#like I’m sorry but his radio acc broke me

[foreverfearlessred]

the way Logan’s instinct as soon as he had a pretty hard crash was to ask if he’d done something wrong actually crushes me

[aajjks]

okay…. I need to vent because yesterday on Twitter was wild…. I'm army and JK is my bias so far so good…. I've been in Army since 2015 so my connection with the BTS members is extremely important I love each one of them and I want to see each one of them stand out in the media but over the years, solos have gained SO MUCH ENGAGEMENT that it's something that honestly scares me A USA radio acc published a tweet (this was a few days ago ) (https://x.com/Z100NewYork/status/1762925637852168676?s=20) using #jungkookies as if it were the name of Jungkook's fandom and he never particularly addressed solos and always used ARMY or Jungkook from BTS to identify himself I quoted the tweet saying that Jungkook's fandom was the army along with the photo of his tattoo and I was blocked by SEVERAL accounts (acc dedicated to Jungkook… @JKGLOBALWEBSITE @DAILY_JKUPDATE @JKRADIOUPDATER @JJK_Times…. and others) I'm more careful with posts on Twitter, it's so cool to see a post dedicated to one of the members but when I go to search for this acc it's solo… usually I search for ''army, btssolo, stan and the name of a member, member go solo…'' several acc that were previously ARMYS became solo when they took on solo activities a classic example: @JeonEsHi97 I followed this acc since 2018 it was super respectable with BTS and it was ARMY but it was only Jungkook who had his solo era that this account turned out to be solo and anti BTS…..(other solos @jkmycrush @paradissejk @jeonlver_97) Now the part that hurts me… acc of armys with A LOT OF ENGAGEMENT using their focus and influence to fight every day with blink and exo fans…. this is so meaningless We should clean our house, getting the solos and multis (that discredit BTS) out of the way and ignore these stupid fights…. By 2025 I hope the members are stricter with solostan and make it very clear that there is only room for army I have NEVER loved any artist like I love BTS, they were the only artists I was really a fan of Please this is not hate, it's just a sad and heavy heart from an army that used to see the army as very intelligent but nowadays the army is so lazy and just likes to fight on Twitter…

last night before going to sleep I literally cried…. BTS and the members, they are what they are today thanks to the armys, and it's because of these people that maybe BTS can lose everything, many accounts saying ''ahh (member name) go solo…'' with more than 5k or 10k likes, there are 10k solos and multis who agree with this… and that's just on Twitter because it's on Instagram or Tiktok I hate what army has become…. it left room for solos and I worry about the direction of BTS…

I’m so sorry baby. It’s just so sad. What army have become? Literally I’m just a little sad that fans were making fun of him for being a cook in the military yesterday and that broke my heart because this is not what BTS has wanted from their fans. They have wanted all of their fans to love them as 7 and not just one member.

[nrjacobs-blog]

First post! The post that hurts the most.

So, this is my first post. I made this page so people could follow my footsteps for anyone who is interested in my journey from bum to someone.

I recently broke up with my girlfriend of quite some time. This isn’t really supposed to be a sob fest but the breakup was pretty bad. I had to leave the home we shared together in London. I had to quit my job (for reasons I won’t get into here!) and obviously worst of all, I lost the person I love and my best friend. You can’t really explain what it’s like to go from talking to someone everyday for the last 5 years to having no contact with them at all. It’s quite something I have to say and I don’t wish anyone through it.

So this leads me up to where we are at. I’m unemployed, homeless, and needing direction. This blog is as much as anything an open discussion regarding depression. Something that unfortunately I’ve suffered with for a number of years and I fear may have hastened the demise of my relationship.

My key aim is to show how, hopefully, with a plan and some direction anyone out there who feels lost or alone or sad can push themselves. I’m really trying to steer away from this being a cheesy, feel good thing with loads of montages of me running up staircases in the rain to an 80s sound track. Life isn’t all sunshine and farts and I’m very aware of this. I’ve been that guy who has just given up. Lying in bed for days, weeks. Fluctuating weight. No drive. No interest in my own wellbeing or safety. I’m no saint. I can’t lie and say this was something I convinced myself to do easily. I didn’t. I spent a good month after the breakup basically not living and simply passing time. I didn’t have an interest in having “another go at it” as everyone told me I should.

So as much as anything it’s a blog for family and friends and like minded people to try and keep me on track. Encourage. And also to help those who feel as alone as I feel sometimes. Let’s push forward together and see what we can do, eh?

At this current stage it’s Wednesday the 31st of May, 00:41 hours and I’m at my Dad and step-mums house in the village of Westonzoyland. Came here on Friday night so we could go to a gig together on the Sunday in the nearest town of Bridgwater. It’s a special place is ‘Bridgy’. You notice there is no 'E’ in the word Bridgwater and I notice there about 2 or 3 chromosomes too many in the people who frequent the town.

On the Sunday we went to said gig. It was good to see some live music. I’m a musician myself so I do enjoy a good live band. Maybe one day I’ll play you a song on here? (I won’t play you a song on here)

At the gig I met a girl working behind the bar. She was stunning! Blonde hair, no makeup on at all. Her skin was porcelain and had no imperfections. She wore dark red lipstick to accentuate her skin tone and her eyes were deep and blue. Huge eyelashes! Sorta eyes you lose a summer in as Morgan Freeman might say. Sounds better if you read that last line in a Morgan Freeman voice and pretend you’re in jail.

But anyway. Part of the new me I decided if, when we leave, I find myself one on one with this girl I’m going to ask for her phone number and tell her how beautiful she is. As we left the bar I knew she was outside and deep down I wanted her to be with someone to spare my blushes. She was alone…

So I waited and waited and then when I couldn’t wait any longer I finally drew the courage to speak to her. I approached her and said “This is a strange one and not something I’ve done before, but I just think you’re so beautiful. Do you think it wouldn’t be too rude of me to ask for your phone number?”

To my dismay she said yes! I handed her my phone and she proceeded to enter in the digits. She then said “You’re very brave” Winked and walked off back into the bar. I checked the number and it was, at first glance, legit. The right amount of digits. I saved the number. 'Rachel’ was her name or at least what she said it was in my contacts.

I text her that night. Giving her my name and apologising again for how I approached her. We text most of the evening until I fell asleep. In the morning I awoke to a text message from her explaining that she had tried to look me up on Facebook, twitter and instagram and her search had come back blank. I told her this was because I had no social media as I didn’t really believe it was healthy or natural. Something I’ve always thought ever since I had a MySpace page and felt like I was sat up for hours on end stalking a girl I was seeing at the time as she would go radio silent for chunks of time. I didn’t like the way it made me act so I deleted it, ended it with her and swore off it for life.

And from here on in the conversation slowly tailed off. She asked me to get snapchat. I politely declined. She asked me how she could trust me when I had no digital foot print online. I told her most of the internet is basically a who’s who of dirty old boys hiding behind avatars online, pretending to be sexy 16 year olds and pop stars (my god kids are getting sexier) and surely meeting me in person and asking me what she couldn’t find out online would be safer as she can see who I really am.

I was blocked today on iMessage and WhatsApp at 15.31 hours.

And the reason it seems was because I like my privacy and wish more people would appreciate theirs. I didn’t want to send her pictures of my head or what I’m about to eat. Or a meme of some kid doing a thing while holding a thing. And that was enough to deem me undateable. A really strange situation to find yourself in and, if I’m honest, one that made me quite depressed and low for most of the evening. I know I’d only met her once and if I hadn’t of asked for her number you never would of known what could of happened. But unfortunately not knowing anything in this instance is better than knowing something. Which seems so often the case these days.

Alas, depression still hanging heavy like a dulling wine I have to look to the next few days to keep my spirit up. I have been staying with my friend, Jane, since I returned to the southwest of England and it’s been fantastic seeing her again after too long without her. Unfortunately finding work in the area she lives is hard especially when you have no money to start with and this means I’m on the move again.

Tomorrow afternoon I move into my new home for the next few months with my Brother and his girlfriend. I can’t explain to you how excited and grateful I am for them allowing me the chance. It gets me closer to work opportunities and closer to good friends, and most importantly it gets me closer to them and makes me feel safe. And I cant stress enough how when you suffer from depression knowing that you’re safe and there are people you can talk to, or even just sit in silence with, can change your whole mindset for the better.

Ahhhh thank you, Jane! I will see you over the next few weekends to cook for you!

Finally, the main part of the blog. The direction part. When I got back to the southwest I sat at my mums house the first few days and had a good hard look at myself. I’ve never really done anything I wanted to do. Always changing my mind at the last second or encountering shit luck or playing it safe. I thought to myself “I don’t want to do this anymore.” I don’t want to be the guy coming home back to his mum and his dad with his tail between his legs and them thinking here we go again.

So I decided I was going to follow a dream I always had as a kid. To join the forces. I didn’t mind who it was, Army, Navy, the RAF; I was going to pick myself up off the floor, get fit and get out of here and do something meaningful with my life.

At this stage my applications are in with all three. The Army have got back to me and I’ve been sponsored to the Taunton ACC to have interviews, hopefully about going in as an officer. But if not I’ll be a grunt. I’m not choosey. I also finalised my RAF application to try and become a weapons operator working on aircraft. This has only just been submitted but I’ll keep you posted!

Sorry this was such a long one. It won’t happen again. But do check back to see my progress and hopefully have a good larf and some serious chats.

Love love Nicholas

[junker-town]

Ranking the 12 weirdest things about Florida State’s 2017 season

From internet detectives to discarded Christmas trees to one of the biggest collapses ever, the Noles had a bizarre 2017.

12. This one’s not weird by itself, but it’s important: Florida State was the preseason No. 3 team.

FSU’s usually ranked, but few of the following things matter without realizing how far the Noles fell over the course of the season.

They kicked off the season with the biggest regular-season opener in college football history, against No. 1 Alabama. In the fourth quarter, quarterback Deondre Francois suffered a season-ending injury, and FSU lost, 24-7. It all went downhill from there — by late September, the Noles fell out of the Top 25.

11. Jimbo Fisher got in a spat with an FSU fan in the stands.

After a close loss to Louisville which brought the Noles to 2-4, Fisher had, um, a moment with a fan:

Fan in the stands: "New Coaches, New Coaches!". Jimbo Fisher in response: "Bring your a@# down here and say that!". Whoa. FSU loses 31-28 http://pic.twitter.com/QJBCf9Kkz3

— joe rondone (@joerondone) October 21, 2017

10. This play happened.

This non-touchdown was the defining moment of FSU-Florida 2017:

9. FSU used to dominate Wake Forest and Duke, and now only beats them thanks to failed Hail Marys.

This gave the Noles their very first win of the season:

And they were tied with Duke at 10 in the fourth quarter, eventually winning by a touchdown thanks to this:

8. A fan got thrown out of Jimbo’s weekly radio show for asking him about rumors of his exit.

VIDEO: A Florida State fan gets kicked out of Jimbo Fisher’s radio call-in show after asking “where is the loyalty?” amid Texas A&M rumors. #Noles #Gigem http://pic.twitter.com/yYgfD7QWGY

— Safid Deen (@Safid_Deen) November 30, 2017

Jimbo Fisher on Sirius XM about fan being removed at coaches show: “The man asked a question, he deserved an answer. I’m sorry we did that. I am loyal. We’re busting our tails 16 hours a day. No decision has been made. We’re busting our tails to make a bowl game”

— Brett McMurphy (@Brett_McMurphy) November 30, 2017

7. The Noles got blown out by Boston College on a Friday night.

You might have forgotten about that one! In late October, Florida State went to BC with a 2-4 record. The Eagles wiped the floor with FSU, winning 35-3, scoring their most points ever against the Seminoles. The Noles were three games below .500 for the first time since Bobby Bowden's debut in 1976.

6. Jimbo’s damn Christmas tree was kicked to the curb.

In the middle of the Fisher-to-TAMU rumors, this gloriousness happened:

#FSU coach Jimbo Fisher has put his Christmas tree outside his house to be picked up as garbage http://pic.twitter.com/N0pgrdL0bN

— Wayne McGahee III (@WayneMcGaheeIII) December 1, 2017

He later explained on the Dan Patrick Show why:

“Well what that was, I had no idea, the guys who come to put my Christmas tree up that week, said they got it out, ‘Coach it’s broke,’” Fisher said. “What happened was, it was broke, so I put a new one up and he said ‘So we’ll get rid of the other one’ so they set it on the curb to be picked up. That was what it was — there was a new Christmas tree in my house; it’s still in my house in Tallahassee.”

“I didn’t throw it out,” Fisher continued. “I was actually at work, there was a group that comes in that puts the lights and everything across the house, because you’re always on the road recruiting. We had a group, the Espositos, that comes and does it, and they called me and said ‘Jimbo this thing’s over 10 years old and it’s broke up.’”

5. To keep up a record bowl streak, FSU had to reschedule its ULM game ... for ACC Championship weekend.

Thanks to Hurricane Irma, Florida State’s Week 2 game against Louisiana-Monroe was canceled, giving the Noles just 11 games. But to get to six wins and protect the streak, FSU rescheduled the game to Dec. 2.

All that trouble to get back to the postseason, and starters Derwin James, Matthew Thomas, Josh Sweat, and Ermon Lane are sitting out the Independence Bowl (which makes sense).

4. Fisher left before the regular season ended.

Coaches often change jobs before bowl games, but a recent national champ leaving with a home game to go? That’s a pretty new one.

On Dec. 1, the longtime Noles coach accepted a 10-year, $75 million deal to become A&M’s head coach. Even if FSU had matched the enormous offer, Fisher likely had no choice but to accept the Aggies job:

What I did find, however, was multiple players who stated firmly that they can no longer trust Jimbo Fisher, and that if he comes back, they intend to transfer. They spoke on the condition of anonymity.

“If he’s back, I’m out.”

This is a changed sentiment from earlier in the year, when I reported that they would plan to transfer if their position coach was retained for the 2018 season. Much of the staff should have probably been dismissed following the 2016 campaign, and the message has gone stale.

3. Months earlier, ESPN kinda predicted Fisher not making it through the ULM game.

During a commercial before the season, this happened:

Wait, is that a clay UL-Monroe fan blowing a clay Jimbo Fisher out of the frame? That’d be so weird if that were predicted in a commercial several months ago. Let’s enhance and see for ourselves.

2. Kicker Ricky Aguayo was suspected of burglary and ripping a turtle in half.

In February, Aguayo and two associates were found in an FSU fraternity living room, which had been ransacked. He told police that two months prior, members of the fraternity had jumped him for missing a key field goal. He was also accused of killing a turtle.

Warning: For animal lovers, this might be upsetting. From the FSView & Florida Flambeau:

Fraternity member Daniel Furmanski, who was awoken by loud "celebratory chants coming from the living room," spotted one of the football players holding the house pet turtle, named "Turntle."

Its shell was ripped from its body, according to the police report, and it appeared dead.

... The owner of the turtle, Tyler Carbonelli, Furmanski and the chapter's president Austin Burge, did not want to press charges. On Feb. 23, State Attorney Doug Hall, who oversees the misdemeanor division, declined to pursue the case because no one saw who killed the turtle.

1. Reddit declared the Noles bowl-ineligible.

It all has to do with Florida State’s FCS opponent, Delaware State:

Reddit’s college football page, r/CFB, presented data Thursday that calls into question whether Florida State is actually eligible for a bowl game. Let’s go through it.

FBS teams get to count one FCS win toward bowl eligibility.

The Noles were 5-6 against FBS opposition, but they also had a blowout win of Delaware State, a 2-9 FCS team from the MEAC.

That FCS win has to meet a seldom-cited requirement to count toward a bowl.

It has to come against a team that has used at least 90 percent of the FCS maximum scholarship total (63 per team) “during a rolling two-year period.”

I can’t think of a time this rule has been used to invalidate an FCS win. There are a few 6-6 teams every year that have beaten FCS teams, though.

Under this rule, it appeared Delaware State shouldn’t have counted toward FSU’s eligibility.

And then FSU hilariously released this official statement on the matter:

Statement from FSU regarding that eligibility deal: http://pic.twitter.com/NMh0Dvoa4k

— Corey Clark (@Corey_Clark) December 23, 2017

Going from preseason No. 3 to having to defend yourself against internet detectives in order to leave no doubt about your right to be in Shreveport, Louisiana, all after your national champion head coach left you before your hastily rescheduled game against ULM: officially one of the strangest seasons ever.