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Welp, trying to get back into the swing of things after a VERY protracted hiatus, especially with Dracula Season almost upon us.
So, long story short, last September, my dad got diagnosed with Stage 3 bladder cancer. He's gone through several surgeries and chemo and has been responding well to everything. The doctors are very happy with his progress, so with him being on the mend, I think I'm ready to get back to blogging.
#real life#cancer cw#cancer tw#there was other real life stuff as well#like my job being very demanding#but thats also improved greatly so finally have energy to devote myself to other things!#expect to see a wider variety of topics#im deep into the classical side of tumblr right now so thats probably gonna get some love
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The leftism/anticapitalism leaving people's bodies the zeptosecond you imply that disabled people who aren't "productive" still matter in society and need to be treated like intrinsic equals who have a place in this world:
#disability#disability advocacy#described images#image description in alt#ableism#ableism tw#my full-time job is my disability and you're lucky that i am still 'productive' as-is#your boss doesn't care that you think you're superior for being hired by them. they're still going to treat you like profit machines#it astounds me how people will capitulate for oppression because they place their intrinsic value in their ability to be at the top...#...or at least 'at the top' compared to others. it's the same impulse that makes people think their cisgender status makes them superior...#...you are placing your worth into systems which not only oppress others but offer you no true sense of worth...#...ESPECIALLY if you're also being exploited (even if just a bit)...#...you have a job sure but... do you actually get treated like a human being? are you actually paid? are you actually safe?...#...if the answer to any of those questions and more is 'no' then why do you place your value in capitalistic production. genuinely.#and why would you DEMAND disabled people to have the same exploitation you experience. why do you DEMAND productivity if you are proletaria#yes being a leftist and anticapitalist are linked but. some people still internalize capitalism without questioning it#being a leftist is about challenging that rather than assuming you're correct i think#also scientists were very silly when describing time that's like. less than a millisecond i think
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A small question for the employees running the blog; what's it like to work at Meeple, or even the HQ specifically if you happen to be there? Any cool workplace stories?
We do in fact work at Meeple HQ, at the MeCloud! Unfortunately, Meeple policies prohibit me from discussing anything about what happens within the workplace in detail, but I get plenty of desk space and I enjoy the presence of my coworkers!
#inanimate insanity#meeple inc#question received#okay so one time. this karen came in you know the type right? shed inserted her sim card in wrong and refused to believe that was the issue#a BUNCH of different people tried to talk to her but she kept demanding the CEO or at least a manager#im not Exactly a manager. but for the sake of the issue when it rolled around for my turn with her i pretended to be for the sake of#getting this issue over with. i asked her with the cheeriest voice possible what the issue is and she spewed some nonsense abt the card#and the phone being completely faulty because it wasnt taking it. i calmly opened the back#took out the sim card#and flipped it over VERY OBVIOUSLY only to put it back in like Everyone Had Been Telling Her#she left WITHOUT A WORD it was satisfying#anyway normally this place is like super boring#I'm new so I don't have anything interesting to share. I saw Steve Cobs in the hallway once. But other than that it's just been boring work#This blog is the most interesting part of the job for me.
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So I just recently quit a job.
It was relatively chill, with pretty good pay for the amount of work involved. But see, before that job, I've scheduled my own work hours for every job I've ever had. Since I worked mainly translation, well, clients don't care when you're sat down in front of the computer working, as long as they get things by deadline.
The fact that this job had specific working hours, during which I was expected to have my butt sat at the computer, was driving me insane.
It gave me the kind of low-level but constant anxiety that is the bane of my existence. It's the kind of anxiety where I cannot disconnect, I cannot relax, because I know in X hours I need to be at the job, and I hated it so much I, an extremely non-confrontational people pleaser, scrapped together the gumption to quit.
Why am I telling you all of this. You wonder. Well. Because for years now I have wondered, on and off, if maybe, perhaps, I'm like, a little bit autistic? I feel insane, in that I don't relate to a lot of the struggles autistic people often mention, but I feel just weird enough, just a-bit-to-the-left enough that I don't feel neurotypical, and I don't know what's going on there.
And well, one of the struggles I never connected to is "need for routine" because hum, no, actually, I've never really felt the need for a lot of routine. But oh? What's this? Now there's an expectation for how I gotta use my time, so my schedule is out of my control? And it's making me itch out of my fucking skin? How curious??
All to say, yeah, I don't know what's going on under the hood. But thank God for flexible working hours.
#I JUST DON'T KNOW#I was 100% fine with demands on my time at school and college. I don't know. Did I just get unused to it?#is it because the job itself was anxiety-inducing in other ways?#or because it was much more hours than I ever had to dedicate to college and school?#and do I feel like a big ol' whiner for being so anxious about a remote job with relatively low workload? yes.#my second theory aside from a touch of the 'tism is that my anxiety just knocked my neurons about some.#it isn't very bad nowadays#but it was bad growing up.
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This may sound rude, but why do you dress so formally? I like the style but it’s rather unusable considering how people usually dress. I like it though, it’s nice. That’s all.
"Oh... I was aiming for a business-casual look, since that's the accepted dress code for most of the places I work at, but perhaps I'm leaning too strongly towards the 'business' side."
#rachel#castle of nations#very good question anon!#for that I'm gonna give you some insight!#her outfit being shown as mostly formal has actually been a deliberate choice on my part#like obviously when the job demands it#she doesn't wear a formal outfit for every occasion (like when she's working at the animal shelter)#but what's interesting to note is that she'll gravitate towards this level of formal for most things#even for something as small as picking up some eggs from the grocery store#thank you for the question!#anon#dynart#all#blog#asks
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i have a question.
do y’all think it’s justified to quit a job with no notice, period?
& with that: do you think it’s justified to quite a job with no notice, when you know you have coworkers who will undoubtedly suffer the consequences?
#i hate jobs & i hate capitalism as much as the rest of us#but that being said. when you leave with no notice do you not consider the impact#on yr fellow workers#like. even a week of notice would be enough to at least try to find coverage for shifts or whatever#idk man. i know my job is very demanding & stressful sometimes#& i don’t blame people for leaving. but it’s fucked up to me to quit on the spot#especially when nothing like.. happened. no one was mean to you. you didn’t get in trouble#the day ran smoothly. i just don’t get why you would fuck over other people like that#does that make me a shill lol#my post
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i don't want to put my uninformed foot in my mouth or get involved with the Discourse but i've been seeing the two extremes of reactions to the korean low birth rates issue (on tumblr and twitter both) and i'm just kind of like. look. i feel like "low birth rates (in many countries but especially japan and korea as part of this conversation) are more broadly the result of capitalism/a culture of overwhelming overwork that makes social relationships and having families incredibly inaccessible to young people" and "low birth rates are very much a part of the current conversation about misogyny and social expectations for women in korea especially in the context of reproduction as 'unpaid labor' for women" are statements that can both be true
#laughs awkwardly#gender#especially considering the ways patriarchal expectations and capitalism very much intersect in terms of quality of life for women#ex. women being expected to have kids / raise kids / do all the housework and cooking in a relationship#while ALSO existing in a society where women (even married women) have to work demanding jobs to deal with the high cost of living#AND women are systemically discriminated against in terms of pay / job availability / work environment and harassment#all of these things add up. these conversations are not opposing points of view. you know?#and also like. not super comfortable with how TERFs are discussed in terms of non-white cultures#TERFism / radfems as a MOVEMENT (and a cult) is very much rooted in white supremacy / ideals of womanhood#again. multiple things can be true at the same time. yes i do see (from my perspective involved in taiwanese social media)#some east asian feminists engage in transphobia in ways that approach radfem rhetoric ('women are victims of men' 'men are predators'#type generalized sentiments which you can imagine gains a lot of traction among women traumatized by patriarchy)#but movement-wise i don't think it's fair (or just in good faith) to generalize radical feminists from non-white countries#to straight up TERFs. which again. rooted in white supremacy. keep feeling like i have to remind people it doesn't make sense#for asians to be white supremacists and that not all oppression on earth stems directly from white people. you weirdos#'what are you talking about' in east asia the type of feminist statements called 'radical' are stuff like.#women shouldn't have to wear make up every time they go outside. women shouldn't be expected to do all housework.#should men pay for women on dates. debates that i think in the states we kind of take for granted as stuff settled years ago#even if some feminists might be transphobic it's not necessarily Transphobia As Core Tenets Of The Movement. does anyone get the difference#basically what i'm saying is. wow these tags got long. maybe let's not apply uniform standards of 'correct language and values'#to non-white people and attack them when as all movements they are fluid and influenced by the people living in it#TERF-style transphobia is not the predestined course for them. maybe it's more productive to have open discussions about transphobia#to work towards inclusivity and solidarity in these movements than to prescribe White Internet Morality to them#and declare that they're evil when they are still very much having conversations that need to be had. thanks i think that's all#essentially. i find that 'how dare a non-american movement not have morally pristine vocabulary priorities and membership#as determined by white leftists' to be in itself kinda a racist attitude
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#the very petty side of me thinks it’s rlly rlly rlly funny#that this one coworker apparently put up a big stink abt not getting the leadership opportunities she ‘’deserves’’ partially bc of her title#and now I (who technically* have a title below hers) am being handed an equivalent role to the one she demanded#despite the fact that I very much did not ask for it (I am in fact fairly nervous about it)#*we’re a pretty flat org and I’ve been consistently like outperforming my JD since I started#(which like. I don’t recommend BUT if I’m going to do it anyway#I’d rather do it at a job that pays well & where leadership is v invested in me)#so titles don’t actually mean a lot but they mean a lot to this coworker#and she’s been really annoying abt all year tbh#personal
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#saw a psychiatrist for the very first time earlier this week#it was like.. fine? idk.. is just weird#i feel like i can never say what i want to say how i want to say it and i feel like i forget so much and get so fawn-response at the doctor#idkkkk#he told me i have BPD which like okay i mean no surprise to me i have known i for the criteria for 10 years now lol#but for some reason that being the first thing he landed on annoyed me lol#especially after he told me i don’t meet criteria for PTSD which fine i guess.. it’s wayy more CPTSD which isn’t a diagnosis here sooooo#anyways anyways#i hope in the future maybe i have the courage to bring up autism but like.. eh.#in this first appt he already seemed confused by why i was struggling so much to take care of myself but can maintain#my high-demand technical ‘smart person’ job#to which i said that is the *only* thing i can maintain at the detriment to everything else in my life#anywaysssss#i just cant tell if i were to bring up autism if he would be the type to “’i have a masters degree and maintain a job and AFAB so no’#‘it’s just the BPD’#as if bpd and complex trauma and autism don’t all intensely overlap and hold hands lol#ANYWAYS#first ate i guess is at least i have a psychiatrist now#and m proud of myself for that and for going
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#found a moment of peace in my batshit insane week#the cards have not lied to me ever…they often say what i already know and am avoiding#i’m already tired of this couch surfing thing. and i’m only just getting started#lmfao like what even is this#and my summer job that i thought was gonna be so chill is actually very stressful and demanding#i’m making some questionable (at best) choices#but that always part of it#anyways#clouds#hills#i do love being in the hill country#it’s beautiful#sky#tarot#trying to maintain my#spirituality#whatever it is idk#undefined#i guess#worshipper of queerness and mother nature
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#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️#my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off#and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there#and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault#ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here??#like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties#and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!!#4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm#going to a doc;#my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point#i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫#i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh???#and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep#and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything#man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted#than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once#sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲#tbd
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Boss made me cry at work.
I worked temporarily for them twice last year and this time I was hired for a six month contract with a chance at renewal but it's a part-time contract because that's all they had (which was fine with me because both my health and caring for my disabled dad doesn't really allow for full-time right now).
But since I began in May, they already had me work a full-time week twice already, this week I was at my limit, the only thing keeping me sane was knowing it was just one week. Then they asked me to do full-time next week too and yesterday I said no.
Today my boss calls me into the office and goes "i worked so hard to re-hire you because you were an available person but now you don't want to work extra hours? What's up with that? Why did we even hire you then? We need it, summer is a very complicated time for us." And she kept insisting and insisting that I do full-time for July and August, whenever I tried to say I couldn't she would snoop, wanting to know why and what I was doing if not working, and she keeps pressuring and saying it was extra money as if that was the only thing that matters.
So basically my boss blackmailed me and heavily implied that I have to bend my schedule to their will or they'll either fire me or not renew my contract. Plus she was just rude.
So now I'm stuck working full time for two months and I don't have the health for it, I don't know how I'm going to survive this summer, I really, really don't.
#rach rambles#sorry I'm just being a big baby#but i feel taken advantage of#and i really don't know how I'm going to survive this#my levels of fatigue are so high that when i work 8 hours (plus those 2 stupid lunch hours where I'm stuck there)...#...i can't do anything else after#it uses up all my spoons and then some#i end up unable to cook or clean or write or read or even feed myself#much less take care of my father#I'm always exhausted and always wanting to cry my eyes out#Plus my job is just very demanding socially and that is very hard for me#sorry I'm whining#i know i sound like a spoiled entitled little brat#ps. they've also been hiding our chairs and not allowing us to sit on the job#which by law in my country is illegal#and just adds to my exhaustion#plus even before the chair hiding they shamed is for sitting
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#sometimes u just gotta have a cringe fail weekend. is what i tell myself bc i let the fact that i forgot to check my new#email completely obliterate me. also i haven't been sleeping enough. also just the normal thoughts in my head#by which i mean the part of my brain that demands consequences for inattention by means of suffering. devine punishment.#which is irrational and annoying but knowing that doesnt seem to help. so ive just been laying here in the hopes i come unspooled and start#to disintegrate. which is annoying bc ive got stuff to do#specifically bc i am supposed to b a TA this semester. which is what i figured but also feared#so. thats gonna b a lot. tho not as much as my old school bc they dont make TAs do literally everything here apparently#but. itll b a lot. and also i have to finish signing up for classes. bc i didnt do that back in April by my brain was melting. also i have#to keep doing my job and dealing with my data. ugh. well. being a TA isnt so bad. i do like to help ppl learn even if im not very good at it#like. i struggle with thr talking to ppl part. like the transition of ny thoughts to something thst makes sense#oh well. hope i end up teaching something im not too unqualified for. i could do soils. Ecology. uhhh. maybe intro bio but i never even took#university level biology. i just skipped upper level courses. that's probably it. anything else would b a lotta faking it#ugh. im tired. i should go to sleep at 9pm. thr sun hasbt even set and i should sleep#tomorrow i have to get my shit together. but also i wanna email my new professor like hey bro like what do u want me to do???#like how do i start in this lab? when do we start talking. like just not to b pushy but whats thr procedure?#i like Structure but also its like weeks until the semester starts so we got time. im just a lil nuts#jesus. its gonna b an interesting semester. hopefully fun but uh it is sorta like taking a boat out when u can see big ominous clouds#like im sure ill b fine but also i might get dumped over into a watery grave. i just. i have a lot of papers to write#and its gonna b hard to b a student on top of that. partly bc what im gonna b doing now is almost completely unrelated#which is probably y ppl stick to the same track they stsrt on. that awkward moment when ppl ask u if ur gonna keep working with bi0crust#and ur like uhhhh no fuck that actually the work ive done in the past 4 years makes me hate myself✌️#so we r back at square 1. well not 1 bc its sorta related but its a pretty big reset#itll b fine once things start. its just thr anticipation that kills me#unrelated
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lol I’ve been so physically exhausted that all I’ve been able to do once I’ve been home was just... lying down and constantly rotating stretching different parts of my body in different ways bc my muscles are just in that worn out that I can’t get comfortable in any way and only find temporary relief without contorting myself in weird ways for short periods of time.
It’s just a bit annoying bc I wanted to use my limited free time tonight to draw before I had to bed again for another long shift tomorrow, but alas I am apparently not allowed to have that luxury and instead am only allowed to experience unyielding exhaustion.
#brambling#lol sorry just whining a lot and complaining into the tumblr void#lol have you ever felt so tired and exhausted that the only way to describe it is 'very loud'?#I hate having long shifts in general; but even more so on fridays bc it's the most tired day of the week for me due to days of compounding-#tiredness from the rest of my other shifts#I know I just have a job as a silly barista or whatever; but it is a physically and socially demanding job and it's easy to forget how much#also not being able to really enjoy leisurely activities between shifts is so mentally and emotionally frustrating#all I can picture is like; the Sims 'needs' meters and my 'fun' meter is currently in the red; along with my 'energy' meter#also I work so early every morning (which is fine bc I get the erst of the day to myself) so my time during the rest of the day when I get-#home is very limited and every minute is precious bc I just hate the dayjob capitalism grind
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btw i'd be a great manager if you even care
#post inspired by watching crash course in romance with mom yesterday#and also by me actually kind of having a degree in that 😶#which i haven't put to use so far 😶 ANYWAY#we were talking about how mr ji's job is actually kinda nice#and that something like this would probably fit me#like okay he's an assistant but that's close to being a manager#and what is this job if not babysitting an adult#making schedules organising meetings keeping deadlines in check driving somebody around and making sure they eat something#and i LOVE organising time when it's not MY time aldkdjjsjdjfj (me having issues with time management has nothing to do with this shhh)#like yeah yeah i know it's more complicated than that and that the job is actually very demanding but BUT#maybe i'd be good at it#okay anyway i do not dream of labour i just think it could be a fun job :( that maybe wouldn't be too terrible#as long as i'd be working for someone nice ofc#can you tell what topic is bothering me recently lol#here's your daily nonsense post from me#agnes talking
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sorry men it turns out i might not be a wanted man
#and i will keep waking up everyday#I'm upset that I'll never see my parents again because my stupid brother says he didn't sexually assault me#now i know they want to keep their favourite investment living in their house. they like him. he's got a good job. he went to uni.#there isn't enough space in their family for a man who sexually assaulted his sister and the man who used to be that sister.#a community or sphere which support abusers will drive away victims by enacting further abuse on them#the house i grew up in was a sphere like that#and now i cut them all off. they don't get to meet my friends. i can never send a cool weird song to my dad again.#I'm never going to watch the sunrise from my old bedroom window ever again#I'll never see the cats again. the last time they saw me they were scared. i wish i could've kissed them once more#it wasn't like i spoke to my family very often after i moved out and before all this. i kept a lot of it to myself.#i have a life without them. a nice life i think. i don't regret standing up for myself and talking about the assault#and I'm doing nothing wrong by telling people what a massive piece of shit my brother is and for demanding answers from him#I lost a lot of things in the process#i was sorting through all my life possessions for two weeks straight and barely kept any of it#like including school books from childhood. most of them binned. if i don't need it I'm not leaving it for my mum to faun over#she hates me. hates hates. her eyes are mean#she hates me as if I'm some daughter who cheated by being a man.#but I'm out now. it's over. my life begins. i hope i don't get sick. i worry about money.#i was gonna say i worry about being cringe in a city where reputation matters but like. IM NOT POSTING IRL DRAMA ON REDDIT. I THINK I'M OK
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