#like at leats 9 am

[countessofravenclaw]

For the fanfic ask game

1 - it’s a tie between GOS and MOT

3 - Gastón, no question

4 - Is there any answer other than Gastina?

5 - That time Gastón ‘kidnaps’ Nina near the end of MOT

8 - Also Gastina

9 - the Ana/German one

12 - I finished rereading GOS a few days ago and I’m currently in the process of rereading MOT in-between Bia episodes

14 - The S2AU

I never kniw what to respond to these ask games... Do I comment on this? Well, I will comment.

I love that people like specifically how I write Gastón because there isn't that much to go off of the canon wise, so I get to play in a sand box. He is one of my faves and has so much potentila that the show wasted. I am always afriad that what I write is not in charcter. But I love expanding on him, charcter and lore wise. For example, we do not know about his family, outside of both of his parents being alive rom two lines. I actually have som moe complex family backstoyr that we will be focusing on in a upcoming story.

Gastina is why I started writing in the first place, so of course it's everyone's fave thing.

I don't know what's hapening with the Ana/German one. It will be something that should not be taken any sort of seriously. It is not gonna be a fic about them as a ship, I don't ship them. It's gonna focus on Nina in bozarred scenario and it's gonna be a Gastina fic, because of course it is gonna be. I think Gastón's parenst are also maybe making an appereance, which will be fun as if everyone remembers, they don't like German. Or they at leats think he is extrenely odd and they judge him for his serial groomness.

I didn't believe on anyone would about S2AU when I started it. It was an extremely stupid idea. I just was having the worst time at school imaginable and this scene of Nina running into Monica and Miguel in the kitchen kept like haunting me. Shoutout to to @putonmyfavoriteshow who told me it was a good prompt and I should do it. Starting S2AU dates back to my last weeks at Aalto University before I got hospitalized, which also sealed my major and school change too in the end. Thinking back it kind of feels weird in a way. But it is one of my faves to write, because it's a gold mine of character expansion for Gastón's parenst especially. Even if this didn't happen canonically, it doesn't change the type of people they are, it gives character depth.

[wallpaper-inside-my-heart]

💛Smoshblr December Asks Day 9💙

What are your current top 3 favourite songs? (like songs you’ve had on repeat a lot recently or maybe just 3 songs that you listened to today and enjoyed a lot! Whatever feels most accurate to you 🤗🎶)

Bonus: What are 3 songs you think everyone should listen to at least once in their life? 🎧

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(posting my own answers late cause I was/ still am super busy this weekend 🙈)

Also genuine thank you to everyone participating in this! I literally look forward to reading every single one of y'alls answers everyday! 🥰💕

(tho I often don't have time to respond very quickly/at all; but I do promise that I try to get to as many as I can 🤗🫶)

current top 3 songs:

as good as reason by Paris Paloma

Spring by Ed Sheeran

Holes by Passenger

(special shoutout to "I see fire" and "evermore", cause I literally had those on repeat for all of november; and also at least half of Paris Paloma's music, cause I had her literally on loop for the past few days)

songs I think everyone should listen to at leats once

okay, I'm gonna cheat a little bit for the first choiceof this question and pick one song for each of their albums:

"Not Yet/Love Run" (Love Run); "Farewell Wanderlust" (The Horror and the Wild); "The Old Witch Sleep and the Good Man Grace" (Ruin) ---> all songs by The Amazing Devil

"Mars" by Sleeping at Last; (also literally every single one of his Enneagram songs tbh)

"Things that stop you Dreaming" by Passenger

I could sit here for hours and list like a hundred more options tbh (cause I love music literally so so much istg!); some prob even better than these three, but they were the first I thought of, so I'm sticking with that 🥰

[darnwafflessideblog]

for your consideration

Razia's Shadow Ranking

1) The Exit 2) The Missing Piece 3) Toba the Tura 4) Meet the King 5) It's True Love 6) The Spider and the Lamps 7) The End and the Beginning 8) Holy the Sea 9) Doctor Doctor 10) The Oracle 11) A Hundred-Year, Minute-Long Intermission

1) love love LOVE this whole song. Listened to it religiously before ever knowing what the musical was and STILL DO. I feel like everyone has a dream animatic of this one. Absolute banger and look at that which surrounds me, I'm supposed to call this hoooOOooome-- DON'T YOU EVER DREAM OS SOMEPLACE BETTER OR A LIFE THAT'S GREATRRRR~~~ 2) dunno why but totally fixated on this song. Realistically I actually like it less but right now I am OBSESSED. he is just SO in love with her i physically ache 3) need I say more? BANGER 4) I love the back and forth, the king is an interesting character in that he's RIGHT but for the wrong reasons. Favorite song to do laundry to 5) MY HANDS SHAKE / OUR MINDS RACE FROM THE THOUGHT OF LOVE / YET WE CURB OUR SPEECH BECAUSE WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH / TO ETCH THIS ISNATNT / BURN THIS MOMENT INTO OUR MEMORY / LEAT GO / TAKE MY HAND / TRUST IN ME 6) BIG SWOOPY LYRICS with SHORT CHOPPY LYRICS AAAaaaaAAAAAA 7) LOVE Pallis' tango and the switch between the upbeat tango n the sweet guitar bits SO GOOD 8) mouth sounds peak my headphones :[ otherwise it's really good 9) gives me the ick but love the upbeat back and forth 10) love the vocals but there isn't enough of an actual song there to be higher in rank. still good tho 11) eh

[zuzuthesnake]

LEATS GOO- 1. i have alot- 2. matches! 3. No i do not...it gets to cold. 4. Demons... 5. Um- almost black ish with a hint of brown 6. Do what? 0-0? 7. Hair-ties baby 8. one!!! 9. I don't drink coffee... i like hot tea and cold tea tbh! 10. Yes 👹 11. Um...don't have any i'm pretty lazy...i do know how to fight an full grown man...dose that count? 12. uuuuh- Monday? 13. like 1 hour ago i think...i hope- 14.YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! 15. no, i'm an older sibling only. 16. Yes but to young to own an licens for it... 17. Nearsighted, got glasses to read to :) 18. Idk ask my Mum? 19. Yes, and it would look fucked up by dude. 20. I say both depending on my mood. 21. My firts teddy bear, he's been with me for all my life sens day one... plus that childhood traummaaaaa! 22. And fun and agressively loving person! >:D 23. Meh, i live in an pretty chilly weathered cuntry so its fine. 24. watching the stars or throwing waterbaloons at people :> 25. LOKTION ALL THE WAY BC I GOT DRY SKIN BBY! 26. Seeing my gf for the first time and falling inlove at that moment...yes i'm an hopless romantic suck it up! 27. Havent sleept... 28. Uhhhhh... sleeping of face my dude? 29. HOT AS FUCK! 30. No. i cleaned it all out today... 31. All music but mostly the kids tv show "Bluey" intro. 32. no, I love my towels equely. 33. I ended up in a pind while some of my friends where in it with me and the others were laughing at us... we climed an old tree and it fell into a pond. 34. ... W.A.P and Some corpse husband songs, yes i am ashemed. 35. The swedish one- AKA MILATARY TIME STAMPS! 36. Idk tbh- 37. MY BFF! She's known me sens i we both were 1 and are still as close as ever! 38. green apple- yes i like that smell 39. yeah good them dry plump lips darling ;3 40. yes i did and i won't tell what they were hehehehehe... 41. DON'T DRINK COFFEE!!! 42.uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh so many tbh- 43.Love it, i am an latina after all and my dad makes the best chilly with extra spicyness! 44... I have so many to choos from but i'ma say an old ex friend who gaslighted me to losing alot of my friends 45. No, i have sever Adhd so my shortterm memmory sucks ass. 46. The grinch >:3 47. "I'ma fuck yo moma fool" to one of my male friends 48. As i'm Swedish- i was like 7 or 8 49. Not for the life of me- 50.Please do i love random shit!

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

[tinyorangepotato]

fuck being sick. I had to miss out on 2 full days of work which is awesome for just relaxing but that's so much money.

and I don't even know what's actually wrong with me or what I can do about it. I know it's not covid because I took a test immediately to make sure.

and I just have a bad headache most the time and my stomach hurts and I can not regulate my body temperature.

I thought yesterday I would be fine doing my second job because i was pretty okay in the morning helping my aunt but I got there and was freezing so I zipped my jacket then became far too warm and felt like I needed to throw up. I lasted a good 30 minutes into an 8 hour shift before I sat outside to cool down then said I'm going home.

woke up this morning at 4 am after falling asleep at midnight and just puked. only water but what the fuck. why. I've been taking acetaminophen for my head and some oscillococcinum for everything else which usually help but it only really helps my head and my stomach feels a small bit better but that's it.

fucking I want to go to the doctor to get checked out to see what the hell is going on but I really don't wanna expecially since it take sooooo long usually. and I would have to go to the uhhhh urgent care?emergency room? I forget but which ever takes walk ins so that means it'll take even longer.

I'll see how I'm feeling tomorrow on my actual day off (except I have a fucking dentist appointment at 9 am) and then probably get checked out if im not feeling better.

Monday I was full on shiver my timbers at work for no reason and had to constantly keep doing a shrimp check and so I figured I was hungry and cold and when I warmed up it helped and I ate and it helped. but the next morning my head was killing me and I had a sore throat and I was burning alive.

this fucking sucks. I wish I was covid then I would have an excuse and actually know whats going on for the most part. I tried googling (horrible idea I know) and it wasn't helpful. like malaria, yellow fever, meningitis. I know (maybe not hm) I don't have those. expecially malaria but I wanted to see at leats what I could be and if there was something I could do but found nothing.

I really hope I don't have to miss more work but fuck man. if I'm gonna be nauseous the whole time and having the worst time I'm gonna have to.

[plcyerone]

HE ENTER ( OOC ; )

‘hey minnie whats ur wishlist’ well if u really wanna know,

michael actually legitimately venting abt what the fuck is going on in his life. for ONCE.

ALL SIBLING AUS? ???? ? A  LL OF THE  M?? ??

michael rambling about a game he likes, or music and how it works. #letmichaelnerdout2k17

ur muse venting to michael. im serious, hes a p good guy to vent to, and will give u hugs

PSYCHIC MICHAEL PSYCHIC MICHAEL PSYCHIC MICHAEL PSYCHIC MIC

michael being jer’s/anyone’s squip  ( based off of this (: )

SO MANY AUS. I HAVE SO M A NY!!!! i have a mythical au verse  ( my werewolf son )  and a mermaid verse too. but aus i wanna play that dont have a tag for yet include: heroes, bakunawa, apocalypse  ( can work as tlou/twd au too ) , su, hs... just to mention a few

[tuiyla]

The New Directions ranked by how much hatred for them baffles me

Reverse order to keep it interesting.

13. Finn

No surprise there. The combination of his questionable actions and the disturbing framing is enough to turn me into as much of an anti as I’ll ever be so how could I be surprised when people drag him.

12. Puck

People will never agree on how much an actor should influence how you view a character; I for one think it’s ‘as much as you want it to.’ Some will just never vibe with Puck and I respect that. His creepy in-universe moments don’t make it easier.

11. Artie

It would surprise me if someone has such strong feelings but truth is Artie didn’t get a ton and what he did get included being your local misogynist which wasn’t counterbalanced by a whole lot. Not that I don’t think he has plenty of likable qualities and he’s not all that polarizing but also not popular enough for me to be surprised about negative emotions.

10. Santana

Bet ya didn’t expect that, huh? Well, here I am as your local Santana stan saying that I’m not too surprised by those who happen to hate her. Part of it is expecting contrarians when a character is as popular as she is but part of it is just her occasional status as a villain that is bound to inspire haters. But, if I’m honest, I mostly think it’s contrarianism. Either way, not surprised when I see a strong push for “well but remember when she!!!”

9. Sam

The way his character changed over the years inspires at least some controversy and I feel like it’s easy to find people who are at least a little disgruntled with either version of him. Or people who just never liked him to begin with. Him being hailed as an unproblematic himbo can also inspire counterbalancing.

8. Blaine

We’re entering sort of baffling territory because, while I get why Blaine’s character could be annoying to some on certain levels I have seen levels of anti behaviour that I simply don’t get. Or I just don’t know enough about the intricacies of anti-Blaine reasonings.

7. Brittany

I think it’s easy to not take Brittany’s character as ~intended~ and when you apply a logic to her actions that simply wasn’t there in the writing itself, sure. It still confuses me when she’s treated as some sort of war criminal instead of comic relief and my own bias obviously doesn’t agree with it so I do find it confusing every now and then.

6. Quinn

With her story of many ups and downs and twists and turns she’s bound to be at least a little polarizing but I’ve seen people be so pissed at her, as if they were the not-so baby daddy she had tricked. Quinn will always be a traumatized teen in my eyes, with all her flaws, and it annoys me when people don’t at leats cut her some slack.

5. Rachel

You might think she’s too high on the list but it’s the result of the sheer vitriol the character faces from people who think disliking the central character is the ~cool~ thing to do. Rachel is an intentionally grating character and I get how that’s not endearing when the show loses sight of the point of her story every now and then but I simply don’t think she has any business being as polarizing as she is.

4. Tina

Similarly to Sam, the abrupt change in character was just a no-no for some but criticism against Tina tends to be so lazy I simply can’t give it the benefit of the doubt. “She’s just so annoying” is and has always been my least favourite sentence to hear about a character and I cannot, and will not understand it. What has she done against you?

3. Kurt

The fan favourite aspect, like with Santana, does come up but anti stuff also tends to be a bit more insidious, e.g. borderline or fully homophobic. If your big 2k22 Glee hot take is that Kurt was too much of a gay stereotype I think we’re all begging you to move on. Valid criticisms exist, of course, but the ones I tend to see also tend to be bs that baffles the mind.

2. Mike

It’s hard to rank Mike on any list. To be clear, wholehearted devotion and love confuses me just as much as ardent hatred because, like... what has he done? Seriously, Mike is just not enough of a character in canon to feel that strongly about. If you consider yourself a Mike anti, good for you, but I probably won’t think your reasoning is all that justified.

1. Mercedes

Apart from Quinn, Mercedes was my reason for making this list. There’s simply not a good enough reason to be an actual Mercedes anti and maybe I do make the rules, so that’s that. I can understand being mad that she didn’t get enough but that’s about it. That’s not to say everyone has to stan Mercedes, you do whatever you want. But actively hating her must have a reason and, imo, that reason can hardly be not sus.

[mcnuggyy]

so I want to read/watch/listen to more Mexican/Latine media to force myself to get over some parts of white supremacy I'm finding difficult to let go of (not to be That™ white "ally" but I *am* white) and I don't really trust Google to give me anything deeper than like. Coco or something. And you seem like an experienced person I *can* trust here so: movie/show/music/etc recs by Mexican and/or otherwise Latine creators for someone who likes things like TAZ & gravity falls & superheroes?

Yeah I have quite a few issues w Coco that I won’t go into now (please do not ask me about it because i am a lil tired today, so that’s a convo for later ;w;) but this is some stuff I like!! 

1) The Book of Life (2014) (animated movie) I know i talked a bit about it already today, but it’s fun and cool and I still like it, and todays convo’s got me thinking about it again 🥺

2) El Tigre: The Adventures of Manny Rivera (cartoon series) it only got one season and it’s still something i think about, it was one of the few shows where i got to see myself as a kid and it’s still really fun and cool, love the char designs!

3) Slow Lightning by Eduardo C. Corral’s (poetry) UGH, so good, there’s so many good gems in his book, he explores themes of immigration, racism, and queerness as a Mex-Am, very very good

4) We The Animals by Justin Torres (novel) UGH, god this book HAUNTS me, it’s so fucking good, like i don’t even want to say anything else like JUST READ IT, UGHHHHAAAA, (author is mixed Puerto Rican/White)

5) Selena (1997) EVERY MEX-AM I KNOW HAS WATCHED THIS FILM AT LEATS 5 TIMES, IT IS A RIGHT OF PASSAGE, YOU MUST WATCH THIS FILM. It’s a biographical drama of the life of Selena Quintanilla, the QUEEN of Tejano music, it’s a CLASSIC

6) Victor and Valentino (animated series) is fun!! I’ve liked some of the episodes i’ve seen so far!! Not to mention they make a lot of REALLY good and funny references, like they had characters based off Juan Gabriel and Walter Mercado, so YEAH, like it’s PEAK

7) (music) Listen to Luis Miguel, Juan Gabriel, Vicente Fernandez, Selena Quintanilla, and Mana coward (/j but also i think these are good ones to listen to, but that just may be my nostalgia talking but i can rec some more modern musicians too if you’re interested!)

8) BLUE BEETLE COMICS!!!!!! AAA!!!! I love Jaime Reyes SO MUCH!!! He is one of the few Mex-Am superhero's out there and also he’s just kickass, I haven’t been able to read many and I lost the copy i had :,( but I still really liked it and I hope I can find it again and maybe buy some more comics w him

9) Watch Las Leyendas (the series) on Netflix, it’s so fucking underrated UGH.

This is getting a little long and these are just a FEW options!! I haven’t even mentioned El Chavo Del Ocho, or El Chapulín Colorado, or Mucha Lucha, or any novellas, or my favorite albums (Romances by Luis Miguel, the Selena Movie Soundtrack, etc.),  but YEAH, I think this is a good place to start fjhrjfhjfrm

*Most of these are very specific to my childhood, except for the books which I read in college and were recs from my cool queer Mexican professor (Rocio Carlos <-- check out their poems here!!) yeehaw!!!!  ;w;

[titriwrites]

In Sickness and in Health

First of all, thank you to @devikafernando for allowing me to use Charlie from our collab fanfics over at @titrianddevikawrite. I know you can use the distraction too, maybe? (By the way, this is probably an AU from our storyline as I’ve got no idea how this is going to fit anywhere :D )

And secondly, @pipolaki requested “If I die, I’m haunting you first.” from this prompt list

Enjoy on AO3 or under the cut!

In Sickness and in Health

Charlotte Cromwell – no, she corrects herself – Charlotte Hiddleston makes her way home after an exhausting day in the hospital. It’s nothing unusual, hell, she’s had a hundred times more horrible days somewhere in the past. It’s just that it didn’t really matter then. Not as much as it does now. Because as much as Charlie loves her job and helping her little patients, it’s definitely nothing compared to the life she’s living at home now.

Tom’s waiting for her there. Tom and their two daughters, because yes, Evie’s ‘hers’ now as well, and just as loved as little Rose is – who by now has her own little personality and is keeping her parents busy with all the enthusiasm and lust for adventure a two-year-old can have – especially being the daughter of one Tom Hiddleston.

Okay, Charlie admits as she slips out of her shoes first and then loses her jacket, the last week has been kind of hellish at home as well with her very own little patients waiting for her. First, it was Evie bringing the flu home from school. Of course, it didn’t take long for Rose to catch it, too, no matter how careful Tom and Charlie had been. But now it seems like their children survived – Tom has probably suffered more than them, though – and Charlie’s just glad it’s over for now.

She checks the clock in the kitchen as she prepares her tea. 9 o’clock. She swears. She wanted to tell the children goodnight, but well, sometimes her job means that she can’t make it home to her own children in order to help others. Tom knows this and Evie gets it as well, little Rose is still too young to actually understand.

At least she can still hear the tv playing in the living-room, so she knows Tom’s still there and waiting for her. It is strangely quiet otherwise, though, no padding of feet on the floor announcing her husband making his way over to meet her. Maybe Tom’s fallen asleep? The two cats aren’t coming, either, but then again they may be out and about in the neighbourhood.

Charlie grabs the tea she’s prepared and makes her way from the kitchen to the living-room right next to it. She feels so at home in Tom’s house. It’s not the largest they could get probably, and it’s still the one Tom and Evie lived in with Emily, but it’s amazing how quickly they were all able to call it ‘theirs’.

And then Charlie stops before she’s reached the comfy couch Tom loves to lounge on. He’s indeed asleep. And slightly snoring, which is unusual for him, except for when he’s a bit tipsy – Charlie can’t see a sign of that anywhere – or when he comes down with the flu. You don’t really need to be a doctor to get it, do you?

She refrains from rolling her eyes, because just yesterday her husband told her how he never got sick and wouldn’t start with it now, but instead smiles sympathetically, puts down her tea on the coffee table and sits down next to Tom.

His skin is already a bit clammy and his hair sticks to his forehead. She rubs his shoulder softly, trying to get him to wake up without startling him.

“Tom?” she whispers. “Tom, love, wake up for me?”

“No,” is the mumbled reply, groaned into the pillow underneath his head.

Charlie smothers a grin. She’s seen him with a cold or the flu once or twice. She knows what state he’s in. Right after ‘I’m invincible, I’ll never get the flu’ comes ‘I’m perfectly fine, I simply choked and am not currently coughing my lungs out’. It’s paired with already being sick and the most stubborn pouts she’s ever seen on a grown-up’s face. But no matter how much Tom refuses to be sick, he actually is. So. No mocking him. At least not tonight. Tonight she wants to drink her tea, re-heat the dinner her family’s had and then go to bed, preferably with Tom.

“I think you’re already awake, though,” she whispers back. “And I can imagine you’re not feeling too good.”

“’m fine.”

“Fine.”

Blue eyes, a bit too glassy for her taste, stare back at her. With a slight cough Tom pushes himself up on his forearms, barely able to hold his own bodyweight. The hair that’s not stuck to his forehead falls in a mess of curls around his face. “Feeling good. How was your day?”

“Tom…”

“Charlie.”

She raises a brow. “You’re really going to do this? Even though we both know how this will end?”

The glare loses some of its power – that it didn’t even have in the first place – with the quiet sniffling Tom’s doing. “I don’t know what you mean,” he croaks out. “I just want to know how my wife’s feeling.”

Charlie chuckles. There really isn’t much else to do. Let him be stubborn, she’s going to prepare for tomorrow morning then. “Better than her husband I think,” she mumbles, but continues at Tom’s huff, “I’m a bit tired and a bit hungry. I’d love to eat some late dinner and then go to bed. Would you care to join me?”

He nods. “I’d love that. But no funny business if you’re tired.”

This time, she can’t smother the laugh that escapes her. “Understood. I’m the reason we’re not doing that tonight, my big, strong, healthy man. Thank you for looking out for me.”

***

Well, the next morning Charlie is awoken by her big, strong and healthy man moaning and groaning next to her in bed. And not in that sexy-bedroom-voice of his. It’s a little pathetic coughing that comes next and a very (very, very) weakly whispered, “Charlie, love? Help?”

She opens her eyes to a dark room, cuddled from behind by what seems to be a human furnace, but could just be her husband. The dawn is breaking outside, and Charlie can hear a bird here and there. Large hands rub her stomach and puffs of air meet her neck. Tom’s apparently so weak, he can’t even keep her in his arms as she turns around to face him.

Red cheeks, swollen eyes, red nose and dry lips. Yup, that’s the flu.

“How are you?” she asks, trailing a fingertip down Tom’s nose.

“Barely alive.”

Ah. So sometime during the night they’ve reached the next stage. Miserable Tom, who’s most certainly the closest to death any person has ever been without actually dying – probably, since the next 24 hours will be crucial.

“But still alive, that’s good,” she grins.

“If I die, I’m haunting you first.”

Charlie snickers, then attempts a shocked face. It’s not working and to be honest Tom couldn’t see it anyway, lying there in misery, eyes closed. “What have I done?”

“You’re mocking me. And you’re not doing anything to make me feel better and save me. You’ll regret this in one or two hours, when you’ll find me dead in our bed.”

“But you’re not really sick. You’ve told me so yesterday.”

“The situation has changed. It seems like this is a horrible flu, Charlie. It requires a broth, pain medicine and cuddles.”

Okay. She was wrong. He does have that low, sexy, bedroom-voice. Damn him, even sick he’s a sight for sore eyes and a heavenly voice to hear. She should also not be aroused by that.

“I don’t know, Tom. Maybe I should get the children and flee from this horrible illness of yours. Everyone fights for themselves, right?”

The answer is a whine and then a little tug on her sleeping shirt, right by her thigh. “Stop mocking me. I’m seriously ill. Don’t let those be the last words to me, and make me feel better.”

“Please?”

“Please.”

Charlie lives for that small smile around Tom’s lips as she moves a little closer and then rubs his shoulders softly , before she pushes some of his hair out of his face.

“Well, you asked so nicely.”

“I did,” her murmurs, sounding half asleep again.

“Tea and toast then?”

“An’ pills. ‘n cuddles.”

With a kiss on his nose, she moves out of the bed. “Coming right up.”

“Hm. Love you.”

She smiles. God, this man. “Love you too.”

Tagging: (I hope you’re okay with being tagged in this, since it’s not the usual blog, but “just” Charlie) @nuggsmum @hallotom @sinfully-lustful-darling @royallylazy @lasimo74allmyworld @ilovetardis @witkoa61 @hakimo2015 @antyc67 @wolfsmom1 @brinschk @crushed-pink-petals-writes @avenger-nerd-mom @jhangelface0523 @deathbyukmen @say-my-name-assbut @omninocte @sf0206 @frenchfrostpudding @hiddlepiggle @theblackthrone @honeybournehippy @muchobsessedwithpretty06 @justthelosersblog @letsgetlokid @noclevernamelbr @theduchessinme @craftynidan @bemynightmanager @inkededucatednnerdy @fairlightswiftly @okiejess1208 @ladyninasayers-ish @siochan-leat @evieplease @vertdragain @youareadistraction @patheimathos @nikkalia @thebluedreamofsky @mandapanda8 @lokilockedcougar @ms-cellanies @perfect-and-awesome @alexakeyloveloki @theheartofpenelope @hiddlescastle @messy-insomniac-bookgirl @pipolaki 

[gaelforceplayroom]

Let’s learn some Irish Love Words together ;)

1: Baby....Baby? = A leanbh, a leanbh! 2: Come closer my Love...Ta rud beag nios cóngaraí mo shíorghrá 3: Oh My Treasure, you are beautiful= oh mO stor, ta tu go go hálainn 4: The most beautiful girl in the world= An chailin is alille sa domhain 5: You are my girl, MY girl= ta tu mo chailin. MO chailin 6: Give me a kiss...tabhair pog dom 7: I like that= is maith liom sin 8: In my arms, in my arms my treasure= i mo lamha mo stor 9 : Do you like that? Do like that my girl?= ar mhaith leat sin? ar mhaith leat sin mo stor? 10: Beautiful girl (baby-girl too)= Leanbh go halainn 11: You are looking so attractive tonight: Tá tú ag breathnú go haoibhinn anocht 12: And my heart is in yours..Agus ta mo chroi istigh ionat 13: My soul-lover, kiss me again. kiss me..m'anam chara, pog me aris 14: You are very sexy= ta tu go hana maeltach 15: I am thinking about just how attractive you are= Táim ag ceapadh go bhfuil tú thar a bheith mealltach 16: Growl= AN RARRRWWWWW 17: Now! Now! Baby! Because: I am crazy about you!= Anois! Anois! A leanbh mar ata me craiceáilte fút 18: Do you like that? Do you like that as-well? Ar mhaith leat e? Ar mhaith leat e freisin? 19: My girl! My pretty girl! You are the prettiest girl (for me) YES!...Mo chailin, mo chailin nios deas, ta tu mo chailin nios deas 20: You are my only one, now and forever= ta tu mo ceann amhainn.. go deo 21: Love of my heart, love of my big heart, my woman, woman of my heart....gra mo chroi... gra mo chroi mor 22: You are amazingly beautiful, you are amazingly beautiful and MY girl... Ta tu go iontach alainn, ta tu go iontach alainn agus MO chailin 23: Now! Now! Kiss me NOW!= Anois! Anois! Pog me Anois! 24: I am crazy about you, crazy about you! Táim craiceáilte fút! Táim craiceáilte fút!

[feral-anarchy]

Finally!

Rules: Answer all 25 questions to the best of your ability, then tag 5 other blogs.

#1. Which Primal Source Do you identify most with? Why?

A: Honestly im 50/50 between the sun and the moon. You see Fire is my zodiac element and one which I have bonded with the strongest, or at leats the most obvious but the moon has always enchanted me, strengthened me and I am truly more nocturnal due to my DCR (delayed circadian rhythm)

#2. Elves or Humans?

A:Elves, I dislike humans.

#3. If you had to choose, would you rather free Runaan from the coin or Aaravos from the mirror?

A: Aaravos because he no doubt would be able to free Runaan, so two birds, one stone.

#4. Best animal companion?

A: I prefer to be alone simply because the world is to dangerous for an animal companion, but if I must have one, I think id like a tiny Xadian lizard who would hang out on my shirt. SO I guess Bait?

#5. Best humanoid companion?

A: I adore Rayla, If I couldn’t have her, Ez or callum might be next. OH Wait no! Definitely Corvus. 

#6. You can revive one character, who is it and why them?

A: *shy smile* The one assassin we call call Skor, he has the long hair with one half shaved. He was part of Runaan’s group. 

#7. Otp?

A: Tinkaan! 

#8. Unpopular opinion?

A: Aarvos is hot I guess?

#9. Favorite headcanon?

A: OH gosh there are so many... umm... That Janai hates parties but suffers them for Amaya

#10. Best siblings pair?

A: Ez and Callum, they are just so pure and communicate like saints. 

#11. Who’s your Queen?

A: SARAI

#12. Lujanne offers you ice cream, how do you respond?

A: I dont care! I bet this worm illusion pie tastes amazing! But Ill totally stare her in the eyes as I eat it then mention that I know its worms. 

#13. Be honest, do you have the guts to use dark magic?

A: I would need to be pushed to great, tragic lengths. 

#14. Who’s best elf? Why?

A: Why would you make me choose? Im going with Rayla- thats the safest choice

#15. Hot brown morning potion or leaf flavored water?

A: Why not both?

#16. Best use for magic?

A: Honestly? Levitation. Not having to get up for stuff? Gold. Not that I could do it or anything but could you imagine? XD

#17. Who wins the best hair award?

A: Runaan.

#18. Viren; misguided, evil, or actually the good guy?

A: Misunderstood and lacking due credit. 

#19. Would you rather fly with Phoe-Phoe, hike with Corvus, sail with Villads, or stay home with Opeli?

A: Am I flying ON phoe-phoe or with? Hmmm If Corvus is my humanoid companion, I gotta say hike. 

#20. Who’s your crush?

A: I dont really have a crush? AKA Youll have to torture it outta me. 

#21. You’re being chased by a cotton candy hippo; reaction?

A: RUN MAN!!! RUUUNN!!!!! Or, turn and bite.

#22. Choose a champion.

A: Aaravos, then Rayla, then Callum. All in that order. If one fails ive got a backup. gotta have a backup for a backup for a backup! 

#23. Favorite scene? Why?

A: I giggled when Rayla did that little “HIYA” Thing when Callum lazily shoved past her in s2. 

#24. Should Soren be a poet?!

A: Why not? go live your dreams kid. 

#25. Soggy Socks. (No more context)

A: .... Its a metaphor? 

@atreefullofstars @aaravos-the-archmage @krysanthii @wolfvalkyrie @the-heatkeeper

[neighbours-kid]

2018

I honestly don’t even know where to start.

How does one talk about a year like this?

I’ll try and start at the beginning.

The beginning of my 2018 was very hectic. I started the new year in London with my two closest friends. We were standing on Primrose Hill with probably a few hundred other people, waiting for Big Ben to chime in the new year, and the fireworks over London to start. It was freezing cold, but we had a blast. We returned to Switzerland on January 01, I spent one very hectic day of double- and triple-checking my bags, and seeing some people for the last time for six months.

On January 03 I had my flight to New York City, via Dublin. It was….quite a day, I was highly emotional because everything seemed to fall apart, I had at least one anxiety attack, and it just wasn’t fun. But in the end—and after a night spent in a Dublin airport hotel—I arrived in my East Harlem airbnb in New York for my Stay Abroad around midnight between January 04 and 05.

What I did in New York for my six months stay, you can read on this blog right here, beginning with Part I. You can find links for the other parts at the end of that post.

Being in New York was a highly enjoyable time for me. It gave me the opportunity to become more of myself, be who I am more honestly, more truly, and more openly. I learned a whole lot about the film industry, about so many integral parts of what makes movies good, I learned a lot about myself, who I am and who I want to be, but I think most importantly, and most prominently, I met so many wonderful people who share a lot of interests with me, and who made this adventure unforgettable.

At the end of my time in New York, my mom came to visit me for a week, and we did all the touristy things. We walked up and down Broadway, we saw Time Square, we did The Empire State Building, visited the 9/11 Memorial and the museum, I took her to Brooklyn to eat at Peaches and then we went all the way down to Coney Island. We went all the way up to Washington Heights, went to the MoMA, walked a bit in Central Park, and visited my stomping ground from the Filmmaking Workshop (including eating at Café Katja and going up on the rooftop of my friend’s airbnb). I took her to NYFA where I spent most of my time these six months, she met some of my friends, she had my well-loved lobby-guy-iced-coffee, and ate the deli salad that I had eaten so many times. We saw Hello Dolly thanks to my lovely host, we did the Liberty and Ellis Island boat tour, we found the place Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan finally kiss in You’ve Got Mail (91st Street Garden, Riverside Park), and saw Ocean’s Eight. We both flew back home on July 12, ending my six months adventure in NYC.

And then came the slump.

I came home from six months of doing things I’ve never done before, I came home to good old Switzerland — which at first I was very happy about because I was so TIRED, but there were reasons why I was excited to leave in the first place, so y’know, that was certain to catch up with me — and I was like, what now? And I had no idea.

I hung out with friends and watched the World Cup finale. But then I also went to my grandma���s funeral. But then I saw my dad, and went to a birthday of a friend. I went to the movies, and was able to work for a few days. I went to my cousin’s birthday dinner, my friend’s bachelorette party, a park event of our church.

I was able to celebrate my own birthday with people who I cared about, went to brunch with another dear friend, and yet another birthday. And more work. And my friend’s wedding.

All those things (except the funeral of course) were really cool and I enjoyed seeing my friends, my people.

But in all of that I was just….lost.

I came home from six months of doing so much cool stuff, speaking a language I feel way more comfortable in than my mother tongue, met people I can hopefully call friends for life, became more comfortable in my own skin and started taking steps into the direction where my true self was waiting—I came home, new me came home into old me’s home, and I was lost.

University started and while I missed some of it, I also realised more and more how much I really hated other things.

And during all of that, I was living with friends dear to me for three months. And during that time I realised even more that how things are right now is not a way they can stay for much longer.

Luckily, one of my circumstances changed within the first few weeks of studying. I looked at an apartment with my mom, we both loved it, I applied for it the next day, and the day after that, I got the phone call that I got the place. I was able to move in on October 20, and the rest is history. Having my very own place, where only I live and nobody else, has been very good for me. It’s giving me an even clearer picture of who I am and where I want to go next year.

More lovely birthdays filled those months, more fantastic movies, good days with friends, with family, and some actually really decent days at university. I binge-watched The Mentalist within a month, started reading a book again that I really like, and for a while there, the slump stopped, and I wasn’t so lost anymore.

I finally got my ass to my doctor and did some general check-up, found out that my iron is pretty low and I’m taking stuff for that now, I was able to have a very honest conversation with my doc and she’s forwarded my info to a psychiatrist who should contact me in the next few weeks or months, so that I can start my 2019 knowing that things might actually start going in the right direction for once.

I know, this all sounds like a very good year over all. And it was, for some parts. But 2018 didn’t go by without anything bad happening. Sure, most bad things that happened this year, didn’t personally affect me. I’m not one of the kids separated from their parents at the border. I’m not one of the kids whose school got shot up by a lunatic. I’m not part of a caravan looking for refuge and not being accepted in a country that prides itself to be a country where everyone is accepted. I’m not an unwillingly pregnant woman who can’t get an abortion in my own country. I’m not one of the many people who have lost loved ones to gun violence, white supremacy, racism, homophobia, and many more reasons this year.

I’m lucky, you know. I’m not from a country lead by dictators, white supremacists or literal nazis. I don’t live in a war zone. I’m also white and 99 out of a 100 times don’t get people yelling obscenities at me on the street. I don’t have to fear being assaulted when I walk alone at night, I don’t have to be afraid when police approaches me, I don’t get harassed for how I look or how I speak or where I’m from. I’m lucky.

But hearing these stories every day, reading about so much injustice and hate every day, opening twitter to connect to my international friends and seeing all this crap that is happening every day all over the world, it doesn’t just go by you without having an impact. I lived in a country currently lead by an actual literal fucking nazi and his fucking nazi friends for six months, and even though I lived in New York City, which is kind of a bubble within the states, I felt that, I felt the impact this leadership — or lack thereof — had on the people of this country. I listened. I heard people talk. I had these conversations myself. Living among people who are afraid every day of their lives because the person who is supposed to be leading this country into a brighter future, is an actual nazi who thinks it’s okay that people don’t have access to health care, that children are taken away from their parents, that children keep dying, that people fleeing bad circumstances are being detained in prison camps, this fear doesn’t just go by you. I could go on, but I’m already sick to my stomach just thinking about all this. I experienced this fear during those six months. Not personally, but I felt it all around me. And, if you are even remotely a decent person with some percentage of compassion, that doesn’t leave you unscathed. It makes me angry and sad and frustrated.

2018 was a hell of a year, and I don’t mean that positively.

I still believe there are good people in this world. I see it. I see them every day. I know they exist, I know they’re there, and I know they fight for a better future. But damn. I also see so much hate, so much injustice, so much of what should not be there.

I thought about quitting twitter or at least unfollowing/muting all political talk, because I just keeps dragging me down. But I didn’t. I can’t. I refuse to turn around and close my eyes on all this crap that is happening. If I don’t have twitter, there will come a moment, where I won’t have any idea what is happening, and that will make me susceptible to all the lies that are being told and I can’t have that. I refuse to be one of the sheep who just follows where everyone else goes. Even if my mental health takes a toll, and it does and it will, I refuse to turn a blind eye to what is happening.

I don’t know what these last days of 2018 still hold. I have this week of class left. I have my English Department Christmas Party to go to, I have Christmas with Mom, Christmas with Dad, Christmas with my Quasi-Family, Christmas with my friends. I have some days in between with no plans, I have no clue what I’ll do on New Year’s Eve. I have these plans, but so much could still be happening.

As for 2019….I don’t know what to expect. I have hopes, of course. Doubts, sure. Wishes, definitely. Some plans here and there, too. But who knows what exactly it’ll bring.

I don’t usually do this — I don’t think I’ve actually every done this — but here’s a list of things I’d like to achieve in 2019:

Finish my Bachelor’s Degree.

Have at leats one hands-on creative outlet.

See a Psychiatrist and establish a routine with them.

Establish a basic workout routine that doesn’t require a gym.

Find a job OR decide which Masters to do.

I’m gonna keep it at that. Start small, right?

If everything goes how it’s seems right now, points 1 and 3 are already looking very good. We’ll work on the rest.

On a global scale, I don’t expect there to be any changes in 2019. I hope, of course, but I don’t expect it. Personally, however, I hope that 2019 can be a good year for me. Taking me further on this journey that I started a while ago. I have a feeling that it will do that. I’m hopeful.

I wish you all a very pleasant festive time, and a hopefully not horrible rest of 2018. You deserve good things and I wish you all the best of them. Hug some loved ones. Indulge in something you like. We only have this one live, might as well make the best of it.

Merry Christmas, guys.

[star-blossom]

85 questions tag

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people  i really don’t know who tag so i’m gonna tag some random people, you do it only if you want to and even if you’re not tagged, you an do it  - @qianloveclub, @softforjungwoo, @osakaprinceyutaa, @nanasboi, @renjunchokingnct 

stole from @norencult

* Last…?

1. drink ─ coke (i always drink for dinner)

2. phone call ─ telepizza (okay but really, i was getting my dinner but unfortunately it didn’t work)

3. text message ─ a friend (we were talking about me listing to Avril Lavigne)

4. song you listened to ─ what the hell - avril lavigne (^^^)

5. time you cried ─ this might sounf dumb for you but it was yerterday because of renjun: i was watching to the 5th ep of 5th season of nct life (nct life entertainment retreat with nct dream) and one of their “missions” was talking about their memories and that stuff around a campfire, and their liders (SUJU’s Leeteuk and Shindong) asked renjun to send a video-letter to his family and, in the middle of that video-letter, he started crying and i’m such an emotional bitch and i literally started crying with him...  you can also ask to @nanasboi because i was talking about it with him and even sent a video ahahgsjhag 

* Ever…?

6. dated someone twice ─ nop, i’m not that type of person

7. kissed someone and regretted it ─ yes lmao, the person i lost my bv ahahaa

8. been cheated on ─ yes

9. lost someone special ─ yeah.. not from my family it was SHINee’s Jonghyun and, from my family, it wasn’t a person but my dog.. i miss her :(

10. been depressed ─ i don’t think so..

11. gotten drunk and thrown up ─ N O P i don’t drink okay kids :) 

12. fave colors ─ blue (any shape of), pink, red, black.. 

* In the last year have you…

15. made new friends ─ YAS and i’m so happy i met them all!

16. fallen out of love ─ yes 

17. laughed until you cried ─ A LOT AHAHAHAJ it’s so easy to makeme laugh tho

18. found out someone was talking about you ─ a lot as well, and almot all the times were bad things specially because in the morning when i’m going to school i always walk with a fucking bad bitch face and don’t talk to anyone and people like to creat lies over me lmao

19. met someone who changed you ─ hmm yes, not in bad things like drugs and that stuff but mentay you know? 

20. found out who your friends are ─ unfortunatle, yes, and they’re not good people as i thought

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list ─ yeah :v 

* General

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl ─ idk ???????????

23. do you have any pets ─ yes, i have a withe cat called mingas

24. do you want to change your name ─ no, i like my name actually (daniela)

25. what did you do for your last birthday ─ i.. i don’t remember ????? OMG WHAT I DON’T REMEMBER AHAHAJHAJ 

26. what time did you wake up today ─ 9am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night ─ probably talking with alo about nct 

28. what is something you can’t wait for ─ i don’t have anything now that i “can’t wait for” to happen actually.. but, maybe, see my friends because i haven’t  seen them for so long :( 

30. what are you listening to right now ─ star blossom - doyoung feat. sejeong (gugudan) (omg i love this song so much :(() 

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom ─ no hajhahjajh 

32. something that’s getting on your nerves ─ when someone doesn’t let me talk and that happens a lot on my daily routine (unfortunately)

33. most visited website ─ my school blog ? 

34. hair colour ─ light green and a little blonde in the middle ahsjahsga

35. long or short hair ─ medium 

36. do you have a crush on someone ─ taking kim jungwoo out,no idon’t have, i’m more focused now on school tbh

37. what do you like about yourself ─ my kindness and friendliness i think

38. want any piercings? ─ yes i want, at leats, one on my mouth

39. blood type ─ idk :c 

40. nicknames ─ nini (only alo can call me this!!!!), danny and compal ahdgaj compal because my last name is Silvestre (wild in english????) and we relate my name with red fruits like blackberry and things like that and smeone started to calling me compal and it stayed 

41. relationship status ─ single pringle

42. zodiac ─ scorpio (best sign cof)

43. pronouns ─ she/her

44. fave tv shows ─ stranger things :) but k-dramas maybe W - two worlds, the lover, while you were sleeping, she was pretty, strog woman do bong soon, weightlifting fairy kim bok joo

45. tattoos ─ i want some and, for now, i have one (1) idea and it’s a black paw it a “Z” on it with my skin tone in memory for my death dog :(

46. right or left handed ─ right handed

47. ever had surgery ─ no 

48. piercings ─ refer to #38

49. sport ─ i don’t play nothing because i’m a lazy girl

50. vacation ─ i want to visit asia in general :( mostly japan and thailand 

51. trainers ─ wait what

* More general

52. eating ─ whell if its what a ate today was rice with chicken i think at lunch and rice with croquettes at dinner 

53. drinking ─ coke as i said

54. i’m about to watch ─ my life ending :)))

55. waiting for ─ ending doing this and go to sleep tbh it’s getting late and i’m sleepy (it’s 1am)

56. want ─ TO SLEEP

57. get married ─ please no

58. career ─ something related to photography and, joking obviously, i told to my mom once “if everything goes wrong here, i’m going to do an audition for sm as back up dancer” and she agreed so,,,, why not? :) 

* Which is better

59. hugs or kisses ─ both i just want affection ;((

60. lips or eyes ─ eyes, for sure

61. shorter or taller ─ taller or the same height

62. older or younger ─ older or the same age even i dated 2 people younger than me ahsjah 

63. nice arms or stomach ─ idk, i don’t really like a muscular person

64. hookup or relationship ─ relationship 

65. troublemaker or hesitant ─ team too-lazy-to-be-either (agree with ren tho,, can i call you like this?)

* Have you ever

66. kissed a stranger ─ uh yes on the cheek jahsja but not in the mouth lmao

67. drank hard liquor ─ no i DON’T DRINK

68. lost glasses ─ everythime, everywhere

69. turned someone down ─ hm... probably yeah... 

70. sex on first date ─ no, please no

71. broken someone’s heart ─ yes....

72. had your heart broken ─ a lot

73. been arrested ─ no habjs

74. cried when someone died ─ hummmmmmmmm i have feelings, okay? 

75. fallen for a friend ─ who never??????????????

* Do you believe in…?

76. yourself ─ uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh not as musch as i wanted to :) 

77. miracles ─ eh,,

78. love at first sight ─ yes, it happened with me with jungwoo so :))) 

79. santa claus ─ no :) he’s not real kids, i’m sorry

80. kiss on a first date ─ sure why not ?

81. angels ─ renjun is a walking angel on earth (OKAY IM GOING TO  LET THIS HERE AND OFC I HAVE TO AGREE WITH REN)

* Other

82. best friend’s name ─ david and christianne

83. eye colour ─ vvvv dark almost black actually 

84. fave movie ─ the conjuring 

85. fave actor ─ am i the only one who doesn’t have a fave actor/actress????? yeah maybe 

OKAY I CAN FINALLY GO TO SLEEP bye loves :) 

[gsuartharrywyman]

Sketchbook Prompt #9

Question 1: Just in general, it was nice to experiment with different mediums, concets and styles of art. Being a photo major, I felt so immerse in just photography that this was a nice alternative to broaden my worldveiw. Specifically, I really enjoyed researching and learing about Lorna Simpson. I do not remember ever being intoduced to her work before this class. SHe is just so conceptually gifted and her work speaks to me in a way that is close to home. I am working on a project right now that is delaing with some of the concepts Simpson deals with and I am trying to experiment with adding text to give my work context. Also the way that she plays with different mediums and styles of art inspires me to branch out more and just try different things.

Question 2: I don't really have a most frustrating part of the class. I mean I did of course have some struggles with constucting my wearable sculpture and other projects in the class, but I mean that is all part of creating art. I wish that we had been able to see more of eachothers work during the class, but i suppose that I could've looked up their tumblrs.

Question 3: My goals are small for the break. I have been working on this project dealing with Atlanta and finding new spots to shoot. During the break I want to continue that process of finding new shoot spots. I have been really enjoying exploring the city over the past semester and getting to know the city. People always like to come up to me and ask me questions about who I am and what I'm doing when I'm out and that is a really rewarding experience to me.

Question 4: For 2021, I would like to find my voice in photography. I knwo that is a large goal, but I feel like I have a new found drive to create work simply for the reason of loving to create. I think I am heading in an interesting direction with the work I am producing at the moment and it definitly feels more sucessful in saying what I want it to say, but I'm still not sure yet. Also, side note, I am applying for an internship at the Atlanta Contemporary to be part of the staff, so would be interesting.

Question 5: Some steps that I am taking in that direction are that I have just been reaching out to a lot of people to get their opinion on my current work so I can get some feedback and try to further improve what I am doing. After this week I am going to try to start getting back out to shoot at leats once a day again, but I'm taking a break while classes finish up. And finally, I have really enjoyed Intro Studio and I was just going to let you know, Parker, that I am putting my work up in the 2nd floor hallyway and if you have a chance to go and see it I wuld really appreciate your feedback as well. If you find the time and would like to let me know what you think just send me an email.

[tinyorangepotato]

fuck being sick. I had to miss out on 2 full days of work which is awesome for just relaxing but that's so much money.

and I don't even know what's actually wrong with me or what I can do about it. I know it's not covid because I took a test immediately to make sure.

and I just have a bad headache most the time and my stomach hurts and I can not regulate my body temperature.

I thought yesterday I would be fine doing my second job because i was pretty okay in the morning helping my aunt but I got there and was freezing so I zipped my jacket then became far too warm and felt like I needed to throw up. I lasted a good 30 minutes into an 8 hour shift before I sat outside to cool down then said I'm going home.

woke up this morning at 4 am after falling asleep at midnight and just puked. only water but what the fuck. why. I've been taking acetaminophen for my head and some oscillococcinum for everything else which usually help but it only really helps my head and my stomach feels a small bit better but that's it.

fucking I want to go to the doctor to get checked out to see what the hell is going on but I really don't wanna expecially since it take sooooo long usually. and I would have to go to the uhhhh urgent care?emergency room? I forget but which ever takes walk ins so that means it'll take even longer.

I'll see how I'm feeling tomorrow on my actual day off (except I have a fucking dentist appointment at 9 am) and then probably get checked out if im not feeling better.

Monday I was full on shiver my timbers at work for no reason and had to constantly keep doing a shrimp check and so I figured I was hungry and cold and when I warmed up it helped and I ate and it helped. but the next morning my head was killing me and I had a sore throat and I was burning alive.

this fucking sucks. I wish I was covid then I would have an excuse and actually know whats going on for the most part. I tried googling (horrible idea I know) and it wasn't helpful. like malaria, yellow fever, meningitis. I know (maybe not hm) I don't have those. expecially malaria but I wanted to see at leats what I could be and if there was something I could do but found nothing.

I really hope I don't have to miss more work but fuck man. if I'm gonna be nauseous the whole time and having the worst time I'm gonna have to.

[brieflygorgeouss]

Book lover questions!

tagged by @canonicallyanxious  thank you so much, Sarah! ❤︎

1. Book that’s been on your shelves the longest?

“The Chronicles of Narnia”, probably? and “The Lord of the Rings”, but LOTR isn’t technically mine, it’s my brothers so there’s that. i wish i still had my Harry Potter, but it’s all gone :(

2. Current read, last read and book you’ll read next:

does fanfiction...count..........?

currently reading: i am very proud of myself because i have finally picked up “the memoirs of a geisha” again - i started reading it like half a year ago and then life got in the way, welp. but i’m reading it now!

last read: “we are okay” by nina lacour, it was so beautiful i almost cried, seriously, i wholeheartedly recommend it. before “we are okay” all i read were uni related books and i don’t think anyone would be interested in hearing about those~

book you’ll read next: “six of crows” has been waiting for me way too long now, so i’ll probably get into that. i also realy want to red donna tart’s “the secret history”, wish me luck!

3. Book that you keep telling yourself you’ll read, but probably won’t?

i have started sylvia plath’s “the bell jar” such a long time ago and i just can’t.... get through this book......even though a part of me really wants to.......... i ws so excited to read it and then it turned out to be completely different than what i thought it would be and i’m so disappointed in myself but...............................................

4. Which book character would you swap places with?

i saw this question and suddenly forgot all the books i have every read, welp... idk, knowing my shallow self i would probably choose anyone who was described as pretty/good at sports because i would love to finally know what it’s like not to be awkward and ugly :)

5. Any required reading you hated in school, that wasn’t so bad 10 years later?

listen to me... i read “the little prince” in primary school and thought it an absolutely pointless and overall very weird book and then i went on with my life until i met a friend in uni (if anyone remembers my pathetic crush from like 6 months ago, that’s her) and she physically MADE ME read it again and now i love “the little prince” and call out my 11 year old self on it at leats once a day every day

6. Used or brand new?

used because they’re cheaper lmao, pls don’t call out my broke ass, i manage however i can

7. Stephen King - literary genius or opiate of the masses?

i have to admit that i used to quite like his writing? he’s not like, the best author ever, per se, but i like how creative he can sometimes get with his comparisons, lmao. also, when i read his “apt pupil” in “different seasons” i was so shocked?? it was so fucked up but also good, in a way, so this is a story of his that has stayed with me ever since. if a writer can make me feel, it’s a start, and it surely is something.

8. Have you ever seen a movie you liked better than the book?

i’m gonna copy sarah’s answer here, “atonement” was so much better of a movie than it was a book, with made me so dissapointed, btw? the book was kind of bland, to me, and i just couldn’t get into it. also, stephen king strikes again - “the shawshank redepmtion” was a cool book, but i liked the movie much better.

9. Conversely, which book should NEVER have been introduced to celluloid?

DO NOT ever decide to see “eragon”, it was a TORTURE. and percy jackson??? i mean... what the actual fuck happened there. that’s all i’m gonna say.

i’m tagging: @everheartings   @soullessminyard @cafeeumpasteldenata @minyardx @excelseor @strikingneil and anyone else who want to do this?? idk who among my mutuals likes to read save me