#like i experienced deaths before but nothing like this ykno?
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Man though like having now gone through such a major personal loss, writing Vash having Wolfwood around again is... interesting.
It's like. You go through hell, your heart's been shredded by a scalpel, just the thought of this person is painful, not to mention any active reminders... and then in comes Wolfwood, the living breathing reminder of Vash's loss.
It'll get better in time. Easier. But at the same time, Vash is always going to remember Wolfwood dying, and that's just gonna have him fucked up forever, huh?
#speculation nation#itnl shit#like i experienced deaths before but nothing like this ykno?#it's the. severity of the loss. and the suddenness of it.#working in conjunction to make everything So Painful all the time even months afterwards#and it still doesnt feel real. it still feels like im having a very long and very immersive bad dream.#for vash it's been 6 years. hes had more time to process it. but vash is also the type to hold his wounds close#to never let them heal. because he doesnt think he deserves to.#... yeah. theres a reason why writing just feels different now. and this is a lot of it.#mannnnn itnl really is just Grief: The Fic and here i am bringing some new piping hot real life experience to the mix#hopefully it gets easier for me to write too. idk everything is just so hard these days.
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Everyone wants the jacket lore do not be silent
Okay obviously this is going to be me rambling on about my own headcanons but also the tiny canon reasons I have these headcanons.
Okay first I'll start off by saying the jacket I personally Always draw Rip in and the one from my design used to belong to Booster during Boosters (short lived) College days.
That being said, It's a jacket that's very...dated and old for the future, so I believe it was from a thrift shop before Booster owned it (so while being in a similar style to futuristic bomber jackets, it lacks that neon bright color scheme that seems to of been popular for Boosters generation.)
Here is just an example of Rip side-by-side to Michelle (who's outfit is based on her introduction in Issue 15 of BG vol 1- post Booster leaving, and post her mothers death). again, that 80s-escque big shouldered, large collar/lapel was in, but the colors are muted and off. I like to think about future fashion trends a lot, how staying on trend in the present is something Booster clearly cares about, how that probably wasn't as much of a possibility in his own past (the future).
Rip's design is based on a theoretical future fashion while having more earthy muted elements- augh its a whole meta thing I got going on in my head. Earth tones instead of neon primary colors, Silver/chrome accents instead of Gold, etc etc.
But anyway when it comes to canon I find it fun that in this arc of Vol 1 we get to see multiple reactions to Jack and Rip's clothing. They get the obvious "those are dated clothes" comments but nothing to say they are insanely out of place. They even use the excuse that they are just college students working on a play-their outfits are similar to something a student department would scrounge up at a minimal cost but still seeming off and inaccurate to the time frame they're trying to portray.
(now that's also because all historical documents of the past during this time were destroyed but- ykno. I like to imagine there's multiple reasons why people weren't like "NEVER SEEN CLOTHES LIKE THAT BEFORE!".)
It's clear to me that even in this arc, Rip's jacket is important enough to him that he makes Jack sell HIS jacket instead of his own. Now, Rip's a selfish guy and all especially at this time in his characters history, but with the meta context that Booster is Rip's father, and this arc being about Booster wanted for treason- the idea of Rip running around in his fathers old star quarterbacks jacket (while modded with red accents) just is fun to me. Not to mention even within this arc Rip is weirdly avoidant of anyone seeing him and looks EXTREMELY like a slightly younger Booster despite men in this series explicitly looking very different from each other.
aka: I think it would just add to the weird cycles that surround Rip's non-linear life.
Now I am someone who is Really into design elements that tell story, aka why I like drawing Rip's hands covered in scars because he wears improper gloves as someone who works with his hands, and why i like adding patches and scuffs to the leather jacket when I make it more detailed. It's old, It's older than Rip, It is something he cares a lot about because it's a piece of home and something that was his dads that he gets to have with him most of the time. I don't think Rip would ever call himself sentimental- i think these are things he holds onto nonetheless (similar to him literally clinging to the old family heirloom clock despite it being broken throughout time masters.) He is a character who cares so intensely but wont say it out loud, you have to show these things in the tiny details or what he surrounds himself with.
This becomes important when A lot of the paranoia he faces in time masters revolves around the triggers he experienced WHILE seeing the place his dad grew up in, what created it, how these family cycles started.
I think in a way to mirror his growth through the end of this, realizing there's things he can't change but he can change himself and how he treats others- look towards bettering his own future than fearing the lack of control he has in the (non-linear) past- I like to add the sunflower to the back of the jacket post this arc. this Arc has a lot of differences in my head with the addition of so much new lore/canon since the 90s and my own headcanons (time gardens- hence flower/bug/plant imagery so often in my shit), but still the theme remains the same really.
While Rip is a character i many times in my art associate with Daffodils ( a flower representing rebirth and such) and sunflowers are flower i associate with the likes of Wave & Booster I do think the meaning behind them of new opportunities through others and happiness is something that would both honor the history of the jacket while making it his own.
LASTLY 4th person who "owns" the jacket, and this is shown in my art a few times, is Jeff (occasionally) because I think that's the only person Rip would trust with it when he outgrows the jacket (bc I do think as Rip gets older he fills out more and its moreso a piece for someone a bit lankier). It smells old and reminds them of when they were younger. ugh. I just find the idea of sharing clothing with significant others/partners really fun ok? sap for it.
anyways sorry if this makes no sense its just one of those things i think about a lot and only i do bc its something i made up lol!!
AKA 1 stupid jacket means a lot to a few weird time travelers.
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OC ask game woohoo!!!
3, 20, 29, 30?
gooooodmorning!! back at it ^_^/
3. What inspired you to make a certain character?
honestly ? for th funy lc cast, itwas mostly just seeing other folks running around w their ocs :] iliked seeing peoples little beasts, so i wanted some little beasts to play too. thats how istarted making cocoa! she was supposed t just be a silly lil thang but uhhhhhhhhh . As One Does ^_^
20. Do any of your OCs have pets? What kind? NAME?
EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT MY GUY heres yui again. he has a very totally normal rat named chestnut that was pawned off on given to him by a . fffriend ? yeah. 👍 ilu chestnut
29. Do any of your OCs have AU designs/stories?
a few, yeah!! aus are my favorite favorite thing t toss around in th whole world, so like uh uh well. They Keep Happening <33 like what if character lives? what if character makes a different decision? (though its kinda cheating bc i already cant decide what happens so everything is kinda quasi-canon till i get it together dfjgndk) theres one with rose and wolfe that is Killing Me To Death but i Still havent laid down the baseline so i CANT . SAY ANYTHING YET. orz though also theres one ive had in my pocket i hadnt found th chance to pull up yet, so ykno uh . ^_^ heehoo
Oops ! All Distortion. heres not!cocoa. nameless as of right now, partially bc i havent found something that fits, and partially because i think its funny (<- mean) anyway woe. tfw youre just trying t navigate being alive after experiencing ego death and everyone keeps trying to yank you in different directions and shape you into something else entirely when you can barely hold a shape on your own so you simply decide to become nothing at all. sad ! oh well, theres other uh. uhhhhh.. hm. this is kind of th Worst of what can come of cocoa and luci's whatever-the-hell. luci is completely convinced she understands cocoa's character and actively pushes the worst parts of them forward in the name of some sort of "self actualization," in response to their complete and total shutting off at. just about everything. unfortunately, she completely misreads what exactly that manifests As due to her preoccupation with her Own self actualization-- and instead of drawing forth any buried emotion or desire, all it really does is kinda... shut them down completely. their desire wasnt to lash out at anything, it was simply to get things to stop. and stop they did. theyre not much of anything anymore. nobody is happy with this.
30. Which OC has been the hardest to develop/design so far?
HIM.
hes really important to everything bc hes kind of. a catalyst, in a way, to The Bullshit. the issue is i know most of the What, its just the How and Why thats such an issue. also unfortunately, i started writing him before i started watching thru limbus, but once i did i realized hes kinda just like sinclair but to the left a little bit which. head in hands. Unfortunate; so its once again a balancing act of getting things together while tying threads and also Avoiding Making Character 2. which is Hard bc this is just!!!! what hes like!!! iknow i probably shouldnt worry abt it too much but this is like the fourth or fifth time ive accidentally just made Character But Again and i just. GRABS. SHAKES. UGH THE ISSUES.
#THIS TOOK . LONGER THAN I INTENDED; I HAD TO DIG THRU MY NOTES AGAIN.....#motioning frantically at my funy stringcorkboard u dont GET IT u dont GET !!! IT!!! (<- barely explains)#ILL GET TO IT.. ITS JUST HARD. theyre all up to Some Bullshit and i try my best to elaborate but im being kicked in th shins#<- Gets Sad About Characters So Easy#piktalk#pikocs#long post#juuuust incase...
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rules: repost, don’t reblog. just pick a muse of yours and fill it out.
muse: the gremlin himself, zimbabwe humanlampwall, a 100% legit regular human name
BASICS
▸ is your muse tall/short/average? oh he teeny. small boy. youre very small, zim. youre a tiny thing.
▸ are they okay with their height? not at all he is in abhorrent DENIAL over the fact that his height is below irken average. if he ever had one of those measurey things that kids have on the walls of their house for their parents to track their height he would absolutely stand on the tips of his toes every time to be as tall as possible ▸ what’s their hair like? hair? never heard of her. hes rly bug-like tho so if u take a big ol oh god what are they called THE ZOOMY IN SCIENCE THING! MICROSCOPE! GOT IT! so anyway if you take a big ol microscope to his antennae u cld see rly rly rly tiny sensitive hairs cuz it be like that ▸ do they spend a lot of time on their hair/with their grooming? not at all because whenever zim needs to wash his wig he literally throws it into the sink and lets gir wash it with the dishes so he’ll just walk into skool the next day smelling like dish soap ▸ does your muse care about their appearance? other than his height, not really. he really doesnt concern himself with fashion unless its to gain some sort of strategical advantage or to gain the favour of a specific group of people ie; dressing in makeup and cute dresses to blend in with the popular girls and reign over the skool hierarchy ▸ does your muse care about what others think about them? yes but only for a select number of people ykno? like he wants Literally Nothing More to impress the tallest and have them be proud of him and he cares what humans think KIND OF but only to the point of “oh good they think im human? sweet, im doing a great job”
PREFERENCES
▸ indoors or outdoors? indoors on earth, outdoors on irk ▸ rain or sunshine? he’s not a big fan of either, but sunshine is preferable so he doesn’t need to cover himself in glue to protect his skin from the chemicals in earth’s water ▸ forest or beach? forest. the beach is full of people and theres water and ugh sand gets EVERYWHERE imagine if someone knocked him down and some sand got stuck in his pak that would take forever to get out blech. but the forest is much more secluded and he can go out there for EXPERIMENTS ▸ precious metals or gems? metals who the heck cares about a ruby. oh good its pretty good on you WELL HE CANT USE THAT FOR ANYTHING ▸ flowers or perfumes? neither please oh god oh no ▸ personality or appearance? personality but he rly doesnt care about other people enough at all to really give too much of a heck. he’s probably gonna hate you no matter what ▸ being alone or being in a crowd? being alone ▸ order or anarchy? he thinks he likes order but judging by his actions hes much more anarchy based so por qué no los dos ▸ painful truths or white lies? when talking to other people. painful truths. he doesnt care enough to give people white likes unless its about himself ie; oh haha my plan didnt fail its just that my plan ALL ALONG was to steal dibs little puppy clown thing, yknow
▸ science or magic? typically science, but this preference can change at the tip of a hat depending on which will benefit him more in the moment. dangerous super weapon vs magic that can make flowers grow? give him the weapon. high tech computer vs a curse that will bring an endless plague down on your enemies? give him that curse, baby ▸ peace or conflict? conflict ▸ night or day? night ▸ dusk or dawn? dusk ▸ warmth or cold? cold. big big headcanon that it was very cold on irk and the reason that zim had never seen rain before is because 1) he was always indoors on foodcourtia so he didnt really get to see the outdoors much and 2) precipitation falls on irk but because of the temperature there, it only falls as snow or hail. zim is also coldblooded + not used to the warmer climate on earth
▸ many acquaintances or a few close friends? whats a friend?
▸ reading or playing a game? reading
QUESTIONNAIRE
▸ what are some of your muse’s bad habits? haha oh my god did you mean literally everything he does? refusing to accept the truth about things (that hes defective, that the tallest hate him, that his mission isnt real, that he was basically sent to earth to either die or never be seen or heard from again, etc) is a really big one
▸ has your muse lost anyone close to them? how has it affected them? he hasnt, not really. his empathy for other people is extremely low, and because he refuses to accept that miyuki and spork are only dead because of him, their deaths didn’t affect him very much
▸ what are some fond memories your muse has? sneaking up to irk’s surface when he was litle with skoodge although the fact that skoodge was there didn’t really add to the fondness because he could have dragged anyone along with him and have been just as satisfied ▸ is it easy for your muse to kill? he likes to think it is, and it is easy for him to kill to a certain extent, but because of how often his plans are foiled by dib or zim’s own idiocy, its kind of a mixed bag yknow
▸ what’s it like when your muse breaks down? self hatred, loses will to live, finally admits things to himself that he’s refused to believe before such as ‘im defective’ and ‘the tallest hate me’ ▸ is your muse capable of trusting someone with their life? not really ▸ what’s your muse like when they’re in love? n/a zim is ultra aromantic sorry boyz and girlz. he is literally incapable of experiencing that emotion
tagged by: theived it frm @prxfessor-membrane & @takshiip tagging: im bound by platonic life partner law to tag @otherworldlymuses if he wants to do it for any of his muses but if anyone wants to steal it frm me and say i tagged them pls do bc i love reading these!!!
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( danielle rose russell, cisfemale, she/her ) I, FREYA KAVINSKY am a SCHOLARSHIP student and would hereby like to submit my application to Kingswood Boarding School. I am SEVENTEEN years old and will be a JUNIOR. I would describe myself as HEARTFELT and EAGER, but also UNINHIBITED and PIGHEADED which I plan to work on during my time here. This is my request to join the VICTORIA building as a house MEMBER and look forward to hearing back from you.
im trash ik but here’s a brand new baby to play w!! her pinterest can be found HERE pls ignore the photos of crystal reed, that’s freya’s original fc sdfghj
tw; death, drug/alcohol abuse? w/ implications of self destruction
so first thing’s first, freya was born n raised in chicago alongside her father and her older sister
her mother had died during freya’s birth--though freya doesn’t...blame herself, necessarily, there are days where she imagines what life would’ve been like if her mother was still alive
her dad’s a mechanic and the sole provider for their household, which meant that he was gone more often than not
regardless, he tried to be as active as possible in his children’s lives
her sister always took up the role of..well, mother, in a sense
freya and her are incredibly close b/c of this
even so--her father had wanted them to be as active as possible, as out of the house as he was--so it didn’t seem like he was gone as much as he was
so, with a few strings pulled and familial connections, freya was able to attend ballet lessons at a young age, alongside an instrument of her choosing, at a discounted price
she chose violin btw...very relevant
and like, to everybody’s surprise--she sort of excelled at both--it almost came naturally, though that didn’t mean she hadn’t put in a buncha effort regardless, y’know
practice makes perfect, yadda yadda
took up a few more instruments for fun, such as piano and like...i dunno, guitar of various forms (including bass guitar) though she likes violin the best
that led to her attending a p prestigious performing arts high school in her city--which wasn’t done by pulling strings
her father worked even more shifts, her sister got a job to help pitch in, they took out loans, yadda yadda. anything they could do so she could pursue this...dream
except...ballet and violin has never been freya’s dream--its just something she happens to be good at
everybody just...assumed, that since she was so talented, she had to want to pursue it
not the case at all, really. she loves it, really, but...her passion has always surrounded animals
specifically marine animals, which is odd considering freya had never seen the ocean before
really...marine anything, she loves. maybe it’s because its something she hasn’t experienced , but ykno
ANYWAYS
she felt sort of...stuck, b/c she never wanted to disappoint her dad or her sister or any of their family friends who were all rootin’ for her
this led to some...rebellion, of sorts, when she was a freshmen
nothing...BAD, per say, but y’know. baseball bats to mailboxes whilst hanging out of the window of a pick-up truck, vandalizing abandoned buildings and historical monuments, shoplifting from convenience stores.
okay so like...a little bad
that was just the crowd she found herself in, y’know, in her teenage angst
has definitely been arrested a few times, but has always managed to get off scotch free ??
it’s luck, im telling u. she only has like..three things on her record rn
ALSO learned how to ride a motorcycle and was in a punk band based in her school n did bass for it, ‘cos that’s what rebellious teenagers do n whatever
and this, well, y’know. did disappoint her father and her sister and all their family friends but at this point freya was like ?? i can’t stop
her boyfriend at the time was a major contributor to her troublemaking tbh
when he transferred to kingswood, freya’s lil 15 yr old heart was broken.
spent her entire sophomore yr working her ass off and getting her shit together so that kingswood would look at her, and pick her, too--
and like...it finally paid off, y’know? her junior year they’d graciously given her a scholarship based off of her music AND academics
so she was absolutely thrilled
granted, she was only able to start attending halfway thru her junior year, at the beginning of the second semester...but she was there, at least, right?
very ecstatic to find her boyfriend and surprise him
they’d been doing long distance, and he had no idea that she had gotten in
found out his dorm number, walked right up to his door--knocked, and he answered with his shirt off n a number of hickeys on his chest
it was a surprise for both of them lmao
obv. freya is not stupid, if not a lil blinded by love at the time. they broke up, she was heartbroken
sorta shut herself in for a few months ‘cos she was so sad abt it
so it’s kinda like she’s still new, tho it’s been a few months since january
but she’s BACK and she’s POPPIN’ and she acts like it still doesn’t bother her !
but like...it does. it rly does. she’s still mcfreakin’ hurt abt it, she’s just handling it in another way
aka, a lil bit of partying...a lil bit of drinking, casual drug use, hooking up, etc. etc. just bein that bitch, y’know?
ANYWAYS
has always had a lil bit of a tomboy aesthetic ?? despite being a freakin’ ballerina, it just not her aesthetic man
constantly wearin’ dark colors n reds and leather jackets n denim on denim n cuffin’ her pants n whatnot
even brought her motorcycle 2 school w/ her
EXCELS at science, wants to become a marine biologist or smth when she’s older
just...hasn’t told anybody that
DON’T B FOOLED BY HER APPEARANCE THO
she’s not some antisocial punk, okay, she’s not anna
very humble but not in a way where u have to be like ‘ugh u have talent u idiot’ , she just doesn’t like bragging about it ?
even tho her ex is an idiot she’s still glad to be there bc of how prestigious kingswood is
kinda tries 2 befriend as many ppl as possible ?? she isn’t a people pleaser, though, n it’s sort of like...u get what u get, w/ her
she doesn’t act as if she’s got a whole separate life or nothin’, she balances both her rebellious nature and her talents n w/e
fun fact her mother was a leader of elizabeth but like...does she know? no. does it matter? only to ppl like lilah smh
ANYWAYS AGAIN
i’d consider her like....a gryffindor, to sum up her personality ??
very brave, fearless, can be stupidly reckless. gets herself into trouble even now
prolly is a lil bit of a hoe but we love that for her, okay ??
but also ?? will die for her pals ?? n is very true to herself ??
we call her accidentally messy
neutral good tbh ?? very wholesome person
will take care of u if ur sick, is v protective of those she loves
also doesn’t rly....believe in love rn, or is at least very over the concept.
girl next door ?? i dunno
sometimes...she does these bad things...’cos she thinks she deserves it, in a way?
like she’ll drink too much n get a real bad hangover or do a drug when she knows she’ll have a bad trip
so she’s got a lil bit of self loathing
however she knows it’s a problem
she’s just...not willing 2 do much abt it rn
living her best life lmao
ambivert, will go to parties but will also sit in w/ a book gladly
can b v v stubborn, is in debate b/c she loves...to argue, sometimes sksk
m8 i dunno she’s got layers..like an onion
wanted connections
her...ex would be nice, however it’s prolly better suited to send in as a WC unless there’s a dude from chicago out here whose made the mistake of cheatin’
HOWEVER, i would love pals !! friends of any sort !! she’s friendly !! like her !!
ride or die!
unlikely pals!
good influences!
bad influences!
she’s in a band w/ ezra im p sure
i ALSO would like hook ups!
accidental hookups!
casual hookups!
fwbs ?!?
Bad. hookups!
she’s probably accidentally hooked up w/ somebody’s partner so
enemies ! for w/e reason !
rivals!
frenemies!
fake friends !?
everything!
gimme everything !!
#kings:intro#like this n i'll come plot w/ u!!#this is saige's old blog im not changin' shit except her name n icon but i'll...get to it eventually
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