#like my own lil commentary so that even if im not there to walk someone through looking at my art

[artskls]

in this the year of our lord and savior i accepted Star Trek into my heart

look at me struggle to remember how to draw and use a fucking pen

[adorethedistance]

Part 2: Concessions Duty - Alive!Luke Patterson x Reader

JATP masterlist

Warnings: Swearing I think ?

Words: 3458

Summary: Luke’s brilliant evening plan puts you in a very uncomfortable spot that not even your best friend can fully remedy.

A/n: Uhhhh are y’all okay??? Everyone who left commentary on part 1 was relating to this a lil too hard and I’m concerned. Also this isn’t thoroughly proofread but I needed to post it before I cut it down to nothingness so, sorry if it’s boring.

 @Lukepatterson: Hey hope u got home okay and ur garden is good im just gonna leave ya my number and you can text me on ur own time ?

Leave it to Luke to spell ‘you’ three different ways in the same sentence.

Even without all the details of the situation, he’s respecting boundaries that I hadn’t even clearly outlined. Of course, he would. Because he’s understanding and respectful and emotionally intelligent and perfect and… in love with Elisa.

The scene of me freaking out at Luke is playing on repeat in my mind all throughout the school day. I find it hard to focus but not in the way I had before the guitar session. Instead of staring at Luke with noticeable heart eyes, I stayed hyper-focused on my work and kept my head down. Naturally, I told Elisa every detail during lunch, and she promised that she wouldn’t ask any more questions once we were in the car on the way home. That promise was a massive relief, because for the first time that day, I’d have a moment of peace from my own mind and my friends’ inquisitive nature.

I puff out an exhausted exhale as I exit the central school building. I’m about to round the corner of shrubbery we meet by, before heading home each day, but abruptly stop after bumping into someone who didn’t side-step me as I anticipated them to. The force of impact nearly knocks me off my feet but they grab onto my arms to stabilize me. Looking up, I catch a glimpse of Luke’s bright orange beanie resting atop his mousy brown fringe.

“Y/n, I need your help.”

“You do?” So much for letting me text him on my own time.

“Yes. Can we meet somewhere to talk?”

“I mean-”

“How ‘bout I pick you up by five-thirty, and we can go to the Vinny’s on Sunset? I’ll buy you a sandwich as payment?”

“Oh… Okay, but we can’t take long. Elisa and I are seeing a movie at seven.”

“What movie?”

“Dune- the one with Timothee Chalamet and Zendaya.”

“That’s actually perfect!” Luke says more to himself than to me, with his typical beaming smile. Why is it ‘actually perfect’? Is it because you’re in love with Elisa and want to spend more time with her?

“Uh, okay.”

“And would you do me another huge favor?”

“Maybe.” Luke’s smile falters once more when he asks,

“Promise you won’t tell Elisa?” Because you don’t want her to think we’re going on a date? Because you’re in love with her? Got it.

“...Sure.” Luke’s smile doesn’t return with my immediate agreement.

“Pinky promise?”

“Are you nine?”

“Promise me, Y/n.” He seems desperate, pleading, almost; I pause for a moment. I really like Luke, but he really likes Elisa.

Coming to the realization that I love Elisa more than anything on this godforsaken plane of existence, I reluctantly nod ‘yes’ and entwine my pinky finger with his. His beaming smile returns to his face when I agree.

“You’re the best. I’ll pick you up at five-thirty. Be ready!” And with that, he’s disappeared into the sea of chattering Loz Feliz students. I shake my head lightly. Have I learned nothing?

Rounding the foliage where Elisa is waiting, she smiles upon seeing me and extends her elbow for us to link arms, her left in my right. I take her offer and we walk to her car together as she tells me how excited she is for our movie outing.

“Are we carpooling or meeting up?”

“I have to…” I do everything in my power not to panic, “-do a few things first so I’ll just meet you there.”

“Sounds good. Did you ever listen to that Shawn Mendes song I sent you?”

“No, I did not.”

__________________________

I’m dressed for my movie outing with Elisa, which entails comfortable jeans and my favorite t-shirt, with my school hoodie because AMC loves to blast the A/C for some reason. I’m arguably underdressed for the night out, but not for the old sub shop and seventy-six degree LA evening weather. I’m sitting on the couch, scrolling through my Instagram feed to kill time as I wait for luke. I told mom where I was going before the movie just in case Luke has a change of heart and decides to abduct me.

At five-thirty P.M. on the dot, I get a text from Luke saying he’s outside.

“I’m leaving now!” I call out to my mom who is in this house somewhere.

“You have everything? Phone, house key, money, a card they can use to identify your body?”

“Yes, ma’am. Love you!”

“Bye,” she hollers, one room over from the one where I was sitting.

Scurrying down the driveway, I hop into the passenger side of Luke’s black jeep wrangler.

“Hey.”

“Hi.” The conversation comes to a screeching halt due to how awkward I am in general. Thankfully, Luke decides to break the awkward silence. He’s always so collected in school, it’s intimidating.

“I want to thank you for agreeing to meet with me. I know we’re not exactly close but I feel like we could become close friends.”

“Yeah, close friends...” I just love this for me, I really do. “So, what did you need my help with?”

“Uhm, you and Elisa are best friends,” he begins strong.

“That we are.”

“Well, I need your help… with her. You know me and Reg are super close, too. Remember how I said he’s too dopey for his own good?” One thought after the other demonstrates how scatterbrained Luke’s stream of consciousness really is; a scowl spreads across my face the longer the conversation drags.

“What are you trying to say?”

“Reggie’s super friendly, so sometimes it’s hard to tell who he really likes, but...”

“I still don’t know what this has to do with me.”

“Reggie likes Elisa.”

“...Did he tell you that?” I ask after a long, shocked pause.

“Well, no, but based on the way he was acting at the mall the other day and how closed off he was about it afterward, it’s pretty clear he has a crush on Elisa.” About five million different questions race through my mind but of course, I just had to settle for the weirdest one.

“And you’re okay with that?” Luke takes his eyes off the road for a moment to look at me like I’m the most bizarre creature he’s ever seen.

“Uhhh, yeah, I guess?”

“You don’t mind if he likes her?”

“I mean, it’s not really my place to ‘mind’, right?” he asks with a sense of incredulity that makes me have a visceral doubt of everything I thought I knew.

“Well… I just thought…” I debate whether or not I should continue my thought, but the softening of Luke’s puzzled countenance makes me less inclined to continue. “Nothing.”

I find myself lost in thought once again as Luke pushes through the thick silence, and rambles on about sandwiches or something for the rest of the ride. Once he places the car in park, I move to get out of the car, but Luke stops me.

“Text me your order and I’ll bring it back to the car.”

“Why?”

“Our conversation stays confidential in the confines of the car.” I open my mouth to speak but can’t find the words I want to say, which Luke takes as a confirmation and disappears into the sandwich shop. After texting him my full order, I turn off my phone and find myself staring at  my hands. How did I end up in Luke Patterson’s car even though we’ve only had maybe five conversations at most? And he’s recruiting me to help pimp out Elisa because he thinks Reggie likes her?

It takes a mere ten minutes of my conflicting thoughts before Luke is sliding back into the driver’s seat with sandwich bags and bottled drinks in hand.

“So, I was thinking,” he says after taking a huge bite of his sandwich, “We could lure them both to the garage after practice, but then you said you’re seeing a movie tonight, and I think we could either stage running into each other and sitting close, or-” he takes another bite that he decides to talk through. “We could show up together, and sit in a specific way that forces them to sit together.”

“That’s pretty good, actually.”

“Thank you. So which do you think would work better?” I think for a moment, running through both scenarios and imagining Elisa’s reactions.

“I think it’d work better if we showed up together. If we just ran into each other she might say hi and then completely disregard you two.”

“Ouch. Are we that forgettable?”

“Your word choice, not mine.”

Luke rolls his eyes playfully, trying not to laugh at my response. I feel my phone buzz in my lap and look down to read the notification as I reach for my drink. Before I can grab my drink, I feel my hand lightly touch Luke’s, and I pull back like I’d been shocked by him. He simply sends me a lazy smile and reaches for his drink with his left hand, and hands me my bottle with his right. I accept the drink, slightly embarrassed by how I had responded.

“Elisa?” I say directly to myself before I read the message.

MESSAGES:

Elisa: Is it my turn to buy icees or yours? Y/n: Yours <3

“What did she say?”

“We’re just talking about concessions. It’s her turn to buy icees... maybe that’s how we force them to sit together: I send her to get concessions and then we can rush into the theater, and sit accordingly.”

“You’re a genius.”

“Oh, I wasn’t being ser-.”

“This is gonna be so good, Reg will just have to owe me one.”

“What does that mean?”

“I mean, we both like her.” I didn’t think that question had a wrong answer but I stand corrected.

“Why don’t you just ask him to confirm?”

“Nah, he gets weird about this kinda thing when he really likes someone.”

“But he’s such a flirt with everyone.”

“Exactly,” Luke takes a short swig of his coke, “So his naturally bold behavior becomes inverted with me when it’s really serious.”

“You say that like it’s an obvious logical progression.”

“You don’t think it’s logical?”

“I think it sounds like pseudo-logic. Wouldn’t he become even bolder with people he likes instead of shutting them out?” Luke shakes his head dismissively.

“I mean, from your perspective, yeah. But he’d shut me out and isolate himself in fear of judgment, and he’d be even bolder with Elisa because he wants to show interest.” My phone buzzes in my lap again.

“How did- whatever. Just hang on a sec.”

MESSAGES:

Elisa: Cool Elisa: I’m leaving now Y/n: I’m like ten min max from the theater

“We should get going.”

“What time is it?” Luke asks through one more mouthful of sandwich.

“Six fifteen.”

“Alright, well, I’m almost done.” He shoves the entire last two inches of his sandwich in his mouth at once and then puts the keys in the ignition. I watch the entire action in a stunned sort of silence. Did I really just witness that? I choose not to comment and just focus on finishing my own food in the duration of time it takes to get to the theater. Luckily Luke drives slow enough that I don’t have to choke it down like he just did.

“Any update on Reggie?” I ask once he’s put the car in park. Luke pulls his phone out of his pocket with a sigh and furrowed brows in concentration.

“He said he’s in this parking garage, A3.”

“Aren’t we in A3- AHHHH!” I scream when Reggie hits the passenger side window. The two of them erupt in laughter much to my dismay. Unbuckling my seat belt and sliding out of the car I fuss, “What if I had a condition and my heart gave out when you scared me?”

“Then I guess I’d have to resuscitate you with CPR.”

“Mouth to mouth is for breathing and lung issues, not heart issues. Chest compressions would be okay though.” A genuine smile appears on Reggie’s face and he nudges my shoulder in greeting. We begin walking into the mall from where we currently stand in the parking deck.

“Glad you could make it.”

“I mean you guys are kind of crashing our plans so…”

“Our?”

“Elisa and I are going to see Dune. You two are just stowaways.”

“Oh.” Oh? What does he mean oh?

“Y/N!”

“Elisa!” We run toward one another and she grasps my arms in her hands as she speaks.

“I thought we weren’t gonna be able to sit together but there’s like no one here for this showing apparently, also t-shirt and jeans? Really? Also, why are you with Luke in Reggie?” She asks the last question in a hushed voice so as to avoid either of them hearing our chat.

“It’s a long story. And leave my t-shirt and jeans alone!”

“What’s up, Elisa?” Luke asks once they’re back within conversation range.

“Did we all buy tickets online?”

“Yeah.”

“Cool. I’m excited to hang out but I don’t know how to feel about the movie,” Elisa confesses as we scan our QR code with the podium attendant.

“Well, maybe that’s because you haven’t seen it yet.”

“Aha ha ha,” she deadpans once the four of us have made it in. I look up at Luke to make sure he still remembers the plan. His nod of confirmation encourages me to speak up.

“Luke and I will go save seats since y’all are on concessions duty.”

“I can get your guys’ stuff if you all want to go sit down,” Reggie offers with a sweet smile. Of course, Reggie’s kindness is a blindspot in this plan. Of course, it would be.

“Are you sure?” Elisa asks cordially. He smiles and nods before saying,

“Yeah, Luke and I can handle it, why don’t you two go get seats.” Looking over at Luke once more, I gauge his reaction and though surprised, he sends me a look that he’s got this and I leave with only a little bit of hesitation. Opening her wallet, Elisa passes Luke a ten before linking her left arm in my right.

“Y/n wants a blue icee and I want red.” And with that, she begins pulling me toward the correct theater.

“So, why are you acting so strange?” She asks pointedly yet casually once we’re out of earshot. I feel my breath catch in my throat. Should I tell her? We never keep things from each other…

“You cannot say anything okay?”

“Uh, okay?”

I let out a sigh as I pulled open the door to the small theater for the two of us to enter on the left side. The metal of the door handle is cold against my skin that’s growing warmer and warmer with each moment I spend bracing myself for the delivery.

“Luke thinks Reggie has a crush on you and wanted my help to pimp you out, but I promise this was all his doing.” A brief silence settles between us.

Then, the laugh Elisa lets out is borderline humiliating. Why are you laughing, Elisa? I’m not laughing. Through small giggles here and there she chokes out,

“I have no trouble believing this was Luke’s idea.” Thank god. Walking a few stairs up, we opt for the empty row above the centermost one, and she leads me into the center of it. She knows I like being in the direct middle, so she opts for the seat one step right from the center. Being her best friend comes with all these little minor but conscious efforts, and being so mentally synched with one another somehow makes me feel worse about the entire situation.

“I didn’t invite them but regardless, there’s not much we can do about it now.”

“So what do you need me to do? Just sit next to him the entire movie?”

“Literally nothing else. We just have to hope they come in from the right side and then walk up the row so he’s next to you.”

“Well, that’s on them.”

“But you have to pretend you have no idea what’s going on though.”

“My theatre training has prepared me for this moment,” she jokes as she opens her purse and offers me some warm vanilla sugar bath and body sanitizer. “Wait, you said Luke thinks Reggie likes me? He doesn’t know?”

“I asked him in the car, and he said something about how he was acting at the mall the other day.”

“He didn’t seem any different?”

“And he said Reggie owed him one because…” I look at Elisa who stares at me in anticipation, “Because he said they both like you.” Her expression resembles one that can only be described as pity-shock.

“Oh, Y/n-” Elisa cuts herself off when she sees Luke and Reggie round the corner of the entrance halls, past my head. They’re not on the right side, but Luke thinks quickly on his feet and once they make it up the stairs to where we’re sitting, he gestures for Reggie to step in first. Moving past the empty seats on the end Reggie comes to the chair on my left and plops down next to me. My mouth drops a little bit and I look up at Luke. He laughs awkwardly and lowers his voice,

“Reg, you don’t wanna move all the way down?”

“I’m good,” he smiles, handing Elisa’s drink to Luke and gesturing for him to move past the three of us. I turn to look at Elisa and she’s just as confused as I am. Reluctantly at first, Luke then decides to move all the way into the row and takes the chair to the right of Elisa. We fucked up, we fuck up real bad.

“Have you read the Dune series?” Reggie asks as he opens the paper around his straw, poking it past the lid, into a dark cola of some sort.

“Uh, no. I haven’t.”

“Me neither.”

“I think Elisa did though. Didn’t you read the books?”

“Just the first one. There’s like twenty of them and-”

“That’s cool. So, are you a big sci-fi kind of person, Y/n?”

“I don’t know if I’d consider myself a huge sci-fi person. Are you?” When I ask the question Reggie launches into a rather endearing info-dump about all things sci-fi, including his fascination with the Star Wars series and his contempt for JarJar. I nod along, only half listening as I pick up on Luke and Elisa’s conversation.

“You look really good tonight.”

“As opposed to during the school day when I look like a 1600s Parisian orphan?”

“No, you look good all the time, but tonight especially.”

“Thanks. I wish I had Y/n’s superpower of being able to wear anything and still looking put together.”

“You’re naturally beautiful though, so-”

“But sci-fi, in general, is just such a large genre and there are so many other movies that I haven’t seen yet, so I might not be the best judge. Did you like the Star Wars movies?” Reggie’s voice cuts back through.

“Some of them,” I answer his question, praying that the conversation would just end there. The fates are on my side as the lights dim and the volume increases for the trailers and pre-show announcements. Picking up my ice-cold, translucent plastic cup, I take a long sip of my icee. This is gonna be a long night.

About a quarter of the way into the movie, Elisa nudges my foot with hers. I look at her to ask what’s going on but don’t need to once I clock Luke’s arm resting across the back of her chair. She looks at me with a straight face but I can see a glimmer of hesitation in her eyes. I just shrug and give her this look of it is what it is. I play at being careless, but Luke’s interest in Elisa is getting to me, and she can tell it’s getting to me. Scooching closer, she lays her head on my right shoulder, ignoring Luke fully. I lay my head on hers, resting my left hand on the armrest of my chair, hovering near my half-finished icee for whenever I’m thirsty again.

The placement was a poor choice because Reggie has read the position as an invitation and slipped his hand into mine. Whispering at a volume that only Elisa can hear, I think to myself once again: this might as well happen.

***

A/N: Y’all are all the pretty best friends in my mind so that’s gotta count for something right?

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[thaliatimsh]

if its alright! wrt the 'directors commentary' asks, honestly anything /Anything/ for 'imperfect life', oof :0

ONE DVD COMMENTARY TRACK COMING UP BECAUSE HELL YES you may ask me about this one. GOD I HOPE THIS READ MORE WORKS OR I’M GONNA DIE OF SHAME. For those of you who’ve missed my pleas: imperfect life is on AO3 here. read it or i cry.

Okay I reblogged that post with not much of an idea about what I’d actually have to say but imperfect life is at least at the forefront of my mind lol

First things first I’d had an idea for a fic about Hodgson At Mutineer Camp that i wanted to write floating around my head for a while that was. I suppose centred on the sheer Betrayal of GIBSON YOU CHANGED MY SHEETS FOR THREE YEARS? WHAT THE FUCK? And as I did more research abt both of them and found that they’d been on ships together & that it was likely that either Hodgson or Peglar got Gibson his job? Fuckin wrote itself, especially seeing as in show-canon Bridgens is the Peglar Papers Steward.

Anyway I’ve said this before to everyone who’ll listen but I will say it again: I think Hodgson is misinterpreted & underappreciated by a lot of the fandom &  it makes me SAD and also ANGRY.

Like: I once saw someone say that he was “mad about Jopson’s promotion, so fuck that guy”? NO. He MISSED Jopson’s promotion! He would have gotten a KICK out of Jopson’s promotion! You BASTARDS! Hickey picks on him SPECIFICALLY because he’s out of the loop! I’ll kill you!

Ham jokes? I’m coming to your HOUSE. man’s as ‘obsessed with ham’ as any self-respecting naval officer starving to death in the arctic

Then there’s the “Who is this?” being taken as some kind of a-okay for cannibalism instead of a guy who saw someone shot dead just last night and then spent the morning burying said dead'un being literally scared out of his mind by a greasy lil rat with a knife and Tozer blocking the tent flap with a fuckign RIFLE. DAMN YOU ALL.

Do I think he’s a complete FOOL? YES. Do I think he ever had any kind of malicious intent? NO. Okay anyway I’m gonna talk a bit more abt that later so let me go back to the next part lmao

So Part 2 of the George Henry Hodgson Saga was then to figure out why he had to go stay with his aunts - this ALSO came pretty straight to me, for whatever reason. I think it might have started off as just his parents pleasure jaunt, but as I was thinking about later scenes with Jimmy Fitzjas I came up with a thing abt - Im not gonna find the reference now but in the battersby book there’s a bit abt William Coningham going to take the waters at bath or whatever for Weak Lungs which OBVIOUSLY made me think of my favourite comsumptive Of All Time Fryderyk Franciszek Chopin & the countryside retreats he & his sister Emilia took for their symptoms as teenagers (and unforch Emilia died of tuberculosis aged just 14… rip)

ANYWAY I had some VAGUE idea that George n Fitz could have some kind of Passing Discussion abt Brothers With Shite Lungs that obviously never came to fruition but. Lol whatever, it gave me a reason for why My Parents Sent Me To Stay With Two Aunts.

UH. Right, so then like the third leg for this to stand on was that Fitzjames and Hodgson had ALSO served together & Fitzjames had: 1. recommended Hodgson to the expedition 2: mentioned him TWICE in his Voyage of the Cornwallis 3. Mentioned him in his letters to the Coninghams from disko bay (one of the only Terrors mentioned - there’s a passage abt Fitzjames going to look at the icebergs with Fairholme and Hodgson. ANYWAY; show-canon Hodgson has a sense of humour and I really think he tried to make the men see him as approachable, at least compared to the other Terror officers and that reminds me a lot of how the historical Fitzjames seemed from mystery man! Seeing as they KNew each other I think it’s not unfair to suggest that he’s trying to emulate an older and more successful officer! He wants to succeed! He wants to have fun and to be loved by The Men!

My friend said something very Prescient abt this to me recently which was that THere are a lot of similarities between Hodgson & Fitzjames and it’s kinda like. Fitzjames is the Ideal, and Hodgson just misses the mark. He’s the average man’s James Fitzjames and because he doesn’t know about Fitzjames’ surplus of political luck that only makes him feel more of a failure. Fitzjames gets a bullet that gets him compared to Lord Nelson, Hodgson gets in the gazette as ‘slightly wounded’. Even their monologues! Fitzjames gives a soul-baring confessional he’s never talked about before to someone he respects and he gets! Affirmation! Gets told that he’s a good man and brave and loved! Hodgson gives a soul-baring confessional he’s never talked about before to someone he respects and gets! FUCK ALL! A MAN SITS IN SILENCE! He has to fucking! Walk out alone after all of that! FUCK!!!

Okay so this whole fic just sat in my brain for probably like six months until I literally sat up in bed because I worked out the last piece of the puzzle

(Drac has an epiphany, July 4th 2019, colourised)

Which was, of course, 'Hodgson went to boarding school’ - which is what all of this ends up hanging off of! Boarding school culture! The younger years are servants for the upper years, who in turn are responsible for the younger students!  including discipline etc so like… if a younger year brought something up to their “fag-master” it’d be sorted by them and maybe prefects, without getting schoolmasters etc involved.

WHICH is why George doesn’t tell the captains about what happens to Neptune, because he’s out here trying to be a good fag master and get it sorted himself! His own fag master fucked him over by getting the schoolmasters involved when they oughtn’t have been! He’s not about to be Archibald Harrington-Thurlowe! He’s not okaying the mutiny! He’s trying to minimise the damage *on his own* like a fuckin idiot!

IF YOU CALL HODGSON A MUTINEER I’LL COME TO YOUR HOUSE N MAKE YOU GET LOST AND ABANDONED AND END UP EATING YOUR BOOT BEFORE GETTING 'RESCUED’ BY THE SAME GREASY RAT WHO LITERALLY MURDERED YOUR PAL AND TRICKED YOU INTO SLAUGHTERING CIVILIANS! I’LL. I’M NOT HAPPY.

I’m just basically so upset about 'one perfect moment in a whole imperfect life’ being a childhood memory that he was taught to see as so shameful to compare it to cannibalism under duress? FUCK.

A whole imperfect life in GENERAL has me fucked up! He just kept trying and kept just missing what he was aiming for! I mean. That’s relateable. Not one part of a life turning out as you expected or planned? ME!!!! Your achievements add up to nothing and no matter how hard you try you end up a footnote! FUCK offfff

I had some difficulty with the religious angle for a while because. hm. okay. To start with the religious angle IN-CANON is just.... not correct. Catholics don't let you drink the blood. The church of england DOES... and that's what most of these men ARE. The Papist Speech as a whole was cobbled together from one of Crozier's ~Visions~ in the book - and it's important in that case that Crozier is IRISH... Poor analogy, writers! Putting aside that he was also... SEVEN... maybe he was an unusually tall seven-year old, people assumed he'd had first communion/been baptised & no one wanted to cause a fuss... I mean the guy has lead poisoning so it's fair to mis-remember but... YEAH. Messy, which is a shame because it's a powerful monologue very well-delivered, shame it's complete fucking nonsense 😂 (not to be like... SMH Americans but... smh Americans...)

Anyway, as I wrote it? that’s me. I wasn’t raised religious - my dad’s an old-school small-town Continental Catholic, my mum’s agnostic but raised CofE (but *her* dad was raised Jewish (also continental) during WW2), I think they couldn’t be fucked with the drama, I never went to church or anything and as a kid when we had prayers at school assembly I didn’t know what I was doing!!!! I felt bad because I couldn’t fathom God as a concept!!! I still can’t! But as a kid it’s like. I don’t understand and on account of that I’m afraid I’m going to Hell. tfw you write what you know.

ALSO there were definitely a couple of times where I wrote G H Hodgson as played by B W Wooster and I will not be taking constructive criticism on that.

ANYWAY My brain has kindof turned itself off now but I guess this is just. My own personal backstory to this jhsgfjhs. I actually probably have about 400x more to say but it’s fully evaporated. thank you SO MUCH for asking me though. i die.

[andtheworldstoppedspinning]

Supernatural Season 15 episode 2 LIVE WATCH w/ Commentary - SPOILERS

Warning: although I am a psychology major please don’t take my commentary seriously or as Meta... I’m not as knowledgeable in the show as Id like to be but that being said, I do analyze ever detail of scenes to my own potential

Alright, enjoy hah

-Seriously what is it with the written women on the show, like why are they so bland and dumb to dangerous situations

- Why are they portraying Sam as shy? Like those 2 seconds were awkward this dude is not shy about speaking to crowds

- I wanna know wtf Belphagor did in hell like he says he was a “paper pusher” but he seems to be feared so....?

- “I was a good soldier” - Belphagor ... huh where have we heard that before

- These empty neighborhood scenes keep giving me Walking Dead vibes

- I find it interesting that Cas wanting to tell the family of the dead girl is tied to the fact that he knew something was wrong with Jack and didn’t “tell” Dean or Sam... AND NOW that he wants to tell these people info, Sam is like no we can’t it’s for the good of the people like??

- Wtf is Ketch doing back like I knew he was coming back but I didn’t really like the whole men of letters storyline so ://///

- Ewwwwww ketch and Rowena???? Why????????

- So when ketch and Rowena eye fuck it’s seen as sexual tension but when CAS AND DEAN DO IT NOOOO THEYRE JUST FRIENDSSSS

- See Belphagor is wanted dead .... whyyyyyy???

- YIKES AMARA IS BACK IM FUCKING DONE (okay at least they didn’t give her that awful makeup)

- “You said you’d keep us safe” targeted at Cas is like a knife in my chest... like ... the relation to him keeping Jack safe and even more so, HUMANITY FUCK WHY

- Dean/Cas scene:

- First off, that mild tension at the beginning made me sad

- See the main reason Dean is mad at Cas is not because he didn’t tell them about Jack, I think it’s just because he needs someone to blame.

- Also Dean is just - mad- like in general

- Interesting, see Deans also mad because he doesn’t see Cas mad at God just sad from losing Jack

- BUT CAS RETALIATES : “You DONT think I’m mad? After what he TOOK from me? AFTER WHAT HE DID TO JACK?”

- But alas, Cas still has hope. “That doesn’t mean it was ALL a lie”

- Dean feels helpless, after all, his life as a hunter was purposeful. He was prideful of it. Yet, Chucks actions only demean everything Dean values in himself. Castiel on the other hand, has chosen humanity and defied the expected of him. Perhaps that’s why we have these two obvious viewpoint

- “Nothing about our lives is real... maybe you can pretend like maybe we actually had a choice... I can’t”

- “You asked, what about all of this is real? We are.”

- I just want to take a moment and analyze this a bit because I saw it kinda taking off on twitter. Now I’m a Destiel fan 100% but honestly this scene wasn’t like a Destiel revelation in the romantic sense... as in “we as an item are real”. Instead I think Cas is trying to show Dean that Deans actions, Deans life is and always been his own. He is real. Castiel is real. And with that, they have both made decisions they chose to make. (“Chuck might’ve known the obstacles but WE ran our course”) I don’t know but that what I think it meant- which to me is more meaningful.

- OMG KEVIN WTF ?!!!!!!!

- Y’ALL WHAT HOLD ON IMMA WATXH THIS WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING BC IM SAD AND SHOOK WTF

- Ok I’m back and imma be honest,second half of this ep was a lil lack lustering

- Total Rate: 5/10

- Conclusion: I mean they’re in the same boat they were in in episode 1... ketch’s character only introduced a potential new character (demon) and that’s that.

- Stars of the Episode go to Rowena and Kevin

- Alright see you next week :)

Season 15 Ep 1 live rant

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BNHA AU Ideas : Happy Famlies

Also on AO3!

TL;DR: This AU is exactly what is sounds like. Everyone gets a happy family. 

Feat. Dadmight, and his sons Izuku and Tenko, Big Bro Dabi with his little bro, Shinson and his Dadzawa.

allmight n inko end up dating and tenko n izu are brothers

dabi and tenko are third year ua herocourse students when izu and the others join

tenko is a soft sunshine boy cause izu rubbed off on him a lot

dabi wants to be an underground hero so he'll never be like his father

todoroki takes the entrance exam so inasa and hitoshi are recommendation students

izuku kills the exam because he starts ua being able to use full cowl 5%, breaking allmights record with a whopping 130 points

because consider dabi, shouto, izu, tenko and hitoshi all singing karaoke together, dabi has a tambourine and tenko is violently shaking maracas

izuku and inko dont know toshi is allmight, but tenko and toshi are terrible liars

the first time toshi meets izuku its just tenko presenting him saying "you gotta give it to him dad"

izu is only 5 n still broken up about having no quirk, toshi says he might just be a late bloomer while tenko nods

toshi sneaks izuku his quirk when he turns 7, izuku wakes up n accidentally punches a hole in the ceiling, he n katsuki make up cause izuku has a bomb ass quirk even if it does break his bones

he and inko just think he was a late bloomer cause his quirk was so strong. tenko and toshi highfive

seven year old izuku walking back into his house like mom i broke both my arms again :(((

katsuki actually helps him work out the flick thing

"it breaks my arms!" "then use less you dumb fuck!" "oh yeah actually thank you"

they’re so used to shouting criticisms while sparring that they still do it after they enter ua

when they spar at the sports festival mic can’t get a word of commentary in bc it’s just a constant slew of

“kACCHAN I TOLD U TO STOP LEADING WITH UR RIGHT”

“SHIITY DEKU IF U LAND LIKE THAT UR GONNA BREAK UR LEGS”

dabi n tenko the third years can hear them in their own stadium. tenko is cheering softly, dabi has a heart attack when he sees the walls of ice

izu has a massive handshapped scar on his wrist from when tenko saved him by pulling him out of the way of a car

he doesnt mind it but it makes tenko sad so he wears a lil cuff over it

tenko snuck in to watch the entrance exam he n toshinori are cheering quietly, the other teachers just sigh

izuku broke allmights record for points scored in the entrance exam but hes still scared he failed

tenko wants to s c r e a m

USJ ANGST TIME

starts as normal students enter, villains arrive kurogiri has an ear piece and is talking with afo directly, some of the 8 prefects goons are there too

hitoshi used his quirk on kurogiri to find out who they are, but is targeted after that and the villains know not to respond

the students are scattered, its izu/tsuyu and hitoshi. they do the whirlpool thing w/o the sitcking, hitoshi instructs them to tread water and not to move

hitoshi is nearing quirk overuse, tsuyu is shaken, izu is pretty much ok

aizawa is fighting the villains as normal, the nomu arrives

hitoshi tries to mind control the nomu, kurogiri attempts to direct one of the nomus punches to hitoshi, aizawa cancels the portal, severing one of the nomus arms. its grows back, aizawa is beaten

izuku charges forward, fighting the nomu with a higher percentage of full cowl than he can safely use but they are evenly matched

todoroki shows up, cant help because the two are moving so fast he cant aim his quirk and not hit mido

he and hitoshi keep kurogiri busy

before allmight arrives, dabi and tenko do, after seeing tenya running towards the school

izuku can barely move, over using his quirk to the point that he has countless micro fractures and the nomu has landed a few punches, and he took others to protect aizawa

tenko yells at dabi to grab izuku, kurogiri mentions that his master killed tenkos family and hes pissed

he cant stand up to the nomu but shouto makes an opening and he and dabi try to damage it as best they can, shouto has to hold izuku down to stop him from joining the fight again

allmight arrives, quickly dispatches the nomu, turns on Kurogiri

so tenko, allmight and a shaky izu are all facing down kurogiri while afo is trying to convince him to keep fighting

reinforcements arrive and kuro nopes out

as soon as the portal closes, izuku collapses and tenko n allmight rush over, shouto is grabbing onto dabi and hitoshi is trying to get aizawa to respond

hitoshi, crying, has to ask dabi to pick up his dad because his arms are shaking to bad hes scared he might drop him

tenko has no gloves anymore and he cant touch izuku and hes just lost, shouto wraps an arm around him and hitoshi n they cry as dabi takes aizawa and allmight takes izuku to recovery girl

aizawa n izu in the same hospital, hitoshi tells him what izuku did n aizawa fucking, breaks out of bed like a jackass to call him a problem child then fucking limps back

less depressingly, happy families dabi and tenko do "get help" from Thor Ragnarok

"gET heLP hEs BUrnINg UP"

aizawa : "kids that movie is like 240 years old"

izuku : "so... you know it then?"

aizawa: "fuck"

nighteye and gran torino are izuku and tenko's terrible uncles

he stars school at 5%, internships is 10%, camp gets him up to 15% so hes around 25% at the eri rescue

ochako being a terrible influence on kirishima

“uraraka i like katsuki. what do”

“push it down”

“what”

“pUSH UR FEELINGS Down”

also happy families shouto actually interns w nighteye n izu because dabi said he was an ass so no death thanks

one person asks izuku what his quirk is

he pauses

"aaaaaaaaaa"

"hm"

"my mum has minor levitation and my dad is quirkless"

izuku pauses again.

"wait"

"wait im not toshis biologically"

"waiT Who WAs My FirST Dad?"

shouto thinks inko has an affair w allmight then married his secretary but izuku met toshinori through tenko so he just lays down on the floor and screams

shouto’s brain is going to explode one day

consider tenko and izuku looking soft and pure but you turn around and suddenly you dont have a wallet and your food is gone

happy family izuku and kastuki were eachothers first kiss but in a dumb ass way

izuku was like "i need to ruin my frist kiss so the next one will be better"

"wow me too, you seem like the worlds worst option!"

"cool!"

they both almost gagged afterwards

tenko walked in on them violently scrubbing their lips

“wow katsuki who was ur first kiss”

bakugou stares off fondly into the distance

“deku :))”

"it was fucking terrible" wistful sigh

izuku, blushing happily: “id never do it again”

izuku: "yeah i scrubbed my face until it bleed so none of my skin would be tainted"

first week of 1a, someone asking izuku if he and katsuki are/were dating so izuku asks ochako to launch him into the sun

no matter how many people they date everyone always insists that katsuki and izuku are dating each other

izuku is actually dating shouto but no one believes him for some reason

dabi and hitoshi find it so funny

please consider dabi being the frontrunner of these rumours, like these random first years will come up to izuku while he’s eating lunch with shouto and they’ll be in t e a r s

“wHY ARE YOU CHEATING ON BAKUGOU SENPAI?”

izuku starts crying

shouto, totally deadpan: "i thought our love was real, izu-chan"

izuku wheezes

they have a katsudeku fan club and shouto’s the mascot

dabi is in it. hes a full hero at this point but nezu gave him a pass so he could attend

they have weekly meetings

it’s dabi, shouto, kirishima and like twenty first year girls from every class

shouto, in a deadpan voice: “good morning girls today i saw katsuki and izuku sharing bread. discuss”

kirishima is one of the most popular fanartists

tenko loves the meme but looking at his brother and bakugo “dating” makes him deeply upset so he breaks in to decay all the art on the walls once a week

he crowds shouto in tears one day

“how are you okay with your boyfriend and your classmate being the subjects of such horrid art”

shouto, deadpan: “it’s just a prank bro”

izuku falls asleep in the common room and toshi carries him back to his room and has to call tenko to unlock the door for him. tenko was in his own dorm on the other side of school.

he sprinted

iida the good boy finishes his essays the week before and hands them in a day early

izuku, the hot mess, procrastinates by training until he cant feel his arms and doing any other subject work than the stuff due, stays up till 4am to finish his essay and doesnt go back to sleep cause its time for his morning run

they get the same grades

no one knows izuku is a hot mess

Dabi is like izuku but he doesnt study hes just depressed

Tenko finishes his the day before but he gets izuku to read it over

shouto does his essays in class

aizawa wants to be mad but he remembers him mic n tensei distracting the teachers for as long as they can to violently finish their essays

“katsuki why didn’t you finish your essay”

“i was making oreos from scratch sensei”

"fair, give me some and you can hand in it wednesday"

he bribes every single teacher into giving him extensions and no one can refuse him bc his extra spicy curry is to die for. he maybe sometimes he helps deku get an extension too but if he does that’s no one else’s business but his

izuku acts so soft w the others "oh isnt kacchans food so good? "

but he climbs into through katsukis window

"bitch whats the recipe"

izuku banging on katsuki s window at five in the morning: “kacchan give me ur fucking curry recipe you promised it to me three years ago”

bakugos hands shake as he tries to call aizawa

“i see u calling sensei kacchan, put the phone down and no one gets hurt”

he has one of katsukis limited editing all might figurines in his hand

“give me the recipe and all might lives katsuki. it doesn’t have to end this way”

shouji, stressed and sleep deprived walks into bakugou’s room just to see izuku menacingly trying to force his way in while bakugou is crying

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WANTED SHIP PLOTS. 

   lately i have been thinking about very specific plots for my muses and they aren’t exactly ones that i can just reblog into my wishlist or whatever but they are very unique to my girls. so i’ve decided to compile all of those plots here, in hopes that someone will see this list and want to do one, two or five. if you want to do any of the plots under the cut with my girlies, please just im me and we can go from there!! these are basically my ultimate ship plots for them that i will actually kill a man for.

**all lesbian plots are highly selective and will only continue if we plot things out extensively and i feel comfortable with roleplaying with you**

PARK AERI. 25. HETEROSEXUAL. MODEL/ACTRESS.

the classic arranged marriage/engagement plot. maybe the son of her father’s business partner? they decide it will be a good business deal for them (and ofc aeri’s mother would agree cause it will make aeri even more of a hot topic) and like maybe the guy needs to fix his image so they’re thrown together. the feeling doesn’t have to be mutual but aeri will probably hate him and make it known but she will also like warm up to him. 

beauty and the bodyguard aka he’s her bodyguard and maybe she gets drunk one night and comes on to him but he just takes her home. but then gets cocky the next day and teases her about it and that will probably build up tension for aeri so they end up sleeping together. but then it happens again and again and it becomes a cycle until they’re left with figuring out what the hell they’re gonna do esp when photos are released by the press of the two of them being cozy. 

aeri is lowkey a big nerd so maybe she goes to the one bookstore frequently and has kinda developed a friendship with the owner/worker and they’re like the only person in the world that kind of sees her being herself and idk maybe he asks her on a date and shes like *blushes* 

literally any plot where she falls in love with a bad boy like maybe he’s a killer or a gang member but like she gets turned on by it because she’s literally the worst

LEE EUNJIN. 21. BISEXUAL. ASPIRING ACTRESS.

forever wanting roommate plots for her because it’s just funny and your muse will get a kick out of seeing her in her natural habitat failing to Function

tbh i wouldn’t mind something where she ends up dating a single parent? like eunjin is literally a child herself and if she really likes the person she will want to make it work even if it means putting on a diaper backwards or something 

DO BORA. 19. QUESTIONING. MED STUDENT.

her first gay experience?? yes please?? like bora is the purest baby ever and like having a crush on a girl will be the softest thing ever and it would be so sweet if she had a girlfriend who kinda takes her under her wing and shows her the gay way. she will be the most flustered lil angel 

i really want maybe a ghost/bora plot or something? she’s a clairvoyant and can see ghosts and she’s also like a magnet for supernatural things and has been all her life so it would be interesting for her to like idk fall in love with a ghost

literally any supernatural creature x bora ship makes me excited. 

your muse works at the hospital she is interning at as an entertainer in the childrens ward or something and they cross paths often and their first unofficial date is them eating vending machine food at 3am while she’s on a 14 hour shift and then it turns to them sneaking into the janitors closet and her turning to them when she loses her first patient etc. 

CHA MUHYEON. 24. HETEROSEXUAL. GOVERNMENT ASSASSIN/AGENT.

they both work for the government and are assigned to do an undercover mission where they need to be husband and wife in a neighbourhood to gather intel or something and they basically end up actually being a married couple and falling in love

a life as we know it plot where they went on a blind date set up by their friends who happen to be a couple years before and it was shit, they end up despising each other. flash forward and that friend couple are married and have a baby that they are the god parents of. those friends die in a crash and they’re left to raise their child. 

childhood best friend who is like her bro that she gets fake engaged to just to shut her parents up and to make it seem like she has a normal life and it’s like awkward for them to kiss and stuff but ofc they end up falling in love.

a bad boy criminal who finesses her and she falls in love with him when working his case and now theres a major conflict of interest because oh no he’s really bad. 

THEODORA. 26. BISEXUAL. MECHANIC. 

roommates to lovers please and thank you. like they would have to be a bro kind of person for her to get along with and like imagine if they are both pretty broke so they only have a studio apartment to share with one bed. 

younger!teddy moves in across the street for the summer with her family. falls in love with your muse for the summer but they need to part ways, only for her to be bit by a werewolf on the day she was supposed to leave. she needs to stay in town to be part of her pack so she ends up still living across the street and your muse is like ?? and she explains it. basically human significant other x an adjusting werewolf pls. 

PARK NARI. 26. HETEROSEXUAL. EX IDOL/SONGWRITER.

maybe a boy that she grew up playing baseball with since that was pretty much her childhood and they reunite years later after she debuted and also fell from the spotlight as an idol idk?

a fake engagement plot between her and a work colleague since her mother is always pressuring her to be a wife and have kids so she decides to take matters into her own hands and fakes it to get her off her back. fails to realize she needs to actually pretend to be in love with this person and things get awkward at work. 

maybe an old trainee/idol friend who she hasn’t seen since she debuted years ago gets signed to her company and walks into her office one day to record a demo for a song that she was working on. maybe the song was written about them. maybe she was in love with them??

MOON OCTAVIA. 22. QUESTIONING. ART STUDENT.

childhood best friends/neighbours who wave grown up together and have been inseparable since birth? like they have basically been dating all their lives just without the kissing and stuff: girlfriends have always been jealous of her or threatened even though everyone in town has accepted they are like this. going into college she gets into witchcraft and puts a love spell on him after realizing she has a case of Feelings. plot twist: the spell doesn’t work on them because they are already in love with her. also their parents are best friends too and provide funny commentary and her dad is actually surprised they end up together even tho the other parents have been rooting for them.

basically she’s the school’s big old virgin and gets made fun of a lot for it and maybe there’s a jock who makes a bet with his buddies where they are like “i bet u won’t be able to take her v card” so he starts dating her as a bet. but falls in love with her. lots of angst when she finds out. 

okay but also something like buffy the vampire slayer where she’s like willow aka the witch and your muse is like xander aka the human friend and idk i have some ideas (may have lowkey written a fanfiction that was a the 100 x btvs cross over and that is what octavia is based off of)

another first gay experience would be great for this lil bean. she’s another one who would get flustered and shy over having a crush on a girl and stuff.

TEACHER X STUDENT PLOT TOO!! 

ANDROMEDA LEE. 24. BISEXUAL. CRIMINAL. 

an inmate x guard relationship like in s1 of orange is the new black but she doesn’t end up pregnant with a baby (or maybe she does who knows) and maybe they end up living happily ever after once she gets out. 

someone she does shady stuff with who has kinda always had her back even though they have gotten in trouble doing things together but still. 

good boy/girl bad girl but they find out that at heart she is actually a good girl.