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#like it makes me feel like if I bring up my acearo identity it makes my lesbianism less ~real~ somehow
chisatowo · 1 year
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Watching videos essays abt political stuff is fun except for the fact that it's abt real life and it's not fun
#rat rambles#^ just finished a video essay abt trans stuff and is having a Moment™#Im ok just kinda emotional#and filled with rage abt everything ever but yknow when am I not#I rlyyy need to see if theres any lgbtq originisatons in my area#if theres one close enough maybe I could start vollenteering? idk#Im just anxious abt not being considered queer enough yknow the usual sorts dhndhdjhdjd#but honestly its more so abt my lesbianism since I have a very complicated relationship with ulit#like it makes me feel like if I bring up my acearo identity it makes my lesbianism less ~real~ somehow#like idk I wanna meet other queer ppl irl and I want more queer friends and I wanna be able to experiment with stuff#but idk why Im so scared abt the idea of having to explain myself#I know ppl probably wont care but ig Im just scared that if other queer ppl reject me then Ill have nowhere to go#or maybe itd go great and I could get a girlfriend like fuck man thats the problem xhdkgsksh#it could be the best thing thats ever happened to me but Im so anxious abt trying#Ive been so lonely and fuck man I dont trust myself to not let myself get trampled#sorry this got real personal real fast dhdkgdkdh again Im ok just emotional#now that I brought up the girlfriend thing tho I am going to be having gay thoughts while I shower so oops dhkdhkdh#idk Im still so unsure abt how I feel abt dating no romantic attraction asside like#again Ive never been able to experiment? and I also just dont know if theres anyone Id be willing to date in practice#like it might just be lonliness but it also could be me forming a stronger sense of self and better existing outside of relationships#and as such feeling more comfortable abt the idea of having more deep relationships with ppl even outside of dating and such#but again its all theoretical rn 😔#anyways I need to shower bro its so late#rat vents
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scoundrels-in-love · 1 year
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Okay, let's go. Time for some cheer-up questions: 🤡🎢🍦🏆💞🤭
Thank you, best sibling of all. <3
🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?
I don't really laugh about my own lines as they appear in fics, more often I laugh at reactions/conversations that spawn when I jokingly share some outline/excerpt with friends.
But this did delight me and spawned several jokes, so have this excerpt from yet unpublished fic that you've already seen.
'Somewhere lower, Vash mumbles five more minutes and nuzzles deeper into her, his arm shifting upward and tighter around her simultaneously.
She can feel gathering wetness from his now parted mouth sink through the fabric of her tank top and well, this certainly isn't how she had imagined getting his mouth on her or her breasts… '
🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride? I'd definitely have to say that Everything about you is on the tip of my tongue. We go from flirting on a couch to flirting in the kitchen that ends up with making out and ?? establishing polycule ?? to directly jumping in middle of monsterfucking. I was not prepared for the ride that prompt put me on, honestly. Not to mention, it's like my 2nd published E fic in general.
🍦 What's the sweetest fic you've created so far?
This one was hard. But after some consideration, I think that this fic (While I slip away (with you), There's nothing that I'd rather do) of Brienne and Jaime slowly learning to be, to rest as they settle in their life on Tarth, married, might be the most sweet by my definition. It's not tooth rotting fluff, but it's tender and sweet. Also, Jaime the cat agenda.
🏆 What's your most popular fic? Both by kudo/view ratio and by kudos alone, Trigun fandom banded together to love exactly one of my fics ardently. (And it's the one I wrote for you!) What can I give that is all for you? These arms are all I have (But I hold you like I do love you) has my next most kudo'd one beat by over 70 individual kudos, which is crazy to think over 300 actual people read and enjoyed it. (And yet, it is one of my least commented fics of all times, comparatively.)
💞 Who's your comfort character?
I think I don't exactly get the concept of comfort character. I've never related to any characters, never felt like they'd like me even as a friend or we'd even get along. I think Caduceus Clay comes closest to such a thing. I am particular about his content so I don't go reading much of fanfics or the sort, but knowing he's out there or seeing a good fanart and seeing him represent acearo identity always brings me joy.
🤭 Do you have a favorite tag to use when posting your works?
Idiots in love, Pining | Mutual Pining, Grief, (Emotional) Hurt/Comfort And my personal addition of 'author typical overuse of italics' and I'd like to use 'In dark times there will be tropes' again sometime.
Send me emoji for fanfic writer ask?<3
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flyingcookierambles · 4 years
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rando rant lol
So my sister is talking abt how baby “gender” (ya know the cishet def of gender) reveal parties are fun and how she wants to have one. And I’m like “gender reveal parties are stupid and also you mean like sex reveal parties (as in the physical genitals and assigned gender/sex)???????”
My very cishet very annoying sister: uh. Sex and gender are the same thing
Me, in the closet at home bc my family sucks: uh no they’re not
My mom who every time I bring up any queer topic beyond the mainstream knowledge of gay/lesbian information, who uses transphobic language when taking abt trans ppl, who flys off the handle when I mention pansexual and immediently thought that it meant beastiality or Peter Pan somehow, who always corners me snd makes me feel uncomfortable when talking abt queer stuff: oh no that this again ( yesterday I tried to explain how there are genders outside the binary and brought up non western/indigenous cultures that have third (or more) genders like the native Americans have two spirit and she dismissed me)
My thoughts, internally screaming: this is why I don’t talk to you peopleeeeeeeeeeee
Bluh I’m so frustrated
I feel my patience/tolerance with my cishet family’s ignorant beliefs dwindling day by day. I’m just so tired of their bs. I’m basically out to almost my friends already since my entire friend group is queer in some way. Like. I think I only have a few cishet friends, maybe only about 2 or 3 people really. Funny how we all seem to gravitate towards each other naturally lol.
Anyways I’m just so tired of having to be quiet abt their annoying and outdated beliefs and also about who I am bc they keep pestering me abt dating someone but also if I tell them that I’m nb acearo they’ll pester me even more about what that is and then probably be like “sounds fake.” Uuuugnecnfeknends
If someone makes a service where they come to your house and sit your family down in a room and educate them abt your identity for a few hours so that you don’t have to directly come out to them and then be harassed abt the validity of your identity that’s be greatttttttt ofhocknconexojwoxnfnisxhwijdkwnxoshdiwhfoendobeifueosnslcnlenxoendlsncoejxoenflwjdiwnofenxlnekdn
life is so much easier playing ffxiv where i can be a tall lizard/au ra man man i wish i could be a tall man with cool horns and a tail irl bluh..........
(gender/desired gender presentation continues to confuse and elude me but all i have down so far is anime boy and horns or cat ears. so like. maybe deep down all i wanna be is a basic eboy lol)
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trans-advice · 7 years
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(Acearo Demigirl Here)I plan on coming out as soon as Christmas Break (high school on 15th) starts for me and my Mom as I'll be able to talk/give her a letter before my siblings get off for Christmas Break (22nd) and I'm wondering if there are anything I should attempt to be prepared for? Like, what should I do if she isn't or is accepting of my gender/sexuality? Also, if it helps, my Mom says she is Demisexual and my older brother is apparently Pan and she seems accepting of him. Thank You!
I think you’re safe with regards to your acearo identity.
Sexuality is different from gender. In fact, people of like same-sex sexuality safe spaces sometimes have resentments about gender non-conformity/gender identity because it kind of allows an entry for straight people to feel entitled to entering such safe spaces when they were/are not. Just saying. [1]
Um… Make sure to have stuff you need to like get by, such as: uniforms (school, work), hard to replace school supplies (like laptops books, specialty stuff), cash/money, grooming stuff (like shaving stuff, nail stuff, makeup, teeth stuff), Coats phone chargers,medications (literally the entire prescription) [2].Perhaps bring a blanket & a pillow too (although, coats & sweaters make good blankets, and backpacks make good pillows)
I’d suggest not coming out until you have your stuff packed up & on you because once upon a time I read this real life horror story where this trans guy came out while we was driving & coming home, and his dad basically disowned him & didn’t allow him to come in & get his stuff. He had just done school supply shopping. His uniforms, books, paper goods, writing utensils, Ev.‘ry.thing. Was. In. His. Bedroom. Like holy crap he had to start from scratch & he almost failed everything. I’m not sure how thin “almost” was, but still, you don’t want to start from scratch.
Also winter is cold. Like hypothermia sets in at 50°F/10°C & in USA a lot of heating shelters don't open until it's 32°C/0°C. So definitely have a big coat or else layers.
Good Luck, Peace & LoveEve
[1]Also I wanted to mention this because people was like “you’re so *” when I was younger & I was like “I don’t even know who I want to *. shut up!” Basically considering how I’ve been conscious of my mental framing being about Gender & not sexuality when it comes to being LGBT & such, I’m a little offended by people conflating the 2. However, because of the coalition of sexuality & gender peoples (aka MOGAI & LGBT+) you slightly have better odds, I guess.
[2]Because if you lose your meds but still have your mom & such, you can basically get them replaced easier than not. Also there are medicine coupon stuff you can get to help reduce prescription costs, like GoodRx.
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