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thecolorsfucked · 2 years ago

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#its like anything involving me that isnt like super positive just gets no anything from my friends now #i cant just complain and vibe bcuz they assume i want emotional support they can't give #and they just default and placate like okay i didnt even ask u for this #i just wanted to talk about how im getting revenge on someone #like im sorry not much good is going on w me rn #but like god idk whatever ill just only talk to friends when its super positive or unrelated to my life #im not a friend anymore just something to take care of ig idk #this is why i hate relying on ppl in any capacity man #they either get resentful or they take on too much and burn out #like i tell ppl to take space when theynneed it i respect those boundaries when theyre in place #i try to voice my needs #ik i get shitty and lash out and rly miserable but fuck dude im trying #ive only told one person about crying the other day #despite that being how ive spent this past two weeks so like #idk man wtf #what do ppl want from me #they just want me to be better and im not getting their and it freaks them out ig #whatever

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milkbreadtoast · 7 months ago

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looking back at the yjh webtoon screencaps i have saved and giggling... hes so cute... moe... my pookie ^___^ 🥰🥰 poor little meow meow woof woo- *eliminated where i stand*

also these poses are sooooo... 꺄아악🖤🫣🫣🫣🫣

#talk tag #orv liveblog #<--gonna just tag my orv misc posts as this now #i looooove when the webtoon artist draws him like a demonic beast #its genuinely so moe to me smdbsndn like hes supposed to be rly handsome but theyre not afraid to make him look unhinged #i rmbr livetweeting that yjh hibernation pic captioned 'hes so moe'... apparently that was 2022(just dug it up)#more than 1 person has told me that theyre surprised i bias yjh from the webtoon alone #bc apparently they dont do his chara justice(v 😔😔😔 to hear that...thats not good..)#BUT HOW COULD I NOT BIAS HIM!!!! (apparently this is not a universal experience aldjskdj)#this just makes me even more uncontrollably excited to read the novel i cant wait to love him more than i alr do #and i love when he glares and makes a disgusted face at kdj... its so cute 🤭 he's like an angry black dog to me. hes like a wolf puppy #*tries to pat his head and gets cut down in .00001 sec... no he wouldnt waste his sword on me... i would simply perish from being in the #the presence of his aura #literally the tsundere ever #aside from hiei... hiei rly primed me to like male tsunderes guys #like after him i have loved sm tsundere male charas since #yjh is in a league of his own tho. like idc how many similar/near identical charas have come before or since #he OWNS the yjh archetype literally everyone else is just copying him <33 #even if it was a choice btwn yjh and cedric id have to go w yjh... he is the original im sorry... i love u cedric #and i love that the whole point is that his design/chara archetype ISNT supposed to be original... thats the Point #he's the typical op dark haired stoic cold brooding (and sexy) protagonist...#his chara concept is supposed to be that trope... but what orv does w him is so subversive #and the fact that he is supplanted from his position as the protag in the narrative... i love it sooo much #like maybe i wouldnt care as much if he actually was the protag? bc again it wouldnt rly be new #but the fact that he isnt the actual protag is sooo good #IM NOT RLY SAYING OR ANALYZING ANYTHING RN BUT I JUST FELT LIKE YJH LOVEPOSTING #o sidenote his webtoon faces make great rxn images slfnsmd I LOVE USING THE FIRST ONE #i love using heartwrenching anime/comic moments out of context as rxn images its so funny to me #me @ the orv live action cast announcement

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dukeofthomas · 4 months ago

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I'm so mad that so far the only good robin!jason content i've ever found is his original run. Everything i've seen since has just been making him out to be the Angry Bad Problem Child and victim blaming him for dying. How is it that the only fucking good characterization of him is 20 issues from the 1980s

#my dc posting #jason todd #dc #jaybin #robin jason todd #i love jaybin so much but by god there is no fucking content #ppl are just obsessed w making him out to be Bad and Angry to make him becoming red hood make more sense in their heads #look thats what he was always going to be. that what he was always on the track for. look at how angry and unstable he was #SHUT UPPP #from comics anything told to me abt his time as robin after his death means nothing to me #everyone has a different version of canon in their mind and mine will never include a single bit of info abt jaybin said after his death #i have the most horrible brainrotting ''he would not fucking say that'' abt jaybin. nobody gets him like i dooo #<- said as someone who has been angry and problematic and difficult since a young age bc of trauma and mental illness and shit #AND JASON WASNT EVEN HALF AS BAD AS ME #im gonna go reread his og robin run. my safe space #sorry im being soooo annoying abt jaybin rn i just. i love him #i feel like most people only see jaybin as the precursor to red hood #jaybin is only worth something as the backstory of red hood #which like. its fine to like the red hood version of him most #but i like jaybin :( he's my robin. like if there's a robin in a story i'd want it to be jason #so many fics would be sooo good to me if they did not unnecessarily have jason arguing with bruce abt the no-kill thing while STILL ROBIN??#like what are we doing thereeee #ok sorry im done being annoying and venty and whiny now

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maxphilippa · 8 months ago

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uh. vent art. or something. losing yourself and losing everyone who you cared about as a result

#inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity invitational #ii #ii 2 #ii 3 #inanimate insanity cabby #. that's it #i'm. so so exhausted.#i feel like i'm actually going to throw up from how disgusted i am with myself #of course they wouldn't want to be friends w/me of course they don't like talking to me anymore #i am too broken to even be a good friend #hell even my best friend is leaving my side lately #i don't want to go back. i don't want to see them again tomorrow. i don't want to.#i don't want to feel like i'm insignificant i was doing so good why does it hurt why is it hurting now #i don't want to feel like death is the only solution i don't want to i don't want to be alone i don't want to be forgotten #i don't want to be unloved just because i can't fix myself anymore #i don't have anything to offer anymore i'm so so sorry i wish i did i wish i was still happy and healing #i wish i was i wish i was im sorry i can't.#sigh. well can't do much about it now anyway. uh yeah cabby is my mood rn. also talking about irl friends here.#god this was so bad i need to die rn #cw vent #cw sui mention #i guess #mhm. i think i need a therapist

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seventh-district · 11 days ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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palms-upturned · 5 months ago

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#meg talks #just venting #im in so much pain it’s not even funny #im sorry for being inactive for so long i really was not anticipating this #the good news is ive made a lot of progress on compiling the spreadsheet for vetted gaza funds #so that once ive cleared out the dms i can add additional mods and get the ball rolling properly again #the bad news is that my insomnia is back and my pain is getting so bad i can barely get out of bed or eat #i don’t think it’s related to the fundraising work so much as… everything else -_-#i didn’t want to be out of a job for this long #and having to send so many applications and make so many fucking unhelpful phone calls a day to doctors and help centers…#idk. this isn’t me complaining abt the fundraiser work if anything it’s the only rewarding thing im doing rn #but im frustrated w myself and with my body and with. everything #it’s not just my own family relying on me anymore #and that makes it hard to deal with all this. like i could be using my time and energy way better than this.#but instead im playing phone tag to try and prove that im disabled and need to feed my brothers.#im just cjdhxgxjcncj sigh. whatever if i can just get over this hump then the rest will be downhill #and my friend is going to help me w cooking this weekend so that me and my bros can eat better #so hopefully that will give me a boost too #idr where i was going w this. probably nowhere jdgdjdnxnc im just miserable rn bc i can’t sleep and my leg hurts

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skrunksthatwunk · 1 month ago

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im exploding into a million pieces i found a reddit thread about butches in video games (specifically looking for them) in hopes that there was some kind of lesser known dream daddy-esque butch dating sim or SOMETHING cute like that and guys the fucking crumbs we have to live on you're actually killing me. im withering away why are there no kissable butches in video games im going to throw up and kill everyone. nobody wants a butch dating sim apparently. im gonna go weep in the fetal position

#everybody ignore this it's so stupid but #it's like heres a stard.ew valley mod where you can make leah butch and um idk starf.ield bg characters #and a baldgate3 character. IM CRYING WHERE ARE THE BUTCHES #'why is this making me emotional' (<- very understandable why it would make me emotional)#howling into the night sky ripping ny shirt in twain transforming into a big hairy beast bc i love butches sm #GUHHHHHHHHHH CMONNNNN #i just wanna see people's cute drawings of dykes ok. where is our version of bara #where is it please #im begginbg the universe generally #i need a hero (the song) is emanating from my pores rn. where are they we deserve so much better than this #gahhhh it's all overly palatable softgirl yuri fuckk. where are my big sweaty hairy braless deep voiced dykes im going to kill someone #when is it my turn to be happy wuagghhh #not to say i dislike softgirl yuri but i do not want to kiss them!! sorry but that is a big motivator for this #is wanting a 2d boyfriend (/dyke) because everyone else gets to have one :((#and also like. wanting to see dykes reflective of irl dykes rather than yuri for representation purposes that matter to me personally #and the gender euphoria that can often come from that but also FUCKK #nguhhhhhh oughhhhhh ahhhhhhhhgh. im such a fucking faggot im sick of this #a large chunk of the sapphic population is just completely not represented it's like they only exist in my mind #i never seen them around me either this shit sucks fuck my stupid baka life. wehehhh #exploding into a million pieces #im never expressing any kind of gay yearning again after this im done #is it too much to ask that i see people like me out there?? in many ways but tonight specifically in a butch way #ppl when they even think for a moment of making lesbian media where the dykes aren't sifted through straight attractiveness filters: 😱#again a lesbian dating dim w femmes would rule as well but it's all high schoolers and vaguely anime-hot women #and thats not good enough. it's like if they give a girl a big nose they'll fucking die immediately #maybe the real reason i consume so much homoerotic buff guy media is because SOMETIMES ppl draw them as butches #(<- not the reason but maybe loosely vaguely part of the reason)#anyway this was inspired by me watching ppl react to like. a popular pretty boy dating sim #and trying to figure out some equivalent experience for me but i can't bc none of it is made for me #killing everyone and then killing them again. hatred

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fappellmoan · 1 year ago

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ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this.#film girl saga

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hexados-on-a-string · 1 year ago

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spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying.#its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free.#i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

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hellheld · 1 year ago

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i may have realized that harlot is actually going to be very difficult to ship with IUHRGUIEGTKJR

#they're so painfully slow burn...................................i'm so sorry #me learning the nuances of how harlot interacts w/ ppl outside of my head: oh. oh you're not like you were supposed to be #harlot: i don't wanna fuck i want to sing and fight and maybe be crushed by a hydraulic press #LIKE THAT STILL FITS THEIR ORIGINAL DESIGN BUT??????? I THOUGHT THEY'D BE MORE DTF #even if /i/ don't wanna fuck my muses usually do UIGRHETIURYJ #shakes harlot. did i break you by giving you your specific brand of trauma and half-divine blood that can kill demons #in hindsight yeah that was fucked up of me im sorry i ruined your potential sex life buddy #i need to sleep #i didn't become aware of how much i was fighting my sleep meds until i started talking to someone and i went oh. oh no #and now this post is also a good reflection of why i should be in bed rn instead iuwghretjk #FUCK TUMBLR STILL DOESNT REMEMBER MY OOC TAG #* ooc: let's go lesbians!#TRYING AGAIN

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whomturgled · 2 years ago

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i have so many feelings and i hate it

#and regrets of any time ive acted up or feel like in hindsight it wasnt cherishing the time i have w them as i shld be and #and things i want to do with them still and ways to love them and be loved and understand their way of loving and #i think we can be so good together and. i miss them. and i hope they miss me.#i really hope theyll miss me soon and want me again and . ik its maybe a little messed up but i want to believe and trust and #its hard and it hurts but. i really feel theres a great connection and if i need to chill out a bit and remember myself more thats fine #and on me for getting so like. moody recently. altho i kinda feel like part of that is med changes but u__u still i need to be able to like #be better and i think they make me better and so happy and. im so comfortable with them and i love them and i wld want to make it work #even if it had to be distance but i dont think i want to just be their friend like maybe but it would hurt a lot bc i love them so much #and i hope they wanna be with me too still and will allow me to romance them yknow flowers and adventures and love and take care and... yea #and maybe some of this was just them going thru a lot rn and im sorry for adding pressure to it and i want to be the comfortable respite an #auurgrgghfhdhdhhfhfdhh i miss them #i just keep thinking abt them like ill have periods of not but then i do again and. idk.#theres also a lot of complicated feelings and thoughts and its like i want to like. idk. know some of their friends n stuff n. :^( idk #i dont feel well from the stress and emotions and ow of it all #i really hope it isnt just a way for them to let me down i really hope they come back eventually like i wanna believe they will but #ourgsghthfhdhfhghghdhdhwkelftk4bfbhwiwjtjejAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i love them a lot. and need to listen more abt more alone time stuff bc it is good for both of us but not like this u_u #ok sorry for rambling i needed somewhere to write feelings so here we are #i guess part of me is hoping theyre thinking abt me at least a bit and maybe will check this and see it and be like wow i do miss them too #but ik thats silly and eitth3u2ieigjtb4jirifjwji24jgntn aahhhhhhhhhhh. i say a lot of things wrong esp when scared or overly emotional and.#urgevshehrhtjrjeitjtnjeeitjtjwjeiigvjiw9384847rhfbwjoe4j4n4j289djrnrnf #i just really really hope they come back soonish and like want me and are like yes i do want you sorry for that but not a huge sorry bc #like i understand where theyre coming from and. and. yeah. idk. soon doesnt have to be today or tomorrow but maybe a week or 2 idk #i just realy miss them and it hurts and i really dont want them with someone else or to just throw it all away andni want to prove i can #like. idk. love them and be better and more positive i guess we've both been dealing w a lot of stuff and i do need to learn to accept and #more patient w how we communicate differently and we do have to face that but its a difficult topic to confront ig and aurh4hwhshhrlffff #i think they love me i want to trust and i really hope they dont try to make any decisions for me or like based on what they think best 4 m #bc i get to decide that :^(#when i said let down i meant like. leave my life and never talk to me again and stuff.. ;^(. idk how to feel abt some things but. idk. idk.#theres so many feelings and that all is just a pretty vague tip of the iceberg ugh

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smoothoperador · 2 years ago

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#sorry i need to vent ignore this #my new years resolution for 2023 was to work out consistently and get fit #bc i was really embarrassed at how physically weak i was last summer #and for the most part i did but with prepa and stuff i couldnt exercise as much as i wanted #but i still lost a bit of weight and was somewhat happy with the results for a while but #now i hate it again i hate it so much #ive been dancing a LOT (like 4h/week min. which is a lot for a fulltime uni student) bc it's convenient and good cardio and most of all FUN #and yeah the weight i lost is due to that and my cardio is good and im definitely much more fit than last year but #i still hate the way i look. so viscerally. and i know its my brain telling me nonsense bc it's not like a body can 'look bad'#and i'm lit a healthy weight im just a little thicker than french standards?#but i need to exercise more i want to lose all this fat i pinch my skin and wish it would melt beneath my fingers #but i dont have time or money for the gym and no buddy to go with and im intimidated so i just work out from home but #it's not enough i feel so discouraged. body dysmorphia in the summer really doesnt help my seasonal depression #like i truly believed this year would be my 'summer body' or whatever shit that means and its not and idk what to do i just want to be #in another persons skin. have another persons body. anyone truly #to the point that dancing isnt even fun for me anymore it's just competitive w myself i want to maximize the calories i burn and #i sometimes record myself cause i want to see the steps i miss and i did and i saw my body and it killed all my joy.#made me wanna die and cry. i stopped dancing immediately and i just swallowed back the tears cause theres no way i look like that.#so repulsive and nowhere near where i wanted. and again i know it's in my head there's no such thing as a 'repulsive' body due to weight!?!#but i cant apply that reasoning to myself. and i hate myself so much rn #im being called for dinner rn but i'd honestly rather not eat. i think i'd feel horribly gross if i ate anything right now #i told my friends i'd stop using hunger as a form of self-punishment but it almost feels satisfying in a twisted way... like i deserve it #clara tais toi #like ia m SO obsessed with my appearance in a way that is borderline unhealthy i am SO #preoccupied by how im perceived (physically) if i look hot if i look pretty if i look cute at any and all times and #the answer is never ever satisfactory because other ppls judgement of me cannot fix my own but like #it's so exhausting. i'm so exhausted #dl later

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years ago

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I love dipping my toes back into comics, remembering all the C and D list characters I love and getting that sense of intrigue again, sliding into headcanon territory like "MAN if they just made a series about this they'd totally have me hooked again!". Then I continue reading about the state of current comics (i.e where those C and D list characters are rn and what the state of canon is) and think about the amount of complexity and set up you'd need to even get halfway close to the perfect vision in your head and how impenetrable current comics are so you wouldn't even know where to start with catching up...

And then I'm once again relieved that I'm not caught up with comics anymore and am simply backreading now irrelevant comics at a glacial pace

#ramblings of a lunatic #posts inspired by me catching up (via osmosis) the current state of flash comics #s/o to irey west #you could have such a good turn as impulse if DC would let you your brother and bart progress (according to the vision in my head!)#same thing w/ the current superman run that's apparently on going #i am Very intrigued by the premise of lex apparently a) leaving his company to clark and b) wanting to team up w/ superman #as well as whatever Marilyn Moonlights deal is (SHE SEEMS SO COOL FROM HER INITIAL TEASER APPEARANCE)#but i simply cannot look past the convoluted state of the superfam rn with how present they seem to be in current comics #again there's 17 yr old jon (im glad you're bisexual but sorry that (age up) happened to you)#but also there's. twins now??? huh????#they're revamping power girl???? huh #it's just. too much. it intimidates me #maybe my current goal will just be to keep reading gww ms marvel til the romance bores me (bc i think it gets romance heavy after a while?)#and then try and finally finish sandman (i like the anthology stand alone issues more than the story ones tho tbh...)#but also idk man. comics have so many things i love and they've been on my brain recently but trying to enjoy them at this moment #nigh impossible. i do not know where to start

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phagodyke · 7 months ago

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still have some brain fog but nowhere near as bad as the last couple days 👍

#ill do the same tmr (big breakfast + protein shake + take meds an hour after) and i should be good to hit the gym after work #then friday.. hmm. maybe ill take it at 7 again but eat the same. just to see if its the taking it With food that makes it less effective #i gotta pick up some shit omw home and then i can cook and showerrrrr and i should have some time to kill before calling friends #so might play er. we'll see i have to find my cv for work first lol #also looks like new qc guy gets the same bus as me.... interesting #he was trying to make eye contact w me but i needed to focus on remembering to go get this stuff after work #like sorry dude im clocked out today. but if hes at the stop tmr ill try n leave at the same time as him and make small talk #cuz i havent had much of a chance to chat w him but he seems sweet n ik the first couple weeks can be a lot to take in #plus i think we're prolly close in age. altho im rly bad at guessing stuff like that djdkf #ALSOOOO finally getting around to listening to luby sparks self titled ive had.it downloaded for ages #when was someone gonna tell me this FUCKS #feel like im finally discovering good music again its so healing <3 #ayyy i think i just passed a guy who works at my gym. forgot to hit post im in the gocey store rn 👍#.diaries

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landoughnut · 3 months ago

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achilleslyre · 2 years ago

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i think the fact that if i could have afforded uni i would be getting a classics degree and studying languages rn will forever haunt me…….. i actively mourn what could be so fucking bad.

#its just 😭😭 ik most ppl cant afgord it upfront #but i rlly dont have confidence in making enough after #wards to pay it off…..#specially with disability ect ect its just. idk it’s a scary thought putting myself out there soending so much and just failing #and i dont think i’ll ever get over the fact that i’m not formally studying classics or languages rn.#it makes me feel… like rlly sad and like im behind ect ect #even tho u dont need to go to uni ect ect i just. idk insee all my friends going and some of them getting fucking married (!?!) and its just #i feel like i let myself be left behind and like i’m going nowhere #ugh ugh sorry for little rant there i’m just….. kinda missing what i never had rn ig #oh that said tho im not jealous of the married thing. i think theyre crazy ajshsjsjsj we are far too young to be doing that rn but w/e its #none of my business ahsjhsjs #happy for them and hope it lasts and is good ect ect but #i do think theyre nuts. a little.

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