#like im hypersensitive to noise

[anonsickficker]

*gets on hands and knees to beg* please. argenthill content. i beg. (ive been so curious since I first heard about it)

the one im writing right now might take a while.. but i have some headcanon (?)

boothill still has the urges of a human, as the rest of his outward appearance seems to have been replaced with synthetic parts. he is unable to cry, just a minor side effect of his mechanically enhanced eyesight, the blue blood that runs through his veins, and the cold, artificial heart that thumps unfeelingly in his chest.

so, to ease the pains of his past, he drinks.

after a few of beverages, he forgets the significantly decreased stomach capacity that his cyborg body possesses. in short, he goes overboard. nobody notices a fellow nobody like him. not the secluded area of the hotel lounge he's situated in, the way the downs drink after drink, nor the manner in which he relieves the pressure in his chest, with a couple of low, airy belches that are completely washed away with the sweet melodies of jazz classics.

at some point, his innards begin to hurt. he is unable to pinpoint which organ aches, nor does he care. 'another drink should set me straight', he thinks. the counterintuitive thought lingers in his mind until he's lost track of how many remedial fingers of whiskey he's knocked back. his throat burns and tongue is numb and his head begins to ring internally, like the sound of the old, pink and tacky alarm clock that he'd somehow preserved, that had carried the memory of her, even after she had long passed. 'another drink should bring her back', he supposes.

something other than 'another drink' arrives, though.

he's been noticed, by the most beautiful somebody to exist. boothill's enhanced vision produces a clear image of the redhead before him, allowing his not-so-enhanced brain to fork up any information he's acquired about the man. argenti.

argenti shoves into the booth, shining the nearly blinding luminescence of his onto the reflective surfaces of boothill's damned metal figure. and almost immediately after, the lights are curtained by warm, loving fingertips that drum against boothill's upper abdomen, where the sloshing noises are the most prominent, like the sloshing of gasoline in its rightful tank. his cold, unfeeling heart, suddenly wildly hypersensitive to each wave of pressure that the redhead applies, his matching crimson eyelashes fluttering with fascination as he realises that boothill isnt just a pile of bolts and loose parts. there is beauty within his 'damned metal body', the beauty of feeling.

boothill's quick wit and snappy tongue lose their footing as he hiccups, unable to retaliate against argenti's gentle caresses as they traverse the plains of his waist, then navel, then especially taut upper-belly. argenti's luscious, saccharine-scented locks plays its rightful role as a luxurious veil as he leans over, offering up his plump bottom lip to the 'more-machine-than-man' beneath him. he is unfazed, even when boothill burps, close-mouthed, but impossibly near the redhead's face, as a result from the newly-introduced pressure of being crushed by a knight in his full-plate armour.

sharp, jagged teeth slide themselves across sweet, knowing tongue as they collide, and every attempt to push argenti off of him proves to be futile, even when they serve as warnings of when he's going to drunkenly hiccup right into the redhead's mouth. because somehow, argenti finds beauty in this, too.

sorry for not being able to finish it.. i dont think i wrote particularly well here but. i dont read often but i finally read a bit of a book and used some.. weird techniques. its not very nice in my opinion, and is very cliche. im sorry, anonymous person i hope everyone has a nice day. my creative writing ability deteriorated after tests sorry.. and it was not very focused on argenti also sorry about that. very one sided..

also i dont drink and never plan to what is a finger of whiskey

[moony-ghoul]

moony zoomy can i pwease have your thots abt swissphantom they mean sm to meee <3

lately i’ve been thinking about ant getting sick for the first time topside and while on tour and just how miserable they’d feel and how swiss would instantly be in mama mode

emetophobia warning below the cut

ant wakes up feeling gross, everything hurts and they’d do anything to crawl back into their bunk and cry out all the pain

they drag themself through the day much quieter than usual, trying to hide their wince at every movement. the ritual is hell and it takes everything in them to not collapse on stage into a messy sobbing ball of ghoul, their joints scream at them, their skin prickling with sweat under the heavy stage lights despite how cold they feel

swiss’ hand finds their back once they make it off stage, ant tries to not flinch away from the contact to their already hypersensitive self

“just gotta make it to the hotel, bug” swiss whispers into their hair, planting a kiss along with his words

they give a small nod in response, brain too exhausted to find any words

ant sticks themself to swiss’ side throughout the car ride, headphones on, hoodie pulled tight in an attempt to block out as much noise as possible. swiss wraps an arm around them as they curl into his chest

the second their hotel door shuts behind them ant lets their glamour drop with an exhausted sigh, tail immediately wrapping around their own leg

a wave of nausea rolls over them and they make a b line to the bathroom

they’re vaguely aware of swiss behind them as they collapse in front of the toilet, gaging loudly and painfully as the contents of their stomach come back up. they’re not sure how long they spend in front of the toilet, swiss feels his heart break with each defeated whimper and cry that comes out of ant

“im dying” they whine, stomach cramping again as the seemingly never ending foul bile fills their mouth again

“oh baby” swiss rubs small circles onto their back, “it’ll be over soon, we’ll get you cleaned up and we can have a sleep. you’re being so strong, bug”

ant doesn’t feel strong as they let out yet another sob, too tired to fight their body to keep their sounds to themself

at some point swiss gets up and grabs a wet wash cloth to cool the back of ants neck, it helps, their entire body is on fire. by the time their stomach settles they feel disgusting, face wet with tears, body covered in a layer of sticky sweat and a gross taste residing in their mouth

swiss places a kiss on their shoulder, they’re sure they look as bad as they feel but when they meet swiss’ eye hes still smiling at them like they’re the most beautiful creature on earth

“you ready to get cleaned up?”

ant nods weakly

“okay do you want me to help or you think you can do it on your own?”

they don’t give a verbal response but their tail wraps around swiss’ forearm and that’s as much as he needs to help the small ghoul to their feet

there’s so much love in swiss’ actions that ant feels like they’re being swallowed with it. he holds their face gently to brush their teeth, he scratches lightly at their scalp as he’s washing their hair, gives them a slight squeeze as he’s drying them off

swiss dresses them in all his own clothes, grey boxers and an old souvenir aquarium shirt from a date with rainy many years ago, they’re both well worn and hang loosely off of ants much smaller frame but they’re soft and smell like swiss so they have no complaints

ant curls around swiss once they’re in bed, resting their head on chest, the spade of their tail slips between their lips and they nibble on the thick skin. swiss wraps an arm around their waist and carefully massages their still aching stomach

swiss loads up a movie for some white noise, ants brain is too foggy to figure out what it is. they’re engulfed in swiss’ scent as sleep slowly starts to drift then away

he smells like coffee and woodsmoke

he smells warm and strong

he smells like home

[kurtmustdie]

i have a lot of unorganized miguel headcanons that float around my brain at times but since i usually think of them at night and forget about them the next morning im just going to continuously update this post probably? anyway here are the ones that i do remember

i will either leave this in my drafts and update it when i want to or ill just edit/reblog with new stuff idk

edit after i stopped typing:

ok its time

fuck you

posts

identity headcanons first, because idk getting those out of the way feel free to get pissed off about these ill just block you 💖

trans man. he/him pronouns. probbably doesnt care if you use gender neutral terms for him because like... why would he, he has a multiverse to stare at

asexual, can't really figure out of i see him as being aromantic as well, i personally just think he's too busy to think about it atm but i dont think hes incapable of it. maybe arospec, like demiro or greyro or smth idk, i just know this mf is asexual.

he is autistic (and probably undiagnosed?) i will die on this hill as if i was a warrior cat defending the sunningrocks i will commit an oakheart fight me on this and i will throw rocks at you and then promptly get crushed by rocks as well (is that warrior cats spoilers um oops sorry)

now to the rest- that i remember- i have not read the comics yet so if some of these are like.. actually canon lmk because that would be really funny

this one might be a hot take but he does not hate miles. he wants to look out for him and definitely either currently regrets or is going to regret what happened in that chase scene. i genuinely doubt he hates any of the spider-gang hes just very, very worried about the multiverse. in his head thats the only way. (i am hoping and pleading that miguel and miles make up somehow, maybe miles doesnt forgive miguel and that totally understandable and would make sense but pLEASE writers i would die if you kept them as being rivals i genuinely would)

he hates Audrey Hepburn, fangoria, harry houdini, AND croquet. he CAN swim, he CAN dance, and he DOES know Karate. he still wont make it though. sorry man.

since hes from the future i dont think he'd be terribly confused by current slang/terms, hed more look at it like we see terms from like... the 80-90s or anything before that as "oh wow people used to say that? huh. interesting."

im going back on a headcanon ive had since i saw the movie im SoRRYYY but he cant curse. from what ive seen from the comics he uses replacements like "shock" and "bithead", thats it. maybe he says fuck on accident or in spanish (he technically kind of does depending on how you see "Ay Coño" being said but thats beside the point).

probably a blue eyes hater idk he just gives me the vibe of saying "jesus christ your eyes are way too blue, get contacts please im begging you stop looking at me" which is probably why him and gwen have so much beef.

i dont give a shit about what the movie says his fangs are not retractable fuck you. (he still has crooked teeth though i will never forget about those <3 )

autism be damned my guy can work a grill 🔥🔥🔥🔥

a lot of people cant really tell if hes pissed or not by his tone sometimes. is this projection? yeah, next question.

he hardly ever sleeps but when he does its like hes dead (at least when its dead quiet, which again, isnt often so he hardly ever gets a good nights sleep). you'd have to use a fucking blowtorch to the face to wake him up.

i also see him as not only having hypersensitive vision but also having elevated senses period. hearing, smell, touch, etc. probably the main reason he sits in the dark with no other noise.

branching off of that he frequently gets migraines of things get to stressful or too loud or if anything is very off about his schedule.

arachnophobe. ha.

cat person.

cat person as in he likes cats not like hes a catboy.. i shouldnt specify that actually that just makes it worse but i will anyway because tumblr hellsite will be tumblr hellsite

he partially likes lego peter because his daughter really liked lego.

ok but like think about it he'd probably be really good at taking legos apart with those claws. like imagine. it'd be nothing for him.

hasnt spoken to gabriel in years. he cant bring himself to reach out and when gabriel does he just doesnt have the energy to try and respond. he has no idea how to, especially now.

this is very specific but he stims a lot with his claws. like extend and retract over and over absentmindedly (mainly because thats what i'd do if i had claws imagine how fun that would be)

he usually bottles up all the emotions that he has, including anger. kind of explains why he lost it in the chase scene in my head because he reached a boiling point. he hates talking to people about his problems.

empanadas are his safe food, also theyre just easy to eat when your mouth is a little funky (i would know i have some fucked up braces theyre great for that 10/10), its mostly just easier on his fangs.

definitely horrible at the whole self are thing. he just forgets, all the time. would forget to breathe if it wasnt involuntary

if you say anything he doesnt particularly like (eg "hey bro are you okay do you wanna talk") he'll just stare at you with his rat eyes like 👁️👁️ until you stopped idk what im saying.

he is a bit touch starved, depending on his mood he'll let people touch him in a friendly (emphasis on friendly. friendly friendly friendly dont take it any other way :/) way.

OH I almost forgot about this one: he hisses. some spiders hiss. so does he. vampire furry energy

he also gets pissed when people call him a vampire so uh... im counting my days oops.

will go out and sit in the rain. (wait would it still rain in the future? is the climate still fucked in his timeline or nah)

like "ah, its water time" and goes out to sit like this:

Man if only there was a rain filter

that is all i have for now maybe if something else comes up ill reblog with new stuff >:)

[head-of-sea-foam-the-system]

oh im so sorry fireworks suck :((

my country doesn't celebrate 4th july, but we do celebrate diwali, so for around four days people will let off fireworks c o n s t a n t l y. and i have a dog too so it's just terrible all around. in general india is just not the place for people with auditory hypersensitivity. makes me very glad to have noise cancelling headphones.

Thanks, hearing fireworks just makes me want to just give everyone who hates them a hug (or an air-hug or something if they don't like hugs), animals included.

We have cats, and one of our cats has what I think may be the cat equivalent of panic attacks (she hides and starts shaking) when she hears fireworks. May your dog and all the other animals who don't understand why everyone is loud find something that helps them through the chaos.

I don't own any noise cancelling headphones myself, but I hear they are quite helpful. Life is definitely better when you're not on sensory overload.

- Kelly

[kudzucataclysm]

3, 9, 25, 26?

3 - What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?

there is no ritual at this point i just go loco at random sporadic points in time but unfortunately?? ive noticed that i actually tend to write more when im drunk…call me the next stephen king…

9 - Do you believe in ghosts? This isn’t about writing I just wanna know

i do NOT believe in ghosts/the supernatural until i am confronted with bullshit v-v like ummm house creaking? someone invites me to haunted house? noises from the woods? no. i dont wanna push SHIT in case its real lol

25 - What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

thursdays piss kink and dez's goldfish farming hobby

26 - How do you get into your character’s head? How do you get out? Do you ever regret going in there in the first place?

i kinda set up individual 'rule sets' for each character that consists offff why they act the way they do, and i try my best to have them react to situations in the story and the people around them v-v have dez's list for example:

Desmond -

Doesn’t feel like he should be frustrated/angry or able to complain

Doesn’t feel like he’s “enough” - he fails his fathers expectations, thus is scared to fail the expectations of others

Feels that it’s his fault that his father treats him the way he does

Feels the strong need for people to like him. if people don’t like him it causes him distress, and he’ll do anything to make them like him 

Feels he’s unworthy of love

Hypersensitive 

Prone to extreme bouts of anxiety

Afraid to make mistakes or display/feel intense negative emotions

Believes everyone else’s needs are more important than his own

Believes his successes mean next to nothing 

Desperate for validation and acceptance

Willing to put up with mistreatment (to an extent)

Desperate to feel love and be loved/wanted by someone

Afraid of confrontation and saying “no”

afraid of disappointing others and will do anything to make up for it

can easily get attached to others who show him the slightest bit of validation, even if they treat him bad sometimes he’s also quick to forgive

and basically, this is how i get into his head and see how he sort of interacts with the world around him :D

[eliseuocscreator]

Yeonwoo's innocence x Komi san Can't communicate OCs Profiles

Name: Jihoo Haesol

Height: 165cm

Weight: 56kg

Age: 20(first appearance)

21(Summer vacation)

22(Currently)

Occupation: Athlete

Date of Birthday: Same as her mother.

Physical Appearance: A short girl, with short hair (like Haesol when she had short hair), and yellow eyes like her father, and a somewhat masculine body style (a bit athletic, because she works out)

Style: Gym girl/tomboy

Personality: She is an older sister, super calm and supports her younger brother in everything, she also protects her little brother from bullies, and she is the one who helps her little brother communicate when he can't, She can sometimes be very serious, when it comes to when many people talk badly about her parents or her younger brother's style, she acts like a tomboy (skateboarding, and going to the gym).

Family:

• Yeonwoo Haesol(Father)

• Kang Haesol(Mother)

• Yujin Haesol(Youngest Brother)

• Yeonwoo's Parents(Paternal grandparents)

• Nam Junhyuk and Im Junhyuk(Paternal godparents)

• Jin Jinwoo and Yeseul(I forgot her first name-) Jinwoo(Maternal Godparents).

• Chung Harang(Maternal "Aunt").

• Amaterasu and Tsuki(Cats)

Name: Yujin Haesol

Height: 176cm(formely)

179cm(Second year/third year)

Weight: 68kg(formely)

72,5kg

Age: 15(First Appearance)

16(First year/Second year)

17(Currently)

Birthday: Same as his father

Occupation: Student

Class 3-1(Same as Hitohito and Shouko)

School: Itan Private School

Affiliation: Nene Onemine(Girlfriend)

Style: Androgynous(He paints his fingernails black, and he doesn't wear dresses/skirts, he also wears light colors, like light blue for example, or clothes like Yeonwoo's when he was young).

Physical Appearance: A little tall for his age, he has a feminine appearance like his father Yeonwoo, his sister kind of helped him gain a little weight (by exercising), to see if he gained a little weight and immunity, but like Yeonwoo, he was born with low immunity, and gets sick easily, even after doing physical exercises, his hair is short, and his eyes look feminine too(like his father), his hair color is dark brown, and his eyes color is dark purple(my headcanon is that Haesol has eyes of that color), he always walks around with tactile gloves, which serve to warm his hands and make him hold an object (they are fingerless gloves) and have a tactile surface on the palm of the hand and on the fingers (with the exception of the fingertips).

Family:

• Yeonwoo and Kang Haesol(Parents)

• Jihoo Haesol(Oldest Sister)

• Yeonwoo's Parents(Paternal grandparents)

• Nam Junhyuk and Im Junhyuk (Paternal godparents)

• Jim Jinwoo and Yeseul Jinwoo(Maternal Godparents)

• Chung Harang(Maternal "Aunt").

• Amaterasu and Tsuki(Cats)

Relationships:

• Shouko Komi and Hitohito Tadano (Best Friends)

• Najimi Osana, Omoharu Nakanaka, Himiko Agari, Kaede Otori, etc...(Friends)

• Ren Yamai("Enemy", He sees her as an enemy, because of what she did to Hitohito and because she kind of treats him very cordially)

Nicknames: Haesol-San, Haesol-kun, Angel of the School, Yujin-kun, the gothic maid, the boy with the unique appearance.

Personality: Because he is a level 1 autistic (and varying between 2 and 3) and has ADHD, he tends to have a lot of social anxiety when there are a lot of people, and also a lot of loud noise, he has sound hypersensitivity, in fact, one of his fears is thunder/lightning, He can get distracted easily, with many thinking that he is not interested in talking, but he tries his best to talk and focus on the conversation. He talks through his cell phone, or through his diary, he prefers to use his cell phone because he can write as many words as possible.

[lucifer-nanezgani]

sometimes i wish people weren’t so loud when they talked and then i remember that they’re probably talking at a regular volume and i’m just autistic and hypersensitive to noise (and also unpacking childhood trauma)

and then im like ah shit here we go again

[moomoomooing]

mild rant? mostly thoughts :)

yk ive just not been a fan of how quickly my mood and possible depression is flipping from eberythings fine and im only a little stressed but its ok! to jesus fuck let me rot (projects and deadlines are suddenly piled up and its overwhelming, but i also feel like this when i have nothing i can do)

i try to keep on a shower schedule cause of my class times (i have night classes half of the days so i shower on my off days) but it means i gotta be nasty for a day on sunday till i shower that night. and i never have the willpower to go to the studio feeling nasty,,, even if it wouldve been great to get work done and satiate the restlessness i get from being in my dorm all day

but i didnt and now im plagued with guilt and more stress/ anxiety yippees

on another note my roommate is really REALLY good at finding ALL of my triggers for anxiety or fight or flight responses. so far they nailed using my mirror/being TOO close to my belongings without asking (they eventually asked and i gave permission out of being nice but i severely dislike it and it makes me hyperaware of everything she does when i hear her close to my dresser). they got my i will tense up and not breathe till its over response to alarm sounds (i hate them theyre incredibly anxiety inducing and i always wake up before my alarm usually out of fear. thankfully now my alarms a last resort/reminder of time if i dont wake up early). and!! they let the door slam (boo loud noises), are constantly on a call they often dont wear earbuds for and talk really loudly half the time, or is on call past 12 am (i feel intrusive and also please i cant sleep if youre on call)

theres also other general icks that are hopefully getting better? im noticing less of smth that i hate that they do (its a not cleaning after yourself type deal) but it could just be coincidence

oh also im trying to apply for jobs (remote part-times or internships) and frankly im scared. the reason it took me so long to get a job in highschool was also straight fear and anxiety lmao

i would love money tho (pssst i have commissions open :D)

OW SHARP RINGING NOISE WHERE DID YOU COME FROM????????? ALL OF THE WHITE NOISE DISSAPEARED AND ITS ONLY THAT

anyways i got another strike of hypersensitive skin??? no idea what causes it but it made the underneath of my forearm feel like i scraped it across concrete. 0/10 i didnt have a pleasant showering experience

oh on a better note being so far removed from my family and the fact we basically never call or text has been quite freeing

its like when i was actually at public highschool and had agency over myself in a way i didnt have when my mom was around (basically her presence was usually STRESS)

on a lesser note i havent been talking with my two other friends (ill call em the trio, them plus me) and its been kinda radio silence from everyone? i havent exactly been great either but my infrequent requests for vcs are usually ignored or not responded too which sucks. it makes me more paranoid than id like to be

our time difference definitely makes it way harder too tho, im ahead by a few hours. ik weve gone months without talking before then picked it right back up, but im always scared during the radio silence anyways

im always scared and curious abt other ppls opinions on me, usually the ppl i consider friends. ik one of my friends likes me? but their friends (the 4 of us will be rooming together next year, theyre also technically my friends but my usually point of contact with them is through my friend) i cant tell how much they like me? its probably my unfamiliarity with them but it makes me nervous for no reason

anyways if you actually read all of this, sorry for taking away your time? i reccomend soft gepard x sampo (hsr) fics to soothe the mind, theyre cute.

also hey haha if youre one of the two friends, literally the nickels, are reading this? erase it from your mind please and thanks

[abetteranglican]

traits

very intense when younger, came off as rude, commonly 'pretentious' but I never understood why.

not understanding social norms, literally no clue why mismatched socks stand out to anyone, not caring about appearance/clothes- only starting to really now at 18ish. not understanding feelings of embarrassment- 'I dont get embarrassed'. brazen, struggled to see things not in black and white. shouty in class (trouble controlling volume) about social justice things/the environment, was known as annoying for this. knew myself as annoying, so just leant into it. not girly at all in puberty. not understanding girly things, drama. not understanding why people cared about fitting in. dont care about acting silly in public. not understanding personal space, being too touchy and making people uncomfortable but not understanding why. having a small number, normally one, of intense friendships, or none. anxiety about not having close friends within a group. oversharing. a teachers pet as a child, would point out people breaking rules. very active imagination. struggled to distinguish romantic and platonic feelings about friends. very loyal and brave in social situations. I have to think quite hard and over a long period of time, my whole life, to figure out social interactions, what makes people uncomfortable. now im hypersensitive to it but I still slip back unknowingly. being physically playful in an immature way still now, especially with boys/stevie. I find it easier to be in a group of boys than girls, not sure about one on one interactions (even easier). essentially all my close friends have been diagnosed as autistic or having adhd. become very good at tailoring my behaviour to a specific person, think a lot about how im presenting myself, our dynamic, what would help them. seeing my friendships with people as caring for a sort of creature that I want/need to learn about/study to help them, intense need to be a hero, very good person, selfless. naive and easily fooled, gullible. was often in friendship groups where I was the clown, sort of unknowingly. sensory overload at dinner starting around puberty. hearing that static/screaming noise. poor hygiene around puberty, took longer to adapt than others. very mature for age in some ways, very immature in others. I think I've forgotten about all this puberty time stuff because im quite intelligent in a certain way, and I've been able to adapt myself, its just taken a while. I didnt remember being different before, because it was never distressing, and compared to my autistic friends I was very 'easy'. trying to act like the doctor. definitely had/have special interests now I think about knowledge, they were just quite normal ones - housepets, big cats, books, dr who, warrior cats, arctic monkeys (accent), people, sewing, art. synesthesia, *looking* at things - sleeping beauty, dancing, movement, the countryside, peoples faces. really studying peoples faces, expressions, ways of speaking and presenting, trying desperately to burn these into my memory. very intense about needing to please adults, didnt care much what people my age think. superiority complex about art, physics, gets quite boastful and then considers all I've said/thought after in depth, critiquing how I deal with talking to people as I do it.

[psychoticwillgraham]

so uh. are mango and kiwi bad fruits that you shouldn’t take with meds like austedo? bc the lotus i had had those in it and right now I’m feeling like I’m in psychosis like the couch is shifting beneath me almost like it’s moving fluidly. my head is having a fuzzy feeling on the top back, im hypersensitive to noises, my delusion is in full swing and I feel like im in the wrong reality/on the wrong ‘frequency’ with reality like im a paper doll that’s been cut out of a piece of paper and taped onto a completely different one. is this making any goddamn sense. like is it.

[3liza]

there is one person who has reblogged with tags describing how they personally experienced the misleading upbringing i describe in the first post, where parents teach you its normal and fine to constantly pester people, and they had to unlearn it after it caused them a bunch of problems. it's often not malicious or intentional, it is often genuinely just that someone raises you to think being annoying or making people uncomfortable is how people bond. this is always really hard to break out of because something most people are REALLY reluctant to confront others on is boundary violations. they will often just avoid you instead of taking on the responsibility and the chore of educating someone who should know better.

my own family has a pestering-based way of showing affection and bonding behavior. we navigate this by reading the signals and physiological status of the other person to tell when they are willing to be pestered, and when they are not. also my parents would switch to a serious voice and gently ask us to settle down if they weren't in the mood to goof around or banter. this taught us to be able to switch modes when necessary.

autistics do have trouble with this sometimes because of the lack of feedback and the fact that when kids are socially withdrawn, we get less pure mileage in the tasks and behaviors of socialization, meaning we get stuck in behavior suited to elementary and middle school as our age cohort grows up. this can be overcome through practice and study. a good rule of thumb is if someone tells you they dont like something or not to do something, immediately stop, immediately apologize sincerely (even if you dont understand why they dont like it, or if it doesnt make sense to you that they would object to it), and never do it again.

complication: sometimes the concept of a "boundary" can itself be manipulative or abusive, like falsely framing a reasonable request or need that you have as a "boundary violation" for them. this does happen sometimes. it can be an aspect of gaslighting and controlling behavior. and its hard to tell when it's happening. "it violates my trust when you leave the house or talk to your friends, you're violating my boundaries" is a very common abuse tactic. thats sort of a different post. the short version is the only way to be able to know when this is happening is checking with a variety of other people to get a sense of what is reasonable or not (ths is why people post on AITA, mostly), and getting experience in your life navigating social situations.

complication two: sometimes someone requires and maintains boundaries that they genuinely need to feel comfortable, but arent normal. a harmless example: i have very bad hypersensitivity to unpredictable sounds. i have asked people i have lived with to sometimes not flush the toilet in the middle of the night because the noise startles me awake and really fucks me up. i would not get mad at someone for forgetting this or even arguing with me about it, because im the one being "unreasonable", and maybe the other person thinks its super gross to leave pee in the toilet until the morning. in this case we would negotiate: maybe we have a way of making the toilet flush quieter or something. or maybe their revulsion towards leaving pee unflushed (unflushed poop is a no, that trumps noise concerns imo) is greater than my startle response. idk. we just hash it out and try stuff. everyone should try not to get defensive or take it personally with conflicting access requirements like this, even if it's triggering or very serious, like needing to get enough sleep.

ive met a lot of non-malicious men who seem to have learned to equate pushing someone's boundaries, or just spontaneously deciding that the boundaries are no longer applicable, as a form of intimacy. the reasoning, whether it's conscious or not (i've seen cases of both), seems to be test whether the target lets it slide (thus affirming intimacy by forcing permissiveness), or re-asserts the boundary, which usually makes them have a rejection freakout because it means they arent special enough to get away with bad behavior. sometimes its just regular creep behavior, testing the fence for weaknesses, sometimes it's intimate partner dysfunction based on insecurity, and sometimes its just arrested development (kkids test boundaries normally and in a healthy way, they're supposed to) because some parent figure didnt complete the other side of the developmental exchange correctly or at all.

it's not a gendered behavior, humans are prone to it in general, i just personally dont get challenged by women much idk why, whatever vibe i have going on is repulsive to women who arent really weird in a compatible way

[punkscrunchies]

okay genuine question but is it bad if every time you go to a shopping centre you end up having a complete mental breakdown

[poobit]

and man like it sucks because i despise every unpsychotic person who just looks at large swaths of kids Experiencing Turmoil and goes “you are undermining Real Insane People because you taking these Big Terms and applying em to yourself like its an accesory and youve got nothing to prove that youre actually Mentally Ill you just want attention, psychosis is super rare, having DID is super rare etc” because most of the time it doesnt properly access the material reality of teenagers who need resources on how to reflect on their emotions and be properly taught what is the threshold of Momentary Leaps of emotional irrationality vs Compulsive Leaps of Perceptive Irrationality , even the most not psychotic person is susceptible to a leap of irrationality if the conditions around em are Dire and they are struggling, especially if they been gaslit or neglected no matter the age, and developing psychotic symptoms is , very much, kind of a “normal” thing in humans, we cant treat it as a rare Tragedy because history has shown us over and over again that going insane can be as easy as losing a limb, it is debilitating, it can be comorbid with preexisting conditions, and most old people, right now in planet earth already are living with some sort of mind deterioration, we have to be kind be have to accomodate and we have to recognize, most of us already or sooner or later, will “lose” grasp of reality, and its scary , its scary for me and its scary for anyone. 

[truthundressing]

i love songs with random ass noises in them and louis is really feeding me with fitf <3

[morporkian-cryptid]

I would like to thank the creator of noise-cancelling headphones, without whom I would have committed several murders today.

[transrightsjimin]

wasnt overstimulated at all until i got home 💀💀