#like it's a 9-5 job has actually made a huge difference

[sunspira]

also finding out the discrepancy between my other cognitive skill scores and my working memory was abnormally extreme even for adhd people was very validating it definitely points to a more severe case and i had definitely been feeling like how come some adhd people are barely affected by it and some are like me like almost unable to perceive time (tho i'm getting better at this with intensive practice and special neurodivergent friendly tactics but it was never going to be something that i learned naturally)

"Catherine's is 55 points lower" instead of the average adhd persons 8.3 made my jaw drop tbh.

i definitely figured i was imagining it but no it's really um a bit debilitating and serious as a disability and stuff. I know i can come to adapt to it and live my best life but specialized therapy to adapt to the deficit and target the underdeveloped cognitive skills with special training and practice was very much needed and i'm glad i'm doing it now

IQ tests are dumb but i gotta admit being adhd i thought i was a little bit stupid my whole life but just good at school stuff until i was 21 and they had to test my IQ for the adhd diagnosis and the fact that it was a bit high was huge for my self esteem. i genuinely did not believe in myself like that at all i was expecting something very average. and it was healing to know that too since my ability to do school work fell off abruptly in college and thinking that was the one thing i was good at had left me was kinda more than a little scary so knowing i might have some intrinsic good parts of my brain still left was helpful to hear and healing i can't lie

[mfjenks]

my omitb theories (+theories of others i liked combined) by now (after episode 6):

Considering the murder and the trio's escape:

-The trio are not actually the targets. The real targets are stunt doubles (Sazz, Glenn) and the bullet was for Sazz.

-The whole hunt for the trio is a red herring, it's not Sazz's murderer watching them and the person doesn't really want to kill them, but play with them. The same person as in season 1 as the note they got on their phones was the same Oliver got when Winnie was poisoned. Maybe it's Jan at the point even trying to protect them in her own perverted way, watching them, and she really was behind the messages which were not proved to be hers in season 1. Or Charles's sister, who is a fan of the podcast and has a huge crush on Oliver lol.

-They find out they are not really in danger in episode 7 or 8.

-Dudenoff's murder is the cold case Sazz was talking about, and that's why she was killed, beacuse she had found something out. Or it's not connected to her murder at all and he was killed by another person. Or it's a combination of both: it's that cold case, but still different murderers.

-The Brothers sisters, Vince Fish, Christmas guy, Eva, Eugene and Zach are not killers. That creepy family or the writer on the movie are possible.

-Sazz is the one with braids in the photo of Westies, working undercover.

Considering episode 7:

-Oliver leaves Winnie (and Mrs Gambolini? where is she?) to Howard later to be picked by Will. Ends up with Will being involved into Howard's animal jobs podcast lol

-Howard knows the location of the trio. He tells everyone it's a secret, but after being pushed cracks, so everyone knows it and heads to Charles's sister's house, from Loretta to Bev and the actors.

-Charles, Oliver and Mabel turn off their phones not to be tracked down. Hence Loretta can't even call Oliver back, she rushes to NYC with the first plane to explain herself. Loretta finds the house, sees Charles's sister flirting with Oliver, unwillingly becomes a centre of all the chaos going on in this damn house, Oliver avoids her still thinking she doesn't want to be with him and she came to play with him or break up, she doesn't understand what the hell is going on and becomes jelaous, until they both snap, revealing their insecurities, reconcile, talk about how much they mean to each other and he proposes once again.

Considering some photos from the set (if you know what I mean):

-Oliver and Loretta get married in episode 9. She leaves to LA for a small period of time to finish some shooting scenes there straight after the wedding.

Considering the finale:

-Loretta takes part in some kind of reenactment of events, made to reveal the killer, because of the resemblance with Sazz's cover-up (the braids). Maybe Sazz even got inspired by her appearance, hence the fact she followed her on Instagram.

-Loretta leaves gnorfbun and gets some offers which require shooting (or could be theatre) mostly in NYC. So she can spend most of her time in NYC and live with Oliver, but also can go somethere for shorter periods of time, so she doesn't have to be in all the episodes in season 5.

-Some time skip to Christmas takes place after the murder is solved and the podcast is finished. The premiere of the movie takes place. Someone gets murdered at the Arconia straight after the premiere.

-Possible victims: Teddy (important person to Oliver from his past (Mabel had Tim, Charles had Sazz), gives some potential for development of Theo's character and his relationships with Mabel), Uma

[greetings-from-the-eraser-king]

Hlvrai kids au

Basic premise the crew go on a field trip to Black Mesa they stumble upon a secret experiment b-u557 and end up releasing him and Black Mesa security desperately tries to stop him

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Tommy- is the oldest and is in 4th grade and is in a gifted class with darnold he has a huge collection of soda cans and stuffed animals his favorite thing to do is line them up in different patterns. Hes mainly happy and cheerful. him and benrey live together as brothers though there not biologically related he's not quite sure we're ben came from. Gman takes Tommy to black mesa a lot to show him different science experiments going on. Wants a dog so bad his toy dog is doing the job for now.

Gordon- he's in 3erd and is mainly a loner who doesn't fit in a chronic over-thinker he mainly likes to play videogames or read (mainly magazines about video games) he is a smart kid and maybe next year he'll be in the advanced science class. Anxious but loyal and can get easily annoyed. Him and benrey are frenemies both bonding over videogames and other nerdy things but benery is a bit to annoying to be a true friend (benery constantly taunts him by calling him feet man because when he was in kindergarten he stepped in peanut butter and ate it Gordon regrets telling him this) he carries a Gameboy wherever he goes.

Darnold- is one of the smartest kids in the 3erd grade but unfortunately the shortest which leads to constant taunts from forzen though not in the same grade him and Tommy are in the same gifted class and are very good friends. They enjoy making positions out of soda and doing all sorts of strange experiments.more shy and less confident than Tommy he still has a similar joyful attitude. Reads fantasy books and constantly has a new one every week.

Benery- in 3erd lives with Tommy and has no memory of how he got there but meh who cares loves to skate board and do tricks though no one knows how he holds onto it at all times seemingly appears and disappears at will. He wandered a lot and seems to forget things you just told him. You can't tell when he's joking or being serious. His helmet never comes off. Chill jokester who doesn't take a lot of things seriously and likes to hang around Gordon and annoy him. He is not allowed near black mesa.

Forzen- moved from France when he was around 3-4 his dad's in the military and he's a bit spoiled has had to move a lot because of his dad but he's been in the same neighborhood as the gang sense the end of 2ed grade. He's not truly one of the bullies of the school but is annoying to Gordon darnold and Tommy he quickly became friends with benery when he moved and benery taut him how to skate board.

B-u557- a top secret black mesa experiment to be the ultimate life form he was still brewing when the kids broke him out of his tube so he might have some defects mostly annoyed all the time but he is thrilled to be out of his tube and even more thrilled to finally be able to hear a scientist who has been visiting him.

Dr.coomer- a good friend of Tommy's dad but usually not taken very seriously by his coworkers. He is a little unusual and loud but is a very kind soul other scientists complaine that he talks to much. he works in many departments around black mesa but is most offensive seen in the robotics department is the founder of the black mesa boxing ring and has not lost his wife in the divorce yet. He likes to visit the secret experiment B-u557 to see how he's doing he does his rants to the experiment even though he knows he can't hear him. But b-u557 doesn't ever seem to be annoyed so he keeps visiting. Even if everyone else in black mesa tells him to stop.

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[s0upjuice]

5, 6, and 9 for the ask game?

thank you for the ask!!

5. whats a pokemon you would like to play as or with?

I think an obvious pick for me would be zorua (have a lil eevee/zorua team going on) but on the offchance we actually get a new pmd game with the dex up to gen 9 (pls) i think some good hero/partner nonstarter picks would be mudbray, rockruff, wooloo, yamper, pawmi and fidough.

6. how do you interpret gengar and gardevoir's relationship post game?

as depressing as it is, I always thought that after saving gardevoir from the curse, gengar truly just lets her go and probably disbands team meanies to move away from pokemon square. Its the last time we see him, but I think he'd consider it giving gardevoir the gift of freedom of having fun as a rescue team without feeling indebted to gengar. After spending all that time under a curse bc of him, I think he'd want her new life to be something completely different, even if that means a life without him. Gengar finally understood the value of Gardevoir's devotion to him, and how much that meant, so I think the most selfless and devoted thing he could do in turn is just swallowing his pride and desires to start again and just let her live as an independent explorer. He'd turn over a new leaf too, and live as an honest explorer somewhere else, or maybe just travel around to find a new purpose.

I do like the idea of gengar and gardevoir starting completely fresh tho. He'd never tell her about her past life but they'd have a far more respectful and equal-sided friendship.

9. what do you ship in the games? just like. in general

HERO X PARTNER FO LIFERSSSS! Across all games, their relationships are just so wholesome and meaningful. I'm not a huge fan of predestination and 'soulmates' but i think the hero/partner connection is so beautiful, and how many times, they have to fight the universe into being together. I like to see them as rewriting fate itself in order to reunite post game, like in GTI and PSMD, where you or your partner has to actively go on a quest to bring the other back. I think its even sweeter if you choose to imagine its always the two same souls being reincarnated over and over again whenever the world is in peril, always great partners and friends who will get the job done bc they just work perfectly together. Platonic or romantic, its just quite lovely. Throughout all of the teams ive made while replaying the games, whether i imagine them as friends or something more, its also just great fun to picture their little conversations, how their personalities mix, and side adventures they go on.

ahem. besides hero x partner, i quite like wigglytuff x chatot for being annoying gay dads, as well as power couple umbreon x espeon. but of course the real otp is team tasty!!

[drowninginredink]

Hi. Okay. I am about to talk about Shian for a really long time because I have thoughts. And @generaltrashshecox reminded me of them by talking about one of the huge draws to shian, which is that they are not the obvious other half to each other and yet they choose each other anyway. I love that aspect of it, but I'm not talking about that here.

A comparison a million people have made is Ian and Anthony to Shayne and Damien. Shayne as Ian 2.0 and Damien as Anthony 2.0. The idea that Ian and Shayne are the same is what really fascinates me about Shian, because they so are, and they so aren't.

Let's look at that on the most surface level. Ian is the face of Old Smosh and Shayne is the face of New Smosh. They both have carried the company and been the face of it. They both very much are Smosh in some people's eyes. When some people think Smosh, all they picture is Ian; when other people think of it, they just think of Shayne. They both very much have the weigh of this brand and entertainment enterprise on their shoulders. If you want a great case study/exploration of that, please read "drive it like you stole it". Talking to @furry-jackson about that fic is really where all of my Shian thoughts came from. Also God can she fucking write. Everyone should read everything he's written ever.

But. I want to take it a step beyond that. Because yes... the brand has both been on them... but not in the same way. Ian created Smosh with Anthony. Ian is attached to Smosh. We all know that when Anthony left, he asked Ian to come with him and Ian refused to leave this thing they created behind. Ian was the one who saved Smosh when Defy collapsed. Ian was the president of Smosh under Mythical; he's now the co-owner.

Shayne? Shayne is just talent. Well, talent, and a director, and presumably an unofficial writer/producer... but like... he's not in leadership. He has no stake in the company. One thing I think about so much is a single line from this video by Swell Entertainment about being on Reddit Stories. She talks about having a conversation with Shayne about her life as a self-employed YouTuber, and Shayne said he could never do that and he's so glad that working at Smosh means he can do YouTube as a 9-5. Most people with 9-5s are not that invested in them, you know? I mean clearly Shayne cares about Smosh way more than most people care about their jobs, but still... he's just an employee. He does not have the deep-seated ties to it that Ian does. He didn't create it. It's not his. He's just one part of a greater whole.

That's what really fascinates me about Shayne and Ian as a dynamic. Because yes. They are similar in so many ways. They're both very extroverted and yet reserved at the same time in interesting ways. They're figureheads of the company. They're leaders. And there is just a general simpatico vibe between them that I can't quite describe, but you feel it and you can tell that while they're cut from different cloth, they've been sewn into the same pattern. Their general vibes, for all they are different from each other, are also very much the same. But the one key difference between them is that weight. Shayne is fundamentally freer than Ian will ever be, because he did not create the brand, he does not own it, and he's never been more than a really prominent employee.

I've never actually seen anyone explore that. I think the closest I've seen to capturing it was the way @casblueeye wrote Shayne in The Kintsugi Kid. Shayne is a stay-at-home dad in that, and I do think that speaks to the fact that in a lot of ways, he is just along for the ride. He's happy in the role he's fallen into, even if that's not the most important one. I really haven't seen other fic writers capture that side of him that isn't ambitious but is instead just happy with where he is in life right now. I love it, and I think about it so much, and I'd love to see other people write Shayne the way that they did. But that's not a shian fic. I haven't seen anyone do it with Shian.

I am sure I'll eventually find a story beat where I can explore that, but right now I just have not found a shian premise for myself. I've got the dynamic, but there's no actual plot in my head. So since I have nothing to write with it, instead I am screaming about it on here so the rest of you can share my brainworms.

[theboywithburninghands]

The Mood of Humanz

And here’s the other Gorillaz album I’ve listened to the most. Same deal as the last one, just sort of felt like… talking about how each song makes me feel. Uh I didn’t include the interludes, since they’re just interludes. I also didn’t include any of the Super Deluxe tracks since I’ve only heard most of those once (except Garage Palace which is awesome) and wouldn’t have a ton to say. Read it or don’t, it’s fine with me.

1: Ascension: The beginning of a climactic party or protest concert. Here to hype you the hell up and make you excited and angry and happy.

2: Strobelite: You walked into a party that’s somehow chill and absolutely bumping at the same time. People are friendly and non-judgmental and the dance floor is open and there’s plenty to eat and drink.

3: Saturnz Barz: Feels like a cool, space themed retro video game that was made by someone from a different country that had an incredibly hard life. You don’t know what they’ve gone through from your place of privilege but you respect the hell out of them and what they’ve managed to do.

4: Momentz: Feels like you met a guy who’s way cooler than you to dance and hang around with at a party. He tells you about a one night stand with a girl, but by the end of the night you feel like he’s actually pretty sad and lonely.

5: Submission: This is a weird one, bear with me. This one feels like you’re in a poly relationship with a girl and a guy. You’re constantly depressed out of nowhere. Your girlfriend is sweet and patient and constantly there to support you, and she’s getting worried about your mental health. The guy doesn’t input much, maybe because he’s busy or he has his own demons, until one night when he just snaps and rants at you about how he can’t come to your pity party every day and you need to do something to help yourself. They’re both helpful and unhelpful in their own way.

6: Charger: This one is another tricky one. I think a YouTube comment I found about it sounding like a scene where a supervillain gets their powers describes it better than I ever could. It definitely sounds dark and menacing, but in, like, an awesome way.

7: Andromeda: Not a whole lot to say about this one. Feels like a big dance around a huge neon planet, maybe with some stars on the ceiling. Definitely a sort of “big finale” feeling to a party, or like the biggest budget dance event.

8: Busted and Blue: This one is easy. A bad depressive episode. Like, lay on your floor and stare at the ceiling while wishing you weren’t born, depressed. Feeling like a waste of skin, an irredeemable piece of scum depressed. Your loved ones secretly hate you and have hated you for years, depressed.

9: Carnival: Feels like a scary and kind of intentionally grotesque theme park. There’s stuff to do and games to play, but the guests around you seem nervous and the entertainers are way too into their job, or keep mumbling about how the system is manipulating you.

10: Let Me Out: Things are bad and they’ve gotten worse. They need to change or there won’t be a future for anyone. Some people are screwed just because they’re not part of the ruling race. It ain’t getting better, but you shouldn’t give up.

11: Sex Murder Party: Feels like the middle of a party (duh) but you spot a really ugly argument going on between a couple. One of them is sky high and acting reckless and the other is sitting in the corner, seething. They might do something crazy. You should probably go somewhere else.

12: She’s My Collar: A snapshot of a really sexually satisfying but unhealthy relationship. It’s not good for you, but it’s what you need right now, so you keep your mouth shut and enjoy it.

13: Hallelujah Money: A rich person you really don’t like is on tv somewhere in public, so you can’t turn the tv off. They’re bragging about another accomplishment they don’t deserve, and you have to listen to them. This song is kind of like peeling back the mask and showing exactly what kind of greed and arrogance this person is vomiting out without the veneer of kindness.

14: We Got The Power: A pretty simple motivational song. Feels sort of artificial, which may or may not be the point.

15: The Apprentice: Kind of like watching someone you used to like become cruel and incredibly pompous when they’re offered a fat paycheck. Reminds me of trash streamers.

16: Halfway to The Halfway House: Feels like a splitting headache that suddenly hits you in the middle of a party, so you have to lay down somewhere and ride it out while you watch people around you have fun and get wasted.

17: Out of Body: You’re not really fitting in at the party, until you find a girl that persuades you to try something different and kinda crazy. Drugs? A real satanic ritual? She’s nice and talks you through it but why are her eyes glowing? You have an incredible time, but she disappears after everything is over.

18: Ticker Tape: Getting home from a party and relaxing by yourself. You don’t feel amazing, but you’re content at least. It’s getting cold so you can see your breath on the way home. Peaceful.

19: Circle of Friendz: Throwing empty beer bottles at a brick wall while you and your friends sit around and do nothing. You guys have been friends for ages and can spend time together and get nothing interesting done and still be satisfying. It’s a waste of time, but a pleasant one.

[maniacwatchestheworld]

The top 10 Two-Face/Harvey Dent looks

So I gathered my sister (@steeltypeloverbecca) and my ex (who doesn't really use social media) and together we ranked every Two-Face/Harvey Dent Look that I could be bothered to get my hands on from best to worst. In total we ranked over 200 Looks (general character designs and outfits). We agreed upon where to rank things between us via our emotions, hearts, and feelings. Here are the top 10 that we agreed upon.

10: Samurai Two-Face from Batman Ninja

What happens when you drop Two-Face into feudal Japan? Why he decides to become a samurai, of course! This one is just a fun Look that plays with the sensibilities of the time period the story takes place in interesting ways. I can't help but to imagine how much of a pain in the ass this outfit would have been to forge for the people in the story lol. But the textures, patterns, and little details in how the two sides of his outfit differ are just great! Huge kudos to the artists who worked on this look! They did a great job! A very fun time travel Look!

9: Classic Look

The original Look for Two-Face (more or less). This outfit is a classic for a reason and it's completely understandable why people continue to bring variations of this Look back over the years. It works! And I feel like the strength of this outfit has greatly contributed to Two-Face's popularity and continued longevity as a character. I had a lot of other pretty similar Looks to this one on the list, but ultimately his shoes on this one really won us over to rank it as high as we did. Solid asymmetrical character design, our boi is looking good, and this Look is simply iconic in a way that is entirely deserving of a top spot.

8: THE MOST BALLERINA Two-Face look from Batman: Masque

So I put 3 of Harvey's Looks from Batman: Masque onto the list overall, and all 3 of them made it into the top 10 Looks. But can you blame us!!!??? This was the WORST of the 3 looks and it is simply fabulous! I know nothing about ballet, but this outfit? Fun, flamboyant, dramatic, and probably historically inspired in a way that I know nothing about! It's a perfect outfit for the stage, and Two-Face just looks so goddamn elegant in it! This outfit is a winner and I love it! And yet it is somehow the worst of the three options!??? Surprising, I know!

7: Ballerina Harvey from Batman: Masque (casual look)

Whoever decided that Harvey should be a ballerina for this loose adaptation of the Phantom of the Opera, but make it Batman was a goddamn genius! We get all of these elegantly dressed Harveys and they are all great Looks in their own right! Here's a casual one, and before his disfiguration at that too! It's always nice to see a more casual Harvey. And this one is a handsome gent! I'm a sucker for the vest look on Harvey, and the green vest and pink cravat are a great combo. Plus those frills? Great Look. Ionic. Fantastic. So congrats to this look for being the best of Harvey's non-disfigured Looks.

6: Classic Turtleneck look from A Lonely Place Of Dying

So you know how I mentioned before that I included a few variations on the classic Look in this list? Well, here was one such look that was actually requested! And how can you improve on a classic look like Two-Face's original look? Simple, really! You simplify it! No patterns on this suit, and instead of a dress shirt, he's wearing a turtleneck. It's simple, casual, and it looks GREAT! Harvey's looking ready for a night out on the town or to do some chill crime! This look feels a bit 70's to me, but it's just a great and solid one overall!

5: Phantom of the Opera but it's ballet w/ dramatic cape from Batman: Masque

And here it is. Peak ballerina Harvey! The best Ballerina!Harvey Look! How can you look at this Look and not immediately fall in love with it! We looked at this and knew. Immediate classic. Immediately iconic! How can we not!? It's just so good! The hat! The cape! The colors! It's simple, elegant, and yet showy and dramatic! This outfit is wonderful in every way and is executed to perfection! It's simply iconic. One hell of a Look! How can we not love it!?

4: DC Legends Two-Face

Just a solid look with great execution. Everything about this outfit works and to a fantastic degree. It's different enough to stand out above many other black and white suit Looks, and the bright reds of the pinstripes, tie, and face give it just a little bit of POP! Not to mention those simply gorgeous eyes! They did more with the black and white suit Look than many bother to do, while also not over complicating it and keeping things simple. It's just incredibly solid and executes on everything it wants to do with a simple sense of style and panache! A simply great look!

3: Glam Rock Two-Face

Now this. THIS is A Look! Imagine my disappointment when I was pointed to the Deathstroke comics for a Look, saw THIS on the cover, only to find out that this is not how Two-Face is actually dressed within its pages AT ALL! This Look is incredible. It's glam rock! It's punk! And it's fantastic! A classy suit and one of the few Looks that pulls off using the color yellow well on one side, and just... The coolest disaster of a look on the other! Harvey looks GREAT in pink (and purple), and people do themselves a disservice when they don't embrace that fact! The bedazzled diamond patterns. What looks like bright and messy paint on his under shirts. The torn and battered quality of that side of the suit. This Look is incredible, I LOVE it! This needs to legitimately be in a comic somewhere sometime and not just tease us on the cover! I love this look so much, I would absolutely want a figurine of this Look! This Look absolutely deserves its place in the top 3 Looks!

2: William Shatner Two-Face from Batman vs. Two-Face

What can I say? We love William Shatner in this household, and a William Shatner Two-Face!? We are all for this! Once again, we have a look that's very much been inspired by Two-Face's classic look. Just a little simplified, and the colors desaturated for the sake of animation and to fit the world and style of the film. But William Shatner as Two-Face? I feel like that casting was simply inspired! The fact that Harvey looks a fair bit like a young William Shatner within the film was just a GREAT decision. Shatner was a good looking guy in his youth, and I think that for a Two-Face look to work, he does need to be handsome on his normal side. Just a great look. And since we love Shatner in this household, we couldn't give him anything less than an S tier rating! S for Shatner!

1: Monochrome suit from Batman: the Animated Series

And to nobody's surprise, our #1 ranked Two-Face look was his design from Batman: the Animated Series. What can we even say about this Look that isn't obvious just from looking at him? This iteration codified the black and white suit and for good reason! This Look is one that is so classic that it somehow beats out the original classic Look in terms of classic Looks that they keep bringing back! It's gorgeously elegant. It's stylish. It's simple. It's classy. It's just perfect, really! We agreed that somehow the Animated Series made Harvey look MORE handsome after his disfiguration than before it! We ranked how Harvey looked before he became Two-Face in the show. He looks kinda weird originally. But here? Oh. He's a handsome devil here! Somehow they managed to make his disfiguration look classy, handsome, and stylish too! Just like his outfit. Everything about this Look and how it's executed just WORKS! Many have tried to replicate its success, to try and adjust this Look to make it something different, but just as good. None have succeeded. We have ranked many a black and white suit look and none are able to quite reach this peak of character design. So of course it had to take the top spot! It's a good Look, we all know it, and of course it beats out all the others! 10/10 fantastic Look!

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Pokemon Scarlet Character Thoughts: League Members

Katy

The first (if you go in order based on strength) Gym Leader people will face. Her outfit is rather cute, and her dialogue is enjoyable as well, but to be brutally honest, she’s kind of boring. I had actually forgot about her later on in the game as she didn’t stick with me compared to some of the other leaders. I do enjoy seeing that the Paldea Leaders have additional occupations instead of just being a Gym Leader, as it gives them more character depth. I think Katy is a nice character, just a bit boring compared to other characters, maybe if she had more bright pops of color in her outfit it might make her stand out a bit more. Her gym challenge was fun, as it made me think of the olive farms in Italy that have huge harvest festivals.

Brassius

The thirst I had for this tired look man when he first dropped! This tired man is so extra but I love it! Brassius, as well as other characters in these games, all give me vibes of theatre children, they’re so extra, but also passionate and unique. He’s an artist but also a climber, as when we first met him, he was on top of a windmill! Compared to other grass gym leaders I love that he gives off a totally different vibe, he’s edgier, but he does have his moments, especially later on in the game. His gym challenge was fun, playing hide and seek with Sunflora, I’m not sure if other people had this happen, but one of the last Sunflora actually ran from me and I had to chase it down and battle it to get it to come with me.

I 100% totally believe that these two cupcakes are dating and have been for a long while! They have cute nicknames for each other and just look so comfortable with each other! One thing (of many) that solidifies this is Brassius is the grass gym leader, and Hassel has a Flapple, which, according to the Pokedex and lore, if you give an Applin to someone you care about you’ll be together forever!! It’s canon and they’re so stinking cute together I could cry!!

Iono

In comparison to Katy, who I think is a little bland looking, Iono is the exact opposite, she’s vibrant, colorful, and definitely not forgettable. If I had one complaint, I feel like she’s almost a little over designed, she is very busy from her outfit, her adorable pastel hair, oversized accessories, her shark teeth, and her wild personality. This is not to say she’s unlikable as I adore her character, she’s fun and lively and her gym challenge was very fun.

Kofu

He is another gym leader whose personality I adore, he’s so nice when he’s coming out to our match, interacting with kids and other people around, he’s so likeable. This being said, his facial hair, eyebrows and beard, are... yeah... I’ll leave it at that. It was nice to have a bit more involvement to getting to the point of battling him, from taking his wallet to the auction, winning the auction, and then meeting him back in his town, but I kind of wish there was an actual gym challenge on top of it as it would have been interesting to see what Gamefreak could have come up with for a challenge for his gym.

Larry

Oh lordie, this tired, old, normal, salaryman. HOW I LOVE YOU!!! 100/10 best gym leader EVER!!! He vibes so much with me as I work a grueling 9 to 5 office job myself, so I complete understand why this cupcake is the way he is! Yes, he is plain design wise, but his character is anything but forgettable as everything flows so easily together for him. I was also extremely happy to find out that his style when throwing his Pokeballs was based on Koyo Aoyagi of the Hanshin Tigers! I know baseball is very big over in Japan, but to see this little easter egg in a Pokemon game was very enjoyable!

Ryme

Even though I adore Larry to pieces, Ryme is my favorite Paldea Gym Leader, she’s fierce, she uses one of my favorite types of Pokemon, she’s the sister of one of the teachers, and she’s a rapper! Her gym challenge was overly simple, but it was all forgiven when I came out to see her in a rap battle with a store clerk! I was offended when she asked if I wanted a rap battle and then told me no, even though I would get torn to shreds by Ryme, I still wanted to have fun! Her design is so much fun and I love when she gets mad and her eyes go white, that’s so funny when it happens. Not going to lie, when I see Ryme and Tyme, all I see is Salt n’ Pepper!

Tulip

Her design is so beautiful, she’s elegant and feminine and just so freaken pretty!! She gives that vibe that she can snap your neck if you disrespect her without any issues while putting on mascara and not losing a single ounce of her concentration. When I first met her, I thought she was a snob, as she was on the phone, but once I got to see more of her character afterwards, she quickly grew in favor and showed that she’s not just a pretty face. Her gym challenge was Simon Says with a few battles thrown in, nothing majorly difficult, but my favorite thing was the photo we took afterwards, she did that position in those high as frick heels and made it look easy.

Grusha

Grusha is so pretty but personality-wise, I hated this pompous prick until I saw more of the dialogue. Grusha was very rude to me and acted like battling me was going to be a huge waste of time. However, I came to realize that Grusha was trying to protect me, by being an asshole, as Grusha was one of the top snowboarders, keyword ‘was’ which makes me think there was an accident with major injury that resulted in Grusha’s retirement; they’re trying to keep others from doing the same because they don’t want us to get hurt and ruin our futures. Grusha is, according to the official site, male, but I’m not convinced, and prefer to keep their pronouns gender-neutral. Design wise I love Grusha’s design, it’s simple but not boring, I love the two-toned hair color and the oversized scarf that is so adorable that I want to find a tutorial to crochet myself one.

Rika

GAY PANIC INTENSIFIES!!!

When I first saw her, I thought Rika was a skinny man, but once I found out that she was female, my inner lesbian all of about exploded from immense glee! Her design is amazing!! I can’t find a single thing bad to say about her other than I wish we had seen more of her and had more interactions with her!!

Poppy

How in the world did this child become an Elite Four member at such a young age? When I first met her, I was in disbelief, how is this possible?! She was decently strong, and her design is rather cute, and the dialogue she has with others is rather cute. It is amusing to see this little bebe that is one of the strongest trainers in Paldea. I feel like her color palette could use something, her outfit is mostly all the same color and I wish that there was some more color differences, like maybe her shoes could be black as well, and the lining of her jacket could be black. I’m not sure what that giant key thing around her neck is, it reminds me of a key holder that younger kids would carry their house keys in. Ahh latchkey kids, brings back memories...

Larry

Nuff said <3

Hassel

Woof, this man radiates DILF energy, he’s elegant, kind, and goes hard in battles but is so sweet and a wonderful teacher on top of it! When I found out he was in the Elite Four after only knowing him as my art teacher, I squeed. His design of beautiful, his eyes remind of me of a hawk, and his clothes scream professor but at the same time he’s so handsome!! He was one of the hardest battles in the game when I faced him in the Champion Test, but I loved it! By end game (Elite Four time) I’m usually over-leveled as I want to be able to handle it in one shot, but he gave me a run for my money. When I beat him and he started to cry and tell me how proud he was of me, I cried, I wanted to immediately adopt him as my new dad.

Geeta

Not going to lie, when I first saw her, I thought she was going to pull a Chairman Rose and be the secret secondary bad guy like in Sword and Shield. The way she carried herself and just the vibe screamed sus to me, and I just couldn’t shake it. Now that I’ve finished the game and now know that she is just a very serious person, I’ve come to appreciate her more as a character, unless if they bring out a DLC and my sus vibes were telling me the truth and she really is evil! Her design was a little...ehh for me. Her hair is very full, almost like a mane, and her outfit makes her seem very boxy, unlike Rika who pulled the look off well. She is another character that I wish had a bit more color in her palette, the black, blue, and yellow is fine, I just wish there was a bit more of varying colors.

Overall, the Paldea League is very diverse, design wise, and most of the characters, if you didn’t know them, you wouldn’t be able to tell what kind of trainer they were, which I like, as it makes it fun to learn through trial and error with each of these trainers.

[hell0kittyland]

Anti vent???

Warning long as fuck:

So y’all, today I stood infront of a mirror and actually inspected my body and did a proper body check. And you know what I never realised how much body dysmorphia has ruined my life😭 because I don’t even look THAT bad. Granted the weightloss is a must and I need a flat stomach but as for the stretch marks and uneven skintone, it’s really not that fucking bad. Cause in my head I was so out of it I was at peace with dying alone and never getting a boyfriend or having a first kiss, and I’m FUCKING 20? I turned 20 this years June.. and I’m like the amount of guys I’ve rejected is crazy all because I’m so insecure with my body it’s insane, like I’m going to have a mental meltdown if a man sees me unclothed because my brain will genuinely push itself to suicide or something insane because I’ll demean myself ext and it’s just sad. But I looked in the mirror today with no makeup ext it was the morning and I was just wearing my bra and panties and I inspected myself and my tits are actually pretty there not saggy not perky, sit nice and are a nice shape and amount. I’m very tall at 5”9 so I have a model look especially with my cheekbones on my face so I’m genuinely a pretty girl however I never care enough because I’m so obsessed with the mentality of “maybe in the next life” or “maybe if I reincarnate into a normal girl I won’t have to deal with this shit” which why do I have to wait till I FUCKING DIE to be happy, wear the clothes I want and have a relationship. Now bitch I’m not trying to sound conceited yeah I’m a little crazy and I’m diagnosed autism + adhd goes crazy and yeah I have BPD tendencies (not diagnosed) in close relationships where I self destruct because of self hate and abandonment issues that I ruin everything. Yeah I’m socially fucking extremely awkward and I’m corny as hell but you know what, I sat there and I was fuck, if I was a male, I would date me. Oh 100% like I WOULD unironically date me. And realising this had me abit shocked. You know I sat there and spread my legs and inspected my kitty and I was like hmmm it’s not bad tmi but you know I actually had a pretty conventionally tight cough cough. So I checked my ass and my thighs and yeah my legs are weirdly disproportionately skinny compared to my top half but my ass wasn’t that bad either. But I was like … the fucking stretch marks got me, I’m not talking 1 or 2 or a few. I’m talking them bitches EVERYWHERE like In places you wouldn’t even expect.

And I sat there like okay I’m really not that bad I just need to work on myself abit, fix my life, get a proper job and make enough money cause I’m broke ass bitch currently with no life so once I’m economically up I can get treatment for the stretchmarks and save up. Move out of home stuff like this AND THEN I can try dating which is a huge thing since I was actually so convinced I would die alone, but now I’m like wtf I’m kinda not ugly. Like mentally I was hell bent that I was a science experiment, if y’all saw what I looked like ext you would think… bitch you look fine. Which it’s those things where you see yourself in a completely different way than others and it’s like a mental disease. Consuming too much media since I was child fucked up the way I saw bodies and shit, but like I was on the app flo and reading womens stories about there relationship wnd insecurities I realised how NORMAL my issues where… like all this time my autistic ass brain made it seem like I’m a monster with a lisp and a fucked up body and woahhh nobody will ever love me but then I read stuff about women where I’m like… hold on this is kinda… normal?

Fucking ED and my messed up culture and family have Ruined my body image forever, diet culture in my home is so normal my mom has a undiagnosed ED it’s so obvious, my sister does fucking everybody fasts like it’s normal and there’s all types of Ana related shit at home 😭 I asked my mom but me a 1 cal oil spray to cook so it doesn’t stick to the skillet since olive oil is fucking ridiculously high in cals

And she bought me not ONE but TWO. Obviously she told me to stop and cried when I did a 30 day water fast and said I looked like those starved kids in poorer countries 😭 cause of my cheeks hollowed out but in general dieting is encouraged and rewarded in my extremely dysfunctional home.

Anyways TLDR: learned I’m not a complete ugly pig monster oink oink 🐷 today and I’m not even that bad, just some adjustments and improvements so uh don’t worry I’m still stuck with my fucking life sucking ED but I don’t really give a fuck and I’m kinda content with life today hehe

[cephiwyrm]

please please please share all of your ocs!!

HELLO YES I WILL??? there was one i was specifically vague posting about in the one reblog which i will NOT but i will share something funny abt him

my ex made a cardboard cut out of him, hated him so much they STABBED HIM and then mailed me the arm, and of course i still own it. ANYWAYS! pulling these from my main toyhouse (i have an ugly watermark i am so sorry) let the rambling begin (extremely long i am so sorry LMAO)

(cutely pulls up a piece of art) alright this is my cherry pop story! they are 3 cryptid / unnatural monster type hunters in a universe that is pretty much exactly like earth 1:1 except it was cats and dogs that became the main dominant species. the main character (aka just the one we see through her POV theyre all main characters to me.sniff) is Annie! she is a quiet and get it done type of character, besides working the 9 to 5 monster hunting job, she really likes games (this takes place in the 2000s btw) and is interested in how mechanical stuff works! also she is a trans icon :)

next is Peyton! shes she nerdy, figure it out type. probably the one in the group the most interested in what they're actually being paid to do; also one of the first ones to notice what is actually going on. she mainly enjoys going out and fucking around with her skateboard and shes a little sillay gal

last but not least in cherry pop is Micah! hes the brawns and usually helps with doing physical objectives, and also just catching the monsters in general if need be. first one to come to conclusions, even if they are SEVERELY wrong. he is captain of the swim team and wishes to go to a bigger college one day (they are in a small town)

OK NEXT !! AFTER PARTY they are some of my oldest ocs (not OLDEST oldest but def. there) and their story is a little all over the place since its with me and my friends and we havent gotten into it recently (its basically a masquerade type kill scenario) all their art is a little old but this is Okano! at a very young age, her father died and she was able to take over a very well off company. Well she doesn't make huge decisions by herself at the moment, she shows great opportunity in the future. she is very distrusting because of it though, and takes a while to warm up to people.

next is kaga! (one next to peyton) shes a little silly gal, shes very reckless and kind of doesn't care about danger shes in it for the thrill. absolutelu kills it being a roller blader, but also just likes walking around with no shoes on. also ! she works in a tattoo shop :)))

now realizing i have a lot of. trio characters huh. anyways! heres kiki. no ur not getting a genuine image bebcause she iisss so baby...... anyways; she is a french vlogger! she loves exploring the world and showing it to her growing number of people. also has a small AU inside of stardew valley :) shes obsessed with seagulls as well

ok realizing i have too many ocs and i dont want this to be like two million word post (30+ on my main and more not even on TH) so ill end off with my TTRPG charas :) this is Milo my druid aarakocra for DnD! on like the second session he got struck by lightining and got a god that way. When he was just a litol baby he wandered off from his home and into a forest where his brother, an elf named Leo, went up to his soon to be mentor/father figure Crechir like CAN WE PLEASE KEEP HIM PELASEEEEEE and may or may not have lied about his entire home burning to the ground later on he found a little gold dragon which when touching different objects changed colour; and was named skittle. little funny thing about skittle was everytime a gold coin was fed, he would grow just a little bit. even more later on, he was sent an ominous message about his birth home about how his mother had died and he was the next chieftan and so he had to go do some special trials in order to become one! he also went to the hell casino and since crechir gave him chips he was able to get an amulet that lets him shift between his two forms, treefolk and birdfolk

and finally, this is Ash for MOTW! she is a twin in a small town in canamerica (canada and america fused because our irl party is in both) due to being a twin, she was born with some spooky (haha her class) powers, and will send her twin Ali memes via telapathy. unfortunately being a teen with powers, she is also kind of very angsty and prone to some bursts of outrage. besides that, she has a very strong interest in wood carving, while her twin loves to hunt crytids, due to the strangeness of their town they have to deal with it every once in a while! they have a pet snake belovingly named banana (or boenana. shes a boa constrictor) and is honestly a teen that is addicated to her phone

ty for reading if you did!! i fucking LOVE MY OCS. SO MUCH. I WILL GO ON AND ON ABOUT THEM UNTIL I RUN OUT OF THEIR ACTUAL STORY

[wondereads]

Personal Review (01/23/22)

Defy the Night by Brigid Kemmerer

Summary

Tessa is an apothecary who steals Moonflower, the only cure for a fever that has long since plagued the kingdom of Kandala, and distributes it to those who can't afford it. Corrick is the King's Justice, younger brother to King Harriston, and responsible for punishing smugglers that steal Moonflower. They're on two sides of a conflict as rebels grow bolder and rumors of the cure losing its efficacy rise.

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I really liked the plot of this book. The basic elements are probably something you've seen in various fantasy books, but they come together really well. There's a good amount of tension through the entire thing with the consuls, the rebels, and Tessa and Corrick's own secrets. I was never bored, and I actually almost missed an appointment with a professor when I got caught up in the story toward the end. For the most part, I think there is a good balance between the information given and the information withheld. I could guess who was behind the rebels, but it was a satisfying guess, the kind that I was very pleased to have predicted correctly.

This is a fantasy world, but other than the fever and Moonflower, it doesn't really have any fantastical elements. It keeps things manageable for the reader, especially since there are a lot of political elements to keep track of. I do wish that there had been some more investigation into the origin of the fever and Moonflower's connection to it, though I bet that'll be covered in the second book. Also, while the fever is the catalyst for all these problems, it feels like it isn't given as much weight as it should. I think if maybe one of the main characters or major side characters had caught the fever, it would have raised the stakes quite a bit.

Characters 1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10

Tessa is a pretty good main character. She's got the typical traits of a YA fantasy protagonist (strong morals, perseverance, etc.), though I think her situation is well-constructed to make these traits reasonable in her. Her parents also stole Moonflower and made the cure, which makes her involvement with smuggling and her apothecary skills reasonable. She grew up in a country with seemingly huge wealth disparity where money is literally the difference between life and death. Finally, when it comes to her interacting with Corrick and Harriston, normally I would have an issue. Her willingness to cooperate and see their side of things wouldn't normally make sense for a character like her, but the circumstances surrounding how they meet work really well to make this reasonable.

I quite liked Corrick as well, even though I am firmly in the 'eat the rich' camp in real life. Kemmerer did a very good job of humanizing him and bringing in the conflict between what he wants to do and what is necessary in order to create a character that is hated but not irredeemable. His relationship with Harriston is complicated, and I don't think it's all quite resolved by the end of the book. I also really liked Corrick and Tessa's romance. I always prefer intense slow burns over multiple books, but I feel like their relationship is well written, not rushed, and they definitely have a couple very good scenes between them.

I'll be honest. I don't trust Harriston. I feel like in the next book he's going to on-purpose or accidentally create a very big problem. I also have an intense dislike for Allisander, though I'm sure that goes for everyone. I have no doubts that he will continue to cause problems. The only other major side character is Quint, who I like, but he doesn't have much nuance right now.

Writing Style 1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10

I would consider the writing of the book standard for YA. There were some points at which I was really struck by the writing, but there were other moments where I definitely thought "oh, that's a really common phrase." I do appreciate the naming conventions of this book; a lot of high fantasy, at least that I've read recently, have these really weird or lazy names for things, and that is, thankfully, absent in this book.

The pacing is very good. Like I mentioned in the plot section, there is good tension throughout, and I was never bored. Information was revealed at a steady pace in order to keep the characters moving and the reader invested. This book has a lot of factors going on at one time, making sure there is never a lull in the story other than maybe some softer scenes, but it also isn't overwhelming.

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This was a good book with a really strong plot. I think the pacing and the different factors contributing to the political situation made the story interesting and engaging. The characters, while a little typical, had personalities that made sense with their situations, and the romance was sweet but didn't dominate the story. It was just overall a very solid book that grabbed my attention, and I'm definitely interested in reading the sequel.

The Author

Brigid Kemmerer: American, 45, also wrote A Curse So Dark and Lonely, Letters to the Lost, and Call It What You Want

The Reviewer

My name is Wonderose; I try to post a review every week, and I do themed recommendations every once in a while. I take suggestions! Check out my about me post for more!

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#5

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151 notes - Posted September 17, 2022

#4

Ok, so you know that whole "HBO Max killing off cartoons" thing that happened recently? So after some digging (and by that I mean watching this video from Shark3ozero) the situation is so much worse than that. Like... Monstrously worse.

In case you don't know, it's not just cartoons and their creators that have been f__ked over recently, but a WHOLE SWATH OF PoC CREATORS HAVE BEEN LAID OFF. Like, almost no non-whites left in executive positions.

Apparently, before the merger, Discovery has a more white, old, heteronormative demographic than HBO, and instead of trying to consolidate the 2 demographics, Discovery's CEO, David Zaslav, has been made into the CEO of both sides of the company, and is trying to turn one into the other. To this end, he has slashed the divisions overseeing kids, family and international content, and intends to create more content for "Middle America." So yes, they cut Infinity Train and Batgirl and others BECAUSE. THEY. ARE. DIVERSE. CONTENT. They are deliberately removing different cultures from their services because catering exclusively to white audiences is more profitable... According to them. I have serious doubts this is casting the net wider instead of narrower. (Also, another part of the shift is that they want to pivot back to cable content and away from streaming, which... Lol, good luck man. Warn-scover-CNBO might already be on a collision course, and fingers crossed that it is.)

OH, BUT IT GETS WORSE. APOCALYPTICLY WORSE.

HBO also owns CNN, and they have a new chairman in the shadow of the merger, Chris Licht. It's already canned one news show, 'Reliable Programming' a show frequently critiqued the republicans and fox news, and has warned that "more changes are coming soon."

Worst of all, John Malone, who is on WBD's board, and gave Zaslav his job in 2006, has explicitly said that he wants to CNN to have a "less liberal bias", and thinks that Fox News "makes actual journalism." Yes, Fox dominating a third of US cable news is not enough, he wants to make another 3rd of it propaganda programming.

Warn-scover-CNBO's market capitol were flushed down the tubes in light of all this horses__t, but in order to keep the a new propaganda apparatus of unfathomable scale from rising, it must stay down and never recover. Warn-scover-CNBO's changes scaring off huge droves of people is an objective good, and the complete collapse of the company is our only hope now.

Tl;dr: The death of Infinity Train and Uncle Grampa is the canary in the coal mine of a massive swath of pop culture and journalistic practice turning into a right-wing propaganda apparatus unlike anything seen before.

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[karlathewitch]

Fine then, here are my answers:

1. I'm a quality inspector, but I consider writing to be my real job (even if it makes zero money)

2. Never done that before.

3. A huge mishmash of random songs. I go for the vibe, not a certain genre.

4. None. I don't and can't cook or bake.

5. Sleeping?

6. I actually don't regret much. Every bad thing what happened made me who I am today.

7. None?

8. Two. Hungarian and English.

9. I don't want to fall in love due to being autistic. I'm affraid that I end up getting hurt because of it, or worse I unknowingly hurt my loved one.

10. Gideon the Ninth.

11. To be a librarian.

12. Nope.

13. 4 siblings, and I'm somewhere in the middle. (Doesn't matter, bc basicly my family disowned me)

14. Like 165 cm

15. I'm a trans woman, and THAT thing gives me huge dysphoria, and is the main source of my insecurities.

16. Don't celebrate it, but december 14.

17. In hs my "friends" tricked me into believing that a girl has a crush on me, and I should ask her out. She didn't.

18. I have over 200 books, so maybe that.

19. I'm asexual. But I did stay up late, playing Dark Souls 3, if that counts.

20. What is do do? (If it's a sex thing, then refer to 19.)

21. I have too many songs what do that. I love them equally.

22. Every hungarian "rap song". They remind me of my brother.

23. Texts please.

24. I don't have a partner, so no?

25. I think some people deserve to die. Pedophiles, murderers and such shouldn't be sent to prison, but instead they should just execute them.

26. Yes.

27. My imagination, my love for books, and the fact that I can entertain myself with my mind anytime.

28. Having kids.

29. I'm trans, autistic, asexual, and romantically attracted to women. I am VERY different from my childhood image of me.

30. One small hungarian one. Guess what, a rapper.

Really Get To Know Me

Threw together a small list of questions to ask to get to know everybody better.

What do you do for work?

Tell me about your first kiss.

What playlists do you have on your phone?

Do you like cooking or baking more?

Guilty pleasures?

Something you regret.

Celebrity crush?

How many languages do you know?

Make a confession.

What's your favorite book?

What was your childhood dream job?

Do you have any pets?

How many siblings do you have? Are you oldest, middle, or youngest?

How tall are you?

What's something you're insecure about?

When is your birthday?

Embarrassing memory?

What's the most expensive thing you've ever bought?

Have you ever had a one night stand?

Have you ever been caught doing the do?

A song that evokes a good memory?

A song that evokes a bad memory?

Do you prefer phone calls, facetime, or texting?

Your favorite pet name from your partner? (baby girl, honey, brat, etc.)

What's a controversial opinion you have?

Do you believe in second chances?

3 things you love about yourself.

What is something you are sure you'd NEVER do?

How different is your actual adult self from how you pictured it when you were little?

Have you ever met a celebrity?

Free Pass! (Ask whatever question you want to know that's not on the list)

[momminainteasy]

PART 1- ME

Hello, my name is Shelby i am a first time mom to a boy in my 30’s. Some say that means i’m ready for a baby but what they don’t know is i actually had my mind made up when I was 28 that if I didn’t have a baby by 30 I wouldn’t. I had my Beautiful baby boy 5 months before my 30th birthday. 

Since then i have completely stepped away from my crazy 8-5 job and me & my boyfriend Jacob decided I would stay home and hold the fort down. Adjusting to the stay at home mom life and not having my steady income coming in that i had been used to since I was 16 years old has been a HUGE ADJUSTMENT to me.. don’t get me wrong i am loving the stay at home mom life. It’s just something i have to get used too, And HONESTLY I need to find another hobby to bring momma in some extra spending cash. [Still working on that.] 

This blog is going to be about my blessed mess of a life, Rv life, small town Missouri country life, Boy mom life, & me trying to navigate through mom life at 30. 

Some more about me i also have our two crazy dogs to care of. Charlie my 9 year old border collie mix, & my wild 5 year old Frenchie Blossom. They keep me on my toes, but not as much as my 7 month old Benjamin. I didn’t realize how much my life was missing until i had Benjamin this last April. 

Back story i was with someone for almost 8 years. NEVER got pregnant, (not that we was trying, but we weren’t exactly NOT trying either.) Things were rocky, between me trying to love someone that worked like a dog never had time off for us {EVER} and also struggled with some mental health issues & major cultural differences. I wasn’t loving myself anymore at all. I was so consumed with helping the person i loved. I COMPLETELY lost myself. While i stayed in this relationship for 8 years my partner decided to leave me to “Work on himself” (I wish him the best i really do) I was devastated to say the least.  It was a hard year for me. I didn’t understand how someone i stood by, helped, & cared for so much would do that or could do that to me but he did and it was time I FINALLY crawled out of the dark place i was in and put MYSELF first. 

After 11 months of being single I had lost 70 pounds. That was something I had been struggling with and needed to do for years. I was going out more and feeling myself 😊 I decided i was going to get on the date site BUMBLE.  (First time ever so i was nervous) I loved it because the guys couldn’t reach out to you. They could like you but you had to reach out to them.  After being on it for about a week i got a notification from Jacob. OH. MY. GOSH.  I thought he was dreamy. At first I didn’t think he could like me. But he did. I reached out to Jake. We hung out went out on a date. And the rest was history. ❤️ Me and Jake had only known each other for three months and i got pregnant. Some people would probably be freaking out.. but it wasn’t like that for us. We were both happy and both ready for a baby.  I remember being so happy thinking that this was finally my time!  We now have a beautiful, smart, healthy baby boy and i wouldn’t trade our life for anything in this entire world. I hope you all enjoy my ted talks and my rambling. More to come.. 

SC. 

[tamerajedwards]

I am really really enjoying being a grandma. 💕 I really goofed up being a Mom. I was a young divorced Mom at age 27 raising two little girls ages 3 and 5 all alone until they were grown. Their Dad had them on weekends and Wednesday. I was working two and three jobs without a college education, gone all the time and my parents stepped in and helped me raise them. I felt so bad, so guilty, and like a huge failure. I was out searching for love, instead of being a super Mom. I failed at being at their softball games and other activities because I was trying to rebuild my life. I was blind to what was really important in life. I wonder if my children will ever forgive me for my shortcomings. But I have been redeemed by my Heavenly Father. Praise God! He has thrown my sins into the sea 🌊 of forgiveness and they are no more. Now I must forgive myself and let go. I did what I could at the time. Life was extremely difficult for me and for them. Oh how I wish I could go back in time and change so many things but I can’t. Time marches on and waits for no one. The beautiful thing about that is that we can learn from our mistakes. Life is one big classroom. We learn every day until our graduation day as we exit earth to enter heaven.

I have a daughter that reminds me that I let her down years ago when I continually failed to buy her scholastic books when the order paper came home. I didn’t even make it to book fairs where children absolutely love to buy books and other fun trinkets. I actually LOVE ❤️ to shop in there too! I’ve always loved buying books. Yesterday as I was able to be my granddaughters third grade teacher for the day I gave her 30.00 to spend at the school book fair. At first she would not accept my money. I thought “ahh you’re being stubborn like you’re mother!” Then I asked her why and she said she wouldn’t take the money unless her brother was able to get some too. I said, “Of course I’m going to give him the same amount of money to spend.” I showed her two ziplock bags with their names on them and the money for books. I plan on giving my other grandkids that go to a different school the same amount. It made me cry, because I desperately needed them to take the gifts from me. You see giving is such a gift in life! It’s so important to not reject and take away from the blessing when someone wants to give to you. I actually love to give more than receive. It blesses my heart. Lately I’ve been sending money to people with cancer. Usually ones that are young parents with kids and the families are struggling with losing one parent.

So I’ve come full circle. God had given me a chance to be the greatest grandmother I can be. By giving them my time and love 💕. He even gave me the finances to spend on them. Believe me, I have to pray that in because there are 9 of them. Ha! God is amazing! Oh what freedom we have to be forgiven! What a beautiful thing to be redeemed. Second chances are beautiful. He has cleared my pathway and sharpened my vision. Getting older isn’t so bad after all. There is beauty in wisdom. I love 💕 you all. Blessings Xo T

[firsttarotreader]

What a great reading. Thanks so much. Yes I can totally see him staying in LA for at least the time being, Hollywood would give him way more jobs and his agent CAA is LA based as well I think. So while he might not really love LA, career wise it's best to stay in LA. My question for the tarot is, why did he sell his house in Hollywood Hills and why does he rent now? I am sure it was not for the money. But is renting easier for him because he is constantly traveling? Will he buy a house again one day? In LA?

Hello! This is the follow up to the reading about Pedro wanting to move back to NYC. This time, I started asking if he would want to buy a house again in LA, remembering that things can always change. The Major Arcana were The Hanged Man, Justice and The Sun.

The Hanged Man is a card about commitment, but hesitating moments before deep diving, which could point to Pedro seeing it as a huge commitment he is not really ready to make. Justice points to thinking things through and balancing the pros and cons of the situation. He will want to think about it and not act impulsively. The Sun is interesting because it has been showing up in his readings a lot since TLOU premiered, and it represents fame and success, but also joy and clarity of ideas. So now he can choose what is best for him and he will have all the means to do it.

The Minor Arcana were the 9 of Cups, 3 of Wands reversed and 10 of Pentacles reversed. 9 of Cups with The Hanged Man could mean that Pedro is hesitant not only because it’s hard for him to commit but because he is actually happy the way he is, he is satisfied and feeling lucky for what he has. 3 of Wands reversed paired with Justice shows us that when Pedro thinks about buying a house, pros and cons, he just doesn’t want to, he lacks the motivation and energy to do that and he’s not really confident about the idea. 10 of Pentacles reversed with The Sun might be pointing to Pedro thinking that success is not stable or forever, and buying a house could feel like a waste of money, something he needs to spend right.

So I would say that at this moment he would probably not want to buy a house, on LA or anywhere else, actually, but as I said, things can change at any given moment.

Then, I asked my Alice in Wonderland deck to show me a few reasons why Pedro could have decided to sell his house in LA. The first cards were Temperance, The Hermit and 3 of Hedgehogs. Temperance is the card of balance and moderation, of harmony, while The Hermit is about retreating to yourself, finding your inner truth. 3 of Hedgehogs could be pointing to him reaching a different moment in life. He had it all figured out in the beginning, having that house made sense, he was The Hermit, he had a place to crash that was his, a place where he could retreat and evolve as a person, as an adult. But then a lot of situations started to show up, he had a lot of projects, a lot of ideas and plans, and he realized it was better if he had a “third” party in the mix, a landlord, he needed to plan things more carefully and accept help, accept a third party.

The next cards were the 5 of Spears, The Mystery and the 8 of Spears. Now this is interesting. 5 of Spears points to defeat, to conflict, to things not working out and that feeling of failure. The Mystery, in this context, could mean things weren’t really the way he thought they would be. It’s like they seemed to be one thing, but he found out they were not, and he realized something about having that house: he was stuck, limited, restricted, like he was cuffed to the house, and not in a good way. With the 8 of Spears, that was way too much “commitment” to him and he felt trapped.

The last cards were the 7 of Hedgehogs reversed, The Hanged Man and The Sun (see the same cards from the other deck?). 7 of Hedgehogs reversed could be pointing to him feeling like his efforts weren’t really having any results. It’s like he had put too much effort into owning a house but he didn’t have the returns he expected. For some reason, it felt like waste (of time? Money?), and The Hanged Man is again representing the hesitation moments before deep diving and committing. The Sun could be representing the clarity of mind he had when he realized he was working for his career success, he had plans and projects, so the lack of “pros” of having a house could have made him realize it was better to let it go. He became of aware of situation in a very clear way.

So, all in all, it seems like he might not want to buy another house now, and he could have sold the one he had because it was holding him back and not giving the return he expected.