#life is so sucky.

[thiamblogger]

i've just been down a spiral, but i am so afraid of love.

i can not imagine giving my all to someone and being so vulnerable with them, just for them to leave me high and dry, acting like we never meant so much to each other at one point. it's just far too scary, like i'm literally going through a miniature crisis because this girl who i told EVERYTHING to may or may not be drifting apart from me.

i was born in the wrong decade, not really because the internet is amazing, and i'm queer so... but when it comes to love, i totally was.

i'm not one for this whole hookup culture. i'm just too insecure.

[lloydfrontera]

if i think too long about the ending making lloyd leave the home he worked so hard to save behind along with the new found family he sacrificed his life for so he can move to a place he has no emotional connection to where he only knows two people (one of which is actually following him from the aforementioned home) in order to make him get a standard "have a wife and children" 'happy' ending i start wanting to bite people not gonna lie

[hippielittlemetalhead]

Random less-angst-than-normal (might work this into NTTTF):

What if in season one of Stranger Things when they say Steve's mom follows his dad on business trips cause she doesn't trust him and Tommy laughs that that's a valid reason. It's not about cheating? What if he's just one of those 'good business man poor socializer' types and she doesn't trust him to not put his foot in his mouth and fuck up business deals? Mr. Harrington is a new-money business man and Mrs. Harrington is old-money and using what he's built and her dowry they've begun to build an empire against all expectations.

They love Steve but they are building a legacy to hand him and expect him to live up to the precedent they're setting. So yeah. They're pushy and kind of assholes in that well meaning but poorly executed way that people who have poor emotional development but the 'right intentions' are. All "We love you and believe in you and know you can do it so why aren't you?" hence why his dad gets so mad about Steve not going to college. He has all the resources and opportunities that his father (from a poor immigrant family) and his mother (from a mysoginistic old-money family with very trad. wife expectations for her) were never given.

They love Steve and they're setting up everything to give him the life and chances they never had. But they don't even realize they're not giving him the only thing he wants: a real family.

[rosekasa]

following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint

[marsbotz]

this was my realest post ever but i regret posting it every single day bc it got like 1k notes (big for ninjago textposts.) and never seems to die

[track2hack]

25.08.2024

That’s not an echo, that’s two of the resident bellbirds/korimako singing to each other 🕊️

[hellolulu]

Mob Psycho 100 having "even though I don't want to hurt others, existing as a human being means I can't avoid it, so I'll make sure to be responsible for any pain I cause" as a theme is very rad, I think.

[ruthytwoshakes]

sketch dump babayeyeg B)) (Going through it right now so no finshed art for a while.)

Miss Pauling and her epicc girlfriends (she IS hoarding all the bad bitches thank you to whoever said that on my last Pauling post) this time they are cats animallsms. swag. I was confused on what animal admin should be and then @stangeranfanficion said cougar and I lost my mind a little. so true and so funny .hejrjrhjhe

alright so while I was thinking about Miss Pauling I had this vivid image pop into my head of her getting pampered!! She deserves a rest day I thijnk ,, pyro knitted her the sweater and socks teehee. this turned out a lot more affectionate and sweet then what I planned ewwwww grooss hiss bleeehehhhhheh whateevvvverr. I’ll save it for valentines week.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ZHANNNA,,!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LETS FUCKIGJGN GOOOOOOOO oh and her husband yippee!!!!!!!!!!!! Love u too soldier. 2nd pic is an outfit swap!! Soldier wears booty jorts idk what to tell you. .also I forgor how leg muscles work hjhhh

More soldier posting. My man. Love his dumbass. I would love to throw various vegetables at him ,,like trying to scare off a wild deer that’s eatinf your flowers and various plants.

Hello spy ,,nic,,e to see you . First one is sheep in wolves clothing. Dutch is a wolf !but yes. Second one is scouts ma because as soon as I see big tall women I instantly die . And third is silly mode!!!!!! Silly fortress two !!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very Piemations coded or whateverrvev .

Some more sketches with not too good anatomy,, oopsies I will have to fix!! Also Tadc. They’re lesbians to me. Exceeptp for Caine he’s kinda a boy toy ,. what why did I say that

I gave miss pauling a cat and turned soldier into one merrry chriirtms

[bunnihearted]

📓🖊️🌧️🌫️

[istherewifiinhell]

"He realized then what was wrong with her expression: it was like an imitation of things she had seen others do, without any real understanding of what it meant."

oh that is RICH coming from little mister social observation calculus manipulator. IS THERE A SCRIPT DOCTOR IN THE HOUSE? senstitivity reader maybe? just a swing and miss for character paralleling.

[skyward-floored]

What are you working on now? 👀

my botw dark link au because I played botw and therefore have to mess with it. I'm currently writing a scene that might not even be in the actual fic.

[causenessus]

hi loveliness ! (get it, lovely-ness and you’re loveliness) (oh my god i’m so smart) i hope you’ve eaten today !! how’s your day been? MAKE SURE U EAT i’m so so so sorry for sending this so late in the day i had SUCH a day today and also i realize my asks are getting longer and longer each time like im yapping way too much so ill try to keep this short !

TODAY i hate breakfast then i went to an aquarium with my friend! it was so nice we saw sea lions and SEA OTTERS (otters are my favourite animal) AND IT WAS SO FUN! we saw the sea lions do tricks and the otters were so cute holding the rocks and it was so so so cute overload omg then i went to go have hotpot with my family and my uncle! it was nice to catch up and the food was so yummy we had flan after

ALSO I WAS GIGGLING SO MUCH AT YOUR WORK STORY LIKE i wasn’t laughing that you got yelled at bcuz that was uncool and uncalled for but the way it was formatted with the dialogue was so funny i was like giggling in bed reading it LOL but i will literally hunt down that family because you’re just a girl doing your job like !! lay off !! but i hope you’re okay love you didn’t deserve that and like genuinely some people need to learn how to be decent human beings sometimes because that’s actually CRAZY

BUT I LOVE UR STORY TIMES !!! SO YAP ALL U WANT I WILL READ IT ALL THOROUGHLY !! and once i get back home and back to work i will 100% yap because retail makes my head THROB genuinely throb

also tell me more about your knee omg?? what happened I HOPE YOURE OKAY AND make sure you don’t overwork yourself on your new smaus!! take breaks and always prioritize yourself over anything, i hope work was better than yesterday !! if not i will PERSONALLY fly over to your state and be like your guard dog at work (LOL THATS CRAZY SORRY) but i genuinely hope today went better! i hope you ate too and took care of yourself, always always take care of yourself i will say it infinity times to make sure it’s engraved into your head xoxoxo

LOVELINESS :( i will literally cry THAT IS SO CUTE AND YOU ARE A GENIUS!!!! HELLO MY LOVE <3

PLEASE NEVER WORRY ABOUT YOUR ASKS BEING LONG!!! DO NOT SHORTEN YOURSELF PLEASE YAP AS MUCH AS YOU WANT <3 (i'm going to start putting my answers under cuts so people don't have to fight trying to scroll past my yapping 😭 BUT DW!! TALK AS MUCH AS YOU WANT <3 AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR OTHER ASK TOO!!)

AND ALSO DON'T APOLOGIZE FOR SENDING THIS LATE IN THE DAY!! and i was so unmotivated when i got home from work today to make something for dinner 😭 bc i needed to shower AND i had school earlier in the day and it was 9:30 so i'd be eating a meal at like 10 pm BUT I DID JUST FOR U <33 (and i MEAN THAT!! I AM SO THANKFUL FOR ALL YOUR REMINDERS TO EAT :( YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT REALLY MEANS TO ME <3 AND THANK YOU AGAIN FOR YOUR OTHER ASK AND FOR SENDING ONE IN DESPITE YOUR BUSY DAY WITH THE REMINDER TO EAT <3 I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH) last night my dinner was literally a bagel with almond butter 💀 which I FEEL LIKE wasn't the worst "meal" but definitely not the best <3

AAAAAAAAAA THE AQUARIUM!!!!!!!!!! THAT SOUNDS SO CUTE AND FUN OMG I LOVE SEA LIONS TOO AND THEM BEING YOUR FAV ANIMAL LITERALLY MAKES THEM 10000X CUTER :(((( I HOPE YOU HAD TONS OF FUN!! AND OMG HOTPOT please i want hotpot so bad hold on thank you for reminding me that hot pot exists the MOMENT WE HAVE WEATHER IN THE 60S I'M GETTING HOT POT and i'm glad you could catch up with your family!! that's always fun <3 and FLAN!!!! YOU'RE LIVING THE DREAM AS ALWAYS AND I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

and i'm glad you enjoyed my story time LMAOOO I READ IT BACK JUST NOW AND THERE WERE SO MANY GRAMMATICAL MISTAKES MB IT'S ALMOST MIDNIGHT RN SO I'M SURE MY ENGLISH IS NOT SUPER HOT RN EITHER 😭 today i worked again and i literally only got ONE thing done 😭 but it's bc it was a really big order and i lowkey drilled into my finger but it's okay!!!!! 🤠 KNOWING YOU WORK IN RETAIL AGAIN AND WORK THOSE GRUELING OPENING SHIFTS AND DOUBLES ALWAYS GIVES ME THE STRENGTH TO KEEP GOING (but i was soo sleepy today too i was genuinely going to walk up to my coworker and be like "bro. can i please just nap on the floor." BUT WE POWERED THROUGH!!) AND I LOVE YOUR STORY TIMES TOO!! PLEASE SHARE ALL YOU WANT I WILL ALWAYS READ THROUGH IT TOO <3

IF YOU WERE MY GUARD DOG AT WORK I'D CRY /POS <3 I'D FEEL SO SAFE AND HAPPY!! (maybe u should fly here anyway!!! xxx) but DW MY KNEES ARE OKAY LMAO basically i got sent to clean a loft with some people today and because i'm literally a monkey from my tech days i climbed like an entire shelf??? 😭 because we were like reorganizing EVERYTHING (that entire group is so neurodivergent including me like we were told to clean the front but none of us have the power to JUST do the front so this will now be like a month long project pls pray for us it is so hot and dusty in there) and so after we ran out of time i had to jump down from the shelf but like my two guys were BOTH waiting for me (v. weird. one of them makes me slightly uncomfortable BC HE'S VERY NICE BUT TOO NICE AND I'M JUST SCARED OF MEN LIKE HE'S GENUINELY NICE BUT I HAVE ATTACHMENT ISSUES AND I DON'T LIKE OTHER PEOPLE LIKING ME IF THAT MAKES SENSE) so like i was literally rushing it and was like "yeah i can probably just drop down" but the fall was a lot farther than i initially thought 😭 so i dropped to the ground and my knees gave out because of the impact so i fell backwards into a table BUT IT'S OKAY besides the fact i made a giant fool of myself i don't want to talk about it </3 (b/c the OTHER guy i was with OMNFHEJRFKWLNDJJERHOUHJVFEKW i used to like him. ik. very small world i am still around people ik. BUT ANYWAY used to like him -> got the ick bc attachment issues -> hated him but he's still a good friend -> our mutual OLDER friend tried to get us to go to prom together one year -> SO MUCH MORE WE HAVE SUCH A WEIRD DYNAMIC IDEK WHAT HE THINKS OF ME) BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS STORY TIME AS WELL!! LOTS OF NESS LORE DROPS HERE <3 I LOVE SHARING ALL MY DRAMA LMAOAOAO

BUT PLEASE MAKE SURE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO!!! KEEP EATING THE COOLEST THINGS EVER AND LIVING YOUR BEST LIFE <3 (NO PRESSURE) AND DRINK LOTS OF WATER!!!

[circusjuney]

what did i do to deserve all these things that are wrong with me!!!!!!!!

[asktheahogesandblondes]

Is it true Junko is a huge dork dragon quest fan? I'd be curious to know what sparks your fancy I'd love to hear about it and makotos thoughts

Junko:Of course I am, I'm a big fan of RPGs in general too.

Makoto:I'm not as big on them as Junko is, but I love to see her play and geek out on them.

[anaalnathrakhs]

why is this fuckass brain incapable of sustaining five consecutive seconds of happiness

[orcelito]

God, what even is my "reasons this hasn't been updated in 4 and a half months" list anymore hfkshdj

I think we're at: wrote a smut fic, got a new girlfriend, got into bg3, quit my job I had for 8 years, my dad fucking died, got Throat Bleeding Disease, got into crochet, started watching way too much anime, got into Stardew Valley again...

🤔🤔🤔🤔 things sure have been busy, huh?