#like is that morally acceptable for tumblr I PROMISE ALL THE ENJOYMENT I GET FROM SUPER OLD FICS IS GENUINE AND WHOLEHEARTED

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

okay I gotta go to bed bc I'm losing my mind at how many of these from 99-00 are clearly written by, like, actual children and it's tripping me out to think about the concept of those same people as adults today completely unaware of some random lesbian at 1am in May 2021 wheezing over their 500 word story about Kerry casually revealing deep personal trauma to Lydia with zero prompting BUT ANYWAY

LET'S TALK ABOUT RECURRING THEMES IN CORDANO FICS FROM THE 02-04 ERA (MY SPECIFIC AREA OF EXPERTISE) disclaimer this is all lovingly teasing in tone, I am recognizing that these things are nearly all patently silly but this is NOT intended to mock any of them

- Mark is dead because that's convenient to everyone I guess, sometimes the author tosses a crumb my way and lets Elizabeth have some feelings about that but mostly it's just easier apparently if we kill him off EMBRACE THE OT3 I YELL THROUGH THE FABRIC OF TIME BUT NO ONE EVER LISTENS

- GRETEL IS DEAD???? THIS IS ILLEGAL WHY DOES EVERYONE WANT GRETEL GONE SHE IS A GOOD DOG AND DID NOTHING WRONG EVER IN HER LIFE

- alternatively Gretel is not dead, but the author clearly doesn't know what to do with her so when she's "onscreen" she's always sleeping or otherwise conveniently out of the way. Romano honey I think your dog is in a coma

- Romano gets sick and for some reason this means he has to spend like two weeks recovering from the flu at Elizabeth's house because he apparently needs someone to tell him when to take Tylenol. this is always accompanied by SHOCKING REVELATIONS about each other's habits outside of work and, like, personal interests?? BFFs just don't talk I guess :(

- Romano has so much angst. no for real he has, like, all of it. Elizabeth's canon distress at always "being the strong one"? never heard of it, here's ur new weepy boyfriend wow it's great you don't also have things to be a little broken about!!

- we work at a hospital but conveniently this story that takes place over like a month never has us AT the hospital............ I see you authors of 20 years ago and I agree medical scenes are hard 😔

- Ella is either always with a babysitter OR latching on to Romano immediately because he is Canon Good With Kids, Remember That (this is a problem that could be solved if we ever set any fics BEFORE s8 instead of after, but those are EXTREMELY RARE (see: first point))

- .......Romano is weirdly dominant, uh, physically. this is patently false, the man LOVES when people prove they can one-up him. also look me in the eye and tell me again that Elizabeth "control issues" Corday would be into that hfjdjgkdkg NO can you IMAGINE. I only ever skim explicit scenes because hello sex-repulsed ace here but this happens EVEN IN THE SMOOCHING SCENES... blease

if you noticed the connecting thread through all of these is a focus on Romano, you are correct! often at the expense of my beloved, despite her being the other main character. WHEN THOSE BEAUTIFUL FEW WITH EQUAL FOCUS AND GOOD CHARACTERIZATION HIT THOUGH........... swoon

anyway in conclusion ot3 rights and give Gretel more screentime in fics 2k21

[asherlockstudy]

Rhett and Link’s problems with the Enneagram

I have now watched both Enneagram EBs and the second one actually set my gears to work (So Anon here it comes! I promise it was spontaneous).

After listening to Link and mostly Rhett talk about the Enneagram again and again, I realised I have a problem but I can not place its exact root. There is either something fundamentally wrong with the Enneagram itself or maybe it’s Rhett and consequently Link who talk about it in a way that made me feel a little uncomfortable.

My problem and cause of concern was that everything that was said during the two podcasts had a clear negative tone to it. I will have to bring in myself to it to give you an example so bear with me for a paragraph. I did the test and I am a 5 (Investigator - Observer, something like that) which suits me rather well, especially since it agrees perfectly with my Myers-Briggs INTP type. The results said I was a 5w6 (essentially an emotionless analytical robot) which is definitely wrong as I am clearly a 5w4 (a sad mess who analyses the world and searches pointlessly for the true meanings in life and wants to come up with the ultimate all-encompassing philosophy). I mean, OK, they are not described exactly like that but trust me, that’s the point. But despite all the flaws associated with it, especially in the fields of socialising and tremendous procrastination due to an insane fear of failure, I am actually very much in touch with it. I revel in analysing, in trying to see the bigger picture, to make up my own theory about life and the world. It gives me fuel to go on, it fills me with excitement, it gives me a purpose.

Now, what I kept hearing from Rhett and Link are the things they would hope to run away from. I can’t seem to remember a single positive thing they said about their personalities. All traits they mentioned ( which were all pretty one-dimensional for both I dare say) were presented in the context of torturing them and having to confront them. With these insights in their personalities and the spiritual deconstructions earlier, their old (surprising back then) statement that they are “fundamentally sad people” makes more and more sense. Some of their traits, like Link’s care for perfection to the smallest detail and his moral concerns could have been neutral or positive but, no, they are almost all given as clear negatives or at least as things that have an emotional toll on them.

This gives me the impression that Link and especially Rhett have found comfort in studying the Enneagram and try to find an explanation for what they are like, to feel part of a group, represented in their misery. In short, they focus on the analysis of the flaws of their personalities as a part of who they are and avoid dealing with the root that caused said flaws. Link is more self aware while Rhett still struggles to reach the root of it, which is his childhood. Not that he doesn’t know it but he can’t just deal with the people and the situations that impacted him enough to make him a three. For instance, Rhett seems to believe that he is a natural three that his parents made manifest even more strongly. It could be the case or the threeness we observe in him is the direct product of his parents’ constant judgement. By keeping chanting he needs to “be” instead of “do”, I am not sure Rhett will achieve much. Honestly, the one impactful step he needs to take is to stop caring about what his father thinks and I am sorry to say he is still not near achieving this. Especially when I take into account how scared he was during his videocall with his dad in GMM and how relieved he looked after the call was over without drama. In short, my problem with their take in the Enneagram is that it seems that Three is Rhett’s pack of unresolved issues rather than his complete personality type.

Furthermore, Rhett speaks knowingly about all numbers / personality types which proves he consumes passionately all Enneagram information that is available. For a man of his level of active lifestyle, hectic schedule and impatience, this shows that he indeed seeks comfort in finding a detailed description and an explanation for his personality, for the way he feels and acts. What does this mean? Well, that he does not like the way he feels about himself a lot. Not only that, but he is actually in a search of self. At this point, he is no longer cryptic about it but it is more serious than he lets on. He tries to make sense of himself and he tries desperately to find something in himself to love. I hope there are people in his life who let him know that he is worthy of their love, friendship and appreciation even though he is so deep inside his head that even the affectionate feedback can only help so much. Rhett will start finding some peace only if he takes the one step I mentioned above.

And then it seems that Link’s personality type is also exclusively a byproduct of his childhood and is aggravated by his relationship with Rhett. Link’s perfectionism doesn’t cause him enthusiasm - he just dreads the disturbance of his supposedly perfectly stable world. In all honesty, Link doesn’t strike me as an ambitious person. Link would just love to have his dear routine and a loyal person to share it with. Link needs stability and companionship. He is fine with just one person as long as this person contributes to the stability of their bond. Who that one person is in Link’s life is another story…

Link doesn’t care that much about the creative process and, frankly, he doesn’t care all that much about the comedy. Link cares to keep the environment Rhett and he work stable and safe. For Link, judgement from the audience is not as alarming as Rhett’s frustration because of it. Link cares to ensure that Rhett’s idea will be successful enough to keep working and to keep working together. So Link’s entire self-identification as a one seems to stem from his fear of abandonment and worthlessness only. Link fears he has not much to contribute to Mythical and he tries to counteract that by becoming the ultimate source of management and control. Because if he didn’t even manage the company, then what would Rhett need him for? Hence, Link’s obsession for control is a consequence of his fear, he doesn’t necessarily love to be in control for the sake of it. This is proven by his plane example, which shows that he finally relaxes when he does NOT need to be in control.

Link has been working hard most of his life to ensure his position next to Rhett. This brings even more insight in his resentment for Rhett that explodes from time to time. Link resents Rhett because he tries so hard to be always by his side but due to Rhett’s opportunitism, he can’t tell whether Rhett wants his companionship or he simply needs it for their brand. Even worse, Link dreads that the reason Rhett is his friend is because Link feeds his ego with his loyalty and admiration, because he takes Link for granted and not because he loves Link for who he is.

“Do you care for me or do you revel in the fact that I care for you?”

Now, I can’t get inside Rhett’s head but I doubt he uses people. I believe his genuine care for Link can be found in the weirdest examples - those from which Rhett has nothing to gain i.e getting frustrated when Link doesn’t enjoy food as much. Yes, this is a sign of love. Rhett enjoys food so much that he wants to share that enjoyment with Link. He can’t realise Link’s tongue works differently - he thinks Link is missing out and it frustrates him. Another silly example is Rhett buying Apocalypse equipment for a clearly disinterested Link and probably never getting its money’s worth back. This is important to Rhett for some reason and he is concerned enough to protect careless Link as well despite having no personal gain from it.

The truth is that these two men feed off each other; Rhett keeps Link attached to him to always feel worthy and Link keeps Rhett attached to him to always feel safe. However, the fact that Rhett is almost his entire source of safety and that Link is Rhett’s biggest calibrator of worth is indicative of the levels of love and need. Nevertheless, Rhett and Link are not independent people. They were constantly in search of support from one another and they lost themselves in the process of satisfying others or being safe. This is something they are realising only now.

Link’s fear of abandonment is so big that it frequently leads him to an almost paranoid behaviour. It is crazy that he felt left out when Rhett communicated with the audience during a podcast whose key purpose is to… communicate with the audience. His fear here has two sides: 1) that Rhett didn’t consider him an equally important business partner so he preferred to speak directly to the audience and 2) that Rhett isn’t emotionally invested in him in order to open up to him. And by saying he can deceive people if he needs, Rhett doesn’t help Link overcome his huge insecurities. This is why Link begs Rhett to talk to him about his feelings more. He does not understand whether Rhett loves him or uses him. The notion that Rhett doesn’t truly love or appreciate him is one of his biggest fears in life.

As for Rhett, it is certainly huge growth that he starts opening up and being vulnerable to a few thousand strangers yet it all still derives from his need to be accepted by said strangers as I am afraid that the late disproportionate criticism he gets for silly stuff on Twitter and Tumblr surely don’t help him deal with his issues, no matter how hard he tries. Therefore, Rhett is trapped in a vicious circle. Besides, Rhett was overly sensitive to be hurt when Link stated the obvious; that he was being vulnerable in hopes to be understood and accepted, because that was clearly what Rhett was openly doing. However, having someone discussing openly his vulnerability immediately made Rhett retreat back to his shell because no matter how hard he tries, Rhett hasn’t managed to separate vulnerability from weakness in his mind yet.

Long story short, Rhett and Link might be Three and One respectively but I am not sure they have a good understanding of themselves anyway. They may have figured out their types correctly but they certainly narrow their entire sense of being to their unresolved issues and phobias. They entirely lack a sense of self-worth and they probably have not realised the extent of the traumas in their youth. In the Enneagram language, the nine personality types have nine levels of development. I believe Rhett and Link are either in the average levels or the mildest unhealthy level. They are certainly not in the healthy top three levels.

Their obsession with the Ennegram helps only superficially but they seem to have based an illogically huge part of their self exploration on it. The Enneagram might offer some insight but won’t offer the resolutions they long for and badly need in order to find some relief. The ones that come when you confront your environment instead of overanalysing yourself and beating yourself up because of it.

[maesterkenobi]

how I run my blog

Tagged by: as usual I’ve stolen it from @mynameisanakin  Tagging: no one, i am too lazy and i follow like 14 people so. just do it if you want to.

SPEED: is not my forte. I try my best, but there are several factors that work against me in this aspect: 1) I’m a chronic procrastinator 2) I’m scatterbrained 3) I have more than one blog 4) I almost never write replies that are less than two paragraphs and I want it to make sense and be good and be enjoyable for my partner, so it takes time. I almost never reply the same day (MAYBE on discord, because there my replies are way shorter and it’s mostly to my best friend), and you’re lucky if I reply within a week. I really try to be faster on this blog because I made a promise to myself (and I was doing okay until the whole virus thing happened and I ran into a bunch of personal problems) AND I am keeping a low profile on this blog so it doesn’t get overwhelming. Long story short, if you are looking for a super active daily replies partner, I am not it for you. If you’re okay with waiting for a while but getting more developed stories and longer replies in turn, then we should talk :)

REPLIES: Are on the longer side on this blog. I don’t really have the patience for one liners because they tend to go nowhere and then feel like bread crumbs of randomness all over my blog. They’re okay sometimes, but more often than not they feel like crack. Writing replies is really exhausting for me sometimes, but I try to force myself because I WANT to do it, I’m just having issues concentrating on one thing at a time so it takes me forever.

STARTERS: I don’t write welcoming starters because 8 out of 10 times they get ignored or are so random that they lead nowhere. If someone writes me a welcoming starter, it depends on the content but usually I’ll try to make it work for me and reply. I don’t often like starter calls because most people write absolutely pointless starters. For example they’ll write a paragraph of explaining what their muse did all day (unrelated to my muse), then walk into some random place they’ve never been to (e.g. a shady bar) and suddenly get surprised by my muse being there, and/or, my personal favorite, say something like “what the hell do you want from me”? Which I struggle with for several reasons. One, if you create a setting but don’t bother explaining why we’re there, you put the entire weight of explaining that (aka creating the actual setting) on ME, but you add an additional complication by making it something that I didn’t come up with, so now I have to introduce a world YOU invented with 0 idea of why you chose that particular location in the first place. Second, you put my muse in a situation that makes no sense for them and again force me to explain that, without even giving me a good reason to. And third, I play very different muses, but most of them are going to lose interest in the conversation immediately if the first thing you say to them is rude af. So, yeah, I actually really struggle with most random starters. Please just plot with me and then I will love you forever for writing me a plotted starter that I know will not create 400 questions in my head that I then have to bother you with, which makes me feel like a nuisance. (Or at least keep the setting neutral? Or try to come up with something that seems reasonable for my muse? I always try to do that and when I am unsure, I message the person who liked my starter calls.) Speaking of which, I rarely post starter calls, because.. well, like I just kind of explained, it’s comes with responsibility and work. And I’m lazy.

INBOX: is open for memes at all times, and questions of any kind. I often don’t get notified, so I sometimes see certain messages months later - when that happens, I usually don’t reply anymore if they’re anon because I’ll assume that person forgot or isn’t even around anymore. Sorry about that! It’s an issue I’ve had on several blogs and I don’t know how to fix it. Anon hate is deleted without comment, unless I feel there’s a point in replying to it publicly, or if it’s entertaining. I don’t roleplay via inbox and therefore any “ic” questions or interactions posted in there will be treated as a one-time meme, if I can reply to them at all. Asks of sexual nature from complete strangers will usually be ignored because Obi-Wan isn’t the muse for that at all. As I’ve stated in my rules I only roleplay with mutuals and therefore won’t roleplay with someone I don’t follow, even if they ignore that rule and start rping with me via inbox. I don’t mean to be dismissive, but I have these rules for a reason and I ask that people read and respect them.

SELECTIVITY: I am selective with whom I follow because I have limited time and energy for this blog (and all my blogs) and therefore find it irresponsible and pointless to accept 600 followers and threads when I know I can’t possibly reply to even 10% of them. Before I follow someone (back) I look at their blogs; in particular at their writing (to see if I like their style and their portrayal), their rules (to see what they like/dislike and if our general understanding of the RPC, roleplay, and in a way social interactions in general go well together), and sometimes their OOC posts to get a feeling of how the other person is. (Obviously I also sometimes don’t follow back when I don’t know the muse or fandom at all.) Blog rules and ooc posts can say A LOT about a person, and there are plenty of people in the RPC (in any fandom) that quickly rose to tumblr fame with shiny graphics and fancy formatting and dozens of well-developed verses and headcanons, but they straight up suck as people outside of writing. My rules state very clearly that I discourage hateful comments, mob mentality and callout culture, and unfortunately many “popular” blogs use exactly these tools to execute their power (which comes from being admired for all the wrong reasons). So, I know many people think being selective means you only pick partners with fancy graphics and poetic writing, but for me it actually means I want decent human beings as partners. I don’t give a shit if you format your posts (as long as you cut them) or if you have a blog with a fancy theme, or just a rules google doc, or if you use icons or not. If I like your writing and you seem like a nice and reasonable person, I’m good to go. If you talk to me about dogs I’m even better to go.

WISHLIST: I always try to have one because I find it very helpful when looking for plot ideas with new partners. I will look at yours if you like a plotting call or something too, but I know not everyone has a wishlist~

HONEST NOTE: I’m not a teenager anymore and I’ve been rping for over 14 years. I work with lots of strangers, I study for a job with lots of strangers. I think about philosophical concepts a lot, about morality and human behavior and I’ve come to the conclusion that kindness, empathy and compassion are some of the core values every single person should focus on to make the world a better place. I have no patience and no interest in engaging in the absolute toxic and harmful hate movement that’s taken over this website (and other social media platforms) in whatsoever way. Occasionally I’ll make a salty comment about it, but only because I’ve had it up to here. I am here to enjoy fandom the way I used to, and the way it used to be meant to be enjoyed - not to completely ignore real issues like world politics, economical and environmental crises, in order to entertain witch hunts on people who happen to enjoy a fictional ship that isn’t 300% approved by puritan statutes of the 1600s. I am responsible for the content I seek out online, and so are you. Does it suck when I see something I dislike? Sure. Is it the fault of the person who posted it? No. Especially not when I read their rules first, like I’m supposed to, and they clearly state that the thing I dislike will appear on their blog. And even if they didn’t, it was my choice to go on their blog and look at their content. If you can’t handle taking responsibility for the content you seek out online, then you are probably not old enough to use the internet unsupervised. I am free to write, read, and post on my personal blog whatever I want, as long as I am not breaking the law. Liking a fictional ship that involves an age gap? Not illegal. Liking a fictional ship that involves siblings? Not illegal. Liking a fictional ship in which one party was abusive to the other at some point? Not illegal. Liking a fictional character who killed your fave? Not illegal. It’s fictional. Get over it. And if you really think that seeing fictional characters or ships online that YOU consider “problematic” is hurting people in real life, then you should join those politicians who burn books that are “corrupting the people’s morals and minds”, who ban video games because they “make gamers violent”, and censor songs from the radio because they “present biased views on people of public importance”. Please reflect on your behavior. Destroying someone’s life because they liked something you don’t, telling them to commit suic/ide, ruining their chance of making friends who maybe share their love for a ship or character.. that’s bullying. Some of the cases I’ve seen on here were so severe, they qualify as serious cyberbullying and should be reported to the police. I don’t give a fuck if you hate Rey/lo or Damon Salva/tore, or the Joker. You don’t go and send someone messages telling them to kill themselves because they RP it. Because that is the real crime. And finally, if you feel the need to “educate” someone you consider “problematic” for whatever reason and you actually approach them - make sure you’re actually there to educate and discuss, not to throw an opinion at them and get aggressive when they don’t immediately magically agree. Because chances are they won’t. If you choose to open a dialogue, make sure it IS a fucking dialogue and not a condescending monologue. Learn how to shape an argument, find evidence to back up your claims - because not only will you become better at talking to people in any kind of situation, you’ll also maybe realize that your opinion wasn’t as well-founded as you thought.

[ignobleknight]

Terms of Engagement

If I do not follow back within one week, I am (probably) not going to.  I am 200% Anakin apologist trash. Criticism not accepted. Tumblr is not my space for self reflection and growth. It is for shit posts, fanfiction, and loving Anakin hours 24/7 365. What to expect from me.

Must love Anakin: Don’t blame him for having only bad options and then making a few bad decisions. Yes, a few. He is guilty of a handful of drastically terrible actions while at limited mental capacity. I have very strong feelings for this muse. In character hate welcome. OOC hate, not acceptable. 

No Duplicates, sorry: I don’t know what to say. I can’t help how I feel. Nothing against you. I just don’t want to see any duplicates or it can be easy for me to lose my muse or feel discouraged. If you write Anakin at all, I’m blocking you and blacklisting your tag.

Mun =\= Muse: Anakin is not me. I absolutely do NOT endorse or agree with everything said or done by the muse. Just because I write it, doesn’t mean I agree with it personally. This is a fictional writing experience wherein I like to explore the depths of the human mind, not a moral commentary. 

Let me handle my muse: Please don’t assume you know what Anakin is going to do, say, or think. Just let me tell you? If you want me to write him, let me write him. If you don’t like my Anakin, please leave...

Trigger heavy content: Expect it. This is a dark reality with countless human rights violations and other crimes. Discretion is advised. I tag notable triggers either tw; or cw; based on severity. As well as a general #content warning and #trgger warning tag. Feel free to @ me about tagging. Even though the content can be very dark, I don’t tend to write anything graphic. It’s more of bad themes. 

This is for fun: This is my hobby; writing stories about fictional characters, preferably in a collaborative roleplay setting. If this is also something you like to do for fun, HMU! I ask that no demands be made on me for activity and I will offer the same.

Writing length and literacy: I am not that picky. I tend to write a lot, but I also love one-liners and short paragraphs. As long as I can understand your writing and we can write something we both love, I am good.

Communication is key: Please talk to me about anything. I will never be cross with dropping threads, changing your mind abt ships or plots, or etc. The worst thing for me would be to make my partner uncomfortable and not know about it. Consent is very critical to me. You are absolutely allowed to withdraw consent at any time. Please just let me know if anything bothers you? Also let me know what you like? I am very excitable about plots and muses. Promise I will never be bothered to find you dropping into my DMs.

Don’t godmod: We can discuss events in DMs and you’re free to include my character’s actions in your post, provided I have told you what he should do… Don’t put words in my muse’s mouth. It is deeply annoying and stifles my muse. 

Mutuals only: I prefer plotted threads to memes or random starts. I am not very good at improvising on the fly. I will have my mains and my favs, that’s just how it is.

I prefer discord: Let’s make a server? I can RP on tumblr as well. Let me know what you prefer. I am flexible. 

No drama policy: We don’t engage in callout culture, content policing, or any OOC drama. Block the bitch if ya’ll got issues, I promise I will. If you don’t like what I do here, block me. It is that simple. I literally couldn’t care less about online social drama or politics.

Ships: Platonic ships will be prioritized. I have no moral issues with extremely dubious and unethical ships, however… I care about chemistry, enjoyment, and believability above all, so expect some really slow burn activity. My Anakin/Vader is demisexual- meaning he wont be getting intimate with anyone before establishing an emotional connection. More on shipping here.

NSFW possible: Always tagged #nsfw with explicit scenes under a readmore. Don’t interact if you are only interested in smut. I am very much leaning AWAY from writing smut. If you’ve come here for porn, leave. I will write intimate scenes as they are relevant to the character’s development and nothing more. 

Thank you for reading! Please don’t be intimidated. ;;; I have strong feelings, but I promise I will not hurt you. Ask for my discord if you want to interact! I do all my chatting and plotting over there. 

[reneereadskingdomofash]

1/8 I really wanted to ask you a question, anonymous because I don't have an account, and anons are off on your main blog so I'm asking on this one! There are no spoilers in this, I promise you. KoA is coming out very very soon, and that means I'll have to do a reread of Tower of Dawn, my favourite in the series. How should I read it? ToD is my favourite because I really love the new characters and worldbuilding. But the main reason is because of Chaol. This book meant a lot to me

its below a cut because its long... 

2/8 because of his healing arc. I didn't even love Chaol that much before this book, though I never really thought he was that annoying. I did think his actions toward Aelin and Nesryn were crazy. But the thing I loved most about the book was the message to stop hating yourself for your mistakes, to forgive yourself, and get up when you fall. It was the Valg darkness that had injured him, wasn't it? And it was feeding off of his pain and regret.3/8He had to face all of it to finally be completely healed when Yrene realised that the Valg weren't just an enemy to fight against, they were something to be healed from. I think his insecurities and regrets, and his feeling that he was a failure, were also just like a parasite. That message that this darkness that doesn't let us go forward, that tells us we're not good enough, is like a parasite, and can literally and figuratively paralyse us, and we have to let go of it, really helped me.4/8 I think we all have those feelings in us sometimes, and they are the real enemy, just as much as the Valg are in this series. Tower of Dawn showed me how to fight them. When I first read the book, I was in a bad place and felt like I had failed everyone, and this book let me heal. Now I'm rereading this series and I'm back in a less-than-healthy place, and this year hasn't been that easy. But I've been thinking a lot about the characters—more specifically, Chaol.5/8 He became my favourite character in this book, but I've read so many reasons why I shouldn't like him, and many ways in which he's problematic. I don't condone all of his actions, but I never really read him as annoying. I can see where they're coming from, though. One of the most well-known metas on Chaol is the one about how ToD wasn't his redemption arc and he didn't really change, and mostly stayed the same idiot. I never really read the book to see him redeemed.6/8 I just liked the message of his healing. Heir of Fire is a very close second to ToD as my favourite, because of both Aelin and Manon's change of view. (Side note: Aelin went through so much in the series and triumphed, so it seemed a really crazy idea to put her in an iron coffin, and give her that feeling that she's failed everyone again. But I think it shows that the path to complete self-acceptance in anyone's journey is never linear. But I digress! Enough about my love for healing arcs.)7/8 The point is, there are many, many valid reasons to dislike Chaol, and so many of the things he's done—not just to Aelin and Nesryn, but throughout the whole series—are pretty stupid. But can't I like the good parts and learn from the bad parts, without condoning them? Are the people who like Chaol better at excusing problematic things or something? The reasons to hate him are all such good reasons, and I acknowledge them. I feel like I should probably start reading him that way too.8/8 I'm sorry for all the rambling in your asks, but my question is: should I do my reread looking for all the reasons why I shouldn't like him, or is it okay to read it my way? I acknowledge the wrong things he's done, but does it make me a bad person to like him anyway? Does liking problematic characters make me a bad person? Is it all right if I didn't read his character as that annoying? I feel very conflicted about this, and that's why I'm asking you.

Hey NONNIE! 

I am so sorry I only just saw this as I came back to tumblr today! My asks are back open on my main btw - or they are supposed to be. :) So I’m first going to say that we all take in books, movies, stories differently.

Sure over time some are deemed to be "less than great" while others triumph and are called the best books of a generation. (and I disagree with a few of those lol).

I like to listen to a lot of different point of views in the tumblr world. But I have learned that people will see what they want to see. 

Read Tower of Dawn how YOU want to read it. 

If Chaol is your fav that’s valid. Even if Maeve was your favourite - that’s Valid too. We can like characters without condoning what they do. We can like stories while knowing that they might contain controversial topics. I loved Tower of Dawn when I first read it. And I Loved it the second time as I read it simultaneously with Empire of Storms.

I'm sure I’m going to go off on a tangent so I apologise if I do.

But its important to read for your own enjoyment. Decide what you think. Decide what you like or don’t like. Its fine. Then if you decide you want more ideas and perspectives then look for them. But don't beat yourself up if you don’t completely agree.

And if your mind changes after a second read - that’s fine too. Opening ourselves to more experiences and stories is what makes us more accepting as a whole - I believe.

So I'm going to focus on your questions before I go on a meta Tangent.

Should I do my reread looking for all the reasons why I shouldn't like him, or is it okay to read it my way? - READ It however you want hun

I acknowledge the wrong things he's done, but does it make me a bad person to like him anyway? NO You are not a bad person Example. My grandfather cheated on my grandmother with another person. He was still my grandad. I still had a relationship with him. I use this story a bit. He did some dumb shit but it never made him a bad person. He did some worse shit to some other people which def could make him a bad person, but he was still my grandad and I loved him. He lived his life and made mistakes and spent a lot of his life trying to atone. WE ARE HUMAN. And I think it actually says a lot about SJM's storytelling abilities to make such complex characters. The older I get - the more I seem to forgive people for some things and condemn them for others. When I was 15 I told my uncle he was going to die if he kept smoking - I was blunt and brutal and didn’t care. Now I wouldn’t say that - but I also wouldn't let my kids be around him while he smokes and I would say that to him instead. He can do what he wants - i’m not there to police his choices. So I guess perspectives change, or how we go about enacting change changes. Anyway You are not a bad person. I am not a bad person.

Does liking problematic characters make me a bad person? um short answer - NOI really like Lorcan. A lot of people don’t and that’s fine. But he's my problematic character I'm stuck on hahaha 

it all right if I didn't read his character as that annoying? Yes because we all make friends with different sorts of people.My best friend is not going to be your best friend. We cant all be the same. Different backgrounds and morals, beliefs etc are going to mesh together and we form friendships. So you can have your best friend and not need everyone else to love them too - the world doesn’t work like that. So loving a book character that other people don’t love is fine too. 

I feel the conflictedness- (I just made that word up its now a word) but honestly. Do what you enjoy. Do what you want to do. Don’t let it get you down. Remember Dorian and Chaol are BFF's so he's gotta be the right best friend for someone and maybe you are just more like Dorian than other people are - ;) right!  hahaha. 

Sorry I’m not sure when u sent this ask, hopefully its not been answered too late. :) 

[ignobleknight2]

Terms of engagement & things to know

If I do not follow back within one week, I am (probably) not going to.  I am 200% Anakin apologist trash. Criticism not accepted. Tumblr is not my space for self reflection and growth. It is for shit posts, fanfiction, and loving Anakin hours 24/7 365. What to expect from me.

Must love Anakin: Don’t blame him for having only bad options and then making a few bad decisions. Yes, a few. He is guilty of a handful of drastically terrible actions while at limited mental capacity. I have very strong feelings for this muse. In character hate welcome. OOC hate, not acceptable. 

No Duplicates, sorry: I don’t know what to say. I can’t help how I feel. Nothing against you. I just don’t want to see any duplicates or it can be easy for me to lose my muse or feel discouraged. If you write Anakin at all, I’m blocking you and blacklisting your tag.

Mun =\= Muse: Anakin is not me. I absolutely do NOT endorse or agree with everything said or done by the muse. Just because I write it, doesn’t mean I agree with it personally. This is a fictional writing experience wherein I like to explore the depths of the human mind, not a moral commentary. 

Let me handle my muse: Please don’t assume you know what Anakin is going to do, say, or think. Just let me tell you? If you want me to write him, let me write him. If you don’t like my Anakin, please leave...

Trigger heavy content: Expect it. This is a dark reality with countless human rights violations and other crimes. Discretion is advised. I tag notable triggers either tw: or cw: based on severity. Feel free to @ me about tagging. Even though the content can be very dark, I don’t tend to write anything graphic. It’s more of bad themes. 

This is for fun: This is my hobby; writing stories about fictional characters, preferably in a collaborative roleplay setting. If this is also something you like to do for fun, HMU! I ask that no demands be made on me for activity and I will offer the same.

Writing length and literacy: I am not that picky. I tend to write a lot, but I also love one-liners and short paragraphs. As long as I can understand your writing and we can write something we both love, I am good.

Communication is key: Please talk to me about anything. I will never be cross with dropping threads, changing your mind abt ships or plots, or etc. The worst thing for me would be to make my partner uncomfortable and not know about it. Consent is very critical to me. You are absolutely allowed to withdraw consent at any time. Please just let me know if anything bothers you? Also let me know what you like? I am very excitable about plots and muses. Promise I will never be bothered to find you dropping into my DMs.

Don’t godmod: We can discuss events in DMs and you’re free to include my character’s actions in your post, provided I have told you what he should do… Don’t put words in my muse’s mouth. It is deeply annoying and stifles my muse. 

Mutuals only: I prefer plotted threads to memes or random starts. I am not very good at improvising on the fly. I will have my mains and my favs, that’s just how it is.

I prefer discord: Let’s make a server? I can RP on tumblr as well. Let me know what you prefer. I am flexible. 

No drama policy: We don’t engage in callout culture, content policing, or any OOC drama. Block the bitch if ya’ll got issues, I promise I will. If you don’t like what I do here, block me. It is that simple. I literally couldn’t care less about online social drama or politics.

Ships: Platonic ships will be prioritized. I have no moral issues with extremely dubious and unethical ships, however… I care about chemistry, enjoyment, and believability above all, so expect some really slow burn activity. My Anakin/Vader is demisexual- meaning he wont be getting intimate with anyone before establishing an emotional connection. More on shipping here.

NSFW possible: Always tagged #nsfw with explicit scenes under a readmore. Don’t interact if you are only interested in smut. I am very much leaning AWAY from writing smut. If you’ve come here for porn, leave. I will write intimate scenes as they are relevant to the character’s development and nothing more. 

Thank you for reading! Please don’t be intimidated. ;;; I have strong feelings, but I promise I will not hurt you. Ask for my discord if you want to interact! I do all my chatting and plotting over there. 

[justanoutlawfic]

Happy OQ Valentine’s Day!

So, this may be a complete wreck but I’d like to draw your attention to a few things before you read you’re present ;) 1. Im pretty sure I gave away my identity already because... 2. I’m working off my iPhone (it’s sad but it’s true lol) and... 3. Mobile Tumblr just refusesss to make things easy on me. 4. And also, I waited to write this last minute like most other things in my life. But aside from all that, I do hope you find even a tiny bit of enjoyment in this. Our beautiful sunken ship deserves a bit of light today ❤️ P.s. I’d love to write for you again in the future if you’re ever interested. HOPIN’ AND WISHIN’ AND PRAYIN’ (An Outlaw Queen fic) The shadows blanket the road this far out. They stretch from the tops of the evergreen trees and cast most of the road in darkness. Except for tonight, there are a few bright beams filtering down from the full moon in the sky. The only sounds come from the crickets and wildlife beyond the pines and it’s a solitary, lonely kind of peaceful. She’s made a habit out of coming here; slipping out just after Henry’s gone to sleep and spending a precious few hours hoping. Hoping for what, she isn’t quite sure. Maybe for the resolute acceptance of how things have turned out. For her heart to stop aching and move on already. Sometimes even, she’s loathe to admit, she wishes for a freak accident that would take Marian away and right the universe again. But mostly, she hopes he’ll appear out of thin air, grinning how he does, as he steps back into Storybrooke and into her life. She knows it won’t happen, that he might as well be in another realm altogether. She understands why he’s gone, respects it even, but it doesn’t keep her from peering out down the road and wondering where on the other side he could be tonight. The pavement is cool beneath her thin slacks but she likes sitting at the very edge where she can pretend the red line in front of her crossed legs is the only barrier keeping them apart. As if the two of them sit apart, the protection spell a curtain that only need be pulled back and they’d be face to face. She lifts the flask next to her and the moon beams off its shiny surface as she indulges in another sip. She’s not drunk, but the alcohol numbs things just enough, blurs the edges so she doesn’t actually cry. And it would be all to easy to let herself embrace her emotions and sob in self pity. He was supposed to be her second chance; her redemption for the awful woman she’d been—and he was, for however brief a time. His integrity made her better. His morals brought her back to that seventeen year old girl she once was. Just “Regina”, not “Her Majesty” or “The Evil Queen”. He saw the real Regina under all those layers of guilt and anger and regret. And perhaps what makes her feel more despondent than anything is that she’ll never get a third chance. She got so unexpectedly lucky with Robin. She didn’t deserve him to begin with, but only he could have been her soulmate. Only he could understand every sordid detail of her past and still have the audacity to not only love her, but choose her. Regina runs a hand through the front of her dark hair as she sighs. She misses him. She misses having another person unconditionally in her corner, misses not always feeling like the third wheel, misses the smell of damp earth and aged redwood. She wants to scream to the heavens, or this “author”, or whatever higher power there might be that it’s so unfair! Only she knows damn well how fair her pain is; how cosmic and condemned her story has read. It’s her punishment for choosing revenge when she could have chosen forgiveness. Daniel’s death was the great catalyst of her life. And while she knows there are many who let their grief morph into hatred, there had been another way. It would have been harder, maybe taken longer, but she might have come out the other side a better person; a hero. She won’t make that mistake again. While it feels just as bad as it had years ago, even worse actually; she cannot tarnish what Robin stood for, just to try to ease the ache. If anyone was undeserving, it was that man. He had made mistakes the same as any of them, sure, but he worked for his redemption. Robin had found a way to do what she never could. He turned his pain into purpose. A purpose full of love and selflessness and renewal. And now he’s been hurt once more, entangled in the web of her retribution; collateral damage for the penance she was paying. He had not known just what loving the Evil Queen would cost him, even if she had truly made a change. Yet, he had opted to accept the shit hand he was dealt and if only it weren’t for her he wouldn’t be hurting because of it. He might even be overjoyed to have his late wife back; his family reunited. She prays for that as she slowly pushes herself to her feet now. She decides it’s the only thing she can do to wish him well, Marian too. If only she could have granted him a memory spell before he’d gone so he could forget about the wreckage she’d brought into his heart. Of course, her thief would never have taken the easy way out. And Regina can’t help but to hold on to the thought of him remembering her, remembering the true, sacred, magical connection they shared. She suddenly has to lift her fingers to her face to brush away an errant tear. She will not feel sorry for herself, at least not anymore tonight. Staring out down the still, vacant road out of Storybrooke, she sniffles and squares her shoulders to reign in her emotions and she hopes above all else that Robin finds the kind of happiness she knows he deserves. This chapter of her story is closing, and she needs to let the dust settle on the pages and find a way to move on. If her heart is going to take it’s time mending, then she must stop her late night visits. She has a son at home and new, delicate friendships, and a town that seems forever under threat, and a population of people who she owes debts so great she may never repay them. But she must try. She turns on her heel and heads back to her silver benz parked just off the shoulder, opens the door and gives one last, longing gaze down the vacant road. In her mind, the protected barrier shimmers and parts and her handsome thief appears, Roland at his side, tiny hand clutched in his. Regina abandons the door, unconsciously letting her feet carry her forward a few paces. She let’s her eyes slip closed and smiles wide with the image of them behind her lids. “Regina”, he says. And it’s not until she reopens her eyes that it occurs to her the tone of his voice had not been quite right. “Regina!” As if awaking from a dream, her focus snaps back to reality and he’s still in front of her, rushing towards her more accurately, his arms outstretched. The the next moment she can feel him against her chest, can smell his woodsy scent right under her nose. “Oh thank God, Regina!”, he nearly cries in relief and it’s all she can do to catch her brain up to what’s happening. Maybe she’d had more to drink than she thought? He pulls out of the embrace, but doesn’t completely withdraw his touch. He must have sensed her shock, perhaps too overwhelmed to see her to notice she didn’t hug back. “Regina?” Her eyes scan over his body, willing herself to believe it’s really him, but they land instead on the dimple faced child grinning up at her. “Gina! We come to visit you!”, his little voice hits her ears and she raises her eyes back to Robin’s anxious gaze. The acceptance breaks around her and she throws her arms around his neck, afraid he might disappear. “Robin!” It’s the only thing she manages to say while she’s this overcome with emotions. He holds her back, just as tight and whispers her name quietly against her head and she finally finds her voice. “Wha—why—what are you doing here?”, she breathes in disbelief. Her hand falls to Roland’s head below and caresses his locks to finally acknowledge him, but she needs to grasp her current reality before she makes a fool of herself. “It’s Zelena”, he tells her with a bit of disdain, “We’re all in danger. I had to come back to warn you all, to help fight” He glances down at his now frightened son and lifts him into his right hip for a soothing hug while Regina blinks in confusion. “What are you talking about? Where is Mari—“ “We can’t talk about it now”, he cuts her off urgently, gesturing with a discreet nod to the boy in his arms. “Listen, I promise I will explain everything later. But we don’t have a lot of time to gather the others and make a plan”. He slides a gentle hand down her arm as if to assure her it’ll be alright despite his ominous warning. Roland wiggles in his grasp and his father sets him on his feet a moment before he bounds off a yard or two and squats down to examine a rock on the pavement. “I’m just so happy to see you, Regina”, Robin cups her cheek in his chilled palm, “didn’t think I would again”. His words rush off his tongue before his lips are pressed to hers, desperate and needy, fueled by the current perils only he knows they face and his all consuming love for her. It is a reunion kiss that can only come from resolutely believing they’d be separated permanently. Regina responds with all the heart she can muster, their lips moving fluidly together as if the last few weeks had not eclipsed. When they finally break for air they are both grinning like fools, foreheads resting together as their breathing falls in sync, and she swears she suddenly feels whole again, as if her arm had been missing and has just now been returned. She lets the feeling wash over her, soaks it in selfishly for a minute because she knows how fleeting this absolute contentment is now. There are still a thousand questions running through her head, a dark cloud churning and billowing over their little town and every life in it, but with Robin’s hand in her own things feel possible. She tightens her grip and they start toward her car, ushering Roland away from his picture in the dirt as they go. They let their hands slip apart to round the car and Robin opens the back so Roland can hop inside excitedly, insisting that he’s mastered belting himself in. Once he’s safely buckled and shut in, Robin pulls his handle but catches Regina’s eyes over the hood. They both have a flurry of emotions hidden in their expressions, but one sticks out above them all and Regina knows this one to be the only true importance in the world. “I love you”, Robin declares, the lines around his eyes wrinkled from the joy on his face. Her chest swells with such happiness that her dark eyes moisten with tears and she doesn’t care that her voice cracks when she finally speaks the words herself. “I love you”. Fin

[wrex-writes]

Oh yeah. I sent two asks, but Tumblr probably ate the other one. Ummm... by saying that, I mean, I feel like... if other positive reviewers read the bad feedback, they will go like "Huh, you know, you're right, this person kinda sucks at writing. Thanks for making me see how bad of a writer this person is." It's unreasonable, and illogical, I know. And I get that a writer needs to learn to accept bad feedbacks, but it's so tough to do so. I tried. And failed at accepting the review. :c

First post for reference

This probably won’t help, since you just said you know it’s illogical, but…I can assure you this never happens. Like, I don’t have proof, I haven’t conducted a survey, but I am morally certain that nobody who enjoyed a story ever scrolled down to a negative review and went “you know, actually I hated that story.” If they enjoyed the story, they’re vastly more likely to get angry or indignant at a negative review. This happens to me all the time when I read something I like. I’ll see a bad review and swell with rage. Never once have I simply written off my positive experience as meaningless next to a disgruntled reader’s negative one. Even if I do acknowledge some flaws pointed out by the reviewer, they never seem like serious flaws since they didn’t interfere with my enjoyment of the story.

Negative reviews aren’t contagious. The people who liked your story really liked it, and will continue to like it. I promise.

And you know, honestly, you don’t have to “accept” bad reviews. I mean, you do in the sense that if they happen, they happen, and you can’t change that, but you don’t have to agree with them, or receive them gladly with a deferential “thank you, sir, may I have another.” You can be mad! It’s okay! It’s healthy, even! Just don’t reply with a capslocked tirade, if you can help it. We’ve all seen Anne Rice do that and it’s embarrassing for everyone.

It’s true that as you develop as a writer, a certain amount of critical feedback is helpful. But it must come from a person you trust, who understands and values the project you’re working on, not from some rando on the internet who thinks they know a thing or two about writing. Most people don’t know shit! I can count on one hand the number of genuinely helpful, valuable negative reviews of fanfic I’ve seen on the internet. And none of them were entirely negative; the reviewer just saw areas for improvement in a story they otherwise liked. If a reader does nothing but rant about how bad your story was, they 1) have their own issues unrelated to your story, or 2) fundamentally missed the point of your story because they were looking for something else. You don’t need to take all critical feedback seriously, just the stuff from people who actually know what they’re talking about!

(By the way, if bad reviews are causing you major distress, AO3 does have an option for the author to moderate their feedback. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to let it through. There’s no shame in that; I’ve seen lots of authors do it.)

[reptired-moved-away]

Who needs a title when they have us?

Disclaimer (more like warning): you’re not allowed to stop being my friend because of how weird this is…

We started talking exactly a year ago, even if we were aware of one another’s existence before then. I wanted to give you something to celebrate that like the sappy weirdo I am but, alas, we do not yet have portals so, in a serious question of my personality, I turned to the numbers first. Yeah, I know, me, the crazy child that loves words and can’t do math turned to numbers. Crazy, right? Well, the deluge of words comes right after the brief numbers so mwah ha haha ha.

23 / 02 / 2017

2 + 3 + 2 + 2 + 1 + 7 = 17

1 + 7 = 8

This friendship is two people so 8² = 64

And, ergo, here are 64 things I adore about you:

1 - You can speak English! Really well! It’s absolutely incredible and I can’t thank you enough because we wouldn’t even be able to talk with this talent of yours! And you do it so brilliantly I sometimes forget you weren’t born in an English-speaking country!

2 – Frankly, you’re weird. And that means we’re both weird, so you don’t mind me being crazy and you can be crazy right back at me and it’s all okay! I appreciate the mutual exchange of weirdness!

3 – Your creativity amazes me! Whether it’s a new perspective on the world, a song you make up, your OCs’ world, or anything else, your creativity is absolutely mind-blowing!

4 – Which leads me to: art! You’re amazing at it! It’s like you’ve absorbed most of the artistry the world had to offer! I can’t even deal with how flawless your creations are!

5 – You are extremely protective, which is one of the reasons we met at all! And you keep offering to come all the way here and hurt people for me, which is crazy but dearly appreciated!! It’s a lovely quality and always makes me smile!

6 – Thankfully, you don’t mind hugs! Not that there’s anything wrong with minding hugs, of course! But I’m one of those people who likes hugs and, even if we haven’t hugged in person, you don’t mind all the virtual hugs! * hugs you *

7 – We have somehow talked basically every day despite our crazy time differences, from two hours to twelve! It’s commendable that we’ve both stayed up late / woken up early to talk!! And even when we don’t have really long conversations, there’s always a good morning / good night!

8 – Over the year, you’ve taught me a lot! From art to brigadeiro to the occasional Portuguese phrase, and even the occasional innuendo I didn’t get… I appreciate the enlightenment!

9 – I have to mention your hair! It’s so fluffy and hilarious (and guitar hair at one point) and I absolutely love how you cut it yourself, that was really brave! It’s a beauty!

10 – Whilst I’m on physical features, have you seen your eyes? Well, yeah, you have, but I mean, do you know how enchanting they are? Sometimes as green as PJ and sometimes like a kaleidoscope, beautiful!!

11 – Also, your nails! They always seem to be in perfect shape and they’re such beautiful designs – you marbled them a few times and that was amazing! Plus, your nail art is so cute!! I love how you take care of them!

12 – As we’re on physical traits, I feel it’s necessary to mention your snazzy style! Your outfits are on point and I love the way you organise things or make them aesthetic! It’s so great!!

13 – Let’s not forget your morality! And no, I don’t mean you have a mini Patton (although I suppose we all do) but I mean the way you’re honest and don’t lie or backbite and stuff [I think]!

14 – Leading on from that, you’re really humble! I know you say you have a big ego but you’re not arrogant about it and I greatly appreciate that because otherwise my general cluelessness would be a problem!

15 – You’re also crazily cheesy sometimes, especially for someone who’s lactose intolerant! But it’s cute and always funny, plus it means you’re not too bothered when I’m cheesy (which is a lot) so thanks!

16 – You also have a really good taste in music! All the bands and stuff you’ve recommended to me have been amazing and I do appreciate the Fall Out Boy screaming we did together!

17 – That act was kind of you and, in fact, my next point is how kind you are! You’re so considerate about me saying weird stuff (cansado, not casando) and you always try to lift my spirits up in such a sweet way!

18 – Thus building up the fact that you always try to help me, no matter how weird the requests are, like asking for a picture of Thor or assessing if my cheesy story speech was feelsy enough, and that’s remarkable of you!

19 – It’s similar to an earlier point but you’re so imaginative, it’s crazy! The ideas you come up with and the world you’ve created is so detailed and amazing – you made a language, for star’s sake! It’s just marvellous!

20 – I love how our conversations can tangent to extremely odd things and we can go from pencils to existential crisis to schooling systems to a random youtube video! It’s so fun and enjoyable!!

21 – (What’s nine plus ten?) You seem to have this store of facts and knowledge of things that comes in useful both practically and for entertainment purposes, which is seriously cool!

22 – And your determination is commendable! You’ve drawn detailed masterpieces within a day and you’ve worked for things, whether it’s grades or health, and that’s literally so inspiring!

23 – Promises!! You keep them! You’re okay with my childish pinky promise inquiries and you definitely don’t purposely break promises, which is basically a fundamental for… you know, anything, so go you!

24 – The thing is, I’m not worried to tell you things I’m obsessed with because we met through the phandom and that builds a more or less accepting baseline, which is a relief because otherwise I am not good at trusting people with my obsessions!

25 – I have to express my gratitude for the way you don’t mind my crazy rambling! I can talk for absolutely ages or just gush about something and you don’t get mad, which is really kind of you!!

26 – You also care a lot. Which is good, because it makes you ultra-friendly and so cute! I very much appreciate, even if I act annoyed at, how you keep telling me to sleep when our time difference is too much!

27 – You always do random things that amaze me even though I already know how awesome you are! Like when you memorised and performed colour bandits!! That was an amazing feat and I still can’t believe you Did That!

28 – Did I mention your versatile drawing skills are absolutely astonishing? Your shading, colouring, expressions, and clothes are absolutely flawless and you keep improving, I can’t even deal!

29 – Another thing is, you’re often super chill about things. Not nonchalant but you’re not really, really stressed to the point where you’re just blanking out the obvious – you’re pretty rational!!

30 – And that leads me to thanking you for sticking around through bad days that you don’t [at least I don’t think you] judge and can give me advice about or just listen / read, which is often the most helpful thing to be honest!

31 – Your voice is gorgeous! You keep saying you sound rough but I still think you sound like beautiful ocean waves in front of a calming sunset on a beach! It’s such a snazzy voice and I could listen to you talk forever!

32 – Not to mention when you sing! It’s so majestic and cute and adorable, I love it! It always makes me smile, even if I’ve had a weird day! (PS, you’re halfway through, don’t worry, not much more left and you’ll be free soon)

33 – The abundance of tumblr tagging has to be mentioned! You’re cool with it when I tag you and you tag me in things too, which is always something awesome to pick my phone up to!!!

34 – You’re genuinely really clever! You do well at the stuff you want to and I admire you for it, even if you doubt yourself sometimes! I think your intelligence is applause-worthy!

35 – That intelligence also comes with the wit to make puns, which are usually hilarious and perfectly carried out! It’s a very charming skill to have!!

36 – And where there’s puns, there’s references! The amount of youtubers’ references we’ve made is crazy and I love your Bo Burnham ones, even if I don’t quite understand all of them, as you don’t always get my obscure bookish ones!

37 – Our keyboards must have rolled their non-existent eyes at us because of the crazy caps lock we keep using when fangirling or shouting or generally emphasising our points, but I love reading the conversations back and the caps lock is an awesome, fun thing!

38 – Moment of credit to the time when we discovered how to bold and italic things and spent a week experimenting every possible scenario and then saved them all too… our shared overexcitement was crazily enjoyable!

39 – Touching on a deeper subject, we do have a basic trust in each other! Like not sharing facts and stories with others and appreciating privacy but also knowing that we don’t have to be on tip-toes around each other! It’s super comforting!

40 – Oh, did I mention how everything you draw turns out to be a masterpiece and yet you keep downplaying it? Your art is just a beauty and I can’t ever express how bubbly and vibrant it is!!!!

41 – You’re really supportive and I love that I can tell you one of my crazy ideas and you’ll go with it, like when we were decided how to pronounce ‘Xnij’ and so many other times you’ve given me confidence!

42 – Whenever I see posts about crediting people, I’m always reminded of [the reason we met and] how, when you wrote Mint Green Beanie, I helped you with the wording and you gave me some credit even though you didn’t need to? That showed how incredible you are!

43 – Honestly, the amount of late night or really really early morning talks we’ve had is insane and yet you don’t seem to mind, and I love that I can message you or something and you’ll reply at the craziest of times, it’s dearly appreciated!!!!!

44 – I mentioned this before but how inspiring you are deserves its separate point! You have a really cool attitude to life and your approach to things is so awesome, you make everything seem effortless and yet I know you work for things.

45 – You’re not afraid to be yourself and I admire that! You compliment those who you deem worthy and you call out those who you dislike, which is brave and really fantastic of you!

46 – Linked with that is the fact that you sometimes have no filter, whether that’s when talking or in pictures! Either way, it shows you’re not a deceitful person and it makes you powerful!!

47 – You also seem to understand my weird terms for things, substitutions for swearing, and the odd phrases I’ve picked up (like briktah) and you’re pretty chill with how I might drop the odd word in Portuguese or German!!!

48 – Randomly placed thing but I really love your smile! It’s so bright and happy and cute, it’s contagious and genuinely makes me happy too!!

49 – Your sense of humour is seriously relatable and it’s probably because we both laugh at stupid things but I love how funny you can be and that all my jokes aren’t weird to you!

50 – I love how you send tumblr asks, both to me and others, it’s a lovely thing to get an alert for and the effort is greatly appreciated! Your presence in my inbox is a blessing!

51 – I’m sort of cliché and terms of endearment are amazing to me so the fact that you often use them is so sweet and I love you for it! And Sunny of all nicknames, it’s so kind and I could thank you forever for it!

52 – I have to say, you’re pretty good at existential crisis mode. That sounds weird but the amount of times we’ve changed to having an existential moment is phenomenal and the fact that you can unleash your inner existential Dan and go with it (or prompt it) is super great!!

53 – Our typos. Oh my stars, the amount of typos we keep saving is ridiculous but we keep doing it and it’s so fun to facepalm at them and question the sanity of autocorrect or our fingers….

54 – The plans we keep making for the future! Like making me eat Chinese or making you experience snow or even just hugging at some point, and lately the plushie adventure thing, they’re so fun and give me something to look forward to!

55 – Hey, did I mention your art? I have to admire the way you’re good at every style and you’re willing to experiment and make incredible traditional, digital, and everything other type of art pieces! A true artiste!

56 – You happen to be slightly mad and it’s actually very endearing. Your wild ideas are insane and cute, and I love the obscure things you might pick up on and turn into something great!!!!

57 – To put it simply, you are trash. Not as in bad, but as in so deep in the fandoms that they’ve merged with your roots. And it’s awesome because you make it even cooler than it is (obviously I think being in a fandom is cool but I am slightly biased because, you know… I’m in a lot)

58 – You’re cute. Really cute! With your interesting expressions or passions and the way you laugh, as well as the way you draw! Absolutely cute, honest!

59 – You might roll your eyes at his but your dimples!!! They’re so adorable and poke-able and just so fabulous!! You just rock those dimples!

60 – I appreciate how you remember things I tell you or details most people would forget, whether that’s a book I’ve been reading or a friend I’ve talked about or a preference I talked about weeks before! It makes me happy!!!

61 – Your excitement is intense! When you were moving or after you cut your hair or when you became rosey and crushed for ages, your excitement was super cute and just so touching!!

62 – Maturity. You have it. We can talk about really serious things and I never feel like we’re judging each other or it’s uncomfortable, it’s just deadly serious and there’s no questions asked, or the right questions are asked and then the answers are (maybe cheesy but) sincere.

63 – Immaturity. You have it. Yes, it’s a contradiction to the above but I also adore how we can laugh about fidget spinners for hours or send stupid jokes back and forth and act really childish, which is something I don’t think anyone does enough!

64 – I mean, if you’ve read this far, that’s reason enough, but also the fact that we’re still going after an entire year of ups and downs and all things in between is just crazy, and I guess I just want to say thank you for everything and I love you <8

And, finally, you’re free of my ludicrous way of expressing how I feel and how hyped I am! Sorry I didn’t really make anything but yeah, thanks for being one of my best friends, muffin! Have a lovely fri-YAY of our friendiversary! I couldn’t ask for a better first internet buddy and Dan to my Phil, u da bomb <3