#like 10 months and 24 days rn

[unicornsaures]

the date ill be 1yr clean from sh is slowly approaching and im viewing it as a sort of doomsday as if im gonna implode on may 1st or something. Like girl as if youve been able to say anything above 2 weeks clean in the past 5 years? Anyway happy 10 months and 24 days clean for me

[fiendir]

4.30 am insomnia thoughts hitting real hard tonight huh

[charmedreincarnation]

Hey, guys! I've been receiving a ton of messages in response to my last post. It's reminding me of how I first discovered shifting. I feel like doing a little story time since Ive just passed the three-year mark of my discovery, and I've been reminiscing with friends about it.

I remember being in a very dark place when I stumbled upon shifting. I was depressed, and very suicidal. Yet, there was this unshakeable optimism inside me that I was meant for an extraordinary life. Despite my mental state, I had a lot of knowledge of subliminals and the law of attraction (-_-). These gave me hope, but they weren't enough tbh. I didn't want to attract my dream life through practicing gratitude or becoming a magnet for my desires or whatever. Nor did I want to have to listen to subliminals for years on end to achieve my goals. My list of desires was so long, and I needed everything to change that going step by step and waiting years for each one to manifest just wasn't feasible.

But I refused to give up. One day, after a particularly hard day of being sad per usual, I searched on Quora for something like "fastest most powerful subliminals on YouTube ever" (Y’all 😭😭). Among the recommended sub creators, I found a video called "Desired Life: Reality Shifting". The description promised everything I had ever wanted: waking up with all your desires fulfilled permanently in short. It piqued my curiosity so much. Could I really just wake up with my dream life, family, house, wealth, all based on my scripts and imagination?

Growing up, I was a heavy maladaptive daydreamer. From ages 10-17, I created alternate lives in my head, telling myself I would go there someday. I was always doing SATs (State Akin to Sleep), and I think that's what kept me from ending it all. I was constantly in the wish fulfilled state, even though I didn't know what that was at the time.

Back to my story, I went into the comments of that video and came across a guy who claimed that after a week of using this subliminal, he woke up with a new life as a multi-millionaire living in his dream penthouse. I messaged him, and he gave me his Instagram which showcased his luxurious life. He had what seemed like a perfect relationship, he was very attractive, had so many cars, and travelled 24/7 while having a six figures amount of followers. He was living proof that this wasn't just scripting. Also the law of attraction community is known for their mad expensive coaching.. like hundreds of dollars per hour for questions and he was answering it all for free something I didn’t see the law of attraction community. And I talked to him for hours! He never got mad, he had proof, and he was kind, proof and the behavior of someone who really had mastered the art of life.

After our conversation, I spent the next couple of months doing research. I found numerous stories about glitches in the matrix, accidental shifting, people entering parallel realities, and eventually, shifting communities on platforms like Amino and Reddit. It was stuff I already believed in and did in my imagination; I just didn’t know there was a term for it.

Then I got reminded of a memory that I had seriously repressed bc it was so fucking weird. When I was 6 and my brother was 3, we were absolutely obsessed with dodo birds. One day, we were outside playing, and on god time seemed to stop. Out of nowhere, a dodo bird appeared. I know you’re probably like “maya be so fr rn you were a kid” but no, This wasn't just our young imaginations running wild - there was a bird that was huge, dinosaur-like, exactly how dodos are described in books and pictures we had.

Then things got weirder. Suddenly it started raining eggs. Big, large eggs everywhere it was so gross and my brother and I were a mess. We were young, sure, but not stupid. We knew this wasn't normal. My brother and I rushed inside to tell our dad. When I managed to drag him outside, he was furious, accusing me of throwing eggs everywhere. To this day, he tells the story of the time I "trashed the backyard with eggs." And every time, I'm like, "Dad, where would I get that many eggs?" We didn’t have eggs but so he assumed I stole them and we went inside for hours and it was magically cleaned. So he also tells the story of how responsible I am and how I took accountability for my actions even as a child. I didn’t clean that shit bro and I tell him that too and he just laughs it makes me so mad.

My brother, who knows I'm into reality shifting (though he doesn’t really believe in it), can't explain that day either. He often shrugs it off as a "glitch in the matrix," which honestly, well no duh it is a shift dummie. He does believe in manifesting but only bc he has seen me use it and he experiences the good things I manifest as well. They’re the same thing anyways but that isn’t the point

The reason I'm bringing up this bizarre childhood memory is because during my months of research into shifting, I found countless stories of accidental shifts, people entering the void, entering parallel universes, time glitches, examples of the Mandela effect first hand, glitches in the matrix and etc. It was like uncovering a myriad of experiences that confirmed what I already believed: we can change and choose our reality. I just didn’t know the phenomena had a name. Obviously in the future I came across other things like the law of assumption, the void state, etc etc but this was where it started.

I wish I had saved all those fascinating stories, posts, and blogs. I might go back and compile everything I found because they were so real and enlightening. It will probably take forever tho if I do choose to do that, but I think it's worth sharing.

In the meantime, check out this accounts of accidental shifts that my friend shared with me this account https://instagram.com/tessicavision?igshid=OGQ5ZDc2ODk2ZA== based off the Glitch in the Matrix subreddit which is also a goldmine of people experiencing similar phenomena. It helped me make sense of my own experiences and might do the same for you.

I don’t want this to be too long and I already got to the point I think! but regardless stay curious and realize you’re really not that special. I mean ofc you are, i mean this is not some tumblr thing teens girls discovered or created and isn’t even limited to “spiritually/manifesting inclined people” I think at the beginning of my journey people talking about accidental shifts and such, inspired me more than purposeful success stories because they really have no reason to lie and they were looking for answers just like I was.

[awsugar]

you guys will never guess what happened to me...i was supposed to have my first real day back at work today 10-8, im dedicating myself to being on time and really putting myself back into my work to start off on a good foot after disappearing for 2 months without advance notice anyway so at 10pm last night i went to take out the trash so i could get ready for bed. early! responsible! and well the front door locked behind me. i had no phone, no wallet, no keys nothing. i panicked, i banged on the door bc ppl live in the two floors below me as well, rang their doorbells multiple times, tried to slide down the windows of my car from the outside somehow 😭 nothing worked. i walked around for a little while to see if there was anything open that might have a phone. there wasn't anything, i know the bar is around the corner where they know me but i didn't want to go there bc i was in my PAJAMAS. BRALESS. but eventually i had to go. a girl let me use her phone my mom didn't answer but the bartender gave me two cut credit cards to try and break into my own apartment 😭 and so i walked back and i tried i tried so hard that i scraped a layer of skin off my knuckle but i didn't get in, so i went back to the bar and the girl let me use her phone again, called my dad and he called and got me a triple a membership (a LOT cheaper than the fee to call the leasing agent after hours for a key) called triple A at midnight cause they said it had to be "next day" to use it 🙄 explained that i had no phone! im abandoned. they said around 2am so i said ok, i went back and sat and waited. by myself btw in the dark with nothing on me and no one and btw it was cold last night!!! i became so delirious and tired and it hurt so bad sitting on my steps for that long i stood for a while too but my feet hurted. FINALLY it was light out i walked to wawa 5 blocks called triple a again they said the person came at 335am i said lmao they didn't bc at 327 i was standing in the road watching every car go by just in case cause i was hopeful! a guy had walked by at that time and i just asked him what the time was so i know it was 327 they did NOT come at any point i watched every car no one stopped or slowed down and there was no triple a logo. anyway they said ok you're back on the list they'll be there about 45 min. i called my dad to let him know he said he hadn't slept cause he hadn't heard from me btw it's 7am now. been outside for 9 hours. and i told him im gonna have to call and let my boss know that it's not possible for me to come in today and he starts yelling at me! i said im not arguing with you on the wawa phone rn. walked back and sat and waited some more. and then before triple a got there the girl who lives on the 1st floor came out! magically! to go to work! and i was like oh my god. i went inside but. I KNCKED SO MUCH I BANGED I RANG THE DOORBELL she was in there the whole time. i ignored my parents telling me i had to go to work bc i was like. what part of me being awake outside in the cold by myself and awake for 24 hours makes you think im gonna go to work and make that 36 hours..btw didn't get to take my meds last night either! so i felt awful. my feet's were absolutely killing me, i was dead exhausted, still cold from being outside, i have BRUISES ON MY BUTT from sitting on the concrete steps. i texted my boss like hoping she would have a shred of humanity i said im willing to work 10 days straight idec im about to die and i would be a zombie if i tried to come rn. anyway im sure she wasn't pleased but she didn't fire me and i know my hours for tomorrow and sunday. and yes. anyway. i've been through so much. god forgot about me.

[apalapucian]

PEOPLE I WANT TO KNOW BETTER

the wonderful @lilyflower28 tagged me :) thank you

Last Song

pink pony club - chappell roan

Favourite Colour

right now it's pink i think! it changes a lot

Last Book

the last book i finished was rf kuang's yellowface, but what i'm reading rn (and what i've been for like. more than a month now) is elif batuman's the idiot

Last Movie and Last TV Show

technicallyyyy new girl but i'm not inclined to make it count because i watch this damn show practically every day! i've developed an unfortunate habit of having to have something on while i eat and it's almost always new girl. i have watched all of its seasons probably 10 times this year that way. besides that, my last proper tv show watch was a rewatch of the kdrama start-up.

according to my streaming site subscriptions the last movie i watched was hannah montana and miley cyrus best of both worlds concert the movie :')

Sweet/Spicy/Savoury

sweet after savory

Relationship Status

ask @onepiecepsychosis :)

Last Thing You Googled

on my phone: "24/7 cafes bgc" lol. on my computer: "bellybob" (a restaurant in manila)

Current Obsession

short-form content cooking videos (particularly gillie's)

Looking Forward To

13th month pay and my 3rd christmas with my cat 💜

tagging @cdailaincao @annabtg @kayrma @themaraudershavethephonebox @florenceafternoon @tinyluminaryzombie @all-things-jily @tedwardremus @constancezin (sorry and pls ignore if you've already done it and i just missed it!) and whoever else sees this and wants to do it, just tag me pls so i can see 💜

[multi-lefaiye]

haiyaaaaa what have i missed on the Multi's Soap Opera (i cant think of a funny name for it)

hiiii hello hello! most of the multi lefaiye soap opera is stuff i don't really wanna share on tumblr bc it concerns some private stuff with some irl friends and loved ones that i don't wanna share without their permission, but just know it's been a wild time. a lot of it sounds fake even to me. just a couple weeks ago my glasses blew off my face during a storm and shattered on the ground, and that's not a joke.

but one thing i have no problem sharing is absolutely wild work stories. so here's a list of things that have happened so far in the eight months (wow) since i started this job (i work at a storage facility rn):

within my first week i found a briefcase full of drugs on the property. the guy who owned it ended up taking it back before we could really do anything about it, though.

i witnessed an actual physical assault. like... straight up, someone was attacked and beat up right outside the office. i still don't really know if the perpetrator was found or anything but i know at least the victim was safe in the end.

the power went out while i was working alone and the building was pitch black for like 24 hours. yes i was still expected to stay in the building until closing time. yes it was kind of terrifying. yes there were Noises.

just a few months back, we found out one of our customers had been storing human ashes in her unit. y'know. like from cremation. she was storing two urns full of People and then one urn full of Dog. and we know that bc the unit was foreclosed and sold and those were found inside. they've been just chilling in our personal company storage spot because we don't know what to do with them but we can't throw that out. or, rather, we COULD, but we both feel weird about it.

not as fun, but i've been sexually harassed by a customer once so far, and it was a weird as hell experience. 0/10 do not recommend.

answered a phone call from a customer one day to hear him just. loudly crying on the other line and telling me that it's a bad time and he can't talk right now. still not really sure what happened, but he's okay now as far as i'm aware.

it's not as common now that i've worked here for a while, but i still sometimes feel like i can hear people talking in the building when i'm supposed to be alone, or sometimes i think i see people moving out of the corner of my eye. doesn't scare me anymore at least.

anyway yeah i've been thinking on the backburner for a while about a workplace horror-comedy story taking place at a storage facility.

the coolest update in the multi lefaiye soap opera (tm) tho is that i'm on testosterone now! i'm slowly growing a mustache!! waow!

but yeah :3

[v4mpsofi]

ear stretching journey

!!please don't do what I do and have patience!!

yall I finally got to 6g and omlll the stretch made me wanna cry and I cant get my plug in through my right ear idk why, left ear was fine so I'm sitting here with a taper in my ear and my ears are throbbing from the jump (1mm jump), I cant wait to keep sizing up, rn my goal size is 0g but I'm probably gonna go up from there unless I like the size.

(update I got the plug through, thank God)

(update 2, its been around 3 days since I got to 6g and my ears are both bleeding and right especially has pus coming out and I'm scared but I cleaned my ears, put coconut oil on and threw the plugs back in cus I do NOT want to size down)

(update 3) its been around a week or 2 since I got to 6g, they are slowly healing from the blowout, my right ear looks so icky but they don't hurt anymore, I am still cleaning them up to 3 times daily!)

(update 4) I stretched to 4g around 3 days ago and it went in perfectly fine, pinched a little, but it hasn't blown out or anything, no swelling, pain, or tightness! I'm really happy and shocked, this time I used olive oil instead of coconut oil to stretch and It went in way better and easier!!

(update 5) guys don't hate me please my ears were perfectly fine like no tightness or anything and going to 2g definetly hurt a bit and are a little swollen looking but I will take extra care of them, idk why I rush this process, I'm just dumb please don't be like me and take your time, I think I'm gonna wait now for a bit to let 2g heal fully

(update 6) right ear (both) blew out and had to downsize it to 4g but left is still at 2g, its on me for not being patient, but hope to have it back to 2g before I go on vacay (July 16th)

stats

start: 5/6/24 (14g)

status updates:

6/10/24 (6g)

6/26/24 (4g)

6/30/24 (2g) (right ear blew out so its at 4g)

i forgot the dates of when I stretched to those other sizes If I figure it out I'll add it (ps I didn't realize I got to 6g in a little over a month guys..)

[mdmszee]

SIMS GET TO KNOW TAG 🙈💭

ahhh thank you so much for tagging me @weindenburg !! love answering questions like these :)

1. What’s your favorite sims death? death by being hysterical bc that’s the best way to die haha

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? i am very much a maxis-match girly! no shade to alpha cc, just not my style :P

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? nooo, not at all, i want the game to be as realistic as possible!

4. Do you use move objects? yes! building without it is a legit nightmare

5. Favorite mod? i can’t choose just one but my top three favorites are UI Cheats, More CAS Presets and anything from twistedmexi!

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? wasn’t too long but I got the cats and dogs expansion pack bc i was so hesitant to make all my sims have pets hehe

7. Do you pronounce "live mode" like aLIVE or Living? LIVing

8. Who's your favorite sim that you've made? so far, it’s the lovely Mona Kaiser! idk but it’s like she came out exactly how I pictured + literally every outfit goes on her perfectly she’s just so ahhhh 🤭

9. Have you made a simself? yes I did! and I’m really happy with how she came out and I’m starting an LP on her :)

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? clumsy, socially awkward, loyal

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? it’s gotta be either the third brown color swatch or the last blonde swatch that looks like a light blonde!

12. Favorite EA hair? i don’t have all the expansion packs yet + I mostly use cc hairs 😗

13. Favorite life stage? INFANTS AND YOUNG ADULT >> but tbh as long as I have the long lifespan setting on, I enjoy all of them bc I accomplish so much more stuff

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? 10000% in it for the gameplay! I suck at building so I’ll download anything from the gallery + edit it as quick as I can so I can jump back into the game!

15. Are you a CC creator? nope but I love supporting them ! <3

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? I’d like to think I have a few, yeah! I’m a newbie on here so I’m making my way as I go + I’d love to connect with more simblrs!

17. What's your favorite game? sims 4 hands down

18. Do you have any sims merch? nope!

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? not yet but I’m thinking of starting pretty soon sooo 👀

20. How has your "sim style" changed throughout your months/years of playing? it’s gone from completely vanilla to obsessed maxis-match connoisseur

21. What's your Origin ID? mdmszee 🪴🫶🏾

22. Who's your favorite CC creator? can’t choose one, but here’s a few: @dogsill @aharris00britney @christopher067 @imvikai @greenllamas @simstrouble @nucrests @softerhaze @clumsyalienn @oakiyo @okruee and a bunch more that I can’t remember rn but anyone who makes maxis-match cc has my heart >>

23. How long have you had a simblr? since February! I’m not new to sims, I’ve known + played the game since 2013 💀

24. How do you edit your pictures? sadly I don’t edit pics yet but I’ll probably end up using photoshop just to tweak some things bc reshade carries most of it

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? growing together, cottage living, seasons, snowy escape, island living, parenthood, spa day and outdoor living :)

26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? all of the ones I listed up there ^^ but in terms of what I want from the sims team - an expansion pack centered around kids bc they’ve been neglected for sooo long

I had a great time answering these questions! I’ll definitely do an updated version for some of the questions on here if I’m up for it 👀..

I’ll tag @d4isy-nukes , @edenella , @towniediaries and anyone who wants to participate! <3

[myrdiary]

02/10/24 | entry #01

general thoughts and feelings:

today i went to disney on ice! vv fun. def reccommend. but not what im here to talk about rn. i absolutely cannot stop thinking about Bobs Burgers. its my MAJORRR hyperfix rn and im all about it.

i started planning a fanfic?? its rlly good but idk if ill write it tbh, im not that great w following through w my ideas. after this post im gonna obsessively read the wiki and make notes. then im gonna draw.

"draw what?" you ask? literally anything related to bobs burgers. i made a morning kisses drawing yesterday, today i might just draw them and their restaurant (like the intro) as a whole. thatd be so mega fun actually

also yk when you watch a show for so long that you pick up on their speech patterns? thats literally me rn like actually. my speech pattern is closest to tina or bob with the excessive amount of "uhm"'s and pauses in ym sentences. and this digital diary is kinda like tinas journal that everyone reads

sometimes i wish my family was like hers but other times i appreciate what i have. they have such a perfect and supportive family dynamic that i cant help but be jealous sometimes. most of my thoughts are comparing the two, but i know that reality will usually win. well i think thatss all until i add a "p.s" at the end

overall emotions for the day:

pretty good! im very sickso i woke up a few times in the night so i was a bit upset about that but itll be okay once i get over my sickness

academic items:

mr conrad gave us this major lab to do to prepare for our simple invertebrates practical. it has like. over 40 items on it! me and arianna are working together. it was supposed to be me and lexie and arianna, but since sierra o left for disney, ashley joined our group. me and arianna dont like her mainly bc she doesnt do any work when shes supposed to.

religious thoughts:

started an online bible course a few days ago! hoping to continue it when im not so hyperfixed

writing goals:

plotted that fanfic i was talking about! its called "veiled lament, chromatic whispers between twilight" and it only has 10 plotted chapters but i wanna turn it into a big thing.

i keep seeing this fic called "Baby Steps" for zekina and im sure its great but the author posts so much smut with the fic and i am so. against that. mainly because theyre minors

language goals:

started latin a few days ago. havent done anything else with it besides organize resources

self care goals:

got my new mary kay skincare set! trying to use it every night

shadow work:

havent touched anything witchy in 2 months

other:

attempting to shift tonight!!! i wanna be at hogwarts so bad

[moondrop1simp]

I wanna die rn👍😀 so basically here's the explanation:

So I wanna commit suicide bc I hate my body and everything abt me..most of my "friends" wouldn't and don't care if I commit my BFF has been treating me super toxic and we used to date even though I'm in elementary ik im 10 but to have this much pressure put on me and having depression and anxiety just makes it more worse I feel like a sl#t bc I cut my wrist and cry stay up all night waste my days on Roblox listen to music all day and chugging Gatorade bc I don't have energy anymore I wanna die but my friends on Roblox would be sad and depressed bc I'm dead so I'm only alive by one little thread..yk how when u break a rubber band..? Thats the thread of my life keeping me alive even though I hate my body I'm bullied 24/7 and just...yeah.. also today I stabbed my finger with a stapler gun and it was in my hand, I told my mom AND QUOTE ON QUOTE SHE SAID THIS.. "well u wouldn't have been stabbed by it, why would u do it anyways??" ..WHY WOULD I DO IT PURPOSELY THE ONLY REASON I STOPPED CUTTING MY WRISTS IS BC SHE FOUND OUT AFTER 7 MONTHS... SHE ALSO SAID THIS WHEN SHE FOUND OUT.. "I know what ur going through." HOW WOULD I KNOW U DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME... I HATE HER I HATE SCHOOL AND ALMOST EVERYONE IN IT I WANNA KMS I HATE MY BODY I HATE MY PARENTS I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME... here's some gifs...

[xpiester333x]

And finally, to complete my yearly game posts, here's what I plan on playing in the year 2024:

1. Assemble With Care - a short little game I should be able to knock out in a few hours but I picked it up in a bundle and I have wanted to play it so I will try to knock it out this year.

2. I'm more than half way done with Baldur's Gate 3 but I likely will be playing it through January. I hope to finish it at least once before P3R.

3. Bloodborne - help.

4. Borderlands 2 - since I had such a blast playing Borderlands with my boyfriend this year, I'm looking forward to giving this game a second chance and hopefully enjoying it much more.

5. Borderlands 3 - a little less hopeful for this one, since I haven't heard much good about it, but might as well knock out the main franchise.

6. Boyfriend Dungeon - I just got this for Christmas and I'm excited for the concept of romancing my weapons :)

7. I'm also more than halfway through Catherine, so I also intend to finish that in the coming month.

8. Cat Museum - something cute and short I picked up on mega sale and want to make an effort to play this year.

9. The Coffin of Andy and Leyley - I actually have no idea what this game is about or if I'll like it but it was a gift so dammit I'll play it.

10. Dragon's Dogma 2 - Dragon's Dogma is easily in my top 10 games of all time, and I am SO hype for this game. The only downside is it's coming in March, and the first quarter of 2024 is pretty PACKED with games for me.

11. Etrian Odyssey - because I never finished it when I owned it on DS but I'm in my Atlus Games era rn so

12. Far: Lone Sails - I was drawn to this game for the art and it seems like a quick little experience of a game.

13. Final Fantasy 16 DLC - blanketing over the currently available DLC and the up and coming DLC.

14. Hades - a carry over from 2023's list but THIS WILL BE THE YEAR (maybe)

15. Haven - I don't think (?) this game is very long but it looks very heartwarming so I'm here for it this year.

16. Little Nightmares 2 - another fairly short game that I have no reason not to play, especially when I'm obsessed with the first one.

17. Little Nightmares 3 - I don't know what the release date is yet but like Borderlands let's try to close out a franchise!

18. Metaphor: ReFantazio - it doesn't even have a release date and I'm already excited about it.

21. Nier Automata - another carry over from 2023, but I have a good feeling about it this year.

19. NEO: The World Ends With You - I hear only good things about this game but I will be walking into it 98% blind.

20. Nightingale - Idk how much I'll actually play this game but my friend and I have been watching its development for years and we are READY

22. Nier Replicant - I watched a friend play some of this and it looked fun, and since I saw it was free on PS plus... why not.

23. Octopath Traveler - this is to feed my JRPG addiction but break up some of my Atlus obsession

24. Opus: Echo of Starsong - This was a gift like 2 years ago and I really want to play it through this year.

25. Persona 3 Reload - I ALREADY TOOK VACATION FOR IT IM SO READY 38 MORE DAYS

26. Persona 4 Arena - Because I think it's the only readily available Persona game I haven't played yet.

27. Sea of Stars - I'm more than half through this too, I stopped playing it to play Tactica so I'll be finishing this soon as well.

28. Shin Megami Tensei 3: Nocturne - I put a fair amount of time into it this year, and I adore this game. I'm finishing it next year.

29. Shin Megami Tensei 5 - for real this year, I promise (🤞)

31. Undertale - why have I not played this? Why did it sit on my list last year untouched? Why did I install it and never play it? The world may never know.

30. Soul Hackers 2 - because again, I'm in my Atlus Games era and I bought it this year so time to play it.

32. Untitled Goose Game - for casual hijinks

I'm even more ambitious this year than last year and thats without knowing even half of whats to be released in 2024 sooo wish me luck.

[romanticly-yours]

100 questions abt me:

1. What is your best friends name? I don’t have one

2. Year you were born in? 2011

3. What are you listening to right now?  Lucy In The Sky With Dimonds by The Beatles

4. Whats your favorite number? 7

5. What was the last thing you ate? Cake

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Purple

7. How is the weather right now? Cold

8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?  My godfathers

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair

10. Do you have a significant other? In my dreams

11. Favorite TV show? Daria

12. Siblings? 2

13. Height? 5'1

14. Hair color? brown

15. Eye Color? Brown

16. Do you wear contacts? no

17. Favorite Holiday? Ieroween

18. Month? June

19. Have you ever cried for no reason? Ofc

20. What was the last movie you watched? Twighlight

21. Favorite Day of the Year? halloween 

22. Favorite season? fall

23. Fav anime? Ouran Highschool Host Club

24. Hugs or Kisses? I’ve Never Been Kissed™ but I’d love to have cheek kissed over hugs

25. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla

26. Do you read? Ofc

27. Fav fanfic trope? Older brother of best friend

28. Fandoms you're in? MCR, FOB, PATD, Paramore

29. What books are you reading? The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

30. Piercings? ears

31. Favorite movies? The Perks Of Being A Wallflower or Almost Famous

32. Fav song rn? Gypsy-Fleetwood Mac

33. What were u doing before this? Tumblr

34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter

37. Dogs or cats? both

38. Favorite flower? Roses

39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? who hasn’t

40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? I used too

41. Have you ever loved someone? Yeah

42. Who would you like to see right now? DamonFizzy or GWay

43. Pizza or tacos? Pizza

44. Pronouns? She/her

45. Do you like to travel by plane? No

46. Right-handed or Left-handed? right

47. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2

48. Are you missing someone? Yes

49. Do you have a Tattoo? No

50. Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with? No

51. Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? If it’s open I don’t bother closing it

52. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? Yes

53. Do you use neos? No

54. Do you have a typing quirk? Yes, sadly

55. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No but my dad has, I want too

56. Who do you think reads these? me!!

57. Spotify or Apple music?  Apple Music bcz my dad pays 4 it

58. Where are you? my bed

59. What's your plan for the day? sleep, school, shower

60. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? No

61. Do you chew your pens and pencils? Yes

62. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Yes

63. What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? Sweat n sour soucs

64. Last person you hugged/kissed? My mom

65. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? No

66. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Monday

67. Are you lazy? Yes

68. Are you stubborn? Yes

69. Who is better...Markiplier or Jack? I never watched either of them

70. Are you neurodivergent? never diagnosed

71. Afraid of heights? yes

72. Do you think musicals are cheesy? yes but I’m still in theatre so

73. Is Christmas stressful? yes

74. Coke or pepsi? Pepsi

75. Major annoyance right now? My cds are at my grandmas in a different city

76. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Vet

77. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes

78. Ever have a deja-vu feeling? All the time

79. Do you take a medication daily? My iron medication

80. Wear slippers? no

81. What do you wear to bed? comfy clothes idk

82. OTP 4ever? i still don’t know what otp means

83. Worst fandom you been in? Danganronpa

84. Cheetos Or Doritos? Cheetos, the skinny ones

85. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Sunflower seeds

86. Ever hear of, "dn"? Deez nuts

87. Ever taken martial arts? no

88. Hair up or down? down

89. Can you curl your tongue? Yes

90. Tiktok or vine? Musically

91. Ever cried because you were so happy? Probably

92. Minecraft or Roblox? Idk

93. Did you have a gacha-life phase? Yes

94. Regularly burn incense? What

95. Ever been in love? Yes

96. Hot tea or cold tea? sweet tea !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

97. What type of kid were you? I was always the weird kid, I still am

98. Are you silly or goofy? goofy forsure

99. Milfs or Dilfs? no

100. What type of mom are you? I haven’t even had my first boyfriend yet

[xomoosexo]

normally i’m like “eh people complaining about a lack of content are allowed to feel frustrated because it’s kinda true” but right now i’m like ???? what do you mean lack of content??? sapnap uploaded an amazing dteam video and george streamed 4 days ago. before then we got 4 streams from him in europe, and one each from dreamnap. not to mention the vidcon/twitchcon panel content that they didn’t stream themselves.

i dont know. maybe i have a better memory than others but i remember having barely any content for months in 2022, like there was a whole month of nothing from George last year. that is not what the past month(s) have been like at all.

maybe i’m also older and busier. time goes a lot quicker the older you get and the busier you are, so for me honestly the amount of content recently has been so good. it feels a lot more frequent than it probably is, because my mind isn’t occupied by them 24/7 anymore.

yes sapnaps video is one of their best videos in months I was really happy with it. I've already rewatched it!

I think people had these huge expectations about what would happen after the meetup, and then that didn't happen. and then people were like okay there's no Internet and this and that are happening, and they are spending time hanging out and feeling out their friendship irl, and spending time with other friends, and dream is finally able to travel and so on. but now that it's been almost 10 months since the meetup and they are together at home and I guess it feels less transitional? I think it does kinda feel like there's nothing to actively look forward to except drusic rn. which makes people feel restless. I still think people forget like 6 dteam streams this past month is pretty good I'm happy with that!!

[x-neurotoxin-x]

I only have like 30 followers on this blog rn but was inspired by a system mutual and the idea was too funny to pass up. Putting up our systems top ten fronters this month and y'all decide who gets to rights /j

1. Sidney 🌹: Bitches 24/7, somehow got host rights. "Didn't ask to be here, i was fine with being a fragment."

2. Nikki ✨: hyperactive scene kid stuck in the 2010s. Too nice for her own good and I fear one day she'll snap and destroy us all /hj

3. Jax 🐍: Local cryptid that was dormant for 10 years and now is very confused.

4. Lee 🍴: resident cannibal /j that turned out to be a caretaker for some reason. Actually does his job.

5. (Erm... Not telling you his name) ✴: Gatekeeper that does not mind his own business, eats too much candy.

6. (Also not getting her name) 💝: Identity issues and gender crisis personified

7. Ember 🐉: pissed all the time, I think they're secretly a softie. Clowncore.

8. Jane 🐣: likes baby dolls and blankets, girlie needs a break. It's all fun and games until the psychosis hits.

9. (not getting this one's name either) 💀: spends 70% of fronting crying on the floor and having a mental breakdown, the other 30% is dedicated to thirsting over horror movie killers that'd torture them and being a cunt /affectionate.

10. Zack 🔗: Lives like he's surviving in the apocalypse, surprisingly responsible and resourceful. Doesn't like any of us but please front more.

[phantomswolf]

here, i answered the art questions

1. Art programs you have but don't use

aseprite, krita (nightmare to draw in), i used to have a totally 100% absolutely-not-pirated copy of photoshop but not anymore

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

depends on the day, but usually the left. i hate doing side profiles tho

3. What ideas come from when you were little

A LOT. but my story Nightfall has been a work in progress since I was 11

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

GORO AKECHI PERSONA 5

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

i hardly post most of my art on Tumblr atm, but that’s because almost all of it regards the Kirby Gemini AU and my partner and i are making a blog for that. so, as a percentage for the last few years, i’ve probably only posted maybe. less than 1% of my work?

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

honestly a lot of old emo art fksbfjfbd jhonen vasquez was a huge inspo to me for a while

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

PLUSH MAKING AND FURSUIT MAKING god i wanna learn but i don’t think sewing is my thing

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

i’ve had a lot, but i wanna keep them to myself in case I wanna salvage bits and pieces

9. What are your file name conventions

Depends on the day and the art piece but usually shit like “sorry if this looks gay”, variations of AWOO, “normal”, “k i l l”, “straight people”, etc

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

Uhhhh armor (i say like a fucking freak)

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

this nightmare of a playlist

12. Easiest part of body to draw

Uhhhhhhh depends on the day, usually the face

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

iunno, i don’t think abt that

14. Any favorite motifs

A LOT. i cant think of any specific ones rn but i guess. religious imagery is pretty baller. that and super dark palettes with bright neon highlights and accents

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

my room for digital stuff, but i usually bring a sketchbook with me if i’m going out

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

oughhh coloring and shading

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what

usually water. hydration is important 👍

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken

traditional, i have no clue. too many. digital supplies uhhh i didn’t break per se, but two art tablets have given out (my first one lasted years, but the second only lasted a few months coz it sucked booty hole)

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

TREES.

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

expression work!

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

my partner’s style!! i love it so fucking much

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

i do a lot of hand stretches. carpal tunnel was too much of a bitch not to

23. Do you use different layer modes

all the time! always for shading and for glowing bits. multiply and add glow layers my beloved

24. Do your references include stock images

sometimes yea lol. i don’t use refs as much as i should tho

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

Too much for me to be happy about it.

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

i drew a vent piece and people took it as me just being edgy. wild times

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

somedays i do. usually just shitposts or my sona

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

i have participated in 1 (one) collab

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

uhh ace attorney and persona

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

is it weird to say a lot of my works? like the finished ones. iunno, i feel like i get overlooked a lot and it’s a cowabummer

[shapeforcesthemind]

Hiiii thank you @sahtrn for tagging me ^_^

1. Are you named after anyone?

Nope

2. When was the last time you cried?

Probably like a month ago? I don’t cry a lot unless i’m either extremely angry or even more depressed than i usually sm

3. Do you have kids?

Yes!!! Two birds ^_^

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Depends on who i’m talking to but overall not really

5. What's the 1st thing you notice about someone?

I hate making eye contact when talking to people so i usually notice something like their hair first

6. Eye color?

Brown

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies obviously :p

8. Any special talents?

Not really :\ i wish though. For what its worth i want to learn how to do card tricks lol

9. Where were you born?

USA babyyyyy

10. What are your hobbies?

Reading, video games, watching movies, listening to music almost 24 hours a day. I want to start drawing/writing again, and maybe learn an instrument one day

11. Any pets?

Two very dusty and very cute birds (cockatiels if anyone is curious)

12. What sports do you play/have played?

I was a really shy kid in school and kept to myself so anything like sports was usually out if the question for me. I did like playing basketball with my friends once in a while though

13. What's your height?

5'2” (or 157 cm)

14. Favorite school subject?

English/history/art

15. Dream job?

I never know how to answer this, but jobs i wouldn’t mind having are working in a record store, book store, or something related to horror whether its movies/publishing/magazines etc

or something with medieval history since its something i'm deeply interested in. i might go back to school for it one day but its not really an option rn