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justtogetthrough · 1 month ago

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I wish I felt better after the meeting I had tonight but I don’t. I was relying on it to reignite my motivation but I feel as shitty as ever.

I wish I’d been able to hire a PSW a few months ago as planned because I need the help so bad right now. But I can’t add a single extra stressful thing to my plate right now so it unfortunately needs to wait, ironically, til things are calmer and I’m functioning slightly better again. Which sucks. And defeats the purpose. I needed one most this winter.

#I had an interview lined up #she bailed last minute in a callous way #I had a major meltdown #I’ve never felt able to seek one out again since #fun times when someone is ‘trained and experienced’ in autism #cancels plans at the last moment with no kind of bridging or clarification or understanding #like if you understood how autism work you’d understand that what you did would dysregulate someone right into a meltdown #alas #I’m too afraid of people to try again #so instead I suffer #and have meltdowns that I cause myself instead #mb #aia

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