also enlisting the same day when u know ppl will notice that. he knew we would notice he only posted for jk and that would get attention for being just him and jk. just at least admit that taehyung mentions a lot of stuff abt jungkook on purpose bc he knows ppl like to hear it and it gets him attention while also satisfying the fans/shippers

Hi anon!

Ah, so you see… but it’s just a bit too close for comfort for you and therefore, even though Tae has been described as ‘honest’, ‘innocent’, ‘most down to earth’, etc by members.. you think he has to be lying and faking and scheming about his bond with Jk. All the while Jk (and all members) continue to speak well about Tae, showing their love and support for Tae, keep hanging out with Tae and just continue as though him ‘using’ Jk is okay? You’d rather believe all that than think that maybe Tae and Jk actually do have a special connection? Geezzz, must suck to be you.

Jk is humble, what felt like Jk directing to Tae might’ve felt as too much credit to Jk. Tae is likely to boast about Jk’s capabilities, while Jk is likely to play things like that down. Tae wanted to make him shine, Jk wanted to return some of that shine to where he felt it belonged.

Why would there be any other explanation for Jk singing ‘To find you’? Why is it inconceivable to you (we all know why…. you are either homophobic or a Tae anti.. or both)? Nothing about Tae’s demeanor in that live shows any form of faking. He was melancholic. He wanted/needed to share a piece of himself. You forget that as a part of Tkk it is his right to share pieces more than it is our right to judge. He is the one who actually knows Jk on a level that very little people do (even when you think they aren’t together). So his judgement on whether it’s alright to share something about him and Jk will always trump ours.

I can only imagine the conflicting feelings that come with having to hide a relationship. I imagine the struggle between wanting to share the thing you are proud of and that is most important to you while also wanting/needing to keep it safe and hidden is a hard one. To me that fully explains why at times we see something more real, and why at times it seems as though they keep things from us.

He absolutely posted Jk on purpose! I think you should think on that some more anon!

[thelunarfairy]

What do you think abt the minamoto clan from yorimitsu to its current heir? They seemed to be responsible for the human sacrifice ritual, maybe the one who suggested it and it worked. And teru seemed to be hiding the fact that his family did that in the past.

It was like their way to protect humans from supernaturals began with exorcising, then maybe after yorimitsu passed, they found another way instead of doing that so the can live an easier, normal life like others(?) which was a ritual of sacrificing a young woman, after sumire was sacrificed, hakubo killed many of minamoto family and spared their children, it was unclear if the ritual was discontinued or not but the last sacrificed kannagi was katakuri, after that they went back to exorcising? And what if the red house was their faults too, they went back to sacrificing people but more subtle, make it look like an accident, make it look like its the occupants own fault so they let a family live there? Until yugi family died, and anyone who came there received the same fate too, minamoto grandma was the one who ended the ritual again, and they went back to exorcising?

2. The shrine couldnt see what was possessing little tsukasa, but can they even sense the evil energy accompanied the child? Kunishige seemed to flinched a little after he saw the bottomless darkness in tsukasa's eyes, maybe he can sense the evil energy because of his strong sixth sense but wont say anything abt it because he was still a junior in the shrine?

And if the shrine couldnt solve whats wrong with tsukasa, does it mean yugi mom went to the minamoto next? And what if minamoto grandma who sealed hanako away and warned abt the red house was the same age as kunishige or the yugi twins or just knowing the family problem?

Well, I'll tell you how I see the whole Minamoto situation in general.

Briefly, the God was too powerful for them to be able to exorcise Him, I imagine they must have tried several ways and several times, but always without success.

So, maybe they created an agreement with the people of the village and who knows, this God (hypothetically speaking) the agreement is that they would offer a sacrifice at some specific time, leaving the God satisfied and the village at peace.

At some point, the sacrifices began to dwindle, because young girls were becoming scarce from being sacrificed indiscriminately, so they chose to sacrifice the youngest in the village, Katakuri.

He was the last one before Tsukasa, which means it probably didn't work out and something happened to the people of the village. After that, we have a part without answers, a period in which the village ceased to exist and became the school and the red house, imagining that the village is a large place and that the neighborhood was built on top.

Probably, the Minamoto, as a last alternative, sealed this God, using the yorishiros and the mysteries. Somehow I believe the Minamoto and some supernaturals made a deal to make this work.

Some supernaturals are not killed by the Minamoto, and I imagine that is linked to this agreement. If the supernaturals cooperate, the Minamoto will not exorcise them, and they will also be able to roam freely between the far shore and the nearby shore.

But then we have another important detail, the God, the mysteries work for a God who does not seem to be the same as the one who is sealed, after all, the sealed God, Tsukasa's, is trying to remove the seals, the other God wants to keep them, he is the work of the mysteries.

Nowadays, things work like that, but I believe that sacrifices still happen from time to time, when Nene asked Hanako that, he said no, but his look became dark and he turned his face away, which means he may be lying.

The main hypothesis is that the twins were probably the last sacrifices, or Tsukasa, as Katakuri said, Tsukasa was the last one who ended up in the "sacrifice zone" and left there. That would probably be where Aoi would stay.

So, the God and the red house are under the control and custody of the Minamotos, who apparently had to seal Hanako too, probably due to the connection with the God.

As for how this God can be perceived inside someone's body, I still have no idea, some people notice it and others don't, maybe there is something special in some people so they can notice it, it's still mysterious.

Well, in short, that's what I think.

Maybe the Yugis are very important to this God, or they just had bad luck living in that house.

[autistic-sidestep]

lying down thinking very hard abt sidestep trying ortega's cooking for the first time, canonically them liking anything ortega makes, that ortega learnt from tia elena that feeding people is the best way to befriend people and that SO many of their fond memories are food-related. (bumped into overdrive with a sugar vice step!) the necessity of needing to eat a lot to maintain their telepathy helps, ofc!

#Sugar—my brain needs the energy.     One drawback of your telepathic powers is that you need a lot of carbohydrates, and sugar is the easiest way to get them. […] the syrupy drinks you were used to back when [you were at the Farm]…

even chen's memory of a happy sidestep involves food

[non(knowssteelsuspects) tacticianstep] [i]So excited about a milkshake. Laughing with Anathema. The almost childish glee with which ${che} delighted in normalcy. In junk food and music. In movies.[/i]

which is why he stocks the fridge for an ally/friendly step

*label steelfridge (steelshelf true) "Raiding the fridge again?" Steel's voice is too soft for being inside the HQ. […] "Yeah, I'm a regular criminal," you joke, not looking back. Your eyes catch that damn shelf again, with your name clearly on it. There are some beers at the back, as well as assorted snacks. All things you've stolen in the past.

this can even be triggered by marcia from the business base

*label businessstart Sometimes, you pretend that this is what ordinary life must be like. Having a job. A daily routine. Surrounded by normal people, thinking unimportant thoughts. It's a nice enough fantasy, easy to indulge in when you sit sharing a meal with Marcia. She's brought a chili today, not as spicy as you're used to, but for a moment, you're having a flashback to another table, to another shared meal. Familiar laughter. A sense of belonging. You shut your eyes hard, and when you open them, it's Marcia's face you see and not Tía Ortega's. "Was it too hot?" Marcia looks concerned, and you realize your eyes have been tearing up. "I'm fine," you lie, hiding your face as you bite down on a piece of bread. "Thanks for sharing." "A meal is meant to be shared," she says, triggering more memories you don't want.

leading onto comforting spaces and memories with elena and ortega, it's definitely true ortega's strongly associated with food - all their meetups tend to revolve around meals

As do snacks. Is that part of what ${he} learned from ${his} mother? Feed people to make them comfortable, and you suppose the alcohol is mostly for ${him}self. (vice = "sugar") $!{he} always lets you steal ${his} snacks.

"Ooh, they have pancakes." "Pancakes." You shake your head. (*if vice = "sugar") Old memories. You used to eat those together.

What else did you have that wouldn't bring back traumatic memories? Clubs without Anathema, karaoke without Sunstream coming to life on the stage? Dinners with Tía Elena?

(retri epilogue, ortega pov)

Food. When in doubt, always go for food. $!{he} learned that trick at a young age, and it has never steered ${him} wrong.

memorial park meetup

[non alcoholic vice step] "You don't have to talk," ${he} assures you. "But what do you say we get a cup of coffee and a bite to eat?" "Coffee…" You almost laugh, because that's how people work, isn't it? When something uncomfortable happens, make sure to eat or drink something. It will make things better.

hoots

Of course ${he}'d pick a spot like this, [if see_shrink] where ${he} knows you would feel safe, especially after what you just went through. [else] the site of many of your escapades. Familiar. Safe.

"You know what Mamá would have said…." $!{he} wags ${his} finger in the air with a serious look on ${his} face. "If it tastes bad, it's good for you." Your voice is a fair approximation of Tía Elena's; you've heard that sentence often enough. For some reason, she had always been very concerned for your health. Intent on not letting you go hungry.

and ofc, the apartment scene

  "I'd like that," you admit. It sounds good; a little privacy is what you need right now. "Been a while since I ate something homemade."     "I think I still remember your favorites," ${he} says with a chuckle. "Wow. It's been ages since we did this."     "Yeah," you look away to hide your smile. "I miss it."     "So do I." For a moment, you think ${he}'s going to say something else, but ${he} doesn't.     "I like your food," you finally admit, a little lower than needed, because you're not sure how ${he} will react.

*if ((wound = "a severely bitten lower lip") or (wound = "a severely bitten lower lip, and a sore shoulder"))   "Are you sure you're going to be okay eating with that lip?" $!{he} touches ${his} own in sympathy.   "I'm not going to starve," you say with a careful smile. "Just don't make it too spicy."   "But I like spice…," ${he} complains.   "Sucks to be you then."   [*if ortega_friendship >= 75] Your smile softens somewhat. "You can always add it last, just to your portion."

"Any requests?" $!{his} voice is light and airy, clearly attempting to strike a lighter mood. "I like everything you make," you say, with a nonchalant shrug. [...]

It feels surprisingly normal sitting in Ortega's kitchen, one leg pulled up on your chair, watching ${him} cook. You helped cut the vegetables, but once the preparations were done, the stove was all [hers/his]. A familiar routine. It used to be what you did back in the day, maybe not every week, but when you had the time. The smell brings back fond memories [...]

"It's been a long time since we did this." Ortega again, breaking the silence that had been building, putting food on your plates. "Yeah," you admit, wishing it didn't smell so good, wishing the smell didn't take you back. […] "Do you like it?" "You're a good cook but such a sucker for compliments," you say, shoving in another mouthful. "I like it." […] You don't know what to feel as you watch ${him} eat, sharing ${his} table, sharing ${his} food. Sharing ${his} home. $!{his} friendship. $!{his} heart.

epilogue (recovering in chen's apartment + dating ortega)

 "Your kitchen really sucks." Not exactly the smartest thing to say, but ${he}'s never been that good with words when ${he}'s stressed. "You know that, right?"   "I know," Wei sighs, with the long-suffering look he has perfected over the years. "And you know it too. You say it every time you cook here."   "$!{he} cooks here?" [...]   "Occasionally." Wei sits down at last, giving Spoon a scratch before the dog pads back to ${name}'s side. "When ${he} feels I've been eating too badly."   "I know your stomach doesn't always agree with food, but occasionally you just need some homemade caldillo." ${ortega_name} turns back to the stove, glad for the opportunity to busy ${his} hands. The closest thing ${he} can get to meditation, that, and the bike. [...] And everything starts with a delicious dinner. Even if ${he} has to be careful with the chili.   $!{he}'s made worse sacrifices.

of course ortega learned it all from tia.

 "Not Ortega?" Steel sounds surprised, which is annoying. Are you that predictable?     "You know Tía Ortega. Dishes get done in that household." You can't help but smile at the memory. Another life. Another world. Did you use to be happy once?

[...]

Once upon a time, [if ortega_former ally] you were a frequent guest at [Elena's] house // [else] you were close. Back when she lived in the city. Invited into her home, at her dinner table. Hugs. Friendly laughter.

[...]

But it would also mean meeting her again. Stepping back into the past, being soft, loved, cared for, and you…you're not the same. Ortega hasn't told her about you for a reason.

i just.... augHHH. food as love.

[yume-fanfare]

I have no idea what the new event is about because i can't read japanese but if they actually made them childhood friends then this is another case of retconning. Like, there is a whole scene in Horror night halloween where subaru and hokuto bond over having no childhood friends in contrast to makoto and mao.

Unless hokuto's whole crossdressing thing leads to subaru not recognizing him which is understandable but like, surely hokuto recognizes subaru?

Or was the horror night halloween scene supposed to mean something like:

Subaru: "Wow what a coincidence! Neither of us have childhood friends!"

Hokuto: "Yes" (blatantly lying)

Every single day enstars is this close to getting me to pick up a japanese textbook

YEAH I WAS TALKING ABT THAT WITH SHAV EARLIER.

i haven't read the story, i don't know if they're exactly referred to as friends because well. it's enstars. it's the unconventional childhood connections games, and often they'd call someone a "friends" for lack of a better word. but they certainly knew each other enough (in the story, (loose explanation don't quote me on this) jin is babysitting hokke during christmas and they invite subaru to come along)

subaru does have his reasons to not recognize hokke (crossdressing as well as trauma responses to his father's arrest, he's said he's forgotten a lot), but hokke as far as we know, very much could and should recognize him. but it will likely get explained later. i wouldn't call it a retcon just yet because, as i said it's a common manga trope, the whole childhood friends but one of them doesn't remember, and the other (it's always the dark-haired one) hides it for whatever reason. id say the horoharo scene was most likely lying, yes. hokuto sort of has a history in looking at subaru from afar i feel, he probably thinks it's better for subaru to not remember. but yeah we'll have to wait a bit longer