#like ?? I'm so fucking tired but I can't sleep either

[foreverxdaydreaming]

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[rejoiceandcomplain]

are u ever just like. biting and clawing like wow I've GOT to get out of here!! but the here is just the inside of your brain?

[medicinemane]

Should make a pain killer that actually kills (or even touches) pain

[vvitchy-succubus]

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[running-in-the-dark]

my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.

anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.

[fantabulisticity]

And now I've spent TWO HOURS writing and trying to post a vent post instead of sleeping. Because tumblr fucking sucks. Thanks. I'm going to bed now.

[pansylocket]

lying here on the verge of tears because i woke up two hours before my alarm and i don't want to go into work today

[lucyvaleheart]

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[kinetic-elaboration]

The university decided that the weather was bad enough that they should encourage us to go home early but not so bad they'd close the whole thing down (why not? because they're stingy fucking bastards is why not classes aren't even in session, every school in the area closed early, and it's a period of like... 2-3 hours at issue), and I'd already submitted my time sheet because I'm a responsible employee, so my supervisor said she'd send it back to me and I could edit it--because again I have to use leave even though I left early because it was literally a fucking rain and wind shit show out there and not just for fun--but she still hasn't. And I'm so tired. My whole body hurts. I just can't handle this anymore. I need a nap. But I can't nap because I have to fix my fucking time sheet which is due in 20 minutes but I can't edit it because it hasn't been kicked back to me and I hurt so much.

I feel like I should wait it out to six and then figure whelp she forgot and it's too late now, deadline passed and then just put my measly fucking 90 minutes of leave on my next time sheet even though I should have just been given the time because you know what we're all gonna die eventually and this is the stupidest FUCKING shit to be nickel and diming people on. WHO CARES WHO CARES WHO CARES if I'm paid for a whole day when I went home 90 minutes early. You literally already own my whole soul.

[martsonmars]

desperately trying not to have a panic attack about university hehehe

[rapha-reads]

My mother cheating on my father with a guy 30 years younger than her and when we tell her it's disgusting and unacceptable she tries to justify herself like "Oh, this is so Christian moral and catechism puritanism from you" and "This is the patriarchy that's talking".

.... Are... Are you trying to justify your CHEATING on your husband since 1990 on feminism and freedom? ABSOLUTELY THE FUCK NOT, YOU WILL. She thinks she's not in the wrong because, what, fuck her Christian education and she's a woman, she can do anything she wants ? Is she FUCKING KIDDING ME???

YOU CHEATED, YOU ARE CHEATING, YOU'VE BEEN CHEATING FOR MONTHS, YOU FUCKING JERK.

You hurt your husband, you threw him out of the house, you hurt your children, you think you can come back to my father's village? Your youngest daughter is TWELVE, and you're hurting her so much she's bottling everything in so well she could win an Oscar already, AND YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS OKAY AND YOU HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG OR MORALLY REPREHENSIBLE ?

What sort of fucked up imaginary world are you living in that cheating is acceptable. For heaven's sake. She had the galls to tell me "adultery is banal, it's ordinary, everybody is doing it, it's not serious; don't be so dramatic". *screams* Hi, hey, if everybody is jumping off the bridge, are you going to jump too? Have you not PAID ATTENTION? Wars, murders, catastrophes have been done because of CHEATING, it is not a MODEL, it's a warning!!! Wtf, wtf, WTF.

I'm tired, I'm so tired. I have a thesis to write and I can't bring myself to work because my mother is throwing away all her life, acting in a shameful and unacceptable way, and disrespecting her family. My grandfather and my uncle and aunts aren't aware yet, but when they learn, oh boy, they might jump in a plane for Morocco to go yell at her.

Anyway. I'm having a real bad time these days and my only solace, my only salvation, are my sisters and my brother.

[casmybelovedass]

Can my roommate please stop fucking randomly crying every other night PLEASE just go out for a walk like I do I'm so fucking tired

[noxtivagus]

i love. fiction. it distracts me so much 🥹

[insidious-wizard]

[kneworder]

i live in a duplex and last night our downstairs neighbors had the most heinous argument we've ever heard them have it went on for three hours you could hear them yelling all over our house including the second floor. from what we could tell by shamelessly eavesdropping it seems there were cheating accusations on both sides. they also have a toddler who must be running around in lead boots at all times because you can hear him thumping about concerningly late into the night. tonight they have been blasting music so loud it was audible upstairs. not their favorite just dance songs like usual -- they're big fans of todrick hall apparently, we hear the nails hair hips heels beat through the floor constantly -- but just plain old bass boosted music. it is 2:30 in the morning. need you to know that my incredibly brave housemate (a college student living off campus in a house with friends) marched down there to ask very politely that our neighbors (a couple in their early 30s with a toddler) please please please turn the music down because we're trying to sleep and got an "................okay...." in response. i feel so fucking bad for that kid and honestly for that couple too (especially the woman, that argument was brutal) because they're CLEARLY going through something but like. i also want to go to bed.

[featherymainffins]

Binge-reading Dungeon Meshi because it's the only thing standing between me and suicide ngl.