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as i'm working on my interview questions for my buddy cole documentary i just had to make a side-by-side "before and after" of these two interviews related to buddy cole's presence in the amazon revival because wow look at that contrast.
first interview was from while the troupe was still writing the amazon sketches and the second is from while they were filming. gee i wonder what could have changed things??? why did we go from scott saying he'd written eleven buddy cole monologues to refusing to talk about buddy cole when prompted? why was bruce's anecdote about scott's buddy one man show delivered as a reason to get excited in the first half but with literal tears in his eyes in the second half? why did scott go from a very vocal participant in the interview in the first half to "just here to look pretty" in the second half? (spoiler alert: it was amazon completely censoring buddy cole)
i rewatched these interviews so i could write specific questions about promoting the amazon show but after watching that last clip i literally just had to lay on the floor listening to motion sickness by phoebe bridgers like jfc scott deserved better
#luckily the happy ending to this is scott got to do a tour consisting of 100% the monologues amazon rejected and it went super well#and now he's actually moved on from the amazon material completely and is letting go of a lot of that anger#and writing a new buddy show that's much more lighthearted while still containing some really biting satire#and at one point when we were on tour together after his best show scott said all the amazon bullshit was worth it bc it brought us this#(both worth it for his own buddy show but also because it brought the two of us together to tell buddy's story)#but yeah i don't blame the second interviewer bc they couldn't have known how bad scott was doing at the time#but the way he literally doesn't let scott refuse the question reminds me so much of the asshole from my college#like oh my god let the man LIVE.#luckily i have so many questions that if scott says he doesn't want to answer i can just be like ''cool now here's another topic''#also iirc scott mentioned that before the second interview he actually talked to bruce about giving him a signal so that bruce would know i#a question was too much for scott at the time so that bruce could jump in and answer it#god i love how supportive they are of each other. even if they complain about each other a lot (which they do lmao)
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Still ducking hilarious to me that Zoro & Sanji began their beef because they thought the other was misogynistic and it came to a head of no return when Zoro felt his title of âLuffyâs specialest boiâ threatened by Sanjiâs comment
#MY DUDES PLEASE YOUâVE BOTH GOT THAT FEMINIST JUICE FLOWING YES THESE TWO THINGS IDEAS CAN BE TRUE AND EXIST BUT THEN!! BUT THEN!!!!#Zoro takes Sanjiâs WE + NEED + HIM (Luffy) SO DUCKING P E R S O NA. L DEADASS STRUCK THE LOUDEST DAMN CORE IN ALL OF ZORO AND RAISED EVERY#DAMN ALARM POSSIBLE#Aaaaaand âYou just got here /you/ donât know what Luffy needsâ MY GOOD FIRST MATE OF A MAN C A L M D O W N N N IT IS /NOT/ THAT DEEP#âI know he needs my cookingâ SANJII NOOOOO DONâT FALL FOR IT#âLike what putting two slices of bread togetherâ Oh god. oh no. we are never coming back from this (pure hilarious joyous disaster) Ever!#Roronoa Zoro#Black Leg Sanji#Monkey D. Luffy#One Piece Live Action#OPLA#One Piece#All jokes aside tho Zoro was right to make sure they didnât go inside to aid their captain#They wouldâve been more of a distraction than help because Luffy wouldnât have been able to let loose as much as he did#Zoroâs a good first mate but also buddy my guy my dude Sanji does NOT want your job bud ainât nobody want your job especially when Luffy#made it very clear /you/ are worth more to him than /food/#Somebody should tell Zoro that tho man could use the affirmation#But alsoâŠmy guyâŠwhat were you so jealous so hissy so darn quick to b!tch for helpp âïžđ€§đ#Zolu#Ani Rambles#Luzo
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superboy (1994) #8
"It, uh... it kinda goes on forever, doesn't it?"
#rimi talks#rimi's comic liveblogging#man i really do need a better panels n pages tag. oh well#anyways im living vicariously by looking at kon and dubbilex getting to travel. god i wish that were me#(<- guy who is stuck in an airport)#(<- guy who has been in this airport for like 5 hours now)#(<- guy who just wants to get on a plane and go home. please. i miss my dog. let me out. let me out of here. please)#kon
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once again thinking about how growing up in that tomb affects cole's beliefs and ideals in raised by serpentine, more specifically the idea of the constrictai and tomb dwellers as this one big community where everyone gives to the collaborative effort. how that's reflected in cole's own friendliness and desire to Be Involved and Help Out even when he's with the ninja, how community and banding together are important to him. thinking about how earth masters have a semi-celebrated role in the community as Guardians and Pillars of Strength and Peace and Giving, how the legacy cole has to measure up toâone of selflessness and honorâfurther colors his decisions to the point where he almost fixates on the idea that one day he'll have to pay the ultimate price for the greater goodâand how that idea fares against the reality of watching zane do exactly that in rebooted. i just.... augh. cole <3
#lego ninjago#raised by serpentine#cole ninjago#also just. tournament of elements oh my god#for one there's chen who should not be alive after 250+ years but still is bc ofc he is /neg#and also chen's like. a really nasty sort of boogieman figure to the serpentine at large bc of his involvement in the war#so cole is. especially off-balance when looking at this skeletal old man bc he's grown up with the stories surrounding chen and the war#so he's. he is genuinely pretty afraid of chen in a ''this is the fucking boogieman'' kind of way#idk if i'm explaining it right but yeah#AND THEN. WHEN COLE FORFEITS HIS FIGHT TO JAY. HOW IT'S A RETURN TO LIVING UNDERGROUND CUT OFF FROM THE SKY#HOW COLE STARTS OFF WITH THE GENERAL PRE-OPENING TOMB MENTALITY OF ''this isn't smth we can fix so let's not worry too hard''#AND HWO THAT ATTITUDE IS DECONSTRUCTED BC WHILE THE TOMB COULDN'T BE OPENED FROM THE INSIDE THIS FACTORY IS NOT THE SAME#AND IT'S BOTH A REBUTTAL OF SOME OF COLE'S BELIEFS REGARDING HIS ROLE IN THE WORLD#AND OF EVERYTHING THAT CHEN STANDS FOR AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO THE SERPENTINE AFTER THE WAR#BC IT WASN'T RIGHT TO LOCK THEM UNDERGROUND. AND IT ISN'T RIGHT FOR CHEN TO DO THE SAME WITH HIS FACTORY WORKERS#and then how that plays into cole as the master of earth and thus as one with the downtrodden and lowly#who's own ascension sheds light upon those below and raises them up as well#i just. oh my god. oh my fucking god#me when the silly au makes me fucking ill thinking about it (in a good way)
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they should invent a brain chip that produces hormones that you only have to get once just for me cause im special đ„°
#i do not wanna have to inject myself once a week for the rest of my life man im so tired đ#i didnt even know pellets were a thing and i wanna switch so bad cause oh my god#but i do not wanna go through the trials and tribulations of changing the way i take it#which could be none cause my experience has been so smooth đđ€#but being trans is such an inconvenience to me like bro let me live đ#i dont wanna worry about missing an injection or not having access to a pharmacy
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"I could drink your blood if you'd let my baby" no actually.
You can't. I won't let you.
if I did there's A chance that A. I might die and B. I might also become a vampire
And both of those would mean I have to give up garlic bread and other delicious things with garlic in them, and sorry man, I just can't
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#yes to err is human so don't be one#wee woo#I've been thinking about how I don't wanna be a fucking vampire for a while now#Also the whole âliving forever â thing just sounds sad#And I like the sun thank you very much#Will wood#william woodiam#Creatures ted talks#creatures ted-talks#I'm glad I've started talking here more#even if it's just shit posts#I need to publish me own ideas#I don't have to a apologize for turning blue and cold because I'm not letting any vampires in my house/j#how do i tag original posts?#eh either this will get no notes#Or five months from now I'll look at my activity page and think âoh man when will this end/posâ#Ironically my theme is the vampire one#god fucking damn it#the tags are longer than the post#Oh well it's just me spewing bullshit
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Woe, angst be upon yee
Think about this plot for more than a minute and it'll start to fall apart probably but just uhhh please don't think about it too muchđđ
So Sosu has been frozen for over 210 years, they came from a world that wasn't as irradiated as the Commonwealth is currently, so, why not give them radiation poisoning?
They feel fine when they first step out but even still, they can just feel things are different, everything, even the air, feels contamimated. Over the many years, most of the radiation has disappeared, people of the Commonwealth have grown a tolerance to the low amount of radiation that still persists, but Sosu being completely new to this world has no such tolerance and even with a radiation suit slowing the process, the poisoning still seeps into them, slowly starting to kill them. At first it's barely noticeable but the closer they get to their goal, the weaker they seem to get.
First true problem presents itself, the Dimly-lit desert- I mean the Glowing Sea. Even with the power armor taking most of the radiation, by the time they get to the insitute, they're severely ill. The fatigue, the effects of the radiation, it's all obvious. Despite never knowing them it pains the Father to see them in such a way, perhaps it was cruel to let them out of their frozen prison.
Nonetheless the institute is smart, has people to deal with what radaway can't heal, and so with time Sosu is cured but it's made clear to them; any trips to Commonwealth are risky, simply put their body can't handle the radiation.
Obviously there are companions that want the Institute destroyed, but I wonder how they'd react to this? Going off of the assumption that they're close to Sosu, just how willing would they be to write their death sentence by demanding them to destroy the only thing that can help them stay alive? The thing that'd let the companion keep their close friend, maybe their lover, alive? How willing would they be to sacrifice the person whose been there for them this entire time, despite Sosu having their own struggles to deal with?
And with X6? Oh with X6 just think about it. Time passes and he's, dare he say, attached to the future leader. Slowly, without his notice, he's started to truly care. How would he take it, hearing other companions, or faction leaders, demand that Sosu does the "right thing" and destroy the Institute, destroy the only place where they can roam free without a hazmat suit, without having to worry about radiation?
He'd be kinda angry about it I think
#I feel like Preston might be the one most likely to try to look for a different solution? Very possibly Nick#like said I feel like this plot doesn't make THAT much sense but idk it's been stuck in my head for a looong while and wanted to get it out#fo4#fo4 companions#fo4 x reader#fallout x reader#fallout 4 x reader#Preston is a kind man. He'd probably try to figure out something that'd keep his friend alive. Mans lost way too much to loose them too#with Nick I just feel like he'd be another to *really* try to figure out some other solution besides just shrugging and saying 'tough shit'#I'm not entirely too sure about the other companions...#oh right Curie and Codsworth would definately try to figure out something too#but with the rest? I'm just not sure at all đ#Gage would probably suggest to raid the whole place so Sosu can just live there without the Institute-#Sosu: Without the Institute... I'll die#Gage: Boss listen. Lets just break in. Kill everyone there. You live there. Problem solved#God can you imagine raiders with Institute technology#just able to teleport in and out with no issue?#terrifying. In killing the boogeyman you'd create another#but I doubt the nuka raiders would want to live inside the institute
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feel like theres a balance to strike between "people putting guidelines to being a christian (you need to read your Bible everyday, you need to need to never miss church, you should never be anxious... etc.) and saying that not doing them is sinning is wrong" and "you DO need to grow in your faith and be consistent"
#julia.txt#is not reading your Bible everyday a sin? no not really#SHOULD you do it? yes!!! how do you want to live according to God's will if you dont acquaint yourself with God's will everyday?#the flesh doesnt take a day off#is it a sin to miss church? no! should you do it? also no!!#(with the caveat of being sick or any other unavoidable circumstance)#you cannot grow closer to God if you do not commune with Him and worship Him#and that INCLUDES other meetings than sunday#i just see too many people dismiss church easily#like oh i made plans with my friends i cant come oh i took a meeting i cant come#if you want to be serious about your walk with God you cant dismiss church that easily#is it a sin to be anxious? no!!!! of course not!!#but we cannot let ourselves wallow in it either#we cant think oh im anxious its just my disposition its my mental state#we have to WORK on it. how many verses are there about God taking care of us. how many times has He assured us that He will not leave us#does that mean you'll wake up one day and you wont have anxiety anymore ? no#but it DOES mean that God can alleviate it#and. i feel it necessary to point out that if you KNOW its God's will that you do something#and you dont do it#thats a sin. you're going against God's will#knowingly#romans 14 20!!#all things indeed are pure#but it is evil for the man who eats with offense#<- if i do something that violates my conscience it is a sin for me even if it might not be In Itself a sin#we cant call everything legalism and use it as an excuse to not grow#faith posting
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The fact that Junpei proposed to Akane in ztd just baffles me every time I think about it like. He doesnât know anything about her. They were friends for, what? A year? When they were kids. And Junpei never even knew she was an orphan or that she had a brother. Given just how important Aoi is to Akane and the massive role he played in her life, itâs very telling that Junpei doesnât know about him. He also doesnât seem too interested in Akane as a person. He only likes the idea of her, of sharing a bed or taking a shower together, but when she actually starts talking about her interests such as the titanic, he thinks sheâs talking nonsense and only plays along when he doesnât know what else to say. He also has this image of her as a damsel in distress (partially because Akane puts up an innocent persona to avoid suspicion) and he wants to play an action hero who protects her from seeing the scary dead body, completely oblivious to the fact that she put them there, that she wants that bastard dead. And how much does he come to terms with the truth after the nonary game? He feels betrayal, resentment, but he still proposes to her. He still spends his life chasing after her. He still puts himself and quark in a potentially dangerous situation in order to see her again. Junpei doesnât have his shit together at all, he refuses to accept that the girl he liked as a kid isnât perfect and has changed, has changed without him
#zero escape#junpei tenmyouji#my god this man. he really needs to get standardsđ#im very conflicted about the choice to have him propose to akane cuz like on one hand#it really emphasizes just how not well adjusted junpei is and it sets the stage for how he is in vlr#and like i wouldnt want him to have his shit together in ztd in regards to akane he doesnt move on until after vlr#at least in that specific timeline anyway#but on the other hand the game just does suuuch a bad job with the proposal like its treated as cute#when it really fucking isnt its absolutely pathetic that junpei wants to propose to her after everything thats happened#and in general the scene where they get engaged just fucking sucks lol its so weird#i hate it so much goddddd i am not cheering when they get engaged i am seething with rage#cuz theyre ruining their lives cuz they dont fucking love each other or know each other!!! RAWRRRR#oh junpei you fucked up little man just let me. hold your hand đ©
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Okay OP nation I have some (maybe controversial) statements about the Straw Hats and I need yâall to listEN FIRST OKAY- HEAR ME OUT
Boyfriend: Zoro and Franky
Husband: Usopp and Sanji
Girlfriend: Nami
Wife: Robin
Luffy: Aroace king
#DO YOU SEE THE VISION ????#like I am a Certified Zoro Girlie but thats not a husband... he has Boyfriend written all over him#I cant call him husband in my head - âoh thatâs my Husband Zoroâ - ew no - 'thats my BOYFRIEND Zoro' - yes !#Franky is just cool and sensitive like that -> the boyfren to defeat all boyfrends -> i'd fall hard and fast -> like embarrassingly so#SANJI OH MY GOD !!! THE FIRST MAN WHO DARED TO MALEWIFE#and of course anime he has a couple red flags but I always put those on âannoying anime tropeâ rather than accepting thats a part of him (C#(OPLA IS HERE TO PROVE THAT) shit like in canon they kinda set him up as this totally uncool Wannabe Casanova (which he is !!)#but heâs also just effortlessly charming ???? me at 7 y/o watching his intro for the very first time ??? a goner !!! -> me at 20 yo watchin#GOD !! USOPP !! THE MAN ! THE KING ! THE LEGEND -> I have ALWAYS been an Usopp girlie -> cause im always right and i love to win#yâall gonna give a pathetic cowardly little man with huge dreams and an even bigger heart who ALWAYS stands up for whats right#DESPITE BEING SCARED ???? Iâm in the chapel baby lets do this đ°đ» -> also his tiddies are always out ??? DUNGAREES WITH NO SHIRT !! WHATS NO#risking his life fighting an incredibly powerful and scary pirate for an entire village who didnât treat him fairly and DIDNT BELIEVE HIM#him going to a place he was Not Welcomed and constantly mistreated at only to tell a DYING girl incredibly fun stories and keep her company#cause he saw his mom go through the same thing as a kid ? -> i love him yall đ„ș#NAMI !!! thats Girlfriend with a capital G -> shes pretty greedy and a little bit (very) mean -> i love her sm i want her to rule my life#RO !! BIN !! the crush I have on that woman is honestly embarrassing -> she is THE wife -> do not be mistaken#i dont really see Luffy wanting a romantic relationship but thatâs not gonna stop me from reading fanfic about him ; p#i had to edit this and glue some tags together so they'd all fit -> thats why theres so many arrows -> I have Thoughts okay -> let me live#one piece#opla#one piece live action#straw hats
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Uuuugh this lady at ceramic that brought her son in and is like "oh well i brought him there to teach him boundaries" and MOTHERFUCKER YOU COULD HAVE DONE IT IN THE TWENTY YEARS YOU HAVE RAISED HIM. DO NOT DROP THE RESPONSABILITY ON ME (who is also autistic) AND THE HEAD CERAMIST JUST BECAUSE YOU SEE "OH WOMEN"
#like for fucks sake. i am younger than him. i should NOT be his babysitter#he is also like. p high functioning. he just has no boundaries and is annoying as fuck and asks inappropriate questions and acts#pretentious in the 'oh i am the only Lived Man here' way and he fucking keeps touching me and my shit#EVEN THOUGH I TOLD HIM SEVERAL TIMES TO. STOP. TOUCHING. ME.#'but why do you have something against me' well yeah but thats a direct consequence of breaking my pretty reasonable boundary#OF NOT WANTING STRANGERS TO TOUCH ME. jesus fucking christ#and all of this because his mother probably went 'eheh he is autistic boys will be boys let him be đ„°'#and only now realized how much of a fuckup that thinking is. but nooo she cant fix her shit herself she has to#pull other people in. ffs she also wants to sign him up to my scout group because#'well you know each other (we have known each other for five hours)'#also all this deliberate saying that she did that for him because well. again. he is p high functioning. she just#breathes down his neck and shelters him as fuck#god i wanna bang my head against a wall ceramic lessons were supposed to be a way to unwind myself not get angrier
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i am so over today i want to go home. and sleep for a week. fuckin ouch
#still thinking about that stupid fucking dog. oh my GOD bro#i don't feel bad at all like 1) don't let ur dog run around outside unattended 2) i CANNOT express enough that on top of#them allowing that. they live DIRECTLY beside a high school. teenagers drive on that road every day.#and your hazard of a dog apparently tries to dart across roads like a fucking squirrel#obviously i feel bad for the baby but like. dude. that could have gone so badly? for her or for me and my bf?#i now have further evidence that im a good driver that doesn't swerve. but i don't wanna fucking hit ur dog either.#so glad she's okay bc that would have been devastating for her owners and they were VERY sweet to us about it#alls well that ends well she's just a little road rashed because i clipped her at 30mph or so. poor thing got pingponged across the road#which is a million times better than going up and over her but still. auugh baby. don't leave ur fucking dogs unattended outside.#9pm at night.#she was Shockingly okay. like she wasn't limping or acting like she was in pain at all even tho she was scratched up. very happy about that#very spooked! very spooked baby she was not happy but she wasn't hurt. like it wouldn't have been my fault but#i would have felt TERRIBLE about it. like sorry i hit the baby but like NINE IN THE EVENING? OUTSIDE DOG? THAT BOLTS ACROSS ROADS?#also for reference she's a big girl which is good for her. a smaller dog would not have been okay.#but big dog vs small car. come on man
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pushing daisies kaishin au #1
shinichi was killed by aptx 4869 but for some reason kaito was in tropical land as well and passed by where shinichi's dead body was, touched him, and brought him back to life.
kaito is aware he can bring dead things back to life with one touch since he was a kid. heâs also aware that the second touch will kill it again. permanently.
he has most of his resurrection experiences with his doves and flowers
the thought that he could possibly resurrect a human did cross his mind but what's the use when the one person he wanted to bring back didn't even have a body left to touch
so sue him if he accidentally touches a dead body he previously thought was someone just passed out.
there's a noticeable red glow that shines on the stranger that has happened enough to his doves and flowers he revived before to know exactly what he has done.
shinichi wakes up disoriented but completely sure that the searing heat and the pain on his chest earlier should've killed him yet there he was, alive. with a splitting headache and a bad taste in his mouth, yes, but alive.
kaito dumbly opens with, "you're alive...oh FUCK, you were dead!"
shinichi who still canât see straight says, âwhich one is it, i canât tell.â
shinichi sits up and tries to steady himself on the wall but instead weakly flails his hand towards kaito.
"NO! DONâT TOUCH ME!"
âokay...iâm not sure if iâm dead or not but iâm pretty sure iâm not contagious.â
kaito puts on his KID gloves and pulls shinichi up who's still looking dazed and confused.
"listen, i know you're a little disoriented what with all th- shit! your head is bleeding. okay *deep breathes* come with me but do NOT touch me."
"you're the one holding my hand"
"not the UNCLOTHED parts of me"
"I wasn't planning to đ"
"OH MY GOD đ"
i still have 2 other variations of pushing daises kaishin au left ;)
#kaishin#kuroba kaito#kudou shinichi#dcmk#detective conan#dc prattles#im not adding the 'someone else dies when you let someone you revived live for more than a minute' rule because im gods weakest soldier lmao#but that's also a really great factor to think about if you want to go the super very angsty route#anyways this been in the drafts since forever cos i havent finished the other 2 but oh well here you go have this silly au#also also toichi 'died' and there's no body so kaito won't even be able to revive him one last time ;-;#i say 'died' cos i dont really know if this man is really dead or not lmao#ANYWAYS now shinichi needs to disappear#idk how but shinichi ends up staying with kaito and also finding out that he's kid#shinichi describes to kaito that the people who did that to him were 'men in black' and immediately kaito assumes it might be snake and co#im thinking maybe since agasa isn't there to talk some sense into him that shinichi would be like 'im gonna hunt them down as myself!'#and kaito is like BITCH YOU DON'T KNOW WHO YOU'RE DEALING WITH#kaito gets frustrated and ends up vaguely implying that he knows who tried to kill him#OFC BEFORE ALL THIS SHINICHI QUESTIONS KAITO ABOUT WHAT TF HAPPENED COS HE'S 99.9% SURE HE WAS DEAD lol#again since im gods weakest soldier and pandora is deus ex machina my beloved LOL#a way to revive shinichi properly is through pandora or maybe make kaito lose his power#IDK I JUST WANT THEM TO KISS AND MAKE OUT SO PANDORA DO YOUR IMMORTALITY THING IDC!!!!!!#THAT FUCKING PLASTIC WRAP KISS FROM THE ACTUAL SHOW WONT FLY WITH ME I NEED KAISHIN SUCKING FACE LMAOOO#anyways theres 2 more different pushing daises kaishin au in the draftsssss#they get angstier ayooo!!!
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So what is the temperature like in dressrosa. You can never tell with these bitches
#luffy again with the MUSHI MUSHI I AM MONKEY D LUFFY#MINGO????#luffy i love you i would love to speak to you on the phone you revolutionize the medium of communication#oh the i dont like bread..... he was so appaled by the crew he let his guard down and everything#sabaody again???? ENOUGH#what do you mean the man which i spoke about earlier??? WHOOOOOO#he has the mero mero fruit i knew it... i know its in there.....#mera mera* my bad...#god why this now..... ace#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 629#oleeee castañuelas en la mĂșsica de la isla oleeeee viva españa đȘđŠđȘđŠđȘđŠđđ#sanji fucking dumbass#and the opening shots of the city have GaudĂ like architecture... slay#omg now realising they might film here the live action..... (they wont they will use sets)#zoro wearing a suit.... amazing#i wonder how theyre going to do the cities in live action... bc weve only seen villages until now... but loguetown and arabasta are coming#why is this man wearing a wolverine mask#and who could this blind man be... maybe someone they are looking for?? naaah#didnt see it coming that donquijote doflamingo king of dressrosa would mean thay dressrosa is basically spain... good surprises#episode 630
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also if only the physical copy of how to disappear completely & never be found i first encountered & read a few years ago (sort of [roughly avg age ten] reader book, not any similarly titled How To) hadn't disappeared completely & not been found since, probably b/c i put it somewhere i intended to be For Safekeeping, which is also how my binder vanished....b/c it's one of those like. those book for late elementary/middle school readers when they just weave in this unrealism which makes for a delightful range & unpredicability? and with a cynical protagonist girl like off to the races like wow her mom is depressed asf & smoking? and it's about A Family History Secrets Mystery so blatantly a haunting that the inciting incident is basically introducing a haunted [family history secrets mystery] house. and spoilers don't matter like it's stemming from there being this missing uncle who grew up so in contrast to the Winsome Winning Sibling Who Does It All Right while seeing his own affiliation with rats that he tried to disappear completely & never be found which led to this Tragedy which led to this more unintended disappearance of his & he haunts this house & wants to be left alone & only goes out at night with this [ambiguous Is That A Giant Rat Or Weird Small Dog (protagonist affected by these family situations who expresses her preoccupation with an awareness of how fate can Strike and Get you with this interest with roving packs of killer chihuahuas. people think she's weird though she spontaneously befriends this other girl struck with this bolt from the blue & a bit weird / outcast & then Insightful who i wish was in it more)] & plays into the hauntedness danger like playing into the [something's Wrong with you then] until having to take yet more action where the urge to express the truth comes out more both b/c living that hidden is more threatened but also b/c now the niece children are more threatened as well. ft. a sort of preternatural blurring of time b/c of only being communicated with through this uncle via his comic pages (that he paints?) of dubiously accurate translations of irl events that are created so quickly it seems to verge on foresight, imagine like "hmm what's this painting. it's me standing in this room looking at this painting??? as someone ominous lurks in the shadows right behind me?" in both [now how could you know this & paint it really fast ahead of time] and [horror]
#i've had good times & thrills & things from other books i've read in the past xyz years & all#but i think this had the best in its final sections with [''uncle rat!''] like that was so incredibly unbelievably hype#and a further ending with a reconciliation that lets the Weirdo still be how they are but with more support lmao#i'm like yeah i want to live in the abandoned house only coming out at night only leaving secret homemade books with Some Truths#yeah i wanna exist in secret passageways & be unseen & uninteracted with & get by despite it all; sure#and disappear (mostly) and (not be found for a while until you have more motivations to help very parallel parties)#and have an affinity & affiliation with animals ppl are also like oh weird bad gross Never Want To See Them who are scroungily around#not implied to be a supernatural connection rather than just like. oh this person is a friend. from chihuahuas; rats; coatis....#also the How To & Never Be book's like core event to The Mystery is. truly so tragic lmao my god. it's really great#i'll just see about reading a digitization somewhere b/c i am Not gonna be able to find it#and the uncle is So mysterious that like. you don't get many Interactions w/him & are just going off of these emergent factors#the situations as they are as consequences of prior events; that he Is this withdrawn & communicating As some haunting monster etc#the way you technically don't also get to know like [what was bruno like prior] Directly W/Promised Accuracy and yet#the [metaphorically i mean] angle going on for everyone like perceiver truth teller Weird Odd One Out yeah yes#bit like [ :) (devastation)] verse talking abt him through a ''so your disabled relative'' lens (who also even w/magic was Just Existing)#here's a guy just existing like :) = my god this absolutely sicko who would even do something like that lmfao. god we've all been there#grappling with [tendencies] they couldn't understand....many things + just the way bruno approaches Speaking is like. okay.#my man's autistic. highest honor i can bestow. among other plausible ways of being disabled / nonconforming / abnormal#also the highest honor....rat affiliated disappeared uncle in How To? well he's really simply not possible ''yes he is Normal(tm)'' so
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i was doing sooooo well today and then i started thinking about the future and now i'm crying in bed and rewatching a comfort movie
#my friend asked me to live with her and i had to say no#even though i would absolutely love to#i just. i have no idea what my future is going to look like#and i can't commit to staying here when i'm applying to jobs all over the country#and (more likely) will not get any of those jobs and will have to move back home with my parents#i am applying to jobs here too so like. best case scenario is that i get one of those and we can move in together#but realistically i won't be able to stay here and i'd just have to let her down#so like. saying no at this point is the most sensible thing to do#but it fucking hurts#i can't stand this feeling of having no idea where my life is going#not even knowing where i'm going to be in two months is fucking killing me#idk man i just feel like i'm standing on the edge of a gaping chasm#and in a month i'll have to step forwards and i don't know if anything will be there to catch me :/#also i'm on my period so like. i am probably slightly overreacting but also oh my god i'm fucking terrified#đ§
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