#like a genuinely bad game that i can't believe anyone liked

[naomi-nana]

✎ᝰ. back to friends . twisted wonderland

he confessed, but your reaction was anything other than what he expected. he shouldn't have told you about his feelings at all.

featuring : azul, idia, malleus

cw : gn!reader, angst, bad grammars, not proofread

a/n : sorry for the delay in getting out requests, but i really want to write this after listening to back to friends by sombr lol ╰(*°▽°*)╯i promise u i will continue writing the requests after this. pls enjoy! i wrote this in one sitting lol:P

AZUL ASHENGROTTO

azul is spiraling. he's drowning in regret as he watched the moment you turned your back at him. why did he confess to you? he was such a fool for believing someone like you would fall for him. you're easily way out of his league.

he can do anything to get you to like him back—contracts, persuasion, anything. but he didn't do any of those things, because what azul felt for you was like no other. he fell for you, and he looks at you with childlike awe.

you're not someone who can be bought with money, and you're not someone whose feelings he wants to buy. he wants to obtain your love through his own effort without using anything else.

he can't help but stare at the empty table in mostro lounge—one that he reserved for you to sit on every time you visit. but now it's empty; and it's his fault.

he wished he could turn back time and change what happened, or that he could've been brave enough to chase after you just to have some closure. but he didn't—because beneath all his theatrics, azul is scared. heck, he didn't even look at you when he confessed.

he wants to pretend that he can go back to how things were. but how can he, when even the silence you left behind is louder than anything he has ever heard? he sighs in frustration as he rips yet another script he was going to use to talk to you.

though one day, when azul walked by your empty table for the nth time, he saw a note. and it was from you. he quickly snatched it before anyone can see it. when he opened the note with trembling hands and saw what was inside, his shoulder dropped in quiet devastation.

"heya, azul. i couldn't find you at all, so i left you this letter. i appreciate you confessing your feelings to me, but i don't think we can work out. i'm so sorry, let's stay as friends, okay?"

he sighed as he took out a pen from his pocket and wrote, "but of course! i do not mind in the slightest, name." with shaky hands.

maybe in another universe this could work.

IDIA SHROUD

idia is not sure where it all went wrong. one moment you're sharing jokes and laughter with him through voice calls, and the next, you completely avoid him.

he can't help but blame himself with how pathetic he is right now. why is he getting distracted by romance? why did he have to fall and confess his love to you? why did he have to destroy everything? friends aren't supposed to fall in love.

he wished he could reach out to you before you walked out of his room a few days ago—he wished he could make things right again. say something like, "nah jk, lolol. no way i'd fall in love with you." but he didn't. because what he felt for you was not a joke.

when ortho told him that you wanted to talk with him but was too scared to reach out first, idia stared at his monitor for a few moments—contemplating what to text you.

should he just say the truth and tell you that he still has feelings for you? or should he just scratch all of that and say that he was just joking? should he ... not text you at all?

idiot, he mutters to himself under his breath as he types a sentence and quickly deletes it all. he scratches his neck in frustration—he can't just ask ortho to give him a template to text you. because you're not anyone, you're his precious friend.

friend? are the two of you really only a friend? but you approached him at orientation. you helped him avoid the ultimate extroverts at school. you genuinely smiled at him. you even visited his sacred gaming lair a couple of times. so, what are we?

ping!

you glanced at your phone when you heard a message notification. it was idia who texted you. you nervously picked your phone up and read the message.

"hi, srry 'bout yesterday. i was jk, lolol. wanna play some games?" you stare at the message for what felt like minutes. it's not what you wanted, but it's more than you expected. with a smile, you typed back, "yeah, sure. why not?"

MALLEUS DRACONIA

malleus wonders if this is simply part of being human—to hold something dear, only for it to slip out of his grasp so easily. is it his fault for confessing? but he was just being honest. he was just telling you what he was feeling towards you.

he didn't expect you to simply smile softly at him and leave quietly. is this how humans accept love? he thought to himself as he watched you walk away from him. or, is this how they reject and deny the feelings they have?

malleus does not beg, he does not chase. but when he sees your face shift into something else right as he uttered the word, 'love', he wants to run up to you and embrace you in his arms—begging for you to accept him.

but is that what you want? is he going to be selfish and disregard what you feel? no, he's not like that. instead, malleus simply stood still almost every night at the place he confessed, silently hoping you'd return.

and return you did. you were just as startled as malleus was when you suddenly locked eyes with the dragon. you opened your mouth to talk, but so does malleus draconia. "... malleus. you're here." you muttered, yet your gaze was anywhere but on him.

"so are you, child of man. i apologize for appearing desperate, but i can assure you i am not." he smiled, though not a genuine one. you both only stared at each other, silently hoping that either of you would break the silent first.

"name," he spoke, staring at your eyes. "i am sorry for being selfish yesterday. i was not in the right mind, and i ended up disregarding your feelings completely. we can stay as friends, if you'd like." he hoped you won't. he hoped that you'll want to be more than that.

you pursed your lips nervously. you do love him, but you're too scared to admit your feelings. what if your friendship is destroyed just because of this? what if, instead of becoming friends right after, you become strangers instead?

"... sure. we can stay as friends."

naomi-nana. do NOT repost, do not use (with or without permission), do not recommend or talk about my works outside of tumblr.

[mostlygibberish]

Every now and then I will see someone mentioning the Dragon Age games like they're still relevant and wonder what exactly I missed that they had any sort of lasting impression on people.

[nosyp]

What would being the 2nd manager for teiko be like?

Aomine

He likes to pretend he doesn’t care but literally only eats because you remind him

He hates when you scold him for missing practice, half because he hates seeing you upset and half because he thinks you're being annoying

Will literally lay his head on your lap and not move until you threaten to dump water on him

Gets weirdly smug when you scold him, like "Damn, you really care about me, huh?"

Murasakibara

The big back gets REALLY pouty when you scold him for eating only junk food. Like so what if he eats junk food sometimes... (but it's like all the time)

Can't lie, his first instinct when he sees you is probably to demand food

He LOVES using you as a human pillow. He uses you as one 24/7, non stop and he hates when you move. He complains IF you move.

Kise

Kise's constantly being like "Managerrrr~ notice me more!" even though you already do...

Will exaggerate a minor injury just to make you fuss over him. "Manager!! It hurts really really bad, please help," or something along the lines of that

Takes pictures of you when you're not looking and captions them "My personal angel 💖." (Bro's in his own world... let him be)

Gets genuinely sulky when he sees you doting on the others more than him

Midorima

He subtly leaving lucky items for you despite saying he doesn't care about you

He likes to say he doesn’t need your help but then wordlessly hands you his water bottle before every game

If you forget to bring it? Disaster. Tragedy. Unacceptable. (Did he forget HIS lucky item)

Insists he doesn’t believe in luck when it comes to you but will still leave lucky items in your bag

Will literally shove you out of the way if something dangerous is falling nearby aaaand then act like it was no big deal

Akashi

He acts like he’s above needing care but lowkey loves how soft you are with him, like keep being taking care of him even if he says to stop

You once made him go to bed early, and the next day he was like "Thank you. I feel reborn."

Gets this weirdly content expression whenever you take care of him, like "Ah, so this is what it feels like to be spoiled."

If anyone disrespects you? They no longer exist. Simple. Just don't ask where they went...

Kuroko

He's mostly just silently being there for you the same way you’re there for them

Never asks for anything but appreciates everything you do

Will randomly appear at your side with your favorite drink like "You looked tired."

He’s always watching out for you in his own quiet way, making sure you don’t overwork yourself

If you ever seem upset, he’ll just sit beside you in silence until you feel better (ANGELLLLLL)

[thegeminisage]

i genuinely from the bottom of my heart believe that when illario found out lucanis was alive and suffered a year of hellish nightmarish torture and the worst possibly violation of his bodily autonomy at zara's hands rather than the quick clean death zara promised he freaked out and could not decide where to settle

absolutely first things first is he CANNOT get caught if caterina suspects him she's gotta go except if he was capable of killing family members with his own knife he wouldn't be in this mess so he sticks her in the guest house instead and somehow just does not expect lucanis or anyone else to swing by

when he goes to bed that night he's like ok. i can fix this. lucanis suffered unimaginably for a year in the ossuary so the only thing i can do now is kill him for real to put him out of his misery. that's the kind thing that someone who loves him would do. tomorrow i'm going to kill him. and then tomorrow comes and he doesn't do that

and when he goes to bed that night he's like. ok. i can STILL fix this. lucanis suffered unimaginably in the ossuary so the only thing i can do now is help him start over and NEVER EVER let him find out the guy who got him stuck in there is me because it would break his heart. i missed him so much and really this was all caterina's fault anyway my cousin deserves to live. but if he's staying alive i really do have to kill caterina because she Knows and also the entire reason i did this was so that i'd never have to watch her pick him over me again i CANNOT allow them in the same room one of them has gotta go and it's gonna be grandma. tomorrow i'm going to kill caterina. and then tomorrow comes and he doesn't. do that.

and when he goes to bed THAT night he's like. OK I CAN STILL FIX THIS. lucanis suffered unimaginably in the ossuary but he loves me we're cousins i just gotta. explain everything to him and let him make his own judgment i know he'll forgive me and understand and maybe we can even kill caterina together (so i don't have to do it). tomorrow i'm gonna tell him everything. and then tomorrow comes and he STILL isn't doing that

and when he goes to bed! he is like! ok! maybe i can't fix this! lucanis suffered unimaginably in the ossuary and maybe that's not forgivable! maybe i should tell him everything and let him kill me to put ME out of my misery! tomorrow i'm gonna write him and explain everything and then he'll come and kill me like i deserve and i won't have to feel bad anymore and also i will no longer have any problems! and tomorrow comes and you know what he doesn't do?

AND WHEN HE GOES TO BED. HE IS LIKE. you know!!! i can fix this! because lucanis suffered unimaginably in the ossuary but MAYBE HE HAD IT COMING. maybe if he wasn't always COMPLICIT IN CATERINA'S WAR CRIMES he wouldn't have his ONLY COUSIN trying to ASSASSINATE him! maybe this is what he deserves! maybe if he wasn't always shit talking my assassin skills and stealing the last of the coffee and being such a freak with his stupid snake this wouldn't have happened to him! tomorrow i'm not only going to kill him but i am going to gloat the entire time i do it! and tomorrow comes and he sure does not do that!

AND WHEN HE GOES TO BED. HE'S LIKE. i HAVE to fix this! lucanis suffered unimaginably in the ossuary and now my cousin is possessed because of me so it's not even really my cousin anymore i am OBLIGATED to put that thing down and free lucanis from his torment! he'd totally thank me! tomorrow i'm killing that demon and tomorrow comes AND HE DOES NOT DOOO THAT

and that night he goes to bed and he's like. ok. i can't fix this. my only option is to leave the country. tomorrow i'm packing my things and moving to gwaren. and tomorrow comes and he does not. move to gwaren

and that night he goes to bed and he's like ok so i should put lucanis out of his misery--

and he does that every night for the entirety of the game until lucanis and spite beat him up and condemn him to Viago House Arrest

[dragon age masterpost]

[finelinemia]

THE COLLEGE CAFETERIA

^Hii, this is my first Harry short story! I'm a bot creator, but I've decided to try something longer. I hope you like it. Don't be too mean to me, it's my first time🫡

SUMMARY: You're reading a book in the university cafeteria when a guy you've never seen on campus approaches you.

Word Count: 1.1k

[uni!harry]

"What is the book about?" The unfamiliar voice makes you look up from the pages to find yourself staring into green eyes, a half-smile, and a cap perched backward. You frown slightly and look around. The university cafeteria is still pretty empty. It was eight in the morning, and everyone was in their classes.

You look back into his green eyes and then check the cover of the book you were reading, as if you needed to remember its name, "It's about... nothing important, not historical, not... classic or idealistic..." Are you getting nervous? "It's a romance book," you finally say.

"Okay, but you didn't answer my question... what's it about?" He laughs a little, tilting his head, his gaze dropping to the cover of the book and then back to me.

I look around again. There's no one here except for the owner and us. I didn't even notice when he came in, and according to my calculations, he's in the same year as me, so he should be in class right now, and so should I, but that's not the case right now.

"It's about..." my gaze meets his again; he's genuinely interested in what I'm about to say. "A boy and a girl who hate each other but are physically attracted to each other and make an agreement to have sex without anyone knowing, with no strings attached and all that."

"Oh yeah, typical teenage stories that you girls read," he says, looking back at the book. "The author didn't put much effort into finding a title, did she? 'Twisted Hate,' I wonder what it's about."

I don't know if he was trying to be a jerk or if he really was. But I didn't like that air of grandeur at all. He had approached me just to mess with me? What a fucking moron.

"Never judge a book by its cover. It could be the next literary gem and you don't even know it," I say, turning my gaze back to the pages, not wanting to continue this conversation.

But he wants to keep talking.

"Let me guess... eventually feelings start to develop and they decide to be together, have kids, and blah blah blah, same plot for every book. It never fails," he says, smiling, knowing perfectly well he's getting on my nerves.

"I can't answer that because I'm still halfway through the book." I don't look up. "But what does it matter? Isn't that what we all want? A happy ending?"

"Don't look at me. I don't read books, but if I did, they wouldn't be romantic comedies, believe me." He leans against the wall next to the table where I'm sitting, and after a few seconds, he speaks again. "At least you're not one of those who reads comics."

I frown. "What's wrong with comics?"

"Oh, no bad reason, but to me they're not real books."

"Yeah, surely watching a soccer game is way more interesting than reading, right?" I turn my head to look at him; he has a smile on his face.

"So you know I play soccer," he says, tilting his head.

"I don't know, but I noticed you're wearing sweatpants and your soccer cleats are hanging out of your backpack. Plus, you're here during classes, which means either you're skipping school or you have team practice on Tuesdays at 8:30." For a moment, I think I might have come across as a stalker and that I might have scared him. But nothing like that, because he laughs and sits down in the chair next to me.

"Very observant for a girl who reads rom-coms. What's your excuse for skipping school? Because I'd notice if you were on my soccer team." he rests his arms on the table and his head in his hands, still staring at me.

"Let me tell you, it's none of your business." I look back at the book, but he takes it away from me, making me sigh. "You've set out to screw someone's life up today, and it's my turn?"

"Kinda." he closes the book in his hands and places it on the table. "I'm not going to snitch, you know? You can tell me. Or... you can tell me your name."

I let out a small laugh. Is he supposed to be hitting on me now? Why would he want to know my name? And why am I even thinking about telling him?

"It's not a total secret, either. I just... don't like the professor very much." I fiddle with my hands nervously, but he doesn't notice.

"Does that mean you're not going to tell me your name?" He raises his eyebrow slightly.

"I thought you wanted to know why I'm not going to class," I brought my gaze back to his.

"Not anymore, now I want to know your name." He leans back in his chair, crossing his arms.

"Yeah, too bad, that's not going to happen." I slide the book back toward me.

"So we have a girl here who likes to play hard to get." He lets out a small laugh, shaking his head. "I like it."

"Of course..." I roll my eyes slightly. "Of course you're one of those. Now's the time I spread my legs for you?"

He smiles, "Most girls do, I don't see why you don't."

"I'm going to have to give you the bad news: you're not my type." I open my book again.

"Of course I'm not." He throws his head back, laughing. "What's your type? Can you answer that?"

"Not you." I smile sarcastically at him, making him laugh again.

"I can change that, give me time." He gets up from his chair in time for the cafe owner to call his name.

"Cappuccino for Harry," the woman says, placing the to-go coffee on the counter. He picks it up, takes a sip, and turns to look at me.

"Now you know my name, don't you think it's unfair that I don't know yours?" he asks, tilting his head.

"Bye, Harry. I'll look for you around the soccer field," I say, watching him head for the door.

"I hope so because you won't see me in the library." he says as he opens the door to the outside.

"Latte for [Y/N]." The cafe owner says and I inwardly curse myself for the timing.

He smiles and looks back, meeting my gaze. "[Y/N]... such a pretty name." I press my lips together to keep from smiling. "It was a pleasure meeting you, [Y/N]." He leaves, closing the door behind him, and I turn my head to the owner.

"You're welcome," she says, smiling.

part 2

.

.

.

If you liked it, you can leave me a heart and repost it so it can reach more people. Thank you very much!🩷

[jellieland]

"You know," says Jimmy smugly, "I think second is the best spot to die in, actually."

"Really," says Mumbo, exasperated.

"Yes, I don't know what you're so happy about," says Lizzie. "You barely lasted ten minutes more than me."

"Doesn't matter. Not out first, baby!" He crows, triumphant, to the neverending void.

"And you killed me last session!"

"...Yes, I, uh, I'm sorry about that one. Sort of. Mostly," he says, momentarily cowed.

"I can't believe you people," says Lizzie. "They didn't have a funeral for me. I died first, and you got one, and they didn't even have a funeral for me!" She sounds indignant, but a look of genuine hurt crosses her face for a moment.

"I'm going to be honest, Lizzie," says Mumbo awkwardly. "I think they had bigger things to worry about. I- I think Joel was quite sad about it, though. If that helps?"

"I suppose it's better than nothing." She crosses her arms.

"But- wait, hang on. Jimmy?" says Mumbo abruptly. "Did you say you wanted to go out second?"

"No!" Jimmy protests. "I just think if you have to go out, then second is sort of ideal, really, if you think about it!"

"No!" says Mumbo, indignant. "No, surely third is better, actually! And to extend that logic, fourth would be better as well, and fifth, and- well, you get the idea. Anyway, my point is that I did better than both of you!"

"Hey, don't bring me into this!" says Lizzie.

"Anyway, you're wrong," says Jimmy, back to being smug again.

There is a short silence.

"You, uh. You gonna elaborate on that one, buddy?" asks Mumbo.

"Well," says Jimmy. "Obviously going out first is terrible. Would not recommend. I don't know why anyone would do it, honestly, I know I would never-"

"You're going on my list," says Lizzie, cheerfully.

"Wait wait wait, no, I didn't mean it, I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I really am!"

"Hmm." Lizzie narrows her eyes. "Acceptable. For now."

A few moments pass.

"You may continue," she says.

"Right," says Jimmy. "What was I saying?"

"You were being wrong about how the ranking in this game works," offers Mumbo.

"No I wasn't!" says Jimmy. "Just, let me explain. Now, you obviously don't want to go out first, sorry Lizzie, but it's true."

"I will concede that point," says Lizzie. "It wasn't great."

"But—have you seen how they get?"

"How they... get?" Mumbo frowns. "What do you mean?"

"The people who don't die."

"I- now, I don't know if you remember this," says Mumbo, "But third is a new record for me, so I really don't know how you expect me to know that."

"Anyway," interjects Lizzie, "Mumbo and I have only done this once before. I mean, I guess people started losing it a bit once you two died, but it wasn't that much different to how it already had been. Although I wasn't around for that long at that point."

"Yes, but, it-" Jimmy frowns. "I haven't seen much of it either. But there's something- I don't know how to explain what I mean. Maybe you haven't noticed, but there's stuff with Grian, Scott, Pearl."

He stops, sighs. Looks at the ground.

"Martyn's going to be alone, now," he says.

"Well," says Lizzie, a little acerbic. "You don't have to have people die for that to happen, you know."

Jimmy gives her a look that is a combination of sheepishness and genuine regret. "Ah. Yeah. I guess not."

"So you're right," says Lizzie. "I don't know what you mean."

"...I did feel bad," says Jimmy, quietly.

"You... did?" asks Lizzie. "What about?"

Jimmy looks at her, then off to the side. "...When I killed you."

"Oh."

"I really didn't mean to," he says. "I felt bad. It wasn't satisfying. It was just... a person I cared about. Dead. Because of me. Because I acted without thinking, because I wasn't paying attention."

"...Oh." says Lizzie, softly.

"And that was when I knew you would come back," says Jimmy.

Lizzie and Mumbo exchange glances, unsure.

"I'm good with second," says Jimmy. "I think it's the closest you can get to winning, actually."

They stand there, silent, for some time.

"Well," says Mumbo eventually. "I still feel like third is a bit better, though."

"Mumbo!" cries Jimmy.

"Mumbo, come on, we were just having a moment!" says Lizzie.

"Yes well, look, I really need this, guys," says Mumbo, shifting his weight from side to side. "I don't know if you know this, but I've had a really bad day. It was just terrible!"

"I think we've all had pretty bad days, Mumbo!" says Lizzie, raising an eyebrow. "I don't know if you've noticed, but we all died!"

"Yes, I- I had picked up on that, actually."

"I don't know," says Jimmy. "My day was great!"

They keep talking, and bickering, and the emptiness stretches off into the distance.

It's nice, not to have to be there alone.

[dpspcehntr]

Hello 🤗 I have a question that has crossed my mind from time to time and I would like your (and maybe your followers) opinion on this, if you don't mind.

Thinking realistically, rather than with a romantic notion, do you think the LaDs men have had much, if any, sexual experience that hasn't been with MC?

Would God of the Tides have concubines brought to him, or gone on dates as a land lubber? Or do you think his bond with MC would prevent him from 'engaging' with anyone else?

Did Xavier date anyone before MC joined the guardians (I don't know the name I forget lol)?

I don't know anything about Sylus

Would Zayne have had a prom date or a girlfriend before he met with the current timeline MC? I know he says we are his only experience, but does that include just kissing someone?

I’M SO GLAD YOU ASKED!! One, I have also been rotating this around in my brain for quite some time and how I feel very lightly colors how I write for them! I haven't read much (if any at all) of the myths so I will just be looking at the present. I love thinking about this cause tbh sometimes the characterizations in game are not as full as I would like. I won’t keep this long but if you want more detail I’m happy to add to this post! Anyway! Here are my thoughts!

Rafayel is literally the reason I had this thought in the first place. I thought it was so silly to think that he as a rich artsy boy had never ONCE hooked up with someone. He absolutely is a FUCKBOY! I will hear nothing else about it. I can't image he's not when so much of his overall characterization just oozes that kind of energy for me. My exception to this is that I don't think he enjoyed himself very much. Used sex kind of like a numbing thing cause he felt the void of your absence hard. He's not like a community dick kind of fuckboy but he has definitely been passed around a few times, if not as a professional then in art school.

Xavier is another one who I feel has some experience before (re)meeting MC. His experience is alot more clumsy and unsure compared to Rafayel. More of a situation like 'I want to be ready when I find her so I'm going to try it with someone else to be good at it. There may only be one person he's had sex with before MC and it was so bad she just had to leave. When that failed he just turned to erotica and p*rn to fill in the gaps. Eventually getting used to using his own imagination and getting off when needed. So when the time comes he's very prepared and VERY horny.

Sylus is a bit of a hard one because yes absolutely he is having sex with people before meeting MC. His overall vibe very much eludes to the fact that he has lived a life and I'm sure that is included. I don't think he's slinging it out to anyone who asks but he has been in some kind of relationship before. If anything we can say he is very comfortable having sex and has had sex before meeting MC. I have some more thoughts on this but I will keep it there for now!

Zayne from what I know has said that he isn't experienced and we are his first and I believe that. He very much gives full focus on the task at hand kind of man. Definitely not in high school but in med school I image him having a non serious fling with someone just to say he tried. They broke up soon after and he just never tried again until he and MC reconnected. That being said, he is a bit of a perv and has ALOT of pent up energy so once they start they literally don't stop. Like a weekend stuck in an endless loop of sleep, eat, fuck until he's at work desperate for you once again. The problem for him is learning how to control himself now that has MC.

My ask box is open for further conversations on this cause I genuinely love talking about this! Lets keep the conversation going!

[drdemonprince]

ok fine cis men aren't the bad gender it's all men and we're all exactly like that anon who admitted to having abused women even if we don't know it. are you fucking happy now? is this the solidarity you want us to feel with cis men, that we're all just as mich rapists and murderers of women as they are? you have some fucking nerve to be throwing vague jabs while calling an admitted abuser "brave"

Normally I don't platform asks like these, but I'm moved by the genuineness of your emotional reaction here. I think you're hurting, and you've been hurt, and that the belief that abuse and violence are located within one gendered group (to which you don't belong) has felt like a way of organizing your world that has helped you make sense of things, and given you guidelines for how to act and whom to trust that have helped keep you safe. I think a lot of assault survivors feel that way when they're not cis men and their attackers were cis men.

As someone who has experienced a ton of sexual predation at the hands of cis women, cis men, and even other trans people, I don't feel the same way. There is no "bad gender" I can chalk up my abuse to. I find there are no easy means of categorizing entire people as abuser or as victim either -- I have known so, so many people who have occupied both roles depending upon the power they wielded and the social context of the moment. Hell, one cis lesbian that I knew who was infamous in her community for raping trans men would always tell her victims that her acts were those of "trauma recovery," of her "reclaiming" her power after men had stolen it away.

Even she, I don't think, is irredeemable or ontologically evil.

I'm an abolitionist. That's a core value through which a lot of my political action and beliefs flow. If you're not on board with the project of abolitionism, you'll find much to object to here, and most of your objections are things I will refuse to entertain, because I do not believe human beings are disposable no matter what they do, and I don't believe that anyone should have the authority to deem another human being as disposable.

An abolitionist politics is incompatible with the idea that some people or some groups are inherently bad. It's incompatible with the belief that abuse and violence comes from evil. It's a worldview that holds that people do harm because of social structures and networks of power that must be destroyed -- systems like the patriarchy, cissexism, anti-Blackness, ableism, capitalism, and more. And I think one of the ways that we conquer such oppressive systems is by raising the consciousness of all the people trapped under it -- so that we can topple it together. I want trans men and cis men alike to realize they have some skin in the game.

You don't have to associate with the men you don't want to associate with. If, because of repeated abuses at the hands of men, you can't ever trust them, well, those are your feelings, that's your life, that is your business. But when your personal feelings of safety are used as a justification for developing and promoting a worldview with transphobic, transmisogynistic implications, I'm gonna talk shit about that on my stupid little blog. And I'm gonna continue conducting my life in the way I feel I should.

And for me, that means forging common ground between trans men and cis men, and pushing both groups to take women's concerns seriously (especially trans women's concerns) and to stop centering themselves in feminist dialogue. There's a place for both trans men and cis men in the gender revolution, but we gotta do a lot of work on ourselves to stop getting in the way. It's work I'm emotionally equipped to do and find rewarding, and it's fine if you don't. There are lots of other people who need support that you can focus your energies on -- other survivors of abuse and assault that you perhaps find it easier to relate to. That's important work too, and I wish you well in doing it. Just make sure you're not excluding trans women in that work or I'll continue to be annoying about it on my stupid little blog.

[jnnul]

dating karina (aespa)

word count: 870 words a/n: uhh i've been in a karina state of mind lately i could've made this at least 8k words but i didn't... genres: fluff and nsfw content

gif creds: @sunghanbin

the one that you need to know about jimin is that she is a selfish lover

and i mean that in every sense of the word

she is SO incredibly possessive

will absolutely get upset if she feels like she's sharing your love with literally anyone or anything

in fact, she probably asked you out because she got jealous af

aka she was trying to court you and you kept friend-zoning her

"omg you got me flowers and perfume? you're such an amazing friend, jimin!"

smh.

one day, she catches you with a box of chocolates that she definitely did not get you

and she loses it

"y/n, who got you this? they probably poisoned it. idk. you should throw it out. i think it went bad. oh wait it's ugly. throw it away."

will buy you a box of chocolate double the size

and seeing her jealous is what finally makes things click in your head

but you like seeing her so possessive over you so you pretend that you don't know what she's saying

until she finally summons all of her courage and asks you out formally

and oh, if you thought that her crushing on you was intense, it TRIPLES when you start dating

openly flirts with you everywhere. in front of everyone.

will call you beautiful/handsome/gorgeous and will glare at anyone who doesn't agree with her (platonically, ofc)

will scream from the rooftops that she's head over heels for you

but beyond all of that, she loves so hard

jimin genuinely believes that you were the one to hang the stars in the sky

she really asks for nothing in your relationship except for never giving her a reason to think that you don't like her

highkey, she's a loser

i mean that

like you could just sit in her lap when she games and she would think that you're the sexiest person she's ever laid eyes on

it could be overbearing just HOW into you she is if she wasn't so loser??

like yea, she's super possessive and will stink eye anyone looking at you weird when you're dressed up all sexy

but then she'll look at you with those big boba eyes because she forgets the entire world when you look at her

highkey thinks that you're out of her league??

like in her head, she games 29/8, wears glasses, wears the same wrinkled shirt for days on end, is super shy when you first meet her, etc.

not to mention the fact that she's aware that she's so incredibly in love with you

so it can hurt her in the beginning when you don't know how to show her just how much you love her

like you're just AWKWARD but she doesn't get that

but literally just tell her and she will fall like a lovesick puppy all over again

is such a gentlewoman omg

doesn't let you pay for anything, spoils you rotten, and loves nothing more than to tell you how much she loves you

will not break up with you. like once you're with her, you're with her for lyfe.

[nsfw content below.]

OMG AND IT TRANSFERS TO THE BEDROOM TOO

BC I SWEAR THAT SHE'S SUCH A SOFT DOM

she likes dressing you up in the prettiest sets, watching you model them for her bc she likes seeing how shy you get

is it controversial if i said she would make you wear a collar?

doesn't matter how big or small you are, you will always find yourself on her lap

she likes making you ride her thigh??

like she likes watching you try to get yourself her without even lifting a finger

again with the whole i want you to love me as much as i love you thing

especially if you're wearing her clothes??

will get clothes 9x too big just bc she likes seeing you swaddled in her clothes, using her to get yourself off

but you can't. ofc you can't.

she honestly would make you feel so good that you physically wouldn't be able to get off w/o her helping you

will mark you everywhere

i'm not joking

you'll wake up looking like you got mauled by bear from the hickeys on your neck

she likes spanking you for the same reason

her handprint on your ass is pretty much permanent atp

is dominant the whole time (and it's very very rare that she gives up control) and loves making you melt in her arms

her goal is always to make you feel so good that you can't speak, just clawing at her for more

more what? who knows. but she'll give it to you, that's for sure.

is very kinky and probably enjoys fantasies of a lot of darker kinks but is very scared of pushing you past your limits

just the sheer volume of dark dark fantasies that she finds herself getting off to the idea of subjecting you to scares her

aftercare is superb

never fails to clean you up, wait for you to come back to her, and always snuggles the absolute best fr fr

she's a sweetie who fucks real good (a keeper fr)

[chaotic-toasters]

Invisible

TW: Bad-ish mental health

Chelsea!Reader

Ex-UNC!Reader

I don't think this makes any sense but whtvs

-----------------

Transfer to Chelsea, they said. It'll be fun, they said. Well, you said that they were wrong.

You signed for Chelsea under the promise of playing time and friendship, only to be immediately benched and left to wander the halls of Cobham by yourself.

In hindsight, it was a stupid decision to join the Blues. The winning WSL side had no need for you on their already stacked roster, and in no way were you going to be able to compete with the likes of Zecira Musovic and Hannah Hampton.

You'd once been told that only truly deserving and talented people could reach the professional level of a sport, but you were seriously doubting it. You weren't a quitter, but you were genuinely wondering if you should wait for your 23rd birthday next year to announce your retirement or if you should just announce it now. You were still young, and you weren't about to waste any more of your life waiting for your footballing career to blossom.

It was funny, you thought, how the same cycle just kept repeating. When you played in your home state of Chicago for the Red Stars, you'd sat on the bench and watched Alyssa Naeher, your captain and USWNT starting keeper, guard the net, but you'd at least been happy, being good friends with most of your teammates. Then, during your time at Manchester United, Marc Skinner had promised you that you'd play in games against easier opponents. You never did, always internally scolding yourself for believing that he would want to play you. Now, at Chelsea, you were all alone, not a familiar face or start in sight. The only time you'd been in the net during games was in college, where you'd been head of the DoD for UNC. That time was long gone, though.

-----------

"Y/N!" you almost missed Emma calling your name, too busy wondering if anyone would notice if you napped on the bench during the match. It was against Arsenal, but you were practically invisible to your teammates and the media alike.

"Yes?" you glanced up from the ground, only half-paying attention.

"Zecira isn't here and Hannah can't play on with that calf. You're going in."

"Okay." You didn't move, your manager's words not registering in your brain.

She stared at you. "Aren't you gonna go get your gloves?"

"Oh, right." You took off towards the changing room, grabbing your gloves, waterbottle, and blinding-white sweat towel that you'd had for the past three years.

When you went back outside, Emma patted you on the shoulder, offering you a word of advice and reminding you that the score was nil-nil.

It was embarrassingly quiet when you jogged into goal, the only cheers being a few quiet Chelsea fans in a sea of blue. You just shook your head to yourself, bouncing on the balls of your feet as play started up again. No distractions.

------------

A breakaway in the 51st minute had you barking orders at your backline, but none of your defenders were fast enough to catch up. Stina Blackstenius was sprinting at you full-force as you came out of your goal, and though her body shifted to the left and she passed the ball between her feet, you noticed how her eyes momentarily flicked upwards. Your hand instinctively shot up, smacking the ball away like a cat would a toy on a string, and as it flew over the crossbar, the entire stadium was silent other than the soft pitter-patter of rain on the roof.

The roar of the crowd rang out seconds later, and the Arsenal players eyed you with a newfound wariness as Steph Catley ran to take the corner kick.

"Hey," someone whispered, nudging you. "That was sick. I knew you still had it in you."

You glanced up and smiled. "Thanks, Foxy."

She ran back, sharing a few words with your other former UNC teammates, Alessia and Lotte, the three of them giving you small smiles as the whistle blew.

You came out of the net again as the ball came flying into the box, jumping up over Blackstenius again and swatting it away once more. The cheers from the Chelsea fans was deafening, drowning out whatever Emma was yelling to you from the sidelines.

Chelsea forwards and Arsenal defenders chased after the ball into the Arsenal half, leaving you, your defenders, and Arsenal forwards in your half. "Hey," Alessia called, giving you a little wave from the edge of your box. "Nice saves."

You waved back. "Thanks."

"You haven't changed a bit from Uni," she commented, jogging away. "Reflexes sharp as ever."

"You haven't changed either," you grinned. "Clumsy as ever."

Her head whipped back around indignantly. "Hey!"

-------------

It was strange being a part of your teammates' conversations. It was as if you'd been invisible before the match, and each save slowly made you appear before their eyes. They'd met you with smiles and claps on the back after the game, all too happy to secure a tie in the wake of losing their first two keepers. You could care less about your current teammates, though. The ones who really mattered were your old ones.

"We totally would have won if Chelsea didn't have you," Emily scoffed jokingly, giving you a light push. "You saved their asses."

You pushed her back with a shit-eating grin, lowering your voice. "I'll be saving your asses instead soon enough."

Lotte spit out her water onto Alessia, who shrieked in disgust. "Really?!"You snickered. "Yeah. Don't tell anyone, though."

Alessia pinched her jersey in her fingers, airing it out. "Have you thought about this? The Chelsea fans aren't going to like that at all. Trust me, I know."

"I don't care," you shrugged. "I'll be happy at Arsenal, and I know I'll get playing time."

"Well, we can't wait to see you at Colney," Lotte grinned. "Arsenal red will look great on you."

You grinned back. "I know it will."

[anotherocean]

My first pick a pile reading for you all! Been wanting to do this for a long time and hopefully add a little sparkle to your day, some guidance, maybe reassurance (?), or just a little divination fun.

This is a general reading for your life at the moment. I used tarot and my intuition to come up with these readings. If you aren't familiar with how to do this, you just pick an image that pops out at you, or choose one quickly and randomly. Whatever method you want to use it usually works. Pile readings below! Let me know if anything resonated with you! This is my first time doing this so feedback is really nice :)

Hello my beautiful pile 1s! A lot of mental energy here!

My main piece of advice pile 1 is:

GIVE IN TO THE NOT KNOWING

Looks like you could use some support with that overactive mind of yours. First thing's first it's going to be okay. It looks like you've had some sleepless nights recently and something is keeping you awake at night in worry-- whatever you are going through is not easy and would test anyone's faith. This might be the result of feeling betrayed (or a misunderstanding for some) in some way, or perhaps you are even lowering yourself to a level that feels untrue to you. In any case your soul is saying no to a lot of ways you are perceiving your situation right now and urging you to take a step back. Your idealism may be pushing up against some cold hard facts … about a person? (never a fun feeling) and disillusionment of some sort might be setting in. Your desire to win or succeed or have your own way may be clouding the best avenue toward your genuine peace and fulfillment (I've been there honey, I feel you). I am getting the feeling you are going around and around in your head playing mental games. Tap into your honesty and your intuition. Don't sneak out the proverbial back door. Patience is required right now. You'll make it through I believe in you! Things are going to work out, but maybe it's time to rest and reflect a bit babe? I'm getting the sense that rest frightens you a bit. Either you feel you can't stop, or rest has become equated with stagnation in your mind. In this instance that is not the case. Rest is a terrific idea for you because this looks like something you need to wait out. On the upside, I'm seeing that for some of you there could be some wonderful feelings of inspiration or drive or something urging you forward. Perhaps there is a complex mix of your excitement for a new idea or project, and conflict between something going on in your life, so you are experiencing some push/pull dynamics that are causing a lot of uncomfortable mental energy. My advice is rest, tap into some inner strength, and give in to not knowing and what a truly beautiful and relieving feeling that can be. You can't possibly know, so don't! You don't need to figure everything all out at once honey, or solve this problem immediately.

Hello my incredible pile 2's! I love you.

You have an incredibly clear mind at the moment. You are approaching your situation with logic, which may feel a bit at odds with your needs to be nurtured. I'm getting maybe someone studying or pouring themselves into research but forgetting to take care of their more sensual needs like eating nice meals, going for walks, etc. In the distant or recent past you may have been in a limiting situation -- either victimized by some form of addiction, or bad relationship, or something that was bringing out parts of your shadow side that were not to your liking. This was something that you may have felt chained to... I'm getting your toxic ball and chain. That said, I'm seeing that you are harnessing a lot of energy positively right now, and will continue to do so. You have the power and ability to manifest your dreams, reach toward your goals, be the creator in your life. In the past you may have felt victimized and held captive by a person or situation, but you are now finding yourself (or about to be finding yourself) holding the power in your life. The world around you is aligned with you in presenting you with new opportunities for growth and love, and this is merely reflecting all the power you have right now. It seems you may be faced with an important decision, and while you are jumping and ready for new adventures, I ask you to also make sure you align your desire for adventure with your values related to the people and relationships in your life. You can do no wrong if you truly consult your heart in this important decision and take an honest look there by also allowing the people in your life to be included in that "gazing into the heart" that I mentioned. You are not an island, you are most definitely connected. You also have some doubts it looks like, or fears of separation or loss. The pain of heartbreak. A last word of advice is talk to someone you trust, perhaps a mentor, or consult your higher power for guidance. You may find resolution in aligning yourself with your traditions, or the traditions of people around you. I have to be honest pile 2, your picture isn't crystal clear for me, so I hope I filled in enough blanks to give this reading some value for you!

Pile 3 hello! So much beauty here.

It looks like there are so many beautiful things in your life right now. Wonderful relationships, some degree of emotional fulfillment, and periods of gorgeous and harmonious socializing and abundance are all present. There is a strong, positive emphasis on community, but you also need to nurture your individual creative expressions (be that something tangible like painting a picture, or something more related to using your creative abilities for manifestation, or maybe just... spending some time in the garden planting seeds). You need to see the fruits of your own labor (!!!). Also, let it be known that as soon as I began your reading and was looking at the above image I felt such a lightness! Wish I were you pile 3! Like a breath of fresh air. Life is good. You also want to create some more stability for yourself. Even with all the good things, you have your sights set on something better and what a beautiful thing that is! You might be itching for something new and exciting, even with all the good things going on in your life, and the main and BIG POWERFUL MESSAGE of this reading is to embrace change. You may have built up something gorgeous and fulfilling but your heart is looking for more. EMBRACE the radical changes. EMBRACE the tearing down of the good things. More good things will come. You may currently find yourself feeling influenced by some conservatism around you (not necessarily a bad thing), but the stable attitude of those around you may be at odds with your need to honor your enthusiasm for adventure and break down what you have in order to build up something new again. As I mentioned, what you've built is gorgeous, but perhaps it is time to tear it down? You have some fears and worries around this, so take this advice as lightly or deeply as you like. Whatever the case, the changes you want aren't going to be a lightning bolt. You need to put effort into long term planning with patience, and perseverance. You need to carefully nurture your efforts right now, more than you need to immediately start a new life.

=====

That's it! I had so much fun doing this, I hope you enjoyed it! It was fun getting a peak into some of your lives. At some point I may offer clarification card readings if any of you want to pay for additional info or extra questions related to the above readings. I'm not sure yet, just enjoying the experiment and maybe I'll do this with some regularity :) Also let me know if there's any specific reading you might like to see me do in the future! I have been so hardcore into astrology recently (truly obsession level) so tarot is a nice little sideline.

[osarina]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five of your other fave writers. Spread the self-love!

WAHHHHHH RIVER I LOVE U THANK U FOR TAGGING ME I WANTED TO DO ONE OF THESE SO BAD IDFAHISUDHFS I WAS SITTING HERE WAITING TO BE TAGGED LIKE HIIIIII anyway u must ALL go check out rivers immediately or ill perish. AND i tag @chuellas @fairycourts @pastelle-rabbit @ariiadnes + anyone else

WASTELAND, BABY! | civilian!dazai

one chance encounter at a bar with a fourth year literature student sends your life spiraling in a way you never could've expected. you're not going to let this go far (you're lying). (fem!reader, pm executive!reader, civilian!dazai, romance & angst. completed, wc: 156K)

WAHHHHHHHHH i have to have wasteland, baby up here as number one. civzai literally is my whole heart and soul, it's so special to me. it was supposed to only be a 3 part fic and it turned into a 12 part, 160k wc MONSTER with an incoming sequel that i hope to start posting in june. wahhhh i literally dont know what else to say besides that this series means the world to me & i am genuinely so happy with how well it came out and i am so lucky to have u all who made me feel so loved while writing it <33 wasteland, baby is genuinely the fic that i'm most proud of on here for plot & worldbuilding, i was so happy with how well i was able to make everything connect, and there was NO PLOT POINT LEFT UNTURNED. im really excited for you guys to read the sequel, its going to be even better TRUST

WATERLOO | canon/beast

infinite universes, infinite possibilities. across them all, only one thing remains constant: you and your fateful meeting with dazai osamu, a whirlwind of love and romance that seems to always end in tragedy. (fem!reader, canon compliant, wc: 140k)

I CAN'T NOT ADD WATERLOO. THE SERIES THAT STARTED IT ALLLLLLL omg, waterloo is really what made my blog pop off and i know so many of u guys found me through it. waterloo also has such a special place in my heart just for being the first series i completed on here. ALL ROADS LEAD BACK TO WATERLOO <333 if u guys have been on my blog for a while u know i will reference this fic anytime i can HAHAH. but wahhh sometimes i get so mad because i miss waterloo so much, it was really such an era here on this blog.

TWO SLOW DANCERS | beast!dazai

you love him. you've always loved him, and you'll never not love him, but you don't understand what changed. dazai treated you like you were his whole world for years, and then suddenly, he went cold. he murdered mori and took his place as head of the port mafia, and he became someone you barely recognized. you need answers, but you're scared you might get them too late. (fem!reader, pm executive!reader, beast!dazai, tragedy, canon compliant; 40k wc)

THE LAST SERIES ON HERE I SWEAR, but while wasteland, baby was what i was most proud of for plot & worldbuilding, two slow dancers i think is my best written fic. i struggled a lot to begin with because you guys know i like to write dual povs, so this was a challenge for me keeping it all in reader's point of view, but i was so proud of how it came out in spite of the difficulties i had with it, so it's well deserving of a spot on this list.

I LAUGH LIKE ME AGAIN (SHE LAUGHS LIKE YOU) | pmreader verse

four years apart and the ultimate question is about to be answered: do you and dazai really still know each other, or are you clinging to a fantasy of the past? you decide to put it to the test with a game of wits and questions when dazai gets back to your apartment—but as the game drags on, dazai starts to wonder if maybe he was wrong. worse, if maybe he would prefer to be wrong. (ņsfw; fem!reader; port mafia executive!reader, jealous!dazai, possessive!dazai, smoking & drinking, unprotected sex, switch!dazai, switch!reader, undertones of angst (happy ending). wc: 14.5k)

omg. the first of the one-shots on this list. WOW i can't believe it's almost been a year since i first posted this. i still think it's u[ there with two slow dancers as one of my most well written fics. id been planning pmreader verse out for months before this fic, but this was the fic where i really solidified that WOW pmreader verse is really a thing, because it was the first fic where i was really able to get deeper into pmreader and dazai's past with them reflecting together in the present.

MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE NEVER BEFORE | pmreader verse

your patience is thinning. despite having a conversation with dazai and being led to believe everything is okay, he's suddenly avoiding you again. luckily, or maybe unluckily, his hand is forced when he realizes that you're not waiting for him this time. whether he likes it or not, this confrontation is happening—except you slowly realize as it goes on that dazai's definition of intimacy is dreadfully different from yours (ņsfw; fem!reader, pm!reader, i wouldn't say this is angst but it does deal with some references to heavy topics; jealous!dazai, depictions of dissociation (dazai), dazai's on the brink of a mental breakdown for a bit in the beginning, references to abuse (dazai. no actual depictions), references to dubcon (dazai. no actual depictions), dazai is wildly intelligent but not so much when it comes to sex & other forms of intimacy (he is quite uneducated in fact), slight oral (male rec), unprotected sex, sub!dazai, dazai and reader argue for a bit (he calls her a whore - doesn't mean it but still says it) wc: 10.4k)

now. so. i dont think this fic is one of my most well-written fics, but it deserves the last spot on here because this is the fic i struggled the most to write. i kid you guys not, i rewrote it LITERALLY five or six times. i didn't even want to post it for weeks because i was so hesitant about it. it's pretty loaded even compared to most of my other fics, but now looking back on it, even if i'm not 100% with how it came out, im still proud of myself for being able to finish it and put it out there.

HONORABLE MENTION: WHEN YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW

a series of connected one-shots set in the same universe that can be read as standalones or all together, centered around port mafia member (eventually executive)!reader and dazai's relationship progressing over the years.

PFFFFF i didn't want to give this its own mention up there because all of the one shots & two of the series are technically in this universe, but WAHHHHH when you know, you know <333 literally the biggest passion project i've ever had. this series is my whole heart and soul, i've put so much of myself into it, i've put so much time into developing our girl pm!reader, so much energy into building the world and fleshing out ocs to make it feel more real. literally NOTHING compares to wykyk on this blog. pmreader verse is everything to me and it makes me so happy that all of u guys love it just as much it makes me so excited to share it with u all.

[smileposting]

what are your feelings on inspekta being both a sympathetic character and a (now former) fascist?

WELL. first of all, i think it's Probably worth noting that even while GGG's representation of the conditions that can give rise to fascism are Uncannily accurate at times (as outlined in this very excellent post by elkian) it is Also a story in which the central message is "maybe talk to your friends instead of conspiracy-posting when you start to feel bad about yourself, dipshit," and therefore its representation of fascism/fascist thought As A Whole is very... how do i say this without sounding disparaging. "saturday morning cartoon"-esque. i think this is pretty apparent in how the worst that the bizzyboys' reign of terror ever gets is banning The Concept Of Art and not, like. genocide. the only Actual fatal threat (the rift) is saved for the very end, and inspekta/hector is talked down before it can actually cause any fatalities -- otherwise, inspekta and the bizzyboys would be very different antagonists that would require the narrative to treat them much more harshly, and this would result in a very different game overall (although not one i would be opposed to playing.)

second of all, i wanna talk more about the idea of GGG being less of a game about taking down a single power-hungry fascist and more an examination of the conditions that can eventually lead to fascism if left unchecked. for just one example, we can see that even before inspekta came into power (or at least, before he started his corruption arc) and even in a world where every god is genuinely kind and just and deserving of their position, it was generally The Norm to not really call them out To Their Face - any displeasure a character voices with a god's (apparent) decision is directed to each other and the godpoke, not to the god themselves, even when that god is perfectly open to visitors and/or feedback. and this is bad because despite the gods no longer being Physically human, they are still just as fallible - they have a tendency to jump to conclusions, they let their devotion to their interests or one another cloud their judgement, they struggle with showing vulnerability (which, ironically, makes them more vulnerable than they would be otherwise.) not only does the grove benefit from regular contact with the gods to make sure that their needs are being met -- it benefits the gods, too, by way of keeping them from getting lost in their own heads and losing touch with their own humanity.

i think it's also worth noting that the bizzyboys are not the only characters we see buying into fascist rhetoric, or at least stuff that benefits fascism in the long run. you could argue that anyone who bought into inspekta's framing of king in the first place also counts, given that to do so would probably Also require one to believe that the gods are infallible. it's also worth noting that a Lot of the more notable supporting characters who fall into this are also doing so out of a profound sense of alienation; saul can't remember the last time he talked to any of his friends and he thinks nobody takes him seriously, pollina's students don't sound like they're being taught much of anything about milldread's history and therefore they have very little to actually connect them to milldread, nobody likes rick brick and he has no interiority to speak of By Design, etc etc. all of these characters, however, are also treated with a fair amount of empathy - ol' bloom turns out to be Correct in believing that saul doesn't have what it takes to kill him and once the issue of the harvest is solved, he's welcomed back with open arms, pollina's students are like 8, and even rick brick's story ends with him beginning to realize that maybe it's okay if a story only appeals to its author and nobody else.

tl;dr: if ggg was even Slightly less cartoony than it actually is, this aspect of inspekta would come across as pretty jarring, but given the aspects of fascism that GGG chooses to focus on and how it treats smaller antagonists, i can't really imagine inspekta's story ending any other way. if i Did have any actual concerns, i'd say maybe it's that the bizzyboys being from the drain + the drain having such a negative connotation can get kinda dicey? something about the idea of fascism being an Evil Foreign Entity and not something that can just as easily start at home doesn’t sit quite right with me. but ofc a lot of emphasis is placed on the bizzyboys' humanity and potential to do good if not for inspekta's own Complexes getting the better of him (and even inspekta's own genuine capacity for leadership before that happened) so that's probably more of a potential bone to pick with fanwork, given how little exploration drain actually Gets in canon.

also i hope this doesn't Need to be said but just to be clear: i'm not trying to like, call out limbolane or Inspekta Himself, just examining what this aspect of his character was trying to Accomplish + how it relates to the game's themes and such. with that said i am very much still a novice when it comes to political analysis of media so if anybody more well-read than me wants to chime in, Please feel free to do so lol.

[plushyparfait]

DEATH NOTE UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE AU (because why not?)

part two :: Matt, Beyond, A

part one w/ Near, Mello, L

Random headcanons & art

Matt

1. Matt likes to randomly challenge his professors to game matches just to avoid a test or assignment if he wins. Usually it's a 50/50 chance of it working and lecturers usually humour him since his grades tend to be quite decent

2. Refuses to vape and prefers smoking actual cigarettes because he rather die from lung cancer the 'normal way' like God intended.

3. I can see Matt being an atheist, usually attending mass with Mello out of pure interest and just straight up supporting his friend.

• As a kid, he used to believe in God and was really moved by the worship music. When he went to his first concert, he realised Hatsune Miku gave him the exact same feeling and hadn't believed since (coupled with other things).

4. He’s made it a game to see how long he can stay silent in group projects before anyone notices.

• Matt doesn’t like participating, so he tests the waters to see if his classmates will handle everything without him. So far, it’s worked.

5. No one actually knows what Matt's natural hair colour actually is- not even Mello. he's constantly dyeing his hair different colours every week that people reckon he's actually just Ramona Flowers in disguise. (ps, it's red.)

6. Can't dress for shit and picks whatever. He's usually a big fan of collecting meme shirts for shits and giggles.

7. Matt started speaking in brainrot terms because he knows it annoys the fuck out of Mello but it's gotten to a point where it's become un-ironic (???) and he genuinely can't stop.

8. Mikami's made it his life's mission to uphold Matt's ban from the campus library after setting off the smoke alarms ONCE after taking a hit in the library.

• Matt didn’t expect anyone to notice since he was tucked away in a corner by a window, but when the alarm went off, he disappeared before they could pin it on him (everyone knows it was him).

9. Matt is actually a really great cook and likes to sometimes change up Near's meal regimen because he pities the little cotton ball and doesn't want him to starve or make himself sick from eating take out all the time.

10. Matt has an army of Roombas in his dorm that he’s programmed to follow him around, but they mostly just get stuck on furniture.

• He thought it’d be cool to have robot minions, but they’re more of a nuisance than a help. Still, he refuses to admit it was a bad idea.

Beyond/BB

1. BB sometimes appears out of nowhere, crouched in doorways or dark corners for the love of the game.

• He enjoys startling people with his sudden, animal-like movements, especially when they’re not expecting him to be around.

2. He has an entire series on his other/side YouTube channel where he investigates urban legends on campus—most of which he started himself.

• BB’s fans love the bizarre mix of real crimes and made-up stories, and they can never tell what’s fact or fiction because he's just a little too good at spinning tales.

3. BB has a habit of chasing people on all fours when they ask for directions, leaving them terrified and confused. Sometimes he also likes to chase little Firsties or new Professors.

• His preferred method of interaction is making people uncomfortable, and he gets a kick out of their reactions.

4. He sometimes posts the occasional odder than usual video on his main channel, keeping his video vague enough to leave people wondering if he’s the criminal he’s talking about.

• BB’s unsettling delivery and cryptic hints make viewers question whether he’s discussing a real case or something more personal. It's a bit harder to guess when he doesn't outright state names and locations etc like he does most of the time.

5. BB likes to lie and say that he's a vampire as a way to hit on people, touting it as the reason why his eyes are red.

• Since Shinigami aren't a thing here, alongside being L's younger brother, I like to think Beyond is just albino and won't admit it, preferring to spin tall tales about himself instead and dyeing his hair to support his nonsense.

6. BB is actually really good skilled at hacking and likes to leave papers he accesses on lecturer pcs with ominous comments just to mess with professors' and students’ heads.

• He’s notorious for leaving cryptic messages that leaves people more confused than when they started.

7. BB initially dyed his hair black to try and appeal to A since it'd make him look more like L.

• A and L usually had hung out (in the loosest way possible) and BB was usually present during study sessions when A came over. He'd noticed how A used to seem a bit obsessive over L, mistaking it for love and BB thought if he emulated L as much as possible, A would turn his sights on him instead but it didn't click until a bit later that it'd only turn him off. He's slowly trying to learn how to be himself.

8. He's so crazy over strawberry jam or anything related to the fruit to the point you can smell him coming before you see him since he's too sweet. His clothes are guaranteed to be covered in his version of the holy grail without fail.

9. BB's anger usually spikes during exam season— usually it's a manifestation of his anxiety and he's especially unwilling to be reduced to second best. Pity the poor things who incur his wrath at its peak. Kiyomi's hair's short for a reason. BB managed to chop it after she made the mistake of talking to him whilst he was busy.

• He does love L but also has developed a rivalry with his older brother. Constantly being pitted against him and being compared to him growing up has turned his view of their relationship into one of slight resentment and frustration, and his anxiety makes him snap at random, refusing to be reminded of his academic shortcomings if he fails anything.

10. Refuses to sleep in his dorm bed: BB sleeps on the floor, saying it makes him feel more “in tune with the earth.” People think it’s just part of his vampire act or something, but he insists it’s better for him

A/Adam

1. Adam somehow ended up as the student body president, though he’s not really sure how it happened, and now he’s stuck organizing events he doesn’t care about.

• His natural charisma and general attractiveness made him a shoe-in for leadership, but it’s more of a hassle than he expected...

2. His room is spotless, in stark contrast to L's if Mr Wammy doesn't send someone out to clean it. Adam insists it helps his mental clarity. (That boy is just a neat freak).

• He has high expectations for himself and his space, and cleanliness helps him manage stress.

3. Adam organizes casual debate nights at a local pub, where students get together and argue philosophical concepts over drinks.

• He enjoys intellectual challenges and has a natural ability to facilitate conversations.

4. Adam frequently debates professors in class, not out of disrespect but because he genuinely wants to dissect their arguments.

• He has a deep need for knowledge and constantly questions authority to understand the reasoning behind academic opinions.

5. Adam has a quiet job at the library where he mostly reads between shifts and helps organize study materials for students.

• The library is a peaceful escape, and the job allows him to focus on his own work while earning money.

6. He has a strong coffee addiction, probably worse than Light. Adam is always drinking coffee, often with a book in hand, claiming it helps him stay awake and focused on his many responsibilities.

• His drive to excel academically and socially often leaves him with little sleep, so caffeine is his lifeline. It's either that or he wheedles weed off of Linda.

7. Adam is always on top of his assignments and known for being the “responsible one” in group projects.

8. Adam’s competitive streak extends to physical activities, so he took up fencing as a way to channel his need for precision and strategy.

• Fencing fits his calculated, intellectual nature while allowing him to compete in a more structured environment.

9. He offers his time to help struggling students with work, often staying late to give them extra support.

• Adam has a natural inclination to help others and finds fulfillment in seeing his peers succeed.

10. He secretly wants to reconcile with L. Adam’s relationship with L is strained due to their competitive history, but deep down, he wants to mend it and stop viewing L as a rival.

• His maturity has grown, and while the rivalry fueled him for years, he recognizes that there’s more to life than competition

NEXT :: MISA , KIYOMI, LINDA, REM

notes: can you tell who's my favourite?

[mirroredmemoriez]

I always have thoughts (I can't be asked to rename this- Rigged traps and etc thinking)

We discuss Amanda rigging her traps so much and it has to be one of the most depressing aspects of her character. It’s somewhat obvious that she doesn’t actually think she should’ve survived her own test, which is why she doesn’t believe that anyone else should either- Amongst other factors.

I sometimes wonder whether she’d come to this conclusion without having to go through as much as she did. For example, if Gabriela hadn’t died and let’s say Cecilia did? If Adam somehow escaped… Or was Amanda always destined to doubt John’s ideology and be doomed. The reason she stuck around was because of him really, not anything to do with the ‘’rehabilitation’’ of others. She always tends to react negatively in the face of any game too. With Saw X I think we literally get to watch any hope Amanda has for John’s methods be crushed. I always get confused with the timeline but with a quick search this movie falls between the first Saw movie and Saw 2… Anyway the bathroom trap, Amanda is quite removed from the game itself, even though she is slightly one of the reasons Adam fails with how carelessly she throws the key. The most hands on Amanda gets in regards to this test is when she brings Adam to the bathroom and then also when she returns to suffocate him. 

But if we look at the traps for the scammers? Amanda plays a very active role in their test throughout the entire process. She not only brings them to the location, but she interacts with them whilst they’re playing their game. Amanda seems to be rooting for Gabriela, being quite empathetic to the younger woman’s struggle with addiction…. And in a sense, Cecilia is Gabriela’s John? Because to me both Cecilia and John are kinda predatory, just in different ways.

John knew of Amanda from the fact she was a patient in the Homeward Bound Clinic, testing her in her own words because she was a ‘’fucking junkie.’’ So he puts this clearly mentally unstable woman in a reverse bear trap and when she survives the ordeal, John proceeds to use her misplaced gratitude to recruit her. However, I do think there is genuine care between them, it’s just a shame the one person Amanda latches on to is JIGSAW. Whereas with Cecilia, she targets Gabriela because it’s easy to hire an employee whose main focus and drive is money. You can say that’s most workers and sure it is! But addiction can blur and shift your morals by a lot. The same way that Amanda got Cecil to attempt to rob the clinic, I don’t believe Gabriela is focused on the good and bad of what she’s doing. She is purely focused on funding her drugs, making her very easy to be taken advantage of. This could have been Amanda in another life. 

Back on track though- Another little detail that always makes me sigh is the fact that Amanda likely was the one to put Valentina’s hair up for her. It’s such a simple consideration and that is what makes it all the more saddening to me. She then watches with her own two eyes, almost every single one of their deaths… EXCEPT CECILIA WHO SURVIVES AND IS THE REASON GABRIELA DIED. Shit man. I’d crash out too. Like, what do you mean the person behind the scam in the first place and who has just stomped on another human being's neck like she’s killing a bug is the person who wins this? What because she did it in the time frame? Because she physically overpowered the other person within her test and KILLED him. That’s who we’re letting out??? Gabriela won but died and even someone like Valentina actually was successful in cutting off her own leg, she just didn’t have enough time. Oh! Did I mention this happens in Saw 2… Like so much of this is a repeat. Xavier physically overpowers almost everyone else in that group, throwing Amanda into a needle pit and killing Jonas. Laura did about nothing wrong except shoplifting and having Eric frame her, yet she succumbs to the poison and dies in Amanda’s arms. Oh! AND SOMEHOW THERE IS A MINOR IN BOTH OF THESE GAMES, DANIEL IS JUST A FUCKING TEENAGER AND CARLOS IS A CHILD!!! DID I MENTION WE HAVE SEX WORKERS HERE TOO? BYE VALENTINA. BYE ADDISON. Oh and people being forced into traps not intended for them. Amanda was never meant to go in the needle pit and a whole CHILD shouldn't be BLOODBOARDED.

All of this is so close together timeline wise too. Amanda is catching no breaks and that’s why it’s not surprising given these circumstances that she’d become unhinged and start actually just murdering people. Might as well everyone else seems to be doing it and getting far. But, let's say things were different as mentioned. Gabriela survived… Laura survived… Adam survived…. So on so forth. Would she have her existential crisis crash out? Because her belief nobody changes is partially engraved in her experiences with others but also based upon herself. If she was helped the first time, why did she keep getting tested? If not the fact of her drug addiction, what was wrong with her? The fact she still self harmed even after surviving the whole ordeal with the bear trap? AMANDA WHAT YOU COULD’VE BEEN IF YOU LATCHED ON TO JILL INSTEAD.

Like I know it's because John's method worked in comparison to the standard rehabilitation but God.

[sof1eee]

What i think the squid game character's sexuality are:

1. Thanos: Bisexual

To be honest i feel like he could also be pansexual because i don't think he would care who he dates as long as they're hot and match his freak 🤷🏻‍♂️

2. Nam-Gyu: Gay

Idk man do I really need to elaborate further-more..?

3. Se-mi: Lesbian

This is just the same like Nam-Gyu, i can't really explain it but in what world do u see Se-mi and think "oh yeah she's straight" ? 😬

4. Gi-Hun: Bisexual

The tension he had with In-Ho and Sang-woo made me believe that this man is NOT straight. He's literally pulling all of the toxic man in the series 🔥😹

5. Sang-woo: Gay

Speaking of Gi-Hun..., Sang-woo is definitely gay bro, HOW DID HE NOT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND WHILE HAVING THAT FACE CARD? Also the tension with him and Gi-Hun?? Homosexuals. I feel like whenever people ask his sexuality he'll reply with "I'm straight" but deep down in his hearts... 👨‍❤️‍👨

6. In-Ho/Frontman: Bisexual

I don't understand why alot of people say he's gay when he LITERALLY HAD A WIFE??? He's definitely the same as Sang-woo, saying that he's straight, but unlike Sang-woo i think he would just say that he's straight because he doesn't want people to ask a million questions, not because of denial 🗣️

7. Dae-Ho: Straight

I haven't seen any signs of homosexualness from him in the series so I'm just gonna say he's straight. I've seen people ship him with Myung-Gi/Mg Coin and I don't really mind the ship but I don't think that would really fit his character (i do love the funny edits of them though 😋)

8. Hyun-Ju: Bisexual

Is it just me or am i seeing ALOT of bisexuals here..... , anyways she's definitely Bi, the characters that she get shipped with the most is literally Gyeong-Seok/246 and Young-Mi 😭. Personally i like 246 x 120 more because i see her and Young-Mi's relationship as big sis and lil sis, but I don't hate any of the ships. Also idk i feel like she gives Bisexual energy so bad 🙏🏻

9. Min-Su/125: ???

I ACTUALLY don't know his sexuality, like I can't figure it out. Genuinely. Many people hc him as gay but i don't think he only likes men, but i don't think he only likes women either. But i also don't think he's bisexual... SOMEONE HELP ME IN THE COMMENTS I CAN'T FIGURE HIM OUT 💔💔

10. Sae-Byeok: Lesbian

Genuinely, do i NEED to explain this???? Have u seen her with Ji-Yeong????? Idk what to say other then i miss her, she's in lesbian with Ji-Yeong and she's so hot 💕

11. Ji-Yeong: Lesbian

Speaking of Sae-Byeok! Her girlfriend are heree 💓💓💓, yeah no she's gay 10000%. I feel like we should've gotten more of her tbh, i feel like no one even remembers her backstory and her backstory ARE SO FUCKING SAD. Everytime anyone mentions her, it's always gotta be with Sae-Byeok. People don't really care about her character if Sae-Byeok is not involved 🫠

12. Ali Abdul: Straight

OKAY ALIWOO SHIPPERS PLEASE DON'T COME AT ME FOR THIS ONE 🙁🙁🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻, but like personally i always see Ali and Sang-woo as like big bro and lil bro, or just a platonic friendship. NOW LET ME REPEAT, I DON'T HATE THE ALIWOO SHIP, I JUST DONT SHIP IT. Also i miss Ali #bringbackmyman 😖

______________________________________________

Okay i think that's all of the characters that I remember from the top of my head, comment if i forgot any important characters 😋