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#been a minute since I posted haha#sorry bout the lack of gay#life kicking my ass again#anyways more gay shit for pride month and for coping#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonic#sonadow#sth#sonic x shadow#sonic x shadow generations#digital artist#digital art#sonic prime#my art shit#my art <3#my artwrok#my art tag#digital drawing#digital painting#artist on tumblr#art#shadow art#sonic art#my art#sonic fanart#gay#pride month#happy pride 🌈#pride
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#hankcon#dbh#hannor#hank anderson#dbh connor#hank x connor#connor rk800#detroit become human#bryan dechart#clancy brown#my art#please don't repost#i almost broke my leg but i was on leave for a few days#and played the game again#and kinda fell in love again#what's new#trying that painting thingy on them was fun#your honor they're gay#i know connor can kick anyone's ass he's like a real life terminator#but i have a soft spot for hank being grumpy/protective/almost growling at ppl#we love codependency in this house#have you seen my art#dbh hank anderson
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damn... its been so long my apologies
#artblock/burnout and general life stuff kicking my ass for a few weeks#hopefully im back to drawing regularly again??#rw#rain world#ciorart#iterator#five pebbles#rw saint#saint rain world#animation
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Avoiding lineart at all costs
Also hey yeah I changed the blog aesthetic, next post's gonna be an "About Me" because I want one lmao ☝️ [edit: me when I lie]
#ALSO WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S BEEN FIVE MONTHS#happy five months yall!#that actually hurts me#mb yall#I'd say “I'm gonna try and post more” but I can't promise that#life's been kicking my ass#so have a sketch of the guy!#I hate lineart.#I think I would rather ingest a cactus whole#than try my hand at lineart again#at least for right now#I'll probably line this later#idk I'll get back to you maybe#or maybe not ! 😛#buster moon#sing 2016#sing 2021#sing movie#fanart#furry#digital art#anthro#sketches#I miss drawing him
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Just to put a lot of my posts and beliefs about Light Yagami's character in one post (headcanons not included):
• He does not do anything for purely moral reasons. The reason he started killing criminals was because he was curious, and then afterward his "crusade" was built from panic and spite. He thought using the Death Note was going to kill him, so he decided to take everyone he considered a threat to society down with him—that way he would still be good. He would still be remembered. If he can't live, then criminals don't deserve to either. The weight loss and the insomnia shown in the manga, were more likely results of a fear of dying than moral stress.
• Then Light discovers he won't die. This negates part of the spite, but not the need for a moral justification to keep himself "good". He no longer needs to be a martyr, so instead he's chosen to become a God.
• During this week and half of time, Light goes from being a bored, lonely, listless teenager disgusted with the world because it's not how his father taught him it should be, disgusted because if he can manage perfection why can't the rest of the world—to a boy with a new friend and a new mission that gives him purpose. Something interesting. If the world can't be perfect on its own, he'll have to help it. The world needs his help, making him its "savior".
• In comes L. It is no longer about Kira, no longer about saving the world from itself, even if he might tell himself it is—it's about the game. Kira was a fun pastime, yes, but L has made things so much more interesting. (Light and Ryuk are actually wildly similar in several ways it's just not immediately obvious). This game is more fun, too, because this time he has an opponent—one not so nebulous as "the criminals of the world", who offered no challenge. Light is still justifying his actions through a lens of morality, because he has to, but they're beginning to run rather thin.
• Both the broadcast and the obvious taunts to L through changing Kira's killing methods supports the above. "You're too stupid, L. If you were just a little smarter, we could've had some fun." Drawing L in was to progress their game, not Kira's goals. If Light truly only cared about Kira's vision, Kira's new world, Kira's righteous justice; then he wouldn't have continued to play the game after the broadcast. There was no way for L to find him without Light drawing him in—the Death Note is literally the perfect murder weapon. Light knew this, he just ignored it because he wanted to play.
• In the same vein: Yotsuba Light doesn't know he's playing the game. He's forgotten that there even is a game, and so he sees L as someone who's been duped, who either isn't as intelligent as he's been made out to seem, or someone who's being purposefully cruel just because he can. Either way, to Yotsuba Light, L's threat level has only increased, because Light no longer has any sort of weapon to go against him with. He can't even wield his own innocence against him, because his innocence is not certain. Even to himself. Yotsuba Light knows that he has to play along with L's plays of friendship and morality in order to secure his freedom, but he does not respect L or like him. At least, not until near the end, where they're closing in on Higuchi. Where his freedom seems closer....and yet he sees his own, true innocence as more tenuous than ever. Notably, even when Light feels positively towards L there, he still does not share his suspicions about himself with him. His own life still takes precedence over any sort of justice or morality he might have, because Yotsuba Light is still Light. And Light will always put his own self-interests first.
• After killing L, something interesting happens. Because the game ends, but Kira is still left. And Light was willing to take risks and make wild plans in his game with L, but Kira's goals always, always came after his own life. And when only Kira's goals are left, Light stops taking those big, potentially lethal risks. (i.e. bomb desk trap, killing Raye Penber in person by handing him pages of the Death Note, killing Naomi Misora in person right in front of the police station, writing Higuchi's name while sitting right beside L with the murder weapon literally in his hand, etc. etc.). Winning the game was worth dying for—Kira's ideals are not. Or, to put it even more simply: His pride is worth dying for, but his morals are not. Five years after his victory against L, he's presented with another game, but instead of feeling fearful and excited as he did with L, Light is angry. Arrogant and angry. Because this isn't a game to these opponents, as it was to L—they're playing against each other, and Light is merely a piece in it. This game is not like his game with L; it's more like his "game" with the criminals of the world. One with no true challenge, just another defense of Kira's world—worth winning, but not worth dying for.
• Light's pride is more important to him than anything. He needs to be able to take pride in himself and his actions. Pride comes before everything else, before Kira, before family, before L, even before his own desires and physical health. He does not enjoy killing—he just turned it into something he could be proud of. Into another mastering of craft. Light is not particularly sadistic, he's just spiteful. He'll only take pleasure in someone's suffering if they make someone else suffer first, especially if that someone is him. Attacking his pride would count as making him suffer, because that's the most important thing in the world to him. Even though Light also values his life incredibly highly, attempting to kill him wouldn't invoke as much hell-hot wrath as attempting to humiliate him would. And Light will always get even. Always. He does not forgive and forget.
• He believes every lie he tells himself. Every. Lie. He is a Good Man. He is Good Son. He is a Savior. He is Better. He is NOT Evil, he is Good. He's incredibly adept at not only fooling other people, but fooling himself. Even if he's vaguely aware of the truth, he'll take great pains to make sure that truth never comes to light—because it would crush him.
• Light does not take his own desires into account. If he likes or wants something that contradicts with the perfect image he's crafted, he purges it from his mind. Makes excuses for why he doesn't need it, or even convinces himself very thoroughly that he didn't even want it in the first place. If it's not something he can be proud of (or convince himself to be proud of), he doesn't allow himself to desire it.
• Light sees everyone as beneath him (family notwithstanding, Light loves his family deeply), and while it's a pyramid scale of how far beneath him they are, it's not actually ranked by things like gender, sexuality, race—it's ranked by morality and intelligence. The more intelligent and moral you are, the higher up you are on the scale. Light feeling hostile towards someone does not always mean he sees them as further down beneath him; with L and Misa specifically, it means that they're a threat. Light tends to only see people near the top of the intelligence pyramid as threats; evidenced by him dismissing Matsuda completely even with the knowledge that Matsuda was a marksmen, and yet him immediately setting out to kill Naomi when he found out she figured out one of Kira's secrets. With Takada and Mikami, he treats them exactly the same as each other because they're both on the same level of the scale—and he didn't hesitate to get rid of either of them. (Or try to get rid of, in Mikami's case). Everyone is either a tool, a threat, a criminal, a citizen, or family to him. People to use (tool, criminal), people to serve and/or placate (citizen, family), and people to eliminate (threat, criminal). Everyone falls into at least one of these categories for him.
• Light Yagami is a tragic character. And he's a tragic character because he refuses to believe he's part of a tragedy. He would rather swallow broken glass than be considered a victim of anything.
#death note#yagami light#light yagami#character analysis?#character analysis#the stapels of his character ✨#i see so many character profiles for him that i thought id make one of my own :D#these are the points of contention for me—ESPECIALLY on the pride bit#if his pride isnt the most important thing to him beyond his life (and sometimes his family) then i consider it an ooc interpretation#but he's also not just. blatantly evil. he doesnt revel in the gore of his victims killing just for kicks#again its not about his own desires so much as its about his need to be seen as perfect and honorable#his intelligence bites him in the ass on that front. bc he can convince himself that his killing is righteous with very little struggle#anyway ✨ i love him#he's so interesting#this is how i see him WITHOUT all my headcanons in the way lmao#bigender light my beloved im sorry this is not your time to shine 😔
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hi, i haven't read the iliad and the odyssey but want to - do u have a specific translation you recommend? the emily wilson one has been going around bc, y'know, first female translator of the iliad and odyssey into english, but i was wondering on if you had Thoughts
Hi anon! Sorry for the somewhat late response and I'm glad you trust me with recommendations! Full, disclosure, I am somewhat of a traditionalist when it comes to translations of the source text of the Iliad + Odyssey combo wombo, which means I tend to prefer closeness in literal verbiage over interpretation of the poetic form of these epics - for that reason, my personal preferred versions of the Odyssey and Iliad both are Robert Fitzgerald's. Because both of these translations (and his Aeneid!) were done some 50+ years ago (63 for his original Odyssey tl, 50 flat for his Iliad and 40 for his Aeneid) the English itself can be a bit difficult to read and the syntax can get confusing in a lot of places, so despite my personal preferences, I wouldn't recommend it for someone who is looking to experience the Iliad + Odyssey for the very first time.
For an absolute beginner, someone who has tried to read one or both of these epics but couldn't get into it or someone who has a lot of difficulty with concentrating on poetry or long, winding bits of prose, I fully and wholeheartedly recommend Wilson's translation! See, the genius of Emily Wilson's Iliad + Odyssey isn't that she's a woman who's translated these classics, it's that she's a poet who's adapted the greek traditional poetic form of dactylic hexameter into the english traditional poetic form of iambic pentameter. That alone goes a very very long way to making these poems feel more digestible and approachable - iambic pentameter is simply extremely comfortable and natural for native english speakers' brains and the general briskness of her verbiage helps a lot in getting through a lot of the problem books that people usually drop the Iliad or Odyssey in like Book 2 of the Iliad or Book 4 of the Odyssey. I think it's a wonderful starting point that allows people to familiarise themselves with the source text before deciding if they want to dig deeper - personally, researching Wilson's translation choices alone is a massive rabbit hole that is worth getting into LOL.
The happy medium between Fitzgerald's somewhat archaic but precise syntax and Wilson's comfortable meter but occasionally less detailled account is Robert Fagles' Iliad + Odyssey. Now, full disclosure, I detest how Fagles handles epithets in both of his versions, I think they're far too subtle which is something he himself has talked at length about in his translation notes, but for everything else - I'd consider his translations the most well rounded of english adaptations of this text in recent memory. They're accurate but written in plain English, they're descriptive and detailled without sacrificing a comfortable meter and, perhaps most importantly, they're very accessible for native english speaking audiences to approach and interact with. I've annotated my Fagles' volumes of these books to heaven and back because I'm deeply interested in a lot of the translation decisions made, but I also have to specifically compliment his ability to capture nuance in the characters' of these poems in a way I don't often see. He managed to adapt the ambivalence of ancient greek morality in a way I scarcely see and that probably has a hand in why I keep coming back to his translations.
Now, I know this wasn't much of a direct recommendation but as I do not know you personally, dear anon, I can't much make a direct recommendation to a version that would best appeal to your style of reading. Ideally, I'd recommend that you read and enjoy all three! But, presuming that you are a normal person, I suggest picking which one is most applicable for you. I hope this helps! 🥰
#ginger answers asks#greek mythology#the iliad#the odyssey#okay so now that I'm not recommending stuff I also highly highly HIGHLY suggest Stephen Mitchell's#Fuck accuracy and nuance and all that shit if you just want a good read without care for the academic side of things#Stephen Mitchell's Iliad and Odyssey kick SO much fucking ass#I prefer Fitzgerald's for the busywork of cross-checking and cross-referencing and so it's the version I get the most use out of#But Mitchell's Iliad specifically is vivid and gorgeous in a way I cannot really explain#It's not grounded in poetic or translationary preferences either - I'm just in love with the way he describes specifically the gods#and their work#Most translations and indeed most off-prose adaptations are extremely concerned with the human players of these epics#And so are a bit more ambivalent with the gods - but Mitchell really goes the extra mile to bring them to life#Ugh I would be lying if I said Mitchell's Apollo doesn't live rent free in my mind mmm#Other translations I really like are Stanley Lombardo's (1997) Thomas Clark's (1855) and Smith and Miller (1944)#Really fun ones that are slightly insane in a more modern context (but that I also love) are Pope's (1715) and Richard Whitaker (2012)#Whitaker's especially is remarkable because it's a South African-english translation#Again I can't really talk about this stuff because the ask was specifically for recommendations#But there are SO many translations and adaptations of these two epics and while yes I have also contributed to the problem by recommending#three very popular versions - they are alas incredibly popular for a reason#Maybe sometime I'll do a listing of my favourite Iliad/Odyssey tls that have nothing to do with academic merit and instead are rated#entirely on how much I enjoy reading them as books/stories LMAO
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This is for all my charmac homies i love u<3
#charmac in bed ??????? again ?????? groundbreaking#only doing what i'm mentally capable to do rn#and it's a lot#cause whew#life is kicking my ass#not even life#just my brain#anyways yeah....#charmac#my art#charlie kelly#mac mcdonald#iasip#its always sunny in philadelphia#it's always sunny in philadelphia#always sunny#always sunny art
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Hey! Just a simple question but are you planning to still post on this blog? I miss your art
Have a good day!
Heyaaa
dsjhs thanks this is really sweet TvT!
I will probably drop stuff from time to time, I've been reading tbhk since more than 5 years now and I just can't let it go entirely (especially if the mysteries are involved :')) which.. doesn't happen a lot but hey it will come back right?....)
I honestly have near to 0 interest in the new arc rn (I just want any of the mysteries sans Hanako/Mitsuba rip) and I don't have much time :00 if I doodle some stuff I may drop them if I think to do so yay
I am doodling the mystery kids rn so this one maybe
Once again thanks this makes me really happy to readthat ToT
ps: I am unable to do a blog with every type of fanart/art I do, I need to separate them but I may create a new instagram for everything else so I will drop it if I do it if some people are interested yay
#(this is the reason I saw this ask tbh I don't even check tumblr anymore ToT)#Life has been kicking my ass too tbh#The mystery kids still bring comfort but being litteraly the only one doing stuff for them is kinda tricky to stay motivated#which is normal since they litteraly never interact in the manga rip#season 2 may bring me back full force because of the arcs but I can't promise#I just pingpong between interests lately and I really don't draw much ahah#asks#once again thanks for the ask!#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun#mitsuba sousuke
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#serious question is it /wrong/ to look at my own pictures and be like fuck i'm so hot and pretty?#like i spent 25 years of my life being my biggest hater so it feels weird. almost wrong to like myself this much#and not just that but to say it out loud??#of course there still are many things i don't like abt myself#and i'm probably liking what i see atm because i'm ovulating#i give it a couple more days and my luteal phase will KICK MY ASS#and i'll start feeling and looking disgusting again lmaooo#but yes anyways#i'm just. i'm so pretty?#but i feel like it's frowned upon to even say it out loud#if you're insecure everyone encourages you to love yourself. but if you love yourself then ppl will be like ok who tf does she think she is#and ???? what is expected of us??#anyways.
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0708 products of their surroundings... products of their FAMILY their FATHERS!!!! I need to go lie down
"That's even if you could hope for it"
I'm stuck on this quote. Is he saying that he can only hope to be happy in the life he chose? Is he referencing his marriage? That he could only hope to eventually be happy with his decision to marry Hinako?
Or is he talking about how he can only hope for the life he actually wants?
"If it's a choice you made within the extent of your own responsibilities" / "I can't bear such responsibilities."
Guess I'll just die . Guess I'll just crawl into a hole and die .
Are his Father's teachings the 'responsibilities'.... Haha 🧍 I hate him
#wanted to ramble about kazui again this tl seemed like my chance i missed you guys#the jc kicked my ass but ITS OVER NOW yippee!!#this conversation was just.. yeah okay. didnt give us new information but it did draw the duos parallels together nicely#even if kazui was projecting a little. “who are you lecturing” himself 🫡#but there's definitely amane substance too#thinking about her voice line about her father rn and “parents teachings can easily change their childrens life”#though you could also take it as the abuse amane was taught to endure and how she punished her mother the same way she was taught#ill stop now#milgram#kazui mukuhara#amane momose
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queen and her lover who somehow forgets that his job is loving her
#hi in case your wondering where ive been life has been kicking my ass and also ive been churning out drawings that nobody cares about#and i probably couldnt show them anyways#also been writing something but im not sure about showing it and again nobody cares whatever#medieval fantasy#medieval ocs#knight oc#oc art#oc sketches#oc comic#oc artwork#original artwork
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happiness is having someone comment that your writing is beautiful when you’ve been insecure to get back to writing again
#oliver talks#the last year of my life has been full of so much difficulty and pain and struggling#and it’s been so hard to want to do things For Me that make me happy#but i want to find my way back to writing again because it’s such a big part of who i am and what makes me happy#and i know the fandom is quieter now the show has been over for years. i was once a huge blog and now im this nobody screaming into a void#im not even sure anyone is interested in my writing anymore#but i want to write for me. i want to find my passion and excitement again#vet med has been kicking my ass. but something I’ve always had to make me happy is writing#I’ve got some poetry I’d like to share soon#and hopefully more destiel drabbles and maybe even some fics#I’ve been so insecure to start posting writing again… and i know i said im writing for me… but to hear someone say they love what i wrote…#that it was beautiful… that there’s even one person out there still interested in reading my writing… that means everything to me#im so grateful and just so happy#<3
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Mind if I draw your oc? In honor of finally having a kny mutual ^^ you can give me whatever info and you can choose how you you want me to draw it too if you want
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Ahh!! Sorry i didnt see this before;;;
Oh my goodness, i'm your first kny mutual? I'm so honored! I don't mind at all haha, but you seriously dont have to ^^!!
Feel free to dm me or tell me about your oc anytime!! I really like the pattern on the clothes!!
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THE BEST OF GRISSOM ACADEMY
Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, EDI, and Jack With: Flight Lt. Jeff "Joker" Moreau, Lt. James Vega, Ens. Jason Prangley, Ens. Rodriguez, David Archer, and Kahlee Sanders I never had a family- and these guys... Anyone screws with my students and I will tear them apart. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)
#mira makes gifs ✨#james vega#sophie shepard#jeff joker moreau#EDI#jack#subject zero#david archer#kahlee sanders#mass effect#mass effect 3#me3#mass effect legendary edition#dailygaming#grissom is literally my favorite side mission in ME3 so i was so excited to make this omg#it just has it all- good plot + solid witty one liners + an awesome bunch of characters + a nice emotional moment like#and it stars jack who’s like one of my favorite ME2 squaddies so ??? it’s just an all around iconic mission#EDI has so much good grissom dialogue too and she looks mighty cute in her lil hunter hood! 🥹#james has a few really good lines too but none of the ones i liked were in the cutscenes so it was sooo hard to get more of him in the set#i will say i forgot how much good jack dialogue there is in grissom like i just love and stan my girl so much#and now when i see her i think of saoirse and seamus every time like that’s THEIR GIRL KICKING ASS!! ✨✨#her lines with prangley and rodriguez are top notch too honestly#but honestly my favorite moment is still shep and EDI’s conversations with david#like EDI’s soft little ‘no apology is necessary’?#when david says ‘the number of days you lengthened my life’?#i tear up a little bit playing grissom every time bc overlord is the best ME2 dlc and you cannot change my mind#also soph once again eating in cleric’s fabulous guardian armors for shepard (which will always be famous✨)#like the shoulders?? the omni mark?? the set is just talented. brilliant. incredible. show-stopping. spectacular. beautiful. iconic.#and soph's usually rep'ing the purples/deep reddish pinks but did i make the omni mark blue so we could rep spectre alenko colors?#i’ll let you be the judge ✨
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Turns out HPF (hot professor friend) is also working towards long term sobriety (his whole polycule might be actually) so i have someone on a more intimate level to talk about sobriety and the more fucked up shit with and I caught him at the end of our shifts today and honestly I feel a little less like I'm drowning in it all
#my ability to comminicate with everyone really falls apart when life gets bad. i haven't seen him in months#he's similar when life kicks his ass he goes radio silent save for the occasional flare of a life sign#but his partner invited us to dinner to try and correct all this and im trying tp fix things on my end#so if you suddenly get a very apologetic message from me this week that is why#so i went to find him and we caught up a bit#im grateful i did#god i feel like shit#i just wanna jump in a lake again
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Got my first meeting with a psychiatrist in over a year since the last one demanded details about trauma when I was visibly sweating and shaking! Let’s hope today goes much better and that I have the prefrontal cortex online enough to leave if necessary instead of tolerating that kind of thing again
#note to everyone: if you say ‘I experienced xyz’ to a medical professional#on your FIRST VISIT#they are NOT supposed to require further and further details before moving the conversation along#they should take you at your word and realize that’s not the important part#the important part is hearing what symptoms you have had for how long and how they impact your daily life#so they can help you#NO ONE needs the details unless you choose to share them on your own time#and if someone is pressing you for things you’re not ready to talk about#LEAVE!!!! get up and LEAVE#i know that now#personal#this isn’t about sleep I’ve been going downhill in certain areas for weeks and haven’t gotten the boat to turn around#so I’m asking to start back on meds BEFORE things get really bad#i was planning to wait for the fall#but I’m struggling so much and I shouldn’t have to be#so. SSRI and asking about nonstimulant ADHD meds it is#the good thing is that while my self worth and competency and anxiety are in the toilet again#Im at least not feeling depressed and I’m not having all the sleep trouble I used to or the void feeling#my PTSD symptom improvement is still there it’s just anxiety and ADHD kicking my ASS
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