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floral-hex · 2 years ago

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5 hours of sleep. Woke up, hearing is a touch wonky. Instant anxiety. Tried to go back to sleep, but couldn’t calm myself, so after an hour of darkness and tinnitus, I took a klonopin, then got anxious over how I only have 14 left. Was it worth it? Would I have been fine if I’d just gotten up and walked around? More things to worry about, but it is what it is. Then breakfast, more medications, and finally I am (mostly) centered. Off center, but still close enough to call it a good shot.

Littlest brother has a chess tournament today and I’m going to lend my outstanding emotional support. Got my little bag with a couple of books, a phone charger, and snacks. It’s going to be a long day of sitting, but I’m excited to see how he’ll do.

I always feel weird saying this, but feel free to send any asks to help me pass the time, but really, I’ll be hunky dory without them. Okay, I love you, bye.

#like I kneeeeeew it was a long shot that my new meds could ‘fix’ my ears #but it’s still a kick in the butthole to wake up to your ears being bad #trying not to dwell on it #this is literally all I post about now. I’m sorry. it’s tedious even for me.#’so don’t post about it.’ buddy baby my love I must I just gotta I got nothing else going on but bitching #I’m chill right now #I can hear. I just kinda have bad uhhhh what is it called… words are hard to understand maybe. there’s a real name for it but oh well #this chess tournament is going to be looooong #like maybe 10-12 hours. and it’s out of town so I’ll be stuck #stuck sounds harsh. I want to be there. I love supporting my bro.#it’s just gonna be a lot of sitting for my poor butt #maybe I can knock out a good chunk of Nona The Ninth if I can force myself to read today #it’ll be good. it’ll be a good day.#there are cows outside in their fields. it’s gonna be a good day.#you can ignore this #text

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