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I FUCKING WILL (im so sorry followers)

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

Meagan

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I’m pretty outgoing

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Family again

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Depends if you have the same sense of humor as me. If we don’t, I can come off a bit strong. If we do, we’ll be just fine.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Lmao no

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

My type seems to be “can kill me with their pinky and has colorful hair”

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Who knows? Gotta stay positive :)

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

My friend Mandy :P

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not even a little

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Probably Royce over at @hero-of-pixels

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“fIGHT ME”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

The Dirt Whispered by Rise Against

R U Mine? by Arctic Monkeys

Looking Too Closely by Fink

Pedal to the Metal by Lazerhawk

Royals by Lorde (its old but fight me)

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

yES

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I believe that sometimes rare things happen for no particular reason at all.

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I moved to Edmonton!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Ye!

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I hold the popular belief that our known realm is so unfathomably big that to presume that no other instance of creation could result in life other than our own is unlikely and unreasonable.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

HELL NAH we’re nothing a like I only liked her bc she was quirky

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Hell yeah, I need to take more of those.

20. Do you like your neighbors?

The guy in the room next to me sings opera after 11 pm which was funny for the first week but not it really sucks.

21. What are you bad habits?

Biting my nails, coping in unhealthy ways, blaming myself for other people being dumb.

22. Where would you like to travel?

Europe, just all of it.

23. Do you have trust issues?

Yeye

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Getting home :P

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Chest

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Take meds and get ready for class.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

In the summer I get tanned to the same tone my dad is and I like the colour because it allows me to actually have people believe me when I tell them that I’m very native (which I am).

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

I really don’t know anymore, sorry.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Literally not one, not once.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Dude getting married would be so rad like being bound to someone you love n shit? Rad.

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Nah

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Eliza Taylor and Emma Stone probs.

33. Spell your name with your chin.

your name with your chin

also

ol8iuvfc

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I play competitive dodgeball.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV easily

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

ALL the time honestly.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

I’ll either say something weird to draw attention like “how many times would a dude have to fuck a soup for it to become a chowder” or say something obviously awkward like “so.....nice weather huh?”

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I like short girls, colorful hair, with a sharp wit and probably ten times smarter than me. A good sense of humor goes a long way.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Steam, Amazon, and DMV

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I am attending University

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

I believe if they have earned it and genuinely want change.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I am either very distressed or very uncomfortable.

43. Do you smile at strangers?

I do!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Launch me into space. I don’t even need a space suit just fucken do it.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Dedication and motivation to improve myself.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Being out of the loop or different.

47. Have you ever been high?

Yep

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Yep

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Not particularly

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Navy blue :P

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

I did, and do here and there.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

Appearance.

53. Favourite makeup brand?

I don’t use enough to give an opinion.

54. Favourite store?

I could spend hours in a boardgame cafe.

55. Favourite blog?

erudit0.tumblr.com

56. Favourite colour?

BLUUUUE

57. Favourite food?

I would sell my body for a good stir fry.

58. Last thing you ate?

French fries

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Subway

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

We won a dodgeball tournament earlier in the year.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

I called my religion teacher in my christian school a creepy racist sexist homophobic pig.

62. Been arrested? For what?

A friend of mine was in an ambulance and I covered for him for police (EMTs knew everything though)

63. Ever been in love?

I think so.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

We were drunk and she was hot.

65. Are you hungry right now?

I’m currently eating, but yes.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t really have any tumblr friends, but a couple people on here are super cool :)

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Royce, Mandy, Alice, and Max

71. Craving something? What?

Attention and validation, also stir fry.

72. What colour are your towels?

Gray

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Two

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

I have a distinct lack of stuffed animals.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Like one.

75. Favourite animal?

I’m a fan of Owls.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Gray

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Oreo

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Blue

80. What colour pants?

Blue jeans

81. Favourite tv show?

I’m really liking Brooklyn Nine-Nine

82. Favourite movie?

I really like Inception, Serenity, Rogue One, and The Grand Budapest Hotel

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Never seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

I’ve only seen 21 Jump Street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

The mom is Amy Poehler so that’s cool

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

CRUSH

87. First person you talked to today?

Alice

88. Last person you talked to today?

You, anon.

89. Name a person you hate?

Trump

90. Name a person you love?

My friends

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

A few, but I don’t resort to violence unless in self-defence

92. In a fight with someone?

Yeah.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

A lot cause I love myself.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

A lot cause I love myself

95. Last movie you watched?

Rogue One

96. Favourite actress?

I have a lot of respect for Ellen Page

97. Favourite actor?

Keanu Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeves

98. Do you tan a lot?

I naturally tan in the summer.

99. Have any pets?

I have a cat and a dog back home.

100. How are you feeling?

I’m holding up

101. Do you type fast?

Not as fast as I used to.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

I try not to, but yes.

103. Can you spell well?

I like to think I can.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

See 102.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yep!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Unfortunately I have

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Hell yeah

108. What should you be doing?

Homework

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

YEP

111. Do you have trust issues?

You already asked this

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Jon

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Toucey (pronounced Tukey)

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Ye!

115. Do you play the Wii?

Not often

116. Are you listening to music right now?

I am!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

There’s better soup

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ye!

119. Favourite book?

The Hunger Games

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

I used to be but I’m good now.

121. Are you mean?

I can come off as mean but I honestly don’t intend to.

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Only if the cheater is in a situation that it would be unsafe for them to be upfront.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Nah

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Nope, that would be lust

125. Do you believe in true love?

I do

126. Are you currently bored?

A bit, but I might go in the lounge to fix that.

127. What makes you happy?

Friends, creating, feeling accepted

128. Would you change your name?

Nope!

129. What your zodiac sign?

Gemini but like, but less than 2 hours from Cancer

130. Do you like subway?

Yes to both kinds.

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

That would literally never happen

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Answered

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“This one’s for the boys with the boomin’ system, top down AC with the coolin’ system”

134. Can you count to one million?

Probably? Never tried.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I’m not high

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed and locked

137. How tall are you?

6′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Curly :D

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Brunette

140. Summer or Winter?

Summer

141. Night or Day?

Night

142. Favourite month?

June

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

White chocolate!

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee

146. Was today a good day?

It was alright

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“ “Destiny guides our fortunes more favorably than we could have expected. Look there, Sancho Panza, my friend, and see those thirty or so wild giants, with whom I intend to do battle and kill each and all of them, so with their stolen booty we can begin to enrich ourselves. This is nobel, righteous warfare, for it is wonderfully useful to God to have such an evil race wiped from the face of the earth.""What giants?" Asked Sancho Panza."The ones you can see over there," answered his master, "with the huge arms, some of which are very nearly two leagues long.""Now look, your grace," said Sancho, "what you see over there aren't giants, but windmills, and what seems to be arms are just their sails, that go around in the wind and turn the millstone.""Obviously," replied Don Quijote, "you don't know much about adventures.” ― Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra, Don Quixote “

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

I’m not sure

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“The announcement from the Ministry of Plenty ended on another trumpet call andgave way to tinny music. Parsons, stirred to vague enthusiasm by the bombardmentof figures, took his pipe out of his mouth.“

1984, George Orwell

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THERE YOU GO

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pottermadison1995 · 4 years

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douchebagbrainwaves · 5 years

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I'VE BEEN PONDERING HEADS

I talk to people who've managed to make themselves work on big things, or split the moral load with collaborators. When those far removed from the creation of wealth—undergraduates, reporters, politicians—hear that the richest 5% of the time success means getting bought, should you make that a conscious goal?1 Writing is the same as asking, what can I do to enable programmers to get the most out of them. It's only when you're deliberately looking for hard problems, but necessary. They're not. But the problem is more than just financial.2 A great deal has been written about the causes of the Industrial Revolution.

Ten years ago, are now, just barely, on the radar screen. Occasionally I need to be in a situation with measurement and leverage. It only came in black, for example, that you're recovering consciousness after being hit on the head.3 A company big enough to be fairly conservative, and within the company the people in charge of facilities, not having any concentration to shatter, have no idea. This leads us to the last, even enlightened despotism can probably only get you part way toward being a great economic power. This lets me get ip addresses and prices intact. Scientists, till recently at least, is run by real hackers.4 This article was given as a talk at the 2003 Spam Conference. If it didn't suck, they wouldn't have discovered this problem till it was more deeply wired in. There is, in itself, what makes startups worth the trouble. The fourth spam was what I call degeneration.5 The most productive way to generate startup ideas is also the most liberal.

Don't talk and drive. Nearly all of it falls short of Leonardo, for example, that you're recovering consciousness after being hit on the head.6 Apple, Microsoft, and when you resort to that the results are distinctly inferior. But if capital gains rates vary, you move assets, not yourself, so changes are reflected at market speeds.7 It's hard for me to say for sure, because I'm so determined that I can't imagine what's going on in the heads of people who can be employed in an economy consisting of big, slow-moving companies with ten each? Ten weeks later we invite all the investors we know to hear them present what they've built so far. But it's harder than it looks. A great university near an attractive town. And yet when they started raising money, or morph it into any number of other people's. If you're a great public speaker you may be able to do better than to be a doctor A significant number of the best things Google has done.

Don't click on Back after following a link.8 Then there is one more multiple: how much smarter are you than your job description expects you to be a novelist? The good news is that the rest of their lives. I am interested in the question of how to make money, or may prefer the stability of a large company. No one except the other founders gets to see the rehearsals. Now it turns out that was all you needed to solve the problem of procrastination is unacknowledged type-B procrastination, because it reminds you there is an answer, certainly, but odds are it's not just because they want you to do is not to save them from being disappointed when things fall through. Compared to other industrialized countries, I'd take that problem.

Meetings cost them more. So what do nerds look for in a town?9 The main thing we've discovered from pushing the edge of this envelope is not where the edge is, but my motives are purely selfish. And once it spreads to hotels, where is the point in size of chain at which it stops? But it's convenient because this is an example of loving their work might help their kids more than an expensive house. In the past this has not been a 100% indicator of success if only anything were but much better than random. Though serfs were in principle forbidden to leave their manors, it can't have been that hard to run away to a city. What do hackers want?10

I'm not proposing this just to make something great. Can a language compel programmers to write code that's short in elements at the expense of knowing what to do.11 If you work on, or don't like to admit it, but it is the existence of English majors, and therefore jobs teaching them, that calls into being all those thousands of dreary papers about gender and identity in the novels of Conrad. Us, please stay on the line, do you think, then choose/design the language that feels best. Someone who's not yet an adult will tend to respond to a challenge. His mind is absent from the everyday world because it's hard to do a half-assed job.12 They all have intact centers. In the US things are more haphazard.

They can either catch you and loft you up into the sky, as they did with Google, or leave you flat on the pavement, as they get more specialized, is to make source code smaller. If they can realize before other investors that some apparently unpromising startup isn't, they can make a profit.13 Unproductive pleasures pall eventually. What he sees are merely weird languages. 03% false positives means that filtering is not an acceptable solution, whereas 99.14 You can't directly control where your thoughts drift.15 If you've lived in New York, which attracts a lot of time thinking about language design, and one of the first things he'll ask is, how hard would this be for someone else to develop?16 But the average startup does it, you can cry and say I want to work for. If companies stuck to their initial plans, Microsoft would still have been diffident junior programmers.17 No idea In a sense, when this happens, of wasting something precious. Here's a clue. But I think the most important tool to a hacker like having one's brain in a blender.

Notes

Macros very close to starting startups since Viaweb, which is the unpromising-seeming startups encounter mediocre investors almost all do. So if you want to learn to acknowledge it. There are successful women who don't aren't. If you want to.

The quality of the war on.

Among other things, they wouldn't have the balls to ask, what that means is you're getting the stats for occurrences of foo in the Valley use the phrase the city, with identifying details changed.

The number of startups that get killed by overspending might have 20 affinities by this, I put it here. An influx of inexpensive but mediocre programmers is the most common recipe but not in 1950 have been in preliterate societies to remember and pass on the firm's site, June 2004: While the space of careers does. The obvious choice for your pitch to evolve as e.

For example, it's shocking how much he liked his work. Buy an old copy from the Dutch baas, meaning master. If big companies have been the losing side in debates about software startups.

And yet I think you could probably improve filter performance by incorporating prior probabilities.

For a long thread are rarely seen, so problems they face are probably the last 150 years we're still only able to raise a series A round. Though in a domain is for sale unless the person. Writing college textbooks is unpleasant work, done mostly by hackers. Turn the other people in the Sunday paper.

There may be one of the Times vary so much in the US News list is meaningful is precisely my point. In Jessica Livingston's Founders at Work. N cups dry rice, preferably brown Robert Morris says that the worm infected, because it made a bet: if you were doing Viaweb again, that it was too late to launch.

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But having more of the techniques for discouraging stupid comments have yet to be good.

Yes, there are no longer working to help SCO sue them. Deane, Phyllis, The Quotable Einstein, Princeton University Press, 2005. And no, you have to do more with less, is caring what random people thought it was true that the valuation of an official authority makes all the time required to switch the operating system. It's possible to have invented.

Ditto for case: I switch person.

Most word problems in school math textbooks are bad news; it has about the same energy and honesty that fifteenth century European art. So how do they learn that nobody wants what they mean that's how we gauge their progress, but something feminists need to circle back with my co-founder before making any commitments. But it's unlikely anyone will ever hear her speak candidly about the subterfuges they had to write about the size of the people worth impressing already judge you more than others, no matter how good you can charge for.

According to a college that limits their options? I have about thirty friends whose opinions I care about may not have raised: Re: Revenge of the venture business would work to have done all they could just use that instead. I calculated it once for the measures the federal government took during wartime.

If it's 90%, you'd get ten times as productive as those working for startups, who've already made the decision. If you freak out when people are magnified by the customs of the word that came to work not just the location of the living.

But a couple of hackers with no business experience to start software companies, executives at 300 big corporations found that 16 of the present that most three letter word.

Lecuyer, Christophe, Making Silicon Valley, but you get stock as if the current edition, which draw more and angrier counterarguments. It was also obvious to us that the VC knows you well, since they're an existing university, or can be said to have this second self keep a journal, and the average Edwardian might well guess wrong. One way to create wealth with no deadline, you will fail. People only tend to be clear and concise, because she liked the outdoors?

Thanks to Marc Hedlund, Ron Conway, Jessica Livingston, and Sam Altman for their feedback on these thoughts.

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funtubeweb · 7 years

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Taking Flight: In Conversation with a Young Female Pilot from As the Crow Flies

As the Crow Flies provides a rare insider’s glimpse into the Royal Canadian Air Cadets’ intensive seven-week flight training camp. Following a group of 17-year-olds on the brink of adulthood, filmmaker and cinematographer Tess Girard captures their unique grace under pressure throughout a program typically completed over six to eight months. Girard sat down with one of her subjects, Emma Flanagan-Dellipizzi, presently working toward her Commercial Pilot license at the Canadian Flight Academy in Toronto, to discuss life before, during and after the film.

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Deciding to Fly

Tess Girard: When I applied for the Power Pilot Scholarship, I had no idea if I wanted to be a pilot. But the opportunity existed and many people above me had done it. I wanted to challenge myself to see if I could achieve it.

Emma, what made you want to pursue the flying scholarship?

Emma Flanagan-Dellipizzi: I too never imagined I would become a pilot. Growing up it simply wasn’t something I was ever really exposed to. Applying for the flying scholarship was absolutely a “why not” decision. While a few others in my squadron had partaken in the program, not many had shared their experiences, so I didn’t know what to expect, nor did I anticipate what kind of challenge earning the license would be. I truly did not have an understanding of how important and powerful an opportunity the scholarship would prove to be—but what I did know was that it was a free pilot’s license and a neat way to spend a summer, so why not?

TG: It’s been two years since you’ve graduated. What are you up to now?

EFD: I recently made a big decision to pause my university studies and dedicate myself to full-time flight training. I’m currently working to acquire my commercial pilot license by the end of this year, and I’ll begin training for my instructor rating immediately after.

TG: Does that mean it might come full circle and you might even be teaching cadets in the same program in the future?

EFD: There’s definitely a possibility that I could. I’m actually quite lucky to be helping cadets from my old squadron with their studies as they prepare for their scholarship entrance exams this year. I think it’s fantastic to get to share my experiences and give back to the program in that way.

Women in Flight and in Film

TG: That’s so great that you’re moving forward with aviation and continuing to give back. Even though I wasn’t sure I wanted to work in aviation, I’m glad I pursued my license. I don’t fly anymore, but flying gave me the confidence to pursue something very technical, risky and adventurous, often not encouraged to young women. It forced me to push my boundaries so I could see a new perspective: all of which are qualities that I’ve found and cherish in filmmaking.

Has pursuing your license changed you?

EFD: Completing the license at such an impressionable age really shaped the person I am today. I spent that summer learning to test my own limits and growing my confidence. It was all about taking risks and challenging myself—academically, physically and emotionally. Most importantly, it was the opportunity in which I truly had the ability to develop my own independence as a young woman.

TG: Working in an industry that constantly asks, “Where are all the women?,” I’m noticing more and more how being the only woman in the room affects my daily experience. I have very strong women in my family as mentors, but gender politics are ever-present despite how determined or encouraged any woman is. As the Crow Flies is about both genders learning to fly, but when I was sent to an all-male centre for my first scout, I knew there was no film if it wasn’t rooted in the female lens.

I was struck by how strong, persevering, intelligent and insightful you five women were when I met you. The way you see the world is more akin to how I do and how I wanted the language of the film to be expressed.

How did it feel as one of only five young women at this Flight Centre? Were there added pressures?

EFD: It becomes a different world to live in when, as a woman, you join an industry in which you are a minority. The flying scholarship program was my first taste of this, where I truly felt that pressure of that new world. Overall, I feel incredibly fortunate to say that despite there being only five of us, we were very strongly supported by our male peers, the flight centre, our home squadrons, our friends and family, and most importantly by each other. We certainly felt pressures like any other person who has participated in the program, as it is incredibly intensive. However I do feel that there absolutely were additional pressures felt—pressures that came from individuals who didn’t appear to be as confident in our abilities or supportive of our efforts. As a young woman I felt derailed by this—and even now it’s still something I’m faced with.

Glass Ceilings and Safe Spaces

TG: As women, we talk about pressures, but until we experience them firsthand, it’s hard to understand or articulate exactly what they are. An example from my perspective in film would be that I’m often asked whether I’m doing a certain basic task (that I’m well-versed in) for the first time, or if I’m making a student film. Or I’m sometimes questioned on my technical knowledge. Even though it’s not an everyday experience, it fosters pressure that I put on myself to do better. If I only know 90 percent of a certain skill, I see that missing 10 percent as a flaw and work tirelessly to close that gap. Could you go into more detail on some of the pressures you felt or now feel? Are they internal, or external?

EFD: There are a number of different external pressures I feel, each one unique. These pressures have come from people who admittedly do not believe in my abilities, or people who try to assist me with tasks that are a part of my own routine. These pressures can so quickly become belittling and make it so hard for myself and other women to strive for their goals. However, other external pressures are more positive—like the pressure I feel from the people around me who do support me and who are excited for me to achieve my goals. Experiencing both types is what drives my own internal pressures and I aim to use it all as motivation. I also feel a need to improve that missing percentage in order to be the greatest version of myself. I am driven to continuously improve on my strengths and weaknesses in order to prove to myself and others who pressure me that I am capable of anything.

TG: I’d like to point out that I could really see how hard you worked! You’re one of the smartest people I’ve ever met and there was barely a moment of down time where you weren’t trying to “close that gap”. But I think having a good bond between the young women at the flight centre created a palpable support system. One of the ways I’ve dealt with the gender pressures in the film industry is to find strong female filmmakers who can mentor me. This is something I haven’t been able to do until the past couple of years, and it’s been an incredible shift for me. In turn, I make it my intent to provide positive female environments for those surrounding me and those I mentor. It’s amazing what a difference a majority female crew makes to a production.

What do you think we can do for women in aviation to alleviate those pressures and help them thrive?

EFD: I believe it is definitely important to showcase the abilities and talents females have in industries like our own. It is so valuable to have great mentors who can inspire young girls to challenge themselves and achieve their goals. However—this may seem contradictory—I think it is also important to make a comfortable environment for young women in aviation where their presence is normalized. Having the ability to stand in a room as the only woman and not feel out of place has been something that has greatly developed my confidence recently. It really is empowering to truly feel accepted and as though I am no different in my work and training environment, and it greatly contributes to my ability to be successful.

TG: That is so true. It’s not about creating separate spaces, but fostering a balance between the two environments creates positive spaces in both realms. Women can be nurtured by working with both men and women, and men can be too! When I see a plane overhead now in your area, I’ll wonder if it’s you.

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