#like buddy so desperate to be evil sometimes

[socksandbuttons]

the fact eclipse was out bullied by himself, and then had to go chill out in the corner and figure out who else to bully dfbndkls

[elemom]

What are your thoughts on Echo and Dr. Julien's relationship?

Hi anon. I sure hope you’re prepared for a yap sesh!

I have SO MUCH to say about them.

TL;DR: Echo is Julien’s son AND his deeply flawed creation. And that dynamic is Difficult.

We’ll start off with:

Dr. Julien’s Perspective

Ok so i think the most important thing to get outta the way is that i don’t think Julien is *evil,* but rather he occupies a “creator” dynamic with echo (and by extension, zane) i’ll explain more, hopefully

I personally think Julien created Echo out of desperation and loneliness. The first time he was lonely, back in the birchwood forest, he built zane, and that basically fixed his loneliness problem. After such a long time in the lighthouse, he was desperate for *anything* to help him in his isolation.

Thus, I don’t think he was in a clear mindset when he was creating echo. Fueled by grief and a little bit of hubris (*he created mechanical life for crying out loud, he should never have to be alone again when he can just infinitely create consciousness!*) he used zane’s blueprints to build a brand new nindroid.

As the process went on, i think he lost more of that clarity and ended up wanting this nindroid to be a new zane, something he would later be deeply ashamed of when he realized he basically just built a replacement son. Once echo is complete enough to be activated, I think he realizes just how bad of a hole he’d dug himself. He’s disappointed: not in Echo, in but himself. He tried to create a life in the image of someone else, and he couldn’t even do that right.

Which brings me to the “creator” dynamic. While Julien sees Echo as a son, he also sees him as his creation; he’s something to fix and perfect and fine tune. Echo is imperfect, and as a creator, Julien wants to fix those imperfections. He views Echo (and zane) as sons, but also as his creations, and that’s a *really* hard dynamic to balance.

(as an aside, I dont think echo or zane mind getting tune ups/upgrades/etc. I think a lot of the internal conflict julien has with echo is because he needs *so many* fixes that it’s hardly feasible to do, so he’s left dealing with echo’s imperfections and echo is left as kind of A Mess.)

Now all the stuff I mentioned above about the creator + creation dynamic is still there, but I don’t think it’s the MAIN thing going on. I really truly believe Julien was a good father to Echo despite their circumstances. Like, I think he made Gizmo as a buddy for Echo like he made the falcon for Zane, he made toys and stuff for him, played chess with him, etc. However, I think Julien’s disappointment with himself and his regret over creating a replacement for Zane occasionally comes through.

Which leads me to…

Echo’s Perspective

Echo is completely 100% trusting of Julien. That’s the big thing, I’d say. After all, it was Julien that gave him life, who cares for him and reassures him when he’s down. (And he’s also the only other person Echo knows.)

It’s this trust that leads to Echo’s…. Issues. See, Echo eventually comes to realize something’s up with how Julien sees him — or at least, how Julien seems to act when certain topics about his creation come up. Like I mentioned in his section, Julien can’t hide the disappointment/regret/etc he feels about creating echo — none of which are echo’s fault of course. But echo sees that he’s imperfect and that his father sometimes gets upset and he blames himself for that.

Echo knows Julien doesn’t hate him. He knows he’s trying his best and that he really does care. But he still wants to do everything in his power to make Julien happy. So he’s keenly aware of how he’s Not Zane and how he’s Not Perfect and how his father created him to Be Zane but didn’t do a great job at it. Julien always reassures him that he loves him, and it’s true! Julien *does* love him. But Echo feels like he could be doing better.

Depending on your interpretation and headcanons and AUs and all that, Echo can stay in this state of trust after s2 (waiting in the lighthouse for an eternity) or go in the complete opposite direction (Rejecting the idea of being Zane and becoming Mr E)

I might go into more detail about Mr Echo and how being found by the SoG impacted his view of Dr J. If you wanna see that, I’d be glad to infodump abt it on another post :3c

I also have some thoughts about Why echo got left behind in the lighthouse, but i dont think any of them were out of malice on Julien’s part. Some are worse than others, but I think he wanted to go back Eventually.

Maybe he died shortly after s2 and didn’t have the time to go back. Maybe Echo had shut down due to malfunctions and Julien didn’t know he was alive (Gizmo would have repaired him before the events of s6). Or maybe Julien was procrastinating, because he would have to admit to zane that he tried to replace him. Or maybe he just forgor 💀

ANYWAY thanks so much for asking!!! If you or anybody else ever wants to hear any more hcs feel free to send me asks about them. Because I have a LOT to say. I have put enough mental energy into thinking about the jfam that i could probably power Los Angeles for a month.

(disclaimer, many of these HCs come from melting together a bunch of ideas from fanart and fics and HC posts on tumblr, so a lot of these thoughts aren’t original.)

[animentality]

Maybe a hot take, but I think Durge is the real protagonist of BG3. Like... I'm sorry, everyone love their Tavs, but from a narrative point of view, it doesn't have fucking sense. It's just another guy (gender neutral) in a The Choosen One situation. I've read this story before, hundreds of times. But Durge's recepción (or disgrace)... now that has juice! That makes sense on a narrative level. You started it, you end it, one way or another.

Anyway, I'm never (with my +500 hours) going to play a Tav run. Ever. Origins only, mostly Durge. Durge and Durgetash are waaaaay better, sorry not sorry.

You are spitting nothing but facts, anon.

You wanna know what the HONEST to GOD fundamental problem is with the writing of Baldur's Gate 3?

It's that it spreads itself so thin, desperately attempting to write an open sandbox sort of world in which ANY kind of character can fit in...that it ends up being this hollow nothing.

IMAGINE if the Dark Urge WAS the default protagonist. It WOULD'VE BEEN an amazing story, if it had been given the focus it deserved, instead of just blankly repeating the SAME dialogue you'd get as a Tav and as an origin.

The idea of a former villain turned amnesiac, and going on an adventure, learning about themselves from the perspective of an outsider and seeing firsthand the horror they've wrought? It's like a fucking Zuko arc, except finding out you were the Big Bad all along could've been written even better than that...

We could've had that blank, nothing slate that Tavs start out as...and then find out, that it has thematic significance, because WE CHOOSE who we become, after a childhood/adulthood of being unable to make our own choices, and being forced into the role of the villain before the game even starts.

It's a MUCH BETTER WAY to give people a blank slate to work with, for the fun of roleplaying, but ALSO asserting a particular theme. Which is, the gravity of your choices, big and small. To do good or to embrace evil.

YOU KNOW. How Baldur's Gate 1 and 2 did being a Bhaalspawn.

IT'S ALSO A REALLY GREAT WAY to DO an RPG because yes, you slightly infringe upon the freedom of the customizable characters a person can make, but in exchange, you actually tell a fucking story where choices are the main theme.

INSTEAD. Because they were so dedicated to Tavs and the variety of ways you could play as a Tav...they completely undersell and underutilize what could've been a really amazing character.

You can literally choose to DIE for your friends in the end...and then what?

Withers brings you back in five seconds, no one has any real reaction to you doing that, except saying good job buddy :)

And then you're basically a Tav.

And ALSO. I want to say this, because it's been bothering me.

The Dark Urge has Tav syndrome too.

They have TWO notes in the entire game that we have to read into to try and glean a greater depth to their character other than murder hobo.

And that's it. They're a blank slate too.

If the Dark Urge was the protagonist, we might've been able to look into who they were before, outside of just laughably evil flesh eating monster.

They might've had real fucking depth, instead of just tidbits.

I and my fellow Dark Urge/ Durgetash enjoyers have to do the fucking work for them and write in stuff that isn't actually there. The Dark Urge as a protagonist could've been really meaningful. We could've seen inklings that they had misgivings about being Bhaal's Chosen. We could've seen scars of resistance, where they tried to defy Bhaal, but were punished with death, disintegration by the loving hands of your own father and flesh. We could've had betrayal, redemption, loyalty to one's blood family vs one's found family.

But we don't get that, because it's taking too much time away from Tavs.

Sometimes I really wish the Dark Urge wasn't even an option. They gave me this thing, and I thought wow this is the only way to play the game...and then I look and see, ah. But the potential for greatness could drive me absolutely insane.

And it has.

Durgetash is the product of my frustration with the game's characterization of the Dark Urge.

And I know I'm pissing off the salty BG3 fans who love their Tavs and all, and think the Dark Urge is lame, and god FORBID a protagonist have a character, can't have that in an RPG, but I can't find it in myself to care.

I'm built different than the rest of y'all. I don't just feed on content, I analyze its nutrients. I calculate how good for me it actually is.

And BG3 has wonderful mechanics.

But the story has so many problems, from beginning to rotten end.

And it is what it is. I still enjoyed myself playing it.

But the story isn't good for anything except allowing you to create a far more compelling story on your own, in fanfic or in original work inspired by it.

And I guess if that's all they wanted, then fine.

But goddamnit, I'm gonna complain anyway! Divinity 2 did it fucking better.

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Late top 5 ask because I just thought of it: 5 shows that you are always down to rewatch

What a great question that is also such a mean and incredibly evil thing to ask me, wen-kexing-apologist, Chronic Rewatcher lmfao

So fun fact I have seen KinnPorsche 14 times, Our Flag Means Death 11 times, The Old Guard 11 times, Heartstopper 11 times, The Eclipse probably 6 times, Bad Buddy and ITSAY 4 times, etc, etc, etc. And those are counting all the times I have watched a show all the way through. This is not counting the number of times I have actively gone back to watch specific episodes or specific scenes.

See the problem is sometimes I hyperfixate and then I just have to watch it until it is out of my system, sometimes an OST pops in to my head and then I get the urge to watch the show again, and sometimes I agree to edit the transcripts for the backlog of @the-conversation-pod and @bengiyo and @shortpplfedup start talking about a show and I'm like "ahhh good times! I should rewatch that!"

So you can imagine the stress I am under. I'll have to do this by category

Show I Am Constantly Rewatching: Bed Friend

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I know what you may be thinking, and yes you are correct I am in this rewatch for Uea's emotional journey. Uea is my sweet summer child, I love him, I have adopted him in to my family, his happiness is my happiness and I love love love watching him go from a quiet, reserved, unhappy character who keeps getting put in unfair situations through no fault of his own in to this confident, vibrant, happy person who is on his way towards healing. Often times it can be hard for me to pick A Favorite thing; a favorite character, a favorite scene because there are so. many. good. ones. But I am constantly, and I mean constantly rewatching the scene in Episode 8 where Uea tells King about his past. I have lost count of how many times I've seen it, no even kidding I watched that scene before I went to bed just last week. I will always always be down to watch that show because I love seeing how far my boy is able to grow with just a little bit of love, care, and therapy.

Show I Would Rewatch for an Instant Mood Boost: If It's With You

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I have a difficult time understanding/feeling emotion in my body unless I abstract it in to fiction. So when I experience strong emotions it is typically when something super happy or super tragic happens on screen, in a book, during my D&D game, etc. One of my absolute favorite things is when something makes me so happy that my body is no longer able to contain it and I have to do the Neurodivergent Hand Flappies(TM). I think I spent 80% of this show grinning so hard it hurt my face and doing the Neurodivergent Hand Flappies because it just...they made me so happy. Amane is so sweet, and he deserves happiness, and he is getting his happiness and he's just full of sunshine and I already rewatched this show like immediately after it finished. This show joins my This Could Fix Me list.

Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch for Emotional Catharsis: Eternal Yesterday

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I have not rewatched this show...yet. But I want to, and I know that I will eventually. I can only imagine that it is sadder and more evil the second time around. I cried soooo hard over this show. But it is beautiful, and it is healing, and the pain is a good type of aching pain that comes with coming to terms with grief. With acknowledging grief. With finding where the beauty and peace lie within death and memory, and the way its claws dig in to you and leave you changed forever. Ghosts can be warm, and this show makes me warm despite it all.

Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch for Content: I Told Sunset About You/I Promised You the Moon

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I think I am in @shortpplfedup's camp about how you find new things to think about every time you watch this show. I actually desperately, desperately own I Promised You the Moon several rewatches because I have seen ITSAY four times at this point and IPYTM once. I am currently rewatching IPYTM with a friend who is seeing it for the first time, so that should help. But the first time I watched this show I was unable to function to notice anything, and it wasn't until the third time I'd watched ITSAY when I was rewatching it to prepare for the podcast panel, that I finally was able to form any level of coherent analytical thought to it. So I would rewatch this at any point just to see what more I could pull out of it.

Show I Would Be Down to Rewatch But Haven't Yet: 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us

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Bold, based on how intense of a reaction I had to this show, I know. But this was one of my favorites, I never wrote anything about it because I was too busy having a literal mental breakdown over it, one that was so bad I almost had to bail on the entire show with like...20 minutes left of it, and I originally nixed my plan to show it to a friend. BUT I have watched the specific scene that did me in (and only that scene) and it went over fine once I knew to expect it so I do want to watch the whole thing again. I have a friend who I have been forcing to watch BL shows I liked and I watch them with her, and this is on the list. However, I am currently running her through I Promised You The Moon and What Did You Eat Yesterday? Season 2 so this show is still quite a ways out from a rewatch because I am not a total monster and want to give her some modicum of emotional break between those two shows and 180 Degree.

Bonus:

Show I Would Never Rewatch: Enchante

I hate this show truly an unreasonable amount. I hate Theo so much oh my fucking god. I refuse to watch this again and I'm mad that I finished it.

ASK ME MY TOP 5 OF ANYTHING BL

[nonelvis]

2024 Hugos Best Novel nominees

(x-posted from Dreamwidth)

Am I gonna have time to read everything in all the main literature categories before voting begins? Very definitely not! But I did get through 5.1 of the novel nominees and have a few opinions.

The Adventures of Amina al-Sarafi, S.A. Chakraborty I devoured Chakraborty’s Daevabad trilogy, so I figured that her latest novel, this one about a retired pirate queen now living a quiet, pious life until she’s pulled in for One Last Job, would be up my alley. As ever, Chakraborty’s writing is breezy, fun, and hugely compelling. Sometimes you don’t need books to be deep and complicated; you just need a rollicking story with piracy and the spirit world and a truly evil antagonist. One of my top picks simply because I had such a blast reading it.

Starter Villain, John Scalzi This was fine. Laugh-out-loud funny anytime the dolphins were involved, but mostly it felt like it would have made a tighter novella than a novel, and it was already a pretty short novel. Also, only one major female (human) character in the entire book? C’mon, buddy, you know better than this.

Some Desperate Glory, Emily Tesh I think I may have simply read my lifetime quota of military fiction, even YA milfic with an intriguing plot element that means we get to revisit previous decisions and see the characters grow in ways they definitely wouldn’t have otherwise. Those elements are the reason I enjoyed this book more than I expected, but it’s still very middle-of-the-pack for me.

The Saint of Bright Doors, Vajra Chandrasekera It took me a chapter or two to really grab me, but man, did this grab me. Chandrasekera’s lyrical prose and strong world-building and characterization drew a full and sharp picture of Fetter, child of a religious leader, raised by a mother whose life that leader destroyed, and tasked with carrying out her revenge. This is the most beautifully written of the six books, IMO, and it's also a top contender.

Witch-King, Martha Wells I got three or four chapters into this and DNF’d. I find Wells’ prose wholly emotionless, and it just doesn’t work for me. Sorry, Murderbot friends.

Translation State, Ann Leckie I feel like I knew long ago Leckie was working on another book set in the Imperial Radch universe but must have forgotten, because as soon as I opened this up and realized that it was going to involve that universe -- and more critically, the Presger -- I was hooked. There are three primary narrators, each skillfully drawn in just a few pages, and I had a very hard time putting this down. Drags a bit at the end, but I'm still considering it for the #1 slot.

So, if you've been counting, that's, uh, three novels I can't choose between for the first slot. There's every chance my vote will change before the deadline passes, but right now, this is where things stand:

The Saint of Bright Doors

Translation State

The Adventures of Amina al-Sarafi

Some Desperate Glory

Starter Villain

Witch-King

[witchcraftandgeekness]

Kolvina doesn't work for me because I don't see Kol as a type of guy "falling in love with a sweet innocent good girl who sees good in him or changes him for better". He doesn't care about what people see or think of him (although what his siblings' opinion about him did affect him in some ways). He wouldn't change his behaviors or who he is to be convenient for other people, to get on someone's good side. Because if he could just do that because of the power of love, he would have been fit in a lot better with his family, which was what he had been desperate to be for 1000 years.

While I don't believe that Kol is an unredeemable selfish heartless monster that people make him out to be, and he's not a born sociopath who can't feel a drop of emphathy; he embraces darkness, he's self aware and he never showed no shame for who he truly is or what he has done. Kol is very different from his brothers; and no, he's not better than them, but he has a very different view about the world and how things go. That's why he had hard times going along with his family even though he loves them more than anything in the world, he barely could tolerate their BS or their idea about family. So I cannot wrap the idea of him falling to the same "she's too good for me" love cliche like his brothers.

Genuinely thank you for writing this mini essay, buddy! I also don't think this ship was reasonable, and yes, Kol needed love, but I think if his family would show a little bit of sympathy, that would be enough for him? Never thought that Kol is better or worse than his siblings, but you are very right here, his thinking and inner philosophy is different than theirs. You highlighted right part of it, Kol is not the one who will become goodie for a girl.

I think maximum we could get is him being a bit less reckless about killing, but if the girl he supposedly loves is changing his core personality? No way in hell this "redemption" would have worked for the Kol we knew before D*vina phase. The person that limits his freedom and wants him to be absolutely different person... Well, I don't think Kol would tolerate that even if he would be madly in love with a girl.

Kol never will be the saint, he does not care much for people, only for a limited number of them, and yes, he can show sympathy sometimes, he is not complete evil, ofc, but at least has grey sense of morality. If they wanted to make him better, they might have involved his family. I think Kol would have slightly restricted himself for Bekah, for example, or for Hope, because he has soft spot for his little sister and for his niece (and we might have seen so much of uncle-niece interactions if only the writers would let us).

There are few types of romance that might have worked for Kol as a character, but none of them would involve the girl being so good and pure that he would transform himself into what we have witnessed in the ending of TO. If anything, he might have make the girl worse.

[im-smart-i-swear]

If funky guys had become paladins of voltron which one would be in which Lion?

back in the VERY early days of this whole au(like. buddys-name-was-still-ryou early) i wanted to base every clones personality/character on a diffrent lion.... but over time it slowly stopped fitting their personalities and i kinda abandoned the concept lol. though you can still see some remnants of that in . certain design choices...

going back to this concept after uhhh two years?? i think? was definetely interesting! all the characters changed WILDLY since then and i tried to re-assign the lions to fit the changes........ it was surprisingly hard

i couldnt for the life of me decide in a few cases, so instead im just gonna give the most suitable options lol

tashi & soup - im putting these two together beacuse- and i have NO IDEA how that would work- theyre copiloting the black lion! they function the best as a duo and separating them would NOT be a good idea in a situation as stressful and complicated as piloting voltron. they barely manage to keep everyone alive on a good day... also picking only one of the two as The Leader just feels wrong

buddy, ideally, would like to stay as FAR AWAY from voltron as psyhically possible, thank you very much- but nothing in this cruel world is ideal, so they get the red lion:) i actually have this whole story idea where basically stickbug ""goes rouge""(like. some sort of 'sleeper agent mode' left over by haggar gets activated by accident??) and runs away to do some evil shit so buddy goes after him(on a whim)(alone)(without telling the others) and while searching for him they bump into fUCKING VOLTRON- so they form a very uneasy truce until they find stick. and at some point buddy finds out he can pilot the red lion! its awful he hates it:/ he pilots anyway cause his loved one is in danger(this whole thing is way too complicated to talk about here lol)

i had A LOT of problems figuring out the last three..... they changed so much that i just cant rlly fit them into these categories anymore... but i tried!!

ORIGINALLY stickbug was supposed to be based on the green lion but he doesnt fit it as well anymore....... i think taks does pretty well tho! shes very bold and iquisitive and a pain in everyones ass<3 plus loves learning about diffrent planets' unique ecosystems n stuff. stick IS very curious and likes exploring so he still kinda fits? but hes not as forward as taks, so yeahhhh im very torn on this one

i have NO FUCKING CLUE what to do with blue. all three of em could propably fit there ngl....

yellow could either be taka or stickbug- taka is the youngest and the brightest, hes what brought all of them together in the first place(it takes a village to raise a child)....... buuuut hes not really a 'puts the needs of others above his own' kind of person? hes still a kid and NOT ready for that kind of responsibility. soup is an OBVIOUS choice here of course, but im not sure- honestly, the more i think about it, the more stickbug starts to feel like the best option here? ok hear me out: stickbug, for most of his life, had very little power over his life. even while with the funky guys(ESPECIALLY in the beggining, these bozos were dysfuctional as fuck) there were moments when the others would talk over him bc 'hes a kid', and even without that theres still his people pleasing problem wnich meant he often disregarded his own good to make other ppl content. so, taking this scrawny guy desperate for control over his life and putting him in the toughest, stongest, most resilient lion- basically i think he deserves to go a little apeshit. as a treat. let him wreck shit for once

honestly it kinda funny im stting here and calculating all of this like a mad man where IN THE ACTUAL SHOW the paladins switch the lions like pokemon cards

realistically speaking i think they would all trade and switch em a lot and then squabble over who gets to pilot yellow bc they ALL want to wreck shit sometimes:)

[beardedmrbean]

You ever play chrono cross? I played it ages ago with a buddy of mine when we were little but remember almost nothing about it (to be fair we were like 5) but we beat it an I kinda remember it being fun, just wondering because that chrono trigger anon got me feeling nostalgic so now I’m thinking bout playing through both those again.

That was trip down memory lane that had almost nothing to do with the ask on that one.

I don't believe I played thatis one either, odds are if I saw it and looked into it I came to the weird mental place where I felt like playing that would be betraying the Final Fantasy series that had given me so many years of entertainment because my brain does that sometimes.

I can't actually explain why either.

Both times now with the "chrono series" asks my brain has jumped over to a totally different game from a totally different publisher.

Which I did play because I was just that desperate for a new Resident Evil to play and none were on the way and this was basically the same thing.

Except dinosaurs instead of zombies.

But for fantasy roll playing games it's generally been final fantasy since the start.

Granted the last one of those I played was 12.

[callipraxia]

This. And…I say that as someone whose first sustained piece of writing did, in fact, involve a thinly-veiled self-insert joining the Fellowship of the Ring.

I…sort of want to say “imagine that I took a deep breath and said that with my eyes closed,” but I’m honestly not even ashamed of it, lol. I was…either eleven or twelve, I was obsessed with the film of The Two Towers, and one day in chorus class, when my usual bullies were inexplicably doing something other than playing keep-away with my glasses (a whole other story), I somehow found out that another girl in the class was a) almost as friendless as I was at that age, and b) also really, really liked that movie. We ended up chatting and coming up with the premise that it would be cool if we were plopped into the Riders of Rohan scene for no good reason. Then I (desperate to repeat this novel behavior of “interaction with another student that did not involve violence being directed against my person”), in an unexpectedly fateful moment of confidence, started to write about it that night, so I could show her the results at the next meeting of chorus class. This would go on for over three hundred handwritten pages over the course of the year, ending in something it…suited us, anyway, to call “a novel.”

It was a nonsensical train wreck from start to finish. My friend wanted to marry Legolas. I proceeded to write almost four hundred pages on the subject of our adventures and her eventual marriage to Legolas, eventually mixing in another of my major interests of the time, which was Robert Jordan’s The Wheel of Time. Each day, my friend would read what I had - over the course of lunchtimes and times at home when I was pretending to do my homework and, often enough, in actual classes - written up to the beginning of each chorus class and would offer feedback and suggestions about what her character and Legolas should do next; as long as Orlando Bloom remained faithful and devoted to her, she didn’t care that I decided on a whim that we were writing in a multiverse (even though I’m pretty sure I didn’t know the word at the time) and that the powers of evil were making realities all around go “boing,” resulting in thinning boundaries that first explained why my friend and I had literally fallen from the sky into the middle of Rohan and then explained why the White Towers of Gondor and Randland just as illogically became the same place while simultaneously battling the forces of darkness. I don’t recall a lot of the plot after that point, but it ended with us and Legolas in a hot tub, reflecting on how great it was for us that reality had nearly collapsed, since it the worlds hadn’t merged, Legolas and my friend wouldn’t have been able to have a bunch of elf babies and I wouldn’t have been able to become Aes Sedai. Why was there a hot tub? Where did it come from? No idea! I guess it just seemed like a good idea at the time?

So yeah, that was my first completed writing project. I am 100% sure it was one of the most execrable things that a tree ever died to make possible. It didn’t even have a title, and I still hadn’t consistently broken this unfortunate habit I had when I was younger of forgetting that “of” wasn’t spelled with a v (I pronounced it “ov,” everyone I knew pronounced it “ov,” and I remember vividly what it was like to struggle, sometimes for minutes at a time, to think of any other way to spell it before I’d give up and just write “ov”). I didn’t learn to type until eighth grade and didn’t have the nerve to go online for a while longer after that, and the upside of those facts is that “The Tale Of How Me And My Buddy The Legolas Fangirl Joined The Fellowship of the Ring” was never posted anywhere and I thus possibly avoided internet infamy for producing it (to say nothing of how much suckier my sucky middle school life would have gotten if anyone had found out I writing fanfiction - this was back when the twenty-first century was still in single digits, and my middle school made the school from Mean Girls look like an over-the-top parody of a particularly nurturing Montessori kindergarten)….

And you know what? I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I had a blast writing that thing - so much so that when my first friend moved on, I ended up starting a new series of…what at least began as LotR fanfictions (this time set twenty years after the films, featuring thinly-veiled, idealized version of me and Second Friend as a couple of princesses) but rapidly spiraled into our own little made-up world. I drew maps and tried to invent cultures (in pathetically weak attempts to imitate Tolkien and Jordan) and wrote nonstop for two years, producing two completed 400-odd-page handwritten manuscripts and the first two hundred pages of a third before we finished middle school and didn’t really cross paths again in high school. In ninth grade, now alone, I wrote really awful Harry Potter and Wheel of Time fics for a few months before a Harry Potter-based text roleplay basically ate my life in the second semester. My first few years at the RP also featured a lot of prose I don’t like to recall, and my attempts at plots and characterization were even worse…but the others in the group, either because they saw some glimmer of potential or were just really nice people, never gave me so much as a glimmer of a suspicion that they thought I sucked. Nor did they ever call me out on it when I began to clumsily improve by, uh, blatantly imitating them (since they were and are some darn good writers). And so I wrote, fumbled, wrote, fumbled…and, slowly, improved, to the point where I now, as of this March, have three novel-length fics I’m actually pretty proud of. None of them would win me a Hugo/Poe/Pulitzer/What-Have-You, but I would not feel cheated if I spent five bucks on something of equivalent quality at the dollar store. And if I die tomorrow, I’ll do so knowing that I entertained at least a couple hundred people, and that my work even meant something to a number probably in double digits. So take that and chew on it, Kelsey From Eighth Grade Who Mocked Me For Writing At All And Told Me I’d Never Amount To Anything….

…though that’s beside the point. The point of offering up the details behind 95% (I also write fan essays and used to write original poetry, both mostly unconnected to all this) of my writing-life autobiography was…I guess to echo the exhortation to show some grace to teenagers writing teenager things?

So, TL;DR - being a teenage fanperson is often a natural stage in the development of a writer, and I have a bunch of concrete examples to back up the assertion. Be nice to kids who are just having fun and not being jerks to or hurting anyone. They might improve and discover a lifelong passion, and even if they don’t, then at least they’ll enjoy themselves in a mostly harmless way and maybe have some fond memories to look back on one day.

Teen girls reading this, if you feel a calling to write fanfiction about a teen girl being transported to a fictional world, go for it. If you want to write about a teen girl being adopted by your favorite characters or joining the fellowship of the ring or becoming a knight, please do.

We should be encouraging kids to be creative and practice writing, an important life skill, not discouraging it because we find teens acting like teens to be cringe.

[magical-glimpse]

Hello Miaro,

How are you doing? I'm doing well enough.

I wanted to ask for a dream interpretation if it's ok with you. This was originally a text message to one of my friends, btw.

I just had a very cool dream with my beloved Moonlight. Where they were taking me to events with them and their friends. Mostly dinners. We'll eat together.

Someone in the group took a picture of our table, and we hugged for it. We'll go to different restaurants each time, and I was mostly focused on the desserts. I think a couple of people were commenting on that.

At some point we went to a function and there was a girl wearing a green dress, kinda young. I was the only other one wearing green, so we did a fist bump, and I said twinsies or some random nonsense like that.

Also, there was a point where my beloved went to one of those without me (probablycause I hate going to public places). And people were speculating that we broke up, and then they pulled up a laptop cause the event was being live streamed and they were video calling with me. They put the sound so everyone could hear me. When I noticed, I started making creepy sounds and comments to the people who said we broke up.

I don't remember exactly what I said. But was the style of "can you hear me. Im watching you. Im always watching. Im in your walls. You can't escape from me." I also did my maniacal evil laugh. They let me go on for about 10 seconds and then told me to cut it out 😔 .

I dont remember if this was before or after, but we went to an amusement park together. We even got in a ride. They were holding my hand the entire time. Some of their buddies were there, too. I think one gave me some shiny small toy that I liked and probably immediately put it on my mouth cause I never grew out of that stage when I was a toddler.

Anyway. The dream ends on a kitchen, and there's Gordo Ramsey. It seems like a show. There's this girl who baked a cake. Look like a humongous wedding cake. And inside the first floor there was another mini wedding cake. And then Ramsey walked in and was like, "No, no, no. What did you do? She's going to eat this." He was holding a piece of cake, and you could tell the filling(ifk what the cream between levels is called) was the wrong color or something. The girl said she was sorry. The "she" Ramsey was talking about a sort of very important elderly celebrity. She looked like Audrey Hepburn looks rn. And that was a bizarre end to the dream.

Could you tell me if it means something. Im theorizing that sometimes my soulmate and I connected our dreams when we slept at the same time. I'd say this is one of those, especially for the Gordon Ramsey part. I don't even like that man. Never showed in my dreams before today. No celebrity has to be fair. So the Ramsey part made me really want to know if this mean something.

Thanks a lot!

For the first part : You are craving unity and companionship with this "Moonlight" and this group that you feel like you are desperately needing in your 3D life. You project your insecurity onto this person and are therefore desperately protective over the relationship, you feel like people questioning it are putting your relationship, and therefore your self-esteem in danger. You want people to SEE, to BELIEVE you are with that person and meant to be that way. You want to hold onto that so strongly that some much darker sides of yourself are willing to come out to defend it. This is telling me you have an unhealthy attachment to the way others view the relationship, maybe even to the relationship itself. It seems you are not dating this person in the 3D currently, you should check in with yourself and your guides as to why you are holding onto it so strongly and if it is truly what they want from you. If you are dating them currently ( which i strongly, strongly doubt), you should really discuss together what it the role of the public in your relationship and how to keep a healthy relationship to it . I think the girl in a green dress is a younger version of yourself, I dont exactly see her role in the dream, but I think you are meant to see it for yourself. The person who gave you the toy is one that brought you a new experience or a piece of information that you found precious and hold onto dearly. For the Ramsey part, I think this is mostly due to things you thought about or saw lately, but in general it tells about your relationship to authority. You want to show a big deal to someone you think is respected, but ultimately you are not even focused on the right thing (making a huge wedding cake instead of of doing a smaller one but with the right cream). There is absolutely no sign here that any of the people involved is your soulmate or of their presence in the dream.

[lovestuckyhatemarvel]

Woooo, let’s keep going.

1.) “Hey there.” Hey, Nancy.

2.) Steve frees himself by biting.

3.) I know people love to make Eddie horny about the bite and swing and like, they’re right.

4.) The wounds actually aren’t that bad.

5.) Rabies are scary but it does take a while for symptoms to set in.

6.) Steve’s job this season has been at least 70% saying shit that will be disproven immediately afterward.

7.) Say it with me: torture doesn’t work. And also why would this agent have the exact location anyway?

8.) How many times are we gonna see this stupid can of coke?

9.) Oh Owens sort of has a spine.

10.) Usually people aren’t so easily defined but sometimes they are. El is not a monster but you are, Brenner.

11.) “This place is not a prison, this is,” Brenner says as he taps El’s head. Okay I rolled my eyes hard enough I remembered I haven’t eaten yet today and I paused the show to eat. I cannot keep watching this moron on an empty stomach. I refuse. Oh dear fucking god. This episode is 1 hour and 41 minutes???? I have an hour and a half left oN THIS EPISODE?? FUCK YOU.

12.) idk why Bremer thinks it’d be bad to be like, “You didn’t massacre a bunch of kids.” Unless he actually is stupid enough to think she did it.

13.) Dustin is a terrible liar. And while lying to the cops is technically a crime, it is morally right.

14.) Steve is not fine, he’s falling over.

15.) Duffers, I do not want Steve and Nancy to date again and you ca’t make me.

16.) How’d Eddie manage to climb up that fallen tree without stepping on a vine but now needs to be extra careful climbing down?

17.) ‘FOr your modesty, dude’. Jealous.

18.) I love Steve in the vest and so does Eddie.

19.) Hopper wishing wistfully for El to come into her own while she’s in a place with Brenner is so sad.

20.) “Maybe I can still help El, even if it’s the last thing I do.” Hopper is the reason why I think El has to survive this show. For him. Because Hopper needs to know he’s not cursed. Because he doesn’t deserve to have another daughter die.

21.) Murray and Yuiri do not look THAT much alike, y’;all.

22.) Two, maybe don’t make yourself an obvious target.

23.) That was fucked up. Torturing kids is evil.

24.) All 3 saved Steve but Eddie’s the one Steve narrows in to thank.

25.) Steve is so pleased to find out Dustin bragged about him. Eddie thinks Steve is a good dude. That’s like, huge praise from Eddie.

26.) I feel bad for the Duffers trying to even have Eddie be like ‘soooo Nancy and you?’ And almost none of the fans were like ‘yes, Steve and Nancy.’ Straight guys don’t stand this close together usually, guys. And they usually don’t stare into each other’s eyes.

27.) Thank God, the earthquake interrupted the script desperately trying to hook up a couple that doesn’t work.

28.) Erica found gay porn under Lucas’ bed, right?

29.) I love Lucas and Erica.

30.) Wait is it now being decided that El opening a gate requires contacting a monster in the Upside Down????

31.) No guns and Nancy figures out they’re in the past, specifically November 6th, 1983.

32.) Steve hears Dustin. Because they’re buddies. Flipping the switch does something. There’s now shimmery light on the chandelier.

33.) Eddie knows SOS. <3

34.) Wow, RUDE, Dustin.

35.) MURRAY STOP PLAY ACTING IN THE FUCKING CELL. OH MY GOD.

36.) Okay they’ve never met Yuri before.

37.) Murray is so fucking worried and he should be. Oh, Joyce recognizes that sound.

38.) IDK why the other kids are blaming El. Brenner literally said she didn’t talk. Two gave himself away by being a moron.

39.) CHESS. I one time started to learn Chess on a Simmons board and never was as good on a normal board as I was on that.

40.) WHY DO THE OTHER KIDS HATE EL SO FUCKING MUCH????? WHY HAS BRENNER BEEN PLANNING IT??????? NONE OF THE RAINBOW ROOM SHIT MAKES ANY GODDAMN SENSE.

41.) This better be Henry lying because if not, this isn’t Brenner playing chess, this is a pigeon shitting on a chessboard.

42.) Damn, they covered that board fast.

43.) Eddie and Steve commiserating on Dustin being a butthead.

44.) My roommate reminded me that there are syndication rules and so the reason the seasons are so breakneck and short in terms of episode numbers is so the show isn’t available for syndication. That’s why we’re getting a full ass movie length episode every episode this season. So Netflix can screw people.

45.) BIKES. Steve should be wincing when he moves though, let alone biking.

46.) Max is the best.

47.) “Oh, pigs, oh PIGS. Let Officer Callahan in.” One, who are you calling pig, pig? Two, are you comparing yourself to the big bad wolf?

48.) Erica MY NEW FAVORITE CHILD. DID YOU SLASH A COP’S TIRE? I’VE NEVER BEEN PROUDER.

49.) Four bikes.

50.) Is no one monitoring the cameras here?

51.) Has anyone done an AU where Henry was genuine in his help?

52.) Let’s see how bad this CGI demogorgon is. But of course the lighter isn’t working.

53.) FOr a demogorgon that is being routinely fed, this one looks scrawny. Also yeah, the CGI is bad.

54.) Okay why would the guard open the door, Murray? There’s a monster that will kill him.

55.) Of course the fire goes out just as the door is closing.

56.) nICE THROW, HOP.

57.) Aw, Hopper and Joyce reunited.

58.) How fucking close to the trailer park is Creel house????

59.) Bada Bada Boom. The gate is open and they can care each other.

60.) I just realized I don’t know why El was in a hospital gown this entire time? None of the other kids wear one.

61.) Henry goes from ‘powers blocked’ to ‘complete control’ in like 10 seconds.

62.) Eddie why did you bring up the stains? Also those are huge. Are you just jerking off directly onto your bed????

63.) Robin and then Eddie. Try not to stare at Eddie’s ass, Steve. And then Nancy does get to falling, but falls into a vision. Wait how is she standing on the ground again?

64.) Oh now she sees Barb in the pool. This is the first time she’s seen this though. So Nancy seeing this now makes sense. She would now know it’s the pool. I just don’t think any of them know until this season though.

65.) El literally missed so much murder hiding in a closet. And now she’s going down the very flickers hallways to find the Rainbow Room completely decimated. She literally missed ALL the murders except for Two’s.

66) Why is Henry so powerful? How did he even get his powers? What even is his motivation????? Why does this character make no goddamn sense?????

67.) Sweet of Vecna to give Nancy a full villain hallucination backstory. Are we literally trying to say Henry/Vecna/One was a child psychopath or something? Why was there a nest of black widows in a vent? What’s this got to do with anything? God, this character is dumb and pretentious.

68.) ?????? I’d argue black widows also operate under the wake up, work, eat, reproduce, sleep, die cycle even more than humans do.

69.) Okay so he was just an evil child. An evil, judgmental child. Why? Because fuck you, that’s why.

70.) Why would killing people make him stronger???

71.) Literally why would Henry think Eleven is better than the rest of the kids?????

72.) Why would El need to think about any memories other than the fucking DOZENS OF CORPSES SHE’S GONE PAST?

73.) fucking what????????? Is El REMEMBERING BEING BORN? FUCKING WHAT? I’M SORRY. WHAT? I FUCKING HATE THIS SHOW. THIS IS SO STUPID. I CAN’T BELIEVE THE THING THAT HELPS HER BEAT HENRY THE FIRST TIME IS REMEMBERING HER OWN GODDAMN BIRTH. Also! HEY, not to be a party pooper BUT NEWBORNS CAN’T REALLY FUCKING SEE MORE THAN 6 INCHES AWAY FROM THEIR GODDAMN FACE.

74.) Honestly how did Henry/Vecna/One survive El doing that? Like he’s just falling around in the sky and getting struck by lightning too???? None of this makes any goddamn sense. Not even in this world.

75.) YEAH, I KNOW HENRY IS VECNA. YOU DIDN’T NEED TO SHOW THE TATTOO. Although. How does he still have the tattoo and why is it bigger? God, you guys really think 14 year olds are morons.

I need too take a break from this show. It’s so stupid. Oh my god.

[caw4brandon]

Why We Love Bumblebee

Its been a while since I wrote something for Odin’s Wednesday so I thought I should do a long overdue study on a 2018 film that surprised me even till today that I wished people talked about more. Travis Knight’s revamp version of < Bumblebee >

There are some interesting themes found in this simple and yet promising movie so, let’s talk about them and break them down.

- What Are You? -

< Bumbebee > is a simple film that follows our main character; B-127. The highly reliable short stack, who takes risk in the face of danger as the Autobot’s messenger and scout. He was tasked to land on earth, which caused a scene with a top secret base of operations known as Sector 7. After a valiant battle and after suffering from multiple injuries, B-127 shuts down. Taking the form of a yellow Volkswagen Beetle. 

Sometime later, we then follow Charlene "Charlie" Watson. Who recently bargained and was gifted an old car by the local garage owner. Unbeknownst to her. Charlie awakened B-127 (later named, Buumblebee) and thus began a wholesome friendship between a human girl and her new found robot buddy. Iron Giant Style.

Under the backdrop of this friendship, the war between the freedom fighters; The Autobots and the evil Decepticons rages on after the Fall of Cybertron. While Bumblebee works to restore his health, Two Decepticons; Shatter and Dropkick catches on. Traveling to earth to hunt down their enemy. 

Posing as “Peacekeepers” with Sector 7 to find the rogue and take him out. While the movie is titled of him, it isn’t technically all about Bumblebee.

- DJ Bumble In The House! -

The movie mainly follows Charlie (Hailee Steinfeld) During her appearance, we know several things about her. She lives a mundane life, she’s acts as the token “emo and invisible teen” and she is “not like the other girls” Despite this, there seems to be a main cog for why she acts as such. Charlie was mourning after the loss of her beloved father who died tragically and suddenly.

Frustrated with how everyone around her seems to have moved on, bullied by the other popular teens and alone. Charlie longs to leave her town and family. To be free from all the mementos of her father and starting afresh. With the main goal of fixing an old broken Corvette as her getaway. The day before her 18th birthday, Charlie visits her local old garage for parts that kickstarted the actual story.

Like most stories about the fragile human meeting a powerful but broken creature. There is the signature scene where Charlie establishes trust to Bumblebee that is similar to the key scenes of the movie < How To Train Your Dragon > The story even reaches its tipping point where Bumblebee gets captured by Sector 7.

He even had a quick moment of becoming the killing machine that people feared him to be and it concludes with Charlie attempting the impossible and begin her actual healing process with the exclusion of Charlie and Bumblebee being together but decided to separate for their own respective purpose. The movie even has potential ship material between Charlie and the neighbor; Memo. Ending with a “We’re not there yet”

- He’s More Human Than You!  -

Upon further inspection. There is a lot of iconography and symbolism to this movie. Starting with its main theme of loss and healing. The movie allows the grief to linger enough to show that while Bumblebee did come into Charlie’s life as a subject to distract her. The loss is still a reality that she has to confront. She floats through life as it is, puts up walls and lashes out when people tries to reach out to her, including Memo.

Throughout the movie, we see her open up slowly. Starting with her befriending Memo by accident that eventually lead to her snapping and opening up to him about what happened. While it does sound like its me pointing out the instantly recognizable moments from other films of the same sort, there is a lot more at play here.

Broken things no matter how desperate you are to fix them is still broken.

Bumblebee, still broken with no voice. Charlie, still mourning after the loss of her father. The military protagonist; Colonel Jack Burns, still scared after his first encounter. But through them, we get to see what healing is. 

It showcase the characters taking slow steps and finding a new angle with the current situation. While still broken, Bumblebee eventually learned how to use the radio to communicate, Charlie learned how open up to her family again and the Colonel was finally able to move past his anger to help our main hero at the end. (bit of stretch but still) As the final plot device, Charlie was able to finally fix the broken Corvette while Bumblebee was able to reunite with his people and rebuild.

- Because of You, We have Hope  -

Perhaps as an entirety, the whole movie is about taking the broken parts of the franchise, embracing and fixing them for a potential future. If you can recall to the year 2007, film director; Michael Bay took on the challenge to bring the beloved < Transformers > into the golden screens. 

While the general belief is that the first movie is brilliantly good. The franchise seemed to have taken a nosedive into mediocrity. Using special effects that is incomprehensible with soulless plots and lazy attempts to bring in loveable characters from the series. (Perhaps the most horendious one was < Age of Extinction > with their insulting attempt on Grimlock)

< Bumbebee > on the other hand, follows a very basic and yet effective flow of events that tells the story it needs to tell. The story of a young hero becoming the hero we know them to be. Though its a movie with not a lot of fight scenes. The several that we see is masterfully done with cohesive and vibrant colors to not only Bee himself but also for the heroes and enemies.

I mean. JUST, LOOK AT THIS!

This very little moment alone is absolutely perfect and it clearly shows that Travis Knight loves the franchise so much that he wants to give it the justice it deserves! The whole film is basically a large jab against Michael Bay’s sense for realism in his versions. Making the characters to be clear but still realistic.

While it may look a little cartoonish. The whole film is incredibly great with all the round, better storytelling and visuals that the audience can understand. With the news that there may be a second movie. I’m staying hopeful for what is to come for Travis Knight’s second film.

This is why we love < Bumblebee > Its a love letter to the adults of the original series and its a film that will fan the flames for the children to come to a fantastic franchise that teaches the value of seeing beyond something that is alien to us. It elevates compassion, bravery and most importantly, it teaches you how to sting like Bumblebee~

Thanks for Reading

-Caw4B-

[galax-dragon]

lmao this post is from like forever ago but i still have this au and in fact it is More Detailed Now

i will elaborate

did you know that alorai. alorai is in this now. yeah when rider and aloha and mask start investigating and stuff aloha and rider start forming this kinda romantic thing.

obviously goggles doesn't like this. he's very possessive and lowkey kinda stalkery in this au. aloha will NOT get away with this (he probably gets mind controlled or even killed)

the mind control/brainwash/contagious stupidity in this is like. Greatly exaggerated from canon they like practically gradually lose their brain function and also desperately crave pickled plums or something to the point they're like tearing things out of their fridge and going slightly insane over it. idk the details to that exactly yet

ALSO i decided how team blue feels about this. they're completely fine with it. you see they met goggles as an eldritch horror when they were all just kids, goggles took the form of an inkling and yeah they're buddies. they allow goggles to transform and Eldritch Shriek in the basement when he needs to and they help keep his secret 👍

btw speaking of transformations Goggles can't 100% keep his inkling form all the time, sometimes his tentacles will get that black goop or he'll grow a tentacle from his back when he feels high emotions or if he's just not paying attention. Pickled plums for some reason actually help with these transformations, when he accidentally transforms a bit he can eat a plum and it goes away

uhhhhh also goggles eats people sometimes. this is normal

goggles is like absorbing his victims intelligence to make more power for himself so he can take over the world or something 👍 yeah

AND the victims of the intelligence drain are more than just the battle legends I think, there's a few random people thrown in there but obviously it's more noticeable with the Famous Battle Legends

also in the final battle or whatever when goggles is carrying out his Evil Eldritch Horror Plan and Rider has to stop it, team blue actually ends up siding with goggles because he may be a horrifying eldritch horror but he's also their friend yknow

yeah :D

also this song. idc if it's an amanda the adventurer song it belongs to this au now lol

hiiii who wants to hear about yet another coroika au from the person who has too many of them

so yeah extensive infodump and doodles under the cut

TW: DISTURBING IMAGES

Ok so lots of idk’s for this one, bear with me ok

So you know how a lot of Goggles’ opponents (Skull, Emp, Vintage) seem to turn stupid after Goggles defeats them? Yeah, this is based on that, but Scary

So in this Goggles is a 19481059149 years old (very ancient) eldritch monstrosity from the eternal void, he is reborn every 1000 years or so to cause destruction and stuff. He “brainwashes” (turns stupid) the other Coroika people, usually by pantsing, but people can be brainwashed without pantsing them. (Ex: Army.) He may or may not have some evil plan, idk yet

So yeah, somehow Rider finds out Goggles is a monster (idk yet, I think he sees his true monstrous form somehow?) And Rider is totally freaked out, but also curious, and tries to find out more about Goggles, and eventually finds out that he is brainwashing people.

Team Yellow-Green (Stealth, Blazer, and Bamboo) are the first Rider tells, when they see him with like his big cork board with all the strings attached to it (do you know what I’m talking about) But they don’t believe him, because Goggles? An evil eldritch monster? How absurd!

So then Rider tries to warn other people, he warns Ocho and Wireglasses because they are the current Big Bad Opponents and likely Goggles’ next victims. (Btw I headcanon that Rider and Wireglasses are cousins, and I also ship Ocho and Wireglasses.)

But Ocho and Wireglasses don’t believe Rider, either, and they get caught by Goggles!! :0

So now Rider is desperate to warn people that Goggles is dangerous. He calls up Mask and Aloha, a couple of Goggles’ victims who haven’t been brainwashed! And luckily, they actually believe Rider’s whole theory! (Btw at this point Rider hasn’t slept in like, three days)

Together Rider, Mask, and Aloha try to figure out how to defeat Goggles and stuff. Also at first Aloha is just goofing off because he’s not sure if he really believes this whole thing, but once he realizes Army has really been brainwashed, he is really on board.

Also, I bet you’ve been wondering why Rider himself isn’t brainwashed, because he is Goggles’ first opponent and has been pantsed thousands of times! Well there’s an explanation for that: Gorai! Goggles didn’t brainwash Rider because he loves him in an unhealthy and creepy way!

Idk how to explain it, Gorai in this au is basically like this picture:

Yeah 👍

So anywho then Events occur that somehow lead up to Mask and Aloha getting brainwashed and Rider having to confront Goggles’ true monster form.

(Btw in this Goggles can like, control his victims to basically be zombies that obey his mental commands? This isn’t their default form, it can be turned on and off.)

So anyway yeah that happens and there’s actually multiple outcomes I’m thinking of! So either Rider like, convinces Goggles to stop being evil somehow and everything is good, or Goggles brainwashes Rider, achieves his evil goal, and everything is Not Good.

Also I’m not sure how Team Blue ties into all of this, I think they know that Goggles is an ancient eldritch monstrosity but they’re ok with that?

Anyway, that was a lot! Here’s the doodles as promised:

Sorry for the not-great quality, I had to take these on the bus so I wouldn’t forget 🙃 (I might take some better pictures later)

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ZHONGLI:

– Zhongli would be a very chill study partner. He will always keep his cool and focus, never letting his attention stray away from less trivial things. If he can focus, he’ll focus. There’s always this sense of comfort surrounding him that brightens up your mood and productivity. The both of you are sat in this long table, papers, books, and cute matching pencils are sprawled about. You lean your head on his shoulder, as he serenades you with his deep and butter voice, explaining all the formulas to you. Being able to study in peace and quiet with him is always a blissful experience. He never fails to brew you green tea (as it helps the brain function) even if that meant going down to the kitchen at 2 in the morning. He always brings a small humidifier and some essential oils with him that can help brighten up the study mood and that emits a wafting vanilla pinecone scent to keep you happy. (He’s just fancy like that.) When he doesn’t understand the concepts right away, he’d turn to you, his sharp amber eyes gazing at yours with nothing but innocent and love, and asks: “(Y/N)... what reference is this supposed to be? pepe the frog? kermit the frog? here come dat boi? aren’t they all just amphibians? what are the differences between them? I am very intrigued.”

CHILDE:

  – Childe loves a challenge. An academic challenge. He loves the thrill of finishing school works the night before the deadline, he loves studying for a pop quiz twenty minutes before the bell rings, and most importantly, he loves to pretend he doesn’t know how to solve point a to point b if that means getting to spend time with you as you tutor him on how to do so. He’s at the top of the class, He’s popular and friendly, He’s the captain of the Archery Team, and one of the vice council members of the Fatui Club. But, no other title will ever come close to being your study buddy. You and Childe always chill on the bed whenever you study. Especially when the both of you have the sudden urge to just laze around. Well, it is the wee hours of the night, so just lounging around and trying to resist the urge of sleep is pretty understandable. Sometimes, the two of you would take power naps in between study sessions. This meant cuddle times! Childe will always cuddle with you, (he’s the big spoon and you are the smol spoon) and often times you would be immersed into your textbook while he’s scrolling through his phone and looking for some of the current and popular memes. He’d poke you on the cheek and show you what he’s found. It was quite annoying sometimes and you would reprimand him for it, but it never fails to make you laugh. You jokingly suggested one time that the two of you sneak in the library after closing hours, and your chaotic boyfriend turns to you with the biggest smirk plastered on his face. “Let’s do it baby. I know the law.”

DILUC:

–You and Diluc are the cutest pair of night owls. So, studying late at night is never a problem with him because with the help of each other, the both of you are unstoppable. An actual power couple. Batman and his love interest who? I only know (Y/N) and Diluc. Mondstadt University should be giving you the title of #NoSleepGang for the “Campus Cuties” awards because the two of you are able to ace every test still despite lack of sleep.  You and Diluc are very very organized. The both of you own matching couple planners (that the both of you had gifted to each for Christmas) and have your entire study schedule planned out already. Since the two of you prefer to study at night, your dates are usually done during the day. Which meant never having to worry about the upcoming finals whilst you’re at a cute little café with him. The both of you have respective desks whenever you study together, but you never fail to gaze at your crimson-haired boyfriend with the cutest pout and biggest puppy eyes. He always gives in and next thing you know, your swivel chairs are practically glued next to each other and the both of you are cuddling in your seats. One thing that Diluc never fails to do is pamper you with comfort food or little gifts that you love after a long and tiring week of hell (aka exams) It’s such a sweet gesture and the blissful relationship that you have can’t get any better than this.

“I got you some boba and that necklace from Pandora that you’ve always wanted. I-I’m so proud of you (Y/N). You did great, my love.”

KAEYA:

- You are the Lawful Good to Kaeya’s Chaotic Evil. Kaeya is always tempted to ask for answers from your professors. He’s quite the teacher’s pet, but with good intentions. That’s just how he rolls. Every time he jokes about going to the faculty to help out and the answer sheets are just out in the open, waiting to be snatched, you always glare at at him and punch him softly on the arm, every time he tries to bring up the idea. To which he would always reply with, “I’m kidding. Just kidding my love.” You and Kaeya have amazing study hacks. He is always able to find a movie that is somewhat related to the topics that the both of you are currently studying about. For example, when the topic was an introduction to different branches of science, Kaeya chose Big Hero 6  as the “Educational Movie Of the Day.” He is always able to find something fun and informative for the both of you to watch. Well, Kaeya does find fun and interest in everything. Another effective strategy that both of you do is every time you or him get an answer right, you reward each other with either a kiss on the cheek or a bear hug. Both of these affectionate gestures give you butterflies in your stomach anyway, so it doesn’t matter which is which. With the ideas that Kaeya constantly makes up every single day of your study sessions, there’s a high chance that you’ll never fluke a test ever again.

“Oh. That’s pretty cool of you (Y/N). You got 30 correct answers! If we count everything, so I basically gave you 15 forehead kisses and 15 bear hugs. Congrats! I know we’re going to ace our finals!”

XIAO:

– Xiao is extremely intelligent and talented in a myriad of things. However, he lacks self-confidence. You’ve sworn to your boyfriend that you’d help him gain confidence in his academic abilities. Which is why you became study buddies in the first place. It served as dates with him too! Although he stubbornly refused at first, his reasons being that he can do things by himself and he doesn’t need any help. You continued to encourage him that this was going to help the both of you and it was a way for the two of you to bond, and Xiao hesistantly agreed right after. As the captain of the soccer team, “The Liyue Adepti”, The only free time that Xiao has was during the evening which is the reason for your scheduled late night studies with him. This brought so much more intimate and sweet moments with him though! It meant sleepovers with him, midnight snack runs, and casual early morning strolls in the park. It became sort of a routine. Your hand interlaced with his, the crisp morning air, the little chirpings birds, and the tranquil swaying of the trees brought so much comfort to the both of you. Xiao would be the type of student to not speak up unless he’s called. Even if he knows the answer. The both of you sit on some floor pillows whenever you would study. So, whilst you read aloud, Xiao always hugs you from behind, resting his head on your shoulder.

“I don’t deserve the patience and love you give me, (Y/N). I am eternally grateful for everything you’ve done for me. I hope you know, that I’ll always be here for you.”

ALBEDO:

- Being the university’s library assistant has it’s perks. Access to infinite knowledge, quiet solitude within the library walls, and being able to hang out with your boyfriend. It was truly a perfect deal. After classes, Albedo would be heading straight over to the library to do his work. You’d meet him there and wait until he gets his work done, and then the two of you head home together or have dinner. Albedo likes to plan things in advance. He’s quite busy, being a part of university’s alchemist group and as a library assistant, but, he will always study with you. He even brings Klee with him at times too! She’s always an energetic and cute addition, + she tattles on and on about how in love Albedo is with you and how he would never shut up about you at home. Albedo puts a lot of effort into creating review materials for the both of you. He makes very intricate drawings of modules, dioramas of certain science models, and has all the formulas memorized for him to list down. He’s a genius after all, and although you’ve constantly told him time and time again that he doesn’t have to make a review paper specifically catered to you, he still insists. He always gifts you one whenever it’s exam week (he adds extra detail to them during your finals) The cutest thing about these papers are scribbled about in all of the pages. The cutest doodles of the two of you with hearts and flowers drawn all over. Albedo + (Y/N) is even written in the last page, along with a heartfelt message: 

“I put all my faith and belief in you, (Y/N). I know you can do this. I’m proud of everything you’ve reached so far, my beloved. and I know you’ll reach greater heights. Let’s continue to excel and thrive together. I can’t wait to spend the rest of this journey with you.”

[dykeyote]

thinkin about cecil going on a redemption arc and joining the carte blanche . i have VERY HYPERSPECIFIC hcs about how hed interact with each and every member of the crew which i will now share with u because im insufferable

RITA

honestly . i think theyd be besties i think theyd get along SO fucking well . i think theyd talk a ton a ton a TON and watch streams together . they both have super strong opinions on said streams and get into VERY BIG ARGUMENTS ABOUT THIS but its all in good fun . they goss about juno a lot which jet is sometimes in on . they chat about other people sometimes but NEVER NUREYEV because it will incite an impassioned rant from cecil without fail which leads us to.....

RANSOM

they r like ..... frenemies . they hate each other but in an affectionate way . they both think the other one is STUPID AND PRETENTIOUS and they both are weirdly possessive over juno and these traits do NOT clash well . cecil loudly goes BLEH and sticks his tongue out every time he sees him and nureyev goes UGH and rolls his eyes. they still watch my little pony generation seven hundred and three together tho . cecil does NOT know that him and rex glass are the same person and he will FREQUENTLY discuss how much he HATES HIS WORST ENEMY REX GLASS loudly and at length when nureyev is in the room . on a series note theyre blth kinda jealous of the other for each others anonymity or lack thereof respectively

BUDDY

he like . right . ok so my lore for the way cecil gets on the carte blanche is that he was basically just him and min for ages because cass is off mars and croesus and he ran away with junos help . and at the start hes like MAD desperate for maternal validation so hes like HI BUDDY HI BUDDY HI BUDDY DO YOU NEED ANYTHING (:????? HEY MS AURINKO HI HI UM DO YOU NEED HELP WITH THAT???? YES I ASKED TWNETY MINUTES AGO BUT STILL . but the ego crushing lands BAD with him hes all huffy and pouty which breaks the idolization and then theyr just hangin out . familied

VESPA

and VESPA he has the OPPOSITE thing with . because at first i think they dont like each other because cecil doesnt like how brash she is (junebug ): junebug sniffles shes so MEAN to ME ugh ugh ugh) and vespa is like ayo we r really inviting a KANAGAWA on the carte blanche . THE KANAGAWA WHOSE WHOLE DEAL IS MURDERING PEOPLE ON TV FOR FUNSIES . but eventually i think they grow to like each other because cecils whole mad scientist deal means hes a pretty solid medical assistant. plus because cecil is so BLATANTLY untrustworthy like he CONSTANTLY talks about how evil and myrderous and mwahahaha he is . he kinda comes around to being trustworthy again . vespa is confident that if he WAS plotting against her there is NO way he could or even Would hide it bc hed just be going GUYS I HAVE THE MOST EVIL PLAN AND ITS GONNA BE SO COOL WATCH ME GET OUT MY GUILLOTINE so shes just like ok cool

JET

i think like ok . theyr the ones i have the Least strong opinions on i think theyr mutual friends through rita and they hang out sometimes . jets a good role model in some senses

JUNO

i could go on about them . for HOURS . so i am ending it here because none of u want me started on my cj agenda

[smol-and-grumpy]

Like What You See?

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Summary: “Like what you see?” He asks, one eyebrow raised, lips still quirking upwards.

Now, she knows she can just say something snarky, maybe tell him not to get over his head, maybe make a joke that they’ll laugh about but somehow, she feels a little feisty. She doesn’t know if what evil thing forces her to say the next thing that slips out of her mouth, “You know I do,”

Warnings: Sweaty Jensen (that deserves a warning in itself), feelings, friends to lovers, cunnilingus, dirty talk, praise kink, fingering, semi-public sex

WC: 3858

A/N: So, this hit me in the face. Don’t blame me for it, blame him.

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[JA] Need your help

[Me] I’m working

[JA] Yeah, it’s kind of an emergency

[Me] I swear to god, Jackles, if it’s nothing important

[JA] I’m hurt. I could be dying

[Me] If you would be, you wouldn’t be texting me

[JA] Jesus, for once in your life, can you just do what I ask you to?

[Me] You didn’t ask

[JA] Look, can you drop out of work early and come over or not?

[Me] What’s in it for me?

[JA] You’ll see

[Me] I hate you

[JA] You wish you could

Fuck. He’s right. She really wishes she could hate him sometimes but no matter what, she doesn’t think she’ll ever be able to. 

Y/N had been friends with Jensen since she moved to Vancouver. They actually met at the bar and she didn’t even know who he was at first. It took her an embarrassingly long time to figure out but it didn’t seem that he minded. They kept meeting up and soon a friendship bloomed, and she could tell back then that Jensen was somehow glad that he had someone to talk to outside of work. However, the last two years of their friendship, they have spent apart since she has been transferred to Toronto for work and it was actually quite hard for both of them but they managed to keep their friendship alive with occasional video calls or meetups where she would fly in or he would whenever he could steal himself away. 

It came as a shock to her when he told her that he’s going to be filming for The Boys in Toronto and even though he never said that he took it just to be close to her, she sometimes wished that it was the case. Because apart from being the best friend to Jensen, she was also crushing so hard for him, and yeah, maybe it would be better if he wasn’t here because then she wouldn’t have to deal with her stupid feelings all the time. They have too good of a dynamic in their friendship and she really doesn’t want to jeopardize it by coming on to him. Besides, Jensen could have anyone, why should he even have feelings for her. She’s not moving in the same social circle, and to be frank, he’s way out of her league.

She debates with herself about leaving work. Jensen must be really desperate to want her to get off work early for whatever it was. He knows about her work ethic and how serious she takes it, and maybe that’s why she finds herself packing her bag. 

When she walks down the hall and waits by the elevator, she shoots him another text.

 [Me] This better be good. I want a large pizza for dinner.

[JA] That wouldn’t be fair because I can’t have pizza 

[Me] Good. Then you can watch me eat it and suffer

[JA] I hate you

[Me] You wish you could

  *

Of course he isn’t in his hotel room when she arrives. She knows that because she’s the person who has the second key card. “For emergencies,” he had said. 

Y/N drops her bag by the entrance to the hotel room and calls him.

“You here?”

A shiver runs down her back. His voice is a little strained, gravelly and rough, and he breathes hard. 

“Are you a magician because I can’t see you in the room. Is this why you called me over? To show me your disappearing act?” She says after catching her own breath.

“Haha, you’re cute and funny.” He chuckled, “Come down to the gym.” 

She’s closing the door of the room behind her and makes her way to the elevator. “You know I didn’t come here to be your workout buddy, right? Know your audience, Ackles.” 

“I swear you don’t have to do anything you don’t want, just come down.” 

“I want ice cream after the pizza.” 

“Whatever the hell you want,”

Stepping out of the elevator, Y/N makes her way to the gym. There’s faint music coming out of the closed door and she can hear a grunt. A sexy grunt. Dammit. She should not go in there and she knows it but her body screams for her to open that door. 

Barging in unceremoniously, she finds him next to the bench, two dumbbells in hand as he alternates the lifting between his arms, grunting into the mirror. 

“This better be worth my time, Jackles.” She huffs out and their eyes meet in the mirror. 

God, he looks so good. Yeah, of course the beard could be shorter, the hair too, but it probably won’t take long before they are coming off and he’ll look anything like the Jensen she knew again. Not that she minds this Jensen. Maybe it’s something primal inside her, some cavemen kink she never knew she had. 

As she steps further into the room, the smell hits her and she can swear something’s clenching and it’s definitely not her jaw. The room smells of Jensen’s perfume and of his deodorant, his sweat and musk, and she knows she’s going to die when she has to spend more than ten minutes in here. It’s dying or being extremely aroused and she’d rather die than him knowing how she actually wants to climb him like a jungle gym.

He drops the dumbbells and takes a swig from his water bottle. “I promise,” Jensen pants a little, “I’ll be worth it.” 

It’s now that she realizes that they’re alone. “Where is everyone else?” 

“It’s pandemic, Y/N. The hotels only do bookings in advance.”

“And of course you booked it to have it to yourself.”

He grins, “Wouldn’t want anyone to see me like this and decide that they’re selling it to the press. Besides, wouldn’t want anyone to not be able to concentrate on their weights in my presence.” 

“Jesus, your ego is unmatched.” She fights the urge to roll her eyes, even though he’s probably right. Well, at least she wouldn’t be able to get any workouts in when there’s a full course meal working out next to her.

“You wanna help me or not?”

“Well, I’m here, aren’t I?”

Wordlessly, Jensen shoves his phone into her hand and she looks at him a little puzzled. 

He’s sending her a smirk, that lopsided one, the very one that would make every female who’s interested in a male drop their panties immediately. “You’re going to film me for insta.” 

“What?”

“Yeah, they said it would be good to let them see how I work out.” 

“That’s your emergency?” She spits out, “That’s what I left work for?”

Jensen looks at her, almost…. Almost pleadingly? Wow, he’s turning it way up too high, knowing full well she can’t resist that look either. Fuck.

Y/N sighs before she speaks, “But why, Jensen? You could have asked someone else. Recording a video is not that hard.” 

“Well, I don’t want anyone else.” 

Huh. Her mouth opens and closes, and then she shakes her head to get out of this stupor, because he didn’t really mean it like she thinks he meant it, right? 

She caves. Of course she does. “Fine. What do you have in mind?”

Ever the director, he tells her how he wants to do it, and she might have squealed internally when he flexed his muscles but nobody had to know. 

“I got it,” she says, and he’s standing just a couple of feet away, all sweaty and smelling all enticingly musky, and yeah, she’s fucked. 

Her gaze is fixed on his freckled face with droplets of sweat on his forehead and nose, and honestly, it’s not really fair that someone who worked out that amount of sweat can still look this good. Her eyes flicker down from his face to his chest where a sheen of sweat spreads over her favorite freckle of his. 

“Y/N?” His voice pulls her back and she must have been biting her lips pretty hard because Jensen’s thumb comes up to rest on her chin, pulls her skin so that her teeth release her lips. “You okay?”

“Huh?” She doesn’t dare to look him in the eye, fearing he’d see everything she feels in them, “Yeah, so, are we done?”

“Sure,” He nods and takes his phone out from her hand. She’s gripping it hard and he chuckles as he has to ply her fingers from it. 

Standing there awkwardly, she watches him walk back to where his towel is resting and Jensen wipes the sweat on his forehead and neck away with it. Y/N didn’t even realize that she’s still watching him when suddenly there’s a chuckle and when she averts her eyes from his arms — oh god, those fucking arms that has gotten so much bigger in the last couple of months — he’s grinning at her all cockily and full of bravado, and all of a sudden, she really wants to wipe that grin from his face. 

“Like what you see?” He asks, one eyebrow raised, lips still quirking upwards. 

Now, she knows she can just say something snarky, maybe tell him not to get over his head, maybe make a joke that they’ll laugh about but somehow, she feels a little feisty. She doesn’t know if what evil thing forces her to say the next thing that slips out of her mouth, “You know I do,”

If her quasi-declaration of how much she enjoys ogling him is a surprise to him, he doesn’t let it show but instead walks closer, that stupid wide grin stretches over his face. 

And then his hands were on her waist, fingers squeezing her hip, the tip of it digging deep into her flesh. 

“Yeah?” He asks, “Is that so?”

Y/N swallows, her hands rest on his arms — on his biceps to be precise — to somehow hold him there and maybe trying to fight to keep for her dignity but his skin feels so smooth in her palm and it feels so warm from his workout, god, she’s going to die right here, right now. Somehow, her brian still functions and she quirks an eyebrow, “You have a problem with that?”

He chuckles, his eyes crinkly and bright, and she’s so fucking done for. “Not in the slightest,” Jensen whispers, before he ducks his head down and all of a sudden, his sweaty forehead rests on hers, and she finds that she doesn’t mind. Their breathing mingles and she can swear she doesn’t hear the music anymore because all she hears is his heartbeat, or maybe it’s hers, who knows anymore. 

When he closes the gap between them, his lips brush against hers. It’s barely a kiss, way too short because he pulls away right after that careful brush, and it’s not nearly enough to clench her thirst for him. 

But he’s not completely gone, his lips are just a hair away from hers, the tip of his nose nudging against hers, “Is this okay?” He whispers, his warm breath fanning over her mouth. 

Even if her brain is capable enough to form words, she doesn’t think anything would come out anyway. So, Y/N nods her head and her hands trail up his sticky arm to loop around his even stickier neck, a grin splitting her face. 

Jensen growls before immediately closing the distance again, slanting his mouth over hers, and it’s unlike the careful brush of lips from before. This kiss is needy and sloppy and fucking wild. Her hands bury into his hair, pulling him closer while he wraps her up with his big arms. His chest is heaving and his heart is at least running the same marathon as hers does. 

“Fuck,” he breathes out, “Should have done this sooner.” 

“Yeah?” By now, she definitely can’t hide her grin and she’s fearing that her face will permanently stay this way. 

“Yeah,” he pecks her lips, once, twice, thrice, “You have no idea how much I dreamt of doing this with you.” 

Oh.

Her grin turns cocky, “Then we should make up for lost time, huh?” 

“Fuck, Y/N,” 

Before she knows it, his lips are back on hers and he walks her backward until her back hits the dumbbell rack. At a lightning speed, he flips her around so that she faces herself in the mirror while Jensen’s tongue maps out her throat, sucking and licking his way to her shoulder. 

“Wow, here?” Her hand goes back to card through his hair, “You’re supposed to buy me my pizza first.” 

Jensen’s low chuckle next to her ear is making her wetter, “Oh, I didn’t forget. I’ll watch you eat but you have to watch me eat first.” 

Her mouth opens to ask him what he means but then she figures it out when he falls down to his knees, fingers already hooking into her jeans, and holy shit, when did he have time to pop her button? 

“Really? Here?” She asks again, just to be fucking sure because they’re in fucking public, even if nobody is here right now, and she’s not the one who has everything to lose. 

He doesn’t answer and instead succeeds in pulling off her jeans from her one leg. It’s still hanging onto her other leg but who really cares about that right now. Not when he pushes her panties to the side and threads through her slick with his fingers. She bites down on her bottom lip so as not to moan out too loud. 

“You’re so fucking wet, baby,” he groans and places a kiss on her asscheek, “Is that all for me, huh? Or does it turn you on that anyone could walk in on us?” 

“Shit,” 

“Tell me,” he asks, or rather demands, fingers circling her clit with his one hand while his other pushes her legs apart some more. 

“B-both— fuck!” He has his head buried between her thighs quicker than she could answer him, tongue lapping at her excess slick, nose stroking along her rim. And his beard, oh god, his beard adds a new sensation to it, “Oh god,” 

Jensen pulls away slightly, “God’s too formal. C’mon, you can still call me Jensen,” 

Well, fuck him and his overblown ego and stupid mouth. Her hand goes back to his head as she fists his hair between her fingers and pushes him to her dripping cunt. He actually goes in willingly and there’s not much resistance. He moans and slurps like it’s the best thing he’s ever eaten, his wide tongue probing at her entrance, and shit, her legs are already starting to tremble. 

The next time he pulls away, it’s only to work two of his incredibly thick fingers into her wet heat, making her arch her back and moan out shamelessly. “Fuck, Y/N, you’re so fucking delicious. Think you can come on my fingers, hhm, baby?” 

Well, fuck, who taught him to talk like that? And honestly, how can she say no? But then the pressure of his fingers is gone, and before she can protest, he’s standing up and enters his fingers into her from the front, thumbs circling on her clit expertly. His free arm sneaks its way under her shirt, hands pulling down her bra just enough to give him free rein over her bare tits. “Jesus, Y/N, you have no idea how much I want you.” 

“How much?” She can’t help but be a little sassy, it’s just the way she is, okay? 

Chuckling, he sucks in her earlobe, teeth biting down on it gently while he tweaks her nipple between his fingers. “So. Fucking. Much.” He whispers roughly, thrusting his hard but sadly still clothed cock against her ass. 

“C’mon, baby, come for me so I can fuck you.” 

And really, she wants to, because she’s so fucking close but god, she really wants to come on his cock and maybe they can take their time the next time they’re doing this but she’s so fucking desperate for that dick. 

“Fuck me now.” She begs, “Please.” 

There’s another growl from next to her ear, more primal, and then his fingers leave her cunt and are replaced by the blunt head of his cock. He threads it through her slick, and she’s well aware that he’s not wearing a condom but god, she didn’t care. She can feel him hesitate, though.

“Shit, Y/N, are you sure?”

“I swear if you ask me again, I’ll let you watch me fuck myse— oh god!” 

In that moment, he breaches her pussy with the thick head of his cock, one hand is placed on her stomach, holding her close while the fingers of his other hand draw circles on her clit. “Shhhhhhh,” he coos, “I told you to call me Jensen.” 

She’s about to swat him but now he moves the hand from her stomach into her hair, grabbing at them and pulls her back so that she arches her back a little. 

“Look up, baby, look at yourself in the mirror,” Jensen whispers, “Look at your face when you take my cock for the first time.” 

And she does, looks at their reflection, at Jensen’s concentrated frown when he drives his cock further and further inside of her and then her eyes flutter shut when he’s sheathed. 

“Fuck, Jensen,” 

He stills inside of her, not moving an inch as he lets her body adjust to his lengths and girth. “How does it feel, huh?”

“G-good, so fu-full,” 

His hand in her hair tightens and he pulls her up until she’s flushed against his chest. “Good,” he whispers next to her ear, his voice so deep and sexy and her cunt clenches unconsciously hearing it, and then he moves. Finally fucking moves, as he begins to fuck her, slow and deep at first, “You feel so fucking good, Y/N, god, should have done this way sooner.” 

“Jensen,”

“Hhm? What do you want? Tell me, Y/N,” 

“Ha— harder, fuck, I’m going to— ugh,” 

He drives in, more forcefully, purposefully. Skin slapping skin loudly, his balls making contact with her thighs, thumbs flicking at her sensitive clit and she reaches up, fingers scratching at his shoulder and neck for purchase as she comes with trembling legs. It’s one of the more powerful orgasms she’s ever had, her pussy clenches so hard, it pushes him out of her and he growls, actually growls so loud, it sends a shiver down her spine and makes her tingle all over. 

“Damn, baby,” he chuckles, chest heaving as he turns her around and picks her up. His lips find hers and his tongue invades her mouth. She can still taste herself on him and paired with Jensen’s own taste, it’s a fucking mind-numbing combination. 

His strong arms are wrapped around her as he carries her to the free wall in the back, and he balances her around like she weighs nothing. It must be all the workout that’s paying off. She’s never felt safer anywhere but in his arms. 

Jensen presses her against the cool wall before slipping his wet cock back into her even slicker heat, groaning as it goes in fluidly. “Fuck, you’re so fucking wet. Feels amazing,” he breathes against her neck, lips grazing her skin and his beard tickles her in all the right places. 

From here, she can see the mirror, can see Jensen’s broad back in his stupid shirt that he’s still hasn’t gotten rid of, can see how he blankets her with his broadness, can see his bare ass and god, he really has a great ass. It’s mesmerizing to watch how his muscles clench every time he drives in and out of her. 

Her jeans are still hanging from one of her legs and it’s so ridiculous how they must look, with their clothes half clinging to their body as he fucks her good and hard against the wall. It’s everything she wanted and more. 

“I’m close,” Jensen admits as he pulls away from her collarbone after having successfully sucked in a mark there, “Can you come with me, Y/N, hhm?” 

She just came about ten minutes ago. She really doesn’t know if she has it in her to come again so quickly, but she would be damned if she wouldn’t at least try. So, she nods her head and pulls the arm from around his neck to sneak between their bodies. She starts to play with herself, the tip of her fingers feel his lengths going in and out of her pussy, and that alone is a fucking turn-on, to be honest. 

“Harder,” Y/N manages to say, “A little harder,” 

“Whatever the hell you want,” he whispers, one hand stops supporting her but instead goes to her shirt collar. He pulls it down so hard it rips apart but instead of saying sorry, or even care, his lips find her nipple, and his tongue tickles with it inside of his mouth. And all this while he increases his thrust, makes his harder, sharper, fucking her to the brink of pain but she just knows that it’ll be worth the soreness she’ll feel after.

Jensen’s tongue trails up her chest to nip at her jaw, “Fuck, Y/N, I’m gonna… Where do you want me to come?” 

“You can come in me,” she’s super close, toes already curling as the pressure builds and builds.

“Oh god,” he groans and drops his mouth to her neck, teeth scraping at her skin. “You’re going to be the death of me.”

“You can call me Y/N,” she adds, before fuck— she squeals out sharply, giggling when she comes and her cunt squeezes him so hard, Jensen has to fight to stay inside. 

He groans loudly, sinking his fangs into her skin as he spills hotly inside of her. 

His hand is squeezing her thigh through his aftershock, his other hand carefully palms her face, thumb stroking her cheek gently. Jensen bumps his nose along hers before he steals a soft kiss. It deepens pretty quickly, tongue sliding along each other’s and she actually whines when his cock slips out of her. 

“We should clean up.” He grins and steals another kiss. 

“How about you clean up and I go and order pizza.” 

“You’re really hungry, huh?” He sets her down and tucks himself back into his pants before kneeling down to help her get back into her jeans.

“You promised,”

“Yeah, go, I’ll be right up.” He places a big hand at the back of her head to draw her in for another kiss. It seems like now that he’s allowed to do it, he can’t really stop. Not that she minds. 

When she turns to walk towards the door, she notices that her shirt is basically showing half her chest. Turning back to Jensen he just grins. “C’mon, it’s not that bad, I’ll buy you a new shirt.” 

“And what do I wear now?” 

He strides over in quick steps, palms cradle her face when he drops another kiss, “Wear my shirt. Nothing underneath.” 

Follow up: Relax

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