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[n0stalgicv0id]

The only attentions you need are from me 🩵

Here comes my loser boy

[emmanapoleon]

Godfather is BORING as FUCK and other popular shit on letterbox

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💌 18 years

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[n0stalgicv0id]

Oh so you don’t have anyone in mind at all ?? What type of person would be your ideal darling ? I’m curious ( In reference to the previous ask about having a beloved btw )

My dear anon came back, I was waiting for you all day. I don’t have anyone in mind. And my type would be someone kind to me, that can reassure me and be equally obsessed as I am. I’m quite jealous myself. Mutual respect and loyalty is the key of all doors. Writing poems dedicated to each other

[n0stalgicv0id]

I bet you have a blood kink

In fact this is true

[n0stalgicv0id]

Loving the blog, it’s a collection of deranged thoughts and casual violence

Appreciated. You really portrayed the vibes here but you forgot crippling anxiety mixed with sadness and loser attitude

[n0stalgicv0id]

HELLO NULL!! it's nice to see you :3 could you tell me more about your ideal kind of love? I love talking about it

Hi anon, sorry the late reply but I was asleep. Glad to see you too! Answering your question personally I’m all for quality time, but since I’m quite the busy person words of affirmation are a big boost to me. If I should tell you about my ideal kind of love that I’m looking for is just someone who’s shiny in my eyes, passionate, a bit the bubbly person but who also enjoys silence. I don’t really have a “type”, I don’t even care about gender or anything. Just someone genuine who isn’t afraid to show me even their flaws. Someone that can rely on me even in their worst moments and improve together if that makes any sense. If you have specific questions just ask me, I’m more than happy to answer

[n0stalgicv0id]

Can I idolize you?

Flattery will get you nowhere, but I appreciate the gesture

[n0stalgicv0id]

you should join x4ver1a's server

What’s that about?

[n0stalgicv0id]

hi void ! we apologise for disappearing for a while, we got very overwhelmed and then our notifs from tumblr disappeared so we forgot we had smth to do on the app.. forgetfulness is awful haha

we are back now though!! was wondering if youd like to chat in dms, discord maybe, so we dont lose your messages ?

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That’s fine to us, you can hit me a dm to share the nick

[n0stalgicv0id]

HEY AT LEAST IT WENT WELL AND YOURE HAPPY W IT!! :D thats great!! good work :')

i dont like being blurry bc it makes us feel bad af, and yeah some of us do be feeling bad bc of how they feel ig? like, someone feels stuck in 2016 and we were so sad at the time 💀 so.. yeah idk T_T

Oh okay, i see !! its always good to have options !!

Has anything good / fun / interesting happened today?? ^^

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🌸anon, you’re back. I hope things are going okay for you/all of you.

Sharing emotions is normal, it happens to us too. Sometimes in bad moments and other situations simply not. Probably they are age stuck in 2016 or they formed around that age, that’s most likely why they feel like that.

Today I did nothing special? I just went to buy groceries and now I was doing rehearsals. I have vocal coach classes later today

[n0stalgicv0id]

ooo , did the presentation go well / are you proud of your work??

we used to have a penpal some years ago now but it ended pretty fast bc they kept saying "i sent u smth" but it apparently always got lost in the mail :/

oh i get the want for stability. today has been a funky day and i dont know who i am and i just want to feel alive. but how will i be ablw to feel alive when idk who i even am.. what soul is connected to me rn.. yk??

oh wow! that sounds like a big project, i hope it goes well ! do you want to work as a game designer or smth?

i think i found the anime on netflix! that game tho, i found it on a channel named GLITCH, and theres like, 2 episodes. i saved them, so i can watch them later !!

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Proud isn’t the word I’m looking for but I’m happy, I like frogs so it’s like a reward. I spent a ridiculous amount of time trying to write 2 other ideas (the most detailed ones) and at the end the simplest one won.

We are often blurry and we just learned to vibe with it, relapses are still present though. Most of the time I feel sad but it’s related to the moment I formed, at least this is what I believe, and no matter what I do… It’s a constant in my life. Music and reading is a way to escape from it.

Currently we are majoring in concept art but this isn’t what we want to do in the future. Let’s call it an extra major in case things won’t work?

[n0stalgicv0id]

its nice, theres no feeling of urgency !! though i do still prefer answering in a timely manner when it comes to myself sjfn

im happy you found someone you can lean on and rely on as a friend !!! i get that it goes up and down very drastically, same goes for me. i can have the wildest bad thoughts and then mere minutes later i am just fine and as if nothing happened

puzzle games are fun! i really liked the plot of the witchs house, the ending was spectacular, really caught me off guard, it was amazing!

i can try and see if crunchyroll has the anime! or maybe netflix if im lucky, though i dont have high hopes for it. i dont know what digital circus is? i dont follow it as you may now know :) do you think i should check it out?

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As you can see I’m late, I was preparing a presentation and now I’m exhausted after classes. Well now I can relax at home. Our host is into penpalling so at some point I started to enjoy reading about their friends via letters. It’s a slow process but they are more solid on some extent? When you write on paper is a completely different feeling compared to type on a keyboard. I don’t know if this makes sense.

With on of them I have an very important relationship so yes, I’m glad I found some decent people - Speaking of which, I’ve been front stuck for more than a month and I’m barely sane nowdays. You get what I’m expecting. Still I hate how my emotions aren’t under control, I wish to have stability but I’m way too busy with my duties.

The funniest thing is that I’m working myself on a cozy click and drag puzzle game for my finals, it’s basically a build-a-bear but with frog plushies. I just started this project but for July I’ll have all the visuals.

Dungeon food is on Netflix here in Italy, probably you guys also have it in your catalogue. You don’t know digital circus? No way, it became extra popular and now they also opened a merch store in Japan. Here the link to the playlist on yt. We are deeply into cartoons/animations so it was instant love. We love to support indie companies

[n0stalgicv0id]

HI SORRY FOR LATE REPLY i didnt see you had answered my ask :((

yeah, getring diagnosed doesnt always help and its EXPENSIVE AF .. selfdiagnosis is valid if you cant get it yourself and honestly its p impossible everywhere :// i hope you get the help you need tho, with whatever you need help with!!

OMG MISAO AND MAD FATHER!! ive seen gameplays, the stories are so good ! i feel like ive seen somerhing about a witch?? where a young girl goes into the woods and finds a house and then she has to get home without getting killed basically 😭 i dont remember the name of the game but its very interesting. major plot twists too

THE ANIME IS REALLY SWEET! didnt get too far still (episode 5 rn) but its cute :')

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Don’t worry, as you can see I’m also late. I reblog a lot so that’s why you probably didn’t saw my reply earlier. Somewhat it brings me joy because it feels like we are sending emails to each other and it’s so old-fashioned lol.

Thank you for the encouragement, I hope so too. In the last months we met another system and I started feeling less lonely compared to before, it feels like home. Although I still have my problems they are more manageable - It depends on the day. I’m moody. I can wake up and having intrusive thoughts for days or forget about it after some mins.

Misao and mad father are such wonderful games, I love when I can listen to good soundtracks! But there are other gems like Ib, the forest of the drizzling garden etc. I like games with puzzles. And the gameplay you saw when you were younger was probably The witch house. It was famous when it first came out but I don’t remember much, didn’t really liked the plot.

I’ll catch up when I have time. I’m waiting for all dungeon food’s episodes on netflix since I’m lazy to read subtitles. And the italian dubbed version is decent..? I recommend the show since it’s funny. I don’t know if you follow digital circus on yt but ep 2 came out, I need to watch it

[n0stalgicv0id]

I DO THAT TOO HAHA, i tend to disappear often bc im sad or tired and then randomly text later on. and the "bpd" is bpd'ing sometimes here too (i do t have the actual diagnosis bc i got autism so its apparently impossible, but i got smth that basically the unofficial one ig)

NONO I LOVE OTOME GAMES i just get so tired so fast w them, which is a waste bc i have a good one i want to play but .. ugh... exhausting :((((

i like manga and anime, was just watching 4 episodes of a new one !! "sugar apple fairy tale" is the anime :))

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The thing is… was actually trying to get the official bpd diagnosis but we weren’t getting anywhere with our specialist? Also spending 150€ at session was too much, we don’t have that much. Maybe one day but to be totally honest having a diagnosis of whatever it may be sometimes it’s not the best idea. The host’s mother never acknowledged any of their problems and doesn’t really support the use of medications. We first need to reach our stability and then we’ll be able to seek help.

For this reason I prefer to find games on itch.io. I’m a huge yandere dating sim/gore/rpg horror fan. Gatobob and Funamusea are my favs but if you don’t like the genre it may be awkward. When I was younger I used to play a lot Misao, Ib and Mad father. Pixel games are the best and I don’t like realistic ones. At all.

I actually wanted to watch Sugar Apple Fairy Tale! Totally forgot about that. I’m just on dungeon food brainrot at the moment

[n0stalgicv0id]

and now youve been talking to me pretty consistently !! i like that you take time to answer your asks !!

i would feel too anxious if i left ppl hanging, but they would also be able to find me and ask wtf happened , bc i wouldnt be able to actually Move Away.. im part of The system (hah pun kinda) .. so ppl need to sometimes give permissiom for me to do things it feels like 🙄

WE HATE WHEN WE GOTTA READ .. makes us sm more tired and we dont play a lot then. we can if its short plot messages but not if majority is reading (like, visual novels ig .. otome games etc)

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It’s because I was out and yes, I like to take my time because I enjoy to answer to everything in a detailed way so I won’t miss anything important. I’m an eccentric and meticulous type of person.

Due to depression and bpd we tend to push people away to protect them or we just disappear in the middle of nowhere and then dm in the most random moments. So it wouldn’t be that surprising to most of our contacts.

You just inflicted me a terrible wound, our main interests comprehend reading and otome games. But I get it. Usually I enjoy to read webtoons and manhwas