[Day 135] "Me paps took me on a long journey across the black isles when i was a child. It was one of me fondest times" or small ren because i rewatched third life and couldnt stop thinking about how much red king ren talks about his childhood
I recently feel so strange about having a simblr, because I just.. I feel like I'm in a time loop, like time is non-existent thing for me and I just don't have any energy to catch up with the posts and how fast and how much is everything progressing and going. I just can't, and it's really difficult for me to force myself to catch up, I hate myself for it since I want and always wanted to be in this community, but it all feels so intense and strange for me, I just... I feel like I'm so far behind, like I need to stop being here because I'm too slow, too tired, too overwhelmed by everything maybe?.. I don't know what I'm really trying to say here, but like... I feel so out of touch or whatever.
Okay, so I didn't pass my dream school. I don't know if I should feel happy or not kasi hindi rin naman ako doon tutuloy if makapasa. I don't know maybe the reassurance that I was good enough for it would've been nice. Damn, I can't even push myself to be happy for those who passed. Or take them up on that recon LMAO. Buti na lang may Greening this week jusme
I want to share this with someone, unfortunately my friends don't play Skyrim
The random encounter inspired me to create this animation. I was once attacked by a Thalmor. My dog Meeko was with me, so I got the impression that the Thalmor were talking to him :]
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When I read the last upd I remembered this post ⬇️ and that's how I see both Leo's views on each other:
The way that P!Leo sees F!Leo as this kind of hero because he's the one who kept fighting for his family over and over again in the apocalypse, because even after all those years he tried his best to save them. I notice that P!Leo almost acts like F!Leo is not literally an older version of him, but some kind of superhero, he says "I'm the one who almost started the apocalypse, i shouldn't even have asked"as if F!Leo didn't actually start it, because he sees F!Leo by his actions IN the apocalypse. Like yeah, he did cause the apocalypse, but he also fought against it every second of his life, not only for him, but for the people that mattered to him as well. He grew up, stronger than ever, that's what matters. F!Leo is not a bad person, he was just sixteen, he didn't know any better at that point, but he dealt with the consequences of it, like a hero would do.
And then p!Leo is F!Leo's reassurance that, no, he wasn't a terrible person when he was young, and, yes, he WOULD have done it differently if he knew, because he'd never ever hurt his family the way he did by causing the apocalypse, at least not on purpose. Differently from P!Leo, I guess that F!Leo actually gets the concept of P!Leo being literally the same person as him (especially after casey talks to him about it and he sees P!Leo saying "they made it about me when they took my brother") and that's why he critiques P!Leo so much at the start (*points to leo* the self-hate and low self-esteem are strong on this one) but grows kind with him so easily. P!Leo is not a bad person, he's just sixteen, he didn't know any better at that point, but once he did, he dealt with the consequences of it, like a hero would do.
They're each others proof that their mistakes do not define who they are, and that they'd have fought for their families anyway
UPD - I drew Heather into another picture I took while exploring the South East USA coast! I’m not from the USA originally so it was so INSPIRING to see all the nature I love in real life, not just the photos. Heather is enjoying it a lot, too >:)
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Spotted her on the backyard...
(and can you find her frog friend here?)
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