#let me enjoy my silly little characters and blorbos in peace

[phantom-of-the-keurig]

“are you saying you don’t care if people ship-”

Lemme stop you right there, I’m almost 27 years old. I’m almost $200K in student debt with at least another $100K to go. I have greying hair. I cannot sleep through the night without having to take a piss at least once. I have a mortgage and life insurance and retirement account. I’m married and face the horrors of adulthood on the daily.

So no, my dude, I don’t give a fuck who wants to fuck who or when or why or where if it’s legal and the FBI doesn’t give a fuck neither do I let me suffer under a capitalist society and rot away in peace smh I don’t have the capacity or time to give a single spare shit

“What about-”

NAH-AHH. Stop it. Don’t make me get the spray bottle.

Is someone being murdered? Is a crime being committed? Would a jury of your peers find the situation worthy of a guilty verdict? No? Fuck off.

[rknchan]

HAPPINESS CHARGE PRETTY CURE LOVE POST

i just finished hcpc and i really enjoyed it !!!!!! its not going to be some kind of deep analysis i just gonna be silly about things i like in hcpc

THE CHARACTERS i adore each and every one of them (except for namakeruda i wanna punch him with lovely punching punch)

MEGUMI CHAAAN shes so precious to me !!!! so pure so truly lovely her desire to make everyone happy is so heartwarming megumichan always puts a smile on my face whenever shes on screen ^^

i saw people thinking shes mary sue but i cannot agree :c for me marysue is a character so perfect that theyre unbelievable (!)

and megumi IS believable to me . people like megumi do exist,,,,, and she has more serious flaws than being clumsy and bad at studying;

shes all about helping others but cares about herself little, when shes suffering her pain is hidden behind a smile to the point she can't resist her pain anymore, she worries about being weak and her help is not needed - altruistic people like megumi often experience this feelings too

also she reminds me of my fav person </3 and she motivates me to become a better person myself and believe in love and happiness,,, sorry it sounded cheesy but its true.. thank you megumi ^^

HIME HIME HIME my blorbo !!!!! at the beginning her anxiety and arkwardness, feeling of being not worthy enough to be a precure, escaping from problems felt so relatable :c and it felt so good to see her grow. the moment when she saved iona was so powerful. i wish we saw more of her family when she returned to blue sky

btw i love meguhime as friends and as a pairing theyre so pure so cute they care for each other so much awwww,w,w,,w,w,w, *holds them gently*

YUKOO precious rice bean and the most canonical lesbian of hcpc

i love her rice song its cute and catchy i often chant it ahhahaha

also i like how she always wants to keep peace, to befriend villains and give them love they lacked !!! "why keep fighting if we can eat delicious rice together" SAY THIS LOUDER QUEEN HONEY shes so based for this

i can't say much about iona maybe ??? shes a deep and realistic character and her story with cure tender makes me cry but tbh she put me off in the beginning as it was uncomfortable to watch her being harsh on hime (tho its justified)... but she grew a lot too ,,,,

i expected to dislike seiji but actually he was such a nice character and a loyal friend who actually has chemistry with megumi and role in the plot

QUEEN MIRAGE is my fav villain ever and tbh i can even relate to her

deranged traumatised emowoman ily

the story of her relationship with blue breaks my heart ... the moments when she still wants to be loved by blue but cant resist her anxious thoughts and red's manipulation... HER PURIFICATION SCENE WHEN ALL THE CURES COMFORTED MIRAGE;;;;; HER REUNION WITH BLUE;;;;;;;; sobs

the generals are so fun to watch :) dorks with goofy hats

hosshiwa remains my crush forever..... and oresky and namakeruda are just fuking silly smashing them smashing them

tho their final battle with the cures and their purification was such a deep and impressing scene

i love how brutal and creative was this season with its attacks. lovely punching punch <333 lovely beam <33 princess bullet machine gun <333 let cute girls do some violence

and their innocent form attacks are just beautiful

hcpc is often criticized for its repetitive designs and i sorta agree... but at least they were creative with international cures designs (aloha and bomber girls are my favourite, also im glad to see a cure from my country !!!! cure katyusha <3) and form changes AND FOREVER LOVELY DESIGN JUST SLAYS. SHE LOOKS LIKE A LITERAL ANGEL

also maybe theres a meaning behind the similar designs??? like, all the cures all over the world have similar costumes and it can symbolize they have a lot in common, theyre unite, they are a million-cure team .. while the phantom generals are all different, there's nothing uniting them, there's no team spirit or friendship between them

also the soundtrack is so good and catchy !!!!! i adore the opening and the rice song (and especially honey and hosshiwa's song battle) and the innocent song !!!!

i love the message of hcpc that everyone is worthy to be happy and loved, even if youre in deep despair, disappointed in life, thinking you'll never be loved and thus love is worth nothing - someone is always going to be here for you

but at the same time it points out that love can be a destructive force (red, mirage, dark seiji), that its impossible to be happy all the time, that feeling pain and hate is valid

sorry it turned out so long i hope i could share my love for happiness charge with you ,,,,,

i love you megumi i love you hime i love you yuko i love you iona i love you blue i love you red i love you mirage i love you seiji i love you masukomio i love you phantomu i love you hosshiwa i hate you namakeruda i love you oresky I LOVE YOU HAPPINESS CHARGE

[chocobosdungeon2]

my silly little playlists

a collection of all the spotify playlists ive made

pretty much all of these are made to be on shuffle

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Relatively Normal Playlists

The Vibes

My regular listening playlist, most reflective my actual music taste

The Apple of my Eye

Romantic playlist with a definite sapphic tilt

にほんごのおんがく (Japanese Music)

What it says on the tin. Realized that my Japanese music collection is on a hard drive that's in storage, so started actually putting what I can onto this playlist. Spotify still doesnt have a lot :(

Instrumentals

Also what it says on the tin. Ranges from noise music to OSTs to orchestras. Sorry if a lyric'd song snuck in, I try to catch them.

Morning Moods

Songs I find relaxing. Manifesting peaceful mornings

office vibes (sfw)

Songs that are good but also not offensive to my mormon bosses.

Feel Good

High energy songs that generally stay positive

Purgatory

Was my regular listening playlist until I made The Vibes, now I put songs I maybe kinda like on there to test them out more

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Specific Themes

pop+punk XYZ

pop punk/pop punk adjacent songs from the 90s to now (generations X, Y, and Z)

video games

Songs from video games, not songs about video games. Also the Spyro theme is the only cover on the playlist I think.

memento mori

Songs about death/dealing with death. somber but i honestly enjoy listening to it sometimes.

i planted a garden right here

Songs of any kind as long as it is the name of a flower/tree/shrub/some sort of plant. It is a very large garden and it is very fun to wander through.

A E S T H E T I C

contemporary vaporwave playlist (curated when vaporwave was still popular)

rainbow girlfriends

red, orange, yellow, green, blue, violet, pink, repeat

A Christmas Playlist

Holiday vibes with a lot more spice. Could not earnestly be put in the normal list. named after the infamous A Christmas Record, which is of course included

Let's Get Political

songs that have a message but are also bangers

Bread

Songs about money/having money. Manifesting, etc.

middle school dance in rural california circa 2009

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

make me smile

Songs that make me laugh to drop into queues like tacs on a running track.

Girlies is Online

i dont mean to alarm you just thought you should know.

GIRLS NIGHT

GIRLS NIGHT

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Original Characters Donut Steel

A Land of Milk and Honey

Could technically just be considered an 80s Sophistipop playlist but I am being honest. This is a blorbo playlist.

Mella (D&D)

Actually meant to be listened to in order instead of shuffled. Tracks her path from childhood to 100 years in the Feywild before she was forced to leave and then her adventuring vibes (with a death theme for good measure)

[freedfromthegalactichivemind]

Okay, browsing another fandom-tag, (the thing I am newly becoming RE-obsessed with, my longstanding decades old fandom re-emerging due to shiny new material)... well... I found something that made me think of THIS fandom and how ridiculous it is sometimes and how ridiculous fandom can be about certain things.   Take a look at this reblogged image on my other sideblog: Classic Trigun Official Art.   Its kind of spoilery for those who haven’t seen the 1998 original anime series, but it’s non-canonical at, anyway.  At least, I think it’s non-canon art.  However, it is official, as in, it’s not canon art / not an image from the actual anime, but it is promotional, a kind of post-series funsies thing done by crew.   The pale-haired guy in the space-suit there?  The one who’s got the smiling spiky-haired guy’s arm wrapped around him?  He’s the series’ main villain.  He’s also a genocidal maniac with a deep hated of humanity who has murdered millions of people.  He of course is here, in this funsie official / adjacent art shown in the trope of a “reforming villain” with heroic-characters including the main (Vash with his arm arround him - twin brother) gladly hanging out with him.  Anyway, my point is that - hey, look at the actual official although non-canonical art of the “defanged villain” trope - done for fun, to show a villain being begrudgingly good / implied to be on his way to reformation post series, etc.  Silly promo / bonus art.   It made me think about how She-Ra fandom had the Catra vs. Hordak wars and how some people / factions were just AGAHST at the idea that some of us fan-critters loved to contemplate redemption arcs and do fanart and fanfic that defanged the villains and so forth.  While people don’t seem to mind it much for Horde Prime - people doing sexy or silly fanart with him to scratch that itch for a “defanged dark lord” fun time, people got really bent out of shape for a while for both Hordak and Catra, didn’t they?  In the Hordak fan-faction (hi there, where I make my bed, or my clone-pod, as it were) there were a lot of people who hated Catra, thought of her as taking time away from their blorbo and who considered her “too toxic” for Adora and made this big honking serious deal out of it.  Fanfics about Catra fucking off to the Crirmson Waste alone and whatnot... I actually don’t mind pairing Adora with other people, it’s just that some of the “Catra cannot be redeeeeeemed!” stuff got a little obnoxious for me, even though I, myself, got sick and fucking tired of overzealous Catra-stans calling me a genocidal colonist for liking Hordak.   And of course, um, Hordak.  A villain portrayed with some sympathy and human emotions, despite being an actual dictator trying to conquer a planet. Yeah, Hordak’s done a lot of fucked up things, like employing torture and execution-by-exile in his reign.  I like him, anyway, because of those sympathetic points - the clone-cult stuff, the sense that he has a desire to be wanted and loved despite everything (thank you, Entrapta).  And, well, I LOVE the idea of post-canon, of “Lets let him live a cute domestic life with Entapta and lets dress him in sweaters and have him discover how delicious mangoes are, the poor cult-denied big fruit bat!”   And, well, there was a big row among people about liking these characters, something of a sympathy-contest of who “deserves more sympathy” and whatnot.  I was sitting here the whole time going “Let me enjoy my defanged dark lord trope in peace.”   Meanwhile, back in my old fandom, which I have returned to... it’s like “Oh, yeah, there’s official art of the actual literal genocidal maniac who canonically has a very graphic 100K+ body count being domesticated by the good guys, not to mention what the fandom does and the thirst some fans have for this guy”  and it’s like.... “Whoa, anime fandoms just be more chill than American cartoon fandoms, don’t they?”    No one accuses you of wanting to erase humanity because you enjoy Millions Knives, so why do people accuse you of being a real life abuser or colonial apologist if you enjoy Catra or Hordak?  

[lumen-tellus]

i got to be really fucking real for a hot second, but me making the orv-umineko-drk connections really made me figure out something i lowkey kinda always knew but really thinking about it now, at the very least, its much more obvious lol

i realised that those three things - rather, the messages inherent in orv, umineko, and the drk questline - are all the same.

at some point or the other, they all talk about love. specifically, love for oneself, sometimes through and with another, but at least it starts first by loving yourself.

and ive always known with drk quests and umineko, that message about love was very hard-hitting and made a strong impression on my scrambled eggs for brains when i first encountered the respective media - i loved that one of their core messages was about love and to try loving yourself, even when things are hard, even when you yourself think you can't be loved.

and now, i think the connection between orv and umineko is especially stronger, the two being far more similar even imo - because these two stories feature a person who wants to be loved but feels they cannot be loved because they perceive a fundamental flaw with themselves. and. because of that. would rather die. may even be happy to do so, depending on the circumstances.

my realization is very simple. it's easy to be impacted by their stories, to empathize with a person who wants to die bc they feel they shouldn't be alive, who thinks they have no worth while alive nor believes they can survive through the endless jungle called life, especially not alone or what they perceive as all by themselves. who knows how many times ive thought the same since i was a child, either very intensely or passingly when the mood strikes me.

and ofc, the kicker of all these stories about love - besides the hope that i myself can reverse that thinking and see worth in myself - is that, all these stories feature at least someone else (or yourself as a someone, but there's Someone) who loves you. who doesnt view you in terms of worth or even survivability but simply because they do. not a romantic love though that's possible—it's simply pure love for another person, another existence.

the abstract idea that you're not alone and you can be loved, be given the love to continue through the perils of the world. the promise of a happy ending for someone who can't even dream of their own happiness.

ive noticed for a long time now, even in my own daydreams with my silly little ocs and whatnot, i can't think of a conclusion. not just a good, happy conclusion, but often even bad conclusions are hard for me to visualize bc a conclusion is supposed to end. but i can't even imagine that - imaginary plots are ultimately a continuous spiral of worse and worse to my blorbos, and even when i try to keep it short, to terminate it, i can't find a spot. bc if they stay dead, that's not satisfactory, but letting them live leads to an eternal suffering of one thing after now.

i try to imagine perfectly happy endings and while a part of me enjoys them, the rest of me would feel disgruntled - the idea of things ending with a perfectly tied bow didn't make logical sense to me, even after trials and tribulations and whatnot that id imagine in my daydreams. it should be that way, shouldn't it? the characters going through a great many things and then settling into a well-deserved rest. i do imagine a great many things and i do think they deserve a peaceful end.

and yet, in spite of how perfectly fine that is on paper, im not satisfied with it. even tho it should end kindly. it would be nice if it ends kindly.

a person who wants to die, while desiring that complete and utmost and hopefully peaceful end, doesn't necessarily think it will solve anything. it just ends things. there are regrets and hopes that lead us to want an out, but those regrets won't be resolved and those hopes will not be granted through that great and final escape. all the luggage gets left behind, even. and you won't even be there to try sorting it out anymore.

what a mess i would leave behind, i would think at times, though that doesn't stop the concept from being tempting regardless.

if i try to imagine a happy ending in some fanciful daydream, it's hard to imagine that the regrets and hopes of everyone involved will be adequately dealt with. even if i want to, because wanting doesn't translate into a can do it.

which is why the happy endings of other stories talking about love, that insist on it, saying in spite of all that, are so impactful imo. here is a happy ending that, at the very least, shows the possibility for being to resolve regrets and grant hopes.

it's a promise that can be easily broken by whatever reality twists itself to be. but it's a promise nonetheless.