#let alone tell me that on the Big Exams where I don't get a re-do I'll barely pass

[melit0n]

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[captnjacksparrow]

Hi! I found your blog soon after I started re-watching Naruto again (during the chunin exam arc) and due to many of your answers/posts I've started trying to view Naruto as a closeted gay. Before reading your posts/answers, and seeing the proof along with your explanations (those concerning Sakura as well), I used to think that Naruto was most likely bi instead of gay. This was mainly due to the times he has peeked in bathhouses at women, asked Sakura on dates, and looked at "dirty magazines" (to get inspiration for his sexy jutsu, but he was even drooling...). I thought that maybe Sasuke was just an exception (well, that and Haku). However, do to your blog I was reminded of times where he seemed to not react to certain things as a straight man would (or even a bi man). For an example, he finds the Icha Icha Paradise books boring. Another example is when Naruto is trying to get Jiraiya to train him for the third part of the chunin exam and Jiraiya is trying to get Naruto to bring him a woman (if I'm remembering correctly) who nice "melons" which he describes... But Naruto isn't on the same page as Jiraiya at all and actually believes that he is talking about melons... so he brings him a nice big melon.

If Naruto was straight/bi, especially if he enjoyed looking at "dirty magazines," you would think that he would know the slang words for the "sexy" body parts of a woman.

Are there any other examples you can think of? I notice they're usually done as comic relief.

On a different note, I've also seen you talk about Naruto deflecting a lot when feelings concerning Sasuke come up, especially in part 1 (tsundere Naruto). Since I've also started trying to watch with this in mind, I noticed it happening when Naruto goes to visit Sasuke in the hospital (after his fight with Yoroi and getting the seal). First I wanted to point out that it's interesting that he is going alone to see Sasuke without Sakura (don't you think she would have wanted to go too?). Also, when the nurse says that Sasuke isn't allowed any visitors, Naruto gets very annoyed and raises his voice asking "Why?" Loud enough to where Kakashi walks down the hallway he tells him to be quiet since they're in the hospital.... This is where I feel like Naruto started deflecting. Suddenly, he wasn't there to see Sasuke, he was there to see Kakashi so he can ask him to train him! I've seen you point out this happening, but mostly he deflects by asking Sakura on a date or usually something to do with Sakura or with other girls (like peeping in the bathhouse). It's interesting to see him do this with Kakashi as well. Maybe Naruto felt like he had to hold up his "rival" stance with Sasuke in front of Kakashi? I'm not sure...

Anyways! I just wanted to have someone that I could mention this to! If you can think of any other examples, I would be very interested in reading what you have to say!

Thanks!

Hi Anon!!!

I, also, thought Naruto is a Bi-Sexual with women preference. In other words, He is Gay only for Sasuke. Because in many of those Shonen-Ai/Yaoi Novels, there will always be a Bi-Sexual Main Character. I thought that's the same case with Naruto. But only after reading the Manga, I realized how much Anime tried to paint Naruto into an Heterosexual boy When in reality Naruto was insecure infront of other men too. (Than Onsen Bath with Yamato and Sai ???).

And some of the scenes you have mentioned here are Anime only scenes, Anon. Let me tell you what are those.

This was mainly due to the times he has peeked in bathhouses at women, asked Sakura on dates, and looked at "dirty magazines" (to get inspiration for his sexy jutsu, but he was even drooling...)

This scene is not in the Manga. LOL. This does gives off this vibe that Naruto was interested in reading those Dirty Magazines... 

But Naruto gets his inspiration for Oiroke no Jutsu ONLY BY PEEKING which has a direct reference to the Manga.

However this scene was not in the Anime... Don't know why... And the thing is, Naruto only cares about the Bust-Waist-Hip measurements to get his Jutsu right.... He never sees their faces.... Which you can infer from here...

Bon Kyuu Bon means Bust Waist Hip...

And that's why in his Harem no Jutsu, every Ladies look very similar to Naruto with Whiskers whereas in his Reverse Harem no Jutsu, every men looked Unique without any Whiskers... 

Which means, Naruto observes those basic bodily features of Women (Bust Waist Hip) to perform his Harem no Jutsu...  

Whereas when it comes to men... Naruto looked at the Faces of different men (either directly or from Magazines) and find them to be appealing and attractive. 

So, Naruto reading 'those' Magazines are not true.

Isn’t it surprising that the First person Naruto performed his proper Henge was Sasuke in Chapter 3???

So, Naruto watches Sasuke regularly and practices his Henge regularly.

Another example is when Naruto is trying to get Jiraiya to train him for the third part of the chunin exam and Jiraiya is trying to get Naruto to bring him a woman (if I'm remembering correctly) who nice "melons" which he describes... But Naruto isn't on the same page as Jiraiya at all and actually believes that he is talking about melons... so he brings him a nice big melon.

Man... I was finding the right time to dispel some mischaracterization about Jiraiya... I'll just do it here. People almost think that he is a Pedophile and an Abuser... when in reality he was just a pervert which he himself agrees out loud shamelessly...

JIRAIYA NEVER ASKED NARUTO TO BRING HIM MELONS.

This scene again is Anime only.... Although it really lines up with Naruto's character...

AND JIRAIYA NEVER REMARKED NARUTO AS SEXY....

Again, that's another Anime only thing... If you see that Jiraiya remarking Naruto as Sexy.... anywhere in the internet, just know that it is not in Manga.

So, basing our interpretations entirely on these scenes will never leads anywhere other than a Dead End.

Also, when the nurse says that Sasuke isn't allowed any visitors, Naruto gets very annoyed and raises his voice asking "Why?" Loud enough to where Kakashi walks down the hallway he tells him to be quiet since they're in the hospital.... This is where I feel like Naruto started deflecting.

Hmmm... I never thought Naruto was deflecting in that scene. Because,

“I guess I’d better ask Kakashi Sensei to...”

Because, Naruto was clearly asking for Kakashi and his whereabout here... To which Sakura says he might be with Sasuke....

And that's why he was asking for Sasuke's room here in this panel. After Kakashi (the intended person he wanted to see) appears before him, he was asking Kakashi to train him... There was no deflection or lies in these panels. It's pretty Straight Forward, you know.

As far as I've seen, Naruto never deflected his feelings with anyone other than Sakura. But Naruto always comes off as an Hypocrite when he is with Jiraiya or anyone else...

Here Naruto was seen peeking women's bath.... It's a perverted behaviour.... But he is thinking that Ebisu as a Closet Pervert... (???). I mean, Why? Both are same kind of perverted behaviour... Isn't it?

And Naruto went even further hypocritic by calling out Jiraiya as a Pervert openly.... All because Jiraiya was Peeking at women's bath... I mean, Didn't Naruto also did the same just before this scene???? How dare he could call out someone as a pervert as if Naruto never did such acts before???

And then this scene

Here this Girl came infront of them and Naruto gives off this same face just like Jiraiya, that he was attracted to her Beauty. 

But moments later,

“Oh Yeah!!! That Girl just winked at you and you were scampering after her”

Excuse me??? Naruto??? Didn’t you also act like you were scampering after her???

He was accusing Jiraiya for going behind her as if it was some repulsive act.

Naruto always acts Hypocritic when it comes to his 'seeming' attraction towards women. He poses like he was attracted to them, but when someone else does the same, he acts like it was a bad thing. LOL.

He always acted like he like he is interested in Peeping Naked Women... But when Jiraiya does it, he accuses him as if it was some crime...

He always acted like he liked to see Naked Women (When Konohamaru did Girl on Girl Jutsu)... But he finds Icha Icha Novels (Smut) to be boring...

He always posed like he wanted to date Sakura.... But when Sakura confessed her love, he just blatantly rejected it citing, 'I've always known you loved Sasuke'. 

Can you see the pattern??? 

Which Hetero-Sexual Boy would act like these, I wonder??? 

[girlwithshipsshitshow]

Part 13

Misaki walked into Usagi's room with a huge grin on his face he was in a great mood, Usagi was coming home today, he was feeling great about his exams, he was just in a really good mood.

Aikawa: (Sitting on the couch, on her computer). Wow, what are you so happy about?

Misaki: (Walking over to the chair beside Usagi's bed). Uh, today's just a good day.

Usagi: Misaki, don't be so modest, he passed his exam with flying colors, (Looks up at Misaki grinning), and i'm so proud of him.

Misaki: (Blushes) Usagi. (Sits down, placing bag on the floor beside him). Thank you. (grabs Usagi's hand).

Takahiro: Misaki, Congrats on passing your exam.

Misaki: Thank you Takahiro.

Takahiro: And, I also want to apologize for being so upset about your relationship with Usagi-san, I didn't understand, but he explained everything to me.

Misaki: I thought I made it clear before.

Takahiro: Maybe you did, but I didn't want to listen.

Misaki: Well I appreciate you accepting our relationship.

Takahiro: I'm trying.

Usagi: Try harder.

Takahiro: Right, so do you think you guys are going to have kids?

Misaki: (Glances at Usagi and raises an eyebrow).

Usagi: (Shakes head), He asked me the same question.

Misaki: Takahiro, I think we should just focus on the fact that we just got engaged first. Plus Usagi doesn't like kids.

Usagi: (Gasps), that is so not true.

Misaki: Remember the last time we had to babysit Mahiro?

Usagi: I was nice to him.

Misaki: You're jealous of him because I had to watch him and couldn't hang out with you.

Usagi: If we had our own kids I wouldn't do that.

Misaki: I would need you to prove that first.

Aikawa: Wait, if you have kids can I be the surrogate?

Usagi: Sure!

Misaki: (Runs hands over face). Nobody's having kids! We just got engaged, and I still have to graduate.

Aikawa: And I have a date!

(They all look at her)

Aikawa: What?, I'm just trying to change the subject.

Misaki: Where are you going?

Aikawa: Um, I think IMI.

Usagi: Aw, That's where we always go. (Looks at Misaki with heart eyes). It can be expensive though.

Misaki: It's only expensive because you rent out the whole balcony!

Usagi: I just want us to have a nice time.

Misaki: I have a nice time when I'm with you no matter what.

Usagi: (Kisses Misaki's Knuckles), I know.

Misaki: (Grins), So you don't always have to try so hard love.

Usagi: I know, but I'm not done trying to impress you.

Misaki: (Blushes), Stop.

Rose: (walks in grinning with papers in her hand) Okay Akihiko, you are all set to go, someone will be up here with a wheelchair shortly to escort you out of the hospital so make sure you have all your stuff. I need to take your IVs out. (Walks over to Usagi and Unhooks everything attached to him). Okay, you're all set.

Usagi: YES I'M FREEEE (laughs)

Rose: (Nods and turns to Aikawa) And you, are you ready for our date?

Aikawa: Um, I can be I'm not dressed though, I know that place has a dress code.

Rose: That's okay, my place is close to here, you're about my size, we can change there.

Aikawa: (Blushes) Um, yeah sure. That works.

Rose: Okay, I have to go clock out, but i'll be back in about five minutes.

Aikawa: Yeah, O-okay.

Rose: (Winks at Aikawa and heads out)

Aikawa: (Rushes over to Misaki who is gathering Usagi's stuff.) Misaki, What do I! I'm so nervous I could puke, I've never been on a date before help me.

Misaki: We'll I'm glad you came to me, I know exactly what to do, I'm an expert.

Usagi: (Stifles a laugh).

Misaki: Don't listen to him. (Places Usagi's stuff in a bag).

Aikawa: No, I'm asking you because you were probably really nervous for your first date with Akihiko.

Miksai: Oh, yeah. I was.

Aikawa: And how did you handle it?

Misaki: (Blushes), Uh, Not very well if remember right.

Usagi: (stands up and walks over to Misaki wrapping his arms around him).

Misaki: Usagi, you should be resting.

Usagi: I've been resting enough, besides the doctor said I should be up and walking around. Aikawa, don't listen to him, yeah he was nervous on our first date, but he did fine.

Aikawa: What was it like?

Usagi: I picked him up from school.

Misaki: Embarrassing at the time, but super sweet looking back at it.

Usagi: We hung out at the beach, went to the movies, went shopping-

Misaki: He made me get a suit because of the dress code thing.

Usagi: He looked so cute in it because the suit was a little to big, but you know he always looks cute. (Kisses Misaki's Cheek).

Misaki: (Blushes) Usagi.

Usagi: It's true. Uh and then we went to dinner and that was really nice, except unfortunately that's where he met Isaka.

Misaki: Yeah, that was fun.

Aikawa: How did that go.

Usagi: He asked why I was dating Misaki after rejecting him many times. (scoffs)

Misaki: I didn't like that, it was embarrassing. He tried telling me stuff about Usagi's childhood like he knew I didn't know.

Usagi: Yea, it's okay we talked it on the ferris wheel.

Misaki: Yeah, it was beautiful.

Aikawa: Is that where the Idea for the ferris wheel scene came from?

Misaki: (Blushes) Kinda

Aikawa: So you!

Usagi: Not on the ferris wheel, at home.

Aikawa: Are you going to add an engagement to the series?

Usagi: No

Misaki: (Turns to face Usagi), Wait really?

Usagi: No, I feel like that would be way to personal.

Misaki: Usagi, (Reaches up, and brushes hair out of Usagi's eyes), You can write it if you want, only if you want to progress the fake story based on us along.

Usagi: (Grins) I'll think about it. But I already have four turned in.

Misaki: I know, I'm just letting you know that I'm okay with it.

Usagi: Thank you Misaki. (Leans down to kiss him.)

Misaki: (Pulls away) Usagi, I-

Usagi: (Smirks) Yeah, I know. We should get the rest of our things together.

Misaki: Yeah.

Takahiro: Um, do you guys need any help?

Misaki: No, you can go home.

Takahiro: Usagi-san?

Usagi: Go home, you have a family, we've been keeping you away from them long enough.

Takahiro: Are you sure?

Usagi: Yes, I have Misaki, I'm good..

Takahiro: Okay, see you Usagi-san, Misaki can I see you in the hall for a second?

Misaki: (Glaces at usagi) Uh, sure. (Follows Takahiro into the hall, leans against the wall). Whats up.

Takahiro: Look, Usag-

Misaki: Usagi can be stubborn? I know, He's fine. Go home to your family.

Takahiro: (Sighs), I'm having trouble letting go, my baby brother is growing up and has is own family.

Misaki: Yeah, Usagi's my family, and I have to take care of him, the doctor said it would only be about a week, he'll be okay, so if you don't mind, I have to go take care of my family, you should take care of yours. (Turns to leave).

Takahiro: Misaki, are we going to get pass this.

Misaki: (Turns head to face him) I don't know, you were the one who made me feel like crap the night we told you.

Takahiro: I- I don't remember that.

Misaki: I do, and i tried to forget, but you haven't made it easy.

(A few months ago, outside Takahiro's house. Usagi is holding Misaki's hand tightly, he can feel the nerves racing throughout his whole body).

Usagi: Misaki, we don't have to do this.

Misaki: We do, because I graduate in a few months, and if we don't tell him, I-I am afraid of what might happen if I have to move out.

Usagi: (Caresses Misaki's cheek) I'm never letting you go.

Misaki: (Smiles) I know, and I believe that our relationship is strong enough to get through anything, but I can't imagine not living with you. (Wraps his arms around Usagi).

Usagi: (Tightly holds Misaki) I know, I love you.

Misaki: (Tearly) I love you too.

Usagi: (Pulls away, wiping a tear away from Misaki's cheek), Okay, we need to composes ourselves and go in.

Misaki: (Nods), Yeah, you ready.

Usagi: Yep. (Knocks on door).

(After dinner the three of them sit on the couch sipping tea).

Misaki: So thanks for dinner.

Usagi: Yeah, it was great.

Takahiro: I'm glad you enjoyed, sorry Mahiro and Manami couldn't be here, she cooked dinner but then said something come up.

Usagi: Oh, that's okay, we actually have something we want to discusses.

Takahiro: (sighs, takes a sip of tea), I still think living together when Misaki graduates is a bad idea.

Misaki: I want to stay with him.

Takahiro: We had an agreement.

Misaki: I know, but I'm an adult, why can't I have say in this.

Takahiro: Why do you want to stay with him so badly?

Misaki: Because, (glaces at Usagi

who slightly nod), I- I- (Clears throat, starts to sweat), I'm in love with him, I love Usagi.

Takahiro: (Gasp, drops tea cup, it shatters). No, when did this happen? (Looks at Usagi), Do you know about this?

Usagi: (Looks at him like he's an idiot) Of course I know, I'm in love with him too. (Grabs Misaki's hand), Look Misaki and I have kinda been dating for four years.

Takahiro: WHAT! FOUR YEARS! FOUR FUCKING YEARS! HAVE YOU BEEN TAKING ADVANTAGE OF MY BABY BROTHER?! (slaps Usagi's face,Usagi flenches).

Misaki: Usagi! (Runs thumb across his face) WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU. usagi are you okay?

Usagi: (Nods), Yeah I'm okay.

Takahiro: HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO MY BROTHER?

Misaki: He didn't do anything to me, we're in love.

Takahiro: I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!

Usagi: Takahiro, calm down. It's not what you think.

Takahiro: WHAT I THINK IS, YOU'VE BEEN TAKING ADVANTAGE OF MY BROTHER FOR YEARS, AND HE'S SCARED AND HE DOESN'T REALLY LOVE YOU!

Miksai: (Gasps), How could you say that? You know how hard it is for me to open up and get close to somebody, and Usagi is the first person i've ever let me walls down too, let alone fallen in love with, and you think this is a big joke, or that it's fake? Do you have any idea how hard this was to tell you that i've fallen in love with your best friend? Do you know how long we've wanted to tell you but couldn't, we thought you would be shocked but we didn't know you would react like this. (Stands up, heads to door) I want to go home. Usagi?

Usagi: Yeah, we should go. (Stands) I- I am so, sorry, but I'm so in love with your brother. Misaki means everything to me, and I would never hurt him.

Misaki: Usagi!

Usagi: Coming!

(Present)

Takahiro: I don't remember that.

Misaki: Do you remember showing up at our house a few days later?

(A few months ago)

(Usagi and Misaki are at home on the couch watching TV, Misaki's head is resting in Usagi's lap, he's stroking Misaki's hair.

Misaki: Do you think he'll ever approve?

Usagi: I don't know, I'm sorry I ruined your relationship with him.

Misaki: (Scoffs) This was his fault, what about your relationship with him?

Usagi: As long as I have you, I don't care, I only want you Misaki.

(The doorbell rings, Usagi gets up to get it).

Usagi: Misaki, it's Takahiro, should I let him in?

Misaki: (Sighs) I think you should, we should probably talk.

(Takahiro enters, a gloomy aura surrounds him)

Takahiro: Can I talk to you guys?

(Misaki and Usagi sit on the couch nervously holding hands, Takahiro sits on the other couch, his arms crossed).

Misaki: Talk

Takahiro: I thought about it, I reacted awfully to you guys coming out to me, It must've been really hard.

Misaki: Yeah, it was.

Takahiro: I'm sorry for the way I acted, It's going to take some time for me to app- get used to this. I don't want this to ruin the relationship i have with you guys.

Misaki: It's going to take some time for me.

Usagi: Thank you for coming over, and telling us that.

Takahiro: Are we good?

Usagi: You accused me of forcing Misaki into this relationships.

Takahiro: We'll It's just I know how you can be.

Miskai: If i didn't want to be with him, I wouldn't be with him.

Usagi: He's right.

Takahiro: So this is an equal partnership?

Usagi, Misaki: Yes!

Takahiro: okay, we'll I am going to go, I still need time. Goodbye. (exits).

Misaki: He's never going to approve of us Usagi.

Usagi: (Pulls Misaki into a hug) Are you okay with that?

Misaki: I just want you.

Usagi: And I just want you.

(Present)

Takahiro: I'm okay with it now, or at least i'm starting to be.

Misaki: (leans against the wall). So tell me why you made such a big deal, why did you hate the idea of us being together?

Takahiro: I guess, the idea of you growing up scared me, and when I saw that you found someone who could take care of you that wasn't me it scared me, Plus Usagi-san is my best friend and he's dating my little brother, that kinda bugged me. But then the way he talked about you a few hours ago, I finally realized that he truly loves you, like he's crazy about you. I didn't understand before, Misaki you seem so happy, I've never seem you that way, not since before our parents died. I'm really happy you've found someone who you feel this way about, and that this person feels the same way about you, no wonder Usagi-san can deal with you living with him.

Misaki: He makes me so fucking happy Takahiro.

Takahiro: I know that now. I'm sorry I was such an asshole about it.

Misaki: (Sighs) I accept your apology. (Steps forward to hug Takahiro).

Takahiro: (Hugs Misaki) I love you bro

Misaki: I love you too.

Takahiro: Look, i'm going to go spend time with my family, you should go take care of yours.

Misaki: Okay.

Takahiro: And, call me when you guys get home, and if you need anything.

Misaki: I will, I promise.(Walks back into Usagi's room)

Aikawa: we'll everything is packed up. (Aikawa smiles at Misaki and hands him his phone).

Usagi: If the stupid wheelchair was here we could go. (He groans and spins around on the reclining chair).

Misaki: Are you sure you got everything?

Usagi: Yes

Misaki: Really?

Aikawa: Yes, but you can check if it makes you feel better.

Misaki: (Checks around room, finds Usagi's charger and laptop charger).

Aikawa: Okay so we missed two things.

Misaki: Two important things.

Rose: (Walks in, flushed) sorry guys, I had to take of something.

Aikawa: Oh, that's okay. Ready to go? (Grabs her stuff)

Rose: Yeah. the discharge Nurse should be here soon, (Grabs Aikawa's hand). I'll see you guys later.

Usagi: Bye, thank you so much.

Misaki: (singsong) Have funnnn.

Aikawa: Thanks.

(The two girls walk out hand in hand grinning and Blushing).

Usagi: So, I want to leave.

Misaki: Relax Usagi, we can leave soon.

Usagi: (Whining) I wanna leave nowwww

Misaki: (Rolls his eyes, Places hands on Usagi's shoulders) How old are you?

Usagi: I'm thirty-two

Misaki: Oh, so you're not a two year old.

Usagi: Shut up!

(Discharge nurse walks in with wheelchair)

DN: Alright, sorry about that, are we all set to leave?

Usagi: (Jumps up) Yes!

Misaki: Babe, be careful.

Usagi: Sorry, I'm just happy, we get to go home!

Misaki: (Rolls eyes, grabs his bag and Usagi's double checks room, grabs the keys and heads out the door).

(Rose Holds a sleeveless red dress up to herself in front of her full length mirror, Eri Aikawa Nervously sits on the bed watching her, they have both showered, and have put their hair up in messy buns, their makeup is done naturally and now they were picking out dresses, they wore robes while deciding what to wear).

Rose: What do you think?

Eri : Well, the red really brings out your hazel eyes, and your olive skin.

Rose: Sooo

Eri: (Chuckles) Go with the red.

Rose: Okay, now shoes?

Eri: (Hops off bed) Oh, I saw these black knee high boots in your closet, pick those.

Rose: Oh perfect.

(Eri walks into Rose's closet, grabs the boots and hands them to her, Rose grabs them, takes off her robe revealing a matching lacy black lingerie set, Eri blushes).

Rose: Oh, I hope it's okay that I change front of you.

Eri: Oh (Blushes harder) Yeah no, it's fine.

Rose: (steps into dress) Hey, can you zip me up?

Eri: OH! Yeah sure. (Walks over to Rose and zips up her dress, her skin is warm, and flawless. Rose is stunning).

Rose: Eri?

Eri: Yeah?

Rose: (Smirks) Is everything okay?

Eri: Oh, (Takes hands off Rose's back) Yeah, sorry.

Rose: Okay, now for you, I think a blue dress.

Eri: Why?

Rose: (Brings hand up to Eri's face, runs thumb under her eye). You have these beautiful, grey blue eyes, a blue dress will really make them pop. I have the perfect dress. (Smiles, walks around Eri and goes into closet pulling out a high-low navy blue dress, it was sleeveless, and sparked. she looked around and found ankle high laced peep toe boots with a chunky heel.) Perfect. (She walked out of the closet, grinning) Okay, this will look perfect on you.

Eri: (Blushes, eyes wided) Uh, I don't think so.

Rose: Yes, take your robe off.

Eri: No, I don't have pretty underwear sets like you.

Rose: (Laughs) Eri, who cares, (Whispers) It's just us here, You're beautiful.

Eri: O-O-Okay. (Slides Robe off, revleing a black push-up bra and matching panties, Blushes).

Rose: See, You're Beautiful. Now, but this dress on. (Tosses dress at Eri).

Eri: Are you sure.

Rose: Eri, babe you are amazing, put it on now, or I will force it on you.

Eri: (Eyes grow wide) Okay, god. (Pulls dress on).

Rose: Here, i'll zip you up.

Eri: Okay.

Rose: (Jumps over to Eri, zips up her dress, placing hands on her shoulders) Look, (Turns her towards the mirror) You're a babe.

Eri: I do look good.

Rose: Yeah! see.

Eri: (Looks at phone, its seven-thirty) Crap, we need to put our shoes on and get out of here, don't we have reservations at eight?

Rose: Yeah, come on. (They pull their boots on and head out the door).

(Misaki and Usagi walk into their house, Misaki helping Usagi to the couch, he’d gotten sleepy on the ride home and Hardly made it up to their home).

Misaki: okay, just rest for a little while, and we can eat later.

Usagi: will you lay down with me?

Misaki: yeah?

Usagi: please, I know we weren’t in the hospital long, but I miss holding you in my arms.

Misaki: (smirks) yeah, but no funny business, your doctor said no sex for two weeks.

Usagi: I know, I know. I just want to cuddle.

Misaki: okay. (Grabs cover, walks over to Usagi and falls into his arms).

Usagi:(places chin on Misaki’s head, wraps arms tightly around him), this is nice.

Misaki: (wraps arms around Usagi’s arms, lacing his fingers through his). Yeah it is, I really missed being wrapped in your arms.

Usagi: I missed this too. (Yawns)

Misaki: (smiles and Closes his eyes, he was exhausted as well but wanted to make sure Usagi was okay, but he could tell by Usagi’s steady breathing that he was sleeping). *thinking* I wonder how Aikawa is doing on her date?

(Rose and Eri sit on the balcony overlooking the city of Tokyo, it was a beautiful evening and they were both filled with nerves, although Rose was better at hiding it).

Eri: Wow, it's so pretty here, this is the spot where Misaki and Akihiko always sit, although Akihiko always rents out this whole space, Misaki always complains, but I think he secretly likes it... what do you think we should eat? I was thinking we could share the grilled fish and sake? Or the steak and sake...

Rose: Eri,(Places hand on hers, causing her breath to slow), Relax, it's going to be okay. And the grilled fish sounds awesome.

Eri: Sorry, I don't know why i'm so nervous.

Rose: It's okay, so am I, i'm just really good at hiding it.

Eri: (Smirks)

(Waiter comes over and takes their order of grilled fish, with veggies and sake).

Rose: So, it seems like you really care about Akihiko and Misaki?

Eri: Yeah, they're like my best friends in the world, I love them, they're the closest thing to family I have.

Rose: What about your parents?

Eri: Eh, they I'm not really close with them?

Rose: What happened?

Eri: (Shrugs) We just had a falling out, they wouldn't help pay for university, they thought I should stay home and be a housewife, they had my future all planned out, down to an arranged marriage and I didn't want that.

Rose: I'm really sorry.

Eri: It is what it is, even though Akihiko drives me insane, especially when he doesn't meet his deadlines like his suppose to, he's always been there for me, and Misaki has been really good for Him, Isaka wants Misaki to be like Akihiko's assistant or whatever.

Rose: Won't that be a conflict of interest?

Eri: Akihiko is at his best when Misaki is around, we figure, the more Misaki is helping him the more books he can get out, plus there was this mangaka who really wanted Misaki, but we had to let him go, he was making them uncomfortable.

Rose: How?

Eri: Uh, stalking Misaki, he's completely in love with him and no matter how many times he turned him down he wouldn't listen, so we had to let him go, but turns out he had a better job offer at another company anyway, so i guess we did him a favor.

Rose: Misaki and Akihiko, are they okay?

Eri: Yeah, they've been through a lot but they always come out stronger.

Rose: Akihiko has to tell the public soon right, about him in Misaki?

Eri: That's what he wants.

(The waiter brings out their food, it looks amazing, they eat it and talk some more getting to know each other, Eri walks Rose back home, she ends up staying the night, they don't have sex, but fall asleep in each other's arms as quickly as they start falling in love.

[recoverymatters]

(tagging with 🌹)Hi... I don't know where to start. Um, I don't really have anyone in my life. My parents are abusive, I don't really have friends. My sibling has a family and kids and is busy and far. I feel really dysphoric all the time and I wish I could be out as a trans guy but I'm afraid I'll get kicked out from my parents' house. I'm 20 and I still feel like a kid. I've been hearing it gets better for so long and I'm just so tired.

(ask continued) I don’t feel suicidal anymore and I haven’t self-harmed in 4 or so years but every time my mother yells at me I get the urge again. I wanna get into fights again. I just feel so useless. Anxious and dysphoric and depressed all the time. Knowing I’ll never make it as an actor because I don’t pass as male. No motivation to do anything. Scared of getting anything less than an A. I’m an honours student but all my works are late now and I get anxiety about it all. I feel like such a damn mess.

Hi lovely, 

Thank you for reaching out to me! 

I am so sorry you don’t have anyone in your life right now that you can trust, rely on or receive support from. Life is hard enough, let alone without anybody by your side. Please know that you are not alone. You have me and a fantastic, accepting community here on Tumblr who all care about you and are all rooting for you. You will never be alone in this universe, we are all on your side. 

It’s very hard when you have a sibling that lives far away and is busy a lot of the time. I wonder if you would be able to arrange a skype call or facetime call with your sibling? It’s not easy, however, even a 10-minute call or text with them can make a world of difference. You never know, it may re-kindle that sibling bond and help you both to maintain that relationship. 

No wonder you’re feeling dysphoric and exhausted all of the time. You live in an environment with people that aren’t accepting of who you are. That is not your fault. I promise, there is nothing wrong with being who you are. You are perfect, irreplaceable and valuable. I am very sorry that you are not able to come out as a trans guy without feeling afraid of being kicked out of your parent’s house. That is a difficult situation to be in and I understand your concerns. Whilst I want you to be able to come out and feel free to be exactly who you are, you need to do what is best for you right now. Which may mean waiting a few years to come out when you are in a safe and secure environment to reduce the risk of being kicked out and having nowhere to live. Your safety is a priority. You say your parents are abusive, if you ever feel that you are at risk, please please please reach out. Reach out to a teacher, colleague, doctor or other trusted person who can direct you to the right support and even help you to find a safe place to live. Again, this is very tough. But, living with abusive parents is not good for your health and wellbeing and I want you to be around people who lift you up, support you and care for you. 

Feeling like a kid is very common, I promise you. I feel this a lot too. This world can be a tough and scary place to live in and the ample responsibility that comes with being an adult can be too hard to bear sometimes. It can be us feel like we’re children in a big, scary adult world. It’s hard to have everything figured out and to know what to do, but honestly, it’s okay. It’s okay not to have everything figured out or in place yet, to not know where you’re going in life. It’s hard, it’s scary, you may still feel like a kid sometimes, but you’ll get there. Step by step.  

I won’t tell you it gets better, but, it gets easier. There are days when you’re gonna think to yourself, yes, I’ve dealt with this before. I CAN cope and I will get through. 

Well done for not self-harming in 4 years. That is truly, truly amazing and I am so proud of you!! ❤️I have just answered a question based on self-harm alternatives. Please check this out and whenever your mother yells please have a look at the alternative and fight the urge to self-harm. You have done amazingly well and I want you to know that whenever you feel low or your mother does yell, it doesn’t mean that you aren’t loved or aren’t appreciated in this world. I appreciate you and I commend you for staying so strong for so long. 

If you start to experience suicidal thoughts again, please go to your local emergency department or A&E. Reach out to a suicide hotline, speak to me, speak to an online counseller such as 7cups. Use the StayAlive app. Please don’t struggle on your own, you deserve to be alive and well. 

I know its hard, but getting back into fights is not going to do you any good. It may be useful for you to express your feelings differently instead of getting into fights. Such as a boxing class, running, swimming, karate, art or dancing. These are a safer alternative to fighting and can help you to release some of the strong emotions you’re feeling. 

Useless you may feel, useless you are not. There are things that you do every day to help yourself, to help others, to help this earth that you may not even realise. You’re an honours student who is working his butt off and trying his best to get through considering all of these circumstances, how amazing is that?

Anxiety, dysphoria and depression are all signs you may be experiencing difficulties with your mental health and it might help to get some therapy, counselling or medication to help you with that. It may not be a cure or help completely, but it might help you to focus better, feel a little more relaxed and it would be great for you to have someone to talk to.

When you’re dealing with these things all of the time it can be hard for you to do daily tasks and make it more difficult for you to concentrate. So, please DO NOT blame yourself for your works being late. You cannot manage so many things all at once and you are not any less of a person because of this. Getting A’s does not define who you are and getting any less does not mean you’re not an incredibly talented and smart student. It means that the exam/education systems put so much pressure on young people these days that they feel getting any less than an A is a failure. It isn’t. Your grades do not define you. Please try and not be so hard on yourself. If you get a B that’s great! If you get a C that’s amazing! If you get a D, E, F, G, that’s fine too! YOU and your health are far more important. 

Your motivation will come back, it won’t always be this hard. Please hold on.

Please do not ever give up on your dreams. YOU CAN MAKE IT AS AN ACTOR. You may not get there on your first try, heck, you may not get there on your 10th. DO NOT GIVE UP. Being a trans male does not mean that you can never make it as an actor. You know why? Because your talent and your skills are not any less than that of a ‘regular actor’. There are people out there who do discriminate and do not understand. Screw them. You keep trying until you find the people who are accepting and are thrilled to have you on board. Becuase they are out there,  and they are just waiting for you to stand up and show who you are and provide the world with your talent, your amazing gift and your light. 

Some transgender actors who are absolutely rocking it right now and showing the world that it doesn’t matter who or what you are, YOU ARE JUST AS TALENTED AS ANYONE ELSE AND DESERVE THE CHANCE AND OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE IT AS AN ACTOR:

1. Daniela Vega

2. Harmony Santana

3. Alexandra Billings

4. Trace Lysette

5. Ian Harvie

6. Brian Michael Smith

7. Laverne Cox

8. Elliot Fletcher 

9. Indya Moore 

10. Mya Taylor 

Please believe in yourself and your dreams. YOU CAN DO IT. I promise you. Never give up on who you are and everything you want to achieve. Don’t let anyone ever tell you that it isn’t possible or you cannot do it. 

You’re going to message me in 10 years and say. I MADE IT. I made it. I faced the judgement, I faced the hardship and I still followed my dreams and I have made it. I am a successful actor who made it through and is now inspiring others to come out and share their story. 

I believe in you.

Here are some links that may help you:

http://www.allabouttrans.org.uk/support-organisations/

https://www.lgbthealth.org.uk/services-support/transition-support/

https://www.transgender.support/

https://www.stonewall.org.uk/our-work/campaigns/come-out-trans-equality

https://www.7cups.com/

You are never alone, keep fighting. You’re brave, your courageous and you’re going to make it. I promise you.

I wish you all the best that the world can offer you. You deserve so much happiness, love and magic. 

All the best 🌟

Thanks 

RecoveryMatters 

[md-admissions]

I'm a first year med student and I'm so scared that I'm likely at the bottom of my class. So scared the admins look down on me for doing below average on the exams. So afraid to speak up out of low confidence in the knowledge I'm learning. Have you felt this fear before? How'd you get through it? My therapist says to put myself in the confident mindset but I don't think I know what that looks like. I value your blog and would love to hear anything you have to say. Thank you.

Hi there anon!

Oh yeah, I’ve totally felt that fear. I’d say probably most of us, if not all of us, have had that moment. Moments, to be honest. 

I would say that first and foremost, it’s okay to have doubts and unease about the confidence you have in your knowledge. Medicine is a profession of lifelong learning, which makes it interesting, overwhelming, fascinating, bewildering, and MASSIVE. That’s why we learn the same things over and over and over, on clerkships, in residency, as fellows and attendings. That’s why we get re-certified every few years. You’re not gonna learn too many new things after med school. You’re going to refine and relearn things you only started to grasp in med school when you are in residency. That does a LOT for confidence, let me tell you. 

You are not alone. For example, check out a question from another person here! Confidence is something we cultivate throughout our life, and we do it in our own ways. Maybe it’s just telling yourself in the morning you’re going to be okay. Maybe it’s a sudden realization when you’re teaching a med student a subject that, only three years ago, you barely understood and had you crying in public (yeah, that oddly specific example is about me. I’m the crying one. The subject was hyponatremia, if I recall.). Maybe it’s faking it til you make it. Surround yourself with people who are gonna support you. Your med school classmates know what you’re going through. Support each other through it, applaud each other for your successes great and small! Regardless of the way you do it, confidence is grown slowly, cultivated in small batches daily (or not), and sometimes you gotta scrap it and restart. And there’s nothing wrong with that. 

In regards to being the bottom of your class, the person at the bottom of the class who passes still gets an MD. Not to make light of your situation. But to just reframe the situation. Bottom of the barrel in med school is still something. Being a physician is more than grades, and (perhaps one of the biggest struggles in med school) your progress and growth should be measured against your former self, not compared to others. Either said than done. It took me a long time to learn that lesson, and sometimes I have to remind myself of it. 

In regards to admins, they are not really looking at the micro level of each and every test. This is very different from high school and undergrad where a lot of little details count. Med school is about big picture, grabbing key points, getting the gestalt of things. That’s one thing that really helped me relax and learn for the sake of learning. 

Hope that is a starting point!

md-a

[mddlpth]

Vikas Jha, the human dung.

If you are acquainted with this excrement called Vikas Jha, I think, unknown to you, your life is a little tarnished. This bastard has been relentlessly pursuing my wife of a decade, with whom I have a child, for many years now. Read on.

2009 (Second year of marriage)

It started right at the time of my marriage, when my newly wedded wife and this garbage were preparing for their MBA entrance exams together. The garbage was apparently a “mentor”, and they both gave away very little to arouse any suspicion. At this time, I was in the US, and my wife was in India. Maybe that helped too.

Here is a filthy, flirty conversation from 2009, where my wife is planning to visit him in Delhi, on her way to a “pilgrimage”, while intentionally keeping me completely in the dark.

From: get2vikasjha@gmail.com <get2vikasjha@gmail.com> Date: Saturday, March 28, 2009 10:33 AM me: havent slept VJ: u or me? am here … 10:35 AM VJ: dont sleep so soon me: y? what do i do VJ: aise hi. who will talk to me late nite then? me: god stop it yaar VJ: haha, isme stop it kya hua? matlab hum ab sirf serious rahe tumse :P:P … VJ: arreeeeeeee ruko btw my sister is awaiting u me: all preparation for me to come kya VJ: haha

They even had plans to visit the Taj Mahal together! A newlywed and her paramour.

Date: Wednesday, April 1, 2009

me: both my tickets are booked. to and fro VJ: i think u will be too tired to roam in delhi. maybe we can just have dinner…and sleep me: i dunno. lets see if I am alive. agra plans tho cancelled only VJ: yes. u cancelled it. u dont trust me and trust urself toooooooooo. so i dont want to force 2:00 AM me: ok

Barely a year into our marriage, they hatched plans together on how to discourage me from asking her any “personal” questions, so she could continue on guilt free.

Date: Thursday, April 2, 2009

VJ: xxxx (husband's nickname) ok with ur trip now? me: haan VJ: how do u do that? me: does he have a choice;) VJ: haha VJ: no as in happy happy or sad happy? me: as in ok ok. neither happy nor sad as if it makes a difference to him. but he is fine with me now i advised him ;) like that way u did. thanks for ur advice …it helped control my temper VJ: :) what did u advise him? me: to be patient n make the reln work VJ: jajaja see who is ur best friend? ME ME ME ME ME ME me: hmm

The dung started entering into more aspects of our marriage. After almost 2 years living separately, I was trying to convince my wife to pick a nearby college for her MBA in the US so we could finally be together. In reality, she had applied to, and had an admit at a slightly higher ranked school far away, meaning two more years of long distance for us. She and the dung were scheming behind my back for the best way to break this great news to me, while also forcefully convince me to accept their choice.

I was doing everything I could to reason with her on the importance of this decision, how living away was taking its toll and why she refused to see my viewpoint. In return, she and her family accused me of being narrow minded, jealous, anti feminist, working against her bright career and acting under the decree of my extended family, abusing everybody from my parents to siblings to grandparents with the choicest of words. I weathered through all those, but what broke my heart was when I realized she was working with the muck, the “mentor”, to force me to bend to their decision. Though at the time I had no clue about their affair, learning your wife was taking the help of some random guy to get her way was so painful that I immediately gave up and agreed to whatever she said. Looking back, this might have been a turning point in our relationship.

Here’s a chat of the two, joyously celebrating their surprisingly easy “victory” over me.

Date: Thursday, April 9, 2009

me: hey u know what ? i told xxxx (husband's nickname) VJ: and he is ready? me: yes! VJ: hahahahaha hahahaha me: i cant blv it me: his first reaction was “wow..superb!”: VJ: congrats me: he said i must take this opportunity VJ: hahaha me: he is even ready to pay enrollment deposit VJ: what has happened to him? hahaha hahaha me: i dunno :( i m quite shocked. i thot he will fight VJ: so am I me: he said i can come over weekends, also later he might shift, he might hunt for another job, or try for transfer VJ: HAHAHAHA  achanak? me: !!! yaaa. i cant blv it actually. cant expect such reactions from him VJ: dont wait for a moment. pay the deposit today. and cancel davis immediately. me: haha VJ: okies. will be back. 2 min. going to loo me: very happy! :D VJ: :) i can make out :) me: i still cant blv he said that. i dunno what made him change so much VJ: yes. im shocked. :P:P me: haan i thought he will fight a lot. u know what. from yesterday i m making sad face. he kept asking me y u r sad. i dint tell. finally told :) me: i want to re-confirm. not sure if he really said it VJ: haha me: he told me to use this credit card to pay VJ: haha!!! this is toooo much. too many goodies in one day.haaha me: now i m ready to cook anything on that show. anything MIL says i am ready. VJ: jaja me: haha

Meanwhile, they happily continued their shameless late night flirting, while also planning their date in Delhi.

VJ: hola whats up. i was just planning for ur delhi trip do u want to do shopping? me: oh. i will do it the day i reach. whole day i have time VJ: do u like street food ? we will go to chandni chowk thne me: then what else ? agra dropped lol VJ: haha. im still ready. if u r :) me: after tht converstaion?!! VJ: okies that conversation was not good. but we learnt few things na ... 2:23 AM VJ: itna neend aata hai to kaun bolta hai mera saath flirt karo raat me :P:P me: hmm VJ: i thought ur response : GO I WONT FLIRT. u r unpredictable me: ;) VJ: go u r bsy. i wont talk. me: thats my speciality na VJ: haha. manao bhai humko :P:P u r like a guy. am like a girl me: hmm karo na VJ: kya? me: manao mujhe VJ: hahaha. saamne ne manuanga na. when u come :) me: ahaa flirt flirt VJ: who me or u? or both. to ab mere flirting se bhi bored? me: no i sometimes wonder where my life is going. i m so confused yaar ... VJ: hi me: wassup VJ: waitiing 4 u ::) me: aha VJ: just because i give u bhav u never give me bhav :( me: sleeping VJ: :( buuuuuuuuuuuuu me: dint sleep na yesterday. idiot (husband) kept bothering me VJ: addicted to ur calls now :( VJ: i devote so much time to u me: u dont have to VJ: haha ... VJ: i will be so embarassed to meet u. after the stupid talk we had day before :( me: hmm. i wud have anyways felt even otherwise

And meet they did, after all!

No guilt, no shame, no fear.

What all happened ? I will tell you in a little while, in their own words.

Meanwhile, read on.

This scumbag was also in a relationship with another “girl friend”, at the same time.

Who knows how many more were there.

My wife finally shifted to the US, to the school of her choice. But the illicit sewage followed. Now she would handle not one, but two long distances. In the name of innocent words like career development, MBA, entrepreneurship, mentorship, professional networking and many others, they carried on their merriment. Here is a sample of how they addressed each other, in an email about “Job Opportunities”.

From: Vikas Jha <get2vikasjha@gmail.com> Date: Wednesday, November 11, 2009 Subject: Job Oppurtunities

Hey dear,

Check attachements. let me know if its helpfull

As ever, Vikki

2010

Tue, Feb 23, 2010 at 11:32 PM

Even though you have background in XXX, I would suggest you to take these two things. … Lots of Love, Vikki

They freely exchanged pictures, emails, texts, messages and phone calls.

Date: Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Subject: NEW ME :)

TAKE A LOOK ------------------

Date: Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Subject: hey To: VJ

hey..saw ur snaps on orkut..awesome snaps! u look smart ;) rest later..call me when free (xxx)xxx xxxx

Date: Tuesday, June 26, 2012 Subject: Fwd: Look I have lost more weight :)

They exchanged their legal “couple” pics too, as though proud of the fact that they were doing all this so successfully behind their partners’ backs.

From: Vikas Jha Date: 2008/12/30 Subject: From Vikki

I am sure when u look at this pic, you will say how bfull couple we are. U never asked but i cudnt stop from sending u Lots of Love Viki

Not just emails, they also made plans to meet in the US. Alone.

On 24-Feb-2010, at 8:34 AM, XXX XXX wrote:

Cool. when are u coming btw? whats happening with you? I get a week off (spring break) in March. Will enjoy then.

---------------------------------------- From: Vikas Jha <get2vikasjha@gmail.com> Date: Tuesday, February 24, 2010 Subject: Good news!

I will come in April. Lots of things happening. Going to London Business School 2mrw. Arranging big business Plan competition in June. ... thats for now…getting late for school. will mail u more from class

2011

If the urge didn’t come from there, it went from here.

Date: Thu, 14 Apr 2011 14:11:15 -0700 To: Vikas Jha<get2vikasjha@gmail.com> Subject: Re: Viki..pls do this survey for me..where ru btw?

thanks Viki. when r u free? i want to talk to u ..it has been so long..u have forgotten me. ---------------------

<get2vikasjha@gmail.com> wrote: See u went gayab yday again N then u say I have for gotten u !! ---------------------

online aana ab im free now..u dont care for me!!!!! call kar na aaj..baat karna hai tujse ---------------------

<get2vikasjha@gmail.com> wrote: Ok. Give me some time and stop saying that. I care a lot !! Comeover !! U r safe don't worry !!!!!!!

2012

Of course they met in India too, whenever she was on vacation.

On Mon, Dec 10, 2012 at 12:32 PM, Vikas Jha <get2vikasjha@gmail.com> wrote: Cant reach u on chat ! call me on 09693255535 V

---------------------- On Tue, Dec 11, 2012 at 8:43 AM:

Hey Vikas..I tried calling you today. Landed in XXXX yesterday. I will get a phone number in couple of days - will send it over then. Wassup with you? What times are you usually available? Look forward to our chat :)

-X

Conversations like these preceding the trip.

VJ: For all this advise i need to be paid me: Haha ok. Talk tonight VJ: Wht will i b paid ? me: Gosh, Seriously??? me: No $ only kind :p VJ: Ooh, That makes it even more interesting :) me: Sigh VJ: Miss our kiss! Damn it ! me: Despo, U were prim n proper when we met. Rather u were forced to VJ: :). Next time u come. I wont let u go !

This is him wooing her to his place over a weekend, so he can cook dinner and talk long into the night about “career n business”.

me: Ok let’s talk more while I am therr me: Need to pack for my flight that is in few hours VJ: Will come bk on 6th. So after that only we can meet VJ: Btw dinner date ? I can cook for u ! me: Sure VJ: :) Look forward ! me: I am in bangalore VJ: ;) Am bk in town today. Want to catch up ? me: Hmm..probably 6 7 ish. Mg road ? VJ: I thought we cud meet at my place VJ: Weekdays are tight. Wont b able to spend time n talk long. Want to talk abt career n business

Among other things, they got a kick out of fantasizing themselves in movies they could relate to. One was about a marriage between 2 different cultures, “north vs. south”, much like how it would have been if she had married the scum.

2 States (2014) Directed by Abhishek Varman. With Arjun Kapoor, Alia Bhatt, Amrita Singh, Revathy. How Chetan met his wife and the…www.imdb.com

The other was about a man and a woman, both unhappily married to others, having a life long secret affair with each other, meeting on the same weekend each year.

Same Time, Next Year (1978) Directed by Robert Mulligan. With Alan Alda, Ellen Burstyn, Ivan Bonar, Bernie Kuby. A man and woman meet by chance at…www.imdb.com

At first, my wife branded the filth a career “mentor”. The moment the mentorship extends beyond very clear cut boundaries, that title is stripped and replaced with something far lower on the moral ladder. As my wife continued to discuss all things, career, marital, business etc. with it, filth found more ways to drive a wedge between them. Here is a conversation where the filth asks her to quit her marriage and settle back in India. Of course, it does not have the will or the guts to take her hand, especially with a child.

... me: I am very lonely here me: I want to get out of this marriage. Affecting my health Body n mind VJ: I can imagine. Everything gets affected. Becomes so difficult me: Marital life sucks too VJ: U shud think abt it. Moving back. Atleast hv parents n family around. There u r all alone. ...

Here is another conversation where the wife is “battered” that she cannot choose the scum for “life, or work”, because of her husband.

Very often, the conversations toyed around sex. Here’s one, for a New Year’s wish! When I saw this the first time, I went numb.

Here’s a plan for a “weekend of love making”.

Below is my wife, chatting in the middle of the night, making it abundantly clear the only reason she is hanging on to the marriage is for the sake of our kid, and for all the love, lust and affection, she will be leaning on the filth for fulfillment. In fact, this seemed like a great arrangement for both, since neither wanted to make their relationship official, nor did they want to break it off, but lead two separate lives, public and private.

They threw sweet somethings at each other all the time. Of course no topic was taboo to discuss, including eating pussy and getting wet in bed. The filth is absolutely certain that he should have replaced me in her life, and my wife is only too happy to provide compelling justifications for it!

And finally, here they are indulging in an enjoyable recollection of their drunken tryst in Delhi almost a decade ago! As promised, I will tell you what happened, in their own words.

Which red salwar suit, you ask ?

Not just the filth, but his entire family seems to want to jump on my wife! Here is a disgustingly similar flirt with his brother, whose only purpose in life seems to be to keep my wife laughing ! Late nights or early mornings, his eyes and ears are always at her disposal. And of course, my wife is only too happy to bash not just her work, but also her marriage with this manure.

If only this scum would show such eagerness to his own wife and kids, and stop right there.

Given all this, the question comes around to my response. Initially, for a very long time, I had no clue something was wrong. Even though my wife refused to make our marriage a priority, she continued to express her strong, unwavering love and affection towards me, and the difficulty of staying apart bearing down on her. They were so good at covering up, that even when I met the scum one time, they gave nothing away. But one day, I came across something that made me shudder. Suddenly, all her odd behaviors of secretively chatting on the phone late into the night, never picking up calls when I was around, and securing everything with multiple levels of passwords, that I had dismissed as quite harmless to me, seemed extremely suspicious. With only scraps of information from here and there, I painfully put the pieces of the puzzle together.

When I confronted her, her response was expectedly total denial. In return, she accused me of spying, “breaking trust”, and exhibiting my “narrow mindedness” and “insecurity” at her success. She in fact said I was “acting like a woman”. From there, she diverted the fights to unrelated topics, giving her familiar fodder to abuse me and my family. While this was going on, she obviously got way more careful with her trail, deleting chat records, changing passwords, clearing call logs, erasing emails and completely resetting devices to remove any trace.

When I was sufficiently convinced something was up, I even took the matter to her family, who were the only people she listened to. Of course they stood solidly behind her, without an iota of doubt about her character. More disappointedly, her mother sermoned there was nothing wrong in having a close knit relationship with anyone one was comfortable with, even the opposite gender. I don’t know in what context it was stated, but it seemed she was virtually giving her stamp of approval for her daughter’s behavior.

At first, it made my head reel in shock. I spent several weeks in confusion, pain and denial. I tried to stop myself from probing further, and really wished all this was not happening. As one more instance after another came to light and tore me apart, the agony and depression became unbearable. As I stumbled upon them, my hands would tremble, stomach would crunch and my head would feel dizzy. My heart would skip a beat every time I re-read the messages, trying to make sure I didn’t get them wrong. I have cried my eyes out in private, and consoled myself with pretty much nothing. Thinking about it, I have dangerously changed lanes on freeways, and lost track of what I was doing more than once, just because the pain was so terrible I would lose my senses for a while. On the one hand, I wanted to end it right there based on what I knew so far, and on the other, I wanted to find out the complete story, however hard or long it might take, before quitting. Our relationship strained lower, arguments got longer, fights got uglier, to the point where it was extremely difficult even to cohabit.