#let it be and then let it pass. i won't let it stop me

[hoonquette]

these are the days, nishimura riki.

【 another night with your friendly neighborhood spider-man 】 fem ! r 𓈒 fluff college au spider-man!riki + 665wc ── incl. mentions of injuries unproofread writing.

it's been an entire month since you've gotten a full night's rest. granted, you should be used to it—college has definitely ruined your sleep schedule for the next four years—but you'd gotten at least three hours of sleep.

thanks to nishimura riki, your friendly neighborhood spider-man (more commonly known as your boyfriend), those three hours have been reduced to maybe one. since you've found out about his identity, you've spent most nights worrying about his wellbeing, other nights were spent patching him up and tending to his wounds.

tonight is one of those nights.

one of the nights where you rub ointment against his bruised and cut skin, a look of disapproval on your face. he's tried talking to you, but you didn't answer, not wanting to snap at him for being so.. impulsive.

when you're done, you sigh, closing up the first aid kit you'd bought after the second time he came through your window. he stares at you, his eyes apologetic and a small frown on his lips.

he had changed once you let him in, throwing off his mask, and changing into one of the pair of sweats he'd left here. he foregone a shirt—wanting you to see the bruise that'd no doubt be forming on his back after being slammed against a wall.

you nearly strangled him when he told you that.

you understand that this is his unofficial job, something that he enjoys, but it doesn't mean you have to like it. especially when he's not being as careful as you would like him to be.

"alright, fine." he starts, leaning back on your bed, "i'll stop going after the small guys."

"i'm not worried about the 'small guys', ki."

"car jackers can be dangerous. so can—" you interrupt, hitting him with a pillow. he rolls away and lets out a surprised yelp. from the edge of the bed, "you shouldn't hit your injured boyfriend."

"my boyfriend wouldn't be injured if he stopped being stupid."

"i'm a superhero; we're all stupid."

you glare at him and he relents, holding his hands up in surrender. "okay, i'll be more mindful of how hard i'm being hit from now on. good?"

"not good," you crawl over to him, laying next to his body, "but fine. just stop coming over when you look like you're about to pass out. go to an actual hospital."

he rolls over again, this time so that he's hovering above you. suddenly, it feels like you're the one with the concussion—no matter how long you're with him, you don't think you'll ever get used to the close proximity riki seems to crave—and you look away.

you can see him smile out of your peripheral, biting his lip to keep from laughing. "hey, look at me."

you debate not listening to him, but you know he won't speak again until you do, so you (hesitantly) look at him.

riki's smile brightens and he places a kiss on your nose, then on your cheek, forehead, and finally your lips. the kiss lasts for a fleeting moment, but it melts you all the same.

"i wanna be with you, though." he kisses you again, "want your face to be the last thing i see before i faint from exhaustion."

you can't help the giggles that escape, turning your head away from him and covering his mouth with your hand. "stop—don't say that."

"it's true." he pulls your hand from his mouth, but not before kissing it. "plus, i can't go to a hospital, dork."

"okay, okay, whatever. new rule: be better than the other superheros. be smart."

"that gave me chills. you should be a motivational speaker."

you shove him off of you, telling him yo be serious as you do so, and your boyfriend lets out a dramatic scream of so-called pain. when he's done with his mini-monologue about how mean of a girlfriend you are, he caresses your cheek.

"i'll be smarter, though, make you worry you less. promise."

ADRiANNA 🦷 hai :3 i needed a spiderman!riki fic in order to heal from Well idk most things

[squishygirl46]

Hi everyone, this is a story about my deepest fantasies and dreams. It will be written about me Let me know if you like it. Part one: the beginning.

God, I don't know where I am, some man left a camera in the room and said I had to speak my mind on it or I would be killed. The last thing I remember is leaving the house to go to the store. Now I'm here and I don't know what's going on, I'm so scared….. There's only one dim lamp in this room, a big bed, a toilet, a speaker on the wall and a door. I'm probably going to be killed or raped, I don't know, I'm so scared. Suddenly a masked man came into the room, carrying a scale and a camera.

- Hi said: Get on the scale and take off your clothes. I obediently did everything he ordered. Completely naked I stood on the scale which said 45 kilograms(99 pounds). -You're skinny, now stand against the wall and turn sideways. I went to the wall and turned around, then he told me to stand in front of him and he was taking pictures. What a shame… But I can't help it, I'm so scared. After this strange photo shoot and weighing, the man left. I don't know how much time had passed, but I was very hungry. Luckily the man came back soon and brought a huge tray of food on a gurney. Fried chicken, potatoes, meat pies, pancakes, brownies and cake. There were also several bottles of soda and some pills.

-Whoa, why so much food, I can't eat that much. -No one's asking you. He told me to take two pills and a soda. After I drank them he left and closed the door behind him. I started eating and as usual I got full very quickly, literally after a couple wings my little tummy was full and I laid down to rest and fell asleep, I don't know how long I slept but after I woke up the food was still there and I was very very very hungry…. I started eating again. A few wings, then a brownie, washed it all down with soda, then wings again, then potatoes and then soda again… I could feel my stomach filling up, but the hunger didn't go away, and only after 30 minutes of eating and stopped for breath…. -Oh, God, what was that just now? -Ufff. I mumbled. I looked at the tray, it was covered in leftovers. I put my head down and saw that my stomach was protruding very much, as if I had been inflated like a car tire…. And it was so hard. I was very thin and this protuberance really stood out. I laid back on the bed and dozed off….. When I woke up, the tray was gone, but on the wall were my pictures and a graph with my weight written on it. God, what does that mean, am I being fattened up? I've always worked hard on my figure, I don't want to be fat, I need to exercise to burn off the calories from that gluttony. I got out of bed and started doing exercises, 50 squats, 10 push-ups and 50 abs, then I rested and did them again.

-Fuuuuh, now we can have a little snack, as long as we don't eat too much. Right after these words, this man came in again with a tray, this time there were mountains of fast food, 5 big burgers, a bucket of fries, wings, nuggets, and 2 bottles of coke. -Oh my god, I'm not allowed to eat that, I've always avoided fast food in my life-. But the man silently handed me two pills. -No, I won't take them, they make me unable to stop eating! In response to these words, he just took them and put them in my mouth, then clamped my nose and poured cola into my mouth, I had to swallow them…. -Good appetite- he said and left. I decided that a little fast food wouldn't hurt my figure, especially if I kept doing exercises, or even more exercises, yes, it wouldn't hurt. I took the smallest burger I could find and took a bite. -God, this is so good,” I said with my mouth full. And a wave of warmth spread through my body. -Yeah, one burger wouldn't hurt me. -Yeah. But I couldn't stop at one, as soon as I finished it I took a Coke to drink, I thought I'd just drink a little bit, but I started gulping it down greedily, like I hadn't had a drink in a year. I only stopped when I had half a bottle. Right after that, I went on a food binge. A burger, another one, fries, nuggets, all dipped in sauce and swallowed before I could chew. After 30 minutes of such piggishness, I felt nauseous and almost threw up. I decided to lie down and rest.

-I ate a ton of food again, my God, what am I turning into, but ok, I'll exercise some more and everything will be fine. I put my hand on my warm, bloated tummy and fell asleep. When I woke up I thought it would be a good idea to exercise. Like last time I got up and started squatting, but I stopped at 30 reps and sat on the bed…. The leftovers were beckoning me… -Okay, I've done enough, I can have a snack. I finished everything on the tray and went back to sleep… It went on like that for about two weeks

[omkookie]

⌈ ⚠️ 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ⌉ Smut, Amazon position, orgasm denial, Size difference, Unprotected sex with Armisael. Femdom

Armisael was sitting between your legs. His wide pink eyes looked up at you with interest, meanwhile his legs laid spread on top of yours. Your fist wrapped around his pale cock, fingers slowly rubbing it up and down to build his excitement up. Despite usually being aggressive, Armisael relented and let you touch him. He didn’t protest much as you hiked his holy robes up and got to jacking him off, dragging your hand up and down his erect cock to stroke him. “Just because…”

He started speaking, before inhaling a sharp breath, his chest heaving slightly as he tried to sound threatening. “I'm letting you do this- it doesn't mean I won't cut you into pieces later…. Descendant of Solomon” despite his angry little threats, Armisael's hips twitched, his legs’ muscles shaking slightly as the knot in his abdomen tightens, threatening to come loose.

“....hnn…” he whimpers, his curly blonde hair rubbing against your chest as you hold him, Your arms wrapped securely around him. The shorter angel had an attitude problem and tried to come off as though, but he was still so cute and small, you couldn't stop yourself from edging him at least once today.

You let go of his cock, watching as it twitched and his hips thrust into the empty air.

“Why'd you stop?” Armisael whined again as he turned his head to look up at you, clearly annoyed at the loss of his ejaculation. “I forgot this,” You say before gently pushing him off of you, picking up a roll of pink ribbon which you had in your bag. You tied ribbons and bows around so many presents today, it was time you tied one around your own present.

Armisael looked confused, his cute lips pursing into a frown as he observed you. “What are you going to do with that?” He asked, internally cursing at the loss of contact.

You brought the ribbon in your hand up to his neck, wrapping it around to create a neat bow, and then cut it at the end. Armisael shot you a puzzled look, his face screaming ‘seriously’ as you tied a bow around his neck. “What's that for?...” He asks, seemingly trying to wrap his mind around why you'd do something as useless as tie a ribbon around him. You looked pretty nonchalant, tilting your head adorably as you flicked the ribbon on the bow, “It's just cute. Now you're like a cute little present with the bow.”

“That's dumb…”

Placing your palm onto his chest, you pushed him onto his back before gently grabbing his ankles, “Hey! Descendant of Solomon-” he protested while trying to pull his legs away and sit back up, but you yanked him forward and then pressed his knees to his chest. Letting go of his left ankle, you positioned his cock at your wet entrance before slowly sliding it into your pussy. Armisael gasped, trying to bite back a moan as his legs quivered. For a moment, his mind wondered if the chain of judgment would appear to drag him into a dimensional rift for his sin, but nothing happened as you raised your hips and then lowered them again. No one was going to punish him for this? Was he in the clear? Probably.

Another moment passed, and you were practically bouncing on him- gripping his ankles while sliding his cock in and nearly out. It made him squirm and throw his head back in ecstacy, “Descendant– of Solomon-” He struggled to form a coherent sentence, his cock throbbing as you consistently thrust it into you. Your pussy was squeezing him dry, and he could feel his cock twitch and pulse with every thrust.

“Armisael, Are you still calling me that? Do I need to gag you with some ribbon?” Rasping out, you let out a small sigh as you sped up the pace. The short angel under you still had it in him to call you Solomon's descendant, despite how you had him shaking under you.

“Sorry…MC…MC…MC-” Armisael's shaky voice repeats your name like a mantra as he feels the knot in his stomach form again. Slamming your hips down against his pelvis, you were getting rougher with your actions, almost making the little angel scream.

“O-h Oh-” Armisael's voice cracked, coming out in strangled moans as you continued your rough pace. “MC…ah- that's…I'm gonna...”

“Aww…is my pretty angel going to cum already?” Still thrusting yourself onto his poor twitching cock, your voice sounded somewhat mocking as you asked him that.

“You- If you stop again I'll cut you into pieces with my chainsaw!”

“Hmm…if you threaten me like that I'll stop and you won't cum again either…”

“I said I'll cut- AHH…f-fuck…”

Throwing his head back, his eyes rolled to the back of his skull as the knot in his abdomen came undone, his whole body going limp as you milked his cock dry. Still continuing to ride him through his ejaculation, you paid Armisael no mind as you let go of his ankle and rubbed your aching clit.

Your fucked silly angel looked adorable under you, and his face made you want to cum right on it.

What a great valentine's day~! ‹3

This is a fic for the V-Day Collab! ❤️

[lucy90712]

My valentine forver- Jude Bellingham

5 years old 

"Y/n I want to ask you something" Jude said as we were playing together during lunchtime 

"What is it Judey?" I asked 

"Will you be my valentine?" He asked 

"Sure but what's that" I said 

"I don't really know but my mummy and daddy keep talking about a Valentine's Day and being each others valentine so I guess it's just something best friends do" he said 

"Ok I'll be your valentine as long as you push me on the swings" I said 

"Deal let's go" he said grabbing my hand to help me up 

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"Hey sweetheart how was your day?" My mummy asked when she picked me up after school 

"It was good Jude asked me to be his valentine" I said 

"He did what?" She exclaimed 

"He said its something best friends do and he's my best friend so now we are each other's valentines" I said 

"That's exciting we'll have to talk to Jude's parents about that" she said 

9 years old 

For what feels like the first time in forever it's nice enough for us to be allowed outside at break time. Me and my friends all wanted to play football with the boys as they always think they are so good but we think we are just as good. There wasn't enough of us to make a full team to play the boys but we drew straws and organised ourselves into two teams. I ended up on the same team as Jude which is what I was secretly hoping for as we've played together before and we worked really well together so I was happy to get to play with him again. 

The years of friendship mean that Jude and I are pretty in tune with each other especially on a football pitch. Today was no different we didn't really need anyone else on our team as we both managed to run round the kids on the other team and pass back and forth until the ball went in the back of the net. It was so much fun but most importantly I was glad to make the other girls proud as maybe now the boys will take us seriously and let us play with them more often. Sadly we didn't get to gloat for too long as the bell rang meaning we had to go back to class. On the way back in I went to grab my water bottle but before I could Jude grabbed it for me as his was right next to mine.

"You played great out there you should really join a team" Jude said 

"My mum won't let me she says I can't do both football and dance and I'm committed to dance this year but maybe next year I'll do football" I said 

"Maybe you can join my club and we can play together" he said 

"That would be fun" I said 

"Wait y/n before we go into class I need to ask you will you be my valentine?" He asked 

"I'm sorry Jude I just don't like you like that I like being friends but that's it I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings" I said running off to go back into class 

Jude looked a little sad for the rest of the day which made me feel awful but I just don't like him that way in fact I don't like any boys that way because that's gross. I like our friendship we play together at school and he's taught me a lot about football but that's it nothing else. 

13 years old- Jude's POV 

Come on Jude you can do it. It's not that difficult just say the words. What's the worst that could happen. Well she could say no but she's done that before and I survived but this time it feels different we aren't 9 anymore and dating isn't something to be sneered at anymore. Being rejected now will probably hurt a lot more but I can't be thinking about that or else I'll chicken out for like the 5th time. 

I've had a crush on y/n for years but this past year it's only gotten worse. She's just so beautiful I can't stop myself from staring at her from across the room when we are in class together. I'm not the only one who has a crush on y/n all the guys in our year and even some in the year above are always talking about how pretty she is. I'm not as popular or as attractive as some of the guys who also like y/n but I'm hoping that after our many years of friendship she'll feel the same as me and if I can ask her first then I think I stand a good chance, at least that's what I'm telling myself. 

After school today we have football practice and y/n will be there as she plays with the team when she's allowed as the school doesn't have a girls team. I made sure to get changed quickly so I could be the first one out there so as soon as y/n was ready I could ask her out as we warm up. As she made her way outside she was talking to one of the other guys in the team Jack and she had a big smile on her face which isn't unusual but it did make me a little nervous. 

"Hey Jude" she said as she came over 

"Hi you seem extra happy today what's going on?" I asked 

"Jack just asked me out so we're going to go on a date this weekend as long as my parents let me but they like Jack so I'm confident" she said 

"Oh wow I didn’t know you liked him" I said trying not to give away my disappointment 

"I've liked him for a while but I never told anyone a I only ever get teased for saying I like anyone so I kept it to myself" she explained 

"Well I'm happy for you" I said completely lying 

It really broke my heart that she's with someone else but I really should've seen it coming she's the prettiest girl in school it was only a matter of time before someone asked her out. That doesn't mean it hurts any less but I'll get over it and at least we are still friends even if she can't be my girlfriend I can still hang out with her. 

15 years old - Your POV 

Maybe love just isn't for me. I've been with two guys over the last few years and both have cheated on me with one of my friends so I've lost a lot of friends but luckily I still have Jude. Since all the drama I spend a lot more time with him as I know he won't betray me and there's no drama surrounding him which is exactly what I want I don't care about being popular and having lots of friends anymore I just want true friends. I call Jude my friend but that's not really how I feel about him after spending more time together I realised that I truly enjoy Jude's company in a way I've never enjoyed being around anyone else. I'm not entirely sure when my feelings started to change but it must've been before my last boyfriend cheated on me as it hurt but I wasn't as upset as the first time because I just wasn't as emotionally attached anymore. 

I've had many chances to tell Jude how I feel but I just haven't been able to make myself do it. I'm not stupid I know there was a time when pretty much all of the guys in school had a crush on me Jude included but I don't know if he feels the same now. He used to get awkward around me which is what gave him away but he doesn't act like that anymore which makes me think that he doesn't like me that way anymore. Jude has been such a good friend to me since we were 5 but especially the last few years we are always together whether it be at lunchtime in school or kicking a ball around down the park at the weekend. I value our friendship so much that I can't bring myself to tell Jude how I feel, the possible rejection isn't worth our friendship to me.

I've put my feelings aside for a few months now but as it's approaching Valentine's Day and I hear my friends talking about that their boyfriends are doing for them it makes me a little sad and maybe a little jealous that I don't have that with Jude. In a completely genius move I'm spending the next few days with Jude helping him get some extra training in as he's playing a big match soon and he wants to play well and he likes to test his skills against me. Our plan is to go straight from school to the park where they have football pitch we can play around on until it gets dark. 

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"You're going to do great in that match you are definitely too much for me to be able to keep up with" I said 

"You're still coming back from injury though" he said 

"You still beat me fair and square like a million times trust me you've got this" I said 

"Do you have any plans Sunday?" He asked out of nowhere 

"Thats Valentine's Day right definitely no plans for that day" I laughed trying to make a joke of how sad my love life has been 

"Then would you like to go on a date with me?" He asked 

"What" I said completely in shock 

"That was stupid I'm sorry forget I ever said that" Jude panicked 

"No I would love to go on a date with you the question just took me by surprise I had no idea you still felt that way about me" I said 

"Wait, still you knew I had feelings on you" he said 

"Yeah you weren't exactly subtle a few years ago but now you are definitely better at hiding your feelings I had no idea you still liked me" I explained 

We laughed about it before actually planning our date after texting our parents to make sure they'd be willing to take us and make the reservation at the restaurant we wanted to go to for us as we aren't actually old enough to do that. On the way home from the park I couldn't stop smiling thinking about going on a date with Jude after all these years of friendship and feelings on both sides but never at the same time. When we got to my house Jude grabbed my hand and leaned in to kiss my cheek which made me blush like I've never blushed before but it felt right being with Jude in this way. 

19 years old 

I'd have never guessed that the airport would be so busy on Valentine's Day but I guess it makes sense with people going away or going to visit long distance partners which is what I'm doing so I guess I'm part of the problem. Since Jude went to Germany our relationship has changed quite a lot but we are still just as happy as before. Originally I was supposed to move with him and join Dortmund's women's team but I tore my acl over a year ago and haven't been able to play again since so instead I opted to go to university instead. Last year we couldn't be together to celebrate so we had a date over FaceTime but this year I'm surprising Jude as he has no idea I'm coming. With the help of some of his teammates who I knew well from coming to visit as much as I can I've planned dinner at a nice restaurant and then we are going to a show at a nearby theatre but most importantly I'm going to Jude's apartment to wait for him to come home from training to surprise him with it all. 

My flight landed a bit late but I got through the airport quickly so I managed to get to the apartment with about half an hour to spare before Jude is due home. I spent my time freshening up a bit and setting out the presents I got him on the coffee table. When I heard him opening the door I got up and ran to hide somewhere to really make it a surprise. He came in and saw what I'd left for him on the coffee table and started to read the card which is when I came out from the room I was hiding in and snuck up until I could sit next to him. I managed to make him jump then he just stared at me and didn't say anything. 

"What are you doing here?" He asked when he was able to speak 

"I thought I'd come and surprise you as we didn't get to spend valentines together last year" I said 

"I've missed you so much I'm so happy you're here" he said 

"I'm here for a few days so we can spend plenty of time together but tonight I have things planned for us so we need to get ready in an hour" I said 

"What have you planned?" He asked 

"We are going to dinner at that restaurant that you said is really nice and then afterwards we are going to the local theatre to watch a show" I said 

"That sounds amazing I'm so impressed you've managed to pull this off" he said 

"I had a bit of help so hopefully it all goes to plan" I said 

"As long as I get to be with you it doesn't matter what goes wrong I'll have a good time" he said 

21 years old - present day 

The last year or so has been a rollercoaster once Jude moved to Madrid and settled in I joined him to do my masters degree instead of staying home for another year. Because of all this last year we didn't celebrate valentines at all really as Jude was away for a game and I had exams but this year he's promised me he's going to go all out to make up for it. I have no classes today so Jude booked appointments for me to get my hair, nails and makeup done so all I have to do is pick an outfit when I get home which is already a lot but he made sure to make it clear that this is only the beginning. 

My first appointment was my hair appointment so I just got a trim and got it styled then came makeup which I left up to the makeup artist as she definitely knows better than I do. I already looked so much better just after that but I still had one more appointment. Jude remembered where I like to go to get my nails done so he booked the appointment with the girl I always go to so we got to catch up as it's been a while since I've had someone other than me do my nails. Usually I have ideas of what I want to do but this time I didn't so she suggested some someone French tips so that's what we did. My nail girl is good but today she took extra care in making sure they were perfect and wouldn't let me leave until she was happy but it was so worth it. 

After all of my appointments I felt really good about myself even more so when I got home and got dressed in the dress I decided I wanted to wear. Jude also put on his outfit which he looked so good in so I insisted that we take pictures together before we leave as we never both look this good one of us is always having a bad hair day so we have to take advantage of both feeling good about ourselves. After taking pictures Jude told me we needed to leave as there was a car waiting outside for us which was I was expecting to just be an Uber or something but it was actually a really fancy car. The driver greeted us and offered us glasses of champagne which is definitely not what I was expecting but Jude did say he was going to go all out so I should've seen it coming. 

The car took us to a really nice restaurant which surprisingly wasn't too busy despite it being Valentine's Day. The place was definitely decked out for the occasion as there were candles on all the tables and lots of roses all around including a few rose petals on each table. Dinner was lovely all of the food was amazing and we had a great time but that wasn't all Jude had planned so we got back into the car which took us to this beautiful park in the city. As it was dark no one else was around so we walked around for a bit and then made our way to the big lake in the middle of it. 

I was enjoying the view looking at the reflection of the moon in the water when I felt Jude's hand slip out of mine so I looked over to see if he was ok. When I did I saw him down on one knee holding a ring box. I really didn't expect Jude to propose tonight so I was shocked but also incredibly happy as he truly is the love of my life so getting married to him is something I've dreamed of a lot. Jude grabbed one of my hands while my other one went to wipe the tears that were falling down my face completely out of my control. 

"Y/n since we met when we were little kids we've had a connection that I've never experienced with anyone else and when we started dating I realised I was the luckiest person on earth get to be with my best friend and soulmate now I think it's time to ask if you'll marry me and be my valentine forever" he said 

"Y-yes of course I'll marry you" I managed to stutter out as he slid the ring on my finger

"Thank god I was so nervous you'd say no" he laughed 

"Why would I ever say no" I said 

"I don't know I was just worried you'd think this is too much or a bit corny to do it on Valentine's Day but this day has been important throughout our relationship so it felt fitting to get engaged on the day we had our first date all those years ago" he said 

"Its perfect it means so much to me that you thought so much about it that's what I really care about" I said 

"I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you" he said 

"Me too" I smiled 

[durgeapologist]

Omg your blog is such a relief. Every day I feel more and more like I want to distance myself from about 80% of the Solavellan community bc I am telling you it is ROUGH being into the egg and wanting to talk about him but being surrounded by people who think that everyone and their mother is out to get them. Meanwhile someone can come up with valid criticisms about how Lavellan's characterization was handled in VG and get swarmed with unsolicited opinions about solrook shippers and accusations of misogyny. I also see them running around in posts that are clearly marked as "Critical" And half the time when I CAN talk to them about Solas it's like they aren't even talking about the same character I am? They want him to be some helpless little abuse victim who isn't responsible for anything he does??? Why are we redeeming him if he did nothing wrong? What would be the point? We love him because he's fucked up and a manipulative bastard but also complex???? Did we play the same game girlies???

i have been staring at this ask since it came in trying to find a normal way to respond to you anon i will be so fr rn so i am so sorry it's taken a few hours

i’ll start with this:

“Why are we redeeming him if he did nothing wrong?”

full stop. this. so much. (i am in love with you anon) why is there a atonement/redemption ending if he did nothing wrong? (you’re literally so real) solas has done horrendous things. like genuinely abhorrent. (i crave to be your friend so bad anon) he is a genocidal, serial killing, manipulative lying cunt. to say the least. AND THAT IS WHY I LOVE HIM. he has such complex characteristics that make him so intriguing. he wants to be a good person. but he doesn’t really know how to be genuine. he is riddled with guilt and regret. he feels BAD about the things he has done. but he doesn’t want to face his mistakes. he knows he has done absolutely terrible things in the name of his people and their liberation, things most of them never asked him to do. some even asked him to NOT DO THOSE THINGS. did he listen? of course not! this is solas we are talking about. arrogant, prideful, calculating solas.

“They want him to be some helpless little abusive victim who isn’t responsible for anything he does.”

yes. yep. THIS SO BAD. (genuinely let me be your friend pls i am on my knees begging) the dynamic between solythal gets convoluted by most solasmancers because of three things: misogyny, jealousy, and ignorance. was there abuse? yeah. not denying that. was there only abuse? no. mythal was a victim of abuse herself. the way she learned to love, she passed down to solas. BOTH were victims of abuse who did terrible, no good, awful things. BOTH were also extremely powerful, omnipotent, and power-hungry individuals. mythal's hunger for power showcased differently than solas' and was amplified (IMO) by elgar'nan whispering in her ear. solas had felassan to keep him in check.

i am of the UPMOST certainty that had solas not taken down the evanuris the way he did and went to sleep after creating the veil, he would have become another tyrant ruling over the elven people. (THE MASKED EMPIRE ANYONE? HELLO? HELLOOOOO?) also anyone who says she was his MOTHER or SISTER?? god please drown me. put me in a tub and hold my head under water. that was his PARTNER AND HIS LOVER. i cannot with the takes that she raised his ass COME ON. i have sooooo much more to say about this dynamic and the themes of abuse AND how solasmancers twist it to make her this most evil, vile, horrible woman; but i would like to keep some of my followers tbh (anon i am frothing at the mouth if you want to discuss this further i beg you to dm me) so we shall move on.

"...valid criticisms about how Lavellan's characterization was handled in VG..."

yeah full stop i will never forgive them for making her one personality type. sorry, i just won't. my lavellan egg-mancer was a strong-willed and angry proud dalish woman who told solas off every chance she could! i am genuinely so happy people who wanted the dynamic we got in VG got that, because that is how their lavellan is/was, but what about the lavs who punched him? who told him to stop being an asshole about elves, and just farmed approval for the romance by asking questions? i chose to hunt his ass down BECAUSE I WANTED TO HUNT HIS ASS DOWN! my lavellan would not be so understanding or forgiving, she just wouldn't, so it feels like my girl's personality was ripped away from her fr. now, i DO NOT agree with some of the takes on how she was presented because those criticisms are in fact riddled with misogyny and most are just downright vile. but i do agree with the criticisms that not all lavellans would have been so kind to that bald man.

so anon, TRUST me when i say i feel you so bad. i was in lots of solavellan spaces before i started shipping dreadrook, and even then i was looked at SO funny for my takes on the romance and called plenty of terrible things simply because i didn't hold solas up on this pedestal and make my lav worship the ground he walked on. even as a dreadrooker, the same exact takes that i couldn't get behind in solav spaces are very prevalent in dreadrook spaces. solasmancers have a tendency to simply agree with solas on everything and refuse to acknowledge how bad of a person he really can be.

i am a proud solasmancer AND a proud solas hater. #1 solas hater, in fact. i rarely have positive things to say about his actions and behaviors outside of a joke setting, and even in a joke setting the things people will say to defend him RUB ME SO BADLY THE WRONG WAY. also heavy on the perusing the "critical" tags and getting offended when my takes are, in fact, critical LMFAO. anon i am literally a beggar sitting on the side of the street waving a metal cup at you asking for coins of your affection rn. i have maybe one other friend who feels like this and have hardly anyone to rant about these things with. holding my hands out towards you and begging you to dm me fr. PLEASE. we can be critical together <3

[fairyminnie444]

hii so im been stuck lately when trying to manifest, whenever i'm trying to affirm, my intrusive/random thoughts keeps popping up every time and it throws me off. the thing is i'm aware that its just intrusive thoughts and that they don't mean anything/won't happen but i can't stop reacting about it if that makes sense. any advice on what to do? ty!!

Hii so the issue isn’t the intrusive thoughts themselves—it’s the fact that you’re reacting to them. The more you fight intrusive thoughts, the stronger they feel. Instead, let them pass like background noise.

Use the “So what?” method

If a thought comes up, say “So what?” and move on. This neutralizes its emotional charge.

Example:

• Intrusive thought: “What if it doesn’t work?”

• You: “So what? It’s already mine.”

At first, they might still pop up, but as you keep ignoring them and reaffirming your reality, they’ll get weaker and eventually fade away. You’re rewiring your mind to stop feeding them attention. What you stop feeding, dies.

[6rookie-writer0110]

Distant Night Ephemeral Part 1

Josie Saltzman x Male Reader x Hope Mikaelson

Request - Hey, could you do a male reader x hope mikaelson x josie saltzman smut where the reader is in a relationship with josie, but he catches feelings for hope as tim goes along and josie catches him with hope. It can be a part 1 and 2 type of story

Hope is in class sitting behind Josie and Lizzie. She is in a complicated situation, she has a crush on Josie and her boyfriend.

“How was the date?” Lizzie asked

“He was so romantic and he bought me a gift. All night, I had a good time” Josie smiled

“Wow, you are smiling even more,” Lizzie said

Hope never excepted to have a crush on two people who are dating. She flirted with Josie before she got a boyfriend. She thought it would go away but it just got stronger. Even they were single, wouldn't be sure who to go out with.

After class, Hope and Josie to their next class together. They start to smile at each other, Josie puts her hair behind her ear.

“You look pretty today,” Hope said

Josie blushed and she was still smiling.

“Thank you. New top?” Josie said

“Yeah, I liked the color,” Hope said

“It looks good on you, I like it,” Josie said

Hope couldn't help to smile and she blushed.

“You want to hang out after class?” Hope asked

“Sure,” Josie smiled

After class, Hope is hanging out with Josie in her dorm room. They are sitting close to each other and Hope couldn't help to stare at Josie’s lips. Hope isn't paying attention to what she is saying, Hope is smitten by Josie’s beauty. But Hope wants to kiss her then Josie and Hope start to stare at each other, they are slowly leaning about to kiss each other but you opened the door, and Hope moved away. She couldn't believe what was going to happen, she felt her heart racing

“Oh, hey Hope” You said

“Hi, Y/N” Hope smiled

“I didn't mean to interrupt but babe remember you were supposed to help me study,” You said

“Oh, I’m sorry I forgot. I was just hanging out with Hope” Josie said

“It’s okay, I will leave now next time we can hang out,” Hope said

Hope gets up and grabbed her stuff, then she saw you give a peck to Josie on the lips. Hope does wish she could kiss you and Josie.

“Bye,” Hope said

You did check her out but you try not to make it obvious. You stare at her breasts then her ass before she left the room. Then you sit next to your girlfriend and she is happy to see you.

✬ ✮✬ ✯

Josie is feeling confused, she has a crush on Hope but she doesn't want to stop dating her boyfriend. But she isn't sure if she should tell her sister about it. There were times when Josie would hang out with Hope and she would want to kiss Hope, but she doesn't want to ruin the friendship. And she would never cheat on her boyfriend, the situation is new to her and she doesn't know what to do.

“Babe what happened to your face?” Josie asked

She went to see you and you have a scar on your face. She put her hand on your face and made you turn your face and you are still bleeding

“I’m healing. I was training my pack because they had been slacking off. As a leader, that is embarrassing, and you know i can't let that happen” You said

You are a werewolf and you are the leader. Josie doesn't like it when you take the training too far.

“I know, Y/N. I just don't like seeing you like this” Josie said

Your scar is going away but you have some blood on your shirt.

“I will try not to get hurt. You okay?” You said

“Yeah, I’m fine. What makes you think something is wrong?” Josie said

“You seemed a bit off. It just seems if you have a lot on your mind but you won't tell me” You said

Josie is curious how he would react telling him, she has a crush on Hope but still wants to be his girlfriend.

“I’m fine, babe. It’s you know finals are coming up and I want to pass” Josie lied

“Oh, I get it. Don’t worry you will pass all the exams because you are smart” You smiled

She noticted your scar is completely gone.

“Thanks,” Josie said

You go to Josie’s dorm room. While talking, you are sitting in her chair then she sits on your lap. She put her arms around you and she starts to kiss you on the lips. You and Josie are smiling and you start to kiss her neck, but the moment got ruined because Lizzie walks in and Josie moves away

“Gross,” Lizzie said

“W-what are you doing here?” You asked

“It's my room. I don't want you and Josie to do it in my room” Lizzie said

You had sex with Josie in her bed one time, she doesn't know and you chipped in to buy new sheets which Lizzie doesn't know.

“I thought you were going out” Josie said

“Change of plans. You can stay Y/N, but just don't kiss my sister in front of me” Lizzie said

Lizzie sits in her bed and she starts to text on her phone. You get up and kissed Josie on the cheek and gently pat her ass.

“See you later, babe,” You said

“Bye,” Josie said

You leave their room and close the door. Josie sits on Lizzie’s bed

“Have you ever liked someone even when you dated Sebastian?” Josie asked

“No, I never felt like that. Why? Does Y/N feel like that?” Lizzie said

“No, no he doesn't feel like that. I heard someone talk about it” Josie said

“I don't know about that, but long as he doesn't cheat on you then its fine to have a crush on someone, I guess,” Lizzie said

Josie changed her mind about telling her sister the truth. Instead, Josie changed the subject and Lizzie went along with it.

———-

You didn't expect Hope to train with you. She did notice you checking her out but she didn't say anything. She didn't want to make it awkward if you weren't checking her out.

“Thanks for helping me train, Y/N” Hope said

“Sure, no problem. I was surprised you asked me to train you when usually you do it alone” You said

You take Hope to your dorm room. You are feeling nervous to be around her, you like her as more than a friend but you still like Josie. And you don't want to tell your girlfriend because you don't want to argue or make her think you would cheat. But she is happy to spend time with you alone, because you are usually busy.

“I wanted a partner to make more interesting” Hope smiled

“So, why not join my pack?” You asked

You and Hope are sitting next to each other very close. Her hand is on top of your hand and she stares into your eyes, you stare at her lips then her eyes.

“I like being with you,” Hope said

“Me too. Your eyes are beautiful,” You said

You and Hope slowly lean in, before you and Hope can kiss each other Josie walks in. You get off the bed and Hope does the same

“I can explain” You said

“We didn’t kiss, I swear,” Hope said

“You and Y/N wanted to kiss each other?” Josie asked

Before you were going to say something, Hope said something first.

“I actually like you and Y/N, like a lot,” Hope said

You and Josie looked at each other then at Hope

“Really?” You said

“Yes, really. But I don't want to ruin what you two have. I should go,” Hope said

“I like you too, Hope. But Y/N, I still want to be with you” Josie said

“I feel the same way. I didn't say anything because I thought it would cause an argument between us” You said

“I didn't excepted this” Hope said

“Me either,” You said

[kathlare]

The One Where We Let the Fire Burn Out

Welcome to the masterlist for this chapter of Amelie and Lando's story, set in 2021. At this point in their journey, things are messy. They started the year as a situationship—two people who had undeniable chemistry but were both too stubborn to admit how much they cared. As the year went on, feelings crept in, but instead of talking about them, they both messed everything up and let it spiral out of control. The result? A break in their bond, and they stopped speaking altogether.

previous year // next year

This timeline reflects that period of silence, where both of them are trying to move forward in their own lives while carrying the weight of everything left unsaid. It’s a quiet year for them, but it’s one that sets the stage for what’s to come.

Thank you so much for reading and following their journey—it means the world to me! I hope you enjoy diving into this chapter of their story, full of tension and the aftermath of their mistakes. 💕

full masterlist // request over here!

Timeline: 2021

letting go

unsent messages

closing chapter

we don't talk anymore - Saudi Arabian Grand Prix

secret to keep

message recieved - Abu Dhabi Grand Prix

the pass that stayed

traitorous cat

double tap disaster - Christmas Special

the race she won't run

in the air tonight - New Year's Special

[scribbledghost]

hmm.. what about period sex with inhuman!Vessel..?

Vessel is 100% the one who suggests it, let me be real clear about that.

It starts because he can tell when your cycle is close. You take on a slightly different scent, he notices certain small changes about you around the time of your period. So when it does start, he's the first to suggest period sex. Specifically oral.

He's got a sort of fascination with the idea of, for lack of a better term, "consuming" you in such a way. He draws the line at drawing blood with his teeth or hands, but this is different. As he sees it, you're not injured, he's simply helping you.

Granted, you're gonna have to inform him that it's not just blood, but honestly that doesn't phase him in the slightest. Not even when you explain that it's blood, tissue, etc. He absolutely does not see any issue. Look, he's an inhuman vessel for an ancient eldritch god, he gets a pass to be gross with this I think.

He'll even be polite and lay down plenty of linens to absorb anything he happens to miss so the furs don't get messy. Just let him feed. He'll make it worth your while, he promises.

Vessel can and will keep his face between your legs for hours like this unless you stop him. Completely lost in how you taste, the sensation of essentially sharing this part of you.

If you do end up just pushing him away and begging him to take you, he certainly won't complain. He'll trail his face up your torso, leaving a trail of blood and slick in his wake from his chin. If you request it, he'll quickly clean his face before kissing you, but honestly it's not quite on his own radar. He'll be sure to push into you slowly, savoring every sensation that comes with this.

I think this is one of the few times he takes a naturally fast approach to his pace. He wants you to feel good, he wants to give you everything you want, but he also wants to get his mouth back on you. Granted, his stamina makes him last a considerably long time, and he can't deny he does love being able to kiss you whenever he pleases.

But once he comes, he's almost instantly back where he was before. Gotta clean you up, right?

[pokimoko]

I have had it with these motherfucking spam bots on this motherfucking site.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

trying to assign instruments to gerudo characters for thralls' soundtrack. Nabooru is getting the sitar so far, as I think she's good at representing the gerudo side that's closer to the Wild Era in terms of long-term vision for gerudo prosperity, not to mention that it works great for a more laid-back character; though Iftaah could also get that aspect, even though her perspective is a little bit more desperate and a little less actually strategizing about diplomacy and commerce in the way that Nabooru's is... not sure I have nailed down the perfect instrument for her yet though? Maybe a duduk, for its plaintive quality and capacity for softness? But I don't know, I feel like there could be something better out there. Saeruk and flamenco guitar seem pretty great fit for the versatility of the instrument, both harsh and defiant, playful at times, but also extremely sad if needs be, and the fact that she represents more the "older" kind of gerudo works well with more hispanic/romany inspirations. And then there's Aveil, who I feel represent the best the connection of the gerudos to their land, and I'd love an instrument that really represents that. Still looking for that one.

There's a bunch of fun things for Ganondorf that can be done, but I think he'll get... bigger instruments, in general. And church organs are quite versatile too it turns out. :) I like the marimba from his first phase boss battle, but it's a little too... I don't know, I feel like it lacks the roundness and depth and imposing quality that we could get with other picks. But Ganondorf so far has about *eight billion* leitmotifs going on with what I have selected for him (him and Ganon's, as they are... not exactly separate entities in the story, but sort of, it's kind of weird), so it might be more a case of actual melody rather than instruments, or maybe on top of instruments that swap in and out depending on what we want to invoke...

Sorry, rambling, but I would really love to compensate for my lack of voice actors with a pretty meaningful stab at the soundtrack. I feel like I kind of have to honestly. ;;

[loveableabomination]

I stared at myself in the mirror this morning. I usually don't even look at the mirror but today I did. My mirror sits at just the right height so i can't see much of my chest. I looked at myself and saw a man in the face, so I closed my eyes and saw a man's chest too. I smiled.

I'll have that someday.

I went to work today with the baggiest shirt I could find. I can't bind right now, I'm trying to heal up a binding injury.

I still get called "ma'am."

I have a top surgery consultation in April. I absolutely cannot wait.

[wereh0gz]

Hiiii jsyk aros and aces are inherently queer doesn't matter if they're also straight and/or cis and if you disagree then death by one million explosions

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

[pa-pa-plasma]

hate trying to look up disorders & shit because everything is just like "how to deal with a super inconvenient idiot who has X which we all know is just an excuse to be inconvenient & stupid" instead of what i really need which is "how to tell if you have X, from a person diagnosed with X"

[girlivealwaysbean]

sometimes i miss talking to that one person who didn't NEVER turned it into a competition about who has it worse and never told me well atleast you have [x]