#like listen I love the fandoms I’m currently in don’t get me wrong

[unsurebazookacore]

between the new hunger games movie and the pjo tv series coming out does anyone else feel like they’re 13 and in middle school transcending their school library checkout limits again or is it just me

[finleycannotdraw]

can u recommend some bands? i think i like ur music taste and i am terrible at finding music

ty :)

of COURSE I can <3 you’ve probably heard of some of these, but maybe there’ll be some you haven’t! I don’t know what you already like, so… here we go :)

Hozier. Yeah this was always going to be first on the list I’m currently listening to basically nothing else! He’s an Irish folk/soul/blues/etc idk musician who uses a lot of religious and mythological themes in his lyrics and has a lot of songs that include social justice commentary.

The Amazing Devil is a folk rock band with an incredibly unique sound. Their songs are incredibly emotional and have an awesome fantasy vibe going on—plus there’s two singers, and they often sing independently from each other, which is something you don’t see often!

Good Morning Bedlam is a bluegrass band that I’ve gotten into recently! They’re sort of like… a mix of the amazing devil and the crane wives?

The Crane Wives, while we’re at it, and

The Oh Hellos. they’re fairly similar and I don’t have a ton to say about their stylistic differences, but they’re all definitely worth checking out!

Florence & The Machine. Most people have heard of them but I always like to recommend them anyway

Alec Benjamin, if you’re into softer indie music! He has a lot of different styles of lyrics, but his voice is consistent, so he’s great to listen to if you’re looking for that sort of variety.

Chxrlotte doesn’t have a lot of music out, but I’m a big fan of the music she has released, including the ones about Good Omens! The others are more angsty which I love too.

The Family Crest is an orchestral indie pop rock band, which blows my mind. I can’t believe orchestra isn’t a more utilized tool in popular lyrical music, because they do it so well.

Good Kid is actually my brother’s favorite band, and I love them too. They’re also indie rock, but they have a very distinctive style and are easy to get into! Plus they haven’t released a shit ton of songs like some other artists, so it isn’t overwhelming to explore their discography.

Jonatha Brooke is an artist I only know about because my mom liked her music a lot in the 90s, but she’s got a super nice voice and has some awesomely relatable lyrics. I especially recommend her album Ten Cent Wings!

Midlake is a super melodic folk rock band. I’m obsessed with their album The Courage of Others, which has a melancholy vibe that’s super easy to get lost in.

Palaye Royale is harder rock than anyone else on the list so far, but they’ve got an awesome style. Unique voice and definitely darker themes in their lyrics.

Tears for Fears is a pop rock band that I love because my dad does. (My parents are musicians—I trust their music taste).

Toad the Wet Sprocket got their name from Monty Python, but PLEASE go listen to the Architect of the Ruin EP. You will not regret it. Also the song Something’s Always Wrong is like… entrenched in my very being.

Elbow is a band that I never see in fandom circles, but they’re definitely not obscure. Check out their album Little Fictions! They’re kind of like Midlake.

Will Wood ranges from chaotic and fun (The Normal Album) to absolutely soul-crushing (in case I make it)! Sometimes even both at the same time!

(I would’ve also put Paramore, Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, and other rock/pop punk bands I like on there, but I assumed you already know them.) (If you were looking for harder rock or metal, let me know, because this list is not that.)

If you want more genre-specific recs or even album/song recs, don’t hesitate to ask!! Music is the fuel of my soul.

[hilsonamore]

HI LOVIES

here’s a small little get to know me, since everybody’s doing it and i don’t want to feel left out-😔

BE KIND, ANY SORT OF BIGOT IN NOT WELCOME IN THIS BLOG!!!

Note: This is my personal blog full of HOUSE MD content, other hyperfixations and also personal rants. Mainly House Md stuff, though😵‍💫

I’m Vi, but you’re welcome to call me whatever you feel like suits me best✨ and my pronouns are she/her, they/them, but i prefer the latter :)

i’m a chaotic sapphic on the ace spectrum with a thing for unattainable old men i guess🤓

I BELIEVE IN ACE WORLD DOMINATION!!!

I love science and psychology and i want to become a doctor (and yes, i partially blame house for it, but it’s also because i have a mind-numbing curiosity that medicine manages to satisfy).

I love books and movies that rip my heart out, i love obsessing over shows and hyperfixating on one thing for a really long time, i draw and write poetry, i constantly play the same 3 songs on the guitar because i can’t bother to learn anything else, i hate listening to my music with other people because it just feels wrong, i bake cupcakes and cry a lot and i study hard and cry some more, i’m responsible but also pretty gullible, too sensitive for my own good and i value my alone time.

I’m an INFJ, overshare a lot, pretty perfectionistic but also prone to burn-out

currently obsessed with: preparing for my uni entrance exams in june to get into med school😔

Top 3 Favourite shows (in that order):

I) House M.D

II) Gilmore Girls

III) Friends

Top 3 Favourite movies:

I) Dead poets society

II) But i’m a cheerleader

III) Pride and Prejudice

Top 3 Favourite books:

I) A little life

II) Six of Crows Duology

III) Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe

Top 3 favourite songs:

I) punisher (copycat killer version) - Phoebe bridgers

II) good luck, babe! - chappell roan

III) cool about it - boygenius

Fandoms: House Md, Dead poets society, Stranger things, pjo , pride and prejudice, the owl house, a little life, harry potter + multiple others that i can’t remember right now

I love dark colours, the forest after the effects of rain, the smell of books and snuffed-out candles, Midnight comfort, soft lights and picture-covered walls, melancholic emotions and soulful music, the feeling of having achieved something, laying down and listening to my heartbeats, my best friend’s fingers playing with my hair, deep talks

I feel like an old, tired but also knowledge-thirsty soul in a world that values results over the pure enjoyment of the present moment (who am i to talk, i’m literally the biggest overthinker-)

Anyway, i’m tired, silly, have a lot to say, get morally outraged way too easily and dream bigger than what’s healthy (according to professionals, aka everyone)

DREAM BIG FOLKS, don’t let this mess of a world steal this private and sickeningly beautiful part of yourselves

Anyhoooo i adore anyone who’s reading this, don’t shy away from saying hi!!! Promise i don’t bite (well-)

[myfairkatiecat]

Keefe (for bingo)

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OK I CONTRADICTED MYSELF A LOT SO LET ME EXPLAIN

this is my favorite character of all time in any media, right up there with Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars, Nicholas & Nathaniel Benedict from TMBS (showverse) and Lancelot from bbc Merlin. Actually probably slightly above all those characters which is SAYING SOMETHING.

Is he comic relief? Yes.

Would I be his friend? Yes.

Has he done nothing wrong? Yes!! No he’s done many things wrong he’s so precious to me ok but the law he’s broken the law I love him so much he literally betrayed his friends I will always love him he has sooo much to answer for I’m glad Sophie forgives him after she chews him out she should chew him out longer but I suppose Fitz does that for her He has so many apologies to make but like he’s also done nothing wrong look I’m aware of my blorbo’s mistakes he’s honestly not as problematic as the tumblr fandom makes him out to be sometimes, and I MEAN that, but he’s also not as perfect and sweet as the eleven year olds on Wattpad make him out to be. He’s a LOT okay, you can’t analyze Keefe Sencen without the everything

Are my opinions unpopular? Yep! The other keefe girlies hate my opinions bc I acknowledge his character flaws and the Keefe haters hate my opinions bc I acknowledge the fact that he’s NOT an antagonist and actually has a lot of really good traits, and that’s NOT me making excuses. Also what are y’all on about saying he doesn’t get held accountable for his actions, like yeah Sophie forgives him pretty fast but not until she’s yelled at him, and the rest of his friends do NOT bounce back to normal (Fitz)

Do I relate to him? Yes, unfortunately. I have Fitz’s trauma and Keefe’s coping mechanisms (they aren’t good coping mechanisms but they’re literally mine)

Is the fandom wrong about him? Yes, the Keefe fans and Keefe haters alike. Don’t flatten this guy there’s SO MUCH THERE. (I’m not talking about my Keefe-negative mutuals—if I follow you, you didn’t flatten his character, I am very serious about Keefe Sencen)

Do I want to adopt him? YES I mean I’m literally his age but if I was old enough to adopt him I totally would, get that kid away from Cassius Sencen and kill Gisela Sencen. Honestly tho I’d settle for an Elwin adoption, dad!Elwin rocks

Did he need less screen time? *sighs in resigned Keefe fan* probably…objectively…yes…

Did canon do him dirty? I debated filling in this one. Because Shannon has made him a SUPER complex character. But also I swear if the ending of stellarlune isn’t the last time he steals something from Sophie to carry out a reckless plan he told no one about, I’ll riot. Don’t give him forward character progress and then erase it! If it’s a momentary relapse of bad habits I’ll allow it but I’m starting to want Shannon to let Keefe grow from all of that. Cause she keeps letting him get better—and then slip back. (Which isn’t unrealistic and I can work with!! I love him! But SHANNON PLEASE)

Do I want to study him? I want to get a full on PhD in this guy’s character arc actually

Did he need more screen time? Heh. Uh. Objectively NO. But also this amount of page time has allowed us to learn so much about his character complexities?? Like I’m torn between missing the other characters and eating up his character arc. Currently I’m gonna hope book 10 expands the other characters more bc I need more of them and 9.5 can feed my Keefe brain

Would I hit him with a golf cart? Listen my friend made this bingo game (hi Bods, if you’re reading this) and I know exactly what the actual intention was behind this square. But like. I want to slightly run into him with a golf cart. Just enough to slightly injure him and make him rethink his life choices (affectionate) (actually in the words of@phtalogreenpoison “I’d like to microwave Keefe. Just shortly”)

Does he need therapy? OH MY GOSH YES. I have thought this about other characters but SPECIFICALLY KEEFE HOLY GUACAMOLE GET THAT GUY THERAPY

Is he insane? Define insane. But I love him anyway (what is going on in his head half the time 😭)

Am I rotating him in my head 24/7? WELL YOU’VE READ THE POST WHAT DO YOU THINK

Do I have so many headcanons? Oh you guys don’t know the half of it. I have. So. Many. SO MANY

Is he wasted potential? Uhhhh I have too many thoughts on this to actually put it on this post. Genuinely love what Shannon’s doing with his character, like I said. But at some point she needs to. Address the things. Or he just becomes a guy with all these complications introduced that just kinda sit there and continue to change and grow and Keefe is the complex character to end all complex characters but Shannon you need to DO SOMETHING WITH THE MASTERPIECE OF A CHARACTER THAT YOU HAVE CREATED

The amount of bingos holy moly

Anyway

Keefe means a lot to me

Thanks for the ask anon!

[ghostoffuturespast]

hey ghostie i was gna get specific for the ask game but I wanna know *all* of it now, the acronyms, the full names, all of em! are they for cyberpunk or other fandoms? no matter how much there is to know, i wanna know! talking about an idea helps a lot, i speak from experience! thanks for the mention, ill get on the wip game soon, too! ❤️

WIP Game Here

Thank you for the ask! I appreciate it :) They are all Cyberpunk 2077 things lol. I’ve largely been a lurker in other fandoms until this one, and this is the first one that finally compelled me to make stuff and that I’ve had the bravery to share. Don’t have many snippets at the moment, all of what I have so far is already out there. Since you asked for all of them though, I shall dish and give you a bit of a peak behind the curtain on how all this got started…

(I’m sorry, this got very rambly.)

And def tag me when you do yours! I will come find you and your wips! 🧡

SIG - So It Goes

(The title is based off the radio song from the game that you can listen to on Morro Rock. Never officially released and credited to the fictional band Fingers and the Outlaws in the game. Officially sung by Ryan Kattner, the front singer of the band Man Man.)

SIG is my current V/River conspiracy theory long fic that I’m working on, and the project is coming up on its two year anniversary. It’s also my first fic. I’m hoping to wrap it up this spring so I can move on to other creative endeavors. There are a lot of art projects, fandom and non-fandom related, that I’ve held off on because of this and I miss those hobbies. I also feel like I’ve been missing out a lot in the writing corner of the fandom too because a lot of new writers have popped up on the scene since I started (back when there was still a monopoly on the tag, but that’s a different story) and everyone else seems to be having fun reading everyone else’s fics, except me… Reading’s complicated for me right now. Writing this had a lot of ups and downs, but overall I’ve loved telling this story, learned a lot, and I’m really proud of it!

I think most people get into fic writing for the ships, the romance, the smut, the processing of internalized trauma, a more satisfactory ending, weird niche interests… And don’t get me wrong there’s a lot of appeal with all that, and definitely those aspects in my own work. But this whole thing got started because of conspiracy theories. I fucking love mysteries and puzzles, so after playing the sun ending and then I spotting Mr. Blue Eyes on the balcony during the conclusion of Dream On, I just about lost my damn mind. I went down the rabbit hole, spent hours reading shards and messages in the game, combed reddit theory posts, and started picking up on all the hints and foreshadowing of something larger looming throughout the game.

I initially didn’t have any answers when I made the decision to start this fic (fuck, high probability I still don’t), it was largely me brainstorming and trying to figure out what kind of story I wanted to write. Seeing if I could even piece things together. But in the process of thinking all that through, I came up with this little theory. I thought it was pretty mind blowing at the time (still think it is) but it’s been my little secret since I got here and I’m very anxious to finally share it.

Most people probably would have just written a theory post and been done with it, but I decided to turn mine into a fan fic lol. Which may or not have been a mistake, we’ll see. This is either gonna be game changing or everyone is going to think it’s dumb and I’m gonna be wearing a dunce cap for the next fifty years.

River Ward. The other half of my reason for writing this fic. I actually wasn’t sure if I liked him at first, it took me a while to warm up to him. But the more I got to know him, the more I started to like him. The more he grew on me. He got hotter over time. Plus, I’ve got a fondness for detective characters and unusual coats, so I should’ve seen it coming.

River’s gotten a lot of flak from this fandom. People claim he’s boring. He’s a cop, so acab. Being unemployed and living in a trailer park with your sister, niece, and nephews isn’t a particularly redeeming quality. I don’t agree with most of those statements, but I do agree with the folks who do appreciate his character, that in terms of development, he absolutely got shafted in the game. This fic is also an attempt to rectify that.

For as underdeveloped as his story arc was, there’s a lot of nuance to his character that I think gets glossed over by the game and most people. We didn’t get much, but out of what we did get, it’s been interesting trying to piece a story together that’s in line with what we got. And I did mention earlier that I like puzzles.

I’ve noticed that a lot of folks tend to lean very hard into the cop aspect of his character, but as far as I’m concerned, River Ward doesn’t give a shit about the law. Conducting an off the record investigation, intimidating a confidential informant, illegally obtaining evidence, breaking into a restricted lab, committing arson for your ex so she can pass a medical exam, conducting another investigation after being suspended; those are not the actions of a man who holds the letter of the law above all else. Those are the actions of man who is determined to get to the bottom of things, and protect people, all while navigating a system that is anything but equitable or fair. They are the actions of a man who is willing to go above and beyond for the people he cares about, even to his own detriment. His own safety. For River Ward, it was never about the law, it’s about justice. And pursuing that sometimes involves breaking the rules.

River is also Pomo. Which is something that was only added in subsequent patches, heavily glossed over in the game, and is only disclosed if you choose to actually romance him. But he’s Indigenous. Native American. And yet he still made a conscious decision to join the NCPD. Given the historical participation by law enforcement and government institutions in North America, and around the world, in the cultural erasure and mass genocide of entire nations, tribes, and communities of people. And given the current state of issues regarding law and judicial enforcement on tribal lands, I think River's character is a rather poignant reflection. Of wanting to good, of wanting the world to be better, but being confined in systems that simply won't allow that. There's a billion other little details I could ramble on about, but his character had the capacity to walk a very fine line of complexities which the game never really did justice to.

Diversity and representation in media are important to me, and I want this fic to reflect that. Being bi-racial, I didn’t get very much of it growing up, so if I can provide representation, even in some small capacity, I think it’s better than nothing. And while I don’t know if I’m achieving that, well, shit if I’m not trying.

I wouldn’t say this story was really meant to be original, but rather to fill in the gaps on the story we got and for me to practice writing. Practice telling a story. CP2077 is a violent game set in a violent world. And I somehow managed to start writing a story that accidentally ended up being a love letter to aikido. (Much to my chagrin. It’s everywhere. In everything. I cannot escape it.) Aikido is a martial art that translates “to the way of peace” or “the path of harmony.” Yet again, another study in dichotomies. How can a martial art, an art form designed to inflict violence, be peaceful? Aikido is as much of a martial art as it is a philosophy. We train to practice and learn that philosophy.

One of the major themes I’m exploring in this fic series is the nature of violence. What it is, the forms it takes, how cyclical it is, that it is a relationship - violence requires your participation. So the question ends up being: how do you break cycles of violence when you live in a world where you are beholden to it? V and River are very much two characters that are caught up in cycles of violence. Will they find peace? I don’t know, but maybe they can find out together.

From The Top

(This one isn’t named after a song. I just decided to start from the beginning.)

From The Top is the VP project I started up last spring where I’ve been taking storyboard style photos of all the main missions. Plus whatever else I feel like. I take all of my photos on PS5 in vanilla photomode and randomly started snapping pictures just because. I did landscape photos, shared a few. Got a bit of nice feedback from people who cared to look and then started branching out. I eventually got to the point where I started a new playthrough for the sole purpose of snapping photos.

Taking VP is very different from writing for me. I don’t have to think about. I don’t agonize about making sure every tiny detail is just right, because for the most part I don’t have very much control It’s candid, intuitive, experimental, it’s straight up play. I simply wait for opportunities to present themselves and capture whatever I think looks or feels interesting to me. It’s easy for me to walk away from it if it doesn’t do well when I post. Unlike my writing, there’s no ego attached to it.

I’m getting to the tail end of this project, I still have a couple of the base game missions to get through, but I’d also like to do Phantom Liberty as well. Not sure what my VP career is going to look like after this, might go into soft retirement. But that’s okay.

NR - Night Running

(Named after Night Running by Cage the Elephant)

Is a sleeper wip that’s currently in the notes, brainstorming, and kitchen drawer phase. It’s part 2 of my Nothing Comes Before Night City series. So It Goes is part 1.

It takes a long time for me to mull over and ruminate on ideas, so this document is largely just a repository for notes and thoughts. Jamming the utensils in the drawer until I’m ready to organize them. I have a very broad idea of what I’d like to happen in this fic, key moments I’d like to hit, but there’s still a lot of refinement that needs to happen, and stories this involved require me outlining. I do already have a running set list of songs to draw from though.

Les Preludes

(Named after Les Preludes by Franz Liszt)

Another sleeper wip, also in the brainstorming phase. These are meant to be one-shots or short stories from the Nothing Comes Before Night City series. Moments I mentioned in the series, but can’t fit into the larger story. Character studies and background lore from V, River, Johnny, Jackie, a couple of OCs and whatever else I can think of.

I will probably start casually working on these after I finish SIG and while I’m outlining NR. I’d like the series to go in chronological order. Should be fun. And I think it’ll be good practice for being more concise. Unlike, this response...

If you stuck around for this TedTalk and made it all the way to the end, thank you! 👻

[cyberr-v0id]

Could you tell me more about yourself?

It is for something important.

Oh yeah sure!

I’m cyberr, I go by a lot of names, currently my favourites are Phoenix, Leonardo, and Jackdaw. I use any pronouns and I am asexual.

I have numerous skin conditions, feet bones in the wrong place, and a really bad back at the moment, as well as chronic daily headaches . So uh. You could say that I am as fit as a fiddle, if the fiddle in question is the one in my garage, which has all its strings snapped.

I really enjoy reading, and have done since I was seven. I’m currently reading the reappearance of Rachel Price, as well as the Iliad. Some of my most favourite books include: the wizards of once, how to train your dragon, murder most unladylike, all about romance, Sherlock Holmes, and treasure island.

I’m also a writer, I’ve been working on this one story for five years now. Hopefully I’ll finish it one day. I write a lot of poetry.

I love mysteries and have been apart of numerous mystery solving groups, several founded by me.

I’m an artist, of course, and my top three mediums are pencil, watercolour, and digital. I’m not the best at digital tbh. I hate acrylic and acrylic hates me.

I usually do a lot of sports but right now because of my back I can’t do a few of them. I can still do swimming, archery, rounders (tragically:/), stand up paddle boarding, and roller booting. Because they don’t involve as much bending down.

I’m gay

I’m a part time goth, which is to say I listen to goth music (my favourites atm are fields of the Nephilim and all about Eve) but only sometimes dress goth, and in varying degrees of goth. I am the most inconsistently dressing person I know, and right now my catchphrase is ‘the duality of man’. For some reason.

Music wise I listen to a lot. One day I will truly be able to say that I listen to everything. But not yet. My most favourite band is the crane wives

I want to be a marine archaeologist when I’m older, or, failing that, a famous actor. Let’s be honest here, unless I do become a really famous actor, neither career path is likely to pay well. Marine archaeological, or maritime archaeology, is all about ships wrecks, and how cultures of the past interacted with the ocean and other bodies of water around it.

I like all the animals. Genuinely there is lot a single animal that I don’t like. Well- I’m not too keen on bugs but I wish them all the best, and may many of them please stay away. I have a severe phobia of moths, and slight arachnophobia that depends on how I’m feeling and what the spider is. Tarantula? No problem, big and hairy enough to be a kitten. Now let’s move away from it in case it sprays its hairs. Brown garden spider? Bloody Mary on a motor bike get it Away.

My attention span is low. I am a theatre kid. As I type this is have a musical going in the background.

. I’m so sorry I’ve kinda made this really long, idk how much information you need

Fandoms: rise: tmnt, Percy Jackson, the owl house, the dragon prince, httyd, the inheritance cycle, red wall, Sherlock Holmes, mythology, epic the musical, so much more I can’t think of right now

I love the ocean

Lmk if you need anything else, hope this has helped, and uh. Yeah it’s kind long winded

[jakeluppin]

Tagged by @renninflight thank you!! This took forever for me to finalize and post whoosps!

Rules: always post the rules. answer the questions the person who tagged you has written and write eleven new ones. tag 11 new people and link them to your post. let them know you’ve tagged them

Everything gonna be gonna the cut since this is longgg

What's your favorite band/musician? (And tell me why! And if you've seen them live!)

Favorite band is uhhh hard to answer. I think I'd say Hippo Campus but then that almost feels wrong to say? Mainly because I haven't liked them as long as I have liked other bands. So maybe them? But otherwise I gotta go with some combination of Something Corporate/Jack's Mannequin/Andrew in the Wilderness because it's too hard to pick a single Andrew McMahon band. I guess if I absolutely had to probably Jack's Mannequin? They just mean a whole lot me.

What's something you're proud of?

Pretty proud of the fact that somehow managed to get a master’s degree.

What's something you like about yourself?

Um, do my tattoos count? Otherwise I think I’m pretty funny.

What's something you would like to do, if money weren't an obstacle?

Get a PhD. I want to So Bad but money……

What's something you do when you're anxious or stressed to calm down and relax?

Normally just like watch a comfort TV show. Oh and pet the cat

Do you have a favorite author? (If so, who?)

Probably Kurt Vonnegut? But I don’t think I’d say that I have one

Do you have a favorite poet? (If so, who?)

Not really since I’m not super into poetry. Maybe Saul Williams, but I haven’t read any of his stuff in years but I definitely used to love it.

Do you have a favorite artist? (You can probably guess the rest of this question!)

Van Gogh. He just really is That Bitch to me

What's a movie or TV show that had a big impact on you? (Could be something you watched growing up, a movie you saw recently that made you emotional, something you've seen a lot, something you quote with friends and family, etc)

Shadowhunters. Partially the show, partially just being a part of the fandom. I wrote so many good fics, I made great friends. Both of which, along with the show itself, helped me realize I was trans. So yeah. Pretty big impact there.

What's something you wish you could forget? (Could be something personal, or it could just be a gross or weird fact)

Probably not what you were going for, but I wish I could forget Veronica Mars so that I could watch it again for the first time.

What's something you'd like to change about the world?

There are a lot of macro level answers (world peace, climate change) but I want to pick something on a more micro level. I would want all library budgets to increase 50 times what they are now. Actually sorry gotta change this. I want the polar bear dogs from The Legend of Korra to be real and that I could have one as a pet.

All right so my questions to ask:

What’s your favorite animated movie or TV show?

What’s your favorite instrumental song?

What’s a song you could listen to for hours on end?

Do you have any tattoos? If yes, what? If no, do you want any?

What’s the first fandom you really interacted with?

What’s the best way to enjoy chocolate?

What’s one skill you don’t currently posses that you wish you did?

If you could spend the day with any celebrity, who would it be?

What’s your favorite kind of sandwich?

If you had to change your name to something, what would it be?

What’s a show you first watched at least ten years ago that you still love today?

Okay so tagging @jakegyllinhaal @wisdomsdauqhter @joanthangroff @adraughtofamortentia @kattahj @thecolorofthegame @illegitimatetenenbaum @whitesunlars @ellcrain @cuppateadeer @puppystiles

[ygodmyy20]

Getting to Know You Meme

Tagged by @texasdreamer01 (thankies texas!)

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? Yep, got married a month ago.

02) What was your dream growing up? Dream of what? My career? My life? My fantasy? I mean I wanted to be an elf in LoTR when I was like, 12. Does that count? hahah

03) What talent do you wish you had? Asking waiters to change my order if they got it wrong.

04) If someone bought you a drink what would it be? Beer (specifically a New England IPA)

05) Favorite vegetable? Hm. I really love good arugula.

06) What was the last book you read? None I just read fanfics haha

07) What zodiac sign are you? Leo

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Nope tho I wish to get a tattoo one day.

09) Worst Habit? Probably overthinking myself into a spiral.

10) What is your favorite sport? Dressage

11) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? Optimistic because lifes too short and I just want to be happy.

12) Tell me one weird fact about you. Uhhhhh.....I am a twin? (always a easy one haha)

13) Do you have any pets? Sadly no BUT I may.....may be trying to. foster a kitty. Maybe. While my husband is out of town for a month-long gig.

14) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Scary but also eh whatever.

15) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? I can't answer this or else I'm gonna spiral.

16) What color eyes do you have? Blue

17) Ever been arrested? Nope

18) Bottle or can soda? Bottle

19) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? Put it in my savings.

20) What's your favorite place to hang out at? Hm. Probably at home or in the woods.

21) Do you believe in ghosts? I dunno

22) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Writing, drawing fanarts, horseback riding.

23) Do you swear a lot? Yeah

24) Biggest pet peeve? I dunno, I don’t know if I have one? Depends on the person or circumstance or situation:

25) In one word, how would you describe yourself? Hm. Emotional.

26) Do you believe/appreciate romance? I’m a hopeless romantic. And I got married and kinda like this guy a whole dang lot.

27) Favourite and least favourite food? Fav: sushi. Least fav: I’m honestly not a huge fan of potatos….

28) Do you believe in God? I believe in a universe. Wherever god is in it I got no clue.

29) What makes you happy: Sharing my art with friends, having movie nights with husband on Fridays.

30) Currently listening/the last thing you listened to: Ado

31) Favorite place to spend time: Probably at home, or out i the woods.

32) Favorite lyric: Goodbye by Bo Burnham

Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I staretd fourteen years ago?

33) Recommend a film: Akira

34) Recommend a book: haven't read enough

35) Recommend a band, a song, or album: Fire Hell and Holy Water by Gioli & Assia

36) Recommend a TV show: Mob Psycho 100

37) Where are you from, and do you still live there? Where have you lived? I am from the midwest and am still in the midwest

38) Do you have any pets or animals in your life? How did you find/get them? I had cats growing up and I would love to get one. I also ride horses.

39) What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? Uhhhh. Hm. I am not sure.

40) How did you 'find' fandom? I got into Yugioh! when I was 12 and started writing fanfics and them opps here i am.

41) Make a list of 5 things that you see without getting up. My Teru and Mob figures, my Mob cat, my cat lamp, my ipad, my water bottle. I am at my desk there is a lot here

42) How do you style your hair? Down or half ponytail or pony tail. I have long hair.

I got this ask before the other writer one so I know many asks have been going around today haha so VERY much no pressure tags: @russenoire @thousand-winters @toastytoaster22 @emeraldoodles or anyone else who wants to!

[knightsgaydiant]

Look I know we all love this moment, but let’s talk about if Adolin was right to kill Sadeas. HEAR ME OUT

(Don’t worry this isn’t a defense of Sadeas or even have to do with my personal enjoyment of Sadeas as a villain.)

This isn’t about if it’s right to kill Sadeas. This is about if it’s right for ADOLIN to kill Sadeas. If Kaladin or anyone in the bridgecrews (or any Listener on the battlefield for that matter) had killed Sadeas, for sure that would be completely justified. With Adolin it gets complicated. I’m not saying wrong, just COMPLICATED. Sadeas dying, overall a good thing, no debate there, net positive for the cosmere. Adolin killing Sadeas is a man removing an evil from the world. But it’s also the son of a political leader taking out his father’s only opposition. Look, I’m not going to call the Kholins tyrants (I don’t need to; the text does it for me) obviously there’s nuance here, but that is some tyrannical behavior. Murdering your political opposition in a back alley, yeah that’s authoritarianism 101 baby. And again I acknowledge there is nuance here… Sadeas was unjust and there was no way in the current legal system/social heirarchy to stop him, he DID need to die. But was this the way to go about it? I don’t have an answer to that.

After Sadeas’s death, opposition to Dalinar is pretty much nonexistent. Sure Amaram and Ialai seem like threats for a second, but they get dealt with pretty quickly, and, with Ialai in particular, it’s clear that Sanderson isn’t interested in those plot threads anymore. Any internal Alethi opposition to our protagonists is reduced to bigots for Jasnah to stab. And honestly, I think that’s kind of a shame. (To put it in Sanderson’s own writing lecture terms: I feel like a promise to the reader was broken.) I’ll be happy to take this all back if it gets addressed in stormlight 5, but as of now I feel like both fandom and the text haven’t explored this deeply enough. And I do think it’s worth thinking about.

[ellecdc]

okay no pressure in answering this at all if you’re not comfortable but i’ve been having many Thoughts lately and i wanted to share them with somebody but nobody ik will listen and you’re my favorite blog

i’m on summer break from college right now which means i don’t have a constant stream of Things To Do, so i have a lot of free time, which i usually spending thinking about the marauders (guilty)

but since i’ve been home (abt 3 weeks) ive been getting super overwhelmed in the fandom, not bc of anybody but because i have so much Love for content. like i love the fandom so much and i love fics and fanart and edits and stuff like that, and i don’t think i have a limit

i feel like i spend too much time engaging in the community, or even just thinking about characters (primarily the Noble House of Black lol) and i don’t get me wrong, i love it so much, but almost to a point where it’s overwhelming and i get emotional randomly and sometimes i feel like that’s not normal?

like i feel like i might be genuinely addicted - i haven’t gone a day without opening ao3/tumblr/tiktok to see fandom content in a very long time and as much as i love to embrace that fact, i can’t figure out why that scares me so much

i hope this makes sense. i just needed to tell somebody because im starting to feel like something is wrong with me lol

like i said, no need to respond if you don’t feel comfortable. i just wanted to put it into words

I don’t think there’s anything “wrong” with liking something ‘so’ much and being so invested in something as long as it’s not taking away/affecting the rest of your life?

If you’re still able to take care of yourself physically (showering, eating, sleeping, cleaning), and if you’re still able to enjoy your personal and social life (going to work/school etc, hanging with friends, engaging with family members), and it’s not hurting anyone (yourself or loved ones), then what’s the harm?

I literally cannot think about canon at all, I was telling my mutual this the other day - they’d asked me what my other mutuals told me about ATYD because they were thinking of reading it and I told them and literally felt sick to my stomach thinking about it afterwards 😅 like no, perhaps that’s not ‘normal’ but that’s also why I’m in fanfiction? I can’t watch TV shows or movies because I get too emotional and too invested that I can’t handle anything angsty or sad. So I spend time in fanfiction to kind of “fix” it for me, and it makes me happy!

When I was in my first degree probably ~19, I was going through a hard time and would go for walks with my dog like 3 times a day for almost 45mins-1.5 hours each time (so walking almost 3 hours out of the day) just so I could escape my present reality and live in my little daydreams I created for myself. I became so reclusive and was over exerting myself, under eating, not socializing and started getting emotional because I preferred my daydreams to my current reality

Sometimes that’s life saving for people so I am an advocate for people doing what they need to do to get by - BUT - for me, that’s when it became unhealthy

So no, i don’t think liking/loving fanfic “too much” is abnormal (maybe it is but then we’re all freaks here) and i don’t think it’s unhealthy unless you’re unable to care for yourself otherwise

[daraemory]

tl;dr I’m really struggling to find my place in the pro-wrestling fandom.

(disclaimer: I’ve been taking a break from twitter and tumblr for the past couple of months so I don’t know anything about any recent iwc drama, what’s been going on in the dirt sheets or even the more legitimate wrestling news sources. i’ve been on tiktok some but unless it’s a ship or thirst edit, i hardly watch any posts on wrestle-tok.)

i feel like all i ever see in the wrestling fandom is people talking about how everything sucks. how terrible the product is. don’t get me wrong, people should be free to criticize pop-culture no matter the genre or medium. there is absolutely a LOT of problematic things in the industry that should be called out publicly.

it’s just, that seems to be all there is. wrestling makes me happy. i want to be in a community with other fans who are made happy by it too.

maybe it’s because i’m too used to the typical tv/movie/book fandoms. while i will jump at the chance to tell anyone who will listen how there is no greater performance art than wrestling, that is more “real” than marvel or star wars (which i both love) or any other popular franchise, that no “method actor” in hollywood comes close to what pro wrestlers do year round… but at it’s core it’s still about stories and characters and that’s the way i tend to approach it.

i want to have thoughtful discussions about current storylines like how luchasaurus is showing signs that he is breaking free from christian’s influence, theorize the possible motivations he had for choosing christian over jungleboy to begin with. i want to talk about how dalton castle is spiraling under the weight he’s put on his own shoulders to save ring of honor. i want to talk about the new version of warhorse and what led him to feel he had to change everything about who he was. my shipper heart wants to explore why jay white mentioned his “destino” only days before naito finally main evented wrestle kingdom. i want to read pages of meta about past arcs like the corruption of brandon cutler from his time with peter avalon where he refused to cheat to his becoming the “stooge” for the young bucks.

i am tired of “booking” and “pushes” and “ratings.” yes, i am aware that that is just as much a part of wrestling as the characters and the storylines. it’s just, for right now at least, i want wrestling to be a place where i can escape and lose myself in kayfabe just like i would in any other fictional world.

there’s just so much real life awfulness going on in both the world at large and in my own personal life, i want to be able to stay away from negativity in the things that bring me joy. and while it has been refreshing to just watch wrestling on tv without knowing about any of the back stage bullshit, i am longing for a community to discuss the things i love about it. i have a handful of wonderful non-wrestling friends who are always happy to let me word-vomit about what’s happening in kayfabe, but it isn’t the same as being able to have conversations with people who have the same knowledge and enthusiasm for the stories and characters as i do.

i just wonder if there is such a place in this fandom for me. or if that’s just not how wrestling fandom works. or if that’s how all fandoms are these days. admittedly, i’m a fandom old. i started out in fandom reading fics from yahoo mailing lists i accessed on dial-up internet.

anyways, i just needed to get this out. if anyone has any advice or thoughts about this, i welcome them, but please be patient if i don’t reply right away as i’m still not ready to be back on tumblr regularly.

[writteninthesewalls28]

Best Friends, right?

A/N: This work is posted as a part of the "be my valentine challenge" by @bemyvalentinechallenge. it´s a little different from what I normally write (fandom and stuff), but the quote immediately remind me of it. It it not fitting to the current situation where the author of "Keeper of the lost cities" left off, but that´s how I´m imagining this situation.

Summary: Keefe Sencen is finally together with Sophie but has to explain why he feels that way about her to his (ex?) best friends Fitz Vacker.

Warnings: spoiler warnings, please do not read if you haven´t read "Stellarlune" of the kotlc series.

Wow, why did they had to get here, on his bed, in his (or better, in his father’s) house? 

This- would be a hard talk, he knew that for sure. 

Keefe Sencen, infamously the new boyfriend of Sophie Foster, silently sat next to his best friend (or ex-best friend, he wasn’t sure yet) Fitz Vacker. 

Obviously he knew, that it had been wrong of him, not to tell his best friend about the crush he had on her, since Fitz was the one who had been in a relationship with her first. But, he just couldn’t understand why Fitz had to be so mean and ignorant to him since he found out. 

It wasn’t his fault that he fell in love with her. With Sophie. 

"Listen, Fitz. I never meant to crush your relationship with her. I’m really sorry." He started. Fitz didn't even look at Keefe, as if he was an annoying insect that wouldn’t leave his side. God, how much this guy annoyed Keefe. 

It took around 5 more minutes till Fitz finally felt like saying something. "Since when did you even like her?" He asked with a really weird tone in his voice, Keefe didn’t eve knew existed. 

"Since the day I met her in the hallway and I had to bring her to the hospital wing because she collapsed in my arms." Keefe said, in a quiet tone. This was the most uncomfortable chat he ever had with him. 

Fitz gave him a confused look. "I don’t believe you." 

What. Did. He. Want. Him. To. Do. About. It.

"Fine. You wanna hear the whole story?" He got a little mad. Him and Sophie were happy together, couldn’t Fitz just accept that?! "I had a TERRIBLE childhood, first living in the shadow of my shitty parents and later in the 'Vacker-Shadow' because the famous Vacker family is the best. Don’t even try convincing me it’s different, because it isn’t. You know it. Then Sophie came and showed me that there is someone who really cares about me and who likes ME and not my last name or looks or funny humor. She was the first one to realize my humor sometimes was a coping mechanism." He noticed that Fitz wanted to butt in multiple times, so Keefe started talking louder and louder, till he was nearly screaming. Hopefully his father wouldn’t hear this rather awkward conversation. "I realized, I could change something in this stupid world." Tears started forming in his stupid blue eyes that he shares with his even more stupid dad. "I did not only fell in love with her. I fell in love with a world through her eyes. She has a different way of looking at problems and people. She’s special, Fitz." He said his name, as if he was some dirty little creature that nobody even wants to look at. "So, if this is still about your pride,and about the topic that you are a better boyfriend for Sophie, you should starts opening up your eyes and realize that YOUR perfect little elvin world is falling apart." 

With these words, he simply walked out of the room and slammed the door behind him. 

He grabbed his crystal and escaped to Havenfield. Sophie was the only person who would understand him now. And he needed to get a hug, right now. 

[malkaleh]

20 questions for fic writers

Tagged by @emilykaldwen - love you friend.

01. how many works do you have on ao3? 236 (though this is over a lot of years - admittedly I’ve deleted some I just didn’t like anymore but also there is a lot of short fic)

02. what's your total ao3 word count? 366, 416

03. what fandoms do you write for? Currently: Tudors, Grishaverse (book and show), Tortall, West Wing, Hunger Games. But I have written for a lot of fandoms (some main past ones include Criminal Minds and Band of Brothers).

04. top five fics by kudos? I’ll add in if they are co-written or not after the fic because the ranking changes depending on if you count co-written or not.

Undertow (co-written) - Criminal Minds

It’s Not Because Of You (It’s Because Of Me) - Ted Lasso

Five Times Out Of Many David Rossi Realised He Was Happily Doomed - Criminal Minds

To Dwell In Enchantment - Criminal Minds

If I Could Go Back (co-written) - Criminal Minds

Four Times Penelope Hotchner Knew Her Fathers Loved Her - Criminal Minds (if you don’t count the co-written one(s))

What About Now - Criminal Minds (also if you don’t count cowritten)

05. do you respond to comments? I do my absolute best - I treasure every single kind comment I just…unfortunately spoons mean I’ve missed some sometimes but I’m getting better.

06. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? It’s either the Criminal Minds one in which I basically killed Everyone or the Toby Ziegler/Jason Gideon apocalypse fic or the Spooks apocalypse fic. I actually think all three of them do have hope - though just, not for the POV characters in the second and third ones. So probably the second.

07. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

08. do you get hate on fic? I have yes.

09. do you write smut? I do. It’s complicated but like, I do.

10. craziest cross over? Listen I once crossed over Band of Brothers, Generation Kill, Doctor Who, The West Wing, Good Omens and I think like Sherlock Holmes. I have written Tudors-West Wing-Law and Order UK-Pundits multiverse. I will absolutely write a ridiculous crossover.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen? Not as far as I know.

12. have you ever had a fic translated? Also not as far as a I know (I have this memory that one of them might have been but that could well be wrong).

13. have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes several times. Delightful people and experiences.

14. all time favorite ship? Okay I don’t actually read fic for them as such but in terms of canon it’s Faramir/Eowyn and Beren/Luthien. FORMATIVE. All the Grishaverse canon ships. Jon/Thayet.

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Into The Fire or The Tudors + Scarlet Pimpernel verse. Because I know how it goes and it goes Fucking Dark before the end and honestly not everyone is making it out and I do not want to be in the head of the character I’d have to be in to write it as it should be (for that length of time and for that amount of torture).

16. what are your writing strengths? I think world building. I don’t know, I really struggle with articulating my strengths but maybe that.

17. what are your writing weaknesses? DIALOGUE. Actual confidence.

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language? I’d want to be more fluent before I did but maybe one day I will have a fic with some Hebrew/Farsi.

19. first fandom you wrote in? The Bill (long running English police procedural) in terms of posted fic. In terms of the first fandom I could be said to have written in I think I may have written a bunch of Scarlet Pimpernel fic in my head.

20. favorite fic you've written? Okay Jewish Anne Boleyn in terms of finished work. I was so so scared to post it. That I wasn’t Jewish/Mizrahi/Biracial enough. That I hadn’t researched enough that I hadn’t written it right but I posted it. I feel a lot of that with the OT3 verse right now.

Tagging (if you want): @claudiajcregg @onekisstotakewithme @herawell @elysabeththequeene

[b-plot-butch]

20 Questions For Fic Writers!

Thank you so much for the tag, @honeyteacakes!! I loved reading your responses. This was so much fun to do.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

35! Some of them are locked to attempt to minimise AI scraping.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

44,236 holy shit

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently, I’m pretty deeply embedded in the Sandman-verse. But I’ve also written an AC Odyssey fic recently.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I’m skipping this one because I embedded so many links in this post and I don’t wanna do it anymore. 😂 And people can just filter by kudos on AO3 if they’re interested.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I respond EXTREMELY slowly, but I make every effort to reply to comments when I have the energy to spare. It means a lot to me when people take the time to tell me what they liked about my stories.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oooh. Good question. It’s either “pour the dirt into our bed” (Ranger’s Apprentice, referencing homophobia faced in a queerplatonic relationship) or “if you want voices in the dark, listen to mine” (Good Omens, after a temptation gone wrong.)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I write a fair amount of tender stories, so there are a lot of possible answers to this one! Potentially it’s “our place in the sun” (Sandman, Lucienne/Calliope domestic fluff) which is all about coming to rest and settling into love. Another option is “throw down that spade and dig up the garden” (Good Omens, Ineffable Husbands) which is about…pretty much the same thing, now that I think about it. 😂

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Thankfully not. I genuinely can’t understand why people leave hate comments on fics. Sure, there’s a lot of things I take issue with in certain fandoms, but I bitch about that stuff strictly IN MY OWN SPACE, I absolutely do not barge into other people’s spaces to do it. I never will and you can hold me to that.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I WANT TO. I’m working on it!! I actually have a smut prompt ask game queued up for next year, when I’ll have fewer writing obligations. As for what kind, I want to write so much femslash smut. There is devastatingly little in the Sandman fandom.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

OHOHOHO. I have written a Los Simuladores/Good Omens crossover and it is genuinely one of my favorite stories that I’ve ever written. “every morning the same big and little words all spelling out desire” is appropriately zany, hopefully sexy, and seasoned with a dash of angst to balance the flavors.

(Shout out to @jlemonster for writing such a glowing post about it, it makes me happy just remembering it.)

Another crossover I’m working on is Johanna Constantine/Mary Poppins. I PROMISE it will make sense when it’s written. …well, maybe. 😂

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes!!! As part of Fandom Trumps Hate this year I had two fics of mine wonderfully translated into Spanish by @yourneighborhoodneighbor and it was an amazing experience.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope. I don’t know if that would work with my writing habits, tbh. Maybe someday though, if the right idea and right person come along!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Oh GOD. Complicated question!! There are ships I’m currently enamored of, obviously, but who knows if they’ll stand the test of time? I know that Kaz/Inej (Six of Crows) and Irina/Jack (Alias) did something to my adolescent brain that may never be undone, but that’s the closest I can get to an answer to this question.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I’ve got a Good Omens Ineffable Wives AU inspired by Anne of Green Gables that is very dear to me, and has many aspects I’m extremely proud of, but I don’t know if I’ll ever finish it. My interest in Good Omens has flagged of late and unfortunately I don’t know if I’ll complete many of my WIPs for that fandom!

16. What are your writing strengths?

I like to think I have a good grasp on characters’ voices! Also, I think I write tactile and descriptive details well.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

TRANSITIONS ARE THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I have done it once!!! For the aforementioned Los Simus fic. It was so much fun, and a good challenge for me. The dialogue was in Spanish (with very valuable help from @thisisnotjuli) and I loved writing how the two characters spoke in somewhat differing dialects.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Oh, lord. Probably Harry Potter? By hand, in a notebook from the dollar store. I was probably about eight or nine.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

They’re my children. My babies. My beloved frogspawn. I can’t give a definite answer, but…two of the stories that I worried my lip over the most for dread of failing to do them justice, the ones I think I put the most heart and consideration and care into, are “it’s an old song (and we’re gonna sing it again)” (Sandman, Calliope & Dream + healing and rediscovery and intimacy and changed but no less important relationships) and “sister dear, bear me away” (Good Omens, a human AU about gender discovery).

No pressure tags: the usual suspects <3 @pyrocephalus-rubinus @fatcatgospel and Juli, as well as @zorawitch @azi-sings-calliope @cosmictapestry, and anyone else who reads this and wants to talk about their creations!!

[bluejaysandblackbats]

Daily Planet Classifieds

Fandom: DC Comics, Superfam, Young Justice 98, Titans

Summary: Laney Hausler is currently attending classes at Metropolis University when he sees a boy with his face in the library. At first, he thinks he's seeing things. Later, he starts to realize something strange is going on.

Conner Kent lives off-campus with his friends, but he sees a boy who eerily resembles him, and he hires a private investigator to look into the life of his doppelganger.

Chapters: 11/?

Characters: Jonathan Lane Kent, Conner Kent, Eddie Bloomberg, Rose Wilson, Bart Allen, Cassie Sandsmark, Cissie King-Jones, Clark Kent, Lois Lane, Meloni Thawne, Vic Sage, Slade Wilson

Relationships: Past KonBart, Clois

Additional Tags: Father-Son Relationship, Father-Daughter Relationship, No Powers AU, Found Family, Family Secrets, No Powers AU, No Capes AU, Complicated Relationships, University AU, Roommates, Private Investigator, Twins, Multiple POV, First Person POV, Psychological Drama, Complicated Relationships, Unrequited Love, Platonic Relationships

Chapter Eleven: Don't Know Why (Laney's POV)

I went to the corner store to buy aspirin when I heard a camera click. I turned my head, but there was no one there. Rose joined me in line and rubbed my back. “You good?” Rose questioned. 

“I’m okay… I thought—. Did you see anyone with a camera?” I asked. Rose shook her head. “I have the strangest feeling that someone’s following me. Ever since the—. Remember how we talked about my double?” 

“You don’t think there’s some guy with your face, stalking you? Do you?” Rose asked. 

I rubbed my neck and chuckled. When she put it like that, it sounded silly. “Can we get something to eat? Maybe that’ll settle my nerves. I haven’t eaten much,” I replied, pushing my bangs out of my face. Rose looked up into my eyes and squinted. 

“Are you alright?” Rose asked. I nodded. “I’m not trying to diminish what you’re going through. I just—. Do you want to talk about it?” 

“Um… I don’t—. There’s nothing to talk about. It’s just—. I get these feelings. I don’t know what to do with them. I don’t like the unknown… It feels—. Rose, I want to know why I feel like this. I want to—.” A child played a song on a phone loudly, distracting me. I’d heard it before. I heard it as a little boy but didn’t know where. “Rose, what song is that?” She frowned. 

“Hey, Lane… Calm down,” Rose whispered. “What’s the matter?” 

“What’s that song? Rose, I know it,” I replied. Rose listened for a moment. Then, she pulled out her phone. 

“Don’t Know Why by Norah Jones,” Rose answered. I swallowed hard. “Are you okay?” 

The song stopped. “Rose, can you play it for me? Can you play that song in the car?” Rose nodded. 

We didn’t speak when we got to the car. She played the song and handed me her phone. I shut my eyes, rocking as a wave of grief washed over me. I remembered the faint smell of perfume. I pressed my palms to my eyelids. “Lane? What’s wrong?” Rose questioned.

I started crying. It was my first unmistakable memory of my mother. “My mom sang this to me when I was sick. I was too weak to open my eyes, but I heard her. I could smell her, Rose. My mom—. I had a mom,” I wept. I didn’t know why it upset me, but it triggered a string of seemingly unconnected memories. I recalled myself crying in the car in the middle of the night. 

Rose turned the song off and pulled me into her arms. “Hey,” Rose whispered, “Hey… It’s okay. I’ve got you.” 

I opened my eyes, and she pulled away to look at me. She leaned in for a kiss, and I shook my head. “No,” I whispered. Rose pulled back and shakily inhaled with her eyes closed. 

“Sorry, that was—. I shouldn’t—. You’re a lot like a woman—. I don’t—.” 

“You’re my friend. We live together. You’re very—. Of course… I find you attractive, but I can’t,” I whispered. I sniffed and wiped my eyes. 

“Right… Um, can we keep this from—?” 

“Nothing happened… And crying about—.”

“It never happened,” Rose smiled. 

“One thing, though… I’m a lot like a woman?” I asked. Rose pinched the bridge of her nose.

“You’re so soft and sweet-smelling… And the way you—. Your tone of voice and—. I don’t usually like men,” Rose replied. I nodded.

“Oh, that’s interesting… I didn’t know that about you,” I replied. I wasn’t sure what that meant, but I had an unrelenting respect for her. She was the strongest and kindest person I had the pleasure of meeting. 

“I’m a lesbian, Lane,” Rose whispered. 

“That means you like women… Right?” I questioned. Rose chuckled. 

“I wanna know what bubble you grew up in… You’re spectacular,” Rose smiled.

“I like who you are, too. You know so much about life. Also, I hope I wasn’t being disrespectful for saying you’re attractive. That was a—.” 

“Oh, no. It wasn’t disrespectful. Thank you,” Rose replied, “Are you alright?” 

“Mhm… I should probably talk to Father later. Not yet, though… I don’t want to get upset over the phone,” I replied. Rose nodded, putting on her seatbelt. 

We almost made it home, when Rose turned to me. “Wanna learn how to drive?” Rose offered. 

“Today?” I questioned. 

“In general,” Rose replied, “If you get your license you can drive your dad around on family weekend in my car… Wait, Lane. Hold on.” She backed out of the parking lot. She started driving toward the department store near campus. “You were right.” 

She turned on a random street and parked in front of a record store. “Rose, what are we—?” 

“Someone’s following you. I didn’t want him to follow us home. Let’s wait and see if he gets out,” Rose mumbled. Her phone rang, and I answered it. “Lane—.”

“Hello?” I asked. 

“Who is this?” a man’s voice asked. He was authoritative in tone, and it frightened me. 

“Slade, that’s my roommate,” Rose muttered, “And Lane. This is my dad.” 

“Why you’d choose to have two male roommates is beyond me—.” 

“Slade, you’re on speaker, and Lane’s an upstanding citizen,” Rose sighed, “If we want to talk about untrustworthy men—.” 

“Fine… I called for an update,” Slade interrupted. 

“Someone’s following Lane, so I parked in front of the record store. Do you want anything while we’re here?” Rose asked. 

“Nope… Do you have a knife?” Slade questioned. 

“Mhm,” Rose answered. 

“See you next weekend, then,” Slade replied before hanging up. 

My lips twitched into a frown. “Your father isn’t—.” 

“I know. But, I can count on him to stalk your stalker,” Rose replied. She seemed calm, but my nerves were frayed. “What’s the matter?” 

“Is this normal for bigger cities?” I asked. Rose shook her head. “But you’re so calm.”

“I’ve been taking self-defense classes my whole life… And Slade had me kidnapped as a survival exercise on my sixteenth birthday, so—.” 

“That’s awful,” I interrupted. Rose chuckled.

“Let’s go in this record store… Do you wanna get something to listen to?” Rose asked, changing the subject. I knew to leave it alone. Some things didn’t need elaboration. 

We entered the record store, and I nudged her. I loved music. It was an integral part of my relatively quiet life. Father played music during surgeries, and I listened to music when I studied. Unfortunately, I didn’t take any CDs with me when I left home. “Are you in my film class?” a girl asked. I shook my head. “Hm… Are you sure?” 

“Mhm, I’m a STEM major,” I answered. She squinted at me and walked to the next row of records. Rose chuckled. “Did I say something wrong?”

“No, I just—. Remember that party I took you to? I swear I saw you go upstairs, and then I—. I saw you outside. I thought I was crazy, but you might have a lookalike,” Rose half-joked. I didn’t laugh. The thought of it terrified me. Rose stood on her tiptoes to whisper something to me. “Don’t look. He’s leaving. He didn’t wanna risk us seeing his face. This guy’s good…” 

“Do you think he’s dangerous?” I asked. Rose shook her head. 

“Nah… He’s probably a professional or something. Maybe your dad hired him to see how you were,” Rose reassured me, “Don’t worry. Okay?” 

“Okay,” I replied. But I was worried. I was terrified.

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Top 3 ships:

Volmione def is the top contender. I’d say Harrymort comes next. Tomione would be third. I love Tom but Voldemort does it for me.

First ever ship:

Okay it was admittedly a Jack Frost/Elsa one LMAO. It was called Jelsa 😭😭 I was like twelve and I was obsessed with it. I still go back and read some of the fics and every now and then.

Currently reading:

Okay so the people in my server have been keeping me fed. I’m doing a reread of All The Wrong Choices. I recently finished ‘as stars fade from your eyes’ by miserygirlfriend (who is very sweet btw!). I also read Hairbrush by @maplebalderdash recently, a short, simple fic but I really enjoyed her take on child Tom. And finally, ‘Think of Me Fondly’ which was written by one of my friends!

Currently watching:

I actually am not one for shows or movies, so I’ll give you the audiobook I’m listening to. To nobody’s surprise, it is Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

Last song I listened to:

I’ve been listening to Hypocrites by Korn on repeat recently. They’re my favorite band in general but something about that song is so good to my brain. I also really like the band Kittie, so they’ve been on repeat as well. I love women in metal.

Currently consuming:

I’m eating the ice from my cup bc I’m too lazy to refill it lol. Typically I drink a lot of water but I also like dry foods. Not a big fan of anything hot, seasoned or temperature wise.

Currently craving:

A good nap, which is wild bc I took like a four hour one today. I had a cookie earlier that was really good so honestly, probably some more cookies lol. I wish the sun came out more too. I miss the summer.